#im an honors student

[boxroepe]

"college" "career" "responsibilities" i have no need for these things. im going to stand outside and rip leaves off of trees and shove them in my mouth

[karmicpunishment]

the conflict in me between wanting the funny option for ace's dream (ace as the dormhead) vs the emotional option (ace dreaming about the prefect staying in twisted wonderland)

[sadpoeticandgay]

learning welsh is so funny bc it’s like no, i don’t take it in school, no, i’m not welsh, no, i’ll never use it but i love it so much it’s my little celtic nightmare of a language

(and for the love of god, it’s not all vowels)

[cyellolemon]

Some drawings with my wizard ocs!!

1st pic: Romeo (he/him) and Myel (he/she) they're bff!! :3 they really like each other

2nd pic: Stellan (he/him) and an oc i never posted before, she's Odette (she/her) she's the daugther of the magic academy director and this one wanted Stellan to marry her, he didn't really have the choice, so they're now fiancés, she's more like a little sister to him

3rd pic: Myel and Stellan! being normal about her

[cerealmonster15]

ummm goober time sketchy doodle time w/heartslabyul.......... adeuce + lil babby crushies...

i think adeuce would enter that "no homo but tbh a lil homo" era of bestieship and be in mega denial before they realize their own feelings

also not necessarily ship exactly, but like i could see adeuce havin lil tiny crushes on treycay when they first enter the school fjdkshg like caters vibe matches ace + trey is that responsible upperclassman lookin after the freshies and i think juice would admire him [he admires like most of the older students tho it's soooo cute]

and then same reasoning for deuce w/riddle... riddle being sweet to deuce w/ his math struggles in deuces dorm story my beloved... + ace has that one thing he says about riddle in his ghost bride event card story where he was like "yeah he looked so cool bursting into the room i wanna work hard and be cool like him" and tbh sounded like a boycrush in denial.

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

okay, fuck it. let's talk about remorse. more specifically, the lack of it

there was a post going around a while ago that claimed that izaya couldn't possibly have aspd, because he feels remorse, and its simply so subtle that it's hard to pick up on, and he simply hides it to maintain his image. given that this post is a jab at me and my work, i feel no guilt nor will feel remorse over jabbing right back.

(especially since, if you pay attention to the wording of the post and OP themselves, it's clear that they had a... certain other neurodiverse headcanon for izaya, and was for some reason mad at me for having a different one)

(but i digress)

let's talk remorse.

first of all, the "lack of remorse" criterion isn't, as some might be tempted to think, the most important "hallmark" symptom of aspd. let's break down how disorders are diagnosed!

in the DSM, disorder symptoms are classed into criteria. these criteria are sometimes grouped together. here's the criteria list for ASPD in the dsm-5-tr, the most current version;

under group A, we have the standard "this is what the disorder is like, and these are the symptoms of it. you need X amount to have this disorder." the criteria listed in groups B, C, and D are on their own because they are required for diagnosis. if the lack of remorse criterion was truly SO important that it was the hallmark of the disorder, the one symptom that sets it apart from all cluster B disorders, then it would be in its own group like those 3 criterion! but it's not, because while it's the symptom most people associate with aspd, it's not the hallmark of the disorder, nor is it explicitly required for diagnosis.

in fact, the main Thing about aspd is, uh, right there actually- a pervasive pattern of disregard for the rights of others. in layman's terms, aspd is categorized by a consistent behavior pattern of treating other peoples' boundaries, wants, needs, and human rights, as trivial. this overall behavior pattern is then identified by specific actions or feelings the patient has- hence the criteria.

i could end this post here, honestly- who cares if izaya does or doesn't feel remorse? it's not needed for diagnosis, and it's izaya's whole thing to violate the rights of others- he consistently treats people as his playthings, wether or not they want him to (usually not!) he disregards others' feelings (the suicidal girls come to mind wrt this) and is incredibly reckless with both his life and the lives of others. it's kind of a done deal!

but i won't because i have more to say!

so. izaya. remorse. he feels it, but keeps it hidden. he represses it. and honestly, he always has some justification or another for whatevet it is he's doing. his targets had it coming because they're monsters. or stupid and cowardly. or had it coming. or it doesn't matter because he's a god amongst men. BUT- he does feel remorse! ASPD cured!!!!!!!!!!!!

guys i hate to tell you this, but i've felt remorse before. sparingly, but i have. i am a Person With ASPD from Real Life, i've been diagnosed professionally and even had multiple second opinions check and re-check, to the point that it became a running gag. i, without a shadow of a doubt, have antisocial personality disorder. And I Have Felt Remorse.

(my verdict is it sucks and is terrible and i have no idea how you people do it. yall need like, medals or something)

because, as you might have noticed... a lack of feeling remorse isn't actually the only thing listed. now, a lot of websites don't actually list the second half of the criterion, they just say "lack of remorse" with no elaboration. it's hard to find a website with the proper informatiom on it, especially if you haven't read the dsm to see the full criteria list, so you don't know what you're looking for. truly, i don't blame laypeople for not knowing this- it's not easy to find short of going to the source itself

but if you're writing long posts filled with "facts" about a disorder that you do not have, you better make damn sure your facts are right lest you spread misinformation.

