#i say what have i become but i actually think my lifes got alot better since joining tumblr

[vilelittlecritter]

I made an ao3 account...

what have i become...

Whenever I finally make the first chapter/prologue to OmorOff it'll be posted on there since it's a lot better than just posting it on Tumblr lol

The accounts name is "Zonkerdoodle" although there isn't exactly alot on it yet

[4pfsukuna]

Hi!! Hope you’re having a good day so far! I love this asexual!reader x jjk series. Every one of them has been fire!! Could you do asexual!black!reader x Choso perchance pls if you’ve got the time? Anything fluffy or maybe even a meet-cute. Would love to hear your thoughts/drabble. Thank you for all the works so far!!!! 💫

Girl dont make me cry! Also sorry this took 150years and its not my best work so if you want another one let me know😭😭

Drabbles to headcannon ft. Choso kamo

Sketching out the park in the yard of the apartment conplex you live in you sigh frustratedly tearing yet another page out the book.

“You must like trees” a tiny voice says next to you and you notice its one of your neighbors the energetic little boy with pink hair who youve swear youve seen kick through concrete.

“I just cant find the right color” you pout and his eyes widen at all the color pencils you have.

“My brothers good at coloring, he stays in the lines real good. We can ask him” he grins looking behind you and you see a stressed looking man nearly running toward you. His eyes soften when he sees you.

“Cho! She needs help coloring” the tiny boy beams unphased by his brothers distressed state.

Theres large amounts of cursed energy coming from you but you dont seem to be a threat.

“Yuji what did i tell you about running off” he huffs out his robes moving as swiftly as he does. Yujis eyes get watery and his bottom lip trembles.

“But oni-chan” he whines and chosos face instantly softens and you think the soft spot he has for his little brother is adoreable. He somehow convinces his brother to color your trees and you notice he isnt half bad.

“Your struggling because your using one shade of red for the leaves when it should be three to capture how they fade into brown” he points out which you arent too happy to receive.

What? Youre an artist and youre sensitive about your work. You make an excuse to leave shortly after and head back to your apartment.

A few days later you hear a soft knock on your door and to your suprise find Choso and little yuji who smiles brightly at you.

“Oni-chann bought you colored pencils! Its the expensive ones” yuji beams excitedly holding up the gift bag and Choso jaw drops looking at his brother.

“Actually he seen a coloring book he wanted to get you…and i noticed i may have offended you the other night so its a peace offering” he speaks and you notice the marking on his nose you want to ask questions but it’s rude.

Your living room had been transformed into a art studio with paintings, paint, blank canvases pencils and loose sketches floating around and Yuji can help his self as he runs in looking over each piece. Choso is ready to apologize but you instead walk over to yuji explaining all the different artworks and hes shocked at the way he holds onto every word you say.

Its something about the way youre so good with yuji that makes something in him stir not sexual but its like he’s seeing you for the first time. 

Yuji comes over every day after school… which means Choso comes over every day.

You start learning how he’s basically good at every thing cooking, drawing, playing instruments, origamii, baking, it actually pissed you off sometimes it was becoming a game of “anything you can do i can do better and make yours look useless” And you were losing.

It’s when he begins coming over without yuji that you enjoy spending time with him and you notice he’s alot more relaxed the pressure to be the best is gone.

He’s only trying to be the best to impress his little brother.

He enjoys doing little things to make life easier for you, taking out the trash, helping with dishes even keeps your company on wash day. It’s the day he collapses from exhaustion on your couch that you realizes he’s such a people pleaser for people he cares about.

And touch deprived. He falls apart when you place a hand on his forehead dark eyes void of anything just enjoying your proximity.

His favorite place is your lap where he lays his head and closes his eyes as you massage his scalp running your fingers through it, his 2 signature buns long gone.

It’s when you hear his soft snores that you turn down the t.v and set an alarm for when you have to get Yuji from school.

Choso never pressures you into anything sexual or even talks about it, why?

Hes our asexual king!

He’s happy with the quality time and returned acts of service the two of you give another. He gets his fill from watching you and yuji interact. He gets his fill when you see the tiredness in his baggy eyes and pat your lap for him to lay down. 

He gets his fill when you ramble about your day and coworkers and the latest telfar Bag drop. He LOVESSSS going to the hair supply store and when you let him smell the hair products.

He knows better than to use it because he looked up hair type when you went on a rant about your hair having 2 different hair types.

He closed the window when it began talking about weave because you said you didn’t wear that and that yes your hair grew 36 inches over night and changed texture (you still giggle to yourself about it because he was either so gullible or too polite to ask)

Purposely leaves his hair ties so he has a reason to come back, though between Yuji and his great cooking skills he was always welcomed.

[lovelyladyabsinthewrites]

I’m a strong defender of SB actually caring about his daughter and here are my reasons:

If she has a bully we’ve stated that he’d take care of it regardless if the bully was a boy or girl, and also not caring if he’s drunk or sober; especially this last detail shows how he cares for her because that’s his babygirl and even though she’s more than capable of fighting her bullies herself no one will talk bad to her or harm her, not if he has a say in it

If he’s awake late at night watching tv and having a drink or two, if she would walk into the living room and jump on the couch to sit with him because she couldn’t sleep, he’d let her sit there as long as she didn’t make a sound, but he also would ansker her if she asked what the movie he was watching was about or who was who on screen; and if she fell asleep at his side with her head on his arm or legs, he wouldn’t move her

He’d even caress her hair, you can’t tell me he wouldn’t as she sleeps peacefully at his side

How could he make something so… delicate? Not in a bad way. I think he’d be scared of having a daughter because he can’t be soft. He’s never been soft for most of his life. Girls need softness, that he can’t give.

But he can!! He doesn’t realize but he likes it when she cuddles up to him on the couch when he’s trying to have a nap, laying against his chest, and he likes it when she brings him random drawings she makes, folding them and hiding them in his pockets only to take them out again when he undresses and leaving them in a drawer of his dresser with the rest of her drawings

Maybe he doesn’t take her to her first day of school or teaches her to ride a bike, but he’s for sure proud to see her on that bike riding down the street. That’s his babygirl

When she’s older he even shares late night drinks with her. He knows kids shouldn’t drink but his kids are teenagers and they aren’t pussies and if they’re gonna do it anyway better do it at home; he even enjoys the small silent moments sitting with her having a beer when she comes home from a friend’s party in one of those rare days where HM was off somewhere himself, and it’s only SB and his daughter at home; she sneaks in a bit later than usual, and as many times Ben is awake having a drink. He doesn’t yell at her for being out late, at least she got home safe, and when she sits down with him after grabbing a bottle for herself, he nods acknowledging her presence, and they enjoy the moment in silence

Now I need headcanons for how their relationship would be once SB comes back years later

okay this killed me like

pure tender moments between soldier boy and his little girl

i like the hc of mc and sb having these quiet moments where sb feels secure enough to be soft with his daughter.

