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bsdlvvr · 4 months
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this happened after that one scene in dead apple, trust. [wip]
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i love them dearly
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ddejavvu · 1 year
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poly marauders eating reader out for the first time!! it’s such an intimate, vulnerable act so readers probably nervous. as much as they’d be sweet and soft and stuff, i think they’d be fighting a bit with each other to actually get at you first, like usually they’re so good at sharing and it comes naturally, but with this they just can’t come to a conclusion because this is eating you out, and you’ve never done it before and you seem to be really curious and kinda needy for the experience (this could be amplified if they kinda only just started the sexual side of their relationship, and it’s the next big step for u before actual sex yk)
james ofc swears up and down it SHOULD be him bc it’s his passion not his hobby, he’s been dreaming of it, but remus makes the argument that he’s the most dominant (?) over you, so you’d feel more comfy with him doing it, but then sirius is like >:( my face is pretty, you really wanna deprive her of that view???? for her first time as well, you monsters
babe the day you stop sending me these is the day i'll quit tumblr. you're a treasure i hope you know that <33
this post is 18+, minors dni.
!!!!! no because you're probably really nervous !!! maybe it's your first time altogether, or just with them, but either way it's scary !!! what if you smell weird, what if you taste weird, what if you cum too fast, what if you can't cum at all, what do you do!!!!!! remus probably feels your heartbeat going crazy when he braces a hand on your chest to lean down and kiss you where you're laying back on the bed but he misinterprets it, just chuckles and goes 'excited, hm?' and you don't know how to tell him that you're actually scared he's going to be repulsed by you :(( you just sort of stutter an mhm and when James tries parting your thighs from where he's kneeling at the edge of the bed you tense up, and that's when they start wondering if something's wrong.
"Pet," Sirius croons, stroking a patch of skin over your upper thigh, "What's'a matter, hm?"
and maybe it's James's puppy eyes, maybe it's remus's soft touch on your waist as he helps you sit up, or maybe it's sirius still petting over your thigh, but they manage to get it out of you that you're nervous!! you don't want them to get grossed out!!
i do think sirius would laugh. not at you, not to be mean, but he's just so flabbergasted by the thought of you thinking he could ever be disgusted by your cunt that he probably snorts, and james and remus have to overcompensate like nono darling he's not laughing at you! we just- we don't really know why you'd think that, 's ridiculous, we could never be grossed out by you. promise.'
maybe james offers you a pinky, to swear on the fact that he'll never be repulsed by you, and then it comes down to the matter of who gets to have the first taste.
sirius insists that he should, to make up for the little scare he caused by laughing, and, of course, like you mentioned, to give you the most handsome view you'll ever see.
james begs for it to be him because c'mon, you know him, he loves body worship! and what better for your first time than slow, soft, and sweet, plus he's already got his chin resting on your tummy and he's pressing soft little kisses to the skin there just in case it'll help sway you into letting him to the same to your clit :]
remus still has a hand on your waist, now he's sitting beside you, and he leans in to kiss your jaw with this gorgeous throaty little hum. he noses at your ear, murmurs 'or me, darling? 've always been good at keeping you calm, yeah? 'think you could use a little bit of a leader here'.
James is >:O because what !!! he's a leader !!! he'd guide you through it!!! but remus says 'you'll melt in there, prongs' and everyone knows he's not wrong.
i'll leave this open to reader interpretation, somewhat of a choose-your-own-adventure story, but just know whichever two you don't choose to go first will occupy themselves with your tits or your mouth, and they'll all get a turn eventually, so you're in for a long night <3
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heathsuii · 1 year
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omg what ab seatmate suna when yall are no longer seatmates (the seat order changed or something)
seatmate!suna and you were no longer seatmates, the seating arrangement changed halfway through the school year.
your seat was at the front by the door. suna's seat was at the last row, next to the window.
atsumu's your seatmate for the remaining half of the school year.
you got acquainted with atsumu when the teacher paired you guys for an assignment, and eventually became good friends.
seatmate!atsumu and you would fight every single day over the littlest things.
now back to exseatmate!suna 🔥💯💪😻
exseatmate!suna sulking all day after you chose to pair-up with atsumu for a project.
you were talking, accompanying suna on his way to practice.
"i couldn't go on tiktok today because my fyp is flooded with those don't skip this vi–"
"so that's how it's going to be then..."
"suna, i'll respond to your videos when i get home, i prom–"
"well yeah? as you should but i'm not talking about that."
"then, what are you talking about...???"
"i'm talking about you casting me aside... throwing me away like i'm replaceable— which i am not."
"suna, i told you, i didn't get any notifs from you on insta–"
"i'm talking about you and your new partner."
"new partner?? i don't have any new— you mean ‘tsumu??"
"referring him by nickname? wow. okay. ouch. you've dug your own grave."
"i only paired up with ‘tsumu cause he was more close and you were too far away but i promise you, next time we'll be partners."
"promise?"
"promise, i pinky-swear!"
he was smiling during the entire practice. and then spamming your inbox with tiktok videos while you were still replying to the ones he sent previously.
special
hope you like this drabble anon❗❗❗ also huge HUGE thank you to all the likes, reblogs, and comments from my posts❗ it absolutely means a lot to me 🥹🫶
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rekino2114 · 9 days
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Arei nageishi x reader incorrect quotes
A/n:I already ranted about this but episode 13 was soooo good, go watch it if you haven't, also this graphic of arei we got is sooo freaking cute that I decided to put it as my banner with her quote. I love her even more after this episode
(I know I said this would be a genderbent post but I changed plans last minute so you'll have to wait next drdt daturday for that sorry)
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Arei:this one's for you babe!
[She tries to hit a strike but misses completely]
Arei:.....FUCK!
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Eden:how did you get arei to stop swearing?
Xander:Yeah, she cusses a lot less now especially around you, did you give her a swear jar or something?
Y/n:Not exactly, every time she swears she doesn't get cuddles or kisses for the rest of the day
Eden:that.....really works?
Y/n:Yeah, she's surprisingly clingy actually
[In the distance, arei just stubbed her toe]
Arei:FU.......DGE
Y/n:see?
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Arei:ok, now that's that's dealt with, we can continue our date
Y/n:.........
Arei:what's wrong?
Y/n:y-you just beat up that guy like it was nothing
Arei:Yeah, he bumped into you and didn't even apologize. What was I supposed to do?
Y/n:.....I love you so much
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Y/n:What are you talking about? Arei doesn't treat me better than everyone else just because I'm her partner
Charles:........let's test your theory. Hey, arei, can you get me some water?
Arei:are you fucking serious? What? Am I your maid or something? Go get it yourself shithead
Charles:now you try
Y/n:ok, hey babe can you get me some water
Arei:oh sure
[She gets a water bottle and throws it at you]
Y/n:.....thanks
Arei:No problem, buuuuut can your amazing gf get a kiss for doing that?
Y/n:......I see your point now
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Arei:Hey I'm kinda bored. you wanna play wii sports?
Y/n:NO
Arei:uh? Why?
Y/n:Do you remember what happened last time we played?
[Flashback]
Arei:I HATE THIS FUCKING GAME
[She throws the wiimote out the window]
[End flashback]
Y/n:I had a buy a new one because of that
Arei:Hey its not my fault that game doesn't know anything about real bowling, if it did then I would have never lost
Y/n:..........
Arei:I'm.....sorry for...the wiimote....though
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Arei:.......why are you with me?
Y/n:hm? What do you mean? Because I love you
Arei:But why? I'm just a shitty person who treats everyone like garbage. How do you love me?
[You sigh and sit near her]
Y/n:listen arei, I love you and nothing will make me stop, I see how you treat people like me and eden, people who actually want to see you change, you're not completely shitty, even the fact that you love me is proff enough. If you want to become less shitty then I'll be with you every step of the way helping you. I will never ever leave you no matter what. Pinky promise
[Arei looks at you almost tearing up before hugging you]
Arei:thank you.......just thank you so much
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r0syr3a · 8 months
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Letters to lovers
Cliff Burton x Reader
Words: 565
Genre: Fluff and angst
Warnings: Discussion of Cliff's passing and swearing
Author note: omg I can't believe I finally got the balls to start posting my writing RAAAHHH! This is for Isa, aka @metallicaislife, one of my favorite blogs! Jewel anon is finally revealed lol. I did use the wiki page on the tour for the order of where they played so it makes a bit of sense. Now, on with the story~
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Dear, Y/N
I knew you'd end up looking into my shirt drawer once I left for tour, so I figured I would leave you a little surprise. I knew you'd miss me too much that you would just HAVE to wear one of my shirts to bed ;)
Alright, I'll stop being a jackass now. You told me how much you love letters so I figured I'd write some for you while I'm on the road. As I'm writing this, I haven't even left yet and I already miss you so much. This is gonna suck mega balls, I know it.
