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[glindaupland]

The Phantom of the Opera | Seoul, South Korea | 집팬텀 x 송크리 Review 5/6

October 13, 2023 - Evening / 1500th Korean performance

The Phantom of the Opera | 김주택 Kim Ju-taek/Julian Kim

Christine Daaé | 송은혜 Song Eun-hye

Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny | 황건하 Hwang Gun-ha

Carlotta Giudicelli | 이지영 Lee Ji-young

Oh another incident of me making excuses to see this show again...

@capitanogiorgio really wanted to go and how could I miss the chance to go with a great friend

it was the 1500th Korean performance

I wanted to see Ju-taek with a completely different cast rotation

...it's King Ju-taek, that's reason enough

It was meant to be because when I checked in with her after ticketing, I had bought a seat right in front of hers without even trying. I was just aiming for the general area. So yeah I'm justified! The stars aligned! No regrets, because this was another performance that blew me away and oh boy I cried again somehow what is this dark magic being done to me

I'm so dumb and I left my binoculars in my hotel room so I literally had to run to grab them and my art print for Yoon Young-seok during intermission. Like I said before though, the Charlotte is very small. The view from the last two seats genuinely doesn't feel that far away like it might at the Majestic. It's just difficult distinguish expressions. Any pair of binoculars and opera glasses can easily rectify that.

Backstage | Little Lotte / The Mirror

Quoting Ceci's notes "XOXO Gossip girl André" I just needed to note his dramatic "WoOoOw~!" and silly teenage girl giggling as they left Raoul to be alone with Christine. So scandalous! We both especially liked his delivery in The Mirror this performance. Even with such a powerful commanding voice he's able to make himself sound gentler and a lot less intimidating in response to Christine. Her words clearly have an affect on him, softening him. He called to her more quietly and eerily this time, but oh that nice little build up again in the final words telling her to come closer? Chef's kiss. Very nice range.

The Music of the Night

As with Dong-seok, SEH Christine was more curious about him and is not the fully obedient student like SJS Christine. It makes it interesting when she's paired with the more controlling Phantoms like KJT or CJR. Even so, these two had some interesting chemistry. He actually got a bit too caught up in the moment, leaning in very close to her (the almost kiss). There was a little bit more urgency when he quickly backed away even though he immediately pretended to be composed again. So maybe she hadn't fully given in yet, but she definitely was getting a little too curious. Both shows it did look he kept getting pulled by small stirrings of something from the intimacy, but he was always quick about brushing it off. This night for the line, "마침내 내 것이 될 순간 / The moment you'll finally be mine" - he put the whispered emphasis on "be mine" By the end, she was definitely more convinced by him and open to listening. But of course, getting jumpscared by a bride replica of yourself might be a bit of a vibe killer so hm that progress kinda dropped

Stranger Than You Dreamt It

Like I said, I left my binoculars for Act 1 so this part was kinda agonizing because I couldn't see facial expressions. But he really sounded more exposed and hysterical after his unmasking than before. He ended his outburst with loud gasps and even the first half of STYDI which was clearly meant to sound intimidating and harsh felt shaky. Once again, SEH Christine didn't take her eyes off of the Phantom when he came near. She began to reach for him when he was close like she had done with JDS Phantom, but he turned away too quickly...

Why Have You Brought Me Here? / All I Ask of You

Side-eyeing the hell out of HGH Raoul again, but extra this time. Until he's just about to start AIAOY, he just comes across as judgmental and irritated with her. Although I definitely prefer him over Hadley, he's a little too much of that type of hot-headed for me. I found it funny that Ju-taek talked about HGH Raoul always being angry. Like even directing his anger at Christine (he noted his way of shouting "이쪽으로 와요 / Come this way!!!" at Christine before she takes him to the rooftop and the way he shouts at Madame Giry). It's too accurate 😭 Anyway, not technically a bad performance, just not my preference with personalities for Raoul. I think he would suit the role of the Phantom a lot more when he’s older 👀 To more briefly summarize this I'm quoting Ceci's notes again: "Tiger big douche tonight?" I will give him that he is very cute during AIAOY and I wish he would continue to be this cute. He was romantic and very passionate about it! I just have a radio performance to share so sadly you won't get the real feeling, but it's at least a little taste?

Wandering Child

I know the Phantom's murdering and kidnapping and whatnot but this is in his top crimes like he's a real bitch for this. He made himself sound so safe and inviting in 'Wandering Child' like leave her alone you weirdo!! And SEH Christine responds with "아빠 - Father?" whenever the Phantom calls for her to come closer at the end of the trio's singing. No, girl, no! 😭 His voice made a complete transformation after being interrupted by Raoul. Suddenly, he had a strong terrifying authoritative presence.

The Point of No Return

I loved how he gently tilted her chin with his fingers during the beginning of his half of the song like Dong-seok had at my first performance 🤭 His voice felt really strong, he really seemed determined and confident, but once again he was absolutely on edge when they get to the bench and struggling to grasp for that "control" he thought he had. They ended the song very close!! He wasn't even able to finish singing the final word. The adrenaline rush was gone. He was scared now. Despite being so intense before, his voice and the way he went to take her hand for the ring became so gentle, but also desperate and rushed at the same time. ...but why did the rooster NO!! get funnier to me. I'm so sorry!

Final Lair

During ‘Down Once More’ she tried to touch him, but he grabbed her angrily to stop her. I think she tried to reach to him or touch him a few other times like when she said she didn’t fear his face anymore, but this only made him panic and lash out more. He was really agitated and on edge! There were a lot more aggressive responses as attempts to suppress his doubts about his actions. Deep down he knew he sensed what he was doing was wrong, but he kept clinging to this feeling of betrayal and the excuse of his face to justify pushing forward. But we're past the point of no return, we can only go full speed ahead now. The way he mocked Raoul seemed so calm, but when HGH Raoul started snapping at him he matched his energy a lot more viciously than when interacting with SWG Raoul. He pounded his chest during the line "이 모든 건 이미 결정된 것 / Everything has already been decided" with a pained emphasis on 'decided'. I think deep inside he already might have known what the ending would have to be Ohhhh when Raoul asked why he would force her to choose a lie this time it enraged the Phantom so much he grunted loudly and looked like he was about to actually strangle him when he lunged at him. SEH Christine was brave about blocking his path and he stormed off again because he couldn't hurt her. But it's kind of funny to me that Ju-taek said the aggression from HGH Raoul triggers more anger from him (that was clear), but when facing SWG Raoul he almost feels bad for him. He also said putting the noose on SWG Raoul is easy, but then HGH Raoul is kinda scary and angry. Personally, I think that putting a noose on HGH Raoul is the equivalent of putting a chihuahua leash on a tiger and hoping it'll hold. The way he gave his "믿었다... 날 믿었다고... / Trusted...you trusted me" reply was sharp, almost sarcastic and he shouted for her to make her choice looking seriously anguished. She looked wounded and sobbed before she began to respond. The kiss was similar to the one with SJS and SEH Christine really didn't want to leave him either. She was trying to stretch her hand out to him while HGH Raoul kept insisting they needed to leave. When he called himself the angel of death she was shaking her head. Hadn't she just expressed something different to him? It looked like it hurt her to still hear those kinds of words from him. But the weight of his guilt was really crushing him so much that he couldn't take it. He fell to the ground crying hard when he chased them away. Upon seeing Christine return, he sighed a little. She was whimpering and sobbing as he told her that he loved her and she nodded slowly in return. He really tried hard to make it look like he was at peace with letting her go, but it was clear he wasn't ready. The moment her hand left his, he let out a shaky sigh like she was his very breath being taken away from him when she ran off crying. But he didn't try to stop her in any way. He just kissed the ring softly and walked picked up the veil on the ground. He quietly repeated her name into the veil over and over again lovingly before he did the same action with the veil singing his final lines. Even though SEH Christine doesn't look at her Phantoms, she sounded mournful and shaky on the way out. I don't think she'd even be able to handle looking at him again

Here's yet another special commemorative audience photo woo! Ceci and I stretched into the aisle so we could find ourselves later and not just be a blur in the crowd and well...there we are. I think he took like 3 different poses before deciding the last one was the right one heh

I think in general the cast was on fire! There was a lot of good energy since it was another special performance. Part of the multiple reasons I chose to attend! After this I could say with confidence that Kim Ju-taek has now ended up being in my top favorite Phantoms. I know he had performance experience from opera, but I still can't believe he's been able to come up one of the most unique perspectives I've seen for this role for his first musical. Now my friends and I have all sorts of future role ideas, so I hope he continues to do musicals in the future! Just one more review left now~

It's promo time enjoy some performances to cleanse your ears!