(hell, i HAVE the damn thing and i make sure i'm as accurate as possible, because i acknowledge that Having The Disorder isn't a ticket to immidiate expertise. but imo it's especially egrigious when you don't have it)

but, the criterion itself is defined as "being indifferent to or rationalizing" harmful actions. Or Rationalizing. you can feel remorse as much as you want, but if you stomp it down with justifications about how you were right, it still counts!

and finally, the name of the game with diagnosis of any disorder is consistency. if someone can make their abuser cry because of them and feel no remorse, that's not aspd. that's just a special case. if someone can make anybody cry because of them and feel no remorse, that's aspd.

similarly, if someone can make most people cry because of them and feel no remorse, with one- or maybe two- exceptions, that's... still aspd. because the behavior expressed most consistently is a lack of remorse. one or two exceptions to the rule don't suddenly make you not have aspd, especially if you have multiple other symptoms. (in fact, in some aspd circles people do talk about having "exceptions," kind of like the aspd version of a pwBPD's favorite person. pwaspd feeling remorse or otherwise not meeting criteria in incredibly specific circumstances is in fact a documented phenominon. once again, this happened to me and i've been diagnosed multiple times over. were all those doctors wrong, or does aspd just not work like you thought it did?)

izaya consistently represses most of his more vunerable feelings. that's another one of his main things. if remorse is included in this, which it would be given the pattern, then izaya most consistently does not feel (or otherwise accept) remorse. a few slips of the mask here and there, where he can't stomp it down or ignore it, don't change that the most consistent behavior from him is a lack of remorse. in fact, him feeling remorse here and there makes the portrayal of aspd more realistic, imo-

people with aspd are still people at the end of the day, and aspd is just another mental illness. people are varied, mental illnesses present differently in everyone, and people have good days and bad days where symptoms are more or less pronounced. any symptom isn't going to be set in stone in severity or even presence in someone's life- severity of disorder changes with age, someone's circumstances, or even day-to-day, especially with cluster B disorders, where the people who have it are defined as being "dramatic, emotional, or erratic" (pg 735)

things change. people change. mental illness isn't as simple as people think, and aspd isn't as different from other illnesses as you'd think. people with it- including izaya- will have their good days and their bad days and their rare moments where something breaks through the clouds and for one moment, you feel normal, however distressing the feeling may be

that's not proof that the illness was never there. that's just life with it!

[6okuto]

guess who got an email + letter telling her 2 consider a BA Honors in sociology because of her high gpa and and outstanding work in soc courses

[autisticangus]

guys... im graduating in like 3 weeks... i wanna decorate my cap with a TAZ quote and ive always loved the "youre going to be amazing" decorated caps evennif its a lil cliche at this point lol but like. any one got other potential quotes? doesnt have to be balance obvs cuz i have Taste

[saberdramon]

god i love what a little freak kakyoin is. his stand is made of tendrils that hate open areas and like to possess people and i bet he learned how to puppeteer just because of that. im not going to get over him having a Handwriting for Carving Letters With A Knife or how he was 100% down to commit infanticide because of anxiety and bad vibes, or how he can stop jotaro kujo from punching a guy despite jotaro being like a head taller than him with joestar-physique. yellow temperance's act of him was off the shits but close enough to the real thing that jotaro didn't see through it immediately and you know what that fucks. this guy sunbathes in a gakuran and doesn't give a fuck about what you think about it, he's a gamer in the 80s and only plays racing games on the famicon. he's fully willing to use his stand's abilities to fuck with both his enemies and his friends, and his idea of humor is pretending to get fatally injured before going SIKE LMAO. his confidence in his abilities as a stand user let him take a stance against a demigod vampire without flinching once. this teen is so full of flavor under the surface it's a delight honestly

[periipheral]

me rn bc life actually did end when i was 18 and didnt go to a 4yr school

[savemygrades]

Today:

Had a 2 hour osce teaching class

Went home for the week

Practiced cvs examinations on my dad and brother

Went over some endocrinology

My anatomy exam in a week, osce exam in two weeks time.

Slowly but surely making some progress

[skylilac]

I GOT A 105 ON MY WHAP TEST 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[cozybearz]

i feel like ive been seeing a lot of posts focused around US military members recently and honestly i feel hypocritical if i rb them without comment knowing im in a military family, but also i dont wanna be that person bringing their personal guilt in the tags of posts that arent about them like that bc its not the place for it so mostly i just dont

ik ive talked about it on here before so its kind of just the same shit but its just like. man…growing up my perspective was more skewed by the fact that a lot of the social environments i was in were other military families, but the older and more knowledgable i get the worse the conflicted feelings get of just “i love this person as a family member but my hate for the line of work they’ve put themselves in gets stronger constantly and i dont know how i’ll ever express it to them”

[emmebearpaw]

i'm going to explode im going to explode im going to explode

[mainfaggot]

conventionally pretty people have self esteem issues bc they think people only love them for being cookie cutter pretty and that really sucks. it does. but also i wish i had that problem haha❤️

[pekodayz]

and i lie mentally to make myself feel better but that just bites me in the ass oughhh