Try and get some sleep and take care of yourself while I'm gone, My Star. I'll try and see you whenever I can and I'll call as often as possible.
Love always, your rock, Cliff.
Dear, Y/N
I hope you enjoyed my first letter, we just made it to St. Louis. I don't know how many of these I'll be able to write and receive just because we'll be moving so fast, but I'll write as many as I can, I pinky promise. (See? I do remember things)
Every show so far has been FUCKING WILD! God, I wish you could be here to see it all, I think you'd love it.
I miss you, Y/N. I don't wanna be sad and sappy but it's true. You're My Star, how am I supposed to be a rockstar without My Star? Right now, I'm just a rock and that's not nearly as cool. I'm gonna stop writing this so I can call you.
I love you always, your rock, Cliff.
Dear, Y/N
Fuck, I'm so sorry. I haven't written in forever. I'll try and do better after these next California shows. At least we'll get to see each other for those, right? It's gonna feel amazing to hug you and finally have you in my arms again. The guys miss you too. Kirk says he needs you to paint his nails again before we leave again like it won't be gone in like three days.
I hope you're taking good care of yourself and I'll see you soon.
Love always, your rock, Cliff
Dear, Y/N
WE'RE IN EUROPE BABE!!!!!
It's honestly so cool, we explored some old castles and shit yesterday. The time zones keep waking me out so I don't know when to try and call you, I'm sorry I haven't.
I have been taking pictures for you though. We could make a little scrapbook with them when I get home! We are currently in Ireland so you best believe we are drinking THE BEST beer ever.
I honestly don't know what to write about. All I know is that I love you and I miss you and I can't wait to come home or at least fly you out for a show in some random country.
Soon, My Star,
I love you always, your rock, Cliff.
Dear, Y/N
Hey, it's Lars. I know you already got the news by the time it gets to you, but I know he'd want me to send it anyway, even if it isn't finished. We'll be there soon. Hang tight, please. We love you.
Dear, Y/N
Europe is officially my favorite. The best breakfasts and the best beers? What more could I need other than you here? I am definitely bringing you here one day. I promise.
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fiveredlights · 5 months
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Okay I need to know things from literally ALL of the wip’s 😂
But I guess the ones that intrigue me the most are the post AUS2024 fic, the alternate Vegas 2023 story and the lmao daniel retirement fic!!
But like I said, I want to know all things lol! You are like one of my favourite authors ❤️
P.S. please feel no pressure to update, write or anything. Take your time
beth you ask and i will dutifully answer, gonna put everything under the cut because this is a long post 🫡
snippets: ausgp 2024/you're on another path
so fun fact about this one i wrote it post quali, and i had planned to post it after the race was done so i a "pre-wrote" two endings. i wasn't going to because i was gonna be like "oh max will win but something bad might happen to daniel" so i had this ready to go:
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and i was sitting in the grandstand watching max's car explode in the pitlane and all i could think about was "did i do this. again" and honestly who knows.
Daniel’s already lying down face first on the bed when Max makes it back to their hotel room. He’s been doing it a lot recently after races, opening the door to their hotel room and just starfishing on the bed, unmoving until Max gently coaxes him to actually sleep. 
God, if his twenty-something year old self could see him now. 
Yeah, you’re back at the team you started with—no not HRT, that’s gone now, yes the Red Bull—not junior—sister team. The Red Bull seat? Yeah, not yours anymore, and it’s looking like it’s gonna stay that way. No, no podium at your home race, more like qualifying P18 because you were an idiot and drove over track limits. Points? Well, you had a good chance but I guess luck just wasn’t on your side yet again. 
Oh, and that young and upcoming driver from the Netherlands? Yeah, he’s your boyfriend now—surprise, you’re gay! And he’s a three time world champion, but that’s probably not important. 
Any one of those things would’ve sent Daniel into hospital, but all of those things combined? 
Early death. 
snippets: las vegas 2025/bonus fic reimagined
(i'm going to assume you mean las vegas 2025 and i'll give you both)
Max isn’t winning right now. 
He couldn’t really tell you why. 
Plenty of pundits, fans, strangers on the street have stopped him and asked him to dissect why he hasn’t won a championship in the past two years. He gives them a hastily PR trained and approved answer that seems to be more conscious in his mind now than before and cracks a well timed joke he’s sure his teammate would be proud of. 
Then Daniel comes along and will say, “Max already has three, he’s got to leave some for the rest of us!”, and the conversation will usually move on quickly after that. 
He knows that Daniel isn’t the sole reason for his non-winning ways right now, but when the eventual news of their relationship happens to drop, there’ll be dissections for days on if Daniel plays a part in Max’s performance right now. 
The last time Max hadn’t won a championship was when Daniel Ricciardo was with Red Bull, surely there’s some connection there?
snippets: las vegas 2025/don't read the last page
(Max is italics, Daniel is not.)
Max 🩵
July 31, 2025
...
I may have accidentally 
I swear it was an accident 
Like I pinky promise swear to our first born child
Don’t bring Matilda into this
Did you murder someone
What
Why is that your first thing
You are making a big deal out of it
Like bigger than the podcast you did in January
So I have to assume you murdered someone
Okay well it’s not murder but nice to know you think I’m capable of it
Daniel
I forgot to take off my wedding ring and wore it in the paddock and people saw and I got asked about in the press conference 
They definitely thought I was just engaged so I guess that’s just a silver lining
And you have a bet with Lando over when I was going to accidentally do this
Which is rude because I would never do the same to you Maxy
You literally have a bet with Fernando over if I’m going to slip up and say husband in an interview
How do you know that
And he’s Fernando you know you can’t say no to him
Daniel
When you came out you literally posted a photo of me on your Instagram
The whole paddock knows we are married
Half of them went to our wedding
About 85% of fans think we are in a relationship because you keep on teasing them with photos that is definitely me
Is it so bad that we just say yeah we’re married
We are literally about to have a kid
Okay well when you put it like that
I guess you’re right 
I know
I’m always right
snippets: lmao daniel retirement
They asked him if he wanted a big farewell thing, like they had done with Sebastian and Kimi a couple years back. 
He’d almost said no until Lando pulled a face and said “Mate, people’s last memory of you driving can’t be you heading to the pitlane again.” 
So he agreed. Told Blake to tell them to keep it minimal. No standing on giant mockups of his face during the national anthem or whatever. 
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intheorangebedroom · 28 days
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hi not trying to rush you by any means but i’m heavily anticipating more of “tonight you belong to me” and would like reassurance that there will indeed be more. no timeline needed. i know it takes time to create quality such as yours, but i don’t want to get my hopes up.
Oh no, Nonnie, I hope you didn't think I was ignoring you, I'm so sorry, I'm only seeing this now. I was on vacation (I landed back in Paris this afternoon), and when I am, I try to disconnect as much as possible. I'm so sorry. But what a wonderful message to come back to 🥺 Your kindness has single-handedly cured my post-vacation blues. Thank you so much for sending it, for reading my stuff, for your kindness, and for caring 🧡 I can't believe you're for real, are you for real? Thank you 🧡
There will be more, I promise you. I know it's been forever (and I'm so fucking sorry and ashamed) but I guarantee you that I will see this story through. I've zero intention of not finishing it. It makes me sweat and cry blood, but I like it too much (the story, not the agony of writing it) (omg did I just say I like my own stuff? Are you some kind of magic being???)
There will be two more chapters (one as soon as September) and then an epilogue. I can't guarantee quality, but you can get your hopes up because I'll finish this story. Pinky swear.
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Ily, thanks again for your kind words. I'm very sorry for this belated answer. I hope you had/ are having a very good Miller Monday 🧡
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v-arbellanaris · 2 years
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Since you really like Loghain, does that mean your Warden also gets starry-eyed over him? Is your Warden one of his biggest fans? (Sorry to ask, but I know so little about your Warden, just curious.)
i swear i don't mean to be so mysterious about them!!! i'll have pages and stuff up for them SOON, pinkie promise.
SOOO technically, vee verse has two canon wardens!!! and i've written a bit about kal and loghain over here in her tag! kal definitely got very starry eyed when she met him at ostagar and tbh spent the first few months post-ostagar just reeling in shock (and dont get me STARTED on ostagar in general like fucking HELL so fucked on every level), and every playthrough i've done with her where i've tried to make her kill loghain (so she can keep her alistair romance) just doesn't work. the decision just doesn't square in her head - she always walks into the landsmeet with such conviction, that she'll go through with it, that she'll get her revenge for what happened to the alienage and then she just... can't go through with it. for a lot of reasons, beyond the fact that this is like. her childhood hero.
but i assume you mean evadne because she's my canon da keep warden and honestly, evadne's very, very different. she has... very little attachment to ferelden (comparatively to kal, who is, i would say, more patriotic?). where kal is confident only when she's on the battlefield, evadne is most confident off the battlefield; she doesn't have the same kind of doubts about her sense of belonging that kal does. so when she talks to loghain in ostagar, she speaks to him as an equal, because she considers them equal. she's much more ambivalent about sparing loghain - and in my first pt for her, she didn't even really think twice before killing him so that she could place alistair on the throne as sole ruler. whenever i do an evadne playthrough she's just as likely to spare him for the sake of getting an extra warden to face the archdemon as she is to kill him for political expedience as she is to conscript him for the sake of boosting warden recruitment after the blight as she is to kill him because anora is the biggest threat to alistair's claim to the throne. she's significantly more ambivalent about loghain.