[madigoround]

Some days it feels like I am just desperately trying to find reasons to live so I don’t jump off a bridge and it’s hardly even working

Edit: I have spent some very necessary kitten cuddle time and received some very sweet messages from people and I am feeling more sane, definitely recommend nice people and cats lol

[chaotic-archaeologist]

I've done a few field internships already and im currently doing my first museum internship which is totally epic. But i noticed how differently objects are treated in the field vs. the museum which has been kind of odd lmao Like i totally get it, but sometimes it's still weird to be as careful with stuff in a museum that you'd put in a baggy on the wheelbarrow in the field to rattle back idk xp

It is very strange, isn't it? There's also the fact that (unfortunately) many things remain unprocessed/fall victims to the curation crisis, so that there are materials sitting in plastic bags or boxes that should really be housed in much more stable environments.

-Reid

[thesunsethour]

dia dhuit! i was wondering why you dont like leo varadkar? this is completely genuine, im a young irish person who knows very little about irish politics and would love to learn more, ive seen a lot of leo hate but im not sure where it comes from, and i respect your opinions on other things so i was hoping you would be willing to explain a little?? no worries if not, go raibh maith agat!! <333

dia dhuit! thanks for this ask, getting really annoying about politics is unfortunately one of my favourite hobbies 🙏

i’d like to start by saying that i am biased against varadkar since i lean left politically, and therefore have never voted fine gael and will never vote fine gael, because i don’t believe that their policies/promises/ideas are what’s best for ireland in the short or long term, and are often actively damaging.

leo varadkar has been the leader of fine gael since 2017, and his party has been in government since then. in that time:

• child homelessness in ireland has reached its highest ever recorded level

• he and his government ended the no-fault eviction ban during the worst housing crisis this country has ever seen

• our hospital systems reach breaking point every winter, and in 2022, 60% of newly trained doctors emigrated to Australia

• the mother and baby home records have been sealed for 30 years, against heavy protests from the victims and their families

and in terms of varadkar more personally, i just think he’s a very unpleasant politician:

• his ‘welfare cheats cheat us all’ campaign was hateful to its core, and incredibly ironic considering the dodgy accountancy going on in gov depts

• leaked confidential information of GP pay deals to a friend

• just google “tiny tim should get a job”

• is a landlord. enough said

i do want to stress that i vehemently disagree with some criticisms of varadkar, namely those coming from ireland’s far right wing. accusations against him include: that he has let immigration spiral out of control and ireland is full (this is fascist rhetoric used to justify the arson attacks against various asylum seeker accommodations), that he has let ‘trans ideology’ (whatever that is) dominate our schools (blatantly untrue. if anything, varadkar still has a long way to go before he is anywhere near as progressive as he should be regarding trans rights). lots of these far right wing criticisms are heightened against varadkar since he is of indian descent and openly gay.

in fact, i will give one (1) small bit of praise to varadkar: i thought he handled brexit okay. but apart from that? i can’t say much

fine gael have been in government for over a decade, and our most successful feats (gay marriage referendum, abortion referendum) have come as a result of grassroots campaigners. i do not think that fine gael, especially under varadkar’s leadership, has helped ireland. as a young adult trying to live in dublin, i feel the effects of the housing crisis every day. i feel the effects of our government’s apathy towards young people every day. this is leo varadkar’s government, and so yes i do blame him

[swordmaid]

there’s like specific parts in act 3 I really like for shri’iia’s oathbreaking arc bc I think it’s not linear, and even if shes pursuing that path there’s still a chance for her to regress/turn back and remake her oath/follow lolth again. like I don’t think fully turning away from lolth is something she’s able to do in that moment considering that she was quite literally raised in that cult, and even though she recognises now how lolth only has victims not followers I think she is still able to find some comfort in the spider queen’s shadow (no matter how hostile it is) just because it’s what she was raised under, and what she knows. to her, it’s home.

so the parts im talking about is post cazador and post house of grief. hag romance aside (and it’s such a Big Thing for hag romance too) I like doing that quest for Shri’iia because her new oath now compels her to free the unfortunate spawns when before she would’ve left them to their fate and not give them any thought. But now she does care, and she knows what it feels to not be given a choice and what matters to her isn’t essentially freeing them - but rather, giving them the chance to choose for themselves. if they choose to run away and be free then she will help them, but if they choose to just die then she’ll help them too. The ability to choose and to have that free will is what matters to Shri’iia, and that’s like the very definition of her new Oathbreaker oath.

but then there’s also the hag romance conflict where Astarion - out of his own fear - thinks that he should ascend instead. He thinks he needs that power so no one can control him, and he could be free. And prior to the Cazador fight I think they’re also starting to argue about the ascension esp when she found out other souls are bound to the rituals bc her oath compels her to free them, but he thinks he needs that power so no one can touch him anymore. So it’s a touchy subject for the both of them, and the romance between them is still something new and fragile and they’re both learning how to love so it’s a veryy hmmm tense situation.

And in the moment where he asks for her help so he can ascend, I can actually see her threatening to kill him if he doesn’t back down. And I think that’s the point where she actually realises two things - a) she’s in love with this man because the thought of killing him will break her but she knows herself enough that she will do it b) even though she thinks she’s free, she’s still oath-bound. This new oath isn’t fully liberating her; she’s still following her own set of tenets and those can still be used against her or to control her. And i think that realisation will disarm her a little bit because she thinks she’s changed, and she’s a more idealised version of herself but then isn’t she still the same …? She’s still mindlessly following her tenets but they just took on a different form now. And there’s still a chance for someone to come along and deceive her, and use her the same way her Matriarch has used her so what changed exactly? And I think it’s soooo important for her to experience that doubt bc she can’t just be jumping from one cause to another without actually thinking about it, and fully realising what it is.

So post Cazador fight I just imagine her having this moment of crisis bc a) she’s in her feelings and she’s scared that she’s in love LOL b) she’s now doubting herself and this oath and now shes feeling bewildered and unsure similar to when she first broke her oath to lolth. But unlike before she will not spiral ! bc she has a support system this time ! and she’s not alone anymore !

and the other part is with the house of grief. unsure if it’s the default option but I like the route where shadowheart refuses to kill viconia so she doesn’t grant her that satisfaction and shri’iia is the one who executes her instead. and for shri’iia she has no emotional ties to viconia, she’s probably heard her name in passing as traitor of lolth and now she’s here to execute her. and it’s like she has her old oath again where she’s hunting down and executing lolth traitors but now she doesn’t feel the same gratification or satisfaction bc she understands why they would choose to betray lolth, and why they would risk it all and try to escape to the surface even though everyone up there hates them. it’s so important for her to understand that perspective, and to understand the things she did to gain the spider queen’s favour is deranged and fucked up and it was not love at all. and it also makes the route where she essentially regresses and runs back to lolth even more tragic bc she knows what’s it’s like to be free, and she knows why others choose to escape, and she understands it but she turns around and chooses to return anyway. it’s a tragic choice but it still makes sense to me imo ..!

anyway killing viconia is like the last time she kills a drow traitor. unsure if I want to keep the mirror of loss canon for her on one hand I kinda like the idea that she gives up all the memories of her matriarch, and every intel she has gathered for her, and every info that’s damning to the other noble houses to the mirror bc it’s like she’s closing that part of her life so to speak and she’s fully turning away from it but also I’m like this team is currently anti shar and we’re out here supporting bestie shadowheart we can’t be using any shar related things bc that just seems rude… so maybe it’s not canon… and now thinking about it more i don’t like how she’ll just forget all her time down there when it’s more significant that she actually does remember, and actively remember.

anyway shri’iia having a moment where her belief in her ideals wavers (which is such a 👀 moment for her bc she’s a paladin and her power relies on those beliefs) but in the end she understands that even though is following those tenets it doesn’t inherently mean she’ll be a mindless follower of it, and it’ll be used against her, and she’ll have no choice in her own actions. the presence of choice is still there and every choice is hers to make as well as every consequences are hers to bear. and just because she follows it and she wholeheartedly believes in it, I think she’s not entirely bound to it to the point of damnation. she is able to refuse and to ignore if she needs to, bc the only approval that matters - the only decision that matters - the only choice that matters - is hers..!! and that’s what this freedom means, and it’s something that was out of her grasp before but now it’s hers and it’ll be hers forever wooohoooo

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Tw, Parental abuse, threats of murder, threatened violence against women, sexism, A boy being told to toughen up deal, being called names

Looking for support and validation (💛📼 sorry for the emojis i want to be able to find this post once it gets answered, don't know if this counts as symbols and is against the rules, im so sorry)

My dad (45) talks about how to could kill me at any moment anytime i (15M) am annoying to him. He's been doing it since i was a child, getting in my face and screaming about how he would brutally kill me if he could. Now that i'm a little older i try to make jokes like "you wouldn't i'm just so cool and awesome, i can't be killed" but he goes on about how "i could. i could. i can. i will kill you."

