#i wanna fucking abort my brain

[aromantic-karamatsu]

Flashback to the one time in freshman English it was literally freshman baby me fighting for my life in a classroom debate against literally EVEYRONE including my fucking TEACHER about me being pro choice, and that I believe abortion should be a protected right for every woman, that we have no right to make decisions for others or to try and control womens bodies

[dbnightingale24]

You Didn't Have To Say Yes...

A Pete Brenner Love Story

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My first Patreon story!! I decided that Pete needs a love story, cause I feel like he gets shit on a lot. He's not a bad guy, he just has some...bad habits.

Thank you to everyone for your patience (once again), and I hope you all enjoy! As always, thank you to @fuckingbye for my amazing moldboard! I love it and I love you! I wrote this in a week (I don't know what's going on with my brain as of late), and I'm really excited for it!

Word Count: 49,380

Warnings: Pete Brenner, Smut, MINORS DNI 18+, Swearing, Daddy Kink, Drinking, Smoking, Drug Use, Angst, Self Hate, Semi-Public Sex (fingering), Open Marriage (Toxic Relationship), Abuse, Fluff, Family Drama, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Abortion ...I think that's it? I'm pretty sure I covered all the bases...yeah

Songs That Inspired This Chapter: If You're Feeling Down, I Just Wanna Make You Happier Baby

Summary: Pete Brenner is perfectly fine with everyone continuing he's a selfish piece of shit. That is, until you walked into his life, and turned everything upside down.

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I do not give consent/permission for my stories/works to be posted elsewhere. I do not condone this type of behavior, this is for entertainment purposes only.

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“C’mon, give me a smile,” Pete beams, his words tailing a slight slur as you make someone else’s Manhattan.

“I think it’s time for you to go, Mr. Brenner,” you giggle dismissively, flipping your hair and shaking up the cocktail mixer.

“I wonder how much sweeter my name would sound if you were underneath me,” he grins and lifts his eyes at you. You ignore the heat in the pit of your stomach, not wanting to surrender to his smarmy charm.

Pete Brenner doesn’t give up easily, you’ll give him that. 

“I’m sure your wife is happy that you’re always here, trying to bring me home instead of spending time with her,” you nod with a glance towards his left hand. A waitress comes over, picking up the next round of drinks.

“I’ve told ya, she has her fun and I have mine.”

“Cause that’s what every woman loves to hear. Woo me even more, Brenner,” you laugh, turning around and getting started on the next drink.

“Your ass looks amazing in those shorts.”

You laugh as you call over your shoulder, “I’m ordering you a cab.”

“I can take myself,” he mutters with an exasperated sigh. You know he’s pulling out his wallet, frustrated that you’re not leaving with him again.

“We go through the same motions every time, Pete. I don’t want you driving home drunk.”

“You refuse to sleep with me, but you care about my well being? I think you’re finally startin’ to warm up to me.”

“I don’t sleep with married men, Pete. Find a new dream to chase. You know the drill, the cab will be here in ten.”

Pete Brenner came stumbling into your life about a year and a half ago, and he’s been a character since day one. He was down on his luck, drinking until he could barely stand, refusing help from anyone, always ending with the same mantra every night:

“I’ve made this fucking far on my own, I can make it to my own fucking house!”

No matter how much you pushed, he wouldn’t accept help from you. He always refused service from everyone except you. At first he didn’t say anything, he just watched you and let his eyes roam over your body. He never said out loud that he wanted you, but he didn’t exactly go out of his way to hide it either. He was so obvious he never needed to say it explicitly. The glint of his gold wedding band always caught your attention under the sparkling lights of the nightclub, but seeing as he spent every night there until closing, you didn’t think it made much of a difference.

Until one night, eight months ago.

“There she is! My favorite girl!” he beamed, a cocky smile cemented on his lips.

The woman sauntering next to him didn’t seem to think too highly of the nickname he called you. 

“I’ll take a bourbon, and this sweet little thing next to me will have a Strawberry Daiquiri,” he told you, though his eyes never left your chest.

“Oh? Wedding anniversary?” you half smiled as you tried to put on your workplace happy face even though you mentally thought to yourself ‘he can’t be that sleazy to bring her to this dump on their wedding anniversary.’

“Got a new job, sweetheart,” he smirked. You didn’t miss the mischievous shine in his eyes in the club’s half light.

He was a bold mother fucker to bring his wife along just to flirt with you in plain view of her. Not many men had that much audacity when it came to you. 

“I’m Y/N,” you offered with a smile.

You genuinely pitied the woman.

“Tina,” she responded with a plastic smile.

Big boobs, micro-waist, big fake blonde hair, and Pete had ordered her a strawberry daiquiri. She fit the description of most “Tina’s” that came into the club. However, the large rock on her ring finger was nothing to scoff at.

“Oh, don’t pout, honey,” Pete taunted her. “This is what you wanted, right? Me to get a brand new important job and show you off? That’s what you’ve been bitchin about for months, isn’t it? So smile, would ya? You got ya wish.”

Someone was feeling prickly that night.

“First round of drinks are on the house. Congrats, Pete,” you smiled as you set both drinks down.

“Keep ‘em comin’, sweetheart,” he winked at you, handing you a hundred.

While it may have not been anything new to you (Pete always tipped generously), Tina’s eyes went wide and you didn’t miss the way her cheeks burned and blushed with anger.

You wanted to stay as far away from them as the night allowed.

You happily took shots with some of your regulars as the night went on and evened out. Your friends started showing up for their shifts, which helped your sour mood from earlier in the day (even though your ex-fiancee showed up outside of your apartment to harass you yet again). The more you drank, the more you started to dance along with the music; which meant Pete couldn’t keep his gaze off you.

“Why are you single?” Pete asked once his wife got up to go to the bathroom.

“You don’t strike me as the cruel type, Mr. Brenner,” you grinned as you made him another drink.

“Curiosity doesn’t equate to cruelty.”“You’re still here with your wife.”

“She’s in the bathroom.”

“Why’d you bring her tonight?”

“You heard me, this is what she wanted,” he cynically scoffed.

“They’re a lot nicer clubs than this one.”

“Can’t all be that nice if you don’t work there, sweetie.”

You both looked at each other for a moment before you heard, “Darlin’!” coming from the other end of the bar.

“Comin’ Charlie,” you laughed, breaking the stare with him, and shook your head. You used the bar to push yourself off away, down to it’s other end while Pete sipped the last of his remaining drink.

You didn’t need glasses to see that Pete Brenner was an attractive man, and he was important...well, he did his best to imply his importance (as if it would get him far with you). You’d be a liar if you said you hadn’t thought about going a few rounds with him in the bedroom, but you didn’t sleep with married men. 

No matter how hard they tried, you had a set of both personal and professional rules that you abided by.

For the rest of the night, you stayed away from Pete and his wife unless they needed a refill. It was almost as if Tina was trying to make him regret his choice of celebration because she was throwing back her drinks like they were water. The night went smoothly enough, nevertheless, until you went outside for a smoke break.

“You should really quit those things,” came the voice of the last man you wanted to see or hear from.

“What do you want, Mark?”

“I come in peace, Sweet Thing,” he laughed, putting his hands up.

You’d always hated the nickname.

“Didn’t get enough arguing this morning? What else could you possibly have to say?” you questioned while you exhaled your frustration.

“You know you miss me, baby.”

“I miss the peace I had in my life before I met you.”

“You’re still working at this dump?”

“I have bills to pay.”

“You know I’d be more than happy to take care of you.”“Don’t want it. Nor do I want anything from you,” you snapped with a growl.

“Yet you drove yourself here in the car I bought for you,” he sneered, nodding in the direction of where the car was parked.

“Take the fucking car back then, Mark. If it means you’ll leave me the fuck alone, take back every single thing you ever gave me.”

Snickering, he made his way to you and grabbed your arm saying,“don’t be bitter when I know just how sweet you’re capable of being.”

With a scoff, you threw down your cigarette and bludgeoned it, “fuck this.”

“Where the fuck do you think you’re going? Enough with the goddamn attitude, Sweet Thing-”

“Let me go!”

“You’re coming with me-”

“Let her go!” you heard Pete yell as he quickly made his way over to you, leaving his wife to stumble to their car all alone.

She looked slack jawed from Pete to you, before her stare turned venomous and settled on you. It’s just what you needed on top of everything else; his prized Barbie play-toy thinking you were fucking her husband. 

Great.

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[l0sercat]

Stuck...

Warnings: Yandere Buggy, mention of abortions, kidnapping, reader falling to Stockholm syndrome, dub-con, hate sex, degradation

Part 1, Part 2, part 3 coming soon...

(A Yandere! Buggy x reader with a pinch of Crocodile x reader x Mihawk) MDNI

It's been around a year since I've been on his ship. He's fucked me so much I've gotten pregnant a couple times but, he always found a way to get rid of them before it was too late. It's better that way it would be a nightmare for the children.

Buggy would never let me give anyone else attention. He wanted me all for himself so adding children who will take all of my attention away is a big no no. He hardly ever lets me even interact with his crew and if I try they scurry away from me before Buggy comes. Buggy must've drilled into their brains that of they even look at me they would die.

It got really lonely with Buggy gone half the time. Plus Buggy was the only company you got which got boring quick. All he would do is fuck you, complain, or a actually be genuine and loving. You preferred the caring side of him it was what kept you sane. The way he would treat you like an actual human. Show you real love and affection. You sighed and rolled over on the bed you shared with Buggy. His arm laid there so he could at least touch and hold you while he was away.

You didn't mind you wanted every ounce of affection and touch you could get. You gripped his arm and kissed his bicep. You nuzzled yourself into his heat and covered yourself in the many blankets he provided you. His hand cupped your cunt but he thankfully didn't try anything.

Moments like these were pure bliss for you. Just peace and quiet and the comfort of a nice bed. Buggy made sure to upgrade it for you since you asked. You got tired of the old scratchy sheets and blankets and the torn up pillows. So you begged him to get better ones and he agreed and stole you the best set he could find. It was a deep red color and the comforter had a velvety feel.

Honestly you were surprised he did that but maybe he felt nice. You gripped his arm tighter and felt his fingers twitch. You guess it wasn't to bad here, you had a everything you needed and this bed was very comfy. Wait what were you saying no you hated it here. He killed everyone you loved and took everything from you. Tears pricked your eyes and you bit your lip. What was wrong with you?

