#i like my men psychotic

[poltoreveur]

I could fix him but I kinda like him a little murderous and psychotic tho

[stuckinapril]

Plans for tonight: studying physics and psychology and not being pressed about anybody’s dumbass son ‼️🎀🥂💕

[heartofstanding]

There's a new novel about Joan of Kent that's coming out in September: Elizabeth Chadwick's The Royal Rebel.

1338: England has declared war on France, and Jeanette of Kent, cousin to King Edward III, says goodbye to her family and travels overseas with the royal court for the first time. Once in Antwerp, she is captivated by talented household knight, Thomas Holland, just as he in turn is powerfully drawn to her.Although both know their romance is forbidden, their love for each other grows stronger than the danger they face, and they marry in secret. But before they can make their tryst known, Thomas has to leave for war, and in his absence, Jeanette is forced into a second marriage and locked away from the world. Then Thomas returns, and the real fight begins. As hostile family members battle to keep Jeanette and Thomas apart, the defiant lovers vow to be reunited - whatever the cost...From the award-winning and bestselling author, Elizabeth Chadwick, comes an epic love story set against the tumultuous backdrop of high chivalry, deadly warfare, devastating plague, and savage rivalry in the twelfth century - the first of two parts telling the remarkable story of a woman who rose from royal rebel to formidable influence.

I have several posts on this and a glitter text gif but let me just say it again: Joan of Kent was born at the earliest in September 1326 and at the latest September 1328 (her birthday was on or shortly before Michaelmas, the year is unclear). In 1338, Joan could only have been 12 years old and quite possibly hadn't yet reached her 12th birthday when she married Holland. Holland was born in 1314 or 1315, i.e. he would have been around twice her age. No wonder her family was "hostile" to the marriage! That "powerful draw" Holland has would see him on a sex offenders registry.

Either Chadwick has aged Joan up like a tacky romance novelist loosely inspired by history, she didn’t bother to work out how old Joan actually was or she’s like “yeah totes fine nothing to see here Margaret Beaufort was the norm” when every serious medievalist will tell you that Margaret Beaufort was not the norm. Please. No more "preteen and early teenage girls could fall in true love with grown ass men in the Middle Ages and it's completely fine, nothing rapey about that."

[soullessjack]

speaking of tfw2.0 every time i see titkok edits or tfw2.0 discussion posts here with a significant lack of jack in them I just kinda sorta

[deviantartidentitydisorder]

people let tiktok poison their idea of mental health and it's not even in the way people think. people think that tiktoks lead to more people self diagnosing, more people lying about disorders, and more people purposefully seeking out accommodations they don't need. this is what society thinks tiktok has done to mental health.

but everyones already thought that. they thought that about tumblr, and then twitter, and now tiktok. any platform that allows mentally ill people to talk about their experiences will lead people to believe that specifically because there is no other safe place for people to be open about mental health symptoms. you can post on twitter all day about how theres rotting food in your bed and everyone will find it relatable, but if you brought that up in public you know the reaction wouldbe completely different.

you know what tiktok did do in the realm of mental illness? de-legitamize real struggles. everyone thinks mental health is the same as what they think their "worse" is. they think anyone who gets worse than THEIR personal "worst" is faking. they think the people in psyche wards are over reacting because THEY would never scream randomly and consistently on THEIR "grippy sock vacation." they would never let their room get THAT messy even though they have ADHD and need medication, you're clearly using this as an excuse! they would never rely on the DSM-5 for their symptoms, they just manage them like an adult!

Never in my FUCKING LIFE have I had so many people assume I a self diagnosed and faking? For three years on this app I was accused of faking my head injury just for fucking funsies, because people didn't believe I was actually disabled on this app. And you know what? That is NOTHING in comparison to the way tiktok reacts to my videos, and the craziest part to me, is that i am VISIBLY disabled. I am visibly unwell. unlike tumblr, every single tiktok video I make about my disabilities has MY face in it, my TEETH in it, my speech patterns, my weird body movements, i don't edit anything out, that would defeat the purpose of the videos im making. and yet... despite that. every SINGLE hate comment i get is focused on the fact that i must be self diagnosed and lying.

what i need to make explicitly clear is: i am not self diagnosed. i am not self diagnosing my parents. i am not self diagnosing my family. it feels as if people forgot that disabled people EXISTED before tiktok. disabled people WITH DIAGNOSESES existed before tiktok. multiple of my family members have to use AAC devices, multiple of my family members are in full time wards because of their severe schizophrenia. Many of my family members are bed-bound because of physical disabilities that have rendered them such.

