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puppyeared · 9 months

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#UAUHGG im havung oc thoughts. plaguing myBRAIN. i can feel my heartrate spiking holy shit #ok so. i rly wanna touch up presto and shuffles story without scaring myself out of it by overthinking it. esp the implications of #them having animal features and what they would eat. as well as worldbuilding character dynamics setting background characters ugghh.#constantly have to tell myself its just for fun. basically theyre rival magicians who keep their identities secret and fuck it up in #the funniest way possible LMAO. they rent the same apartment and the landlady accidentally gives it to both of them without them knowing #so they end up walking in on each other out of costume and have this weird tension around not revealing each others identities despite thei #borderline malicious rivalry. blackmail may or may not be involved i havent decided yet #they DO consider backing out of tenancy but they decide not to so they can make sure they dont reveal each others identities #thats the idea but its really abstract bc i dont have a direction or writing in mind. they just rattle in my head like spare change #other stuff i have rn is. they both consider each other a copycat and they have the same skill level of magic #but they have different styles and techniques theyre just too focused on outperforming each other to notice #presto likes to make people laugh so they probably include gags and impossible feats. shuffle is more elegant and focuses on #smooth movements and dangerous stunts. i want to make that reflect in their costumes but its hard bc stage magician costumes tend to stick #to suits and capes.. so idk. then maybe side characters like the landlady and other tenants but i havent given em much thought orz #i really should practice with concepts because i have a bad habit of making everything similar to the first try so its frustrating #and i suck at writing characters. but im doing this for fun so im trying not to get hung up on whether its generic or not #yapping #stares at the floor. maybe i should make a carrd for my ocs #oc talk #presto #shuffle

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binders-and-beanies · 1 year

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Not to make it deep bc I do love having my own music taste but like. Listening to music that most people don’t like means you have to listen to music you don’t like during sexual/romantic moments, while you’re on adventures, while you work and study, any time you’re in public. Your happiest times are narrated by something that doesn’t feel like it’s for you and your most stressful times are almost mocked by the background music lol. Like not to be a bitch about it bc we all have to experience things that aren’t our favorite but I wish the world made it easier for me to like feel included in my own life. I wouldn’t mind other types of music at all if it weren’t an automatic expectation that I’ll like it and never want to show anyone what *i* consider to be A Vibe

#Idk how to describe the feeling I’m thinking abt lol #it’s like everyone decides for you what’s relaxing to you and whats fun and what vibe matches what you’re doing #and god forbid something entirely different sparks joy for you lol #that isn’t accommodated in the way that you’re expected to compromise 24/7 #this post was prompted by a post that said ‘let’s cuddle and listen to metal’ bc I was like me and who #thats the one thing I miss abt my most toxic ex is I got to listen to music I liked during the most intimate/spiritual experiences #(gay sex)#and like i have close friends who don’t know the most basic things abt me!!#and I talk about wanting to show them and it’s like they don’t hear me #I’m scared to like try harder bc I feel like they’ll just make fun of me lol #but GOD FORBID they ask me if I like h*rry st*les and I say no. then I’m a hater #and like in other cases I feel like people do support my interests and it feels so refreshing but #I still feel like I have to be annoying about it lol #im not even rly saying I want my music playing more with people who don’t want it bc that’s uncomfy #it’s just weird how people don’t even realize their music is the default and not everyone hears their own shit everywhere they go #mine #txt #music

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springlock-suits · 1 year

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Michael ran away after Evan died from the bite. Because while William was still kind to him and kept reassuring him it was an accident. Michael didn't like the look in his eyes. And combined with the guilt of killing his brother he decided to leave the home

#he didn't want to be a burden and william was scaring him #basically #honestly honestly kinda wish i could choose which posts show up in the main tags and which dont #im just talking for fun over here #Michael did work in the 90s location as the nightguard #im not sure yet if he was in the 87 location though. or any others #Michael and William never saw each other while working at the 90s location i dont think #but i think theyd avoid eachother if they knew the other was there?#does Michael know william did the murders?#it depends on henry found out and if henry told him #man i should rly develop that detail more #darlingsfnafau #darlingsfnafau: lore rambles #michael afton #fnaf

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mechawolfie · 1 year

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robot guy....