Suddenly the door was kicked in and a familiar voice filled your ears. "Hello sweetheart! I'm back did ya miss me? The way your gripping my arm you must have" he laughs and makes his way over to you. You peek over the covers and see him standing over you in his vest and brown pants. He grinned and tore the covers off you. "C'mon sweetheart can't lay there all day!"

You groaned and rolled over shutting your eyes. "Mm Buggy just lay in bed with me" you muttered you didn't wanna move. Going out sounded fun but Buggy found a way to make it a bad experience. Like killing someone because they looked at you. "Although that would sound nice I have other plans" he picks you up and attaches his arm.

You were curious as to what could make Buggy not want to have your willing affection. When you were brought out of the room you see food and beer set up. Your eyebrow raises and you look up at Buggy. He looks down at you with a huge grin. "I'm throwing a little party to celebrate our one year anniversary!"

You blink and let out a laugh of disbelief. He's really celebrating the day you got kidnapped. You smile out of disbelief which Buggy takes as a genuine smile. "I knew you'd like it" he says and sets you down. One of his hands stays attached to your waist. "Drink and eat as much as you want sweetheart," he laughs "this is a party after all!" The crew cheers and everyone starts digging in.

You stand for a moment and hesitate but make your way over and grab a chicken leg and a mug of beer. Buggy's eyes never leave your frame and his smile never falters. You find it creepy and quickly gulp down your beer to try to ignore Buggy's intense gaze. You then walk over to some random crew member and tried to talk to them. Well that didn't go over well and Buggy shouted "What the hell!" His detached hands flew and grabbed your shoulders and yanked you towards him.

You let out a shriek and turned to see his furious face. "What do you think you can flirt with other men and get away with it you cheater!?" He shouted and you felt tears form in your eyes. You tried speaking but Buggy kept on "Don't interrupt me! Your lucky I don't just kill you here" your tears fell freely and your body trembled. "Go to my room I'll be there soon" he said and didn't give room to argue.

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"Who do you belong to?" He groaned and he pressed your head roughly into the sheets. "You Buggy I b-belong to y-you~" you moan and he harshly pounds into you. "Yeah~mm good girl" he cackles and his hips snap against your ass and leave bruises. You fist the sheets and roll your eyes into your head. You were close to your release but, when you got to the edge Buggy slowed down. You whined and looked at Buggy although your vision was a bit blurry from your tears. "Aww did my little slut wanna cum? That's to bad maybe if she begs I will" he mocked

Gods it took everything in you to not cry again. As much as you hated him you want to cum badly it's what you deserved. So you swallowed your pride and begged. "Please Buggy let me cum please I'm begging you to let me cum I need it so bad~" you whined and pleaded like a bitch in heat. Buggy's ego swelled and his chest puffed out. His cock twitched in you and he laughed loudly. "Well sweetheart when you beg like that I can't say no" he grabbed your hips and he pounded into you.

He groaned and leaned down towards your ear and nibbles on it. "You belong to m-me and only me no one else, your a-all mine. Got that?" He curses as he felt his release get closer. His pace was getting sloppy and he could only focus on your whines and whimpers. "Y-yes Buggy I'm yours" you moaned as you cummed all over his cock. With one last thrust Buggy spilled his seed inside you. "Ngh~ such a good slut for me" he mumbled in your ear as he enjoyed your walls clenching around him. His seed being buried inside you felt nice. Wait no what were you thinking you didn't like this...but it did feel nice.

Your mind was foggy and you could only focus on Buggy's breath in your ear. You were burning and your hair sticked to your forehead. Maybe you could start to like him, maybe this wasn't so bad after all. You didn't have to worry about anything.

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It's been about another year and I've just been so happy living with Buggy. Ever since I've given in everything got better. I can now leave the ship when we stop although he accompanied me. I didn't mind, even when he did grope my ass in public. He trusts me fully and although he's still hot headed he been a lot sweeter.

But he's changed now, ever since that damned Cross Guild. Buggy changed his look which is fine I'll love him regardless. But those bastards has broken my love. Every night he comes crying to me all bruised and bloody.

Just when things were looking up for Buggy they had to come get in the way. Of course I've never met them Buggy wouldn't let me. Even if he did allow me I wouldn't want to. I don't even think they know about me. Buggy has made sure of that. I think he's afraid they'll do something to me.

Im not able to do anything so I just sit back and bite my tongue. My heart aches as I tend to his wounds and listen to his sobs. He has been broken down but he still is determined to become Pirate King. I can't help but smile at that. I plant a kiss on his head and pause brushing his hair. He sniffles and looks at me "Why'd you stop?" He mumbles, his eyes have bags as he looks utterly exhausted and defeated. All I can offer him is a smile and gentle words "I'm just admiring you, I love you so much Buggy, we'll get through this and then you'll be King of the Pirates"

His breaths hitches and he looks at me with desperation in his eyes "Promise?" "Yes" he wraps his arms around me and we lay on the bed together. Buggy closes his eyes and although he has endure this torture at the end of the day he has his darling. And no one will be able to take her away from him. He grips you tight to make sure you can't move. He buried himself in your chest and grins as he thinks about the future. You both fell asleep in each other's embrace and blissfully unaware of a certain member plans.

[dreamsinthewitchouse]

For the ask game! Okay I think you'd never write... a royalty au, a historical au, and an mpreg au? Hahaha I am digging through my spotty memory to think of aus you've mentioned disliking 😂😂😂

Hahaa yes, you remembered! And I was totally gonna try my hand at a historical AU, but then something happened and this just jumped out of my brain? Trust me, nobody is more surprised than me. 🤯

College Steve & Bucky, TW for mpreg & discussion of abortion

(Also, you're welcome to send me tropes you think I wouldn't write!)

Steve is sitting at the foot of his bed, alternating between fiddling with the frayed edge of his sleeve or gnawing at his thumbnail, already jagged and bitten down to the quick. 

Bucky has been in the bathroom for what feels like hours, though it realistically can’t have been more than a few minutes. Steve lets out a long breath, forcing his hands down by his sides. He squeezes his eyes shut and begins counting backwards from one hundred. 

Eighty-six, eighty-five, eighty-four.

The lock clicks, and Steve opens his eyes. 

Bucky steps out, looking anywhere but at Steve. He drops the test stick into a trashcan by the desk and slumps down on the bed. 

Steve doesn’t need to see what the test says; it’s written clear as day in the dejected slouch of Bucky’s shoulders, in the way his face has been drained of all color. 

“Jesus fucking christ.” Bucky leans his elbows on his knees, his head bent low. 

“Buck.” 

“You don’t have to—” Bucky clears his throat, running a hand over his face. “It’s okay.” He lets out a slightly hysterical laugh. “I mean, obviously it’s not okay, but it’s gonna be. I’m fine.” 

“It’s okay if you’re not. You don’t have to be fine.” Steve shifts a little closer, turning sideways so he’s facing Bucky’s profile. “You’re allowed to feel whatever you’re feeling.” 

“Yeah, maybe.” Bucky glances at Steve from the corner of his eye, a sad twist to his mouth. 

They sit in silence for a while, Steve trying not to look while Bucky blinks back tears, his lip trembling. 

“I don’t have to tell him, do I?” Bucky suddenly asks, wiping his eyes on his sleeve. 

It takes Steve a moment to wrap his head around the question. 

“I just wanna take care of it,” Bucky continues, his voice thick. “We haven’t talked at all since we broke up, and I just... really don’t wanna tell him.” 

“Then you don’t tell him.” Steve reaches out a hand, his fingertips brushing the side of Bucky’s leg. “You should do whatever’s best for you.” 

Bucky sniffs softly, pressing his knee into Steve’s touch. “I should make the appointment,” he murmurs, clearly more to himself than to Steve. 

“I’ll come with you,” Steve says, perhaps a little too quickly. “I mean, if you want me to.”

Bucky turns to face him, frowning. “You’d do that?” 

“Of course. Someone has to take you, ‘cause you’re not allowed to drive afterwards.” 

Bucky looks like he’s going to start crying for real this time. He slots his knee between Steve’s crossed legs, his hand resting on Steve’s arm. 

“And you need someone to stay with you, y’know, for the night. I’ll rent Alien and get you a tub of chocolate chip cookie dough.” 

“Alien? Really?” 

“Fuck.” Steve wants to kick himself. “Yeah, right. Maybe not that one.” He casts around for something less on the nose. “Predator? Chocolate chip cookie dough and butter pecan?” 

Bucky lets out a choked laugh, leaning his forehead against Steve’s shoulder. “Yeah, that’ll do.” 

Steve pulls him closer, fingers threading through the sweaty hairs at the nape of Bucky’s neck. “I’ll sleep on the floor, we can put the couch cushions down like when we were kids.”

Bucky just hums under his breath, the tension palpably draining from his shoulders. 

“It’s gonna be fine, Buck,” Steve promises, pressing the words into Bucky’s hairline. 

“I know, Stevie,” Bucky says, his voice muffled into Steve’s chest.

