#if you don't vibe with this we can pretend it didnt happen and go for something else

[2ndbat]

@neonwebs sent:

“ My disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined. ”

mixed bag sentence starters || accepting

"Your day is ruined?!" And things were going so well until... well... he wasn't even sure what happened exactly. There was a lot of blinding light and suddenly he wasn't in Gotham anymore.

Erica Coe, Black Spider-- was a hitman the Bat had been tailing for a while now. And finally he'd just had her on the ropes before they somehow ended up here. Wherever here was.

Terry had apparently been mistaken for the bad guy in this situation, since out of nowhere he'd been attacked by this stranger in a different spider costume.

Unfortunately for him, Coe decided to attack her rescuer when he came to release her from Batman's restraints. Now she had created some distance between them-- and her wrist mounted weapons were automatically trained on the two of them. Considering she had like six arms, and a weapon on each one, this wasn't going to be easy. "I nearly caught her before you showed up!"

He wasn't about to give up, but Batman was worn down from the first part of his fight with the hired assassin. And his com-link was no longer working as far as he could tell. So it was just him, Black Spider, and the other Spider. There was no telling who's side the latter was on either.

[smiggles]

I'm sorry if this is invasive but can I ask exactly why you lock youre twitter? Youre recent tweets sound like something happened. No worries if you don't want to answer

Honestly I had been wanting to leave twitter for years now. The environment there is horrible for mental health, the way it encourages negativity and forces people to be hyper aware of every bad thing in the world at all times. Negativity below the cut

As well as feeling like the entire universe has its eyes on you. Whether in a positive or negative way. Theres no way to breathe there. Its uncomfortable. Ive had people idolizing me in ways that made me feel like I wasnt a human, striping my characters of their personalities for their benefit, theft, incredibly high expectations. I was seen as a role model and required to act as one because of my "status" and "influence" despite never asking for that or necessarily being equipped for that responsibility. I had to have the correct opinion at all times and everything was timed. If you didnt snap into line and "obey" the majority opinion within a day you were marked as a "bad person". If you were "caught" following someone that had tweeted something unfavorable that morning you get put on a block list. Et cetera et cetera. You get it. I tried so hard to push positive vibes out there and maybe show by example that we can be patient and kind to those around us. It drained me. The last straw for me was, despite everything, I discovered recently theres a group of people who are going around harassing my friends and publicly lying about me saying some really awful things and pretending they used to be friends with me? and Im not even sure..why I dont like to give this kind of thing attention because people like that feel like theyre "winning" by making people go away but Im tired haha. And want to be left alone. SO. IDK. Sorry for the rant =w=a; Im having fun on tumblr and thats what matters.

[divorcingjimmatthews]

I've been thinking and I don"t even know what I want... 🤣 Just Jade himself would do but, vaguely speaking, would love something fluffy with a pinch of angst and some of those true love 😍 vibes! 🙏🙏🙏 Love your imagines and can't wait to see more 🙌🤩👌

thanks for the request and for fueling my jade obsession !! i'm going with comforting jade after he has a scary vision because even though he doesn't want it we all know he needs it. sorry the angst vial broke and it kind of spilled all over the thing oops ?

comforting jade after he sees spooky things (gn reader)

you're staying at the bar because sorry jade there's too many people here and not enough houses for you to claim a building all for yourself

you've been here for some time but after what happened at fatima's party you're never getting back to colony house if you can avoid it

you've been watching jade's worrying state since he arrived but he didnt seem very open to help or advice

you tried reaching out to him again when you moved in but he was so pissed about having to share the bar that he didn't want anything to do with you

he apologised and gave you some of tom's stuff so you'd be comfortable but that was it

until one night when you were trying to sleep and you heard him scream

you almost had a heart attack thinking the monsters had broken into his room

the talisman was still hanging by the main door so you managed to get over yourself and go knock on his door

"...jade? are you okay?" nothing, you knock again "jade?"

"oh, fuck off"

well, at least he's alive. though his voice sounded like he was definitely not doing good

you slowly pushed the door open and walked in

saw him sitting on the edge of his bed with his head buried in his hands, trying to take some deep breaths and failing

"what part of 'fuck off' do you not und-"

you sat next to him and sighed, lightly rubbing his back without saying anything.

he shook his head but let you, leaning a little against you and eventually relaxing enough to steady his breathing

"i'm sorry"

"it's okay. i know"

you stayed like that in silence for a while. it would have been more effective if those creatures weren't screeching and knocking on your door and windows outside

"jesus"

"i know"

"how do you fucking do it?"

you shrug

"i just close my eyes and... pretend like i'm somewhere else. with people who love me. same way i've always done it."

jade understood what you meant. you must not have had it easy. here, or elsewhere

he sighed and sat up a bit straighter, looking directly at you

"i really am sorry"

you smiled warmly. "i know"

you took his hand and held it, taking a deep breath

"you can't do this alone, jade." you told him "i know you don't think anything can make a difference in what is happening, or in how you're feeling, but..."

he kept staring into your eyes, and you just assumed that you'd shot your shot and missed

"can you stay the night?"

he sounded so tired that you almost didn't get his meaning

"yeah. y-yeah" you replied, needing a moment to process that he actually asked that of you "of course."

"okay" he nodded "thanks"

you had no idea what it was that you said or did that led him to trust you enough to let you in this close. maybe he was just that tired this time.

you chuckled a little, as if you were about to say something embarrassing

"you know, i... i also sit on the floor sometimes. i can't explain it, but it helps. it may be some... blood circulation thing, i don't know. it kind of calms me down."

jade didn't say anything, so you stood up, fidgeting with your hands trying to recover from the embarrassment. he immediately found himself missing your warmth by his side

"f-floor or no floor, anyway, we could sit down and read one of these books, maybe." you said, perusing a small shelf "through the looking glass. this one's interesting."

jade thought back to tom and nodded. "sure. why not."

you turned around to face him and smiled, apologetic. "sorry. for all that i talk about wanting to help, i don't actually know how to..."

jade sighed. the thought of what kind of life you led before you got here still floating on his mind. "a book's fine. i mean it."

he was too exhausted to think much further about it. but he knew that you deserved much better than that

he looked and sounded like he didn't even have the energy to be prickly. something told you that you wouldn't have to read more than a couple of sentences before he'd fall soundly asleep for the rest of the night

you both sat on the bed against the wall, and you felt the weight of his body on your side as he leaned against you

as predicted, it didn't take too long for him to fall asleep to your voice

it would only be months later that you realised, when thinking back on it, that that was the first night in a long time where you didn't really wish that you were anywhere else at all

[rueririn]

ALSJSKSKS I JUST GOT CALLED A PEDO ON A WATTPAD COMMENT PLSSSS

So like. Verity, OC story where we give Fairy Tail a big brother. I have said before that I didnt want anyone to expect any ships and definitely not a harem, because they're all his "kids", but mostly because I'm not interested in writing any sort of romance for Eir. But I am also alright with whoever wants to ship whatever in the comments so long as they do not force the perspective on me-- because have fun. You know? I don't control you, so if you enjoy seeing what's interpreted as 'ship vibes' between Eir and Laxus, power to you!

And so, underage police dropped by and said how disgusting that was, how Eir was technically a man with another lifetime of maturity, how grooming this was, yada yada.

(I don't care. Eir is physically two years older than Laxus, and the laws of reincarnation is how you interpret it. Did Eir continue to be an adult and is now the grumpy ikemen equivalent of a loli hag? Is Eir just a child struggling through traumatic remembrances of adult memories in his head? Is Eir's maturity adapting to his body? Is it not okay to ship him with Laxus, but ok to ship him with Jura since Jura is... two years older than Eir? Which is still way younger than Eir's unspecified 'mental age'...)

I really dont care. I am not even going to bother with the damn age question. I am not going to make him get together with anyone! I thought people would know the trend of my stories by now. The second you fall in love yeah goodbye get into your grave lmao romance is a plot device go brrr

But anyways.

Once again I put a warning in 'not shipping' because I didnt want anyone to pester me about eventual harems or keep asking what the main ship is. I don't do it to ban my readers from never talking about it again. They are allowed to squeal about how cute a duo can be in the comments or wish soandso would be the main pairing while acknowledging that I, the author, cannot fulfill their dreams. I liked that, you know, you guys be silly in the comments, let your intrusive thoughts win. Go on a siege on terrible villain #3. Have fun. It is a wattpad comments section and it isn't that serious.

So.

About underage police.

Went off about how "this isnt okay" and "get help" and how "it is obvious you are a child". "I sincerely hope whoever gave you this mindset dies."

Like. Wow. Okay. Chill.

Yaoifangirl123 just said they saw 'ship vibes' between Laxus and Eir and then doubled down on this person to say "you can't stop me, ;)" so basically you fell for the rage bait. And then you sent... a death threat? Really? To Yaoifangirl123? Called them obviously a child because they... what? The projection here. They created a "person that gave them this mindset" and wished death upon 'them' pretending they're not literally saying 'go kys if you're not, in my opinion, young'?

So I stepped in, you know, mainly because I didnt want this person coming in picking fights each time someone remotely hints toward a relationship I already said won't happen. What will poor underage police do when Sherry shows up??? All Sherry talks about is capital L Love!

I said they needed help if they were going to send a death threat over something so silly. How it wasnt their business how 1 comment was saying something problematic. (And mind you, this comment wasnt "winkwink nudgenudge ooh Laxus and Eir had ship vibesss I am now going to imagine them romantically!!!" it was "LMAOO WHY DO THEY HAVE SHIP VIBESsssS?!?" And this person felt the need to police a weird fella trying to be funny.

Anyways.

I laughed so hard when I read the response.

"I wasn't wishing death on them, I just wish the person who gave them this mindset dies, which is different."

I shit you not. They blocked me but it's still in my news feed so I can read it but this fella unironically said "no I didnt give a death threat, I said I WISH THEY WOULD DIE! ITS DIFFERENT!"

Anyways they called me a pedophile, a part of the problem, and how they "should have known I would be in support of this" because, and I quote, "no wonder you made the line between pedophilia, platonic relationships, and harem so thin" in this fic.

Chronically online behaviour help.

The line is thin? I dont even understand romance, so... If that is how you saw it... I think it speaks more about you...?

Anyways, if anyone would like to read a sincerely familial Fairy Tail fanfic, written by a romance-repulsed aroace author, about an OC going around to be a big brother to all of the cast, please give my fic a read, it's called "VERiTY" on wattpad and "it's a timeless verity" on Ao3.

Bless you all and have a greater morning!

[somewhat-crazy]

Uhm-- yea-

•Ginger, brown eyes, freckles.... I am..so short. Send help. UHM freshly 20?

•Local Non-binary with he/they pronouns, I'm Pan so I'm good with any male/female/enby/anything. Although I am physically attracted to anyone, I prefer to go for personality compatibility if Im interested in long term.

•Also they have to be cool with a Poly relationship b/c I am not getting of elderitch-bunny my beloved.

•PROBABLY have some form of ADHD and I'm prone to stimming when I'm nervous or happy. I hit things, bounce and shake my hand when I'm very excited. I chew things, bounce my leg and click/tap my pen when nervous. Im prone to getting overwhelmed by stimuli on my bad days.

•I DO NOT LIKE VERY MANY PEOPLE. I am the type to keep my mask up, hat down and headphones on. Don't talk to me I don't have the social skills to talk about anything other than art supplies and various fandoms.

•If I do like you I will be a complete attention whore though. It is a complete 180, like a dog that only likes 2 people and demands to sleep in the big bed.

•Artist at heart! I'm a jack of all trades due to my compulsive side and the internet not having EXACTLY what I want. Amazon doesn't have a certain mask? Makes it. Amazon doesn't have a painting? Makes it. I will randomly decide to do stuff and proceed to hyperfixate for 3 days.