them sharing mc's first drink together while hl is out on an assignment for vought.

sb probably thought about those times alot in russia :( and now he has a chance to capture them again. You're just a liiitttllle bit older than last time. and more jaded.

having nowhere else to go (like hell he was staying in that shitty motel), you'd grudgingly offered up your small office room in your apartment. butcher had also suggested it would be good for you to keep an eye on your dad to make sure he doesn't act out. you kinda felt like the parent now.

for the most part, he'd behave himself in the beginning. this was a great chance for him to get to know the person you've become.

but you still don't really know how to act around him, ya know what i mean? you've never dealt with the obvious childhood trauma you had. vought had onsight psychiatrists and therapists, but you wouldn't dare. that would be a sign of weakness.

so when you come home one night you find sb has actually set the table with microwave meal trays on your ceramic plates. they're those incredibly unhealthy meals he used to warm up for you and hl years ago. looked like he spent most of his allowance (you learned he would drink your own alcohol stash if he couldn't go out to buy his own) on a nice bottle of whiskey.

"i hope you're hungry babygirl." he smiles though it doesn't go past him the tenseness on your face as well as the bloodied knuckles you attempted to hide with your sleeve. "why don't you go wash up for dinner."

It was freaking you out. "okay. . ." and when you come back you awkwardly sit across the table from him. "whats the occasion?" you watch him fill your cup with the honey colored liquid.

"no occasion. we just haven't had time to talk, you and i. remember this brand? the same one i gave you for your first drink." he chuckles to himself. "even for your first time you tossed it back like a champ."

communicating with soldier boy had always been a struggle. "talk. . . about what exactly?"

"your life! all i know is that you're fucking that butcher guy and trying to kill your brother."

"it's more complicated than that." like you wanted to kill your brother. someone you had loved so much with all your heart, trusted like no one else. it ripped at you to be on an opposing side to him. you'd tried reasoning with him.

"then tell me."

and you do

and to everyone's surprise, sb IS trying his hardest to be a better father to you now though it's far too late.

oh, oh and think of the bar nights with you, sb and butcher cuz he insists on attempting to get along with him.

sb: "still have no idea what you see in him."

you: "well, nothing you can see with his clothes on at least 😏 😏"

sb: "😡"

butcher: *laughing*

best believe he's still unfortunately a misogynist no matter how hard you try to correct him 😓 and he still lacks a filter too so that's why you give him a taste of his own medicine by mentioning your sex life.

sb: oh my god stop talking about dick sucking!!! >:(((

you: you're the one who called him a cock sucker! if you call anyone that it should be me 🧐😆

sb:

[mirai-e-jump]

TV Guide Dan Vol.49, October 2023 Issue ft. Kamen Rider Gotchard Cast Members Junsei Motojima x Yasunari Fujibayashi Interview (translations below)

Publication: October 20, 2023

"You two are currently appearing as rivals in "Kamen Rider Gotchard." Would you please describe each other's role?"

Motojima: Kurogane Spanner, played by Yasu-kun (Fujibayashi), is a cool and mature kind of character. If Houtarou Ichinose, who I play, has the mental age of a 10 year old, Spanner would be that of a 25 year old. I think it's interesting that they're rivals.

Fujibayashi: Well, they're rivals, but I'd say that Spanner is overwhelmingly stronger.

Motojima: No, I don't think so! In episode 3, Spanner loses to Houtarou.

Fujibayashi: He didn't lose.

Motojima: It was Houtarou's win!

Fujibayashi: Ahaha! Since the details aren't clear, we'll leave it up to the viewers to decide (laughs). Houtarou, played by Junsei, is a true to life version of Junsei, or rather, he's just as he is. He's mischievous, an airhead, and a lively person! Gotchard is Junsei's first full time acting role, so he's got alot of room to grow. I think you'll enjoy watching Junsei's growth and development alongside that of Houtarou's.

"What's the relationship between you playing these roles?"

Fujibayashi: We get along really well, huh?

Motojima: Yeah. Also, when I was having trouble with my acting, Yasu-kun would give me advice like, "Try this kind of movement here," so I really appreciate it.

Fujibayashi: I don't have that much acting experience either, and I'm not in a position to give advice, so I'm just saying what I feel from an objective point of view. Junsei has his own unique style, so he's able to express it through his acting.

"What specific scenes do you think Fujibayashi-kun's advice helped improve?"

Motojima: The one in episode 3…

Fujibayashi: Ah! The scene where Houtarou and Spanner fight with shinai's in the dojo?

Motojima: That one! For that scene, we read the script over the phone the day before filming, and before we shot that scene, we talked for about two hours in the waiting room thinking, "If we did something like this here, wouldn't it turn out better?" I never learned how to sword fight, so Yasu-kun taught me how to swing a sword.

Fujibayashi: It was really difficult to move around while saying those lines. But, both of us were determined to make it a great scene. We practiced holding umbrellas instead of swords while saying the lines. In that scene, I personally thought, "Junsei's so amazing."

Motojima: Eh! Where, which part?!

Fujibayashi: There's a scene in the dojo fight where Houtarou did a jumping head butt toward Spanner's stomach, and I thought such an attack would be absolutely terrifying and painful. Actually, Junsei squirmed the moment the footage cut to that scene. Still, I believe that the viewers could feel Junsei's determination to put his body on the line and his passion for the show. In that sense, episode 3 became an important episode for us.

Motojima: It's a scene that we absolutely can't leave out when talking about this show. Also, there's a scene in episode 5 where I did pro wrestling. I had to act as if I was in pain when I was subjected to a technique, but I didn't know what it was like when a person really feels pain. So, I asked Yasu-kun, and he told me, "When people get hit in the lower back, they arch their body and feel the pain."

Fujibayashi: We actually hit each other on the back of our thighs to see how we would react (laughs).

Motojima: That's right (laughs).

"In contrast to the relationship between Houtarou and Spanner in the show, we can see that you support and get along well with each other during filming, do you also hang out in your private lives?"

Motojima: Next time, all the cast members promised to go to an amusement arcade!

Fujibayashi: It's just a plan though. Everyone's schedules don't quite match up….However, everyone's made good progress and have become friends. Besides, I feel like the two of us will have a relationship that lasts a lifetime.

Motojima: Oh~! That makes me happy!!

Fujibayashi: Junsei's current "weapons" are his freshness and his will to "Just give it a try," and he has the most important passion for an actor. I myself have my own pride as an older person. I'm confident that we can maintain a good relationship as acting rivals even after this production is over.

Motojima: Yeah. I hope we can continue to improve each other through friendly competition.

Fujibayashi: It's still early in Gotchard's story, but looking ahead to the ending, I'm already kind of sad! But, I'm really looking forward to Junsei's growth.

Motojima: Oh, I appreciate that.

