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#i need like compensation or something because this isnt right
linguinibilly · 11 months
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the fact that richie’s last significant words (before begging for his life) is ‘i’m not a loser’ is actually soo upsetting it makes me want to kill myself
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bitchesgate3 · 6 months
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mizora fans are the only safe side of the fandom for me
#from most safe to less safe#mizora tag i can enjoy evil woman and the occasional hate post#but she deserves that and it doesnt overrrun the tag#m*nthara tag is ok but some fans see her as more evil and more masc than i see her as#weird to me - cant relate#love Lae but the shadowzel hatef*cking ruined my engagement with other fans of hers#mystra tag i instafollow mystra-defenders#instablock mystra haters#literally on sight#because i read the whole post in the tag and i deserve compensation#mystra aint on the same level as c*zador#shes a pompous bitch who withholds blessings not a fcking p*mp/ tr*fficker#love shadowh*art but shes disrespected constantly and stripped of personality in the fandom to be: the woman#i dont follow the tags of the male characters anymore because the amount people will woobify them is legit unsafe#man puts a bomb in his chest because he couldnt take no for an answer#but people want to say “poor baby girl” the fuck?#man is just stupid and a tad scary#honestly sexy but i would be mystra 2.0 if i got with him#larian woobified ast*rion by removing the nuance on whether or not he deserved redemption#fandom performatively “likes” w*ll only when someone makes a big enough stink about him#i feel bad for actual fans because they love something that isnt actually there#his writing literally removes all agency for him#larian infantalized a grown ass black man to constantly be humiliated and removed the rightful anger he had in EA#i need people to admit that the writing is bad and IS racist and enables people to be racist in being dismissive with him#sometimes i do dip into the ast*rion tag tho because those artists know how to draw s*x with women#like those girlies have had s*x before and know what they want and they are so right for it#the wlw art in this fandom has no idea how s*x works#or its so male gazey and prnified it legit makes me squeemish
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AITA for being upset at my mom?
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I know it's not a real big deal, but it's starting to get upsetting. English is not my first language and im on mobile sl sorry about that.
Okay, so my(20f) mother (F mid40s) suffer from long covid. Her symptoms consist of chronic fatigue, short breath, join pain and brain fog. (I still live home because im a college student, and finding an appartment in this market is hell)
We've been really supportive of her :
I drive most of the time, and my sister(16f) has her apprentice driver license, so she drives for mom when im at school; when we go to the mall and she need to take a break to breath, i always offer to go get her a wheelchair, or going to get the car, she sleeps a lot in the day so we don't make noise, i bought her loops earplug for sleeping, etc.
We're are used to it and my dad (mid40s too) work 12 hours a day to compensate for the money we're losing with mom on sickleave (where we live we have job insurance and etc): he starts at 5:30am to 6pm, and i usually only see him in the evening, so the only time we really are together as a family is during the evening meal.
There is where i could be the a-hole:
Since mom got long covid, it takes more time for her to respons us, and her memory isnt as good as it was (shes well known in her workplace, she a well respected manager who takes great care of her employees). It's just, almost every night, when me or my sister or even my dad are telling a something that happened in our day, she always cut us to say something, like :don't forget to put this in that, or just to say something she did that day over our own story, or asking me to bring her water in the middle of my sister's sentences (which she could have waited for after she was done).
So we, someone different each time, always tell her "X was speaking, you just cut them, and you do this often, please let them finish" and, well, when it happens everytime i am (or my sister) is trying to say something, it get upsetting. And she always uses the same reasons: "we're a family and we're cohabiting, sometime we talk over you but still listen to you" (no she doesn’t, i have to tell her a million times the same fucking thing and she always forget) or "you know my mind is a little slow right now, i'll forget if i don't say it" or she gets upset because we're annoyed by it.
But god forbid if you cut her! She'll raise her tone, and still doesn't get why we're upset.
Like, i get it, she got long covid and it's a bitch to deal with the way your cognitive capabilities slow down with the fatigue, but we've been extremely helpful (and im still gonna be, because she's my mother) and her allowing herself to lack respect towards us doesn't excuse her because she's ill. At least this is how i see it?
At this point i dont really know if i can feel upset? Like, she's my mom, and she's ill (and it's really depressing seeing her this put down by the symptoms i don't wish it to anyone) but im just so tired to have to restart the same sentence four or five time because she keep interrupting me
So, aita?
What are these acronyms?
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i think youre right about the bi/gay debate (sorry to bring it to you... im not bringing it in a Im New Here way, but rather an I've been here a while and youre someone i feel safe asking about this, sort of like sitting down at a kindly hot gay wizard's knee and asking for wisdom way hehe.)
HOLY HECK i did not even see the slideshow length, 300?! i know we celebrate the boys here, but when youre compiling like that it starts to feel like compensating for something. and you're right - so far (im about halfway through) ive been asking myself things like 'but why does that make mike bi?' on every other slide. theyre detailing the plot of s4 from mike's pov; things that all bylers agree on, gay and bi truther alike. none of it so far is evidence for bi mike. at one point they say 'theyre not compatible in a romantic relationship, but mike likes kissing her as we can see here...' and this is what has me respectfully yelling HOW CAN WE SEE THIS PLEASE because so much of these discourses is about opinion and subjective interpretation. im about to sound like a nerd: it really makes me miss school. and uni. and debate club. and seminars. with actual discussion and evidence. hell, i even miss english class and writing essays. make a point. provide evidence. follow up with explanation. the teachers actually called it P.E.E.
PEE. amazing.
but youre right, because its ok for everyone to have their interpretations, especially as the show is unfinished! maybe im just endlessly confused by people's need to justify and be right. what is gained? i think i expected too much from the fandom lol, i expected academia. i feel like i get that open-mindedness from some places though, and from you (plus many other treats heh heh). i think i would love to have had you in my uni classes, vinny! youre so interesting and kind.
and im endlessly interested in the sexual attraction vs. love thing, because ive definitely seen people say that sexual attraction isnt needed. aromantic gay folk, etc... i must be honest and say it gets beyond my understanding and i cant form an opinion on that
footnote 1: im gonna finish the slideshow because today i was reading about the Sunk Cost Fallacy and want to be masochistic (only 150 slides left! its ok though, the vast majority are screenshots of the show itself that illustrate... nothing lol)
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Hope you two anons don't mind a little three-way action combining this conversation 🤭 just so my blog isn't dominated by this topic with redundant points! I totally don't mind the topic if it's open and friendly and analytical rather than fighty. All good here. Under a cut since this is long and if people want to skip this topic:
"sitting down at a kindly hot gay wizard's knee and asking for wisdom" - Firstly, love that, obsessed with you. And YEAH the number of slides made me irl do that slow blink meme gif, we know the one. I wasn't very compelled. Am I too staunch and biased? It's not that "oh this character must be gay because I'm gay and like Byler" - no? A lot of people like Byler and aren't gay at all. I've been in fandom culture a long time and don't need to project. I just see what I see. I've shipped many things where I knew the characters weren't queer but I liked the idea. This is the first time in a long time that I feel the shipping and analysis collide and can actually be one in the same, a fandom rarity in my opinion and taste in media.
