#ilu saint

[miasmaghoul]

I love the way you write Rain. Anything you've done with Rain (but you know,I love all of your characterizations) just makes me melt (I am thinking of the Rain and his,powers fjc you wrote)

Otherwise thanks for the piss

Oh man thank you! I very much enjoy the wet boy, and I'm glad you do too!

And YOU'RE WELCOME FOR THE PISS. 💛

[defiedlife]

@kafkaisms asked: “Settling in?” The room was dimly lit and quiet in the late hour , the only sound the low, pervading hum of the ship’s engines as they drifted through space. Kafka lounged on the velvet clad chaise pushed up under one of the windows, setting the book she’d only been perusing halfheartedly down on the adjacent table. “Don’t be shy, take a seat. Why don’t you tell me about what’s been on your mind?”

It was nothing like Pier Point, he noted, aside from the ever-present surrounding void of space itself. He stepped forward into the room, just a little more slow and uncertain than his usual stride. Absent were his glasses and hat, for there was no need for either in such a dimly lit space.

This didn't feel real.

He sighed, and the sound echoed just enough to make him regret it. A pause followed, and after a minute or so of lingering near the doorway, he finally selected a seat for himself near Kafka—not directly beside her in the nearest chair, but close enough to politely carry on a conversation. He wasn't being discourteous; merely wary.

He could almost laugh at her supposed concern, for surely it was already painfully obvious what plagued his mind the most. He settled into his chosen chair, arms draped along the arm rests and his head leaned back to peer up at the ceiling. "It's not easy for me to accept, y'know? I planned it all out aside from your little invitation, and even so... I don't feel free yet."

[st-danger]

HI SAINT IM SO GLAD YOUR SURGERY WENT WELL ILU ALSO WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON HOW THE GHOULS FEEL ABOUT B R E E D I N G

Aether just wants him close. Nice and close.

He likes being able to grab Dew, kiss him deeply. Almost invasive. Hold Dew's face in his warm hands and kiss him breathless until Dew's pupils are blown and eyes heavy lidded with need. Pulling him into his lap, then, is easy. This particular fantasy is not, at least for Dew. But Aether knows how much he enjoys being the centre of attention. How much he likes to please Aether. It's easier than one might expect to get Dew to go along with this.

In his lap, Dew sinks down onto him, thighs quivering, and Aether kisses his hair, his cheek. Rubs his flanks and then wraps his arms around his slender waist, and holds him.

"Relax," Aether murmurs. Dew's hole flutters around him. He's trying to take even, deep breaths, but he's so small in comparison, and Aether is so large, especially here. "There you go, relax around me."

He lets Dewdrop breathe, adjust. Get to a point where he looks up at Aether with his expression already stupid with arousal and Aether kisses him full on the mouth again. Gets one hand heavy on his hip and encourages Dew to ride.

"Come on, Dew, yeah, like that," he nods, sweetly encouraging. "Let's knock you up."

[endreal]

@quannaix tagged me for a selfie so what better excuse to share this one from yesterday where I was trying to get a good view of how this hand-me-down tank fits across my wings. Don't mind the expression - apparently I did a lot of gazing(tm) this weekend. (they/them)

I re-tag everyone Calamity mentioned because you're all gorgeous and ilu, and also @horce-divorce @primelinchen-the-second @saint-batrick @taran-wanderer @tricky-pockets @architeuthisducks-blog @rustbeltjessie and @ephemeralian in case any of y'all want to continue the chain bc y'all are also gorgeous and ilu. I also also shadow tag anyone who sees this and wants to play along - if you have a face we love to see it!