I feel like this is pennies compared to other people and their parents but i can't take it anymore. I'm tired of threats and hands on me and him getting in my face and the yelling and blowing up over little things like my nails or clothes or whatever. There's a stigma for boys and abuse, and it feels really isolating... I've heard all the "toughen up" and "man up" and "be stronger" and "you're being weak" and i'm really lonely

I know so many more women are victimized and oppressed and scrutinized and abused and hurt than men and i really don't want to take away from that, but i don't know what to do. I'm so tired and stressed and scared and lonely. Like i'm the only boy out here who is being yelled at and crying about it, i can't help but feel like im being weak for crying. He keeps talking about how men are so much better than women and can take them down and hurt them and i hate it.

he wont let me have a heater in my room, winter is coming soon and my room has shitty ventilation and insulation because i'm above the garage. He said no to the heater because my room is messy (bits of laundry and wrappers here and there, i think it's pretty clean and stuff) and therefore i'm a disgusting pig and going to burn the house down and should have thought about that before i asked. I'm so cold, my body is freezing, i can feel the coldness of my hands as i type this. Every winter is colder and colder these days. I'm thinking if buying a heater secretly tho! maybe i'll feel a little less sad if i can sleep warm and cozy...

thanks for reading, sorry this went into a tangent, i tried to tw everything at the top but i don't know if i did it all right, i'm sorry. Thank you again, thank you so much. I feel a little better now that i typed all this out. I should go to bed now, nightnight, have a good day, thank you.

Hi anon,

It sounds like you've experienced these threats so many times that you've become desensitized to them and have normalized them to the extent that you feel this experience is equivalent to "pennies" compared to others. But threats on your life should be taken seriously, regardless of who says it, how many times it's been said, or even your gender identity. You're right that the culture around boys and men is to be "tough" but that shouldn't mean tolerating abuse. You're not decentering misogynistic abuse by highlighting toxic masculinity. Your dad sounds like an incel.

Hearing about the heater situation is even more concerning because it's starting to sound like neglect as well as child endangerment. I recommend that you reach out to a crisis resource such as 741741 or 988. You can also take a look at this spreadsheet with other crisis resources, as some of those include crisis resources specifically for men or minors. If anyone has any additional suggestions or comments, please feel free to add on. Otherwise, I hope I could help and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[aspiringtrashpanda]

(CONTINUED maybe we're back on track if I didn't mess up my text splitting pls don't eat a part tumblr, I THINK there's 5 if I counted right??? im so sorry OP you're an angel for putting up with me and I'm starting to think I didn't give you an adequate enough heads-up) This fic is my baby, it has grown up with me, I’m literally sending Leaf to College at one point to project that life on 🤣 hey Blue Oak did it, so can she. (but Highschool first, can’t convince me anyone with the education of a 4th grader (or 8th grader tech, Ash is 10, she's 14 Let's Go-style where he was born during "protagonist years") will be allowed to be a Champ who wants in on how to run a region and detective work) schooling is a bit different in Pokeverse, you take Uni classes for fun, don’t need two years of an AA or AS Degree. Pokémon Toxicology, BioDiversity and Medicine re: using their natural abilities VS Organic Chemistry ANY DAY + Law Student-like internships at the League to learn Champ duties + fun bonus of Lance doing extra and involving his League with the Interpol.) "Where do you think you're going?" "Out." "Without doing the paperwork?" "You can give it to the intern!" "You are the intern." “I cannot believe this betrayal. This slight against me will not be forgotten.” “You mean just like how you didn’t forget the League duties you insisted on being allowed to do?” eyebrow raise “…well.” Lance is not exempt from bullying.

"You're the one wearing a bib!" "A what?! It's a cape!" "And it's on the wrong side!" "It's a cape! And it's elegant!" "It's tacky is what it is!" You're likely to find her complimenting Leon's cape just because of how offended Lance gets. Choosing a cape is a science. But nobody wants to hear a one-hour monologue on Cape Studies. Payback uwu. He's actually the reason she ends up having to finish Highschool. He's not giving an obviously emotionally tired 14 y/o Boring Adult Work even if she's eager to do it because SOMEONE needs to fix the atrocious state of the Kanto Region. (Lance was overworked, he's trying, but Indigo Season...what is wrong with all these citizens. It's ok, once she's ready they can split uuuh, the work between Kanto, Johto, The Orange Islands, and the Sevii Islands + G-Men Investigations so Lance doesn't have a heart-attack at his desk. But seriously, who gave him this much work anyways??? Not to mention running the League, the Gym Budgets, restocking Badges, employee paychecks, monitoring trainers during League Season, and the influx of tourists and establishing Pokemon Contests in KanJoh, etc.) So it's off to learn The Magic of Friendship with Ash and friends and falling victim to their puppy-dog eyes. (Occasional meet-ups during Kanto turn into full Joh-Hoenn adventures, and Sinnoh encounter when investigating with Looker about Team Galactic as Lance I presume is off training in Galar, he needs a break too.) So for Johto (*insert horrified look at the GS Ball because that's what you use to capture Celebi, she would know~ "well heck, guess I have to steal that when no one's looking.") And everyone going, "You know Leaf, I was a bit worried when we heard about The Incident but you're still you :)" Cue Leaf "oh...*laughs nervously.*" (That moment when you disappear off the face of the earth after The Incident, and re-appear to win the Indigo League and Clean House and don't know how to tell people you kind of regained memories of your past life and had an existential crisis. They're a bit come and go/the ones getting triggered upon meeting Steven in the Granite Cave episode was fun lol (not) *Gets to Ecruteak, sees Morty, books it the other way because she remembers his warnings to not chase after Celebi from The Other Timeline/Gameverse and does not need him seeing the many ghosts of her dead Pokemon clinging to her if they are.*

BLUE OAK DID IT, SO CAN SHE! This is gonna be my new motto for everything, whether it's relevant or not lmao. These Lance interactions are everything to me. I LOVE found family League shenanigans. So precious I want to cry. Okay I want to read this fic so badly. It sounds so heartwrenching and fascinating and I can tell you've put SO MUCH thought into it. Gimme. *Grabby hands motion* (actually though, i am happy to beta read if you ever consider posting!)

[kopivie]

ZU‼️ CINNA‼️ can i oc rant :3?

these guys have bene stuck in my head for awhile now😭

and ive been playing odoriko by vaundy on repeat bc i discovered it and now im obsessing over it like i do with everything else- OKAY OC SPILL TIME

so so, basically, these guys are like highschool sweethearts ya ya? BUT ITS DOOMED ROMANCE‼️ right person, wrong universe typa shit. they were supposed to be in their own universe, like, not fanocs, but now im back into my jjk daydreams and so now they’re jjk ocs ig🤷 (all my ocs do universe jumping, i just pick them up drop them in a universe then move them again lol)

so they’re older than gojo and his gang, like im thinking if gojo’s 28, they’re 30-31. now gonna say anything abt their cursed techniques and crap bc that is too mych brain power at 12am is in 17mins and im fixing my sleep schedule rn. anw, (since idk if you’re like into jjk, i won’t say anythin abt the story since this is abt my ocs, the fandom alr give gojo and pals love🙄) she dies at HIS hands. why? bc she turns into the bad guy and he’s a goody-too-shoes.