Anyway. A lot of the points for bi Mike overall from many sources of discussion never strike me as evidence he's bi. They could so often go both ways (HA SORRY) to bi vs gay points. And then the gay points tip the scales. So much of the argument is subjective, for sure. But there is coding and hints and arcs that lend solid evidence. His LACK of attraction to women just feels so clear to me when we have soooo much of that with the other male characters? He just acts differently, abrasive to certain concepts. And his relationship with El is a mess. I will feel so odd if we've all analyzed that wrong. All the points about Mike's weird expressions, his awkward physicality with her as opposed to Will, never really seeming all too enthused. It's almost looks like panic sometimes. A lot of what he says that's read as romantic feels like a performance for other people around - MIKE is the one overcompensating here, truly. His defeated facial expression before he says he loved El in the monologue is such a giveaway to me. He's about to lie for his life and hers.
This is what I mean by life and death. Guilt over his new friend dying for them season 1. Anger at Hopper hiding her while he missed her and felt guilt over what happened. Season three conformity and puberty confusion arc, getting mixed up from growing up and trying to be normal. The excitement that yes, I can be normal, this girl likes me. Changing his personality to fit, and overcompensating for not knowing the difference between platonic and romantic feelings for this girl - he struggled with the platonic because he feels he can't have that so his relationship is messy and too physical, not emotional. His mind and body and heart are all at odds. He and El aren't really friends because they haven't had the time or allowed their relationship to be anything but this need to have it be romantic - El's issue, too, with not really engaging with society in a meaningful way. Rambling now. But it's not hard to see if we're paying attention. Haven't even touched on anything to do with his behavior in regards to men or Will - this is already too long.
I think a lot of people will continue to ship what they want regardless of the outcome and honestly - that's fine? What if the worst happens and Mike ends up with El? I will still be a hardcore Byler fanboy until Stranger Things is not a fandom I'm interested in engaging with. I don't really care. I'll forge my own reality through fanfic. I believe those who still want to engage with Mlvn will do so. I can understand why people choose to see Mike as bi. His sexuality isn't canon yet (as opposed to Robin and Will). It's what they're into and HC since we do not know 100%. I'm not so blinded and delusional to not admit that.
Creativity and analysis overall - to anon #1's point. Yes!!! Glad to be enrolled with you at Stranger Things university. I got my little notebook out, overly caffeinated but I'm there for class. I'm the annoying guy interjecting. But I feel like you'd be sitting next to me in lecture backing me up.
and im endlessly interested in the sexual attraction vs. love thing, because ive definitely seen people say that sexual attraction isnt needed. aromantic gay folk, etc… i must be honest and say it gets beyond my understanding and i cant form an opinion on that
I find it fascinating, too! Which is why I try to learn more and more and always try to consider different viewpoints. It's a broken record, but these orientations are totally valid and props to anyone finding what works, figuring themselves out. I don't think everyone is ever going to completely understand every aspect of human sexuality. I don't. I'm always learning. I'm gay and both a hopeless romantic and a guy with a high sex drive so maybe certain realities and lifestyles I don't fully understand the intricacies of - but that's ok. We don't have to walk an authentic mile in each other's shoes, but we do need to respect each other and leave room on the path!! 😁
And a secret 3rd anon appears!! You said please don't post so I won't. But thank you for filling me in on fandom lore. I didn't know all that!!! Yikes babes. I don't like those vibes!!! 🙃 But, that is not my energy, we're all chill and into fun and discussion here. We don't personally have to give weight to every character interpretation but we also don't have to get at each other and blatantly fight. I'm just vibing 😌❤️
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selfundiagnosed · 10 months
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Ignore and disassemble childish mental mind game traps in front of you and go im sorry we are all these flawed human beings stuck like this. The bar is no longer right underneath me. i dont care about others flaws anymore. Its too complicated to justify putting energy into an emotional reaction. the emotional reaction is glaring compensation for a guilty conscious and being in denial of doing the exact same complicated, arguably bad thing in the past. dont burn someone at the stake because you will never live up to your own immeasurable standards and when you inevitably fuck up it will fuck you up and it becomes unhelpful to you, the people you love, the people who love you, and the people you have no choice but to be around every single day. It makes you a lot less miserable. come at every mistake you confront assuming the best possible lead up to the mistake; come from the perspective of how YOU could have made that exact same mistake under the right circumstances and ask yourself if you’d want to be given idk a Little grace to make mistakes? If you have ever made a mistake and been given that grace, while accepting full well that the other party had every right not to, it can be the most motivating unexplainable feeling of gratitude. if you can offer a little bit of relief with no sweat off your back, i think its worth it. i believe rejection and social isolation creates stagnancy in the growth of people who honestly just need to know the extent of the consequences of their actions on the world around them, because many people really just don’t understand why something is wrong until they see the full gravity of the situation. a lot of people, when left in the dark, have to use their own imagination to fill in the gaps and we as people tend to let ego do that for us! which NO ONE is above doing, irregardless. have some compassion for people exhibiting their flaws because we all hide our own until the perfect storm brews. i have watched myself read between the lines, jump to conclusions, assume the worst, and indulge in my cognitive distortions too many times in my life when in reality i wasnt as deeply effected as i wanted to be— i found things that justified my desire to be resentful and angry. imaginary shit. and when im out of it and i see other people doing it i can only feel compassion and sadness. it makes me sad. if it isnt so serious on you why make it so serious????
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badasgirlfriend · 11 months
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my point stills stands, after reading the new chapters my most toxic trait is the fact that I would’ve forgiven both Yeri and Yunjin 😞. BUT I NEED PEOPLE TO HEAR ME OUT (I’m constantly a villain apologist) Like yk, what they did was beyond fucked up BUT, Yeri was not lying when she said she had no choice, and for some reason I felt like the whole exposing thing for her was too extreme 😞, ik bada was probably fuming but something in me says she didn’t deserve that, LIKE I FELT HER ANXIETY THROUGH THE SCREEN, I don’t think that everyone hating her will compensate for what she did, it’s just like revenge but in a cruel kinda way. Pookie didn’t deserve 😞 and also she was not really the only culprit, people actually confessed things, she just posted them by their request.
