#i tried playing music to ignore it but when you SEE things music doesnt really make a difference

[rinnstars]

all sides of you!

the five love languages rin shows to you

itoshi rin x reader: fluff, hcs/drabble, not proofread, likes n reblogs are appreciated <3

words of affirmation

- at the beginning, i think hes a lot more averse to saying romantic stuff so its more of in a long term/after months of dating

- mainly leaves sticky notes/passes notes during class/at home with what he wants to say ar rhe beginning

- after a while tho, he’ll try to at least praise you/compliment you irl then slowly tell you he loves you (altho rarely at the beginning)

- has a bunch of scribbled notes he never passed to you all filled with confessions/ things he wants to say that he eventually says at the back of his closet in a box (because he thinks its sentimental)

- a lot better at expressing his feelings and can say them without freaking out internally or stuttering before giving up and calling you a mean nickname to neutralise the compliment

- believes in a speak not tell but he knows communication is key so he’ll try his best so bear with him

- slowburn moment for this but its 100% worth it when he comes home from competition and all he can say is repeatedly whisper i love u into your ear as he pulls you closer into his embrace

physical touch

- again, at first hes a bit touch averse / awkward with hugs/kisses but after a while of dating..

- 100% super clingy esp after coming back from competition/bllk : his hands have to be somewhere on your skin, doesnt matter where hes not picky

- has to sleep with you, hugging you like youre his plushie (drools a little too btw)

- links pinky when you guys walk together doeznt matter where “you’ll get lost” excuse except his entire face goes pink at the touch of your hands

- really likes kissing your neck, he thinks its rlly cute when he can hear you & esp if it leaves a mark :p

- has piggy-backed you before even when youre not lying about your shoes hurting or being tired to be carried by him

- enjoys being babied ngl like he loves it sm when you pepper his face with kisses while he just lies there or when you comb his hair with your fingers: he feels like hes in heaven esp after stressful days

quality time

- tries to see you everyday : either through school/going to yours/his house, dates, or even facetime call

- calls you every night when hes overseas btw and during breaks he’ll try to text you back n reply to your messages

- the type to make up excuses just to hang out with you like “oh i need to get new shoes, come with me” even though he has 2038839 different pairs and then have to huy another one because he cant be caught (you can tell)

- wld go on “study” dates where he just stares at you 3/4 of rhe time and actually doesnt finish any of his “assignments”

- has gone on hangouts where both of you just chill in silence n rlly likes it because theres no pressure to do anything and its kind of calming/relaxing esp after having to deal with teammates n whatnot during work

- wld watch you play games/do anything while he sits beside you, just enjoying your company even if he craves a little more but thats alright by him

acts of service

- lowkey such an act of service guy like even pre-relationship even if he makes excuses for him bc hes trying to be #idgaf

- the type to rush to your home with meds/food/everything if you text him youre sick after missing school

- i feel like. he just kind of enjoys the peacefulness of like cleaning and would do it whenever hes stressed (ignoring the loud music he listens to)

- would bring your necessities sometimes, and ends up at some point lending a hairtie to reo (he has a pack of hair ties bought for you at all times)

- anytime he goes out to get food/on the way home, he’ll always get a portion of what youd like just in case, and doeznt mind just eating it as leftover if you dont want it

- has a notepad on his phone on your favourite orders (drinks, meals, desserts etc)

- if youre forgetful, he’ll text you to remind you : whether that be to attend events/eat lunch at proper times/buy something

- would go back to the store if he didn’t buy what you wanted/if you wanted something else without any hesitation as long as it makes you smile even if he doesn’t admit it

- would learn how to take pictures for you on his own accord : you didn’t even realise until one day you pass him your digicam and suddenly he was an expert photographer compared to just months ago when. you started dating where his hand was blocking the camera

giving gifts

- has a matching necklace with you at all times and its his lucky charm and he’ll 100% kiss it before a game / when he wins the game

- shared wishlist on online stores except he stalks through yours and buys them for you randomly to surprise you

- if you have something spoiled/doesnt work as well, doesnt matter if its a home appliance/jeans that don’t fit etc, he’ll buy one for you without any hesitation when he goes out/on his phone

- gets you trinkets/keychains/stuff that reminds him of you including any sanrio/anime/designs you like / even your favourite food ie. chocolates/candies/chips from different countries he goes to for matches

- would notice if you wore his gifts or not and try to buy more things that you like more ie. if you like silver accessories more, he’ll buy more of those

- even during school days, he would 100% blow his money on arcades if you like to play claw machine/those rhythms games and watch you play and sometimes if you don’t get it, he’ll try to get them after his football training for you and pass it to you as nonchalantly as you can the next day

- always buys matching things: that bracelet he bought you? yup he has an exact pair in his drawers, feels its more meaningful and intimate

- if you ever ask for anything, just know he’s willing to give you that and the whole world and even the whole galaxy

-

[helios-fallen]

NO MATTER what i do or WHO is atround i srill see it

[sualne]

Sorry if you're already working on this but with Luffy in Croc dad what's his hobby?? Like he's the biggest ball of energy and I think if wasn't fighting wild animals as a kid he would vibrate into another dimension from lack of stimulation. Does he draw and develop his art skills, has he taken up music or is he invested with the void century with Robin? Croc wants to keep him inside and safe so what did he think would be best to entertain him or does he buy a new thing every week that Luffy says he suddenly wants to do. Yes he looks at books but is that it. Also sorry if you answered this before and I've missed waht you said, I am pretty sure I've seen all your comics on this but I haven't seen all your ask answering questions.

i hadn't gotten these questions and im so glad you ask!! :D

so! luffy doesn't have one specific hobby and croc does end up giving him whatever he wants when he suddenly gets a new obsession, one of the reason he's so excited with finding the jewelry box and getting a dagger is because it's finally something new! after that he gets really into rings and knives until it gets bored of it and switch to something else again.

about him and learning about the void century with robin i actually got a comic later for that so i won't say anything here!

im going to make this a list and explain how it goes, under read more:

Fighting: this luffy doesn't know how to fight, but he still love the concept! he gets really excited hearing stories of fights, duels, martial arts and all the rest! In practice though, since he's been so sheltered and only ever saw one real fight that ended up with people being killed in front of him as a kid, if (haha) he were to witness another real fight he wouldn't be as giddy about it as when he hears stories. he does also learn the tiniest bit of kenpo from bonclay!

Dancing: luffy in canon loves dancing (and partying), here too! he doesn't know/master any specific styles but likes to drag people into dancing with him, if no one is around he'll grab some of the smaller bananawani instead.

Singing: he's still very bad at it.

Music: croc noticed how he'd taps on thing and tried to get him to learn some percussion, unfortunately for him, luffy doesn't care about music theory and just does whatever makes him happy. he also love loud noises and croc has to find a way to stop him from making a racket at any hours of the day, it gets worse when luffy loses some of his hearing and needs to make everything even louder. eventually he gets bored of it too.

Cooking: him and croc cooks together pretty often, if no one is there to supervise him luffy will ignore recipes and common sense, making all kind of abominations. it's a miracle he never set the kitchen on fire.

Bugs: he loves them! he collect them! alive. croc is horrified one day when he finds out baby luffy has been letting some food to rot so he could observes flies and larvae going through their little bug lives cycle. later croc gives him those pinned dead bugs collection boxes thinking luffy will like it, he doesnt.

Board&Cards Games: he mostly has to play them by himself, he doesn't like being alone so he'll often ends up playing it "with" the banawanis. after he loses a few too many times against the banawanis and can't get croc to join in for the millionth time he gives up on them. even when robin joins baroques works he still expect her to be too busy to play with him and doesn't ask (she would have accepted if he had asked).

Art&Craft: he tries a bit of everything, doing it his own way meaning most of it is kind of hideous or about to fall apart, canon luffy is completely fine with that, au luffy though, he's having ton of fun at first but when he gets old enough to see that his dad cant quite fake his enthusiasm or interest towards his disastrous creations he gets frustrated and stops for a while. later, robin finds an old drawing of his and thinks its cute so he start doodling a little again for her.

basically, he struggles keeping a hobby, some like fighting, dancing, bugs and staring at pictures in geography books he keeps through his life but mostly, he's very lonely and bored out of his mind, he's depressed, that's not something that can be helped for as long as he's isolated.

when robin becomes a part of his life everything gets better for him! she spends time with him, read stories for him, helps him get out more often, they even meet bonclay and for a few years he's genuinely happy.

[iloveboysinred]

That geto smut was *chefs kiss* i love stoner geto sm. Do you have any more thoughts/hcs about him? :) i understand your requests are closed so its okay if you ignore this 💜

Um hello? I would love to expand on stoner geto ok! Its okay to ask me questions/submissions. Requesting full blown fics when my requests are closed is when i have to draw the line though + I’m up at 3:40 a.m looking for something to focus my mind on other than the two smuts i’m writing rn 😌 so this is perfect, thank you sweet pookie anon.

