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c-kamo-archived · 2 years
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“Alright” I say to myself. nervous and excited for my date with choso this afternoon. I got up from my bed and walked towards my full length mirror. Standing across from my bed. Staring at myself in the mirror, i gave myself a few light slaps on my cheeks to the the blood flowing.
“Time to get to work!” I walk towards my closet, selecting a variety of clothes to choose from. Trying each and every piece, mixing and matching to see which outfit I’d finally come to like. In the end of all of my searching, I was finally happy with this outfit;
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I head downstairs into my kitchen, grabbing the basket that I had set out yesterday night. Adjusting the basket to my approval. “There!” I say out loud.
Walking towards the fridge, I start to pull out the various fruits and vegetables I had cut out for today. Placing each and every fruit and vegetable into a certain position into the small containers I had brought to preserve the food. Next, I grab water, some candy, and various chips that I thought you might like. I smile to myself, proud of my creation and effort. “Oh! I almost forgot..” I head towards the fridge once again, bending down to my freezer and pulling out a Cabernet Sauvignon, Moscato, and a Pinot Noir. I grab my phone out of my pocket and dial your number “Hey choso!…umm, I’m ready to be picked up whenever you are! I’m all set on my side” I say over the phone.
[Mod speaking: I apologize for the late response, I got called to come into work early today, and I’m just getting off my shift 😔 I promise I didn’t forget]
I get out of bed and look through my closet for my outfit for my picnic with Lex. I go through almost my whole wardrobe trying to find something and I settle on this for my outfit.
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I walk to my kitchen and grab the pastries I made for the picnic, some chips, and a few sodas if we decide not to drink the wine. Then I grab the Merlot and Sangiovese to put in the picnic basket I bought for today.
I feel my phone ring, see it's you and pick up. “Hey, baby, I just finished packing everything, and I'll be on my way in a few minutes. Send me your address, please, my love.”
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snnydcysarch · 9 months
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GETTING TO KNOW YOU .
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respond to the following prompts out of character . then , tag 9 others that you'd like to get to know a little bit better .
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ROLEPLAYER NAME: lumi
ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS: she / her
MUSE NAME: allison jade "sonny" munroe
PREFERRED COMMUNICATION: discord if we're mutuals, especially since tumblr eats my ims
EXPERIENCE: i want to say 2012??? i was a baby and should have NOT been here jkbsjgbrekj
PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE: yes
PET PEEVES & DEALBREAKERS: am i about to copy and paste my list since i have done this before? you bet your ass i am
plagiarism. whether it be a character or a plot idea, don't steal from anybody. people work hard on their characters and plots. i understand not many plots can be considered original, but everyone comes up with their own twists. stop stealing.
white washing. as a poc person, i have dealt with a lot of racism both irl and on tumblr. it was to a point i took two years off of this hellsite. so do not change a poc character into a white one. we've been erased as it is. and if you struggle trying to match a character to its race, do not feel afraid to ask someone for help on it. there are also websites that show you an fc's ethnicity as well.
not knowing where the line is between mun and muse. they are two completely different things.
god modding. for the love of all that is chuck, do not control what anyone else's character does!! we all control our own characters and that's how it should be. this also means doing something crazy that someone else may not approve of so if you want to do something, ask first.
force ship, simple as that
anon hate. seriously, that kind of negativity should never be welcomed nor encouraged. we all come here to escape as it is so just let everyone have fun writing.
people acting better than others. i'm sorry but no one is superior over anyone else.
lack of communication. we're all grown adults here. if there's a problem, just communicate.
trash talking someone's portrayal. realistically, we all interpret canon characters differently than others and that is okay. no one's version is right or wrong. no one is the "chanel/walmart" version.
shit stirrers. people don't get along sometimes, it happens. but don't be someone who fuels the fire between two people when all they wanted was to clear the air and talk.
rushing people to reply and shaming them when they don't reply fast enough. everyone has real lives and can't always get to it. now a simple nudge to let someone know they replied maybe weeks later just in case they missed it is fine. but if you're going to put pressure on people? stop.
using mental health as an excuse to be a shitty person. many people here suffer with different kinds of disorders and that is no one's fault. but that does not mean it's a pass to be a horrible person. you choose how to treat people around you. you choose whether or not to be a good person.
i can go on and on, but we don't have time for that so here is the rest of the list on the top of my head: self victimizing, ignoring triggers, trying to control your rp partners, bullying, not understanding that rping is a hobby and not a jobby, lack of respect for female characters both canon and oc, ect.
PLOTS OR MEMES: yes. honestly i like memes to start things off that lead into plots. so yes.
LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES: literally depends on my mood rkbsgjrekbg i like short things that lead into long things.
BEST TIME TO WRITE: when i'm not depressy and burnt out kjrebgsjkrbe
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE: we have similar traits? we both go out of our way to help people before we burn ourselves out. we both get treated poorly by the people we are close to fml. we're both very clumsy. she's also not afraid to stand up for herself, which i have been better at. she will fight for those she loves and same. we both can't flirt for shit. however, sonny is A LOT nicer than me.
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TAGGED BY : @lupaeus
TAGGING : YOU X 9
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closet-begone · 2 years
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I'm coming out as aromantic and demisexual.
* signs*
I'm almost 18. Theoretically, I've known concepts like dating and marriage exist, and they're the things you usually do. My parents always acted like "Of course one day you're going to get married and have a bunch of kids" and I've never questioned it.
In high school many of my fellow classmates starting dating. But I... didn't get it. And thought, as usual, that I will. Someday. Puberty just haven't hit hard enough yet.
Then I met this guy two years ago. He loves Math just as much as I do. We clicked. Became good friends. He got friendzoned.
He often gave hints. It took me roughly six months to understand exactly what he's trying to imply.
The idea of being with someone was so weird. "It's just because you don't have any experience", I told myself.
We started dating. Kind of. Though it's just him talking about how he loves me and we're going to be married one day.
