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#if i dont get out of my parents house im going to die
this-should-do · 4 months
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venting dont mind me xp ✌
#if i dont get out of my parents house im going to die#either by my hand or my mothers#i refuse to be forced into the role of woman becuz my mother cant get over herself or accept other peoples suffering#so i either leave or i die#i am never more depressed than when im in this house and it gets worse everytime i return#every second of oeace is a facade careful held up by smiles and jokes while ignoring who i am to please others#and ignorjng the genuinely genocidal beliefs of my parents against myltple peoples#at least one of which includes me#why cant life be easy#when is it .y turn to tbrive#in this hluse i am no older than a middle schooler no more mature or happy#everyday i dream of relapsing sh-ing just for some control of the pain i experiemce something anything#maybe someone will finally listen to me and se ehow ioset i am see how smothered i am and the sting will pull me back down to earth again#but no who would see would understand#my brothers or my parents none of them would kniw why even if i said it to thwir face#i dint event even want to think of what my mother woukd say#shed use it as an excuse to further deny my transness surely#say how horribke and spirtful and manipulative i am against her#that i ddi it to hurt her#i am trapped as a doll in a house only allowed to be agreeable no politics no emotions other tan#contentness and love and adoration for my family#or else i am unloveavle and horrible and sick#i cannot tell my mom she has uoset me becuz it would be unfair i am silent instead#i am to take her anger and rage as a perfect recepticle and no matter how well i handle it#i am thanked with resentment amd scorn amd terfisms#i can neither disagree woth her beliefs nor avoid discussing them to keeo the oeace all she wants is comoliance#i refuse to do that tho ill take hee scorn on that one thing i refuse to xomprimise my beliefs verbally to save my own skin#ill just be quiet#im sure id be a better recepticle for her dead so she can dress me up as a girl one last time#the dead cant argue or disagree with you its everything she wants from me
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demoness-one · 1 year
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I need to work on my house more soon or i am literally going to lose my fucking mind. I cant live here forever
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finalhaunts · 1 year
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Siigghh
#vent#idk man. feeling hopeless again#it is. so hard to be optimistic about the future when it is genuinely difficult imagining myself anywhere else but here#its difficult imagining myself getting out of this house that’s actually through a realistic scenario and isn’t just wishful andromanticized#my friends are trying to help me get out of here at least but is it even going to work out? is this all even going to be worth it?#idk.#imagining myself in a happier scenario genuinely truly does not feel right. it doesnt feel realistic. it doesnt feel possible.#and whenever I think about it I just feel weird because I know I can’t get my hopes up like that#the thought of myself being happy doesn’t feel normal.#i feel like i’ve just been stuck in the same place i’ve always been and i always will. both literally and metaphorically#i’m always going to be in this shitty house around my shitty parents rotting away like i have been for nearly 18 years now#and i feel like despite my age i haven’t actually grown up. I havent grown as a person or changed or anything.#i dont have any big achievements. i’ve never worked. I put off getting drivers ed for years until now#I don’t know how to cook or to do things the right way unless i’m shown#literally 80% of my fucking life has been spent in my room or in school#i feel like i’ve just been in stasis for years and the thought of actually having a life feels impossible.#i get the whole ‘you don’t want to die you just want an escape’ thing people say but I genuinely can’t think of any other way I could really#escape this.#the only thing that’s really keeping me from actually going ahead and killing myself is the fact that it feels selfish. i feel selfish.#because its going to hurt my friends and im going to feel even worse about it if i survive#I’m honestly envious of all my friends lives. why couldn’t i have gotten that lucky.
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majorasnightmare · 2 years
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obligatory vent text
fun fact there is a limit on the number of tags you can add to a post.
its 30
#i live in hell! i live in hell! i live in hell!#how do i tell the people i know that the reason i take so long about anything#to read the fic theyve written look at the art theyve made#is because i exist in a state of being constantly abused while my disabillities worsen#and it is in fact constant! there is no escape! i cant even sleep without the threat of abuse!#how do i make anyone understand that i have not left the house in years plural. like? i dont leave i am locked in with an abuser#the windows are shut the doors are closed i do not Get Out#no one will employ me! so i dont leave the house for work#i cant maintain an education! so i dont go out for school#no one who cares about me and my partner lives nearby! so i dont visit friends or leave for meals or j#hang out at all#it keeps escalating! because i cant leave she knows she can get away with it so she keeps escalating#all my online friends get used like piggy banks because she dangles necessities over our broke heads and says pay me or die#pay me or have no cell service. pay me or have no internet. pay me or dont eat. pay me or get kicked out#it wasnt even this bad at my parents. i could have 8 hours of school every day where i didnt have to deal with them#i dont even have that anymore#i dont have the energy for anything anymore. i am in constant misery#it doesnt ever stop! it only gets less bad! but it doesnt ever stop!#how do i make anyone understand ive been in a locked room for years and im not exaggerating#how do i make you get it! think of the things you do to leave your house! i dont go out to get snacks or drinks!#i dont go out to get groceries! i dont go out to say hi to people i know! there is no one i know here!#think about all the times you close your front door behind you and take them all away and thats been my life#everytime i bring it up i feel like no one gets the profound soul crushing isolation i live in#its just me and my partner. in hell. nonstop#all my doors are closed and theres no escape and i dont know whats going on in anyones lives anymore#i do not eat i do not sleep i can barely walk and i spend every day fluctuating between begging for death and being terrified of it#i dont. hear anyone else talk. i hear 2 voices. every day. i cant remember how to interact with people#im not the person any of you used to know im worse im worse im so much worse#how can you exist when you cant fully unpack your box of clothes in case you get thrown out next week. how do you have hobbies#how do you talk about a traumatic event last year when yesterday someone screamed at your partner so loud it knocked the bathroom door open
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narutomaki · 7 months
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Kiroumaru.... 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭
I miss you !!!!
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#WHYD HE HAVE TO DIE HUH?#COME ON...#LET ME HAVE HIM. :^(#fell asleep last night having an in depth fantasy about being some sort of plant catalouger and meeting queerats when theyre little#and then meeting Kiroumaru and becoming friend bcus i broke my leg and got an infection and instead of killing him#when he held a spear to my chest i reassured the young queerats that i understood and it would be okay#and so he carried me on his back for miles after i passed out to my village and then i kept working with his colony#and eventually we fell in LOVE and it was lovely and beautiful and happy unyil funding got moved so my research or whatever#got canceled and i was told i was being put on lab duty and i asked if i could go see to my research one last time and my boss#was like wow youre so smart and dedicated and cool of course and so i went and told him and said good bye and we finally#had penetrative sex (after dating for like 4 years and using our hands and mouths) but 2 months later find out im pregnant#and go 'hm. well this leads to some worrisome conclusions...' and then i have my kid and im an out cast#bcus i refuse to reveal who the father was/is and 6 years later Kiroumaru happens to come into my village#and i have to hold myself back from crying out for him in the market place so i try to steathily follow him and the humans hea with#and ofc he catches on and i see his steo stutter and his head twith toward me when i use yhe vocal stim id used all my life#as a means of calling each other lovers and he makes it back quietly and alightly different and the humans he ask get curious#and he says he thought he smelled something on the wind but it was just a battle memory#and then i loiter outside the building theyre meeting in and go oh wow what a coincidence wow i used to work with his colony wow he was so#smart i want to tell him some things and since no one knows hes my kids dad they just go eugh if he wants to i guess and roll their eyes and#i take him to my hoise but i dont go in bcus my parents would get mad and i call for my son and he comes running out of the house and i#spin him around in my arms and look at Kiroumaru and ask if hed like to take a walk in yhe woods with us where i tell him that hes OUR son#and Kiroumaru impulsively kisses me and we start crying and i eventually beg him to take me and his son back to his colony#but he doesnt want to take the risk but i ask him if he can walk me to the next village and leave me there and ill leave in 2 weeks and if#he shows up ill know me and my son can go with him and if he doesnt ill go home and just try to forget about him for reap now#and si he goes and asks his queen and she says yes ofc i always loved having a daughter for once and she says this to me too when i get#there and i start crying and drop to my knees and bow to her and tell her im home haha-ue! and she chirrups and laughs and welcomes me home#and ANY WAY IM SOOOO NORMAL ABOUT THIS NAKED MOLE RAT...#from the new world spoilers
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skeletonmaster69 · 1 year
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stop assuming i am an idiot i am no longer asking.