Now, with yunjin is diff because miss girl is actually very guilty and so very sick in the head. But hear me out, when she said that she constantly felt like she was Nari’s shadow, and mentioned her mom, somehow most of her attitudes make sense. Wanting validation can fuck your head so much it’s surreal, and I think that deeply she acc feels remorse by it, but she was fueled with jealousy and desperation. I think that what broke my heart the most was when she was left all alone 😞. Somehow I feel like her character is complex and at that precise moment she also needed some type of reassurance from friends to understand that what she did was terrible albeit the reasons. I feel bad for her because, imagine always feeling like someone’s shadow, and in the end, everyone you love ends up taking their side and leaving you, further pressing that feeling that in the end you will always be her shadow, and people would prefer her over you. And I know in this case Nari’s feelings al probably all over the place due to the betrayal, but imagine how yun feels too 😞.
In conclusion, I support their rights and wrongs, waiting for their redemption arc so I can be an apologist outside the trenches. (sorry for the rant but I just love character dynamics so much 😞 and specially this one for me has so many layers)
okay so yeri was actually threatened to post those abt nari but she wasn't threatened to post the others she did it for fun u can see that she says i liked it at first she did this for funnnn and in a way its called bullying too like imagine someone posting all ur darkest secrets and the whole school even the ones who dont attend see it
no matter how jealous yunjin got she shouldve never done and she cant be forgiven bc she isnt 12 to make those mistakes if she rlly was good and loved nari she wouldve either told her she likes bada or keep it forever inside her feelings go away yk
she wasnt sorry in the end she accused nari stealing bada from her which aint normal😭 maybe in the future she'll forgive her (not rlly😩) but she'll never forget
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klapollo · 9 months
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So in a previous ask they just asked if you were a big video game guy and your response was that you sadly didn’t have enough time. Well my question is just asking why you think video games are frivolous, yet reading and consuming the arts aren’t?
Some video games are made for purely entertainment or profit yes. There are many books, films, and paintings like that too. There are just as many video games that are made as statements for political, social, and ethical issues. As well as games made to try to capture the feelings of grief, joy, or anything else. Just as other art forms.
This isn’t a judgement nor an attack on you I just want to know. Why are video games lesser?
no this is a really thought provoking question! it made me reconsider how i think about this a little. it's probably wrong to paint games as "pure leisure" without cultural enrichment, because it's simply not true for a lot of games.
i guess in my mind on the hierarchy of art/media that can enrich me, video games just sit pretty low. this is for a few reasons -- the time investment is a BIG factor. i can watch a movie in 1-2 hours, read an average novel in 3-5 sittings, watch a tv show for 30-50 minutes at a time at my discretion, but completing a game can take dozens of hours, especially games that are probably the most through-provoking and would benefit you culturally the same way a book or a film might (see metal gear or disco elysium versus a game like pokemon or animal crossing)
there's also accounting for HOW invested i have to be relative to time. a movie needs my full focus for me to fully digest it, but that also only takes a couple hours. a book i can read while i'm traveling/doing another task, and same for television shows, music and podcasts. when i was a gamer, it was predominantly handheld partly bc i could more easily integrate it into my life. sadly, catering to handheld gaming has dissipated a lot and the steam deck is VERY expensive. i have a switch, but i used to pay 30 dollars for a DS game versus 60 for a new switch title of the same playtime, and my switch often struggles to let me play without wifi for some reason, which isnt readily available in most places, and especially not on the subway.
plus while i do think games can really open your mind in the same way other art forms do, i do feel like for a lot of them it is mostly a leisure activity. if i spend two hours playing mario sunshine and two hours watching a hitchcock movie, i'll probably feel like the latter benefitted my cultural diet more, even if i have more fun doing the former. and honestly at the root of all this is NOT the fact that i'm "right" about this -- in fact, i think this is a deeply capitalist brainwashed mindset that makes me feel like everything i do has to be productive within the capitalist framework.
but i think this is partially bc i spent a LOT of early adulthood not doing much, including playing a lot of video games. so i think i'm in a phase right now where i'm trying to compensate by acting like this. probably the only "pure leisure" activity i don't feel a lot of guilt for is hanging with my friends, bc my personal connections are most important to me. it's frustrating! but it's something i'll need to work on with time.
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syrupspinner · 4 months
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i just defeated Citizen Sleeper
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i keep accidentally calling it resident sleeper and i dont know how to stop
right away, i wanna compare this to Disco Elysium. im sorry, but im the kinda bitch that sees the world through similes. i know its a bit of a losing battle considering DE's renown, but i want to appreciate the ways the games compare in their goals and how to accomplish them considering the genre similarity
first, while both narratives are technically in second person, theyre seperated by their omniscience. CS takes a more traditional omniscient narration, and works with it to help the narrative of separation from ones self. as a sleeper, youre an emulation of a human, and while youre consciousness is an exact copy, you have no knowledge of the person used as your base. the biggest problem with writing in 2nd person is basically the reader going "no, i wouldnt". but as a sleeper, your character doesnt have the identity to justify saying that. it builds, successfully in my opinion, on the seperation between reader and character because the character is already suffering a seperation of self
in DE, 2nd person narration is subverted because of your extreme, ambiguously supranatural [sic] amnesia. your character is not a blank slate the player controls; you have a past you cannot escape from. DE's protagonist also avoids the "no i wouldnt" problem by giving the player control over his present, but not his selfhood. this is furthered by the furies, the fragments of your personality. this classifies the narration as diegetic, because there are very, very few instances of straightforward omniscient narration (unless you count shivers as omniscient?), because everything your character perceives is quantified through these skills. you can level up the narration as a gameplay mechanic.
which of these do i prefer? well, thats a tricky question, because theyre both trying to do very different things. well not that different but yknow. DE is interactive and characterizing for the protagonist, but CS is more directed and characterizing for the world. thats not to say that DE isnt intentional - im just explaining what each approach's priorities are. im also trying to compensate because DE is stupidly encompassing, you can tell it was written by leftists because that wordcount is NOT conservative. CS is way more economic in scope, which isnt an inherently bad thing, it just means i gotta be a bit proportional in my judgement. anyway, considering all this, i think i gotta say my preference is with CS. i emphasize preference, im not saying that CS is objectively better than DE.