•CINIEMATIC NERD. Yes hello I saw Marble Hornets once and decided to take a four year class on cinematic production because I thought poking a demon would be fun. But really. I'm a film nerd and I'm not allowed to sit next to certain people during movies because I froth over soundtracks and camera angles. I have photographers anxiety over 24-105mm camera lenses and leaving the camera on autofocus. It's an actual crime btw- always Manual focus: the autofocus is haunted and can't be trusted.

•I would need someone who can get excited over this really cool stick I found as we come up with ways to use it, but also someone who can slow down and just vibe with me when my brain is not having a good day.

•I need someone to Match my choatic bullshit but also take a nap because the sun sucks and people suck.

•ALSO. IM FULLY CONVINCED BEN AND JEFF ARE SECRETLY E-BOYS HIRED BY THE GOVERNMENT TO INFILTRATE BY ACTING LIKE EDGY TEENAGERS AND I DO NOT TRUST THEM.

•[spontaneously goes and sits on the roof for no reason other than Compulsion]

•Be prepared for a random questions and random times.

•I HAVE CANONICALLY GONE TO AN IHOP AT 3 AM DUE TO INSOMNIA.

•Also I adore coffee and would legitimately kill a man for it.

•compliment me and I'll punch a wall, yes this is true irl. I get very hyped up like a dog when I get complimented.

•I also tend to disassociate! It's like the opposite of sensory overload-- where the world is muffled and fuzzy. I will suddenly be at the store with no idea how I got there alive. Luckily this doesn't happen too often!

Uhm-- good luck? I feel like i ranted oh god I'm sorry- ?????

IT CAME OUT AFTER VALENTINES IM SORRY BUT HERE YOU GO LOVE

i match you with: cody !!

i probably didnt get this correct but just so you know, ILYSM HELP. you're just so cool sOBS /pos /p

cody actually also loves film and does photography as a hobby! you get drama from arguing over camera angles 😩

jokes on you, cody is the eboy hired by the government. he pretends to be super tough n cool but in reality he's so soft

he's not super good at art (except sketching and charcoal drawing gore- for some reason he's good at that) but he loves watching you do your work. if you want to decorate any of his stuff, he's always up for it!

in my au, cody is a mix between a wolf and a cat; he likes naps, bubble tea, blasting music, and is very protective of people he likes. he's someone you can talk to when you're upset and also someone you can burn down a government building with if you want

he will 100% join you in any of your weird adventures; loves all the random things you come up with and adores all the random and sometimes illegal things you guys do together ^^

[misterbitches]

i had the misfortune of finally watching/getting through what happened in whatever episode where he gets raped so im gonna talk about it and tag it cos that's what a bitch fuckin feels like, got it? i do what i want aint no limit bad ass bitch aint never been timid. woopsie realized i got the nicknames confused oh well lmao

it's just logistically and plot wise like there's literal plot holes in this and i'm taking the production and set-up into account along with the actual content and development. im an ARTIST OKAY im jk i mean i am and i am pretentious and terrible but look. i didnt get that degree and im not in a house worth of debt for nothing ok. it's called writing on tumblr about my grievances of shows that dont matter and do not respect me as a fat black american woman either so it is my fault yet here i am.

anyway it was worse than i imagined and their talk after (with chengren) was even worse. that's what i mean about making the lines their own (the actors) bc teng teng sounded like a straight up motherfucking moron and im like

bECAUSE IT'S HIM EVEN THO IM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DID U JUST SAY U STUPID BITCH? but then it's like awwww and they also care about his wellbeing obviously??? but no? but it's like ok still teng teng said it even if it's stupid because he is a character and charles puts that forth. the people that fail the most to do that are xing si's family but that's not the actors fault because it's the literal material. you're like wait what but you just said...?

so i know they have no script editors i guess i think i find this season ACTUALLY fascinating because of just how egregious it is. i also went back and watched history: obsessed which i thought i liked because of their chemistry even though god the production....but i tried rewatching it and i was like wow this is worse than i remembered and the production issues were even worse because some of the music was SO LOUD AND BAD HOLY FUCK and their whole rship isssssss a sight to behold lmao

so man i guess it really is the power of anson/charles. which is good cos we love to see it...sort of but also a lot.

i honestly....because i've been able to pay attn more to the aftermath of the rape going back and putting it into more context and focusing (just barely lmao) is hm even worse. the inconsistencies are insane. it's not even just about the act but the writers have zero idea where they are going because they have no interest in exploring it. but the way in which it happens is like fascinating. yong jie literally thinks he owns xing si and it doesn't matter if he was kissing him or not or asked for a kiss on the lips (which dude what the fuck? i'll get to that) because he was plied with "extremely strong drinks" and his mom knew about it....which girl congrats you're an accomplice to the rape of your son by your other son?

but first of all...the kissing thing. in what fucking world would he (xing si) want that unless he thought he (yong jie) was someone else. i can't say their attraction is evident because we are being lead by this team to think so; they create this false sense of sensuality already so to me that signifies that they never intended for them to have a bond as brothers. it just feels cheap and fucking lazy (which it is.) even if he did, which doesn't make sense considering the context THEY CONSTRUCTED, it wouldn't matter because he was so fucking drunk which.... at that point nothing is fun, you feel sick, who wants sex like that? does he not have whiskey dick? did they have a condom? was it not painful for him considering? even if this was something to easily get over like was the dick good? it couldn't have been. and then, on top of that, there's the fact that you can change your mind or whatever but also that people do get aroused in these situations bc it is human nature (that's if they can literally get aroused which if the drinks were allegedly sooooo strong that nigga would be out so....again like even practically here it doesnt add up. have these people ever been drunk? if not, write what you know girl. cos sometimes it's like i think some of u r trying to be cool when u dont have 2 b lmao)

so yong jie coming on to him previously may be seen as like push-and-pull but here's the thing. right after it happens (the rape and it's rape so call it that you'll be okay) xing si gets up and goes home and is terrified and upset. he acts like what we have seen or even felt after a violation. he's scared, clutching his bag, it's like...you know...decently coming off as truly distressing (the actor isn't bad at all and i like that he's dark. i just massively hate this for him but hey at least he can show some chops.) like honestly man that fucking sucks and hurts to see. if we've been there we feel it. or part of it is realizing belatedly what happened. a lot of times that drop in your stomach is the worst.

but somehow for some reason, to which i cannot understand, the three of them begin to talk as if xing si pressured him? which maybe i missed something and that is possible—dont feel like going back to look—but that also made no sense. like what kind of false memory is this? why would he think he wasn't willing? and if he thought yong jie wasn't and that he pressured him how does he remember like...anything about the sex?!?!??!? besides waking up and being with him. like i guess he felt yong jie's MASSIVE DONG imprint but ??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!!!!!

god then the logic of the top/bottom thing is like i said i wasnt going to get into it but it's actually really funny. this whole thing was hilarious. honestly because I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT MEANS. he could have totally raped him in that way but how did you get to this CONCLUSION FROM THAT??????? BY YOUR LOGIC THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS? IF HE IS THE BOTTOM AND PENETRATION IS THE ONLY FORM OF TRUE CONSUMMATION AND RAPE BECAUSE APPARENTLY, BASED ON ANATOMY, IF YOU HAVE A DICK IN UR BUTT UR A GIRL THEN HOW. DOES. THIS. MAKE. SENSE. AND THEN

AND THEN

AND THEN

AND THEN

this whole stupid conversation happens so we get to the conclusion that xing si violated him ok cool but that means that something is wrong. that is the CONCLUSION WE CAME TO A SECOND AGO?

also the other rapist is a villain and muren isn't in love with him so, once again, you're breaking the rules of your own world about acceptability which is why most of this is absolutely mind bogggglinG that iit's fuckign comical. like i actually when i can stomach it start laughing or my jaw is slack because it's so insulting as a viewer because there is like 0 logical followthrough.

because whatshisface barges in, kisses him in front of his friends without permission, then says whether you were willing or not which is hm. at that point how u gonna change that around but let's not bother with logic here. i am simply here to point out how this makes no sense according to the rules they set up even outside of the basic rule of life which is hm dont rape people maybe.

so now we know xing si was raped, they believe he was raped, he himself believes he was raped, and whatshisface literally says he doesn't care even if he was willing (he wasn't) so he admits to rape. i don't believe in the police and i hate them (BL industry needs the cops but dont get me down that road) but no one...thought to go?

because according to history 4 logic nothing matters so im sure if he went to the police you could handwave the homophobia since there's no actual context for anything besides their whimsy. but they dont want to do that because they aren't interested in an arc of growth; redemption isn't possible unless he is removed from the family but again no work on thinking this through or thinking about the victim's feelings. because gay sex? who fucking knows. supposedly progressive taiwanese writers of gay shit (like how supposedly progressive the world is. as in it is not and this behavior is the norm and bl perpetuates that) can't think of transformative justice?

and then they gave bad advice so we wont acknowledge that because teng teng doing anything wrong/stupid is frequent but hurts me and also that storyline is not real so i pretend they are not there outside of this post

so all of this is just straihgt up clownery now because it's fucking absurd like logically, practically, human-wise. the kissing thing is inconsequential but it was such a lazy cheap way out lmao cos they really wanted it to seem consensual but that's not how it works. on top of that their attraction makes no sense because whatshisface is just there. he is just there. he's nothing and no one so the sentiments are even more empty and on top of that he doesnt listen to a single request fucking obviously because the basis of their relationship is fucking rape so fucking listening and respecting his partner is not on his list of fucking priorities. he's literally so fucking annoying even without being a rapist it's like someone please beat his ass.

and then after all of that you want us to feel bad? with your horrible writing, poorly misplaced music, stupid costumes (those fucking SHOES THEY ARE HIDEOUS, AND MOST OF THIER CLOTHES DO NOT FIT IT'S LIKE WHY), questionable fucking editing. we're supposed to wnat them together? this sounds literally fucking crazy but bear with me lmao even with the rape they could at least have SOMETHING i mean like i cant believe im fucking saaying this. but like in addicted heroin which is fuckin tragic and awful at least there's a MODICUM of interest but honestly that show s a fucknig drag. idk they lookd good together? here we have 0. nothing. and it doesnt motivate. watching obsessed again i can see why i liked it in the beginning bc they have good chemistry but the acting and production adn like everything about it plus the rape-y vibes it's just too much. you need to pick one thing so if you're going to be a shit writer at least supplement it with something. this thing is nothing.

and even more nonsensical and what boggles my mind frankly out of all this is the mother's involvement and the father's final response. there are NO consequences? theyre all happy?

ok so lets go through this:

1. 2 boys grow up 2gether, one of the boys is fucking psycho, the mother knows but does nothing??????????????

2. one of the sons moves out so his father doesn't get a hint that's he's fucking gay. ok fine. he has 2 best friends, a job, an apt. he is fine.

3. aforementioned brother is obsessed with him for SOME REASON besides being crazy?

3.5 no one has done anything during him growing up to help him not be crazy?

4. mom says to husband who is their father also just in case we forget "im afraid he will lose his humanity"

4.5 again, do nothing. 0. just like oh man hes crazy. guess that's just our son ;)

4. who cares. plies him with alcohol purposefully to rape him. not even dubious (even though dubious is fucked and not okay or is just not. fucking real. these shows are contextless when they want to be or even movies or whatever so it's like largely not up to the task to understand complexity in human rships and then oversimplifies it constantly because that's what we do IRL. but people have fucking feelings you know and we realize when things don't feel good or right to us either very quickly after or having to process it. and once you're eyes are opened you may feel as something was fucking ripped away from you. for the modc couple this would be a very logical conclusion for the high schooler the thirty year old dated but again logic or feelings are up to their whimsy. no one cares bc everything can be counted as dubious so honestly it's a fucking stupid fucking topic like again why are we litigating what is and isnt consent when you could just like idk. read cues? consent? wait? not be a freak? like we all know what is proper human shit so even if we are watching this uncritically which u cant bc it's glaring and stupid it's just even more dumb) so it was honestly a rape plot like he literally planned it soooooooooo??!?!