#i am not STUPID. DESPITE POPULAR OPINION I CONTINUE TO NOT BE STUPID#i dont have problems for no reason i am not stupid i have tried the basic solutions you people always propose when i complain#if you think so little of me so constantly and then get upset when i yell at you because I AM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT then literally die#vent tw#i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid i am not stupid#if i had enough friends to stop talking to you at this point i straight up would#but unfortunately *everyone* thinks im stupid so i guess ive got no fucking choice!#and if i tell people to stop acting like im stupid they always go 'when did i say that' once again assuming im an idiot#I CAN TELL IF YOU THINK IM STUPID. I CAN TELL WHEN YOU THINK I DONT HAVE ENOUGH OF A BRAIN TO DO THINGS#i shouldve died last year i shouldntve told anyone and then id be nice and dead and not have to deal with this#but nooooo i was a stupid fucking coward and now i dont get access to painkillers anymore#i wish dad was the sort of bad parent with a gun because atleast i could blow my brains out#and people would treat him like a bad parent for having a gun in his house with his kid whos been suicidal since middle school#but no i continue to live and he continues to just be 'a good parent whos struggling'#i dont fucking care if hes struggling if im a bad stupid selfish person then hes a bad fucking parent#nobody cares if im struggling so why should i care if he is.#fuck everyone honestly i hope someone drops a bomb on my city in my sleep and none of us ever wake up
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kings-highway · 3 months
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some safe-for-work headcanons regarding how they might of gone about having sex for the first time for some of my favouritr haikyuu ships:
daisuga: look you know these bitches had it scheduled. not like a meticulous planned thing, but it was definitely something they knew was going to happen in advance. Like they talked about it, agreed they both wanted it, and then 3 weeks later Suga's parents go away for the weekend and they know like a solid week in advance that their "hang out" on Saturday evening is basically exclusively so they can have sex. They're very prepared. This also probably makes that week of training super annoying for the team bc they cant figure out why their captains are being SO overly giggly like you are seventeen/eighteen year old men wtf is going on.
iwaoi: i've always thought they were probably way more nervous than any of their friends assumed and definitely did not have sex as early as people thought. like mattsun and makki both constantly tease them in a way that insinuates they're actively having sex but they probably didnt actually do it until like... the last few months of high school. They were both just nervous! Iwa was very afraid of rushing things and doing it "wrong," and Oikawa wasnt even sure what doing it "right" would be so they had like 6 false-starts before they actually managed it.
ushiten: dorm living is not condusive to intimacy so when for the first time in like 8 months since they started dating that they have a confirmed evening with a locked dorm alone they end up making out for just a crazy amount of time. Tendou is too nervous to actually move anything forward because he's too anxious over the possibility of rejection but he keeps making these weird half-insinuations like "haha I cant believe nobody's going to be back for another four hours... we could do anything and get away with it... isnt that so funny... like nobody would know if we were making out or having sex or just reading a book... haha... isnt that crazy... me and you..." and he's all weird and twitchy about it until Ushijima tells him he doesn't think the idea of them having sex is crazy at all and then it is on immediately.
kuroken: highkey, kuroo probably lays out like a whole romantic, corny ass evening with candles and rose petals and is prepared to have a whole long conversation about being "ready" and Kenma just sort of rolls his eyes and is like "have you finished talking? this is Too Much. I need you to understand this is Too Much. Oh my god I love you but WOW." (it works anyway and Kenma is sufficient wooed).
tsukkiyama: this one might be a little out there but I genuinely think they're the most likely to have it happen by accident, or in a spontaneous moment of opportunity. Like they both intend to just take advantage of the empty house with only a bit of making out and then suddenly they're losing their clothes and it's like "we'll have a conversation about it tomorrow, im sure."
kagehina: okay this one is more stupid but I imagine after they've been dating a while Hinata is like "you know what, im ready to take the next step" but Kageyama cannot read ppl so Hinata's somewhat obvious attempts at seduction go entirely over his head, and Hinata is getting increasingly frustrated and dramatic and trying really really hard to get Kageyama to realize what he wants and it ends up causing a fight between them because Kageyama thinks Hinata is being weird and Hinata thinks Kageyama is being intentionally distant and eventually Kageyama blows up and is like "Oh my god if you want to break up or something just say so!!!" and Hinata is like "Oh my GOD I dont want to break up with you I want to have sex with you!!!" and of course that shuts everyone up and unfortunately Yachi is probably also there and wants to die.
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shigayokagayama · 2 years
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incomplete list of weird/interesting manga-anime discrepancies
-you know the bit where they break into the girls highschool in episode 2? yea thats chapter 56. spliced into the middle of chapter 4. its supposed to go before the bit with the ghost family as a lead up to the mogami arc with mob starting to consider evil spirits as just as much “people” as living humans are. all things considered its kind of weird how well it fits its anime placement
-ritsu in the manga gets introduced in the same chapter as teru. you dont see mobs family at all for the first few chapters. infact i dont think his parents appear until like. chapter 25????? every interaction you see between mob and any of his family is completely made up for the anime
-in the manga during the claw arc instead of reigen sending them away all the lackeys just stood there awkwardly during the fight w the scars fdnjksndkjgnd
-mogami arc got GUTTED my god. the part where the fake psychics tried to murder minori got removed, shinras role in the arc got reduced to basically nothing, they move mogamiland ritsu to a bridge like 50 feet away instead of having him walk right over mob, mob only gets beat up like twice, the cat lives, the boxcutter bit is totally removed, the fight with the spirits is made a lot more abstract and less graphic. like im glad this one took the hit instead of the separation arc bc i cant imagine that arc ever being effective as one episode but wow.
-putting the “mob finding his family dead” thing at the end of the episode instead of in the middle of a chapter where it originally was was an objectively hilarious move
-rip the scene of teru outsmarting all three claw guys and saying “say old man have you ever been tortured before” unfortunately all scenes of teru being competent are not plot relevant and must die. also teru can make shadow clones
-hey remember those weird satellite people in claw keeping the viewer updated on where all the characters were in that infinite arc?
-mob with a gun.
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-mob getting briefly knocked out while fighting toichiro and dimple possessing him then getting kicked out was replaced w toichiro just throwing him out the window or somethhing???