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darknights04 · 2 years
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Prompt List!
Okay... I am absolutely in love with some of your requests, I want more! I put together this prompt list for you to pick from (or if you have any original ideas feel free to use those). I will write for any fandom on my masterlist including The originals, Marvel, Harry Potter/Hogwarts Lecacy, Cyrano, Descendants, and Stranger Things. If you want something from a different fandom feel free to ask about it and I'll let you know if I can write for it! If your request is taking a while to be posted please bare with me, right now I am working two jobs while balancing college classes but I promise, it is coming! To make a request, simply include the prompt number, character, and any specifics you would like! (Prompts are following the break)
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“You do realize that we aren’t exclusive right?”
“You’re adorable”
“Shut up and just kiss me already”
“I wouldn’t change a thing about you…”
“She/He/They’re a keeper”
“I love you more than that”
“Don’t listen to them, okay?”
“Please don’t leave me”
“Stay with me?”
“You’re seriously afraid of that?”
“How could you?”
“Are you cold?”
“I love you, please believe me”
“What can I say to make this better?”
“You’re short, get over it”
“Pinky swears? Really?”
“Since when did you workout?
“Don’t make me choose”
“There’s nothing wrong with you.” 
“Are you checking me out?”
“Eyes up here pal”
“You’re beautiful”
“I will tear out your throat if you don’t zip it”
“Dance with me?”
“You did what?!”
“Don’t follow me”
“You’re killing me”
“I need to go”
“Okay so maybe, I did something bad”
“Kiss it? Make it better?”
“Did I do something to upset you?”
“Don’t shut me out”
“Is that my shirt?”
“You saved me”
“I want you”
“Are you flirting with me?”
“I’m not going to lie to you”
“Slow down! Slow down!”
“STOP CALLING ME!! JESUS!”
“WHY ARE WE RUNNING?!?”
“Something old, something used—new? Something blue? Fuck I don’t know”
“Okay this is ridiculous”
“Dance with me, darling?”
“Can you even drive?”
“Your lips are soft”
“I’ve never kissed anyone before”
“Exercise is overrated- fucking hell”
“Don’t ask questions you don’t want the answers to”
“If I say jump, jump!”
“Did you just run into a wall?”
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sabriinas · 2 months
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✍ + Taylor Swift
to my dearest, gorgeous, best friend, @taylorexposed
well, well, well. your big day is getting ever closer, tay. isn't that exciting? i'm beyond thrilled for you. even if it does mean trav is taking you away from me and whisking you off to kansas city - it's like he's trying to tempt me into making a dramatic objection, isn't it? i pinky swear i won't. i still can't believe you're getting married or that you asked me to be your maid of honor. i've never done that before, so i hope i won't let you down. apparently it's a thing that the maid of honor gives a speech? i promise i won't embarrass you too much. but in thinking of what i would say in that speech, it made me realise that i've never stopped to tell you how much i love, adore and appreciate you. and i can't say it to your face because i'll cry, so a letter it is. farewell emails i can't send era, we're in our letter writing moment now. i'll always remember the moment we first met. you've seen those silly little covers i posted when i was a literal infant, so you can only imagine how fucking nervous i was to meet you. but you were so kind, patient and generous with your time. to me, you already felt like this super cool older sister. and to that point, i have never seen you not be this way with all of your fans. even when you're exhausted, you never let it show and you always make sure that they are taking away a positive memory and experience with you. the warmth and kindness you show to everyone, whether it be fan, stage crew or your dancers, is beyond admirable. if everyone could be a little more like you, then the world would be a far kinder place. i'll forever be grateful for the opportunity that you gave me by inviting me to join you on your tour. you've opened doors for me that would have remained closed otherwise, taylor. and beyond that, i'm so fucking thankful for the time that we got to spend together on the road. i'll never forget those late nights in hotel rooms watching terrible movies, or getting the opportunity to perform up on stage with you (still pinching myself tbh). to call you a friend, still feels a little surreal at times. and i'm so fucking lucky for it. you have the biggest brain and i appreciate all of the advice you have given me over the past months. i treasure it all - from our silly little chats (c'mon, not us thinking we could become celibate and join a nunnery), to our d&m's. you're one of the best friends i've had and i look forward to chatting so much more shit with you, baby. forever and ever aaaand ever. love you forever. from one of your self proclaimed fave tiny blondes brina xoxo
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yourflowersfirst · 4 months
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day 1,416
transcribed from my notebook
now playing a house in nebraska and growing pains by ethel cain
slight trigger warning
to realize i’ve been raised to be meat was heartbreaking. the hands that held me, doted on me; now lining a blade to my throat, hands far too steady to be doing this for the first time. i owe my flesh in exchange for love and care. i am a living corpse for you to sink your teeth in. heartbreaking, yes, but it also gives me some disgusting type of satisfaction. to know this is what i’ve been made for.
the sun knows how to bleed, and so do i. like a red wine staining all my virgin sheets. it’s been a talent of mine since i was 6 years old. the sun paints the sky red with every dusk; i see red behind my eyelids every night when i’m trying to sleep. the sun clasps on my hands hard enough to bruise, and one day he will whisper my name a final time. but today he bleeds. for now, i mirror him. it’s all i’m good for. 
there is something pathetic about the way a dog like me loves. you point, i bite. you kick, i crawl. and i keep crawling back, again and again and again, because if i don’t, i’m just another stray. worthless, unwanted. probably covered in fleas due to neglect. you gut me slowly and tenderly; you look upon me with satisfied fondness. the same way a little boy looks upon his first trapped rabbit and decides to light it on fire. (eventually, these little boys grow up to be wobbly men who shoot deer and kill fish and post pics of it). please, don’t treat me like that. stop treating me like that. i know it’s tempting to do so. but i’ve been good- pinky promise. i don’t need more malice than god has already thrown at me. i go to sleep and hope i wind up dead somehow.
when you ignore me and refuse to touch me, parts of me die and wither up. makes me wonder how long it'll take for every leaf attached to fall to the ground and eventually get vacuumed away. some strange otherworldly disappointment. i wish i could believe i'm more beyond just the physical thing. maybe i'm an alien, a foreign stupid creature unworthy of such affection. "but you leave without touching me, and you don't know just how bad it hurts". i thought at least i had worth if i was pretty. even then, i guess i am meaningless, churning in your stomach and revolting and something you want to spit out. bitter. gross. i'm sorry i am these things, i'm trying to fix it. someday, i swear, i'll be pretty, i'll keep trying. push me around and tell me i'm being delusional, it'll make me grin. a real funny joke coming from the man who told me i'm allowed to cut myself once a year. lord, why does violence follow me like a cartoon stormcloud? god, i’m not these things i do. i’m gonna regret this- him- forever.
i always thought maybe all the damage done upon to me could be justified if i was young and sexy. instead i just feel like a monster putting lipstick on. maybe i’m just a leaky faucet. who would ever wanna mop floors all the time? nothing can hide how hideous my soul must be. endless cycle, rinse and fucking repeat.
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violetjedisylveon · 2 years
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I posted 3,114 times in 2022
That's 2,586 more posts than 2021!
260 posts created (8%)
2,854 posts reblogged (92%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@moonmeg
@the-sith-in-the-sky-with-diamond
@starwarstbbfan
@ito-itonomen
I tagged 2,820 of my posts in 2022
Only 9% of my posts had no tags
#reblog - 2,569 posts
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My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Intruder
Summary: Eda stumbles upon an unknown Island and meets a powerful kid she assumes to be an orphan raising their brother. With some insitance from a certain annoying bird brain, she slowly starts to build up trust between herself and the orphaned Collector.
Word count: 6.4k (totally didn't forget this)
Warnings: Swearing, manipulation, child abuse, trauma, denial, sick kid.
A/N: a 3/4 baked fic for a 3/4 baked AU! The Collector is a traumatized baby now, you're welcome.
He Hatched (art/AU explination), Eda raises two gods AU here. Ao3 link here.
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Someone was on the island.
There was a stranger.
They sat up and checked on their brother, he was sleeping soundly. He was a heavy sleeper. That was good.
They picked him up gently and carried him over to his little hidey hole, placing him securely in the soft fabric of their hat. He liked sleeping in their hat.