But being academic partners with someone and dating them isn't nearly the same thing. I started to realize that slowly and painfully. The fact that he's not he guy I thought he is also pushed me to get the hell out of this "relationship".
We broke up. I promptly had an existential crisis.
It took another five months but now I know I'm not abnormal. There are a lot of people like me and let me tell you, it feels awesome.
(I'm so sorry for the rambling!)
HEY HAHA HEY ANON UHM VERY SORRY FOR RESPONDING LATE please ignore our lateness biggest apologizes !! /gen OH MY GOD YOUR SO VERY VALID AND COOL !! yeah the normalization of amatonormativity sucks [ no hate on anyone who experiences it btw /gen its just the lack of amatopunk teachings in society ]  your path was rough but im glad you were able to get through it !! your so very strong and brave and im so proud of you :] its okay !! ramblings are always welcome in our blog , hope you have a good day anon and again !! really sorry for how long this took !!  mod spacedog
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multiplefandomsblog · 4 years
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your roommate hcs are so cute, can i request for naib, demi, tracy, andrew, kurt, patricia, and victor?
:0 holy crap yes! I’m so glad you enjoyed the roommate hcs!! Me and the other mods hope you enjoy these! Thank you for requesting :))
(i added melly because why not? lmao hope you don’t mind.)
Part 1!
Naib Subedar
This man deadass didn’t know you were living with him
Even when people told him about it, he wasn’t rlly paying attention and didn’t rlly care
Your stuff in his room? He thought it was his or someone just broke into his room and left it there
When he saw you on the toilet however, he just freaked out.
“Why the hell are you shitting in my room!?” “Your room? I’ve been living here for 2 months!”
Once he found out you lived with him, he made sure you knew what was his and what was yours
also, since he’s very protective of his things-- you being one of them-- he would totally get jealous if he caught you tallking to someone that wasn’t him.
he would probably give you the silent treatment and act like a pissy baby
He hates it when you touch his stuff
especially his photos, the photos were special to him because they were of him and his army friends.
You’d sometimes catch him looking at the photos with a longing in his eyes, it was highkey sad.
having you live with him meant lots and lots of training
he made sure you were always prepared for matches and that you don’t get downed early
when you got downed early however, He would scold you but he would still rescue you anyways because he’s soft
“You’re such an idiot, you’d better do better next time! Or else I’ll kick your ass.” 
one time he got cocky while kiting because you were watching him
he forgot to turn on his elbow pads and face palmed into the wall.
“...You saw nothing.” He turned around, a bit woozy from hitting his head on a wall. He flipped the hunter off before stumbling wooshing away
When you first get to know naib, he’d probably come off as intimidating and menacing
but once you get to know him--the real him--, you start to understand that even though he may be tough on you, its because he wants you to be the best
he has good intentions
During matches he’d let you handle yourself and made sure you didn’t rely on him too much
One time you needed to shower but you ran out of your shampoo so you used his.
When he questioned you, you simply responded “What? You don’t need it anyways, you’re bald!”
He didn’t rescue you the next round.
should’ve seen that coming
though he forgives you when you braid his luscious long existent hair for him
Kurt Frank
The amount of times you almost stepped on this man is astronomical.
he would constantly be in his tiny form because he would lose a lot of his things
his tiny form helped him find his things easily
Though when you first moved in with him, you had no idea what his ability was
so when you first saw a tiny version of your roommate you thought he was just a weird doll
until you heard him say a tiny, “Hey can you move your ginORMOUS foot? You’re stepping on my book.”
You fucking screeched and took off your shoe to try and kill him
“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”
After he explained to you about his ability you calmed down a bit and spared this tiny man but only this time!
Frank loves books, he probably filled your shared rooms with stacks on stacks of books
You’d often see him tiny, waving at you while you’re decoding
Once you overhead Kurt arguing with First Officer over who was the rightful owner of some sort of treasure map
They fought for days,
kurt would constantly complain about it to you
turns out it was just a game on the back of a Cereal box.
sorry this is short like kurt
Tracy Reznik
Would be a little awkward at first, but the awkwardness slowly fades away when you both make bad jokes
she gives me childhood best friend vibes
Has her doll sitting in the corner of your shared room room, it’s lifeless eyes scare the living shit out of you in the dark you try not to make eye contact, afraid it’ll curse you or smth
if she was mad at you she would move the bot in a way that looked like it was flipping you off you off in your direction before you went to bed.
Always making little robot things that are super fun to play with
Loves sharing her things. Has no problem with it
you wanna wear her clothes? sure
you want to wear her underwear? evEN BETTER-
Pulling all nighters, trying to get her machines to work like how she wanted it to work.
Would live off of kraft Mac n cheese and junk food in the modern day
Pretty hyper, chugs pink monster energy drinks while pulling all nighters, also, in the modern day
would probably be a bruh girl
Her room is a mess, covered with blueprints and scrap metal
her room is practically a safety hazard
Sometimes she dresses her doll up a bit, putting wigs or her old clothes on it (which scares you half to death)
Once she made her doll dress up like her
and you almost went up to it to ask what it wanted for dinner.
Has a photo of her and her dad
You never wanted to bring it up, worried it might make her upset :(
Sometimes she’d feel really guilty about being downed in the first 30 seconds
please comfort her, she feels super bad
She always relies on you to rescue her
She gets really happy and thankful when you body block for her but she still gets a bit concerned when you do it randomly
“i wasn’t even kiting-” “Protecc the mecc.”