"By the way, do you know each other's views on love?"

Motojima: We talked about love once before, right? On a train ride home after filming, I asked him, "What kind of person is your type?" It was because I was curious (laughs).

Fujibayashi: If I'm remembering right, Junsei's into pretty girls, right?

Motojima: Yeah. I think Yasu-kun said that was the type of person he'd fall in love with.

Fujibayashi: That's right. Also, I guess Junsei likes quiet people.

Motojima: Yeah, I like quiet people.

Fujibayashi: I like cheerful people, so I don't really have a type at all.

"How do you go about approaching someone you like?"

Motojima: I feel like I'm a proactive person. For example, as a student, I might ask someone, "Would you like to go to the cultural festival together?

Fujibayashi: That's good! But, I'm as proactive as Junsei. I also reply to LINE messages very quickly.

Motojima: That's right, you're really quick.

Fujibayashi: Without messing around, maybe I would straight up ask her, "Let's go out to eat!" and start meeting up more often.

Motojima: I see. I really want to talk on the phone with the person I like. I'm aiming to do a "fall asleep phone call" (he awkwardly laughs).

Fujibayashi: What, that comment was too cute!

"Now then, please tell us about the benefits of becoming your lover."

Fujibayashi: Since I can speak English, I can take you on trips to various countries!

Motojima: Eh~? That's not fair! I definitely can't win against that! But, I can play the guitar. It would be nice if I play and she sings.

Fujibayashi: You're going to make her sing?! Isn't it about Junsei playing the guitar?

Motojima: Ah, I want her to listen!

Fujibayashi: Well, you know, Junsei's really cool when he plays the guitar! He has a very soft expression…When I saw Junsei's guitar video, I was so moved that I couldn't help but send him a LINE.

Motojima: Fufufu~ Well then, I'll play the guitar for you. On a beach overseas!

Fujibayashi: No, you don't have to compete with my English (laughs).

"In the future, If you were to co star in another production, what kind of production would you like to appear in, and what kind of relationship would you like to play?"

Motojima: Houtarou is also a second year high school student, so I'd like another school story.

Fujibayashi: Junsei can still play student roles. I think I'm limited to playing a college student…

Motojima: But, I'm also a college student, and it would be nice to play college classmates. It'd be fun to compete with each other for lovers!

Fujibayashi: I'd like to fight as two historical kings. Something like, "Romance of the Three Kingdoms."

Motojima: That sounds good, I want to try it!

Fujibayashi: Junsei in the form of a military commander…Hmmm, his dark face would suit it…maybe?

Motojima: Yasu-kun also has a dark face, right?

Fujibayashi: I had the opportunity to wear a wig when I performed in a 2.5D musical, but I have thick eyebrows, so I sometimes have to clean up my eyebrows with makeup. So, as a member of the "eyebrow tribe," I'm alittle worried about Junsei's eyebrows.

Motojima: Eyebrow tribe (laughs). But, I really do hope we can co star in a historical drama someday!

[stormdragon23]

Y'know Woochul was also one of the first ships I got into, and I feel like their dynamic is such a breath of fresh air.

There's no tried and true rivalry, not (alot) of misunderstandings, just two dudes chilling out with each other.

Two people that are rounded characters on their own, but also make each other better. Whether it be by Jin-woo limiting the havoc he wreaks when he's fighting (and failing everytime because he's too damn strong) or the way Jin-chul subtly, but insistently, looks out for Jin-woo makes my heart fuzzy and warm.

I just think they're a ship that has something most other ships I ship don't- a mature understanding of one another and compromise. (I ship too many enemies to lovers ships man. Sue me I like red and blue)

Anyways just wanted to word vomit a lil' bit sorry about that lmao

Yes, you worded it so well!

I haven't talked much about Woochul/Chulwoo, but I like how they always seemed to just click together in the fanfics I've read. A progression of getting to know each other and subtly helping each other in their own way (Jinchul looking out for Jinwoo when Jinwoo is still weak while Jinwoo looks out for Jinchul when he becomes an S-Rank in return)

While my headcanons on their relationship vary since I haven't thought about them in a while, I do think they have a good understanding of each other, despite having different life experiences. I also think they would communicate fairly often but not actually say what they mean and instead, give hints that the other picks up on quickly. So they communicate well with each other but in their own way. I like to think that Jinwoo enjoys teasing Jinchul from time to time too (That one moment in the side stories where Jinwoo teased Jinchul about the drawing of Beru? Priceless)

I also like to imagine that their morals line up as well, which is why I think they're very compatible (Side note but in my mind, Jinwoo with Haein: Would save the world for her; Jinwoo with Jinchul: Would sacrifice the world for him)

I actually think all my top ships have a mature understanding of each other (Choibaek do understand each other, they just pretend not to sometimes, especially in public-), but Woochul/Chulwoo are one of the more popular ones that are like that. And you're good! Most of my ships start out as enemies to lovers haha I mean, look at my main one-

Oh, no worries! I love seeing people's thoughts on ships and other Solo Leveling topics! You're always welcome to send more! <- This goes for anyone

[dysaniadisorder]

A comic i have affectionally named 'starburst'

Happy terrible comic day 2024, I decided to use it to throw together some thoughts that've been weighing on me for a while. (i use it/its by the way)

I'm a gigantic fucking perfectionist, so when i heard about this day i originally didn't even consider making anything, but i felt it was important to dig into; for my own sake. Every time i do some sort of comic about myself (even if i don't finish it), i come to some kind of understanding, and i think i have here. i understand myself better because of it, even if it doesn't really change anything.

ID in alt, transcript under cut.

Page 1: I've been thinking about suicide alot lately (well, about as much as i always am.) I am transgender. I am a poet. These two things mean I always have to be succinct. Perfect! Well-spoken, palatable. Easy to understand. Do you mean anything?

Page 2: When i say things without thinking, i become a bulldozer to others. So i micromanage my presence. Think far too hard about each word, each breath caught in my throat. I'm a showpig at heart! a boy and a girl on the stage. an old man. a girly-girl. But who am i when i'm not in the spotlight? I hate memorizing scripts, but at least I'll know when i mess up. Who i am. how i'll end up.

Page 3: I, (unlike most people in my opinion), am actually aware of what it means to kill myself. I am intimately aware of any microscopic influence, consequence, of every little thing i will lose. That the world will lose. It is not about the ratio of loss-to-gain. It's not about health, nor about family. It is about what I want. (i remember reading a book where the characters brother attempted to kill himself.

Page 4: He told her; "It's not about how much i love you.") "Committing Suicide", for all its fucking flaws, is a term that makes sense. It's a very, very large commitment. Like committing a murder, it can be intricate, or impulsive. But still a fucking crime. It's a sin. But Khata means "to fail." What have i failed? Do you not think my crimes committed in life are not worth one more?