a good example of what i mean is the digital space! theres a mechanic where you can like, leave your body and travel the internet, using your dice rolls to hack different connections. i adore how the narration describes this. it feels so abstract and bizarre, its explained through human sensations that were not meant to experience this world (which is exactly how the sleeper feels) in a very lovecraftian way. the omniscient 2nd person is perfect for this, because it describes the internet as something that happens to you. DE would have the furies explain to you what is going on with their own skewed views as they slowly piece together what the hell is happening, which is a great way to characterize DE and its protagonist and works wonderfully with what DE usually tries to do. but i think it wouldnt lend itself as well to describing the internet as a truly alien sensation, and stuff like neovend's quest wouldnt hit as hard. again, theres nothing better or worse about either approach, theyre just better suited for different tasks. like, mages are better at dps and warriors are better at tanking
oh yeah, the dice! you role all the dice you need (up to 5 depending on your... i think it was called vitality? your life bar) and you allocate them to specific tasks throughout the day. i am in love with this mechanic. it is so strategic and offers such a great balance between luck and strategy auuuuuugh. you usually have 2-4 drives (read: quests) to focus on at any given time, so you have to manage the resources of where you wanna put your 6s and your 1s. do you wanna risk a negative outcome, or go to bed and let a perfectly good roll go to waste? youve got a few time limits to keep track of, waste isnt the best idea. if youre spending that 1, where? which drive can you not afford to fuck up, and which are you desperate enough to risk failure on? maybe you can take it to cyberspace, low numbers are usually needed for hacking. well, what data do you need the most, and how much hacking can you afford to do before you get too much attention from the ship/outpost/however-you-classify-this-location's antivirus? dont forget that you cant just focus on drives, you need to earn money to buy food and robo-insulin.
why dont more games do this?????? i get that theres strategy and planning around traditional roll-the-dice-in-the-moment systems, like which stats you need bonuses for and what gambles youre willing to take, but i way prefer resource management to risk taking. amazing mechanic
it also probably helps that im a bit of a slut for cyberpunk. theres a post-game dlc quest that shows a great way of showing individuals struggling against systems. youre in talks with leaders of a refuge camp trying to salvage supplies from a crashed ship, but if they do so then itll be bad optics and prevent them steadier help later down the line through systemic means. but they cant wait through the fillibuster, people are starving. its absolutely the right choice to try and help the refugees by harvesting supplies off the grid and working to undermine the cyber-govcorp's control, but the corp you talk to as part of the quest is just an individual with good intentions and a different opinion on how to best help the refugees. theres an antagonistic force in the quest, but its nebulous and faceless, because its just a story about people trying to carve survival out of a society that isnt built for it. and thats just one quest! my favorites were your back-alley doctor struggling to separate their connection from their past, the stranded mercenary tracking down whoever stole their ship's motherboard thingy, and of course neovend
please please please play this game if you havent already, it is a wonderful work of art
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lifeoflustandwonder · 4 months
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Currently
Im currently in two minds
The first mind says congratulations girl, you made it, you did it. You made it to a New country you werent ready for and you absolutely smashed it out the park. You've got a job, a house, a bank account (harder to set up as an international then it sounds), a few friends and even secured a situationship (more on this later, thats a promise). Look at how far you've come, look at all you've achieved. January 2023 you could never.
My second mind says jesus, you're homesick. You're struggling so much more than you are showing, but thats also okay. You're emotionally all over the place with being uncomfortable where you are at the moment. You're uncomfortable with the way this man is treating you, yet you continue to let him do so because you dont know how else to get that affection at the moment. You just need a hug, or a breakdown, or patience until you can get back to where you really want to be. Maybe all 3. You're craving love, in any shape or form. And you're not getting it, and thats making you emotional.
But you're not homesick for home, you're homesick for where you were before. Your new home. Your new home you've had to leave quickly due to legalities, you've left the weather, your job, your house, your friends, your perfect little life you were living.
But maybe this change has been for the best.
This is what I keep trying to tell myself. This change has been the best thing I couldve possibly asked for right now. Maybe I deserved to be grounded. Maybe I deserved the confidnce knock when the hairdresser took too my hair and cut off so much I didnt want to leave the house for two weeks. Is this what growth it? And no, I don't mean with my hair. Maybe this is what my growth is supposed to be, showing that even through so much emotional turmoil I can keep going. Even though at every waking moment I want to scream and cry, beg someone to take me back to where I belong right now because right now im not actually living. I am just here.
I don't feel present, I feel like I am floating.
This is only temporary, and these feelings will only be temporary. But this is the hardest and realiest temporary I have ever had to deal with and it is ruining me. I feel like a mess in front of my friends and they arent even in front of me. Messaging them all the time about how sad I am, I am so sporadic on my responses too them they probably can't keep up themselves. They are also dealing with their shit, why would they want to deal with mine too? They don't. But they do, thats what friends as for, and they will continue to step up for me, because I am so worthy of them and they keep proving that to me over and over again, but its just so hard actually beliving it at the moment. That I'm not bothering them. I love them, and they love me, and we all know that about each other, luckily.
But what about this man? This man that is showing me physical affection and not much else? What am I compensating for? I keep asking myself this. Am I letting him use me like this? Maybe I'm looking for that physical attention, and I feel like I'm hoping for something more even though I know there is nothing more too this.
I wonder if I am worthy of being loved like that.
By someone who wants to give me everything of themselves, all at once.
Right now, I am being used. It is that simple. I am aware of it. He knows it too, I think. I also know hes lying too me. 'Im not seeing anyone else' like I was born yesterday. I might be blonde, as he points out all the time, but I'm actually not stupid. God writing that down actually feels all consuming. Like my stomach just yawned open with regret. Why do I let him speak to me like that? Its simple, really. Sex.
The affection, the physical validation. So Yes, ill pay $50 to go to his place because thats what I feel its worth. Maybe thats what I feel I'm worth? God, thats awful isnt it? I know Im worth more than that, and I wish maybe he could see that too. I wish someone could see that.
I want someone else to see my worth. I want someone else to tell me they know what Im worth.
I am craving the validation from other people because I am so sick of giving it to myself. And thats so dumb, right? How can you be tired of giving yourself valdiation and telling yourself how great you are.
I just crave love. sadly love doesnt seem to crave me.
I know that I am looking for love in the wrong places.
I know that I should stop looking for love, because everyone always says that love never comes to you when you look for it. Maybe its true, but I'm like if I don't look, maybe it will miss me.
Im scared of being missed, scared of missing out.
I just want my cushty little life back, where everything was solid and I could build foundations and I could be happy.
Thats not to say that I dont love it here. Its a very beautiful place to be. I guess it would just be better and prettier if I wanted to be here. But I wasnt ready to be here. I am trying to appreciate it, but my experience is tainted. And that is more than okay, I need to keep telling myself that. It is okay that this is not my favorite place, it is okay that I dont want to be here.
