#idk whether people tag it with the number or with it spelled out so might as well tag with Both

[tf2-trajector]

another random sketch :P I’m debating whether or not to redesign the trajector’s jacket, but also this could be a cosmetic instead? idk o-(-<

also a random fact, for some reason birds tend to like V, especially crows :-) there’s this one albino crow in particular that hangs around V a lot and she’s debating giving it a name to refer to in the future!

[wntersfire]

GET TO KNOW ME TAG GAME

Before I start I would just like to say (tw alcohol for now and question 19) sorry for any spelling mistakes or if I ramble a little. To cut a long fuckin story short I mis read the measurements of my shot glasses and so instead of having two cocktails I’ve had the equivalent of four in the space of an hour and a half. Being british, im not gonna let a good drink go to waste either so im onto my third/sixth now.

Tagged by @clints-lucky-arrow (an actual goddess among us mortals)

1. Why did you choose your URL?

So this reason is two-fold. One, I didn’t watch star wars growing up because I was dumb and didn’t understand the politics (it wasn’t until my boyfriend sat me down and explained it literally in January of this year that I actually got it) but I loved Sci-fi and space so the next best thing was Treasure Planet (2003 film, Available on didney+) My favourite scene is the ending when Long John Silver (spoilers) is about leave before he can be arrested and Jim confronts him. Seeing how much his character has grown, Silver says to Jim, “Look at you, glowing like a silver fire. You’re something special, Jim. You’re gonna rattle the stars, you are.” It literally makes me tear up every single time I watch it and its one of my favourite lines of all time. Second, this was actually quoted in one of my favourite book series ‘Throne of glass’ by Sarah J Maas. I adore the character of Celeana and again one of my favourite quotes from TOG is when Queen Elena says to Celeana“ You could rattle the stars. You could do anything, if only you dared.” Every time I read that line I literally get chills and I actually have plans to get this tattooed on me lmao

2. Any side blogs?

Yes my fanfic blog @second-stars-totheright (I like puns and I used to love peter pan)

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I joined when I was 13 for the fanfiction and lurked for a very long time, just reblogging and liking things until I deleted it when I was 17. Re downloaded the app and got my account back back around February of this year (when I was 19, now 20) and since then I’ve found it much friendlier and actually interacted with people this time around, and actually started posting my work on here!

4. Do you have a queueue tag?

No. This is my general postings blog so I just kind of stick anything funny or worth keeping here, but I probably should make one!

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

As I said to read fanfiction (anyone wondering it was 5 seconds of summer fanfiction. Anyone who judges me in the comments its fair game 🥺) but I re-downloaded it this year because I noticed with my work on Wattpad, while I had some do really well (one has gotten 130k+ views) its very difficult to actually interact with readers and get feedback. I’ve only accumulated that high of a number after 5 years of it being on there, and so tumblr is just so much more personal!

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I did it this morning as I was getting tagged in this lmao. I wanted a cartoon girl who looked like me but because I had a specific colouring (ie my hair is black with a blonde streak at the front & my eyes have both blue and green segments because I have heterochromia) I couldn’t find any that looked like me so I recoloured a cartoon girl I found on pinterest.

7. Why did you choose you header?

The white clouds fit the stars theme and it looks pretty with the purple. ✨💜

8. Whats your post with the most notes?

“That girl is a problem | Javier Pena x Agent!Reader part 1” with 105 notes on my fanfic blog.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I am still a little tumblr idiot when it comes to this so if someone could tell me how to find out I'll edit this

10. How many followers do you have?

72 on here, 107 on my fanfic blog (AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU ACROSS BOTH OF THEM MWAH, MWAH KISSES FOR YOU ALL 💜💜💜)

11. How many people do you follow?

165 (it was 700+ but the other day I unfollowed a bunch of accounts that haven’t been active since I followed them when I was 13. There were LOTS)

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

I mean all you have to do is look at the Nomad memes I make (UNAPOLOGETICALLY I might add 😤) for @clints-lucky-arrow to know I absolutely have. That series has a hold over me im telling you. I black out when I start reading and I awake with a bunch of meme editing apps open and my feelings tugged at from her amazing writing.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

If I’m with my boyfriend which is like two days a week, rarely, but now I’ve finished uni, I’m on here all the god damn time. I feel so comfy and safe interacting with you all, not to mention some of you guys are funny as hell.

14. Did you have a fight with a blog once?

Not really on here, I haven’t received any hate luckily but I prefer not to spoil how comfy I am here with arguing.

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to re-blog this’ posts?

I’m a little confused by this I dunno whether I’ve just never come across any like this or if Stars is being a bimbo on the tl again. However, I only reblog things I’d like to keep for future reference or if something deserves to be shared to everyone else like a fic rec or a piece of art. (As Mack said, I’ve re-blogged so many in the past promising me money or luck and I am still broke as shit so what does that tell you).

16. Do you like tag games?

Yes!! I love reading everyone elses and getting to know my mutals better!

17. Do you like ask games?

Again yesss because it means I get to send love to my mutuals and get to know them better! I tend to not participate though just read their responses because I sometimes feel like I’m bugging people clogging their inboxes even though I know that’s the point idk I’m a hell of an over thinker sometimes 🥳

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

It’s been said before but @clints-lucky-arrow (wow you rlly owning this post bby girl) but I just remember lurking on Nomad early February and liking and reblogging her chapters so I could keep them to re-read cause that’s how much I instantly loved it and when she followed me I realised who she was and lowkey had a starstruck moment bcus id been ciaght up in her work for weeks and too nervous to make contact. Also @arduadastra, I saw her work all over the pedro tags for so long and now I’ve gotten to know her she is the sweetest girl!! We usually fan over Javier Pena gifs together, she’s solely responsible for ‘That girl is a problem’ bcus of her gif sending at 1am giving me Javi thots and now it’s my most successful one on my blog. And most recently @pedrosgirlx followed me this morning and her work is genuinely some of the best I've seen on here, as I said this morning it is the Sistine Chapel ceiling of Mando art it is actually jaw dropping!! I cant believe all these creators are rlly giving us this content for free and yet being so talented AND the nicest people I’ve ever met!!

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No, although I hold a lot of them dearly as friends. 15/10 would treat you lovelies to a drink of your choice if we ever met (any of you from the uk who drink I’d get you a pitcher from Whetherspoons)

20. Absolutely no pressure tags:

anyone who wants to join! a lot of people I would have tagged have already posted theirs so go for it if you like the look of it!

[yukipri]

OKAY! So I saw your very pretty picture of that Thatch guy and read the tags and was wondering how a dark version of him would work in mer au? Because I have only just gotten up to water 7 I have no idea who he is other than what i have read in fics and your tags sparked my interest. Who is this man and what devil fruit is that and why would him being dark! Be a bad thing? Or an interesting thing? Idk. Long ask short who the fuck is that pretty man called Thatch? I like him already

OhhhhHH man, I guess the question here is, how okay are you with being spoiled? Bc in order to answer your question, I’d need to put some MAJOR, MAJOR spoilers.

Actually, if you’re already at Water 7 (and gosh damn are Water 7-Enies Lobby AMAZING arcs ;A;), you’ll understand a lot better if you can get through that first!

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND that you first finish the Water 7/Enies Lobby arc first before reading the following part beneath the cut, because this power shows up in action for the first time after that. If you want exact numbers, that’s anime episode 325 and manga chapter 441.

Explanation of Thatch and Yami Yami Fruit under cut!

＊This explanation assumes that the reader doesn’t know who Thatch is, and isn’t familiar with events in OP canon beyond the Banaro Island duel.

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Unfortunately, we see very little of Thatch in canon (I don’t think he even has any spoken lines?), so you’ll be a bit disappointed in that regard, but explanation on that below.

But the devil fruit power. The Yami Yami (Darkness) Fruit is probably going to be the endgame last boss power that Luffy will have to fight at the end of the series.

You may recall, but when Ace met up with Luffy in Alabasta, he mentioned that he’s been tracking someone called “Blackbeard,” who used to be a member of the Whitebeard pirates, before he murdered one of their crew and left.

The crew member who was murdered? That was the Fourth Division Commander of the Whitebeard Pirates: Thatch.

We don’t know too much about Thatch in canon, unfortunately. He was a cook. He was a Division Commander, which means he was strong, and had a position of leadership and responsibility. He’s been with the Whitebeards for a LONG time (a kid who might be him shows up in the Oden flashback in more recent manga chapters). He was the first Whitebeard pirate to befriend Ace (we get to see more of this in the Ace spin-off novel), and we can assume that they were close though we don’t get to see too much of their interactions.