Page 5: I am afraid. (I'm not interested in repenting.) afraid of living, dying. afraid of being alive, of being dead. I'm very interested in being nothing. not just not perceived, but nonexistent. The world would be a worse place if i never existed, but i am sick of doing things for the world. i wish my mother never killed herself, but its empty. i cannot judge her when i so badly wish i was her. We walk the same, talk the same. Wear the same jewelry. All i have to do is follow in her steps.

Page 6: But when i think of Trans people, i feel like i can't breathe. I'm not elegant with words, but suddenly there are things worth suffering life for. You know that comic about the books that never get banned because they're never written? When i think of trans people, i think of that. I think of all the people that i– and everyone else– never got to meet. it's a pain that buries its way straight into my chest and through my throat. "in my dreams, a woman keeps whispering: keep going. Maybe in the next lifetime we'll make it to the water." (Kai Cheng Thom: On the Origin of Trans Femmes)

Page 7: Everyday, i want to die so bad that it hurts my fucking heart to beat. It is all so fucking grim. & there's nothing wrong with "becoming a statistic". But I'll keep living anyways.

[segasys]

Me again >:3! I'm here to ask about what Headcanons you have with Hunter and Survivor (I'm not asking about monk because my boyfriend wants to ask about his baby so he left it to him when he dares xD) I'm really curious, and also what your inspirations were in Your designs are so beautiful! Have a nice day/night :3!

thank you!! raaagh ok surv and hunter teehee

i actually have a bit of candy cane in my AU, though it doesnt really go well.

hunter is an interesting character to me. in my AU im thinking of making the rot grow based on the natural urges the creature with the rot pursues. for hunter that is karma 1 [violence/anger]

hunter has a hard time controlling their anger, and it progressivly get worse as different events happen, some of those events being the two heartbreaks she endures, unrequited love by spearmaster, and a breakup with survivor [they were just not compatible in personalities]

artificer tries to help him out, and it kinda works, but hunter still lets karma 1 consume them until it becomes hll

this is as much as i got to say for them, im a bit tired, my brain has stopped working hehe, hope this is good

for designs, i recalled i got a tag on my hunter designs saying one looked like a nurse, and i thought that was so fitting and wanted to keep that vibe, i hope i was successful. i also just think the pink fits them alot, i like pink hunters. very valentines to me. if i could do digital art again, id totally try to do a valentines day art with them but i dont think thats going to happen. and of course i had to add some nsh in there with the green and the mark on the back of their neck. hunter is also kinda like a maned lioness, i tried to convey a more lion like look on her.

for monk, it was just a really pretty yellow combo and i think it was the best yellows i got. the purple goes well with it, and kinda matches surv's eyes too, though that could just be me.

surv i tried to keep more monochrome and dull, but i really liked the more warmer brighter colours, i think it gives more life to them. heres two things i did when comparing and seeing which colours looked best in contrast with monk.

the colors i used definitely go better. i also really like albino survivors, but i wasnt successful with that, the only thing that could be albino would be the eyes.

heres what ive already shared of survivor and monk personality wise.

[raytm]

knowing your partner can potentially make writing together a lot easier.

– BASICS.

✧ NAME: ray !!! ✧ PRONOUNS: he / him & they / them. ( sometimes ) ✧  SEXUALITY: ur local questioning pan - ace something. ✧  TAKEN OR SINGLE: single dad to 2 cats ( they aren't actually mine )

– THREE FACTS.

✧ i am adhd brain very chronically. i forget things alot, i bounce around alot ?? my attention span is always quite short ?? without my meds im pretty suire i would be an atom floating in space ?? i am also autistic so you can probably see the issue i have with both of these 2 things bbeating heads all the time. ✧ i am australian, we are real, i do not sound like an aussie but also apparently i do which is ??? ✧ i am 4'8 i am very small ic annoty reach aznything pls send a tall person to make my life signifantly easier.

– EXPERIENCE.

✧   HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?): i have been writing since fucking like before 2010. so a long ass time. ✧   PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED: gaming websites, chatzy, discord, facebook, tumblr, random forums like rp.me idk what th at was about though. ✧   BEST EXPERIENCE: i meet alot of talented writers on tumblr so that's probably my best experience i think ?? i learn alot and get the chance to read some prettyt artistic writing and interesting hcs

– MUSE PREFERENCES.

✧   FEMALE OR MALE:i gravitate towards male muses ALOT but for some reason sparkle has got my by the throat rn. ✧  FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: i can and will writ4e all of these, i have a preference more towards angst & smut because fluff can become a little ?? meh after a while. but i do love me some domestics as a treat everynow and again. ✧   PLOTS OR MEMES: mermes mostly bc i suck ?? at plotting ?? so badly honestly i am allowed 1 thought every 100 hours and idk when that is coming tbh. so you can always ssend a meme in and we can continue it or just ?? slap me with ur muse like a fish. ✧   LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: i want to say usually 2-3 paragraphs but for some reason everytime i open google docs lately i end up writing 5-10 paragraphs which should be illegal. ✧   BEST TIME TO WRITE: after i take my adhd meds oml. usually morning - afternoon whyen the sun goes down so do it ✧ ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): idk maybe >??>>> i guess ??? i feel l;ike this is a querstion i shoudl ask someone who knows me better OFONFNDCXN

TAGGED BY: mpo tags ypoui take it from me <3

[adoredmarigold]

Questions!! Yay!!!!!! I've got a lot to ask about, I'm sorry

1. What are your favorite ships other than david and lingard (tbh in some way that ship reminds me of kirk x bones, not sure if youre into star trek tho xd)

2. Ava or Tripp?

3. Favorite S2 characters? Do you have any S2 ships?

4. What do you think are the best possible and your favorite endings of S2, S3 and S4??

5. And of course, I wanted to ask, whats your opinion on Bonnie.

I feel like I've been asking you some questions before but I dont remember excstly what it waasszzzzzzddsdszs if I already asked some of these questions IM SO SORRY but I cant say no to asking twdg questions

