#i just. idk i think we'd balance each other so well...... IDK...... i just like him so much

[bangcakes]

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[sophieinwonderland]

Speaking of how people refuse to engage with "traumagenic" as an umbrella term, it repeatedly baffles me whenever I try to start conversations on the ways different traumas can affect a system, or just coin terms for specific traumagenic origins because our system finds them useful, and I'll get pushback from both pro-endos and anti-endos alike. Like, excuse me? I'm trying to have a productive discussion on trauma and healing here. Why are you so afraid to acknowledge that trauma can be diverse and more specific resources may be needed sometimes? My headmates who came from the trauma of a lack of accomodations for our disabilities have a very different relationship with our plurality and trauma than my headmates who came from not being believed about our pain or my headmates who came from being bullied or my headmates who came from financial stress. All of it is trauma, but it's not all the same, and each of us needs different things. Different resources, different methods of recovery, different words for what we went through. And it's a core part of our recovery that we need to balance all these different traumas and origins; if we just went about some sort of "one size fits all" treatment (which it feels like people expect us to go through), we'd end up in a much worse situation than if we carefully unraveled each trauma as its own thing.

I think it has to do with all the expectations around trauma that can be seen in DID spaces, especially when it comes to what trauma can cause a system to form. There's still ideas floating around over there that only specific physical and sexual abuse is "bad enough" to cause DID, and there are lots of posts that act as though everyone with DID went through the same exact traumas, eg. I remember seeing a fair amount of "this is what DID is really like" memes that include sexual abuse as if everyone with DID has suffered from it. And because it's expected that we all went through the same things and have the same process of recovery, well, there's no need to elaborate any more on our origins, right? Just say "traumagenic" and everyone has a specific picture in their mind of what you went through. It never occurs to them that being more specific might be necessary or at least helpful (even when they claim that just about anything can be trauma – which, yeah, maybe just about anything could be, but if that's so, why are you against people coining terms to find others who have gone through their niche traumas, so they can trade stories and tips on how to get better?). Add that to the claim that other forms of trauma or abuse aren't "bad enough" to cause DID, and, well... Any effect other traumas may have on a system, even if they're not considered part of that system's origin, get brushed off to the side or only vaguely acknowledged. It's better than how it used to be, but I still see this subtle attitude here and there.

I feel like I'm rambling at this point but as one specific example, we have headmates who specifically help us with eating enough, because our trauma involves food issues and a possible eating disorder. Despite these headmates likely qualifying as traumagenic or at least caregivers to traumagenic headmates, there's not much room for them in the traumagenic community, and I've seen lots of backlash for specific terms for them because... idk, I guess some people don't want to acknowledge that eating disorders or general food issues can be traumatic enough to cause systems or new headmates. Or they think any mention of such things, even in spaces specifically meant to discuss trauma, means we're "glorifying" the shit we went/go through. It's frustrating. I just want tips from other systems on how to help these kids eat more when our amnesia means I don't know why we dissociate at family dinners or what foods are safe to eat. Calling ourselves just "traumagenic" isn't going to connect us with the systems who can help with that (and before anyone says anything, neither is just going into spaces for food issues – most of the people there are singlets who don't have any idea what to do about our situation!).

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[flyingsquirrely]

Sins of the Father

WHAT a quest!! I've already played through the Myreque questline in RS3, but I really enjoyed the OSRS take on this quest. (spoilers for the Myreque/Vampyre questline in both OSRS and RS3 below the readmore)

I think it has my favorite characterization of the Player Character out of all the OSRS quests I've played so far. Normally, PC personality ends up either very reactive (they sort of blandly respond to the situation at hand) or going to uhhh extremes (Lunar Diplomacy pirate ship scene, my beloathed), but this quest found a nice balance where the PC is perhaps a bit too jokey in the face of darkness and danger, but it feels like a purposeful response to stress by lightening the mood, rather than obnoxious as it sometimes falls in other quests. It's more like a part of their personality, rather than the devs just throwing something in because they think it's funny or want to make a reference. Subjectively, I found this character much closer to how I imagine my PC (ik ik, that's not universal, hence subjectively). Also, it fits with the other quest characters, where Safalaan has a similar sense of humor and the PC's lightheartedness helps him deal with all of the unpleasant personal realizations he goes through during the quest.

Speaking of my guy Safalaan, loved his characterization as well, and his growing friendship with the PC. The conversations they have in the lab and before the final boss while looking over the drowned ruins of (presumably) the Everlight: 👌👌. They just felt so satisfying! We get to share our fears and stuff! I felt good feels! Good characterization!

Vanescula was a queen, as always, and Ivan felt more like a Real Boy in this iteration of the questline than in the RS3 version. Loved the team banter and the wary enemy-mine relationship between the Myreque and Vanescula. I thought that the tension between Veliaf, Safalaan, and Vanescula was really well done, and how each of the minor Myreque members have their own unique opinions and reasoning about the plan and Vanescula herself.

Also, I think this is unintentionally comedic, but I love that you can go up to the Vyrewatch in full combat kit + weapons specifically meant for killing vampyres, with which you have already killed a powerful vampyre and say "Send me to the mines!" and they just think you're really weird and do it. Like, the fight with Ranis was not private, there was an entire crowd there. Zero braincells on those guys.

There isn't much player dialogue choice in it (you know, the ones where the dialogue choice doesn't do anything mechanically, but results in some branching dialogue where the NPC's dialogue reacts to the PC's personality), but I did like the one where you can choose whether or not to call Veliaf out on his callousness towards Slepe because there are a bunch of Zamorakians there. I don't play my PC as Zamorakian, but they are Guthixian and they don't hate Zamorakians by default, so it was nice to be able to play into that.

I do wish we'd gotten a little more resolution about Slepe. I know there's more stuff going on there with an underground boss and stuff that I haven't done yet, but I think it could have used a quest of its own or maybe a short/medium follow-up.

(We won't talk about the month of Slayer grinding I had to do before I could kill Vanstrom. He hurts, and I am not an experienced PvMer.)

I think my hope for the finale of this questline (idk if we'll be getting one or two more quests in this series, it could go either way honestly), is that it does a couple of things:

Lord Drakan as the final final boss. tbh I found River of Blood (RS3) to be kind of an awkward finale, because Drakan is built up to be this terrible, extremely powerful enemy, but then you kick his ass in the penultimate quest and fight... mutated Safalaan as the final boss of the questline instead. Weird. I'd also accept Vanescula as the final final boss, as long as she survives it and we get to discuss the truce afterwards. She deserves it.

Ivan coming into his own legacy and playing a key role. In RS3 he doesn't get to do much in the last few quests in the series, which was a bit anticlimactic for him.

Give Safalaan A Break, Please. I guess they can turn him into a funky hybrid again, but please let me bonk him back into human shape and then let him take a nap. (he gives me such Ichigo-from-Bleach vibes, being a human+icyene+vampyre hybrid in River of Blood)

I want the Sunspear. I really like the lore of that weapon in RS3 and also how it implies that Efaritay is/was absolutely massive compared to humans.

[littlesislovesyou]

I'm glad it was good and you had a good time then~ And that's great. Nothing wrong with modest spending and keeping savings up...and ooooh what's the album or band called if you don't mind me asking? As long as you're happy that's what matters to me but you're welcome hun <3333 And lunch is good! Bleh work...unlucky. If I could help you get a day off by fucking you until you couldn't work or do your job I would without hesitation >:3 but I hope it's not too bad tomorrow!

I always have to work hard. Failure unfortunately means setbacks I can't afford :( so I'm gonna need you to take care of me if that's okay and when you're free 💗💗💗 and help me relieve some stress and I'll relieve some of yours in exchange~ 🤭🔪

I'm doing my best to take care of myself though but it's hard when your sleep schedule is all over the place :c and ye I have ways to wind down. Not perfect but I find having someone to talk to also helps and you were the first person I spent alot of time talking to recently in a while even if it's only through asks for now lol so there's that. 🖤

Though most of it is us checking in one another, teasing each other until we can't keep our hands off of one another and then randomly my brain will come up with a dark or fucked up concept and I'd want your opinion or thoughts on it and we'd talk about our lives a little. But that's enough for me.