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scentedchildnacho · 7 months
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She said she lived in southern California a long time but they had to leave to northern California because it's really expensive here now.......I told her I'm from Wisconsin and federal actions like mine did some of it....the culture of affordability was just too unhealthy of a way to separate from family so people got Self ish to recover
And neo nazism more revealed like tong VA teachers in high schools teaching kids to blame and hate religion because it's what the white may approach to seek re integration
Anyway it was too violent and affordability just appeared to be bait traps for these types of extreme political fanaticism to attack us
Anyway people like me started seeking out extremer class division because it would tend to weed out of my life free loaders addicts and violent extremists
If I would learn more white austerity my attackers would take privilegeing bait and I would stop having to take hits for nogales es cuban good secrets
So it's me that does Winona la duke to people and starts bringing health is tipi back and leaves the mansions to counties.....and this is stuff I just don't feel like doing so I'm going to just leave
And I would want I can't breathe to bring huge new york parks and sporadic real estate instead of Parisian nightmare
Calling north american latin Americans white of France was actually a displacement and humiliation that caused terrorists like dugas
Dugas to afford new France had to sleep with over 100 partners or everyone is related to kevin bacon
So that's a progressive politic that w didn't start till the treatment of southerners entering the United States in the 20th century early 20th century so white is northern
Priorly monsanto they were more judeo Hebrews not latin educated
Latin education started with English in the states
Chartrists in Indian independence
The social compensation of the English working classes was kind of positioned in cuban spaces Batista as his regime declined would want to create American starlets so it's binary or wealth ideation is always kind of being told that the working classes find that lifestyle disgusting and don't want to and I'm tired of being used for this when I don't really care
This is just using me by bitches that can't afford their mistakes and I'm tired of a cause that's just using me like a dog
So eventually I too will decide I need housing go to reform and tell it all to just leave me alone with its annoying counter culture
Well the wealth ideation here hates religion and religion covers me in blankets when I'm cold and sick so I go to owner and do what owner prefers
The wealth ideation they cover themselves in needle based body art and smoke heavy enough to choke people not constructively conditioned so they are eco terrorists if they didn't have to tolerate poor reform religious people they could have back wood master houses and never be found a problem to adjust to others they get to be the dominant that adjust to them Selves so
Or the physical meat market of athletics that's all just very gross to your going to get a spankin if your skirt isn't to your knees
I don't enjoy slavery as french pharmaceuticals explains terrorist drug dealing and dopes....
I don't like dope here basically and I do have a skin condition that knows the right way of thinking of dopey conduct
These senses of fruitive action are not thought of as all that intelligent
Anyway at the time I just said I'm from Wisconsin and permanence there affording utilities is really hard work you have to get married and have his unions activities etc and that's hard work as a meditation to focus on or you have to live communally and work for community a lot and then Chicago sociology will just want to research something so there is all this net activity to do that isnt compensated yet
Gdp so desperate for only gdp instead of wealth redistribution and honesty you advertise that product because people older then you lived through a lot of net activity and it's federal property information and production gained through communal effort not just out of masters tool
Uncle Sam wants me so I have seen good people use psychiatric abuse victims to try product for them and so no I'm not no no shelter I'm.not going to tolerate that
That and I said I didn't come here wanting to live in southern California
I just wanted to migrate to see what natural climate relief could do to my work unions
I would like look into schools in California and truthfully I just don't like this production to job in
The colors the textures the designs it's all one nation so it's not at all different I just don't tolerate it here much
East people are good people and if you have visited good world that working out those oriental segregation institution requirements is just very
Bosnia herzgovinia they would be so greedy for privileges the sides of my legs look mutilated and there was heavy ammonia smells to my period underwear pad so
And thats when religious owner or cochise brought more meat and an iron deficiency stopped keeping my heart so down...they keep my heart so down
I do have a heart condition that shouldn't eat too much red meat but that looked like h1 n1 and h5n1....so it's she does have to have some cow and pig or down all the time
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fletchah · 8 months
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TL:DR i’m trying to foster a healthier relationship with social media
ok so it turns out my chronic art block is because i keep comparing myself to artists who turn out multiple pieces a week and sometimes even once a day, and that was agitating the “if i cant do it well i won’t do it at all” mindset i somehow ended up with
im a slow creator. i have to compensate for getting distracted, bored, having to do other things, and the like when i try to make art, and as a result it’s pretty rare for me to finish something in under a week. and i know my art is probably fine, but to me it feels like a week to finish what i consider mid isnt a good trade-off. i’m trying to make for myself right now but it’s kinda hard because of that.
i realize that recently, a lot of my motivation to draw is to post it on the internet, which isn’t a healthy way to be. a lot is happening in the ol braincase right now and my stuff not getting a lot of attention is the last thing i need to worry about. i guess i want it to be like… im making art for myself, and posting it on the internet to keep it archived and so people can look at it if they like.
i guess im just really confused right now. anything beyond what i’ve written im still trying to figure out 💃🕺💃🕺
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Could I request a headcannon with the brothers (plus the undatables if you want to) with an MC who can pick them up? Like bridal style, just some fluffy fun!
Strong MC bridal style
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💙LUCIFER
Caught off guard by your strenght, its enough to even make him blush! However he wont admit it (the blusb he wont, but will your stong"
He, just like most of these lads, does find it surprising how strong a small human like you has, even more he is surprised youre that stelghty to catch him off guard
It isnt that he doesnt like the cuddles with you, its just... he prefers being the one to carry, but hey! Maybe you'll be lucky enough to someday warm him up to the idea of being lifted up by you
"MC?! Please put me down right now, i-i... im busy"
💛MAMMON
As surprised as the first born, however it is much more visible than said bro
After the first lift do expect him to be finding ways for you to carry him more often. He'll fake a couple of bad headaches, pretend to be very tired after some walking, jump off some stairs-, you know the usual attention seeker stuff
As time passes by and you two become closer you will be asked this needs more directly, but until then have fun dealing with the typical tsundere boy act
"MC help me out i need a hand with something that i cant reach over at the bookshelf" "why not ask beel? Well cause he is busy obviously!" "Just lift me up- NO IT ISNT-"
🧡LEVIATHAN
Loves you being able to carry him, hates the attention it could bring, it is recomended that if you are to lift him up then do so in a place where others wont see you two
He finds your ability to carry him astounding, like the typical anime character that manages to carry anything that is ridiculously heavy
"MC wait!- n-not infront of all these people!" "Yes im ok i wasnt gonna pass out jajaja really im fine i wasnt nervous about you offering to be so close to me"
💚SATAN
Like pile of dust like son this boy is gonna be shoketh by your firmness. He will also blush and wish to be put down, not because he doesnt like it, but because he too prefers the roles to be reversed.
Unlike the old man however he'll grow to like it much faster. Sure he might like being the knight in the story but surely there cant be anything wrong with being the individual in distress right? He can read while you carry him or have you help him with his books!
"Thanks for coming with me MC, i really needed to pick up those books."" You know, As we reach my room perhaps you could... carry me..?👉👈"
💖ASMODEUS
"If youre this strong carrying him then how strong are you in doing other stuff MC😏"
Absolutely loves that you can carry him, first discovered during an almost accident where you ended up catching him, has since been wanting you to hold him in your arms like this then
Asmo will find any type of excuse, just like a certain little greedy boy, to be carried by you, so you better be having to arms ready for him
❤BEELZEBUB
When it first happened he just stared in silence, processing what just happening. You little fragile human.. carrying the biggest brother in HoL??? How???