They scratched between his horns and he cooed softly. They chuckled, he was so cute.
They left him sleeping while they went to check out the intruder.
The Guard was making it's rounds. It must not have detected the threat yet.
Small rocks fell far ahead. Cursing followed, sounds echoing through the empty stone halls.
They snuck closer, flying so as not to alert the intruder to their presence.
They caught a glimpse of orange near the entrance. There was someone in their home.
"Who's there?!"
They backed out of the sudden beam of light shot towards them. They didn't like others in their home.
"Go away." They called out.
The light swivled towards them, they covered their eyes and hissed.
"Wha- you're a kid! What are you doing here?" The stranger asked.
They backed out of the brightness and got a better look at the stranger.
She was a witch, she had fluffy short orange hair, was wearing a lot a red, had an owl staff, and somehow had a familiar presence.
"I live here with my baby brother, we're waiting for Dad to come back." They said.
Dad is coming back! He is, he is! He's not the Isles, he's not! Philip lied. He's a liar, liar pant on fire! Dad's coming for us! He pinky promised! They swore to themself.
The witch gave him a sympathetic look, pity. They didn't like pity, they didn't want it.
"Go please, you'll wake my brother, then he'll be upset and I'll be upset." They told the witch.
"It's raining, kid, I can't do that." The witch gestured outside at the rain.
They cocked their head to the side.
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127 notes - Posted June 21, 2022
#4
One of my favorite thinga to do when reading a Clone Wars era Star Wars fic that has Obi-Wan and Cody interacting at all, is replace stuff like 'his general' 'his commander' 'his Jedi', with stuff like 'his husband' and 'his boyfriend'.
It's just really, really funny.
Like serious conversation happening in fic, Cody says something like 'my general is on his way as we speak' and it becomes, 'my husband is on his way as we speak'.
It's just fun.
128 notes - Posted June 7, 2022
#3
Collector and King Brothers AU Anyone?
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AU where King's dad saw the Collector and went; 'Is anyone gonna be that god kid's parental figure?' And didn't wait for an answer. The Collector gets traumatized and manipulated by Philip. Then Eda finds the Collector and King and went; 'is anyone gonna take care of these kids?' And also didn't wait for an answer.
First chapter here
Why? I dunno, I have a lot of AUs already so here's another.
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So the Collector gets a dad and he teaches them how to be gentle because everyone else is fragile and easily breakable.
After being adopted, the Collector did catch the Owl Beast, because it was hurt and they helped it get better and the Owl Beast kinda just stuck around cause this funky little star child is pretty cool.
The Titan Trappers don't have the Collector helping them kill the Titans but they still somehow managed to kill a lot of the Titans, probably by manipulating the Collector into it.
The Owl Beast got really badly hurt in a fight so the Collector transformed it into a curse to allow it to recover but then lost it. They were really upset their friend was gone.
King's dad hides the Collector with King's egg and tells them to watch after King.
Now you can interoperate the drawing as the Collector actually talking to King's dad, but they're really talking to one of the murals of him on King's island.
Why? because angst :)
So King's dad dies and the Collector is alone with King's egg and the gooy guard thing(I forgot it's name) for centuries.
The Collector left the island a few times over the course of King's incubation period, mostly cause they got a little bored and needed something to do/eat, but he always came back to watch their lil bro.
On their last time out, they ran into Philip and, because they were taught stranger danger, they wanted nothing to do with him at first. Philip ended up lying/manipulating the Collector into trusting him and teaching him some things, like sigils and some stronger magic.
The Collector was really lonely and upset and blaming themself because it was partly their fault that the Titans died even if King's dad told him it was really their fault, so they were easier to manipulate than he normally would've been.
So Philip added another child to his 'Children I've manipulated/traumatized' list, he betrayed them when he found out that he was hiding something powerful, the Collector got hurt by Philip, which is where that scars from, so now the Collector doesn't trust him and is a little scared of him.
After the Philip situation, The Collector didn't leave King's island again and they were very distrusting of humans and witches.
Then King hatched and the Collector was super happy that his little brother was okay and safe and they could play with someone again. The Collector is very protective of King.
Eda still gets cursed by Lilith, she still finds the hidden island with King and the Collector on it later, partly because the Owl Beast sorta guided her there.
The Collector didn't like Eda on their island, and attacked her at first because they're traumatized and distrusting of everyone now.
Eda got them to calm down and talk a bit, they don't talk much now, they told her that he was protecting their baby brother from the bad witches and that they would like it if Eda left and didn't tell anyone.
Eda left but, she got worried about this kid living alone on a remote, uncharted island with a baby apparently, and the Owl Beast went into mom mode and kept trying to get back to the island with dead animals to feed the kids.
Eda went back to the island a few times and slowly built up trust with the Collector, enough that when Eda discovered little baby King, the Collector wasn't super mad cause King was a little sick and they sorta trusted Eda enough to let her help.
Tldr:
Eda slowly befriended the Collector and then brought them and King to the Owl House. Oh, and Eda calls the Collector Enzo.
So Eda unknowingly adopted two gods, and the Owl Beast decided, these are my kids even though one is older than me.
King gets his name, and Eda begrudgingly accepts that she is now a mom, then decided to be a better mom than hers was cause things still aren't good between them.
The Collector is scared of Philip/Belos, Eda didn't know why cause the Collector doesn't talk much and she's not going to pry into this clearly traumatized child, so she just does what she can for them. He gets some therapy, their therapist comes to the Owl House cause he doesn't like going out much.
Eda gives the Collector an illusion disguise with a concealment stone so they can feel more safe when they go out and less scared of getting spotted by Belos. The disguise just makes them look like a witch.
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151 notes - Posted June 6, 2022
#2
Flapjack going through his list of witches and demons that would make a good parent for his witch: Darius, Owl lady, Owl lady sister, Principal guy, Raine, Eberwolf...*proceeds to list every adult in the entire boiling isles census.*
Flapjack: okay, anyone, litterally anyone is better than the fucker he's living with now!
*Flapjack puts 'adopt me' sign on the back of Hunter's cape and waits for something to happen*
827 notes - Posted April 4, 2022
Pls ignore My #1 post of 2022, it's the 1 politically related thing I have. And I don't like politics.
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The Earn It Act hurts everyone! Don't let it pass!
Sign the petitions here
Here(resist.bot)
here(change.org)
And check the reblogs, a lot of people have left links to websites discussing what this act does and how you can help fight it.
22,682 notes - Posted February 14, 2022
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evelestrange · 3 years
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i can't love you again!
my arcane masterlist
Act 3 spoilers.
┊pairing: Vi x firelight!fem!reader
┊warnings: mentions of injuries, brief mentions of experimentation and addiction, swearing, a whole lot of emotions
┊wordcount: 2.2k
┊genre: angst, hurt/comfort
┊summary: Vi being held hostage at the firelights base turned to be one of the most eventful days she could've had by meeting her lost lover again, but when her girl can't seem to trust her how will that end?
┊notes: i just wanted to say thank you so much for all the love on my last post! i appreciate it more than you guys could ever imagine.
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You sat beside Mirio and his baby, Walna. The bubble-like giggles resounded through the valley, contributing to to warm atmosphere it gave off.
"We're glad you're okay," Mirio offered as Walna waddled over to you, her dusty purple skin shining in the sun. You scooped her into your arms, throwing her into the air and catching her, only to repeat it.
"I'm glad too, Rio." The (h/c) girl smiled brightly at him as she held Walna close to her chest. "You were knocked out for a while. We started preparing for the worst."
Your heart dropped to your stomach as your expression fell at the confession. "I-It was just a bullet wound, it couldn't have been that bad," she reasoned. Mirio shook his head. "Shnarples." Y/n's breath stuttered as he spoke.
"Yeah, you gave us a real good scare."
"I'll try not to do it again, old man." She smiled.
"Oh you little-"
As Mirio was about to dig into you about the 'offensive' name, you felt a heavy hand smack you upside the head. You whipped around with your hand covering your crown. "Jesus Christ what was that for-"
"That was for getting shot by Jinx." The boy hit you again on the opposite side. "That was for scaring us to the point where they started sketching you to put you on the damn wall."
You sighed, shoving your hands in your pockets so you wouldn't fidget. His platinum twists swayed in the wind as he stared at her with narrow eyes.
"When I say retreat, you retreat."
"Since when were you the one calling all the shots? Did you forget that we both built this place from the ground up." Your voice was laced with venom.
"Since your emotions started getting in the way." You could tell he didn't mean to say that out loud, but he didn't regret what he said.
"Fuck you, Ekko. I bet if you had the chance, you wouldn't put a bullet in her brain. Cause you still see what I see," her next words were emphasized as she stepped to the taller male.
"You. Still. See. Powder." Each word sounded like a statement in itself. Ekko's face twisted in anger and annoyance. He turned his back to you, and in that moment something clicked as you panicked slightly.
