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do-what-we-must · 5 months

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I did something ‘bad’ (talked about mom extensively and honestly in therapy), and since then I’ve been having an even harder time in the bathroom. I mean the difficulties have always been there, and they got worse three months ago when I finally accepted that my mom had been sexually abusing me

But all last night anytime I needed to urinate it felt like something was penetrating me painfully. That same splitting, filling, sour feeling. I couldn’t dissociate from it. I was crying on the toilet because I couldn’t get away from it but I desperately needed to go. I went to bed in tears, shaking, unable to cope with it all and conked out pretty quickly. Thats not normal for a Dosy, we generally don’t cry like that

More nightmares about mom. Mom and her malicious incompetence and my dealing with police. Mom’s desk that’s in my storage unit. Choking. Penetration. It feels like she’s able to punish me for talking from far away

I dont know what this all means, the penetrative experience in particular. I thought that was a chris thing, but all this is specifically mom flavored. What was she doing to me? My body knows. It always has. I don’t want to think about it

#dosy 2 #i need to get in touch with my brother about taking the desk #i thought i wanted it but i dont think I should take it actually

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casualavocados · 2 months

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Why did you do it? I don't know what you're talking about. I was drunk that night, and you told me you would always look at me— You want to get back at me, right?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #louis chiang #chaing tien #jiang dian #nat chen #chen bowen #userspring #userrain #uservid #userspicy #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #WE LOVE WHEN AI DI IS A BITCH. 10/10 NO NOTES. just. be a freak about it why dont you i love this for him #its actually insane how good of a liar he is. like........he really truly seems so unbothered by everything #but no matter what he says the idea of something casual is the last thing he could ever want. its so painful for him #and he only pushes the idea because he doesnt think chen yi will ever ever love him seriously OR casually #as if the idea of being with him could anger chen yi. SHOULD anger chen yi. because of how preposterous it is #but he also feels like he owes chen yi. like. ai di literally thought that after prison chen yi would never seek him out #would never want to speak to him ever again and he thinks thats BETTER for them too bc he cant take back what he did AND #he cant take back his own vulnerability. but he cant take anything casual with chen yi so he hides behind this facade of being uncaring #that chen yi KNOWS is FALSE and that BREAKS ME. his face as ai di pushes past him.......ow.#a more openly expressive version of 'i know he's lying to me but i dont understand whats going on and that HURTS me' but Extra Painful #because ai di is all chen yi wants. and - 'an explanation'... he wants ai di to want him too

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puppyeared · 10 months

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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dailykugisaki · 8 months

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Day 104 | id in alt

*Kugisaki voice* Itadori, your mom is a fucking freak.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #kenjaku #my extension #geto suguru #Kenjaku going down to get a new favorite one of Itadori's friends since junpei died #She likes the ones that are just a little wack #im sorry that motherly shit cannot be extracted #immediately started shaking the nearest kid and the favoritism shined through #treating a random ass girl decently by kenjaku standards than choso bc i think its funny #plus gege just got scared by how many interactions Kugisaki could make interesting i just find it funny #this one is for my one mutual. and the fact i kinda wanted to see what drawing kenjaku would be like #gege fumbled the bag but i dont plan on not grabbing the bag myself #gege dosent know how to properly write a fucked up mother #contrary to popular belief #i do enjoy kenjaku talking and i think xey should talk more actually we haven't milked all the information and interactions outta her yet #also the one glimpse of Kenjakus pupil i based off of the parasite that takes over snails! I thought itd be funny #*cracks knuckles and starts weeping about typing out the id*#yes i use neo pronouns she/he/they/it pronouns for kenjaku. yes i will continue to so unless i am told it is wrong #if i am told it is wrong i will change my shit IMMEDIATELY #i hope i characterized kenjaku correctly #i think i should open asks....