-toichiro saying that he only kept the super five around as spare batteries and draining serizawas power getting cut was a personal affront to me
-every single emotion mob cycled through in the anime got a 100% meter. the kid was super emotionally unstable in that fight
-that old man whos house they went to whos wraith made everyone asleep that they exorcised? yea they anime team made that up. they never went to his house in the manga, he just went to spirits and such for a shoulder massage
-manga reigen got 0 money for helping the yokai dude. it wasnt on the table. also most of the stuff he was saying was lifted from a video game serizawa played which he pointed out. also serizawa thought getting arrested was a type of spell
-takenakas general meanness was significantly toned down manga takenaka was a huge bitch
-in general the alien arc was a lot funnier in the manga? like the scene where reigen crashes they had reached a dead end on an extremely narrow path and were driving in reverse while tome and takenaka were screaming at each other in the back and inukawa was 5 seconds from snapping and killing everyone in the car. these might be my favorite pages in the entire manga they as so fucking funny
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-originally when tome said she wouldnt keep climbing reigen suggested mob carry her with telekinesis (which horrified her) and mob said he was too motion sick to use his powers (obvious lie) but could carry her instead which got her to get up
-mezato asking mob to sign a t shirt for the psycho helmet cult in exchange for relationship advice got cut
-i cry every day that the sequence of ???% waking up didnt get animated it set a very different tone than the anime did. the anime was like. slow build up of dread. the manga was immediately bone deep horror i was literally sitting in my room yelling “WHAT???” over and over again at my computer as i clicked through it
-shigeo and mob conversation cut down significantly, all the references to the body improvement club being mob making a new self rather than embracing who he really is and being scared that all the friends hes made wouldnt like the real him removed </3
-the scene where reigen takes his shoes off is made a lot less somber and depressing. it feels less like “oh he knows hes going to die” and more like. triumphant? in the anime
-100% shigeo kageyama is an anime addition they added specifically to ruin my “the first time we see mob 100% is to fight dimple and the last time is to stop himself from fighting dimple” observation
-anime teru generally seems like hes in a better place than manga teru? manga teru seems very melancholy and like he doesn’t really know what to do with his life or his place in the world (which seems to put shigeo off) but anime teru is like wanna go shopping ^_^ *sips tea happily*
-manga shigeo deliberately threw the cake directly in reigens face and my fury over them making this ambiguous will last until i am dead
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iwannascreameurekaa · 3 months
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pjo characters as quotes from my classmates, parents, siblings, and grandparents.
Yipee
Will: "does anybody need the heim-ill-ick?”
Hazel (prob to Nico): “i’ve never smoked… EVER. and if you smoke, i’ll hit you.”
Percy: “he looks like a street person?”
Leo: “i thought i got salt and pepper, turns out it was salt and salt.”
Piper: “i’ve never been attached to a cat.”  
Hazel: “The power of INTERNET👹”
Frank: “that was rude.” 
Percy: “every cat that doesn’t have a tail is named bobby.”
Piper: “just put your coins in your bucket.”
Jason: “if i was barbie, my feet would hurt all the time”
Nico: “it’s giving me skin cancer as we speak.”
Hazel: “she told me to give her when i die so i thought i might as well give it to her now.”
Piper: “did you steal my brush again? quit stealing my brush you little brush thief!”
Percy: “you’ve got 4 of grandma!”
Leo: “i’m a heavy drinker today” *takes a sip of his fourth glass of water*
Annabeth: “you squeezed her so hard she dropped a cheerio.” 
Leo: “and thoust asked if Jason was a cracker(a white person) and Jason replied”no i’m at least 2 or 3 whole crackers since there’s quite a bit more of me than you”
Hazel: "ohhhh my goodness don’t put your feet in her face.”
Leo talking about Piper: "she is a luddite, against technology, close with the Amish community."
Piper looking Leo and Jason directly in the eyes: “no dying allowed in here”
Percy after TOA: “if somebody wants to steal my car, i want them to steal it! not come in my house, shoot me, take my keys, and then take the car. LET ME SLEEP I DONT CARE!”
Will: “me and Nico go on dates to funeral homes”
Hazel: “you have a problem with a joint?” She was talking about her elbow 😭
Leo: “if i get hungry, rats will get skinned.”
Piper: “if this truck goes any slower it’ll have to put out a mailbox.”
Annabeth: “oh you stepped on the cow? well it’s better than the cow stepping on you”
Frank: “and it just sucked the carpet right up”
Hazel "back in my day" Levesque: “i had a lot of beagles when i was young, and finally i had one that lived.”
Leo: “are you looking for regular markies?”
Jason: “i’m gonna go to work tomorrow with a hangover.”
Will: “i’m not very artistic(autistic)”
Jason: “i never added salt to the pepper”
Piper: “keep your toes to yourself”
Piper: “you guys are an embarrassment.”
Jason: "can you pass the salt? i like my stuff salty”
Will: "The only Christian song I know is let it go" 
Context for the next one: my friend had a slick back high pony tail when we had this conversation so that gives you a visual of what Piper was
Leo "what's your next album gonna be called?"
Piper: "'my hair is straighter than my friend'."
Leo: 😦
Piper: "What in the gay man!"
Hazel: "If you stop being a karen then maybe you would actually be successful at life"
Piper: "You should start day dreaming about getting a husband"
Annabeth: "George Washington is the off brand version of me"
Hazel: "Ideas were such good ideas they became the symbol for ideas"
Leo: "did you mean lightbulbs"
Hazel: "..... yes"
Piper: "There's a fly on your butt" *waves at it and it flies away* "that's not your property sir"
Leo: "Yeah you gotta pay for that"
Nico: "Does he have a speech impediment?" 
Will: "He has a brain impediment"
Jason: "I bet he was having Funtime"
Piper: "why do you always say Funtime"
Jason: "I'm not saying sex!"
Leo prob to his tool belt: *suggestive voice* "give me that minty mint"
Leo to Hazel, who doesn't know what any modern slang means: "check it homeslice"
Hazel: "the gambling may run in the family, but at least pokers fun!"
Leo: "im a turkey... cock cock!"
that's all I have rn lmao
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thelunarfairy · 1 month
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i forgot where i read this, about how tsukasa before his disappearance, had no fangs but then after it happened, right when he said to kunishige that his wish will come true, there we see he had them?
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This made me think how does tsukasa know the priest will die? Is the entity the one who granted kunishige's wish, as though it can sense someone's hatred and grant death wish upon the hated person? Wasnt there suppose to be a price for the wish? My guess is that the entity slowly take tsukasa's humanity as the price for granting other people's wishes of their hatred.
It also kinda makes sense to me because katakuri said that if someone lingers in the red house (or is it just the sacrificial well? Maybe this to mean if someone lingers WITH the entity) long enough, they will soon lose their sense of self and turn into a soul of hatred
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And cant help but think this is exactly whats happening tu tsukasa, from a pure child
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To this tsukasa
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although it seems to me, instead of being a soul filled with hatred, tsukasa turns into a boy who feels hated by everyone? Was he like that before he sacrificed himself or did the entity convinced him after the sacrifice?
BECAUSE!!!
All we see from tsukasa's childhood, he's playing by himself outside, while Amane cant due to his illness, and the parents, who might spend a little bit more time with amane as they are worried for him than their other healthy child? He gets lonely, as a child would. What if that was why tsukasa thinks (as a child would) his family is happier without him? Thus he feels hated.
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AND
Looking back at how the sacrifices were treated before the ritual, as we can see Sumire, is blamed for the supernatural attacks and hated by the villagers. What if the entity feeds on those sacrifices because the hatred placed upon them? And tsukasa, being a boy who feels himself hated by others, the only one who can communicate with the entity of the red house??
Pls dont be overwhelmed by my rambling😭 hope you enjoy reading this, im looking forward for your opinion!!✨
Heelloooo let me say that I loved it!!