My musical tastes? Growing up I had alot of them inherited from my mom lol and my aunt. Very big Michael Jackson/Linkin park heads. And alot of the rest is gaming music or songs made for games and sometimes I'll stumble into a band I never knew of on YouTube and get addicted to them.

Yk love at first sight and all that sometimes you hear or see something and your heart and soul just know that those feelings about them gonna stay forever no matter how much time passes.

But set it off is a band that helped me through alot of my darker times. It was those type of songs I'd listen to while I couldn't fall asleep late at night and they just hit different.

I've been listening to contraband recently and idk why the song vibes with me for some reason lmaooo

Well republican day just passed for me...alot of the holidays I'm thinking of are actually just school holidays I got as a kid and don't get anymore LOL but there are some public ones like Diwali. Though... I don't think it's on a weekday. I don't remember.

Anything as long as it's with you sounds like alot of fun too~ 🖤🥰

It was good, too bad you couldn’t have been there to grope me hm~;’) hehe 💗 but yes it was great! It was much needed honestly, I’ve just been so exhausted lately and just haven’t had the energy for much but having days off help for sure <3 agh but I thought about you so much though!

and ah, I bought the new twenty one pilots album:p I feel like I’m still in my weird emo teen phase sometimes but I’ve been really into that album lately,

Ah no I definitely understand that, having a wack sleep schedule sucks :’( I hope you’re able to find some balance and start feeling better 💗 I am glad I can help you a bit<333 ahh that makes me happy! 🥺

I am honored honestly<3 I’m glad I’ve been able to help in that way, I always enjoy your company💗

Honestly I wouldn’t have it any other way;’) 💗 I have a lot of fun talking to you<3

And oh?:0 hell yeah that’s so awesome, I feel like we’d definitely get along music wise for sure haha, you seem like you have great taste!<3

And yeah? Oh of course you know love at first sight I totally get your meaning for sure 🥺 I really do understand cause sometimes you just find something so perfect and it just never changes

I don’t think I’ve heard them before I’ll have to check them out! 🥺 I can definitely understand that, music can be so important you know?

[eridan-amporaa]

Ooo okay SO-

Skid and Pump being Light and Void works really well for them, conflicting aspects that balance each other out and benefit them both - Pump as a Seer is amazing and fits with him being the first character shown to be Stars'd and the unlock of Weird Supernatural Knowledge as a result

Skid as an Heir also has the double meaning of him being the "heir" to the cult, if his dad actually was the leader of it

Roy as a Thief is perfect, riling up others to make him feel better about himself. I could see his "quest" being him learning how to use it constructively

Ross as a Mind player is interesting -- he'd probably end up as the sort of "guide", stealing the information the group needs to actually complete the game

Susie as a Heart player. Yes. In classic Homestuck fashion, the heart on her shirt can even serve as foreshadowing to her role

Don't have much to say about Robert or Ethan, theirs seem fitting. I bet Ethan would have a laugh about the "made of doom" pun tho

Kevin absolutely fits as a Page, and it brings the idea of him having to reach his potential somehow. Also it's like the game itself is telling him to get a Life which I think is funny and VERY fitting for him

Mage of Space Streber... yeah that tracks. Especially with Space, Streber leads with the creation of the Genesis Frog, fiddling with them like his inventions until they're perfect. Him being a Mage also fits with how both of the canon Mages lost something but still do their things without it

Radford as a Prince of Time... ohohoho, now that's interesting. Him feeling like he's "running low on time" could factor into how he plays, worried that they won't have enough time to make the frog and stoke the forge, or that somehow he's going to do something that will doom them all.

The thought of Time could also be related to his family, like not having enough time to spend with them, not wanting them to grow up so soon, or maybe even the fear of his little sister not having much time left, if she has a series illness and wasn't just sick with a cold or something

There's also the more silly connection of him loving movies, which are Timeless

love all this analysis, there are actually a couple things i hadn't even considered in here! some bullet points for other stuff to go with these:

all of the characters have a counter to their aspect - skid n pump being Light and Void, rob and roy as Hope and Rage, etc. the only pair not included is breath and blood... hm. guess we'll see if there are any other characters to incorporate ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

there are also several class combos here - ross n roy being Rogue and Thief, streber n pump being Mage and Seer, etc. could result in some interesting duos combat wise, as well as some unlikely friendships!

on a similar note, the Knight is always supposed to help protect the Space player. susie n streber friendship arc!! (for the record im not changing any ages. highschoolers can be friends with adults sue me)

kevin absolutely hates his godtier outfit. Like, hell no. And he has to wear it in front of the kids AND his crush(es)?? hells to the no!!!! he grabs a spare pair of pants asap (also I almost made him a Bard of Doom... that would be so much worse LOL)

ross, being a rogue, would steal knowledge directly from the sprites. which is how he learns about all the stuff we know as observers (class/aspect pairs, active vs passive, etc.) this is also how he figures out how to godtier. susie is the one to point out that "hey, if we don't all godtier, we'd have to watch more people we care abt die and that would be Bad". so their main overall quest for a while would prolly be to get everyone to godtier

im stealing ur idea for roys quest it makes sense i love it

radford was at work when he had to play sburb, idk where susie/pump were but they were separated (skid n pump werent hangin out either tho). rob has his sister with him at home. his parents, along with susie's parents, will never be seen again - they got left behind. surviving parents/guardians/family r abuelo wonder, lila, ross's parents, roy's parents, rob's sister, and ethan's fam. they got lucky. the only guardians to die during the game r roy's parents and maybe abuelo wonder

yea rad is paranoid asf lmao poor guy (<- continues making up angst scenarios for him)

[rinhaler]

The anon who just found out u were fuwushiguro here!!

Yes I absolutely understand the frustration from not performing as well with follower count to likes ratio - as an artist who used to be quite popular and likes went from thousands to only like seventy. At some point you feel like you’re not doing it for you, but actually for others. I’m happy you realised the happiness can come from writing and not only hate.

The friend who left you I can also relate to a bit, my ex best friend of 6 years also left me quite recently and it was like there was an empty hole in me because even if you’re not friends anymore, your brain can’t quite handle the change. I’m so sorry that happened to you, but the greatest challenge is to not only hold yourself to one person but to be open and try new possibilities, and that’s what you’ve seemed to done! You have new friends, new mental attitude, and a brand new beautiful blog (that I love the theme of btw!!!) You’re doing great and will continue to do so, because if there are 100 rinhaler fans I’m one of them, if there are 10 rinhaler fans I’m one of them and if there are none, I’m dead.

Also to the question you had, idk it’s just the way you describe certain things..? It’s hard to explain, I have about 50 fanfic blogs that I really love the writing of and fuwushiguro was one of them. Your world building, character description as well as development, SO GOOD!! And your wusyaname series was amazing, I used to check your blog religiously for any updates, and I’m happy you’re reuploading them here bc now I’m gonna reread them every week!

Also the way you wrote yuuji in the aita!sukuna fic was extremely similar to the first few chapters in wusyaname before he goes on that trip (if I remember right)

Have a great day/night :D

omg ARTIST AAAAAA im obsessed I'd love to see your stuff if you ever feel comfortable sharing with me sometime but no pressure ofc! I know it's very personal! ive been trying to get more into art but im finding it hard to balance practicing art stuff and writing. I also have massive art insecurity bc I don't think I'm good enough (same with my writing) so I totally understand if u wanna keep it all to yourself but go you for being a talented babe <3

interactions on tumblr suck and I'm starting to be able to tell myself it's purely luck what performs well and what doesn't, so I'm finding it a lot easier to write things I actually want to write now rather than what I think my followers will like.

Also yeah in regard to my friend, we were online friends and we'd only known each other for around two years but god i adored her and i still do tbh. I think about her and our memories all of the time we were so so close so her decision to just randomly cut me off really hurt. I'd love to talk to her again but I know I have to respect her decision and I wish her the best!

It's been a good opportunity to get back into writing so at least something nice has come from something so sad. And I love this little space so much! I'm glad you like my theme! It was greenish at first n i was like nope this aint the one i am a pink girl through and through!

