#i'm still coping and tbh i think that's fair of me

[solaireverie]

somewhere in the english countryside christian horner is yelling at the red bull lawyers for not successfully signing his other son-in-law

[shrinkthisviolet]

❤💚💔

❤: Which character do you think is the most egregiously mischaracterized by the fandom?

Caitlin, I think, gets mischaracterized a fair bit. She is very sweet to her friends, but the fandom doesn’t often talk about her being brusque and blunt at times, especially while dealing with grief (for which, by the way, she has very cold (pardon the pun), sometimes destructive coping mechanisms—as shown in s8, but even before that, in s4…both times when she was desperate to get Frost back)

💚: What does everyone else get wrong about your favorite character?

Jesse is more of a reckless teenager than I think people realize. A good chunk of the fandom (mostly because of the show, tbh) acts like she’s always in the right and always making good decisions, but…this is not exactly true.

For one thing, her leaving Central with Zoom still on the loose. Her friction with Harry makes sense—he’s shielded her from how far he’s willing to go for her, and that’s a hard thing to come to terms with. And, as previously pointed out to me by @angst-is-love-angst-is-life, she’s safer somewhere that isn’t Central City with Zoom out and about. Which is fair. However, they’re on an entirely unfamiliar Earth, and Jesse just kinda went exploring as though there are not a million bad things that could happen to a teenage girl with no powers or fighting skills out on her own. She didn’t tell anyone, she only told Harry she was leaving and didn’t say where…like geez, girl, something bad could’ve happened to you and no one would’ve ever known!!

It would be one thing if she was going to someone she knew, who had powers, who was outside of Central. I could get behind that. But she was just wandering aimlessly! She got on a bus to a city she had no idea about, in which she knew no one, on an Earth she’d never been to!

Plus, when Harry did go after her to find her...in their first conversation, she directly compares him to Zoom. Nice, Jesse. I'm sure he appreciates that considering he spent months trying to save you from Zoom 💀

Also, as much as I love her besting Savitar…going after him alone was reckless, and I’ve always resented a little how everyone celebrates her punching HR as though he wasn’t just trying to keep her safe (like Cisco was!!). Savitar is a very experienced speedster who knocked Barry around like a ragdoll, and Jesse only beat him by fighting smarter, not harder (and with a little nudge from HR). It could’ve gone way worse. Wally was already in the Speed Force—they could've been down two speedsters instead of just one!

💔: If you had to remove one major character from the series, who would you choose?

Sorta feels like a similar question as “if you had to pick a major character to kill” 😅 though in the spirit of things, I’ll give a different answer than I gave for that one: Sherloque, who was by far the weakest of the Wells for me.

Sherloque was investigating Nora, but…they had Ralph, a PI, who was (to some degree) part of the Team by that point—the stakes would’ve been way higher if he was the one investigating her.

unpopular opinions ask game!

[elsfairy]

YOUTH ⋯ ♡ᵎ (Remember, this is just my interpretation of Sevika as a teenager. Nothing here is 100% true. I'm just making this up, okay? bare with me as I have nothing to go on. The only part that is true, as I've heard is about her dad. Thank you to everyone who helped me and gave me ideas, i would have lost it tbh)

✯ She's definitely that teen who is causing trouble for the sake of making trouble. Who hasn't been a troublemaker in their life?

✯ From a young age, she's had the 'look at me the wrong way & I'll beat you' look. That stone, cold stare that makes anyone tremble.

✯ A very big child when it came to all her favorite snacks. Especially muffins. She's a gushy being when she's got her chocolate chip muffins. Don't steal them from her though, she's breaking a hand.

✯ Has a small social circle. Just because she was able to do shit herself, she's only allowed a few people to be around her.

✯ Acts like those friends are annoying and piss her off, but would do anything to make sure they are protected. She cared. Even if she showed nothing.

✯ Ran her mouth, constantly.

✯ "Shut the fuck up, I don't care if you're over 50 years old, shut the fuck up already"

✯ Her relationship with her father isn't the best. It's all over the place so she doesn't really comment on it when someone asks. Not that they would dare. Whereas, her mother was completely different. She actually took time to be with her.

✯ Has been smoking for most of her teenage life. Mainly as a stress reliever. If she's not, then she's getting caught up in mischief to take her mind off what was called home.

✯ She's had her fair share of girlfriends. Some don't exactly stay longer than intended but she's had them nonetheless.

✯ "Sevika, this has been the 5th girl to leave your room in the past week"

✯ "What can I say? I'm irresistible"

✯ Her humor has always been so dry. For a long time, she doesn't really find anything amusing or funny. She was like a blank canvas. Not sure what she was doing.

✯ The Brothel was a place she always found herself whenever she was either angry or just flat-out bored. We don't question her life choices.

✯ "Going to the Brothel isn't going to fix what happened⎯"

✯ "We don't talk about her alright? You never bring her up. I for sure didn't give you the right to"

✯ If Sevika hated one thing, it would be the mere mention of her ex. She did not like thinking about it, let alone talking about it. It was her business and hers only.

✯ Growing up with brothers, gave her the advantage. She was able to work out with them whenever they would have the time. Just to have something she could protect herself with.

✯ Was always, somehow the class pet. That was when she attended, of course, half the time she was skipping whatever class she has. Still managed to keep up with her school work, not sure how.

✯ "Gonna get yourself into more shit if you keep it up, Sev"

✯ "Don't fuckin call me that. You left, you don't get to call me that anymore. You stopped being my sister years ago"

✯ She has always been let down by people who were supposed to care about her. Her first real love broke her heart for still unknown reasons. Her own father didn't really specify why he was always angry at her. Her own sister ran out on her. How was she supposed to trust anyone?

✯ Sevika was always sneaking around, leaving her home at weird times of the night. Either to fuck around with her friends, or get into random fights. Sadly, that was how she coped.

✯ But, if there was something she actually found comfort in, it would be to be on her own. Although she hated thinking about everything wrong in her life, she felt at ease when she was alone. She always felt alone as it was anyway.