[laurelnose]

good news! I don’t have a brain tumor 🥰

so basically what happened is

mid-december: i acquire Debilitating Migraine, 10 out of 10 worst pain I’ve felt in my entire fucking life Migraine, worse than the time I spent three weeks recovering from major surgery completely sober because I am inexplicably resistant to just about every class of painkiller I’ve ever tried Migraine. (I actually only rank the surgery experience about a 6 out of 10 on the pain scale.) we get the migraine down to Bad But Manageable by locating several new Christmas light strings that turned out to be flickering at speeds the human eye could not detect but my human brain certainly could and throwing them all out. I make a doctor’s appointment.

last week: I finally see my PCP. she prescribes me a triptan, which is an abortive med that is meant to stop migraine attacks. the triptan decreases the headache but does not remove it entirely. also, the damn thing keeps getting worse again. I try it three times over the week, which is the maximum number of times you’re supposed to take a triptan in a month. almost like you’re not supposed to have more than three headaches in a month or something?? weird. well, technically I haven’t had three. it’s all the Same Damn Headache.

this same day I also pick up a topiramate prescription, which is a preventative. i am advised i can start the topiramate even if i am not pain free. maybe if i give it a day or two it will help even if i am currently having an attack??

wednesday i see my PCP for followup and tell her i am still in pain. she offers to get me squeezed in to have an intramuscular toradol (heavy-duty NSAID) shot. this kicks in within 20 minutes and doubles my migraine pain. I was at 3-ish and now I am at 6 and unhappy about it.

i do not come back down from the level the toradol kicked me up to. i survive thursday by not doing very much of anything.

uh? holy shit? yeah, sure?

friday the pain becomes unbearable. back up to an 8, which isn’t the worst it’s been but it’s also Day Forty Fucking Two and I’m so tired. I leave work early & go to urgent care where they pump me fulla benadryl and dexamethasone. absolutely none of this is fun — the dexamethasone feels like a panic attack and the benadryl makes me dizzy and light-headed + makes it very hard to think of words? what the shit do people take benadryl recreationally for? but! the pain diminishes dramatically. after the IV’s done they get me in for a CT scan and are like hey! you don’t have a brain tumor! (I was not actually worried I had a brain tumor but it’s always nice to rule it out.) but you do have a sinus infection and a bunch of fluid buildup that’s probably triggering the migraine. (really? but I haven’t been congested?) yeah, no, it’s really deep in there. do you wanna do antibiotics and sudafed about that to clear up the fluid?

saturday morning the head pain is back but it’s mild and it feels LIKE A FUCKING SINUS HEADACHE and not a migraine anymore oh my god. Guess what kinds of headaches are fucking fixable and tend not to be intractable and unpreventable. It’s also like, a manageable amount of pain? It hurts but I feel okay?? I get thru work without taking my breaks in the dark with a heat pad? I look at headlights on the dark road coming home and am not immediately debilitated? 😭 Maybe in a week and a half when the antibiotics course is done I will actually just be Fine??

I really shoulda gone to urgent care back in December. Too bad I didn’t quite realize you could go to urgent care for migraines until I’d seen my PCP for the first time and that couldn’t happen earlier bc, well, appointments are hard to come by.

I’m wondering in hindsight if the triptan WAS kicking the migraine more effectively than I thought it was and i couldn’t tell because I had a sinus headache underneath (which kept bringing the migraine back). this also explains why I was getting decent results with Vick’s VapoRub LMAO. Like some people do swear by menthol for migraines but it was probably helping the congestion too.

anyways this is why I’ve been quiet. I will be quiet for a little while longer probably bc the sinus headache is still not fun but it is getting better. in fact i had to get up and eat breakfast to take my antibiotic but it is sunday and i don’t actually want to be awake so i think i’m going back to bed

i am never letting anyone talk me into taking another NSAID ever fucking again.

[tomwambsgans]

that gay brother/little sister post you reblogged was soooo juicy so now i wanna ask your thoughts on gay roman (i’m absolutely a gay roman truther)

so i'm not attached enough to roman to have TOO many pre-formed thoughts on this but i'm gay enough i can't not have thoughts, so. another disclaimer, due to my lack of attachment i'm not whatsoever married to the notion of either kendall or roman (or shiv for that matter) being gay as opposed to bi. however i have eyes and a brain so i know they're all not straight, like that much is basically textual.

but anyway. when it comes to any of the roy siblings and homosexuality, i'll say my very first thought is this monologue from Angels in America. not that they would necessarily have that exact ideology about it, but those notions would greatly inform their attitude about themselves. imo roman, with his inclination toward fascistic masculinity in particular, would be the most likely to overtly think these things, and i do think he kind of does. roman knows that he's unable to get off with normative sex, but he also explicitly derides "liberal butt-love" and implicitly (sometimes explicitly) all the non-conforming and gender-bending stuff that goes along with it. that's at least partially because he's talking about a category of people that he does not belong to, due to being far above it. it's often the case for those who are rich and powerful and condemn the same "deviant" practices that they themselves engage in, whether it's gay sex, or just generally non-normative sex, abortion, etc. it's okay for me, but not for you.

but that's just one piece to roman's puzzle because there's also clearly shame wrt masculinity (logan's masculinity) and also some sexual trauma involved. i think kieran and/or one of the writers has said something about not wanting to pin Why Roman Is Like That on anything in particular, like not wanting to definitively say that something happened to him as a kid, but honestly i think it's extremely unlikely that he'd be like that about sex if nothing did. maybe it was very complicated and it not any singular event, but there's got to be something. some sexual depth to his childhood abuse that never got explicitly touched on. other people much more invested in roman than i have done really good meta on the roys' relationships to their bodies (like w the Summer of Competetive Eating Disorders), so i'm not gonna try to rehash those other ppl's thoughts, but in short that's the sort of thing i think of when i'm trying to imagine what the fuck happened to roman. like just over-arching themes of The Boot throughout roman's life, the lack of ownership over his own body in a way that reflects femininity and strips him of manhood, whether at home or at military school, etc.

i mean, we (as in the audience) are definitely at least supposed to wonder, like when it's implied that Mo's pederasty wasn't exclusive to girls (Don't Get In The Pool With Him), but also, if anything of that nature happened to him and informed roman's relationship with his sexuality, i have to also think that roman doesn't actually remember. his whole thing in austerlitz where he jokes to connor "i'm gonna tell them you diddled me" gives me the sense that maybe roman just kind of wishes it was that cut-and-dry, because then he'd have something specific to blame his whole deal on.

anyway. this is about roman being gay, not specifically sexually Weird - i just think the context of all that is relevant to how he'd conceptualize himself and any gay feelings he has. and i do think that if and when roman has ever had sex with men, he probably does lump it in with the fact that he can't have Normal sex. i think roman would have to undergo a lot of character development to ever consider it normal sex. honestly, simply recieving a handjob from his personal trainer was likely "wrong" enough for roman to get off despite how the average gay man would see it as extremely vanilla compared to roman needing to be degraded or fantasizing about necrophilia. growing up with logan "i didn't figure you for a faggot" roy would have, of course, really reinforced the ideas about that being Wrong.

(speaking of logan dropping the f slur, i think it's interesting that despite how roman acts anti-woke in front of others, he's shocked when logan says it. it's clearly crossing a line even for him, almost certainly because he's been abused with this word throughout his life. :'/)

so yeah i don't think roman would ever call himself gay (or even bi or queer) even if he is. and as for the matter of if he is, like as in, if tabitha and gerri are exceptions... i honestly don't know, but i don't think roman knows either. i think the relationship he has with love and sex, his own body and others, the very concept of desire and the love and affection and closeness he seeks out... are genuinely so gnarled and complicated, and wrapped up in all the aforementioned shame and abuse, that figuring out where gender factors into it would - once again - basically require years of therapy on his part.

it's definitely very plausible to me that kinky, non-normative sex is something he only needs in order to get off with women because he has no innate desire for them even when he loves them (and roman definitely has a lot of love inside of him that he will bend over backwards to give and recieve). but it's just as plausible that roman's association of feelings of wrongness with sexual pleasure is in fact unrelated to whatever gendered desire he has or doesn't have. his attraction to men is, funnily enough, more undeniable to me than his attraction to women is, but i do think that how it's portrayed in the show emphasizes roman's role in the world more than desire he holds inside of him. i always think of that one tweet that's like "whenever there's a guy that needs to be seduced, instead of shiv or some other hot woman they send roman." and his role as the Desired One (aka Practically A Woman) is likely a sort of spite factor in him wanting to deny overt homosexual interest too, since it's kind of imposed on him before he has a chance to say anything about who he is.

it's funny bc roman is the one male character where like... i simultaneously like the idea of them being gay and enjoy their relationships with women. he's just so complicated that he kind of exists outside the constructions of sexual orientation? like not in the "he's closeted and he's never coming out so even if he's gay, he's also not" way, but "this guy would not be able to figure out how to define attraction or desire to begin with." gerri being the love of his life and the notion of him being gay are not whatsoever mutually exclusive in my mind, because he's just that complicated.

finally i wanna say, again, that i'm not extremely attached to roman. nowhere near to the degree that i care about tom and greg. which i say because yknow.. i want to kill and maim when i see anything implying that either tom or greg are anything but gay. idk how you feel about it but i'd totally sympathize if you were the same about roman, lol. and i wanna emphasize that it's very likely the only reason i'm not necessarily a gay roman truther is because i haven't thought about it enough. i'd love to see anyone else's gay roman meta if they have it.

[sunnyisinsane]

Siiiigh okay. This is probably the reason I don't wanna read the manga. (It's stupid I KNOW there's other reasons too like me just hating change and liking the anime but whatever.)

Now I'm usually silly here but I'm just gonna rant about all of this okay? Okay.

GOD WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!

My problem with this isn't that it confirms Stein and Marie being together, I don't care about the ship and I don't enjoy soul eater because of shipping, that's stupid. (Though I would've liked them to be open ended like Maka and Soul were but I digress.) I might accidentally rant how this ship got no development and them having a kid was so out of nowhere but right now my focus is on the soul. You may ask why that's my focus point on this and that's fair! My biggest problem is that these two have probably had sex, less than a month before this interaction.

Why? Because there's not even a bump in her stomach.

This is a nine week baby. Do you think this would have a soul? I feel like the soul would grow- let's say when the brain fully grows. That's on week 20. Does Marie's stomach look like it'd be on week 20? No.

Here's a full post on all of this shit.

This makes me think of the abortion laws and such in soul eater. I'm pro abortion, I think the soul is a big indicator of the baby breathing and having a consciousness. The soul is probably the line where you cannot have an abortion. But the fact that Marie has a baby soul so early makes me SO mad and yes I know Ohkubo didn't think about any of this when writing this scene. But MAN does it make me angry.

Okay this is less of a factual thing and more opinionated. Marie and Stein. They would NOT have a baby. Sorry! Hell they BARELY had a romantic chemistry.

I looked it all up, all they were was roommates who cared about each other. Oh no one's a man and another is a woman! They NEED to have a baby! Okay sorry I understand that's what Marie wanted.

Not with Stein but she wanted to have a family and she got it! That's great. Just not what Stein needs and wants. At least a baby. Not a fucking baby.

Stein says and I quote, "there's going to be one more guinea pig for me." (I know that's an English translation, whatever.) And you could say he was joking, he always jokes! But looking at his track history of people he loves and has trusted him, I doubt Stein would be a good father. He's more of a fun uncle!

He wouldn't be able to take care of a baby.

Marie wouldn't have sex with Stein. Sorry! She'd know the results of all that and wouldn't want a baby with that man! This one panel makes me SO fucking mad. I wish those two stayed ambiguous.