hello :) 1. VIOLENTINE!!!! It's such a lovely ship I will defend it with my life, istg Violentine haters have yet to bring up a valid point as to why they don't like it. I have some crack ships like Eleanor x Kate or Eleanor x Ava, I don't have much to say about them I'm just gay and wanna ship my girls together lmao. hmmm, I've been seeing some Mark x Lee stuff to and that looks pretty cute. Ermmm this is making me realize I actually don't ship much in twdg lmao, I guess I also ship Clouis and Gabentine Clouis is sweet and has good moments but I just don't find them as compelling as Violentine (sorry Clouis shippers). As for Gabentine I guess I would say I ship it, but more so in a "first crush/puppy love" kinda of way, The relationship never becomes anything serious they're just kids with a crush on each other and honestly I don't need them to become anything more than that. aaaannnd I know nothing about Star Trek but you're gonna make me look into Kirk x Bones now, thanks. 2. Well if we're just talking about the characters in general then Ava, she's so underrated imo. BUT, if we're talking about whether I choose to "save" Tripp or Ava during the execution, I always choose to let Tripp live. I'd rather have Ava die here than get that stupid fucking death she gets in ep 5, Tripps death in ep 5 is a lot better cinematically and writing-wise. 3. Sarah :) She's been my fav season 2 character since the season first came out and I will never forgive the writers/fandom at the time for how they treated her, SHE DID NOTHING WRONG. As for ships I guess I don't really have any for season 2, I mean Alvin x Rebecca I suppose though I'm not particularly invested in either character. Never been a Nick x Luke fan, I get the appeal but it ain't for me. 4. I can't really say which ending for each season is the best cause it's all pretty subjective, but I will give you my favs :) I guess I don't really have a fav ending for season 2? I choose the alone ending each time just cause I can't deal with Jane and Kenny's bs, don't hate either character but Clem doesn't deserve to put up with their bullshit anymore, she's the main character it's fine let's just ignore the logistics of an 11-year-old going off alone with a newborn. I also like the Wellington ending alot though! Not only because it's the best location for Clem and AJ to end up at but it also gives a satisfying conclusion to Kenny's character imo. Kenny spent all of season 2 trying to keep Clem and in the end AJ by his side for ultimately selfish reasons and he became extremely violent and unhinged in the process. So to see Kenny finally be selfless and be willing to give them both up to ensure their health and safety really redeems him for me. Kenny loves Clem and AJ but I really don't think he's fit to take care of them, this is the best possible Kenny ending for me. 5. Bonnies cool. It's been awhile since I've played season 2 and 400 days so I am in a desperate refresh of her character, but from what I remember she was interesting. I def think the fandom goes WAY too hard on hating her, from what I remember she's not really any worse or better than any of the other adults in season 2, she's extremely flawed but hell who isn't in The Walking Dead. I get being frustrated with her but the lengths people go to shit all over her character is kinda insane to me. So overall I guess I don't have much of a strong opinion on Bonnie, she's an interesting character with alot of flaws but I don't think she's evil or cruel. I hope her and Mike where able to get away and join a community or something. Also, I distinctly remember her being my fav 400 Days character and having a crush on her when I was a kid lmao. wowie okay that's all I gotta say, and don't worry you're all good! If you (or anybody really) send me a question and I don't reply it's probably just cause I forgot to or I'm stumped on what to say. CRIES

[lover-girl-estxx]

Nick 40 x reader 24

Reader is pregnant and Nick is very protective of her because he’s actually scared and nervous to become a father and doesn’t want to let her down because he’s a failure in his opinion.

Angst fluff?

Oh My God

I was feeling sick the past week so I called Misty, she is one of the only people who will keep what we talk about quiet.

"you are prego" she said

"no I can't be" I said

"why not?" she chuckled

"well I guess I could" I smiled

"go get a test"

It sat on the counter as I heard the front door open, I flipped Pregnant I smiled widely "Nick!" I called him. He came in the bathroom "you okay?" I nodded "better than okay!" I put my hands on his hips "i'm pregnant!" I smiled "what?" he slightly smiled "really!" I handed him the test his slight smile dropped "your not happy?" "no no baby i'm happy" he smiled and hugged me "I can't wait!"

---- Month One----

I was deep cleaning the house and moving our stuff out of the spare room to other places or the trash to get it ready for the baby. I picked up a box walking it to the garage, Nick must how just got home cause he pretty much ran to me taking the box from me "what are you doing you can't lift that" he said "it's fine i'm not that big" "no no I got it" "thanks" I smiled "go watch TV i'll finish the room" "no it's-" "go watch your show" "love you" I kissed him "love you".

"I need a fight or something" I hear Nick say on the phone and went and stood in the doorway

He turned to me "oh I gotta go" he said "who was that?" I asked "no one" "Nick?" "my manager" "I thought we said you aren't gonna fight" "we're gonna have a baby we need money" "we have plenty of money Nicky we'll be fine" I wrapped my arms around him "i jus-" "shh we're good" I kissed him.

---- Month Two ----

I sat tying my running shoes "where you going?" Nick asked "Misty wants to go for a run with the kids" I replied "can you do that?!" "yeah baby people do it all the and it's not really a run it's more of a jog" "well I don't- be careful she doesn't know your pregnant so don't ru-" I straddled his waist "i'll be fine I promise, you worry to much bubba" I cupped his cheeks and kissed him "I don't want you to get hurt" I kissed his forehead "I won't".

---- Month Three ----

Nate was all about filming the whole gender reveal, which me and Nick were fine with. "say who you are and what you think it's gonna be?" Nate said "okay" I nodded "hi i'm your mom and I think your a boy" "i'm your dad I think your a girl".

| Nicks POV |

I hoped it was a girl i felt so much pressure becoming a dad, but being a dad to a boy adds a whole new pressure. I was so nervous, I failed being a fighter failed at a alot in my life in my opinion. "you okay baby?" she asked as I sat at one of tables drinking a beer "yeah!" I smiled "we're gonna find out in a bit" she smiled widely "sit while we wait" she sat on my lap.

"okay you ready?!" Misty asked with a huge smile being the only one to know what we were having "yes!" Y/n hopped up grabbing my hand. We both popped the confetti a baby blue, she jumped up and down with a smile. I smiled and hugged her "Nickolas jr?" she whispered I nodded and kissed her cheek.

"you're finally gonna have a boy to hang out with!" Y/n said holding Nate jr while sitting at a table with some guys from the gym and Nina, I sat at a table next to they'res "you happy?" Nina asked her "very very happy" "Nick?" "we'll talk about that later".

---- Month Four ----

| Y/n's POV |

"i don't know if I want to do Blue what do you think?" I asked my laptop resting on my thighs "whatever you think" he said not looking away from the TV I sighed and shook my head. my phone started to ring Melissa

"hi!" I said

"I want to take you and Nick shopping Nina too"

"oh no you guys don't have to do that" I closed my laptop

"I want to! both of you get ready"

"o-okay"

"two hours?"

"thats good bye"

"bye"

"your mom and sister want to go shopping, get ready" I said getting up "no you just go" I sighed "I wanted to get a crib" "go for it baby my wallets on the dining table" I sighed "nick?" "what?" he finally looked at me "will you please come!" "go have a girls day or whatever" "No! I don't want a girls day! get up and dressed!" "it's not that serious" "it is! it's like you don't care you haven't helped with his room or shopped or even talked about it! it pisses me off so go get ready".