• So to start off, Suguru strikes me as the quiet type when he’s high. He’ll yap with you if you talk to him but he’s mostly just silently touching the clouds while everything else is buzzing in the background.

• I feel like he doesnt stick to one medium to smoke. I feel like he has a couple of bowls, bongs, and maybe even a vaporizer. I feel like he tried using it once and didn’t really like it— preferring the usual spark and pull that these other options provide. He likes to take things slow when he’s smoking, letting each pull soak in before he takes another.

• Now maybe its cause i’m from NY and love grabba, but i genuinely feel like Suguru occasionally sprinkles in some grabba with his weed or uses the leaf itself as a wrap. He can definitely do without most of the time but if he has it on hand and just so happened to get some cheap bud he’ll definitely sprinkle some in there for the taste and to stretch the product a little more.

• He doesn’t like carts. Hates how they taste, how they pull—how they make him cough up a lung. Just no. He probably hasn’t touched a cart since he was a senior in highschool.

• I feel like he gets in the shower high as fuck and just lets the water run over him with his eyes closed. His mind is just buzzing with dull senses and the water just feel so nice when he’s high. Probably has some vibey music playing in the background.

•if you’re around he definitely gets touchy. He proclaims that sex feels so much more intense when he’s smoked out.

• matches with you and Gojo often. Shoko doesn’t strike me as much of a WEED smoker, but she always takes a couple pulls whenever you guys get together on fridays.

• he likes having his hair down when he’s high. The tension in his scalp from having his hair up makes his head feel achy and heavy. He just wants to lay back in some soft pillows or, even better— your nice warm thighs and just close his glossy eyes.

•gets the munchies BAD. Like if you leave this man alone he’ll make multiple trips to the fridge, mindlessly tearing up whatever’s edible.

• doesn’t vape, only the natural stuff for him.

• He goes on frequent tolerance breaks to keep his tolerance low

• rolls up when he comes home, rolls up if he’s out with you and your friends, and he rolls up before he goes to sleep

• he doesnt really like cones. He’ll use them, but he hates how they sometimes start canoeing.

• has a variety pack of rolling papers in his room

• tried edibles once, he hates the flavor but the high literally changed his life. He’s never been that fried in his life, probably would try them again but sparingly (he ate the whole bag of 5000mg gummies thinking they weren’t working)

• i don’t really see him enjoy the feel of being cross faded.

• likes watching movies when he’s high even though he starts to slump into the bed

• definitely a firm believer in smaller blunts. If the product is good, theres no need to roll gorilla fingers. He thinks its a waste of weed

Thats all i got 😚

[joyboyish]

ok what i think the strawhats would watch on youtube lets go

(some i give more than one bc why not)

sanji and luffy watch cooking videos, not together though. sanji looks for new ideas for recipes, and ends up just judging the poster and luffy shows him cool ideas and is like "can u make this :p" and sanjis like "no stupid, i only help nami and robin" but hes writing down ideas as he speaks

zoro watches work out routines, he'll watch them, ignore the person saying to not overwork yourself, or take a rest day, and combine like 80 different routines into one routine

usopp and nami watch anything with a huge fanbase with lots of drama. definitely watch those kpop drama update channels, or tea spill channels, active in fanbases but not cause they care, they just want to gossip to each other

when chopper isnt watching medical videos, he watches minecraft and among us videos😭. he likes the ones where they play bedwars and he showed it to zoro and luffy because "fighting and swords", zoro wasnt that impressed but luffy thought it was so cool and started watching them with him. franky noticed this and built them a computer so they can play too but they were really bad 💀 usopp tried though and he was super goof for no reason???? they make him play and just scream lingo at him that he doesnt understand

robin watches history videos!!! she likes to see what other archeologists think about certain things and likes to make her own theories

franky watches people build at home machines for ideas, he likes to make them himself and show luffy, usopp, and chopper.

if youve seen my profile you can probably tell im gonna say luffy watches beetle videos. he makes his beetle named frog and frog named beetle watch with him. he info dumps all of the facts onto everyone at dinner

brooke watches small artists! he likes to hear their music and teach himself their music to play it for the crew. nami likes it when he plays new music bc she likes to broaden her tastes

jinbei didnt understand it at first, until he hadnt moved from the dinner table for 12 hours and was at part 274 of a gacha life "demon angel hybrid oc" video

[konu-d]

I don’t know how to preface this but I just want to say that I read through every Rei-included story and event from both Basic and Music and

I just find it interesting and kind of sad if you read them while keeping the ‘Rei is the only one aware of the timeloop’ theory in mind (THOUGH you could just read them normally and think about it and it’d still be sad)

Rei constantly makes himself the villain in most of the events, or if not the villain, he’s one of the major sources of the conflict

In the end though, he also solves the problem and even guides some of the characters to further develop themselves, most prominent one being Kaoru from Basic and now recently, Keito from EN Music

He always ALWAYS makes himself out to be the ‘bad guy’ guiding the ‘heroes’ to something better for them, and it makes me wonder just what happened in the original timeline for him to act like this

Just how bad did it affect him that even though he’s playing by the script, he still tries to change things for the better, he keeps helping the characters through their development, From his personality fresh after the war, you’d think that he wouldn’t care too much for others aside from the people closest to him, He’d just prolly leave them alone

But what happened when he did, in the original timeline? What happened that was so drastic he assumedly chose to become not just an ‘old man’ character but more of an ‘old sage’ type?? Then you think about the Eccentric Five ‘theory’ (it’s not really a theory since all of this is canon, just not elaborated upon); none of them are human

Hibiki is an Elder God of some kind probably pretending to be human for fun; the guy can literally control his hair/his hair has sentience, he taught Natsume ‘real magic’ (a lot of emphasis was put on this), and he’s able to appear and disappear sometimes through events even the characters can’t explain nor is possible

Natsume, as mentioned, has real magic and many of his items are really enchanted; hell even his VR headset is enchanted and there was a whole event about it

Kanata was born and raised as a sea god and has powers of a sea god, literally just found out about that part recently

Shu is maybe the least inhuman but is still, yknow, inhuman— A huge part of him that I keep forgetting is that he has Madmoiselle, his doll ventriloquist thing. Which. Seems to actually have life. And move around on her own. Are— Are we going to talk about that. This man is walking around with an Annabelle, YES I KNOW ITS SOMETHING POSSIBLY POSSESSED BY HIS MOM BUT?????? HELLO???

Rei is a vampire, though it is by technicality an autoimmune disease, but. Well. He has literal vampire ancestors so. Yknow.

Back to the whole thing and how it ties into the timeloop theory, there’s a chance it was Hibiki/Natsume who told Rei of the possible outcomes if he didn’t intervene

For all his posturing, Rei is a kind soul

Maybe he was made that way due to the fact that he’s the ‘god’ of a cult or maybe because he’s the head of some vampire family or maybe that’s really his personality, but the Rei we know wouldn’t ignore the ones that needed help

Just

Either way I look at it I feel bad for Rei

Or maybe not ‘feel bad’ Im just

Feeling things

It doesn’t look like he isn’t enjoying everything that happened and is happening but

All he wanted was to be some guy helping the ones closest to him and caring for his brother how did it end up like this

Why

(That’s a theoretical question, the answer is We Blame Eichi)

I just want to hug this man he’s gone through so much he’s GOING through so much but he just keeps up the old man act, the strong leader, ‘Sakuma-san has it everything under control’ even when he doesnt and only the people closest to him can see that; Kaoru, Keito, Koga, Adonis, they all know and maybe even Ritsu does too, he’s just too hurt from the past to accept it

Just,,, Rei

Why

Why do you lead the world to the light while staying in the dark

Like,,, how does someone have this much love for humanity, for his people; I just want to shake this little scrunkly like a maracca I cannot comprehend how this man has the energy in his white noodle old man booty to

YKNOW

DO WHAT HE DOES

I CANT COMPREHEND ITTT He just

Hngh

I could go on and on about how I don’t get him I don’t get his whole schtick but

At the same time I can’t picture him as anything else

This is how he is and how he will be, and any change that’ll happen to him is on his terms From before the war, during, after it, to the ‘adult’ present, Rei is just

Rei

A ‘demon king’ with the heart of a man; flesh and blood, full of love; the most human of all the monsters that walk in the night

It just hurts to think about, him not getting any thanks any proper appreciation for… Everything, anything. All that he’s had to sacrifice, all that he’s gone through, all the circumstances he WANTED to avoid but couldn’t

And then he gets fandom-simplified to “Ooh stinky vampire man ewww edgy emo boy” like get out of here I’m done get out

[lafrexniere]

where are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuyuuuuuuuuu

Lemme address my disappearance.