yk those “who’d kill the world for you and who’d kill you for the world” things, and he’s the latter. she isn’t much of a threat to the world alone, but her whole power thing is basically she can play with someone’s mind thru song, so like, siren. but then she can sword bc family requirements. do, danger right. so he’s ordered by the higher ups to dispose of her. he stalls all he can bc they JUST got married and he’s still so deeply in love with her. (she fell first and fell again, he fell harder. you can tell bc they get married legit like 1-2 years after they graduate)

as to why she’s the bad guy, i was originally thinking that its bc she kills her entire family (save for her twin bro [bc he was out of the house at the time] and the staff) and gets caught bathed in their blood at daybreak. and i was thinking that she does this bc her family had a tradition to offer their firstborns to the evil spirits to appease and keep them away bc their home is like a shrine and they act as the gate between the regular world and the spirit world (this was before they became jjk ocs, so ig now it’s to keep the curses away from the house and village..???). anw, no one knew but the elders in her family + her parents, who decided that she was the safer option bc she was a girl and not a boy. but tbh idk abt this anymore so i might just chuck it out or modify it idk😔

OH NOW ABT ODORIKO— this song feels SO them, it’s not upbeat-upbeat but just sounds hopeful. and i cant understand japanese, but based off of genius.com:

“That girl's future and mine spin round' and round'

If they ever come to a stop

I hope to start it again

If you and me can pretend to be victims, spinning round' and round'

We can march on together from where we left off

As we go with the times

(Tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru)

I guess we will continue to rely on love to live

(Tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru)

When we separate, I wonder if what's left

(Tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru-ru, tu-ru-ru)

Is the song of never-changing love”

IS SO THEM?? “if it ever comes to a stop” WHEN HE KILLS HER & WHEN SHE TURNS BAD “i hope for it to start again.” HIS WISHES TO THE GODS TO LET THEM BE TOGETHER IN ANOTHER UNIVERSE “we can march on together where we left off.” 😭

“As we go with the times, I guess we will continue to rely on love to live.” when she turns bad and he’s left alone with their memories together and is having a crisis on the fact that he has to kill her so he stalls for time until he’s stalled their time together to the end. “When we separate, I wonder if what's left Is the song of never-changing love.” when he kills her and is truly left alone (because is are they truly together if he’s above the ground and the only pieces of her above it are the bits in his heart and brain? and that tombstone with her name carved on it?), left to wonder if their love (or at the very least, his love, because he isn’t sure if she could love him anymore after he drove his sword into her head) would carry over into the next life and connect them together again.

-🦫 night night😪 its 12 now whoopsie; my brain feels so light now that ive spilled them out (ITS SO WORDY😭 I DIDNT THINK I WAS THINKING ABT FHEM THAT MUCH???)

OC DUMP OC DUMP, I'M SEATED

wait bc the thought of having ocs universe hop is so cool though? you could write a story where some oc has a dimension traveling power like america chavez that rips them into another universe that you like and then have them build bonds only for them to be violently ripped into the next universe without warning.. like they're cursed to make bonds and then lose them because they can't control their power

I LOVE WORDY MAN WTF THIS IS SO GOOD THOUGH?? I LOVE THEM

[brandnewhuman]

CAN I GET THE SINCLAIR TWINS WITH A S/O THEY JUST FOUND OUT HAS A DEGREDATION KINK YES, I'M DOWN ATROCIOUS NO I DON'T REGRET IT

Y/N TRAUMATISING THE

SLASHERS ONCE AGAIN

House of wax edition

☆STARRING☆

Vincent Sinclair ☆ the sad little waxy man who is secretly the most unhinged fucker on earth but we keep looking at him like a innocent baby just because he looks submissive and breedable

Bo Sinclair ☆ greasy himbo with no working brain cells yelling at people he plans to murder that he will call the police if they don't oPEN THE GODDAMN DOOR, cause apparently ThIS IS HIS TRUCK

CONTENT:

Tw: obviously there's degrading ecc, canon violence, mentions of murder, NSFW, mentions of blood and there's definitely more so be careful

A/N: *sighs* i open requests and this IS THE FIRST THING YOU ALL ASK FOR. HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU ALWAYS SO HORNY BROS. YOU ALL ARE GETTING TOO DAMN COMFORTABLE WITH THIS SHIT. Where do you all get this ideas? WHERE?!. Anyways I hope you enjoy it cause it has cost me my spot in heaven and a couple of weird Google searches

BO SINCLAIR:

To think this was going to be a nice funny little blog full of fluff and angst and nice things. 

Now look at me, fueling someone foul need to be called a piece of garbage to get turned on 

YOU KNOW WHAT I ALWAYS SAY ABOUT BO HAVING ANGER ISSUES 

But for the sake of giving you all your horny content let's say he does have anger issues 

Yeah you already know where this is going 

The first time he found out you needed jesus in your life was, yes you guessed it, when you first came to ambrose

As soon as he saw you he knew you were going to the basement 

He felt bad for you since you seemed so nice and so shy plus you were completely Bo's type 

He would have NEVER thought you would end up acting like a SINFUL WHORE

he was going on with the whole tying you up and whatnot 

"You were not dying to get here, were you? This is what you really want behind all that shy bullshit act you have going on" 

If you were to be honest you were enjoying this 

And if you were not turned on before now you're whole brain has stopped working and you're on fire

When he heard the small moan leaving your mouth bro was almost shocked 

"Did you just.. you know what never mind" 

He tried to think that maybe he just misheard but 

YOU DID IT AGAIN AND LOUDER 

MY POOR MAN WAS HAVING A LIFE CRISIS WHILE YOU WERE HERE HAVING THE SMEXY TIME OF YOUR LIFE 

he was trying to process the whole thing while you were like: 👹 mmm yes do it again 

Bro felt the 50 shades of trauma right then right there 

and being the fucking gremlin you are you EVEN ASKED WHY HE STOPPED 

he was like "ight I'm out of here" 

He just left you there cause if you were enjoying this then there was no point 

And because honestly wtf was that y/n WHAT THE ACTUAL FACK 

Ironically enough, being so into Bo's kinky shit and being so horny is what saved you

Initially he thought you would be just a way to kill time between victim and victim and that's why he kept you around

Well, he was in for a fucking surprise 

Obviously the relationship took a more deep turn 

You still had to see Bo getting angry tho. 

You both fell in love so hard that Bo's temper improved around you

Maybe it was because with you he could do all the things that makes him feel better without feeling ashamed of it 

Today was a particularly tough day

Victims kept being rude and he had to spend an extra hour chasing them around so he wasn't really in the greatest of the moods 

So it wasn't really that much of a surprise when he went all aggressive and mean during smexy time 

You basically are free therapy for him

The more you get turned on by him talking to you worse than how he talks to jonesy the more he falls in love with you and the harder he fucks you

IM SORRY, YOU ARE FUELING THIS MAN WORST SIDE WITH THIS KINKY FUCKERY. 

WHATEVER CONSEQUENCES COMES OUT OF IT ARE ALL ON YOU 

Eventually he would say sorry and occasionally feel bad for some things he had said

He never insults you or degrades you in things he knows could actively hurt your feelings tho

And sometimes he worries about being to rough or to cruel 

You know that most kinks come from traumas ecc so he does wonder what the fuck has happened for you to be this fucking wild 

He doesn't complains tho, keep it that way y/n your beloved Bo likes the feral horny energy 

VINCENT SINCLAIR:

Not gonna lie I would like too to be called a bitch by vinny 

I would never shut up about the fact that vinny is not the fucking innocent Babe everyone makes out of him

This bitch would not hesitate to push your head down for a blow job if he deems you're being too much of a brat 

I JUST FEEL THAT DEPENDING ON HIS MOOD HE DECIDES WHEN AND HOW TO BE A TOP

And this is one of those occasions where he decided how and when to be a mean top

You have been pestering him all day, distracting him from work he has to do

so now he is pissed because not only he has like too many pending wax figures to do but he can't focus anymore with you around

He literally grabs you by the wrists and looks at you deep in the eyes 

Now vin can't really talk much. We all know that but it's like…

His whole demeanour gives off so much without even speaking

Like you just know he's calling you a fucking whore without even have to ask 

He was not really mad at you but kind of irritated and tbh he didn't meant to be so aggressive but you have pushed all his buttons 

I- he was certainly surprised but not disappointed 

You tried so hard to hide your reaction but vinny can read you like an open book 

It only takes one look at your eyes, the red on your cheeks and how you wiggled slightly under his gaze trying to tone down yourself and keep at bay your inner turmoil

THIS UNHINGED FUCKER IS NOT HAVING ANY MERCY 

Would it been a different situation where he was not feeling this dominant he would have just caught fire in front of you

But now? Rip your horny soul my friend

he just keeps staring at you until you, keeping you in place using his hands, until you just get too worked up and can't hold it anymore