#smudgy.png #im not satisfied w his design but idk why yettttt!!!! >:[#anyway. hes from the furry au of my wb project.#basically automatons were built many many years ago but had to be shut down en masse bc they were becoming sentient for #unknown reasons #to make a long story short he was a servant whos owner Really wanted him to go out & experience the world #now that he was sentient #but he didnt want to leave cause he was so dedicated to this guy. also maybe a liiiittle bit scared of going Outside #so his owner is like. ok well heres a task for u.#& he gives him this list of tasks to complete which r all rly vague & probably impossible #n hes like ok!! ill do that!!!#buut then the shutdowns happen + many Many years later the automatons start to mysteriously wake up #n now everyones awake & living their lives just like non-automatons. except for him hes still trying to fulfill his Tasks #eventually he realizes how nice the world is tho & decides to try living #anyway i came up w that to show my sister how easy making stories is but now im Invested #i love him & also im giving him a bf. good night #clean furry #<- does that apply to robots.......

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mwagneto · 1 year

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ppl will literally hold my face in both hands and look me in the eyes and say im the most perfect person they know and that im important to them and they want to be there for me. and ill still be like uhm what if they're just saying it to be nice but secretly hate my guts

#not rly true coz i feel more secure w this friend group than i ever have #partly bc forcing myself to recover from mento illness is going great and #partly because well. they hold my face in both hands and tell me they'd kill for me #i dont think they hate me im just always worried im annoying which is kinda new #not even annoying im just scared they'll get sick of me if im too.... too everything ig #and im desperately trying not to think about the fact that im going to move to a #different country and leave all of them and it's gonna be miserable #it's crazyyyy how fast time is moving. i need to enjoy every second coz man...#at least the work we have to do means we're gonna be traveling and living together basically all summer #and a bit in spring too #im literally winning life tbh and it's only the 2nd semester #we'll see. and the bad thing is i have no idea how i got such a big friend group so quickly and i #knowww that if i change majors or move away im never gonna have anything like this again #i literally like going to uni coz i miss them when im home that's so fucked up. like wtf.#im so not used to missing ppl like this and to ppl wanting to be around me it's crazy. hi #barking

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velvetineblue · 10 months

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idt i know any other btvs / angel fans so i'm probably speaking this into a uncomprehending void rn but . . . what if for taiyang's vampire verse, his ship was a slayer x vampire pairing. yes.... eheheeheheh. * laughs to self evilly & sexily *

#that would be AWOOGA #altho i DONT use btvs/angel lore for his vampire verse so you wouldn't have to be a fan to understand it !!#it's rly only the concept of a Slayer that i'd be stealin from btvs -- which is easy to explain ...#slayers are basically just Thee 'Chosen One'; born to slay all the vampires & other baddies of the world ...#idk i might actually Seriously Consider && Offer this concept later -- but for now I'm just thonking aloud ajsjaj #i'm rly particular abt using my vamp verse bc i have my Own specific lore for vampires that I use & tbh i'm obsessed with it...#it's my fav lore i've ever come up with i LOVE IT SO MUCH jasjsaj.#so i would go feral if i ever used it JASJAJ im afraid to unleash that energy on the world.....#also: I have a busy night & day tmrw so I prob won't be doing much online until thats over w/. but ! I will try to answer IM's and such !!#*ABSCONDS *#wait i just had to add... i'm trying not to complain abt this new tumblr layout bc i know i know we all hate it but......#MY GOD WHA T A JUMP SCARE LOGGING ONTO THIS SITE IS NOW.#it's so uugly.... like proportionally it's so off & wrong ..... my eyes.... sobs....

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nomaishuttle · 10 months

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i have to get a new phone case and screenprotector Guys its literally scaryyyy