The reason why Thatch was murdered? He found the Yami Yami fruit. And in the Whitebeard pirates, there’s a rule that whoever finds a devil fruit has the right to eat it; that fruit belongs to them. Which means, while we’ll unfortunately never know whether Thatch ever planned on eating the fruit, it was his right to do so, which was why a dark!Thatch AU makes sense; it’s a spin off from this point, a what-if he had eaten it instead of getting killed scenario.

But alas. Thatch is murdered the night he finds the fruit, because Blackbeard recognized the fruit as the one he’s been looking for, and was willing to kill a former crew mate for it. Blackbeard eats the fruit, making him one of the most (if not THE most) powerful person in the OP universe.

The Yami Yami Fruit is still a fruit that’s shrouded in mystery, and we certainly don’t know everything about it yet (and probably won’t know till closer to the end of the series bc again, I personally feel that he’s been set up to be the final last boss).

But we see its powers in action for the first time in the Ace vs Blackbeard duel on Banaro island after the Enies Lobby arc. You don’t need me to spell out everything the power does, there’s a wikia page for that, but it’s WEIRD, and interacts weirdly with other devil fruits. WARNING, that if you read said wikia page you’ll likely get MAJOR SPOILERS for the Summit War arc, so again if you care about spoilers, I wouldn’t read it until you’re done with that ^ ^;

So that’s on Thatch and the Devil Fruit in canon. The following is Thatch in the Mermaid AU specifically.

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This is kinda just re-hashing things from other posts, but in this AU, the canon-divergence for Thatch occurs when he temporarily leaves the Whitebeard pirates. Which again, is a result of Ace not joining the Whitebeard pirates at all in this AU, since he’s going to head back to Dawn Island so he can form a crew with Luffy. Thatch decides to tag along for a lot of reasons, including because he wants to meet Luffy, but certainly not limited to that. You can read more of Thatch and the Whitebeard pirates’ reasoning for letting him go in this story post. As mentioned in the canon stuff about him, it makes sense to me that Thatch is the one who accompanies Ace out of any of the other Whitebeards bc they’re close, and he doesn’t have first mate duties like Marco.

In canon, Thatch finds the Yami Yami fruit and brings it back to the Moby Dick, where Blackbeard hears about it, which triggers all the events leading not just to Thatch’s death, but much, MUCH more. I don’t know how much of the Summit War you know, but I personally feel that Blackbeard never getting the chance to eat the Yami Yami fruit kinda skews that whole arc too, and pretty much everything else. Despite having such a minor role in canon, Thatch actually plays a massive role as a trigger in the over-arching plot of the OP story (Thatch deserves to be a D for that LMAO).

ANYWAY, in the Mermaid AU, Thatch finds the Yami Yami Fruit AFTER leaving the Whitebeards, on their journey backwards through the Grandline back to Dawn Island. The only people there with him when he finds it are Ace and Deuce. Blackbeard doesn’t even find out about Thatch finding it until looooong after it’s already been eaten.

So that’s how we get “Dark!Thatch” in this AU. As for whether the devil fruit actually can affect his personality? It’s all just me imagining what it might be like for a guy like Thatch to have eaten the fruit, and is not at all based on canon, bc Blackbeard’s already a pretty twisted guy long before he had the fruit. And again, we don’t know everything about the fruit even in canon, so a lot is just me guessing as well.

I hope this sorta explained Thatch and the devil fruit better!

❀ ❀ Send YukiPri an Ask! ❀ ❀

~This ask has been added to the Mermaid AU Text Headcanons Compilation post~

[imacrowcawcaw]

Treasure Ch. 1 (Penntin)

(Ao3)

Pairing: “Penny” Adiyodi/Quentin Coldwater, past Penny/Pearl Sunderland, past Quentin/Alice Quinn, background Margo & Eliot

Fandom: The Magicians (TV)

Length of series: who knows

Warnings/tags: magic (like duh), universe alterations, canon divergence (obviously), spells gone wrong, magic rituals, slow build, enemies to friends to lovers, first kiss, first time, snuggling and cuddling, Penny is very physically affectionate believe it or not, attempted humor, fluff, angst, smut, happy ending

Summary: 

Quentin fucks up a spell (Penny may or may not have also helped/hindered).

Quentin is the reason Penny can’t see unless he’s hugging him and also why everything smells like the Bog of Eternal Stench.

Quentin’s run-amuck brain brings all sorts of problems to the table.

Quentin is starting to make Penny feel funny in his chest (and his pants). 

Fuck Quentin, man.

Author’s Notes: I’m nearly through season one and am also not willing to put in hours of research on this universe’s magical rituals, so -- keep that in mind, I guess. That being said, I am in LOVE with this show and also this pairing. 78 stories on ao3?!? Fair, but sad…. I am falling hard and fast for Penntin (idk the ship name). So I had to write out everything in my brain. So here. Plays off of some the other fics on here, particularly “Practical applications of falling in love” -- kudos to you, @echomoon, that was amazing and I can’t stop thinking on the concept!! 

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The smell was everywhere. It burned through Penny’s nose like it had a personal vendetta against every single one of his nostril hairs (which, it had been kindly pointed out a few years ago by a bitch who will remain unnamed, numbered quite a few. Especially visible when underneath him, which almost everyone was in this apparent plane of Hobbits. Right, moving on. Bitch.)

He covered his nose with his hands, then the scarf wrapped loosely around his neck - purple silk, today - but the smell just kept coming and coming until he was nearly choking. 

In the back of his mind, Penny could feel the waves of panic, frustration, and disgust coming off of Quentin fucking Coldwater in a mixture much similar to what he was feeling. More panic, or course, cause the guy was a walking circus accident, and some various streams of babbling mind diarrhea lamenting about the awful smell. Surprisingly, the guy had a vocabulary Penny could almost be impressed by. But he was much more focused on himself and his dying nose, no matter how insistent Quentin’s feelings were.

And Penny would like to point out that he never willingly associated with that geek. It was always outside forces convening to push them together, whether in a study group or room assignments or the weird-ass plot against their lives that somehow connected Mothman and cursed daggers and creepy pedaphilic authors (that he would have liked to punch in the face).

Of course, that ever-present, invisible asshole (fate, god, the Dean; what did he care?) pushed them together yet again with more disastrous results. 

Like them being together in the same room at all.

Like them being paired up to do spell work.

Like them fucking it up. 

The disastrous fucking results he just knew were going to happen were, apparently, this smell. He had scented some pretty bad (literal) shit in his lifetime, but nothing compared to the absolute atrocity that was Quentin bungling a simple ass locator spell. 

“Oh, my god!”

And that was the fucking idiot, desperately clutching his ever-present baggy shirt over his face like it would do some good against it. Magical stenches did not, as it appeared, let themselves be blocked out so easily. 

Penny rolled his eyes - watering like a baby’s, he might add - and made his way over to a window on the backside of the class, pounding at the frame with his fist when it wouldn’t fucking budge. 

Stupid Quentin, going and burning his nose because he couldn’t fucking concentrate on anything other than Alice’s tits. Bet he had something to do with the stuck window, too. 

“Come ON, fucking open!” Penny muttered. 

He was desperate for fresh air. He would beg and cry if he had to - his eyes were already crying, and also did he mention fuck this? - but he just needed this goddamn window to open up, so if he could just get the latch to jiggle a little more to the left-

Aha! Fresh air!

Penny stuck his head out of the window and breathed in deeply, opening his mouth as wide as it would go like a dog on a car ride. He gulped and drank in the life-giving oxygen -- but, but it was-

“-ON’T PENNY! GET AWAY FROM THERE!”

Ugh, Quentin. Trust him to fuck up not only the air inside the classroom but the whole fucking campus as well. He would have to be funding the entire infirmary at this point. 

Sighing (and then retching), Penny pulled back to shut the window and noticed something real fucking peculiar. And creepy. 

Either he had been blinded by the horrible smell - and it was that bad, he wasn’t immediately discounting the theory - or a thick fucking fog had rolled in while Penny wasn’t paying attention. Cause he couldn't see anything. All across his field of vision was grey -- actually, it was more of a murky blue than grey, and it was moving at a surprising speed for having no conceivable end to it. And it was so thick (like Quentin, god Penny was going to fucking kill him).

“Penny! Please get away from the window!”

Quentin was pleading with him now, and Penny almost felt bad about how scared he sounded -- not entirely, though; that voice crack was hilarious. Idiot fucking deserved to be scared. Look what he had done!