They could've had room to grow as a couple by the fandom or some shit. Maybe in future adaptations too. Whatever, I don't care. I could go on and on but in the end it's over now and not canon to me. They had an abortion after that and Kid saw the soul wrong or some shit.

That was my rant, I apologize if it wasn't concise and if you disagree with me yell in my inbox or smth lol.

[rinhaler]

Lmaoooo breeding without the babies skdjdjsj that was me before I had my babies!! My first pregnancy actually ended in abortion bc me and my partner were like lol fuck to the no!! So I understand why it makes people uncomfortable heh but since I have babies now I guess it like re-wired my brain??? Now when I’m reading a fic and it mentions pregnancy I’m like awwww but then when whatever characters in the fic pounding u into next week and says some shit like “yeah? You want my fuckin babies?” HELL FUCKIN YEAH I DO BROTHER GIVE IT TOOOOO MEEEEMEMWMWMW

Understandable!! Certainly not my thing but I can see the appeal for some yk? It's sweet and comforting and nice but I am too icky and gross and write nasty shit I don't wanna throw babies into the mix 😅😅 TALKING ABT FUCKING ONE INTO ME THO???? MEOW MEOW MEOW

[stupidblogtomessagewifey]

I fucking hate how republicans constantly target trans people. I get on Twitter and all I see is republicans constantly talking about trans people. Can they just let them live?! They target lgbtqia+ people constantly.

Might get offended 🤭🤗

I find myself agreeing with republicans and hating some. Like we got the religious ones who have their heads up everyone’s ass. Then we got the ones who scream “my body my choice” when it comes to a Covid vaccine, but god forbid someone wants to change the way they look or get an abortion. But… I’m in a very pro gay area and I see some of the stuff that happens that I don’t agree with at all. I mean when I’m walking outside and there is a pride parade and gay men are in bdsm attire while kids are on the sidewalk then I’m gonna have a problem. As far as the trans stuff (I know it’s kinda like the center of attention right now), I have no problem with trans people at all. I don’t care if a trans women uses the women’s bathroom… the only problem I have is grown men claiming to be trans and happily walking around with a stubble. It’s gross to me. I don’t want a man with a whole fucking beard walking into the bathroom with me. If you’re gonna transition into a women.. make an effort to look like one. Even if I can like tell someone is trans you can see they’re clearly making an effort and I don’t have any problem with them in my bathroom. But the 50+ year old men with beards and hairlines to the back of their neck absolutely not. And I find a lot of republicans don’t like it when it comes to kids and I agree. I don’t think we should be jumping to put kids on medications that will alter their body permanently. For example if I had a daughter who was like “mom, I wanna be a boy can I get on hrt” imma be like slow down. That kid is getting a therapist and I want a diagnosis of gender dysphoria before they can transition medically. I’m all for socially transitioning… cut your hair or wear different clothes, but when it comes to cross sex hormones I think it’s important to make sure that’s what that kid needs. I’m not usually for kids medically transitioning, but if it gets to the point where they REALLY NEED TO and they’re at an age where they can understand the risks… then I can get behind it. It isnt all sunshine and rainbows… you’re altering body chemistry here and it has risks. You’re destroying a perfectly good reproductive system and there’s a risk of osteoporosis, blood clots and a bunch of other stuff. There’s even studies saying that Lupron (what they use as puberty blockers) can cause brain swelling. That shit is scary and I think the person taking them should understand the risks of that. And you can’t tell me a 12 year old who believes in Santa can. Sorry, that’s just my opinion. But the republicans who hate the whole thing in general can fuck off. Adults can do what they want.

[winns-stuff]

POLITICS:

Okay I know, first time I’m not speaking on Lore Olympus and you may be wondering what I even have to say about the topic above, let me spoil you a little. I have a lot of shit to say, and I know some people are going to say that I’m too young to have an opinion on certain things like this but I genuinely don’t care because in a few years all of these grown ass adults’ decisions are going to affect me in some way so I feel like I have every fucking right to talk about it.

I wanna talk about the abortion situation, it’s been irking the hell out of me for a really long time and it’s put me under so much stress and just utter panic. It’s so disheartening seeing so many comments being made from pro-lifers mostly because I truly believe that these people have really lost their shit and are literal psychopaths. But most comments I’ve seen from pro-lifers are that “they’re just trying to save our future” or “we just want to preserve life.” What I want to say to that is a massively huge fuck you to everyone who even thinks that. I’ve never been so furious in my entire life, save the fucking future?? I am your future and in fact all of Generation Z is, yet you all have literally neglected us and left us for fucking dead are you serious? I’ve seen so many teens open up about how their parents treat them and how they’ve been abused and neglected by the very adults who swear up and down that all humans deserve to live. I hate all of you for failing us, I hate all of you for forgetting all about us and moving onto the next generation like that’s even going to help, there’s literally no reason for half of the generation to suffer from childhood trauma or just trauma in general and instead of taking responsibility for making our lives miserable and making us like the way we are we all get blamed for it? Not the generation who selfishly brought children into the world just to treat them like literal shit. Not the generation who puts high expectations on their children and pressure them into doing things they don’t want to do. Not the parents who literally threaten to kill and kick their children out for either disagreeing with them or not agreeing with their own child’s identity. I’ve overheard such hatred coming from adults about their children and I’ve seen people my age, older and younger, come out about how deteriorated their mental health is because of their parents. Where are the pro-lifers when young children are being disowned and thrown out by their parents? Where is your rage for how they treated us and continue to treat us? Where is your support? Why don’t you at least try and acknowledge that you fucked us over and left us for fucking dead. And now you wanna sit up there and talk about the new generation like we don’t exist? I have dreams, I have a name, I have a functioning brain, goals, personality, achievements, I have all of it yet a fetus is more important than actually trying to help the kids that suffered from your hands? You’re all a load of absolute shit and I hate your damn guts.

I also wanna talk about how absolutely pathetic it is for the people who want people with uteruses to be “responsible” for their babies and how a lot of people think people with uteruses are “promiscuous” or “whores” just because they want an abortion. First off if you’re going to call anyone irresponsible I’m going to need all the men who left their families or forced people with uteruses to get abortions, cheated on or abused them to stand all the way up. It’s so sick that these people put so much responsibility on people with uteruses when quite literally there has been generations on generations of men who have created broken homes and refuse to even meet their child. I know because I have a biological father that’s never even wanted me to be born, he wanted to abort me because all he wanted out of the relationship was sex. I’m not saying that that’s what all men want obviously pull your head out of your ass, I’m talking about men who are obviously not ready for children laying down with a woman without any sort of protection at all or any care and getting her pregnant. Leaving the woman after he finds that out in the process or even staying with her and making her miserable because he didn’t want the baby to begin with. Shut the fuck up talking about anyone not taking responsibility because certain men have been doing that for centuries, but I never see anyone especially pro-lifers even daring to bring this entire thing up. Like it’s insane to just place all the blame on women when child support literally exists for a fucking reason, this exact reason alone as well! It’s complete bullshit and the dumbest mindset ever.

Something else I wanna talk about is how everyone thinks that all people with uteruses have abortions for one thing and one thing only, they slept around and now they’re using it as a condom. Are you all fucking mental or something how does that even make sense? There are millions on millions of people in the world and you come to the conclusion that all people with uteruses, every single last one of those people, all use abortions like that. I’m so sick and tired of people having this weird hive mentality where if something never happened to you it never happens to anyone, or when something does happen to you (especially something positive) that’s how everyone’s experience is going to be. This is the dumbest way of thinking I can’t even respect that sort of mindset at all, that literally has to be the worst mindset ever. There’s millions of people in the world everyone is not like you we are all different and there’s no way that a minor knows this shit more than half of the adults who think like this. All people with uteruses are not going to have an abortion for the same things stop saying they will it’s so illogical for you to even suggest something like that. Different people with uteruses will have different situations, maybe in some cases they will have similar things in common with these things but it’s just so completely idiotic to say that all people with uteruses are having abortions for the exact same reason. You do not know their reasons, you don’t even know them as a human being it’s like you guys are forming parasocial relationships with these people and you don’t even know their first name! You see how extremely crazy that sounds? It sounds borderline psychotic and it’s not going to do anything to fix the U.S.

Another thing I wanna say, and honestly this is just a personal nitpick but I think it’s completely comical how the conservatives always use those damn “snowflake” roasts on videos discussing actual issues and things that are affecting real people and communities and completely invalidating the importance of all of it yet they sit up and completely ignore the facts about abortions and just allow their emotions to take over the conversations. You always say “facts>>emotions” yet here you are feeling like a woman murdered something that isn’t even considered a human being. A fetus is just a small development and a first stage of a fetus forming into a baby, I can assure you that if you had an abortion or anything the fetuses would not feel anything. Honestly you’re not going to call a seed a flower because it’s still growing and developing into a flower so why are we considering a fetus to be an actual child? And if it was a human being why the hell aren’t we all called fetuses? Why are we called human beings and fetuses go by another name? Or why aren’t they called babies since they already are one? Maybe I’m the crazy one for thinking that but I genuinely do not believe that it’s a baby or a human being yet.

That brings us to our next point, the person’s life. I don’t think too many pro-lifers take into consideration that if the person survives a very painful pregnancy that they’re going to be the one caring for the baby, not you. You don’t even know their situation or anything so if they’re about to be evicted or mentally drained or even on drugs that’s going to affect the baby critically. That baby is not going to have another caretaker unless the family or partner steps up and actually helps out and that’s even if the person even has any of that support with them. How are they going to support a baby if they can’t even support themselves? They’re going to need to buy everything for the baby, do everything for the baby, care for the baby, and etc. They are going to need to be financially stable, physically healthy, and mentally sound enough to even do that and if they can’t what the fuck is going to happen with the baby? Is it going to get a job and work a 9-5 to support itself? No. This is why people decide to have abortions, and no an abortion is not just something that you just think about in 5 seconds and agree to. A lot of people with uteruses take abortions very seriously actually and I can even argue that there are people with uteruses out there that want that baby but based on their current situation they cannot have or support the baby. And I’m so tired of people suggesting foster care or putting it up for adoption, it’s already such a fucked up system and not only that but if every person with a uterus who couldn’t care for their baby followed your genius advice do you really think that the foster cares and adoption centers are gonna have room for all those babies? They’re not if they keep getting filled up, that’s so fucked up for you to even suggest something like that you’d rather the parent give up their baby to foster cares and adoption centers than to just let them get an abortion and better their situation. Babies cost time, money, and your energy in some cases babies should not just be born and thrown in the hands of adoption centers and etc that’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.