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crystalkitty1220 · 3 months

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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago #and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since #someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line #that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation #where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had #thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was #super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh #that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated #as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying #to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit #because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha #could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to #believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in #the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of #development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school #and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility #and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai #anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin #or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post #addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad #writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into #doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao

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widevibratobitch · 4 months

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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol #like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset #and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it #but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all #(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have #and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth #(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves #and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol #but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates #the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation #that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me

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todayisafridaynight · 11 months

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personally wanna thank the sudden LAD8 news for letting me win cowboy kirby from the new gacha machine at ebisu today

#snap chats #yes i did take this while on the train back dont look at me #‘snap isnt gambling bad’ when its kirby you never lose so its ok i think #i actually wanted to play the old kirby gacha machine from last week but it was gone </3 oh well i already won somethin from it #i never got to play these machines when i was a kid so im makin up for lost time now. is my excuse 🤪#is this just an excuse to show off my lil man Yes. Also I Got Snacks.#they changed the gacha machines what was i supposed to do…#ngl i lowkey wanted the magolor one but when i walked in and saw the new machine i immediately thought of cowboy kirby #TEECHNICALLY ITS LASSO I KNOW SHUT UP but still…#omg i should draw cowboy joon gi with lasso kirby….. maybe on saturday lol….#anyway no one ask about the kuromi card holder kit. im gonna watch suspect x now BYYYYEEE

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malaierba · 11 months

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Thinking about Karamatsu/Nozomi whole looking through some web weavings, and if I ever write something for them (currently in the phase of trying to come up with key events and organise them chronologically so it makes sense, thematically) I think I'd like this to be one of the take aways

In the event of a bad ending (dunno if I'm strong enough for that though 🫠 SHE CAN CHANGE HIM WITHOUT DYING im better than that), I hope that Karamatsu still finds it in himself to stop being so passive about his life. Like,

To stop waiting for the perfect moment or the perfect answer to dawn on him, and instead take life by reins and... Just start being an active participant in his own life. To embrace self-determination and the risk of committing to something that may not pan out but still forces you to take conscious and mindful action every day.

#nozomi takahashi #karamatsu #karanozo #thinking about what the sextuplets (say they) want out of life vs. what they do to achieve it vs. whats holding them back #you have cybermatsu who are the most driven/ambitious but where one is held back by anxiety/the delusion that thinking about being responsi #is the same as actually being responsible (i mean. i get it lol) the other one is held back by trying to cheat the system bcs he thinks he'#too smart for hardwork + the apprehension that if he earns something it may be disrupted by his family dynamic which is HEARTBREAKING #then parka who dont show much ambition and i think they embrace the mindset of not wanting more than they currently have #whilst ignoring the discomfort this creates. and i like to think Osomatsu is stressed by the knowledge that as the eldest he SHOULD be #striving for more no matter how much change scares him (sick dad skit + nyachan skit) whils Ichimatsu just has such a low image of himself #he probably thinks back to how hard he had to try I'm HS and gets discourage yet also ignores the successes he's had #(hc but i like to think everyone thought he and choro would be the most well adapted and traditionally functional members of society but it #didn't pan out. in Choro's case because he wasn't as good as he thought he was and in Ichimatsu's because realising that he'd have to mask #forever kept him from trying)#and then. kinniku. and I'm thinking how they're the two with the most obvious passions (the arts + sports) and how they're visibly #skilled (Kara) and talented (Jyushi) and Karamatsu even mentions in S1 that he tried to become an actor but gave up and Jyushi says he's #never actually played an official baseball match prior to the S1 finale and I go insane thinking that they also tried in their own way to #pursue less traditional passions but they were always held back until they allowed the passions to become an scape and a distraction #idk why i wrote all of this it's not actually that related to the post. like i would try to explore that hc in a fic but???#something possessed me lol. but it's written so y'all take it. ANYWAYS #rambles

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deoidesign · 5 months

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I love Time and Time Again!! It was genuinely interesting to see two characters talk things out. Of course they kept secrets, but they knew when to reveal them and that made me want to stick around and read it. Thankyou for making such a wonderful comic!!

Thank you so much!!!

This really means a lot to me <3

I think there's generally a tendency to believe that relationships can't be nice in a romance or the story will be boring.

I understand where this idea comes from, stories should have conflict! And, real world relationships have conflict, as well. They always will! It makes sense that most stories centered around relationships would, inevitably, at some point, have disagreements, fights, anger...

I get why others enjoy it, its messy it's fun it's drama! but for me personally it just stresses me out since I've done so much work to NOT be like that!

As a writer, when presented with two people who are reasonably at odds with eachother, where neither of them is in the wrong per se, but someone still ends up hurt... it's a fun challenge to write them working through it in a believable way. it's a fun challenge, too, to put them into situations that feel equal and human.

I just think it's a necessary thing for who I am as a person to write relationships the way I do, and so I'm just very very very glad that other people resonate with it as well!

It means a lot. Thank you.