Im so sorry, Im super busy right now I will probably be more active in the last week of august and first two weeks of september bc thats when everyone leaves and I'm still at home chillin bc i go to school so late. There's just a lot going on and the only down time I get I just play video games or do nothing bc it's exhausting, so I will try to write again when I can but theres just a whole lot of physical and mental drainage right now.

My life rn:

Had strep throat for two weeks

Grad party

Time with my bf - this is taking a lot of my time up

Summer hockey - Drama with my teammates but its whatever idc last game is tonight then im done. Just people don't know how to treat goalies thats all I will say especially when ur the only one who willingly volunteered to play goalie (I LOVE MY GOALIE PARTNER THO LOVE LOVE LOVE HER) but when you are the only goalie on the team for a while and every loss becomes your fault even tho every shot you face is a breakaway and you face so many shots they stop counting and I manage to let in 5-6 goals a game bc no one is playing defense whatever (sorry rant)

Summer college class - also taking up a lot of time

Golfing

Packing and shopping for college

Managing a college hockey team

Performing at a music festival - practices

Other performance and rehearsals for other groups

My friends all kinda left me meaning I have lack of motivation to really do stuff bc sad - main motive for lack of inspo, this is a whole long story but I'll say it anyway: My bf is a year older than all of my friend group and plays hockey, they are not hockey people and they all have some problem that he doesnt do the same thing they do so they kinda exclude him when I host things and it just becomes and awkward situation. A whole thing went down with prom pics bc I left a gc with my toxic ex who is in the friend group who is nothing but mean to me and my bf and no one knows, me leaving that gc caused a whole uproar meaning everyone cancelled prom pics with me and tried to relocate an event I WAS HOSTING. There was a lot of lying and betrayal of trust and even tho they apologized no one will tell me the truth about prom. I then went to a concert with two of my friends in that group and they basically ditched me at the concert and were like whispering about stuff i already knew about and it was just like hurtful. Now they all do stuff without me and post it on Snap and Bereal where they know I can see it and dont even think to invite me. They all ignored me at MY OWN grad party yesterday so yeah whyd you come if it was to not see me (that sounds selfish im sorry) so theres my situation

Writers block 🤪 - trust me ive tried working on prompts you all have sent me and i just cant get started or i do start and its just like he said she said things and it just gets too boring

Sorry this became a little rant but yeah this is where I have disappeared to

Feel free to message me here tho or my insta (same username) if you want to talk about hockey boys or hockey or whatever and maybe even get to know me a little this is a sneak peek into my life 😁

[tareyoabrumado]

ive been a lot happier making art since i stopped doing character art.

i was focused on making interesting ocs and their stories and drawing them to keep up with what everyone else was doing. i had one oc i focused on most strongly, and everyone else within the story was an afterthought to fill out the backstory. i still really love the character, dont get it wrong, but i realized over the development process that my favorite parts werent designing and drawing the character; it was the worldbuilding behind it:

speculative biology for nonhuman sentient organisms

language with no basis in existing languages (i developed my first conlang solely for this one character!)

environmental influences on a society's culture

linguistic and cultural barriers upon migration to a new world

practicality and structure of clothing and tools (i feel it reasonable to believe that all the clothes i designed would be easily sewn in real life) (also hair!! many of the hairstyles i designed could theoretically be done irl, provided the wearer had horns)

music and instruments and the arts culture within a society

it got to the point where i would look at the character and there would be so much going on, and yet very little in terms of a present-day storyline. ive since realised this character was just a vessel for all my other interests: linguistics, anthropology, biology, music, and physical crafts.

and i didnt even realize those were things i was that interested in! i knew i liked music, and i was on my way to a second language, but the technical linguistics really came out of nowhere (the biology was a huge surprise, given my apathy when learning it in school).

i havent touched the character in a long time. but im happy leaving their story where its at. they live out their life until they get bored, and then move on to something else, and so on. life goes on.

i got a little bit off-topic with this post. anyway. when i joined the art side of the internet, much of it was dedicated to character design and story. everyone was making intricate universes with overarching stories and detailed characters and relationships and developments; and rather than write books, they shared concept art in the form of comics, scene drawings, and character reference pages. i very rarely saw more traditional art: paintings of just. people and things. nothing exists past the piece. its nobody specific. because of this environment, somewhere in my head it was established that this is what art is these days, and to be an artist online youre expected to do character-based pieces.

so i forced myself into it. its what all my friends were doing, after all. social psychology says that you are your friends. they were all making fanart and of course, character-based pieces with extensive stories behind them. and i just couldnt figure it out. i thought there was some kind of social disconnect--wouldnt be the first time, as i seem to be the only one in my group who really doesnt enjoy playing any videogames aside from minecraft. i tried my best, and really enjoyed the process of building up my character and their backstory and homeland and culture and anatomy and dear god ive strayed away from the character themself. it never was about the character. it was about the messages i was trying to convey. everything that overshadowed the character was everything that was more important. i dont care if the design is too busy--look at all the ways a person could wear chains as jewelry!

i see the details in everything, and especially people. human bodies. nonhuman bodies. clothes and jewelry and hair and everything else. this made drawing very difficult. i wanted to detail every part of it. it became a too-realistic cartoon. i drew the seams in the clothes and the twists in the locs. i had to stop myself from drawing lines in the face. there are lines everywhere and once you notice them its impossible to ignore them. the one time i included lines and creases in the face (not nearly as many as i wanted to, but the minimum required to convey the expression and emotion), my friends said it looked weird. unfortunately cartoons and anime and character illustration have simplified designs, and every character is either young and smooth and beautiful or theyre old and wizened and wrinkled and never beautiful and often played for laughs or when the protagonist needs a mentor figure. for a person grappling with their own identity and physical existence, seeing these sentiments expressed so prominently is. difficult. people have a lot to them and its busy and not traditionally beautiful and complex and thats what makes them interesting beings.

character art is almost always digital in its final form. so that was my medium. i got by with the lineart-colorblock-shading-background setup that much of that kind of art shares. i began using a crayon-style brush for my lineart. i was always searching for a way to do a realistic oil paint style with my coloring and shading. i never found the perfect brush, so my art never turned out exactly how i was dreaming.

i thought i hated art classes. i thought i hated art classes. i thought i hated art classes. i was so trapped in the character-art funnel that nothing was to my standards and every project was shit.

i took two art classes this year to fill credits, one focusing on 2d art and the other on ceramics. neither was digital. neither was about characters.

in my pieces, i want to explore abstract ideas. i could just make a candle lantern with a cool design carved into it; or i could explore themes of what it means to be human. there is not a single character aside from vague representations of human beings. im in love.

for my 2d class, we're expected to keep a sketchbook. any art, so long as it's art. too many times ive filled a page with a drawing of a person. nothing exists past the piece. its nobody specific. and their faces are covered in lines. everywhere. eye bags, crow's feet, lines around the mouth and nose and chin, forehead wrinkles. necks.

they are people aging and they are beautiful. they are young people with decades under their belts and they are beautiful. they are people of every age and every life and they have existed physically enough for their bodies to recognize their physical habits. a testament to their living.

they are not smiling. but they have the crow's feet and the lines around the mouth and nose and chin and you know they have laughed many times before. they have lines between their brows and you know theyve felt worried about maybe one too many things. they have wrinkles on their foreheads and you know theyve felt surprise. everything is surprising. and interesting. and awe-inspiring. and beautiful.

we age and we change. this is a story everyone knows. people are often afraid, but then years later, theyre happier than theyve ever been. and they know it will only get better with time.

november 15, 2022

[piningeddiediaz]

What do you like about Pynch?

hi! anon, I love this question. I stared at it for a bit not really sure how to put it into words tbh but I'll try.

my favourite dynamic is always 'saw the worst parts of you and loved you anyway'. pynch weren't exactly enemies-friends-to-lovers but they were, imo, a mellowed version of it. they saw the bad, shitty, would-put-anyone-else-off side of each other first, and not only loved each other despite it but because of it. so much of ronan's internal conflict was the religious guilt associated with his powers, him not understanding his powers and sometimes thinking of it as a curse. and then you contrast it with adam; he is constantly awed by ronan's abilities. adam parrish, logical to a fault, "a scientist" who only believes in things when he has proof, barely takes a second to believe ronan can take things out of his dreams, or ronan dreamt his baby brother, or ronan dreamt the magical sentient forest he is attached to. why? because it's ronan, because to adam ronan is magic.

similarly, adam is stubborn and guarded and prideful. he doesnt think he is capable of love - either giving or receiving - because he never witnessed it himself. he thinks of himself as destructive. as someone unworthy. someone not special. but everytime ronan talks about Adam it's like he is describing the eighth wonder of the world. neither of them ignore each other's flaws (on the contrary, they constantly call each other out) but they also understand each other. accept each other. support each other. ronan understands adam's need to leave, as much as he believes killing himself for aglionby is stupid. adam understands ronan's contempt for school, or his need to street race, or his need to be at the barns. they don't necessarily agree with each other, but they understand each other. no other person in the series has displayed this: gansey takes adam's refusal to move in with him or take help from him personally, takes ronan's refusal to go to school as some kind of cry for attention. everyone in the series treats the two of them as something/someone to be fixed so that they fit the traditional idea of 'stable and healthy' but the two of them understand in their own way that they both have this trauma that can't be fixed. they both have something to prove, and they support each other through it.

