#idk how I stumbled into this interest but it’s been my hyper fixation for the last couple of days

[hurkules]

Jason Todd in Love…

As Red Hood, he’s talkative, sarcastic, aggressive, and cocky. When he’s with you, he’s tender and gentle. He’s eerily quiet and strangely calm. Every whim is followed without protest, and he hangs on every word.

Jason’s always looking for ways to touch you and will constantly pull you into his lap where he’ll give you soft kisses on your shoulder and neck. He just likes to watch you exist: he watches quietly when you’re getting ready, attempting to cook, etc. He loves how you’ll trail your nails up his arm and across the top of his back as you pass him on the sofa.

He loves you because you ground him: You’re real, you’re here and you’ve never left. His world slows down with you and, when he’s getting in his head and slipping away, you snap him out of it. You stand up to him. You talk your shit and force him back to you. “Don’t do that. You’re trying to talk yourself out of this.” You grab his face, forcing him to look at you. “You want me, yes or no?”

“Yes.” He’ll answer softly. “Always.”

“Then you have me.” You push him away from you. “Don’t try and find a way to ruin it. I will kick your ass. Got me?” You stare at him, arms folded and waiting for an answer.

He’ll give a smile before answering. “Yeah, I got you.” He looks at you honey eyed and apologetic.

“Good.” You move into his arms and place a gentle kiss on his cheek. “Now, go sit in the kitchen. I made us breakfast.”

[logicallyblind]

hello and welcome to my list of Weirdly Specific Things I do because of my untreated &/or undiagnosed mental illnesses:

(disclaimer I have been diagnosed with generalised depression and anxiety disorder but I amn’t medicated and don’t go to therapy)

- have no internal drive to do anything at all despite,,, wanting to? like “i need to wash my face. it’s 11pm my face feels gross i need to wash it” *does nothing* “i want to wash my face i need to get up go wash it.” *still does nothing* “it’s 12am i WANT TO WASH MY FACE ITS BEEN AN HOUR I NEE-“ and i still can’t move to actually do it??

- random bursts of intense productivity that can/will fizzle out half way through the activity that i then abandon and move onto something else

- has a HORRIBLE memory and forgets things constantly including names, dates, directions, things i’ve literally just been told

- DIRECTIONS. I CAN’T DO DIRECTIONS ITS LIKE MY BRAIN HAS A MENTAL BLOCK AGAINST THEM I HAVE NO CONCEPT OF GEOGRAPHY OR HOW TO GET SOMEWHERE EVEN IF I HAVE BEEN THERE A MILLION TIMES ITS EMBARRASSING

- will forget the piece of information i was literally told 12 seconds ago but can recount a conversation i had with someone perfectly from 8 years ago

- can’t do things without music but then it’s like this music doesn’t fit, too loud, too fast, this doesn’t fit, BAD NOISE WRONG NOISE, this one is distracting me wrong, okay now this makes me want to tear my ears off- this is the perfect sound, no wait this one doesn’t fit anymore either fuck-

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- this happens all the time with music/tv/films like suddenly the sound is Too Much and i can’t handle it so i have to turn it off NOW even if it means abandoning a film half way through or most of the time just watching something with subtitles and no sound

- over talks/ rambles CONSTANTLY in conversations despite knowing that i’m doing it i can’t make myself Stop

- have clenched my jaw hard enough over the years that i have developed tmj and get lockjaw moments at the worst possible times

- flits through topics in conversation seemingly completely at random to other people with no connection to one another/ talks so fast that i start stumbling over my words and it takes a minute for my brain to catch up to my mouth

- will lose track of the conversation i’m currently having half way though and will trail off and zone out or go “...wait what were we saying?”

- ZONES OUT A L L THE TIME ESPECIALLY WHEN I SHOULDNT like when i’m cooking/driving/using knives etc etc

- jumps between being obsessed with a certain hobby for maybe a week before completely abandoning it and moving into the next one

- procrastinates watching a film/tv show for literal months but will watch tiktoks and youtube vídeos for hours

- opens tiktok *watches one* *goes out and goes into instagram* *scrolls for about 30 seconds* *goes back to tiktok* *goes to safari and reads paragraph of fanfic i was reading* *goes into tumblr and reads one post* *back to tiktok again* *remembers a post i saw on instagram 2 weeks ago and tries to refind it* *back to tumblr* and then rinse and repeat.