Nick was in the shower I walked in sitting on the toilet cover "Nick?" "yeah?" "do you want to have a baby?" "what? yes I do" he stuck his head out "i just feel like you don't care but then somethings you do," he got out wrapping the towel around his waist he picked me up putting me in his lap "you let me go baby shopping by myself but as soon as I have to go to the store I can't go by myself cause your to worried it makes no sense".

| Nicks POV |

Her eyes got a a bit watery I wiped her eyes "i'm sorry" I kissed her cheek "whats wrong?" she asked "nothing just nervous" 'lied' "Nick?" I bit my lip ".....I don't think i'll be a good dad" "why would you say that? Nick great uncle your gonna be 10x that being a dad...your just a little scared thats okay" she rubbed my shoulders "I feel like i'm a little more than scared" "if you called anyone who has a kids they're gonna tell you they were scared. i'm scared too nothing you can do about it," she smiled and shrugged "your best dad Nicky" she pecked my lips.

I opened her door "you got him to come!" my mom said making Y/n nod "yeah took a while", my sister pushed me as we both sat in the back "you okay?" she mouthed I nodded. "what color do you guys want?" Nina asked "um I don't know i'm not really feeling blue" Y/n said "can we do green like tree green or whatever" Y/n smiled and nodded.

---- Month Five ----

it July and about 95 out Y/n hated it and hated being pregnant when it was this hot. I walked in Nicks room she was painting his wall in her shorts and sports bra "I was gonna do that when I got back" "I know I couldn't wait" "sit down I'll finish and I got your ice cream" she smiled coming over and taking the spoon with the pint of ice cream "thank you!" she kissed me then sat on the rocking chair.

"thank you for helping" she said "don't have to say thank you" "you've been helping a lot shopping and stuff too," I nodded and kept painting "your still thinking about something though" "its nothing to stress about" "I won't stress I just want to make sure your okay" I sighed "y/n i've failed at a lot fighting and stuff....I don't think I deserve all this....i'm worried it's gonna be to much" I could feel tears in my eyes she wrapped her arms around me from behind "Nicky you deserve more," she put her hand under my shirt then kissed my shoulder blade "i'd give you a better hug but your sons in the way" she whispered I chuckled and turned in her hold. She cupped my face "your gonna be an awesome dad I mean come on your Nick Diaz" she smiled making me chuckle again she pulled me down and kissed me.

---- Month Nine ----

| Y/n's POV |

Nick had his shirt off next to me holding Jay "hi Nick" he whispered kissing his head "he's so tiny" he added I smiled and kissed his shoulder "he's got you brown eyes bubba" I said he smiled and nodded "I hope he's like you" I smiled "he's gonna be all you".

Nick sat on the couch holding him just looking at him "he's so cute" he said as I took a picture of them.

Y/nDiaz99

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[justcallmesolll]

My silly little top tens

yeen rambles #10

stealing this idea from the wonderful @whitestorm4prez bc originality is dead!!!!!!!!!!

anyways ive only read the first arc but most of the major shit was spoiled for me on the internet.

#10 Thrushpelt. i love him!! he's such a nice guy. i feel really bad for him for his one-sided love of Bluestar. she missed out frfr. but even when Bluestar makes it super clear she doesnt like him, does he hold a grudge? no. does he resent her? no. what does he do? become her friend instead. amazing man.

#9 Darkstripe. i think he's both the most hilarious and fucking balling my eyes out sad villain ever at the same time. dude just got fucked over most of his life. i mean i find him sily because every time he tries something, it fails horribly. but at the same time, he's got fucking no-one. he's alone. no friends, nothing. the one guy he trusted with his life turns out to not even care about him at all. i mean seeing him scramble to revive what little there is left of tigerstars plan, seeing everyone leave him, him realising that nobody was truly on his side. his last moments preaching for a dead man who never cared for him. his life being over like that. he never did anything meaningful, and he died like that. im gonna write more abt this a some point but yea!!

#8 Tallstar. his character arc is one of the most heartwarming things ever. yes, he was a shitty leader, but do ya know what? he grew as a person. he changed and made himself better. i also think him and Jake r cute and i LOVE the headcannon that he thought fireheart was jake coming to save him and his clan.

#7 Bluestar. RIGHT OK. i know i say i hate her but by god how can i not like her at the same time???? i mean all her life was just horrible shit. and she stuck through it. i know she was a real bitch coming towards the end of her life, but she stayed, stone faced and understanding to most cats around her. tigerclaw was just the straw that broke the camel's back. but most of her life she was so awesome.

#6 Cloudtail. i think hes such a silly guy!!! he's a big hot-headed atheist!!! silly guy. him and brightheart are so cute together. and yea thats it literally hes just silly thats why i like him

#5 Longtail. I LOVE HIM SM OMGGG the fan service he gets is so good. but the most important thing is his character arc. from being a bully, but all round loyal cat, to desprately trying to prove his loyalty to firestar by any means possible. longtail thinks that firestar sees him as disloyal, but firestar proves him wrong, asking him to come on the journey with him the relationship between them is so nice to see.

#4 Greystripe. what a guy. hes amazing. he puts up with firheart way more than he should have to. i mean fire is a straight up dick to him alot of the time and he sticks with him like a loyal friend. i love him hehehe

#3 Ashfur. if u cant tell already, i like villains. i like Ashfur alot actually. cant help feeling bad for him. mans had a rough time. grew up without a mother, was practically ignored by his mentor, when he finally found someone who gave him a little attention who does undeniably treat him like her mate, she just turns around and goes "yeah no lol i was just w u to make brambleclaw jealous lmao." he was plunked right on his head and left alone with no-one to care about him. the only person who slightly cared about him was his sister, and she was too caught up in her own shit to help. its the sticky feeling you have knowing that if he were just cared for right, he could have turned out just fine. instead, he was neglected and left to become what he did.

#2 Hawkfrost. i love the fan service hawk gets honestly. im a huge fan of the artwork he gets. hes cool. i like the idea of him feeling the need to prove himself to his father. but yea hes just cool thats why i like him tbh.

#1 to absolutely no-ones surprise, my #1 fave warriors character, is SOL. hes so silly. but no fr, hes the funniest fucking villain ever. he sucks ass at being a fucking warrior and he comes accross the clans and is just like "yea yk what im gonna fuck with em." he literally gaslight gatekeep girlbosses all 4 of the clans and he actually gets away with it. i also just like his whole asthetic, and THE FUCKING FAN SERICE HE GETS???? HOLY SHIT ITS SO COOL. i swear you cant make Sol fanart look bad bc hes just so fuckin cool. silly little guy!!

[thefoolishone666]

Today's little fact about Smiling Sona, is going to about what makes life worth living...Pain and suffering. I am about to go over what the critters will say is the worst injury they have ever had...not as many shadow related injuries as one would think.

Catnap: Injury...Injury...Oh! Recently my lab partner made a bet with me to see who can withstand one of the bunson burners longer on their hands. He ended up lasting 3 seconds or so...So I had destroy his confidence. I ended up lasting 15 seconds and become slightly richer, so who is the fool now!? (Bubba, in the background: Still you.)

