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jodifosters · 16 days

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BRANDON LEE as ERIC DRAVEN

THE CROW 1994, dir. Alex Proyas

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queenerdloser · 4 months

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i just finished dark heir

#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU!#i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him #dark rise #okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections #that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought.#hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil.#me: [screams into the abyss]#i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!!#and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again #and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted #instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have #become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth #he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them.#anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone #me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it #i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it

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stillresolved · 12 days

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what if i told you i wanted to add an angry kid who's got abused by the system, is still young and would low key start a riot if given the chance to? what if i did it, huh? huh?

#ferre said something i hope it was dumb ( ooc. )#someone stop me #i just finished ba*bel and im in PIECES 😭😭😭#also i keep seeing these young'un muses and WHAT IF?? i wanna join in 👀👀👀#( personality?? the closest i'd say is like....ga-ram and ara's personalities combined + maría feralness :'DDD will think some more on it )#i need to like put drafts on hold JUST SO THAT i can write up all these bios </3

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themanwhowouldbefruit · 22 days

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my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up”#“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “#“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol”#he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!!#anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy???#this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment.#anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.”#bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you.#like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously.#but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess.#its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

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demadogs · 1 year

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i hate people who think theyre so cool for not liking or refusing to engage in insanely popular things like has it occurred to you that it might be insanely popular……… because its good?

#you can still have your niche interests youre not gonna die if you love something that millions of people also love #this is about wednesday like if its not your vibe ok then watch something else but stop being like I WILL NEVER!!! WATCH THIS!!!#i see this with literally every show and every artist and ever book #like call me fucking crazy but if a show becomes super popular and its of a genre i like im gonna watch it??#and if i dont like it then ill stop watching it how CRAZY!!!#also i saw someone say ‘im not falling for that queerbait’ YALL JUST BE SAYING ANYTHING THESE DAYS HUH #TWO GIRLS OR GUYS THAT WOULS BE CUTE TOGETHER BUT ARENT CANNONICALLY QUEER DOESNT MEAN ITS QUEERBAIT #IT JUST MEANS YOURE GAY #so glad i wasnt dumb as hell in 2016 when the entire world was talking about a new show called stranger things #and decided to watch it instead of thinking im so cool for refusing to watch it #i saw one gifset and was like ‘that looks good’ and i watched it that night #and do not even get me started on people doing this with taylor oh my god #wednesday #byler #taylor swift

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sillybouquetoflillies · 3 months

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i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

#i let myself sit n accept that i did go thru smth.. maybe that i didnt totally remember or that i blurred out the details of n idk #i keep feeling like an imposter n like i shouldnt be feeling it. i didnt rly like how ive been acting #but like also i let a lot of stuff out of the box in my brain doing that n idk how 2 put it back or deal with it #so now i just feel like a half untangled mess with 0 stability bc in that 'growth n discovery' period i realized almost everyone in my life #wasnt someone i wanted 2 keep around #so now its rly just me n my bestie that r close n i keep everyone else at arms length #how tf did i get on rambling abt this omggg #ugh i am srsly such a mess n i cant find the root n i think thats whats freaking me out the most #i hate not being able 2 explain why im feeling a certain type of way or justify it in anyway #i just wanna feel okay n stable n be a fun person 2 be around again!!!!#i wanna be completely independent but like.... everything is so expensive n i have no interest in anything that would pay well #i wish my sw stuff would take off but i think im too messy 4 ppl 2 wanna stick around n also i dont think im super attractive unfortunately #I DUNNO #i dont have any answers atm n its freaking me out #i either wanna figure out how to be okay with not having answers or to get the answers and solve my problems #n i also dont wanna depend on other ppl 2 solve them for me #i just wanna be a whole.. well rounded person who can take care of themselves n do what i want #while also being a cute puppy thats rly rly rly fun 2 play with n is super helpful n supportive 2 the ppl it cares abt 🥰#i am so sick of these silly dumb messy fears n emotions that keep me stuck in boring ruts #i wanna go out n have my own fun n be my own person n stop being so scared of everything!!!!!#its okay if things go bad!!!! its just more stories 2 tell ppl!!!! ppl love my stories!!!! ugh i just needa put myself out there #i just needa find smth fun 2 do that keeps me around fun ppl #i just dont know what yet #concerts r fun but idk no one super interesting is touring here rn n i need smth more frequent #ok i think this ramble is ovr #im rly sry if ur reading this!!!! i love u vry much n hope ur having a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!

