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alicornze7 · 2 months

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The pacing is a wee bit weird but this took 2 whole days so bear with me here

(oh God it's even cheesier than the first post)

The aftermath

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superzycielubizawiesc · 2 years

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what’s the point of living if you can’t feel anything?

#i should kms #i wanna kms #tw depressing thoughts #unalive #off myself #tw kms #time to kms #self h@rm #sad thoughts #sad quotes #i'm sad #mentalheathawareness #mental disorder #mentally ill #mental illness #mentally exhausted #i want to die #i wanna die

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steeviesvent · 1 year

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The scariest part of suicide for me isn’t dying, it’s everything that comes after I wake up.

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verip3p · 11 months

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Guys the urge is strong I’m gonna write Kafka smut if I don’t see any good ones

She’s just so hot

I did recently come across one but it was short and kinda boring

Anyway just admire her

she’s definitely a lesbian

#crying on the floor #i want to unalive myself #thirst #thirst post #kafka quotes #kafka honkai star rail #hsr smut

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glitter-alienz · 3 months

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Go, make as many suicide jokes as you want. I allow it and only my word matters👍🏾

#this post is /hj my word isnt always right but yea if u wanna joke abt it youre a free person 🙏🏿#i hate it when mfs tell to stop making suicide jokes like my brother this is how i cope what do you want from me #and the joke that promted this post was literslly not even about me killing myself it was about this dumb little moth that sat infront #of a car's tire and waited there until the car moved and squished it. then i said that bug killed itself #it wasnt even a joke really bro did commit unalive 🤷🏾‍♂️#then mf was like “stop joking about suicide its unhealthy” gurl i wanna be free just say YOU dont wanna hear it #and i will stop #anyways #wierd ramble lol #suicide tw #tw suicide #the dib speakz!!

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kylo-wrecked · 6 months

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spent the last three hours sleeping off sick. tomorrow my friend is dropping off her CAAAAAAAT 😃 who I get to look after for the next two WEEKS.

#ooc #/delete later #{ic stuff if I unsick myself}#{unalive is in the dictionary I can phrase things however I want}

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lucca-lucca · 5 months

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Hi! School has drained me ifbwbdkebb.

I barely have time to exist lol, but here are some drawings I made in class, I liked them :D

I'll go do my homework bye, bye.

#pokemon #pokemon sword and shield #pokemon shield #allister pokemon #bea pokemon #raihan pokemon #scorbunny #sobble #grookey #doodlings #pokemon swsh #i want to unalive myself haha

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r0tt3ncandyc0re · 2 years

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How can you call yourself a human after the things you did to me?

#trauma #trauma core #vent post #childhood memories #tw csa #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #tw child s3xual abus3 #tw csa implied #tw sa mention #tw sa #i was a child #how could you do this to me #you sick fuck #i hate you #i want to unalive myself #you disgust me

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mahvaladara · 8 months

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"You are my happyness..."

I don't deserve them. I caused them so much pain. I was so selfish and in my obsession caused them so much suffering. I was disillusioned, and I selfishly hurt them, because I was a coward, because I was a monster.

I don't deserve them.

And yet, they forgave me, they love me, they care for me.

"I know the true you, I have seen the true you. You're not the monster you see, or the selfish coward you loath. You're not the lonely and scared boy in the dark, or the hopeless and sad teenager in the rain nor the broken and suffering man covered in blood."

"You're a beautiful soul, broken into pieces and still holding together trying to ammend it's mistakes, take responsibility for them. I see, the bright and curious spirit trying to learn and grow with the world around them. And I see the kind and caring lover, who will always value everything above himself."

"I see my love. You are my happiness."

I don't deserve them. I am so much trouble. Frail sickly and so much trouble.

But I am selfish... So very selfish that I want to believe that.

I want to be their happiness, and I will do everything to make ammends, to make them happy, even sacrifice myself for it.

You are my life. All of it.