Well, it makes sense, it makes sense, but while reading your ideas a crucial difference came to mind between Tsukasa and the other sacrifices.
The others were obligatorily thrown as sacrifices to the entity, while Tsukasa chose to stay by her side.
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I believe that the entity may have planned and influenced Amane's health, making Tsukasa feel neglected by his parents and alone.
This would give him the feeling that "he needs a reason to stay".
When you don't feel loved, it's a feeling that can arise and if you let it grow it can be dangerous.
Tsukasa is not afraid of the entity, he teaches it to speak, he spent a lot of time by her side. I usually say that Tsukasa made friends with death.
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When you are not afraid of dying, nothing can scare you anymore, right?
Here is the difference. The entity uses Tsukasa as a vessel, he uses his body to move around, in exchange for which Tsukasa can fulfill his wishes.
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HOWEVER
Tsukasa fulfills other people's wishes, but HE CHARGES FOR IT. Don't forget that, he always charges the person he granted the wish to.
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The entity has bonded with Tsukasa, sometimes you can see it reflected in his eyes and actions, at the same time that he is still Tsukasa.
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He still acts like a little boy at times, he doesn't behave like Amane.
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He allows the entity to do what it wants at certain times, in the same way that the entity also allows Tsukasa to do what he wants.
Tsukasa is still there, it's him, that look of his is there!
So, Tsukasa going crazy is not something feasible for the entity, because he was the only one who bonded with it out of pure will. Without being afraid, allowing him to use his body.
From the time he was in the red house he says that he could have gone back home, but he didn't want to, and he chose to have the entity go with him.
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They are simply "friends."
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Tsukasa does what the entity wants. The entity allows him to do what he wants.
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coldmori · 1 month
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my brain thought of an ending to coldmori
rant:
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mari only sees everyone suffering and slowly dying so as a final resort she uses the horror of the forms they see her to drive everyone to kill themselves (mercy kill)
in this, i imagine some headspace shit went down, few lore things happen, sunny wakes up, and the only person hes able to see "alive" is maybe basil or kel
basil wouldve already slitted his wrists and would just be waiting to die
sunny cant really save basil, basil refuses saving, but he can sit with him until he dies
in an alternate reality sunny goes to see kel
he'd find kel in a drug induced comatose
sunny can find a note on kels desk addresed to him aswell as other letters to his mom, dad, hero, sally (for when she gets older), aubrey, basil, and mari
sunnys note:
"you made it out! im so happy you're reading this Sunny! man its been such a long time! i hope you remeber me! it's your old friend, kel!
when are you reading this? is it DECADES into the future? is it tommorow?
what do you think of all the new tech and stuff! im sure you got real confused if you ever saw a brand new phone! haha
what's your new house like? where did you move too? does it snow there as much as it does here? ha i bet not!!!
i hope you arent too upset that im gone, well, i mean not yet im not, but, y'know, you probably already know what happened since you're a future man!
i wanted to see you so bad while i was here, Sunny. I dont blame you, i would've done the same thing if i lost hero or sally!
oh btw, how's sally? hows she look now in the future? does she remeber me? i dont remeber anything from when i was a baby but maybe sally is a secret genius!
you're my best friend, and you cant see it, but im probably right beside you right now, so happy
id never leave your side buddy! God wouldnt dare pull me from you!
i hope not."
(back of page)
"hey Sunny theres one thing i forgot to tell you, i've been having a lot of back and forth in my mind as to whether or not i should say this but
when will i get another chance? haha
please dont tell anyone! it's my dying wish!!!
but uhm...
(theres a noticable amount of erased text making this part hard to read)
i remeber feeling different with you when we where kids, from aubrey or basil, kim, mikael...
everyone, you get the point
it was like, a good different, like "Sunny is so cool that no one else compares" different
and as i grew up i kept, like, feeling more different, and i think i knew after the first year of waiting for you but your parents and my parents, and the whole town is christian yknow and the elders esspecially, i always hear them say that one verse and
i think you know where this is going...
please forgive me Sunny,
but i am in love with you.
it feels weird to say
i dont know how to continue saying things after this
uhm well
goodbye then
i love you
- kel
p.s. dont follow after me. please."
sunny will find kel in his bed, he was hours too late, kels parents still think he's sleeping
if sunny brings his violin after reading the note he will play something for kel,
i like to think kel could hear it
and thats the ending !!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🪅🪅
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erwinsvow · 7 months
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I know this isn’t the usual speed around here but slightly pathetic whimpery s1 Rafe is to die for!! He’s obviously cocky and entitled but it’s in a more spoiled and almost bratty way so he throws his little temper tantrums when he doesn’t get his way… I think s1 has seriously overlooked toxic Rafe potential
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wait i know im allllll about season 2 rafe like hes loml seriously but i just started rewatching season 1 and i dont like his hair lol but hes so toxic and gross. i know everyone on here has been talking more about him and like fratboy rafe and i usually refrain but something about being his gf through all of season 1..... im hornee.
in particular im thinking of like how he acts so douchey with everyone in public but its so visible he has a huge soft spot for you.. waves you over when he's just hanging out with his friends to check in that you're doing okay, goes and gets you a fresh drink before giving you a kiss and sending you off back to ur friends.. makes some gross comment about how you were screaming for him in the back of his truck last night after you walk away... kelce is like bro. i always sit in the back.
you'd be lurking in his bedroom when he goes down to 'have a chat' with his dad, like when he gets yelled at about the generators. comes back all angry and literally folds you in half and fucks you until you cry because you are his favorite way to calm down <3 ... (i have no idea what the vibes on this blog are and i dont wanna make people mad but he gets so manipulative... esp if you're just like i don't feeling like fucking again right now or esp in public!!!! which he looooves.... starts going on a tangent about how he provides for you and takes care of you and he's the man of the house and if he needs to relax you should be on your knees already.... sorry omg if ur reading this n youre starting to hate me i apologize in advance. i never talk about scummy scummy rafe but hes real and hes so hot. fully wants you to be like a hyperactive horny bunny just waiting for his dick at all times.... i would 110% start doing it too... ANYWAYS)
he's so spoiled so he likes spoiling you with anything you want... most of the stuff he gets you is pretty much for him tho... gets hard because you wear an RC necklace.. lots of pretty lingerie and babydolls that he likes to rip up...handcuffs because duh.. it's almost always you in the handcuffs but every once in a while he can be convinced to get in them lol
but the temper tantrums are soooo real like especially if you're out with friends or made plans with your parents. like he seriously loves making you abandon your plans to come see him. but then youll show up and hes at a party and selling or ignoring you and ofc you cry because it's like he made you come here and not even giving you any attention... then he'll drag you out by your hair and fuck you SOOO mean in the back of his truck talkin about "just needed this dick, yeah? s'okay, dad's gonna give it to ya hard. then you'll be good as gold won'tya?" ugh. hes so mean.
im still in my rewatch but the scene where him and topper beat up pope:( this especially hits sooo hard w my pogue reader but i can just imagine that being the cause of your first real fight, like you're so upset he can be that cruel but there goes his manipulation tactics.. telling you he needs to be a proactive man to protect you and his friends and his turf. he's not letting anyone walk all over him, regardless if you like them or not. fucks you until you forget all about your pogue friends, and then you end up bandaging his bloody hand for him.
ooohh and when they go to that movie showing.. can just imagine curling up on a lawnchair with him under a blanket, him n the boys are on high alert for jj and pope but he keeps a tight arm around you, goes and gets you a soda and popcorn which you two share.. you don't want him to leave and you whine when he does.. can just imagine the scene where jj and pope turn back to look at him when kie tells them rafe is right behind them. rafe is staring so hard at them while ur tryna feed him a piece of popcorn. LOL
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rui-drawsbox · 5 months
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Okay obligatory DnD person as per the Dungon Meshi post(dnd/fantasy au + our life is amazing and I love it) but also I just wanted to say that there is a subclass of elves in dnd called aquatic elves that are kind of a happy mix between a mermaid and a, well, normal elf. I stick more towards spooky rather than nautical campaigns myself, so I’m not too familiar, but if I remember correctly they’re amphibious but with two legs rather than full mermaid.
