Not to keep harping on it but Death Note has plenty of fridge horror to go along with the unintentional humor and romance.
Like,,,the ENTIRETY of Wammy's House is such a fucked up concept. An orphanage where they crank out genius kids into the world by...what? What are they doing with those kids? What do you mean one of them died in there? Wait—and the second one is a serial killer? And one joined the mafia? What—WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THOSE KIDS—
Not to mention the intricacies of L and Watari's relationship. He's seen as a butler/father figure until you find out that he's an inventor/war vet who took in an orphan with the express purpose of making him useful. No wonder Wammy's runs the way it does when the og, the man it is named after sees children as tools and means to an end. And, given that L has already made them so much money playing stocks that it doesn't even matter anymore (Mr. Builds A Skyscraper To House Five People), why is Quillish still with him? To keep an eye on him? To make sure L doesn't forget where he came from? Out of some sort of guilt for never teaching him how to take care of himself because those weren't the skills that Quillish thought it important to cultivate? Or maybe even to keep him dependent on Quillish to keep functioning properly.
And then there's the horror of L himself. Not even the implications of him, but the proof of who he is and what he can do. The thought of a man with so much money and power and influence that if he wanted to make you disappear, if he wanted to torture you or hold your loved ones hostage or kill you and everyone that's ever shaken your hand he could and no one would fucking bat an eye—that's fucking terrifying. (Where the fuck is Beyond—) And, not only does he have the power to do all that; no one would question it because he's part of Law™. His every action can be excused as being part of the Greater Good, despite the fact that L himself has admitted that everything he does is for his own benefit and/or entertainment.
Light, of course, is an obvious horror—but one of the most horrific things about him is glossed over. I'm not someone who personally believes in the Death Note's corruptive powers or aura or whatever, but that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the fact that, once you give up the Death Note, your memories of it are erased. All the people you've killed, all the things that you've seen, you've still seen and done all those things, you just don't remember it. There's a hole in your mind, and all that prickly, thorny mess that grew in you when you were a killer is still there, choking you—you just don't know why. Why are you so unfazed by death? Why don't you cry when your mother dies? Why are you so afraid of being something that looks like you? Will you ever be certain of anything again? Will you ever, truly, know yourself when you can't remember all the atrocities you've committed? Can you ever change and grow again if your roots are gone? Or are you stuck in stasis forever now, your mind stalling in one place in order to keep you from remembering the people you've killed?
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Hi 👋🏽 I’ll be going on an indefinite break that may (or may not) be for good.
Writing fanfiction was an escape for me these past 2 years. It was a way to express my love for the tannies in how I wrote them as comfort characters, and it was a way for me to make sense of my own experiences and emotions. These fics have always been very personal, with a bit of me in every OC, my pains reflected in their stories, and words I wish someone told me growing up expressed in the dialogues. And I’ll always be so thankful that many of you related with them, found meaning in them, and found comfort in them. That will always be my favorite part 💜💜 stories are so powerful! They’ve allowed me to connect with so many people and make memories in this (mostly) lovely part of the site.
But the process of writing has also been draining, not as cathartic as it used to be, and not as fulfilling. So much as I find myself going back and forth with the numerous stories in my drafts, I can’t bring myself to continue with them. Not anytime soon, at least. Maybe one day the itch to write will be so intense, or JJK1/KTH1 drops and I’ll lose my shit (Untitled and Belong were born out of Indigo and D-day after all), or after rereading my stories, I’ll miss writing so much. The thing is, I’ve never loved BTS as much as I do right now; perhaps I’m content with screaming about that love to myself in the meantime.
I’ll be lurking around here, maybe pop in every once in a while (so plagiarists, keep off my work, pls). My stories will remain here as your comfort 😌 and I’ll do my best to put out the PLM drabbles I promised! Other than that, all the stories are complete for you to enjoy (sorry to those waiting on TLA 😔 I hate that I’m unable to continue). I also have Twitter (jmimi_mi). I’m also just a lurker but say hi if you want! 😊 we can talk bts and fics and whatnot over there (I’ll try, I promise).