My last and final point about this whole thing is pro-lifers love to say that all human life should be protected and how the fetuses deserve to live yet will bash and harass any member of the LGBTQ+ community or any trans person on any given day. How dare you say that you’re fighting for human life yet you neglect the actual life that exists on our Earth, you’ll turn a blind eye to the many black transgender women who are dying and getting murdered and you’ll probably be happy about that shit too. You would rather wish them all to go to hell then to actually support and be a decent human fucking being. You are not pro-life you are pro-birth, if you do not consider or even acknowledge the countless lives who are being affected by many people who harass and abuse the people from that community you are not pro-life, if you ignore all the black lives being loss you are not pro-life, if you cannot for a split second even care about missing indigenous women and children then you are not pro-life. You are only ever going to be pro-birth and I think it’s disgusting that you fight so hard for the idea of a baby being born yet you don’t think those whose “lifestyles” you don’t agree with matter, or you don’t think certain races should be protected or even thought about when something terrible happens to them in mass waves. You want women to take responsibility for their actions but I really want all pro-lifers to take responsibility in trying to make living on Earth bearable for anyone who’s not them.

[thetrashbagswasteland]

🐙 brat pls

hi remember when I promised kryterius smut and then my brain went (blender noises) more than a month ago pls enjoy that bc I still do wanna get it done at some point lmao but yeah there's not enough bratty Saren in the world and I STAND BY that behind a cut bc mildly mildly spicy

Temper as frayed as it always was by the geologically slow progress that the big red troublemaker had made, he took the executive decision to switch off his higher thought processes and give in to the desire which had struck him the moment that Nihlus had made it clear that he had no intention of doing as he was told; so Saren leaned forwards and latched his teeth around the wrist of the hand which was working through his crest in what was clearly meant to be a soothing gesture. An aborted bark of surprise and the offending hand was drawn back away from him at light speed. Exactly what he deserved. “Stop teasing and just fuck me, Kryik.” He tried not to be too smug about managing, at long last, to find something which took him by surprise. “Objectionable, Saren, you’re being objectionable again.” The talons which had been resting frustratingly close to their goal tensed against the hide of his stomach before that hand was retracted too, leaving him with precisely nothing to take as a distraction from the hot breath tickling his neck and prickle of teeth as Nihlus deliberated his retaliation. He’d see about that. “Well if you do insist on being such an insubordinate menace- you left me no choice.” He bit back, pulling away so that he could look down at his boyfriend- and tried hard to not let his glee at getting to name him that within his internal monologue show too evidently. The last thing Nihlus Kryik needed was any more inflated a sense of self-importance; it was bad enough that everyone within their professional lives praised him endlessly, someone needed to keep him humble and that person would have to be him, wouldn’t it?

[xuanelle]

12 and 13 for ask game!

the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

mirei park. do I understand why some people don't like her? yes absolutely. what she did to kiryu I can fully get bothering people, and I can understand people who don't like her because they don't like her relationship with majima (not that she's to fault for it but just more so the idea that majima would do that) but genuinely though gamerbrosTM are so fucking annoying about her that it made me like her more after finishing the game. if I have to see one more gamerbro say her getting an abortion was an awful thing for majima and centering his feelings when a woman has a right to abort a kid if she wishes to and also he was the one in canon who y'know. hurt her. and notably majima realized he fucking fucked up and left the very next day and never talked to her ever again. like I can get people who don't like her/the relationship bc they think it's ooc even though I think blaming her for it is :/ (I mean the relationship isn't something to like obviously I just mean more so how it affects how they think of her) but seeing people say she was wrong for aborting the kid and deserved to get hit fuck you and never talk to a woman irl ever again

and again these same people act like she's the worst character because she did that to kiryu but I've seen more general love for someya who was a y6 villain who was a piece of shit to his partner or just men who are worse then her but because she's a woman and is mean and does a fucked up thing in her first apperance she's the worst alive

and like this is the same series where mine yoshitaka is a beloved character and he destroyed an entire oprhanage because he wanted the land the orphanage was built on. and those kids were hurt by his men. but mirei who genuinely did seem to want the best for haruka's dream as an idol, who knows the horrors of the idol industry and the danger of rumours and y'know what happens to your idol career if people know you have a relationship with a yakuza finds out kiryu is Yakuza and gaslights kiryu into him thinking he's not a good influence to his kids and that he should leave and that if haruka wants to be an idol he needs to go is evil and a bitch. which. is wrong. she is wrong for this. but I'm saying the double standards here are fucking insane

like they're both wrong. they both fuck up but the thing is. they're both also given sympathy by the narrative. mirei and Haruka have a sweet dynamic she buys her clothes and plays games with her and does care abt her !!!! and mirei does do a lot less harm then mine who is a Yakuza patriarch!! but she gets all the hate for daring to be a woman who is mean and complicited and messy. like I get why some people wouldn't like her but the way gamerbros talk about her is fucking insane they act as if she's the worst character in the series (I've seen ppl say she's worse then fucking oda who y'know. trafficked women) is insane because g-d forbid a female character being given character traits the male characters in these games have.

anyway this really wasn't me talking abt why people should like her but I guess my answer is if you like male characters who are similar to mirei then well. why don't you like her (again her and mine r different but that's the closest comparison I got) ALSO her relationship with Haruka is sweet Haruka says she's like a mother to her and thats :")

worst blorboficiation

sigh. i've already said majima so i don't wanna say him again </3 but know he's the first one that popped into my head for this. anyway i guess my answer for this is..... damn my brain really really wants to say majima 😭😭 but i guess uh maybe marc spector. i think this is mainly a twitter thing but I've seen so many people talk abt marc as if he's just some badass cool guy and that he's that guy™ and such a surface level take of who he is and genuinely tend to ignore his past or the wrongdoings he has committed. or just. any of the complicated aspects of the character (the show made all of this way worse)

marc spector was a bad person who did horrible things and is trying to change and often ends up right back at where he started but depsite that, despite how much he hates himself he keeps trying to protect people, he keeps being a hero even when he earnestly believes the man behind the mask is anything but. and He has an addiction to violence that's completely and utterly unhealthy for him. and he admits to this. and yet people will see that and go marc spector is just THAT GUY™ and it's such a surface level take of him that I despise.

[waltwhitmansbeard]

heyooo I just started writing fan fic and I really have no idea what I'm doing haha, can you explain how you draft and edit and write you long fics? i don't know what to do besides just starting at the beginning and writing to the end. (also sending this to multiple writiers so I can get lots of opinions)

hey! first of all, i wanna say i'm flattered that you ask, although i can claim no sense of credibility in the realm of writing anything, fanfic or otherwise. i'm just some guy, like everyone else on here, and i'm just doing my best with what i've got.

i don't believe that every writer will approach a longfic the same way, and i don't think a writer will approach each of their longfics in the same way, either. i know that the fic i'm hoping to write when gocmh is done is going to have a different process than mfl/gocmh did, because the stories are different and the needs are different. i can tell you how i approached mfl, and maybe you'll find that helpful, but if you don't, that's okay. your fic isn't gonna be mfl, it's gonna be yours, and ultimately you're the only one who is going to be able to figure out how to write it.

i'm gonna skip past all the general writing advice, which is read a lot and spend almost your entire childhood and adolescence meticulously picking apart all the stories you love to figure out how they work like they're clocks make of gears and springs. when it came to mfl, i wrote the first 5-8 chapters on pure vibes. every chapter's contents were just as big a mystery to me at the outset of writing them as they were to the readers when they sat down to read them. i was only ever thinking about the next step, the next sentence, the next tiny jump in the story. i was not thinking about where we'd end up, bc as far as i was concerned, that wasn't my business. my business was what happens next.

and in the process of writing that way, i was basically just improvising. it's a cliché, i know, but the first rule of improv is to yes, and, and i yes anded myself over and over and over. if i typed that the world of mfl was like x, then it was like x, and i had to just fucking deal with that. so much of early mfl (and truly all of that world) is just me making up rules and facts that later me would have to treat as sacred. is this the most efficient way to write? idk, and idc, either. this was the most fun, exciting way for me to write the story, and i don't regret it.

after a while though, my brain naturally started to stretch its legs (ew, terrible metaphor, abort, abort), and i started thinking ahead. not like terribly far ahead, but enough where i could say, "ok, if i'm at point a, and i know what point e i want to reach someday, i just gotta figure out points b through d." and sometimes that involved outlining the chapters that could get me from a to e, and sometimes i'd make it up as i went. it depended on the day and the points and what was going on in my life at the time. as i write this, i have the final ten-ish chapters of gocmh planned out, what's going to happen, who's pov it's gonna be in, etc. i actually planned out the last 15-ish chapters this way, and have written some, but even in the process of writing those chapters, shit has changed! something i thought was a good idea in the planning process didn't work out the way i'd hoped in execution, and i had to pivot. that's writing, baby.

now i know this isn't going to work for the the fic i have planned for after gocmh. i'm going to want that fic properly planned out, each chapter outlined and themes woven in carefully ahead of time, bc that's that story. i fully expect for shit to go haywire in the actual writing, of course, because in all my years of fic writing (and friends, there is so much more fic writing than y'all know about with this username), shit has never not gone haywire in the actual writing. but idk, that's the fun part. subverting your own expectations. cutting yourself off at the knees. kicking your own ass. it's fun!

i'll also talk a bit about how i wrote people and rhythm, the originals fic you can still find on my ao3 account. that fic took about six months to write, and to date i don't think i've ever had so much fun writing anything. imagine, if you will, two whiteboards, each divided vertically in half, covered in sticky notes. on each of those sticky notes is written a brief scene description, an event that Has to Happen. each of the four whiteboard halves represents an episode (that fic was organized by episodes, not chapters, bc i fancied myself an Auteur), and i would place and replace and replace those sticky notes until i had all the scenes i needed to make an episode in the order they needed to happen in. and then i would write! and bc i'd already done the organizational work to figure out the story beats, i could write the individual scenes in the order that struck my fancy, bc if i skipped a piece of the story that was important, it didn't matter. i knew where that sticky note went, and i could fill in the blank later. if this type of planning/writing appeals to you, i recommend the website/app trello, which is basically the digital version of whiteboards and sticky notes.

i wanna talk about something you said in your ask. "i don't know what to do besides just starting at the beginning and writing to the end." so, uhhhh, who says? who says you gotta start at the beginning and write to the end? start in the middle. start at the shit that makes you excited. write the scene that makes your mouth water and your hands turn into claws. write the good shit first, and then when you've got it, ask yourself, "ok, how do i earn this? i want my readers to get to here, bc it's good and juicy and so much fun, but i gotta work to get them here." start where you wanna start and work backwards from there if you must. asking "why" is so useful for this. oh, you're at point f? why did point f happen? that's point e. why did point e happen? that's point d. (then, you know, use the rest of the alphabet.) so much of life is just us reacting to shit, dealing with the onslaught of Life as best we know how, even if it fucks shit up for us in the future, so if you wanna write the reaction first, go for it! just remember that reactions stem from actions, so you gotta give us those, too.