✯ "You look really funny when your hair sticks out like that"

✯ "Ha ha, shut the fuck up. Leave my hair alone"

✯ She loved her.

✯ She would always wonder where her life went wrong when she was alone. Once, she felt happy. She actually felt like nothing could break her. Maybe she broke in the wrong ways. Sometimes, she just missed being able to tell the good from the bad.

✯ Getting into fights became a common thing for her. One day she would leave the house completely fine, then come home hours later covered in bruises and cuts. A part of her just did not care.

✯ Sad as it was, Sevika doesn't even remember the last time someone said they were proud of her. She got good grades... sometimes, but she would have wanted to hear it at least once again.

✯ She's definitely trying to start a fight with someone if they are getting too close to her or her friends. She didn't do well with new people, at all.

✯ A childish habit she had and still has, but she would always find herself randomly excited walking past the shops, especially the ones with the cakes in the window.

✯ Worked a shitty job at some crappy place just to be able to buy something she wanted. Or something she's had her eye on for a while. Money was alright, but it got her out the house.

✯ Would tense whenever someone would randomly walk behind her, or brush her shoulder as they tried to walk around her. She wasn't sure why she hated touch, she just did.

✯ Is constantly thinking of ways to leave or run away.

This is a mess... my fault guys <3. tbh, idk how to feel about this but if you like it, I can do another part. I missed a lot but, you would be here for hours reading.

[adamsrottingcorpse]

I just realized how bad the hate for Scott Tibbs was and tbh it's pissing me off. Yeah I get why you wouldn't like him, he's an ass, but so is Mark Hoffman who is like one of the most popular saw characters. And the main reason people hate him is because of his "lack of care" for Adam but that's only in the documentary, we have no idea how their relationship was off camera. I refuse to believe that you could know someone for 20 years and just not care at all about them going missing or in general. I firmly belive that he was coping and in denial about Adam so he gaslit himself into "not caring about him" he also obviously has some mental problems that need to be sorted out. I know some of this is purely based off of headcanon but just bare with me. I feel like Scott is one of those people that was raised in a house where he was told that his emotions made him weak so if he was making a documentary that he knew would be public (I'm assuming) then he's obviously not going to be all emotional in it. Not to mention his band members which because he's the "boss" he clearly wants to be seen higher than them so I doubt he would ever open up to them. Say the reason you don't like him isn't because of his "hate" towards Adam. Say you don't like him because he defends John kramer and obsesses over him. Well then at that point if any of your favorite characters just so happen to be Jigsaw Apprentices then you're a massive hypocrite 💀 yeah, maybe the Apprentices don't obsess over him as much but they still work for him and have defended them and or agreed with his philosophy at some point. If you don't like him for another reason, that being him being an asshole or him harassing random people on the street then fair enough I can't say I have anything to really defend that however I think Adams disappearance played a big part in his behavior in the Documentary. And I don't even wanna hear anyone bring up how he stabbed Adam with a rusty nail. THEY WERE 6. Again I understand if you don't like him, as a huge Scott Tibbs fan even I get annoyed by some of the things he's said but I still felt like I needed to write this because it's just been pissing me off how the majority of people that don't like him only don't like him because of how he acts towards Adam in the Documentary. Say that Scott was an asshole to Adam on and off camera though, even then there are loads of characters that are like that yet are still extremely popular. And as much as I love Adam, (he's my favorite character) the Fandom needs to stop making EVERYTHING about him. He's the main/only reason people don't like Scott or even Lawrence for that matter which he isn't relevant in this but still. Maybe you just think he's an idiot for putting himself in a trap and as a Scott fan I agree he was but I still love him anyway. This is a bit off topic but, I feel like when it comes to characters people don't like it's hard for them to see into the characters perspective at all because all they can think about is how much they hate them, or when people like a character so much they fail to see any flaws in them which pisses me off aswell. Even if you don't like Scott, can you at least see where I'm coming from when I say all of this? Or do you just hate him too much to care? Anyways I THINK that's all 🥰

[femmefatalevibe]

hi.

tw: abuse.

don’t hesitate to delete this. i understand the sensitivity of the topic.

so,

i’m still a minor and i’m sorry i didn’t know where i could get advice from. my dad and i had a fight because i jokingly told him he should quit smoking (i could remember telling him this statement since i was five but he never did) because he’s old and we are having financial difficulties. we can’t afford risking his health and his destructive habits won’t help. he got mad and thought i’m being a b*tch just because he didn’t gave my full allowance that week but he can buy a pack for his cigs (which is tbh partly the case of my frustration but most of all, piled up resentment why our family struggle because he coped through gambling and smoking but most of all was the fact that he keeps me in a situation of why must loving him had to be this hard)

now, in an asian household culture, they really held respect in eldest highest regard even if they don’t make any sense anymore (to me at the very least). it didn’t get better that i’ve always been strong-headed with my opinions, i will argue my point to bits to my parents as attempts to be the adults i needed them to be and they didn’t like my approach because i have the tendency to be blunt, i present the faults as instincts in hopes to figure the solution. they didn’t like that very much, maybe because of my unfiltered delivery as well. as a result, i’ve been told i’m too arrogant and a know-it-all, selfish and uncaring. i’m afraid that what if they are right? i value fairness and i believe respect should go both ways. he wanted to raise his hand and i dared him to hit me like he used to. all just to prove him that my outburst was beyond materialistic stuff such as my allowance he could barely provide. he couldn’t but he was screaming at my face, telling me to talk. telling me how ungrateful i was, telling me to speak up and i said no. i begged that we do it once he calm down. and i can’t do this any longer. i was drained. but he was shouting and telling me to speak up. even my mom back him up and how did I become so heartless.

i love my dad. he loves us in ways he knew best. i wanted to apologize but i don’t know what i should apologise for, not at least in the way he would like to. because i don’t think i’m wrong. i want to apologise, perhaps because i could have approach it better, i’ve tried. but should i even apologise? i would leave this house if i could. basically, how can i resolve the conflict if he thinks i’m attacking him? how can i say sorry when i don’t think i’m wrong. he won’t even apologise for what he did to me. i’m their daughter, not just their daughter. i’m a human first, and their kid second.