5. aftermath of rape the victim is like literally fucking bereft and confused. and a rape victim. like that's what they are insinuating and what also he is to be clear.

6. boy tells him "idc if i raped u i luv u lmao"

7. mom ENCOURAGED THE BOY to get him drunk because her other son was too nice? she encouraged her adult son to rape her adult step-son (but her real son because she repeatedly says you are my son and the dad does too THEY GREW UP TOGETHER WHEN THE KID WAS IN AN IMPRESSIONABLE STATE) so THIS ALSO MAKES EVEN LESS MOTHERFUCKING SENSE

8. everyone finds out about his rape and he isnt mortified he's just concerned about himself being gay to his dad?????? except it's not really about his gayness bc now it's about his sudden love for his rapist brother? which? hm ok. understandable the dad is like wow i do not think i like this

9. dad knows all of it is fucked up, everyone does, knows the mother fucked up, knows he fucked up. doesnt like it because he is normal. so we know this is terrible? ok great so—

10. father says "i can't accept this...but i'm willing to give you my blessing" ok see here's the thing. when you write you have to think about the things you are putting on the page and what you have written previously. this quite literally made no sense how the fuck are you going to not accept them but give them your blessing? does this crew know what the fuck words are? i'm assuming they went to some sort of school to obtain jobs here bc there cannot be natural talent or experience. maybe most of them are rich. fuck i do not know but this also makes no sense. just the literal logic of it it's like fucking insane the whiplash.

10.5 apparently this father is also shitty. everyone here sucks and they are basically begging me to think xing si is a fucking idiot so i dont even want to look at him if he is an object he doesnt matter so now i want to kick him. thanks a lot you made the victim get absolutely fucking nothing

they KEEP PUSHING the brother thing it is so insane and it's liek GUYS WE GET IT WE UNDERSTAND THEYRE "RELATED" BUT NOT RELATED SO IT'S OK HE WAS "RAPED" BUT NOT RAPED but you're GOING BACK ON YOUR OWN RULES!!!!!!!!!! WE GET THAT THEY ARE BROTHERS!!! WE'RE OVER IT NOW BUT WHAT IS THIS WHEN WE ALREADY ESTABLISHED SOMETHING? I AM CONFUSION? they flip flop between my son, my brother my actual brother, and cannot fucking distinguish between love for your father and love for your romantic partner? so to me what i see is that the father wants to fuck the son. that's the conclusion i am garnering now considering nothing matters and his love for his "brother" is the same as his love for his dad lmao. they couldnt even do that in a way that made sense. like damn anybody can get anything. these ppl who are doing this have to be fucking rich and/or have connections.

also this guy sounds literally like a textbook abuser like he says constantly "im the best choice" is a rapist is awful holds capital (oh hees "saving" smh ur trapping her!!!!! RETIRE!!!!) also wears terrible shoes so i am like ur alllllllllLLLLL FUCKING CRAZY ur all literally crazy and then they are trying to set rules and boundaries in their fucking house like WHY ARE THEY LIVING TOGETHER EVEN? even tho oh my god they know he raped him and for some reason they are both allowing to live in the house but they dont want them to have sex??!?!?!??!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?! i get that this is their house but this is like at this point these ppl are writing anything and now whatshisface is acting like a 2 yr old again and we are supposed to find this cute? like it makes 0 sense why do u fucking care u literally encouraged ur son to rape him so they cant have consensual sex under your nose now and have to wait four years? this is coming from the son who couldnt wait until someone was sober enough to realize hes fucking psychotic and should be killed also the fact that they act like being 20 means u have no fucking brain like this kid is in med school supposedly how do we know like hes a liar and an idiot so. also wait do they mean undergrad? how are you in med school at 20? is he a genius? girl i dont care lmao i guess i missed that but it's not like it matters so whatever

even if we ignore the stupidity of the literal acts, the grossness of the content, the absolute inability to write coherently or even remotely in a way where we would even want to see them together which is like....u set it up at the beginning so he punches "the love his life's best friend" also holy fuck im sorry remember when he punches muren because xing si got too drunk. so i'm guessing whatshisface is that good of a bartender that he makes super strong drinks and gets xing si drunk but his alcohol is magical therefore it doesn't make him sick. his alcohol is the type that gets you drunk but somehow doesnt get to your liver even though that's how we get drunk but dont ask guys he's only in med school and a bartender so i think he knows best (seriously have the main writers had a day of fun in their lives? have they ever been drunk? are they toddlers? drunk babies could probably do better tho.) i get that he was also jealous but if this kid is SOOOOOO genius (he understands social cues lmao he has the cpacity to project onto his victim so im like miss me with the not understanding shit. go to a fucking therapist like seriously did no one care abt this kid? his mother thinks he's like almost a goddamn murderer. how is she not dead? how are they all not dead? how do any of them know how to drive with this type of brain?) then he would understand that they are very clearly friends since he watched them part in a very platonic way and since he apparently knows what love is cos he thinks....he can....make someone fall in love with him bc he loves them? again, i wouldnt know hes 20 and taiwanese and im 29 and black from AMERICA so im WESTERN* so you know. different life experiences i guess XD

even if we do mental gymnastics to get it to a place where they "had sex" and he didnt rape him there's 0 ZERO ZERO ZERO ZERO ties to the literal story they wrote and the rules they set up. i'm going ot assume they dont know wtf theyre doing and i know for a fact we all care more about their dumb show than they do but it's actually startling how piss poor this is it's like idek what to compare it to. the continuity is awful awful awful they needed a script supervisor majorly and they are making bank and are going to make fucking bank fof this shit. and itll just continue like that until IRL material changes and that's facilitated by these very same groups they choose to profit off of and exploit by propelling it into the mainstream and litigating homosexuality through capitalism. and i'm being specific with homosexuality. i dont want a GL market like at all and i know why we wouldnt have it either and that has everything to do with the nature of BL, capitalism, coercion, and the fanbase being young girls and women. i don't think in this day and age we can safely say all the fans are straight; i'm sure a majority but many women or people on the gender spectrum and sexuality spectrum also consume it. frankly, it's possible the women who write it could be or something too. i dont rly believe any1 is str8 lmao but im just saying it's not out of the realm of possibility. but it isnt about that at all. that's why we wont see "good" female characters (like well written) often that's why we won't see trans women or kathoeys or fat people or black asians in it. a lot of it is is a choice we participate in whatever. but holy fuck dude u could at least respect the audience's fucking intelligence. i'm talking about everything i think that is encapsulated in the project but it's even more jarring and worse because it's so insanely inconsistent and poorly done. like how we jump from one conclusion to another is wild to me. even their first "night together" and he wakes up im like girl....u no ur ass felt it. this nigga broke into his house and was like "im gonna have u" like it's getting weird

just make xing si suffer offscreen not us the stupidity is staggering, mind blowing, hilarious.

how wong kar wai, a straight man from HK (or at least married to a woman), or barry jenkins, a striahgt black man, write/do stories well about people they wouldnt knw about their experiences directly is....well thinking like using their brains and like knowing all types of people? the man who co-wrote moonlight is a hOMOSEXUAL, leslie cheung was fucking gay or queer (and he committed suicide and that's important also RIP homie) both are hailed as queer cinema like WKW wanted to do something else and invested time into it, changed the way he played around with structure, moved away from his crime oriented stuff. he THOUGHT about it and this film is about their reality. it's a harsh film, idk how i feel about it (but my fav movies of his are the crime ones or the messy ones where it's clear he didnt write a script lmao fallen angels is one of my fav movies its' abt assassins kinda) but i know it means something. and he didnt like what HK had previously wasnt enough. it is not the only cinema that should be shown since it's such a stark reality and depressing but it is a real depiction so we can have all sorts of stuff. no this isnt WKW level or moonlight level but i know for a fact these people think they are doing something because artists always do i say this as one and someone who is equally as useless. you're making a statement.

i also hate the westerner component of peoples analyses. first of all dont do cultural relativism. we can critique and respect. but second of all how are we going to keep saying "dont put western ideals on this" when that is what is happening anyway because that's part and parcel for soft power and capitalism. how about taiwan's history with the KMT? what about the regimes young people fought about? aided by US imperialism which permeates through society and affects material conditions, views, democracy, identity and that goes into culture and media. hm? what about that? is that reality too fucking western for people? that we are doing the same thing again now? is that okay to talk about or is that only on your time?

then there's the argument that this is just entertainment. yea no shit but the thing is if we r gonna talk about marginalized groups and watch bc of marginalized groups and then be expected to identify then i dont see why i cant put this in context. even if it wasnt fucking serious we'd still judge it. but it's so pompous and again like i wouldnt say EYE think it's art but it is "art" in the literal sense and no self respecting artist would ever go "man this means nothing." of course im not sure if they do respect themselves so hey but u cant just go oh man it's entertainment when it literally rests on the fact that HOMOS are MARGINALIZED. it literally rests on the fact that WOMEN ARE OBJECTS. you either want progress or you dont. i dont understand being so demanding but not beign specific in the demands and not trying to use your brain. if you dont want to use your brain don't. but if you are looking , engaging, and keep making these arguments or telling ppl it doesnt matter whilst complaining about how much others care is hypocritical at best, willfully obtuse at worst. both bad. :)

(also all this + another thing; it is insulting to have this like wedding happen based off of this stupid relationship when people fought so hard and had to push it. now they can use the material conditions to their advantage but it's so ridiculous. also because there is difficulty still in getting married in taiwan i'm honestly like....the boldness of the writers...)

[positivelypositive]

A friend of mine committed suicide in March of this year. He was gay and a girl who pretended to be his friend sexually abused him trying to cure him of his gayness. I didnt know about this until after his death. However, the final push he received was from some other girl online who he had reached out to to get some support, I dont know why he reached out to this stranger instead of me, his real life friend. But this online girl reacted so poorly to him that he died not long after making contact with this online stranger. I've carried this pain and loss for months, he was my best friend. I can't figure out if I want to, if I can confront either of these girls and lay blame at their feet. I can't be sure if I should tell this online girl that appeared to push him over the edge. I feel like she should know and feel like maybe I'd feel a little bit of closure if she did know the role she played. On the other hand, I can't be sure if I should hold a random stranger responsible for his death just because she said homophobic things to him. I'm very confused and in a lot of pain. I don't expect you to solve my problem but I am hoping for a little outside perspective on this very painful thing. Thank you for your time

hey anon,

i'm sorry i took so long to get back to you on this. also, i'm so sorry for your loss. i hope you can heal.

i understand your situation and usually i would suggest you not to engage with any of those 2 girls and even now i would actually ask you to avoid it if possible. BUT, if it feels to you that they should know and only if you feel that knowing this can help them be more sensitive in the future, then please go on and tell them.

be sure to only let them know of what has happened and not to actively blame them. playing the blame game with people who we know have been insensitive in the past is like shooting ourselves in the foot. it would be inviting trouble. simply let them know who you are and that you came to know that they had been in touch with your friend and you just felt like they should know that your friend ended up commiting suicide.

i would highly suggest leaving it at that. try not to engage or give too many details and absolutely refrain from blaming them.

also, i want to address your hurt over not being approached by your friend who ended up reaching out to a total stranger. i'm not comparing different situations but i too am a stranger for you. yet you reached out to me with your problem. why? because sometimes we know what our friends/relatives/family will say and we don't want to hear that. sometimes we just need a fresh perspective or someone who can listen to you and not chalk it up to older incidents. it's human nature and i don't think you have anything to feel bad or guilty about here.

please take care of yourself and hold yourself together. you were a good friend. it doesn't matter if they didn't come to you. they knew you'd support them no matter what. they just wanted them to hear it from someone unexpected and unknown. that was their way of validating their feelings. sadly, it didn't work out.

i hope you can find you peace. sending you love, condolences, and positive vibes ✨

[rant-2-me]

My mental state has just worsened over the days, though I'm not sure why, and I just feel so unmotivated and lacking any energy to practice any self care other than napping, and also feel anxious because I'm not studying enough.. feel like I'm just 1/4th assing my responsibilities.. And when someone asks me how I'm doing, sometimes I blurt out that I'm not fine, and the guilt I feel afterwards for making them worry, so I find myself withdrawing from initiating conversation with them, even though I really want to, and this makes them worry about me more.. I just don't know anything anymore, everything feels too much, yet I can't rant in a clear conscience without feeling guilty for bothering them, and thinking how I don't deserve to complain because they have had so much worse (yes I know pain is relative, but I feel so horrible, like a whiny child, who doesn't know how to be content with her blessings)......