ronan finds out about aglionby increasing fees before adam himself does, and immediately figures out adam wont be able to afford it. he tries to help without ever taking any credit for it (unlike someone who had to mention paying adam's hospital bill at a very vulnerable moment). he notices adam's dry hands and dreams him hand cream. he keeps adam company at boyds or st agnes. and through it all he never ever expects anything in return. he understands that adam only takes what he can give back, and he doesnt have a lot to give back, so he takes without making it feel like an obligation. but Adam does give back. he makes time in his very busy schedule to help ronan at the barns. he makes cabeswater play ronan's shitty music to see him smile. he lets ronan take, and he lets himself accept. they just. they balance each other out.

to me, that is what love is. seeing the bad parts, the parts other people may not like and loving them anyway, not because it is an obligation or whatever, but because it is what makes them them. you know them, you accept them, and you help them grow. love is memorising facts about harvard despite you having no desire or attraction towards education because it would make him feel better. love is pushing yourself to the limits to make sure he is okay even though he was acting like an asshole with you. love is making a home for yourself in the place he loves the most, of promising to come back even though before him all you wanted to do was leave. they love each other on purpose.

[draculcid]

single dad billy au! angst cause I HAVE to. maybe when shes a bit older she got in an argument with steve and yelled 'why do you care you're not my real dad anyways! which she absolutely did NOT mean but it rlly hurt steve cause theres always been a small insecure part of him that thought that.

(au tag)

okay yeah definitely. and i think she’s a lot like billy, in some ways. she thinks steve is too good sometimes. thinks that maybe she doesnt deserve that- that steve’s just going to leave her and billy some day.

she never really thought much about it until one day when she hears about how her friend’s real dad left. she becomes paranoid. because steve’s not really her real dad- and he could leave if he really wanted to.

and she just doesn’t want to get attached or get used to steve’s presence anymore, in case he decides he’s suddenly going to leave.

so maybe for a little while their kid starts being a little distant from steve. and it’s weird and very out of character of her. steve notices, of course, because she stops doing the things they usually do together with him. like, she starts saying ‘oh no- i have way too much homework to do tonight,’ whenever he asks her if she wants to go out. she doesn’t really talk to him often. she weirdly doesn’t accept anything from steve, from random things he thinks she’d like to add to her scrapbook to that one snow globe he got her on his business trip with her name etched on it.

it’s fine, he tries to convince himself but. he notices something bigger.

the biggest difference is that she stops calling him dad. and it’s not like she just started randomly calling him “steve” again out of nowhere. it’s just a tiny change. like the way she says “hey, can you pass me this?” instead of “hey dad, can you pass me this?”

and steve feels like he shouldn’t even notice- but he does. and he starts overthinking every little detail. it absolutely drives him mad, trying to find where he went wrong. and he brings it up to billy one night while they’re in bed, but billy manages to convince him that it’s just her being a teenager. kisses steves temple and assures him, “she loves you. always has. stop worrying.”

so he does. stops worrying. he holds on to that little “she loves you, always has,” and ignores all the little changes.

until that one afternoon he goes to pick her up from school and she just mutters, “I coulda walked home.” which- fine, teenagers are embarrassed to be seen with their parents or whatever.

but she was never like that. and the drive home is weirdly tense. she doesn’t ask to play any music, and only says “t’was fine,” when steve asks her how her day was. it wasn’t actually fine, he guesses from the tone of her voice. so he doesn’t drive home. he stops by their ice cream place. the one they always used to go to- to make bad days better and to celebrate good days. “ice cream? I know we haven’t been here in a while-”

“can we just.. go home?” she cuts him off.

“..okay. yeah, that’s fine, I guess,” he furrows his brows, putting the car in reverse again, “you okay, little sunshine?”

“I’m not little,” she groans. steve smirks.

“okay, let me rephrase that,” he looks over at her, and then asks, genuinely, “you okay, big sunshine? bad day?”

“dunno. you shouldn’t care that much, anyway,” she mumbles, looking out the window. 

“hey, stop that. stop pushing me away,” his brows pull together again, “of course I care..you’re my daughter. and I want to know what’s wrong.”

she murmurs a silent, “not yours,” to herself.

“we can go see a movie if you want?” he offers, trying to fix her bad day, “or. you know, daddy wanted to go to that record shop downtown? right? we could go and buy him something, if you want?”

she shrugs. she’s thinking, he’s too good, he’s gonna leave us alone, and no one will take me to get ice cream and we’ll never get to go to the record shop downtown again, and no one will make daddy happy again-

he shakes his head at the lack of response and decides, whatever. if she wants to go home, he’ll take her home.

the drive back is silent, and the second he parks the car in the driveway, she pretty much runs into the house.

“am I that embarrassing to hangout with?” he yells out, jokingly, as he steps into the house. her back is turned to him, so he can’t tell if she laughs. though, she probably doesn’t, he thinks.

she doesn’t even respond.

“hello?” he says, getting a little impatient, “you’re kinda in one of your angsty teenager moods and I’m getting a little annoyed here, to be honest. talk to me because I’m trying to help.”

she turns around, and that makes steve falter. she looks angry, blue eyes welling with tears.

he quickly inches closer to her, “woah, hey. baby, what’s wrong?”

“you’re not my real dad!” she finally yells out.

and steve’s face falls. literally. his eyebrows lower and pull closer together. he looks like he just got punched in the stomach, “wait...what?..”

“I didn’t- I don’t want to hang out with you anymore!” she shouts, “okay? I just- you’re not my real dad. and I’m sick of you pretending like you are because one day you’re going to leave me and daddy all alone! stop pretending like you- like you care about me!”

“I’m not pretending anything..” steve whispers, choosing his words carefully, “yeah. no, what? I’m not leaving-” he draws his lip inwards when he realizes what she’s saying, “I’m not- baby, do you want me to leave?”

she scoffs, “I don’t know! I mean, if you’re planning to leave, then do it now.”

his eyes widen because he can’t lose this. she notices the pleading in his eyes as they gaze at her, “I never planned to..” he shakes his head, feeling his stomach tighten, “unless you want me to- I guess I-I could talk to billy- and then, I mean, I don’t want to leave him- or you- but if you think-“

“no!” her lip quivers. steve knows that means she’s going to start sobbing in a few seconds.

he ignores the pit in his stomach and finally finds the courage to return her gaze. he opens his mouth, only to immediately close it again.

silence ensues for a moment between them, but when she starts to rub her eyes, wiping her tears, he silently steps forward

“okay- uh. I’ll- we’ll figure it out,” he stutters, holding holding his arms out for her, “come here.”

she chokes out a cry when his arms wrap around her, enveloping her in a hug.

“sorry- d-dad, I don’t want you to go, ever,” she says through shaky breaths.

“i won’t,” he says quietly, stroking the back of her head. “not unless you want me to.”

“don’t want you to,” she mumbles, gripping his shirt. “you- you are my dad. I wasn’t thinking.”

“s’okay,” he continues, “think billy’d flip if i left outta nowhere anyway, hm?”

“sorry. I just thought- it’d be easier- if you left now. I didn’t want to get attached-” she confesses, sobbing into his shirt. his work shirt, jesus.

“nothin’ to be sorry about, big sunshine,” he whispers, drawing back and holding her at arm’s length. “just- don’t do that to me. don’t push me away again. you had me scared for weeks.”

she reaches up yet again to rub at her eyes, urgently saying, “i know. sorry. but you’re my dad. and i love you, okay? don’t leave.”

“i’ll never leave. you’re stuck with me,” he jokes, trying to lighten the mood. “are you certain you don’t want to get some ice cream?” he asks, leaning down so she could look him in the eye. “you look like you need it.”

she scoffs, smile returning back to her face, “you just want an excuse to go get ice cream.”

“I just want an excuse to spend time with you,” he pokes her side, “you’re too cool for your old dad now.”

“debatable,” she sniffs, “ice cream sounds good.”

“yeah? that’s what i thought, my little ray of sunshine,” he grins, wiping the stray tears on her cheeks with his thumbs.

“dad. stop calling me that!” she grouses, “I’m not little anymore!”

“whatever you say, big sunshine.”

[kimikaami]

back with the hadestown au heyooooo

(can you tell where i lost steam? lol)

brief plot synopsis and some explanations for who’s who and why below

ok so plot first

short version: Hadestown is a musical retelling of the tragedy of orpheus and eurydice, but set in something closer to the great depression. Hades and Persephone also play pretty big roles. If this interests you at all, I’d reccomend listening to the original cast recording of Epic III, and the song Wait For Me (reprise) from the Broadway version. If you can, find a video recording of that one; I think the spectacle of it all is a big reason for why it’s a favorite.