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

4/8/2024 eclipse notes

Overall it was a hopeful day for me despite the ever-looming sense of mourning. but the eclipse made it feel special. this eclipse was so mathematically rare because of the exact EXACT chiron conjunction. down to the minute. never experienced something so precise in my 15 yrs observing astrology.. i lit a candle for sammy & spent a while praying then did yoga n journalled outside as the eclipse waned. u couldnt see the full thing here but i saw a little ^.^

i've talked about chiron on the blog b4 but if ur not sure basically it's a major asteroid named after chiron the centaur, "The Wounded Healer". i feel that nickname sums up wat chiron's about, it's your deepest pain, isolation, rejection, & it's where your greatest potential to heal others (+yourself) can be brought forth. so chiron was turbo-activated today. it's digging up a lot of sh** for me truly. like this is rly crazy. but what i realized today is that i'm in the best place i've ever been to grieve, that was my eclipse revelation i spose.

and this is the most painful loss i have experienced in a loooong long time bcus this was someone i spoke to basically every day for the past year. but even then, i feel sm more equipped to get thru it , even if i feel rly quiet rn & not like myself, i kno it'll pass & i'll feel like i can be normal again. dnt feel much like posting rn but i'll get back to it eventually cus sammy rly loved my blog like sincerely i never felt embarrassed that he read my posts. although i do feel this is causing me another minor crisis over internet usage & how to exist online, i know i have to keep posting for sammy P..

yeah ahh the sadness comes in waves but im really glad i am where i am rn to process it all. it's weird to know this will impact my whole life going forward. it makes me think back to sain;t's death and how that changed the course of everything. except back then i was in the WORST environment to cope with it. it's so different now. saint's full name was saint chiron too !! so i always think of them when new chiron sky theatrics are happening. i'm like Awww Saint Wouldve loved writing a 10 paragraph introspective post about this ...They trained me in this manner :>

couldnt resist a late night ramble as i am ever so restless. tomorrow i have therapy for the first time since the day before denji ate a ziploc bag and got emergency surgery. i think that was like 3? weeks ago?? so basically i'm convinced time isnt real anymore because there's no way it hasn't been 3 months. rapid fire trauma lol o_o like please wonderful lord in heaven can we just pick, a struggle , one single struggle is enough. tysm. thats all for now.. trying not to scroll the dash because everything make me feel too crazy rn so pls dont think im ignoring u everyone Ok ilu.. gn

[sky-kiss]

Hey, you!

>:D

Just dropping by to say that Jaheira and Raphael drink together fic turned out great! Been thinking about it quite a bit ever since you posted about the idea and was wondering were you'd take it. Don't worry about being "out of practice with writing", you got these characters and their dialogue down perfectly and as always I also really enjoy reading YOUR voice.

Toodles!

/weeps

Thank you, Dj. That's such a relief to hear. They both have such like...distinct voices that I was. Very worried. So, thank you very much.

They're just my precious little freaks. I just want them to be "friends" and complain lol. They've earned it.

You are saint, Ilu.

[cxncrie-a]

I'm so, so so tired.

this drama, me cutting someone off bc of the fact i finally got tired of how i was treated already had me shaking all day and anxious because i had to talk to so many people and i just { stress }

i've made mistakes, a lot of which i'm not proud of, i'm no saint, i'll never be a saint. I do get emotional sometimes but for the most part i try to stick out of this.

please for the love of god stop harassing the callout blogs and saying its stols, and leave stols alone. in fact, stop harassing everyone. just cut off people you don't like if you can't be bothered to talk like civil people.

i've fucked up, i've admitted i fucked up, and if you choose to stay ilu for it, if not, i understand.

but i'm officially done. if you have questions bring them to me in dms and i'll answer to the best of my ability.

anyway i'm gonna publish my whole queue so if someone leaves while im sleeping it's out now and i don't have to worry about deleting it later.

[feralkwe]

my family lost someone last night.

she's not someone anyone in the family liked very much, though many of us spent portions of our lives loving her. many of us still do in our own way. she was very sick for a very long time and that sickness caused her to do many selfish things that hurt many people. she leaves a legacy of wreckage behind her, for sure. i personally did a lot of work repairing some of the damage left in the wake of her illness. she was for the most part estranged and in almost every way possible it was for the better.

but she died horribly, in a way that no one deserves to, not even if it's partially of their own making. like i said, she was very sick. i spent some time this morning talking my mother and brother through some complicated feelings about her, because i am the only person in my family who has worked to develop tools for dealing with feelings. i endeavored to remind them that while death does not make someone a saint, and that you're not required to forgive a person the wrongs they've done against you, it's okay if you still need to grieve for the love lost. for the person you loved. and also i had to talk them through the fact that she wasn't actually a terrible monster, either. that the thing everyone hates her for doing was, in fact, an act of love. it might be, in my hard won opinion, the most selfless and loving thing she'd done in her too-short life.