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nintendont2502 · 11 days

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jesus christ can I go back to being too anxious to talk to people instead of being the world's most obnoxious mfer who Cannot shut the hell up to save his life

#this is all /lh lmao #like. on one hand #this is good! fuckin overcoming crippling anxiety or whatever the hell right i can finally talk to people without feeling like im about to #cry /hj #on the other hand everytime i *do* talk to someone im just internally cringing at every goddamn thing i say #trust me. i know. im well aware #unfortunately my problem has always been not talking enough and so i literally cannot stop myself from running my mouth about the most inane #shit #anyway yeah uh. mb gang #if you ever have to interact with me im so sorry /hj #and can my psych hurry tf up and get back to me for my adhd diagnosis so i can get medicated and maybe finally be nornal #itd be cool to make friends instead of scaring them away with the dumb shit i say yk /lh #me.txt

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

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starphobe · 6 days

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fh fandom back to wishing death on a fictional teenager for being mentally ill and not learning how to cope with that in a healthy way. what else is new

#do i think klck is correct? no #do i think a fandom full of grown adults should stop holding this (manipulated) (not sound of mind) teenager to wack standards? ya #like.... some of you are... how do i say this.... ~projecting~#and dont get me wrong this isnt me trying to say shes some kind of innocent misunderstood blorbo 🥺🥺🥺#i think shes a freak and a cunt. but im going to be normal about it and NOT say that she deserves to be killed (????)#pre-overtaking she was clearly aware that her behavior wasn't healthy #the fact she even went to jawbone at all (and was honest with him!) proves that imo #personally i feel like she might be neurodivergent -> struggling with knowing which rules to break and which ones to not #we literally JUST had an episode where the principal of AAA told students to their face that studying and working hard is dumb #i think kipperlilly came to aguefort. couldn't get a grip on what they Actually wanted from her #(parents went to mumple. she couldnt have been prepared for aguefort)#and out of frustration she fixated on people who were doing well and compared herself to them #and the only major surface difference she could find? tragic backstories #it only makes sense that she'd assume that THAT is what was missing. her inability to adapt to AAA was out of her control #so instead of blaming smth abstract (neurodivergence/other mental illness)#this single. concrete. and obvious difference is way easier to latch on to #but yeah. imo she just reads as someone super neurodivergent who received No Help because she 'made do'#and when thrown into a situation that required a skillset she wasn't born with. she shut down and got defensive #noone is born wanting to die yadda yadda #i think it's very interesting that when jawbone turned the question around on her (asking what SHE could do to get better)#she got quiet and awkward #its almost like she was trying her best? and just couldn't figure out where to go next?#and OH would you look at that. jace offering her a trip to the mountains of chaos. for a ~super dangerous adventure~#🙄#anyway.#awfully convenient. isn't it.#this has been me. having takes on ms goldendoodle shibainu #goodnight everyone (its noon)#not tagging this out of fear of the *** stans out there who will not stop taking things personally

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vilelittlecritter · 1 year

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Me: "I don't like people, I prefer being on my own and not talking"

People: "oh okay we'll leave you be then"

Me: "wait no PLEASE COME BACK I WANT LOVE-"