Hi love! I'm so incredibly sorry that you have to deal with this!! Please know that you deserve better and are dealing with people who do not have the capacity to support you in the ways you deserve.

"i’m their daughter, not just their daughter. i’m a human first, and their kid second." NEVER forget this!! You're absolutely correct.

I'm not a therapist by any means but have dealt with similar dynamics, so I'm linking a few resources below and a direct link to a great book on the topic, Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents:

Hope some of this resonates and that you can leave this unhealthy environment soon, surround yourself with loving individuals, and get a therapist to help you build the fulfilling life you deserve.

Sending love xx

[bouquet-of-clumsy-words]

@velvetxr0se tagged me to ramble about myself a bit, thank u v much!

When was the last time you cried? - I cried/teared up a little bit at work the otherday ngl lmao but hey, no one saw that.

Do you have kids? - I do not no

Do you use sarcasm a lot? - Absolutely. It is my main form of coping tbh, like, gotta laugh about all the bad stuff right? RIGHT?. I mean obviously there's a limit and y'know a time a place to NOT use sarcasm and sometimes people get a little bit concerned if i'm too sarcastic but yeah.

What sports do you play? - I do not sadly, I used to enjoyyy sports to an extent? but I mean I still do a lot of cycling and I'm kinda thankful because it's moderately keeping me healthy ish.

What’s the first thing you notice about people? -I guess my primitive caveman section of brain will notice boobs. <- lmao this is hilarious. Uhm, I guess without being obvious, their eyes? if they look up/down, are they confident do their eyes get big etc or wander off. Like whole face/body language I guess? I'd like to assume I have an okay understanding/reading people's faces but I'm also v expressive in my face.

What’s your eye color? - Green/grey ish? It's hard to define it as a one colour

Scary movies or happy endings? - Happy Endings? or like tbh I'm a sucker for crappy comedies and whatnot but also like, I watch a fair amount of films so I just like anything that sorta makes you FEEL emotions? Hence why I watched Interstellar and cry everytime.

Any special talents? - I don't think so. I mean I can speak French but it's defo rusty by now since it's been like.. 18 years since I lived there? (wow that's scary typing that out.)

Where were you born? - In Kent, Pembury Hospital on the 29th May

What are your hobbies? - Gaming, sad blogging, socialising uhh, spending time with cats? it's hard to define, idk I go through phases and stuff sometimes and the stuff i usually enjoy just doesn't bring me joy so I just stare at the ceiling.

Do you have pets? - I have 3 Kitties, Ravioli, Fudge and Shrimp

How tall are you? - 5'7''~ I kinda hate how short I am sometimes lmao but we move.

Favorite subject in school? - Uhm, I enjoyed Maths suprisingly and Science and Geography. idk it just sorta sucked we didn't.. learn much about geography as such and just about footpath erosion, like that kinda sapped the fun out of it I think.

Dream job? - Uhm, Ideally nothing. I guess something where I can make an impact and have some kind of satisfaction at the end of the day where it feels like I've actually accomplished something? Working in retail has quite literally killed me with how much shit is wrong with the current state of the world and how much we over produce/waste products. Like working in the warehouse and seeing £400 worth of meat just getting tossed out because someone forgot to put in the the fridge or THREE pallets of water going "Out of Date" because no one bothered to take them out is wild. And the worse part is the audacity of said company then asking people for donations for local charities and being like "do your part" when it's like bruh. (soz ranty) Thanks I'm gonna tag uhh @confetti-hearts @otherspark @hey-hermy @who-is-this-gatsby-anyhow @sleeping-jo @sleepyyphilia @chaoticevilcult @switchywitchie @musicandmasochism

[nerves-nebula]

tbh im glad i did find your account because i was kinda anti-incest/rape portrayed in media (mainly because of personal reasons) before i did. and your stuff made me change my mind about it so thanks for that.

how pleasant!

to be honest, when i started seeking out media that dealt with sexual assault and incest it was almost always through fandom stuff (specifically ao3 because they have the best sorting for that kind of thing) because I couldn't STAND the way it was treated in mainstream media. and a lot of ppl who write about incest have personal stake in it (cause otherwise ppl tend to feel too skeeved out haha like they don't wanna think about it which like. fair.)

like the amount of times i'd finish a fic and the author would say, like, "this is a vent/cope" or something was. a lot !!

the more i branched out though the more i found i adored indie stories & those little fanfiction novels that are like, 30 chapters long haha. I'm still not a fan of how sexual assault is handled in a lot of media tbh, but that's not to say it shouldn't exist and i almost never begrudge someone for trying (unless I think it's particularly offensive)

ok now i'm just rambling about my interests- POINT IS! thank you, i'm flattered!

[hinamie]

oh my god ok so i know im late I didn't talk about it because it happened during one of my Offline Eras but . but listen ok lisn the new former vandal album sent me THROUgh the FUCKINNG ROOF to be fair i knew it would like i joked about going upstairs to listen to it and cry when it dropped but i didn't think that every fucking song would hit me so hard in the kokoro it made me wail because I too have immense religious guilt ANYWAY im gonna rant incoherently and at length now hope u all missed me

ok first of all gotta shout out the fuckin album title i knew it was gonna be devastating when I saw it . fuckin. divine interference????? music for god's playthings indeed i eat that shit up i was like yoooooo hes also got a bone to pick with jesus go off bestie <333

so former vandal are artists visionaries kings so ofc tracklist is all mythology n religion-inspired (lazarus/goliath/ouroboros etc) and i think its so cool that theyre all in caps until u get to the end and the final song is denial and it's in lowercase and maybe its simple but i was like ART. ARTTTTTT. and it made me go back and look at the tracklist of their previous album and I realized that the whole thing was about vices and unhealthy coping with an overwhelming and forsaken existence but then the final song was Get Right (still my go-to comfort song to this day tbh tbh tbh) and it's like an acknowledgement that ok maybe none of this is the answer and something has to change anyway wrong album oops back 2 divine interference