it's easy to look at an action someone takes and only see the ways it hurts you while losing sight of the selflessness of the act. almost my entire family hates her for what she did, but through a lot of therapy and talking it through with my besties (ilu both so much!), i've spent several years quietly thanking her for that choice. it gave me things i will always be grateful for, even if it also hurt and still hurts me in many ways. but it was a loving gasp made in a moment of clarity, and something only she could have given.

in her good times she was sweet. funny. she reminded me, both in appearance and style and manner, of avril lavigne (which may be what attracted my brother to her). she liked to team up with me in lovingly dragging my brother, a beloved pastime of mine. she gave us two beautiful boys who were my entire world for quite a while (and in many ways still are). those boys are still too young to understand her illness and the gift she gave them, but i hope that i can guide them toward doing so one day.

it's tragic that her life was cut short in such a horrifying way. no matter what anyone thinks of her, she deserved better. every human being does. we did not speak for the last many years, and i don't know if that was a good thing or not. i certainly could not have prevented what happened. i can't undo it. terrible things sometimes happen for no reason. we can do nothing but continue on.

what i can do is remember her. i can remember she lived, that she loved, that she lost, and that in the height of her illness she did the right thing, even if that thing continues to leave painful ripples through my family. and i can and will do my best to remind people that no human is all good or all bad. that sometimes things hurt so they can heal. that it's okay to mourn someone you loved even if they harmed you, and that doesn't mean you have to forgive them.

i don't need or even want any sort of sentiment extended to me for her loss. we were not close anymore, and like i said, i'm not sure if that was good or bad. i will quietly cry it out and grieve the person i believe she was, and my life will remain largely unchanged by her loss. what you can do for me, if you are moved to do anything at all, is to help me spread the reminder of the complexity of humanity.

[undercat-overdog]

I think you mentioned in a reply to a previous ask that in “A Long Expected Climax”-verse Celebrimbor has a St. Sebastianized painting of himself hanging up. Do you have a particular painting of St. Sebastian in mind that is most likely to resemble Celebrimbor’s?

Ahaha, ilu anon. This recent and incredible piece by helio-phobe, of Celebrimbor himself, is pretty much it in my mind: the sultry come-hither eyes are very necessary.

For the Saint himself, this statue by Giuseppe Giorgetti is pretty fantastic:

As for paintings, let's go with Guido Reni:

I would also like to introduce the possibility of the Elven equivalent of Passion Plays, reenacting the Fall of Eregion and Death of the Ringmaker, maybe. Other events as well - Finrod definitely should get one!

[womanlives]

WHAT ARE YOU THE PATRON SAINT OF?

the patron saint of lost faith. patron saint of leaving it by the roadside. patron saint of it slipping out of your fingers. patron saint of searching and searching. patron saint of yearning for it back. patron saint of scraping your fingers down to the bone trying to hold onto it. patron saint of losing it anyway. saint of lost faith. not the saint of getting it back.

tagged by: @tewwor (thank u ,,, for tagging me ,,, i was so thirsty ,,, )

tagging: @wolfbluff & @afraidofchange (v! v v v!!!!) & @skyheld (merrill and/or gatt !!) & @mercysought (maximaaaaa ~~~) & @divisendeux (DARLING BELOVED ilu sm perhaps for WIDOWW ??)

[cannibalcanid]

Changed my url finally!!

ne-crow-mancer -> wolf-guts

Tagging my (active) beloved mutuals so they know who the hell I am

@stardewpapaalec @remmybeegoosey @yewstronaut @color-craz @saint-magpie @marv3l-drag0ns @cannibalcanid @liberhoe @cowboyabunga

Okay I think that's everyone. Hiiii guys ilu

[miasmaghoul]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BITCH

THANKS YOU UTTER FIEND

[st-danger]

he has a gift for you! i wonder what it is!