Demi Bourbon
Always out at the bar
Smells like alcohol constantly
tipsy 24/7
she’s never 100% sober
You have to hold her hair out of her face when she comes back to your shared room to hurl
Likes bringing back hard vodka or weird flavoured alcohols back for you guys to get wasted try together
Room is bit cluttered, but she doesn’t have much in her room since she’s always out in bars or matches
Usually latches onto you like a parasite when she’s drunk.
it gets a bit awkward when her face is a bit close to yours,
“Are we about to kiss right now-? BLeurghgrhgherrgh.”“...*audible sigh*”
You’d go to her expecting her to heal you like a normal person but no
instead she shoves dovlin down your throat
She likes to do your makeup, and always adds a matching beauty mark
unless you don’t wear makeup, then she’d ask you to do hers 
always loves how she looks afterwards
more than sometimes demi would get into bar fights, 
so you know she’s about to throw hands when she starts takes off her earrings-
10/10 would fight for you <3
She’s gives me cool wine aunt vibes
Probably a lesbian too (check out our Demi smut fic ;))
Or bi, idk
Just straightn’t
She’s really good at hyping you up, especially when you’re taking shots
“CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG-”
Andrew Kreiss
Would be very shy at first, opens up a little when you get to know him
Totally a night owl, can’t sleep at night from all the guilt and “what if’”s
if you see this baby awake at night, hug him, he really needs it
You’ve never seen the other side of his face
How does he see with hair in his eyes?
He’s albino, which is super dope
Sometime you fear he’s thinking about burying you
You always see him thwacking Luca with his shovel
Barely talks
Room is moderate
He doesn’t want you to find out too much about him
He may seem bland, but he loves sweet food
You’d bake him cookies and other sweets
He’d act as if he’s not embarrassed and brush it off
“Are you blushing?”“No, I-I’m sunburnt.” “On your face?” “....I stare into the hot red sun sometimes because it eases me.”
to keep his lie going, every time he catches you staring at him he would fry his eye balls by staring into the sun until you left
partially the reason why he can’t see well
When he’s not looking, you stare at him while he’s eating the stuff you made because he looks so happy :’)
One time you found him down in the dumps so you made him a cup of coffee, and when you handed it to him you said-
“Depresso espresso?”
*sniff* ”..are you oka-” “IM NOT CRYING, YOU ARE”
he actually cried
it was such a nice gesture(?), that he started ugly crying
You’d ask him if he wanted hugs during matches when you see him get stressed
He’d be flushed and kinda confused
hug... him? why tho lmao
he’d definitely agree tho, to be fair, with some hesitation 
if y’all ever cuddled in bed, i feel like he’d be a little spoon
poor boy needs the comfort, he wouldn’t mind if you wanted to be little spoon tho
he just wants to be close to you
Victor Grantz
You love playing with his dog, Wick
Super nice and polite, but a little guarded
The type to be too afraid to call people out when they do something wrong but would totally trash them in his head
You write him little letters everyday and leave them on his bed to make him happy :))
He’d a be a little spoon
Wick would always join you guys while cuddling
Kisses would be soft and gentle
Usually sends you the first letter in matches
Loves to cuddle
He bb 🥰
You always get him a birthday present AND a Christmas present
You also get a gift for Wick
He loves giving you surprise hugs
Likes to read with you while cuddling
Literally a cinnamon roll
Once he was eating a cinnamon roll
And you whispered
“C a n n i b a l i s m .”
He was very confused
and kind of scared- were you going to eat him?
Patricia Dorval
Room always smells like herbs
She could literally smoke weed and you’d think it’s some magical healing herb
it magically makes you feel better
Always there to stun the hunter when you’re ballooned
The mature one
Her room is organized, with boxes labeling what herbs and magic stuff that are in them
You were cooking dinner for the day and you accidentally used one of her fancy herbs in your soup
She didn’t realize until she tried the soup
She wasn’t mad just disappointed
She lectured you on how you shouldn’t touch her stuff or use it for cooking
Gotta admit tho, the soup was pretty good
she acts like the mom everyone wishes they had
totally the type to be like, “dude we should think this through.” before doing something risky
and then five seconds later, “cowABUNGA MY DUDES”
one time she caught kreacher leaving the mens washroom without washing his hands
seeing as she was the mother of this manor, she had to protect her children from diseases
so she yeeted her monkey skull at kreachers head, cleanly knocking him out
and everybody cheered.
Melly Plinius
When you heard melly was going to be your roomie, you couldn’t have been more excited.
you finally had a victim for the many insect pick up lines!
So you decided to make some good first impressions by waiting for her in your room.
so when she arrived to your room and greeted you, you happily greeted her back, and slipped in the pick up line.
“Hello, my name is Melly. I believe I will be your ro-?”“Yeah nice to meet you too, say, what do bees make?”
She kinda thought you were a bit rude so much for first impressions
“...Erm, honey?” she replied hesitantly
“YES DEAR?” 
... okay maybe you weren’t thaaaat bad.
after that she kind of developed a teensy crush on you 
so it was hard living with you because of her crush, since she was constantly flustered 
you loved her reactions, she constantly got red.
it was funny watching her try to keep her cool and fail.
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rabbits-of-habit · 3 years
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Howdy again! I hope ur doing well also idk if I asked this HC already (I think I asked 2 people this HC but I’m not sure which one 😅) so I apologize if I’m repeating myself. But can I have an HC w both the EMH & TT boys where their so is in art school (specifically animation major). And their s/o needs them as a reference for an assignment? Idk the thought a few of them having to sit there in a complicated ass pose for like 2 hours while their s/o draws them or animates them is hilarious to me. 😂 cuz I know damn well some of them would have no patience for that!
You did not ask me so you're all good! Also im doing awesome. I got to go to the zoo yesterday and I'm still pumped by it. -Mod Dirk
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Evan:
When you asked him if you could use him as a reference he said yes absolutely.
He would try pulling some manly pose like flexing his muscles. To which you would roll your eyes and laugh.
"What? I have to show off my muscle tone so you can get it right!"
He can't stay in the pose. 5 mins in he asks to switch poses.
Sad for you he does that every 5 mins.
You finally have to just stand him straight up and make him wait.
You get a c+ because most of your time was spent getting him still than using him as a reference.
Vinnie:
You went to him and it took a bit of resistance. Only a few pretty pleases and he caved.
He sits like a normal person. Always the lawful neutral.
"Is sitting okay? Or do you need me to stand? How long will we be doing this?"
He continues to ask questions and partially distract you.
He cannot handle a quiet room I am so sorry.
