#idk i think i need a therapist

[szczek]

i have just accidentally found that i in fact did not delete my previous insta account but only archived posts and privated it…. idk yet how i feel about this

fun fact i left that account because i had 1200 followers which 90% came from picrew and didnt interact with my posts at all and it annoyed me very much so i moved

i’m still kinda sad tho that i actually deleted my first insta acc but let’s not get into that but this one i deleted cause i lost interest in pjo and most of my (700) following was made up of pjo stans which also bothered me

can you see how annoying i am

[mueritos]

a little strange to get dms from other trans people saying they agree with biden's dumb statemet that he doesnt want minors getting gender-affirming care. if you really think its such an epidemic that 13 year olds are getting their knockers blown off by surgeons every other day, then please point me in the direction of said 13 year olds that are somehow accessing gender-affirming care that literal trans adults can't even access.

like please be fr. we literally have privatized healthcare and insurance where not even people who go through the appropriate avenues can get approved for care they need to stay alive. what makes you think a trans minor is getting phallo or vaginalplasty. feel whatever you want about 13 year olds who want gender-affirming care, but dont parrot transphobic rhetoric that is based on no facts and a moral panic. they second they legitimize barriers to care for trans minors is the second they start finding ways to do the same for trans adults. dont be a buffoon.

[soultiio]

guilt

[holedyke]

having a hashtag bad one 👍

[blusthings]

[Religion trauma | Religion stigma | sexuality vent below]

I can't express what goes on in my head. When the world views my Religion as barbaric, backwards and uncivilised, i get so upset. And when my Religion views my identity wrong, i also get upset. I always think, what does that make me? I can't exist in two separate universes, but I can't leave either.

I truly question how I'll go forward like this. Islam is beautiful in its nature, but it keeps getting tainted by twisted thoughts of men in power, and I feel everyone thinks I'm oppressed or something.

I truly am not. I'm not brainwashed, I'm not in a cult or something. Islam is why I am the way I am, yknow? And in the same perspective, being queer is the reason I am the way I am, too.

But I feel like these days when you tell someone "I'm muslim" they kinda get their red flags going for them. And god forbid I tell any Muslim that I'm queer.

All I really want is peace of mind. To be comfortable in my own skin. And feel like I belong somewhere. With a community thats accepting and friendly. But I don't find it in either worlds, not entirely. But then again, you can't have everything can you?

I feel isolated from both communities. Somehow I float in between, and it all adds to the sense of loneliness.

[vibingforjudaism]

I need a therapist who I can argue with and who will give me jewish advice ....a rabbi. I need a rabbi

[girlpetrarca]

gang I'm not sure I have the courage to come out to my boxing coach

[autumnhobbit]

would you all think that continually rescheduling even up to the last minute before an appointment, regularly switching from call to texting even when i’ve said i find texting less helpful because it comes off more brusque, no consistent linear topic directing, constantly directing focus to my day to day life/relationship rather than anything else about me even if i express concern about the rest of it is reason to consider breaking up with a therapist

[flamboyant-king]

Howdy, I'm still alive. Not many drawings lately, but a lot of ling fun time. I just wanted to share my crafts hehe

My niece had fun playing with the ling plushies, I taught her about the goolings, and she drew Wiwi a couple times. I made her a Wiwi plushie and I'm gonna make a Lewling and a Hoardling too since she really wants her own. Makes me happy. That's what they're made for to make folks happy.

But sewing is so tedious 😵‍💫

[unstablemotions]

people: you need to get an official diagnosis from a psychiatrist!!!

psychiatrists: *misdiagnosed me with different things like +4 times and filled me with unnecessary medicine*

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

I think I'm gonna tell my therapist how I feel. Not in a "let's go out" way but in a laying it bare way.

[the-converse-high-top]

this is going to sound really fucked up but i just need to say it i think.

I never realized that people could actually care. I always thought that the depictions of friendship in movies and TV shows were over-the-top portrayals, and weren't things that actually happened. This was then exacerbated by the fact that my entire life I always wanted people to just Know How I Was Feeling like they do on TV and I found out that that's Not How It Works. I always thought I was naive for caring so much about my friends and for doing nice things for them out of the blue, and I always resented myself for resenting my parents for not doing more for me as a child.

So when I got to uni, and my friends started caring about me and asking if I was ok when I looked sad and doing nice things for me, I didn't know what to do with myself. It was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for me in a long time. When I was staying with a friend, and she said that she left the window open in the room I was going to be staying in because I liked it to be cold when i sleep, I bluescreened. I didn't know how to respond. It is quite literally one of the nicest things anyone had ever done for me. No one had ever paid that much attention to the things I liked. Every year on my birthday it was either a gamble if I would get something I actually wanted from my parents (spoiler alert: I was often disappointed) or I would just have to straight up tell them what I wanted. I got accustomed to the latter, and now I don't mind, but receiving two gifts from friends about languages this year made me realize that I could have it so much better.

And don't even get me started on online friends. I sort of thought that everyone was lying about them? Or that it was something unattainable, and reserved only for God's Chosen Favorites or something. But no, there are little people in my phone who care about me. They legitimately care about me as much as I care about them. I've been nervous to ask them about their well-being because I'm still nervous about being naive and getting a wake-up call that no one cares again, but after being told that they were worried about me when I overslept, I think i should know that I'm in the clear. And that's not even including all the times they tell me to go to bed when it's late, and when they ping me about things I may enjoy or things I was involved in.

All this is to say I guess that I'm touched that people remember my existence. It makes me feel good to be wanted. I will be eternally grateful to both my irl and online friends who made me realize that just because my parents or my friends from home didn't care enough to remember what I like or to go out of their way to do nice things for me, it doesn't mean that no one will. I need to step up and do more for you guys. I trained myself to push down my desire to help and check in with people because I thought I was betting on something that I'd never get in return, but now I know I can.

Thank you all, and I love you 💚

[pollen]

what if i became a dietician 0-0 what if became an lcsw 0-0 what if i became a personal trainer 0-0 what if i went to culinary school 0-0 what if i became a pilates instructor 0-0 what if i went to nursing school 0-0

[autistic-katara]

there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)

[cheekblush]

Ask Polly - 'I Hate Myself and I'm Miserable Every Day!'

[carrionsflower]