He turned around to tell him just that, except for, uh, he couldn’t see him. The fog was in the room. 

The podium near Penny’s left side was a vaguely visible outline, and the front lab table even less so -- man, don’t even get him started on the desks and chairs. There was nothing. He could be in Fillory for all he knew- oh. Hell to the fucking no.

“Quentin!” He roared, “Where the fuck are we?!”

“Wh- what do you mea-- here! We’re in class! Where the hell are you?”

So that was a relief, if a disappointing one (those were called oxymorons, right? Fits. Quentin was a moron who was causing him to run out of fucking oxygen.)

“I’m by the window, dumbass! Trying to get some fresh fucking air, cause you fucking destroyed it all and replaced it with dog shit!”

This is worse than dog shit.

Oh god-fucking-damn. He did not need Quentin’s thoughts right now. Penny carefully moved forward, sweeping one foot in an arch across his path before he stepped down. 

He figured Quentin was doing the same, because he heard the rambling oh fuck what was that where am I where’s Penny I’m such an idiot oh my god was that a rat streaming through his head as Coldwater, clearly, let all his wards down in an effort to fully concentrate on navigation and breathing. 

This once, Penny couldn’t quite blame him for devoting all of his energy to the task at hand instead of blocking him off -- but it was still annoying. He was so good at concentrating and yet Quentin managed to get into his brain clear as glass. And he was so fucking annoying. 

“Fuck, Coldwater! Shut the hell up!” Penny sighed and paused, running a hand over his hair. The waves of panic were increasing. “Just stay where you are and I’ll come to you. But stop thinking, please.”

“Yeah, okay- oh! Ow, fuck…”

There was a loud crash and then Quentin's pained noises as he clearly ran into some sort of furniture. Penny sighed again. What idiot had let this guy anywhere near a spellbook? (Nevermind how powerful he occasionally was -- that didn’t make up for stupidity.)

Penny breathed deeply - the one meditation practice he admitted could help, if only to calm him down - and kept making his slow way across the room. He was pretty sure that he was in the center of the room now, but he also knew that not being able to see made distances seem much longer than they were. 

He took another step and ended up tripping over the same goddamn chair Quentin had apparently ran into, because his body landed on another guy’s that made a pathetic “ow” noise again. 

“Jesus Christ, Quent, you could of at least picked yourself back up off of… the…. floor,” he slowly trailed off, looking around. 

There was no more fog. There was no more burning smell. The classroom was exactly like it was before they had started the chant -- empty desks and chairs left behind by all the people who didn’t have slow idiot’s for lab partners, wood paneling that tried and failed to look classy, and the front lab table covered in various magical instruments. 

“What the hell?”

Quentin sat up underneath him - as much as he could - rubbing his nose and sniffing deeply. Penny agreed. The air felt amazing, like a soothing balm on his poor, abused air canals. 

He quickly realized that there was still a geek that was responsible for all this mess half-lying on the floor underneath his body, and that someone could walk in at any moment. So that was un-fucking-desirable, in multiple ways (ugh, Quentin. Just thinking about him made Penny shudder.)

With a quick brace of his arms, Penny bolted upright and took several steps away from the nerd -- back into the fog and the awful smell. 

“Ah!”

He looked around, confused and pissed off. Was this some kind of joke the kid was trying to pull on him? 

Penny tried to do a simple fire spell, then again, and again; each time more desperately than the last. Nothing. It was like the fog was muting his magic -- it was curling in scarily tentacle-like clouds around his hands, engulfing them in dense smoke and snuffing out any sparks he could have produced. 

Now Penny was panicking a little. 

He was still mostly pissed off, mostly- extremely pissed at Quentin, possibly more than he ever had been before, and frustrated with just a twinge of panic at the absence of his magic; the opposite of the nervous nellie probably still huddled around a chair leg on the floor. 

Something grabbed at his foot, and, suddenly, the smell and fog had gone away again. He could breathe and see and there was a rather large flame coming from his hands, a culmination of the previously snuffed flames all working together to express his rage through fire. 

When he looked down, Quentin was actually clinging to his foot, not a chair, and looking very nervous. What was new. Penny tried to kick him off and succeeded after a moment, the blueness invading so suddenly he didn’t even notice the smell for a second. 

Then it was gone, again - he was gonna get whiplash from this shit - and Quentin was hugging his leg, again. This time he looked more sheepish than nervous, and it made Penny want to kick him in the face. 

(Ch. 2 on Tumblr)

“I, uh- I think that the fog and the smell only happens when we’re not touching each other.”

What. 

Well, it made sense considering the last three minutes of god dicking with the light switch - not to mention Quentin’s history of idiocracy and miss-castings, but-. Come on.

“Coldwater, I. Am. Going. To. Fucking. Kill. You.”

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(Ch. 2 on Tumblr)

[rugessnome]

I'm going to pretend @overlyelegantstranger tagged me... 1. Nickname: Mouse is my longstanding online nickname, and for a bit less, DT (for Darth Tenebrous, actually, given my URL) ...actually I spelled Adrien the way I did because I've an OC who shortens her (different) name to "Ien", but I haven't found it convenient to introduce, nor convinced myself it refers to me. 2. Zodiac sign: I'm supposedly a Taurus; actually the sun was in Aries at my birth, and while those often suit me in tumblr astrology, I resent the assigned nature of it all so uh... also no. 3. Height: Five four, maybe five foot five if I'm lucky and standing particularly straight 4. Hogwarts house: Mostly Ravenclaw, with some Slytherin sympathies and a newfound appreciation for Hufflepuff. I will actively resent Gryffindor colors unless you tell me they're actually Shuos (even though I would probably be a Nirai, if anything, in the hexarchate. But I love certain of my foxes.) and/or somehow Sith. 5. Last thing I googled: "Nebuchadnezzar poisoning", because @piermanwalter reminded me of an anecdote in The Disappearing Spoon about how the eating grass thing might have been prompted by inadvertent poisoning. I didn't remember which element; turns out it's lead AND antimony. 6. Favourite musicians: Idk; Over the Rhine are up there, and lately The Mountain Goats. I've also seen Belle & Sebastian and Camera Obscura in concert, so I suppose they're up there. Vienna Teng, Regina Spektor... This is an incomplete list. 7. Song stuck in my head: the phrasing of this question keeps putting some song I don't even really know that has "over my head, over my head" in it? But really it's OTR's "And Can It Ever Be?", with which I am a little obsessed anew, because: "This night is so dark/this night is silence, and very little fear/tell me that this welcome peace/isn't dancing with the ghost of future tears" 8. Following now: four hundred ish? I'm going to check and come back and edit. The vast majority of whom are inactive and/or not personal blogs. 9. Followers: I think this is around 500, although I am/may be long overdue for a purge of spam/porn blogs 10. Do I get asks: Mostly only when I ask for them. But occasionally. 11. Amount of sleep: I gravitate towards about 8 hours. I am practically nonfunctional normally on much less than 6, and lately, thanks to um... anxiety, even getting by on 6 is difficult. 12. Lucky number: ...in some ways π, in some ways e 13. What I’m wearing: Star Trek ~lounge pants I made from Enterprise/"Star Trek" print fabric, and an oversized t-shirt I got when I participated in a litter cleanup 14. Dream job: uhhh something involving as many as possible of: sci-comm, math or programming tasks, a result helpful to people, and maybe a bit of domestic travel now and again?? Idk, I seem to change my mind on this frequently and don't really have a good or set idea. 15. Dream trip: I think the idea I'm most into at the moment is one day, hoping the present situation doesn't actually end service for good, is riding the uh "Empire Builder" Amtrak route through the northern US. Aside from that, I recently went to West Virginia and western Pennsylvania and would enjoy going back and also I am (except for quarantine concerns) almost always up for a road trip to Michigan. 16. Favourite food: this is not something I am good at deciding. There are too many good ones. Something, such as I had for dinner, involving potatoes, corn tortillas, and some peppers and tomatoes (or tomatillos in something else) and cheese as seasoning is my idea of great comfort food. I appreciate a good meatloaf but I also really don't mind eating vegetarian meals on a regular basis, given they're something I like. 17. Instruments: um. I can kinda play a few pieces, with idiosyncratic timing, on keyboard/piano and that's about it. I don't fluently read music though I might be able to work through something in treble clef. I recently acquired a cheap ukulele but I am struggling with tuning it, or understanding how it's used in songs or... 18. Languages: rusty, at best I was almost capable of halting conversation, German and Spanish. I have the Duolingo Latin tree but I don't think it's um... that extensive. I have learned a little Russian and beyond that just... too many interests, without much time being devoted to any of them. 19. Favourite song: I'm into "And Can It Ever Be?" anew, as I said above; also more recently "Your Honor" and "Ghost of Corporate Future" off Soviet Kitsch (aand, a bit awkwardly, "Hotel Song"). "You Or Your Memory" "Dance Music" "This Year" and "Up the Wolves" (which is to say that basically the larger part of my album rotation lately is Soviet Kitsch, The Sunset Tree, and Till We Have Faces)... 20. Random fact: I have been watching retro computer repair videos lately (Adrian's Digital Basement esp) and they've made me kinda want to learn to solder. Though I'm not sure whether I'll look into this before we're past current events or not. (Probably I'd start with some of the kits from Evil Mad Scientist Labs) 21. Aesthetic Standing in a broad-shouldered greatcoat surveying a wintry landscape, perhaps feeling powerful, but with a note of melancholy and humility to it. Welcoming a dear friend in, pet in arms, with an array of beautiful if homely chopped vegetables and prepared ingredients inside waiting to be cooked up. A hobbit math professor relaying an algebra theorem or a physics application. Walking near a wetland in a flannel, among the trees and wildlife.