#getting a new case scary... my current one is piterally like. well ill be honest i think it is more like shrapnel than a phone case #its like. a soft part and a hard part and well. the soft parts that arent under hard parts have been entirely torn off #so the entire bottom of my phone is sxposed as is the top half on both sides #and the hard part is also broken all alone the bottom And i lost a corner the other day #so yeah.#i should prolly get a new one.. ill probably just get another boring one bc i get scared if ppl know things abt me #vut also maybe i should get like a nice one so i can like. idk its a conversation starter....#like if im at the library and somebody sees my phone case and its like idk van gogh or something they could be like I love van gogh and i #could be like Omg thats awesome hes one of my all time favorite painters .... hes also very interesting as a person and his letters with #his brother etc etc etc and the person would be like Wow this guy is so interesting and knows a lot about van gogh I should become friends #with them and introduce them to my friend group and we will all be friends.#<- thats basically what might happen. but also what if theres somebody who Would have talked to me #and then they see my theoretical van gogh phone case and theyre like Ugh i hate van gogh. fuck this guy...#not that id rly wanna be friends with that person anyway but like. yk. van gogh is a theoretical example #what if it was more of like a fandom thing or something Which id literally never get but theoretically. and theyre like ew this guy likes #... idk. outer wilds. and this imaginary person ive created thinks iuter wilds is rly problematic so they tell everybody else in the #library Hey this guys a freak and a weirdo and everybodys like wow this guys a freak and a weirdo and they throw books at me and then i #cant ever go to the library ever again. i know thats unrealistic but a lot of thjngs i never thought would happen to me have happened to me #recently so. i wouldnt even be surprised at this point its like im a little kitten in a wet cardboard box all alone and somebody poured #gasoline on me. and i was like Oh what the hell why did that person pour gasoline on me... and rhen im like Its ok i can deal with the #gasoline. ajd then as soon as im recovered ANOTHER person pours gasoline on me and im like dude why this. what the hell.#but km like Weird it happened twice.. but its ok and fhen ANOTHER THING OF GASOLINE and im like WHYY and b4 i even get s chance to recover #skmehody throws a match in. and its like man what the hell did i do. thats basically whats happening with me Nd god rn. he just keeps #pouring gasoline on me and brother its getting a bit tiring.

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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I wanted to say that i OBSESSED with your tags to your posts when you write your thoughts

^^^its me reading them

STOPPPPPPPPPPP YOU'RE TOO SWEET 🥺🥺🥺🥺 YOU'RE GONNA MAKE ME CRYYYYYYY 💕💕💕💕😭😭😭😭🥹🥹🥺🥹🥺🥺

#no bcs telling me you like my rambling is genuninely the biggest compliment you can give me 🥹🥹🥹#i really like to talk(if you couldn't already tell) but my biggest fear is the possibility that im annoying people #so you telling me that really means the world to me 😭😭😭 cause i often get so scared im being too talkative #but tumblr has been a lot of fun to me lately bcs i ramble pretty unobtrusively #and if i dont talk(or type ig) i will explode #like i talk sooooo much to myself and my tags are basically me being unable to contain that #so when mutuals tell me they read them and like them i basically just turn into that emoji i posted 🤭#its rly fun to write a gigantic paragraph of tags bcs keeping it to myself is so stifling #i really only ramble to my mom and to you guys so i really appreciate it 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#basically: i am incapable of not writing like a paragraph bcs ill explode #TYYYYYYYYYY AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH #this is why my txt tag cant be just catie.txt lmao bcs that feels so short #catie.asks.

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rucow · 1 year

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i need to make a master post of my interpretation of the phantom,,, i've been thinking of a logical backstory for her and i think i got it but it's sad and painful and it makes me feel bad even just to think about it :^( either way i rly want to write down my hcs of her one of these days 👉👈

#txt #im almost scared to talk about the backstory i gave her bc its Rly messed up but also i think its pretty realistic 😭 unfortunately #basically she was born with something unique but harmless about her appearance #but ppl are awful and mistook her uniqueness for something Bad that needs to be ''cured''#so when she was a baby she had her caretaker (i hc she was in an orphanage) pour acid on her little baby face 😬#she doesnt remember this #so as far as she knows shes always looked the way she does #but thats not true and sadly she will never know the truth #i think ppl genuinely thought she was possessed and stuff when she was little bc she was very quiet and still and ''unnerving''#but she was literally just autistic. ppl are just awful to children and punish them for being themselves #this happened to me as well ive had adults call me possessed and creepy and whatnot Just bc im autistic 😬#so yea ill be projecting that onto erica bc i can #shes genuinely just a victim to me and she deserves to heal #anyway her mother loved her so much. unfortunately her mom passed away when erica was a baby #which is why she ended up in an orphanage #while her mother saw her child's unique appearance and personality as something beautiful and lovable #her caretakers at the orphanage saw those same things as something Bad and Evil #it gets worse though :') but ill save it for when i actually write the master post #again i apologise for giving her such a painful backstory but like .. i wanted there to be an explanation for everything so yea :')

