#im so done i cannot do this shit anymore

[the-depths-of-ones-mind]

why is it so fucking hard to just let people be happy with who they are and what they do with their lives to keep themselves happy?

[amelia-yap]

AUEGH

[cetoddle]

i know i just remade but maybe i’ll just delete completely. i lowkey hate it here

[hella1975]

tbf i really deserved to lose that poll im stupid af

[minglana]

(said while shaking and heaving excessively) just one more blueprint.... just ONE more blueprint............................

[rxvera]

you're a slutty kike and you know it, you and your lizard face snake tribe are fucking responsible for hundreds of deaths, hamas is right and should take you all out, you are all murders and molesters, you deserve to burn and die, I hope everything that happens to you makes you suffer, it's your fault for continueing to be a dirty jew and hurting palestinians, freak

STOP. JUST FUCKING STOP. I BLOCKED YOU. WHY DO YOU KEEP FINDING WAYS TO MESSAGE ME??

Why are you so set on harassing me? I have nothing to do with this. I don't live in Israel. I'm a teenager. I was born long after this conflict began.

Why am I so evil for existing? I didn't choose to be Jewish, and I couldn't stop being Jewish even if I wanted to. It's an ethnoreligion. I told you that already.

I'm not hurting anyone. I'm not. I'm not involved in it at all. I have nothing to do with this. I have no power in it.

I'm being harassed online and in real life, and several of my friends have turned on me simply because I'm Jewish without any other basis. I'm scared. It's not a fun time. Please, stop, just leave me alone.

[our-lady-of-mcr]

everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn

[lusalemaart]

dooo tle. scrible.

[arcaneyouth]

man. i wanted to get back to work on the deathspeaker weeks ago.

[xx-justsomeguy-xx]

rafayel gove me strengnth i have so mucb to CRAM

[this-doesnt-endd]

I feel like my crown just shifted up oh my god

[cosmicdenro]

thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie

[owleics-fr]

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[velocitic]

something on my mind lately that i'm not sure entirely how to phrase is like - this is mostly targeted at white trans influencer types, but i find something very grating on the kind of body negativity posting i see in relation to dealing with body dysmorphia. now, body dysmorphia/dysphoria are something that anyone can experience, and not everyone does, and it's different for different people. however, i take issue with the content made around learning how to "pass" by hiding your body, and specifically the language used for it. primarily i see this around "wide hips", and i do see the need and/or want for clothing tips that help people feel comfortable in their bodies, and i don't think there is anything intrinsically wrong with this content's primary goal. however, as trans owned/focused fashion brands are becoming more in number, i'm finding that the representatives i am seeing for these brands are overwhelmingly white, skinny, transmasc individuals. and the language used to market their products is one that is, i think, meant to be addressing dysphoria, but it comes across to me as a narrowly defined negative view. as someone with a larger chest and a larger/stockier frame, all of the tips about "hiding" my wider hips can do nothing tangible for my appearance. you cannot hide genuinely large/noticeable features of your body; trust me, i've tried for years to do so, and sometimes i still try in vain to wear the straight jeans and the special cut tee shirts, and it just leaves me feeling worse because i am not the target audience of these tips. i am not skinny. i also do not think i subscribe to this belief that wide hips are a "dead giveaway" that will prevent you from passing; i think that (and other such beliefs) honestly is rooted in bioessentialist beliefs that i wish we would all unpack and be a lot better off without.

it is not to say that skinny trans people's issues with their bodies are not valid or not okay to talk about. but i do think that rebranding body negativity into the language of progressive thought is unfair and cruel whether it is shaving razor ads telling women that they are beautiful no matter what but that doesn't mean stop shaving, or if it is a skinny, flat chested, white trans person telling me that all trans people are wonderful but more importantly how much their wide hips bother them - and how a product can "fix" both of these issues.

and how am i meant to feel about this whole thing, anyway? if this skinny person's hips are too wide, then what the hell is wrong with me? there is inherent comparison in self hate. putting yourself down will only lead to holding bias against those who are "worse" than you (whether you're aware of it or not) & broadcasting to all the other people with the feature you hate about yourself are surely also ugly or inferior in the same way you believe yourself to be. i don't think body dysmorphia should not be talked about. i do think that talking about it in the language of product placement and brand marketing is doomed from the start. when a skinny person says that their hips are too wide, their jaw is too soft, they hate their nose and with a chest like theirs they'll never pass, i earnestly have no idea what to possibly say, because in their self hate they have entirely vilified me. i am short and stocky with muscle and my jaw is soft and i have acne and wide hips and a large chest. how am i meant to feel safe with those who believe my features to be their worst nightmare? how can i build community with you when i can imagine how you preen in the mirror over your 110 lb build and how awful it is?

this is what is meant when we talk about self love as a form of resistance. you cannot expect to be a safe person as long as you hate yourself for being human.

[palms-upturned]

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[vintageghoststories]

not to be dramatic but I’m the only person who has correct and true opinions Abt micheal shelly btw.just so we r all aware .