Can see why others love it now, however he worries still that he might hurt your back if he is held by you for too long, even then if you feel capable of doing so then tell him and make him feel comfier
"Are you sure i can stay like this MC? I dont wish to hurt you, you know im quite big.."
💜BELPHEGOR
Nothing like taking a nap while being carried by your favorite person in the three realms, he adores your strenght not only because of this, but because you can also help him stay standing whenever sleep tries to take over during important moments of the day
Also looks for any way to be carried by you, most likely for cuddles but it could also be for anything else
"Hey MC im feeling quite tired, could you maybe carry me during the remaining of the walk back home?"
🤎DIAVOLO
Congrats! You just saved the future king of the devildom from him tripping and almost hurting himself, your prize as compensation? A prince who's touch starved-ness is becoming more and more obvious by the second
Please carry him, hold him, love him! This boy is not only shocked your strong but he loves it entirely and needs to see it more in action, just adkshslsjdhd just carry him, even if he is heavy and you can only hold on for some seconds he will be more than grateful
"MC! There you are!" "Diavolo wait my arms arent free!-" *crashes*
💚BARBATOS
Didnt saw it coming and doesnt really know how to feel about it either, he likes that you are tough but that doesnt mean youre any less human
Still with these concerns, he apreciates you keeping his back safe and does like you carrying him, its comforting and manages to give him a breather, even for at least 3 seconds
"Aah its good to see you here MC, i was hoping you could give me a hand and help me reach something in the kitchen?" "I would use a spell of the ladder but it seems to be a safer option if you carry me instead"
💙SIMEON
Didnt knew humans coule be this strong, while he doesnt judge said strenght he does find concern in you getting hurt
He might not be as heavy as others, nor does he find a need to be making up excuses to have you carry him, but if there is one thing he has in common as his demon pals is that he too is touch starved
Have fun wondering if he'll admit to wanting to be carried or not, that angelic smile and those heavenly practices wont ever allow him to say what he really wants to say
🖤SOLOMON
Is surprised you can carry him but, as a human, he wishes tocarry you as well, depending on how heavy you can be he might succeed or he'll cheat with magic to succeed
Wont reject you proposing him to carry him but he doesnt wish to hurt your back either, still he enjoys it and he'll let you know
This ended up being more just carrying and not so much bridal style sooo....🙃
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lesbonoi · 2 years
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rereading the allspark almanacs and compiling random facts and stuff i noticed (from the first one ill do the second one in another post) -blackarachnia named swoop -ratchet used to have a teacher girlfriend -sentinel does genuinely like jazz he just thinks hes weird -ironhide is from a rural area -its probably just a throwaway thing but shockwave might have used wasp’s hatred of bumblebee to turn him decepticon -omega supreme uses teletran-1 -decepticon sparks were going to be shown as red -lugnut was a gladiator of some kind on kaon -lugnut does in fact have five eyes, not one -constructicon butt cracks -megatron trusts shockwave like, A lot. -shockwave’s cannon can fire blasts from “anywhere on the electromagnetic spectrum” which i guess means he can blast gamma radiation at someone if he wanted to -starscream narrates his own section which is funny. everyone hates him that bad. -the clones do have the powers their namesakes had (teleporting, sonic booms etc) -they specifically call sari adopted -megatron really fucking hates sumdac but does think he’s intelligent -the phone/reciever fanzone uses looks like it has a rotary dial on it -swindle thinks the angry archer is cool -this height chart
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-blurr thinks bumblebee has “his spark in the right place” so he likes him to an extent -megatron and the autobots crashed to earth on july fifteenth specifically -optimus believes the allspark lead them to earth implying at least some cybertronians believe the allspark to be sentient in some way. -it also seems that it was the blasts of energy from the allspark that killed optimus, not the fall after -the key also seems to have only been able to revive him by channeling the allspark itself nearby, so in season 2 when it had blown up sari probably couldn’t have used her key to revive anyone if they died -blackarachnia thinks lockdown is compensating for something -ratchet says damn
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-optimus is ridiculously strong? his whole stats are bonkers . nothing is below 8
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-its in the show too i just need to remind everyone nanosec’s real name is Nino Sexton -Powell owns the newspaper (Detroit Powell Press) -megatron was initially under the impression optimus’s team is a group of soldiers but he got intel from shockwave and learned they are a repair crew. he didnt seem to give a shit and spent most of that page talking about how he made starscream everyone else’s problem -sentinel says damn
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-starscream calls lockdown an “abomination“ which is big talk from a guy who is basically a robot revenant -shockwaves ability to shapeshift is referred to as “size altering” a couple times which seems weird, because the longarm disguise is definitely more than just getting shorter -i just want to say megatron writes like a pretentious asshole. he sounds like fucking count dooku which. like. yeah corey burton. christopher lee wouldntve made a bad megatron i guess -its kind of common knowledge optimus was named by kup for his “optimism” and likee funny enough he isnt very optimistic in the show a lot of the time but a lot of his reports in the almanac do actually seem optimistic, he is REALLY sure blackarachnia can be an autobot again, and hoped omega supreme was still online -cybertronian forms aren’t as versatile as earth modes, which is why ultra magnus doesn’t switch back -megatrons cybertron form face is dark where his earth mode is pale/white and it kind of looks like a skull that way. some elements of the earth mode look like parts you could only see on the damaged cybertron form. between that and the whole grey colors megatron might be goth -”ultra-energon” is the equivalent of candy -bumblebee hates gum -according to ratchet cybertronians don’t really like nanobots/nanites and are cautious about using them -the decepticons and their predecessors are/were MILITARY they were not laborers -prowl is the one who gives the backstory and refers to the autobot ancestors as “automatons” and the decepticon ancestors as “robots” and talks like theyre two separate races:
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-sentinel thinks detroit is the name of the planet -cybertronians can blush red
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-optimus has the biggest bedroom which makes sense because he keeps all of his trailer attachments there
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-despite being upset about the spare parts shop, ratchet apparently messes with old cars. might be to be more familiar with the different internals on their earth modes? -optimus keeps one of starscreams wings like, a trophy?
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-prowl also has a little desk
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-ratchet has a picture of arcee and also , someones hand ?