"I promise I'll never walk away from you angry. We don't have the luxury of a guaranteed tomorrow."
"You pinky promise?"
Mylo, Claggors, Ekko, Powder, and Vi all looked in your direction as you all linked your pinkies together, promising to never leave another mad.
"Ekko!" Tears started to form in your eyes as you yelled after him from where he was walking inside the wall, into the keeping room.
"Don't you dare walk away from me angry." Her jaw clenched as she limped her way to the doorway. Ekko let out an annoyed groan as he took half your weight.
"I'm not angry at you, so chill out."
"Sure as hell seemed like it," you hissed.
"I wouldn't break that promise even if it was years ago," his face softened as he turned his head to face you.
Over the years of creating the firelights, you and Ekko were all the other had. Powder went batshit crazy, and kill Mylo, Claggors, Vi, and Vander. The bond you two had was unbreakable as you grew into the adults you are today.
"I know you haven't been...back on duty for a while but, there's something you need to see."
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Ekko stood in front of the built woman, who's voice sounded vaguely familiar. Your white, crafted masks were secured around your head as you listened to the woman hiss profanities.
You were crouched, one bent knee holding all of your weight as the other stuck out to your side. Mirio had removed the sack from over her face.
Suddenly you were incredibly grateful for the mask covering your face, preventing anyone from seeing your teary eyes and dropped jaw. Ekko nudged his head, telling Mirio to leave you alone with the girl.
"You shy- or just ugly?"
'I see she didn't lose her hot head.'
Ekko stepped to her, dropping the pipe in his hand.
His mask hissed as it dropped to his side.
Yours did the same from your place next to him.
"I look good for a dead girl." Ekko introduced.
You snorted a laugh as you got a good look at her. "What variation of shimmer did they give you, i need some of that shit." You scoffed, trying to detach your heart from your head.
All you wanted to do was throw your arms around her and never let go.
But why is she here? Where has she been? Why now?
"Ekko? Shit, Y-Y/n?"
"What do you know about this?" Ekko called out as he opened the mobile chamber, revealing a glowing blue stone.
"What the ever-living-fuck are you doing with hextech?" You scolded Ekko as he gestured to Vi. "She was helping Jinx protect it."
"Nothing. What the hell is this all about?" You kept your eye locked onto her facial expressions.
Her face twitched when she lied, it always has.
You gave Ekko a look, lightly nodding your head.
"What were you doing with Jinx?"
"You were with Jinx?!"
"Her name is Powder, And I just found her when you and your goons showed up."
"That's not Powder. Not anymore."Your hands were in your pockets as you shuffled around your foot.
She scoffed, "It's me. Vi."
"The same person who used to take you down to the junk heap and hose you down when you got covered in grease." Her head turned to you as she seemed to struggled to find the right thing to say.
"The same person who would sneak into Piltover to get you Violets to stick in your hair." Your heart skipped a beat as Ekko glanced at you before turning back to the pinkette.
"That was a long time ago. People change."
"Yeah, I'm getting that."
"Are you working for Silco?" Ekko questioned. You and Vi had mirrored expressions as you looked at him like he had two heads.
"Fuck. You."
Ekko stammered as he spoke "I-I-I- I thought you were dead."
You put and arm out in front of Ekko, limping as you stepped in front of him. "Where the hell have you been, Vi?"
"No, Y/n, cause now she shows up with a Piltie and decided to give her a tour of the Lanes."
"You were following us? Why didn't you say something?"
"You're working with an enforcer?"
"No- I-I mean yes, but it's not like that. She's not like that."
"I didn't know if I could trust you!"
"Not exactly like she gave us a reason to."
"So...so you just come out swinging?"
"Gee, I wonder who we learned that from," Ekko swung his arm around your shoulder as he gave Vi a look of exasperation.
"Ah, well, you shoulda learned more. You still punch like a little boy."
"And you still block with your face!"
Vi sighed, her expression fell slightly as she glanced at you, then down at the ground.
"I remember when you wouldn't stand up to me." The shackles clattered to the ground as you and Ekko slightly stepped back. Ekko shoved you back, you fell on your ass as you got ready to stand up and swing.
But your arms lowered as you saw Vi wrap her arms around your friend.
"I missed you, little man."
You seemed to stare as you watched them have their moment.
"How long have you had those off?"
"How long have you been whining?"
Ekko dug his head into her shoulder, wrapping his arms around her in a tight embrace. Vi opened her eyes, meeting your gaze as she reached her hand out to you.
"I miss you too, Princess."
Your eyes stung as you took her hand, she hauled you to your feet and into one of her arms as she held you just as close.
"You have no idea, Vi."
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Ekko winked at you as he walked away with Caitlyn to give her a tour of the base, leaving you and Vi to your own devices. You were on one off the tree's balconies that wrapped around the trunk, Vi's shoulder was pushed against yours as you stood there, pushing yourself against the railing.
"You guys built all of this?" She inquired.
"Not alone," you smiled as you remembered the days where every day and night was spent with laughter as you built the safe haven.
"After Vander...passed," you carefully spoke. "The streets were flooded with shimmer. Everyone here is either an addict or a victim." You confessed.
"And you?
"Back when we first started the firelights, Ekko and I were scouting for people we already knew. Trustworthy people." Your (e/c) eyes glazed over as you reminisced. "Ekko and I split up in the Lanes. I went to see a few people I grew up with...they ratted me out to Silco."
Your breathing labored as you closed your eyes, trying to prevent your tears.
"I was used to experiment the different variations of shimmer and how it affected people. Took me three years to get off of it, I was miserable the entire time."
"Everytime i see that glowing purple liquid death, it brings me back to my days in that lab." Your gaze was somewhere far away, and you hadn't noticed your own tears until Vi took your face in her hands, wiping them away with her fingertips.
"I'm sorry. For not being there for you, for everyone. I should've been here."
"That's one way to drive yourself crazy." Your smile brought up her spirits.
"(n/n)! (n/n)!" Walna called out to you from her spot at the base of the tree, her father lifting her up to see her better.
"Hi Munchkin!" You waved and blew her a kiss, a dopey smile on your face.
"You had a kid without me?" Vi spoke in mock offence.
"Like I'd have one with you," you scoffed.
There was a brief pause as you two just stood, encasing the fleeting moment that you had with her into your brain, and burning it into your memory.
"Remember when we used to talk about getting married?" Her pink hair blew in the wind as rays of sun danced across her cheeks.
'She's beautiful,' you thought.
"Yeah, we were in over our heads, weren't we?" You voice was dipped in sadness as you longingly gazed at the woman in front of you.
How could she be so close, but so out of reach?
"I don't think it was that far fetched," she slid her hand to yours on the railing, brushing the tips of her fingers against the back of your hand, tracing the structure of your hand.
"Don't do that, Violet."
"Don't do what?" She sighed as you pulled away from her.
"Don't make me have hope when you're just going to leave again, especially when there's someone else." Your heart was heavy in your chest as you tried to do the right thing.
"Someone else? I- What the hell are you talking about?"
"The girl! The woman you've been with since you got out of prison. The way you spoke about her in the keeping room....you care for her, Vi. And if i stand correct, I just-" you turned your head away from her as you finished.
"I can't love you again."
Vi's heart seemed to break as she reached out, pulling your body against hers as she held you as close to her heart as she could.
"Yes, because she's saved my ass ten thousand times. She's a friend to me, Princess." She pulled away, just barely. Her hands went to hold the sides of your neck, her thumbs caressed your jaw, swiping back a forth with purpose.
"Okay, so maybe you're not in love with her, but that doesn't change the fact that you're going to leave with her."
"I'm not going anywhere."
"So you're going to stay? Here? Become a firelight?" You sarcastically remarked as you started to pull your face away from her hold. The woman in front of you quickly brought your gaze back to her as she looked you in the eyes, the most serious look on her features.
"Yes, that's exactly what I'm doing. I talked to Ekko, he said I can stay as long as he doesn't hear our 'sappy shit." She laughed as she pressed her nose to yours.
"You're really staying?"
"I'm really staying."
With her reassurance you brought your hands behind her neck, pushing her down to meet your lips. You smiled into the kiss as her hands went down to your waist, pulling you impossibly closer as she savored the moment.
She pulled away from you, a smirk on her face with an arched brow.
"Think you can love me again?" She sassed, as she ran her thumb over your lips.
You rolled your eyes as you trailed your hands down her back, hooking your fingers into her belt loops.
"Possibly."
"Yo! I said you could stay if i didn't see the sappy shit!"
"You said hear, Dipshit!"
"You two never stop, do you?"
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octoagentmiles · 3 years
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about me!! yeah :)
name: Miles!
pronouns: they/them. I prefer gender neutral or masculine language. (mx./mr., sir, etc.)
funky brain go- *incomprehensible jargon and mechanical screeching*: a lot of this fandom is neurodivergent, so I want to share that I am autistic, have ADHD, dyscalculia, and anxiety. Many of these things affect the timeliness, or other aspects, of my posts or responses.