(also, a story need not be told in order! flashbacks and the manipulation of time can be extremely fun and exciting! this is something that takes a lot of skill, though, not to say that you don't have that skill, but just be careful when doing this. you can still use the concepts of time jumps in your writing process, even if you don't present your story in a jumbled order.)

i don't know if i've said anything of value here. i can only talk about writing as i experience it, which is not, of course, how any other writer experiences it. i can't give you tips or actionable advice bc i, too, am making this shit up as i go. i write bc i like telling lil stories for my lil internet friends, and bc sometimes ppl say nice words, and i collect those nice words like a dragon hoarding its shinies in its lair. but don't write for the nice words, bc if they don't come as fast as you like or as much as you like, you'll get discouraged, and ultimately it's more important that the story be told than that it be praised.

(not to belabor the point, but there's a john green quote i love so much i have a poster of it hanging in my bedroom now, as an almost 30yo, that i've had since my college dorm room, and the quote is:

“Don’t make stuff because you want to make money — it will never make you enough money. And don’t make stuff because you want to get famous — because you will never feel famous enough. Make gifts for people — and work hard on making those gifts in the hope that those people will notice and like the gifts. Maybe they will notice how hard you worked, and maybe they won’t — and if they don’t notice, I know it’s frustrating. But, ultimately, that doesn't change anything — because your responsibility is not to the people you’re making the gift for, but to the gift itself.”

just something to keep in mind when writing. write for you, and write for the ppl you love, and write for the thing itself. the thing you create is a gift, and the gift deserves to exist for its own sake.)

so that was long! i hope it helps, and if it doesn't, sorry! i did try my best. i hope you find a method of writing that feels fun and natural and exciting to you, one that keeps you coming back for more. writing is the thing that keeps me going on days when i don't really want to keep going, and if it can become that thing for you (or hey, maybe it already is!) then i think is a gift, too.

[x-heesy]

𝗜 𝗗𝝝𝗡’𝗧 𝗚𝗜𝗩𝗘 𝝠 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗖𝗞

𝗦𝗘𝗫𝗗𝗥𝗨𝗚𝗦𝝠𝗡𝗗𝗦𝝝𝗖𝗞𝗦𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛𝗛𝝝𝗟𝗘𝗦

𝗫 𝗠𝗬 𝝠𝗦𝗦 👉🏾🖕🏽👈🏽

𝗠𝝝𝝝𝗗 𝗕𝝝𝝠𝗥𝗗

𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙 𝗬𝝝𝗨, 𝗬𝝝𝗨 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙𝗜𝗡 𝗙𝗟𝗨𝗙𝗙 / 𝗣𝗨𝗡𝗞𝗦𝝠𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗗𝗘𝝠𝗗 / 𝗛𝗘𝗟𝗟 𝗬 𝝠𝗦𝗦 / 𝗚 𝝝 𝗗 𝗜 𝗦 𝝠 𝗗 𝗝 /ΓЯДCҜФFΓHΞDДУ / 𝗗𝗘𝗘𝗣𝗗𝝠𝗥𝗞𝝠𝗡𝗗𝗗𝝠𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗥𝝝𝗨𝗦 / 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗭𝗭 𝗜𝗭 𝝠 𝗚𝗜𝗙 𝝠𝗧𝗧𝝠𝗖𝗞 / 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗖𝗞 𝗜𝗧 𝟰 𝗣𝗛𝗨𝗡 / 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛𝝝𝗨𝗧𝗠𝗨𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘𝗪𝝝𝗨𝗟𝗗𝗕𝗘𝝠𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗧𝝠𝗞𝗘 / 𝗪𝝝𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥𝗙𝗨𝗟 𝗜 𝗖𝝝𝗨𝗟𝗗 𝗖𝗥𝗬 / 𝗪𝗘𝗜𝗥𝗗 𝗜𝗦 𝝠 𝗖𝝝𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗜𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧 / 𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗞 𝗡 𝗧𝗪𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗗 🎧 / 𝗟𝝝𝗦𝗧 𝗜𝗡 𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗘𝝝 / 𝗗𝝠𝗬𝗭 𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘 𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗭𝗭 / 𝗧𝗛𝝠𝗡𝗞𝗦 𝗟𝝝𝗥𝗗 𝟰 𝗠𝗨𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗞 / 𝗚𝗥𝗘𝗬𝗦𝗞𝗜𝗘𝗦 / 𝗜𝗠𝗙𝗥𝗘𝝠𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗙𝗨𝗖𝗞𝝝𝗨𝗧 / 𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗘𝗗𝗧𝝝𝗗𝝠𝗡𝗖𝗘𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗙𝗨𝗖𝗞𝝝𝗨𝗧 / 𝗦𝗨𝗕𝗕𝝠𝗦𝗦𝗠𝝠𝗦𝗦𝝠𝗖𝗥𝗘 / 𝗦𝗛𝝠𝗞𝗘𝗪𝗛𝝠𝗧𝗬𝝠𝗠𝝠𝗠𝝠𝗚𝝠𝗩𝗘𝗬𝝠 /𝗗𝗥𝝝𝗣𝗕𝗘𝝠𝗧𝗦𝗡𝝝𝗧𝗕𝝝𝗠𝗕𝗦 / 𝗥𝝝̈𝗛𝗥𝗧 𝗪𝗜𝗘 𝗛𝗜𝗥𝗦𝗖𝗛 / 𝗜’𝗠 𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗖𝝝:

Wiggity wiggity

The Christmas monster in me wakes up once every decade

I know, I know, homie, it's rare, I hear you complaining

So in the herd better, I'm not alone here today

It's Elephant, D.O.D., you bitch, freak out like Kurdistan

Fuck you in borscht, the ax flies straight into your mouth

A choir of aborted children sings Christmas carols from the toilet

You shine all over Chernobyl, for fuck you a Christmas tree

Take a break, take it easy, Bill Cosby will grab a drink

It's a sick Christmas atmosphere, it won't be the first star

Your kid is driving into the crystal like snowdrifts

It's great, you see if Santa has already arrived

In the sky instead of him, the three-headed King Ghidorah

A werewolf in an Elf costume for your sister at night

First he breaks off, then makes a vagina out of the head

This EP is going to fuck you up, so be lucky

There will be no surprises like Bruce Jenner on Father's Day

"You can't do that during Christmas" - I can fucking do anything

Rudolph overdosed, snout foam, disco sick

Hey girl, I know you like dinosaurs so

Your father is going to fuck the AIDS pterodactyl today

What bad luck, let the mold eat your teeth

And the whole planet was covered in cold darkness

I wish you would bleed out through your genitals

The Elephant wishes you a happy apocalypse, and a

No, no, no hope

Earth, earth, earth will stand today

This is, this is a sick Christmas

Centipede crawls out of his mouth again

No, no, no hope

Earth, earth, earth will stand today

This is, this is a sick Christmas

Centipede crawls out of his mouth again

Ay yo, what is this? Dope D.O.D. and Słoń

Black Christmas, Santa Claus wanna mack on all suspicious

Tippy-toe in yo 'booth like a lizard

Niggas can't hear me, can't see me, can't even come close

Sniffin 'all the snow, Santa Claus, never cope

Livin 'on the dope, as the story unfolds

Bitch get my coat, it's' bout time to unload

No fucking presents

All you see is blood raining down from heaven

Government pet like Eleven I'm a felon

Boy you better tell 'em I'mma fuck' em up like Slevin

Lucky number seven, when it's Christmas - I'm Kevin

You can hear the bells ring when we step in

Chainsaw revvin 'when we comin' for your parents

Red nose in the red snow, drinking red rum

Bitch sucking on my mistletoe

No, no, no hope

Earth, earth, earth will stand today

This is, this is a sick Christmas

Centipede crawls out of his mouth again

No, no, no hope

Earth, earth, earth will stand today

This is, this is a sick Christmas

Centipede crawls out of his mouth again

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way

Your bitch jiggles balls, and she takes it all the way

Oh, what fun it is to ride my dick on Christmas day

Crashing through the snowman, Santa's on the way

I push it down the cliff, on the one horse open sleigh

Blood is gonna rain, dear bodily decay

Ho ho, oh no, Brain Dead Elephant

The Dope and the logo, ghost in the photo

I walk around with breath like a hobo

Big white beard and a bright red polo

It's father Christmas, fuck you wishless

I pour Guinness and leave your chimney with a corpse in it

Coarse blizzards, you'll sure shiver the gore spitters

No worries, cause your innards are worn with us

And we going all winter with this one

Drip, drip, drip - that's a skull when we split one

Big fun

(No no no hope)

(Earth, earth, earth will stand today)

(These are, these are sick Christmas)

(Centipede crawls out of his mouth again)

Xmas 2019 by Słoń, Dope D.O.D. 🖕🏽

[blorbocedes]

hm mpreggable nyck... what if nyck almost got a Williams contract then toto 'helping' to get his contract faster, toto wants a celebratory fuck for getting a seat in f1 (he didn't) and he got impregnated by him. when toto knew he got pregnant he refused that it's his, accusing nyck for sleeping with a Williams personel to get a seat (he knew it's his). then toto left him or something (he'll be back) but now he's pregnant, alone, and seatless

sorry if this didn't make sense lol my brain is small

PREGNANT ALONE AND SEATLESS

WHY DO MY ANONS JUST WANNA MAKE NYCKY THE PROTAGONIST OF THE MOBILE GAME ADS 😭😭😭😭😭😭

bestie JUST got his first f1 drive at the ripe old dying age of 27 and you wanna take it away from him already by babytrapping him 😭😭 what did he do to deserve this...... toto already HAS a family he can't be having this scandal attached to his name!!!!!! nycky definitely got with a Williams higher up to secure himself a seat!!!

also don't mpreg abortions exist 😭 why is nycky carrying this baby, yeet that fucker!!!

i do like the toto left (he'll be back) that's so Ominous..... maybe he'll convince nycky to keep it and stay at home fatherhood is his true calling now that he longer has a Williams seat (got leaked to the press somehow ☹️) ofc merc will support him via paternity leave and media backing If he keeps it... but getting pregnant is Outside of the breach of contracts :( so... it's His Choice (it's not)

[elitehoe]

Houston AEW Dynamite + Rampage thoughts and reactions!!!