#me trying not to ramble on for paragraphs impossible challenge #asks #anon #I always love to talk about how uhhh #the perceptions we have of how relationships should be displayed #idk I dont think that theres any one way to do it #those relationships where people dont communicate and they fight all the time...#those happen. they happen all the time irl.#of course they would be reflected in fiction constantly!#but just for me personally #after YEARS and years and years of working on myself so I dont do that #I pause. think the best of my partner before jumping to conclusions.#take the moment to ask him hey #has anything been bothering you lately? things have been good but I want to be sure there's not little things I've done to hurt you #and i listen when hes telling me that yes. it did bother him when I made that joke the other day actually #and to learn to be patient #and not cry immediately #and listen #and ask instead of assuming #and always think the best thoughts first or whatever #its done me a world of good #and I dont think it is healthy for me personally as a person to write an unhealthy relationship with poor communication #because I get uhm... extremely invested in my writing...#in the way that it very much helps me learn about myself and practice habits.#cause obviously I still fail. of course I will #and I just would like to get as much practice as I can #of being better #for me and for him #and for all my friends

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unfortunatelyilikebnha · 9 months

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Every time I remember that bitch* jumped off the roof (he was FINE even though he shouldn’t have been but whatever, anime logic) I always get way too concerned abt it like YOURE GOING. TO BREAK YOUR ANKLES BE MORE CAREFUL FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

*kai toshiki

#cfv #kai toshiki #like I know he’s possessed and uhhhh doesn’t rlly care abt himself #but if he wants to fight Aichi and Ren he should not be risking his safety like that #like does he rlly think they’d fight him when he broke both his ankles?#NO BITCH they’re dragging your ass clawing and snarling and all to to the nearest hospital #//aichi voice// uh sorry takuto can we take a rain check on me defeating you I have to drag this dumb bitch to the hospital :/ sorry #actually the thought of them driving r!kai to the hospital chewing him out the whole time while he’s like wtf??? is kinda funny #kai: I am EVIL I’m SPREADING THE REVERSE and I’m DOING IT ON PURPOSE what the fuck are you guys doing #misaki: you can be evil later right NOW you’re being told Not To Jump Off Roofs You Fucking Idiot #naoki: yeah dude. not cool :/#sorry for all the swearing I hate him (/affectionate /derogatory)#clare dont look #elliot dont look <3 #this has been in the drafts for A WHILE* oops #*since february #still true though. be more careful Kai!!

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arolesbianism · 17 hours

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Thinking abt Sif Odile duo looping au again and I wanna be able to plot everything out more coherently but act 5 eternally looms overhead and boy I do not wanna look up

#rat rambles #stars posting #like I have a vague idea of some of the like themes I imagine being present late game but it doesnt change the fact that act 5 isnt very #duo looper au friendly especially in this case with most of the ideas I have #I rly want it to be both a breaking point for them as individuals and a breaking point for their relationship but idk how to go about that #fully taking the rest of the party into account especially since Im not even sure if I wanna give odile her own friendquests #like I Could but I also think it'd be fun for many reasons to not #and even if I Did itd be hard to justify having both be able to happen and go wrong in one loop #and theres not rly a good solution to that I think so my best bet is probably to just leave odile friendquestless #but Id rly like to still have odile quarrel with the rest of the party in a significant way #idk maybe it can be the scene where sif comes back to the lighthouse or smth?#like he comes back and odile just completely lashes out at him or smth and the others get rly upset with her #but then theres also the whole walk through the house that I have to figure out and Im also not set on how that should go #maybe it can be like reality almost splitting as they both try to use timecraft at the same time?#not sure how Id go about portraying that in story though since the rest of the party cant rly experience that I think #Im sure theres some way you could pull that off tho Im just too tired to have any good ideas atm #and then the biggest bastard comes in. mal moments.#like I cant just put them both there! that's not how that works!#and I dont wanna just leave them mostly vanilla thats boringgggg #but Id probably have to. alas.#afterwards is also a bit fuzzy but I have rhe general idea down #me and the bestie when we both made the same wish but dont know that and have both been falling into a spiral over it #(we dont even realize that the part of the wish that was the exact same was the core of the wish)#(we both just thought that we accidentally trapped the other with us in this hell)#(we also have been actively getting worse at communicating for months now so by the time the wishcraft stuff came up we were both deep in #the no feelings talky talk zone)#(we probably should have known smth was up when everyone started consistently thinking that we had a fight every loop)#(maybe we did but we just didnt want to admit they were right)#god I wish I was more confident with writing odile dialogue I wanna draw scenes from this au so bad #it doesnt help that I got too comfortable being into a media that had like 3 fans and now ppl might actually look at what I create

