#idk what I'm doing when it comes to photo editing shit

[chaosclimber]

He spent the entire trip going over what little he’d been told, again and again. There had been an incident. Orpheus had been bullied. And another lad had (rightfully, the vicious, protective animal of his brain cried out!) punched the bully in question. He’d dealt with much the same mockery as a child–of course he had!

When two boys become fast friends, their fathers are tossed together by circumstances.

They stay together by choice.

Chapter 3 now up!

[jujutsubaby]

🍒 only fans boyfriend!toji headcanons 🍒

☆ pairing: toji fushiguro x afab!reader ☆ summary: blurb in which toji is your bf who helps you take your photos and videos for your onlyfans ☆ warnings: 18+ !! MINORS DNI !! dirty talking, nudes, sex work, penetrative sex, idk what else lol ☆ a/n: i'm having some serious toji brain rot send help

bf!toji who first thinks of the idea of you doing an only fans after taking his millionth video of him pounding into you. he won’t lie, initially it was because he was tight on some cash and didn’t wanna borrow from you again, but he was convinced you could be some insane OF celebrity. “i’m not sure about it, toji. i don’t want randos to see my face…” you surmise. “c’mon, we’ll cover your face, doll, if that’s what you’re worried about. i swear, we could be raking in thousands from this.” the prospect of coming across a large amount of money like that was enticing…

bf!toji who suggests that you start out simple. “maybe just a shot of you wearing somethin’ cute for the camera, i dunno.” after work one day, you both go to a lingerie store and pick out a sheer pink babydoll slip on, with silky bows on the shoulders. at home, you fish out an old mid 2000s digital camera from the garage and present it to toji. “you’re gonna be my sexy photographer, right?” you tease, as you change into the babydoll slip dress. 

bf!toji who totally sucks at taking photos at first, but is a quick learner as he learns all your best angles and poses. turns out when money is on the line, he’s a hard worker after all. pictures of you sluttily sticking out your tongue, and the dress straps falling off your shoulders send toji into a frenzy, and you both take a quick sex break before going back to taking the photos.

bf!toji doesn’t know how to edit photos for shit so you use the minimal photoshop you know to spruce up your makeshift boudoir shoot. not to toot your own horn, but you kinda ate those pics up, and toji can’t get enough of it. at work, he’s partially distracted, fighting off enemies with half a brain as the other half is trying not to get turned on (one time, he did get turned on while fighting and it was awkward to say the least. the guy’s dead now so toji doesn’t really care). 

bf!toji who creates the OF account for you because you’re feeling too shy to do so. the interface is confusing for both of you at first, but you guys get the hang of it pretty easily. you post the boudoir photoshoot and immediately close the laptop because you’re terrified of it flopping. “the damage of no one subscribing to me, toji, i would die,” you say earnestly, feeling nauseous. “if no one subscribes to you, i’ll fuck the memory out of you, don’t worry,” he says nonchalantly as he picks a random show on netflix to watch. he’s not bothered by this even one bit and you think it’s because he doesn’t care but really, it’s because he’s that confident.

bf!toji who wakes up before you the next morning for work and quickly checks to see if your photos gained any traction. “holy shit, doll, wake up!” he practically pushes you off the bed as he shakes you and you groggily wake up, irked at the intrusion of your slumber. “toji, i swear to god i’ll kill y-” “you just got 300 subscribers overnight, shut up.” he says, cutting you off and meeting your lips with a tender kiss. you quickly pull back, eyes widening at the news. 

bf!toji who reassures you that you’re only gonna blow up more, and that’s why you need to post more photos and videos. it starts off small: simple photoshoots and more slutty lingerie. you arch your back as toji gets an ass shot with your camera. he slaps it hard, leaving a red handprint mark and snaps a couple more photos. 

bf!toji who encourages you to start doing videos after reaching over 1k subscribers. you do a little strip tease/dance while toji films, but the first time you do it, toji folds almost immediately and has you pinned under him. you try again the next day, and graduate to longer more explicit videos – fingering yourself, using toys, and live streaming. toji buys you a couple cute masquerade masks to use, too. 

bf!toji who loves it when you get donations during streams. he ends up creating an amazon wishlist for you of things you guys could really use around the house. he can’t remember the last time he bought you lingerie anymore because your donations would usually cover that cost. that being said, he always chooses lingerie for you. he knows exactly what other horny guys are looking for on girls. “doll, i know crotchless panties are awful but i know the male gaze – they don’t give a fuck. look, okay, i’ll buy you that one piece too, don’t give me that look.” he says to you as you throw in a bunch of lingerie of your liking in the cart. 

bf!toji who finally decides to join you in front of the camera, giving your fans what they wanted. the way he sees it, he fucks you senseless for free every night anyway, might as well get paid for it. toji makes a show to tear your nice lingerie off you and leaves visible marks in your skin from his touch as he pounds into you or bites your neck. 

bf!toji who joins you on your livestreams, and they usually end with you bent over a desk, skirt hiked up, and his arousal deep inside you. “you guys think she deserves to cum?” he asks the chat, feeling you clench against him. he knows you're close, and it turns you on knowing it’s out of your control on whether or not you get to feel a release. your fans love your pornographic and lewd moans, but with toji fucking you, you don’t even have to act for them to come out of your mouth naturally. speaking of your mouth, toji especially loves when you have a masquerade mask on while he makes your little throat gag. you love it when he tests your gag reflex on camera in front of an audience, and everyone can tell when they see you soaked through your panties.

bf!toji who surprises you by taking you on a lavish vacation to bora bora when you reach over 10k subscribers. “we built this shit together,” he says, talking about your OF fame and money. you can’t remember the last time you guys worried about paying rent, and he wanted to do something special for his slutty little doll. he got one of those seaside huts surrounded by a private deck. your breath is taken away by the surprise, and toji wastes no time getting all your clothes off and getting you into the water. the makeout session turns into him fingering you underwater as he pushes your bikini to the side. after coming all over his fingers, you give him a handjob under the water, and toji has to quickly climb out of the pool so he doesn’t cum inside it and has to request a clean up on the very first day. 

bf!toji who fucks you more times than you can count in the water, on the bed, in the infinity pool, that one time super discretely under the blanket in the beach. you bring up the idea of filming a little here and there on vacation. “what? the grind never stops,” you say jokingly as you set up the camera on the tripod in front of the bed. he surprises you by using some silk ribbons to tie your hands back while he licks and kisses every inch of your body, focusing especially on your sensitive nipples erect for the camera. he blindfolds you, hands still tied back while he eats you out. the electrifying sensations are amplified in the darkness of the blindfold, and you make an absolute mess on the sheets and his mouth. 

bf!toji who uses the last night of your trip there to convince you to film one more video, this time on the private infinity pool outside your hut. you come out with a black strappy bikini with a sheer babydoll cover up. “don’t take off your clothes just yet, doll. just come in the water.” he commands, and you slowly get into the water. his silhouette looks ethereal in the golden hour of the sunset as you approach him. he cradles your jaw and kisses you deeply and passionately.  

bf!toji pulls away from you and guides you to the edge of the pool that stares out to the pink sunset and the turquoise ocean. “what? gonna fuck me while looking at the sunset like a stupid romantic?” you jeer, poking his chest. he chuckles nervously. “eventually…”

bf!toji who pulls a small black box from behind him and opens it to reveal a big shiny diamond ring. tears start freely falling down your cheeks and you don’t even hear what toji is saying (you feel a little bad – he must’ve prepped this speech for a while but you were far too emotional to process anything). all you do is nod your head vigorously as he gently puts the ring on finger. a perfect fit. and it glistens just perfectly in the dimming sun.

fiance!toji who then fucks you into the sunset like a stupid romantic.

[spoopdeedoop]

hi i have some disorganized thoughts/hcs abt the found family human doctor au

(one of the thoughts being i should really give it a better name. another being YES this is only the nuwho doctors atm bc that's the only series i've watched so far apologies. if i ever get around to watching classic who i will add them trust)

BEHOLD my random, not at all in-depth headcanons

nine is the only one with a car out of all of them. they all keep bugging him to drive/pick them up from places -- he has mixed feelings about being the assigned taxi driver

both twelve and eleven are teachers -- college professor and preschool teacher respectively. twelve's students love them because he will say the most stupid, hilarious shit with a straight face without even knowing and eleven's students love him because he is the only teacher at the school that will dance with them during musical chairs (he doesn't even play the game. he just dances)

i want to make one of them an actual doctor but i don't think any of them could handle it unfortunately

they all share an an apartment flat on the same level -- nine, twelve and fifteen live in one room, ten, eleven and thirteen live in the one across from them. of course there are other people in the building too but they're all used to the strange loud hyperactivity of that particular flat. i think i'm using the right terminology here. yall know what im talking about

(i'm so tempted to make some companions be their neighbors)

nine and ten are the most insomniac of all of them, so they're used to bumping each other in the dead of night on their way to raid each other's respective fridges or something. very rarely thirteen will join them and they're like "WELL FANCY SEEING YOU HERE"

twelve does sleep, but like. he's nocturnal

eleven and ten hate each other in a sibling kind of way (see: day of the doctor). they are constantly sending each other death threats or tripping each other over. everyone is sick of it

sometimes when they're out shopping you'll hear ten yell "GET OUT OF THE FROZEN FOOD YOU NUMPTY WE ARE NOT BUYING FISH FINGERS" over the aisles and you'll hear eleven whine "WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH" back

(if you're lucky you'll be able to catch fifteen mumble "why did we put them in the same apartment. are we asking for an eviction notice")

eventually eleven will pick a random stray cat off the side of the road, take her home, and name her bowtie, which is a stupid name, so everyone just defaults to calling her kitty

kitty's favourite person is twelve, to eleven's absolute despair

(my original idea for this was to initially have ten hate the idea of living with a cat, since he's stated full on in the show that he doesn't like cats, but apparently there is some very obscure doctor who comic run in which he falls into a depressive spiral and adopts a cat whom he names rose-the-cat, so he might actually like cats idk?)

anyway ten hates her until he doesn't lmao. he vents to her when there's no one else home and she will Stare at him back and it is a very nice friendship

kitty and nine watch shitty romcom together

they have a joint groupchat together -- half of it is just thirteen and fifteen assigning everyone outfits they find on pinterest and the other half is eleven asking where everyone went (he keeps getting lost when they go out)

nine doesn't know how to download pictures off the internet and so resorts to manually editing memes together to send to the groupchat and everyone's like "girl that's so much more effort........."