Bobby, after a LONG pause:...Oh! Sorry for taking awhile there to answer, I am not exactly one to gain too many injuries, perks of having a silver spoon I guess. I think the moment I would say is the worst would be the time someone stabbed my hand. They were asking for money and I...Didn't have any at the time to give. Shame, really miss that friend...

Kickin: Ha! I will do you one better. I can name both mine AND Hoppy's! We were very heated about... something, don't remember, and ended up fighting. We were away from the responsible folks, so we REALLY went into each in the fight, broke her nose, she gave me a shinner, I knocked a tooth out if I remember right, but the worst things we got from that fight was that I broke her jaw, and she broke my arm before we were pulled apart and the ambulance was called. We were stubborn about the injuries, and we actually tried walking away from the medical professionals... Then the adrenaline wore off.

Hoppy: I can vouch for all of that. Still surprised that was your choice and not something from a gang fight...

Crafty:...Can we change the subject? (While not technically an injury, it still is a scar in her mind. When she was very young, she had to go to the hospital for something serious. She was heavily convinced she was going to die. The reason why it stands out in her mind was that she was in there for days and not a word was heard from Kickin and Hoppy, and she was fairly convinced she was going to die without either knowing. Which, kinda snowballed into her feeling like she needed a legacy thing with her shadow. Not the full story of course, but still.)

Bubba:...That shadow me may have made good inquiries and points, but I will NEVER forgive him for what he did to my ribs...If I can speak without perjury in my words, I sometimes still feel it whenever I do alot of activities, like in Physical Education. I know it is just a hallucination made up in my imagination, but...I sometimes wonder what would have happened if Picky didn't stick up for me...

Picky: Can I cheat and say two? My first thought was the time ma skull cracked more then Bubba when he watches a funny movie. My brother and I were tossing hourse shoes and I had got a bit too into it and threw my horse shoe in anger into the air when he was winning...What were the words Bubba used when he learned that again? "How you survived when we stopped talking is a question I am not going to figure anytime soon." The second I can think of was when we were fighting those darn shadows. Bubba hates me bringing it up, but simply put, me and Bubba were separated from everyone else and a shadow snuck up on us when we got careless...I wouldn't want to lose him again. That is how I will finish that story.

Dogday, opening shirt to show scar: Less said about what happened, the better.

[nocaptainonthisship]

I understand the point of your post but it hurts alot when your fics don't get the kind of kudos or comments other writers fics do.

I completely hear you on this, nonny.

Not comparing myself to other writers is something I am trying to get better at every single day. Its hard! You start to wonder if people aren't reading because there is something wrong with you, or with the way you write. I have to say, I don't think that's true at all.

I think a lot about that old biblical phrase, "there is nothing new under the sun." I think, too, about "there are no new stories, only new writers." Partly, its because I write fanfiction. Partly its because I'm repeatedly drawn to adaptations of older works. Partly its because my number one response to watching marvel movies was usually saying "Cool story, bro, but what if it was about a woman??" and then, a couple years later saying, "Ok, but maybe not like That."

But I get to think about the other implications of that, too. No story I ever tell will be completely 100% from my own imagination. I am the sum total of all my parts. Every book I read and every movie or tv show or play I've seen lives inside me, the parts that most interested me broken down and distilled and recombined to be something that feels entirely my own.

What makes my writing special is ME.

I wrote my first piece of fanfic when I was 12. It was a songfic(Evanescence's Bring Me Back to Life, just in case you were worried I wasn't a baby emo) and it was angsty as all hell(some things never change I guess.) A few people read it. A few even dropped nice little notes about it. I can't tell you if it was actually any good, because that forum has been dead for a long time, and the desktop at my parents house has been replaced in the almost 20 years since. I suspect it was fairly terrible, though. I mean, I was 12.

I wrote a little more as I got into high school, before I started telling myself to grow out of fanfic(don't worry, I also grew out of that.) But I kept writing, mostly just for me. I kept getting better. I kept becoming more and more confident in my own voice and what it is I can bring to the table.

Which, I guess, brings me at long last to my point. I'm not some superwriter who doesn't get a burst of joy when someone leaves a comment on one of my fics. I LOVE connecting with people and knowing that my words touched someone's life in a positive way. But I don't need it. I'm going to write for myself(and the 6 psychos in my dms.) I'm going to write things I can be proud of, things I can stand back and say, "I did that!" I don't need to be the most popular, I simply need to be the best version of myself.

There is always going to be someone out there who is more popular than me.

But there is never going to be another me.

There is never going to be another YOU.

Be the best you that you can be. Tell the stories that you want to tell, not the ones you think will get the most engagement.

What you bring to the table is important, no matter how many people comment.

Keep writing, keep being you. You will find your people, I promise. I didn't find the 6 psychos until my 30s. There was a time I thought no one at all would ever like my words. As much as I enjoy being right, I'm so glad to have been proved wrong on this one.

[littlemisssquiggles]

So...about the EIGHTH episode of RWBY Volume 9...

I...have no words for this episode. No really y'all this episode left me speechless

I'm gonna need a week to process all the reveals that happened in this episode.

I think the part that resonated with me the most is the part that some of y'all probably expected to impact me the most. You already know what it is…

It's the part where Illusion Ozpin is beating the shit out of Ruby with the Long Memory, screaming at her that she isn't cut out to save anyone. I like the visual irony of Oz being to one to tell Ruby she’s unfit to be the hero when it was Oz who chose Ruby in the first place.

Anyways, Ruby retaliates by slashing at Oz with Crescent Rose. But when Ruby looks up, it isn't Oz she finds standing before her anymore.

It's Oscar.

Of all the things that I was expecting to see, Ruby essentially killing an Illusion Oscar was not one of em. Not lying to tell ya’ll, that part took me out. I actually gasped at this part.

But from my initial shock at seeing this scene came a big realization. Of all the people that Neo could have shown Ruby killing on accident, why show her Oscar?

I mean yes it makes sense given that it was Ozpin who was beating Ruby before and Oscar is Ozpin’s successor. However, for me, why I find this part most interesting is that it highlighted to me the significance of Oscar’s presense in Ruby’s life. What he means to her.

One of Ruby's fears is the thought of failing Oscar too. We saw how she reacted to failing Penny and being reminded that she failed her twice over.

Ruby is afraid that she could one day potentially fail to protect Oscar as well, just how she failed Penny...and Pyrhha...and everyone else.

I find this part to be most significant. And no this is NOT my shipping heart talking here. I just find it interesting that Oscar dying is used as one of the main pieces used by Neo to cause Ruby to reach her breaking point.

If I ever needed a sign that Oscar is important to Ruby from this volume then this was it. Perhaps not in a "romantic sense" but Oscar IS important to Ruby. He is someone she doesn't want to fail.

I can say more but overall this episode just left me floored. And of course, the final part where Ruby essentially committed suicide.