Long version: Act I opens with Hermes, the narrator, introducing all the characters. He owns a... bar? restaurant? thingy? and Eurydice enters, taking a seat. Orpheus is immediately in love. He introduces himself, and Eurydice’s skeptical, but when Orpheus is able to make a plant grow just by singing, she’s won over. They sing a song together about planning for their wedding and promise to stay together forever uwu.

Persephone arrives on a train from the underground (underworld) for spring. There’s a big party, and Orpheus is hopeful for the future. You should know that it’s very hard to survive in this world during winter. It’s near impossible to find food.

so eventually Hades comes to get Persephone for winter and things get Bad. Instead of ya know, working, Orpheus becomes fixated on finishing his song to make spring come again, to the point of ignoring Eurydice, who is struggling. While Orpheus has part of his song to sustain him, Eurydice needs to actually eat and is barely holding on. After a fight with Persephone about how she hates seeing the underground so industrialized and unnatural, Hades appears and offers Eurydice a job working on his wall. Eurydice, desperate, accepts and gives her soul to Hades. He gives her the 2 drachma she needs to cross the river styx. The fates sing a song that boils down to them telling you to not be so judgey since you’ve never starved to death.

Act II starts with Orpheus asking Hermes about Eurydice, and when he tells him, Orpheus pledges to come for her. He follows the train tracks to Hadestown (the underground). Orpheus sings his way past the wall (i think he makes the stones cry or smth?) into Hadestown. He gets beat up a little but finds Eurydice, who isn’t doing great. She’s gradually been losing her sense of self as she works constantly for almost nothing (capitalism, everybody!) Hades tells Orpheus he can’t take Eurydice because he owns her soul. Orpheus almost loses hope, but. doesnt. He also starts a revolution with the people working on the wall.

Persephone manages to get Hades to give Orpheus a chance. Orpheus finally finishes his song as he’s singing it (Epic III) and it moves Hades. He and Persephone dance which is a Big moment. But now Hades has a problem. If he doesn’t let them go, the workers will revolt. If he does, he looks weak. So he gives them the test: they can leave together, but if orpheus looks back to see if eurydice is following, she gets taken back to hadestown.

They leave together (Wait for Me Reprise). The inevitable happens; Orpheus starts to doubt himself and looks back at the very last moment and Eurydice is taken back.

Hermes sings a song about how the story is a tragedy, but they sing it anyway in the hopes that it’ll turn out better next time. The play starts again, with Eurydice entering Hermes’ bar.

Character Notes I guess

Ahiru as Orpheus is the most obvious. She’s the protag, the one full of hope. Orpheus is described as the one who sees the world as it could be, and i think that’s rather fitting. Not much else to say here.

Fakir as Eurydice. The skeptical one, the one who sees the world as it is. Fakir’s a realist. There’s also a line about how Eurydice falls in spite of herself and ugh. My heart. It’s a puddle. I also just like the idea of Fakir being the one that needs saving this time around.

Rue as Hades. So Hades’ whole deal is that he still loves Persephone and he tries really hard to make their relationship work, but he goes about it in all the wrong ways. Persephone is the goddess of spring ffs, but he keeps her down in the stuffy underground with the neon lights and coal fumes and wall construction etc etc etc. And that’s what Rue spends much of her time doing, isnt it? Pretending that Mytho loves her when he simply doesn’t have the capacity for it (yet), trying desperately to make him love her, and going about it all wrong. It’s all very tragic and. very fitting.

Mytho as Persephone is probably the most awkward tbh. Persephone is full of life. On top she’s a party girl, and in the down below she’s bitter. Ofc Mytho is numb for much of the show but I think that sort of relates to Persephone using alcohol to numb things. I think they’re both really earnest and honest though, and Persephone is the one responsible for getting Orpheus and Eurydice a chance in the first place. Tbh that’s kind of the only rationale i have for him. If you’ve got something better I’d love to hear it, and I don’t mean that sarcastically.

A quick note about Hermes and The Fates. So Hermes is the narrator, which sounds perfect for Drossylmeyer on a surface level. The thing is, Hermes is like. A nice guy, and I like to think of him as a sort of surrogate father to Orpheus. I don’t wanna do that to poor Ahiru. I suppose you could bend the story a bit, but I don’t really wanna do that either. The other option would be Edel, but again, personality. Hermes is a really loud character with lots of personality. So no really great choices. As for the fates... well tbh it just feels icky to adapt their roles as POC with a lot of culture represented in the clothes they wear and the type of songs they sing for white characters. I suppose I could humanize some of the animal characters but that feels kind of cheap. I don’t know. If you’re more educated that me on this I’d love to hear it.

[a-blu-jay]

In the light of the whole doomsday arc and chaos I think it's important to like,,, clarify ? Some points ppl r makin even tho theyre prob not gonna see it.

Also!! This is all /roleplay and talking about the characters not the content creators

Yes, everyone has fucked up. That's what they're ALL going for, especially the ppl takin the lead when it comes to the writin of the script. Everyone is a fucked up character and everyone is a good character with the exception of Dream.

Now to get some more in depth:

Let's start with c!Tubbo. Since the beginning he's been put into tight and bad situations. Watching his friends get exiled, being made a spy for the sake of Intel to win a war which is So Much Pressure, eventually fighting in said war, being made president of the revolutionized country but then immedietly having to rebuild it, later be manipulated to exile his beat friend and brother in arms etc etc. It's a lot of trauma and greif, it's not false to call him a child solider because that's exactly what he is. Schlatt was right, the moment he died the country was doomed, wether that be from Pogtopia, Technoblade, Dream or the inevitability that the leadership would fall onto Tubbo. He's not infallible and he's not experienced. He's a severely Traumatised teenager. But this doesn't necessarily make him a good person.

Next is c!Technoblade because I have some Opinions. He's a fucked up character. Just like everyone else, just in a more transparent way. A lot of the characters hide the bad things they've done in a way to preserve moral righteousness and such. Technoblade has always been clear and transparent he wants nothing more than anarchy, chaos and the fall of L'manburg. Now, acts of terrorism aren't good, they're pretty fucked up. The great thing about his character is that he's so goddman complex. Just like Tubbo and Tommy he's been wronged. And just like Tubbo and Tommy he's a hypocrite. That's what happens when you have morally grey and ambiguous characters. He made his intentions about anarchy clear and Pogtopia made their intentions about Governments clear, they both chose to ignore eachother which in the end made them Hypocrites. A specific point I want to make about Technoblade teaming up with Dream is that Tommy has NEVER been clear with Technoblade with how Dream treated him. Technoblade couldn't have known what Dream did because of Tommy's trauma about speaking about it and Dream's manipulation. Technoblade teamed up with Dream because they shared a common goal, he doesnt trust Dream and has voiced that before. Also! Tommy's point in their argument in the middle of Doomsday was really interesting, he said (I'm paraphrasing) "why can't you just let people love what they love." A thing to note is that Technoblade DID. After the end of the revolution he left to go live in retirment and solitude and let them fight amongst eachother and destroy eachother. The very same Government he predicted to be corrupt then tried to execute him without trial even though they said he'd be given one. Which is a pretty corrupt thing to do. In the end Technoblade was used and just a little bit mistreated but he's not in the right because of that. Again, he can be seen in the lense of a Villain but that doesn't mean he really is one.

Now onto c!Tommy. His character is deffinetly an interesting one! I think his main fault is his own hubris. He's prideful to a default and stubborn when it comes to the idea he could have done something wrong because of how badly he wants to be the/a hero. Now, I'm not saying he HASN'T taken accountability for some things he's said and done because he most certainly has and thus has grown as a character. Another huge fault is his hyperfixation on the emotions and people attached to objects. Honestly? Tubbo logically wasn't wrong, they're just discs. But in Tommy's head they're a symbol of his and Tubbo's friendship. The problem is when he picks these discs over his actual friendship with Tubbo and how Dream has manipulated him. Dream plays a BIG part in why Tommy thinks the discs are so valuable. If you're told enough times and manipulated into thinking objects hold a significant value to the things important to you then eventually they become fiercely important to you and have some weight to them. I think in the beginning, in Tommy's brain destroying the discs meant his and Tubbo's friendship was over because of the part they've played in their friendship. Again, Tubbo only ever saw them as dics, plastic vinyls that drop from mobs and play pretty music. To another point, Tommy is also explicitly Hypocritical, just like Technoblade. He holds onto the fact that Tubbo and L'manburg and it's people are his friends and he cares about him but then calls Technoblade his friend and casts his emotions aside. The problem is the blatant fact that Tommy used Technoblade as a weapon and after being called out that friends don't do that to eachother he ignores it. In this instance he's no better than Technoblade. A kinda big problem is his character development, which really doesn't have a lot to do with c!Tommy and more with how the writers suggest developing him as a character. I think the main thing is that he goes to Tubbo's side saying how the discs never truly mattered to later saying they need the discs. The discs don't matter. What matters is defeating Dream. But just like Tubbo, Tommy is a highly and incredibly traumatised Teenager.