As soon as you divert your gaze from his a smirk is forming under the mask and he slightly tilts his head to the side amused by your curious reaction 

Picture this PICTURE FUCKING THIS

Every time he notice you getting more and more turned on by him being mean the more he denies you to come until you're practically begging him to do it 

And if you even try to move in any sort of way to help yourself he will be punish you even more

He would do everything he can to ensure you won't be able to bother him while working for a good few hours 

I just feel that from now on this whole thing would be a huge inside joke between you and him

He would put you in the most embarrassing situations cause he has no fucking chill 

But in the end it all works well cause both of you are having lots of sinful fun

Like Bo he would never use anything really hurtful against you 

But unlike Bo he would never feel that bad for being mean

Cause everytime he has to do this is because you're acting like a WHORE AND NOT LETTING HIM FINISH HIS WORK

The wax play combined with this stuff? 10/10 

[numbaoneflaya]

I got a lot for you, you don't have to answer all of these 💀. 2, 4, 8, 21, 35, and 50 for Jilly. 3, 7, 10, 41, and 64 for Valkya. And 6, 7, 14, 25, and 52 for Mike. And a large fry 😁

I FINALLY DID ITTTTTT IM SORRY FOR THE WAIT!! all under the cut bcs ofc its LONG

JILLY

2. What are their favourite possessions? Why? (sentimentality, history, price, etc)

-She has 2 stuffed ferrets shes had since she was little :) she calls them stinker and slinker and she loves them so much. Also a collection of friendship bracelets she pretty much makes matching ones for everyone she likes and wears them in rotation.

4. Are they a good gift-giver? What do they tend to give as gifts? -Jilly LOVES gift giving bcs she naturally hoards and steals shit and then ends up with too much shit, so what better to do with it than give to friends?? You're likely to get anything she can swipe that reminds her of u. Tries to vary it to suit whoever shes giving a gift to but her go to is something like stuffed animals and jewelry bcs thats what she likes best

8. What does their dream house look like?

-She would like an at home gym with giant climbable pillars and hoops and obstacles, or just a house with a lot of land and forest she can run around in. She's also way a fan of hidden passages and secret hiding places, anything she can snoop and weasel around in. No scary basement tho

21. What’s their ideal date like?

-Carnival or theme park! Anything with lots of action and noise and prizes. Shed want to play all the games for hours straight and go on all the biggest rides.

36. Do they trust easily? What would you have to do to earn their trust?

-Yes she trusts easily :/ mayhaps too easily. Her way of thinking is innocent until proven guilty and even then, it takes a looooot to make her start to doubt someone because she wants to believe everyone has good intentions. To earn her trust, being nice to her and other ppl is the easiest way, but she's also prone to trust you if you seem secure somehow or just in charge like a position of authority.

50. Why would they be a good partner for a road trip?

-Snacks. On demand. She packs every snack and drink you could ever hope for and stashes up on blankets and pillows too. The type to wanna play my spy and car games and to sing along really loudly to music. WILL stick her head out the window sometimes. Will want to stop at every roadside attraction. Just for fun the reason she might be a bad roadtrip partner is that she talks a lot. And will be loudly singing and sticking her head out the window. And after a while the car will start to smell vaguely of ferret and she might shed.

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VALKYA

3. Do they get jealous easily? If so, what usually causes it?

-Shes really not a jealous person at all, especially not romantically. Shes pretty chill in general. Even so, some times she gets jealous of all the time other people get to spend with Naryu. If Valkya feels like someone else is being prioritized over her shes more likely to act out like a baby ggdghdf

7. What’s their “type”? What romantically attracts them to another person?

-Women who could kill her and men who are pathetic, but shes open to anything. Has a thing for nerds, goths, vampires, werewolves, short people, assassins, and most importantly people who are easy to fluster. She will bone anything that moves

10. What’s a simple thing that brings them joy?

-Finishing a good book, especially a series. When shes not in life threatening danger or fucked up out of her mind shes a pretty avid reader. She likes having the free time to sit around a fireplace and snuggle up with a book, though she'll deny it if caught and say she doesnt know how to read hgfdgsd.

41. What would they dress up as for Halloween?

-Demetria 💀 shed just steal her clothes and stretch TF out of em gsdgdfhsd. Or dress up as herself bcs who needs originality when your famous?

64. Describe what their social media would be like.

- Random memes from the last century all mixed up, millions of selfies and nudes out of nowhere. Drunk posting at 4 am and getting into fights w Dem over dumb shit, subtweeting everyone to start drama. Has thousands of followers and does giveaways of shit she finds lying around her house for no reason but shes bored

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MIKE

6. Do they prefer to have a big social circle, or a few close friends?

-Shed prefer to have a few close friends as long as they ride or die. Most likely die tho. Shes desperate for frienship shell stalk someone to get to know them really well and then delude herself into thinking theyr besties. Sometimes it doesnt go well but she still gets a meal out of it even if shes sad

7. What’s their “type”? What romantically attracts them to another person?

-Someone who looks like they're up for fun! Really into alt fashion and people who seem like they dont give a shit. Confidence, fighters, rebels, anyone she can party hard with. Likes people who are interesting and is especially interested in befriending other killers, they have so much to bond about!

14. Who do they go to in a crisis/emergency? Any particular reason why they choose that person?

-Probably Zeke tbh. Since she turned him hes like the only other vamp besides prim she knows and hes always pretty level headed. Probably goes to him for advice on how to make friends and hes like “maybe dont break into ppls houses and drain their victims out of nowhere :/” and shes like “that was ONE TIME and it worked!!”

25. What are their dreams like?

-All chaotic! Theres seldom ever a storyline or anything, just bright colors and random things happening and an overlying sense of panic or dread. Like those images you look at to understand what having a stroke is like, everything is off color and melting and shes usually running away from something. Typically nightmares but about nothing in particular, just disconnected sounds shapes and figures.

52. What topic should nobody bring up around them, lest the other person be subject to a massive ramble/rant?

-ANYTHING to do with twilight. She knows everything about it. Has seen and read is 12 times over and can quote it directly at any time, do not attempt to argue twilight with her. Diehard team Edward forever. If your tied up and somehow the topic of it comes up just pray she kills you soon bcs she will go on for hours and bring out her annotated copies and force you to go through them with her.

[july-19th-club]

untamed modern AU in which nhs anonymously starts a true crime podcast investigating the death...of his own brother...not that the listeners know that...and gets guests in to help with the investigation:

lan wangji (history adjunct professor, first chair violinist for local orchestra, perpetual grad student, knows a lot of things about a lot of things but is absolutely the worst person to have call in to your podcast...where people have to talk about things...out loud...)

wei wuxian (just got out of jail, spent the past however-many years doing time for something he KNOWS he didn’t do; this becomes a minor sideplot investigation into who set him up (it was jgy) and ties into the main mystery. great guest but has a tendency to dominate the conversation when excited)

lan xichen (engaged to the deceased, this episode is an exercise in deep, deep, painful discomfort and secondhand awkwardness because it comes at a point AFTER the audience realizes that their intrepid host is in fact the oft-mentioned but never-interviewed surviving nie brother but BEFORE any of the other characters know it. least of all lan xichen, who is barely keeping it together as The Host asks him gentle but pointed questions about where his current fiance was the night his ex died and is too generally upset to see through nhs’s admittedly excellent voice work)

jiang cheng (there’s actually no real reason why he’s been invited because he is not an expert on any of the major points of the investigation, but during the side sleuthing into wwx’s frame job he and The Host sort of find they get along so now nhs keeps coming up with excuses to have him call in and record a guest spot. jiang cheng still doesn't recognize the voice of his high school crush, although we get the impression that wwx figured it out a while ago and is keeping mum for his own inscrutable reasons)

luo “mianmian” qingyang (private investigator, takes herself seriously and haaaates it when you call her a fuzzy baby sheep but cannot escape her own adorable nickname. has a good few years of solidly closed cold cases under her belt and agrees to become a recurring guest consultant because she likes a challenge and because she used to know the victim back in her college sport days and they really got on. feels a sense of personal need for closure as well as a thirst for justice)

qin su (previous fiance of lan xichen’s current fiance - it’s a tangled mess of jin family politics and she agrees to help the investigation despite really just wanting to live a quiet life with her kid, rusong. as the investigation deepens and the true history of her past relationship comes to light, she goes through some very rough times and contemplates some dark shit - but with the support of the other characters, survives to see her manipulator get his just desserts).