- jumps from obsession to obsession since i was a child like i don’t remember a time when i didn’t have a slight obsession with at least one type of media that i sold my soul and body to and learned every available scrap of information on it and fixated on it for anything between months to years at a time until my brain latches on to the next thing and then it’s just rewind to the start of the cycle again

- used to be able to inhale books and read like 1000 page books in a single sitting to now being unable to finish reading a single paragraph without losing track of what it’s saying/ losing interest and just giving up

- has to write everything down into lists to try to organise it in my head because everything gets all jumbled up/ messy or i get distracted when it’s just in my brain

- Cannot Do Math To Save My Life i can’t concentrate on the numbers long enough to solve the problem before my brain starts focusing on other things instead or the numbers just?? float away like when i try to do maths in my head it’s like the numbers are made of smoke and i’m trying to keep them in place with my hands and if my concentration slips for even a second they just disappear it’s infuriating

- bites fingernails/plays with hair/taps fingers/ plays with fingers/ twisting earrings or necklace literally for as long as i can remember

- gets weird mood swings where i will randomly go on these like ?? idek highs?? like i’ll get all jittery and hyper and feel like i can Do Anything And No One Can Stop Me LETS CUT ALL MY HAIR OFF AND SET THIS GARDEN ON FIRE RIGHT NOW to like really intense lows where i don’t want to do anything and all my emotions have been like sucked out of me and i’m just .. a person

- randomly has these realisation moments when i’m doing things where i’ll stop and be like “i...am a human being...who is...being alive and breathing right now??? i’m a real person??? i can do things and those things will have consequences?? what the fuck. what the Fuck. what is this..”

- lacking emotional responses? or maybe intelligence i’m not sure really. like i’m not sure if it’s just a repression thing or if i genuinely just don’t have an emotional response to certain things but i just?? don’t feel any different on an emotional level? idk man i’m not sure how explain this one in text

[scottspack]

Over a week ago @progmetallesbian created the “Top Ten Niche Interests” tag game and tagged me in it and ive been meaning to do it ever since!!! My lovely wife @got2ghost tagged me in it again today so it’s finally happening:

TOP TEN NICHE INTERESTS

As a preface, ive seen a lot of these from other people and you all have wonderful, very niche interests (ex: amy & chi) and it made me feel like a lame normie when i started thinking about my interests bc apparently im not into anything THAT niche, so these are the things that to me are personally niche and to everyone else are probably just normal things

1. TOTTENHAM HOTSPUR FC: there’s a long unimportant story to how my dad and i became spurs fans but the fact of the matter is that we’ve been following spurs soccer for three years now and it’s an interest i literally ONLY get to talk about with my dad because i have about two (2) friends who are interested in soccer and zero (0) of them watch the EPL. it’s hilarious to me that what is probably my personally most niche interest is the one that is shared by the vast majority of the world. such is the life of being a soccer fan in america :(

2. THE PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN TRILOGY: this is an old niche and another one that isnt that niche at all but one i feel compelled to include because when i tell you that i was obsessed with this trilogy in elementary school, obsessed is not nearly a strong enough word. i watched all three movies so often that i broke about 2 sets of dvds per movie. i know every possible piece of trivia about these movies. i had every piece of merch from claire’s and hot topic that it was possible to own. my friend and i read about 500 different books on pirates. we called orlando bloom “orly”. i could go on. potc was probably the only thing ive ever been legitimately “hyper-fixated” on and i will defend all three of those movies until i die!!!! if you’ve ever said “i liked the second two but i just couldnt follow the plot” please let me know and i will be happy to explain it to you in excruciating detail!

3. SOLO THRU-HIKE BLOG POSTS: this one i feel can actually count as niche! i fucking love reading blog posts from professional hikers who do crazy long solo thru-hikes. the lewis and clark trail, the appalachian trail, and the te araroa trail in new zealand are some of my favorite to read posts about, but ill read about any solo thru-hikes because i think its fucking bonkers and interesting and complex and inspiring and i hope to never ever do one in my entire life!

4. R/PARANORMAL: i have no reddit experience, i dont have an account, and i never want to actively engage in the reddit community. BUT. i fucking love ghosts and the paranormal so r/paranormal is a treasure trove for fun ghost stories and i read it pretty regularly! a lot of them are silly as youd expect but every now and then there are some really good ones that scare the shit out of me

5. HISTORICAL DRESS YOUTUBERS: it started with bernadette banner and once i had watched pretty much every single video she ever made, i started watching her friend’s channels, and then their friend’s channels. i have no interest in ever dressing historically, i dont really care about fashion, and i will never make my own clothes, but goddamn it if it isnt extremely fun and interesting to watch how passionate these ladies are about their specific niche time period of historical clothing! the talent! the history! its amazing! 