I don't want to share my age publicly, but I want to state that folks of all ages are welcome here! Please note though, that some of my content may involve slightly more mature themes, such as swearing (not from me directly, but from reblogs, memes, audios used over videos, etc.), and sometimes angsty topics discussing headcanons and theories related to mental illness or trauma. I will never post anything ns\ft. I will always add CWs and TWs to my posts; if I miss one, please don't be afraid to let me know, or request anything specific!
favourite character: Barnacles 🛞💙
(VERY honourable mentions: Tweak 🔧💚, Natquik/Tracker ❄️🤍, and Kwazii/CJ/Pete 🏴‍☠️🧡)
posts I make: character/episode analyses, random observations/thoughts, funnies/jokes/memes, headcanons/theories, videos/edits, etc.
favourite GBR song(s): Pirate Pie and Briney Blue. Kwazii go prr <3
favourite special: Great Arctic Adventure
favourite season: all of them 4th and 5th
go listen to my Octonauts playlist >:)
"I sent an ask and it's been a while lmao": I struggle with executive dysfunction really badly, but I will get to you eventually. I pinky-promise. /gen
"Where's your askbox?"
ask/dni rules under cut:
(the block button is my dearest sweetest bestest friend <3 so read carefully lmao)
(There are "\"s through some words, so that this post isn't filtered for people who have them blocked.)
Please DON'T ask me shipping questions. This includes my opinions on certain ships, what I ship or don’t, prompts or requests implying certain ships, etc. I know that shipping is fun for a lot of people, but publicly talking about it triggers my anxiety, so I’d rather not. Thank you for understanding.
Side note: Please DON'T TAG ANY of my posts as #ship, unless explicitly stated otherwise with a "#tag however you wish" or "#interpret how you wish". It's rare that I use these tags, but if I do, it's fair game. If you leave comments on my posts or in my inbox about shipping, I will not respond to them, and I'll probably remove them.
Side note²: I don't like pros\hippers. Go away. If I see ANY pros\hip content or support of such content on your blog AT ALL you will instantly be sentenced to life of a block without trial. No excuses, no second chances. ❌
Keep it family friendly. Meaning: No swearing or usage of slurs (even if you don’t know it’s a slur, or if you personally can/have reclaimed it, I will delete your ask/reply, and block you. the word “queer” is fine.), no references to or specific asks about dr*g use or alc*hol, no lemony or sugg\estive material, no graphic viole\nce, go\re, or inju\ry. This applies to comments on my posts, as well.
No queer\phobia (this includes gatekeeping), no rac\ism or xeno\phobia, no able\ism. (or any other kind of -isms, if they ever come up). Don't ever send me hate speech, dis\course, or bullying, regarding myself or others. It's pointless, will be deleted on sight, and I may block you. Go eat a snickers and think about your life choices.
If you really want to ask something that might imply one of the above, please put CWs and TWs* at the beginning of your ask; and be very clear that what you're sending in is a genuine question*, headcanon, or whatever else it may be. (*If it's a question, I may respond privately.)
Also remember that I can decide to just,, not answer something, even if it follows the rules. Usually I’ll do this if I’m not sure how to answer an ask, like, if I’m not knowledgeable enough on the subject, or it references a non-octonauts piece of media that I’m not a fan of, or it features a weird specific trigger/squick of mine that you would have no way of knowing about. Either way, if you’re sitting in your room staring at the wall and you randomly think to yourself, “Hey... my ask never got answered.......” that could be why.
I welcome angst concepts with open arms! But again, please use CW/TWs, and refer to the previous rule’s “no graphic viole\nce” note. If you’ve been here a while, you’ll know I love some good emotional angst~ (high school english teacher voice: "in writing, that's called ✨catharsis!✨")
...UNLESS it’s just a case of Funky Brain Syndrome (executive dysfunction, or good ol' anxiety). In that case, I promise it's not personal, and I am sincerely sorry for the delay—please continue being patient 🙏, and take this lollipop for your troubles: 🍭
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*Quick glossary:
a CW warns for content that someone may not want to see or hear, for any reason. (examples: viole\nce, ns\ft, certain people or topics, phobias, squicks or triggers: see final note.)
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a squick is something that may make someone highly uncomfortable to see, hear, or read about; it's different from a trigger in the sense that they're usually more mild, and less likely to cause real damage or harm, but you'd still prefer to avoid them nonetheless. (examples: they can be anything, but are often things like certain tropes, topics, ships, or milder phobias, secondhand embarrassment, etc.)
The two words CW + TW can, and very often do, go hand-in-hand; but the difference can matter sometimes—so can the difference between a squick and a trigger.
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natsukitakama · 3 years
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Headcanon : Softie feat Chifuyu Matsuno
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Author note : I wanted to start by apologizing for disappearing I know I'm not the most regular here but I'm doing my best I swear ♡ Currently in a Tokyo Revengers / Re-main mood so you might see some content about it before I can post my last request ♡ Anyway I hope you'll enjoy it cause as promised I'll write something for one of the biggest cutie of TR
Warning : Mention of spoiler if you havent caught up with the manga / Fluffy stuff because I'm softie for him
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Chifuyu Matsuno 松 (まつ) 野 (の) 千 (ち) 冬 (ふゆ) 
Since he is a fan of Ai Yazawa’s work let’s start by saying he is definitely Nobuo Terashima from the manga Nana I won’t take no for an answer this is definitely him. He is Nobu who somehow travel through manga universe to come in Tokyo Revengers giving us the fluff we were longing for
Just imagine him with Nobu piercing haaaaa I’m done
The fact that Wakui told us that he got no success with the woman is a liar, he is just too busy with his Toman duties to acknowledge people crushing on him.
He is definitely the popular guy who didn’t know that he is attractive you know ? In shojo sometimes you got that character that is absolutely gorgeous basically an angel on earth but is self-degrading because they believe they are not good enough not attractive enough ? That’s him. I mean the guy is really cute. He is very respectful, loyal to everyone he cares about he reads shojo he got a lovely cat and work at petshop and he got these bad boy vibes (And a bike !) what do you need ?
I believe that with the busy year he got from trying to know if Baji was really a traitor to work with his partner Takemichi in order of taking down Kisaki (and saving Fuyu’s life in the process) I don’t think he really got time to check his option and really take interest in a relationship.
I believe that in his high school he’ll start to take matters more seriously, he is already working on a petshop, he is little by little living again after Baji’s death. He knows to accept that not because Baji isn’t here anymore it doesn’t mean that he -Chifuyu- needs to stop living.
*So yeah I can see him starting dating during his high school year, it doesn’t mean he’ll find someone directly but now Fuyu would be more « aware » of his surrounding.
But let’s be real
He is romantic baby
And because he reads like a tone of shojo he misunderstands some event that happened to him, not in the wrong way, but like Shinichiro used to he saw every act of kindness coming from someone as a way to flirt with them you know ? Like you’re giving him his bag of groceries with a smile, your hand would brush against is. He is done for the day, he won’t stop thinking about you, daydreaming that it was a way of showing him you find him cute. Since you were adorable yourself it didn’t help his heart.
After one or two embarrassing stories, he finally understands the meaning behind action and won’t jump into conclusion each time someone is being very nice to him
Like many Tokyo Revengers characters I believe he needs someone very sweet and caring, because Chifuyu went through a lot and despite what he might say he never really stopped thinking about Baji and what he could do to protect him.
So he’ll need you to wipe his tears and remind him that he did everything he could and that his best friends wouldn’t want him to cry during his whole life because of him, after all he was part of Baji’s treasure so he needs to act like it
Enough with the angst we need fluff right now
He might not be the clingiest boyfriend (Because who can be clingier that Mikey ? Yeah) but he is very present. The boy can’t live without holding your hands and if you’re not comfortable with PDA be sure he’ll wrap his pinky against yours.
Also I saw him as the one who give pat head and kiss at your forehead easily (he saw it on a shojo and he wanted to do it) and since you tend to be a a blush mess because of it gives him confidence to do it again
I say on another headcanon that Kazutora was a kisser’s addict remember ? Chifuyu is another one.
Instead of « just » kissing you on your lips, Fuyu would kiss you everywhere from your hand to your hair. He just loves giving you pet and he finds every occasion to kiss you. Good grades ? A kiss. Feeling sad ? Kiss. Hungry ? Kiss. He kisses you all the time, sometimes he even went as far as to cover your whole face with kisses just to hear you giggle which make him chuckle (god his voice is so attractive).
But I have to say that his kiss your lips are the most intense, maybe it’s because he reads way too much shojo, but he always put his hand on your hair before kissing you and won’t stop until his body tell him he really needs to breath.