Sorry I know it's a lot.. feel free to delete it if it's triggering or making you uncomfortable in any way... I just needed to get it out..

My lovely nonnie, im so, so glad you sent this ask. and got it all out of your system. yeah this sounds cheesy but like ive been there, with not knowing how to reach out—im proud you had the courage to send this ask. girlboss vibes.

also this ask took a while to answer and im so so sorry about that, but I didnt want to do anything less than the best for you, so let's just jump right in <[:)

Lacking motivation, god I've been there, but doing self care is super super important so here is a how-to, hon.

How to do selfcare when you’re not motivated to:

1. Be a little “gross.”

Gross is in quotes because it’s so subjective, but you undoubtedly have a few behaviors you consider kind of gross regardless. Now’s the time to do them without judgment. For me, that’s meant showering less, eating weird food combos (sometimes in bed), and letting my brows and mustache grow magnificently unruly. For you, it could mean doing something you normally judge yourself for or cutting back on activities you only do for the benefit of others. Now is not the time to allow “socially acceptable” behaviors to rule you.

2. Eat whatever the hell you want.

This should be a rule always, but I’m not going to pretend there aren’t societal, social, and personal pressures that go into why we eat what we eat. Try to shut down the voice that judges or polices what you’re eating right now. We’re in the middle of a goddamn pandemic. If dinner has to be some slices of cheese and deli meat eaten in front of the open fridge, so be it. If you have a lot of cravings and are snacking more than you normally would, cool. If pre-pandemic you decided you were going to stick to a certain meal plan and it’s just not happening anymore? Don’t beat yourself up.

Yes, what we eat is connected to our mental health, and I don’t want to discount that—but if the stress of eating healthfully is making you feel like crap anyway, whether that’s because you can’t fathom cooking or don’t have the means to shop for certain foods during isolation, just eat the sleeve of Oreos and try again another day. It’s okay.

3. And wear whatever you want.

Or, more realistically, wear whatever you can. Even if it means wearing the same ratty sweatpants for a whole week. Or month. Maybe you started all this out aspiring to get dressed every day to work from home productively, or maybe you have a whole collection of comfortable loungewear you feel guilty for not utilizing. Whatever arbitrary rules and expectations you’ve set for yourself, you can throw them out.

On the other hand, maybe you need to quiet the voice that tells you there’s no point in getting dressed or feeling presentable. If it helps, by all means, play with your look, wear awesome or weird outfits, do your hair and makeup or whatever activity might feel a little silly given your current reality. In the middle of a pandemic, nothing is a waste of time if it makes you feel good.

4. Use shortcuts to avoid creating chores.

In my first week or so of working entirely from home, I was baffled by just how messy my apartment got. How on earth were so many messes piling up when I wasn’t even doing anything but working, sleeping, and eating? I hadn’t realized it, but a lot of my small tidying routines had become casualties to the pandemic. And, it turns out, slacking on the little ways I pick up after myself every day (such as doing the dishes right after I use them) added up quickly.

Instead of forcing myself to stick to the same levels of tidiness that I used to maintain, I’ve found shortcuts. For example, I use paper plates and plastic cutlery when I feel too fatigued to wash dishes so they don’t sit in the sink for days on end. Or I stick to the same two “outfits” to avoid clothes piling up when I’m too depressed to put them away every day. If you can find a small way to go easy on yourself, even if it feels a little wasteful or indulgent or gross, it’s okay to tap into those shortcuts right now.

5. Be kind to yourself if your place is messy or dirty.

I won’t lie: I’m someone whose space impacts my mental health a lot. Typically, keeping my apartment clean helps keep my mental health in check and letting my apartment get gross makes me feel worse. That’s still true in a lot of ways, but to adapt I’ve been trying to be mindful and accepting of where I’m at. And it’s…helped?

It turns out that taking the pressure off does a lot to mitigate the guilt and some of the other negative mental health effects I usually experience. In practice, it involves a lot of talking to myself. Instead of seeing my apartment turning into a depression cave and immediately thinking, “Oh, God, I need to clean up, this is so disgusting, I’m a monster for living like this, of course I feel depressed,” I go for kindness. I think (or even say out loud because, well, desperate times), “Of course my apartment is a mess right now. I’ll get to it when I get to it. I can handle the mess for now.”

6. Accept your new sleep schedule.

idk anyone whose sleep hasn’t been screwed in some way by all of this. Anxiety, depression, fatigue, pent-up energy from sheltering in place, tech use, new work responsibilities, screwy schedules…pretty much every aspect of our new reality can impact our sleep. Some people are sleeping a lot more, some are sleeping a lot less, and some are cycling through both extremes. Oh, and the temptation of naps! It’s all there.

Trying to maintain a healthy sleep schedule during all of this is a worthy endeavor—and more power to you if you’ve figured out how—but there’s a good chance that it feels impossible.

By “accepting” your new sleep schedule, I don’t mean pretending it doesn’t suck; I mean doing what you can to be gentle on yourself about it. For me, acceptance has looked like watching some comfort tv and reading my favourite books at 2 a.m. instead of staying in bed and anxiety-spiraling about how I can’t sleep. Is it ideal? No way. But I’m not going to waste energy stressing about something I currently can’t control.

7. Give yourself plenty of room to do absolutely nothing.

I’ve given myself permission to do a whole lot of nothing. That includes getting rid of the pressure to be productive and practice self-care, yes, but in a broader sense, it also means not forcing myself to actively “adjust” every day.

Some days, I just need to do nothing but feel my feelings. Or avoid feeling my feelings. Or stare at the ceiling. Give yourself space to do (or not do) whatever you need to.

also, nonnie? my love?

Never feel guilty about telling someone who cares about you when you don’t feel okay.

People who genuinely care about you—and I’m sure they are many—will care if you aren’t feeling good, there are always going to be people who care about you, who want you to be okay, that’s why they ask, why people make rant, why “how are you?” is such a common question.

But if you do need to talk, but you feel like you’ll “burden” people who you do talk to, here’s a guide to ranting.

Guide to ranting:

1. Pick the right person. Someone who’s in the right headspace to listen to you, you could also pick someone who cares about you—if you’re anxiety tells you nobody cares about you, pick someone who “should” care about you in your relationship, e.g: a friend you’ve had for a long time, a friend who’s told a few of their problems, or friend you might not feel close with, but seems very kindhearted and a good listener.

2. Pick the right time to talk to them, so you can have their undivided attention. If they are busy—as most people will be with something—they’ll have a hard time giving you good advice and listening to you. Ask them when they are free, and then ask them:

3. “hey, can we talk? I’m not mad or you or anything, it’s just that I have been not feeling great, and I just want to rant to someone about it.” and “No pressure to say yes, you might have your own stuff to do deal with.” to make sure they are the right person to talk to.

4. It’s ok to test the waters. Start slowly, you don’t have to share everything at once if you don’t want to.

5. You never know how your friend will react to what you say.While you can’t know how they’ll react, just remember that sometimes people’s initial reactions may come from a place of shock, surprise or not knowing what to say. Their initial reaction isn’t always their longerterm reaction, it may just take them a little time to process.

6. Look for ways to take action. Don’t get me wrong, ranting can be amazing for you, but on its own may not solve your problem.

But maybe venting to people isn’t for you. No matter! There are other ways to get out emotions:

Ways to rant without talking to anyone

1. Cry it out— simple and rewarding. When the baggage is just too heavy to carry cry it out. It can help you ease the pressure and ease your mind to think straight after days of holding that frustration in.

2. Work out — easy and fun. tire yourself out and release all the frustration in working out! This is going to be so satisfying for you as you try and punch, kick, balance, lift, and breathe those frustrations away.

3. Clean & rearrange — practical and can be fun. we get frustrated by so many things and one thing that can truly help clear our minds is to have a clean place where we can stay and live for the moment to breathe. Clean your room, rearrange your things and you’ll be surprised by the satisfaction this brings — a signal of a new beginning.

4. Scribble — simple and fun. Make scribbles, doodles, drawings, take a pen or a pencil, and let go. It does not have to be “good” art or professional at all. Just draw whatever comes to heart, sunflowers or clouds or rainbows—anything.

5. Write it down — fun and simple. Let those words out of your head and just live in the moment.

How to fight the lack of motivation.

1. Don't fight the lack of motivation.

If you feel down or unable to muster tons of energy, let it be ok. Be easy on yourself and acknowledge that it's ok to have a dip, especially at this time of the year.

2. Once you have accepted your slump, get to the bottom of it.

Ask yourself, "What is the root cause of this sluggish feeling?" Go deeper than the obvious reasons. Is it related to work? Your personal life? Relationships? It might also just be the weather. Get clear on what areas of your life you're feeling the most resistance.

3. Dig into that area. What is not ideal about this aspect of your life? What would make it better?

Make a list of how you'd like your current situation to improve--and be specific. If you truly can't find a reason to be less than enthusiastic, then accept your feelings and let them pass with time.

4. Take your list of what is missing and go through it.

What is holding you back from being able to create the things that are missing in your life?

5. Get support for creating the life you want.

Do some research and find an expert to help you. Even though they love you, friends and family aren't objective enough, and they tend to give advice that is a reflection of their own life and insecurities.

6. Think of current habits that are contributing to a less-than-ideal life.

Maybe it's fear, laziness, or not having enough confidence. Pick one to focus on.

7. Address this habit over the next 2 months.

They say it takes 28 days to create a new habit, but this varies from person to person. If you focus on it for two months, you are sure to build the neural pathways needed to call it a new way of being.

8. Buy a book, read articles or do some research on this particular behavior or feeling.

Read about the common causes of this habit as well as the proven ways to bust through and work around it.

9. Create a plan around shifting your current habit.

Make sure that changing this habit ultimately helps you move forward in the area of your life that is not ideal. The energy from clarity, awareness and then action will immediately get you feeling more motivated, no matter what.

10. When all else fails: make a list of activities that excite you, and do one of them right now.

Talk to a fun friend, dance around at home, workout, watch a funny YouTube video, tackle something on your to-do list. Accomplishing something will give you a hit of dopamine in your brain. If you're too overwhelmed by your day, sit for five minutes and meditate. Put on some soothing music and breathe.

okay, that's all nonnie, I hope you feel the lust for life in your lungs, please have all my love, i hope this helped, this ask took a while, but it was worth if it helps

and if you need to dont worry to send another ask, if you like spam the inbox!! queen!!!

take care, much love my sweet honey, bye <3

—*putting daisies in your hair as they leave* mod peppermint <[:)

[chloasiajones]

This is Special Edition part 8. . .

I hope you guys like this. I wasn't gonna write it this way, but it was an idea that came to my head and I thought it was a good one.

The Beginning of Part 8. . .

This is a brand new smau that I'm writing. Its actually my first. It's a Zuko x F!Reader pairing.