[lachalaine]

What would prevent you from following someone?

honesty meme

accepting

1. What would prevent you from following someone?

—- fair warning, and with all due respect made, but I am notoriously picky, and this is a long and somewhat harsh list, in a way. Roleplaying is a hobby, yes, but my standards for it are admittedly very high, and considering I spend a good deal of my time on here, I do want to keep myself comfortable, first and foremost. Anything and everything that is detrimental to that comfort gets the boot. Of course, none of these are meant to be taken personally, because it is just a particular set of personal guidelines I follow so that I can keep my Tumblr safe and enjoyable for me, and so far since I’ve been using this new standard, it’s appeared to actually work for the most part. 

I have nearly the most unproblematic dash ever — and even when there’s drama, I actually very rarely know what it’s about because none of my mutuals seem to get heavily involved with it. In a very particular word, I have to say, it’s been — chill. But anyway, here’s a list below !! Idk if I got everything, but heck !! You get the picture ✨✨

If they utilize severely bad grammar in their writing, or use run on sentences, or seriously just can’t figure out how to use a comma. I don’t need A++ grammar in your writing - hell, I know my own comma skills are crap - I just need to able to read something that is a complete thought, and yet not five complete thoughts with only one period. If they have multiple spelling errors as well, which pretty much indicates they didn’t bother to even remotely read through their work, they just posted it willy nilly. :// Idk. I mean, I make spelling errors too, but if it’s six times in one sentence? And you couldn’t even get the name right? Mhmmmmmm. 

If they respond to every single thread with one or two sentences and can’t be bothered to write anything beyond your generic banter - aka meaning, there’s never any plot. If they can’t seem to push the thread beyond their partners response and give stale replies in the sense that nothing actually happens in their portion and so you’re the one pushing the plot along half the time. If they only write with dialogue and not a single ounce of description beyond that. OR, on the flip side, if they write TOO much description to the point that none of it actually leads anywhere or matters in the long run. Or just — honestly, if there’s too many ooc posts and then only one three sentence ic paragraph in comparison to it? Then its back to another string of random ooc in quick succession?? No thank you.

Also, I apologize, but there are honestly just certain styles of writing I won’t follow just because iI quite frankly don’t like it. Plainly put, I avoid writing that I find to be both stiff and fairly pretentious ( by my own standards, of course ). I won’t follow most people who write purple prose, not because I hate it, but just because – I won’t lie, it’s beyond my comprehension to understand a great deal of those words. And while I’ve come to recognize a certain number of those same words, I just can’t — enjoy it, tbh. If I can’t interact with your muse at all, then I actually want to be able to read and understand your posts from the sidelines. Otherwise, I see no point to my sticking around.

If the mun seems to be particularly — problematic. Difficult, in the sense that if I were to interact with them, they would potentially cause me undue stress; whether it be about ooc stuff or just badgering me on ic matters. Which of course means that I read ooc posts, yes. I read rules. I read threads and asks and I read their tags and I read pretty much anything and everything I can on their blog to try to gauge if they might be the type of person that I might be better off staying clear of. And though I hate to say it - as I haven’t been on Tumblr for nearly as long as most other people on here - it’s not a stretch to say that you do tend to get a feel for these things eventually, and I do think I’m rarely ever wrong about my gut feeling when it comes to them. Sometimes though, I do try to follow anyway because I feel like maybe I’m being too harsh, but then my worries prove to be fairly correct before long, and it’s not a nice feeling in the least. But I try to keep an open mind nonetheless ( but also I admittedly just soft block and unfollow if it’s just too much ). 

If they only every write smut. All the time. If it’s only nsfw left, right and center. Or if they complain about not having worthwhile interactions but then literally all their threads and asks heavily lead towards the sign of a ship with every single person, even when five replies ago their characters had seriously just met. It’s different if they actually try to make the effort and nothing clicks, but you can usually tell when they’re actually making the effort. ://

If they don’t ??? Have a decent about page ??? Like, dsahdbhsabdhsa I don’t care if you’re a canon character or an oc, please write a proper about page!! I don’t care if it’s simple as hell and you only have an appearance and hobbies and age and maybe a super small list of trivia and the shortest summary of a back story, please care about your muse enough to give actual thought to their character beyond the basics !! It’s just. So disheartening to me?? To see new muses pop up left and right and be so excited and yet not garner a single shred of an actual core personality from them, but all you can tell is they have a pretty / handsome face claim and that was the entire basis - beginning and end - of their creation. 

If their muse is too —- perfect? And the mun seems reluctant to drop that sense of perfection to make them appear more human? It’s just. Mhm. Stale. It’s stale if a character is too wonderful and amazing and gorgeous and makes no mistakes and never breaks their perfect mold no matter what they come across. If they’re always prepared or one step ahead and never at all remotely caught off guard, not because there is an actual reason they are that way; but rather it’s merely just that the mun can’t seem to let that notion of absolute perfection go - because they can’t bear to see their muse looking bad. So then they come out to be always the best, and everyone else is just a side piece to their story. It’s personally not something I have any interest in dealing with.  

Muses that have TOO much gore and death and triggering topics inlaid in their musings and interactions and photos and etc. Like, I can interact with a certain amount of it, and I can write it and I actively think up plots that deal with such things. But if it’s a muse that actively goes into laughing maniacal tangents about mutilation while their hands are elbow deep in a man’s stomach dhsabdhsabdsadas ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah No. 

At the end of the day though, my main and most prominent reason I won’t follow back? If I just gain no sense of intrigue from the blog, like — at all. No intrigue to read their threads or their asks or their headcannons, no nothing. If that particularly integral part of it all is missing, then I’ll refrain. If they’re a new blog and still setting up, then I’ll wait a few days before I check again. I need to see samples, I need to see actual effort put in, I need to see an actual thought process to this muse - not just an empty aesthetic design piece. There’s too damn many of those as it is, and quite frankly, it is exhausting. OTL

[urdearestmom]

100 Questions

Tagged by @bob-newby-superhero thanks!!

1. What is your nickname? Sari, Sarita, Sarinha

2. How old are you? 18

3. What is your birth month? December

4. What is your zodiac sign? Sagittarius

5. What is your favourite colour? Green!

6. What’s your lucky number? 17 because it’s my birthday lmao

7. Do you have any pets? No but I really want a cat. Everyone in my family has dogs

8. Where are you from? I’m Luso-Canadian (my family is from Portugal but we live in Canada)

9. How tall are you? My driver’s license says 160 cm but the doctor told me 163. Either way, around 5’3”

10. What shoe size are you? Uhh depends on the shoe but usually 6.5-7

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Many, but I always wear the same shit lol

12. Are you random? Sometimes, I guess

13. Last person you texted? I texted myself pictures from my mom’s phone. Last message in general was to @eljane-hoppers

14. Are you psychic in any way? Haha sometimes I think I am, but my mom is more >:^)

15. Last TV show watched? Saw an episode of Four Weddings on TLC this morning

16. Favourite movie? The Book Thief or The Greatest Showman

17. Favourite show from your childhood? iCarly!! Used to watch it religiously after school every day it was on

18. Do you want children? Yes, but definitely not right now lmao

19. Do you want a church wedding? Kind of yeah. It’ll depend on who I end up marrying but it’d probably be some kind of disgrace if I didn’t get married in a church

