you GUYS i am officially enrolled in my degree i am so unbelievably happy!!!!! i have been fighting for my life to get here. i had to turn down all my uni offers when i was a teen (had to move out independantly bc of domestic violence and disability/health complications). i've always known exactly what i want to do with my life but everything got put on hold whilst i desperately tried to sort my shit out. BUT IM DOING IT NOW!!!!!
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fuck sorry making a hs post on the hs blog. have always been not very much of a classpect person in terms of like. giving a fuck about the construction and logistics of the classification as a system. but i Have always been really haunted by the more metanarratively intertwined side of its existence, the story archetypes functioning as the nonnegotiable shackle of the whole destiny mythology creation shit. and because i am me i get really really caught up on how these two pillars of existence of their concept get retranslated via fandom. troubles me a little bit how the fandom tends to shoot more towards that ontological classification system that exists to describe/prescribe their placement and traits rather than vice versa, as functionally putting them within those boxes. like blah blah videogamemechanics it Is both but i think its more one than the other! why is a story about narratives being living breathing antagonistic so flocked to by people afraid of considering that narrative as such. have a funny scene where my thoughts on it are accentuated by a gag that actively changes gamzees class in order to further drive home the whole entrapped in a tower shit. in my brainchild
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me and my (also trans) brother have been coming up with plans for us both move to together to another (bigger, far away) city next year for college, since our parents really want us to go to college, and my mom seemed fine with the plan as long as we could get in to study. and god. i wish i could have someone to pray to because just thinking about it. both me and my brother escaping our stupid parents, this stupid town, living together and helping each other, us both already out to each other. i don't even know what college id go to or what i want to study or where the hell are we going i just want it to happen so, so bad. i have no idea how doable that is but i want to transition so so much. i want to step foot in our new apartment after we move and immediately get my first T shot. god i just want to change my life. i want to change it so much it makes me sick
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ive just spent the last 6hrs goin thru every piece of media from 'the phantom of the opera' and all i can say is
WHY IS IT LIKE THATTT
why's the ending like that??? be it the one from broadway theatre dated back in 1988, or the musical in 1986, the movie from 2004, even in the original novel by Leroux himself, none of them ends with a closure of the phantom's acceptance..
i hvnt watch the 1925 silent film version tho; but so far i think i like the og novel version best
personally i spite the 2004 version so much as in tht one, christine clearly stated tht she's afraid of the phantom (as uttered in the song 'Twisted Every Way') while it's never been told that way in the novel/broadway/other versions
on the og novel tho, despite christine still married raoul in the end, he still returned to bury the phantom during his passing, the last thing phantom had asked before they parted. she fulfilled her promise, and put the ring(?) he gave her to be buried w/ him.. truly the best ending of all version me thinks
overall i loved the parallels of night & daylight imagery. of heaven & hell, beast & beauty. also the part where she said 'he sings inside my mind'? imo it can be interpreted in many ways
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I had a nightmare my dad was hunting me for sport and i was in some kind of simulation but i "woke up" near the end and it turned lucid and im so fucking glad thats a thing i can do again bc god fucking damnit im tired of this.
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