Also obviously please ignore if you have different ideas but based off of what people have written about battle roles I could absolutely see some subclasses for the four!
Derek I could absolutely see as a Paladin(subclass possibly being oath of devotion or glory) basically the more defensive tank guys bound by an oath they make to themselves or someone important to them, which gives them a little spellcasting as well as actual auras that buff their allies later on.
Baxter I could see being a Bard (College of Swords), or what I kind of think of as a sort of battledancer. It would be a little less of a full spellcaster, but you can do special flourishes when fighting with a rapier which I always imagine as pseudo-dancing, plus he’d still get all the flashy bard spells. And to top it off, Bards actually use their charm(charisma stat) to cast spells which just screams Baxter to me.
Cove is a little harder but if you were going with him having a fish/animal companion while still being a melee fighter a Ranger(Beastmaster or Swarmkeeper) would be a good fit IMO, obviously with the Cove Creater he’s harder to pin than Baxter or Derek, but Ranger is pretty flexible. You basically get to choose a companion that’s from the land, air, or sea; and they can help you out in battle and follow you around, or as Swarmkeeper he could have his swarm be a school of fish.
Ruri is obviously a bit harder because you know your OC best, but if you really wanted to lean into more into the familiar/animal buddy route. Druid(circle of the shepherd) is always a fun choice! It’s kind of like the more spellcaster version of rangers’ Swarmkeeper where you can summon a lot of critters while still having some super strong elemental spells.
But anyway! I hope this wasn’t too long, I saw some (kinda) DnD our life content and I couldn’t resist! But thank you again for the adorable art of the main boys(and your lovely OC!) in a fantasy setting!
Second ask from dnd anon:
Oh! DnD anon part two!
But basically the theoretical party composition would look like:
Derek = Tank/Damage
Cove = Weapon Damage/Companion(s)
Baxter = Spells/Weapon Damage
and Ruri = Healing/Spells.
Also one last note about Druid is while druids have a lot of elemental spells (create water, spike growth, etc.), they also have the ability to do something called wildshape, where they can shapeshift into an animal for either out of battle(wildshape into a mouse to get under the crack in a door, then returning to normal and unlocking it) or battle (at later levels imagine fighting a spellcasting bear or even dragon) but also has more silly implications like wild shaping into a songbird to sing with Baxter, or a cat or sloth to ride on Cove’s shoulder.
got these asks a few days ago but i let them marinate in my brain hope you dont mind anon KJDSAUH
anyways AQUATIC ELF THATS PERFECT i tried to stick to what i knew about dumenshi rules in that post but for my first fantasy AU ideas i was going to do Cove a half mermaid (Cliff human x mermaid Kyra or elf Kyra [shes just so pretty its insane] x mermaid Cliff) that lived in a house right on the beach lmao, im happy that actually makes sense somewhere in dnd
i tried to look at the aquatic elves wiki from the forgotten realms fandom and omg so much text in the main page
also paladin Derek canon‼‼ imagine he does his oath to his brothers right after something dangerous happens to them when they were kids (im not saying his parents should die but im not saying they shouldnt--)
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and bam!! tragic backstory 10x worse than his canon that is already bad enough :DD (try to make him feel less responsable now i wanna see that)
baxter turn rn. DO YOU THINK HE WOULD PLAY VIOLIN? I WANNA SEE THAT (<-this person didnt thought about drawing him with an instrument until it was time to write her thoughts) anyway it would def be a fancy instrument, daddy and mommy wanted to keep appearances i bet
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one his spells makes his sword and moves shine and when hes under the sun his enemies become fucking blind
everything about him screams I HAVE MONEY but everytime people try to rob him he just rolls a nat20 in persuasion and they end up giving him money
and omg just imagine Cove's school of fish are all his pet fishes from the game JGASDFJK
im also. not discussing roles when the most i know about dnd is bg3 and i just finished 2 playthroughs. if you say ruri is a druid she's a druid, she makes super artsy flower fields and decorates every tree she sees with organical paint or smth jkfhds
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Ruri's forest has a tree that connects with the ocean and they both just hangout sometimes (as if theyre not together 60% of the time already)
DRUID RURI THAT LIKES TO BRAID COVE'S HAIR WITH LITTLE POPPIES‼‼‼
MERMAID COVE THAT LETS RURI (otter form!!) RIDE HIS BACK WHILE HE SWIMS‼‼‼‼
mermaid cove humming a song and ruri falling to the river in trance/j
anyways anon i agree with everything tbh, there's so many ways to do a fantasy AU and i adore the dnd version (id kill for a dnd group or smth in my city)
i also have another fantasy au more vanilla but not-really. basically isekai baxter LMAO mostly an excuse to make ruri and baxter being domestic but before baxter developed any real domestic skill JHASFD
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tarasmithshifts · 7 months
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𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐑: 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐃 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐅𝐓 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 2
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𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐑. 2 years😭 𝐀𝐆𝐄. 16-17 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐏: sirius, remus, james, lily, peter, dorcas, marlene, mainly people from gryffindor and ravenclaw
𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒. single (5th to the end of 5th year) TAKEN BAHSDHABHAHDB (summer after 5th year - ongoing)
「 ✦ 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮𝓼 ✦ 」
helloooooooooooooooooooo welcome back (i started like a freaking youtuber LOL) part 1 was emmm, it was a rollercoaster. A BIG ONE
— ୨୧₊˚ click here to read part 1 :)
im super super super excited for this part 'cause finally something cute is happening, literally those things that happened in part 1... WE ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT IT. WE WENT THROUGH IT, AND WE ARE BACK. part 2. let's do it
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「 ✦ 6th year ✦ 」
𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮 - 6𝓽𝓱 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻
summer 1976 - I left grimmuald place 12 and ran away to remus. sirius did the same some weeks before me, and we were both burn out of the "Black Family Tree"
July/August - James Potter and Lily are named Head Boy and Head Girl.