You get a B because you were able to get the work done but not focus fully.
Jeff:
You made sure to hit him in a moment he wasn't busy with Alex. It was a definite yes of course.
The tamest boy out of the three.
Can stay still and be in a quiet room.
Just happy to be able to spend time with you like this to be honest.
Also happy to have a moment of fuckin peace.
"This is the nicest break I've ever had."
You get an A and your animation studio prof shows it to other classes as an example.
Habit:
This asshole only said yes because his ego.
Has knives on a belt and an axe in his hands.
He can stay still but will he shut up? Absolutely not.
"You better make sure to get every angle right"
That is indeed a thinly veiled threat.
He also had an exception it had to be a small animation about him completely.
You got an A but only because the teacher was freaked out by the animation. And Habit threatened them.
Noah:
Oh boy...You love him to death but it was kind of hard to get him to agree.
He knew he wouldn't be able to stay still very well and tried to tell you no so you wouldn't waste your time.
He stands awkwardly and stiff.
Hes trying his best okay? He's never done this before.
"Well how am I supposed to stand?" To which you respond with, "Like a normal human?"
He doesn't move on purpose but he twitches and shakes. He cannot physically stay still.
You get a B+ and you start using him for references more often.
Kevin:
This boy was so flattered when you asked him.
Honestly? Super excited and was just waiting for the moment you could use him as a reference.
But, he asks you a lot of questions.
"Do you think you'll get a good grade? How long have you been doing animation you've never told me before."
He just wants to learn more about you and saw this as the perfect opportunity.
Of course you answer them. But you only get half done.
You get a C and a week to redo. But you tell him you got an A.
Firebrand:
Cocky. Said he knew you'd ask him eventually so sure.
"How long do we do this for? I mean I have all eternity."
He stands less awkward and more confident.
Doesn't twitch but does like teleporting away when you aren't looking to do something else.
You catch him once. He laughs and promises he won't do it again. He does several times more but you don't catch him again.
You get an A- and boy he's fucking proud.
The observer:
Think Habits ego and Firebrands cocky attitude and you see why he agreed to this so fast.
He crosses his arms and does a wacky pose.
Which would be great.
But everytime you look back up he's in a slightly different pose.
"I'm not doing anything!"
You get an A because like Habit, he scares the shit out of your prof when he sees you almost got a D.
Milo:
Flustered but said yes because you asked so sweetly.
Hes tame and good at sitting still.
Has idle conversation with you the entire time. It's like a nice date.
"Can I see it when you're done?"
Of course you show him and he has stars in his eyes.
You get a B+ and Milo asks you all the time if you need a reference now.
Prebrand (As a treat)
Agrees to agree.
Cannot stay still.
Forgets why he's there so you have to consistently remind him.
Talks so fast you can't even understand what he's saying.
Do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.
You don't even finish the project and you get an F. :( Sorry babe.
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cherrybracelets · 4 years
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come down [s. reid x reader]
words: 2.6k | warnings: 18+ content, smut including oral (m receiving) and unprotected sex. please do not interact with this fic if you are under 18.
requests | masterlist
going undercover at the club is less than ideal, especially when it involves dancing and grinding with spencer reid
an- this was a request and i absolutely WENT with it so i hope u enjoy this nonnie also this is my first spencer fic and im super nervous so if u like it pls lmk and if you have requests pls send them and check out my masterlist for a playlist with all my fic titles songs lol thx 
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You hated it from the moment you walked in the crowded, poorly lit basement they called a nightclub. It was hot, a humid kind of heat that filled your lungs and left a stickiness on your exposed flesh. The lights were strobing, the music pumping loudly as the bass shook the floor. You felt nauseous, exhausted, and most of all, frustrated that Hotch stuck you here with Reid.
“I don’t really understand why Hotch would send me to this kind of... place... instead of Morgan,” Reid shouted to you over the loud music, looking around anxiously.
“Morgan looks like a cop. We need this guy to approach us, he’s looks for...” you trailed off, trying to find the right words to tell Spencer he wasn’t quite nearly as intimidating as Morgan.
“No, I get it, the unsub likes to be more powerful than the men. He picks scrawnier, weaker ones, like me.” Spencer smiled and spun around for you, trying to show off his thinner physique. You giggled at him and took a long sip of soda water, hoping to god this night would end soon.
“We can’t sit here all night, he won’t notice us over here,” you shrugged, letting Spencer know the unfortunate news that at some point, and probably soon, you’d have to go out and dance.
“I know, we have to seem fun, adventurous, I got it. I just... I’m not the dancing at the club type of guy,” he smiled awkwardly, tucking a loose strand of hair behind his ear.
“It’s easy, trust me. It’s just about feeling your body move with the music. Will you let me show you?” You asked, holding out a hand to him. He grabbed onto it nervously, following behind as you dragged him onto the dance floor.
He was still at first, awkwardly trying to avoid the other clubbers as they danced around him. He watched the closeness of them, the way they moved their bodies in sync with another.
“See, it’s not too hard, right?” You asked, pointing to the crown. “We can do that. Just blend in.”
Spencer modded, but didn’t say a word, just continued to watch, moving closer to you and moving his hips slightly with the music. You watched his body start to move, and he pulled you closer to him, your skin touching, your faces only inches apart. His body moved into yours, turning you around and pressing your butt into him. He grabbed onto your hips and pushed you into him, revealing a surprisingly large cock pressing against you.
He trailed his lips down your neck, pecking you so slightly it left you with goosebumps once his lips departed. Your hands were behind your head, tussled in his soft hair, playing with the curls and tugging slightly when he danced into you. He smelled like honey and mint, and the smell of freshly cleaned laundry still clung to his clothes. He turned you back around to face him, your faces now pressed to each other, hands trailing up and down.
“Kiss me,” he whispered, his right hand now grasped firmly on your jaw, pointing your head up towards him. “It’ll make it seem more real. Kiss me.”
You nodded in obedience, unable to resist this Spencer. You had never seen him like this before, not once in the full year you had been working for the BAU. He was confident, sexy... he was right in front of you this whole time and you had no idea.