ALSO AAAA THE WAY IM BLUSHING ABT AITA YUUJI BEING LIKE WUSYANAME YUUJI UR SO RIGHT 😩 definitely not intentional but god maybe i missed him more than i thought! I'm so excited to be reposting it though it's going to be like living through the magic of it all again and hearing what everyone thinks and stuff! I haven't read it in so long so I feel like I'm right there with you all hehehe

anyway thank you for supporting me always ur literally the best i adore u pls take care of urself mwah mwah mwah

[cookinguptales]

I wonder if the fact that they DID already have a talk about deep lore vampire consequences is part of the problem? Like someone went "we/you did that already :/" and trying to mix things up just led to not acknowledging that mind control is still bad

Possibly? Like honestly, I didn't need them to reinvent the wheel, just kind of stay within their own established rules of their universe.

While I would've liked Nandor realizing that he'd fucked up and needed to free Marwa (which I honestly thought we'd get as soon as he realized she never actually wanted to marry him, it really started getting dicey from there on in) I even would have been okay with what happened, with Nandor thinking he'd done the right thing by letting her be "happy" as Freddie 2. Like. Nandor's an idiot. We've established that. The things he believes are not necessarily what the narrative wants us to believe, and there is precedent for the vampires going "well, I guess all's well that ends well" with someone who's been brain scramblied.

What troubled me more was the way that the narrative never seemed to condemn what happened to Marwa or even really consider her thoughts on all this at all. We didn't even see the moment that she changed. Like... when Sean was fucked up the first time, it was shown to be legit horror for him even as the vampires thought they were being kind to him. They were very careful to show that their fun night out was his worst nightmare. Moreover, his ending in that episode provided closure for his character arc in the episode.

The problem with Sean and Charmaine is presented early on in the ep: he used to be so sweet to her, but he started taking her for granted and now they don't even remember why or how they used to love each other. At the end of the ep, Sean is changed by the hypnosis -- but he's still come back to being a legitimate version himself, just a version of himself that's gotten a hard reset so he can appreciate his wife the way he used to. He's happy, but he's also cognizant, sentient, and himself. (And, it could be argued, perhaps more supernaturally sensitive.)

Even setting aside the very creepy consent issues that rise up when you bring love and sex into mindfucking, Marwa really never got a satisfying ending to her arc. Her thoughts, feelings, and goals weren't factored into how she was written off the show, and I think that's part of why it rankled so badly. She wasn't humanized in her mindfuckery the way Sean was. There was an overwhelming implication that she didn't matter and neither did her suffering -- which was I think what was so disturbing to a lot of fans. There was a real sense that they didn't understand that it was creepy, what happened to her, or at least it was never acknowledged.

I didn't necessarily need a spoon-feeding of Marwa's emotional state in that ep, I didn't need the Djinn or Guillermo to argue against it (as they're both kind of assholes themselves) but there was really nothing to dispute Nandor's version of events, that she was boring and happier being Freddie 2 anyway. We didn't see her moment of disappearance, we didn't see any discomfort through his/her eyes, we didn't really get any sense of Marwa at all.

(Which... again, does lead me to wonder if the second Freddie, if there was a second Freddie, still was Marwa in the original script...)

So like... idk. I can understand not wanting to retread the exact same ground as before, but Sean was given an empathetic and humanizing character arc even before he became a recurring regular, and Marwa was not -- even after she became a recurring regular. It's a writing choice that I just hate, and I feel like it really tied into the overall problem I had with 4.09, which was that characterization and themes were really put to the side in favor of shock value and jokes that really weren't all that funny.

WWDITS is usually so good with balancing character arcs, absurd situations, and super funny moments, especially near the end of each season when shit gets real. I really don't know what the heck happened in 4.09. :(

[mejomonster]

Moon Lovers Scarlet Heart Ryeo is SO good I feel like yall downplayed it to me??? Which is an accomplishment since I feel it got recced a Lot. But it was always a "great time but mess" idk maybe it's the kind of mess I love to pieces???

1. Better palace drama than The Crowned Clown (despite me loving that shows lead). Moon Lovers just does way more to characterize the individual princes, wives, princess, queen, and servants. Just overall way more solid nuanced (to the degree screen time allows) characterization in Moon Lovers (the crowned clown preferred atmosphere and main character only focus - which it did well its just not my preference, I prefer how much I care for All the characters in Moon Lovers versus caring for so few in TCC). And way better than The King's Affection in characterization, pacing, plot (but that drama let me down with a solid great premise, good actors, good comedy/serious balance, but plot that dragged then got lost and pacing issues)

2. GREAT MIX OF THE PEAK ROMANCE TROPES I ACTUALLY LIKE, AND ACTION ANGST SUSPENSE. All wrapped up in like I mentioned, excellent characterization. So like first, it's doing like Jade Palace Lock Heart and letting us get to know all the princes and queen and everyone, but unlike JPLH I feel this show is doing a fairly decent job to present pretty much everyone in a sympathetic light? Like if it were JPLH the princess would be pure evil (she'd be well characterized so we'd understand her, but we would not have any reason to care if she's okay) whereas Moon Lovers tries to give us her pov in that she feels powerless and wants to feel in control, wants to prove herself, has a loving family and that makes her naive almost of what power will cost her/require in sacrifice. In JPLH the husband falling for Soo would be evil af in the portrayal. It's emotionally Worse on me here lol in Moon Lovers, cause I actually FEEL his guilt and Soos guilt (versus JPLH where the villains are interesting but they sure af don't regret their cruel choices). So I really enjoy how this angle let's me connect to even the queen and her sons to a degree, in a way other palace dramas of this structure didn't really allow me. AND THEN LIKE I SAID ITS FULL OF TROPES I LOVE TO BITS

I didn't think I'd like Wook, but damn it he keeps getting genuine intimate scenes (also THIS IS HOW YOU BUILD ROMANCES! BY HAVING THE CHARACTERS GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND SHARE VULNERABLE HONEST MOMENTS AS THEMSELVES. Which makes this wonderful and not the annoying version where tropes show up like a machine to get the romance key scenes, rather than a cherry on top way to execute what would be a good romantic scene Already because it lets the characters connect. I loved So and Soo talking by the rocks, talking on the cliff as he ate, Wook and Soo talking about fears and killing men, even Wook and his wife get these nice intimate moments they chat alone and vulnerably! Heck even Soo and the young playful prince get a scene like this, and i appreciate it so much for character connection building!)

Then there's So. The "she belongs to me" "should I say my person then?" "I'm thinking about how you're not afraid of me" "remember to eat well, and try not to have bad dreams" the fucking meet cute of catching her from falling (that he caused!) Then holding her in his arms on a horse! Now THAT is an action romance trope. My preferred kind of romance lol! Or when the assassin grabs her, and she's scared he doesn't care if she dies, then the assassin dies so HE holds a sword to her, and Wook saves her from him. That's like!!! He's not the villain but because of introductory meetings like THAT he's definitely got the bad boy villain/heroine vibe going on and it is Very Hot

Meanwhile I love playful prince, I think fight prince is interesting, it would be funny as hell to me if one of them makes a serious move on Soo.

Meanwhile I hope the Wook wife gets to marry the younger prince who clearly loves her...

I'm only on ep 4 no spoilers please! I'm enjoying the ride!

Anyway I LOVE this show so far so fucking good best period kdrama ive ever seen

[lazar-codes]

Random Rambles

Note: I originally wrote this on June 17th and just stored it in my drafts to rot, but then I thought I might as well let the world hear me yapping, so here you go! There might be more to come in the near future.

TLDR: I talk about a lot of useless stuff, like my thoughts on productivity and art. Basically; being solely focused on productivity == not good, and art is fun again.

I have random strings of thought going on in my head and so I'm just gonna write and see where it takes me.