Oh he is praiser too, not in a sexual way (also it might be but that’s not the point), he just loves you so much ? He just feels like he needs to simp over you, like praising you reminds you that you’re incredible.
He is so proud of you have no idea
As I previously said he is really into PDA but he knows not everyone is fine with it and his worst nightmare is you forcing yourself and being uncomfortable about him. Don’t hesitate to put boundaries and tell him what’s okay for you and what’s not okay he won’t mind quite contrary. Now that he knows what he can do he will pumper you with affection knowing that he is making you happy
Yeah because your happiness is REALLY important to him, he can’t stand seeing you sad, angry, depressed it’s breaking his heart. You’re his sunshine. You’re glowing and your light shouldn’t shattered because of bad emotion, so anytime you’re feeling down don’t worry your boyfriend would be here to provide you anything you want : cuddle, an ear to talk, movie, sweets anything honestly.
Best boyfriend ever with Mitsuya obviously
Will cry each time you bring him a bento like it’s cry from happiness because up to this point with everything he went through he thought the world was against him and here you are bringing him food because you care about him ??? Please can someone give you a reward
And when he started working at the petshop, each time you’ll visit him god prevent Kazutora from being here because Chifuyu would be all over you. Hugging you like his life depends on it, kissing you deeply forcing a moan to leave your mouth because he is that good kisser. If you are wondering why I talked about Kazu well, he was here one day when Fuyu was particularly missing you, he complained all day, he talked to the baby about you how cute you are, what a sweetie you were to him, as if you weren’t here anymore you know ? It didn’t help that you decided to see your boyfriend because you were missing him too, well let’s say that Kazu was in first place to see both of you making out and that he kinda regrets his time in jail.
The word is that it happened a lot before you decided to go to the storehouse to cuddle (Kazu might threaten to adopt your favorite rabbit)
During a long time (if you weren’t aware about what happened to Baji) he never brung the subject of Baji’s death, not because he wasn’t trusting you or anything but because it still hurt to talk about it, and he didn’t want to cry in front of you I can’t explain why. But after a long time when he felt like you two were everything, when he felt like he could talk to you well he decided to confess about Baji, about his life as a Toman member and everything.
Even though you knew he used to be a thug, you were surprised by this confession and honestly felt about it because you could tell that he was missing his best friends.
Not being able to see him fighting the urge to cry, you took him into your arm to cuddle him whispering to him that it’s fine that he can cry in your arm, it’s okay he’ll be fine.
After that you came to realize that in each « Baji’s death anniversary » and during his « birthday », Chifuyu disappeared. Like he woke up like usual but instead of going to work he went into a particular fast food to buy Peyoung Yakisoba like he used to. And then he paid a visit to Baji, not that he never went to see him since that day to be honest he’ll see Baji at least one time each week. During this time he’ll like to summarize everything who’s involved Toman, Mikey everything that might interest Baji. Then he’ll cry, he’ll apologize for what happened because Fuyu still feel guilty for what happened.
You know that he needed to do this alone, even though you wanted to be there to take care of your boyfriend and support him. You knew that one day he’ll ask you to come with him, just be patient
I don’t think I should say it because everyone know it, but he is super faithful ??? Like we’re talking about the guy who gives up his dream job and instead chooses to live his bestriend's one ?
Whether you sleep with him in his bedroom or yours, be sure that Peke J would always be there. I don’t feel like Fuyu would be able to let his baby to his mother or a friend. So he’ll always bring his baby with him. You can consider yourself as Peke J’s second parent.
Speaking of parents, I’m pretty sure you would be all nervous the first time you would meet his mum, but don’t worry even though she’ll act a bit intimately (she does that in order to protect her son) she’ll quickly fall in love with you. So you two would soon talk as if you have been a part of this family since the beginning
Seeing the picture of his dead dad, I assume Chifuyu barely know his father so if you two decided to start a family he’ll do so many researches about how to take care of a child, he’ll ask his mum and every parent he is kinda close too (even those old ladies from his neighborhood)
Because yes I believe he wants children but if you two couldn’t have children, whether you don’t want or can’t have one it’s okay both of you would either adopt a child or a cat lmao. Frankly he can live without children.
I think he is mummy’s boy
He drinks his people juice every day
Honestly you would be treat like royalty (as you should !)
He just loves you so much
I can see him as the type to always bring your need before his own. Like if you two are working he’ll always be sure to cook or clean the house no matter if he was home first or not. He will make you a hot bath for you, even remove your make up and do your morning routine for you.
Tell him he is the best boy he deserves to hear it
Okay this one is weird but I’m particularly sensible when it came to smell and I dunno I just feel it, I think he kinda smells like vanilla or washing powder you know ? Those one who smell like baby, really sweet smell even though he is buying male fragrance he can’t help but smell like some sweet.
It’s a really calming scent like each time you’re brought close to his neck (because he drives you somewhere with his bike, because you are cuddling or because he is giving piggy back ride you because you couldn’t walk anymore) its relaxing you.
He really loves driving you, I can’t explain it I just know it. Each time you’re about to leave he’ll be like « where are you going ? I can drop you here if you want ». Doesn’t matter if it’s with his car or his bike he just loves traveling (if we can call it a travel) with you.
His hair is also very soft, like I don’t know what conditioner he is using but despite killing his hair with bleaching his hair are so soft it felt so good to stroke his hair
I feel like he wears jewelry ,necklace, bracelet, rings give him everything he will wear it and look like a fucking model I’m not making the rule it’s canon
One of his dream is to receive a scarf that you made for him, or anything that you sewed for him. He read so many shojo and each time he saw the love-interest getting a scarf from the protagonist his heart was beating so hard, he was even squealing so hard that he scared Peke J (he gave him a reward to apologize)
Whether it’s with his lovely bike or car, he loves getting you a drive those kind of travel when you know where you leave but don’t know where to go. Sometimes it’s just him driving into Tokyo Road but the fact that you are here talking to him, singing songs with him, it’s just perfect. Bonus point if one of you brought food to eat on his car.
Yeah he definitely enjoy a drive-in movie you know ? Both of you wrapped on a blanket holding each other hand
I believe that up to some point he’ll feel like to marry you, he just wants to see you in your wedding close looking at him and say « I do » when you’ll be asked if you want to spend the rest of your life with him.
He is freaking romantic, and won’t be afraid to be a little cliché. So yeah he tends to go at your date with a bouquet of flowers, a gift. He just loves spoiling you.
During your date he is always trying to get into those cliché situation, bumping into you so your books would fall on the floor and both of you would kneel to take it so your fingers would brush. Or during lunch he’ll feed you because he thinks you look so cute with your cute little mouth opening slightly for him to put food and honestly just the fact that you trust him enough to do that is insane. Oh and he’ll definitely try to do that cliché scene where the boy is leaning against your body so you would be push against the wall, his hands would cage you in as he leans for a kiss.
definitely the type to confess under a cherry tree I’m sorry I know he will
Oh and he tends to whisper a lot in your ear just to see if you’re going to blush or get flustered because of him
He also randomly grabs your cheeks with a single hand just because he feels like it
I’m giving him 100/10 just marry me already please I won’t date anyone if they’re not Fuyu that’s it
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'someday maybe' | t.h.
tom holland x singer!reader
warnings: one swear? fluff and angst? kisses
summary: you're so close to finishing your second album when your manager pushes the deadline, your ex tom helps you write the final track.
{listen to someday by michael bublè and meghan trainor (if you want)}
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"Someday maybe when we're old and grey,"
"Yes, yes. I know. You are not being a very helpful manager right now, Noelle." you spoke to your phone as you paced around the living room, "Okay. I'll get working on it. Bye." you huffed and threw your phone against the couch.
Your album was due to be released in two months and you needed one more song to tie it all together. Your manager, Noelle, was pushing you to finish the song so she could start the promo of the album.
You were incredibly grateful for your career, but the pressure weighed down on you everyday. Never ending.
With a final groan you picked up your acoustic guitar and sat on the couch. Picking at the strings, trying to find a melody. You hit record on your voice memo app before strumming away.
"Someday maybe when we're old and grey, we can be in love once more. 'Till then I won't give my love away. Darling, I'm forever only yours." you sang softly.
You and Tom had a joyous relationship. A love that only ever existed in movies and fairytales. The type of love story that gets told for generations and onwards. But alas, all good things must come to an end.
Your breakup was calm, serene and clean. A mutual agreement as if your whole relationship had been a business deal. There were no loose ends or jealous passive aggressive remarks made. Just maturity and respect for one another.
Your pinky still held the promise ring he gave you. A token of appreciation. A reassurance that he'd always be there for you. And he lived up to his word.
Tom walked in and sat across from you, startling you, "Sorry. Didn't mean to scare you. Whatcha writing?"
"Need a final song for the album. Sorry for showing up unannounced. I just get better inspiration here, with all the memories, you know?" you timidly looked back down at the guitar.