and of course, your favorite - my favorite - everybody’s favorite! - wen qing, medical consultant extraordinaire. she’s worked as a surgeon and is currently a coroner, and is usually happy to pop in whenever she has a free minute to record a guest spot diving into whatever weird body horror stuff is happening in the research of the week, or answer The Host’s questions. she’s very popular with the audience for her no-nonsense approach to the whole armchair-investigation thing, her friendly manner, and her reams of cool, creepy anatomy facts, which she loves to share with a deadpan grossout joy . multiple listeners, mostly the sapphic ones, have written in offering their hands in marriage but she graciously declines them all, because she’s a professional

actually maybe the wwx plot takes place BEFORE the nmj plot only in that. nhs investigates a lot of things while putting his brother’s case on the back burner. he’s not ready to share his work until he’s made some headway, so he bulks up his rep as an armchair investigator in the meantime by, as The Host, working his way through a lot of untamedverse mysteries. so we get arcs like:

Yi City: The Making of a Ghost Town (local serial killer)

The Incredibly Weird Story of Modern Artifact Smuggling (featuring a possibly apocryphal snake turtle)

arc about the destruction of Yunmeng and a family in crisis that i’m too lazy to name right now

Burial: the Dismantling and Framing of a Controversial Hero

and finally, when he’s run out of other cases to procrastinate with, the big one:

Who Killed Nie Mingjue?

ex. of an excerpt bc im too lazy and busy to write this whole fic but its eating up my brainspace with how goddamn good it is:

"...but it would be wrong to say that this town has given up all its secrets. Why did Xue Yang never notice that Xiao Qing wasn't blind? Or did he know, and keep the information to himself? What happened to the original inhabitants of the house? The place was abandoned by the time the Xiaos got there, and for all the times the survivors have been interviewed, it’s clear that even Qing, the only local of the bunch, has never known why. So we can only guess. And perhaps most puzzlingly, to me at least: who does that body in the basement belong to? Buried without ceremony in a hollow of concrete, headless, unknown, unclaimed? One last victim of the Yi City Killer? The Yi City Killer almost never went to such lengths to hide bodies, and he wasn’t interested in dismembering or disfiguring his conquests. He was a spree slaughterer, and the body in the basement, while still unidentified, has certain markers that seem to suggest its fate was more personal in nature. Not to mention, if the head’s not with the body - does someone still have it? It goes without saying that the odds of two killers operating out of the same extremely specific location, totally unknown to each other, is extremely small. So was the body in the basement, after all, just one more casualty of an insatiable ghost town? Maybe. Or maybe there’s something else happening there. Something deeper. Something it’ll take a lot longer than five forty-minute episodes with ad breaks to figure out. Something... 

...that's a mystery for another day, because right now we're all out of time. Until that day comes, I'm your Host. And this is The Unsolved."

[bb-tings]

guns and roses.

rafe cameron

so it's my first fic on tumblr and i have a lot of hope for this but idk if it will be liked by all. im up for takong requests on anybody in the obx, cast or characters.

taglist: @ampanonyg @macchiatohno @jjsmentalpolaroids @stargazingstarkey @letsgofullkook @jjmbanks @maybanksbaby

BANG

She wished there would have been a warning. Any words that would have prepared her mind and body, as they now shook with uncertainty and fear. People always talked about how loud a gunshot was. Saying that when the trigger was pulled, whether you’ve heard it or not, nothing inside you would doubt what it was. You would know. However, as she stood shaking on the airstrip with her boyfriend, his family and a boy she hadn’t talked to in months, she wished she would have never known what that noise was or where it came from. Within seconds, her entire world had been snatched out from her hold, and she couldn’t be blamed for wanting it back in her arms. Safe and sound, instead of high out of his mind holding a murder weapon.

When y/n walked around the butt of the plane she didn’t know what to expect. She was hoping that maybe it was just a dream. That maybe for a fleeting moment she blinked herself into a different universe. She knew Rafe had issues, knew that he needed help but she liked to believe that he was a good person with a good heart. 

             But all those thoughts disappeared as y/n walked around the plane to see Sheriff Peterkin lying in a puddle of her own blood, simultaneously drenching her respected uniform in the same red substance. John B was kneeling over her with his lucky bandana in his hands over her wound, repeating something under his breath.

    As y/n came further around the plane she began to become noticeable, everyone seeing her but not paying much attention due to the crisis in front of them. Sarah looked up at her brother’s girlfriend, looking just as pale and frightened as the rest of them, with tears in her eyes too. When Rafe picked up on Sarah’s slight movement in her line of sight, he turned his head , being met with the one he loved the most. He was about to say something but he heard the shaking words leave the wounded woman on the concrete and he whipped back towards them and raised the gun just as he saw the Routledge boy reaching for her radio. 

“Hey, Hey,” Ward called out to his eldest child, “Rafe, No! Rafe!”

          Rafe walked closer to the young boy, making sure the barrel of the gun was in front of John’s face. “Don’t try it asshole.”

“Rafe st- John B, give me the radio.” The shaggy haired boy looked between the cameron men and the life hanging in the balance on the ground. “No.”

“Son! Just give me the damn radio,” Ward argued, too calmly. 

    Y/n started to go around the group, slowly realizing who was taking who’s side in the moment. She walked around Ward, getting closer to Sarah and John B’s van, but turned her back towards the girl in order to keep her eyes on the incident, not wanting to be the next victim. By anyone’s hands. When she reached Sarah, who was kneeling over her feet holding her stomach, she slowly put her hands on the girl’s back and brought the blonde to face her. As soon as Sarah felt the hands, she immediately crashed into them. She knew who it was. She had confided in y/n for many different reasons, some things she probably should have used her own sister for, but others that she felt Wheezie was too young to understand. Y/n viewed Sarah as her own sister. Someone that she felt she had to protect and promised to still protect even if things between her and Rafe didn’t work out. She knew that Sarah didn’t have an older female to talk to. Sarah despised her Rose as a stepmom and she knew that even though she loved the raven curly haired girl, Wheezie had a blabber mouth. 

            Y/n wrapped her arms around Sarah’s shoulders as her waist was squeezed, and she placed her hand on her head, kissing the top of it in the process. 

“Rafe. Rafe, calm down. Put the gun down, Rafe, put the gun down. He can’t do anything.” 

           Ward tried to calm his hot head son as he showed him the radio in his hand. 

“He can’t do anything. See, it’s ok. It’s ok, I got you, I got you.” 

    Y/n was sure that was the first time she had ever heard Ward comfort her boyfriend in all 3 years they had been together. She knew that Rafe and his dad had a rocky relationship, for she was always picking up the pieces that Ward had left shattered on the floor of his house. She was brought out of the thought as Sarah started to move in her arms. The younger Cameron, had turned around and was looking at the guy she loved and the people she once called family.  The wounded sheriff was looking at John B with wide eyes and was using the little breath she had left and was telling him to run. To save himself before it was too late. John B said one more apology while standing up, finally letting go of his once savior’s hand. He started to back up.

“Where are you goin’? Huh?” Rafe yelled. 

           As John’s back came in contact with Sarah she pushed him gently to her right, between the nose of the plane and his van. “Run,” the young girl stated. 

Rafe charged towards the pogue, as his dad, Sarah and Y/n leaped forward to fight him off. 

“No!” Sarah yelled. “No!”

Y/n lost all thought as she jumped in front of Rafe as he got loose from Ward and Sarah’s hold on him. She stuck her head in his neck and pushed with her hands on his chest with all her might, but the 19 year old didn’t budge. When Rafe pulled the trigger aiming at the runaway teen, she started to sob and push harder. 

“RAFE PLEASE,” the young girl cried. “Just stop!”

Rafe pushed the crying girl out of his way, but was then met with his father’s arms going around him from behind. “Rafe! No, please!”

    Y/n looked away from the two not being able to watch Rafe self destruct anymore and watched as Sarah knelt down next to the older woman as she held onto her life. Y/n joined her on the other side of the dying woman. “I’m so sorry.

Y/n thought her head was spinning. She didn’t know up from down. How did she get here? How did she get from being with her sweet loving boyfriend to this moment where she was a witness to a crime? A murder, commited by Rafe. A boy that she thought she knew everything about and cared for so much. But now as she watched him drag his little sister to the truck she didn’t recognize not one hair on his head, This wasn’t the rafe that she knew and loved. Or maybe this was him. Maybe this was the new Rafe that couldn’t go a day without snorting cocaine up his nose. Maybe she didn’t know Rafe anymore, maybe she had finally lost him.