i made a point of listening to the songs that hadnt been released as singles first so the first song i listened to was Lazarus and tbh probably my fav song on the album maybe tied with parables and maaaaybe even icarian. BUT LAZARUS SLAPS SOS SOSOOSO HARD god the theme of not knowing how to leave something behind even when it's bad for you,,, both criticizing but also mirroring the actual story of lazarus in the lyrics being like "wow kinda fucked up of god for resurrecting u without ur consent" but also acknowledging that he himself is guilty of holding onto the things that kill him.,,, GOD ITS SO FUCKING G GOOD I FDFGSADFGDG

salt also !!! BANGER not quite up there with the likes of lazarus but it gets bonus points because a. i lov the idea of starting to recognize that you're coming into yourself n an identity apart from your vices n traumas and b. for having two of the most RAW lines in the entire album imo which is reaaallly saying something: "now that everything's bright I guess I'm fine/but there's an art in the dark that took years to refine" and "the spark of divine intervention/that I'm still terrified I've left behind" (ALBUM TITLE DROP ALBUM TITLE DROP) god these two just dont miss and i love it but i am far too neurodivergent to contain myself they need to give me a break pls i am v i b r a t i n g

ok gonna move into the Chill(tm) tracks I think with goliath as well as shame/rotten I vibe more with the lyrics than the actual songs because i prefer my angsty alt pop to be Upbeat thank u very much but can i just say. the lyrics of these two songs ESPECIALLY SHAME/ROTTEN LIKE ok first of all i love the tonal shift halfway through that manages not to make them feel like completely different songs it's just jarring enough like there's been an acceptance of sorts,, like omg same i too am like 'god i feel like the scum of the earth might as well own it a bit',, "the fear of god/the need for blame" fuckin bullseye ow,, "I starve to feed the parts of me/far from who i oughta be/tell me are you proud of me yet?" FUCKIN BULLSEYE OWW

I know i just said i prefer my angst upbeat but crocodile tears (very upbeat very rock wuaw) is probably my least favourite track if i had to pick but it does have a lyrical BANGER of an opening verse ("holding the hand that's holding me under" g o d) i think i just don't dig the overall melody too much and find the ending a bit repetitive fr my tastes,, who knows though it took a while and many re-listens for ouroboros to grow on me maybe this'll b a similar story ,, but then again ouroboros had the advantage of echoing mine own mental health and self-destructive behaviours shdgj

ok so i was crying from the beginning right but the songs that made me ugly bawl were growing pains (very similar vibes to get right but in a "i know that i'm healing" way rather than a "i need to heal" way) and denial,, but starting w growing pains,, my god idk What they did with the mic/vocals after the bridge but it felt like the music was being injected directly into my ears secret direct path 2 my bloodstream god I hadnt felt chills like that in such a long time and idk just the whole Mood of the song having been hurting for so long and only now starting to recognize the damage you've done but also appreciate the progress youv made,,, i have so so many emotions but DENIAL (its funny saying it in caps bc its the only track in lowercase getit getit) oh my god ths going straight on the list of Songs That Make Me Think About My Relationship With My Dad but also Songs That Make Me Emo About All The People I've Grown Apart From and i think its so powerful to frame a personal transition away from faith as growing apart from an old friend and missing them despite any hard feelings holy shit though holy shit . the first listen by this point i had already been emotionally devastated by the Whole Album so i was like ok surely ill get a break by the last song lol nope sorry i ended up crying so hard i think i gave myself a headache

I think I must have yelled about the songs that they released as singles when they dropped individually but it's been so long that i forget what i said but honestly parables and icarian are still just as good as when i heard them for the first time (when parables dropped i spilled my tea on my fucking notes bc i was vibing too hard),, I love parables' msg of accepting the lessons ur (traumatic) past taught u and how it shaped u as a person even if u recognize that that person is someone hurt and in need of healing and maybe that has to happen alone! and i know for a fact i've gushed about icarian (still one of the most gojocore songs Ever imho dont fight me on this) but now looking at it in the context of the rest of the album i love that it's first cause it really frames the whole icarus thing of having flown too close to the sun or to god and getting burned and that pain essentially being the catalyst for the entire Journey tht the rest of the album outlines (obsessed w the fact that the next song is jaded like fr having these two songs one after the other is literally "fucked around/found out" gsfhjsh)

but all that being said not to b dramatic but this album destroyed me it rearranged something deep in my soul and i don't know who i was before it but i probably wont ever be the same :) i literally love these two so much im so appreciative of them its so rare to feel so Seen by a piece of media so to have an entire album hit so incredibly close to home for me and slap while doing so????? i feel so lucky . this entire album feels like taking the first step to address years of hurt and self destruction it feels like losing a friend it feels like finding yourself and i just . i love it so much

[buddieboos]

I'm rewatching bones for the nostalgia but I'm also subscribed to the castle buddie au fic by @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels (which, im so impressed with how you married the two stories while still making it its own thing) and im trying to figure out if a similar route would be possible so heres what I've got so far:

BONES / BUCK

older brother who vanished

Older sibling who they lost touch with at a young age but become close to once they return again later in life

neglected by parents

Visited lots of different places on a journey of self discovery

built a found family around themselves

extremely open about sexual history

Generally takes scenarios at face value

Knows a lot of cool facts and will share them at inopportune moments

afraid of being left behind

Cool nickname bc their given name is extremely boring

BOOTH / EDDIE

Catholic upbringing

Shares a son with a woman who separated from him

War vet

Unhealthy coping mechanism developed as response to war-related trauma (gambling / fight club)

Toxic masculinity upbringing (eddie has been way more successful at deconstructing this)

needs to take the first step in bringing romance into the relationship (this is a headcanon of mine to be fair)

Invoking the others given name in situations of high emotions

Knows how to read a room and will guide the other on when not to ramble or spout facts