Trigger warning! If you're sensitive to things like car accidents and hospitals I'm warning you ahead of time. Read at your own risk. . .

Zuko is getting tired of his relationship with Mai. He feels it's not exactly enough, and he wants more. Though he doesn't know what. He seems to have a certain attraction to his best friend Y/N, but is too stubborn and grumpy to tell her or really talk about it at all. She likes him, but is too afraid to say anything because of his relationship with Mai. Though could things take an unexpected turn for Zuko and Y/N when something happens to her and he's afraid of losing her. . .

Special Edition Part 8

Toph's P.O.V.

I held onto Sokka's arm as we followed Sapphire to Y/n's room. I dont think I'm ready to be in a room with Y/n where shes not laughing, or joking around or trying to make sure everyone had a great time. I remember how her and I used to duel together. She had mentioned at one point about needing to practice her waterbending skills, since hadn't had to use it for fighting in so long. Zuko offered to duel with her, but I threatened to kiss his a*s if he hurt her - even by accident. So, he backed off. I offered to help her because chucked rocks at her was a good way to practice quick reflexes. She adapted quite well, and quite quickly. It was so fun in fact that we set a time once a week just to duel each other. We even up-ed the challenge. I started to not just use Earthbending but Metalbending as well. I miss being able to do that. Or when Y/n would randomly text our group chat in the middle of the night because she missed us. I felt that we were standing in the room. I could feel the sad presences around me from everyone in the room. The vibes are very strong from Zuko right now. I walked closer to the bed. I stood next to it, feeling around for her hand or her arm. Once I felt it, I gently wrapped my hand around her arm. I felt a tear fall from my eye as I stood there.

"Oh Y/n, why did this have to happen to you? You were so full of life and energy and love. And despite what Zuko did to you, you tried to stay happy for us. You tried to be upbeat to keep the mood up. Why did it have to be you? Why couldn't it have been me? -"

More tears fell from my eyes. I felt a hand on my back. And judging from how it felt, I'm guessing it was Sokka.

"I miss you Y/n. We all do, - Please dont leave us - Please come back to us! – Katara cant you heal her or something?!"

"I-I wish I could Toph, but this is delicate. If I make one slip she could fall further into the coma and never come out of it," Katara spoke to me softly.

"There's still a chance she might not come out of it," Suki spoke casually.

"Suki?!" Sokka snapped in slight shock.

"What? I'm just being real Sokka," Suki explained calmly.

"Okay, guys let's not fight or complain," Aang spoke.

"Aang's right," Sapphire stated.

I quickly turned to where I knew where Zuko was standing. Angry crossed me.

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT ZUKO!!!!! I WISH YOU'D NEVER BEEN ACCEPTED INTO OUR GROUP!!!! I HATE YOU!!!! AND I PROMISE YOU I WILL KICK YOUR A*S LATER!!!!" I yelled to Zuko before rushing out of the room.

Aang's P.O.V.

We all stared as Toph rushed out.

"Hmm, maybe someone should go after her?" I spoke casually.

"I'll do it," Katara volunteered.

Katara left the room to find Toph.

"Uh, if we have something to say to Y/n, maybe we should do it one at a time," Sokka suggested.

"I think that's a good idea Sokka," Sapphire stated.

"Whose gonna go first?" Zuko asked.

"Me - I wanna go first," I spoke up.

"Okay, we'll leave you alone with her Aang," Sapphire said softly.

I nodded as they walked out of the room. I sighed as I walked over to Y/n. I hated looking at her like this. She looked so helpless.

"I bet you hate all this fighting huh? - I know if you were here you'd try to do your best to resolve it all for us. You were always so good at that. Even better than me. And I'm the Avatar. We've been posting a tone of stuff on our social media page about you. Asking you to get better and not to leave us. It's funny even Zuko admitted to the fact that he loves you. -"

I went silent for a moment.

"If you can hear me - And you recover, please dont tell him I told you that? - I miss you Y/n, - We all miss you -"

A tear escaped from my eye. I leaned over to hug her.

"Please dont leave us,"

Sapphire's P.O.V.

I sat next to the bed.

"Its funny, I'm here everyday and I still can't get used to seeing you like this. You're everything to me baby sis. I cant lose you. I know I tell you this everyday, but I cant seem to say it enough. Maybe if I say it enough, it'll be just enough to pull you out of it. I miss you so much, - Please - Y/n wake up,"

I took hold her hand, letting tears fall as I rested my head on her arm.

Sokka's P.O.V.

I sighed as I looked at Y/n. I couldn't stand seeing her like that.

"I'm having a real hard time seeing you like this. I guess its times like these where I wish I couldn't see. Then I think about Toph, and I wonder how hard it really is for her. Seeing is she cant see anything, but yet she can with her feet. Toph is the greatest. I know you'd agree with me if you could talk right now. You'd be happy. I havent been stealing your Dt. Pepsi's lately. Mainly because it's not the same without you pretending to get mad at me. I miss you so much Y/n. I really hope you come out of this. I miss my best friend. Without you, my life is a dull pancake,"

I sighed once more as I looked at her. I took her hand softly.

Katara's P.O.V.

I sat in the chair by the bed. Y/n looked so innocent and helpless lying there.

"I cant believe this happened to you. I wanted to blame Zuko, but I knew it would do me no good. I know it's not his fault. And I know he deeply, deeply cares for you. You're my best friend, you're like my sister. I miss you so much. Waterbending isn't the same without you. I remember how we used to waterbend together. Me, you, Aang, and Sapphire. It was so much fun. - Oh, Y/n, I really hope you make it out of this. We all care very deeply for you. We all miss you. - Especially Zuko - He is really sorry for what he did to you Y/n. And he wants you to come out of this too. - Oh Y/n please wake up,"

I put my arms over her hugging her.

Suki's P.O.V.

I sighed as I looked at the floor.

"I know you cant talk back to me right now, but I really need to talk to you. You were always so great at giving advice, just like Zuko's uncle. I need you Y/n. I feel like Sokka and I are becoming distant. And I cant quite seem to figure out why. If he's growing feelings for someone else, I guess I could be okay with it if he talked to me about it. But I feel like he's hiding his own feelings from me. And I don't know what to do. – Y/n, what do I do?"

I stared at the floor as a test escaped my eye.

Zuko's P.O.V.

I didnt know what to do as I sat there. I honestly didnt know what to say. I know she can hear me. I took in a soft breath before taking her hand.

"I wish you could talk to me. I wish I could be alert when I tell you I am so sorry for what I did to you. It was Mai she made me do it. She told me if I wanted to still be her boyfriend then I'd have to stop talking to you. I didnt want to, but Ibwas blinded by my own feelings. I was stupid. I shouldn't have listened to her. I should've listened to my own feelings for you, not for Mai. I know you probably still hate me for what I did. And I deserve that, -"

I held her hand tighter.

"I deserve every negative comment that you guys throw at me. - Our friends are right I am an a*s - I know you can hear me Y/n, - So I'm gonna tell you I love you - And that I really need you to recover.- I need you in my life. - I cant love without you - Please dont leave me,"

I stood up next to the bed. I still held her hand as I leaned down pressing my lips to hers. I know she cant kiss back, but I felt compelled to do it.

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@cece-lives-here

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@la-lay

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@zukochi

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@coconutsaiyan

@rosestyles69

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[thoughtfulpaperback]

Charmed 02x17 SPOILERS!!!!!

Okay yall havent had time to do one of these in a while. But I had time to do a rewatch and so I am ready.

Non-spoilery part of this . . . I give the episode a 9/10. The writing (on its own and I'll get into it later) was better than many episodes this season so far. I have mentioned it multiple times this season that episodes 1 to 3 of this season had a different style and scope and (imo) writing pace than the rest of the season except for some of the most recent episodes. While I did have some favorite episodes later on everything pretty much after three didnt feel as grand as far as style went. These last few episodes the writing and style just got turned up. Which is actually great and super frustrating. The writers seem to have the same problem they had last season that is proper plot development/management. We shouldnt be getting all the interesting stuff at the beginning dragging everything out and making no plot progression, then theoughing in all the interesting stuff at the end to get us to stick around. We should have gotten the more plot development throughout the season not just big info bombs ever so often with little devoplement everywhere else.

Here is the truth and I hate it, we had more meaningful screen time and character development with Mel and Abby this one episode than in the entire season. Which is a no-no in my book. The episode on it's own is solid, interesting, and I argue well written, but it should have happened earlier. The things that were good about this episode should have been implemented this entire season. I mean not show will have an A + episode everytime. There will be filler. But it has honestly felt like the writers didnt know what they were doing with certain characters development until last minute. I don't know if that's true, it is just how it has come off to me. So I can understand the frustrations people have felt with this season and its writing. I have them but this episode had me invested and on the edge of my seat. I am excited for more. Which honestly hasnt been the case for many of the episodes this season. I dont mind the last minute overused troupe. I love fanfiction and so I do not easily tire of them, but again pulling it towards the end of the season when many plotlines have been subpar or are least handled in a subpar manner . . .

But on to the spoilers. I am going to go back to the standard likes, dislikes, and episode highlights

1. Abigael character development

Like yall it wasnt much, but like it was more than this entire season so far. I still have no idea what they are doing with Abby-and for me personally it is a little too late to salvage the damage-but the development was actually welcomed. It should have happened sooner. The writers need to pick a lane at this point and just reveal what they want us to think about her (you know like they do with plot bombs) because after some of the stuff and little character development some of us have just soured to Abby. I dont actually dislike the character I just am fustrated with the poor development overall. But I mean had they been doing these little moments across the season rather than setting her up in that weird, poorly handled, and now seemingly dropped love shape with her Harry and Macy (they completely didnt need to have her in there they could have introduced julian earlier on rather than put Macy in a relationship with him after she seemed to realize she had feelings for Harry and then it wouldnt have seemed like she was using julian as much).

2. Mel and Abby moments

The plot was interesting, the development of both characters was better. I mean seriously yall Mel admitting her mom wasnt perfect!!! Given the basic Marisol worship mel had last season and the lack so far of acknowledgement that Marisol made mistakes (regarding thier lives and Marisols marriage). Honestly if they had dropped the Abby Harry crap and had more mel and abby or abby Macy (considering I felt mads and poppy had some great on screen chemistry in the beginning and played well off each other even though it was antagonistic after episode 2) moments like these I feel not only would we know the character better but wed have had better plotlines overall.

Although I think Mel is too quick to overlook all of Abby's past behavior . . . She killed innocent witches and wants to be a demon overlord (or wanted, we dont know what she wants now). But Mel recognizing her mother's flaws and being open to th possibility of being wrong (something she has struggles with both seasons and only gets slightly addressed, if it gets addressed, when it happens) I mean I am here for it.

3. Jordan

I think what has been missing this season is the wittiness of last season and also the genuine fluff. I mean Jordan's comment about kissing Aunt Viv. 10 stars clever (true and revealing about inequity in punishment and treatment of men of color when it comes to sexual assult and harrassment) His excitement over magic. I mean in a lot of ways Jordan is what Galvin should have been/tried to be, but the writers can't seem to do relationship drama and good character development at the same time so....

Jordan is the best and I hope the writers dont mess it up.

4. Julian

So I like the reveal, because I think there is still room to wonder what exactly Julian does and doesnt know. What I understood from this episode is that Julian is behind the experiments in that he started them but the the creatures with those healing powers so that he can take those and use them to heal other. My guess is through creating "more" whitelighters or maybe they og thought they'd just figure out how to raise the dead. Julian at his core (so far) wants to help as many people as possible. Does he know that the creatures die in the process? Is he utilitarian and thinks it is justified? Or is aunt Viv the head person of the actual goings on and Julian is far enough removed from all of it he can emotionally detached from that. Like how for some people it is easier to hear about death than it is to witness it. I think most people are like this but I wont generalize.