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pepprs · 2 years

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also ok . i know i have been irlposting way too much but my parents are going to a concert 2 hrs away tmrrw for a Very Famous Person and it’s outdoors but certain to be crowded and it’s like uhmmmmm. a little ironic and frustrating is all. not to mention i am afraid for my siblings and my lives a little bit and also for my parents lives or whatever. lol

#purrs #like the way my *** terrorized ne for wanting to. and i repeat. walk around campus without even seeing anyone. but now you’re going to an #outdoor concert and will likely be the only one wearing masks? idk. i don’t like it. and we have nowhere in the house for anyone to isolate #so if they get it we will all get it. and i DO NOT want to get it. i do not want it. i want it to stay away from me. my throat felt a tiny #bit funny on tuesday (it was ok i just swallowed something wrong) and was so intensely anxious about FEELING myself get covid by the second #that i couldn’t focus on my work and barely got anything done. and this feels like a recipe for disaster. like the absolute irony of our #family being on lockdown STILL and barely going anywhere and me having to fight to work in person 2 days a week with like basically 1 person #in the office who wears a kn95 / n95 at all times…. and then you go to a fucking ***** **** concert in one of the front rows where ppl are #gonna rush the stage etc etc. it just is scaring me. i know my mom would be devastated to not go but also like. lol. i missed my graduation #and all my senior stuff and i know it was a spike but it fucking sucked so why do you get to go to this concert when you’ve been to redacted #concerts like 50x in your life… idk. bitter and jealous about it but it just infuriates me because if it was something i cared about a lot #she would shut it down bc it would endanger all of us and now here she is taking THE biggest risk anyone in our family has taken since #my brothers graduation which was also outdoors at a concert venue but like. most ppl were masked and rates were rly low and it wasn’t a #concert. this is very different. idk. im so scared i will get it i do not want covid i od not want long covid i want my brain exactly the #way it is i want my body exactly the way it is i want my life exactly the way it is and it just feels uhhhhh unfair and cruel. lawl #ALSO NOT TO MENTIKN the part i left out which is like… what if someone Does Someting. lol. i will lose my shit all day tomorrow and all #weekend too. i can’t take it i really can’t #also ok yeha i didn’t finish that thought but like the double standard of it. ***** **** is her lifelong idol so she can go see him at this #huge fucking dangerous concert but i can’t meet up with my friends in groups of 1-3 outdoors masked distanced etc. like ok #it’s the whole im the parent you’re the child shit. well it’s gonna be really funny if she gets us covid after putting me thru hell in #2020 in ways that have permanently damaged our relationship. play stupid games win stupid prizes and this is the DEFINITION of a stupid game

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dangerliesbeforeyou · 2 years

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Me after finishing watching the exorcist for the first time: fine, it wasn't massively scary but I loved the suspense & cinnamontography

Me after going into my room to see 2 spiders, one of which was on my curtain: TERRFIED HORRIFIED IM NEVER GONNA SLEEP AGAIN HELP HELP HELP

#personal #i suppose basically what im saying is im not scared of demons im scared of spiders #it's 2am and im rly tired but ... the fear...#as with most horror films ive seen like the exorcist #i always find the first half scarier than the last bit even tho that's usually meant to b the most intense part #idk i think it's just the suspense of not knowing what's happening #like the conjuring was gr8 and legit scary until they revealed the spirit & then it was just like oh... ok #idk idk i suppose what im saying is i want horror films to escalate the horror WHILST keeping the suspense #(not saying there arent films that do this btw)#a gr8 example of this is the dw ep midnight #like yh it's not super scary but the fear of not knowing what the monster is #& the way it turns all the characters against eachother culminating into a tense climax scene #it's just so gooood #& i wish more horror let the monster be something u never see...#like think of the never ending story & how the scary thing in that is literally nothing #beyond anything humans fear the unknown #so when u make a thing known it becomes less scary #anyway am i writing this cos im procrastinating going to sleep cos im still scared maybe #maybe ....