Next is c!Ranboo, the mad lad! I don't really have a whole lot to say? Just some quick analysis of what his characters ideals are and his actions in everything. Looking at his character he's incredibly paranoid, anxious and probably Traumatised from things we the audience don't know. At the end of the day he's a true neutral character. In one of the tweets cc!Ranboo sent it said that as long as Dream isn't hurting the people he (character Ranboo) directly cares about, he doesn't care what Dream does. For a good portion he was against Dream because he cared about everyone nd dream was hurting everyone. He's joined Technoblade and Ph1lza in the Arctic because he thinks that Dream has gotten what he wants, he doesn't know anything about Dream and Tommy's conversation by the end of Doomsday. Also! Ranboo's ideals/beliefs are anarchist by nature and principle. The reason he has a problem with choosing sides between L'manburg and Dream is because of the hierarchy within those sides, and the obligation that you have to fight that comes with picking those sides. Technoblade and Ph1lza both chose to fight under free will and because they chose too without coercion. Everyone is equal there. There's a really good post somewhere talking about it that'll I'll look for that explains it very well. (EDIT: found the post also hopefully i did the link right)

This is getting painfully long so I'm wrapping it up here with a few last things. Everything has always come down to Dream. The reason L'manburg was built was to get away from the oppressive power that is Dream (another point for Technoblade teaming up w dream, he wasn't there for Dreams stuff, he only knew of Schlatt but I digress). Dream has manipulated everyone, he's running the puppet show with the strings tied to his fingers. He's manipulated Tubbo, Tommy, Ranboo, Technoblade, Schlatt, EVERYONE. He's pitted everyone against eachother because he loves the chaos. Because he knows that if they weaken eachother it'll be a lot easier to take control with less effort put in from his part. Dream has always been the main antagonist from the very very beginning. Sure some could say Tommy started it with the discs but Dream was the one who took them in the first place etc.

He's also pitted the audience against eachother. It's really interesting in how he's actually manipulated the audience. It doesn't matter who's on what side or who's wronged who when the cause for all their greif has always been Dream. The fandom is fighting over traitors and betrayals and villain arcs. It doesn't matter, not when Dream is runnin free with the amount of power that he has.

[thefreshchannel]

What’re ur Courtney head canons

Oh boi are u ready for this: everyone can feel free to disagree but this is my courtney vision acting up starting with PRE TD and then going to POST TD

Long post

Courtney is definitely straight A student with advanced placement courses and part of many extracurricular activities. 

Courtney’s an only child and turned prodigy by her parents. Top of the class always no position under the first one.

Courtney’s parents took failure of any sort VERY BADLY which made courtney perceive any sort of mistake or flaw or failure as unacceptable.

Courtney (this was confirmed by dramarama) will never be absent to school she could be dying but she would not miss a day in school.

Courtney has two notebooks for each class. One for quick notes she takes in class and the second one to pass her notes over to make them look like

Courtney can play many instruments besides violin (guitar/oboe/flute/trumpet/clarinet/french horn/harp) courtney always gets the solos in choir as well.

Speaking of choir, Courtney isnt religious but as in every latino household her mom is and she would take her to church to be in the church choir. Courtney’s done her first communion but never really got into religion. I dont wanna say shes a heavy atheist altho she does kinda seem like the person who would be like “you believe in a non existent deity to solve your life problems instead of working to fix them yourself? Couldnt be me”

Courtney was a girl scout doing anything in her power to collect EVERY BADGE was a headcanon i’ve always had and was also confirmed by dramarama so idk how much this counts as a hc anymore lol

Courtney has worked as a TA and a tutor. Definitely lost the tutoring job due to short patience and blaming the kids for being idiots. Also she was mean and scary.

Courtney’s had many jobs that didn’t last long based on her attitude and the way she felt above everyone.

Courtney loves musicals. I can also see courtney being in her school’s drama club and always trying out for the lead of musicals. She obviously always got them but quit when she was given the role of someone’s understudy.

Courtney knows and studies many languages. She is fluent in spanish because her parents refused to have a yo no sabo kid, but she’s also fluent in french and portuguese. She studies italian and german.

Courtney feels like she’s mentally stronger than she actually is and feels she doesn’t need any sort of therapy because she can handle anything herself and her mental state is strong as fuck. She’s very mentally weak and worse after TD.

Has a heavy need to be validated by others but ofc she’ll never tell you about it because she is way too good to care about what others think but please tell her she’s doing a wonderful amazing job.

Courtney sent TWO audition tapes to total drama. She eventually did a redo of her audition tape and had tom fix it up for her and burn it in a CD, however gave courtney the wrong one in which she had mixed the two speeches up. Having noticed she sent the wrong one in she tried sending in her redo as well. The TD producers probably found the first one hilarious and probably found it even funnier that she had sent a correction one in.

Courtney has never had a close friend/deep relationship before total drama. Everyone had just been a rival or classmate or an acquaintance. Gwen became her very first best friend in world tour.

Courtney considers total drama one of her biggest failures because she knew she had every skill to win had she not been robbed. Absolutely believed she would win and reach the finale in tdi. Despite many firings in her job life regarding her attitude she kinda sees those as “well something better and more deserving of me awaits” so she doesnt really consider those failures. Total drama was a huge blow for her because everyone watched her fail and everyone saw her get several chances and fail again and everyone saw her relationships fail. Despite the fact she pretends it doesn’t bother her the thoughts are always sneaking in her head constantly.

Courtney managed to get herself in a really prestigious university for amazing grades and an even more amazing entry essay. She works in student life organizing events for the campus.

I feel courtney becomes a workaholic to try to keep herself busy from ever having bad thoughts or feeling vulnerable and guilty by past td stuff.

Courtney doesnt drink often unless she’s out in special occasions. She doesnt smoke at all. However because of how rarely she drinks when she does drink at a college party she is a mess after a second drink. Crying drunk. Talks about total drama constantly.

One of the things she thinks about a lot is gwen. On reunions and talkshows she always refused to admit how wrong she was for how she lost her in tdas. But it constantly eats her alive.

Courtney is a neat freak. Her room/dorm is always clean, her backpack is always organized. It probably got even worse after total drama. She is always cleaning and expecting her roommate to follow her cleaning schedule. Courtney’s roommate’s afraid of her.

Courtney’s often stopped by paparazzi and td fans asking questions about duncan but she always ignores them and avoids them.

Courtney’s very much over duncan so constantly being asked about him angers her. She hates the fact that she’s unfortunately always linked to him and would like to be seen more as her own person without duncan.

She’s not very active in social media. She tried it but it seemed like she couldnt escape being linked to total drama and constantly asked about other contestants or berated about her behavior on the show.

She’s done with chasing for fame or acknowledging fame and stays hidden. She was contacted many times about appearing in ridonculous race but she decided she was completely done with anything total drama.

The only person from total drama courtney keeps in touch with is bridgette. She lost contact with a lot of the cast, sometimes would keep in touch with heather but eventually lost communication with her.

[classic80sand90smovieloves2]

Meeting and Dating Kevin Pickford

(Not my gif)(requested by anonymous)

(I love this pointless movie)

- You and Kevin meet after your friends convinced you to go to one of his parties. You could of made up ten different activities you’d rather do than go to a highschool keg party but your friends insisted and you soon found yourself packed into their car.

- Now you had had a little crush on Kevin for a while, ever since freshman year when you saw him for the first time, so even though you weren’t very excited to spend your night surrounded by your drunken peers you were a bit excited to maybe, hopefully see him.

- So you arrive at his house; let’s pretend this is another party that didn’t get shut down, and you walk through the front door to see the typical shit show. You stick by your friends for a while, nursing a beer and trying to convince yourself you’re having a good time. That is until your friends all but ditch you to go and mingle.

- Soon enough you’re all alone standing uncomfortably in the relatively abandoned kitchen. You’re debating the idea of just leaving, walking home didn’t seem all to bad given the circumstances, but just as you feel like you’ve made up your mind...in walks the host. You felt like your heart was going to jump out of your chest when you saw him, you stared down at your cup hoping he would just sort of ignore you as he rummaged for whatever it was he was looking for.

“How ya doin?” Shit.

- It seemed like he was just trying to be friendly so you gave him as much of a smile as you could muster and a small “fine” before glancing down at your drink again. From your experience this was usually when the person would just nod and walk out but he didn’t. He gathered the stuff he had came in for but paused at the counter.

