#i need to stop making post like this bc i was a toddler 😭😭

[fentrashcat]

Tic Spirals

⚠️this is of course my own experience and each individual with tic disorders will have unique experiences.

Post might be hard to follow due to sleep issues but since this is the first time in a while this has happened I figured I'd write about it. Maybe it'll help?

Idk if there's a different term for this but it's different from a tic attack, but can sometimes trigger attacks.

So as of writing this it's 3am, I'm exhausted, I need to get up for work at 6:30am, and I've been trying to sleep since 1am.

I'm too tired to sleep.

Now this might sound like what you'd say about a fussy toddler, missed nap time and is now too tired to sleep, but for me it means a tic spiral. I tic bc I'm tired, ticcing makes me tired but keeps me awake, I tic more, ect until I crash. Caffeine can also make me tic more, and I had an energy drink so I could function at work today? Yesterday? Earlier. On about 3hrs of sleep already.

So as I'm trying to fall asleep, I keep getting motor tics. Getting annoyed with that stressed me out and started up some verbals. Stop the verbals, get comfy, almost get to sleep, and it starts again. 2 HOURS of this. I know the solution is sleep. I know once I sleep ill be okay. But my tics just will not let me sleep, and I think that's one of the most frustrating things. Being aware and not being able to stop it.

It's like the whole "telling a depressed person just be happy" but instead I'm trying to tell myself "just sleep" even though I know it's not that easy.

I'm probably not sleeping tonight, which will likely lead to a tic attack tomorrow no matter what I do. Hopefully it will happen AFTER work so i don't have to leave early again, but my tics are never that considerate 😅😭

Some more tic spiral examples include-

Anxiety makes me tic, ticcing around people makes me anxious, Anxiety makes me tic -> usually leads to my Bad One tic attacks, only solution is usually home, put on a comfort sound, and take a nap with one of my cats.

Whistle (not perfect) click, whistle (not perfect), whistle (not perfect), whistle (perfect) click, whistle (not perfect) -> luckily this one usually ends itself quickly but if my whistle isn't good enough I have to keep doing it

This was long and rambling but it you read it, thank you. I hope it makes sense. I really want to sleep but even if I am allowed to fall asleep now I will not wake up on time no matter how many alarms I set 😅

Now, I'm going to go have some ice cream at 4am ✌️

[edwardsshinyvolvo]

2008 2022

[fictiophillia]

the INTJ post was really so good 🥺🥺🥺 could you would you write a mammon and INTP? 💕

a/n: First of all thank you for your request!!! And I'm glad you liked it, hope you like this one too HSJAKSHKAJSHSJAKSHJA I actually almost made the other INTX because I was talking with an INTP friend and she also likes Mammon, he also agreed that INTJ and INTP are pretty similar, in the end I decided to keep it INTJ but I'll be more than glad to do an INTP one!! ❤️

If this is too short you can always request this same request but with scenario specified :)

Mammon x INTP reader

warnings : later there's smut, I'll warn tho (includes dom! top! reader) amab reader hinted.

gender : neutral

First off all, he admires you.

He thinks you're very smart and loves hearing you talk about something you like.

And then you're also kind??

Nah bro he's simping already

He hates that you don't get his hints that he likes you.

As if he wasn't the same 🙄🙄

But he loves how affective and kind you are with him so <3

Anyways you could be wearing literally anything and he would still think you'd look stunning.

"YA KILLIN' IT HUMAN!!"

"THANKS BABE YOU TOO"

Like

And he thought >he< was the model

You're just perfect in his eyes

Doesn't matter your gender, height, weight.

For him you're the personification of the emoji "✨"

He loves your smile. Please smile. He wants to see your smile. So smile for him.

And- not even a smirk like in the previous post, no, a mf sincere smile that only in you looks so pretty.

As if you're personality wasn't enough to make him fall in love-

He also loves your humor

Literally you could make your shittiest joke and he would still crack up.

"Does anyone have sunscreen??"

"No I don't like the way it tastes."

"Wait you eat sunscreen?!"

"No why would I eat it I just said I don't like how it tastes!"

It's just funny how you're like

"God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him. How shall we comfort ourselves, the murderers of all murderers? What was holiest and mightiest of all that the world has yet owned has bled to death under our knives: who will wipe this blood off us?"

Meanwhile hes just like

"I'm gonna start a band specifically to start a romance within it that then ruins the band"

You both have similar energies and are almost as energetic too.

"Yo mammon would you rather fight a hundred toddlers or-"

"I wanna fight the toddlers."

"I didn't get to finish?????"

"Those toddlers are getting SMACKED-"

"goodnight human, Love ya <3!!!!"

"goodnight.

❤️"

"OI! You were supposed to say it back >:("

"oh

I sent a heart tho"

Do him hard, praise him while you wear your usually calm-but-kind-of-energetic face, it'll make him feel so many mixed emotions.

Good emotions tho dw.

He'd be cumming in a minute-

Every touch you give him just gives him chicken skin 🐔🥺 (JOKE BC IT'S HOW WE SAY GOOSEBUMPS IN PORTUGUESE/SPANISH)

Honestly he doesn't even know if he wants to dom or not-

Like, in the intj version I said he would be very submissive, breedable and "yes PARENT-"

But with an intp I see him actually just being like that one vibe

"*carrying an onion* ANYTHING FOR YOU BEYONCÉ!!!!"

Except instead of Beyoncé it's you.

simp 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

Like I said before you could be in a hoddie, pajamas, tracksuit, wrapped up in a tortilla blanket and he would find you drop gorgeous.

"Look at you so beautiful under me... always trying to brease me- sorry I meant please me, it was my colorblind ass talking."

What does even colorblind have to do with that?? Neither of you know.

Also that just ruined the whole mood because you're both laughing your asses off.

Or maybe not 👀

"M-mammon calm down you're squeezing me too much..."

Now you're both are still horny AND in a happy mood.

Aw look too crackheads in love 🥺 /hj

Maybe, just maybe it improved the mood.

And maybe you two didn't stop there.

But you definitely calmed down.

Just don't crack a joke every time you too fuck 😭

" ooo you two are always according to each other, you must be into soms kinky stuff at night~ I wonder what the weirdest/kinkiest would be—"

"So Mammon brings his book of anecdotes and I read some."

" ...he brings.... a book of anecdotes..?..."

"Yeah, searching them up online takes too much, then we would have to get hard again-"

" ..... I'm not going to question it anymore."

He pants hard under you, never loosing either intensity or speed of your trusts.

He arched his back, he was close, but so were you.

You hold his hands each one at a side of his head, you both locking fingers and sweating, the only sounds being skin slapping and unsteady breaths.

"Y-ya know.... *pants* ya looked so hot today I almost couldn't get a hold of myself at dinner.... Ya really do look like one of those super hot models.... and those new pants... ya should be careful bein' here around me like that or else I could faint~"

"......... sO I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE BECAUSE I'M DRESSED LIKE A HOOKER-"

You both wheezed to death.

The end.