20. What is your religion? I am Catholic

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? Yup tons of times, whether for myself or other people

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? Nope, I am a Child of God™

23. How is life? Could be better, probably, but it’s pretty chill right now

24. Baths or showers? Showers, but I also really like baths

25. What colour socks are you wearing? Bold of you to assume I’m wearing socks at all

26. Have you ever been famous? I mean if you google my name the results are me. I was on CBC because I was in the national spelling bee in 2012

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? I feel like it’d be fun and cool for a while but then I’d get tired of it. I don’t like having people all up in my business and that seems like what life is like for big celebrities :/ But having a lot of influence would be awesome

28. What type of music do you like? Literally anything except country music (I’m not all that into rap/trap music either, but I can appreciate it from time to time) here’s a playlist of my favourite stuff it’s like seven hours long but if you go through it you’ll see it’s really all kinds :)

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? Maybe and I don’t remember? My childhood was a questionable era

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2, both under my head

31. What position do you usually sleep in? I usually fall asleep on my side but I almost always wake up on my back so I don’t actually know how I’m sleeping

32. How big is your house? 2 stories and a basement

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Cup of milk with something else, usually a bowl of cereal or bread/croissant with Nutella

34. Have you ever left the country? YeET I’ve been to Portugal a bunch of times, Spain once, and to France on a 5-hour layover but we didn’t leave the airport and I don’t remember it anyway ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

35. Have you ever tried archery? Does it count if it was on Wii Sports? And yeah once and I was terrible at it

36. Do you like anyone? I think so and it sucks because he’s my friend :(

37. Favourite swear word? Probably fuck, I say it a lot. But I also say shit a lot so I mean idrk

38. When do you fall asleep? Oof regularly past midnight, but the time varies

39. Do you have any scars? A giant burn mark on my leg and a very faint lil thing on my right hand from this time I accidentally did an entire flip in my driveway

40. Sexual orientation? Was previously sure I was straight but I’m kind of starting to question that?

41. Are you a good liar? I like to think that I’m a very convincing actress

42. What languages would you like to learn? Mm I already speak Portuguese (if you ever wanna learn something hmu), and I learned some French because that’s mandatory in Canada but I dropped it and I want to get back into it. So, French! I also learned some German this year and I might continue with it. Also maybe Spanish, I can already understand some

43. Top 10 songs? Umm

Love Is A Battlefield - Pat Benatar

Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions

Theme From New York, New York - Frank Sinatra

True Faith - New Order

Age Of Consent - New Order

A Million Dreams - The Greatest Showman OST

Second Waltz - Dmitri Shostakovich

Power Of Love - Celine Dion

Johnny B. Goode - Chuck Berry

Halo - Beyonce

44. Do you like your country? Canada? Yeah, I love it except for the stupid ass weather. I get sick every fucking time the season changes

45. Do you have friends from the web? Yeeee!! They’re all awesome people

46. What is your personality type? INFP- there’s more info here if you want to know what that means

47. Hogwarts House? Ravenclaw ftw bitches

48. Can you curl your tongue? Yesssss

49. Pick one fictional character you can relate to? Buzzfeed told me that, based on my music taste, I am “a student of classic rock like School of Rock’s Dewey Finn” (but actually HA I KNEW THERE WAS A REASON I LOVED JACK BLACK IN THAT MOVIE)

50. Left or right handed? Righttttt

51. Are you scared of spiders? They don’t scare me as much as induce some kind of panic, but it really depends what kind of spider. Really little ones are actually kind of cute, but big spiders send me into cardiac arrest

52. Favourite food? Akjsnfskd PASTA

53. Favourite foreign food? Idk man I’m already picky af with my food. If I live in Canada does that make the Portuguese food I eat on a daily basis foreign because if so I loooooove me some fuckin barbecued chicken

54. Are you a clean or messy person? Fairly clean. If I wasn’t my mother would hurt me lol

55. If you could switch your gender for a day, what would you do? Idk probably figure out how to pee standing up, maybe make use of the ability to lie on my stomach without hurting my chest :)

56. What colour underwear? I think this is turquoise

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? Depends what I’m getting ready for. On a regular day, ten minutes tops. If I’m going out to an event it can be upwards of an hour; sometimes less, sometimes more

58. Do you have much of an ego? Idk if it’s ego so much as me being confident in myself. Anyone who has a problem with me and decides to be rude about it can suck my non-existent dick

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? I try to suck them but it never lasts for long, I almost always bite them unless I’m really concentrating on not biting

60. Do you talk to yourself? Lmfao only ALL THE TIME

61. Do you sing to yourself? Yeee

62. Are you a good singer? I don’t think I’ll blow out your eardrums but I know I’m not the best either. I’ll just say I’m not terrible

63. Biggest Fears? Heights and deep water

64. Are you a gossip? I live for drama does that make me a gossip

65. Are you a grammar nazi? Yeah if I’m talking to someone I’m very comfortable with (my cousin for example) or if I’m trying to be petty

66. Do you have long or short hair? Long! I’m growing it out so I can be really dramatic and chop it all off later (also thinking of donating it)

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? I can name almost all of them but I always forget a few. I think it’s pretty good considering I was never taught American geography

68. Favourite school subject? Instrumental music and history were my favourites

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Idk I guess extroverted introvert? Is that a thing???? I’m really awkward and panicky in social situations with people I don’t know but if I have friends around I’m just here to have the time of my life

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? No

71. What makes you nervous? Having to talk to people I don’t know (it literally makes me panic it’s horrible)

72. Are you scared of the dark? Sometimes, yeah

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Lmao ok this depends on who the person is and if I’m in that kind of mood (but when I was a kid I used to correct my teachers)

74. Are you ticklish? Yes very

75. Have you ever started a rumour? No

76. Have you ever been out of your home country? Yes, I’ve been to Portugal a bunch of times, Spain once, and France on a layover

77. Have you ever drank underage? Chugged a cup of beer by accident when I was 6 oops

78. Have you ever done drugs? No but even if I had I don’t think I would say it here unless it was something minor like weed

79. What do you fantasize about? Travelling the world!!!!! And like, being a successful adult because right now I have no idea what the actual fuck I’m doing with my life

80. How many piercings do you have? Two, one in each ear

81. Can you roll your Rs? You gotta in Portuguese! I’m also fairly sure my French and German pronunciations are pretty much on point most of the time so I can do those types of R sounds as well

82. How fast can you type? Pretty fast on my phone and not slow on my laptop either (when you’re a writer you end up learning to type faster than you thought you would lol)

83. How fast can you run? Oof I’m not slow when I first start off but that only goes for like max 10 seconds

84. What colour is your hair? Dark brown

85. What colour are your eyes? Also dark brown

86. What are you allergic to? Bigots

87. Do you keep a journal? I have a diary I’ve had since I was like 10 but I don’t write in it very often. I also have a notebook where I write down fic ideas and outline plots

88. Are you depressed about anything? I actually think I might have seasonal depression or something but I’m not sure

89. Do you like your age? Yeah I guess being 18 is cool

90. What makes you angry? People who refuse to listen to reason

91. Do you like your own name? Yes it means princess!

92. Did you ever get a foreign object up your nose? No but I ate lead once

93. Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? No preference as long as it is alive and healthy

94. What talents do you have? Uhh I can play two instruments and will be learning a third does that count? I just remembered I can also balance a spoon on my nose

95. Sun or moon? Moon

96. How did you get your name? My mom had a friend named Sara when she was a kid and she always liked the name so here I am having been named Sara

97. Are you religious? Kind of? I don’t go to church very often but I think I believe in God (I believe that there’s something, at least). I’ve also received all the Sacraments that I can (as of right now that’s baptism, first communion, and confirmation)

98. Have you ever been to a therapist? Nope

99. Colour of your bedspread? Right now it’s just plain white

100. Colour of your room? Bright green!

Yeet I’m finished! Took forever ‘cause I kept getting interrupted but oh well

tagging: @eljane-hoppers @hannahberrie @mikeywheelerr @queer-deckovskij

[ventrue-rosary]

All the odd numbers

Thank you so much! I’ll put in a read more because of the lenth of the behemoth!

1. A favorite character you have played.

My elf ranger Lyris is best girl

Plus she’s just really beautiful and kick-ass

3. Your favorite side quest.

Unfortunately we haven’t really done many side-quests, but there was a cool one our DM threw together to rescue our druid’s sister

5. Favorite NPC

Already answered

7. Your favorite downtime activity.

Already answered

9. Your favorite thing about D&D.

There’s a lot of thing I really like about DnD. I adore all the different vast worlds in the DnD universe. It’s on such a scope no one else can possibly compete with. All the different locations, the God’s, the magic, the races and classes…the entire world-building behind it is just breath-taking, and opens up so many opportunities to be creative!