Thought 1 - Productivity:

I want to say that I haven't been a productive person these last few months, but that's not true. However, I feel like this "productiveness" that I've been doing isn't what a lot of "productivity-focused" people would consider productive. I've been seeing a lot of posts online about how to become more productive, or maximize the result by minimizing effort, hustle culture, etc... and idk if it's because I'm getting older or what (sure, I'm in my mid-20s, but mentally I'm 84), but to me this is so unbelievably un-maintainable. I get wanting to improve at stuff, but you'll burnout so fast and feel like shit after, I don't know why people go through that. Hell, that's how I felt with programming; it's super exciting to get started on it, but after months of going at it with very little breaks, it's hard to get back into it once you stop because you realize you don't like it as much as you did at the start, and that's fine. It doesn't mean you're a failure, it just means it's time for a break and to try something else. It feels like there's an expectation to have your identity tied to one thing only, but that's not right. Imagine how nice it is being able to do multiple things in different fields. You can switch your focus to work on something completely different while waiting to recharge. Sometimes it's better to take things nice and slow (if time permits, that is), and enjoy the process rather than the product. The problem is that that's not how the world works, and that sucks. At this point in time, it's a struggle to have a work-life balance for most careers, especially with the rise of hustle culture and gig jobs. And so I guess in my own way, I will continue to quietly rebel against that while I can and accept that it's ok not to be 100% "productive" and to spend time doing things I enjoy, even if it doesn't lead me anywhere in the long run. Ok, this is the end of this line of thought.

Thought 2 - Art:

Now, I want to talk a bit about art. I've recently been watching random videos on the art community and its drama, and oh god. Apparently the community in some apps is really bad, and I can't wrap my brain around why that is. For example, I heard that a lot of artists are discouraging and mocking new artists because of their lack of skill with regards to anatomy and style. I can't even comprehend why someone would do that...? At some point in everyone's life they're a beginner at something, and instead of helping them rise and being excited that someone wants to enter this new world, people put them down. It makes absolutely no sense. Before I started doing art for myself, I hated doing it and would only draw for class in elementary school. But after a teacher gave me an "A" in art class, I was so encouraged to continue because someone believed in me and thought I was good, and that feeling helped me enjoy art. And to think that instead of giving new artists these feelings people just shut them down, is so disheartening. How do you form a community if everyone rejects everyone else? I've been doing art for myself for 12 years now and have gone through long periods of no art, followed by some small bursts of inspiration, and the thing that I remember the most fondly is the friends I made and how excited I was for those specific people to see what I've created. And we'd all hype up each others' art, which motivated us to do more art, and it was the best positive feedback loop one could ask for. And now, things seem so separated and divided and discouraging.

But I'm not all doom and gloom here today. The reason what I said above is bothering me so much is because I've gotten a sudden burst of art inspiration this year, and even though I don't know what sparked it, I'm riding this wave out as long as I can, and I'm having such a good time! For the past 3 years I've been sketching in pen and hated it, but after spending 3 months doing pencil, I've gone back to pen and have fallen in love with it again. A lot of people say that drawing in pen improves your art because it forces you to think about what lines to draw and helps you draw faster, but I realized that those are the reasons why I wouldn't want to draw in pen. Instead, I've found that pen allows me to commit to my mistakes, and instead of being bummed about the sketch not looking perfect, I'm forced to continue and am encouraged to capture the overall vibe rather than the small, perfect, details. And you know what? I love that! Sure, I'll fill a whole page of ugly sketches, but when I'm flipping through my sketchbook and see those again, I don't think they're ugly at all. They convey an idea, and if I want to expand on it and make it pretty, I know that I can. As for the second point of drawing faster; like I said in Thought 1, I think it's better to take things slow and focus on enjoying the process instead of the result. I think it also stems from going against the productivity mindset and the whole short-attention span thing that we all apparently have, where instead of getting things done right away so you can move onto the next thing, you should just sit and focus on one thing at a time and get completely sucked into it. My last finished art piece took nearly 7 hours, and I might get back to it and change some things, but those 7 hours feel like they went by so fast because I was having so much fun! And I think that's the ultimate thing; are you having fun? Because if not, then why bother? And that can be applied to any hobby. I think that's why I'm not doing any coding projects at the moment, because I'm not having fun and I see it as a chore when it shouldn't be.

Thought 3 - Fanart and TV shows:

Now, a lot of my hobbies go through phases, where at most I'll be into 2 different hobbies at the same time. Luckily, hobby 1 (watching tv shows) is directly motivating hobby 2 (art) and I've got such a good cycle of working in my sketchbook because I'm obsessed with the show I'm watching (Money Heist) and drawing so much fanart. And as a side-note, I've only posted 2 digital pieces of fanart for the show and have refrained from looking up existing fanart (I'm avoiding spoilers like the plague), and I gotta say, it feels super isolating because I'm not sharing any of this with anyone, but it also feels really freeing? Like, I have no idea how other people draw the characters or what they like/dislike about the show. I feel like I'm a kid again without internet, just drawing what I want because I like it and the subject matter, not to just show other people. Sure, I already have a piece that I posted and want people to see, but again, I had so much fun working on it that attention to it is merely an afterthought and not the goal. Not only is that cool, but I'm also enjoying something without knowing what the general population thinks about it, and that's so freeing! There's no bias going into it because I haven't heard anything about it. Man...if you can't tell, I'm having such a good time. It's kinda making me want to abandon social media so that way I can experience a bunch of new stories without knowing anything about it beforehand. It's a shame I'm too addicted to scrolling...

[somegiantmess]

I think that never before in my life I've had so many groups of people/buds/relatives to interact with than now (I include online communities too.)

I can't say that I feel lonely anymore; I can easily have social irl interactions if I want to, and ofc I have them even if I'm not seeking it when I work, but most of the time it goes well thanks to having nice coworkers.

I guess that's a pretty good point. I realize too, sometimes a bit reluctantly, that it can do wonders to my mood. Sometimes I feel somewhat down at home, unmotivated and even anxious to think of seeing people, but then I have to go to work and I have nice interactions there and I feel better after all. Coworkers have even boosted me lately about some stuff.

It's a delicate balance because I've never been a people person, I need a lot of time alone, social interactions are usually draining for a whole lot of reasons, and all that. But at the same time, I lose purpose and motivation if I'm alone for too long, I feel that I'm not worth much, I get anxious again to face people, etc.

And sometimes I'm actually right when I don't feel like seeing people, and it doesn't make me feel better to see them, but I'm not sure yet how to figure that out beforehand. xD Well, story for another time.

So there's good in this, but also it can be overwhelming at times. Because I feel like I *have* to interact with pretty much everyone on a regular basis (yes I know, this is stupid) especially those that are easily reachable online, and it's just too much. Dealing with my days and my personal struggles is already a lot. I forget to reply to this person, I forget to ask that other person how they're doing after not seeing each other in months, etc.

It's like, I feel that I'm committed to something you know, and that I fail at something if I don't get in touch with someone again (or not fast enough) when I had told them before that I'd give them news about such or such thing we'd like to do together.

(I also hate forgetting about stuff in general now because for a long time I thought I was good at remembering things, but now there's too much going on + attention span issues).

So yeah idk, that's just a thought; I'm glad that I don't feel lonely these days. But I still need to figure out how not to feel guilty about not giving time to everyone and everything more than I'm mentally able to. Or more than I want to.

(look my therapist is off for several months so i need to vent and put my thoughts somewhere)

(on a slightly different topic I think that being less dependant on my online activities and my digital devices would help lessen the overwhelming feeling —it did feel good when I took a few days away from that last month— but in my everyday life, especially for my hobbies (what about my endless writing and drawing projects??), I just don't manage to apply that for now :'))

[bisluthq]

I think you would get a bit of a laugh with me too then 😂 because I am a bit weird myself. Maybe that's why I have these moments where I'm like dude I like Joe because we really are quite similar when it comes to things we are weird about. Whenever I learn something about him or see these photos he posts I'm like are we the same person?

But anyway, I relate to your friend (although my case is also a bit different because I still live with my mom, so if it weren't for that I would probably need to pay bills in a different way) because I have a phone and it's not fancy at all. I don't even know if you can use Google pay like you were saying. I think you can but I don't use it. But it fits what I need it for. I didn't even get this phone, until my old one stopped functioning completely. I also don't use a credit card. And I have a digital camera 😂 although tbf my phone camera is almost as good so I use both to take photos

Unlike your friend though, I don't expect people to pay for me too. I'm mostly a homebody so when I do go out, it's very much with intent and a lot of times by myself anyway. I know where I'm going and I know what I need to pay for. If I'm going out to eat I like to choose where beforehand or decide what first. If I need to buy something, I know the price of it. So when I go out I take money with me enough to fit what I need and just a little extra incase there's a unforseen thing of some kind.

That prevents me for buying more than what I need and not buy something on the spot that I don't need or end up spending more than I wanted. If I do end up finding out something else, it forces me to choose on which to spend my money on.