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ellsellmesoull · 2 years

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You know what sucks? When you try your best but your group mates fucking suck. The only thing i regret is not stepping up to be the leader myself

#like i got social anxiety and I promised id try being better #this was on me for breaking that promise #the grp was btw friends so I basically took leadership im only scared talking to strangers #and the leader didnt even tell us the whole actual task #and we wasted 75% of the time because of that #because she didnt take it seriously at all and the seniors who were supposed to guide us were distracting us and just talking #and our teammates were just talking back and me and another girl were the only ones putting in any effort #but shes so quiet she doesn't even understand anything i say and wont even speak up about it #and then they do whatever they want when ive given them clear instructions #ok the seniors were Supposed to not guide us but let us do our own thing which we found out later #but they were Actively talking with us not letting us focus and making things confusing #just causing problems in general they were actly supposed to just be on the sidelines #my back fucking hurts #no one fking tells any idea they just kept quiet on the brain storming session and when one model was halfway there #they start another #like wtf then they complain #imean ik im not a rly good leader but i tried my best and ik I cant do more like our actual leader weren't doing shit #but still our grp didnt put in any effort #and i could see my own shit model making skills in there #if ppl had work together then it wouldbe been better #cus my plus is Only functional ity and they could've helped w the aesthetics and looking like an actual irl model #but noo #it took me over 15 minutes of constantly yelling just to get one guy to stick two sides together to make a right triangle esply bcos #he was talking to the seniors abt home and shit and the leader wouldn't even fold paper seriously ffs shed fuck it up and act all sowwy #but i was trying to lead maybe I fucked up and its all my fault maybe i became the loudest voice and everyone listened #maybe things wouldbe been better if i just kept quiet #I thought i was doing a good job but ig i was just fucking it up cus when i see the model I see how my own model skills look like #and im very bad at model making.

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arolesbianism · 3 days

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Vibrates. Normal. I'm normal. I'm so normal.

#rat rambles #oni posting #oh god oh fuck I just opened the steam page to wishlist it and guys guys guys there may or may not be a new dupe #either that or its just hinting at future customization options that include hair but idk #I have thoughts and ideas that are vague and based on very little but I am fucking loosing it yall #also the planet being another cold one is just the icing on the cake for me as the number one rime enjoyer #and new temperature mechanics sound fun and Im rly hoping that with the dlc cold will actually matter more #because from my time playing it being too cold basically only matters for food and water and is otherwise mostly a good thing #yeah your dupes will cry abt it but as far as I know it kind of cant kill them #so while part of why I like rime is that I find the cold to be a boon more than anything I hope ut becomes more of a legit problem here #anyways this is all to distract myself from the real thing thats making me tremble with both excitement and fear and thats lore #they have to add new lore and theyre going to and Im scared guys its happening #ok ok to keep distracting myself from that I love how everyone is characterized in the new short its delightful #again I absolutely adore jean being a grumpy old fart its my favorite thing #I also love liam being all like oh grandpa lets get you to bed aby jorge dgskhsjd #also was jorge breaking in with the story trait stuff or trying to shove it in a closet or smth? idk #anyways I think the idea of the dupes treating jorge like the colony grandpa is very funny old man dupe alert hes older than 2 weeks #honestly the combination of jorge and this potential new dupe has me thinking abt some stuff #cause like it is a bit odd how in game jorge is completely unique and the pod doesnt have the data for his blueprint #now its possible that some data was lost or smth but Im leaning towards there's other dupes who have blueprints and stuff but they were #removed from later pods to save space for more important data #or maybe there was some reason why certain dupes had to be discontinued because of the dupes themselves #I think itd make a lot of sense for there to be other dupe blueprints floating around too since presumably gravitas had access to the dna #of all of their employees and evidently even some non employees considering dupe quinn exists #so itd make some sense for there to be dupe blueprints for even more scientists that worked at gravitas #this also gives room for them to make dupes for any potential randos that currently exist in the oni logs like dr.holland #(dr.holland may be a dupe we already know but yknow he could also be made into a completely new guy if they so desired)#oh oh wait new critters and plants means that our plant and animal guys get to talk more yippee 🎉#oh maybe we'll even have confirmation of who they are through this #probably not but I can dream

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flovverworks · 2 months

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sorry i got overwhelmed with love for akira again