(yes he doesn't know how to press save image to camera roll but he knows how to use a photo editor flawlessly. such is the logic of the idiocy of the doctors)

eleven and thirteen get along very well i think. they're the only two of the group to play video games and so they bond over that. they also have ridiculously similar clothing taste

sometimes they'll succeed in getting fifteen to play pokemon with them and then they'll proceed to not see him until the next day when he comes out of his room and goes "you didn't tell me plusle couldn't evolve i've been levelling it up all fucking night"

friday is assigned movie night (it's always big hero 6)

eleven is the only one to actively seek out physical affection, usually really abruptly like clinging to thirteen's back as she passes him in the hall or bapping ten with the palm of his hand until he sighs and gives him a hug. he does expect a platonic kiss on the forehead from anyone before he goes to bed and will complain if he doesn't get one

anyway thats it i'm sick in the head and really sad. if this keeps up i may be forced to actually write a fic

[wjhik]

Buzzkill (Trent Alexander-Arnold)

A/N: Warnings: unnecessarily angry Y/N (ur a bitch) Y/N's POV:

It was media day. I was dreading this day. The boys, however, loved it. They loved spending time with each other, but the blood, sweat, and tears they had to put into training everyday made it slightly miserable for them. Media day was a day for them to spend time together. They get to goof off together all day. The only work they would be doing for the entirety of the day would be posing for pictures.

On the other hand, for me, media day was a nightmare. As the media manager of Liverpool FC, this day was MY day. Everything I say goes. With that comes a lot of work. From approving outfits to keeping the boys from flipping off the camera, out of my 9 months in total of working a year(idk if that is normal i dont work), media days are most important. Trent insists on torturing me on this day alone. He is normally a very calm being, but on this day, he's the devil in disguise.

I'm sitting at my table that is set up right behind the set where Cody and Virgil are posing for their photos. I ignore the lights flashing in my peripheral vision and continue flicking through the hundreds of photos, trying to narrow it down to the best 10. "Y/N, I just wanted to run these by you." Maggie comes up to me with her camera and scrolls through countless photos. "You have to up the exposure. They're too dark. " I reply to her. She goes back to Virgil and Cody and tells them they're done for the day. They walk off set and back into the gaming room with the rest of the boys. I stand up to get the next group of guys.

I walk into the gaming room. All I can hear is curses and screaming. A very intense game of fifa is going on along with a game of chess. "Trent, your turn. Come on." I say looking up from my clipboard and around the room, looking for the man I'm talking to. He looks up from his chess game and locks eyes with me. Hearts floating in his eyes, he says, "Hmm? What did you say?" "Get up, Trent. I don't have time." I say, bitterly. He stands up, noticing my frustrated state, and starts walking with me towards the set. "What's got you in a twist?" He asks me, his hand moving up my back to comfort me. "Nothing. Hey, stop it!" I snap at him, typing away on my phone. I don't hear a cheeky remark, so I decide to look up at Trent. He's looking at me with puppy eyes, genuinely hurt. "Hey, I'm sorry. I'm just really stressed out. I'm loosing my mind here, Trent." I sigh. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you. You didn't deserve that." He stays quiet, but the way his eyes soften tells me he forgives me.

I'm back to my computer and Trent is laughing away, taking photos with the boss. "Is everyone done?" Trent asks Maggie. "Yeah, we're all done." Maggie replies. "Can we mess around a bit?" Trent asks me for my approval. "Yeah, whatever. But, Maggie, give me the SD card." I say, shooing Trent away. Maggie gives me the SD card and I put it into my computer, finally having most of the photos. The only ones we need now are the group photos, then this nightmare of a day will be over.

"Baby, get in here!" Trent yells across the room to me. Him, Jurgen, and Virgil are giggling like school girls, taking silly photos. Trent knows I don't like it when he calls me that at work. I get enough shit for being appointed as manager straight out of college and coincidentally being Trent Alexander-Arnold's girlfriend. I don't need to be accused of being unprofessional now, too.

I can feel my ears steaming and my face turning red. I simply ignore him to try to keep calm. I already snapped at him for being concerned about me, I don't need to do it again. "Y/N!! C'mon!!" Trent yells. "Don't be a buzzkill!" One of the boys says. Those words ring through my ears. Me? A buzzkill? I could've been out of here, editing the photos in peace. Having a nice cup of tea and cuddling with my boyfriend. Not with Mr. Trent Alexander-Arnold, legendary Liverpool player that doesn't have time to spend his breaks with his girlfriend. I could be at home with Trentski. The one that needs comfort and cuddles onto me like a koala, not the one that won't bat an eyelid at me because his friends are around.

But, no. I'm here. Because I let these boys mess around and have some fun. But, I'm a buzzkill? I stand up from my seat and the chair nearly flips backward. The giggles and chatter instantly stop. "All of you. Back in the room, now." Pointing at the boys, leaving Jurgen out. (jurgen disrespect will not be tolerated here) "Y/N, listen. We were just messing aroun-" Trent tries to keep me from blowing up. He can sense how angry I am. "Now." I interrupt him, coldly. "But baby I-" "GO." I raise my voice, slightly. Not enough to be considered a scream, but enough to convey my anger. The boys walk back into the game room with their heads down. Jurgen comes up to me and puts his hand on my shoulder. I look up at him and he gives me a "It'll all be okay" look. I nod at him and smile.

I step outside of set to give myself a breather, as well as the crew a little time to rest before taking group photos with all the boys. Was I too hard on them? Maybe I shouldn't have gotten mad at them. All these thoughts are running through my head as I think back on Trent expressions when I yelled at them.

Trent's POV:

"You alright?" Virgil comes up to me and places a hand on my shoulder. "Yeah. I'm okay. I just feel bad. I know how stressed Y/N's been and I didn't mean to insult her." I sigh and have my head down. She's my girl, and I hurt her. Virgil tries to comfort me by telling me that she was in the wrong. In reality, I'm not trying to be right, I just want her to be happy. "Go get changed. You'll feel better." Hendo suggests. I take his advice and stand up. I'm thinking of all the way I can cheer her up. Maybe take her out for ice cream? She loves that.

Y/N's POV:

I had my breather and I feel much better now. I'm going to apologize to Trent and the boys after the shoot. Lets just get this done. I walk back onto set and head to my desk. I grab the SD card and walk over to Maggie, where she's enjoying her sandwich. "Maggie, once you're done eating get all the boys for me, yeah?" I say to her. She immediately finishes her last bite and dusts off her hands on her trousers. She brings her hand up to her mouth to cover it and says, "What for?" I then say, "For the group photos, remember?" She looks like she saw a ghost. "Oh! Yes, of course! I'll do that now!" She scurries away. Okay, that was weird.

A decent amount of time passes and no Maggie or boys are to be found. I decide to check in on them myself. I walk over to the game room and see Maggie standing outside it, staring at the door, looking frightened. "Maggie? Are you alright? Where are the boys?" I ask her, placing my hand on her back, trying to comfort her. "I think you should take a look for yourself." She says after noticing I'm not mad. She walks away. I place my hand on the door and open it. My eyes instantly fill with anger. The sight was disgusting for someone who spent hours trying to get these men ready. Most of them were half naked, the new kits they were modelling spread around the place. The one thing they had to do was be ready. "Hey, Y/N." Trent says with a smile. "What the fuck???" I question in pure confusion and anger. The team was taken back by my use of language, always insisting on staying professional. "Maggie said we were done for the day." Trent says, looking at my angry expression. "I cannot do this right now." I say throwing my hands up in defeat. I rush to set, take my laptop, SD card, and car keys and rush out the door in a fit of tears.

I'm trying to wipe away my tears with my sleeve, when I realize I forgot my jacket inside. At first, I think "Fuck it, I'll come back for it tomorrow", but then I realize what jacket it is. I wore Trent's academy hoodie, far too small for him now. "Fuck." I think to myself. I pivot myself on my heels 180 degrees and walk back into the training center. I hurriedly stomp towards where I was sitting, trying to avoid anyone and everyone. I search around my table, unable to find it. "Looking for your jacket?" I turn around to see a very apologetic looking Trent with my jacket in his hand. "Here." He hands it to me. "Thank you." I say, looking down as I walk away from him. If I look at him right now, I will break his face. He grabs ahold of my arm and brings me into a hug. I need it right now, so I don't resist. I pull away from him and he's holding my face. "I'll see you at home." I say, leaving him behind, but letting him know we're okay.

Trent's POV:

"Why was she mad?" "What happened" "Is she okay?" All these questions made me realize something. "Guys...Group photos." I say, mentally facepalming. A series of "ooohhh"s and "oh yeah"s followed that realization. "We have to do this." I say to them. They all moan and groan about not wanting to and being too lazy, however make it work.

"Maggie, we have to do these photos for Y/N." I say to her in a panic. "I would, if I could Trent, but she took the SD card." She says, defeatedly. I know she's been working so hard today as well. "Here, use this. Everyone in positions!!" I shove my phone at her and turn back to the boys who are in their designated spots, like Y/N showed us a while back. Maggie giggles at me slightly, but takes the photos. She does the best she can with the phone. "Alright, now a heart." I say to the boys after taking the serious photos. I think this will make Y/N feel loved by us.

After the photos are taken, I get changed again and head home. I stop by a flower shop and buy her a bouquet of her favorite flowers. I get her some snacks and sweets on the way home as well. I finally get home and open the front door. There she is, on the couch, looking so exhausted. "Hey, baby." She looks up at me, tucked in her blanket. "Hey." She says, so tiredly. I know she's mad at me. She just doesn't have the energy to fight me right now.

Y/N's POV:

I'm so sleepy. Trent got me flowers. "I'm sorry for getting so mad and frustrated today." I say, opening up my banket cocoon for him to join me on our abnormally wide couch. "I know how hard you were working. I'm so sorry it didn't go smoothly baby." He's so sweet. He got yelled at all day, and now he's apologizing to me. "If it makes you feel any better, I managed to get the group photos taken. They were taken on my phone, so they're not amazing, but it's what we got. Wanna see?" He did that for me? "Baby, I love you so much. Thank you. I could care less about how they look right now. I'm just glad it got taken." I say, dozing off into his chest. "C'mon, Y/N/N. Let's get you to bed." Is the last thing I heard. The perfect ending to the not so perfect day.

A/N: First post on tumblr.

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[megaawkwardhuman]

don't mind me I'm just going insane over nandor's rings

OK OK OK SO idk WHY but my brain suddenly remembered this post by someguywife and it got me wondering how long has he owned those rings?

disclaimer: 100% looking too deep into this and most likely going insane also for the most part I only focused on old photos in the show since I doubt they would go out of their way to edit the rings onto the paintings for nandor

first I looked through the intro and for the most part the rings are nowhere to be seen.

