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roeverthemoon · 1 year

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#ew therapy today but i'm tireeeed and it's vday + 3 bdays today #n too much to say #i literally had the worst nightmare of my life last night. just randomly #it was v horrifying #but also so many other things to talk about #my lil head is not... the best #i am managing but god am i constantly tired #i sleep more hours than i'm awake #when i'm awake i feel asleep still ha #i tiiireeeed #nyah. bday in 2 day #so many bdays this week #we all aquarius out here #trying not to fall asleep before appt #i did good things today too!!!!#made calls!!! WOOO #working on homework but needed a break v badly #supposed to go to dinner at 8 #u think i can fit a nap in??? a nap sounds delicious #i need the nappetizer #i love therapy #workin on myself #bein more chill #feelin less anti fergalicious u feel me #i'm a pet. i'm resigned to being sweet little cuddle thing that giv lov. trophy wife jkjk. but so sleepy. no need 4 human anxieties #hek em. i alive. omg hekk.#got 2 be happ. be sad big bad. issa no from me dawg.#sad ok 2 be but no ty 4 me #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #roe post;

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icewindandboringhorror · 8 months

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sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags)#poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa.......#Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now..#thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers...#And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas..#I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

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dawdlecentric · 2 months

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Man, this doujin isn't fucking around

Meanwhile, Seikuri in the background...

Doujin: Flashbackers by Totobe

#my ramblings #bocchi the rock #no fr tho. please read flashbackers!! it's so good!#it's a ryokita doujin made by one of my fave artist and everything about it is just...so great. I can't express it enough #whether you ship ryokita or not it's still a good read! like really it's well articulated and goes in depth about ryo & kita's relationship #and acknowledges how unhealthy it is but the realization of this makes the both of them understand each other more clearly without-#-seeing through rose colored glasses. I just- ughhh! I'm not good with words and I can't stress it enough so once again please read this!#you can really tell how much this artist is passionate and dedicated about the ship #not only that but how they color the cover page (and their art in general) is JUST SO CATCHING! LITERAL EYE CANDY!#and the pacing and panelling of the story is well thought out plus the equal balance of humor and angst is so entertaining & heart wrenchin #and their art style... fricking adorable and expressive and striking!! Just grrr!! I LOVE THIS ARTIST'S WORK SO MUCH!!!#I'm not that particularly crazy about ryokita but they are very interesting to explore and could have some potential if they worked out-#-their own flaws. I've been meaning to draw them sometime (if only I could start posting decent bnj art-#-tfw hyper fixation so strong it overwhelms you and in turn can't make fanart of it even if you most definitely WANT TO)#ehem. anyways I think it's quite criminal that ryokita was one of the least popular btr ships #in other story. I was woken up by my cat way to early today so I ended up reading this in a half awake state XD #I just found out last night that this doujin was already translated so what better time to read this other than first thing in the morning-#-running on three hours of sleep 😃👍

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ectoplasmer · 1 year

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y'all ever feel so much love for your f/o that you just get moved to literal tears or am i just a mess

#art is making me feel things once again #marigoldshipping #<---- mima brainrot hours which is terrible timing because i need to be awake in like six hours #but i am over here. kicking my legs in bed every five seconds #i love him so much he's a literal safety hazard akjjhdsh :(#he's also just a huge nerd and literally just a big loser but/lh #aaaa stopp making me FEEL THINGS it's horrible #i need to be sleeping and not generating tears because my heart goes crazy over fictional characters #literally smiling like an idiot just thinking about him while typing this #he's just. >_<#oh terrible another moment where i can't convey what i'm thinking #he's just... he's such a nerddd aaaaa #his snarkiness his obvious need to dramaticize things even though he *claims* that's a thing that only marik does now (he's lying)#his attempts at seeming much more stoic than he actually is his poorly hidden attempts at trying not to seem like he cares too much #how he can be so arrogant and sharp one second and try so hard to be responsible and gentle the next #how he tries to act like he isn't as much as a wreck as the rest of us but he definitely is #i don't. even know what i'm trying to say. i don't think i ever really do when it comes to any of them #they make me so stupidly incoherent i can't even think correctly right now #i just... i love how i've managed to get past his walls. that i get to see more of him now #not just the scary and daunting part that he used to be. not just the level headed and intimidating part. not just the upset and angry part #i get to see the sides of him where he makes dumb and ignorant mistakes. i get to see him when he's calm. i get to see him when he's happy #i get to see him when he's sad and i get to see him when he's completely vulnerable #i get to see him in every mood and in every emotion. i get to see every part.#and i love all the parts of him. all the mess and fuss and the wrongs and the rights and the good and the bad #all of it is completely lovable to me. he's completely lovable to me.#i just. aaaa sobbing crying sniffling into my hands HE'S SOOOO #god damnit melvin you're making your girlfriend cry STOP BEING SO YOU PLEASE #he's. so pretty and handsome and bbdbfhfbjdffjdfd #i've been talking about my f/os so much recently i'm so sorry ><#gonna. try and fall asleep but my heart is literally beating so hard right now skjfkjds