#stardust speaking !#they gave us one(1) anime headshot thats basically just the ingame one in the anime style #and im daydreaming #ITS DIRE OUT HEREEEEEEEEEE #also if we dont get animated canaria i Will be crying #sometimes i think of lesbian akira meeting canaria. falling in lov. abd then immediadetly finding out shes engaged #to a guy whos also named after a bird #the comedy for ME #i love akira. i love heartfelt akira whos a loser and keeps messing up in this new place and tastes the rain falling #'sage what r u doing we dont know if this rain is safe or not?!?' 'huh?!?!?!?!' JSJSJWJQKQKKWT.........AKIRA VS THE UNSEEN DANGERS #but also akira who DOES do cool stuff. akira who is scared and shaking but still shields owen when hes out of commission #against a UNICORN......(owen ends up doing the protecting but ykno). akira whos life is threathened but still #continues to speak to their wizards. akira who picks up shinos scythe to keep them safe #THEYRE SSOOOOOOOO scared and awkward but they do what they can #way more skilled at saying very sweet things and speaking from their heart. despite struggling with words when comforting ppl #theyre so charmy.................i lov akira............i lov both designs for akira......................give me an expression sheet for #anime akira NOW❗❗❗❗❗#im so excoted i desperately hope they capture the loser and the otome-route side of them #akira & cains back & forth stunning e/o with something smooth the other said is everything to me #i need that so bad #(its like always unintentional too!!! theyre both just speaking from their heart!!!!!!!!!!!#also rly need akira freaking out over how prettt everyone is. i NEED the 'are all of them models or something wtf' in there #guy who spends like 5 sentences in a row describing someone as handsome

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dandyshucks · 5 months

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i want to work on art (the plushies and the digital painting) but i have to make myself get some cleaning done bc spiders are active again bc it's unseasonably warm outside rn :')

#i developed genuine arachnophobia a couple yrs ago #and man. living in a basement is absolute hell for this fjfkdl #im trying to keep things v clean to discourage them but that doesnt play nice w the fatigue #and its extra awful bc i feel horrible killing basically Anything #but i was able to work on my fear last year to the point where i could catch and release them again (w a tupperware and paper)#so hopefully all that work hasnt disappeared from my brain fjfkdl bc i rly rly rly hate killing the lil guys jfkdld #i dont dislike spiders ! i am just very afraid of them ! theyre very cool and fascinating and important little critters #but they scare me so so so much SNDJDKL and good golly i wish they didnt fjdmdl #honestly i am just hoping this doesnt cause hallucinations again bc that fucking sucked so bad dnfkdl i dont wanna go thru that again #MAN DJDKDL if Guz was here... he'd deal w the spiders for me fjfkdl and he'd never kill any bug ever and it'd be great #vent //#dandy.cmd

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captainmoonlite · 9 months

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i am being so so normal rn*

*thinking about the way both cat and marwood are the children of fifth monarchists. the way that both end up tied to and having to care for older men whose minds are worn down by both age and time spent in prison. the way those same men become more extreme and show more hateful views towards women as time passes. the way both cat and elizabeth cromwell have absentee fathers who missed most of their adolescence and fled the country for entirely different reasons. the way neither of them found the place or trust to find what they had in common because they were too occupied keeping secrets and trying to protect themselves and their loved ones. the way that the recent wars and the religious/political divide they created has continued to linger and affects so many elements of so many people's lives

#marwood & lovett series #andrew taylor #the last protector has me INSANE #it feels so so different to the previous three books in tone and im not on board with all the decisions #e.g. hakesby's changes in temperament feel quite abrupt overall #but man just. its so frustrating. all that effort for those pearls and it's just WASTED #but i love how all the characters are acting in a way that makes sense for them even if you disagree with it. like cat is quite judgmental #and unforgiving #elizabeth is sly and is in part concealing her true feelings from cat in her eagerness to get the pearls and get her father #out of the country #and her frustration with her father's inability to provide #i am a little sus about the characterisation of richard tbh #like i think in the context that is being betrayed during his protectorship by his own uncle and brother in law (!!)#and i mean! there's even a line near the start about how richard is reluctant to trust people #and then suddenly he's completely in thrall of the duke. idk i just dont think he was that dumb or naive #but whatever. its fiction yknow.#i understand all of cat's feelings and anxieties but i feel rly sorry for the cromwells here. they basically are cursed #none of those accusations marwood made toward them at the end had any weight at all (especially since they were hushing up hakesby's death #and im pretty sure those pearls rightfully DID belong to the cromwells)#so it seemed more like a ploy to scare him into leaving and avoiding further trouble. which is fair #hakesby's death was also really sad : ( but he was so shitty to cat in this book #i have so much to say and no one to say this to. agony

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