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-the autobots also keep stealing traffic lights apparently because they have several around the base
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-blackarachnia proposed an alliance with starscream and he shot her into space and then immediately crashed the nemesis -dinobot island is actually “north sister island” which is not a real island but is probably based on the various sister islands which do exist irl but are not anywhere near detroit. -the ship crashed on archa seven is called the twilight -drill sargeants are always autobot minors but it doesnt say all minors have to be drill sargeants so, up in the air if optimus ever had a cadet squad -the boot camp is separate from the autobot academy. bulkhead and bumblebee never got to the academy. i think the best way to compare is the boot camp is like high school and the academy is like college, optional but highly encouraged -DJW’s approval stamp is really cute
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-the precursor concept to animated, transformers hero, had a very sweet looking optimus
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Okay so I saw the word "Royal" in your last post and so like do you have an idea about the Royal Family or anything like who is in charge can we get the deets on that or is that spoilers? 👀
oooo YES I HAVENT TALKED ABOUT THEM YET.,..
the .,..country? region?? mochi and lime live in is ruled by the central kingdom. m&l dont live in the capital, instead living in a city actually pretty close to the borderlands between the central kingdom and the mountain region
as you can probably guess the capital is where the palace is and indeed the central kingdom is ruled by a monarch (not a figurehead, he actually does have quite a bit of power, but not all-powerful)
the royal family passes down from generation to generation, and for a LOOONG time the royal agenda has been very anti-magic. not publicly and outright because theyve actually been doing a pretty good campaign of convincing the public slowly that magic isnt really a thing.
but under the hood theyve established anti-magic things like the m34th, they have barriers in place to bar magic from entering the palace, etc
they central kingdom hates magic because theyre afraid of what it can do and what it has done. they dont believe when witches say they are bound by blood oath to never harm humans, so they do whatever they can to destroy witches/mages/magic creatures
similar story to the m34th, they started as a strong fight against magic but over time realized killing the witches wasnt really doing anything so they settled for "allowing" them to live among humans while keeping a close eye on them
currently, there is the king and queen and their two sons. as of whats going on in my head right now, the story surrounding that is that the first son is,....somewhere. gone?? i dont know. hes not at the palace and not in line for the throne. i dont know what he did.
the second son was mentioned a long time ago but his story runs into the frog witch!!
while the father is very anti-witch, the prince (second son) is secretly a bit of a witch sympathizer. the stories his mother told him have him curious and hes the big hearted type, so when his father goes on and on about witch extermination etc the prince....does not agree
im not sure what the in-between is, whether they have some falling out or something but one way or another, the prince ends up running away (eventually after getting himself in a lot of shit finds himself in the swamp region and in the hands of a witch - literally begs her to let him stay and learn from her because he wants to k n o w)
and this subplot actually ends up involving mochi and is her little episode for when she meets the frog witch!!
what happens is the m34th shows up on mochis door one day, not to threaten her, but to bring her in to see the king because he demands her help
supposedly though he doesnt like magic, hes been trying to find his son and hasnt been able to, so he turns to the strongest witch in the lands to help find him. in exchange he promises appropriate compensation and to leave her and her guild in peace.
(i dont think the king is an evil man, just conditioned to think a certain way after being raised and immersed in generations of a certain way of thinking. but he really does love his son and wants him safe and home, and is willing to work with magic things if need be to make that happen)
and mochi DOES NOT LIKE THE CENTRAL KINGDOM. AT ALL. but, after much deliberation, comes to the conclusion that the king is coming to her for help as a father and not as a monarch, so eventually takes the commission and goes on her frog witch meeting adventure
and at the end we find out that one of the women close to the king, either the queen or one of the royal advisers, is actually secretly a witch (or former witch) herself (perhaps the dog witch or something with a cute lil black Pomeranian familiar or something), and mochi earns several friends in VERY high places which will probably come in handy later on (madam royal witch as well as the prince)
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Can we get how the brothers would react to mc being on her or their (idk which you’d prefer) period and just being easily irritated all week?
*** REQUESTS ARE NOT OPEN THIS IS FROM LAST TIME*
I KNOW I've done this before but i cant find it so i guess I'm doing it again. Also note: I personally don't have any issues with my period, i dont get cramps, it lasts like 3 days tops, and my flow isnt heavy, so this is very generic and based on the majority of the population that is NOT like me.
Warning: mild arguments with some of the brothers, period
THE BROTHERS reacting to MC having their period 
Lucifer:
Get sassy with him, he dares you. He does not care that your hormones are out of balance or that you’re bleeding Satan’s waterfall out of your body; respect is a state of mind and can be shown at any cost. Discomfort can be tamed and if you think that he won’t use every spell known to demon kind of you to get you to stop complaining about cramps, you’re wrong. They will work too and all of a sudden you have a shocked look on your face and are feeling kind of embarrassed for snapping at him, but don’t worry, he’ll just make you apologize. Lets it slide. Come to him directly next time and he’ll use that spell on you to get rid of cramps and pain, as long as you don’t get sassy again. 
Mammon:
LMAO what even is the human body? One minute you were perfectly fine and then he apparently said something to piss you off? What the hell, man!? Will defend himself, of course, and get pissy with you, too, asking you why you’re onto him in the first place. If you yell “I’m on my period you twat!” Be prepared to explain, as simple as possible, what that is and how it affects you. Will most likely expect compensation for dealing with your emotional self and catering to your needs. Take him out for dinner afterward and you’re all good; dealing with hormonal people is exhausting, after all. 
Leviathan:
He, sadly, knows what it is, and in all honesty, would rather hide away from you in his room during the entirety of your period. He can’t handle you crying and then yelling at him with tears in your eyes and screaming for chocolate!!! He’ll leave blankets and cookies outside your room and talk from a safe distance, but he’s too scared to mess up and make you angry by saying something that’s not right. He’s heard horror stories of people on their periods and the last thing he wants is for you to cry to him about how one potato didn’t taste the same as the other when he cooked dinner that day… he can’t handle it. 
Satan:
Of course he knows what it is, and he could smell blood from miles away. At first, he tried to be understanding. He gave you what you wanted, got you what you needed, but you still ended up irritated with him, which had him irritated, and yes it did end up in a shouting match and you crying, him storming off. He’ll feel bad, after a couple of hours, and return with food and your favorite movie, but don’t think he won’t hold that grudge for the next argument you have with him. Hormones are a bitch, and he has anger issues. This is not a good mix. Don’t rely too much on him from here on out. 
Asmodeus:
He’s the KingTM. Heating pads, tampons, chocolate, and him naked are all ready. He heard an orgasm is the best way to relieve cramps and he’s ready to give you plenty of those ;) Has no fear and or shame toward period blood and will go down on you/fuck you into the mattress regardless of the circumstances… as long as both of you can take a nice, relaxing bath afterwards. He most likely won’t get too irritated if you are angry with him for whatever reason, but he might sass back. A soft, “just like you.” might leave his mouth sooner or later if you stab at him with anything truly mean.