Please give love to the authors who are still lovingly putting out work for the community! 🥰
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Hey! Your Hunger AU has me Fucked Up and I was wondering if you have any more specifics on what (potentially) the Life Series might have been like? Plus any particular reactions of the Hermits afterwards (and Grian’s own feelings)? I know this has already been asked but please answer if you have any more/other details, this is the angst point point that my brain is Fixed On
Oh my gods okay first of all thank you so much for the kind words and your even kinder comment on ao3, it genuinely made my day when i saw it, it was so nice 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i took a screenshot and shoved it in the folder where i put all my other nice comments and now it is immortalized Forever ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
SECOND OF ALL this has been sitting in my askbox for way too long because i truly wanted to give like, a really nice thought-out and detailed reply to your question but alas after finishing chap 10 my brain is SOUP so thats,,, not happening anytime soon,,,, auaghh 😭😭😭😭😭 about all i can tell you are the broad strokes that in my head what happened was he sorta snapped mentally, asked people to join a secret game during the world's worst fugue state, fucked with their memory codes so they couldnt remember how or why they were on this unfamiliar server, and fed on their confusion and fear until things spiraled and the game had them truly believing their final deaths were permanent. Lifers' Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Vacation type beat 😭😭😭💀💀💀
As for reactions, i know each time they came back from the games they were VERY freaked out and traumatized, and for a few months afterward they'd feel incredibly paranoid until it tapered off back into normalcy, only for it to eventually happen again. Rinse and repeat
Grian's own feelings were pretty much a mix of horror, guilt, and disgust at himself-- but also a little bit of relief for being able to feed properly for once. Which, ofc, recycled itself right back into the disgust and shame. Mans was not having a good time over here either
Dksnksndke okay thats kinda all ive got for you rn, hopefully i can come back to this soon and give you a FAR more detailed rundown of what happened, how it happened, and how that impacted everything going on in canon, but for rn thats all ive got 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 CHEERS AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LOVELY COMPLIMENTS!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Ride 740: Sugimoto driven in a corner
Pag 1
3: Pinch and crush him, Danchiku!! Crush Sugimoto-san!!
Pag 2
1: As easy as crushing dry leaves!!
Yeah, Issaa!!
Pag 4
3: You're slow
Pag 5
1: You're slow, Sugimoto-san – Bamboo Hop Shot!!
2: He's fast!!
4: He got even faster.... than the second day...
But
5: But!!
Pag 6
1: It's not so easy to crush my heart, Danchiku!!
Kuaaaaagh
Pag 7
2: The battle between those two has started!!
3: The last battle of the training camp's fourth day!! The rule is simple, whoever crosses the sensor line first wins!!
4: The serious battle between Danchiku and Sugimoto, betting the spot in the Inter High!!
5: Sugimoto....!!
6: Danchiku!!
7: But.... this battle....
Pag 8
1: That's right, Onoda
4: He.... Sugimoto understands everything
And he's fighting upon understanding that
6: He's running with that resolution
And he has no intention whatsoever of stepping aside!!
Pag 9
2: What....
I really settled this with one attack
3: It was easy
5: Kuaaagh
8: Kuaaaagh
9: …. no
Pag 10
1: Kuaaaaagh
He's still chasing after me!!
Pag 11
1: Sugimoto-san
2: Dan.... chikuu!!
3: I wonder what's this feeling
I was thinking I could win against you, and it's true that I said I could defeat you with one attack
4: But, I don't know why, but my heart is beating fast
And for some reason the corners of my mouth are pulling up
5: Maybe it's because I know we've practiced and desperately ran together until now, but when earlier I turned back and I didn't see you, I though “ah of course”, but there was also another feeling....
Pag 12
1: I thought- there's no way that that Sugimoto-san was beaten by just one attack!!
Pag 13
1: Ha
2: Kuaaagh
3: He chased me and kept going until he passed me!!
5: Dammit, even though I couldn't defeat him in one blow, right now I feel so good!!
6: I'm thinking that this is the spirit!!
Pag 14
1: Sugimoto-san!!
2: It's so hard....!!
Danchiku really got stronger than on the second day
3: But this is the basis of road racing: don't let your opponent understand how it is for you!!
4: Looks like you're having a hard time, Sugimoto-san
Pag 15
1: He noticed!!
2: But there's no way I'm giving up the lead position
Until my breath calms down, I'll keep just the right pace....
3: He jumped ahead!!
4: Can you follow!?
6: Mh
7: Easily!!
Pag 16
2: Well you're so reliable!!
Danchiku used his “Hop Shot” again
Pag 17
1: Garuaah!!
2: He left me behind!!
3: Kuaaaaagh
Keep up, Sugimoto Terufumi!!
4: Sugimoto-san, you followed!! I'm happy that we're clashing seriously now
5: Issa told me not to tell you
But I'll tell you, Sugimoto-san
6: There's another secret to my special technique “Panda Shout”
Panda Shout is....
Pag 18
1: A breathing technique
2: When humans breathe, oxygen weaves into their lungs
3: And when they work out, they need a lot of fresh oxygen
And they become conscious of their “inhaling”
4: But if they do it too much, their breathing becomes uneven and shallow, and they inhale the oxygen around their mouth that it's not “fresh air”
5: Exhaling is more important than inhaling!!
“Actively pushing out the air in your lungs”!!
6: That way, you can naturally take in a lot of “fresh air”!!
Panda Shout uses the abdominal pressure to squeeze out all the air from my lungs
Pag 19
1: It's the ultimate technique to intake oxygen!!
3: Technique to intake....!!
4: If he can accelerate even more....!!
5: I'll use it right away
Ah, and there's one more thing
Huh
6: When I use this
Pag 20
1: My acceleration with Hop Shot becomes twice as fast!!
2: Two.... ice
Please hold on tight and follow me, Sugimoto-san!!
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