OVERALL

They've got each others backs for real for real utter trust and connection

Including digging the other out of the ground like oh my god

Obvi Bobby is the director but WHAT IF athena is Camille and instead of being his replacement she becomes head of security

Hen as Angela who is most in tune with everyone's emotions. Dr by proxy through her wife the rocket scientist. Comedy potential if Karen is the person she married in a wack semi legal ceremony while drunk on her holidays. This could make for a v cool subplot where they need to divorce for whatever reason but that means she needs to find Karen first and then maybe the judge pulls a what happens in Vegas move (took me a while to realise i watched that film more for cameron diaz than ashton kutcher oh well) to force them to work it out and stay married. THINKING THOUGHTS

Chimney as Hodgins for the comedic relief and absolute conspiracy nut

Maddie as Russell I guess???? We'll need to take some license, she can just be maddie tbh

Ravi, Lucy, and jonah as the rotating interns

PS @clusterbuck thought this might be of interest to you as well

[districtunrest]

Let's talk about Annie Cresta.

What do you think of Annie as a character?

Do you think Annie volunteer or being reaped for her games?

What's about her condition after winning the games?

Headcanon post-Mockingjay?

Thank you 😊

@curiousnonny

I think she's very nebulous and it's no surprise that there's a broad spectrum of interpretations of her character. I go back and forth on whether she's written kinda poorly in that her presentation is too inconsistent to diagnose or it's just we get so little of her. and to be fair, Katniss isn't a psychiatrist and uses words like "shell shocked" to describe her own trauma. this is where I really appreciate fic that fleshes Annie out and ties her canon presentation together better.

it's very likely that Annie volunteered. no matter what the movies implied to the contrary, D4 is a Career district.

her condition stems from the breakdown she suffered in the arena, after she witnessed her district partner get decapitated. to me, that reads as someone who thought they were trained and prepared but couldn't cope when the time came (and who can blame her? it's impossible to know how we respond when we're traumatized and in shock until it happens).

another thing - her symptoms are probably aggravated by triggers/stress, which underlie all of the circumstances where Katniss encounters her: her Games, the Quell reaping, post-rescue from an imprisonment where she's found naked, recently widowed. like, yeah, she's probably not going to be 'at her best' mentally. I've also wondered if, being imprisoned, she's been off any meds or home remedies she might use at home, and so this is why she's still spacey around Katniss. or that's just how she is. either way, we know she thinks to ask people she trusts (Finnick) if the things she's seeing or hearing are real or not, and she’s not shown to be incapacitated at the vote. tbh, she comes across pretty level and in tune with her emotions/beliefs in that scene. so I like to think she's more functional than fandom gives her credit for. again, Katniss is not always the most astute when it comes to mental illness.

post-MJ headcanon: Annie raises her son and finishes teaching herself how to sail Finnick's boat (she's originally from a more inland part of the district, where the canneries are). unfortunately, I don’t think she and Mrs. Everdeen are near each other in D4 (it’s a big district). but in my post-MJ fic Something of Our Own, I'm eager for Annie to connect with Hazelle, as another widow who was left with a baby (and older children) to care for in her time of grief.

[donuts4evry1]

lets ramble abot my first jellyfish oc(s)

Since I'm not planning on making this idea into an actual game anymore, all lore is fair rambling game :)

Their full names are as follows:

Aurealis Aurita Vita (15) and Chrestos Chironex Vita (11)

they are brothers :)

I'll ramble under the cut, hehe

Aurealis Vita was born to Pleione Vita and Chryos Vita, two prominent figures in the noble society. He hails from a kingdom of human-marine animal hybrids, operating under a monarchy of crown jellyfish.

Aurealis themself was a hybrid with moon jellyfish (Aurelia labiata, to be exact) as well as his mother, while his father was a hybrid of a black sea nettle. As a sort of hybrid species, their hair acts like jellyfish tentacles. This fact will be important later.

Chryos was... not the best father, but his mother was loving and warm, so his early years were great.

Then came Chiro.

Aurealis was only 4 years old when Chiro was born and his mother died.

All the odds were against her with the birth. Coming from a long line of box jellyfish hybrids, there was a small chance that she could give birth to one.

Even then, newly born box jellyfish hybrids usually don't have venom potent enough to kill, but Chiro was different. His venom was unusually strong, and Pleione died in childbirth.

Everything changed then. Chryos upgraded from a not good father to an absolutely terrible father- often showing preferential treatment to Chiro and berating Aurealis for not meeting his standards. Sometimes verbally, other times physically. Sorry :(

Chiro himself was a precocious child, showing more interest in books than others. He quickly grew to be more smarter and competent than Aurealis, and stronger too. He often injured Aurealis on accident on account of his deadly hair, which would grow longer or shorter depending on his emotional state.

He still was not happy, however. He longed for affection and validation that didn't come from his father- which only came when he did something destructive.

The servants obviously feared him, and no matter how nice he was, he couldn't help but feel self conscious about their nervous demeanor around him.

Aurealis loathed Chiro, and she would bully him to make themselves feel better. He took the bullying- even internalizing it, because he felt as if his own existence were the cause of all the problems. Admist all that, he gained an interest in nematocytes, and spent much of his time studying them, and finding cures and uses for them.

Eventually, Aurealis had enough of life at home, and ran far, far away, to a whole other place full of different people and different... Everything, really. Leaving Chiro alone. Leaving everything they knew behind.

Honestly, their story came out of a desire for me to write something wholly dramatic and emotional, and I really liked it. I could develop it so much.

I latched onto Aurealis in particular, because her story involved heavy themes of self-hatred and the different ways to cope with it. They belittled others, they acted the opposite of the way they actually felt in a "fake it til you make it" sort of way (ie. ore-sama like). Of course, I give him a redemption arc, but they eventually have to deal with the fallout of their actions and I think that's great :).

Chiro, on the other hand, dealt a lot with gifted kid burnout and a different sort of self-hatred. He feels immense guilt for events that he had no control over, and seeks to fix them. He doesn't feel worthy if he doesn't have anything of worth to offer anyone, and his story is just. Incredibly sad.

