#i rly cant get enough

[limbel]

back to the real biz: jocassie truthing

[koipalm]

liushennnn in my attendant sy au (read right to left)

notes on this au:

sy transmigrates into a new body when sqq fights the system trying to force him out of his body. sqq is livid and decides to take sy as his retainer/secretary/assistant, forcing him to do most of the accounting & administrative work on qing jing peak and work for sqq for free while also helping sqq avoid his tragic fate by telling him spoilers and secrets about the world that sy remembers. sy has no golden core and no cultivation, and cant wield a spiritual sword or fight. sy has no documents, no money, and no prospects. sqq basically provides everything for him & can also take it away. sy moves into the other room in the bamboo house and cleans and organizes as well, although his own room is a mess. sqq never makes it clear what sy's position on the peak is, so all of the disciples follow his orders in fear of disobeying sqq. sy is basically 2nd to sqq, although he doesnt see it that way; he sees himself as sqq's overworked servant. he resents sqq for his control over sy's life, but he's terrified of being kicked out.

sqq takes sy to the peak lord meetings as well, using sy to carry documents, serve tea, and to give him information about anything that might be useful to sqq if it comes up during the meeting. sy also often acts as a messenger for sqq between peaks. he doesnt get much interaction outside of senior disciples and the other peak lords.

since sy's hands are usually full with documents, accounting books, talisman paper, & anything else sqq wants him to carry, sy can't use his fan to hide his face as much. instead he uses his hair & his glasses. his skin is sallow & he often misses meals from running around doing sqq's errands, so he always seems tired. clothes he wears are simple & loose, either slip on or buttoned up. he dislikes loud & bright patterns bc he doesn't want to stand out, but sometimes has no choice bc sqq buys his clothes. sqq will often make him wear more extravagant patterns, even when it makes sy nervous about attracting attention.

since sy seemed to appear out of nowhere to the other sect members, sy is very worried about acting too suspicious and getting kicked out. he copies sqq as much as possible to acclimate to the world and seem unphased & elegant.

sy is very interested in the other peak lords since he interacts with them often, especially liu qingge. liu qingge often catches him staring, but sy tries not to interact with anyone more than he has to. liu qingge usually sees him hiding behind sqq as a buffer. if sy does speak, he does it low & quiet, & if behind his fan if possible.

sy looks like his old body & has long black hair, similarly styled to sqq by his insistence. sy dislikes this.

sqq calls sy "a-yuan" bc sy doesnt like it. sy doesnt like telling people his name though bc it makes ppl think theyre related, which he also doesnt like, so he doesnt stop sqq from indroducing sy as "a-yuan". this makes it very difficult for other ppl to know what to call sy in fear of being too familiar

sy does meet sqh earlier in this au, and he helps him as much as he can get away with behind sqq's back. since sy is less bound by the system than sqh is, sqh sometimes "sponsors" sy to do things he himself cant do.

sy calls sqq the equivalent of "sir".

[onfjre]

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[ipxakachi]

Guilty Challenge but he also got stuck

[matbaynton]

a year ago i made this poll, so let's try for round 2 (with slightly different options) bc i'm still curious 🤨❓

[dandelion-roots]

I MADE MY FIRST ANIMATIC AT LAST IT IS DONE

only had wrist strength for one finished drawing so the thumbnail isn't representative of the chuuya POV dazai-related angst actually in there. the animatic takes place between the cellar scene and the lovecraft fight but has flashbacks to a bunch of other stuff (with my little headcanon kisses <3)

thank you for checking out my janky first born if you do!!!

[kindan-no-kanojo]

🦇 𝕯𝖎𝖆𝖙𝖔𝖇𝖊𝖗 2023 🦇

Day 14+15: Possession / Magic || Masterlist || Prompts by @ fruit-of-infidelity CG From Memories' Prologue ; TW: Rhiannon 🗿

«I ran out of patience, I'm taking her with Me anyway!»

«Your life will be a better payment.»