    Y/n was pulled away from her thoughts by someone’s arms on her shoulder. She turned her head to meet Ward’s glare. Y/n never liked the man, but now as he was trying to cover up his son’s wrong doings she wished she never even stepped foot in his house. 

“GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF ME WARD!” She spat. “I can walk by myself.” Y/N started walking to the truck watching as her boyfriend, high out of his mind and losing it faster than anyone could expect, ran to the driver’s side and jumped in. 

She made eye contact with Sarah through the glass window and gave her a small nod, trying to tell the young blonde that everything was going to be ok. She wasn’t sure if she needed to convince the 16 year old or herself more but she figured they could both use the reassurance. She slowly climbed into the backseat and thought back to all the memories that her and Rafe had made in that truck. From their first kiss in the front seats to their third or fourth time in the backseat. She remembered when he surprised her with a picnic date on the bed of the truck. He had set up a mattress and blankets in the bed of the truck and had a cooler full of drinks, some more legal than others. He had parked the truck in a big field in front of two trees, tied a white sheet between them and brought a mini projector. They watched all types of movies from Disney to Nicholas sparks. It was her favorite memory of them together. But as she watched Rafe drive form the backseat, shaking and glancing around nervously, she wasn’t sure she ever wanted to make another memory with him again. She didn’t recognize him, she didn’t understand what had happened within a few months time, but she knew that she had witnessed the boy she once loved turn into something that she wasn’t sure she could even look at, let alone kiss again. The thought made the girl sick to her stomach. 

“Rafe, I’m gonna be sick.”

          The boy looked back at his girlfriend as he was slowly coming down from his high. He felt bad for her, but didn’t want to pull over scared that Sarah would try to escape again.

“You’re fine, Y/n, ok? Just hang on until we get to the house, ok baby?” He tried to reach back and grab the girls hand but when she felt him touching her she swatted it. 

“Rafe pull over.”

He looked at her through the mirror, glancing back and forth between the gravel and his girlfriend in the backseat. He was starting to get agitated with her. “Y/n I’m not fucking pulling over right now. You can wait until we get to the ho-” 

“RAFE! I swear to god if you don’t fucking pull this vehicle over right now, I’m going to puke all over your console. Now pull the fuck over and let me out of this GODDAMN truck.” Rafe quickly swerved off the road and put the black truck in park.

    Lighting fast, y/n opened the door and jumped out before emptying her stomach in the grass. As she stood there trying to get rid of everything inside of her, including the mental images she probably won’t ever forget, she started to silently pray. Pray for a new day, a new life or a different life. But as time started to come back to her and she heard cars passing on the main road, she realised all she really wanted was a couple of seconds. A couple seconds to herself where she could divide her thoughts from reality and could figure out what she just witnessed. So instead she prayed for more time. 

[himemoonpie]

So I need to get this out of my heart.

Im from Puerto Rico. From this past week there was a leak called the “telegramgate” or the “rickyrenuncia” where there was proof of the goverment huge corruption. This is one of the most horrible scandals for Puerto Rico history. And I shit you not with this.

The the governor Ricardo Rossello, had a Telegram group with his squad, who where all goverment workers. Like there was the State secretary, etc... this chat was used to give orders to persecute political oppositors (like the spouse of an representative member of the independence movement, who they want to fire for her job because she has a good salary and that job should be for one of their men) or to just give people “a warning” for not mess with them.

If this isn’t bad enough, this people where making misogynist, sexist, homophobic and rude comments on people. This are some examples:

1. Ricky Martin: “he is gay because he is misogynist and there isn’t a women that he can find satisfying like men”

2. Zugey Lamela (a journalist): “i would fuck her on doggystyle until i break her ass”

3. Melissa Mark Viverito: “we need to take this whore down”

4. Jennifer Gonzalez (PR’s commissioner residence on DC): “Jennifer can suck my dick”

5. Attorney Lopez Mulero (An a Puertorrican top attorney on criminal affairs that is too a very vocal lesbian and lgbt member): “this “lady”” implying she isn’t a lady because she is lesbian.

6. Senator Evelyn Vazquez: “this whore used to dance on a bar”

7. Carmen Yulin (San Juan’s mayor) “this crazy bitch”

8. Senator Eduardo Bhatia: “he is a faggot”. “He likes dick”

9. Senator Anibal José: “la josie” the “la” is used as a pejorative comment.

There are 886 pages on PdF from the telegram conversation. They even refered to the Miss Universe event as “soft porn”.

The comments aren’t just the horrible thing here. The most disgusting comments came when they laughed about the thousands of deaths from hurricane Maria. The crisis from the hurricane, that left 4 thousands of death toll, was so big that there wasn’t enough employees on Forensic Institute. There were hundreds of bodies rotting in wagons, on the floors, etc... because there wasn’t space on the refrigerators. You could listen nd to mothers, fathers, spouses, etc crying on radio and media to plead for the bodies of their beloved ones. The pestilence from the death was so bad that even houses on the others streets surroundings the Forensic Institute where asking for help. In the other hand, the thousands of rape kits where left there, without examination or justice for all the victims of rape.

The cherry on the top of all this scandal is that we finally know that this corrupt goverment have disappeared 350 millions of dollars from unidosxPuertoRico and FEMA for helping citizens. They used the office of the First Lady (who is right now in France with her children) and with the help of the governor best buddy (Elias Sanchez who took an airplane and escaped from the island and nobody knows where he is) they robbed us the money that was going to save thousands and help to other half million to recuperate for their losses.

This is a monumental crisis. This monsters not only robbed us, they killed us. They took everything for us and then they laught about it. The media found in 2018 wagons with thousands of bottle water, food, medications, etc from others countries that was send for helping those in need. And you know what? All of it was rotten and left in an abandoned place. We are talking of the food and water that the people on Utuado and Jayuya (country cities) screamed for it. This poor people couldn’t get out of their cities and the military’s helicopters recorded their messages on the street “SOS we don’t have food or water”. That was their food. Their water. And our governor left it to rott.

At this moments the governor is at Santa Catalina, La Fortaleza. He is locked there. There are thousands of people screaming for his resignation. All of the mayors from Puerto Rico have asked him to resign. He has say over and over and over that he isn’t going to do it.

This last week there were massive federal arrest for corruption. We don’t know if there is going to be more. The mainland media has forgotten Puerto Rico, as always does. We are american. Puerto Rico is a territory and we are american. Don’t forget about us. This needs to be know in every single part of USA!

[succubused]

this petition my friend sent me this morning only needs 8k more signatures. she doesnt have tumblr anymore so im sharing it here for her. 

from the Change.org page:

My name is Travis Washington. I will be graduating with an M. A, degree in Higher Education and Administration from Southern Illinois University Carbondale in May 2019. I have been politically involved, from registering people to vote, to work in the Springfield Capitol (as an Alexander Lane Fellow, January to May 2017).

We know how so many people of cultural minorities are in constant fear of leaving their household. This fear in our lives far too often comes from individuals working in public safety who harm people. Every single week we hear about another unarmed innocent vulnerable human being shot by the police. This has increased the trauma and fear that has made people of color scared to leave their homes.

We need legislation now that prohibits police officers from shooting unarmed citizens. If there isn’t a weapon found after someone has been shot (therefore, unarmed) by a police officer, then I propose that the officer should receive a mandatory 15-year prison sentence.

We have seen over and over police officers get off, even with videotape footage of citizens having been shot by police officers. This is a new form of lynching. I am pleading with you to propose a bill that protects people who have every right to feel threatened by law enforcement. We always say we need more training for those involved in public safety, and there are increasing policies and laws that mandate that police officers have “body cameras” on them. Those measures do not address the whole problem, not when the individual officers who shoot unarmed victims aren’t punished.

Senator, we are in a crisis where relationships between people of color and police officers are deteriorating, beyond the critical level. In order to build any sort of positive relationships again, we need laws to keep a balance in the lives of all the public. I might even suggest this as a title for this proposed legislation: the Hands UP ACT.

I will be emailing this to the all of your colleagues in the U. S. Senate, members of Congress, State Governors; Democracy Now, the Huffington Post, ThinkProgress; and to other appropriate organizations across the country. Once this petition receives enough attention. My goal to speak before the House of Representatives or United Nations during a committee hearing to bring attention to this policy.

Thank You !!

