#i've been so fucking hungry

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

JADE: hey fuckass, its dirt time! 

KARKAT: …WHAT? 

JADE: i mean were underground 

JADE: probably couldve phrased that one better ill admit :/

[childoftherock]

based on a dream i had last night

[jmtorres]

in a variant of useless arguments that unfortunately i can't just use the block button on, i am reliving a wtfry from like five years ago because i'm trying to sort through my medical history and figure out if i have any further lurking disasters and i'm currently stuck on

me: i am trying to eat healthier so i want to add more fruits and vegetables to my diet

nutritionist: no don't eat more fruits! that's too much sugar! sugar is bad for you!

like really we're not talking about processed foods or added sugars, this person straight up told me there was too much sugar in raw, fresh fruit

[deeper-x-deeper]

I'm still willing to fill a drawing request for anyone who donates.

updated this with a lower goal and lowered expectations, at this point I just need food.

goal is $200, I don't understand how the starting amount on kofi works bc when I entered the dollars it took it as a percent and when I entered the percent it took it as dollars, but I'm including what I already got from my last post so by my calculations it should be at:

(edited 9am EST, thank you!! I love all of you so much and I hope to be more financially stable soon)

$110/$200

[katyspersonal]

@val-of-the-north when my brain shut down from simping for Midra too hard, to the point I can only babble something incomprehensible, am drooling, am incapable of sleeping tonight and even can't think about lore despite the fact that normally not even serious illnesses can stop me from loredigging:

[the-acid-pear]

It's actually really funny how it is bc despite being an insane person with weird kinks whenever I see someone with kinks I DON'T share I'm instantly thrown off by it. Which is comedic to me bc you'd expect the freak to inherently Understand other freaks but no unfortunately that's not how it works necessarily.

[dont-open-dead-inside-25]

they should sell pre-cut strawberries

[autistic-shaiapouf]

I will not stop talking about my meds. I got home yesterday with the intent to clean my guinea pig's cage and I actually did it. I washed and cut my hair after that and didn't feel like I wasted my evening. I need to make phone calls today and the dread of not knowing how long it's gonna take isn't hanging over me bc frankly it feels like time has slowed down. I'm actually cooking breakfast with what handful of groceries I have left and then I'm gonna buy more and actually plan a few meals. Life could be a dream

[crabussy]

I spent so long on that cockroach post that I haven't stretched or eaten or had any water in the last hour. but I'm totally not autistic I promise. not one autistic cell in my body <- spent 4 hours straight on another project yesterday that made me giddy with excitement and didnt eat or drink anything for those 4 hours either

[agueforts]

having a dog is so fun. what do you mean i can just make experimental sound effects at her for half an hour straight and that counts as bonding

[aftermathing]

.

[silverandebony]

oh hey trauma surrounding watching other people eat while you, if you're very lucky, get something approximately equivalent, but more realistically either get something significantly worse or have to provide your own unappetizing food. what's up, i didn't miss you

[space-mouse]

i have to get more ruthless about taking my lunchbreak on time. holy fuck.

[running-in-the-dark]

oh - when my nephew was here he also told me that my mother said medication doesn't have any effect on hunger.

hahaha that's so fucking funny, I'm gonna scream :)

(was just reminded of this because I feel like I'm starving. because of my new meds. when without them... I don't really feel hungry until many hours after I should have eaten.)

[kittlyns]

I had yet another long, strenuous day yesterday and didn't finish work until super late and then I couldn't fall asleep until well past 2am cuz I was in so much pain from standing literally all day

[feralglitch]

Louder Than Thunder by TDWP came back to me in a dream¹ and I just think it'd make a good backdrop against which to stage LL!Martyn's grief and subsequent caving in to the influence of the Watchers.

I imagine that the loss of Jimmy, Mumbo and the Southlands to Grian, would also throw him all the way back to Renchanting. His mind would be churning away at the happy endings that never were. The unfairness of it all!

Now there's no Jimmy, no Mumbo, no Red King and no Hand, and Martyn is owed better. He was forced to moved away but not without taking the frostbite with him. He built himself a new home, set it alight, and it offered him no comfort. If all it would take to see things back to proper place was to carve a prayer into the body of a brother —well. Would it really be such an unfair price to pay?

Unsheath your sword and have at him, soldier. Let the thunder roll.

¹ Dramatisation for commercial purposes.