#its not that i dont like people. its just that i have resorted to avoiding people out of habit and a sense that i make things worse #like its not that i DON'T want to message my friend. its just that I cant bring myself to since i usually dont #ha ha ha. god i am desperate to just speak to people but I want to be left alone and im scared of people turning out to be mean #i kinda feel like crying when i see people say how they love their friends and cuddle up with them and have fun #lol one of my old best friends caused me to have awful anxiety about myself because he judged and made fun of ke constantly #oh yeah and that other time after i broke up with a friend because we stupidly decided to try and date and it didnt go well #the bastard asked the person out that night. they said no because they aren't an ass or dumb. god i should have left him when he said that #oh yeah he also made fun of my sunny cosplay i did and then left me alone in the comic con crowd for half an hour #as someone with anxiety that fucked me up just a little #so yeah bad past friendships and terrible social skills have left me to just go lol cant get hurt if i dont have friends!#ha ha. this is agony.#i have like one actaul friend i talk to and she's going through some stuff and wants to be left alone #which is understandable but now I'm talking to absolutely no one #also even if i were to talk to people i just feel i make things worse #i feel like im obnoxious and weird constantly and I'm sobscsred that people are going to think I'm creepy #its not that im doing anything super weird its just that with my autism I can get overly excited and start rambling and not thinking #yet another reason why I've chosen to stop speaking as much #im also just really snappy sometimes #I remember a while ago someone i was kinda friends with asked me if i was okay and i said i was fine #they kept pushing because they were concerned and no ones ever really done that so i kind of panicked and raised my voice at them #i wasn't angry i just never had someone try and actually pry that deep before other than maybe my parents #they seem like a lovely person but i still feel so horrible for doing that to them #sure i apologises later and they understood but i felt like it was one of the most awful things ive done to someone #i hate even the thought of being cruel or mean and all they were trying to do was help and i snapped at them for it #sorry for being ranty but I'm starting to think im really not okay #I've pondered the idea of possibly having deppression but thats a conversation for my counselor #again sorry for sumoing and ill probably delete this soon #if anyone has read all of this im honestly impressed #personal rambles #vent tag

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seariii · 22 days

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Hm /pos

#sometimes i forget im the type to eat less or skip a meal for someone else to eat more properly #my brother and i asked for the same thing which was basically a soup but the bowl was smaller than we thought #before i knew he was ordering that my mom told me ahe was fonna give me a tostada cause her order came with 3 #my brother eats more than I do and when our orders arrived i thought how he was probably gonna stay hungry...#so after my mom gave me her tostada I took a couple bites and then passed it to him #'do you not want any more? are you stuffed? if you still want to eat i don't want it' and i just smiled and gave it to him #my mom saying 'if she's givinf it to you its for a reason' when i didn't use words and insisted him on taking it #he took it and then i whispered to my mom my reasoning. she was thinking the same as me jajajaja #id burn the world for my brother... even if hes a little bit dumb and lacks common sense JAJAJAJAJAJAJA #we were just laughing about that. my other brother eas like 'you just keeo getting worse' i gave no comments and mt parents #were like 'thats not true! he js getting better!' regarding his common sense....#and afterwards he did something that made mt mom lost her faith in that and lost points with my dad #JAJAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJAJA i couldnt stop laughing #i love him very much... hes the best brother j could ever ask for...no offense to the other one #seari talks

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majimassqueaktoy · 1 year

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Ngl it's very funny to see fans getting into arguments and Discourse about these games and then I'll see them be like "I've never played/watched X Y or Z game" like how are you gonna get aggro about something you only know about through vague tweets??

#literally someone talking about majima in y5 but they never watched it played y5 #like this isnt me being petty this is me actually being confused bc the way my brain works is You Get All The Information #before you waltz around getting in fights or telling people they cant like a character bc of some shit #like ???#also seeing people abandon games and then be like 'i dont know whats going on!!' yeah bc you stopped playing 2 chapters in ?#like thats just logic #if you want to play out of wack or not play at all thats fine but maybe dont be on other peoples posts asking dumb questions lmao #like i played all of y5 and did all the substories and side stories too and i still dont fully know wtf happened #so the idea of not even watching a playthrough but then sitting there to go on a tangent when you have like 5% of the info is so ??? to me #yakuza fans are wild theyll be like Ive never played or watched a single game but i looked at jpgs and thats the same ig #LIKE IM NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN IM JUST PERPLEXED #also made me laugh seein someone be all omg Kaito is my baby <3 #to the point i figured theyd played judgment and then they actually started playing judgemnt and were like :/ im not sure about kaito #LIKE??? YOU WERE ACTUALLY BEING A STAN WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING THE BARE MINIMUM??#that idea is just totally foreign to me #ive never watched mob psycho and you wont see me barracking for Reigen just bc i laugh at memes on account of I HAVE NOT EVER READ OR WATCH #so weird