(happy birthday saint ilu)

I HOPE IT'S GHOCK

[telestoapologist]

green red lavender sky blue :>

WHAT COLOR AM I TO YOU?? :O

💠📫 accepting!! ✨💫

✦ GREEN ― how is your brain so big ilu ✦ RED ― i feel like we could just hang comfortably in silence ✦ LAVENDER ― literally one of the loveliest people in existence wtf

HHSFV EV!! god, thank you. honestly i wonder the same thing about you?? like. gosh i'm really not surprised to see how well your stuff's received. you've always been a very thoughtful and creative lil fella, it's been inspiring to me. ;__; you're very kind and lovely yourself, though. like u don't put up with shit but you also have the patience of a saint and you're not like, outwardly aggressive or vicious about stuff.

but!! i do really wish we'd hang out more if ur open to that. i feel like i could happily chill in a quiet environment with you and not feel like, weirdly neglected or paranoid. like if we were chillin in a library drawing/reading/writing together. i just. always get way too nervous about socialization- but i promise that's never your fault! honestly i'd like to learn to not be so jittery around ppl so i can have a normal social life.

✦ SKY BLUE ― i will kill anyone for you just ask

SSDFVG OK BUT SAME THOUGH LIKE. dude the shit you were getting awhile back was outrageous. honestly i'm always happy to back u up/be in ur corner if u ever need me. 👍👍 thank you as well haha, i appreciate u v much,,,

[queryxecho]

“🎶” (I too would like to hear songs for the girls <3)

Rosie's chaotic sapphics playlist - Accepting @oculusxcaro ilu

Inferno - Reinaeiry vers.

No halo Baby, I'm the reason why Hell's so hot Inferno Baby, I'm the reason why bad's so fun, Hell's so hot Oh so

Terribly terrible, I'm the villain One as sweet as caramel, I'm your saint Think I'm getting butterflies, but it's really Something telling you to run away

Bonus Reinaeiry on the topic of bomb hot songs i associate w/the giorls, bc they are in fact Team Steal Your Girl this is not at all directed at Li no what no

Boyfriend - Reinaery vers

I could be a better boyfriend than him I could do the shit that he never did Up all night, I won't quit Thinking I'm gonna steal you from him I could be such a gentleman Plus all my clothes would fit I could be a better boyfriend

[ocd-kenobi]

oh! I know The Name of the Rose is one of your favourite books (a great read, love it as well!), and that it inspired your AU drabble collection...which aspects of the book were your favourite and how you would like to see them reflected through the obikin dynamic in general, and/or in your future fics? thank you <3

omg pls and thank you for this, ilu. Also so happy you sent this on Saint Francis's feast day!

I think my favorite aspects of the book have not made it and probably will not make it into my obikin! I'm not really going to say anything about storytelling, librarianship, translation, gothic literature, or translations into anachronistic genres, which are the things that really get my heart clenching about that book.

I think mostly the things I was inspired by in it are the freedom to just write gay sex happening in monasteries (without having to make a whole thing about it) and the passionate discussion amongst medieval monks and friars (and the clergy) about how best to serve god. I was fascinated by the chapter-long debates about different monastic leaders all hinging on the subject of whether they should remain cloistered and hoard knowledge (monks) or whether they should be out in the community working in service of people and sharing their knowledge (friars.) Meanwhile, the clergy is just tied up in politics and power grabs. In my fic I'm looking forward to drawing some more silly parallels in having the community-serving friars (like Jedi) in tension with the money-hoarding church they are sort of a part of (the republic/the chancellor.) And just having more conversations between characters about that.

On a more specific note, I've been thinking of having a library-at-night sex scene in the forbidden sections of the library Just Because.

Gah, I love that book so much. I also totally ship William and Adso and maybe a little bit of their sexy mentor/mentee relationship has seeped into my Obikin, but not intentionally so.

On another note, I was also recently struck by this insane idea to write a Powerwolf/Monumental Mass AU where Obi-Wan is an innocent monk novitiate and the clergy of his church are werewolf vampires and in trying to investigate the strange things he's been seeing he ends up getting converted to their werewolf vampire ways because the bishop (Darth Vader) is just so sexy LMAO but that's another story.