#im driving myself mad

[xx-poetry-witch-xx]

i think my problem with not getting therapy is that shit only gets bad when im alone because that’s the only time i let myself feel things because i hate expressing symptoms in front of people so like during the day when i should like actually be reaching out to people i convince myself that im fine because if i wasn’t it wouldn’t matter whether or not people were around i would be experiencing symptoms all the time which i do i do experience those symptoms they’re just not visible which means they’re not bad enough therefore i do not deserve help until they are which happens when im alone at night and the cycle continues and i think thats my problem but i dont know how to break it because theres another little part of my brain that forgets to do anything and everything productive like i havent done like any actual homework in weeks and my grades are like falling dude im praying i do well enough on these midterms just to fucking pass im so fucking stressed out but im too worked up to try and actively change anything because at this point i am just trying to make it day to day and even hour to hour is a struggle so how the fuck am i supposed to make changes and better myself when i am barely even making it to the next fucking hour like what am i even supposed to do at this point anyway this is just a rant please dont send me messages that are like do this or do this i fucking know and thats also part of my problem is that im overly analytical and do a lot of reasearch so i can help myself but when things are still bad because emotions dont follow logic and im going to feel things anyway i dont know how to handle it so i just im fine okay im fine i just need to get through these next two weeks and go the fuck home

[1kari]

please help me by reblogging ‼️

hello im dylan. i make what money i can through doordashing but that barely covers even half of my bills and nowhere else will hire me rn (slow season in a tourist town). my car payment and car insurance are both scheduled to come out of my bank acct today and i barely have enough to cover the $135 in my checking account leaving me to have to use my credit card for my $150 car insurance. i also really need to buy groceries and get gas which i desperately need to keep working.

i currently am over $1000 in debt on my credit card and i really can’t afford to keep piling up the bills on it. the monthly fee ($99) for my HRT service just came out as well so i really need at least $400.

$155 (insurance) + $99 (hrt) + $60 (gas) + $100 (groceries) to at least get my credit card back down to only owing $1000. ideally i want to pay that all off but i know there’s no way i’m crowdfunding 1400. thank you guys this isnt terribly urgent but the sooner i can pay it off the better. ❤️

$60 / $400

[st4rstudent]

Monitoring

[the-eclectic-wonderer]

Oh wow. Today's entry is something else. I remembered the scene with the three vampire women was memorable, but the sheer tension of it, the way Jonathan describes being torn between desire and terror. An agony of delightful anticipation. No wonder people have been thirsting after vampires for decades, holy shit.

[youaremysunshine-court]

anyone else think it's strange that these are the 2 eps from the same date in tma?? and that they both talk about a pit?

[wmnylander]

nhl all-star feat. auston matthews

[skunkes]

Need to get to the point where i can drive by myself, FAST!!!! NEOWWWWW

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

[jrueships]

ill be having such a good time then Boom, someone says something

[l3ominor]

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[marklikely]

i know a lot of trans women talk about mourning not growing up a girl and i always thought i didnt experience any equivalent to that (probably for many reasons) but the last couple weeks i realised i think i do and its specifically about not growing up a gay man.

[watatsumiis]

i am NOT americanising my modern au fics. btw.

[professorabacus]

so mad rn

[dandyshucks]

need Guz to hug me tightly for like an hour solid oh my god dhdjdkl I went driving for the first time in over a year and I chewed my lip raw 😭😭

I'm starting to look like a caricature of Anxiety with all these physical symptoms and signs LMAO

[marsixm]

for once in my god damn life im invited out by my friends to do something that i dont have to initiate or invite myself to, and bc ive had a headache all day and havent been feeling good i lost track of time and was late and they fucking wont let me in or let me buy a ticket. apparently they have a “no distractions” cut off policy. place is one of those fucking places that serves food during the movie like be SO serious right now

[six-of-ravens]

today has been VERY ANNOYING!!