Tom nodded, "No need to apologize. We gave you a spare key for a reason."
You couldn't stop yourself from spilling the words from your lips, "That was when we were together."
You could hear the awkward silence start to fill the room before he spoke again, "Still our best friend, Y/L/N."
The pain that crossed your features was instant. Being addressed by your last name felt like a stab to the gut. Especially by Tom.
You nodded before playing again, "Can I help you write it?" Tom asked as he sat next to you.
"Dancer, gymnast, actor and now songwriter. How many hidden talents have you got, Holland?" you teased making him laugh.
He shrugged with a smile, "It's kind of like writing a poem, right?"
You pondered on his analogy before slowly nodding, "Yeah, it kind of is. Give it a go."
You began playing the melody and he listened intently for a few moments before singing, "I love seeing you happy. I miss seeing that smile. It's been such a long time. A– Nope. Nope. Nuh-uh. I can't do it." he shook his head aggressively with a loud laugh as you stopped playing.
"No!" you quickly protested, "That was amazing! Don't leave me hanging, c'mon." you nudged him with your shoulder before strumming again.
"Alright, alright." he ran his hands down his face, "And although I don't have you, I know now that I need to?" he paused and gave you a skeptical look before you nodded again, "Somehow make you mine. Mmm."
"Oh, okay. He's giving ad-libs and all. Get it." you nodded as he laughed.
You were so engrossed on Tom actually writing a song with you that you didn't focus on the lyrics he was singing.
"And I won't lie, it's hard seeing you with him 'cause I know he can't hold you like I can." his mood seemed to drop by a thousand as the words left his lips.
"When can we meet this boyfriend of yours?" Harrison flicked your forehead from across the booth.
You, Harrison, Tom and Tuwaine were all sat in the local pub. Pints of beer in front of each of you as loud music and chatting filled your ears.
You shrugged, "He's picking me up, so possibly tonight."
Tuwaine's eyes lit up, "Fina-fucking-lly. I swear you've kept him hidden for years."
"We've only been together for three months, T." you laughed lightly with the group of boys.
And they met him. It wasn't the smoothest of introductions, but an introduction nonetheless.
"Boys, this is Kai. Kai this is Tom, Harrison and Tuwaine." you gestured to the parties as they all shook hands and gave polite greetings.
"So," Harrison started, "What do you do for a living, Kai?"
Kai cleared his throat, "I'm a Senior Resident at Kingston Hospital. Working towards being Head of Pediatrics."
Tuwaine and Harrison both nodded, impressed by his profession. Tom's face remained expressionless as he stared at Kai with cold eyes.
"Do you have any siblings, Kai? Any psycho ex-girlfriends? Any wacky cousins?" Tuwaine joked making everyone laugh. "'Cause Y/N has a lot of wacky cousins."
"We could be in love once more,"
"Hey!" you gasped with a laugh.
Kai pulled you closer to him as he laughed, "No, no wacky cousins or psycho exes, but I do have an older sister and a younger brother."
This game of ask and answer continued on for a few more minutes. Tom didn't say a word, just sipped his beer and burned holes into Kai with his eyes. If looks could kill, Kai would be six feet under.
Kai was a sweetheart, but you two ended ages ago. His work got too much for him and your job had you touring and travelling every second.
You picked up after him with the chorus before diving into your own verse, "I remember that love song. I sang every word wrong, but you didn't mind, no, no."
"I love the things you do. It's how you do the things you love. Well it's not a love song, not a love song. I love the way you get me, but correct me if I'm wrong. This is not a love song, not a love song!" Tom belted the 'Austin & Ally' song from the top of his lungs.
"Your turn!" he pointed the pretend mic in your direction.
You laughed, not knowing any of the lyrics, but still wanting to participate, "I love that you not a licket! And you own a watch and chicken! We got a car!" you sang with full confidence, making Tom burst with laughter.
"Yes! Sing it, darling!" he cheered you on, "Absolutely butchering the lyrics, but sing it!"
"Being stuck inside a car. If it's not a doe, don't kiss it! I can't hear a missing, when there's a shoe inside the ceiling! If you really need to fart, you can lunch on a pig farm! Love song! Love song!" you couldn't even hear the song in the background, your voice overpowering it.
Tom was hunched over from laughing before he came back up and planted a soft kiss on your lips, "You are one hundred percent ridiculous and I love it."
You brought yourself back to reality and sang again, "And I'll admit that I miss you, but only if you do. 'Cause you know that I'm shy. And I can't lie, it's hard seeing you with her. 'Cause I know she can't love you like I can."
Tom's eyes met yours as the words fell from your gentle lips. His mouth was slightly agape as you continued to strum.
"You are absolute rubbish. Imagine coming in eighth. Embarassing." you laughed as you crushed Harrison in a game of Mario Kart.
He shoved you with his shoulder, "You're such a try ha—"
"—It's always the same, Tom! How can I trust you? You follow gorgeous models on Instagram and expect me to trust you?" Nadia's voice cut Harrison's words off.
You looked at him with wide eyes, his expression matching yours.
"Those women that I follow have been my friends for ages. Who I follow on a stupid app shouldn't effect how much you trust me."
You paused the game, cutting off the theme song, "How long have they been fighting like this?"
Harrison sighed, a long groan following, "A few weeks. I think it started when she saw that he liked your Instagram picture?"
You stammered, "M-my post? She got mad about my post?"
Harrison nodded before opening his mouth to speak, but Nadia cut him off again, "And she practically lives here! How do you think it makes me feel seeing my boyfriend play house with a superstar?!"
"Aw, a superstar? I'm flattered." you joked making Harrison stifle a laugh.
"I've been friends with Y/N since we were in nappies!"
"I can't be with you if you're going to be friends with her."
Your laughter abruptly died at her words. Harrison stiffened beside you.
"Y-you can't be serious. You can't make me choose between you and her."
"Why? Because you're gonna choose her?" you could hear her voice crack.
"I-" Tom couldn't make out a sentence for a few moments, "Yeah. I'm gonna choose her."
Your heart fell from it's place, stopping at your feet. Harrison brought a hand to his mouth, "H-he chose you. He chose you!" he whisper shouted before you shushed him.
"Of course. I don't know why I expected anything different. I think I'll be going now." Nadia's footsteps approached the living room.
You and Harrison scrambled to look as if you weren't eavesdropping on their argument/breakup.
Tom followed close behind her, "I'm sorry. I really am."
She nodded, hand on the doorknob, "I know. Goodbye." she stepped out of the house, slamming the front door shut in the process.
Tom let out a breath of relief before turning to you and Harrison who were staring at the Mario Kart home screen with the infamous tune playing.
"You guys are terrible actors."
"'Till then I won't give my love away,"
"I'm forever only yours." the both of you finished the song in unison.
There was a moment of silence before you reached over and ended the voice recording.
"T-that was really good. You can change what I wrote, I know it isn't as good as anything you would've written, but I tried. And it was actually pretty fun and I never knew how difficult songwriting was un—"
"—Kiss me." you cut Tom's rambling off.
His eyes grew wide, "W-wha—"
"—Kiss me, Holland."
He swallowed, a small smile stretching on his lips, "Thank God."
And with that, he leaned in and pressed his lips to yours. Interlocking like missing puzzle pieces. Moving in sync like waves in the ocean. Soft and sweet, but filled with passion. You could feel his smile against your lips causing you to grin.
His hand came up to pull your face closer into his. Caressing your jaw, fingertips playing with the hairs on the back of your neck. His other hand holding your hip in a tight grip. Pressing the pads of his digits into your flesh, scared that you might slip through his fingers again.
One of your hands was pressed flat against his chest. Steadying yourself, the heat of the kiss threatening to throw you off of your axis. Your other hand tangled itself into Tom's curls. Pulling and tugging lightly causing small groans to fall from Tom's lips. Your fingernails scratching his scalp. Pulling him impossibly closer to you.
"I want my ten pounds." Harrison's voice snapped you and Tom out of your make out session.
Him and Tuwaine stood in the doorway, shit eating grins on their faces.
Tuwaine laughed before placing a ten pound note in Harrison's palm, "You guys couldn't have waited until next month to get back together?"
"You two were betting on us?" Tom laughed at his mates who nodded.
You shook your head with a smile, "Absolute idiots, all of you."
Harrison let out a happy sigh and pocketed the money, "Today was a good day. Had a sick ass shoot. Got ten pounds. And my best friends are finally together again." he waltzed into the kitchen with Tuwaine, leaving you and Tom alone again.
Tom's shy expression met your gleeful one before he spoke, "Someday came a lot sooner than expected, huh?" he chuckled.
You nodded with a laugh, "It certainly did and I am not complaining."
He sent you a wide grin before cupping your face and connecting your lips to his again.
"Darling, I'm forever only yours."
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