Ich bin total Schlaflos. Gestresst & unglücklich. Nachdenklich.. Du meintest vorhins "ich will, dass du jetzt aussteigst. Wenn wir jetzt reden wird das nicht gut enden, das kannst mir aber glauben."
Wie hab ich reagiert?
Bin ausgestiegen, verheult und fertig wegen den letzten Tagen. Ich bin ausgestiegen und hab AKZEPTIERT was du gesagt hast. War dann noch so doof und hab gewartet, und für was? Für SILENT TREATMENT. Aber ich bin emotional missbräuchlich? Nur dass dus weißt, wenn man aufgrund von totaler Überforderung nicht mehr weiter weiß, und deswegen nicht schreibt, hat das nichts mit 'silent treatment' zutun. Wann habe ich mich sonst emotional missbräuchlich verhalten? Und wie hast du bisher reagiert, wenn ich meinte "wenn wir beide so aufgebracht sind möchte ich nicht reden, das läuft nicht auf ein konstruktives Gespräch hinaus." - hast du bisher nie, nicht EINMAL akzeptiert.
Wenn ich daraufhin gehen wollte, hast du mich entweder NICHT gehen lassen, mit ner Matratze ins Zimmer gesperrt, bist mir hinterher gefahren bzw gefolgt und wolltest teilweise ein Gespräch ERZWINGEN. Wenn das nicht geklappt hat warst DU derjenige der direkt von einer "Trennung" geredet hat.
Bestes Beispiel, nachdem ich schon deine Wohnung verlassen hab, mitten in der Nacht, nachdem ich schon gedöst hatte und immer noch todmüde war, selbst da hast du nicht akzeptiert was ich gesagt hatte. Im Endeffekt hatte ich das Gleiche gesagt, wie du heute. Du bist mir mehrfach nachgefahren, hast zig mal angerufen, und meintest dann "Wenn du jetzt weiter gehst dann schmeißt du das mit uns alles weg." in Kombination mit "alles deine Schuld, dein Verhalten,..." und etwas in Richtung von "das mit uns hat sich erledigt, ich würde es ja so wollen."
Weißt du, du meintest zu mir ich würde langweilig werden... das kann ich nur zurückgeben, allerdings versuch ich mich normalerweise zu beherrschen und sowas nicht zu sagen. Ich weiß, dass Worte stark verletzen können, und ich möchte dir keine Schmerzen, Wunden, Verletzungen zuführen. Apropos in eben jener Nacht hatte ich zusätzlich noch nen schönen blauen Fleck am Oberarm von dir erhalten. Immerhin war der die Zeit als ich im Krankenhaus war immer bei mir, ganz nah an meinem Herz. Selbst die blauen Flecken im Gesicht, welche durch nen dreifachen Kieferbruch und ne Operation entstanden sind, waren nicht so hartnäckig wie der blaue Fleck durch deinen Handywurf.. das muss Liebe sein.
Merke selber wa?
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unfortunately going to have to make another post because things are getting bad again
i work as a gas station attendant and accommodations were made when i was hired so that i could sit down while working due to my fibromyalgia / chronic pain . recently a customer complained that i was being “lazy” so my manager decided that i can’t sit down anymore . i can do that , sure , but i won’t be able to move the next day . i tried explaining this to my manager but she said that the decision was final . and so i’ve had to call off a lot of days these last few weeks because of the extreme pain that i'm in . my manager told me that we have to meet this sunday and i’m pretty sure i’m going to get fired .
i live paycheck to paycheck and even then i’m constantly struggling to afford medication , food , gas , etc . i have no savings , so if i lose my job , i’m completely fucked . and honestly i’m just very tired of living like this , not knowing when my next meal is going to be or having to scrounge up every last cent i have for my insulin .