Beelzebub:
Poor boy knows like the basics of what’s going on with you and that’s it. Chances are, you started getting sassy with him out of nowhere, without telling him what was going on, and he of course ignored you, not wanting to deal with an attitude. This would probably make you angry and or cry/feel down. In both cases he’ll ask what’s wrong and if you do tell him you’re on your period, he’ll make a little ‘O’ face, and ask what you need. He’s still doing his own thing, though, so don’t expect him to drop everything and tend to your every need. He’ll pick up food from his way home from the gym, or sit down with you to laze around a bit, holding you tight, but nothing too mind-blowing
Belphegor:
Why are you mad at him now?! He’s apologized for something he isn’t even sure he did for the tenth time today, because if he didn’t, you’d cry again, or ignore him, or feel down about yourself. Why are you so emotional? He’s already given you his pillow and his cardigan and now you’re practically one with him so what more could you need?! He’s just trying to take a nap, with or without you, not try and figure out astrophysics. A loud sigh would leave him, probably upsetting you, and now he has to pull out his secret weapon of chocolate, but at least that’s sure to make you happy for a little while. 
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antiloreolympus · 3 years
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13 Anti LO Asks
1. ok but thats seriously what bugs me so much about LO, it never actually lets serious moments be serious, it's always lampooned by rachel's insistent need to force in her juvenile "humor" and never actually depicting how pressing things are. even the following moments from persephone's r//pe was undercut by hades making stupid puns! i understand if rachel cant write something more serious than "[x] is bad" but if thats so, then dont try it? because thats how you end up with this pretentious mess.
2. since when did lo hades have earrings??? i legit do not remember this ever being a thing??? is he trying to be hip with the kids 😭my man you still look like a crusty old man the earrings arent helping 😭
3. lo hermes looks and acts like flaky from happy tree friends and no thats not a compliment (TW for gore, blood, and violence if any of you google it)
4. Even though the earlier art style was better there are still some cursed panels from the earlier pages that still haunt me. Especially the way Persephone was drawn differently in so many of the panels.
5. lo hades has such "how do you do fellow kids" energy and im not sure why
6. im also confused on the fertility goddess stuff because how stupid is persephone if she didnt notice? she can create life and nature without even thinking and shes implied to be a genius in biology, so how would she not even notice this? if RS really wants to go with this plot, then why have her professor bring it up in class? why not show persephone going to her uni's library to research the topic and pouring over it? that's an easy way to show persephone's intelligence, yet LO doesnt even try.
7. What I wanna know in LO was how Demeter and Hestia were compensated after the war. The three brothers got to be kings and Hera is queen, but what we know of Demeter is that she had a millionaire dollar business that’s probably made it on its own (unless she was helped out) and then Hestia all we really know about her is that she runs that TOGEM and idk if there’s only 4 of them, Hestia really had a group by herself for a bit since Athena is Zeus’ (assumed) daughter, Artemis (Zeus’ assumed daughter) and persphone (newest member) which seems shitty since they won a war together
8. I think what happened with LO’s art style was RS got “lazy” (I’m lacking the right word). I feel like without the colors all of the men in LO have the same body type, and Hermès and Apollo may even have the same face if they smile the same. So to compensate for that lack of body diversity, RS doubled down on Hades’ features to make him stand out more to really show he’s the male lead. However, even in her own words he looks like Persphones’ “dusty ass dad”
The women use to be a little different but they’re all starting to blend with body types. Her was small, but now she’s short and busty like Persphone. RS makes Persphone look short and busty all the time but almost childlike. Minthe was skinny but her last moments she was busy. Aphrodite I feel was just busty but then tried to make her look small also with Ares and Hades beside her. Hestia stayed the same but is still small and busty. Athena was tall and thin (?) but now she’s tall but busty (and her relationship with Hestia looks like it mirrors HXP). Idk I just feel like the longer screen time the female characters get the more they start mirroring Persphone’s look. Like even Artemis was getting empathized on being small next to her brother Apollo. Like all the girls gotta look small but curvy as the story goes on. 
9. Demeter: watched her friend get ripped in half. Watched her friend get continually cheated on, paying the price for not hiding a mistress , watched metis get eaten, her back clawed, fought in a war. Later made a daughter who’s a fertility goddess (probably an accident) and now has to raise her. That same daughter then went on a rampage and isn’t really remorseful
Fans: Demeter is such an overbearing mother who gets in the way of our ship.
10. on regards to ace characters, asexuality is a spectrum like everything else, so a lot of asexuals actually do enjoy and have sex, so the maidens doing so isnt inherently a problem, its the fact rachel is clearly viewing it through a strict binary where she assumes asexuality is something that can be "fixed" over time/when the right person comes along. its also a bad modern reading of it, as "virginity" in an ancient sense meant via marriage, not via sex, but I doubt rachel cares to factcheck it.
11. Imagine an elf is given a job to do at a human institution. The humans think elves don’t need bathroom breaks, since they know they can hold it for days, but this elf has been traveling to reach their job, and has already been holding it to the point they are in pain. They ask for a break, but their job is important and time sensitive, so they admit they can still hold it when asked. After a full day of work, the elf tries to reach the bathroom in time, but they were never told where it is.
From OP: I think this might be a nymph allegory? Anon never specified so I'll put this here anyway.
12. ya know if hades has to lie to make apollo seem worse (who does not need much in this comic) its like??? why is he persephone's lawyer then?? lawyers are literally told not to lie, this is basic law 101. thats why they dont want their clients to mention to them if they actually did the crimes because then the lawyers have to say it in court. if hades lies so casually just to keep persephone away from justified punishment, then thats bad actually!  both in being a decent person and as a lawyer!
From OP: Hades didn’t lie but he was definitely out of line. RS liked a tweet saying that the wife thing was “subconscious” so it probably was. (Still doesn’t make it right but I doubt he’d say those things on the stand.)
13. I know Minthe was written in a way she was suppose to be unlikesable, she’s rude, she yells and she doesn’t hesistate. HOWEVER RS wrote her character badly. Minthe is so unliked? How was she able to be a bad gf to hades and Thanatos? Like yes it’s an affair but how was she able to pull 2 gods?! We don’t hear Hades or Thanatos say what they like about her BUT they both still had a fling with her. (Honestly I feel it’s cause RS can’t bare writing one nice thing about the female anatangoist without trying to make Persphone look good)
The other thing bothering me was everyone knew about her relationship with Hades after she put it on fatesbook, but everyone talked about the kiss in such a positive light IN FRONT OF HER. Aren’t they suppose to be scared of her? Why did the girls in the yoga class/dress shop had so much to say about that kiss? Because they knew persphone? Did they know every other detail too? What was their actual beef with Minthe?
I feel like realistically some more characters would have sympathy for Minthe if they didn’t know her that well because of Hera. Everyone knows Hera is a pill to deal with and she’s the goddess of marriage who hasn’t really tried bringing Minthe and Hades to the alter. That right there should let everyone know that Hera probably doesn’t help the situation.
Idk, I feel like RS could have gone deeper and made the character not such HXP shippers cause most people wouldn’t cheer for cheating nor an old ass guy getting with a 19 year old. (Idk how fast the news of the slap spread, but I doubt it made it to every place in their fictional world)
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