You softly put your lips onto his, still unsure of kissing him. He didn’t give you time to adjust, and picked up the pace of the kiss, moving his lips aggressively. His hands were on your ass, squeezing tight with dominance, showing everyone on the dance floor that you were his. He bit down playfully on your lips, kissed up and down your neck and your jaw, your arms wrapped lazily around his neck, pulling him closer.
You forget where you were for a while, losing yourself in this moment with Spencer. It wasn’t until you happened to glance at your watch and realize the time.
“Shit, Spence!” You pushed away from him, panic overcoming you. “We’re almost five minutes past 11. If he was here, he’s gone now!” You groaned, storming off the floor and back over to the tables.
“Hey, woah, don’t worry!” Spencer said, rushing over to you and placing a hand on your back to comfort you. “I’ve been watching this place all night, there were no other couples here tonight that matched his MO except us. He wasn’t here tonight.”
“You promise? I can’t mess this up Spence.”
“I promise. Let’s call Hotch, okay?” He put a hand on your face and you remembered back to the dance floor, the dancing and kissing, and you jumped back a bit.
“What’s wrong?” He asked, turning his head sideways as if he didn’t think twice about what you two were just doing five minutes ago.
“Uh... nothing... sorry,” you stuttered, shaking your head and motioning for him to call Hotch. Reid walked to the hallway so he could make the call, and you stood exhausted at the table, your heart racing from all of the emotion pounding through you. You tried to shake the memory of him, how good it felt to be with him in that moment. How good of a kisser he was, how nice it felt to have his arms around you, his body pressed against yours.
You had always had a little crush on Reid, you were always attracted to him, but never imagined anything like this. You never imagined wanting him to take you back home and absolutely wrecking you. And that’s all you could think about. How good his lips would feel on every part of your body, the large cock he was hiding and how much you wanted to touch it.
Your thoughts were interrupted when you saw Spencer walking back from his call with Hotch, waving to you. He came up to the table with a skip in his step, clearly not affected at all by you two grinding and making out for twenty minutes.
“You ready to get out of here? Hotch is sending the car, he said we could go back to the hotel.” He said, motioning for you to follow him outside. You just nodded quietly, and followed behind, leaving as much distance as you could while still seeing him.
The car was waiting when you walked out, and Spencer was already at the door. He opened in widely and smiled at you.
“After you, beautiful,” he motioned, holding his arm out for you. You just giggled again, the same awkward and charming Spencer back again. You loved him just like this. But you were a major fan of the other, sexier side of him as well.
The ride to the hotel was only a few minutes, and it consisted of mostly silence between the two of you, and a random song playing on the radio. Spencer was checking his emails, which you were pretty sure was just an excuse so he didn’t have to talk to you, because it would be a really weird time to actually be checking your emails.
The car pulled up to the entrance of the hotel and you thanked the driver, opening the door on your side and stepping out. Spencer followed quietly, still not saying a word. You walked into the lobby and started heading towards the elevators, but felt him start to lag behind.
“I’ll, uh, be up in a minute. I just need to make a call,” he said, waving his phone to you.
“Okay, is everything okay?”
“Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow, Reid,” you smiled, not wanting to walk away for a moment.
“See you,” he waved, looking away after a few seconds. You walked to the elevator, impatiently pressing the button, wanting to go to bed and forget this night as soon as possible. You knew Spencer would never mention it again, but you wouldn’t be able to look at him without thinking about... all of him.
The elevator ride felt long and infinite, you were only on floor six but you could swear it felt like you passed a hundred floors before it stopped and let you off. You walked to your door, fumbling through your bag trying to find your room key. You walked into your room aggressively and closed the door behind you. You took a deep breath once you were alone, trying to center your thoughts.
You took a few steps forward, deciding if you should shower the night away or go straight to bed. You still felt the air of the club clung to you, and knew you wouldn’t be able to fall asleep until you washed it all off. You threw your shoes off in the corner, shuffling around in your suitcase for something to wear to sleep. You heard a knock on the door and rolled your eyes. A knock at this time only meant something was discovered on the case and you hate to sacrifice another night of sleep. And tonight, you really needed a night off.
You walked to the door, frustration seeping out of you with every step. You undid the lock and opened the door, expecting to see Hotch. But it wasn’t Hotch, it was Reid, a look of contemplation pasted across his face.
“Hey,” he mumbled, leaning on the doorway.
“Hi,” you responded sharply, trying to avoid staring at his lips.
“I called Morgan,” he said.
“Uh, okay... about what?” You replied, confusion lingering in your voice.
“You.”
“What about me?” You said, straightening yourself up.
“Apparently I didn’t handle tonight too well.” He looked apologetic, playing with his hands as he spoke to you.
“What do you mean?”
“Well... I probably should’ve done this...” He stared at you for a few seconds, his eyes peering beyond you, into you. He wrapped his hands around your lower back, pulling you into a kiss. You were surprised at first, your arms in the air trying to find their place. But you cupped his face, pulling his kiss into you, leaving no space between your two bodies.
You pulled him into the room, the door slamming loudly behind you. You felt his hands start fumbling with the zipper of your dress, trying to give himself access to your body. You tugged at the hem of his tshirt, your fingers moving up his stomach, lightly grazing each muscle they passed. He squirmed under you, your light touch tickling him. You felt him smiling through your kisses, trying to avoid laughing as you toyed with his flesh.
“Do you want this?” He asked with a serious tone, breaking your kisses to get your consent.
“Yes, I do. Do you?” You asked, pushing his curls behind his ear to see his face.
“I really do. I’ve wanted this for a while.” He smiled to you, pulling you closer to him and just holding you, enjoying each other for a moment. There weren’t many times in this life with your job where you could stop and be perfectly content with everything that was happening. But here, this moment with him, you truly felt content, safe.