Creating characters! I really love creating characters and DnD gives me a good excuse to scuplt amazing, developed characters. Not only that, but then you get to BECOME these charactera. Which brings us on to roleplay, another of my favourite things. I do adore combat but I prefer roleplaying. Idk why I do I just do.

I really like the current dnd campaign–Tyranny of Dragons. It’s just a super-fun campaign to play, and its only enhance by our DM and our party. It’s sadly on hiatus but I can’t wait to get back into it

11. How often do you play and how often would you ideally like to play?

Answered

13. Introduce your current party.

I can’t tag anyone in my Thursday campaign):

We have a halfling rogue named Barrett, who’s rather sly and selfish. Has very sticky fingers but he’s not pick-pocketed any party members yet thankfully. Very tongue-in-cheek when he’s talking to people

The handsome human cleric Ivor. I can’t remember his god, but he seem’s like a nice guy. Very gentle, friendly, gets along well with everyone. Raised amongst a community of tieflings, strangely enough, but still became a very compassionate person.

Humphrey, a dragonborn wizard. I remember his name because its ridiculous. Everyone else chose pretentious fantasy names (myself included). While not a bad guy, he’s a bit of a loose cannon. Tends to keep to himself a little bit, but goes all-out in combat, and thinks up very creative ways for his spells to manifest.

Our tank Azrael, goes by Rel to people he doesn’t know. He is a famed hero and soldier from his lands, but ended up banished and blacknamed by the people he protected. Despite this he has a relaitvely happy-go-lucky attitude.

Then there’s me! Order of the Lycan Blood Hunter, Elvira Branwe, Born into nobility, and into the ancient curse of lycanthropy that plagues the Branwen home, Elvira accidentally killed her own father one transformation. Her mother sent her off the the order to learn to control herself. One might think the strict training and meagre living quarters might teach her humility. Truth is, Elvira holds herself in high esteem above others and isn’t ashamed to use her family name to get what she wants.

Now, onto the on-hiatus Sunday game!

Firstly I’ll introduce @witchyeevee‘s two characters: 

Siria Dovefeathers (that’s her last name right?). A human cleric to the life domain. She may seem friendly, but you serously do not want to get on her bad side. She has no mercy for wrong-doers, and her character intro was pure badass–she essentially saved our skin. Pretty sure she broke alignment last session when threathing a cultist member but she maintains otherwise. I’ll defer to her judgment on this one

On the flip-side, Zinnu Thunderbane in the most precious bean. A dragonborn wizard belonging to a large family, the one she apparently is the runt of despite being, what 8′?? Zinnu is essentially the light of the party, but that doesn’t mean she won’t yell and get serious when the situation demands it (Lyris and Zilong’s intense rivalry one example). Whether she likes it or not my character adopted her. (Oh and I feel it’s important to mention both of these characters are extremey gay)

@that-was-fucking-spectacular plays a dragonborn barbarian names Branek who has the most tragic backstory. Basically, a dragon destroyed his entire city, killed his huband and left him half-covered in horrific burn scars. Despite this, Branek has a good heart, even if he is a it ridiculous at times. He and my character entered a relationship last we played. You blame Beth for the trend in naming our weapons absolutely ridiculous things. 

After our original party’s druid died due to the player dropping out of the campaign, Varis was introduced, yet another druid lol. (can’t tag him because he doesn’t have tumblr I don’t think). As the chaotic neutral, he’s a bit of a wild card and usually ends up in cahoots with my character. They encourage each others drinking habits, knowing or unknowingly, and after a journey with the worlds most unpleasant dragonborn NPC they became pretty tight friends. 

Which then brings us to my character, Lyris Ravendoor, who I talked a little bit about earlier so I won’t go into too much deal. She’s the party’s flirty ranger. While she is really attractive, the girl has no game (the dice apparently hate me whenever I try and flirt). Fenrir is her ever-faithful wolf companion. She’s had a thing for Branek for a while now, abut they’re finally together.

15. Do you have snacks during game times?

Usually I munch on some chocolate or have a bag of sweets nearby

17. What are some house rules that your group has?

Well nothing too strict or anything that really falls outside of DnD rules. @theasexualityfandom is the kind of DM who plays fast and loose with the rules anyways and we love them for it (because it usually means we survive!)

19. Do you or your party have any dice superstitions?

My dice rolls are cursed when it comes to flirting with NPC’s

21. Have you ever regretted something your character has done?

Answered

23. Do you use premade modules or original campaigns?

I’ve played in a few premade stuff, in two homebrewed ones. The one-shot I ran was all homebrew content. It’s why it took so long to prep 😫

25. What have your players done that you never could have planned for?

Haven’t DM’d enough to answer this, so I will answer this for the groups I’m in. @that-was-fucking-spectacular has a tendency to flirt with things that shouldn’t be flirted with–a door, some mushrooms and a giant toad so far. She and my bf Alex flirted with skeletons in a module Dess ran us through… @witchyeevee‘s cleric Siria absolutely going OFF on that NPC last session…a bunch of crazy shit has happened

27. Do you allow homebrew content? 

To an extent, I would, provided it doesn’t add too much extra work on top of what I was doing

29. Do you prefer RP heavy sessions or combat sessions?

As a player, I prefer more RP but there’s gotta be balance you know? From a DM standpoint I prefer doing combat

31. What is your favorite class? Favorite race?

Elf and ranger. Shocker, I know

33. How do you write your backstory, or do you even write a backstory?

I tend to write very long-winded, in depth backstories, usually starting with their family before talking about hardships or events that sculpted them. I put a lot of effort into backstories.

35. How much roleplay do you like to do?

A loooooot. I love RP’ing in sessions with the other players and NPC’s and I also like doing additional RP between sessions, either privately or with another person or the whole group. Me and Beth have done a few awesome one-on-one RP’s

[impandagrl]

Supernatural Survey

1. What season did you start watching Supernatural?  I started watching July 3rd, 2016. I started watching from the pilot and finished the finale of s10 on August 19th (11 wasn’t available to view yet). I only know the dates because I made a Facebook post the day I started (I think it said “Amanda is watching supernatural season 1 - I think I may have made a terrible mistake …”) and one of my first Tumblr posts marking the day I finished. 12 was the first season I watched live.

2. Who was the first character you fell in love with?  I think it was Dean by about ten minutes or something. I’m pretty sure Dean’s cocky “Easy Tiger,” made me say “Oh, no,” shortly before whatever Sam said or did that made me say, “Yeeeah, I’m in trouble.”

3. Who was a character that you hated at first but grew to love?  Um, don’t hate me. Kevin? My first watch-through I found him incredibly whiny and ungrateful for a while. Then he started growing on me and I would call him ‘Kevin’ when he was annoying me and ‘Tran’ when I was proud of him. The second time around, I was able to be much more sympathetic.

4. Which character would you most want to be in a long-term relationship with?  This is hard. My answer surprised me because it might (gun to my head) be Sam. I always thought I found Dean *slightly* more attractive (again, gun to my head). And character-wise I love them equally. I guess I just think Sam and I would work better together in a long-term relationship.

5. If you could go on just one date with one character, which one would you choose?  Since I picked Sam for the other, can I say Dean?

6. What would you do on the date? Lol idk, see an old movie at a drive-in theatre? Something tells me Dean would enjoy the classic combination. I’d love whatever. I’d want him to be able to relax and be himself - see that ‘little kid’ side we get a glimpse of every so often. Maybe I could find some way to let him know he’s so much more than just his good looks?

7. Which character would you most want to be like?  Donna? I love her so much. I guess I see myself in her, but she’s *more so* idk. Her sweetness. Her bubbly personality. She’s not afraid to get personal. She’s been hurt, but she doesn’t let it make her hide who she is. She’s got a strength that usually takes people by surprise because she’s so nice, they think she must be soft. She likes doughnuts … She told Dean freaking Winchester to stuff it.

8. Which character would you most like to see brought back from the dead? If you’d have asked me this before the finale I’d have said Gabe. I don’t think bringing him back would cheapen his death (or continue to cheapen deaths on the show in general) because we were never sure whether to believe if he’d really died anyway. After the tangled mess of the finale (I’m including Eileen in this) I’m really not sure how to answer.