And EVERYWHERE I go people assume I am self diagnosed, that my parents are self diagnosed, that EVERYTHING is self diagnosed if its about any disability that doesn't immedaitely wheelchair bound you. Its insane and its happening rapidly! I dont understand whats fucking happening!

[octocurse]

people experiencing a delusion can still be skeptical or partially aware that what they believe isn’t accurate / isn’t true

[notmygrave]

saw one of those that’s a body trend tiktoks it’s so delusional it’s so twisted and deranged and the whole debate about male and female friendships and the fact that cishet people can’t fathom the idea of people of the opposite sex having completely platonic but deep and meaningful relationships is fucking hilarious to me

[overworked-bookworm]

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let me drop some drama on y’all — in the last year + 7 days, I:

reconnected with multiple friends from high school at a wedding I legally officiated for two old friends

realized in hindsight that I had liked one of our classmates when we were in school, who had attended the wedding and was now recently divorced

started talking to him very often and, by proxy, the husband I officiated the wedding for

started an on-off flirtation with the divorced friend — [clarification: HE started it, but I was very receptive when I realized what he was doing, it just took me a while]

became the “dump my mental health problems” friend for the husband^ who I’ve said is like a baby brother to me for *checks calendar* 12+ years

was accused by my friend’s wife AND the friend that I was flirting with that I was having an affair with the husband or at least harboring romantic feelings for him

she also accused me of behaving like her abusive mother, when I told her she was out of line for even thinking I would have an affair with (1) her husband (2) who I kept saying was like a baby brother to me

held an intervention for the husband about his ragingly out of control anxiety, where he proceeded to, like, beat the windows of the car and yell and be violent [not at me but around me and I was very triggered and scared] — after which he said he couldn’t trust me anymore because I was projecting my anxiety onto him, and he was fine

fell into an episode of psychosis because I was surrounded by people who didn’t trust me for reasons they’d all made up in their heads, and were all mad at me for ❤️

[while in psychosis] dealt with the guy I was flirting with talking about wanting to sleep with his coworker, and being very on/off + hot/cold with me — which I wrote off as post-divorce emotional problems I just needed to be patient through lmao

[while in psychosis] dealt with the husband’s mental breakdown about never wanting to get married in the first place, dragging my family and the family of the guy I was flirting with into the mess — we got the husband pink slipped and I stopped talking to him and his wife

was told by the friend that had been flirting with me that he’d been leading me on, as he proceeded to ditch me for another friend that I helped him reconnect with — but promised me that we were besties and nothing would change!! (how kind. also? he broke that promise immediately and called me difficult)

dealt with his new girlfriend lying to me about them not being together, because no!! hoes before bros, Alex, I would never date someone who hurt my friend!! but also you need to be personally accountable for feeling hurt!!

there’s more in the way they’ve both treated me since he decided he was done with me, but my therapist and I are still parsing through it

turns out I probably don’t need to be taking Ativan twice a day and sleeping after work + all night bc of the high dosage, I just needed to start cutting out bad friends! my anxiety has never been more managed now that I’ve decided to listen to every other friend that’s told me these ones were all no good for me! I do need the anti-psychotics, though. I heard voices for 2 months and it was NOT a good time.

I didn’t have this much drama in my life ten years ago when we were actual children — the next time I start posting about liking a man, someone remind me that it brings me absolute misery. None of this would have happened if I hadn’t wanted to hop on his dick 🙄🙄🙄

[newcronomicon]

gotta stop infodumping to my mother because she always pulls faces and makes gagging sounds when im actually happy and talkative for once

[mishwanders]

Me, talking about Arias and Wesker: I wanna fix them

@the-resident-vampire : alright Clarice

[pussy-ache]

this morning there was a radio segment where the hosts called a woman who didn’t want to go on a 5th date with this (clearly unlikeable) man and asked her why she stopped dating him. it was a gross segment from the beginning but then its revealed its cuz the dude is an alien freak supposedly? like i’m trying to figure out if it was scripted. she literally was like “i wanted to stick my salad fork in my eye so he’d shut the fuck up about aliens” and this whole time he was quiet in the background and then he pipes up like “BUT THE GOVERNMENT ADMITTED ALIENS EXIST” and the host is like “well i’m gonna interject here, there was some admittance to UFO sightings that were supposedly confirmed, but that doesn’t mean that ALIENS themselves were confirmed” and then the woman was like “don’t get him started he’ll never shut up you couldn’t pay me to speak to this freak again i HOPE he’s abducted” and then he was like “THE ALIEN RAPTURE IS COMING FOR YOU ALL BUT I’M THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS” or something like that, then started talking about reptiles (antisemitism..?) and then she’s like “i hate this guy so much” and then the phone call got cut completely cuz he starting cursing straight out