DYNAMITE

Samoa Joe vs Johnny Elite: JOHNNY ELITE AHHHHHHH as soon as we sat down he came out and we lost our shit like lost it fully I'm so happy about Johnny... I'm already planning matches out in my mind that I wanna see!! My brother and I knew Joe would win, but we still enjoyed Johnny's debut so damn much!! Hope Joe and Lethal have a match at DoN and end out this feud soon.

My nooj boi Rocky + best friends came out and I was probably the only one screaming in our section 🤦🏻‍♀️ ....

Matt and Matt's feral little brother feud is fucking coming *screaming at the top of my lungs* my brother isn't a Bucks stan like me so he was like ehh "hope they lose" 😂

CM PUNK 😭😭😭😭😭 I WAS SHAKING SO DAMN BAD WHEN CULT OF PERSONALITY CAME ON LIKE FULL ON SHAKING ALL MY PICS AND VIDS ARE SHIT CAUSE OF HOW BAD I WAS SHAKING

"ABORTION RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS" TSHIRT YESSSS MY PRO WOMEN + PRO CHOICE KING THANK YOU FOR THAT ❤️❤️ SENDING YOU LOVE

Konosuke Takeshita vs Hangman Adam Page: The second I was breathing the same air as CM Punk my brain went error 404. Then Konosuke came out and AHHHHHHH. HANGMAN IS EQUALLY AS PRETTY AS HE IS ON TV WOOOOOW HIS GEAR IN PERSON IS GORGEOUS!!! Babes I wanted to throttle myself into the ring and eat the pin so neither technically lost 😭. Konosuke did so damn good in that match and Hangman was darling as always!!!! My brother didn't know who Konosuke was, but he likes him now after that match! He was super impressed and I was so happy that he liked him!! We're both Hangy stans and were rooting for Hangy to win. So much more impressed with Konosuke after each match in AEW!! I also love that everyone else is loving him cause he deserves all of the love ok? Ok!!!

GTS FOR THE WIN 😳😳😳 HANGMAN BELOVED THAT WAS THE SEXIEST SHIT IVE EVER FUCKING SEEN 🥵 OH MY FUCKING GOD AND WHEN THEY CIRCLED AROUND EACH OTHER A BITCH ABOUT DIED

Also Houston fuck you and your CM Punk chants COWBOY SHIT ALL FUCKING DAY 😌😌😌

Swerve and Keith Lee vs Workhorsemen: The crowd reaction to Swerve and Keith 🤌🏻 IMMACULATE ENERGY IN THE ARENA. The match was great, the post match altercation *shaking in my seat* I was in the same room as Ricky Starks everyone shut up I'm having a moment!!! Christian my love if I wasn't with my brother I would've been acting a god damn fool over my favorite zaddy!! Fashion icon Hobbs 🥰 Jurassic Express entrance in person *chef's kiss* can't wait for the DoN match!! We knew Keith and Swerve were gonna fuck shit up!! Swerve's house and Bask In His Glory chants are 100/10 vibes!!!

Booing MJF in person was an astronomical vibe 100/10 will love to do again!!

Houston let his ass hear it tonight. Like damn he is sooooo good and I wanna cheer him, but I know he wouldn't really want me too cheer him so... Boo 👎🏻!

Wardlow 10 Lashes: I immediately went 😳😳😳 he came out shirtless let's start there bitch FROTHING AT THE MOUTH took every lash and FLEXXXING LAUGHING SMIRKING 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵 Wardlow in person got to be the most beautiful man I've ever seen what the fuck babe you're sculpted by every god!!! They all legit took their time on the creation of Wardlow!! My brother is a Wardlow stan AHHHHHH I really won today!!! Also Wardlow tits in person 🥵

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP SHAWN SPEARS MEET MY ASS OUTSIDE YOU LITTLE BITCH WE NEED YO HAVE A LONG TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU DID TO WARDLOW 🤬🤬🤬

ROPPONGI VICE VS FTR DEEEEEAAAAD SOPH LOST FUNCTION EYES ROLLED TO THE BACK OF MY HEAD ALMOST MOANED THAT MATCH IS GONNA BANG SO FUCKING HARD 😩😩

Kyle O'Reilly vs Rey Fenix: 100/20 exceeded all my expectations. We were in absolute awe of this match start to finish!!! My brother wanted KOR to advance I wanted Fenix so we had a little sibling argument about this mid show and we chanted against each other.. Great vibes tbh.

KYLE O'REILLY VS ADAM COLE IN THE OWEN CUP FINAL TO COMPLETELY JUMPSTART THE FALL OF THE UNDISPUTED POLYCULE?!?!??! THE POSSIBILITIES OH MY FUCKING LORD I CANT WAIT FOR DON!!!!!!!

Also I would very much love to see reDRagon vs Lucha Brothers TK if you could fan service me that, that would be greatly appreciated k? K love you!! 💕

Regal and Jericho face to face confrontation: EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP I GOT TO BREATHE THE SAME AIR AS HIS LORDSHIP WILLIAM REGAL LIFE IS COMPLETE I FEEL OKAY UNALIVING NOW *kidding of course 😶*

JON MOXLEY WAS IN THE SAME ROOM AS ME IM NEVER LETTING THAT GO 🥺🥺❤️❤️ also everyone who hates the wild thing theme fuck you that shit bangs!!!

When Eddie Santana and Ortiz popped up I legit forgot how to breathe my soul left my body and I know I was screaming but I wasn't coherent enough to actually hear myself screaming...

No Yoots cause he's in Japan for Best Of The Super Jr so 🥺 but 😆 I STILL GOT TO SEE MY BELOVED BLACKPOOL POLYCULE ❤️❤️

Fuck Chris Jericho that is all

WHAT chants for his lordship??!? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YALL?!?! This pissed me off tbh...

WHEN HE CALLED DANIEL GARCIA FLOWER I ALMOST DROPPED TO THE FUCKING FLOOR

TK should fan service me and book Bryan vs Eddie before DoN let them fight it out pls!!

BLACKPOOL POLYCULE VS JAS AT DoN GOD DAMN BITCH THAT IS GONNA BE A FUCKING TREAT!! Lowkey wanted the Stadium Stampede tho Mox baby that would've been legendary ok but I'm happy I'm getting the match either way soooo.. Yea..

Britt Baker vs Maki Itoh: We thought it would be Athena cause it was Houston... But I wasn't disappointed just sad cause I wanted my girl in aew. I adore the Joshi tho so Maki was a welcomed surprise for me!! Overall Maki and Britt had a great match!! Really interested in seeing what they're gonna do with Maki I've seen she's supposed to be in the states for a while!!

TONI TIME TONI TIME TONI TIME TONI TIME can confirm Toni Storm is just as gorgeous in person as she is on tv!!!

Schiavone ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Serena Deeb was talking her shit!!! When she called out Dustin AHHHHHHHHHHHH and slapped him TELL ME RIGHT NOW SHE WOULDN'T BE A PHENOMENAL ADDITION TO BCC SHE HAS A SLAPPING KINK LIKE THE WHOLE POLYCULE!!!!

THUNDER ROSA MY FUCKING BELOVED AEW WOMEN'S CHAMPION MI REINA LA MERA MERA MI CAMPEONA!!!!

Serena meet my ass outside for hurting Rosa 😤

No seriously Serena Deeb vs Thunder Rosa is gonna be a phenomenal ass match and I wouldn't mind them extending the feud after DoN!!!!

Also also also TK give me the mixed tag!! Rosa and Dustin vs Serena and partner of her choice GIVE IT TO ME NOOOOOOW ANTONY

Jeff Hardy vs Adam Cole: We had Adam winning due to Bucks interference... JEFFERY NERO HARDY I just about fainted seeing Jeff!! Hearing the Hardy Boyz song doing the lil dancey dance with Jeff *INCOHERENT SCREAMING* that was ASTRONOMICAL 1000/10 RECOMMEND. Adam attacking Jeff like the evil rat he is. Severe disappointment from both my brother and I when we didn't get Adam Cole's entrance... But Adam did fan service the crowd by doing baybay mid beating the shit out of Jeff xd so thank you rat babe ilysm ❤️❤️ !! Main event was too short for my liking 😩

BUCKS VS HARDYZ IS FUCKING COMING IM FROTHING AT THE FUCKING MOUTH IM SCREAMING DYING PASSING OUT SHITTING MYSELF TAKING A PUFF FROM MY INHALER

NICK JACKSON AND I BREATHED THE SAME AIR 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I GOT TO SEE MY BUCKY BOI'S OH MY GOD Y'ALL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I FELT I WAS SHAKING LITERALLY SHAKING AND HYPERVENTILATING CAUSE I WAS SEEING MATT AND NICK MY FAVORITE BITCHY BABYGIRLS 💖💖

And yes besties Matt Jackson's hair is just as pretty in person as it is on tv 💖 I love my milf Matty J 💖

My brother does not like the Bucks so we had entirely different reactions 😂 he got happy once Darby and Sting came out tho so good for him I guess... I was too busy foaming at the mouth over Matt and Nick to really notice his reaction.

Also Nick Jackson's hair is also prettier in person than it is on tv like seriously I need the number to the person who dyes his hair!! !!

I GOT TO SEE MATTS PHAT ASS IN THOSE WHITE SHORTS 🥵🥵🥵 I SUPPORT NICK JACKSON WEARING PINK THOSE ARE MY RIGHTS 🥵🥵🥵

RAMPAGE

WHEN THE LIGHTS TURNED OFF FOR THE HOB ENTRANCE I PASSED AWAY SAW THE OTHER SIDE AND RESURRECTED HOLY SHIT

House of Black entrance in person is such a fucking experience I want you all to experience that!!!