i hate asking for help so often but i really feel hopeless right now . i don’t have anyone to turn to IRL , otherwise i would . even a few dollars means so much to me , it’s literally the difference between me eating or having to fast for another day . i do art commissions if you’re interested , you can find all of my links below . please boost this and spread this post around . thank you so much for reading this
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Ah yes, the one guy I like vs the five other femme fatales
I did the thing that I saw one other mutual do!!! honestly, it was VERY hard to pick for most of these (save for Caine and Glamrock Chica) because I ADORE a LOT of characters. And doing this honestly makes me realize just how much I gravitate towards characters that are doomed by the narrative or their scriptwriters one way or another
My current favorite is Caine because it's pretty much self-explanatory, he is my current blorbo. My scrunkly. My precious lil scrunkler guy
Chica is my comfort character. She literally raised me alongside Freddy Fazbear when I was going through one of the toughest moments of my life, living with my abusive dad (and yes the chicken and the bear are so married to me and me only)
Master Tigress save me you were taken from me by the fourth film and I will NEVER live that down
Where do I even start with Six from Little Nightmares. By god, this poor yellow raincoat wearing child of mine. I both love and hate just how hopeless her story is. People say that the ending of the first game ends with her escaping via a boat, but I really don't think so. I think she's stuck at the Maw because I keep saying it, THE BOAT DROPPING THE GUESTS LEFT. THERE IS NO "OTHER BOAT". IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. (before this becomes a ramble, I'm gonna stop it right there.)
I'm VERY guilty of liking Lucy Wilde from Despicable me because I hate the franchise (the first film was good), but by god, IS SHE THE FUNNIEST SHIT. To me, she literally carries the films she's in, she inspired one of my main OCs' humor and even appearance. I don't care about Gru, or the villains, or the girls, just give me more Lucy.
GLAMROCK CHICA MY BELOVED I AM GOING DOWN ON MY KNEES RN PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MARRY ME I'M PUTTING ALL OF MY POINTS IN THE RIZZ STATS PLEASE JUST ONE CHANCE BABYGIRL OINE CHANCE GIVE ME ONE CHANCE (I am Glamrock Chica's #1 fan and I will always be angry at Scott for what he's doing to her and her variants)
sigh,,,, what I ever did to like such characters that I know will end up crushing my heart one way or another, I don't know but I do know that at the very least, I have the power to diverge from canon as an artist
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pov: you're katsuki bakugo's crush, & you're dense
pining! bakugo. short lil drabble. just good ol' fluff. no au. gn! reader. ooc! bakugo.
a/n: should i make a longer version of this?
everyone always caught katsuki looking at you, hanging around your general vicinity, or walking the same routes you do. your guys' classmates think it's cute the way he has a noticeable crush on you. they've teased him so much to the point that he doesn't even deny anything anymore.
"bakubro, you're staring at (y/n) again," kirishima would say as he shook the blonde.
"yeah, so? mind your damn business!"
uraraka would giggle, "you two would be the cutest couple!"
"i'm workin' on it! get off my back, woman!"
hell, even aizawa was in on it. he would pair the two of you together in all sorts of projects. he sat the two next to each other so you guys would be desk partners.
he was so transparent with his feelings that everyone knew how he felt about you, so what was stopping him? simple. it was you.
you were stopping him.
he doesn't know how you feel about him. doesn't he make it so painstakingly obvious that, when you simply look at him, his face flushes & his hands begin to spark. don't you notice how he hates people -absolutely despises everyone- yet he's always inching towards you when you're sitting next to him?
you must know how he feels about you, how he's madly obsessed with you.
but you don't. you're stupid, i guess.
when he "accidentally" buys an extra pack of your favorite snack, you figure he's just full. when he compliments your outfit, you just assume that he's into that type of fashion.
at some point, someone can only try so hard until they get desperate.
one time you had cookie crumbs on your cheek, so katsuki cupped your pretty little face in his hand & used him thumb to brush them away.
another time you nearly tripped over your shoelaces, & -without hesitation- katsuki bent down on one knee to tie your shoes.
katsuki doesn't know how much more obvious he can get. he kisses your hands, has his hand around your waist whenever he can, he goes on late night snack runs with you, for crying out loud! he has everyone tell you that he likes you, & your response is always the same: "i don't think so, i think he's just being nice."
what really makes him wanna tear out his hair is when you complain about how single you are. you're always ranting to him about how you're just a hopeless romantic. the entire time you're practically crying to him about how unlovable you are, he's thinking, "an idiot. i am in love with a goddamn idiot."
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Welp. The apartments I was looking at were snatched up before I even managed to tour them, so that fucking sucks. Honestly, at this point, my only options are to sign a new lease where I am and pay an absurd amount for my shitty studio with its broken sink and stove without a hood/fan... or move back in with my parents again. The good news is, if I do the latter, my father has agreed that since I’d be paying rent (much, much lower than I am now), we could have a “tenant, not family” agreement, wherein political conversations and such are outlawed lmao
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