Will he change his mind or will we see a different more sinister side of Julian. Like I am interested in getting to know more about his character now, because he has sort of been there as a plot prop more than an interesting character with development. Which is on the writers, the actor is killing it.

5. Hacy

Yall dont get me wrong I think after all the bad writing and angst that the writers did for most of this season, to pull a stunt like that basically at the end of the season was soo wrong.

But I feel that on it's own these moments of Macy confronting and admitting her feelings, the confession, and the little moments (like that face caress and holding him when they get him out of the cointainer) were precious.

That's the stuff we needed more of. Instead of the passive aggressiveness. I know some people hate the amnesia troupe but I prefer it to what they did with the abigael kiss and the jealousy love shape stuff.

Dislikes

1. Middle finger to season 1 and Galvin

Like dont get me wrong, emotional issues dont disappear from one moment to the other and some trauma takes years to overcome if it ever is overcome. But like wasnt Macy admitting she was lonely her whole life and it affected her ability to attach to people and recognize when she wanted someone the basic plot of season 1. I mean she straight up says in the last season that she was so concerned about whether someone wanted her that she never considered what she wanted. And then she says she wants Galvin and now she is saying she never realized when she wanted someone

I think a lot of season 1 has in some ways been "redone" this season. I dont like it because we came here from season 1. We recognized it was flawed. But we still invested time into it. I didnt mind a lot of it, in the beginning to be honest (maybe because I felt it was mostly scenery and vibe than actual erasing plot) but particularly in this episode it felt they were basically saying, "let's pretend it never happened" about the whole first season....okay harry.

In some ways I liked the sort of do over of some character types. I like Jordan as the "mortal in the know" more so than Galvin. I just dont think Galvin was well developed and handled last season. They are doing better with Jordan which is good because if they had messed up the writing for him too I would have been casting my "yall coming off as racist again, do better" look. My biggest fear is that they will mess up Jordan especially if they progress his relationship with Maggie. The writers seem unable to write good/healthy relationships and character development and still give good plotlines at the same time.

Episode highlights.

Macy rehearsing her break up with her sisters

Aunt Viv really trying it with Jordan

"Even white men can't do that anymore."

Abby bringing her bags the the house

[lucidpantone]

you know what i don't like about this season? it doesn't have a vibe of happening in real life like skam universe suggests. like they choose that trope with influencer but kato is not influencer, she is not known anywhere, they didn't built her image before season started. they should have hired some already known person with developed platfrom or not chose that trope. like i will see vlog with them collaborating with some "famous" kato and will who the fuck it is bc she is not famous.

Yeah I know what you mean someone mentioned she only has 3k of followers which my bff isnt famous and has like 11k on insta but I am still willing to pretend. I think the strategy to unveil kato was weird because unlike Skamfr or Druck we knew about Lola/Nora months in advance so we got prepared for a new pov. Wtfock went with this approach which I could see why they thought would be exciting but in reality was not it didnt work for alot of stans. Firstly no prep into kato as a main aside from an insta and tiktok vid. Then the premiere was still shot in multi povs so we still didnt know. Can you believe wtfock was still gonna bait us with it being moyo’s season until they leaked themselves. I am so happy they did that because imagine if they hadnt.... Then we go into kato’s pov but so far her pov is literally a golf cart to other povs mainly moyo’s so its like here is a new main but look at all these people too which makes it seem even more like she is just there. Doesnt help that everyone adores Noa and anytime he is on screen thats all people scream for or the fact that they want to see sobbe. So its a very weird season should have been called wtfock season 4 kato (but not really, actually more like moyo s4, with other povs sprinkled in aside from sobbe. No sobbe what so ever to stress the sobbe stans more they are usually stressed). I am hoping the vibe changes but its def a weird vibe.

[laraminecroft]

Hey Uh. I'm sorry about all of the messages I send you all the time. Im being immature and havent taken into consideration that I could possibly hurt you in some way through my actions. I was being selfish and talking to you like you were some sort of object because since you're just a face on the internet It obviously won't matter, you know? But you're a human too and I'm majorly in the wrong. You're so nice and your personality is so beautiful and I don't really think or mean what I said (1/2)

To you yesterday. You're a really strong person and I respect your resolve in life I'm sorry you have to go through people like me and the things you do in life.Depression is a bitch and can be a giant toll on people's lives and just because Im dealing with it too doesn't mean I should go and make yours worse. I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way and I'm sorry to your s/o for the things I said to the both of you Hopefully you can find it in your heart to forgive me even though I don't deserve it.

I’ve been putting off answering this for two or three days now because it’s given me a cluster of emotions im not entirely happy with.

For one I think it’s really big of you to come to me and apologize so genuinely. I do really appreciate it a lot and my first reaction to getting these was like, you know what dude, respect, it’s not easy to swallow your pride and admit you were wrong, I know how hard it is pretty well. I do forgive you.

It has also been pretty heavy on my mind tho since, it did affect me, you’re right. It scared me and has since made me even more worried about posting selfies or having an online presence even though I already knew it could happen, the idea of it happening is different from actually recieving those kinds of messages, you know? And I had nobody to talk to about it.

I already daily have a great deal of stress with not being able to speak with my s/o about things due to trust issues he’s had in the past, which I don’t at all blame him for, but getting your messages meant I had to pretend everything was fine to his face when he could tell something was wrong, and I didnt want to lie to him but you put me in that position.

I’m not saying any of this to make you feel worse...I can see you already feel bad and I sincerely hope vibes start turning to your favour and life becomes at least a little more bearable for you. I believe as humans we’re all capable of terrible things and when we do those things we’re not below redemption, I believe it’s possible and important to improve ourselves from wherever we end up to put good back into the world. But that doesn’t mean you can un-affect the people you hurt in the past, and unfortunately we must move forward accepting they are not obligated to forgive us and we mustn’t think negatively of them for not doing so. I’ve made plenty of mistakes I didn’t think I could come back from, but here I am.

So again...I really appreciate you sending me these :( it does mean a lot and it helps me feel a little better about it. I hope you’re able to find it in you to restrain yourself from doing this again to anybody else in the future. I get it, all languages lack the vocabulary to describe exactly how otherworldly terrible depression is to experience and the things it can convince you to do. So I do forgive you, but I also didn’t want to just plant that seed in your head that everything was fine because I’m worried it’ll just lead you to think it’s okay to make the same mistake again conciously or not. Does that make sense?

All that being said...I would appreciate it if you either revealed yourself to me, or just unfollowed me and let me know when you did it. Timblr is the only social media I have and I’m already paranoid as it is of the stuff I post here coming back to destroy me later somehow, and this only fueled that fear...I like the creativity here and would hate to abandon this site too. I understand it’s a lot to ask to reveal yourself, so that’s why I’m offering the option to just walk away too. I’m no longer comfortable having a presence online so I think it’s alright to ask this of you...you dont have to tell me who you are but I’d like you to leave me alone from now on, move forward and focus on putting the good you wish you had out into the world. That’s what I do.

[punkscowardschampions]