(side note: didn't notice that the last photo was taken on the same night as the new years eve photo :D)

anyway I say for the most part cause of this fucking photo...

Now I don't know shit about polaroids but there's some numbers at the bottom of these photos.

This probably means something but after looking it up all the info I could find talks about numbers on the BACK of a photo so that's fuuuuuuuun. I would keep looking into this but I keep going in circles so please if you have any idea what 090111225 4 could mean please let me know It's driving me fucking crazy. I'm assuming it could translate into a date but idk it could mean nothing.

now looking at the outfits in the photo I'd say this is in the 70s maybe? idk I also suck at analyzing clothes so for now this photo is a dead end WHICH SUCKS CAUSE IT'S ONLY GOING TO GO DOWNHILL FROM HERE!

IF this is the 70s then on we have a rough estimate of WHEN he got them but that's just the intro what about in actual episodes.

if we go back to s2e8 collaborations we get a look at nandor in the 70s when he shows us photos of him and is old familiar benjy aND GUYS GUESS WHAT? N O F U C K I N G R I N G S

the latest date we see on one of those photos is 1974 so around the mid to late 70s he got his ring grea- oh what's that? there's more? greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat...

so going from season 2 to season 3 on s3e3 gail we also get to see some more old photos of our fav cringefail. he says they've been on and off for 30 to 40 years and doing the math that means they met around the early 80s so surely he should have his rings by now right? RIGHT?

at first no BUT THEN

DING DING DING I SEE A FUCKING RING FOLKS

so the next photo shows him celebrating new years with her and she looks to be around the same age SO THAT MEANS HE GOT THE RING IN THE LATE 90- wait the fuck a minute...

huh... WELP SHIT THIS GOT COMPLICATED!

so looking at the photo booth photos again it's most likely the rings nandor usually wears so you'd think he'd be wearing them since you know HE WEARS THEM ALL THE TIME!? but NOPE he's wearing this red ring instead.

and in the next photo you can't tell at all what ring he's wearing.

so what does this all mean? well here's my current theory:

at some point when he was first with gail he got his rings (whether it was a gift or something he picked up idk) so around the 80s or 90s but he didn't wear them as often as he does now.

head cannon: after guillermo complimented the rings we see him wear in the show he made sure to wear those specific rings everyday

thanks for watching me go crazy coming to my TED talk

[d0youngread]

SIGH

Fucking WayV and Lucas bro

IS BRO IN THE GROUP OR NOT- let's discuss ft. @ireneanon

So...

We've had idols be kicked out of groups from bullying, S/A, drug, dui scandals and such, do i believe this is probably bs made up from these women? 50/50.

I only say that because so many netizens have lied in the past to get those 15 seconds of fame and to yk obviously gain attention or the payment from the lawsuits and stuff IF they win.

However if we do have solid evidence (which I'll be digging into) that's a different story. People can easily edit (like bitch I'm scared) and make fake shit on some type of website or whatnot, the Photoshop is starting to be a new concern of mine..

MOVING ON THO- as much as I know about this situation and I'm neither SM or Lucas, I don't know how to feel about it or whether this is some type of bullshit.

Would you rather feel the need to make a situation like this private and work it out IN PRIVATE? Knowing netizens, that's not an option here so what are we working with

(photo doesn't belong to me, credits to the owner)

When I searched for the proof of these netizens' accusations, nothing really showed up, if someone finds something lmk cause I'm lost asf;

So, the girlies are mad, thinks SM is making him apologize- which- does happen, but I also think he could have apologized because he was scared of his rep and career, or wanted to get over it cause maybe it was bs.

There was no evidence of Lucas being in NCT's recent merch, his name, face, anything of Lucas' brand not found present whatsoever, which makes me like 70% sure that bro is not coming back or won't be back for a LONG time, talking the 'blackpink hiatus aesthetic' gone.

Like, yeah some members won't show up in recent merch in a hiatus, but very unlikely; they are still apart of said group. Plus if I'm not wrong this was from something like a season's greetings or some shit so album, understandable, but season's greetings? Yeah you're most likely gone.

Also speaking on the fact that fans haven't heard from him or haven't heard the words SM or NCT come out of his mouth since, I mean you could just be trying to stay low but bro is one of the most popular NCT members so I doubt anyone is gonna let him get a break. On top of that SM not even mentioning his name as much or at all anymore says a lot, so I'm saying that most likely he's going to be expelled or go on an indefinite hiatus.

So... Yeah I don't think he's going to be here anymore, if he is good for him, have fun with that but that's all I'm like processing right now. And if he does come back I will most likely be calling BS on the netizens' part if we see no evidence that he has committed these things, after all it says accusations.

Just, idk idk idk

[onlyhereforangst]

Who fucked the fandom I'm confused? The person who wrote the article?

oh absolutely not, from what i can tell @shelbbswrites is a lovely person & writes about some of my favorite ships & i'd like her to keep writing so i can spiral about jiara in the near future.

as for who fucked the fandom, well. girl. the blog whose gif was linked, @/opponentsheir, is the one who knowingly, willfully fucked the fandom last summer.

it was circa mid-late May 2022 and here was the jiara tumblr fandom, struggling to get through the drought by the scraps of bts we'd scrounge up from filming. blurry ass photos that make you concerned for a tourist's ability to hold their water as they drink, random selfies that tell you next to nothing, and then the occasional "omg this is BIG how does this make sense how does it fit in but omg it's BIG" crumb.

times were rough, bts were tight, and the unsuspecting jiara tumblr fandom was hungry. unbeknownst to us in comes OH who decides. let's have some "fun" let's liven up the jiara fandom because it's clearly dead (false) and idk im bored besties let's play a hehe silly joke! at first, a few handpicked jiara blogs get random anonymous post submissions and each blog has like 2-3 different posts that are all supposed bts leaks. it's never-before-seen photos of what we can only presume are s3 bts. almost all of these blogs were in a jiara discord server together so the photos weren't shared because wtf who is trusting us with these clear leaks we don't want them to stop though. so we sit on these, we get excited, we spiral, all that fandom stuff that we had already. been. doing. but yeah here's a few more bts crumbs to have fun with. then a few weeks later when, to OH's surprise, the fandom hasn't reacted like she wanted, freaked out over her "leaks," hasn't posted them on every platform ever to give her the attention she feels she deserves, she decides oooh let's send more! this isn't sociopathic at all!! and then bam there's a second round of anonymous post submissions followed up by an anon ask sent to one of the blogs saying "you can post them, this is the last you'll get because i've reached my max photoshopping ability do not contact again" (also pardon but how tf are we supposed to contact you if you're anonymous).

ANYWAYS the leaks: we're talking blurry, random characters - sarah, pope, rose, jj and pope, kie, a random dude by a fire, and then jj having his beat-up face held by hands that look just like kie's hands.

and sure enough, we spiral! an actual face hold??? on our screens??? fuck yeah! cannot wait for s3!!! jokes on us we're getting so much more but yeah!!! we're theorizing we're writing whole ass fics we're speculating we've got a discord emoji we've got everything. a few hours later the leaks make it to jiara twt and THEY go wild too. i mean who tf wouldn't? you're starving for content and some mysterious source decides to drop you leaks. like yeah hindsight is 20:20 and who was going to potentially violate an NDA for this, but still.

fastforward several months and now OH is back because i guess she got desperate for attention again and feeling "important" or whatever. she goes on anon and says hey btw those leaks were fake ha ha isn't that funny, here's the photos i used linked here and here and omg isn't this just hilarious bestie such a good time man i love the jiara fandom being active again because god i was so BORED and man i just wanted more fics and edits and omg look it worked i mean i've done it before and i'd do it again (or some shit like that idk i dont have the wherewithal to go look it up and get it 100% correct but yeah, she admitted to doing it for funsies)

rightfully so, the fandom is fucking pissed. it isn't *fun* to get manipulated, it isn't *fun* to get manipulated into making new content???? that we don't get fucking paid to make???????? fuck you?????? you don't manipulate an entire group of people for SHITS AND GIGGLES that's literally sociopathic shit babe, go get help please. so yeah she fucked the entire fandom over Summer 2022 and did it because "i'm bored i want content" like fuck all the way off.

oh and side note: another anonymous poster tried to say oh i know who it is, but also i'm not going to tell you because you guys are clearly mad at her and i don't want you to take it out on her, i know her and it's ok she's ok. like i'm sorry. the fuck? don't insert yourself into this stupid sociopath's deranged manipulative plan. because guess what bitch, we've got detectives in this fandom and while OH never came off anon like the coward she is, the fandom was able to put it together & not only determine her tumblr but also her twt so when she tried a fucking round three several months later with "oh i found these on reddit but the post disappeared hehe" we all saw through that shit a mile away.

in a nutshell, @/opponentsheir fucked the fandom over with her manipulative bullshit & does not deserve a fucking drop of attention from anyone in this fandom.