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bunnihearted · 9 months

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ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts.....#when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!!#then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain*#what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

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enbyshads · 9 months

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still thinking about how nine said that sonic was only saving the other variants because he felt guilty about what he did, that he was responsible for all of that so that was his way of "redeeming himself" idk why but that really got to me

#i feel like nine was kinda ''forgiven'' too fast? not that i dont think he should be forgiven but like #i wish we got more time to see how the others interacted with him after sonic n shadow went home #but after nine believing to be betrayed TWICE by sonic i thought he wasn't gonna trust him again that fast #ofc yeah its a cartoon made for mostly kids but leave me alone okay i just wanna get the thoughts out of my head #nine literally grew up with no one #he never had a friend #never had someone to stand up for him or just take care of him in general #and then he meets sonic and eventually gets ''betrayed'' by him twice n then he has to leave n suddenly hes alone again?#i wonder if he's actually going to live in the grim alone like he wanted to or if the others are going to welcome him again #maybe not that fast #maybe they'll still be suspicious of him which is valid i guess #idk i have so many questions about that ending #sonic prime spoilers #bat talks

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microwaving-tesilid-argente · 3 months

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canon divergent AU where OG! Bianca and Ailette's deathdates were later, so Cardinal Cartelyena only visits the Gilette Mansion and brings Ailette to the Vatican some time after the Day of Sacrifice, after the mess caused by the Toy Mansion is settled.

There's two ways this AU can go:

1. Ailette meets a heavily traumatised Tesilid who watched his roommate kill everyone else and then himself.

2. Ailette doesn't cross paths with Tesilid. When the 17th starts, they do not have the pre-established trust that they have in canon. Ailette is playing on ultra-hard mode, as if being in an SS-class world wasn't already hard enough. Tesilid also has no reason to pretend to be nicer than he actually feels like being, so their dynamic is also very different.

#a transmigrator's privilege #the perks of being an s class heroine #not childhood friends au #SPOILERS IN NEXT TAGS #dont forget reed! ☺️#he has no reason to hold back w ailette #as far as he's concerned she's just a saint who should have shown up from the start but didnt #a symbol of the strict order who seems to take actions only to torment him #and actually thats the same for tesilid too lmao #ailette saving him and going. hey. what the fuck. why's he looking at me like that #was the protagonist supposed to be like that???#her 10 years of building a character profile of 17th going down the drain in an instant #they probably figure things out soon tho bc tesilid has no reason to hide #ailette: aw man i want to be in one of the late regression timelines #me: (rolling up sleeves) i got you babe #i do wonder if in this case whr ailette never met him before. if she would have still thought of him as primarily a character #its 50/50 to me bc i think she stopped seeing ppl as characters when she befriended bianca and lived w her family #like its got nothing to do w tesilid himself i think #but the fact would still be that she wouldnt have seen for herself that hes such a cute squishy kid #like i love the toy mansion arc sm. it does so much for humanising tesilid and his friends #the way theyre in a life or death situation and still squabbling....

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triglycercule · 20 days

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i want to headcanon the mtt having absolutely terrible hygiene and struggling to keep themselves clean (this MAY... just QUITE POSSIBLY.... only in the SLIGHTEST bit be projection) but i think it would be too gross and man EVEN I dont wanna think about that

also killer canonically smells good and i actually really LIKE that idea so oh shit there goes that idea out the window. horror and dust youre my only hope please let me make you smell bad for reasons you won't understand