6. INSTAGRAM PINUP MODELS: i honestly cant remember how i stumbled into this world but there is an entire community of classic “pinup” models on instagram who have the most beautiful and creative looks ive ever seen and i now follow like 15 of them and am obsessed with watching them do their hair and makeup 

7. THE COUNT OF MONTE CRISTO (2002): this is the greatest film adaption of a book, the greatest period piece, and the greatest piece of cinema ever created by human kind. im not interested in debating, i just know that im right.

8. ENDLESS OCEAN: endless ocean was a game i owned on the wii as a preteen that i played for like a year and has been living in my head rent free ever since. you play as a scuba diver in the great barrier reef and all you do is go diving and catalog fish for your conservation team. thats it. that’s the entire game. and playing it was the happiest ive ever been in my life!

9. BANDS FC: there’s a guy on twitter who combines bands and soccer clubs to create new logos. ive been following him forever and its one of my favorite things on the internet!!! he puts a ton of time and research into his designs and they’re all so good. fun fact, he’s also a gay ally and once went to battle against british footie homophobes! a true king!

10. CHRISTIAN MYTHOLOGY: idk if it counts as niche if i blog about it on the regular but i have a deep deep love for the aesthetics, stories, and legacies of christianity. i grew up non-denominational christian but have always been (prepare for cringe) a spiritual person, so i have a huge appreciation for all religions! but obviously christianity is fairly ubiquitous in america and the only religion i have any claim to, so it’s a big interest of mine to explore christian mythology and the ways it’s shaped human history

im going to tag @wolfbuddy @eremji @curlytemple and @significationary if yall are interested!

[jack-the-bear]

Fandom History Meme

tenEmbrace your past and get to know your friends’ fandom origins!

Rules: Post gifs of your fandoms/ships starting with your most current hyper fixation and work backward. (Bonus points if you share any stories about how or when you got into that ship! But not necessary!!) Then tag anyone whose fandom history you’d like to learn about!

Thanks, @frankensteinsmomster for the tag! Let’s dive right in.

Top ship: Slowburn Brightwell. Fandom: Prodigal Son

How I got into this ship: I started watching Prodigal Son based off of @whumpslist​‘s list of whump (duh, lol), in the show. I noticed the chemistry right away, but what sold me was the night terror scene in episode 1. Dani, having just met Malcolm, realized he was dreaming when nobody else did and was there for him. Now, I don’t want romance right away, they’ve gotta work forit and be friends first, because they’re just so good as friends.

2nd Ship: Olicity. Fandom: Arrow

How I got into this ship: During the winter hiatus for Prodigal Son, I was looking for a whumpy new show to keep me occupied and stumbled across this gem. Granted, for a good couple of seasons the writing was absolute shit and I wound up hating Olicity simply because the writers were dumb and destroyed the characters. But towards the very end of the series we finally got to see what could have been for the whole run through, and it was beautiful. Watched for the whump, stayed for the whump, then got hooked on the romance, lol.

3rd Ship: Sarah Walker and Chuck Bartowski. Fandom: Chuck

How I got into this ship: This was the second ship I ever got into. My cousin introduced me to the show and I was hooked after the first few episodes. I was rooting for Chuck and Sarah all the way man. Granted, they sometimes acted like emotionally repressed teenagers instead of the adults they were, but hey.     DrAmA. But when they finally got together, the way they supported each other was just beautiful!

4th Ship: 10th Doctor and Rose Tyler. Fandom: Doctor Who

How I got into this ship: This was the first ship I ever got into and 12 year old me went INSANE thinking about them, haha. They’re so cute together. But now I find some of Rose’s actions super selfish to everyone around her, including the Doctor. She irritated me most of the time. But there are still some gem scenes in there, and I still back the ship.

5th Ship: Shawn Spencer and Juliet O’hara. Fandom: Psych

How I got into this ship: Found this show through Amazon’s recommended list, so I watched it. and GOSH this is a FUNNY show that can also do some serious episodes, which are equally as good. One moment you’re crying tears of sadness and the next moment you’re crying tears of laughter. But Juliet and Shawn are so great for each other. She really taught Shawn how to mature and actually act his age sometimes, haha. Idk they’re just super cute.

6th Ship: RebelCaptain: Fandom: Rogue One

How I got into this ship: Went to see the movie with a friend and what can I say? Two pretty people with tragic pasts = PERFECTION. I lilke them together, but have kinda phased out of fanfiction reading and such for this ship, lol.

Alright, that’s a wrap! Hopefully it was at least somewhat interesting. It was definitely fun to do!

I’m tagging @marvelmisha​, @fandoms-are-my-friends-1321​, @its-cals​, and @zoejoy24​