[missmentelle]

i want to write a character who just left a toxic relationship, but the character depends on the toxic partner, because they are having trouble finding a job. when character leaves the toxic relationship, they are left with basically nothing and are kicked out of the only home they had. however i have never experienced something like this(fortunately) and im not sure what would and could happen. could you help me? (fyi later on the character does actually get help, in the end everything is ok)

Unfortunately, I do have a lot of experience with this kind of situation. I have never personally had to go through something like this, but in working with the homeless and in intimate partner violence crisis centers, I have met many, many people who’ve been in this exact situation. These stories are very individual and complex, but typically, if you have left a toxic relationship and lost your home because of it, there are a couple of places you end up from there:

If you have family and friends nearby, that’s probably the first place you’re going to land. You might end up sleeping on a couch, in a guestroom, or back in your old childhood bedroom after leaving an abusive relationship. That’s not an easy or comfortable situation to be in, however - it can be very, very difficult to admit to your loved ones that you’re in this situation and need their help, even if they have never been anything but loving and supportive towards you. Most people have some degree of pride in being able to take care of themselves, and having to admit to your friend that you were abused for years and you need to crash on their couch can be absolutely humiliating. Abusers also tend to isolate their victims and actively try to sabotage their social connections, so turning to friends and family after escaping often involves that you break months or years of silence to reach out to someone that you are no longer certain you can count on, and then immediately confessing some of your darkest secrets and asking for help. If your abuser has moved you far away from family and friends, and cut you off financially (another common tactic), you’ll also probably need to ask someone to send you some money for a bus/train/plane ticket home. The shame of having to reach out to family and friends can be so overpowering that many survivors will allow themselves to become homeless rather than reaching out - the greater the perceived obstacles in place (distance from family, closeness of relationship, time since last contact, whether or not the family already suspect abuse, how much of a burden they think they will be on their family), in my experience, the less likely they are to actually reach out. 

If you don’t have friends or family to turn to (or if you are not emotionally able to reach out, or if your friends/family are not in a position to help you), you can also end up in a domestic violence shelter. These vary wildly from shelter to shelter, but typically you will go in, speak to an intake worker, and be assigned to a shared room with several other women (these shelters are almost exclusively female-only, or female-and-child-only). The shelter will also typically provide the bare-bones basics that you need if you had to flee with nothing - they’ll give you basic toiletries, clean underwear, socks, etc. Your time at a domestic violence shelter is typically limited; they are somewhere to land while you get back on your feet, but they are not intended to be a long-term solution. Many shelters here in NYC do not have maximum stay limits, simply because this is such a difficult place to get housing, but I have worked with shelters in other cities that had 60-120 day limits, with some ability to get an extension if you needed in. In that time, though, you’ll generally be working with counsellors at the shelter to try to get your life together - they’ll try to help you with your resume, look into going back to school if you need to, help you look for work, help you look for employment, assist you with any court case you may be dealing with, etc. Again, though, this can take an enormous emotional toll. You’ve just been through a horrific experience, and instead of taking time to recover, you are now being rushed into achieving a level of independence that you might never have experienced before, with the knowledge that there is a ticking clock over your head and you don’t know what will happen when it runs out. You’re also trying to deal with the loss of privacy that comes from sharing your living space, and from having to tell your story to shelter staff before you’re totally ready to do so. Domestic violence shelters do amazing work, but being there is not easy. 

Many domestic violence survivors end up homeless. Many people who leave abusive relationships do not immediately have the life, job or emotional skills necessary to immediately transition to independent living. Abusers like to make their victims dependent on them, to discourage them from leaving - many people living in abusive relationships are prevented from completing their educations, furthering their careers, managing money, properly treating mental health or medical conditions, or fostering a strong social support network. As a result, many people struggle immensely after leaving a relationship, and may experience short-term or long-term homelessness as a result. This kind of thing doesn’t discriminate - in my career, I’ve met women with multiple graduate degrees who ended up in long-term homeless shelters after leaving abusive relationships. It’s hard. There is a strong, documented link between domestic violence and homelessness, and we don’t yet have the kinds of resources we need to break this connection. 

You’re almost definitely going to end up in an ugly legal battle. In many jurisdictions, it’s not really legal to kick your spouse out of the house and make them homeless and destitute - but the battle to get alimony or marital assets from your ex-spouse can be long and ugly. Abusers typically lash out when their victim escapes them, and one of the ways that they can try to do that is by attempting to make the divorce as messy, vicious and drawn-out as they possibly can. A woman who has left an abuser she is legally married to will face a long battle to divorce her spouse and get any kind of financial recourse. Abusers can generally afford much nicer lawyers than their victims can, and can afford to let the case drag on and rack up legal fees. There are pro-bono or low-cost legal resources out there for survivors, but the court case can take an enormous emotional toll all the same. 

Returning to the job market is incredibly difficult for most survivors. Again, abusers like their victims to be dependent on them - they will go out of their way to discourage you from fostering your independence. That often means that they will discourage or prevent you from finishing school, having a serious career, hanging on to your own money, or developing professional contacts. That can take many forms - they might move you away from a city where you have a career, tell you that you can’t afford school, ensure that you are constantly pregnant/parenting, constantly accuse you of cheating with coworkers, whine about you “neglecting” them until you agree to quit your job, etc. And all of this can be very hard to overcome. Having a large gap in your work history because your partner made you stay home for several years can make it hard to find work, and disclosing that this gap is due to domestic violence can hurt your chances of landing the job. Plus, many survivors come out of these relationships with their confidence absolutely shattered, which makes it difficult to think that you’re even worthy of applying on jobs that you are qualified for. 

Domestic violence (and life after domestic violence) is definitely a topic that could stand to get more coverage in fiction and the arts. When you are basing a story around domestic violence, though, I think there are three things that you really need to keep in mind:

What is my purpose in telling this story? What message am I trying to convey? Writing about domestic violence should not be done simply because it’s a shocking topic, or because it’s an instant tear-jerker - there should be some purpose for basing a story around it. What are you trying to say about the topic? What are readers supposed to take away from the story?

Talk to real survivors about their experiences, or at least do some research by looking at narratives from people who have personally experienced this. There is no end to the memoirs/stories/films/shows written about this topic by people who have actually been there. See what they have to say about it. What do different people’s stories have in common? What things set them apart? Ideally, you should try to have someone with personal experience read over your story when it’s finished, to see if anything comes across as hollow or unrealistic. And if you are basing your research heavily on a survivor creator’s work, try to buy their book/kick in a few dollars to their ko-fi or Patreon if you can. 

Consider what a “happy ending” looks like in this situation. The hard reality of the situation is that very few people get to have that victorious ending where they become more powerful and successful than their ex and get to destroy their abuser and laugh in their face. For many people, a “happy ending” is a quiet, humble life where they are no longer actively haunted by the abuse, and where they are at peace with the fact that their abuser faced no real consequences for their actions - and even this happy ending can take years to achieve. Having someone bounce back from this kind of situation quickly in a story can come across as flippant, and as glossing over the hard realities of the situation. 

Best of luck to you!Miss Mentelle

[express-onceself]

With the coronavirus and the quarantines happening, I’m just thinking about the children that are stuck in a toxic home environment. I just started thinking of them because of my family; my dad can’t go to work my mom is a homemaker, my sister’s and toddler brother schools closed, and me I still get to go to work. Everyone is so stressed out and everything just ticks them off specially my parents, this is the first day we’re all under the same roof the entire day and things aren’t pretty. They don’t want my brother playing with his toys they don’t want to give him the time they are mad at my sister for doing her online classes, and my parents are bitter with one another. My mom threatened my 3 year old brother with bashing his head into the wall if he wouldn’t stop playing to go brush his teeth. For fucksakes hes 3 let him play let him run around the house. They are verbally abusive to my sister. I had to step in to stop them to calmed them down and they told me to shut up that I was the last person they wanted to hear from, and I should not be telling them how to treat us.

Im 25 my sister is 18 we haven’t left home because of our little brother we want to protect him but we don’t want to call the police on them. Now think of all the children stuck in a much worse situation than this one. Children that without provoking their parents are getting beaten every second every minute of the day. Is so much worse for those kids if they don’t have someone to protect them from their abusers, the horrors that they are going through.

So while everyone is out there hoarding toilet paper and fighting in the stores, while the people my age or younger are going out and still partying while being told not to, and them saying is no big deal-which it is a big deal. Just think of those children not wanting to be in in their own homes,being abuse. Please just think of them. They are silent victims in this time of crisis.