October/November - Lily finally agreeded and started to go out with James for some dates
this are basics from og timeline because i don't want to spoil anything
SUM MER
— ୨୧₊˚ a little reminder about what happened in last part - me and remus got together, and basically we are girlfriend and boyfriend, we spent time with each other more, trying to get ourselves more into this change yk 🥹
OKAY ANYWAY
after last day of school me and remus promised ourselves that we will write to each other as much as possible. boys did not know about ‘us’ because we didn’t know if this whole relationship will work 😭 so it was our little secret, but not for long tho
in july, when me and sirius were back at grimmuald place, sirius got himself into a HUGE fight with our father, and said to me “idk what you gonna do, but i will not stay here any longer”. he did not tell me where would he go, some days after this fight he left in a middle of the night. he just left me a note to do the same, and that in some weeks he will let me know where he is. i kept that ‘letter’ to myself.
when i tell you that walburga was PISSED. P I S S E D . as well as our father. they would fight over it, and finally, when it was clear that sirius is not coming back, they burned sirius face out of this family tree.
ar least they are proud of regulus 👍 good job mate. you will die. soon. like girllllll
especially that i’m super attached to him. he is my little brother and i knooooow that when i will shift again his death is gonna hit me like a train, BUT WE DONT TALK ABOUT THIS RN LETS GET BACK
when sirius left walburga was super suspicious about me and always was looking at me, controlled everything etc. i knew that if she would find out about remus, she would probably punish me for it or smth, so i sent last letter to remus that he should not write to me because my parents went WILD over this whole situation.
in august i felt empty??? i could not get any letters from remus, i missed him, i missed sirius. he did not sent me any letter after he left, but i knew that it’s probably because he knew what the hell is going on in the house rn. also, regulus started to ignore me, like walburga and orion did. annnnnnnndddddd that’s when i didn’t back off, and started shouting at him (reggie) and when walburga heard it, she wasn’t happy 💀💀 so she decided to fucking punish me, but this time i was like “hell no, fuck off” and the same night i left grimmuald place 12 behind me, in my past. i took everything i could with me, some clothes, books, and it was whole huge operation, because walburga and orion are those kind of people that when something moves behind some walls, they wake up. so what i did, was that i added sleep potion that i made in my room to their drinks that they were having before going to sleep. well, it worked HA.
but when i left this house, i was like “bombastic, but what am i going to do now 😭😭😭😭😭 i was literally without any house, i did not want to bother anybody, especially that it was 2am in the morning 💀 andromeda did not tell us where she lived so i had no idea where i should go, and the only person that i could think of then was remus. i knew where he lived, he wrote me his address in one of letters i got from him.
so i went there. by foot. call me crazy but i did that. i took some muggle bus and was on his street around 4am. i knew it was very early but i hoped that he will not be mad about it, or his father. they were living at the edge of london, it was quiet and lovely place to live. when i was looking round for his house, as there were only few of them, i looked up and i saw that it was full moon 😭 and i didn’t realise that before. so i was still looking for around like 25 minutes, and i finally found it. AND YOU SHOULD’VE SEEN MY FACE WHEN I SAW THAT LIGHT IN THE HOUSE WERE TURNED ON
LYALL LUPIN WAS AWAKE
THANK GOD
so i went to the door and knocked. i saw some movement in the window and was like “yuppp this man will think that i’m a freak. good job to me i guess” i waited a few minutes and he finally opened the door. i started apologising to him that i’m sorry that i’m here at 4 in the morning, that i know his son etc. then he fully opened the door and it wasn’t lyall lupin IT WAS REMUS 😭😭😭😭 i literally was so so so happy, i mean, he was shocked, i was shocked too because i thought that it was a full moon that night, i hugged him and he hugged me back IT WAS SO CUTE IM ABOUT TO CRY I WANNA GO BACK THERE SO BADLY
so we stayed in this position for some minutes and he finally made a step back, looked at me and said “what are you doing here?” so i started to tell him what happened few hours before, that sirius is somewhere god knows where, that he should write to me but i know why he didn’t, i was talking really fast and finally he was like “yo chill out, just come in and we will talk about it later, you need to sleep” (yup i’m living my y/n life LMAO) so basically he took my things upstairs and told me to sleep in his bedroom, and that he will figure out what to do later. so i went to sleep
— ୨୧₊˚ lupin’s house
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it was like 11 am when i woke up, so i just went down the stairs to find remus, but he wasn’t there, so i just looked around and guess who i met in the kitchen 😭😭😭 lyall lupin ladies and gentlemen 😭😭😭 he was like “emmm you are tara right?” and i was like “yessss that’s me 💀” he was just walking around the kitchen, but he was nice to me tho. he said that remus went to james to tell him that i’m here. i was like “oh yup okay” so later i found out that sirius was living at james house the whole time 😭
so i wrote a letter to him telling him that i am at remus now, but i said that i don’t want to bother his family, so probably i will leave in a few days (i didn’t LMAO, remus stopped me) so that’s how i was living for next month, until school started. i got along with remus father, he is a nice guy, also he has good sense of humour, thank GOD 😭 idk finally i felt loved and as i was at my own home. thanks to the lupins 🫶
SEPTEMBER
— ୨୧₊˚ 1st day
lyall left few days before school started, he said that if i would need anything, he can buy me some things on street, but i was fine, as walburga buys everything that is needed already in june, so yup, i was stated for new school year 🫡
on a 1st day i finally saw sirius again, gosh i never thought that i would be happy only by seeing him in a crowd. remus told me what happened after sirius left grimmuald place 12, at least the part that he knew about. by this i also mean that he forgave him about what happened, so we were all good 🫶
on a train i found out that james and lily were chosen to become next head boy and head girl, which is the reason why they got onto each other.
sooooo me and remus relationship was still a secret, but i think that boys could feel the change between us, especially sirius, i mean it was kinda obvious 😭 we did not “hide” it, we just did not tell them 💀 there were signs, like sometimes remus put his arm around my back and hold me like this, or during the day when i tried to keep contact with him. basically only lily knew about me and remus. i told her right after everything happened in june, sooooo yup she knew since the very beginning.
whole September we were all excited to start new school year, but something started to feel different ??? but that was because of war.
but let’s concentrate on hogwarts rn 😭
so me and boys still took turns to stay with remus during full moons, remus wanted to complain about it because of what happened few months before, but he finally said yes.
OCTOBER
— ୨୧₊˚ boys find out about me and remus
soooo everything was fine at hogwarts, we were doing great, james and lily started to talk to each other, she would tell me about the conversations they had, but when i asked her “do you like him” she acted like she was angry and ignored the question or answered me with “don’t be ridiculous” soooo yk something was going on between them (finally) also sirius and remus told me that james is talking about her ALL THE TIME and that they are super tired of it. about peter,well, he was quiet as always 😭 so nothing changed.
me and remus were even more opened about our relationship, we were more confident about it? we were showing it ig 😭 and on one day in the middle of october, sirius, james and peter caught us in a common room and told us to sit down, their face went literally 🤨🤨🤨 and james started talking “okay what the HELL is going on here” so i looked at remus, remus looked at me, and i finally said “oh yeah we re together” and sirius went WILDDDD he literally looked at remus and went “THATS MY SISTER YOU MANIAC” and started chasing remus across the common room 😭 it was SO FUNNY 😭😭 after they were done (about 10 minutes later lmao💀) we just sat down in their dormitory and they were doing this police kind of thing where they are asking questions and shit 💀 pretty crazy but yup they knew since then
and because of that we could be more open about us and be ourselves bc of that. sirius was sometimes overdramatic about it but he got used to it i guess LMAO
also sirius got himself into detention 😭😭😭 AGAIN i’m super sick of this at some point 💀💀 he started to bully severus again, so i get it, but now lily did not react (he called mudblood as yk)
but james was a little bit out of business, because he wanted to impress lily, and you could see that. literally he was not helping sirius and peter with their pranks for a while, so he could convince lily to him, which was so cute ☹️
NOVEMBER
— ୨୧₊˚ 17 birthdayyy
in the beginning of november me and sirius got letter from andromeda, that she heard about our escape from grimmuald place 12 and that she is super proud of us 😭😭😭 she asked if we have some place to stay and etc. to be honest, i didn’t think about it 💀 i didn’t want to bother remus but still i was too young to bus myself a house from money that i saved. sirius told me in the beginning of school year that he will stay at james during next summer, so he could later buy a house from money that he got from ⭐️
i just wrote back to andromeda that i’m okay, and i just did not think about it. it was not time for that too.
also, from weird things that happened in november is that on random day, when i was leaving great hall with remus after lunch, regulus wanted to talk to me??? like excuse you i guess? but yup he’s my little brother, i was worrying about him the whole time tbh 😭 so remus did not want to go away, he checked if i’m okay with him leaving, i just nodded, so he hugged me and just left 😭
SO ABOUT REGULUS CAUSE IM STILL BAD OKAY
he did not even say “hi” or shit, he just went
“oh so you are with H I M”
and i was like bro what? since when we are talking to each other like this??? what happened to hello? how was your day???
also he was nervously checking if the hall that we were standing in was clear. which was pretty mad, but i figured it out after i shifted back that he just wanted to check if any slytherins saw us 💀 he looked a little bit scared too. OKAY ANYWAY
so i went “why do you care”
AND HE RESPONDED “you are a blood traitor”
I WAS SO MAD. SO. MAD.