I always go for this method and so far it has always worked great for me. If you don't have money, you can't spend it

Just for clarity again like my friend didn't expect me to pay - she just didn't do your thing of having done the research upfront but she'd done essentially the same thing. She'd brought cash out with her. (And her useless ass phone and her camera lol). I'd suggested that specific place because they had like a Ladies Night promo/special evening thingie that popped up for me on Insta and I sent it to her and she was keen so we went. She did realise the cashless situation pretty quickly - I think we'd ordered one drink each and were looking at the menu and she read the cashless part and DID immediately panic and like fwiw if I hadn't had enough money in my card for w/e reason we could've just gone somewhere else and split the tab fairly but I *did* have money in my card lol (well on my phone lmao) so I suggested we stay because it was a cool event and vibe.

It was just mildly inconvenient for me because I hadn't planned on "withdrawing" that much cash and rarely carry much cash around full stop because I'm actually the opposite to you lol like when I have cash I tend to spend the absolute fuck out of it because everything individually seems so cheap? Whereas when I use my card I can see the overall balance pop up after every transaction and be like "okay Nat my bestie, it is time for us to go home now" to myself. Not even just being out tho, I get that way with bigger purchases too. I had a period of time where a lot of my income was cash based because I was doing in person lessons and the people would pay every time (this can be an interesting sidebar to this sidebar because what I was mostly doing was teaching Russian speaking strippers English?? It was a wild couple months lmao) and I spent THE ABSOLUTE FUCK out of it because somehow handing over physical money that's just there is less emotionally intense for me than swiping. Maybe it's like a remnant of childhood pocket money idk like "oh look here's a hundred quid score let's spend it" whereas when it's in my actual card like I can manage it better idk. That is btw what happened with her half of the tab also like I spent that super quickly too. I'm also like a lot more generous when I have cash? Idk I buy other people random shit too because I'm like "oh look I have cash!!! I've got this for us!!!" as though that's somehow different to yk my actual money.

Back to you though, your thing doesn't sound annoying because you check beforehand. If she'd checked beforehand and said "oh no I'm not keen" or idk BROUGHT HER CARD like she COULD'VE done that the once then it would've been easy peasy.

[rogue-durin-16]

THINGS NEVER GO AS PLANNED (Part V/VII)

"the perfect excuse"

Summary: After Fred's death, George and Y/n lean on each other to carry on. This wasn't the most brilliant idea, though; George was pretty much in love with the girl, and Y/n— well, she had been dating Fred prior to the Battle of Hogwarts.

Pairing: George Weasley x Reader

Genre: angst mostly

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Suggested by: @crispykittywitch

Things never go as planned: @sarcasticallywitty15 @beautyschoo1dropout @s1ut4georgeweasley @sunshineandshadowss @missmulti @weasleywh0r3s @andreaareynoso @georgeweasley19 @dianarte

Permanent taglist: @elia-the-bibliophile @randomparanoid @karlthecat15722 @thebutchersdaughtersblog @amourtentiaa

Warnings: language, drinking, makeout getting spicy

A/N: idk what happened here, this was not planned I'm just horny ig??? Anyway have this part that was definitely not meant to unfold like this but hey, I'm not mad, so enjoy <3

Prologue: the aftermath

Part I: sleepless nights

Part II: candy floss

Part III: shock therapy

Part IV: wrong name

Part VI: the downfall

Part VII: apart

Epilogue: I still love you

Rogue-durin-16 masterlist

I checked myself in the mirror one last time before heading to the kitchen. There was no actual need of dressing up nicely, since we both would be spending New Year's Eve at the flat, but since Ginny, Ron, Harry and Hermione were coming, we decided to clean up for our guests.

"Hmm, smells good." I leaned on the doorframe, observing George finishing cooking.

"These past five months' messes paid off." He joked, grabbing a kitchen rag to clean his hands. "Can you keep an eye on it while I go get read..." He trailed off automatically when his gaze landed on me. "Woah— okay." He cleared his throat, eyes slightly widened at my outfit, and I couldn't help but enjoy a bit too much his attention. "You look really good— is that the new blouse?"

"Yup." I replied, a coy smile dancing on my lips as I stepped to him and picked the kitchen rag myself. "C'mon, go clean up nice for our guests."

It only took him a couple of minutes, since he might have had his suit ready.

"Mind lending a hand with the tie, love?" He requested, stepping into the kitchen with his attention on the shirt's cuffs which he was buttoning up.

Damn, he looked so good; it wasn't even fair.

"Y/n?" He chuckled, finally looking up.

"Uh— yeah! Sure." I threw the rag over the counter and led my hands to the tie, taking my time to make the knot; maybe I wanted an excuse to have my hands on him.

We stayed in silence until I was finished; it wasn't an awkward silence, but it wasn't comfortable either— it was, in fact, stifling.

"There you go." I more like whispered instead of talking, sliding my hands down his chest briefly. His eyebrows were knitted, trying to decipher my demeanor; his hands caught one of mines before they fell limply on my sides, and for a second, I thought he was about to do something really stupid —something I had wanted to do for the last three months—, but then the bell rang and we stepped away from each other, going to receive Ron and Hermione as if that moment hadn't happened at all.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

GINNY'S P. O. V.

I took a sip of my brandy as we laughed at Ron's joke, my eyes drifting to Hermione and then to Y/n's lap, where Teddy rested, giggling and blabbering nonsense at George's hand movements and funny faces.

George had confided me quite ashamed that he fancied Y/n about two years ago, but I knew the looks he gave her were of something more than a little crush, if you may.

Had I not known Y/n, I would be worried she was projecting Fred onto the younger twin, but the girl knew better than that, so when we got to experience how their domestic life unfolded during New Year's Eve, I felt nothing but happiness at the way Y/n laughed at my brother's jokes, or how she stared at him in pure adoration as he played with Tonks's and Lupin's baby.

"You're getting him waaay too exited, mate." Harry chuckled, extending his arms for Y/n to hand him the toddler. "He needs to go to sleep."

Teddy, who we had put to sleep in Y/n's room shortly after dinner, had woken up right before the New Year came to us, and, since he refused to go back to sleep, Y/n took on the task of entertaining him. George joined as soon as he witnessed Teddy's hair going rainbow-like at Y/n's actions.

"Actually, I think we all need to go to sleep." I said, leaving the glass on the table.

"Boo, you're supposed to be the youngest!" Y/n whined, earning a laughter from the rest.

"Ginny's right, though." Ron stood up and all of us followed his lead. "It's really late and I don't want mum to see us drunk when she wakes up."

"Not a good impression to make on your future mother-in-law, oi, Granger?" George's tease made Hermione's cheeks flush, murmuring an 'idiot' before giving him a hug. "Take care, all of you." He added after he and Y/n had hugged everyone goodbye.

The five of us exited the flat and apparated in the Burrow's yard in silence until Harry asked, "are they together now?"

"We don't know." I confessed with a grimace.

"Well, together or not, they're definitely fucking."

"Ronald!" Hermione exclaimed, slapping her boyfriend's arm.

"I just said what everyone else's thinking." He defended himself, and none of us could deny it.

READER'S P. O. V.

We began to pick up the dirty plates, glasses and cutlery in order to take them to the sink and leave them there to wash them tomorrow.

"Oi, look what I found." George wiggled a firewhiskey bottle at me from the living room.

Without thinking twice, I grabbed the half empty ice cream tub I had just left over the counter, a couple of clean glasses, and I made my way to George.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

"—and that was only in our... Third- no- fourth! year?" He finished the story, joining me in the giggling; I didn't doubt the story was funny, but I was sure it seemed ten times funnier because of the alcohol. "Wait- where were you back then?" He knitted his brows in confusion.

"A year below you." I laughed.

He snorted. "Below me," he took a look at his empty glass before reaching for the bottle with a laugh "hell, I wish."

I couldn't help but laugh too. "Sure you do." I wouldn't have laughed if I were sober, but then again I highly doubted he would have said that if he were sober. "Y'know- you can have me below you anytime you want, Georgie." I replied between lazy giggles, leaning on him so he would pour more firewhiskey into my glass too.