[fearandhatred]

welcome back to leanne's dream blog because i have never had a normal dream in my life <3 today's nightmare edition is inspired by the fear street trilogy (cw for gore and violence and murder lol)

okay so a little bit of background on fear street: it's about this town called shadyside which has a history of killers, some of whom have distinctive features. for example one of them has a bag over his head and kills people with an axe. another is a young boy who wears a mask and uses a bat etc.

i'm with a group of friends in a kind of dorm building (actually my church layout but it wasn't my church in the dream) and we come across a room in a long hallway that is just beds and beds full of cute little kittens and puppies. so we go in to look at them. then i decide to take a photo of a baby in a cradle (idk why there's a baby. the room became a nursey i guess) and the lights are off and the baby's face looks fucked up as hell. holes where the eyes should be and the mouth is way too wide and the lips are stitched together.

when i look at the photo the backdrop is not the cradle but a forest with a tree behind the baby. and when i zoom in to look at the face again and zoom back out the baby is now hanging from that tree

so i'm obviously freaked out and i leave the room for a while to just go sit further down the hallway but my friends stay there. idk how much time passes but i go back to the room and now there's just a couple (two other people i know) there and my friends are gone. so i ask them where they are and the guy passes me one of my friend's phone and wallet, saying that they all left their phones here.

but he follows me out to search for them and in the bathroom next to this nursery there's a foot sticking out of the closed door. in fact the door is pretty closed so there's no way the foot is still completely attached to whatever body it comes from

anyway he opens the door and screams because it's my friend and he is Dead. then like a movie (because my dreams are always like i'm both watching a movie and inside it) the camera pans to the right where the hallway ends and leads into a bigger space, and all the lights turn on. and around that space all my friends have been brutally murdered. one of them lies in a bathtub hacked to pieces.

so because this is a movie now the plot was that this was season 2 of a show. in season 1 the group of friends had all escaped the shadyside killers and thought they were free but surprise! they weren't. so each of them were killed by a different killer. and at this point i, as the last surviving main character, was like Oh. well i guess this is inescapable and death will probably be quick anyway. so i just stand there and let the last killer take me lol

also in my mind this show is what we do in the shadows. which i have only watched like 2 episodes of. anyway the next episode/season? plays and it's all the vampires and shit having a huge ball, and all the killed characters come back as new characters so they can live on or something

[baekhvuns]

Bestie I'm gonna send you another ask later to briefly talk about my fan call, because I'm dying of fever (Hwa's effect?) let me just say I felt like shit (I still do obviously), but he made my morning so much better, he also teared up a bit 😭 and loooked so so pretty, but what's new. I was like "pls let him change, not the MuCore outfit" it was distracting 🥴

Lmaoooo 12 points is better than the infamous 0 jshdhshshsgshsgs. Because MuCore is more difficult to win I was once again robbed of Lino x Ateez interactions, Jungwoo too, I wanted to see Hongjoong and Yeosang with him again :/ Skz doesn't attend The Show, so no MC Yeo x Skz moments either :(

Yes Soshi showcase was so fun, I didn't watch the whole thing, but it made me emooooo. Agreed, the song is simple in quite boring way, but anyways at least it's not unlistenable! I hoped the MV would be more interesting though. I've ordered their albums and the packaging especially of the Deluxe edition is so pretty!

Right I'm afraid of the ads, because it's too good to be true seriously 😭

Can't wait to exist in your universe as a fursona who wants to bite Seonghwa

Noddy always seemed like a boy name to me, I met two people with pets named Noddy too and they were boys... poor animals

I'm really lucky when it comes to kpop albums, but that's about it sjsuiamasbhsshbs. Now when I think about it I remember some Ateez members telling me to hydrate, because it was hot and I was like "yeah, ok" like a liar <3

EXCUSE ME WHAT ENDING?! Nvm I don't need that villain fic idc bring the cute runner Hwa one 🙂🙃🙂🙃🙂

Ngl I only listened to SuperM songs a few times, cause I was so pissed at SM for dragging some of their most talented people (minus you know who) and giving them an NCT type of track 😭 but yeah some songs are pretty ok

Bestie do not get me started on hwips and hwaist...😳 hegs lmaooo but yeah we love a long boy. I always say it's Hwa's era but tbh how can I not. Mingi has achieved his final for I'm afraid and it's deadly

Lmao now everyone needs to pass the NOSE TEST 🤭

I saw a tweet that said it should be illegal for bad things to happen to Seonghwa - exactly, you're mean to my Seonghwa? Instant death

I support Real Madrid and I know Jongho got me, I also support Arsenal 🥴

I like the changed format of the Showterview, the one with Jessi was based more on shocking behaviour from Jessi, lots of simping and chaos which was fun, but here I feel like we can learn more about them and some questions were 👀

Truly, everywhere I go I see HIM. Everything reminds me of HIM. Not complaining too much, but I would like to be normal for a sec... RIP to your WIPs of other members, but I believe you can fight your Shinestar urges (couldn't be me but good luck!)

Idk if I'm ready to read for anyone that isn't Hwa or someone I stan, but I'll keep that CEO series in mind 👀 anything about uber drivers you recommend?

Holy shit?!?!?! Those beach photos you posted, while I'm a strong MILF Hwa enthusiast he does occasionally look DILFy and that's a good example.

Bestie sometimes my browser marks your quiz links as potential fraud and I'm always like "miss Baek wants to send me a virus" Anyway girl what is this 😭😭😭😭 I got little miss princess, some of the things were accurate, but some 💀 what did you get?

THE MINI LIGHTSABER I'M KMS-ING - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Bestie I'm gonna send you another ask later to briefly talk about my fan call, because I'm dying of fever (Hwa's effect?) let me just say I felt like shit (I still do obviously), but he made my morning so much better, he also teared up a bit 😭 and loooked so so pretty, but what's new. I was like "pls let him change, not the MuCore outfit" it was distracting 🥴

omg of course!! BDMWHDNWHDKW NAUR I HOPE U FEEL GOOD 😭😭😭 he wooed you fr fr,,, OH 😭😭😭 DID U GUYS CRY TOGETHER 😭🤚🏼 IN THE MUCORE FIT??? FUCK BESTIE HOW DID U SURVIVE THAT PLS ARE U OKAY /// ?????

Lmaoooo 12 points is better than the infamous 0 jshdhshshsgshsgs. Because MuCore is more difficult to win I was once again robbed of Lino x Ateez interactions, Jungwoo too, I wanted to see Hongjoong and Yeosang with him again :/ Skz doesn't attend The Show, so no MC Yeo x Skz moments either :(

NO LITERALLY DHDJDJ but he’s so funny 😭😭 NAUR WE COULDVE HAD LINO AND HWA INTERACTION AFTER THEI DATE DURING KINGDOM FBFBFB 😭😭🤚🏼 the only time we get interactions atp is at mama 😭

Yes Soshi showcase was so fun, I didn't watch the whole thing, but it made me emooooo. Agreed, the song is simple in quite boring way, but anyways at least it's not unlistenable! I hoped the MV would be more interesting though. I've ordered their albums and the packaging especially of the Deluxe edition is so pretty!

nO BC CBDBDBD KEY DID IGAB??? yeah! simple but there wasn’t that oomfp in it,,, but when hoyeon said “we are forever” PASSED OUT GIRLIES RLY CAME BACK TO DELIVER WHAT EXACTLY KPOP IS DBDBD but they looked so goof and all!! OH MY U DID?? SHIT I HOPE U PULL A YURI BC SHES SO PRETTY THIS CB 😭😭 personally their holiday album was so nice, with all the memories in it and miss jessica 😵‍💫😵‍💫 the deluxe version is so pretty!!!

Right I'm afraid of the ads, because it's too good to be true seriously 😭

no literally im afraid they’ll take it down one day and i’ll mourn so bad 😭😭 like with no ads?? how’s that even possible??? and crisp video quality??? 😮‍💨😮‍💨

Can't wait to exist in your universe as a fursona who wants to bite Seonghwa

FURSONA IM SCREAMINGDNDJDJD DV ANON FURRY CONFIRMED AFTER ALL

Noddy always seemed like a boy name to me, I met two people with pets named Noddy too and they were boys... poor animals

poor animals inDEED WHO TF NAMES THEIR ANIMALS NODDY??? 😭😭🤚🏼 im so surprised i told my mom noddy was a boy and she gave me stank face dvdbdb

I'm really lucky when it comes to kpop albums, but that's about it sjsuiamasbhsshbs. Now when I think about it I remember some Ateez members telling me to hydrate, because it was hot and I was like "yeah, ok" like a liar <3

no u are so very lucky!!!! aS YOU SHOULD,,, HELP THTBRNDH THEY TOLD U TO HYDRATE AND U DIDNT 🔫🔫 😭😭😭😭 YOU LIAR FBFBFBFB

EXCUSE ME WHAT ENDING?! Nvm I don't need that villain fic idc bring the cute runner Hwa one 🙂🙃🙂🙃🙂

WHO WILL DIE WHO WILL LIVE THATS SOLELY UP TO MY BRAIN ATM FBFB pls enjoy the ending <3 i have started witting the first part of it on the side!!

Ngl I only listened to SuperM songs a few times, cause I was so pissed at SM for dragging some of their most talented people (minus you know who) and giving them an NCT type of track 😭 but yeah some songs are pretty ok

yeah!! tbh i kinda liked the concept bc it was rly cool seeing a mega group to be formed but everyone hated it 😭🤚🏼 HDJDJD YEAH THE NCT TITLE TRACKS DBD tiger inside was rly good!!

Bestie do not get me started on hwips and hwaist...😳 hegs lmaooo but yeah we love a long boy. I always say it's Hwa's era but tbh how can I not. Mingi has achieved his final for I'm afraid and it's deadly

HWIPS??? IN DEJA VU??? MAAM. FIRST THE NOSE. NOW THE HWIPS DONT DO THIS TO ME IM WRITING A YUNHO FIC I CANNOT GO WRITE A HWA ONEFBFBFB

Lmao now everyone needs to pass the NOSE TEST 🤭

FBWNBDKW DID U SEE HIS NOSE AT THE FANSIGN IM ASSUMING ☺️☺️

I saw a tweet that said it should be illegal for bad things to happen to Seonghwa - exactly, you're mean to my Seonghwa? Instant death /// I support Real Madrid and I know Jongho got me, I also support Arsenal 🥴

THAT IS SO TRUE NOTHING BAD SHOULD EVER HAPPEN TO HIM NUH UH shinestar’s will put instant death fbdbdb 😭😭😭 oHHHHH MADRID DBDB IM W MANCHESTER UNITED

I like the changed format of the Showterview, the one with Jessi was based more on shocking behaviour from Jessi, lots of simping and chaos which was fun, but here I feel like we can learn more about them and some questions were 👀

actually you’re so right this one seems a bit more laid back and comfy than jessi’s,,, NO UR SO RIGHT ON THAT !!! oh some of them questions that one that yunho didnt answer 😀😀

Truly, everywhere I go I see HIM. Everything reminds me of HIM. Not complaining too much, but I would like to be normal for a sec... RIP to your WIPs of other members, but I believe you can fight your Shinestar urges (couldn't be me but good luck!) /// Idk if I'm ready to read for anyone that isn't Hwa or someone I stan, but I'll keep that CEO series in mind 👀 anything about uber drivers you recommend?

RIP TO MY WIPS BC I MADE ANOTHER WIP FOR HIM TODAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭📉📉 “but I believe you can fight your Shinestar urges (couldn't be me but good luck!)” LMFAOOOO EHQJEJWHDEJ everywhere it’s Him every time i see a group photo of ateez my eyes??? immediately on seonghwa 🔫 OH PLS DO READ IT ITS QUITE GOOD !!! here’s your daily uber driver recs ☺️☺️ do u perhaps fancy a uber driver who models?? or a ceo?

Holy shit?!?!?! Those beach photos you posted, while I'm a strong MILF Hwa enthusiast he does occasionally look DILFy and that's a good example.