9. Which character would you most like to punch?  If by punch you mean repeatedly before handing her over to Sam to finish off and Sam is under some spell that allows him to give her the kind of death she deserves but he doesn’t have to feel too bad about it afterwards (idk a justice spell? That could be a real thing)- Toni freaking Bevel. That woman is a psychotic monster. I loathe her. Story time, 12x1 was the first episode I watched live. So I had to make myself be super quiet because I couldn’t rewind or rely on subtitles like I had been doing when the show would make me yell at the tv. The first commercial break I apparently yelled, “FREAKING BITCH!” so loud my mom heard me from upstairs. She thought it was hilarious. This was before the mind rape even happened.

10. Who is your absolute favorite character? Nope

11. Which “Big Bad” do you think was the worst? There are the villains I love, the villains I love to hate, and the villains I loathe. Spn has some of all three. Crowley is the scariest, I think, because he’s the most intelligent and devious and they keep forgetting he’s a bad guy, but I love him. Lucifer is probably the most evil, and most powerful, but I like him as a villain. Metatron was probably the one I hated the most (Toni couldn’t be called a big bad, I suppose, even though I hated her the most of all).

12. Which character are you most like?  It’s funny how many similarities I see in both Sam and Dean, but I think it’s prolly Donna. She’s more badass than I am, though :)

13. What death hit you the hardest?  The first time Sam died was hard because Jensen is too good at his job. When Dean died with the MOC Jared’s reaction gutted me. I knew they were coming back in those instances and what made it hard was witnessing the pain of the other. Bobby was the same in that I was sad to see him go, but they did him justice, I thought, and the hard part was seeing Sam and Dean go through that. Charlie’s was brutal. Charlie was probably the first time I’ve ever cried because someone died more than because the people left behind were sad. Not that the guys falling back and acting like they couldn’t bear to go in that room didn’t help sell it.

14. What season finale hit you the hardest?  Season 3, maybe? I don’t like hellhounds. I should; I typically love everything dog related, but hellhounds freak me out because of how much I don’t like to watch that scene. Then, Five was beautiful and so sad. I already mentioned about the season 2 and 9 finales.

15. What are your ten all-time favorite episodes?  Oh shoot! Um … Baby Regarding Dean Point of No Return It’s a Terrible Life Swan Song Two Minutes to Midnight In My Time of Dying Tall Tales Plush Jus in Bello These are just the first ten I thought of. I’m not sure if they’re my actual ten favorite, but they’ll do.

16. What’s been your favorite season? Oh, I don’t know. Um, maybe five? 

17. Who is your favorite angel? Besides Cas, I really liked Gabe, then Samandriel and Balthazar.

18. Who’s your favorite demon?   Ooh. Um Crowley obvi. I really loved Ruby as a character. I know there’s the pesky betrayal thing, but her banter with Dean is beautiful, she did keep Sam alive when Dean was gone, and I think in her twisted demon way, she really cared about him. Even if you believe everything before was an act (I could debate a couple points) the things she said after Lucifer’s cage was unlocked sounded like she really believed she, Sam, and Dean were going to be reconciled somehow and live happily ever after. I also liked Meg as a villain and reluctant ally.

19. Who’s your favorite evil character?  Besides the ones I’ve already mentioned above, I love Rowena (as far as villains I love) and Abaddon (as far as villains I love to hate). I also loved Dick because without him we wouldn’t have had all the amazing dick jokes (I have a very simple sense of humor, I won’t apologize)

20. So you have any supernatural ships? SamxSarah, SamxEileen. I always thought Dean and Bela would end up getting together, although it would have been mostly physical and wouldn’t have lasted long. I always wished Dean and Lisa could have made it work. I know, I know.

21. Who’s your favorite supporting actor?  The heck am I supposed to answer this?

22. What’s your favorite quote from the show?  Again, say what? I’ll give you a few. “Are you under the impression that family is supposed to make you feel good … They’re supposed to make you miserable! That’s why they’re family!” “Do I look like a ditchable prom date to you? … Family don’t end with blood boy.” “I am your flesh-and-blood brother … Believe in that … You gotta make it stone number one and build on it.”

23. If you could cast one famous actor in an episode of SPN, who would you chose?  lol Tom Hiddleston! Why not? Angel, demon, hunter, he could fill any of the above and nail it.

24. If you could write your own episode, what kind of creature would you like to see included?   I’d like to see a black dog or kelpie. That would be awesome.

25. Who’s your favorite girl that Dean’s hooked up with?  Lisa

26. Who’s your favorite girl that Sam’s hooked up with?  Jessica

27. What are some of your favorite convention moments?  When j2 played with the delay in the screen behind them to make it look like there were an infinite number of j2’s turning around. That’s funny and adorable. Um, when Sheppard got asked by the little girl about Crowley’s demon deal. When the crowd did the thing with the candles for Jared. When Jared or Jensen pretend they agreed to pay the person who asked the question.

28. If you were going to guest star (or be a recurring guest star) on SPN, how would you want your character described?  I basically wrote myself into an episode in devils’ trap. I mean I’m definitely cooler in the story than in rl, but my favorite is the respect and esteem Sam and Dean show when regular people (civilians) rise to the occasion when confronted with the supernatural. That’s the kind of character I’d like to play.

29. What do you hope to see in the next season?  Better writing. Continued character development. Monster of the week episodes.

30.-40. If you had to choose…

Bobby or John? (is this a real question?) Bobby

Bela or Ruby? Bela

Jess or Madison? Jess?

Jo or Lisa? I don’t like this question. I can’t decide. I’ve literally changed my mind 15 times and explaining my inner dialogue would take way too long.

Charlie or Kevin? Charlie

Balthazar or Ash? Ash

Cas or Crowley? Argh, I can’t choose.

Ben or Claire? Ben. Although I was disappointed with him in later episodes, he was so cool and non-whiny the first time we met him, and I do like and sympathize with Claire.

Jody or Donna? Both please :)

Sam or Dean? Nope. Can’t.

[fantasychica37]

Rules: You answer these questions and tag 10 of your followers/mutuals that you’d like to get to know better!

First name: Jessica Nicknames: Jess Zodiac: Sagittarius Sexual orientation: IDK  Favorite fruit: mangoes or figs! Figs are like the only fruit that taste almost the same dried as fresh! Favorite season: Spring because of all the pretty flowers- or summer because of the warmth! I love them all! Favorite books: The Giver, Tolkien’s books, North Child by Edith Pattou, Willa Cather Favorite flowers: All of them! Especially blue flowers because they’re so rare, and unusual flowers growing in the grass. Favorite animal: Cute furry ones! Probably cats and bunnies, also dogs because they’re friendly Coffee/tea/coca: Cocoa, and I love how the spelling mistake is still intact so that instead of asking whether you like hot chocolate it’s asking whether you like the plant used to make cocaine. Cat or dog person: Cat but I have a dog so I like them too! Favorite tumblr: @alyruko OH MY GOD PURE GOLD also the hilarious Silmarillion stuff @houseofhaleth used to post daily (I don’t know the fandoms she posts now :( ) and the very concept of @losgarwasfun which used to be titled “Have You Seen Amras?” and have the background song “ohmygodimonfire”. I love @morgause1 as a person, and @shewhodoesnotexist especially because she was the one person I cried over email too about Theon Greyjoy even though she didn’t know what I was talking about. Also @musinshadw. And probably a bunch of others I forgot! Dream trip: Go to Australia! (And hopefully New Zealand too, since I’ve seen Lord of the Rings!) Drive straight across Interstate 80 in the US! I live 20 minutes away from its eastern terminus and I”m getting a trip this summer for graduation but we might fly out to Chicago for time purposes. Number of followers: I have no idea, I didn’t check before starting this post!! I think I have several hundred? I just checked  for the first time the other day!

tag 10 people I want to know about 

@musinshadw, @houseofhaleth, @alyruko, @sleeping-ranna, @yavannafruitgiver, @shewhodoesnotexist, @silmapaintion

(For those who don’t know - copy and paste this into a new post, deleting my answers and filling in your own.)

[spacecharr]

Black Rose Sesh Report V

i think it’s number five at least.