Especially since terrible things could happen to him (I haven't decided yet tbh). Which I will ramble about in a different post. All I will say is that I named his theme is named "Lethe" for a narrative reason, hehe.

So anyways. They're the perfect comfort characters.

Recently I've been super into writing the brothers as adults (hence the florist Aurealis) and... Ugh. I've been missing them more and more lately, especially since I still need to write and design for Ite!

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B, L, R, and Y for the ask meme

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

I am too much of a stubborn asshole the only person who has ever changed my own mind about ships is me so uh. I don't know how to answer this. For platonic stuff I'm just a lot more open to that shit anyway so has my mind really ever been changed? idk. probably not.

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves. (Characters you’re neutral about are fair game, as are characters you merely dislike. Characters that you absolutely loathe with the fire of ten thousand suns are exempt, as there is no point in giving yourself an aneurysm over a character that you hate.)

I actually think that Sejima is a well written evil old man. I think it's clever how they set him up so that he sucks right out the gate, and you're predisposed to hate him, and the game is constructed so with every reveal he becomes more detestable, and yet, despite this, I find he's a very human detestable old man. Like he's selfish, and he wants power, and to preserve himself above all else, and cares little for anyone else, but he too is plagued by guilt about his own failings. He can't stand seeing some guy walk around in the body of his biggest failure so hard that he doubles down on being an asshole in Date's presence to cope because its easier than own up to shit, and he would sooner die than change, until the end. When there is nothing left for him to cling to, all he has are his mistakes to confront. That's why I really like the tiny detail in Nirvana Initiative where he is trying to be apart of Iris' life, because he knows she's his daughter, and he doesn't want to completely fail as a parent again, even if he's still like a miserable bastard man about it. It's good shit tbh.

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

If I'm going to stay on brand as an aitsf and specifically AINI oriented account, because if I don't pick a fandom for a question I could sit here for days, I love Date's long term friendship with Boss. I think it's really wholesome and funny, and I love how she's just so ride or die for her homeboy even when he doesn't remember a lot of their shared history. I like how she says she's going to take him home when she finds him and knows that it's him on sight. I like their banter. It means a lot to me.

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?

I have a weird investment in Yukimasa "Bestia" Fatamoru because of back when you were liveblogging the fuckin epilogue thing and we were both dying inside about whatever the fuck that story was and then we came up with new shit. I hope Yukimasa "Bestia" Fatamoru gives up on being batman one day. I have not and will likely never read Fata Morgana

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Your tags about JJ and her 'just be happy' energy - YES. Always found it so strange that she was given 'sister committed suicide' from the CM writers wheel of tragic backstories and yet still manages to have like no empathy for people who are actively suicidal. Correct me if i'm remembering wrong but the whole thing with her sister is it's supposed to be she loved her so much and still misses her and wears her necklace to remember her - but then people who feel like her sister did, who are depressed (or otherwise mentally ill w JJ lets be real) she's just like... 💕✨don't be sad✨💕 with no attempt at compassion or understanding.

((To be fair, I think a lot (read: most) is just that the CM writers don't write very well (the hottest of takes I know) but is it really too much to ask for the slightest bit of forethought? Narrative cohesion? Could just one of them have maybe written up character profiles (lol) so they didn't end up with a complete reinterpratation of every character every fourth episode? Sorry this got off topic))

never apologize to me for getting off topic aksjdhlskjd i dont think i ever answer anybody’s question i just talk ab random shit

yeah p much everything can be attributed to bad writingTM but for me at least its boring to just leave it at that, yk? i like to come up with some sort of explanation for the dumb shit to give them a cohesive story if nothing else. and tbh i think the lack of understanding jj has for mental illness/suicide has a lot to do with the way she grew up? we know her parents didn’t talk about her sister’s suicide at all. that combined w the traditional small town values of maintaining composure and ignoring/repressing anything that threatens the reputation of a respectable young lady etc combines w the crabs-in-a-bucket desperate clawing she went through to get out of the town leads to this weird mentality that determines worth on strength—or at least ability to hide weakness. she feels this need to prove herself—both to the team and to herself—because of this weird inferiority complex she has bc she’s ashamed to feel emotions akjhdflgas

idk if im just talking out of my ass with this one, but i feel like ive got evidence kajshdl like her whole misinterpretation of hotch? she has this image of him as an uncaring uncompromised authoritative agent whose strength is that he has no weaknesses. which obviously just.. isn’t the way that he is asjdhlakg . intentionally or not, she refuses to see through his coping mechanisms and takes his stoic mask at face value. she respects him not for who he really is but for her own twisted values that she projects onto him. which is why he can never get through to her that it’s okay to lose it, that she doesn’t have to be this rigid unfeeling robot all the time. it’s the complete opposite of how she’s seen the world her whole life. she just… doesn’t believe it

i think another example is in revelations when she asks emily how come none of this affects her. we as the audience (at least on a rewatch) know that it’s bc of her past and what she’s seen and what she’s done and what specific skillsets she’s honed over the years. emily obviously can’t say anything ab that ajksld and with hotch comin up behind her cornering her with his own prying “you’ve never blinked.” jj’s question is personal, but hotch is suspicious. emily’s so focused on deflecting hotch’s perceptive inquiring that she doesn’t really notice that her response “i guess i’m just better at compartmentalizing than most people,” cuts right to the heart of jj’s insecurities when she’s already at an emotional breaking point: she’s already got survivors guilt and hasn’t had anytime to come to terms with anything that’s happened these past couple days, and now she’s overwhelmed w the idea that maybe she really cant handle this job just bc she’s struggling. she demands garcia show her the video of a brutal murder in some sick way of proving herself

unlike hotch, this isnt just a standard she holds herself to. she judges others based on this as well. again, coming from that very small town vibe of criticizing everyone and scrutinizing every move… every mistake is like a strike against god akjsdhlajs she takes it seriously. not just for her, but for everyone. so i think it’s only natural that she’d apply this to everyone she interacts with. based on these standards, there are probably very few people she respects, which is why it’s so significant when she does. probably just hotch, emily, and morgan. blake eventually. tara also. but she thinks reid is weak. especially with the way he handles his experiences with his job, but bc she thinks her value judgment is the way the world just is, it aligns with the way others treat reid, too. like this is just another job qualification they make an exception for him bc of his intellect. same thing with garcia: her specialty makes her useful, even if she’s weak. she probably thinks of gideon and luke as soft, so even if she cares about them i doubt she respects them. and if she’s willing to think like this ab her loved ones, of course she’ll also apply it to the people they come across, even victims. they’re just.. weak. if they want to change that, just be strong! just break yourself down until you're able to handle it. until then.. you're just weak.