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fleetsparrow · 4 months

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GUYS!

Guys.

If "witch" is feminine of "wizard"...

Does this make "bitch" feminine of "bastard"?

I NEED TO KNOW.

#language #linguistics #I swear I'm not crazy #not more than usual #BUT THE SUFFIXES!!!#IT MAKES SENSE TO ME #but I am also highly also sleep-deprived #like it's 9 pm now #I've been awake since 330am #18.5 hours of awakeness

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ereborne · 6 months

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Song of the Day: December 19

"We're An American Band" by Grand Funk Railroad

#song of the day #though actually it might be the version by Poison I can't quite tell #I have again not done fuck all today but sleep so I'm farming the song of the day out again. to Nick this time! he's playing it downstairs #I do feel better than I did yesterday so I've high hopes that tomorrow I might be conscious for perhaps even multiple consecutive hours!#I've got so many recurring timers and alarms across the days. meds meals check my work email etc #every four hours there's one that says 'half a gatorade again you raisin' and I don't actually remember setting that one #if i'd been properly awake I'd have known to make it shorter. as it is until I unlock my screen the phone just says HALF A GATOR #which every time hits me so fucking funny but also I can't laugh for coughing #anyway I think the song of the day posts are doing wonders for my ability to tell time as I move through this intermittently-fevered limbo #it's dark outside more than half the day but also I haven't been keeping my plant lights to a schedule so my room's always lit anyway #and if it weren't for the daily DIARY SONG alarm I feel like I'd be having a lot more trouble marking off 24hr cycles #handy

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honestmouse20 · 2 months

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i hate summer so much yall

it's already 80 during the day here and my ac doesnt work. Everyone telling me they love the summer is wrong and crazy. come back and tell me you love the summer when your bedroom is 80 degrees at 4am.

I usually sleep prety well these days but tonight i can't seem to stay asleep, even with my fan on and pointed right at me. The ac is on too, set at 65 but the themomerter in my room says otherwise. we've been texting the landord Repeatedly. The Ac repair man never calls

#this post has no Real meaning #other than me bitching into the void bc i got 4 hours of sleep and probably wont' be able to go back to sleep #bc i fucking hate the heat and it makes me grouchy and overstimulated #i am texting the landlord again at a more reasonable hour #but for real #if i hhear one more person say how excited they are for the warmer days i'm gonna lose it #i bet they have nice cold bedrooms and work in an air conditioned office #then again #the girls who work style at my job wear hoodies in the summer and complain of being cold #while im in a tshirt and shorts and Sweating #so maybe i just don't handle heat very well #either way #i needed to bitch and no one i know is awake lol #d rambles

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eijiroukiriot · 2 years

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them as usual + peace + love on earth