His lips starting trailing up your neck, breaking the only PG moment of the night. You started toying with his belt buckle, and moved your hands down to his groin. He was already hard, and you dragged your fingers up the length of him. He shuddered into your, anticipation flowing through him. You pushed him back towards the bed, wasting no more time as you ripped his shirt over his head.
“Take your dress off,” he commanded, and you nodded obediently, pulling at the zipper and revealing your body. He took you in for a moment, his eyes trailing over you, paying special attention to each curve.
He starting taking his pants off, touching himself through his boxers as he got comfortable on the bed. You got on top of him, grinding your hips into his hard cock and nibbling at his jaw. He messed with the clasp on your bra before undoing it, allowing your breasts to spill out into his chests. His hands travelled up your torso to cup them, squeezing slightly and playing with your nipples.
“I want you in my mouth,” you whispered into his ear, grinding your center onto the base of his dick. He nodded his head, pushing the base of your head down to him. You took his length out of his boxers and ran your fingers up the length. He was large and thick, a perfect pink tip. You brought your lips up to the tip and kissed it slightly, warming him up to your mouth.
You wrapped your tongue around the head, flicking sit quickly in your mouth. He bucked under you, tangling his fingers in your hair and pulling at you with each movement of your tongue. You started to take more of him in your mouth, going deeper until his tip was hitting the back of your throat. He moaned and pushed your head down deeper, wanting to fit his whole length inside of you.
“I want you to ride me, (Y/N).” He said, making you sit up and stop playing with him for a minute. He sat up against the headboard and motioned for you to come to his lap. You crawled over to him on your knees, and he cupped your chin and pulled you to kiss him, your mouth still raw from his cock.
You moved yourself onto his lap and hovered your center over him, grabbing it into your hand and sliding his length into you. You were right, and putting him all in you at once made you wince. You dug your nails into his shoulder and he held you tightly as you adjusted to him. Once you were comfortable, you started rocking your hips back and forth, slowly digging into him.
Reid rolled his head back in pleasure, the feeling of being inside of you, knowing he had fully taken you over. He had his hands dug tight into your hips, pulling you deeper and faster every second. He was biting on your neck, shoulder, chest, moving his mouth across you as you bounced into him. You felt yourself getting closer to climax, your body preparing for release.
“You’re so fucking pretty,” he whispered to you, pushing your hair back from your face as you moved into him. “Do you like it when I fuck you?”
“I do. You’re gonna make me cum,” you moaned, moving more sloppily as you were losing yourself
to pleasure. As soon as you started to hit your peak, you felt his body shuddering as well, knowing he was close. You both finished within seconds of each other, collapsing back on the wedding in exhaustion.
“So... is this gonna be a thing now, or?” Reid asked, furrowing his brow at you.
“Why is that the first thing you would ask?” You joked, pushing him slightly. He wrapped his arm around you and pulled you close, kissing you.
“I could use someone like you... to help me wind down during these cases. It can be a bit... much.”
“Yeah, sometimes you need to literally bang your frustrations out. I’m totally down to bang it out with you,” you laughed, playfully fighting with Reid in between kisses.
“Well now that you worded it like that I definitely want nothing to do with you,” he laughed, pulling you into him and holding you tightly until you both fell asleep.
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is-nini · 4 years
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Albedo x reader (school AU)
Sweet relationship
A (h/c) colour girl sigh and look around the cafeteria, no sign of her boyfriend, whatsoever. She doesn't really mind that he's always being called by the teacher, he is one of the most clever students they have but..i feels lonely without him at times.
You keep poking your food and place your head on the palm of your hand trying to not get bored or lonely in this time of the day because after this the material of today's subject will wreck people's brain and albedo once told you that "food is important for your brain too so eat properly or else this material will not stuck to your head".
He said the exact word.
"Hah....".
Sighing again, kind of missing your boyfriend you decided to finally eat your food, when you're just about to eat you heard someone calling your name.
"(Y/nnnnn)".
You look to the direction of the voice and saw sucrose going closer and closer to you with a shy smile on her face. Your mood turns upside dow and you wave back to her with more energy.
"HELLO SUCROSE!".
You shouted, which gain some people's attention. You clear your throat , apologize and sit back down but this time sucrose is here to save your day from boredness!.
She scoot closer to you and gave you some kind of letter that has a little star on the middle of it. That's when you know that it's from albedo.
"He ask me to pass this to you".
Sucrose whisper to you which makes your heat beats up and smile back at her.
"He would not stop worry about you, and would constantly talks about you. He really miss you the teachers explanation is just a way for him to get his mind off you, but he failed miserably".
Sucrose whisper to you and giggle knowing that it's what you've been looking for the whole day.
The only time you both get to spend time is before class and the rest of the day the teacher is calling albedo as if they are his girlfriend... And yes you are salty about it.
You smile back at sucrose and hold her hand while looking at her with sparkling eyes.
"Thankyouu sucroseee you're the bestest friend!".
You exclaim, not loud enough for people to complain. Sucrose found herself shying away from your touch as she heard your compliments. And so...the compliment war began between the both of you until the bell rings.
"Thankyou sucrose, see you soon!".
You wave back to her and saying your goodbyes because both of you, unfortunately have the different class. She wave back to you and mouthing you a quick 'goodbye' before running off to her class.
And now you're back to the withering (y/n) the usually sunshine full of energy (y/n) is now replaced with kind of gloomy and bored (y/n).
On the way to class you went passed the teachers office and saw that the door is opened a little bit, knowing that albedo is inside you decided to take a peak and look at him.
There he was in all his glory, sunshine is bright behind him, making him look like an angel with his face facing the door.
Albedo feel a presence that watches him, so his first thing to do is look at the door, there he saw you, peaking to look at him, he smiled brightly at you and straighten his body and wave at you a little, your face lights up by looking at him and so you wave to him back.
Ah.... albedo's heart just shattered at the amount of cuteness you have and his face turns pretty red but still keeping up that smile that you love even until now. The smile that's only presented just for your eyes only.
"Ahem... Miss (l/n).. stop disturbing the student here please and go back to your class".