[subarashiihibi]

got motivated to work on my izaya model and update his face after 4 years of it being embarrassingly lackluster we are so fucking back

[sadhorsegirl]

fuck it posting moiraine playlist on main

[craycraybluejay]

Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.

[rox-of-iu]

me + mayhem going on a stupid silly hike for my stupid silly mental health

touched grass and i am normal again (lying)

[banghwa]

genuine question how do u get over ur fear of existing

[skitskatdacat63]

Watching the Brawn docu has me wanting to reach through the screen to choke out Christian and Montezemolo

[yuukei-yikes]

haruka and takane are literally said to be experimented on but we never know what exactly happens to them and rly they didnt Have to get experimented on to get to where they end up on, just killed. but also its so much more fun to imagine they do get experimented on. my hc is since their red eyes case is kinda unique the experimenting bit also plays a part in the way saeru cheats the system to get 2 snakes out in 1 day. cuz technically ONE snake should be out by killing two people. for 2 snakes to get out you’d need 4 people!!

also something i never got is HOW is ayano able to open the daze by herself and keep one snake when it’s supposed to be when 2 people die. all 3 of their cases are a little ridiculous or i just personally dont get it. i take pride in understanding kagepro but ayano’s thing is something i never quite got lol. HOW DO ALL 3 GET A SNAKE IF THEY DIE ALONE(?) i thought maybe the daze opens for ayano bc haruka and takane’s deaths already opened it that day?? we dont rly know if ayano dies before or after haruka and takane after all. erm. 1 million thoughts in tags like always

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

ok let's talk about max chapman cos GOD i've been waiting for a character like her for literally forever lol...

she's such an interesting and complicated character that honestly feels so HUMAN!

her journey of discovering her sense of identity, both in terms of her queerness and her own independence, is so real and beautifully portrayed!! also, her stubbornness in the face of adversity as well as her stubbornness in the face of her own desires feels SO relatable tbh (she knows what she wants, and she'd gonna GET what she wants, but also she's terrified of what she wants, and what if what she think she wants isn't really what she really wants? etcetc)

and her fear of failure is so palpable, and it's very much a fear of rejection that mirrors itself in her relationship with her mother and uncle bertie... (she doesn't want to let her mother down, even though she knows who she is is inherently never going to be who toni wants her to be, and being confronted with bertie showed that rejection from the family and that terrifies her!)

another thing i really appreciated was how selfish she could be, albeit unintentionally. she takes clance for granted at times, she uses gary, she hurts bertie with her words condemning his identity, and even her comments to esther were harsh... but she makes amends, she apologises and grows! It's honestly one of the first times i'm seeing an adult female character in a piece of media be allowed to be so messy, but also just so GOOD!

like her heart is always so desperately in the right place! she gets the crab for clance, despite the humiliation, she lies to her mother for so long about her other job because she doesnt want to hurt her, she continues to meet with carson despite the fact she had already given up hope that she would ever get close to having her own team like the peaches, she knows when she's fucked up and she acknowledges and apologises for it!

she's just... she's wonderful and i love her lol

[arolesbianism]

Ive been thinking a lot abt the constant native survivors, and it's kind of lead me to hcing that all of them had first spent extended time with some other survivor, enough so to get taken note of, meaning the first time they died they were placed into their own fun endless cycle of death and suffering woo. I mainly just like this idea because it would mean each of them, including ds exclusive characters, get to have a notable relationship with at least one other survivor as the first they met. For Wurt it was probably just Wickerbottom and she and Wortox probably got it the easiest since ghosts are a thing in dst, but the folks who are from ds have a lot more wiggle room for some fun stories. Ive already mentioned my Wheeler and Wormwood hcs a few times very vaguely, but I've also been thinking abt Walani just leaning over Wilbur and going damn bro that sucks wanna hit some waves. And by process of elimination based on my own sanity woodlegs gets Wilba now worst uncle niece duo you've ever met (affectionate)