#bnha #kiribaku #kirishima eijirou #bakugou katsuki #my art #i drew these last night and i'm having breakfast now but i realized people would be actually awake now!! so hello!#it's been so long since i've drawn krbk please don't judge how wonky their faces look at parts #these were from prompts on twitter!! (click for the prompts) and i got more prompts so i may be back w more of these!!#ugh the 9 to 5 is rough -_- it's technically 8 to 5 but i have to leave for work right before 7 most days and get home at 5 most days #so really it's more like 6 to 5 which is. discouraging when i open my eyes #but i snap out of it fast at least #my commute is looong but i've been rereading qlu on the bus #so it feels kinda like i have to wake up super early and get out super early...so that i get an hour of maya time to do whatever #i don't hate it it's kinda nicer than if i rolled out of bed and directly into work #but yeah i have a dumb little adult life now (i mean in just a few days i'll be 22 which isn't super adult but it's not 21)#that got really unrelated to krbk but yeah that's what i'm up to #hope you guys are good!! have a nice sleep if it's sleeping time #or a nice day if it's not #also tagging a post 'kirishima eijirou' 'bakugou katsuki' one after another is the most natural thing in the world

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da-proti-toku-grem · 14 days

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the fair of the city where i live is approaching and it's making me feel so anxious. it always makes me anxious but after i had that panic attack at my hometown's fair a few weeks ago it's making me even more anxious and fuck i really don't want to go.............

#like. if i had a panic attack at a *town* fair imagine how it's going to be when it's a city #it's like 10 times bigger and i'm not exaggerating #i know that if i think like that it's probably going to be worse if i go but i just can't NOT think about it #and i wish i could just. not go #but my dad always insists on going at least one day (even if he doesn't like it that much either)#and when he says i have to go i *have* to go and if i complain he'll get mad and then i'll get more anxious and we don't need that here #and they hit me with the “how are you going to overcome your 'fears' if you don't try and face them?” and just oughhhhh #i'm trying to do that but THAT is not the way i think #like. if having even the smallest social interaction makes you super anxious #i don't think that going to a fair where you'ee going to be surrounded but thousands of people (most of them drunk) is a good starter tbh #but idk maybe i'm just crazy and everyone around me knows how to deal with my problems more than me :)))))#maca speaks #i've also been awake for around 20 hours now after only 4 hours of sleep so probably that is making me overthink more than usual too #god i just hate that i *know* i'm overthinking and i *know* it makes it worse but i just. can't stop doing anyways #and i feel like an attention seeker every time i do one of this posts but writing my thoughts down here kinda help a bit so....#sorry anyone who reads about my stupid problems every time i post smth #i'm gonna try to sleep again. let's see if it works out this time 😃

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thethingything · 23 days

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we are now awake way too late because we dissociated for a while after realising yesterday was the anniversary of a specific traumatic event, and then we had to make some phone calls to try and get an appointment because the symptoms we've got are apparently a lot more concerning than we realised and I left the most concerning ones out of the last post because they're kinda gross but like, I'm almost certain it's an ear infection because I don't know what the fuck else it could be, and unfortunately it's also in both fucking ears instead of just one

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I so desperately need things to calm down and for us to not keep having random unexpected medical issues like this #now I have to try and sleep like 5 hours after I meant to go to bed and unfortunately I'm wide awake from dealing with this shit #initially I was like ''welp this is ridiculous and mostly just feels absurd on top of everything else that's going on''#and then I described the symptoms properly to our mum and she was like ''oh my god call your doctor right now''#and then we eventually managed to get through to 111 because our GP didn't have any appointments #and we described our symptoms and the woman on the phone also sounded very concerned when I described some of it #so it started increasingly sinking in that okay yeah I guess that's worse than I realised if people keep reacting like that #I also described the problems we normally have with our ears that made it way harder to realise I should be concerned #and our mum was like ''oh my god that sounds awful''#so I guess now we have to re-evaluate some shit because it turns out the stuff that's normal for us is also more concerning than we realise

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hyperfixation-tangentopia · 11 months

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I was asleep for 2 hours.