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year

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DANNY PHANTOM SHIP NAME INSANITY INCOMING

#WHITE AMETHYST IS SAM AND GREGOR. I FUCKING FORGOT GREGOR EXISTED BC I HATE THAT EP SO MUCH #i was even like. oh maybe its smth to do with the giw but no thats dumb BUT IT WAS. GODDAMN IT #family breakfast is. obvious.#THE FAKE ONE IS FUCKING. STOPPED TIME.#HELLO?!?!??!?!!? I THOUGHT FOR SURE SOMEONE WAS OUT THERE SHIPPING LIKE #CLOCKWORK AND THE OBSERVERS OR SOME SHIT. OR CLOCKWORK AND DAN. I DONT FUCKIGN KNOW #FUCKING RETRO MOVIE FAIRE IS POINDEXTER AND DORA. WHOS DOING THIS.#these are making me so insane #btw. fright knight/ghostwriter is nightmare before christmas and i think that one is VERY funny #CLOCKWORK AND DAN IS CALLED MEDDLING MINUTES. theres not a single ship with the observers. how is that possible. HOW is that possible #i fucking hate this fandom this house is a nightmare #IM GONNA FUCKING CRY THEY JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE #NEW ASK GAME SEND ME DANNY PHANTOM CHARACTERS AND ILL GIVE YOU THE MOST INSANE SHIP NAMES #IM CRYING. THIS IS MY ENRICHMENT

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luckyemocode · 4 months

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i always forget naegi/togami is like... a popular ship i guess so theres ppl who think like Deeply about togami and i just wha

#just saw a post that was like 'is byakuya smart? absolutely' and i cant stop laughing and being like ?????????? what #bc 1. whos thinking about togami enough to be like Oh Yea Hes Smart 2. hes Not????????????/ he has like financial knowledge but how is that #a measure of intelligence esp in the context of danganronpa universe (+ esp in the context of like dr1 killing game)#like how do u finish the second chapter of dr1 being like Yes This Guy Is A Thinker HOW #and 3. really out of all the characters in dr who the fuck is thinking abt togami #-> and the answer is just idk basic main male character x 2nd most relevant male character shipping I GUESS #also the post this was in was criticizing the black+white view ppl have with 'smart' vs 'dumb' characters so no ill will there or anything #will queue it in a bit #just funny bc like I Do Not think abt togami much let alone think of him as the Smart One of anything #like tbh naegi is probably 'smarter' but i have a feeling his optimism makes him have like the stupid label between them w.e #(which in turn makes togami the smart one i guess?)#so yea just a moment of someone being like 'heres an issue in the fandom' and me being like 'mhm agree' but that example being like what #bc its something i dont really see/never seek out/not how i think of the character/dont interact w fanon for this character etc #lol anyways time to fill my queue up sorry it ran out on the weekend but i only like to reblog stuff when im at work lmao #time theft my beloved <3

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musashi · 1 year

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I have more or less always known that I'm not a person who will ever truly be loved, checked in on, or worried about. Like I've always just been a plan b, stepping stone, foster friend, and for the most part people like me but no one loves me. I know this.

But good god there is nothing like something horrifically traumatic happening to me to really fucking drill it in.

#wordy wendy #only one of my friends has bothered to keep tabs on me while I've been going through this #im not shocked but... it still really hurts.#id trade a hundred 'laughing over dumb shit for hours on the weekends'#for one 'crying on someones shoulder while they tell me they love me and want me in their life'#everyone is acting so casual. and im just meant to go about my life like normal.#i dont understand. why would anyone demand that of me?#i deserve to cry. i deserve to grieve. but no one will stop to hold me while i do.#so... i guess i just wont.

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heartual · 5 months

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ogh.

#🍄.txt #this is so dumb but am i being too sensitive about someone forgetting my birthday #like someone being my best friend of ten years where this is out of the norm for her #she’s texting me like normal now and im so confused #i rly need to stop placing so much importance on birthdays because i feel like i just set myself up for disappointment but alas #like i don’t even wanna bring it up because it was yesterday #i’m worried it’ll just come off like im only bringing it up to guilt trip her or something #but like im also upset about it because my birthday is….. a little important to me i must admit #this is saur dumb. like is she gonna be upset i didn’t say anything if she realizes? i have a headache #me vs not being overly sensitive about everything ever #23 is already weird i need to go back 👈🏻#at my big age. ogh

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