Indie & Rio

Indie: [sends her the posts because no other way she'd see them] Rio: Shit, girl Rio: I was worried it might go down like this Indie: she's so extra Indie: never should have let him in the door Indie: the feds are gonna be hardcore @ it now Rio: Surely she let him out Rio: stupid woman Rio: but that's gonna pale in comparison now so Rio: What's Drew doing about it? Indie: boy was begging for a sick time & i gave it but its on me not him 😒😒 hold ur liquor u tourist Indie: hes flat roofin but other than that no thing to 👀 Indie: it b early tho & we all had a late Rio: They're a 24/7 services though, babe Rio: he'll be wanting to move his stash and generally clear his act up for the visit Rio: you too Indie: is it? on hols too thats a madness Indie: yeah the drum be clear of all his goods like that Indie: idk man mayb its chill like she gonna post that & not post up no harder than Rio: They might take xmas day off maybe but you know Rio: business as usual for all jan 1st Rio: well that's something Rio: maybe, but bitches like that LOVE making complaints about everything so maybe not Indie: she do have that talk to the manager vibe Indie: i done fucked up real didnt i? Rio: big time karen Rio: nah, in the eyes of everyone it's Drew that did Rio: but they won't be able to prove the drugs bit if they're gone so it's not enough to take you, a party gone wrong, bad judgment but maybe we can swing it that he was here somehow Rio: hmm Indie: but like he had mad trust for me & i brought him mad problems Rio: they're grown problems, he's big enough to fix 'em Indie: u too making ur nite go off on a real turn Indie: bet ur boy is bare vexed Rio: you know i'd rather you ring me than let it go more tits Rio: what are big sisters for Rio: but yeah, didn't even see him in the end so he ain't stopped Indie: innit Indie: tell him he can hit me up for something to take off that edge Indie: debts be paid around here Rio: um you ain't supposed to have no thing 'scuse you Rio: there's a plan here Indie: i gots places & heads to trust in Rio: nah, I'll make it up to him, don't worry 'bout that Indie: 😉😉😉 Rio: 😏 shush lil girl Indie: grown problems ur big enough to fix i kno 💋🤤🤤 Rio: so thirsty, go hydrate Rio: know you need to 😘 Indie: rude i got lipsed by bare boys last nite they were rigging dem bottle spins cos im 🔥🔥 dont b tryna put me out Rio: you need to cool off for a minute, bitch Rio: you in trouble Indie: not wit u Rio: yeah, don't push it 😉 Indie: 💔😢😢 dont do me like that on day 1 of the year 🙏🙏🙏 Rio: it started HOURS ago and I was still here with you cleaning blood out the carpet Rio: don't talk to me about day 1s when I'm clearly ride or die Indie: u kno im good for ious & i got mad love Rio: 🧡 Rio: i'm good really Rio: let's sort the actual situation Indie: u gonna charm the social for me? Rio: give it my best Indie: safe ✌✌ Rio: probably the straightest middle-aged lady Rio: so more likely your da will have to get on it Indie: 😂😂😂 Indie: what drew b good for Rio: init tho Indie: we all been knew Indie: he better werk so it works Rio: Sure it won't be too hard, like Rio: even if she ain't all that 😂 Indie: she aint gon b bangin but his exes show he aint need that to chirp on Rio: 👀 Indie: 😂😂😏😏 Indie: can u roll up wit eats im about to die Rio: bit rude to both our ma, like lmao Rio: 'course Rio: bring leftovers Indie: ur ma dont count as no ex cos she ✖ed him out Indie: & my ma got that permanent ✖ so bigger problems than my shade innit Rio: no problems when you an 👼 Rio: fucking hopefully Indie: u my 👼 bringing that energy Indie: that means u can jam Rio: is it? Rio: 😏 Rio: let Ryan know eh Indie: he kno u a 😈 too Indie: how he be livin Rio: mhmm Rio: well he gon' have to wait for now Indie: he gon have beef wit me Indie: soz boyyy Rio: nah we was already beefin' 'fore this Indie: yeah? Indie: what he do? 👀 Rio: nah, what I do more like Rio: you know I'm 😈 Indie: o shit Indie: gimme that 411 Rio: nothing exciting Rio: just be looking too bad to be giving him that much air, you know the drill Indie: hes so hyped for u Indie: its been weeks boy no u cant cuff it Indie: who u think u is Rio: can you blame him Rio: hot property, baby Indie: u did look 💣💣💣 last nite my bad Indie: theres a boy @ school tryna chat @ the rest hes my bf so i feel it fr Indie: boy please DO I LOOK LIKE Indie: not tryna hold ur damn hand Rio: is he cute tho Indie: if he werent he wouldnt be able to chat no thing Indie: 💪 fuck him up Rio: 😂 Rio: gotta 'tect the rep Indie: he kno it tho & its like tell me how 🔥🔥 i am dont b talking on urself all the time Rio: not a mood Indie: innit Indie: dry as Rio: that's boys for you Indie: & he didnt show last nite Rio: playing hard to get or just got parents who give a fuck Indie: year up x 2 so he could come thru the ends whenever Indie: but i 💋 all his mandem so itll hit back Rio: play @ his own game  alright Indie: do u think i went too hard tho? Rio: do you want him to be your mans or nah Indie: idk Rio: then it depends Rio: beyond knowing he loves himself, idk how he's vibing Rio: might be too far Indie: hes vibing like hes about me but i Rio: but you? Indie: how do i live that Indie: trust it Indie: drews meshing a new every week he says u gotta keep free on it Rio: works for him Rio: everyone's different Rio: you don't have to trust him yet Indie: mayb hes only about me til i give him something & im not tryna be a show like that Rio: that happens, not gonna sit here and lie and say it don't Rio: you're too young to be thinking on that or worrying Rio: keep him and the rest waiting Indie: yeah okay Indie: gimme a few to have puberty roll up Indie: still waiting on that Rio: it'll happen Rio: not that it's a barrel of laughs, like Rio: nothing to be hyped about Indie: i dont want it Indie: freaky shit going on Rio: unless you gonna stop eating, which unlikely Rio: you fucked, babe, we all are, soz Rio: get boobies though, perks Indie: that best not be you tryna skip on bringing me a meal bitch Indie: bout to hit the afterlife running here like Rio: 🙄 omw you rude ass hoe Rio: like you said, none of us had earlies Indie: omw fr or like when u tell ur mans u @ the club but u still tryin on fits in ur room Rio: like fr when I ever done you like that Indie: dont b starting Indie: ily Rio: 🤞 never Rio: ily more Indie: drews back if u wanna spit at him how to sort his life Rio: i will Rio: he ain't ready for this Indie: resolutions b dashing past this postcode we all avoidin that change Rio: you gotta Rio: sort you both Indie: hey swerve me im good Rio: 😏 Rio: fine i'll focus on your daddy Rio: no love for you Indie: 👼👼🤞🤞 Indie: call him that when you give it & he'll give in Rio: oh you schooling me on how to get blokes to do what I want now Rio: ok miss thing Indie: just him i 👂 what i hear & i kno what i kno Indie: hes here for all that Rio: you poor child Rio: anything grosser than parents going at it 😬 Indie: nah man its nasty & long being under this roof sometimes trust Rio: 🤢 Indie: some of his girls got me tempted to 📱 the social my own self & my ma looking like a saint Rio: that ain't right Rio: negates any buffness he got going on Indie: why lads wanna get on or under ANYTHING?! Indie: true madness Indie: 😂😂😂 Rio: friction 🤷 Indie: yeah but like theres girls out there bringing it & you're gonna hit that Rio: he probably ain't got as much choice as he fronts Rio: lots of grown women ain't about his lifestyle so that leaves him w the younger ones who is Rio: stick at it too long, you get busted, just facts Indie: when you old & so is your baggage 😂😂✌✌ Rio: I mean Rio: I ain't say nothing 😉 Indie: keep that ☮ mama Rio: least he looks p young still Rio: nothing worse than an actual creepy old man dealer Indie: do he? 👴 to me Rio: nah Rio: he only what, 31 Rio: that's no thing to me, gurl Indie: mayb im just 🍋 cos he aint tryna gimme no 💸💸💸 Indie: & he aint caring my head hurts Rio: aw bb Rio: 'round the corner Rio: I'll look after you Indie: 💖💖💖 Indie: u didnt tell me it b like this tho partying Rio: didn't think i had to be that quick with the warnings Rio: next day hurts Indie: always? Rio: 'less you prepare and do it right Rio: it can be bearable Rio: better than you feeling, no doubt Indie: how i do that? school me yeah Rio: 'course Rio: on the to-do list now Indie: we doing the next as a back to school thing so you got a few to bring me up Rio: you best be doing it at some other fucker's gaff and all Rio: giving me grey hairs 🙄 Indie: 😂😂✌✌ Indie: imma make that boy host it Indie: if he love me Rio: You're getting a chaperone regardless Indie: serious? Rio: yeah Indie: 💔💔💔 Rio: don't start like you don't know why Indie: i aint trippin you are tho if u think i want a repeat Rio: what, you too cool for me now? Indie: innit 😏😏😏 Indie: but nah just Rio: you so is Rio: you think imma embarrass you in-front of your mans Indie: he aint gon b my mans if u there Indie: whos 👀 me over u Rio: nah don't be silly Indie: im being real Indie: ur 💣💣💣🔥🔥🔥 Rio: so are you Rio: and I don't think a lad who likes you will be into me Indie: every lad b into u they all chat on u fully 😍😍😍💘💘😍 Rio: sounds like plenty are into you too Indie: 😂😂 it was for the spin Indie: cant pussy out Rio: 😏 mhmm Rio: well I promise you I won't be joining in, like Rio: now come let me in if you got strength to get the door Indie: 💪💪 babyyy Indie: [lets her in cos fuck know what drew is doing, flexing in the mirror probably] Rio: [lol watch him rush out when he realize] Indie: [hears her voice & runs out pretending to be casual] Rio: [oh boy, do not deserve her sorting your life, temporarily, but it's for Indie so] Indie: [bless her she's dying rn & just wants to be snuggled cos literal child] Rio: [give them a sec 'scuse you sir] Indie: [I hate everything about this, Carly didn't die for this] Rio: [just making leftovers] Indie: [drew chatting to her like she's here to hang with him & we all know] Rio: [don't you touch caleb's food bitch] Indie: [is nothing sacred you slag] Indie: [indie just fully lying stretched out on the counter like its a bed like let me die] Rio: [getting a bag of peas or some shit in a tea towel and putting it on her head] Indie: [such a good mum but that don't mean you can step ma her drew] Rio: [not her fault she can converse more like a grown-up than you Indie: [we should send Indie running off to the bathroom no offense Caleb but I'm evil & wanna leave them alone for a sec for the mood] Rio: [shoulda gone to hold her hair but now you can level with him and he can pretend he's a responsible adult lmao] Indie: [& Ryan can be highkey & he can pretend he cares] Rio: [ah the joys]

[hearteyes-for-killmonger]

The Recipe

Short fic written for @allhailnjadaka and @vanitykocaine. Erik belongs to you both in this fic 😛😁😗. If you haven't read Iqiniso, I hint at that here.

Chill!Erik, Polyamorous!Erik, Weed, Light Smut

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Laying horizontally across Henny's desk, Ryley blows a hazy ring of silver smoke into the air and watches as it wafts and dissipates above her. Her short platinum coils illuminate the space, picking up faint traces of the blue-white fluorescent lighting gleaming from the focused overhead fixtures. The lights were for the marijauna plants, but they provided the large room with a moody, calming effect that enhanced her high.

Across from her, Henny reclines in her black leather seat, exhaling smoothly with closed eyelids. The potency of her own sought after product washes through her. This was the post-celebration of her grand opening which happened yesterday. This new medical marijuana dispensary was twice the size of her last.

"I'm glad you modified this Iquiniso because that first batch almost got me in trouble." Ryley said with another puff of smoke. "I was fucking Y'lan and when he asked whose pussy was it, I almost said Erik. I had to pretend to throw up just to get away."

"Damn," Henny coughs, "Yeah, you weren't the only one with diarrhea of the mouth. People were telling me all kinds of personal information that I didnt need to know, but you don't have to worry about that now. This strain has no side effects. It's literally perfect."

"Who you tellin," Ryley hums in bliss. "Speaking of Erik, I called him over.. Is that cool?"

"Of course it is. That's our nigga."

"Don't tell him about Y'lan."

"I haven't yet, why would I?"

"Why would you what? Y'all look bout gloomy as shit in here, it's 2 p.m." Erik approaches from a few yards away. He's wearing a white t-shirt, lightwash ripped jeans and pink air force. A gold rope chain adorns his thick neck and a Hennessy bottle sloshes in his hand.

"Speaking of gloomy, how are you drunk already at 2 p.m.?" Henny scoffs. He's not going, still waiting to hear what they'd been talking about. His eyes lower in an attempt to draw truth from his girls.

"Maybe some small things, like little jokes and anecdotes, we wanna keep between us," Ryley gestures innocently between herself and Henny.

"Yeah nigga, let us bond," Henny adds passing him her blunt. He inhales and holds the smoke in his lungs before releasing it slowly.

"Good ain't it," a proud Henny gloats, watching as Erik visibly relaxes.

--

The soprano vocals of Eric Bellinger sift through the dank, cloudy air.

🎵Girl, come through and let's do what we do in your imagination. When I'm gone, show me how you pretend.🎵

"Y'all really wanna get high?" The trio were vibing with low chuckles, rotating the two blunts when Erik asked the ridiculous question.

"Nigga, my product gets us high enough! What you want, cocaine?" Henny was outraged. She felt insulted. Not only did she work incredibly hard and long hours developing her strains, but her customers were always satisfied.

"Ride with me. I need to show you how high I'm talking," Erik smirked blowing smoke from the rollup between his fingers.

In the car, Henny goes to the driver's seat, but withdraws seeing Erik's dark expression. Drunk or sober, he refused to let anyone drive his car. Henny calls shotgun in order to keep an eye on the road in case Erik's condition got the best of him, but Ryley doesn't mind, happy to stretch out in the back of the 4-door black convertible Cadillac as the car swerves through traffic.

"Hell to the nah. You outta yo drunk ass mind," Ryley scoffs when she realizes where Erik is headed.

"Hell yeah. If y'all gone be my bitches you gotta do what I do, go where I go." He parks the car and hops out.

"I know you don't think my ass going on a long ass hike," Henny grouches watching Erik walk to the truck next to them. A man hopped out of the driver's seat and pulled three mountainbikes from the bed of his truck and Erik waved the girls from the car.

"Don't be like that Ms. Kitana," he smirks addressing Henny's frown.

"Ms. Who?" Ryley didn't know that side of Henny and Erik and Henny both planned to keep it that way.

"Just a joke," Henny said, eyes narrowing at Erik's antics.

"Y'all competent enough to ride a mountainbike, correct," he asks and there's a challenge in his voice that ignites both girls. "Grab a bike and follow me," he says riding off. Without hesitation, the girls mount their bikes and take off after him. He flew through the uphill trail up a mountain and the girls worked hard to keep up until they reached a point where they they absolutely had to hike. The forbidden zone that is the Hollywood sign stood before them larger than life, each letter 45 feet tall.

"I'm a touch it," Ryley says making contact. It's a well known rule that no one is to touch the sign or be this close to it, but who cares about rules?

"We gone do more than that," Erik says mounting the last O. He climbs up one side and the girls climb the other O. Once at the top, Erik relights his blunt and gazes out at the scenery feeling like he's on top of the world. This was something every Cali nigga needed to experience once.

"Miss me with that bullshit. You not a gang member you're a tourist..," he raps, moreso to himself.

"I was already high as shit, but now this is high," Ryley yells across the sky passing the second blunt to Henny.

"Too fuckin high.. and I'm fuckin sweating. It's hot as Satan's asshole," Henny grumbles taking a long drag. They climb back down to sit in patches of grass they find in the dirt and finish the blunts before taking their leave and in the parking lot, Erik returns the bikes.

--

The top of the Caddy goes back and Ryley raises her arms feeling the wind on her skin. The summer heat was borderline unbearable, but the wind was a Godsend. Erik watched her carefree movements through the review mirror with humor in his eyes as the car sped down a highway. Aware of her audience, Ryley lifts her t-shirt and bra flashing her large breasts at Erik along with anyone else blessed to look at that moment.

"Eyes on the road, Stevens," Ryley teases while Henny fights the temptation to grab the wheel.