[asparagus-in-a-cup]

its MY F/O list and I kinda wanna set it on fire 🔥🔥🔥

I had to force myself to Not Care bc god forbid we do anything simple in this house.. 🙄

Anyways: sharing. uhh I'm not too familiar with the concept; I've been told that like. its not caring whether someone else shares the same f/o as you I think? I'm not too sure, but I'd like to say that I. dont really care that much.

Self shipping used to be a pretty big coping mechanism for me in my early teens but I kinda stopped doing it after awhile. Now that I dont really need it to cope, its more of an indulgence now.

That being said, I will proceed to be Full Cringe and Full Cringe Only now get out /j

be prepared bc this is probably going to be. Unorganized and I've anxiously been sitting on it for months and I just. Dont want to care about it atm. I might fix it later.

Also literally like. I have so many different relationships with every character my dude so uhh fair warning abt that. if that ever comes up :P im not like. labeling my relationships with these characters really bc. yeah.

Anyways,,!

Fuck You My Child Is Completely Fine

The OG F/Os and Senior Partners of Mar's Sanity :D

Creepypasta

- Jeff the Killer

- Lulu

- Eyeless Jack (he stole my kidney -_-)

- fuck which one was it that the fandom decided they literally ONLY ate cheesecake??? was that EJ or Toby... mighta been Masky... god, its been awhile

- Laughing Jack/Laughing Jill

- Ben Drowned

- I'm conflicted is Dark Link a Creepypasta??

- Hobo-Heart my beloved 😩

The Legend of Zelda

- Link (literally almost every variation,, and also Dark Link :P)

- Sheik

- Midna (what? she's a milf what do you expect)

- Impa (specifically skyward sword and hyrule heroes 👀)

- G-Ganon... 👉👈 (I could take em- oh he mean in a fight 😳)

- GIRAHIM NO I DO NOT TAKE CRITICISM

- I think those were pretty much my mains... I'm probably forgetting a few

By Talos This Can't Be Fucking Happening

The New Ones..

Security Breach/fnaf series :P

- MONTY MONTY MONTY!!!

- Glam!Freddy!! :DD he's dad-shaped ok

- Glam!Bonnie 👉👈

- Glam!Chica

- Roxy

- Vannessa

- Lowkey Vanny too tho ;-;

- GREGORY MY FERAL CHILD WHAT ARE YOU DOING

- Sun/Moon but not in a horni way like. I Need a Nap lol

- (and none for Foxy, bye)

- (the puppet really be getting me in my feelings tho fr 🥺)

- (also rip the fnaf ogs ig sorry i dont fuck animatronics stuffed with dead children k thx)

Carmen Sandiego (reboot)

- Carmen (duh, we stan in this household)

- GRAHAM

- Tigress, ugh 😩

- Paperstar dont tempt me

- whatever tf Shadowsan and Lady Dokuso got going on 👀

She-ra (reboot)

- Adora/She-ra (another icon, we stan)

- Catra

- Scorpia

- Entrapta maybe??

- Hordak

- Horde Prime

- I'm a villain-fucker what can I say :P

DRAGON AGE INQUISITION HNNNG

- Dorian 🥺🥺🥺

- Iron Bull 🥺🥺🥺

- SERA!!! (the skrunly 🥺)

- Varic. Love that bastard

- H-hawke??? My mans just? showed up in the Fade to come save our asses?? Very sexy of him tbh

- Josephine 🥺🥺🥺

- CASSANDRA HOLY SHIT *swoon* (my straight girl crush ToT)

- F-fenris... (I havent played his game series tho, i just think he's neat..)

- Solas you stinky stinky rotten egg man (I cant believe I wasted my first three playthroughs on you -_-)

- Blackwall (*stands here with a 'WELCOME HOME CHEATER LIAR' sign*)

- Cullen (not a bad romance route... the best part was the dogs. I wanted dogs but SOMEONE had to go fuck it all up -_- looking at you, Warden yes this was ages ago yes I'm still. Very salty)

hhhhh theres probably more I'm forgetting I'll probably update this intermittently or something :P

ha maybe i should revamp my old S/Is or something

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Here's my hot take on why SAO as an anime sucks, but has literally one, maybe two or three redeemable characters. First off, I'll start with my personal favorite, and huge comfort character.

Klein

AKA

Ryoutarou Tsuboi

Klein is a character that for the anime he resides in, is very well rounded and well written. In the first episode, he finds Kirito, and asks if he can help him out. When the main plot happens or whatever, Klein tells Kirito to go one ahead, because he has to go back and help his irl friends, but makes note of how he will come to help if Kirito calls. They make that bond and all this BS happens, Kirito watches his entire guild get murdered in front of him. But while Kirito is an edge lord for 90% of the first season, Klein does everything in his power to break down Kirito's walls. Klein ACTIVELY pushes against Kirito to try and offer him support when he knows how much he must be hurting. He knew that Kirito's mental health would suffer if he kept isolating himself, feeding into self destructive behavior and actions due to his survivors guilt. But at the same time, Klein doesn't push him TOO far. He respects his boundaries, and understands that some wounds heal with time. He offered his unwavering support and friendship, yet Kirito chose to rely on a girl that happens to be as emotionally constipated as him. To give Asuna and Kirito credit, they both learned to be vulnerable and trust others by breaking each other's walls. BUT THAT SENDS THE MESSAGE THAT ONLY A SIGNIFICANT OTHER WILL EVER UNDERSTAND YOU, AND TO LEAVE YOUR FRIENDS BEHIND WHEN THEY TRY TO SUPPORT YOU.