...whops..the teacher caught you, you pout and look at albedo one last time with a sad smile and left to go to your class.
When albedo see your sad smile, his heart shattered with sadness this time. He is aware he has been busy...but the teacher keep calling him to do academic race here and there. He barely have time to see, touch and even call you, this time albedo is the one who sigh. He really wanted to talk and touch you... it's been too long.
It's... boring..on the class turn's out the material that the teacher taught is the one that albedo has taught you weeks ago and so because you don't get the chance to open the letter that albedo gave you, you decided to open it now.
Dear (y/n),
How are you? Im sorry i have been busy but i do hope that you have been take care if yourself. Did you eat? I hope you're not playing with you're food... Also don't worry about me, the teaher has been nice enough to buy me food and drinks.
The lesson today will be hard..but I'm sure you'll be fine. I have taught you about this weeks ago after all.
To be honest i didn't thought that it will take me this long... I hope you don't mind waiting for me love. I will make sure to make it up for you okay? Until then wait for me angel.
Love.
Albedo <3
You read the entire message with a smile on your face, him calling you love and angel really makes your heart beats so fast.. he even put a cute little heart... He is truly the best boyfriend anyone could ask.
You smile while think about albedo again... Day dreaming until the bell rings, meaning that it's time to go home. The sigh of relief is heard all throughout the classroom.
"It's your turn to do the cleaning today okay?".
One of your classmate reminded you, your response is just smile and nod at her not even bothering to give her a responde.
Knowing you are in a little bad mod she just smile and pat your shoulder and left you alone in the classroom.
"Hah...".
You sigh once again after putting all of your books inside your bag you proceed to clean the board.
The hardest part. The board is just...tall.. usually your other friend is suppose to do this but he is sick so now you have to do it alone.
You jump and try to use the small stair everything you could think of but all of the results is negative. When you're about to put the eraser back to it's place another hand overlap yours and took the eraser off your hand, startled by the presence you look back and saw albedo with a smirk on his face that makes your face heats up.
"Cannot reach the high parts dear?".
Albedo whisper in your ear and giggle when he saw how red your faces are and kiss your lips, you can feel him smiling and so you kiss back, the kiss last for a while and then you pull away to take some air and pout.
"I could reach the high parts....".
You say with a heavy amount if hesitation on your voice but albedo just laugh it off and peppering your face with kisses.
"Sure, sure you could".
He says, giggling at the end, you just roll your eyes but you smile and giggle with him anyway.
"Why are you here? Are you done with your busy clever people stuff?".
You asked, curiosity lacing your voice. Albedo just stare at you with a sad smile and then pull you close and stroke your head, he move his head towards your ear.
"The teacher has a surprise stuff to take care of".
He whisper in your ear while stroking your head slowly, Albedo let out a sigh and kiss you again. He smile at you and take your backpack from the seat.
"Let's get you home shall we?".
Albeda said, while holding his hand out for you to grab, you smiled at him and take his hand. You try to take your backpack from his grip but he is quick to dodge your hand, you look at him pouting a little and then started to whine.
"Albebeeeeee give meeee!! My backpack!".
You say while trying to reach your hand to take your backpack. Hearing his nickname albedo laugh and pinch your cheek.
"Albebe? Who is albebe, hmm?".
Albedo laugh at the end of the sentence, amused by the adorable little antics that you make.
"Albebe is you of course! And the best part isssss onlyyy i can call you that".
You explain, causing him to laugh more. You both are starting to make your way to your house, on the way there the road just filled with laughter, teasing at times, but from a stranger's perceptive they can see the l-o-v-e whafting through the air. Everything about both of you is sweet and wholesome and the both of you will not have it any other way.
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Duchy Conversation 4
[27/03, 4:29 AM GMT - 27/03, 6:13 AM GMT]
[The following transcript details the conversation is between one of the Crown ARG Discord members and Duke on Twitter]
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Donti: “Hi! How was your day?
Its me again :)c
((If its late or youre sleeping dw about responding :p))”
Duke: “Forgive my tardiness, my embroidery was enchanting me so that my ears laid unaware!
How do you do, Donti? It is the Duke speaking. I must say, my sister has quite the opinion of you!”
Donti: “Oh its great to talk to you again Duke :D I hope I left a good impression! Is your embroidery going well?”
Duke: “It is going quite splendid! The Crown truly does spoil us, giving my sister and I such rich-coloured thread. Truly we are fortunate for his generosity and love.”
Donti: “Ohh! Good colors always make embroidery fun! What are you making?”
Duke: “I must ask though - as a sheep yourself why must you graze on such nimble hearts? Wolves are not supposed to concern themselves with the opinions and thoughts of prey such as yourselves but Prince is but a pup, why must you all be so cruel? I am quite interested in the answer, you see, because it is I who saw the tear tracks down faers face and I who heard the drums of despair in this household.”
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Donti: “Oh..
Are you talking about blunt anon?
All of us are very angry at them, whoever they are.
I promise they do not reflect us as a whole.”
Duke: “To answer your previous question however, I am making a rose for Baroness. I do feel horribly for how I was unable to aid her with her spoiled dress so I do hope this gift soothes her and shows that there is no ill will from I to her.”
Donti: “Thats nice! Baroness loves flowers and nature! Thats super thoughtful of you. Im sure she'll love it :D
But back to Prince... Are fae ok? we're worried about faem.”
Duke: “"Blunt anon" is quite a peculiar name I must say. Indeed that is the scoundrel I speak of. It is wonderful to hear that you all are not that way - frankly, if I suspected you were the one to make Prince cry I would have simply neglected to respond, as is customary when one deals with enemies of one's family. Prince is currently recuperating, poor thing. A bleeding heart only leads to death and yet fae still has not learned that yet. I do wish you to send out a warning if you would be so kind - do let anyone know that if they ever treat Duchess in such a matter they will swiftly come to regret it. A gentleman does not revel in violence but she is my most dearest sister.
I thank you for your kind words however, I do indeed hope she enjoys my gift so - do not tell the others but she may be the only one in this family I can truly connect to on an intellectual setting, besides my sister of course.”