SOMEONE SAID THAT PHOTO SET REMINDS THEM OF DIVORCE HWA THE HUSBANDY LOOK 😭😭😭 I CANNOT ANYMORE FBWMFBWK

Bestie sometimes my browser marks your quiz links as potential fraud and I'm always like "miss Baek wants to send me a virus" Anyway girl what is this 😭😭😭😭 I got little miss princess, some of the things were accurate, but some 💀 what did you get? /// THE MINI LIGHTSABER I'M KMS-ING - DV 💖

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭😭 OTS ACTUALLY ME TRYING TO GET UR PCS NOT FRAUD fhwkdhek I got

Art Bitch <3

You probably love to create things, art, clothes, films, books, etc etc. You hide behind all the things you make, you look for a escape in these things, you were probably the art or book kid growing up. You probably used art/books to get away from the things going around you, to bring yourself into a new world. You never grew out of this "phase", you probably want to be a writer, director, artist, etc etc when you grow up even if people tell you to get a real job, you probably felt left out during elementary career day because they never had creative jobs just firefighters and cops. Your favorite class is probably art or creative writing/english, you haven't found your people yet. But someday you will be surrounded with people that KNOW you, and it's going to be the best feeling ever. And you are going to never want to let those people go, keep making your art, share it with the world or keep it to yourself, its your art, your stories, and how ever looks/reads it is going to love it! I believe in you, and I'm proud of you.

🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️ ???

IM YELLING THIS IS SO TRUE

is this your type of stompers

[nathank77]

4/7/24

7:57 p.m Edited/Significantly Added To 8:36 p.m

This is how I'm perceived:

A fucking nerd. Maybe the choice is obv, I only spent 80$ on glasses. I have two pairs that fit somewhat comfortably. I can wear them in the car and when I'm alone sometimes but I got to adjust to life without them...

I should prob forgo lens crafter, save myself a lot of money for 1 pair of perfect glasses. And start taking photos without glasses for my dating profile. I can stop wearing them in my videos. And really only wear them when I drive.. and eventually not even then.

Eventually I'll adjust to blurry, uncomfortable and weak eye sight and I'll find a girl.

I haven't reached out to Reilly in two days cause I mean let's be real. What's the next step? A date. Telling her I'm trans. Maybe my shirtless photo was enough. Telling her I'm disabled and broke. No girl is going to want me. I got to get out 90% of the bad before I go on that date so I don't get hurt.

Beyond that okay- I do want to date a mom, I want to be a dad. Idc if "step" comes in front of the title. I want family photos, and I want to be needed as much as I need them.

Yet Reilly has 4 children, age does matter to me. One is a one year old.... I can't do poppy diapers and if i could I'd want to go through the entire pregnancy with my gf or wife. Let's say this 1 year old was out of diapers... that would change things. The younger they are the more, "important," I'll be I could even be called dad but my ocd as it stands does not permit me to do poopy diapers. I want a girl who has 2-3 kids, and for them to be able to wipe their own ass. I mean 5- any age..

Beyond that I'm in love with Elise regardless of it is unrequited or not. And I mean I am trying to move on but I don't want to waste anyone's time. Reilly is pretty in that one photo.... there is only one....she's not supermodel material but she's pretty. Although to say I know what she looks like is ridiculous with only one photo...

Anyways, I got to lose the glasses, lens crafters is stupid when it's going to cost me an arm and a leg... and I'm still going to feel like a nerd that no one wants to date.

Maybe I'm being stupid about Reilly bc I still got to break the news. Being a voice hearer would be something I'd tell her like 5-6 months into dating, why? I'm going to prove that I'm sane, and can live my life and do my shit, I'm going to prove I am safe around children and not a danger to society. This applies to any woman... or person I date... I have to prove that if I never told you I had auditory hallucinations, you would have never known bc I'm normal....

But the trans thing and the disabled thing can't be hidden that long obv.... however proving my sanity and safety in terms of having auditory hallucinations can def wait..

I'm so in love with Elise it makes it hard to take anyone else seriously... I mean I suppose if I were to have money to take Reilly out on a date it would be different... I'm always that guy who is like I'd like to meet and I bring up free spots and the girl goes, why not coffee or dinner and then I say well I'm broke... and if she isn't willing to pay it fizzles out... a lot of women go on dates for free food. I wish I wasn't being sexist but my sister does it all the time.. once Katelyn said I'm going on lots of dates with guys who i think are ugly but, FREE CHICKEN WINGS!

Maybe it's just the quality of people I meet rather than "women." It's not women, it's a quality of person...

Either way even if I was loaded I'm not buying a girl a coffee or a dinner on a first date, what's wrong with going to the Park and sitting outside? It's free, peaceful and allows a lot of time for talking.

Anyways I feel undatable.. Elise could not even be a thought and I'm like well... I got all these flaws and most people want to start with coffee or dinner or drinks... and they expect the guy to pay..

Idk what to do. All I know is I'm very in love with Elise. I feel fucking stupid for that. Going back to that song Shape Shift by Silverstein, "I never stood a chance here did I?" I listen to it all the time sometimes on repeat bc with everyone and anyone I never stood a chance at being someone's husband.

I probably can't even get a girl from Kenya... I don't have money and like I said before it's a fucking park date, I'm not buying and having you ghost me, I need my money. Maybe 3 months down the line but I'm not being used nor am I wasting money on someone who won't work out.

For all I know I could date Reilly for 6 months, meet her kids, be a totally normal great guy and tell her I have auditory hallucinations and she may be like I'm sorry it's not going to work out.

I got a lot counted against me. I'm ready to date. I'm so ready. I just feel like I'm undatable...

Like let's say I do have a soulmate and let's say it's Elise, how can I give her what she needs other than love? I would pay for her dinner, I'd pay for her coffee but I couldn't do it often. I would for her bc I know her personally, she's not some random off a dating site.

I'd be a financial drain on her. Or any person I date at that rate. I mean I'd love to take her and her girls for ice cream and picnics that I prepare. I'd like to go to the zoo, a baseball game whatever, but I don't have the money. Not for anyone no matter how much I love them. Not even for just me. I have more money than I did quiting weed but I'm still impoverished...

I can't get her a ring, it would take me years, I can't even pay half for the wedding. This applies to all women but I dream of it being Elise.

Maybe Elise doesn't want anyone seeing all of her photos... maybe that's why it's just her wedding, that's been consistently up for a long time or maybe she was never here and it's all visual hallucinations. Or maybe she's like I'm just a concerned friend and you might be right that this is too personal for me to read. Idk.

Although I didn't screenshot her changes bc I didn't want to be a creep. I wish i had cause I have no proof, her family reunion was up a hour after I posted my post yesterday. I have no proof all her WOW posts disappeared after I posted about my Battlenet account... I don't want to take screenshots. It makes me feel creepy.

If I didnt feel so undatable I'd make more of an effort on Reilly.

Dating me is like dating a pauper... I could have continued to talk to Jenny she did touch my finger when she gave me my phone back but she was one of those girls that I would have had to drop hundreds on bc we both lived in different states and she's not that type of girl to spend money on a guy.

I could find a girl who is willing to spend money on their guy but I feel like a financial drain. I feel worthless. I often think about how much money Katie must have saved cutting me loose.

Who would chose love and personality over financially stability? Tbh probably no one.

[sayakxmi]

[Magi reread; special edition] Episode 3: Magician of Creation [Part 1]

I swear, sometimes Magi is called just magician of creation, and sometimes it's magician of world creation, and tbh the latter is a mouthful, but sounds so much cooler.

Hole in the sky.

It's a reference to something, except I don't remember what I'm referencing, just know that I am referencing it.

It might be Pokemon, actually.

Good news, everybody. Jamil dies in this episode.

"When you get your flute back, can you introduce me and Ugo?" I'm still so salty it hasn't happened. Don't worry, guy, I'll fix it in that rewrite.

The perspective in this series never ceases to amaze me. To be fair, Aladdin and Alibaba stand a bit lower, but still, man.

I wanted to focus on Aladdin getting wrecked but

Morgiana did a cool spin after killing Aladdin.

Jamil: -appears- Me: oh, just die already

His going on his dumb classist spiel, literally nobody cares.

Don't get excited, Jamil. You're about to be put in your place.

"I can't believe I was scared of this guy." He doesn't say it here, tho we can probably asume it's what he's thinking. What he actually ends up saying is "You must've seen something awful." and then goes to talk how it's too late to go back, cuz it's the dungeon, and they're all putting their lives on the line etc. But it's still kinda interesting. In the manga Alibaba actually mocks Jamil, then talks how it's a dungeon, but in the anime he almost comes off as if he's actually feeling sorry for the guy.

On a semi-related note, I really like this expression. Idk why. I feel like this is how Alibaba feels about 98% of the cast. They're all fucking weirdos, how did he get himself involved in any of this?

I can't believe Aladdin's dead.

Damn, that was some jump. Very fancy, 10/10. I've mentioned that I love Balbadd's Royal Swordplay? And also, again, Jamil, why are you telling him what you're gonna do? I know you're dumb, but seriously.

Aww, yes.

AWWW, YESSSSS

In the manga he barely avoids it, in the anime he sort of counters her.

That actually looks pretty cool.

Alibaba just got wrecked, nobody's surprised. But do you ever think how much of this series is Alibaba getting wrecked?

As I was saying. But also, in the anime he's trying to protect himself, as much as he can at least, while in the manga I got the impression that he couldn't move. Which was, frankly, pretty understandable given how hard he was hit.

Somebody give her a break.

Also I've suddenly remembered that Jamil is voiced by the same guy Aomine from Kuroko no Basuke's voiced. Aomine was way cooler.

Also, what's up with the most importantTM members of a King's Household meeting them through trying to kill them (whether they wanted to do it or not). Makes me wonder if the Kous also had such Funny first meetings with them, lmao.

Also, that's a very cool moment - as Morgiana raises the sword, it transitions into the staff raised by Aladdin, 10/10.

Wheee.

That's a pretty nice shot, actually.

Ok, but, like, in the anime Alibaba at least sits up (with Aladdin's help). In the manga he was laying on the floor for a bit there. Like, a chapter or two.

Deoxyribonucleic acid-coded if you ask me. Missing em, nitrogenous bases, but close enough.

He looks like a magical girl.

Notre Empire playing again. Man, was it seriously playing So Often?

Letz gooooo

Gdi, I'm a corvid at heart, I see shiny stuff and I'm just OMG this is so pretty. But this is so pretty :/

Finally! Aladdin being done with Jamil's bullshit!

This does look pretty cool.