A loud snort left George, triggering one of my own. "Sure, darling." He loosened his tie and tossed it to the floor. "Why's it so hot in here?"

"Mmm... Must be 'cause of you." I threw my head back to stare at the ceiling. "Or... maybe's just the alcohol." I groaned at the feeling of my head spinning, and sat upright again to chunk the now full glass in one go. "I'm hot too."

"Oh darling... You can't even imagine how much— I mean... Every day— but tonight you look partic... particular...ly? Dashing." George was leaning back against the armchair's feet, his eyes closed, his cheeks flushed and an amused smile dancing on his lips. "Why must you be so bloody perfect?" I found myself staring a bit too much at the ginger. "There's still a conscious part of my brain that knows I shouldn't be saying this shit." An idle chuckle left his chest and one of his eyes peeked open. "I'm gonna blame the alcohol, aight?"

Right, the alcohol —The perfect excuse.

I laid my glass on the floor and got up, stumbling towards him. "Oi, careful— you don't wanna trip and fall." He laughed, steadying me with his hands as I plopped down on my knees besides him. "We won't make it to St. Mungo—" With one hand on his shoulder and one on his cheek, I went for it, cutting him mid-sentece in the process.

It was one hell of a sloppy kiss, and I was so concentrated on doing it right that I didn't even hear the moan I sent into his mouth.

What the hell are you doing?, My mind screamed.

I attempted to pull away, but I felt George's hands on my sides, clutching my clothes in his fists to tug me flush against him. I took the cue and did my best to climb onto his lap and straddle his legs without losing balance.

What we were doing felt terribly wrong, and, the morning after, we would regret this little slip so much, but in that exact moment I could only think that his lips tasted like fire whiskey, strawberry and chocolate, and that the quiet moans slipping through them between the kisses were loud enough to quiet down everything in my head.

I stopped to take a breath, resting my forehead against his; our eyes locked, pupils blown out.

Heavy pants left our lungs, as if we had just run a marathon. It felt like the kiss had made a bomb go off, one that we had unconsciously been building up those past months.

It took an instant of looking at each other to know we thought the same; we wouldn't get this opportunity ever again, so at that point, we might as well carry on and pray for it not to be too bad in the morning.

This time it was George who smashed his lips against mines, teeth clashing and tongues going in each other's mouths. The situation was escalating quick; a tad too quick, I daresay.

He cursed and mumbled something about too many clothes, proceeding to pull his shirt over his head with my help, given that he could only do so much with that amount of alcohol in his sistem.

I could do even less, though. It was proven when I first attempted to get rid of my blouse.

I struggled to unbutton it, an awkward, dizzy silence falling among us before his hands travelled to mines "Wait... Lemme..." He frowned, finding that simple task as frustratingly difficult as I did. "Bloody..." A browned off grunt left his swollen lips.

"Tear it." I mumbled, letting my hands roam over his chest.

"You sure?"

I hummed, somehow impatient. "We'll fix it tomorrow." I captured his lips once more.

We'd fix it tomorrow.

I felt his hands fisting my shirt by the cleavage before giving it a firm tug, making my gasp; I wasn't expecting all the buttons to come off in one go, given his drunken state.

I didn't even have time to discard the piece of clothing before his lips attacked my neck, shutting my brain off instantly due to the sensation.

"You want this?" He whispered in my ear, his hands going up from my thighs to my back until they reached the clasp of my bra.

Not trusting my voice, I nodded vigorously, making the world shake around me so hard that I had to shut my eyes.

I felt a feather kiss on my shoulder and his fingers unfastening the bra; he was doing his best to be smooth, which wasn't a lot, but I could tell he was trying hard.

"You're so sweet." I blurted out as his fingertips ghosted over my skin while he removed the top from my body.

He tried to reply something, but articulating kept getting harder and harder as we went deeper into it, so he gave up on words and so did I; at least until his fingers slid between my legs and started to tease me through the fabric of my remaining clothes.

"Bed." I whimpered, unconsciously rocking my hips against George's hand whilst my own travelled to his crotch, feeling his erection and consequently earning a moan from him.

"D'you think we'll make it?" He inquired, already retreating his hand briefly so we could stand up.

Soon enough we were stumbling to my room, hands all over each other, bumping against the furniture and walls due to not being able to stand upright.

When we fell on the bed and tossed the rest of our clothes to the floor, it began to dawn on me how bad this was going to be.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

GEORGE'S P. O. V.

My head was pounding violently in my skull; that's most likely the reason why I woke up. It took a moment for the blurry memories of the previous night to flash into my mind.

"You feel... so good..."

"Fuck- George— faster, please..."

"Y/n— I'm-"

"No." I shoot up, not acknowledging that Y/n was still asleep by my side. "Fuck no. Nononono." I ignored the terrible headache caused by the hungover and, grabbing my clothes, I exited the room. "No fucking way." I kept mumbling to myself, stalking to my dorm to throw on some fresh clothes.

I sat on my bed, my hands running through my locks, bringing back the memories of Y/n's tugs on them in the process.

"What the fuck did I do." I almost choked on the sentence.

[domjaehyun]

SM tends to focus on their main members (main singers, main rappers, main dancers, etc) Picking what they deem are the best trainees and putting them to work from day one. I think if the company paid as much attention to the other members and actually HELP them from said trainee days, they'd truly be equal. Take Baekhyun who didn't stop taking vocal lessons, by his own choice, bc he knew he could always be improving his singing instead of just simply saying "I have perfected my craft." SM needs to find a balance to continue to work WITH their artists without you know,,, actually overworking them *cough* Mark, Haechan and Taeyong *cough*

oop well that negates part of my point from the last ask i answered sjfjdjd i am not surprised baekhyun took vocal lessons !! but no you’re absolutely right they find ppl and go “what’s your Thing?” and if the person Knows Their Thing then they tend to just have that person stick to that for the most part sjfkskd but if the person DOESN’T know their thing then i feel like SM’s strategy is to start just kinda throwing shit at a wall to see what sticks sjfjskfkd which initially could work !! (as you might have expected by now,,, more under the cut sfgjdk)

like i am in full agreement with you djfjsjd i think that if trainees enter the company, regardless of if they already have/know Their Thing, they should be receiving coaching/guidance/classes on each of the areas of talent (singing, dancing, rapping, and… acting? idk what they do sjfjskdkd) bc like . didn’t mark audition as a vocalist……. and now he’s like . THE main rapper…… like if they just took him at his word and they’d never explored his rapping abilities…… they would have done the world a great disservice !! also let’s not forget that ppl have said that haechan did really well in rapping in his trainee days!!

like it is not super common to have like genuinely well-rounded, like, “ace” idols and i think that’s partially because of the fact that agencies (i’m specifically talking abt SM rn, but i’m positive there are other agencies guilty of this) don’t rly seem to express much interest in developing their trainees/idols past their most prominent talent ig? like tbh? when i think of “aces” in kpop, i think of …wait pause …ykw is so interesting? i immediately thought of jonghyun and taemin from shinee… maybe also key? but i don’t even… listen to shinee… i think i was partially influenced by ppl around me but i also do know that just from what i’ve seen from both of them, they’re exceptionally talented!! (gonna be real though i don’t believe i’ve heard them rap so i can’t rly judge that)

but like?? if i had to name members of NCT that come closest to like “aces” to me, i’d say haechan (singing, dancing, performing, and based off what other ppl have said abt his rapping, i might say rapping too, but i feel like it’s not rly fair to say when i haven’t seen for myself, y’know?) and maybe ten (singing, dancing, performing, and also i feel like . the more “rap” like parts i’ve heard him do before were very well done to me so… tentatively, i could throw rapping in there, too, but i feel like . that’s, again, not rly a fair point bc i haven’t heard much of him rapping) and if i’m not naming someone you think is an “ace” in NCT then i sincerely apologize but (1) i am not thinking too hard abt that particular thing rn (2) you and i might not agree on what criteria we'd use to consider someone an "ace," which is totally okay!!

but yeah no i totally agree also bc like . realistically . i feel like they aren’t preparing for the longevity of their groups v well… like… if they're not prepping the younger members to fill any gaps the older members will leave when they go to enlist, then they're prob gonna see a drop in performance/success y'know?

but yeah gjsfdkl i feel you entirely like . i rly do think they'd find it more beneficial to their business too, as well as potentially more enriching/exciting for the idols, if they encouraged their idols to try new stuff and hone their talents in as many areas as possible!! esp bc like . both haechan and taeyong are gonna have to enlist eventually... so . what do they plan to do then............. dfkjgsjkld anyway . yes i feel you we are on the exact same page bestie

[final-girl96]

Radioactive Spider Bite

Peter Parker x Reader

Warnings: language, vilonce, muture content? Maybe later on?, jealousy, death, idk its marvel... slow updates.