“I don’t think I’ve seen you around before... whats your name?”

- I think you’d have to be a year younger than him because if you were in his grade prior to this he would have asked you out or at least spoken to you before. So you’re a sophomore going into junior year and he’s a junior going into senior year.

“Oh you wouldn’t really know me, I’m a sophomore. My friends brought me, I’m y/n.”

“Oh cool man cool. I’m Kevin.”

“Yeah, I-uh, I know,” you chuckled a little. “Nice party.”

- He smiled and was about to say something before he was called back to the party by a loud shout. “Well I’m gonna go deliver the necess-it-ies. You should come out, join the living, raise a little hell.” And then he was once again lost in the sea of people flooding his living room.

- After he was gone you freaked out for a hot minute over the fact that you had just talked to your longtime crush. You decided that maybe you could stomach a little more of the party and took a deep breath before wandering out of the kitchen. It was maybe thirty minutes later that the two of you found each other again and started up a mini conversation.

- Soon enough the two of you were heading up to his bedroom so that you could actually hear each other speak. You spent a surprisingly long time just talking to each other while the party went on downstairs; it was four in the morning by the time you checked the clock again.

- You figured it was time for you to go home, so you stood up and began to say goodbye before he tried to convince you to stay a little longer. It’s nearly impossible to deny him, it’s pretty much been your dream for this exact scenario to happen. You promise to stay for another hour, which turns into another hour, and finally you really need to go so that you can avoid meeting your parents at the front door. He asks for your number and you write it down for him before you leave.

- You end up walking home in the rising sun which almost feels like the perfect way to end the night.

- He calls you a few days later asking if you’d want to come over which you obviously agree to. You get together, chat some more, listen to music, all that fun teenager shit. But then he leans over and kisses you, pulling away with that gorgeous smile of his and, well, you’re walking on clouds for the rest of the day.

- Later on you kiss some more and he gives you a “so does this mean you’ll be my girlfriend from now on, cause I think I’d like that, a lot”.

- Listen most of your dates are more or less just the two of you hanging out not really doing much besides enjoying each other’s company.

- But he does take you to a drive in restaurant for dinner so you can count that as your first “official” date. He wanted to “give a good first impression for your relationship”.

- You’re together like 90% of the time. The both of you are kind of clingy with each other and neither of you seem to mind.

- Whenever you’re together he always has some form of physical contact with you at all times.

- Sitting on his lap.

- He loves PDA but it’s mostly because he just loves affection in general.

- He’s a big baby who likes being cuddled and that’s a fact. He lowkey loves being the little spoon but it genuinely doesnt matter to him how you cuddle as long as you do it.

- Keeps tabs on you whenever you go out together. He usually stays close by or at least knows where you’re going to be, he likes to make sure you’re alright.

- You definitely have little routines together whether it be when his parents almost catch him smoking or cleaning up after a party or just when coming home from school.

- Helping to make sure his parents don’t catch him smoking in his room. You’re usually sent out to distract them or you clear things up while he talks with them.

- He’s so interested in your talents and hobbies, show him what you’re passionate about baby! He wants to know!

- Always being offered free booze or weed.

- Awkward first introductions to his friends when they crash one of your hangouts to try and buy some herb.

- Being invited to all of his and his friends parties.

- Helping him plan his parties.

- Helping him with all his antics.

- He’s always fiddling with something whenever you’re together so be prepared to see him doing something at any given moment in the corner of your eye.

- Making out, he could kiss for hours.

- Always having shotgun reserved for you.

- Laying on the hood of his car together and talking about random shit.

- Trying to hide your laughter while you listen to his weird weed fueled theories and stories.

- He shows off everything you make or do, he’s a subtle cheerleader.

- You spend most of your time in his room, sitting in his egg chair or on the windowseat while he smokes a joint.

- You’re constantly on the same wavelength.

 “Thats what I was gonna say!!”

- Braiding and running your fingers through his hair.

- He plays with your hair as well, twirling strands between his fingers and stroking it when you’re cuddling.

- He’s honestly so adorable and absolutely smitten with you. All his friends can tell he’s whipped but he doesn’t care.

- He thinks it’s so cute that you had a crush on him, well that’s if you ever admit it to him.

- Hand holding especially whenever you’re walking together.

- Staying up till dawn together.

- Making flower crowns together, dont deny it he’d do it. 

- His parents love you and are always really sweet, his mother is an absolute angel.

- He isnt going to force you to smoke with him but he does need you to accept that hes not stopping just because you dont want to. He’ll agree to not smoke around you because thats fair enough but he’ll still do it with his friends or on his own. I can assume you’re alright with that if you want a relationship with him.

- Kevins pretty chill so there’s rarely any fighting and the fighting you do have are more so just arguments rather than actual fullblown fights. They’re usually over a dangerous idea or stupid action he had/did. These arguments usually end with him realizing and admitting you’re right or saying how he can see why you’d think that. He gets it even if he doesnt think its as big of a deal as you do.

- Kevin is a moderately jealous person, he doesnt think every man you talk to is a threat to your relationship. He’s pretty calm, which is what you’d expect from a stoner, he more so just smirks at the guy he knows is flirting with you and shows that you’re his with an arm around your shoulder and/or a kiss. He never dwells on it or let’s it ruin your night. 

- He’s a very loyal boy, no cheating, no flirting with other girls. You’re the only girl he has eyes for.

- Swapping clothes and accessories.

- You share pretty much everything; food, drinks, homework, joints, a single braincell. 

- Going to the emporium and playing fooseball and pool together or jokingly cheering him on while he plays someone else.

- A lot of nicknames; he definitely calls you flowerchild and other very 70s sounding ones. 

- Having a lot of Polaroids together.

- Concert dates.

- Record store dates.

- Late night hangouts.

- Going on random trips to different stores to get food or drinks.

- Well if you’re becoming a junior then you’ll have a year in highschool without him in the near future. He doesn’t really mind waiting for you to graduate so that you can advance your relationship but it will bother him when he isn’t able to see you for more than six hours, five days a weeks

- Probably proposes to you in bed, late at night with a “how would you like to be a Mrs. Pickford?” while he spins the ring between his fingers.

[excaliburofficial]

Some headcanons I have about Black☆Star

tbh I really didn’t like Black*Star that much when I first watched the show eons ago but since then he really grew on me and is pretty much one of my favs, def in my top 5 and honestly prob my 2nd fav overall maybe even tied for 1st??? idek I love all these babies and ranking favs is hard

So kinda like my post about Patty I’m gonna talk some about growing up a bit!! I hc like the entire main cast w/ troubled upbringing (i mean duh look at them) so!

TW for mentions of neglect! Nothing big but please take care of yourself :)

He is transmasc mlm, if you get nothing else out of this thing just know that he is transmasc mlm, it is a fact and he told me himself

I said earlier that I think a lot of his ego and wanting to surpass god comes from the fact that he was looked down on/pitied/flat out ignored so much growing up for being Star Clan and he absolutely hated it

Even though Sid brought Black*Star to the academy/helped raise him I don’t think he was really a father figure to him, Sid would have been pretty young and while I def think he was a helpful figure I can’t see him having a fatherly role to Black*Star exactly 

Black*Star didn’t have any parental figures at all actually, a lot of people in DC and esp the academy kind of had a role of being responsible for him but I don’t think he had anyone stable to look after him at all, and while some people were caring/supportive for sure some people weren’t and he just didn’t have a primary caregiver at all. I think he was p neglected sometimes and I think that has a lot to do w his fixations on being big and powerful

He is a total ride or die though!!! Like this is p much just canon in universe but im gonna make the case that this is partly bc he was kinda neglected. he is a really caring person and he really doesnt know how to show it most of the time, but he does know how to show it in being super protective and loyal

He also is the type where if someone he cares about says they’re moving he literally just shows up and carries entire stacks of boxes no questions asked

Would def also help someone hide a body and give them a solid alibi

He is dyslexic

Punk AF!! He listens to all the older punk bands and listens to a lot of local music and definitely has a battle vest that he’s never washed (Tsubaki sometimes throws it into the washer in secret). He tries to sneak in to a lot of hardcore shows in bars before he can legally go in and sometimes is even successful. The local scene knows him pretty well

He drinks a lot of Caprisun even well into adulthood and the group has a whole joke about how he drinks so much Caprisun (aka that one caprisun vine)

Is an EPIC GAMER™ and plays against Patty a lot, who is way better than him at most of them except for Street Fighter where they are on the same level

He has a huge weakness for children and animals! for some reason he really likes otters and wants one as a pet but he will gladly get a rescue dog instead

Def had a dinosaur phase as a child and wanted to go back in time to beat up a t rex

He is generally a morning person

[brelione]

Intervene (Barry X Reader)

Request:could you write a fic where Rafe is hitting on you at a party, but doesn't realize your Barry's girl? Rafe does something gross/awful and you take offense. Barry just stands back and watches you handle the situation, only stepping in before you go too far.