You know, it's kind of hilarious when you have these two serious as shit, and then there's Alibaba like "what the actual fuck is going on". Mood.

And with this optimistic shot we're ending this post, becaues I'm almost at the photo limit.

Ok, but you gotta admit, it looks cool. RIP Morgiana.

[richthofens]

Emu Went to Book Fair, Ocotber 2022 Edition

Hello gamers, so i went to book fair yesterday. And boy do i have THOUGHTS.

k first of all this is my time going anywhere alone so that was SOMETHING???? my ass always have somebody bring me to places this is my first time going to metro and trains and this solo and it went goood??? Like i was freaking out but it's pretty easy actually lol.

the expo itself is fine??? they have some renovation to the hall (ok not little A LOT) and i think it looks ok i guess??? I didn't really walk around tbh.

Anyways other than i bought books (obviously) nothing interesting happned like there's this thing about me trying to find a copy of a rare old book and i was digging for solid three hours trying to find this one book from like 1932 (though i was actually looking for any copy at that point i legit can't find it) yeah anyways spending two hours i have come to conclusion that mf who say they love smell of old books LIED. It smelled HORRIBLE. I was DYING fighting for my life there. Holding my breathe all the time because 1) it smelled HORRIBLE 2) my life is already shit i don't want to contracted virus from 1893. Anyways the book is about Frederick The Great so like when i see one pile have book with "The Great" and same font same colour my ass was DIGGING and BAM it's about Napoleon ... Bro wrong midget. I did bought other old books tho. I did bought other books by the same author (Prince Chula Chrakrabongse) like his book on catherine the great or congress of vienna but still 😩😩😩 (also i bought his autobiography last bookfair and my aunt legit STOLE it and i have to read from school library 😭😭😭😭 which is not the same because my version have more content. The newer editions cut off some stuff but i don't know what they cut because i haven't read it ,,,, soooooo)

ANYWAYS so i bought 11 books (photo attached) and as you can see shit is HEAVY i kinda stopped and left my bag after war&peace because it's rrlly heavy and use other bag to walk around. Which is good becuase you can walk around and not have to carry shit around but that's BAD because when I want to go home I start piling two bags together and OH MY FUCKING GOD. IT'S SO FUCKING HEAVY. I CAN NOT CARRY THIS BACK HOME ALONE ON GOD.

So I immediatly call my mom to pick me up but apparently she's fixing her car and can't pick me up until like next two hours. So I kinda sit and eat some KFC because I haven't eat anything since morning and it's 16:30 or some. So after I finsihed the eating I call my mom again and no shit she said she's doing her nails and tell me to get metro to my brother work place and he'll pick me up .... I don't think she understands I called her to pick me up because I Am Dying And Can't Carry All These. But at that point I just wanna go home and i'm like ok i'll get on metro.

Yeah anyways so to go to my brother workplace I have to go to from metro to skytrain and on GOD i almost DIED. There's stair you have to go through and it's really long, or at least i think it was, i dont fucking know all i remeber is i legit thought i was going to pass out and died on those staors and bridge it's horrible.

So anyways the station ended at the mall so i called my bro like "yo bro im here" and like i walk out of the trai and straight to the mall and i just sit. Like i am not walking anymore you gotta find me. After wholeass 30 minutes later we finally find each other and boy was he MAD AS HELL. Like my man i get that you have to walk around to find me but i have to carry all these books all the way to here ok vpcut me some slack. And yeah and then we went home and go to sleep and happy ever after or whatever.

WRONG. I wake up the next day and trying to move my body amd I. AM. IN. PAIN. literally actual tears in my eyes just for trying to move my arms it was HORRIBLE. Take me like idk how long until i can handle walking out of the bed. Like i still in pain while typing this it's horrible. 0/10 never go to book fair alone without waggon ever again.

[whysojiminimnida]

Hello YSJ! I was at PTD Day 2 and while the concert was great, I left feeling doubtful about Jikook. All of the Jikook moments during the performance that everyone is cooing over felt like regular friendly interactions rather than “loud” moments (except the butt squeeze which I didn’t see due to being so short). I was hoping to see for myself their love since there’s no better “original content” than what you see with your own eyes, and I saw nothing but professional behavior. Thoughts?

Hi anon, WELL THIS IS LONGER THAN INTENDED OKAY I wasn't there live, but I did catch it via some very kind Friends of the People - well, mostly. I was super tired and also on some rather heavy meds. Also the streams weren't nearly as stable on Day Two. (If it helps I PAID FOR MY DAY FOUR 4K MULTIVIEW HYBE DON'T COME FOR ME) but I saw a number of things that made me coo and sigh and smile. So it might come down to what we saw and personal opinion, but...

Two things: One, moments in real time are FAST. We don't get those sweet slowed-down edits set to Doja Cat grooves that I LOVE LOVE LOVE do not get me wrong, I watch them for fun and ... fun. They are also not reactor vids that go back and catch the same moment twice. Hell, they're not even Weverse translations. A lot gets lost in context onstage. and B., moments in real time are often overshadowed by LIGHTS and LOUD MUSIC and your eyes are literally EVERYWHERE. Rose Bowl, for example, was MUCH LOUDER on video and because it was caught on the big screens and it was long enough that the hyungs had all moved away before it was over - and it still was less than ten seconds long in total. Also, you're looking at stuff from a distance instead of the video and photo closeups we get later:

So if you're at the concert and you are enjoying yourself, as you should, you are probably missing as much as your eyes can catch and interpret just by the nature of the event. And as a hobbit I can empathize also with the short thing, I even lie to my own doctors about my height, they have stopped arguing with me and just adjust my BMI accordingly but WE ALL KNOW I CAN'T SEE SHIT WITHOUT PLATFORMS AND A BUDDY.

This is actually how I started watching edits - because I was missing so much in original content, even in performance video that focused on the guys. But after a few weeks and finding the youtubers I like and don't, (see me for recommendations), I made myself watch original content mainly for context. Korean is an incredibly contextual language - verbal and written translation alone is not nearly adequate to get it into English as it is meant to be. Even good translators have a hard time making it sound as it is intended. Physical moments are QUICK - a brush of a hand on an ass or a chest, or a missed bro bump because Koo was tryna BRIDAL CATCH HIS MAN is so rapid in real time that it is very blink-and-miss-it. But the guys are, in fact, AT WORK when they are onstage and this is something we like to forget. THEY WORKING BB. They damn well better look and act professional or they are gonna hear about it.

And right now there is the military question to contend with. If you are expecting kisses and declarations of love that is not going to happen, not in Vegas, not any time until and unless that is resolved in a manner favorable to a coming-out party. The Korean military does not look kindly upon faggotry of any stripe, not in the guise of fanservice, not in any way at all thank you. Not under the incoming administration - President Yoon is virulently homophobic and so are his cronies and that is not something the Taekookers are taking into account. But for me, I saw SO MANY LITTLE MOMENTS. But I'm not the Jeon-Parks' evangelist - I'm more of a... Jeon Park Roomba? IDK in my house the Roomba is named Dobby and we don't give it socks and sometimes Yoongi tries to ride it so I identify as a Roomba in this story. (Whatever that's my brain sorry) But I am sorry you didn't get to see this:

I guess basically we all see different things, and we can miss a lot in live shows. And if the offstage lives and content they give us combined with the professional, working moments we get from a staged concert (okay the ass grab was... not professional) wasn't enough to keep you thinking they're a couple, then I don't really have any advice for you. Maybe you just see a friendship. And that's okay.

The real question is, do you still love them? Still love BTS? Have a great concert experience? If the answer is "yes", that's all good. :)

[necro-hamster]

do you have any advice for digital artist who is just getting started with digital? i have a cheap tablet (wacom) and i use photoshop. thank you!<3 sorry for bad english

ok first of all your english is really good, dont apologize <3 second of all yeah i can give some advice! keep in mind that i am not a professional by any means, im just a 20 y/o who's mostly self taught. took a couple of classes in high school but honestly they didnt teach me much beyond what i already knew unfortunately. still, self taught is something, and clearly my art is decent enough that people enjoy it and are coming to me for advice, so! here's a list of advice i can think of.

stop using photoshop. this might be a bold one to start out with, but don't use photoshop for drawing, man. i know how to use photoshop REALLY well, i'm like taught in it. and that program is ASS even at editing photos, much less drawing. it's outdated and overpriced and really needs to stop being an industry standard. it's one thing if that's the program you've been using for years and you're comfortable with it, but if you're just starting out? ditch that shit. i personally use both sai2 and clip studio paint, but both of those are paid programs. not that i paid for them, but yknow. if you don't want to pirate or pay, some good free programs include krita and sketchbook pro ! also most programs come with a free trial you can test out.

the deform tool is ABSOLUTELY your friend, especially in the sketching phase. the face looks a little off? adjust it a bit instead of redrawing it. make it look perfect. leg not in the proper place? grab it and move it! just keep in mind that you should generally do this before you line/paint/etc. it's best to make these adjustments to the sketch, because oftentimes deforming something will reduce the quality of it. this depends on both the program and the amount of adjustment being done, but as just a general rule best to get this out of the way early on.

flip your canvas. a lot. this will REALLY help you. say you're drawing a guy standing up straight, and you're like huh, this looks kinda weird, but i can't tell why. it just looks super off for some reason. flip the canvas, and i can promise you that that drawing will be leaning all sorts of ways that will be immediately obvious to you once you're looking at it from that angle. make it look good from that angle too and it'll look WAY better from the normal angle.

on the same note, rotate your canvas! it'll really help you out just like rotating a piece of paper when you're drawing traditionally. a lot of people seem to just... not want to do this for some reason? but it's really a big help.

using references isn't just okay, it's something you should ABSOLUTELY be doing. idk why people online used to constantly cry about how using references is cheating, but it's not. using references is a great aid and will drastically improve your art.

use clipping masks !! say, you want to put some sparkles on your character, but you only want them on the character, not the background. instead of tediously going around the character and erasing the leftover sparkles from your brush, you can just make the layer of sparkles a clipping mask above your character layer, and that's it. no cleanup necessary, it'll only be on your character. this is a HUGE help.

experiment with shit!!!! play with brush settings, layer effects, textures, anything. get to know your program, and use everything you have at your disposal. nothing worse than finding out about a feature and thinking 'awh man i wish i knew about this three year earlier' but you just never found it because you never bothered clicking on that button.

i don't have much else at the moment, but if yall have any specific questions go ahead and hit me with em i guess

[indimlights]

✨Merry christmas Cille✨

To: @birthdaysentiment 💛

-> From: @indimlights (Rodrigo)

Hi Cille! I guess it's up to me to kick off this "little" surprise but I don't even know where to start...