A/N: please don't be rude. Feed back is welcome but be kind. If there is any little details you would like to change to fit your style and personality please do so. This will also be on my WATTPAD along with all my other stories. This begins with Civil War when Peter comes home to find Tony Stark there. It will go to Homecoming, Infinity War, End Game, Far From Home, and then when No Way Home is out and I watch it the story will continue as long as there is a new movie with Spider-Man.

Word Count: 1238 words

Captin America: Civil War

Chapter Four

"Okay, I was wrong. This is fun, kick people's asses," I said to Peter and he laughed. We landed on the glass on the outside of the building while Bucky and Falcon ran through inside. We shot webs and swang around crashing through the glass. Peter taking out Falcon. Bucky went to punch him but Peter stopped his metal arm and Bucky looked at surprised. "You have a metal arm?" Peter asked. "Now that is cool!" I said walking over to stand beside Peter. "Thank you, but you know you have super strength too?" He said. "What? No. I meant the arm," I said and let put a small oh. "That is awesome, dude," Peter said.

Falcon came flying at us and picked Peter up and flew off with him. "Really?" I said and looked at Bucky. "That's not cool," I said and he went punch me but I moved out of the way. A saw Peter get away from Falcon and I shot a web-swinging up and came around kicking Bucky. "Your buddy is doing a terrible job," I said and swang off. Peter had Falcon against webbed to the glass wall and came to Stand in front of him. "That sucks," I said. "Those wings carbon fiber?" I heard Peter ask. "Is this stuff coming out of you?" Falcon asked.

"Umm... kinda?" I said. "That would explain the rigidity-flexibility ratio, which, gotta say, that's awesome, man," Peter said. "You're such a nerd," I said. "I'm not a nerd!" He whined. "Debatable," I said. "I don't know if you've been in a fight before... but is usually not this much talking," Falcon said. "Sorry, he talks a lot when he's excited," I said and smiled. "All right, sorry. My bad," Peter said. Peter swung towards him but Bucky came running into Falcon knocking them towards the ground making the glass wall break.

I swang up to beside Peter and webbed Bucky's metal arm. Peter had wrapped Falcon in a web. "Guy's, look, we'd love to keep this up, but we've got one job here today..." Peter said. "And he's gotta impress Mr. Stark, so, we're really sorry," I said and Peter went to shot them with more webs but he was caught by a drone and crashed through the large windows as he screamed. "What the hell?!" I yelled. "You couldn't have done that earlier?" Bucky asked Falcon. "I hate you," he said. "I hate you both," I said. They looked up at me and I waved. "Yeah, still here. Now, stay!" I said took off after Peter.

Once I found Peter we swang and landed beside Mr. Stark and the others we were fighting with standing in front of Cap and his side. Cap started walking towards us. "This is going to end well," Natalie said. "They don't know how to give up? I'm tired," I said and rolled my eyes. "Y/N," Peter whispered and looked at me. "Sorry. Let's kick-ass," I said. We started walking towards them and they started jogging. "They're not stopping," Peter said. "Neither are we," Mr. Stark told him. Then we all started running towards each other.

"Can't you all just give up?" I asked. Me and Peter went swinging but Cap threw his shield and it cut my web. Peter caught me before I had time and we landed on some kind of belt that they put the luggage in the planes. Peter looked at me "are you okay?" He asked and I nodded. "That thing does not obey the laws of physics at all," Peter said to Cap. " look, kid, a lot is going on here that you and you're little girlfriend doesn't understand," Cap said. "Girlfriend?" I said. "She's... she's... she's not my..." Peter stammered. "Not his girlfriend," I said. "Right. Mr. Stark said you'd say that. Wow," Peter said then we shot webs at him but he held his shield up.

I shot one at his ankle and pulled making him land on his back. "Nice!" Peter said. "Thanks. I think I'm getting the hang of this now," I said. Peter got his other ankle and we pulled him towards us. We let go and I shit him again. I pulled but this time went with the webs and kicked him in the face. I landed behind him "I'm so sorry for having to miss your pretty face up!" I said. Peter landed beside me "he also said to go for the legs," he said. Cap went for his shield but Peter stops them by grab and both of his hands with webs and pulling. "Cap pulled back and then twisted around making Peter go flying.

"Rude!" I said and did the same thing Peter did. He, in turn, did the same thing and when he did I shot a web and swang around. "Oh, sweet! You are getting the hang of it!" Peter said as Cap picked his shield up and Peter webbed It but Cap pulled the web and hit Peter in the face knocking him back. I went swinging at him he hit me too making me land beside Peter. "Ow! We're you never taught not to his girls?" I said as I and Peter got up and swang up to crouch down on top of the thing not connected to the plane and the building. "Stark tell you anything else?" Cap asked.

"That you're wrong. You think you're right," I said. "That makes you dangerous," Peter said and I swing down towards Cap but he ended kicking me and knocking him into the wheel of the thing we had been standing on. "Guess he had a point," Cap said. I was standing under and Peter had swang down to check on me but then Cap threw his shield and the walkway started to fall. Peter was there in an instant stopping it. I had closed my eyes but opened them to see him holding it up. " you got heart, kids. Where you from?" Cap asked. "Queens," Peter told him. "Brooklyn," Cap said before running off.

We were able to throw the thing off together and swang off. When we landed we saw Lang super size himself. "Holy shit!" We both said. Lang who had a hold of Rhodey threw him but Peter and I caught him. "Shit!" I yelled as we went with him since he was going so fast. "Truck!" Peter yelled and we braced our feet of the truck. Rhodey stopped and was able to fly back the way we came before he hit the plane. We hung on to his as he flew towards Lang and we shot webs wrapping them around his arm knocking him off balance as Rhodey, Peter, and I flew around him.

Peter and I were running on the plane avoiding Lang when Peter started talking. "Hey, guys, you ever see that really old movie, Empire Strikes Back?" Peter asked as he grabbed my waist and shot a web and swang up away from him. "Really, dude?" I asked. "Jesus, Tony, old are these two?" Rhodey asked. "I don't know, I didn't carbon-data them. They're on the young side" Mr. Stark replied. We were shooting webs and swing around Lang as Peter continued talking. " you know that part where they're on the snow planet.. with the walking thingies?" He asked as we swang around opposite of each other wrapping Lang in the webs.

[sinkingwmyships]

hEY BABY

im back at it again with

JJBA (VA) Purge AU (3)

yeeee this is the one abt the relationship scenarios ;)))

part 1 | part 2

i highly recommend checking out the previous parts first, if not this might be kinda hard to follow

between me and my 1.5 braincells we're trying really hard y'all so pls go easy on us show some support ;_;

OKAY

(oh yea a heads-up no ships are decided yet so treat all these relationship scenarios as hcs (yea imma make AUs inside an AU lmfao))

tw: (1 mention of) homophobia, referenced past abuse, bullying (??)