#also i dont think i. just got a sense of dejavu wtf. anyways #i dont think im THAT bad at maintaining my hygiene..... like i dont bed rot for months which isn't good by any means #but if i havent reached that point of bad hygieneness then i dont think i should be talking about this topic #sure i may uhhh may struggle to brush my teeth and shower multiple times a week but like. ngl it's not that bad #i am NORMAL okay THIS IS NORMAL. people struggle with this stuff all the time everyday i dont need to be making a whole post on this topic #i wish that the capital i in this app looked different. because when i wanna emphasize I it just looks normal #i type like how i speak has it not become glaringly obvious yet. so it boggles and bothers me when i cant emphasize i like i can irl #the laundry piles in dusts room are probably unfathomably tall he just throws it all into one corner (HES JUST LIKE ME FR!!! I DO TJIS!!!!!)#all the water in horrortale has turned toxic and polluted and bad so horror's only option is to not shower or shower in dirty water #he chooses the former because what if that water has monster dust sprinkled in it. his paranoia wont let him shower in dust infused water #TRIGLYCERCULE GET YOUR FUCKING LIFE TOGETHER INSTEAD OF THINKING AND PROJECTING ONTO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. SCHOOL STARTS IN 3 DAYS.#I KNOW I KNOW IM SORRY.... IM SORRY OKAY I KNOW!!! I KNOW THIS IS BAD!!! I WILL TRY!!!!!!#anyways back to projecting. do you think dust has sheets on his little matress bed #because the sheets will enevitably get dusty and then he's gonna have to lay on the dust of those he killed and thats a bad thought #sheets can fix the problem temporarily because he can just change them out and wash them #but also.... changing sheet hard.... take long time..... dust just want sleep.... rot away..... so no sheet on matress??? idk #dust might be able to make fun of horror and killer for having food issues but #killer gets to make fun of dust and horror for having hygiene issues #he's had his lows but he's never gotten THAT low 🤣🤣🤣🫵🫵🫵 LOSERS!!!!!#what does horror get to make fun of them for??? idk murder #killer might be able to keep himself clean but he cannot keep anything else around him clean with thet goddamn eye goop so HAH take that #me on my way to overshare with strangers on the internet. this isnt that bad compared to other stuff ive seen online actually #triglycercule can you just shut the fuck up and get back to posting about the mtt nobody CARES #alright..... limps away like a kicked and beated puppy...... like killer after getting abused by nightmare for the 56th time..........#advanced humor only utmv fans will get it #tricule rant #i said i wasnt gonna make the post but i did infact make the post. just in tags #me when i LIE #just offically reached 50 drafts where my medal. i should clear them out? alright shoot that guy

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supahstarrr · 2 months

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as a dr fan we need to acknowledge that some of the danganronpa characters suffer through chronic liners for bad humor by out-of-touch old guy writers syndrome

#glaring at himiko yumeno. kaede akamatsu. sonia nevermind. akane owari....#uhmmm if anyone wants me to explain i can i dont think i can organize my thoughts in tags rn... maybe later ugnnnn #drv3 #danganronpa #Okay fine here are my thoughts #“chronic liners for bad humor by out-of-touch old guy writers syndrome” is a simplified term for this phenomenon where writers #give characters lines not to reveal their characters but to please the audience in distasteful ways for the sake of being ''funny''#(uh maybe i should like... do an actual proper text reblog for this because its hard typing this shit in tags but)#i feel like a huge example of this is kaede's comments towards tsumugi to the point shuich says shes an ''old creep''#although these comments *could* be an extension of her trait for pushing people too far (ex: the tunnel shit)#the comments actually dont. instead they are treated very unserious. in a way they feel so... vague and light #to the point that it appears that those comments *arent* trying to reveal anything about her character #especially since that trait is more specific than quite broad #i get people being uncomfortable with those comments (i am too) but they feel like a terrible #''writers talking through their characters for people to be more engaged with the media in a quirky relatable way'' than anything else #like ''writers are trying to appeal to the audience humor/desires and reach the audience's culture to the point of being out of touch"#so THATS the reason that i feel like it will be weird to shit on ''kaede defenders'' for the comments cuz they're just so..#detached from her character that people hardly take that as genuinely being apart of her character #and if it is genuinely apart of her character then its only as a way to keep people engaged with the story and character #it hardly adds anything meaningful to her character #fuck me these tags are long but onto himiko: most things ive said about kaede's comments apply to himiko's weird #fucking racism comments (ex: the afro comment that genuinely made me a little upset)#but to add onto that. himiko plays into a very specific trope that is ''lo1i girl'' and often that trope comes with quirky and “funny” trai #they're supposed to be so palatable and marketable to the audience and apart of the charm is how ''funny'' they are #the racism comment is way more revealing of the writers than himiko's character itself.. so no himiko is not racist; the writers are.#feeling the need to play into a trope by creating “funny” lines that is basically just fucking racism is just soooo danganronpa #*eyeroll*#and yeah i mentioned the other characters. sonia and akane being a victim of this phenomenon #although this moreso reflects the english translators than the writers of the game...#them randomly speaking in aave (which may i add theyd never do this) for the ''lols'' is a choice..

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