[silverislander]

have discovered a new enemy while doing research for the honours essay. why are you pretending to understand psychology and BLATANTLY misinterpreting actual terms and concepts in order to tear down a movie aimed at teenage girls, my good bitch. i'm going to start biting

[yuwigqi]

HC an actual real forensic psychologist interviews Joker, and realizes he does not meet the legal requirements for being mentally unfit to stand trial (TRUE), and the jury finds he does not meet the requirements for criminal insanity (TRUE) and he is sentenced to death and just like actually successfully executed by Belle Reve Penitentiary.

Batman's official statement "I do not kill. However, I do not give formal statements in political issues, such as the death penalty. If Joker escapes, I will send him back to Belle Reve, regardless of whatever sentencing he receives. I am a Vanguard. I am not a New Jersey Apex Court Justice. Sentencing is outside my jurisdiction or personal interests. Thank you."

Orphan's statement is "I believe wholeheartedly in the sanctity of life. However, I am not opposed to euthanasia."

Red Hood gets hired as a literal Seasonal Summer Worker for Belle Reve, and stands guard.

Barbara Gordon gets hired as Belle Reve Archivist.

Duke Thomas speaks publicly about the Justice System's constant ignorance of the realities of Mental Illness, and the pathologization of acts of violence as mental illness, as well as how white men are frequently given passes for violence by the justice system.

The Joker is executed on April 1st. He is cremated, and his ashes are used in compost alongside goat and pig manure.

Dr. Harleen Quinzel is tried as well, and actually found criminally insane, and after 1 year in psychiatric hospital, and triweekly therapy, she has shown proof of improvement and rehabilitation, 2 years after that, her licensure is reinstated. Instead of going into patient practice, she does psychiatric research, and publishes several papers on the interactions of PTSD and psychotic disorders, as well as developing counseling treatments for domestic abuse and cult survivors.

"Jokes on You Day" becomes a national holiday.

[sasquotch]

the whole "trans men just have sexual trauma" thing absolutely infuriates me, as someone who was practically brainwashed into believing i was raped by conversion therapists as a kid.

i have been an obvious transsexual my entire life. i told everyone i was a boy. i was just told it was normal and nobody wants to be a girl. i told my mom i wanted a dick and balls and she said, "no you dont."

i was put in conversion therapy, diagnosed with autism, despite not having many of the symptoms, and put on Risperdal. an anti psychotic drug that was not meant to be used in children as young as i was, that also "just so happens" to cause out of control breast growth. (it also caused me to become obese and struggle with my weight for years even after i stopped taking it, despite never having weight problems before.)

therapists and my parents would constantly tell me that i was hiding something and try to hypnotize me into remembering it, i had no idea what it was, i was told something horrible happened to me and i had to remember it, i kept telling them i dont remember, and they told me i had memory problems. they kept telling me i had a memory locked away somewhere and i had to recover it, i had no idea what they meant by this.

i have no idea how to describe the way that i felt because of this. the feeling didnt go away when the therapy ended. it stayed with me for YEARS. my entire childhood and most of my teenage years i felt like i had a dark and evil secret that i couldnt even remember. it stuck with me, i didnt even know what it was. they marked me socially and mentally as a "rape victim" without it even happening, without me even understanding what they had done.

i didnt find out until i was a teenager that the therapists were telling my parents i had been raped. based on nothing. you know what happened in these therapy sessions? i played with animal toys and told the therapist i didnt want to go to school and that i wanted to be a boy. i told them i hated my name. and wanted to be called by a different name. they told me i had a deep dark secret i needed to remember and confess to them.

because marking me as someone who had been raped would emasculate me.

[voiceshearingyouloud]

Actually fuck my therapist for saying ‘but is your delusion actually true though?’ because of all the unhelpful things to ask someone who’s grip on reality is already tenuous…

[violexides]

i feel like i would have a really exciting time on benadryl seeing as sudafed made me fucking crazy for like two weeks