1. fugio

the first scenario that popped into my head is that Fugo and Giorno go to the same university (for some reason Gio's parents can afford to send him there, idk he probably got financial aid or sth, and then after he killed them (😳 awkwardddd) he's probably using their life insurance in fear of it running out). and Fugo doesn't really care for Gio bc he's a rich boye and he has his quality™️ elite friend circle so why bother himself w a nobody. but in reality all of Fugo's friends are either only on a social level (u know those ppl who you're friends w but u won't necessarily have deep convos w them or choose to hang out w them n stuff), or they're fake and only hang out w him bc of his wealth & status, or bc their rich parents are friends. plus (im referring to the anime backstory here), after the scandal w that professor who sexually harassed him, many ppl secretly hate him and talk shit abt him behind his back due to homophobia.

but anyway, Fugo's plotting against all those biches :) so where does Giorno come in? Gio, being this innocent poor boy who doesn't have a home to go back to, lives on dorm. and let's just say Fugo does too bc he doesn't have the best relationship w his demanding parents, so he was overjoyed when he finally talked them into letting him move from home into the dorms instead. (side note he prolly doesn't Purge his parents bc he needs their money.) so Gio and Fugo know of each other, but not acquaintances or anything.

and then

one day when Fugo's either

running into trouble with some authority figure at school again

just minding his own business and planning his Purge targets

Gio walks in on him, and he's either like

"omg Fugo r u ok do u need help what happened"

"omg Fugo idk what happened between u and ur targets but Purging ain't good, pls reconsider"

and Fugo, having the short-ass fuse that he does (plus probably having his pride wounded and just general mistrust of the ppl around him spurring him on):

"stfu u know nothing about me, but now you've seen this i guess it wouldn't hurt to kill you too"

"stfu u know nothing about me, ur probably one of those happy asshats that have no need for Purges, reconsider?? haha the only thing i'll reconsider is if i'll add u to my kill list" (bc if Gio reports him or sth, Fugo & his fam can get into trouble, since his targets are probably rich and/or influential ppl, but it isn't Purge time yet, so it can be considered malicious intent and/or attempted murder i guess, and so anyone who has any beef w the Fugo fam can bring them down) (i know nothing abt law don't come for me)

and then Gio is like "fuck dis shit im out" and he skrts tf out of there, but sadly Fugo ain't lying 😔 the day of the Purge comes, and Giorno was just trying to barricade himself inside his dorm room when suddenly, Fugo pulls an FBI OPEN UP and breaks inside using all his high-tech weaponry n stuff (i'll share my hcs for chara design later!!). Gio is freaking out so he jumps out the window into the streets, even risking going outside during Purge just so he can get away, but oh 🅱️oy is Fugo stressed tonight. and he literally hunts Gio down and almost kills him

uNTIL!!!¡!

2. abbacchio & giorno:

(SORRY I JUST LOVE DADBACCHIO & GIORSON SO MUCH)

Abbacchio is tasked w hunting down a certain rogue criminal, so he's la-di-da cruising thru Naples to get to Bucci's house, when suddenly this fucking kid comes running up to him with his hair and clothes all messed up and tears running down his face, and is like "pls help me sir i beg u i just need somewhere to hide pls i don't want to do this i don't want to die" and Abba's like "fuq??" but then he hears manic laughter and chainsaws revving and shit, and the kid sniveling all over his crisp™️ Purge suit looks like he can explode with fear at any moment (and plus Abba understands that nobody would ever run up to another person for help during Purge like this, unless it's really their last option), so he sighs, "fine. get behind me."

the kid drops to his knees and Abba can't help but think "aaahhhh fucking dead weight", but he said he'd help, so that's what he's gonna do. now ANOTHER kid rounds the corner but he barely looks sane, he seems almost possessed by something. *fighting ensues* but being a professional cop Abba knocks the kid out cold w a few swift moves, and when he drops to the ground that crazy expression finally leaves his face. he's already wasted too much time, so Abba turns to Kid 1 and is like "go back home brat and dont get into trouble again", but Kid 1 is still a trembling mess on the ground, and he says "i don't have any home to go back to."

subconscious Abba's like "well that's between you and god" but he knows he's basically this kid's god now (besides, there can't possibly be a god that would let things like Purges happen), so he's like, "fine. get in the car and DON'T get in my way" but THEN Kid 1 points to the passed-out demon child, "but we can't leave him here"

A: "he was gonna KILL you!!"

K1: "i know but he didn't mean it, he was just not thinking straight"

A: "Purges ain't where ppl think str8 kid, besides if he didn't really wanna Purge he wouldn't have geared himself up that well"

K1: “but he’s not a bad person. please, if we leave him out here in this state he’ll be killed for sure.”

at this point Abbacchio can't understand wtf Kid 1 is thinking, but for the first time in years he finds some of the humanity he was hoping to regain in Purge, so he's like "fine. haul him into the backseat. but you're sitting with him bc i got my shit in the front. and if he wakes up you're dealing w it this time. cool?"

Kid 1 nods, and surprisingly he has enough strength to shove Kid 2 into the backseat & get in after him. Abba is trying to decide what he wanna do w these kids, when his phone suddenly beeps, and in comes a new message from his superiors, "yo dawg u gotta hurry up and kill that Bucciarati guy, we'd better not catch u slacking" and he's like "yo Kid 1, can u fight?"

"uh, a bit. why?"

"well, that's what you're gonna do for me in return for my protection."

anywhooooo i imagine that later on, Fugo wakes up like "ugh wtf hello concussions????" and he sees Gio standing over him, and he snaps into defensive mode, sitting up and shoving Gio away and everything. but then he sees that Gio's hands are empty, save for maybe a bottle of water and a towel, and somehow Fugo's own wounds are all cleaned and bandaged, and he groans:

"dude, what the fuck are you doing? did i pass out? did you find help?"

G: "you got hit over the head pretty hard, don't move so suddenly."

F: "haha yea thanks i can feel that myself, anyway wtf were you doing?"

G: "uhhhhh... abbacchio patched you up but your face was really grimy so he told me to clean you up, and maybe give you some water?"

F: "no. i mean like what the fuck were you doing????? braincells hello?? kill me! i should be dead!!! is Purge over?? did the sirens go off before you can finish me?"

he suddenly notices how Gio just recoils and sits there with his eyes squeezed shut as Fugo shouts at him and flings his arms around. but he's seen how Gio defended himself against him, so he knows this guy can fight and is no stranger to Purges. this is the first mystery his 152 IQ has encountered in a long time, so Fugo reaches out to get Gio's attention, but then Gio jumps and slaps his hand away so hard Fugo feels his bruised brain jar. he pulls back immediately, holding his hands up, palms forward, finally kind of able to pierce together what's going on inside the blond's mind:

"sorry. wasn't gonna attack you. just... wasn't sure if you were listening to me, so i tried to get your attention."

"i was."

"okay. sorry." Fugo tries, but Gio is already standing up and leaving, glassy green eyes looking anywhere but at him. "wait! Gior— ugh??"

he almost faceplants the ground again. where's my stupid-ass helmet???? i need to be on balance mode stat. but then Fugo feels two arms helping him up, and he looks up to see Gio, frowning in distaste but still supporting him all the same. he feels bad for asking (as if he hasn't bothered this poor guy enough): "uh, so, what exactly happened while i was passed out?"

oh, honey...

a lot :)

BUT PLOT SPOILERS SO THIS ENDS HERE!!!!!! xD

ya know i might actually go w fugio after all :00 but if i do end up writing this, it will span over 12 hours / 1 Purge only, so even if there are ships they'll probably only be implied, instead of madly into each other by the end of everything :P

to be cont’d… 👀🔪 perhaps with other relationship hcs :0 or chara design?? who knows. suggestions?

feel free to drop any questions you have, or just scream to me in the cmts in general!! i’m happy to answer anything, from chara motives to backstory clarification, or anything else!! ik up to now these posts have just been walls of texts, so :’D thanks for reading thooooo 💖

part 4 | part 5

[harryhooksgazebos267]

okay that moving in with your friend question is tough. like depends on how close you are? like there would be no way i could live with my bestfriend because we'd get absolutely nothing done. plus, housemates tend to fight/have disagreements and i wouldn't want that messing up our friendship. but if this is just a casual friend, like someone you know well enough that you feel safe living with them, but you're not super close, then yeah dude go for it.

Ohhhh that’s interesting 🤧 So I have a group of really really close friends (there are like 5 of us in the group) so I would say that the person I’m thinking of is one of my best friends. But I know that there are people in my core group that I could NOT live with but with the one I’m thinking of, I feel like we might be fine? I feel like we would be able to have a balance of spending time alone and with each other which I feel like would help with fights? And in our friendship she’s one of my only friends that has never annoyed me, even when we’ve stayed together for multiple days (obviously living together would be a different ballgame). I guess the only issue is that we both don’t really know what we want to do in life? But that also was another reason why I thought maybe if we lived together it would be a good thing? Because we would be able to explore different things together. We also both are very interested in playwrighting/writing in general so if we lived together maybe we could help each other out with our writing works? Idk though 😣