#spoilers in the tags #vulnarable tol with strong smol is my life #arlo #fannar #arlo has a hard time coping with his feelings of guilt and there isn't one day he doesn't feel crushing guilt for all the pain he caused #but he loves fannar deeply #so much he'd rather sacrifice himself to make fannar happy #even live when he doesn't want to to make fannar happy #even try to be better to make fannar happy #he doesn't care about himself #just fannar #it's a work in progress #arlo is very psychologically damaged that's why he says he's so much trouble #he knows his mental state isn't the best and that keeping him functional is a lot of work #so sometimes his will to make fannar happy conflicts with his belief that he's a burden who's just weighing fannar down #and that he doesn't deserve him #it's complicated #it's #i will live to make you happy #but alive i am such a burden that i should unalive myself

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venusimleder · 6 months

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Gonna spend Christmas with my absent dad side of the family just to receive backhanded compliments and see how behind in life I am.

#getting compared to my successful cousins made me want to unalive myself when I came back home #bs

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asteralien · 19 days

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look it took me a while to come round to astarion but there is something about the scene where he's just standing in the sun that kind of got me after i've spent the entirety of this spring, rain or shine, staring and reveling in the trees and the plants around me, like i haven't seen the color green in years because in a lot of ways i haven't, i had gone blind to my favorite color because it Didn't Matter, i hadn't realized how deep depression had been holding me under for years until march when the woods i've lived in since i was 8 have suddenly become brand new to me. and it's not like i'm dancing around joyously or anything, it's not made me some kind of positive upbeat optimism fairy, it's made me angry if i think about it too long, so i've just been trying not to think about it and just be, not try to be happy or optimistic or hopeful but just appreciative. and. idk. i think i kind of Get It. he's never going to be my very favorite but man. i would like to stand in the sun with him sometimes

#blah blah blah blah blah word vomit.#it's fine i just feel Incredibly Too Old to be making this kind of progress but also incredibly like a stupid baby too #the years i've lost to being so inanely unalive !!! staring out at a gray world wishing i would just Be Dead already #and now suddenly the trees are so green again and it makes me so fucking angry #that this was here the whole time but i couldn't reach it. it wasn't reaching me #i was scared of rain and scared of sun and scared of in between and it sucks so so so much #and everyone wants me to be HAPPY and NICE and SOFT about feeling better and i'm fucking. not.#i feel ~better~ but that just means i'm angry at what i lost and never had #i wanted to kill myself for almost a decade and now you want me to romanticize life because a cashier at the grocery store smiled at me???#and i get so frustrated trying to play with him on the team sometimes but also good fucking god. mood.#mkay i have to go crochet something before i kick a wall because my depression is better and that infuriates me #and i just want to kill things with a vampire worstie.#is that so wrong.#aster chat

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kingofdisrepute · 6 months

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|| ok but what if i... returned

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marshroom580 · 2 months

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i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him

#his stupid ass face and his stupid ass smirk and i want to punch him in the fucking jaw #all nathan summers can do is lie and that includes his clone #look am i developing an attachment to hope? yes yes i am #hope is my little baby girl now and if anything happens to her i will unalive everyone in the room and then myself

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gashface · 11 months

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While this might be a sombre post, I want to just take a moment to talk about something.

Today marks the day/ 5 years since I tried to unalive myself. Sometimes it's scary to think about and sometimes I still do get the tendencies. However, for the first time in a very long time, I can confidently say, I am happy to be alive.

The friends I have, the growth I have made makes it all worth it in the end. While I won't ever be mentally "well", it is nice to finally be thankful that I am breathing.

- Buddy

#cw sui mention #tw unalive mention #I wanted to kinda congratulate myself for getting to where I am mentally #there was other attempts but this one in particular I have too much memory of #but yeah #:)#you can ignore this post if you want #i'm just rambling

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dont-turn-off-the-light · 6 months

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Wow

#i want ro unalive myself an increasing amount and feel guilt for it so thats cool i guess #theres only so much losing everything and watching people live the life you wanted #chronic illness #using ghostface to cope #lol #i didn't wanna do this on the blog but im lonely and dont know what the fuck to do #im just not good enough

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dovessoiscanon · 1 year

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DOES SHE REALISE HOW BLOODY ATTRACTIVE SHE IS?!

THE SUIT

THE MAKEUP THE SMILE THE FUCKING HAIR

#god shes so pretty #when I first saw her a part of me wanted to unalive myself #but like she damn well knew what she was doing to the gay community #charlize with red hair is a whole vibe #dovey is one lucky woman

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