“that’s the reason why you stopped me?”
AND BARE WITH ME RN CAUSEEEEEE
“no.” he made a dramatic pause here lol??? “you know you can both still fix this”
MY JAW WAS ON A FLOOR I SWEAR, BECAUSE THEN HE SAID SOMETHING LIKE “you need to choose the right side. like mother said”
HE THREATENED ME TO JOIN LORD FUCKING VOLDEMORT.
BRO. WHAT THE FUCK.
hell no. I WAS SO PISSED SO P I S S E D
“reggie” “do not bother me again, please”
that’s all i said. the silence was LOUD, it was SCREAMING i think it was this moment that i knew that even if i tried, i would never convince reggie that lord voldemort and death eaters are not a good way to go to (if yk what i mean 😭) so i just walked away. and when i tell you i CRIED. i did not talk to sirius about it, i did not talk to remus about it, even tho both of them were trying to get out the convo between me and regulus of me LMAO, i knew that i would hurt sirius so i kept it to myself
ANYWAY
happy birthday to me and sirius i guess 😭😭😭
i am officially 17 in this dr ��
sirius ofc threw the whole party, but i passed. i wanted peace lmao. remus sat with me in his dormitory and we played some games, then dorcas and lily joined us, then james and peter. we had so much fun, it’s such a core memory 🫶🥹 I MISS THEM SO MUCH i’m sooooo homesick but yup i just gotta make my way back there (somehow)(even tho i know next shifts are gonna be awfully full of angst, i’m not ready tbh)
during the full moon this month me and james took care of remus ❤️‍🩹
DECEMBER
— ୨୧₊˚ christmas
okay sooooo HAPPY NEWS ABOUT JAMES AND LILY
basically james asked her out for a date and she said YES
WE WERE CELEBRATING and lily finally told me she likes him a lot and that if he would not be such a dumb-ass sometimes she would talk to him earlier 😭😭😭 i’m super happy for them literally waited for that moment for SO LONG. and sirius threw a little party in their dormitory so everyone were happy ❤️‍🩹
on christmas ofc we gave each other presents, but sirius went CRAZY this time.
1. he started dating a girl called daisy from ravenclaw (which was pretty crazy cause he didn’t pull up any girl for like a year or something?) this time he said that he really like her and will try to keep this relationship for longer than 3 weeks (they lasted like 3 months maybe 💀 james even made bets at this point 😭)
2. sirius and james were running around common room with a mistletoe to force people to kiss including me and remus 😭😭 pls guys i love them so much but WHAT
james and lily went out few times during december, and when lily was coming back to our dorm she was super happy and even tho she still had her opinion “but he is a dumb-ass sometimes🙄🙄🙄” she seemed to really like him???
sooooo also james invited sirius, remus, peter, lily, dorcas (and more actually it was a full-ass list with names of like 15 people and i’m too lazy to name all of them sorry 😭😭 maybe during editing i will do it) for new year’s eve, so we all needed to left hogwarts for christmas 😭 like girl i DONT HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE RN 💀 sirius stayed with james at his house, and remus told me that lyall is not coming back for christmas so we can go and live at his house for those 2 weeks, and we decided to do so ❤️‍🩹🥺 GUYS YOU DONT GET IT LIKE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AHHHHHHH PLS BRING ME BACK OMG
okay.
so.
i spent whole 2 weeks only with remus, it was super cute and cozyyy we decorated his house and baked (at least i did bc i was 17 and i could use magic legally outside hogwarts 💀) we had fun. truly these 2 weeks refreshed me soooo much, ALSO
LYALL LUPIN GOT ME A CHRISTMAS PRESENT 😭😭😭😭 it was little bracelet that remus told him i would like, pls lyall is such a nice guy 😭
and also i think the most memorable moment from these 2 weeks is remus christmas present, and by that i mean, he bought two tickets to “muggle” opera, and it was AMAZING. later the same night he told me the story how his parents met, and we played his mother records (i scripted that she was an opera singer!!!)
— ୨୧₊˚ new year’s eve
so me and remus needed to take a ride with this crazy wizard bus 😭😭😭 but we made it and spent THE BEST NEW YEAR’s EVE EVER. we had so much fun 😭 also i found out how many things in common me and dorcas have, which is funny because we were “friends” literally we live in one dorm 💀 but that night i got to know her more which is great bc we became closer as roommates. okay so basically during the midnight, when clock hit 12pm, there is this tradition that you have to kiss somebody for luck. so yup me and remus kissed (my cutie patootie ☹️) BUT ALSO WHEN I WAS GOING OUTSIDE WITH SIRIUS, REMUS, DORCAS AND OTHERS I SAW JAMES KISSING LILY???? I WAS SO HAPPY likeeeeee pls 😭
JANUARY, FEBRUARY, MARCH AND APRIL
i wil speed up those few months because nothing really happened except for some birthdays, and that was all because our exams, I WAS SO STRESSED IDK WHY i know that i will pass them perfectly (duhh) but i was stressed anyway. crazy time tbh lmao, everybody were busy.
about james and lily - they started to ‘officially date’ each other, which made me super happy, they are so cute 😭😭😭
also sirius broke up with this girl from ravenclaw, so it did not last long LMAO
and peter and sirius got themselves into a HUGE detention from mcgonagall for messing up her office 💀 which was crazy, we got -100 points from our house. you should have seen her, she was SO MAD. i’ve never seen mcgonagall so angry
MAY
okayyyy so may was super chill month EXCEPT the final quidditch match. between gryffindor and slytherin it was AMAZING
okay so i probably did not write about that bc i did not find that necessary it still, i okay quidditch on one of ‘beater’ positions so yuppp i play quidditch 🤭 AND IT’S SO MICH FUNNN
anyway, gryffindor won after james found that goddamn little gold ball, when i tell you he was so annoyed bc he couldn’t catch it 😭😭 HE WAS SO PISSED, but we won 🤭
and after some other days of school work i “shifted back 😭” to cr
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it was 2 months and im still there tbh 😭
ANYWAY
This shift was so crazy??? and fun???? and sad??? and cute??? AT THE SAME TIME.