House of Black vs Fuego Del Sol, 10 and Evil Uno: OH MY FUCKING LORD BRODY KING SEES FUEGO AND GOES 'I need to obligate this twink' HOLY SHIT BRODY DEMOLISHES FUEGO EVERY SINGLE TIME. Uno and Brody was HOSS AS FUCK holy shit MALAKAI BEING FUCKING MALAKAI AND ON MY GOD I WANTED TO PASS OUT. Also happy birthday spooky dutch daddy I love you 🖤 !!! Respectfully Mr Buddy Matthews sir all I was looking at was your TIDDIES those are the nicest TIDDIES I've ever fucking seen WOOOOW. Also Buddy did the CERO MIEDO AND I LOST ALL SANITY. MALAKAI I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT US TO OBJECTIFY YOU BUT HOLY MOTHER OF FUCKING CHRIST WAS I SALIVATING!!! Malakai looks fucking delicious in person. Hard to focus on the match when HOB was walking around looking beautiful as fuck. No but really we both wanted HOB to pick up the win and god damn we're we so in awe of this match!! It was amazing!! This was 1000% my holy shit match I was completely mesmerized!!!

WAKE THE FUCK UP WE'RE GETTING DEATH TRIANGLE VS HOUSE OF BLACK AT DOUBLE OR NOTHING BABES OH MY GOOOOOOD LORD

THE TOMBSTONE WITH THE HOUSE OF BLACK AND DOUBLE OR NOTHING CHIP GLORIOUS

Penta is 😍😍 Rey Fenix is 💖💖 PAC is 🥵🥵🥵 and Alex was there... No I'm kidding I love Alex ❤️

Shawn Spears vs Big Damo: Gonna be honest besties did not know who the fuck this was at first but then it finally clicked and I was like OOOOH OK. Didn't really care for this match... I wanted to see Shawn get his ass beat for what he did to Wardlow! I really liked Shawn's post match promo about Wardlow being Superman and him being the Giant Killer. That steel cage match next week is gonna be so fucking sick can't wait to see it!!!

DESTINATION UNKNOWN RUBY RUBY RUBY RUBY SOHO 😱😱😱😱 My brother LOOOOOVES Ruby and was wearing her shirt so he was so incredibly happy to see her and y'all know Ruby is my girl!!

Kris Statlander vs Red Velvet: We were both pulling for Kris!! GALACTIC ICON KRIS STATLANDER MY BELOVED I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN BEATING RED VELVET'S ASS OK LOVE YOU 💕💕 such a good ass match... However the crowd pissed me off cause they were chanting dumb shit during the match and it was so incredibly annoying!! Really killed my vibe 🙄🙄🙄 so happy Kris advanced tho!!

RUBY RUBY RUBY SOHO COMING TO KRIS STATS RESCUE AND ANNA JAY COMING TO RUBY'S RESCUE AHHHHHH I LOVE WOMEN 🥰🥰🥰

TK I'mma need you to run Anna Jay vs Jade Cargill back please and thank you kind sir GIVE IT TO ME!!!

Men of the Year promo: Wow this was the first time they didn't make me physically fucking nauseous... But can we please fucking end this feud and let Scorp have a good reign as TNT champ?!?? Also Scorp and Kaz please give us an SCU reunion at the California show!!!

HOOKHAUSEN WORKOUT VIDEO WAS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING GOLDEN I WAS GIGGLING LIKE A CHILD THAT VIDEO WAS EVERYTHING TO ME!!!! Also Tony Nese disrespectfully sir my eyes were on your tiddies and your tiddies are 🤤🤤 HOOKHAUSEN RIGHTS ARE MY RIGHTS

ITS TIME FOR THE MAIN EVENT AHHHHHHHHHH

Blackpool Polycule want another son together ❤️❤️ Dante baby come join the fam!! Matt basically said Dante needs a loving and peaceful life not one full of violence. Bryan says he loves peace and violence and that their first son is thriving in the violent but loving atmosphere of the polycule sooooo.... Matt is invalid as fuck and he will steal Dante!!! 😡 Added that last part myself that didn't really happen but like it could... So!!

WILLIAM REGAL ON COMMENTARY AHHHHHHH

Bryan Danielson and Jon Moxley vs Matt Sydal and Dante Martin: This was my brothers match of the night and that's totally valid cause it was fucking phenomenal. DANTE IN BLACKPOOL POLYCULE WHEN??!? I was on the edge of my sit all fucking match!! Ok ok ok so where we were sitting I had the best view on Mox back and y'all all know I'm a slut for that man's back 🥵🥵 also heel Bryan is beloved and I would let him do sadistic things... These were my internal thoughts as I was trying not to be a fucking menace in front of my bro, but like I should've cause he was practically begging for Hookhausen all night ... Anyways back to the match!! Air Dante is my fave Dante 😱😱😱 MOX UNALIVED MATT HOLY FUCK!!! BRYAN AND MOX WANT THIS CHILD SO BAD THEY'RE BEATING THE SHIT OUT MATT FOR HIM. We knew BCC would win but damn did we think Dante had the win at some points. You could 100% see that Dante got Bryan's Respect and Bryan was basically drafting the adoption papers in his head!!

Hopefully we see a knew BCC member soon or maybe not idk but I would love to see Dante in BCC since we couldn't get Daniel Garcia cause Jericho wanted him 🙄 .

Post match brawl OH MY GOD REGAL WAS FUCKING SHIT UP YOU GO KING!!! I WAS TOTALLY REACTING NORMAL TO THAT DEFINITELY NOT SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT NOOO NEVER!! Eddie beloved he was fucking everyone up, my brother said and I quote "Eddie fights like he has actual real life beef with you" and that's so vaild cause he truly fights like his life depends on it. So much happened in this segment holy fuck it was exquisite!! 🤌🏻🤌🏻

Ok so Bryan's leg got stuck between the ramp and the ring during the brawl. Which TK needs to now abandon the whole ring and ramp connection cause they were trying to get him unstuck for like 10 minutes. Bryan looked like he was in a lot of pain and at first we thought it was part of the story, but Mox was pretty heated about it so... Once they finally got him unstuck, by pushing the ring away, Bryan got up and put his hands out to us to signal he was okay, which was relieving!!! He did limp away though and they continued the story as best as they could.... I don't know how much of this will be on tv since it was after the main event, so I wanted to fully recap it for y'all. I hope Bryan is okay and I'm sending him healing vibes ❤️❤️ !!

STUFF THAT HAPPENED BETWEEN SHOW BREAKS... KINDA IN ORDER... KINDA NOT...

Justin does not get enough credit for keeping the crowd into the show during the commercial breaks and show changes!!

This is my official I appreciate Justin Roberts statement cause I appreciate Justin Roberts!!! ❤️

Houston adored one of the I believe security or backstage people, his name was Bob ❤️ we love Bob and claimed him as ours! During breaks Justin had lots of fun with the crowd and Bob, Bob and his son Bob Jr also had a match... A best of 3 rock paper scissors match BOB WON AND IT WAS AWESOME!!

BOB CHANTS HOUSTON LOVES BOB ❤️

TK HAS BEEN SO ADORABLY AWKWARD AND I NEED HIM TO STOP BECAUSE I REFUSE TO FEEL THINGS FOR HIM I REFUSE I FUCKING REFUSE

The Lord and savior Antony Khan himself came out and was really cute and sweet nice and thanked us for being there. He also said he doesn't come out after every show but he had to cause we were being an awesome crowd 😂 TK babe we've seen the post show videos it's okay to admit you come out to thank the crowd!!! He said he loved the Houston energy and can't wait to be back again to deliver our great wrestling city more amazing wrestling!! Also went down a list of iconic wrestling matches that happened in Houston, that man is an actual wrestling sponge. I don't know how he remembers all of that shit but he does!!

King if you love us so much give us a PPV we proved tonight we would adore it, it was a packed crowd start to finish and the energy was electric TK... Love... Babe.... Antony... Give Houston a PPV soon... K that is all love you ❤️

THE ACCLAIMED AND THE ASS BOYS CAME OUT JUST BEFORE RAMPAGE STARTED

I've lived to see a Max Caster rap life is truly soooo fucking great byeeee I have a vid of his rap but my ugly ass voice is in the background 🙄

Austin and Colton mistaked us for Austin then Dallas and then Mr Ass himself Billy got it right also no Bowens which was 💔 but I've seen that his boyfriend confirmed that he had knee surgery so sending healing vibes and prayers to him!!! ❤️❤️

I adore the acclaimed and the Ass Boys ok ok ok

My brother was disappointed we didn't get to see Hookhausen and I was too... So when the Ass Boys came after Rampage to call out Danhausen for starting the Ass Boys stuff. WE FUCKING ACTED A WHOLE ASS FOOL FOR THIS STRAIGHT UP JUMPING UP AND DOWN SCREAMING FOR HOOKHAUSEN

They were ganging up on Danhausen CM PUNK CAME OUT AHHHHHHH THEN HOOOOOOOOK CAME OUT AHHHHHHHHHH they did their thing with the Ass Boys. Punk did GTS on Austin and Hook put Colton in Redrum which as they should cause no one hurts Danhausen and gets away with it!!! OH MY GOD CM PUNK EMPTIED OUT HIS WALLET FOR DANHAUSEN TO HAVE LOTS OF MONIES AND HOOK WANTED DANHAUSEN TO SHARE AND HE DID GIVE HOOK SOME OF HIS MONIES !!!!!!!! We lost our shit for that by the way like completely fucking lost our shit

FINAL THOUGHTS

And that was all babes overall 10000/10 experience holy fuck what a show start to finish god damn my ass was THRIVING the energy was IMMACULATE!! I truly can't wait for the next Houston show!! Also for this being my first ever wrestling show it was truly the greatest time ever and my brother had the best time. We talked all day about wrestling and like wow wow wow do we fucking ramble for hours! Also I do not have a voice after tonight. Wrestling social media is a toxic ass place, but actually being in the arena with wrestling fans is a special experience I promise you that babes!!! If aew is in your city 100% recommend you go!! Okkk I love y'all byeeee 💕💕 !!!