She drank the tea made from the leaves of the Tree and essentially erased herself from existence.

And then there is Neo. She finally got what she wanted. She wanted Ruby to die and pushed her to "kill" herself. And after breaking Ruby and bringing her to that point, Neo breaking Ruby essentially caused her to break as well.

And there comes the big reveal.

When I said before that I was hoping the Curious Cat would become a part of Ruby...this was NOT how I envisioned it to be.

I did not expect the Cat to be a villain.

That part stung man! This entire time I was rooting for the Cat to be an ally.

I JOKED about the Cat being like Kyuubei from Madoka and look what happened in this episode.

I can't believe that the Cat is the villain! I cannot believe it!

And of course, Little getting killed by Neo and used to cause Ruby to reach her final breaking point---again, another thing that I called in a previous post and look what happened in this episode!

All in all, this episode was ALOT to take in and I'm still taking it all in.

And let's not forget about the main theme to take out of this episode---this entire time, Ruby has been battling with the depression and what can essentially be presumed as "suicidal thoughts".

Thinking that she doesn't want to be herself anymore. Thinking that the world and everyone else in her life would be better off without her existing and then the final nail before her choosing to essentially kill herself.

Ruby killed herself ya'll.

Call it what it is in terms of the theme. We just watched our main protagonist committ suicide.

Now obviously I have no doubt in my mind that Ruby is going to be alright in the end. From the shot of her being swallowed by the tree, Little also fell with her as well.

I feel like this could lead into Ruby being resurrected through Little. Like Little's purpose being revealed that they were meant to help Ruby come back and fix her or something like that.

That's my hunch for now.

Beyond that, I think I'm done talking about this episode for now.

Do I think this episode was a good episode? Oooh I would go as far as to say this episode was the best of this season so far. There is just so much to unpack from it.

At this point, we are 2 more episodes away from the season finale of V9. Where it goes from here, I don't know. For now, I'm gonna go lie down and process this episode a bit more.

~LMS (2023)

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

Hi friend, Its been a while.

I hope you're doing well, its been a while since i wrote to you. Whatcha say? Its been since 2014? Damn it really has been a while. i guess if im being completely honest....its because i got off of tumblr and forgot about this page until i logged back into it to get my writing from highschool. Wow its been since highschool hasnt it? Well for a while there i did  get alot better. i found a groupf of friends i absolutely loved and some of them have even lasted to my mid 20s. But right now i feel like im losing myslef again. and i hate to be the person to only send in a letter to you when i am not feeling myself and when i am getting bad agian. But i am actually reading the perks of being a wallflower which reminded me about tumblr and then when i saw this page i couldnt help myself but to send in a letter. Being an adult is hard friend. harder then i thought at 16-19 when i thought i was becoming an adult by the age of 20 bc it didnt have the teen in it. truthfully i dont know what im doing in life as an adult. I am a kindergarten special ed teacher aid and its been fantastic learning how the other side of it works...But it also been HARD. Its such a hard career and i never picture myself as a specail ed teacher rather then a gen ed teacher but here i am.I been winging it daily because even when i ask for training no one helps.im stress as all fucks becasue i knew teachers didnt make alot BUT I AM MAKING SO LITTLE AT THIS JOB, i was part time at my preschool i was working at before this and was making more each check, my therapist asked me if i regretted leaving and honestly i dont know.but its been stuck in my head since. I do have this amazing boyfriend who supports me in every decsion and loves me to death and i love him we known each other for 10 years just about and we started dating 5 months ago. but sometimes i think my ex bf before this relationship really fucked me up with relationships. I love him and i know he loves me but i question alot like if he actually does love me. which sucks because i wish my brain could realize he does. im exhausted physically and mentally I have a support system and theyve been helping me...but its not enough to feel like i was before i dated him. my ex. and its not enough to help with the constant panic attacks i have again..I been doing so well too.....I got a psych doctor so i can possibly get on medication something i thought i never needed. im just lost at this point and dont know what to do but this is long enough so friend thank you for listening to my rant. i think i might start writing to you again, youve helped me at the worst of times in highschool and i thank you for that and thank you for being there for ppl so they can get things off there chest. btw im going to my dads 3rd wedding next month and thats wild.

Love your friend,

erindinosaur16

[cuntstable]

pucci first impressions ofc

MAN. thank you but the beast is unleashed.

First impressions:

wow dios bestie! alot of people whos jojo opinions i respect like him i cant wait to see what kind of a freak he is as a villain LOL

Impression now:

well. what could i even say. at this point.

favourite moment:

i loved him going insane from guilt and grief and devoting his entire life to the pursuit of a world where the kind of trauma and horror he and his loved ones went through can never happen again and in the process of that quest becoming a cruel and horrible person who lives ultimately a miserable and small existance. all because he got groomed by an evil vampire to think that murder was the way to get to heaven actually and so he became deeply entranced by that delusion and the comfort it brought to the point where he couldnt even consider that maybe he was doing something horribly selfish and destructive to himself and others. smileeee. also second favourite moment is ”frogs on my 800 dollar pants?” and third favourite is smiling excitedly as his arm gets torn off and he presumably gets cannibalized by a baby (made me realize that he is actually nuts)

idea for a story:

what did he get up to in between dios death and the start of stocean? like collecting stands and watching over weather while driving himself further and further into darkness. its so sad and fucked up to think about to me. also second story idea would be him and kakyoin meeting as insane evil teens in the vampire mansion and having a weird ”friendship” lol

unpopular opinion:

this isnt unpopular in MY circles. but um. hes the main villain of his part and arguably the most complex villain character in jojo, even if one could argue villains like kira are better executed. so its a bit cringe and annoying to me when people reduce him to just an acessory to dio LOL. like he is his own character and a far more interesting one than dio with motivations and character drives completely separate from him so ummmmmmmm whyyyys that blond thing always there. hm? you have to wonder why and you especially have to ask why do people keep postioning him as dios servant or ”follower” instead of his actual role as a student and friend. hm.

favourite relationship:

i do however like dios and puccis fucked up evil bestfriendship because. its fucked up but also funny. HOWEVER. PUCCI SIBLINGS FOREVER. like theres no comparison to whatever him and weather have going on omg. perla also. but like that relationship just perfectly sums up his character doesnt it. like he accidentally causes the destruction of wes’ whole life so he steals his memories to survive and to stop wes from killing everyone and its cruel (even if more understandable bc. traumatized children) and fucked up. but then he keeps wes alive and watches over him for decades and keeps him close and safe because he genuinely does wish that things could be different. he cares. all with out ever considering how cruel even THAT is. but once wes gets his memories back and becomes an unignorable threath he doesnt hesistate to kill him. so so so fucked up what the hell

favourite headcanon:

king of autism swag i believe. hyperfixation on jesus to hyperfixation on murder and lying and manipulating pipeline