i am now remus lupin gf. yup I WON
i’m so happy and i just can’t wait to shift there again 😭😭😭😭😭
remember that i will edit this page! there are A LOT to edit but i’m to lazy to do so 🤭
anyway BYE
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ollie-supports · 5 months
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hello all! below the line i am going to explain my hiatus, tw for death, mental illness, neglect, heart problems, psych ward mention, and school issues. i will be returning today! please take care of yourself if you can't handle any of these topics, your health matters!🌸
so, to start off, my grandmother died. her name was bunny and she was the most wonderful person! she had an aneurysm about to explode, so she took a voluntary surgery to get rid of it and reduce the pain. she did not have to get this surgery because it wouldve been done when it blew, but it would have improved her quality of life. as they tried to put in a tube to regain bloodflow, all the tissue basically crumbled. they had to sacrifice a kidney, but her other worked just fine. she was on lots of machines, and when she only had 2 days left until discharge, she demanded for us to pull the plug. she would have survived. her quality of life wouldve skyrocketed. she just needed to wait 2 more days on her machines, which wouldve been painless had she accepted painkillers. i watched her die. i held her hand, taking comfort in its warmth. it got so cold so fast when she died. i threw up only 3 seconds after i felt her go cold. i had never truly understood dead weight until then. she survived off of her machines for 6 hours. i spent every second by her side, holding her hand. i heard her death rattles. i watched her stats decline. when the painkillers made me pass out, i saw the little girl in her right before she died. the little girl she used to be, who thought she'd never die.
my mental state severely deteriorated. we had to sell her house, the house my uncles lived in to stay closer to us. my uncles now live much farther away, and they were my only safe space. i have been severely neglected my whole life, and as im writing this i am in debilitating pain from how hungry i am. my parents have enough money to feed me. they just dont. my parents have ignored me my whole life.
this affected school. i was a straight A student, getting a 4.0 gpa easily. i failed every class this trimester. i may be held back.
the stress from all of this has severely impacted my heart problems, giving me longer and worse episodes. i have nearly died 3 times now because my heart problems induced a heart attack. ive died once and was resuscitated. my dosage for my antidepressants has been tripled, its the only way to prevent me from yet another psych ward visit, in which i would have to go to a long term facility.
please be patient with me. im trying my best, i promise.
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sunnychuuya · 1 month
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Sally face >:3
the cameras thar Addison installed have eyes on them on Larry's side mr Addison sus frrr /hj
me after looking up a tutorial and still being lost
How do I activate the runes on floor three raghhh
I DID KT
thank God for light bulbs existing I'm so much less scared rn
guys I don't like this ://
Sodas gonna be okay right ://
also where's uhhh I think her name is maple she's gone that's sus
HEYYY UHH SWITCHED TO LARRYS SIDE WHY ARE CHUG AND SODA ALL FADED
WAIT THAT MEANS THEIR NOT POSSED RIGHT ??
SO THEYLL BE FINE
RIGHT GYYS
oh 304 is just fucking gone on Larry's side
the mirror in Todd's bathroom where the red eyes demon appeared in chapter two is shattered
why dids Todd's parents toilet have the void
Why doesn't it let me access the full rooms I can't go into the bedrooms
I dislike that all kf the suspicious ppls houses r not able to be accessed (charley, packerton)
WHAT THE FUCK IS THE GOOP ITS POSSESION GOOP I KNOW IT
Nvm I gor into packertons place
Theres nothing here tho ??
What the florp
I got it to work at the last second bruh i suck at the guitar bits
Mm circles
all the mirrors are shattered actually
did Mrs Gibson die 💀
I'm pretending to understand what's happening
FUCK THE GUITAR BITS R SO HARS
I'm definitely missing stuff :/
-GUYS NO FUCKING WAY WAS I RIGHT ABOUT ADDISONCBEING SUS ??
Addison: a young boy stands at the threshold of oblivion
Unkoen green voice: MEXMERIZED BY THE ETERNAL ABYSS
-Ph what the fyck this is creepy
-UHHHHH
SO MR ADDISON IS SUS
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"SO how long have you been like this"
*slowly slides away*
what the fuck
Litterally nothing could've prepared me for this
This reminds me of fullmetal alchemist bro
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Goop
ADDISON IS THE POSSESSY DUDE I thought it was The red eyed demon is the red eyed demon possibly an extension?
Im
Having trouble processing this I seriously thought Mr Addison was not actually gonna be sus.
NO WHAT THE HELL
I HATE THIS GAME
DUDE I CAN BARELY DO THE FUCKING PILLAR THINGIES
FUCK SHIT BALLS ASS
I paused the game and forgot I was doing this lmao
THIS IS SI HARD
t h e r e s m o r e
Bruh I'm gonna larry
I did IT
hey guys wtf
MURDER EVERYONE IN THE APARTMENRS ??
OKAY BUT NOT SODA AND CHUG RIGJT CUZ THEY DONT HAVE THE POSSESY GOOP
"I don't think I can do this. Please don't make me do this terrence" guys what if I just delete the game
Omori core (white room with knife)
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This isn't girlypop guys
"Goal: kill"
what if I'm crying
I HAVE TO KILL TODDS PAEENRS
I HAVE TO KILL MY DAD AND LISA
NO
Why do I feel so fuckijg guilty it's a video game
SAL NO CHUG AND SODA ARE INNOCENT THEY ARWNT POSSESED
The lack of music
Like complete silence except for footsteps
Makes this so much more painful
Killing soda is what opened the floodgates of tearss
"Youknow, I may not say this enough, but I'm proud of you, sal. You've come a long eay and I know it hasn't all been easy." Fuck. This hurts.
If Larry hadn't kms lsal would've had to kill him..
"I look at you now and I'm excited about the man you arebecoming. K think youve for a bright future ahead of yoj. I reallt do"
Haha funny joke I'm sobbing hea about to fucking kill you and then (prolly) get excuted. I hate this game.
Ih fuck not Todd
ASH I FUCKING WISH YOU WERE IN THOSE APARTMENTS YOU ARE THE FUCKING WORST I HATE YOJ
ENON DIED
FUCKING HELL
ThIS IS BECAUSE THE CULT RIGHT
TBATS A FAKE
SHIT
SHIT SHIT SHIT
FUCK
The music fading out
Fuck
ASH IDC UR STILL FUCKIJG WRONG
Wair no but I know her idea won't work bc like ik sal dies
Do NIT play memories and dreams rn
ASH NO SHUT THE FUCK UP- AHUT THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOWBTHIS IS YOUR FAULT, YOU HAD THREE YEARS YOU WAITED TILL THE LAST FUCKING SECOND
hey guys what the fuck
What the genuine fuck
Like okay I knew he died from before I started the game but
This still kinda hurts ngl
Fuck
Why couldn't they just like
Be happy
STOP ISBTHAT WHY I KEEP SEEING FANARTS WITH CLOCKS THAT SAY 6 33/18 33 ON CLOCKS YALL ARW DEVIOUS
Acheivment: suffer
Re you fuckin kidding me I mean I am suffering but God damn
Wait yea that's a good point wtf happened to Larry's body
Ash jm going to allow you go try to redeem herself but it's gonna be hard
NKO U HAVE TO PLAY AS HER :(
Travis is the cult member on the inside yea?
-"Oh gizmo is still alive, thats good at least!" [He hadn't left your room since the execution. It's like he knows] guys what the fuck
maple..
Pookies j do not remember the shed code
travis is still alive at least..
YALL I JUST REALIZED THE LIL PUZZLR BOX THING FROM THE TREE HOUSE A LONG TIME AGO ?? NEVER EXPLAIJED
great fucking job ash now Larry's gone bc of you too (actuslly I don't blame her for this one bc Larry wanted it yk)
girly just casually has a c4
Went into the temple
2nite wasn't great updates since I was just talkin eith the below user lmao
@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow
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