Here we go again:

fuck having a bum shoulder. again. seriously, fuck it. right in the asshole.

ok

the trip back wasn’t an odyssey so much as it was a revelation-filled romp.

also chillhop music makes me seriously so lyrical. it’s... it’s like I’m helpless, but I’m also scared that people might see me as a pretentious bitch or something, but I also recognize that maybe this is just my anxiety or some shit? 

thought looops, like frooot loops

oh yeah!

revalations

one: holy fuck I am so fucking bi.

there was this couple heading back -- WAITTTTT

how could I almost forget Oliver?!

ok

People I met on the romp back:

(wait tags)

(ok, back to here - but ow, fuck)

Eric, Lisa, and Oliver the Dog.

amazing neighbors who’ve lived in the area for a long ass time. also Oliver is cleverly named due to the location.

the black cat that I thought was a little girl twin of my handsome boy? nope! He’s an adorable little psychopath named Merlin! he loves people, is adorable, vocal, cuddly, his owners are this amazingly punk rock lady and this guy who could be like a secret badass punk nerd from accounting or something. And he’s a bit psycho ‘cause he does the whole “snuggle up to your leg to purr and cuddle you, ask for belly rubs, then will attack your hand”. My Zi doesn’t do that at all. He will give you maaaaaany warning bops with his back legs, no claws, before he begins to lazily warning bite you.

Alright, ok. 

Revelations.

one: I am so fucking bi.

there was this couple heading home from a run. both of them were HELLA FINE. I mean, of the two I’d prefer the dude, but if I could have both of ‘em, then hell yes I would.

I have the preference namely because the lady was wearing matching pink shirt and scrunchie - and that get up on a wavy blonde made me think of that character from the Arnold the Armadillo show and I don’t like her as much.

they were wearing matching running tights, the girl was wearing pink and the guy was wearing orange (my favourite colour).

Both probably within my age range, maybe in their 30s.

The guy was super in shape, bony, broad, muscled shoulders and a runner’s taper. 

Gal was thicc and had a face that looked like Denaerys Targarean (idk how the fuck to spell that name rn)

two: I’m living in my dream neighborhood, basically, and living my dream.

where I’m at, I just went out for a walk to a park - it felt like I was at a lake. 

there’s dogs everywhere, and friendly people who own those dogs. people with stories to tell, who are happy to sit down and chat.

there’s beautiful people where I live. All sorts of beautiful people. (see revelation one: I am hella bi - and for any biphobes out there, remember that bi means i find more than one gender attractive. think about that for a sec, I’ll wait.)

there are couples in their 30s with no kids, so this place is fairly childfree.

there are people leading alternative lifestyles all around me, mixed in and living side by side harmoniously with neighbors who are more traditional. including couples even who are made up of a “normal” looking person and someone visibly living that alternative lifestyle.

today has been filled with so many LGBTQ encounters of other LGBTQ people living visibly out - whether they’re living out to prove a point, living out because it’s right for them, living out despite the fear, living out because it’s fun to, etc, etc. - that it makes me so happy to see.

there was a dude in this really fancy sports car - likewise somewhere in this 30s - which almost everyone at the intersection had to turn their heads to appreciate

there was this guy with a beard (beards are so attractive) balancing on this fancy looking road bike (god, I love bikes) - makin’ that choice for whatever his reason is, but it’s one I love because we need more bikes and less cars

on my way home, and this ties into the point below, I passed under a balcony where several ladies where having a girl’s night and discussing things.

and it turned into this awesome look on feminism in a way because they were talking about I think female genital mutilation (these are all ladies in their late 30s or older - lots of talk of husbands, etc) and how there’s so many women still having it done to them.

one of the ladies mentioned how some man in her life somewhere (she mentioned how she knew, but there was a dog I was distracted by when she explained, so I didn’t really catch it) was talking about how less girls get mutilated than boys or something. And she was like “well i don’t know the numbers for boys, but even if it is higher, that’s still six--(some ridiculously large number like 600 million or something, or 600 thousand...) and then that means there’s even more children being mutilated than that because the boys get mutilated more often.” 

like, holy shit, a man engaging in “oppression olympics” when a woman was just trying to express her shock that any children are being mutilated - and that he was being excited for winning a gender competition for “whose gender is mutilated the most as young, helpless babies?!”!

anyways, that little aside aside

holy fuck my shoulder hurts

I was thinking I could do this part as part of the stream of conscience further down, but I don’t think I can hold out that long.

So ok, I separated the AC joint (or something like that) in my right shoulder from some bungled board breaking I did during a parade with my karate club. Boards got rained on and my student and I still broke them.

I bungled this break only in that the first two elbow attempts didn’t work - the board was way too wet and it bounced both the elbows back. So I resorted to  hammer fist to break it and boooooo. I wanted to elbow it.

But yeah, turns out I’m hurting.

But I’m not sure if I am or not. Again, this is probably anxiety? or maybe another revelation.

But like, I’m confused. Would a separated shoulder take 48hrs to fully onset in terms of the pain and symptoms? Cause I felt like I was sore, but still able to do thinsg. Then when I went in yesterday to see my chiro for a scheduled appt from way before the parade, I mentioned my shoulder pain.

he ran two quick assessments on me and diagnosed me with a separated AC joint. it’s on the mild side, but it’s still a separated shoulder he said. and since them I’ve been way more conscious of it and I wonder - is it because he told me something’s wrong and I’m “pretending” because I’m hyper-aware of any sensation in the area? Or did it really just take until now for it to start being so bothersome?

--- another aside within aside within aside: I’m starting to feel suuuuper sleepy.

but then also, I’m high. I’m high on 50mg edible THC and 1/2 a 210mg joint. I should be pretty medicated by now, we can all agree. And I do feel a familiar stoner feel from the indica. Nice heavy body feel. But through it all, my neck, shoulder and lat are just screaming at me occasionally.

Especially my neck. 

And my shoulder when I go to use my right arm - reaching, etc. OHHHHHH!!!! It hurts more today than yesterday because I did karate this morning!!!!! And I pushed (but didn’t hurt) myself a bit because I wanted to train with our guests.

ok.

I get it now.

I’m not crazy, it legit hurts. I’m not being a wuss, I’m being realistic. Okay.

SEE!?! WEED! REVELATIONS!

Dammit, guys, weed really is a therapist. 

Have I even told you guys I’m a relatively new stoner? Like, just since it got legalized in Canada, and like, in November? So a lot of those like random “crazy-ass” stoner stereotypical phrases that I used to make fun of and think were like “oh, hurr durr, only stupid stoners who can’t think straight think like that” - they’re TRUE!!!! holy fuck, guys.

Hm, also, I think I am definitely going to be able to ride along and let the shrooms take me where they will next weekend. I’m ready for it. I’m excited for it. I feel like there will be so many more breakthroughs.

OH! yes, returning.

So, those ladies and talking about not even feminism, but just out in the open, within earshot of people on the street (fair, they’re just having an open air convo on their own personal balcony - everyone else is on the public sidewalk, the acoustics in this area are just very conducive), talking about statistics about women.

It’s so awesome that I live ina  place where that can happen.

That I live in a place where a trans woman and her lesbian girlfriend can walk through the park. Where an openly lesbian couple, an openly gay couple, two best dude friends (and or maybe another gay couple, it’s not like they were dressed in rainbows or held hands or anything), a single dad with two kids, a single stoner, and all sorts of straight couples can just all exist alongside each other without anyone feeling pressured or attacked or anything.

It’s awesome.

Ok. My shoulder is really hurting. I know I’m not being a wuss with this now.

Though I have to say, as much as this fucking sucks, I still wouldn’t trade it for my experience as a martial artist. Now I know for next year, and I can protect my younger students now since I know that wet boards are so harsh on even my body - it’d tear out the shoulder of some of our younger kids. And I can experiment with drying the boards a bit more so they’re more brittle and won’t bounce back. 

I think if I had been doing a single break in a controlled setting like a dojo instead of needing to set up in as few steps as possible and break and move on quick so you don’t hold up the route, I could have broken it. But as it was, it’s not possible for me to courteously summon up the concentration for a break like that on a parade route.

I’m gonna just relax for a while. Probably find some anime to watch. I wanted to draw, but I don’t think my shoulder’s up for it. I’ll have to try to remember the imagery.

It’s like, space-sci-fi dystopia future-wave sort of thing but with lower tech and more slum-like. cartoony. cel shaded. primariy colours: orange-brown, blue/purple like vaporwave, red, orange-orange, maybe some yellow/yellow-white.

guys, weed is magical. I love weed. I mean, I’m a highly functioning member of society. I live a frugal lifestyle, but I kill it at work, I’m becoming highly involved in my community, etc. 

it’s crazy how there’s that stoner stereotype, but honestly I’d say that’s just the entertaining minority. the minority we all like to smoke along with. XD

ok, that’s a wrap on this part. maybe more, maybe not. dunno.

in anycase, fuck bum shoulders, stay chill, and see ya in space.

...srsly should I do audios?