Klein stays by his simp friend to an unreasonable amount, possibly a homosexual amount, and they remain good friends after Kirito goes through the motions of his edgy sole survivor protag BS. Even in other games/seasons such as Alfheim Online and Gun Gale Online, Klein supports Kirito no matter what.

To sum everything up, Klein is a character that is meant to be an occasional comic relief and support for the edgy protagonist, but ends up being the most emotionally competent, realistic, and 3 dimensional person in the entire series. It's a shame we got to see so little of him and he'll always have a special place in my heart.

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Next up, someone I also thought deserved better/needs some more attention is a female character! Someone I believe shows and deals with trauma and healing in a serious light.

Sinon

AKA

Shino Asada

Sinon is a character that I haven't hyper fixated on as much as Klein, but I still have some words to say about her character. Sinon is a character that is immediately presented as a talented sniper, and someone who doesn't fuck around. She's strong willed, the most talented sniper in the game, and overall just a badass female protagonist. We follow her journey from GGO to real life, where she speaks about her trauma with guns, (she shot and killed a man at like 5 years old as he was robbing the bank) and how playing GGO makes her feel less afraid of them, even though she still can't touch one irl and is bullied relentlessly for it. Kirito initiates the process of recovery, by telling her to face her fears in real life. Encouraging her to stand up to the people harassing her, and prove to them and herself that she's more than her trauma.

In my opinion, this is a great message, albeit a little extreme, about how to overcome PTSD and cope with it so it doesn't control your life. Again, a little extreme, and I may need to rewatch and edit my post later. But regardless, I think Sinon is a good message about pushing forward, even if it feels like you can't. Of course, I have my fair share of criticism. Sinon, along with every other female character in the Sword Art Online series, is extremely objectified and sexualized for no good reason. Everyone depends on Kirito, the edgy protagonist, and loves him, even though he's a fucking asshole.

To finish my thought about Sinon before I go on a rant, she could have been written and handled so much better if they actually took the time to write three dimensional female characters, without having them rely on a male character, or only exist to motivate a male protagonist *cough cough Asuna cough cough*.

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My honest opinion, and the bottom line here is, if the creator didn't make this anime a self insert for virgin incels who want women to only be sex objects and rely on them (and also be good at games, but not as good as them) then this anime could have been an amazing concept if it was executed correctly. Instead of a harem anime, it could have been a beautifully told story about recovering from trauma, finding friends and allies in the darkest places, and even learning to be vulnerable around others. This could have literally been THE show for Tumblr kids, or anyone with mental illness tbh. Again, just my thoughts, tell me yours! I hate this anime so much, but I'm open to other opinions 😢

Thanks!!

[dingdongrumba]

I apologize in advance for this wall of text, I didn't mean for it to be this long...

So I'm replaying SDR2 (cuz I'm writing a fic and want to get a better sense for the characters/see things I've missed and I could reference) and one of the main things I'm focusing on is Hajime (bc kin moment,) or more specifically how he copes with things, and how many times he has laughed/cried in game.

As far as crying goes (and I'm currently on daily life of chapter 2 so I may be forgetting something,) the closest he goes to crying is in the fifth trial with that one sprite where he has a tear in his eye (and I think that sprite is shown in the sixth trial when the topic becomes Izuru.) Other than that I can't think of any instance where it has been mentioned by a character or by his narration that he's crying in any way shape or form.

This kinda makes sence when you consider that his main coping mechanism (when it comes to being faced with traumatic things, at least, because when faced with weird information from Monokuma he just outright denies it, which is understandable,) is totally shutting down. If my memory serves me right then upon discovering Mahiru's body he shuts down and only "regains control" once everyone else arrives to the scene. Now I could be wrong since when he discovers Ibuki's body he immediately goes to get someone (although there may have been a moment where he shuts down to a lesser extent and decides to get someone after he realizes that there won't be a body discovery announcement until more people see the body,) or that quick reaction might've been because of adrenaline since he was running around in a panic right before.

Finally, I only remember two instances of him laughing, (three if you count the Island Mode ending,) and all of them are just a very simple "haha", not an actual laugh, which I think is interesting. The first one is when in chapter 1 Nagito is revealed to have been picked to be the one cleaning the old building from the draw, upon Hajime reacts with that "haha" and saying Nagito isn't really that lucky. The second one is in the sixth trial where Junko forces everyone into an illusion, even when stuck in pretending everything is okay the laugh he lets out (at Impostor choosing to reveal his voice) isn't really all that long. The third one (Island Mode's Ending,) where things are actually happy his laugh still is just a simple "haha."

Again, sorry for this absolute fucking unit of an ask post, I just thought those things were interesting (because, as I said, kinnie moment.) I hope you didn't mind this unwanted and unasked for Hajime rant.

LMAO nah don't worry about the length! It's always good to go in depth into a character like this, tbh same about replaying sdr2 and paying more attention to something in specific sjfkdogjs that's what I did for my own fic as well

What I find most interesting about this is the way you say Hajime's coping mechanism is, to be fair, i think Makoto reacted to things much the same way, with the denial thing constantly going on, but in my opinion Hajime was written a bit more human about it? I don't know how to explain it but since Makoto was more of a "always good natured character that ended up being the ultimate hope role model" he kind of had to live up to that every time whereas Hajime is just,,,, just a regular dude, much less wholesome and much more flawed (at least when it comes down to the whole hope thing)

As for the exception of the Ibuki case i think what you're saying is interesting but to me that's just written like that for plot convenience fjdjgjdkgru otherwise you'd be implying that they put way more attention into the writing than they probably did lmao (you're still free to find meaning to it though, of course)