#idk when will my life begin

[maenimalist]

thoughts

[spookberry]

Idiot to Idiot communication

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

[chronicowboy]

obsessed with the absence of eddie in buck centric episodes. like i can't explain it very well so this is going to sound incoherent but bear with me here. episodes focused on buck's trauma are always so tightly tied to family, his biological family and the scars they left him with both physical and mental. buck begins and in another life are so heavy on the family of it all and it speaks fucking volumes that in both of these episodes eddie has one scene that sets him apart from everyone else. in buck begins it's the like five second exchange of "i had to do it/i know you did" and in in another life it's eddie being unable to look at buck in the hospital bed. and fuck i don't really know how to explain it without saying things i've said a hundred times before but it's carving eddie out of the family that hurt buck so badly and setting him in his own little category. it's eddie being family outside of the biological barely-a-family buckley family, but it's also eddie being family within the wider 118 family. it's a sanctuary of sorts. buck has the buckleys, buck has maddie as both his mother and sister, buck has bobby, he has hen and chim, he has eddie and the rest of the 118. but buck also has eddie and chris as an entirely separate entity. a family full of trauma (tsunamis and ladder trucks and bullets and lightning bolts) but a family that provides refuge from it rather than causes it. at first it seems odd for eddie to be so absent in those episodes when he's such a huge part of buck's life (and when buck plays such a big part in eddie centric episodes like eddie begins and fear-o-phobia) but it's eddie taking a step back and saying i know you aren't sure of where you fit in because you've struggled with family all your life but we're here, i'm here, whenever you're ready to come home we'll be waiting.

[cove-simp]

When the Baxter DLC drops…

[klanced]

this isn’t even about my evil agenda anymore I actually just need to hear your dissertation on voltron/klance x first love late spring

you do evil things to my dick and balls. i hope you know that.

first love / late spring is a very keith-core song, but i think it also applies to both keith and lance... but more specifically, FL/LS is keith pre-relationship, and then FL/LS is lance once they have already started dating.

i'm obsessed with that one interview of mitski where she explained that she wrote this song while she was experiencing her vulnerable first love... and first love is vulnerable. you simultaneously reap the rewards of being known but at the same time, you've now let someone else know you, and now you have to trust them to take care of you. and it's so vulnerable. it's more naked than being naked. and it's so difficult as well because now you're learning a brand new way you can be hurt.

so keith, pre-relationship... he's pining for lance and he is MISERABLE. he's lost control! he feels like he's being consumed by the enormity of his feelings. he's eight years old and small and never asked for this, he never wanted to know he could feel this way. he just wants lance to fucking go already. keith wants to spit vitriol and blame and shame and drive lance away so that when lance leaves him (and he will leave him, like everyone else has), then at least it will be on keith's own terms for once. and keith doesn't, he refuses, to say how he feels. he'll spitefully choke on his confession until it suffocates him. he doesn't want to know what lance might say.

but he also is afraid of lance's reaction because... if lance gives him even a sliver of ground, if there's even a promise of a chance -- keith will fold instantly. he will jump into this love headfirst. he'll do anything if it will make lance stay with him.

and then lance, mid-established relationship... things with keith are perfect, everything is going great, so why does lance feel so anxious all the time? why does he feel so scared when keith looks at him like he's his whole world? maybe the problem is lance. because what they have is real. because he's pretty sure keith is it for him. and that terrifies lance. because lance, deep down, knows he's going to screw this up. and it's not just his heart on the line; he's also going to hurt keith.

keith smiles at him and lance feels sick to his stomach. he wants to tell keith that they might be happy right now, but eventually, lance is going to ruin this. he wants to warn keith that lance is going to break his heart one day.

lance isn't always so negative about himself. during the day, it's easy to let himself be buoyed and enveloped by his feelings for keith. he loves being in love with keith. because the love is real. it's real, and it's there, and that matters. but at night, all those poisonous insecurities and anxieties rear their ugly head, and lance finds himself standing on a ledge over a drop. lance daydreams about spending the rest of his life with keith; lance has never felt so young and small.

[hotmilf45-xxx]

I've had this idea for a way post game Eugene (imagine like in his mid twenties early thirties) but haven't tried to draw it until now, whoops

Anyway, he's finally got prescription glasses because I don't think the sunglasses he had were, but wear's clip on sunglasses still because of light sensitivity issues

[cornerful]

It's newsletter time babey!!

I've some catching up to do 🏃‍♂️

I basically ended up taking a complete hiatus from tumblr for several months when my migraines got real bad last year. And then things, as things do, kept on happening. Bastards.

I haven't looked much at the tag yet and I still have to catch up with the first five? Chapters and relearn the ropes so to speak, but hopefully I'll see some familiar faces around this year, and new ones 👀

Last time I couldn't get to the end but what I did get through was a lot of fun and the best part was what everyone else was saying and drawing and discussing! That's what I missed the most, was talking and joking with everyone. Lotr is probably my Favorite Story, and to have this in-time community readthrough is such a treasure. As usual, three cheers for @sindar-princeling for organizing. It's a hell of a feat 😁

I'm arriving uh...Precisely When I Mean To ;] but here's to a great year! 💚🍻

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[dizzybevvie]

If I die within the next week know it wasnt an accident

[aro-culture-is]

aro culture is taylor swift's midnight rain

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[karamazovanon]

thought about raskolnikov while listening to car seat headrest incident 39 dead 18407 injured

[valiantroyalty]

@coronianfriends

hand kisses (from Eugene for Rapunzel)

A smile curled on the blonde’s face as she felt her hand being taken. Her eyes are slow to open at feeling lips pressed to her knuckles with soft kisses. She’s just waking up from a nap. “Mm, hi,” she greeted quietly as she turned the taken hand over to cup Eugene’s face. Fingers caressed his cheek, her touch soft.

“Did you know this is an effective method of waking someone up?” She’s half teasing as her smile widened into a grin.

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

[candied-cae]

I've been trying to figure out how to say it for weeks, but:

The title of the show being "Our Flag Means Death" + Lucius's Line "What if it's not a Death? What if life just begins again?" = The Revenge has always been, and will always be, a safe haven for her crew.

All those aboard are not held to the rules of their lives before, they are not pushed to fulfill expectations or assumptions or pressures from the rest of the world.

They are allowed to sing and dance and laugh and cry and create and love and be every little bit of themselves that they've ever been scared to be within her walls. When they board her deck, when they hoist her flag, when they accept their role as a member of her crew - she carries a promise.

A promise, that under her flag, their lives may begin again anew.

Her Flag Means Death, but a Death only to what was and a Beginning to what could be.

More OFMD

[chaotictomtom]

got teary eyes at a video abt a guy drawing dannygonzalez 100 times bc i got emotional abt someone starting to draw and pushing through how hard and discouraging it can be like this dude started right away with portraits. portraits that need to look like the person. what a mad lad. anyway idk what's wrong with me i think the beauty of life and humanity and ppl trying out art and getting back up after failing got me a lil