#i mean fuck

[caffeccino]

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things are looking bad 🤪

[bakedbakermom]

The amount of self-fatphobia I encounter in my female friends regarding holiday treats is too damn high and it pisses me off. Twice this week I have told friends that it's okay to eat more in the winter (or when the fuck ever) because we are mammals and that's what we're supposed to do and both of them were like, "Teehee oh that's a great excuse!" And I'm like NO IT'S TRUE your body is responding to rhythms deeper than our modern concept of shame and it's absolutely fine to honor them and listen to your body! You don't need to generate some excuse in order to justify eating and being hungry and enjoying food.

I have had to do so much self-work regarding food and permission to eat and learning to be okay with enjoying food beyond its purpose as mere fuel. Like that was such a huge part of my recovery. My nutritionist once held my hand while I ate cheesecake and cried. And every time I encounter (milder versions of) those same food-phobic fat-shaming feelings in people I love I want to burn down the whole world because WHY ARE WE MADE TO FEEL LIKE THIS!?

Can we as a society just. Shut. The. Fuck. Up. about dieting and thinness and the morality of certain body shapes and just live in these physical bodies with their needs and desires and cravings!?!??

[1whump-dump1]

Anthropoid (2016)

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

I do wonder why "daddy" of all things would catch on as The Thing to call your partner. Who started that. Why did it spread so far.

[altocat]

Ok, part two of Angeal and Sephiroth Dissidia Angst Chapter, haha.

After Angeal begs Sephiroth to talk to him and explain…Sephiroth remarks that he threw all his unnecessary memories into the Lifestream, and that Angeal is just “noise” to him. He has no memory of what Angeal is referring to—their friendship and all.

Angeal is too wounded to fight anymore, so Sephiroth battles the other characters for a moment and gets his power crystal. He is still upset though, even if he doesn’t realize why and just nopes out of there with his muhaha evil power.

There is a cute Zack and Angeal reunion right after, where Zack notes that Angeal is injured because he protected everyone like usual. Angeal warmly reaffirms Zack, but at once he goes straight back to talking about Sephiroth. He says he needs to follow him because he has so many questions to ask.

The others are worried about Angeal’s wound, but Zack only asks that if he does chase Sephiroth down, Angeal has to bring him along because he doesn’t want to be left behind. Aw.

Cloud interjects though and asks if he can talk to Angeal about the “present Sephiroth.”

We flash forward to a group meeting, and Angeal is STILL saying he needs to find Sephiroth. The others demand he take a moment to rest and heal, and that he shouldn’t take such a huge responsibility on his own shoulders, but Angeal is not having it.

Suddenly, Rufus of all people comments that he thinks he knows what Angeal is thinking about—that he wants to see if “The present Sephiroth is the real Sephiroth and not Jenova.”

Rufus brings up the Reuinion theory and all that, but Angeal actually says that,

“No, that’s Sephiroth…I know it. Someone with a will as strong as his couldn’t fully lose himself, even if he has changed. All his cruelty…it was his will…”

Angeal says this with a very downcast and heartbroken demeanor, like it seriously hurts for him to say that. Somebody asks, “Wait, you know Sephiroth?” and he says,

“He is my best friend. Always has been.”

OUCH.

Vincent actually asks,

“If he had someone like you…why did he end up the way he did?”

Angeal doesn’t reply and I can’t imagine he was feeling anything but guilt in that moment for obvious reasons. Then Cloud remarks,

“Well, Sephiroth did seem upset by Angeal’s question/questions. It’s worth a shot to find him”

So, they all agree to go hunt our silver boi down.

Finally, to close off the angst fest—we have a small scene where Sephiroth is alone with his crystal and is seemingly okay until bam, he gets a wave of memory come over him that causes him to stumble for a minute. He freaks out and that’s where the “Angeal? Genesis??” scene happens. He can’t believe it and starts trying to suppress everything, talking to himself through out.

He says,

“No…what is this memory?? Angeal? Genesis?? Did Angeal bring these back? I thought I threw them into the Lifestream. No, I need to get rid of them. They get in the way of “me.”

“….that’s right…get rid of what you don’t need. We can cut out this one too….that man’s entire existence…yes…”

It really sounds like he does have a fractured consciousness and is talking to different parts of himself/maybe Jenova, but damn…he also is fully being affronted now with his past and it’s obviously messing him up. I can’t wait to see what happens next.

Thank you for this, Translation-Anon. Thank you so, so much.

I'm in actual agony right now.

[andiwriteordie]

so the og script didn’t explicitly include will crying but also noah said he felt like he was sobbing that whole day and that the final cut was more subtle than he expected

MY BROTHER IN CHRIST ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME? WERE THE TEARS NECESSARY? DID YOU HAVE TO HURT ME LIKE THAT?

[powderblueblood]

this chapter is so angsty do you guys really want to die tonight

[daily-terus]

[q-u-a-rantine-high-school]

So you know that scene, I forgot exactly which episode it was in, where Len and Mick break into that garage with a bunch of expensive cars just to get Barry to come get them, but he doesn't and Len, quite literally makes a pouty face and says "He's not coming... :(" and then that scene in that one batman movie (I haven't actually seen it) where Cillian Murphy is all He's here, the baT-man. Those are the same scene but in different fonts.

[invinciblerodent]

tbh, nothing makes me feel like a better writer than leaving stuff to ferment for a little while, and reading it back a few months later.

[navarice]

never been more gagged in dimension 20 until episode 5 like Jesus shit got real so fast my heads still spinning

[catechismus]

the TUMM

[inn-witch]

Bro Castti's chapter 4 might fucking get me to actually write a fic. I JUST WANT MY CHILD TO BE HAPPY IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK

[amanita-muscaria-lover]

Pedro as a teacher? Count me in.

[westanthewaterman]

Dom!Engie is so good. I still constantly think about “Don’t” and the amazing angry sex it can bring about. But I can’t let people sleep on another Big Bad Engie scenario:

I HC that in another timeline, instead of smothering you to death with a pillow in the pre-“go towards the light” ending where you make Mark do everything to fix the ship, he instead pounds you into oblivion.

You’re already so relaxed in bed, and you trust Mark to carry out the tasks you’ve given him—just as he’s done before. You don’t expect him to get back at you by giving you the pleasure you’ve both been craving for so long. He’d waste no time pulling you to the edge of the bed and flipping you over, nearly tearing off your uniform in his desperation. Your initial shock quickly turns to a burning arousal as you come to terms with how much you’ve wanted your dutiful little engineer to turn the tables on your arrangement.

And he makes sure you understand your place, Captain, as his brutal thrusts from behind push your face further into the pillow he so obediently brought at your request. There must be a demerit for blowing the Captain’s back out, right?

-🍯

‘There must be a demerit for blowing the captains back out, right?’

Cackling but also Jesus

[storm-of-feathers]

one of these days i am going to truly and really have a bitch explosion ab how the conversation around cultural appropriation has been basically fucking stolen from black and indigenous communities.