My body then decided to have a flare because haha funnies :3 (🔪)

Wtf

I swear I've been trying to sleep these last couple of days I PROMISE you -

#IT'S NOT EVEN THAT HOT?#LIKE DUDE BODY WHERE ARE YOU GETTING A FLARE FROM?#I GOT 2 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT THERE'S NO POSSIBLE WAY I'M ANY FRACTION OF AWAKE #GO BACK TO SLEEP ME WTF WE NEED MORE THAN 2 FREAKING HOURS TO EXIST

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timegears-moved · 1 year

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i know i'm the totk complainer mutual but god i need to defend colgera because i see so many people calling it a bad boss fight and it's all because they're not doing it the intended way

#bwark #like defeat the bosses however you want ofc but you can beat colgera without using any items #turning yourself into a human missile is so much more fun than using arrows guys pleae colgera is a great boss the wind temple was my #highlight of the whole game #i mean the dungeon itself was whatever but the build up and the scale was such a spectacle #honestly kinda baffling to me how many people i've seen say they never thought to launch link into its weak spots #like i don't wanna be like urrrrr it was obvious but like. it was the first thing i thought #i have it in reverse actually i thought arrows wouldn't do shit to it #but also like. the game wss literally teaching you to break the ice by jumping on it. i seriously don't know how this slipped by so many pp #totk spoilers #since it's not part of my liveblog #okay i really gotta sleep now i'm approaching 36 hours straight of being awake

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feydfuckernation · 1 year

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the amount of work that has gone into what was originally supposed to just be a haha sweeney todd the magnus archives hypothetical and now it’s almost 2am and i’m still sitting at my tiny ask desk trying to parse out the last of the nine major characters in sweeney todd i have officially written at least two essays about like

#and yet i know if i try to sleep without having finished it i will still be awake for another hour or so but infinitely less productive #[brennan lee mulligan game masters of exandria roundtable vc] THIS IS NOT DONE I'M JUST GONNA GO HOME #save me from myself #lion.txt #to any tma mutuals i might have: hi hello i don't really go here but apparently i have a lot more things to say than i originally planned

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humanmorph · 10 months

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3am.on a Tuesday

It's just that I have to get up at 5 and take a bus at 6:20 and then arrive at work at roughly 7:15 and then on a Tuesday I'm there until 6pm.so I really can't be waking up at 3am

#Alas it's 4:30 now and I haven't slept in the meantime. I closed my eyes a bit but well. I'm actually really awake rn #Rosa rambles #It's been 2 weeks of this or similar shit. Please #Let me sleep. More than 4-5 hours.

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scorndotexe · 2 years

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happy 6 am everybody

#i'm fucked. my sleep schedule is so fucked. ive been awake 22 hours.#i need to question why my sister has this couch #question her #because this is terrible #hello everyone hope you're enjoying the ride #personally i'm exhausted #please tell me you're getting more sleep than i am #persimmon's rambles

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watermelinoe · 2 years

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i am genuinely so nocturnal it's not even funny. i "fixed" my sleep schedule for the women's fest coming up and now i can't get anything done, i just lay around exhausted and irritable all day until the sun goes down and then i get in bed and can't fall asleep bc i'm full of energy

#and if i take something to fall asleep i sleep for 14 hours bc my body is trying to correct itself ghdkfhdh #i still think it's non-24 hr and not delayed sleep phase bc i cycle thru every possible sleep schedule #but the sleep monitor the doctor wanted me to get was like >$1k and not covered by insurance sooo fuck that lmao #and not to rant but i hate it when people say ''night owls'' aren't real and it's just bc ur on ur phone or playing video games #i didn't have a fuckin smart phone when i was six years old staying up till midnight i just wasn't tired!!#and i have tried everything. i hate ppl being like ''well have you tried-'' yes. didn't work. i have decades more experience w this than u #i know people think i'm just lazy. even more so now that i also have chronic pain.#that i should be able to wake up every morning like everyone else.#i was so excited abt this new sleep doc because he was the first one to say ''why don't you just follow your body's schedule''#and he had this great care plan too but his team sent me on this wild goose only to find out this device would be over $1k #ppl think wow she doesn't even work like it's not humiliating to see your peers advancing their careers #while you had to give up on your dreams #i'm so lucky to be financially supported by my parents bc i would be dead otherwise #but that doesn't mean i don't feel worthless bc all my hard work in school amounted to nothing #who would hire someone who can't keep a consistent schedule? my only hope is IT but i can't handle traditional college again #it nearly fuckin killed me the first time #but will my online degree even help me #i want to work i want to contribute i want to be financially independent #i wish the rest of the world was wide awake at night like me

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