I remember really well the first time I saw a post of yours, I was still lurking back then and the moment I read it I felt so many things, things I don't know how to describe and that I never thought words could make me feel and I knew, I just knew that I had to see more. Fast-forward a couple of hours I knew your blog by heart, I had looked at so many of your posts and every single one was as amazing as the first one, as touching as the first one and as deep as the first one.

The meaning you put on words still gets to me every single day, you have such a way into them and don't even get me started on your music analysis. The moment I read the first one I was mind-blown! The things you catch, the connections you make between the music and the scene, the way you describe the scenes, it makes me go back, relive the moment and feel everything I felt the first time I watched it and all this just by... reading your words! If that doesn't tell me how amazing you are with them I don't know what will.

From that day I always wished I could talk to you, get to know the person behind the words, behind the masterpieces, behind the blog because you seemed like such a sweet person and now... After some time, I got that chance and I'm so happy I got it. You are everything I thought you would be and 1000x more, you are sweet, caring, smart, loving, wise, joyful and so supportive to me and to everyone in this community! You always spread love and that's so important and so nice of you to do, the way you write essays in the tags for everyone's posts just shows that! It's such a simple thing but means so much.

And I'm not even mentioning how talented you are with non-written posts because those are on another level aswell, I mean you always surprise me with your ideas and creativity and just knowing that whenever I come here I will have some sort of attack waiting for me just keeps me going and I love everything you do so much.

I'll never be able to thank you enough for being so welcoming when I barely knew anyone and for making me feel so much more comfortable here! Getting to know you better and to share this experience with someone like you has been a blessing and I wouldn't change any second of it, thank you for everything you have done and for always being so sweet to me. I don't understand what I did to deserve all that but that just shows again how wonderful you are.

I'm wishing you a merry christmas! Surrounded by everyone you love and that makes you happy because you deserve that and so much more, please never change, never stop being like this, a special and wonderful person. I hope you enjoy this surprise :) Have a wonderful day Cille 💛

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-> From: @remy3010 (Remy)

Hihi Cille❤ I love your blog so much especially music analysis! I just fall in love with your music analysis since your first posts.

For me whose mother tongue is not English, it takes a while to read but I'd love to. Because these articles deserve more people to see (including me)！

I have read every article of yours, the content touches me all the time. (Sometimes I have a lot of words want to tell you, But I don’t know how to speak in English..sorry🥺so I give❤ and reblog)

Anyway, thank you for writing beautiful words and sharing with us! I hope you can keep this passion forever, and everything go well. May you have wonderful days my friend ❤

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-> From: @franboos (Francine)

hi bb cille,

wanted to tell u that i love u blog and the time u put into analyzing stuff is shhshdhdhdhd. queen shit. u seen so genuine to talk to idk, i get those nice, non judgmental, relaxed and cool vibes from u. lmao. pls stay on tumblr for as long as u can cuz i love ur posts. u notice such little things in clips from wtfock, like u have a very detailed eye miss hehe. i really want to get to know u more cuz i really think we could vibe v well together, and that’s on perioood 😌. i hope u have a great great day while reading this queen. never stop what you’re doing cuz ur great at it. i love you !!

many kusjes and knuffels*,

fran

(*knuffels means hugs but also stuffed animal in dutch, did u know that? otherwise now u do, nice isn’t it)

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-> From: @dagcutie (Pauline)

hey hey cille!!

I must admit i’m very much a fan of you and your blog

first of all, your posts? chefs kiss!! i mean your music analysis are amazing and so on point, your photo edits are always perfect and the colorings are so beautiful, your long text posts 'drabble/headcanon style' are so cute and always makes me so soft and emotional...

your love for black and white? that’s a big yes!! anyways everything you do is perfect!!

also can we take a moment to appreciate your person? i think we can and we must do it..

you’re always so supportive and kind, all the nice tags you let under peoples creations are so sweet!! I also could cry about how cute you are always leaving lovely messages to people inbox or coming randomly to them to say something nice.. you’re the most beautiful soul and a blessing for this fandom!! please never stop being you!! ily a lot, sending you all my love and i wish you an amazing day<3

knus og kys til dig💛✨

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-> From: @allee-sander (Tanya)

Cille, you are an amazing person. you are so kind and loving. every time i see you on my dash, my face lights up. you are a literal angel. you are loved and appreciated, never forget that.

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-> From: @tsjernobyl (Emma)

Cille, you are a genuinely kind and loving soul who's just on this site to talk about the things you love and spread a little joy and everyone can tell that the moment they go onto your blog. i've seen you be nothing but lovely to everyone you interact with and it's a real honor to be mutuals with you and interact from time to time. You are always one of the sweetest and most supportive people here, and i hope you feel that love flowing back to you at all times because you always have my warmest wishes and love!!!!!

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-> From: @dreamaur (Ann)

How does it feel to be so cool and sweet and supportive??? I love you and your mind and how you see so many details and capture them so well with words,,,queen keep going with your top tier analysis and text posts that make me emotional everything single time

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-> From: @annonymannonym (Alice)

Where do I even begin ummm ... well words may not be enough to describe such angelic human being that Cille is but today is about her *about you Cille* !♡! Honestly I’m so so happy and honoured and so grateful to have meet and know you and come along your blog and your amazing posts and edits , let’s s not forget about the masterpiece that your analysis is cuz I live for every single one of them ! Always so on point and touchy and so so emotionally, they give you a whole new perspective and point of view and helps you connect with the person that goes throught those feelings , helping you understand so much deeper the feelings and the emotions he experience in that right moment( so thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking your time and writing these it really shows how much passion and love you put on making these! they absolute helped me to understand and feel much more the meaning behind all these little moments you captured so so well and wonderful ! ) You’re always such a blessing here so lovely friendly so goodhearted and sooo on ... < insert here all the good compliments in the world > cuz they all applies to you ! Know that you’re so special and such a light a sunshine wherever you are and go , you always spread so much positivity and good energy and love and compassion and you support every single people your way comes along with and you shown so much respect and love and understanding ! Always with a wise and thoughtful mind and with the right words at you using them with so much care and mining fullness ! And your blog i love love love it the b&w aesthetic and your love for it owns my heart !! I adore your posts so much ( or ramblings or thoughts as you may call them but know they are so so much more than that its a way of yours to express yourself and open up and pour every feeling you experience and many people found themselves and feel with you , I find myself in them and resonate with them every time ! ahh and your tags that you write in every post are sooo sweet and cute i could read them all day long just coming on your blog and read them makes my day so much better ) they are such a good way to brighten your day and they put a smile on my face whenever i see you on my dash truly a blessing to have you here! Never forget how unique and special human being you are and every one who has you in their lives are very blessed to have you ! Never change being this beautiful inside and out but most importantly inside ! literally a tresure your soul is and must be protected at all cost so take very good care of it ! Don’t forget to always do what makes you happy and gives joy and peace and just you know that good feeling you have in your chest and heart whenever you do something you love and like with passion and joy. I could say so much more but maybe I’ll repeat myself cuz there are never enough compliments to say about how wonderful person you are! you deserve every single one of them ! I really meant every word i said from the bottom of my heart and know that i really apreciate and love all you do and I’ll be here to support you anytime! You deserve the absolute world and more!! love you Cille! ♡ Okey bye✿

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-> From: @robbesdriesen (Bianca)

Cille ~ such a lovely presence to see on my dash always!! Your support towards everyone in the fandom is more than appreciated and so is your love that you continuously aim to spread <3

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-> From: @happilyinsane (Dharaa)

Hey Cille 💕

Just wanted to say that I think you are really sweet and lovely. I see you everywhere on the tumblr. Wanna thank you for keeping this fandom alive during the drought and keep us entertained. I see your tags on people's posts and I always feel like you are so kind and sweet to spend your time appreciating people's work. Doesn't matter if its a photo or an edit or whatever. You are so nice to pay attention to everyone individually. You are such a good friend/mutual, always appreciating and sliding into their asks and just making their day a lil bit better. You definitely bring so many smiles on our faces. I am sure everyone is very thankful to have you in this fandom, I know I am.

I know we haven't interacted that much but thank you for sliding into my asks and giving me an opportunity to interact with you. You are the sweetest, baby. And I hope you like this whole thing that Rodrigo is doing, because you definitely deserve it. Keep lighting up our dashes with your posts, pls. Ilysm 💕

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-> From: @theflowerisblue (Lola)

Cille! You’re such a present part of the tag! You’re always interacting and posting and I love reading what you have to say. Your music analysis are so interesting and I also think you’re really funny! I love your black and white aesthetic and most of all I love how supportive and positive you’re towards everyone!

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-> From: @fvae (Fae)

hi cille!! I'm really glad to have met you through this fandom and I hope you like the surprise!! I loved to read your song analysis because they're always on point and well thought of👌 💯  and your edits!! *chef's kiss*

sending you lots of love and hugs 💕💖💫

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-> From: @embeddedinmybrain (Tasfia)

Hi Cille! You are just a ray of sunshine!! And you are the sweetest and kindest person here. I loved following through with your wtfock music analysis posts bc everything you felt is exactly what I felt. They made me really emotional!! And of course I (and Sarah and Fae) appreciate your tags for moyo season so much. We wait for them and we read them to each other and we just love seeing your reactions to it. Your edits are incredibly amazing too and I love the colouring in them. You are just an amazing sweetheart and I’m so glad to know you 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕

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-> From: @veerledejaegers (Soph)

Cille, you are very friendly and sweet, always insightful and seem like an incredibly lovely person that i hope i can get to know better ❤️(also love the black and white aesthetic)

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-> From: @sanderxrobbee (Semri)

Cilleeeeeeeeeeee loml!!!! Merry Christmas to you! I genuinely wish you all the best and I hope you get to spend all the holidays in the best way possible! You’re such a blessing to this fandom because you’re talented in every single way, whether it’s your writing or your godly Photoshop skills, oh and let’s not forget your dedication because you’re there all the time to brighten our days and make us smile. I haven’t known you for long, but I truly love and appreciate all you do and I’m grateful that you always take the time to compliment everything and everyone. You have no idea how much it makes me smile when you say my gifs are good because I’ve yet to learn a lot, but you are seriously one of the biggest reasons I haven’t given up the second something got too complicated. Where am I going with this? No idea. Anyway, I adore the fuck out of you and I’m happy to take part in this “project” because you really deserve all the love in the world. Once again, happy holidays!