TW:Harrassment,sexual innuendos.

Being Barry’s girl meant helping him out at parties.Carrying a pistol,weed and coke for when shit started happening.It was one of those huge ass kook parties with loud music and plenty of stupid teenagers that were looking to buy.

Barry never forced you to leave the trailer, letting you do whatever you wanted most of the time as long as he knew where you were and that you were safe and had your phone on you just in case things went south and broke out into a fight.

He always made sure you were armed, didnt matter where you were going or who you would be with.He always had you carry a gun or a knife.He cared a lot for you, you were probably the one person on the island that he actually gave a shit about.

He remembered meeting you and immediately having an attraction to you, not just to your appearance but your overall aura and the way you spoke.He had listened to every word, the way you began to stutter when you were nervous.

He knew how you would act at parties, secretly watching you like some stalker.He admired the way that you’d take their keys, hiding them and writing a note on their leg for when they were sober enough to see properly.

You’d stay with the younger folks that were doing hard drugs to make sure that they wouldnt overdose or accidentally hurt themselves.He couldnt understand how you had the space in your mind to care about these random clients and he couldnt understand why he cared about you either.

It made him smile when you brought the money back to him, listening to the rules that he had given you and bringing back just as much as you should have.

Most of his workers would take some of the money from themselves or spend a fraction on something but you never did, not until he told you that you could when he found out that you lived in a shed with a shitty mattress on the floor with a battery powered lantern.

He would invite you over so you could sleep in a real bed and then at some point you had moved in with him.He didnt even know how he ended up falling for you and kissing you good night, hugging you from behind and pulling you to sit in his lap while he played a card game with a client.

He had noticed little things about you, how you were ready to fight anyone that dared to talk back to him.You were the only one allowed to do that and for anyone else to do that was a direct attack on both you and Barry.

Tonight Rafe had a good amount of shit on him,looking for people that were stupid enough.He had seen you at Barry’s plenty of times, never understanding where you were or why you were there.

Barry had gone to get alcohol,letting you roam free.He liked to watch you in your natural habitat,easily getting the crowds to split so you could get through.He sipped a beer,keeping an eye on you,chuckling when he noticed Rafe approach you.

He knew how much you hated the tall boy and how annoying Rafe was.He was excited to see how things would play out, a smirk on his face, taking a quick shot of fireball before turning to watch again.

“Hey beautiful.”Rafe smirked,refusing to move out of your way.You rolled your eyes,going to move around him only for him to grab your arm,squeezing your wrist. “Dont try to ignore me.”He whispered,his eyes moving down to places that they shouldnt be.You knew that you could easily destroy him, not feeling worried because you had the upper hand.Rafe just didnt know it yet.

You sighed,attempting to move past him again. “What?You think you’re too good to have a conversation with me?Dont be like that.”He chuckled,pretty much undressing you with his eyes.It was absolutely disgusting. “Im a fucking pogue,you’re not my type.”You hoped that would work.

You knew how much he despised the residents of The Cut.He shrugged, not really caring. “Doesnt matter,you’re hot.”He replied,biting down on his bottom lip. “Get the fuck out of my way.”You repeated, not backing down.

His smirk turned into nothing but emotionless,staring down at you and gripping your waist tight to hold you in place.You knew him as Rafe Cameron or ‘Country Club’.You had heard his name thrown around, mainly from Barry and the kids that Rafe terrorized.You couldnt even imagine being so pathetic that you started to beat up 16 year olds that were just living their lives.

He was a coke addict,an asshole and an all around terrible guy.He would stare at you whenever he saw you in Barry’s place,whether it be on the bed or in the main room with a blunt in between your fingers.His eyes would go wide when they fell on your practically bare chest,his face flushing and looking away quickly.It was annoying as all hell.

 “Do you know who the fuck I am?”He asked,fingernails digging into your skin. “Yeah?You think youre cool shit?Nobody gives a fuck who you are.”You snarled at him,scratching up both his wrists with your nails,creating red bloody lines.He stared down in horror. 

“You fucking bitch-I should punish you.”He grabbed at both your wrists,seeming like he was trying to throw you to the ground but not succeeding.He smiled a bit,licking his lips. “Can you imagine if I fucked you?You’re gonna look at me and tell me youre not interested?”He asked, looking you up and down.Managing to get one of your arms free,grabbing your pistol and holding the cold metal against Rafe’s chest.

Barry sighed,finishing his beer,deciding to intervene before you pulled the trigger.If it were anyone else he probably would’ve let you shoot but because it was Rafe he would lose half of his business if the son of a bitch was dead.Rafe watched,eyebrows furrowed as Barry came up behind you,his arms locking around your waist,whispering in your ear. 

“You wanna shoot him, baby?Go ahead and do it.Or you can let me punish the bitch, your choice.”He kissed your temple,smirking when you let out a sigh and dragged the cold metal down Rafe’s chest and put the pistol back in its place.

 “What did I tell you about messing with my shit?”Barry asked, squeezing your waist with a grin on his face as Rafe’s eyes widened, gulping. “Huh?You’re not gonna answer me?”Barry was holding you by his side,a smirk on his face. “I-I dont...you said not to mess with anything.”Rafe mumbled,staring at your gun nervously.

Barry nodded,squeezing your waist. “Yeah,that includes my girl.”Barry glanced over at you, Rafe’s heart dropping into his stomach.He didnt know that you were Barry’s.He had seen you around the trailer plenty of times,even seeing you on Barry’s bed in just your bra and underwear but he had assumed you were just the drug dealer’s fuck buddy. 

“I-I didnt know...im sorry.”Rafe mumbled, not quite satisfying you. “Why are you apologizing to me?Im not the one you tried to fuck, what?You dont got any respect for my girl? Fuckin misogynist ass.”Barry glared,thinking about a million ways he could absolutely pulverize the kook in front of him.

You chuckled,your arm around Barry. “Yeah, rich bitch.You want me to fucking shoot you in that ugly face of yours?I think your brain would look pretty great splattered across the ceiling.What do you think,Bear?”You asked your boyfriend,noticing the way his eyes were twinkling at the way you were being so assertive.

 “I think it’d look great,some color in this fuckin prison lookin place.”Barry agreed,looking up at the bare ceiling. “No-no,please!Dont kill me-im sorry.Im sorry, I didnt realize.”Rafe stuttered,making you laugh.

 “What?You’re only sorry because you know that im Barry’s bitch?What if I wasnt?”You asked,rolling your fingertip over the trigger of the gun.Rafe licked his lips,not knowing where to look or what to do. 

“I just...I didnt mean it like that.”He muttered, quite literally about to shit his pants. “You didnt mean what?Didnt mean to what?To bruise me or say rude shit to me?Which is it?”You asked,watching Barry’s jaw clench.

You hummed when he didnt answer, lifting up your leg and kicking him hard in the crotch.The boy collapsed,gasping for air.You pulled Barry’s arm off you,kneeling down and grabbing Rafe by his hair,pulling his head up before slamming his face onto the tile and sending his teeth through his bottom lip.

You smiled,giggling as you grabbed Barry’s hand. “Alright, lets go home.”You smiled up at your boyfriend,kissing him gently before leading him out of the large house.Rafe’s friends were rushing towards him and trying to figure out what happened.

You couldnt care less, Rafe Cameron’s friends were a ton of pussies that wouldnt dare to mess with someone that had a gun.Barry twirled you around, chuckling as you got into the car, his hand on your thigh as he drove. “He was scared shitless, baby.Its cute when you’re all defensive.”He grinned,pulling in behind the trailer.

 “Shut up.”You answered,going inside and getting on the bed,emptying your pockets of drugs,laying down properly.He came in a few moments later,stripping into just his boxers and his tanktop,climbing into the bed next to you, pulling one of the many blankets over the both of you with a sigh. “You shouldve shot him.”He grumbled. “Yeah, maybe next time.”You kissed his forehead.

@outerbongs  @copper-boom  @httpstarkey @teenwaywardasgardian @drewswannabegirl  @simonsbluee   @jiaraendgame  @khiaraaa-in-spacee  @on-socks-off 

If you’d like to be tagged in all future JJ imagines/headcannons/series comment with a heart,if you’d like to be tagged in all future Pope imagines/headcannons/series comment with a smiling face,if you’d like to be tagged in all future Rafe imagines/headcannons/series comment with a frowning face,if you’d like to be tagged in all future Kiara imagines/headcannons/series comment with a question mark and if you’d like to be tagged in all future Sarah Cameron imagines/headcannons/series comment with a plus sign.If you’d like to be tagged in all Kelce content coment with a “>” and if youd like to be tagged in all Topper content comment with a “%”.If you’d like to be tagged in Barry imagines/headcannons comment with a purple emoji.Or if thats too complicated you can just comment whose name you’d like to be tagged in.