"Chill baby, I got this," he says holding Henny's hand in her lap, but her expression betrays her concern.

"Shit, you wanna be in charge that damn bad? I said I got it, but since you don't believe me," he lets go off the wheel and the car veers sharply to the left before Henny grips the wheel turning it back lightly.

"FUCK YOU ERIK!"

Ryley in the backseat only laughs.

"Nah, you steer. I'll eat. Since you think you can do better than me, you better not crash." His foot remains poised on the pedal. His hands unbutton Henny's shorts, yanking them under her and she lifts to assist him in removing them, spreading her thighs as Erik angles her entire lower body to face his lowered head. Her leg stretches over his shoulder giving him full access.

"This is cramped as fuck," Erik complains causing Ryley and Henny to laugh this time. Of course it was, he was huge. His thick fingers rub up and down her wet lower lips before slipping into her one after another until he's two knuckles deep in her wetness. He moves and stretches his fingers massaging her from the inside as she purrs and writhes making his fingers slick and then his tongue meets her core.

"Shit," she gasps drifting. She immediately rights the vehicle before Erik's vacuum seal can take away her mental capacity to operate a speeding vehicle.

"You swerving," Ryley points out.

"BITCH I'M TRYING! SHIT!.. I'm bout to cum," A hail of cars appears ahead and Henny braces herself as she focuses to the best of her ability on keeping her hands still while her body shakes. Whizzing pass cars and dipping in and out of neighboring lanes, she dare not tell Erik to slow down.

"YOU GONE HIT THAT CAR," Ryley yells and Erik bolts upright stealing back control of the car, his beard and mustache still coated in Henny. He navigates the car back to Henny's dispensary without incident.

"You," he looks to Henny having exited the vehicle, "I'm a fuck you first, come with me."

"Uh uh," Ryley protests standing between the two, "She got head so me first. I want my nut now."

"You gone have to wait," Henny chuckles pulling Erik's arm.

"Both y'all thirsty asses get naked and lay over the desk," Erik snaps pulling away. "We gone do this my way."

--

Digging into Ryley's guts, he fingers Henny ferociously from from behind. The sound of wet pink inner flesh and hard pounding mingle with the sound of two distinct moans creating a heady cocktail that makes Erik more drunk than Hennessy could ever manage to accomplish.

"See that weed on the table," Erik asks pulling on Henny's puff of hair with his free hand. "You should be rolling that for me right now."

Henny gets to rolling and Erik switches so that he's now inside of Henny, his fingers digging into Ryley. Counting their orgasms, he refuses to stop until their counts are even so that neither can say they've been slighted. It takes getting to 4 and 4 before he's sated and they're both even, trying to catch their breath.

"So I gotta go. I got shit to do, but good job Henny. I'm proud of you for opening this place. Ryley, make sure she don't work too hard." He grabs the fresh blunt Henny rolled and exits the way he came.

The girls gather themselves and watch as their man disappears through the door.

"It's always some shit when he comes around. All that drama," Ryley says once the coast is clear. She watches Henny grind weed for a joint.

"You the one invited him," she smirks.

@allhailnjadaka @vanitykocaine @ange-sensuel @amethyst1993 @eriknutinthispoosy @wawakanda-btch @bidibidibombaclaat @panthergoddessbast @blackpantherismyish @thadelightfulone

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Is there Somewhere

Based on the song this song gives the nostalgic vibe where there are like two different sides of a story but also in two universes if you know what I mean.

Request: yes (Bye @averyhannah28)

Fluff and nostalgia

Warning: smoking weed (idk didn’t wanna do cigs)

You were dancing in your tube socks in our hotel room

She was swaying side to side talking to one of her friends holding a cup of something in her hand.

Flashing those eyes like highway signs

I looked over to him. His eyes bore holes into my head. I gave him a smile nodding my head for him to come over.

“Hey” He smiles. His smile always does things to my heart.

“Hey” I said softly.

“I thought you weren’t coming.”

“Wouldn’t miss my best friends birthday for the world.” I wish we could be more.

Nodding I went back to my conversation Peter standing behind me buting in once and a while. Sometimes putting his head on your top of my head or my shoulder.

Light one up and hand it over, rest your head upon my shoulder

She took the ‘joint’ (idk weed talk) from her friend inhaled a bit and let out a cloud of smoke from her lungs.

“Since when do you smoke Y/n?”

“It’s my first time I wanted to try it.” She started coughing. I grabbed a bottle of water and handed it to her.

“Thanks Pete.”

“You really shouldn’t start it’s not worth it.”

“Always looking out for what’s best for me Pete.”

“What are best friends for.” I want us to be more.

“Yeah.”

I just wanna feel your lips against my skin

She put her head on my shoulder and pulled out her phone. She took pictures of her and me. I can’t help but look at her lips in the reflection. Why can’t she be mine.

White sheets, bright lights, crooked teeth, and the night life

You told me this is right where it begins

I walked into one of the spare bedrooms to catch a break from the party.

Walking in I see Peter and Liz. His lips on hers Her hands under his shirt.

I should’ve expected this she was all he could talk about.

But your lips hang heavy underneath me

“Y/N Get out can’t you see were doing something.” Liz said. I turned to look at Peter to say something. He just stared blankly at me. When he finally was about to say something I stormed out slamming the door.

And I promised myself I wouldn't let you complete me

Don’t you dare cry Y/n. He’s not yours he never was.

I'm trying not to let it show, that I don't want to let this go.

I went to my parents room the one place I know no one was in.

“Breath. Your better than this.”

*blep*

New text

Peter/spidey: Is there somewhere you can meet me?

Y/n: out side by the pool

Petey/spidey: ok

'Cause I clutched your arms like stairway railings

I never wanted Liz only her. I went into the room to clear my head. She came into the room drunk as a fish and starts kissing me. Before I could even pull away and tell her I didn’t want her Y/N came. It looked so wrong. I should’ve said something. I tried. I need to explain that

And you clutched my brain and eased my ailing

What more could he want she got Liz he got want he wanted the girl of his dreams. And it wasn’t me. But after being hurt I still go back to him.

You're writing lines about me; romantic poetry

“What you thinking about Y/n/n” he said putting his head on my shoulder his lips close to my neck his breath fanning it.

Your girl's got red in her cheeks, 'cause we're something she can't see

“Nothing.”

“Well your blushing so it must me something.” I looked down at my feet then I remembered what I’m mad at him for.

And I try to refrain but you're stuck in my brain

“Why of all places my house and in my room. “

“Nothing happened. She was drunk she kissed me. And didnt have time to pull her off before you came in.

“Anyway why do you care. Where just best friends.” That made me snap

And all I do is cry and complain because second's not the same

“Why do I care? Because Peter I love you I always have I’ve loved you forever.”

“You do?” His face softened as well as his voice.

“Yeah I do but I didn’t tell you because were best friends. Because I don’t wanna ruin our friendship. because all you do is talk about Liz.”

“I only talk about her because I try to get over you. Because I thought you didn’t love me because I thought you never will.”

“Of course I love you Peter.

“I love you too Y/n”

I'm sorry but I fell in love tonight

I didn't mean to fall in love tonight

He pulled me into his lips. His hands wondering over me. My hands run trough his hair. I pulled away looking into his eyes then down at his swollen lips.

“Your everything I ever wanted.” We said at the same time. The look in his eyes were hungry for me.

You're looking like you fell in love tonight

He took one bad step and fell into the pool behind us before he could kiss me. Luckily no one was around witch is also a surprise.

“Need some help. “ I held my hand out for him.

“No but I think you’re gonna like it here.” He grabbed my hand pulling me into the pool.

When I emerged there he was smirking in all his glory.

“You owe me Parker.”

“And I know just how to repay you.” I pulled me into his soaking body pulling me into his lips tasting his strawberry lip balm.

“I love you Y/N.”

“I love you Peter.”

Could we pretend that we're in love?

[inmyhoestopinion]

10/5/18 country boy cougar bait

Last night I had a dream I was on the porch of a house, in the middle of the Atlantic. Swinging my legs off the side, submerging my calves into the deep, dark ocean. The girl next to me, a stranger, suddenly looks up at me and had fear in her eyes, she was pulled under. Bubbles and splashes then replaced the once still water as I quickly took my legs out of danger. Looking around tragically for what felt like 20 minutes, I see her back stroking with three other girls. Giggling and laughing as if nothing had happened, headed towards a tall, orange water buoy. Last night I also some how unexpectedly put myself in some sort of danger. It's really odd how your body and mind somehow senses danger even hours before it happens.  McCarthy's is a bar that separates into four different rooms with a bar in each. Its a almost pitch black older Irish bar. I walked into the room that had the least amount of people and I made my introductions to the people I didnt know, Had a few drinks, not very many, simply because I had gotten there so late. I have to close my own bar before I go out to someone else's.

It was getting close to 2:30 and it was last call, I was finishing off my cougar bait and jumped off my bar stool. Reached for my keys, phone, wallet, and made sure I had my I.D. Walking out of McCarthy’s I run into an old friend. Apps is what I and everyone else calls him, because of his last name Appleman. Only he had gotten rid of his man bun and didnt quite look like Jesus anymore. We run up to each other excited and he explained he no longer lived in Morehead. I offered him to come over and smoke a bowl, in which at that point his friend was trailing along behind him. 

Beautiful man was he. Tall, huge biceps and a beautiful face. Everything I would have wanted if I had just had a few more drinks. I immediately turned to Apps and made a comment about how he has beautiful friends, loud enough for him to hear. 

Big mistake. 

They were both intoxicated, that was obvious. So it seemed perfect, I didnt drive downtown, and they cant drive. They explained that their car was at Apps apartment, a few blocks away from the bar, so we began our journey. Apps was walking from one edge of the sidewalk, to the curb of the road, and into the grass then back to the curb. His friend was walking at a slow pace behind me, I could feel his eyes watching me. He grabs some confidence out of thin air and changes his pace to walk beside me. Douche bag, he only spoke douche bag. I’m so glad I speak the language so fluently now and was immediately turned off. Same situation, three years ago this night would have happened a lot differently, we wouldn't have had the same native tongue. 

He for some reason did not catch my vibes that I had been pouring out and began touching me. Grabbing at my love handles, practically licking my ear and saying the most disturbing things such as, “I know you like this, don't pretend like you don't” and “ you love all this attention girl.” The closer we got to the apartment, the more aggressive it became. I put Apps around my shoulder so he could walk correctly and told him that his little friend needed to stop and that he wasn't listening to me, only for Apps to brush it off and laughs between hiccups. 

We reach the apartment, the worst part of town in Lexington of course, 5th street. As were walking up the stairs, the friend is helping himself to a handful of my ass and pulls my hair to where I'm arching my back and looking up at him upside down. I told him its his final warning, paws off. 

We get into his place and it took a turn for the worst. Apps is taking a bong rip for the ride and dude has both hands around my neck, making me once again make eye contact. He wants control. What kind of man demands total dominance from a women who doesn't even want his attention? I can already tell he doesn't like to hear the word “no”.  He grabs my crop top and tries to force over my head. I squirm out of his grasps and bolt for the door. He grabs me from behind and every Law and Order special victims episode is flying through my brain. 

This is, fight or flight.

I elbowed him in his rock hard abs and sprinted. Skipping stairs thinking if I’m that girl that trips, he’ll get me. I hear him yelling at Apps behind me, until it stops, and the last thing I hear is, “FINE IM GOING TO GET HER.” I make it to the sidewalk and I look down, the street, if I run he’ll catch me, I have to hide. I sprint back into the parking lot, drop down to my stomach and inch myself under a black Honda Accord. I can see his feet in front of me, " I NEED HER, AND I NEED HER RIGHT NOW.” Trying to find any sort of composure, I stay silent, at 3am, under a car, in the worst street in Lexington.