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-> From: @hopelessromanticvirgo (Elene)

Talking about you Cille is making me always so emotional but I will try my best not to burst out from love and emotions. You’re one of the sweetest person here and I will never get tired of saying that.

We haven’t talked that much directly but I don’t need that to know you’re one of the greatest person here, I just know that for sure. I’m also sure about it because I can see the way you treat people? Even speaking about your tags? Like you take the time out of your day to make sure everybody gets love and everybody gets attention. You make all of us smile and I adore your tags on my stories. You can’t even imagine how many times I have reread your posts about it, like I crave it, I’m in love with it, it makes me feel so happy and so loved and I’m certain that everybody else feels the same way too. You always know how to make everybody’s day better and how to make them feel special.

And please, don’t even get me started on your posts! Your song analysis. Like I know I’ve told you this thousands of times before but I don’t care, I’m saying it again! The way you pictured and described all those songs and scenes!!! Like wow! I’d always reread your posts about that one specific scene after rewatching the season countless of times. (And you also did so many scenes!! I’m in awe and I’m emo from just thinking about it)

Watching clips were different but reading them with lyrics were a whole other thing. I just felt so connected with the whole story and scenes when I’d ready your posts. And connect scenes with the music and it was the best thing ever. Sometimes I still go back and reread some of my favorite posts of yours. I never get tired of it.

And you’re so kind and so sweet that I could write essays about it! Such a blessing to this world! I just love you a lot okay? Everybody needs somebody like you, somebody who shines from kindness and love and people around you must be so lucky who get to meet you everyday and talk to you!

Thank you so much for everything you do, for being you and for making my day better and making me smile every time you reblog my posts or every time I just see your username on my dashboard! It’s such a small gesture but means so much!

Thank you for existing, babe! I hope you’re gonna have a wonderful day! And I’m sending you the biggest hug and my positive vibes! I hope a smile never leaves your face! And I only wish the best things up onto you! I love you! ❤️❤️❤️

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-> From: @itubainaretro (Esther)

Cille, my queen!!! Hi, sweetheart! Just dropping by to say that I hope you’re having a good day, despite the situation that the world is in, and that you’re feeling happy, loved, cherished and warm today, because you’re you and you deserve to feel all the best feelings in the world! I wish you all the happiness in the world and that all your wishes come true too, because you sure deserve it! Thank you for being this amazing, inspiring, talented and sweet person that you are and that I’ve come to know a little bit in the past few months! I know we don’t exactly talk that much, but I want you to know that I love seeing you, your beautiful edits and your extremely heart warming “moments that live in my head rent free” posts on my dash daily! They all really make my days! Thank you for sharing your posts with us and making this fandom (and the world, honestly) a better place! You’re amazing and I’m really glad I pressed the follow button the day I did when I started following you! I hope this little message makes you smile today, babe! Best wishes and lots and lots of love,

Esther (itubainaretro) ♥️

PS: don’t forget to hydrate yourself, wear a mask and stay safe haha xxxx.

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-> From: @driesendotkom (Marie)

Dear cille,

the reason i‘m writing this is to simply say thank you. thank you for being such a stable part of the fandom. every time i go into the tag i know i will see you there and it makes me smile every time. i can’t tell you how many hours i spent reading every one of your song analysis. even now a year after season 3 ended i find myself going back to them now and then to reminisce and relive those moments all over again.

i also want to say thank you for being such a kind and welcoming person. you care so much about the people you are close to. you are so easy to talk to and you make the people around you feel comfortable instantly. you brought a little bit of hygge into my life and one more time i want to say thank you 💛

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-> From: @driesenrobbe (Becca)

my dear, sweet, cille! you never fail to make me smile and im beyond happy that we became mutuals! im sure i’ve already said this a million times before but you really do have the biggest heart and i couldn’t thank you enough for all the love and support you constantly share to everybody in the wtfock fandom. plus the talent you possess... girllllll i love seeing your edits and reading your posts (honestly your mind is just wowowowow, it’s on a whole other level of incredible and i hope you know just how wonderful you are). also the way you always write entire essays in the tags of other posts... like you really do take the time to make everyone feel so welcomed and loved, and I’m sending you an infinite amount of love and appreciation in return! you really are the sweetest, most caring person who deserves all the happiness in the world, an actual ray of sunshine! i hope you know how loved and cherished you are, and that good vibes are always being sent your way. Many hugs and kusjes, ilysm!!!! <3

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-> From: @mijnlief (Eline)

Dear Cille,

This year has been a weird one, but I do know that it has also been one of the best because of meeting you. In such a short time we became so close, and I am so grateful to have met you during these weird times. We are so alike in many ways and I love that so much. Our Skype conversations are my favorite and the essays you send me about my writing and just about me being me always make me feel happy and loved. You are the kindest and most generous person ever. I hope you know how special you are. I am so proud of you for everything you have achieved this year and for choosing yourself in situations where it got hard to make a choice in the first place. I know I tell you that everyday, but it doesn’t hurt to say it again right here. I hope this post makes you smile, because you deserve that so much for just being who you are. You bring happiness to all of my days and I can’t wait to hug you one day soon when everything in the world calms down again. I love you lots! 🧡 Eline

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-> From: @onzeziggy (Laurien)

My sweetest Cille, where do I even begin? I suggest we should just begin from the very beginning and I’m sorry in advance if this is going to be a long, sappy text! But now that I have the chance (shout out to Rodrigo) for saying everything I want, I’m not able to tell you how long this will take.

So Cille, I still remember very clearly the first time I saw your account appearing on my dash. It was a music analysis from one of the songs from season 3. I was so amazed by it, because I could imagine how much time it takes to make it and observe every little detail in a single clip. I immediately fell in love with the concept of it and one week later, when you posted another one, my mouth dropped to the floor. Another music analysis? From the same person? Who is she and how do I become her friend? After that second post, I immediately started following you and became your little fangirl. I don’t lie when I say I was waiting every week for a new update of your incredible music analysis nor when I say I loved every single one of them (and still do). I know I already said this a million times, but your words of telling what was going on in every clip, about the emotions present in them, and how the music blended all of it together… No one, and I mean no one could have done it any better! I will forever be grateful for those posts and I want to thank you once again for wanting to share them and your talent with us!

After the music analysis adventure, your picture edits catched my eye. I love them so so much and I also took some creation of it for making some myself. Still, I was this little fangirl, knowing your name is Cille, but also wanting to know so much more about the person behind one of my favorite blogs. And now, during this hiatus, I can say I’ve got to know you and I couldn’t be any happier about it! Starting with little comments in each other’s tags, having little chats in the comment sections to screaming about a possible drawing of Robbe from Sander on their one year anniversary. And look at us now, reblogging almost every post and writing essays in each other’s tags hahah! Honestly, it keeps me alive during these times and I’m so glad I can do this together with you! I live for your attacks! Aaaah now that I’m talking about an attack, the fact that you have a dimples post ready is making me so excited and I think about it every day! We both know what’s important in love and life and that’s Robbe’s dimples! But this right here shows once again what an amazing sweet person you are! No one on here has ever done anything like this for me before, so I can’t thank you enough for this and all the other things you did and still do for me! And the privilege I have to be able to call you my friend warms my heart <33

I’m going to end this with a little quote Robbe wrote in one of his Instagram posts. When I read it again a couple of days ago, I immediately thought of you and what we’ve been through together the last few weeks :’)) Once again, thank you so much for everything you do for me and for everyone here in this fandom and being the amazing person you are! You deserve the whole world for it!

“Sometimes it’s like we just met yesterday, but other days it seems like I already know you my whole life, I love you Cille!” <33

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I hope you enjoyed this💛 If you didn't know this community loved you yet (and I don't think that was possible), now you definetly do.

Extra: I'd like to thank once again everyone that took part it this surprise, you are all the sweetest for taking some time to write this and to help me with it! Thank you so so much✨

[topconfessions]

i'm so sick of TOP's "edgy" IG updates... i became a VIP only a year ago and TOP has always been my favourite. even though i realised pretty quickly how weird he's, i kinda kept giving him numerous "second chances"... but i just can't with him anymore. idk what's up with his strange posts, like dude, u r not even that interesting anymore... everyone is crazy abt 4th gen now and oh, right BTS. if any of them posted weird photo edits or alpaca pictures, within an hour there'd be a fuck ton of comments and various articles with theories on what this could possibly mean... but TOP, no one except very loyal VIPs gives a shit anymore. i wonder if he's really so delusional that he doesn't understand this

Exactly how I feel. All respect I actually feel bad for you cause you missed the best of TOP that we grew up with and got to see unfold but as he communicated in a magazine once that was a manufacturered image for him. Now we see this insta behavior is who he always was as a person and honestly if I ever knew or had an inclination of him being this way back then I would have stanned Seungri instead and not wasted a good chunk of my life devoted to supporting TOP. The worst thing he ever did was give into peer pressure and GD with making IG. IG ruined him. If he never joined and still had that HSH scandal it would have all went much smoother with the public actually possibly defending him.

To me objectively speaking, I feel TOP is why idols need to be manufactured and controlled but also a cautionary tale of What happens when too much of that is going on and mental health help isn't available.

I agree with you 10000% TOP ruined himself and yeah please do followers. To the followers please don't send an ask telling me I'm an anti and I hate top or why is it top confessions when its anti top. Just like this anon we've given so much and stuck in there but are beyond burnt out on trying to understand. The only other celebrity who has this crazy behavior on IG I can think of John Cena and a lot of people low-key say he's strange and very robotic his damn self. But he is honest about the purpose of his blog that he will post shit that represents something without context, caption or interpretation for us to "enjoy" while top handles this insta like tumblr knowing damn well his IG is a mixture of industry professionals and peers following him and fans. Doing things forcefully to seem vague and edgy.

If this was anyone else of any race he or she would be cancelled and deemed disturbed.

And I feel Taeyang is the only one aging well. Daesung sure. Throw him in too. The other 3 look worn out as hell. Tops looks aren't enough for me any more and he doesn't do anything professionally for me to stay connected. Aging is natural and will happen but his face is showing the signs are decent still but I can see he really is age and not in a flattering way. Smoking is going to age him faster and the drinking.

He could have been Koreas George Clooney but look what happened.

And yes he is delusional and doesn't realize now that like you said minus these loyal fans who haven't grown and left, nobody cares nor gives a damn about what he does. Taeyang has all the happiness now cause he was just normal and allowed happiness to come into his life.

This is why I feel Mark Grotahjn is a sugar daddy or fake friend. He is an enabler to tops place right now.

I still believe Kim Woobin is where TOP somehow thought he was going and deserved to be.