Donti: “Ill tell people not to be rude to Duchess. Not that they would.. Im pretty sure they like her :D”
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Donti: “"Blunt anon" came when people would send... Rude asks to people. It was originally just blunt questions. But it escalated to... What happened to Prince :( We're trying to find them, but theres only so much we can do
Oh wait! have other people reached out to you all yet?”
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Donti: “I know some of my good friends have talked to duchess.. But not to you yet!”
Duke: “Ah, indeed people have reached out and only Duchess was there to greet them. It pains me of course but I found myself with activities to do throughout the day. Schooling is still important to Duchess and I so that took up quite a bit of time - do not tell Crown but I was indeed spending time taking in the beauty of ballet instead of working purely on my Latin. Tea time too is an important affair, especially for I, and then it is always important to spend time with ones sister! So alas, you have been the only one I have graced with my thoughts and feelings out of your crowd of sheep.”
Donti: “Hm. I like the name sheep... Its a little kinder than "plebs"
You seems to like a lot of.. Elegant things! (I hope thats the right word) like embroidery and ballet! Where did you learn such refined taste :oc”
Duke: “Where did I learn such refined tastes? They have always been apart of me, you must understand. The Crown helped unlock those parts that I kept buried deep away and help nurture them. Oh such a brute I used to be! No care for the finer things in life, only one-upping my beloved sister. To think I used to slide in the dirt just for a measly point - bah! Truly I am in much debt to the Crown, for without him I still may have been a unruly fool.”
Donti: “... You played sports before you met Crown?”
Duke: “My sister and I both did, yes. It does not do well to dwell on such miserable times, Donti. This is why little one you are still a lamb.”
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Donti: “Oh! If you don't want to talk about it, you dont have to! ^u^ Friends dont force their friends to talk about uncomfortable things!
Hm... But if the plebs are sheep... And I am a lamb... Who is the shepard...?”
Duke: “How sweet! Tell me, little lamb, who do you think the shepherd is? Or if there is one at all?
If you are a little lamb then I must ask, is there a Mary to be found alongside you as well?”
Donti: “Hm.... I think from our perspective the shepherd, (or shepherds in this case) would be our lovely mods :D
But from your point of view? Its most definitely Crown!
Andd.. Im assuming a Mary is a leader... Little lambs follow Mary after all... Hm. A lot of us have shown leadership at some point in time or another! It really depends on the scenario!”
Duke: “Intriguing.
It depends on the scenario you say?”
Donti: “Yep! People take charge depending on whats happening, and sometimes theres no leadership, just us discussing and working through it!
Why do you ask?”
Duke: “When the flocks have gone and left and all there is is the gentle bobbing of the water, who do you trust to save you from drowning? While you thrash and scream and feel yourself weaken who do you look towards for guidance? When the taste of salt kisses the interior of your esophagus whose name is on the tip of your dying tongue?
For I, it is the Crown, as he saved my sister and I from exactly that fate - but who is it for you?”
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Donti: “Hm.. As a "flock" we all support one another.. That way, we can have multiple points of support! One person supporting that many people would be very stressful for that one person, you know”
Duke: “Of course.
Even then in a home all parts play along and join in the symphony but even with that, some are still load-bearing.
Who would be your load-bearing walls? All I ask is for some simple names, you understand. My curiosity is much like a cat, you see. Only satisfaction may truly bring me back.”
Donti: “Hm.. Are you asking for the names of my friends?
Well. There's Jack and Raeva, whom Duchess has spoken with, I think. Llyr, Ren, and Luna are also friends of mine. But I try not to burden them.
They are not so much load bearing pillars, but more of frail walls to shield me from the cold.”
Duke: “The drifting breezes that bring forth frost and tremors truly are such tiresome times. That you have shields is wonderful and it does ease my heart, but I do feel as though I must impart some wisdom else I'd be an unfavourable acquaintance - do try and build yourself a roaring inferno, little sheep.
Have so much fire around yourself that the winds cannot glance your way and even the Grand Archer Yi looks on with fear.”
Donti: “... And what if the fire burns me?
What then?”
Duke: “Do you think yourself unable to control the flames?”
Donti: “...Yes. Flames are temperamental, after all. When the inferno's dried up every last bit of water and eaten all of the wood, what will it turn to?”
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Duke: “You want the answer to be yourself, I can see you reaching for it with an outstretched palm. Here is the truth: you can quell flames easily with just a few words. You can breathe in the ash and let the smoke dissipate. You do not have to be burned.
Ah, but these are just fun matters to think about. Do not dwell on my words too much. I would hate for you to overthink just simple pondering.”
Donti: “...Ill take your words to heart, friend. Even if it's just banter.
How do you know this?”
Duke: “Do not cause yourself concern with such a thing. In case I have caused you to distress then please do take this video as repentance. Isn't it so lovely how she spins?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqejv_BQ7Zg”
Donti: “Oh! that is a pretty video.. I wonder how long it took for her to make it so effortless..?
Do you dance?”
Duke: “Such an exquisite form of art. The mastery she has put forth would bring others to shame and ruin. A true professional since birth. I myself do not dance in this way - my sister and I are well versed in the waltz and ballroom dance as is customary for our statuses - but ballet alludes me. Alas, if only that was the direction I chose for my life to go but no matter - I have embroidery, poetry and oil painting to keep me truly green from envy.”
Donti: “Those are very enviable hobbies! I imagine you're skilled at them too! As for ballet... Ive heard that in order to dance that way, one has to go through great pain. I'd hate for you to experience that”
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Duke: “A bit of suffering is always worth the pain if beauty and joy can be received in the end, do you not think?”
Donti: “As long as youre happy, I suppose!
I’m sorry to cut this short, but its getting late for me! And probably for you too ^^
I hope you rest well!”
Duke: “I hope you have humble dreams and a quiet rest. Goodnight, little lamb.”
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sapphic-sex-ed · 4 years
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(Relationship anon) Ok so this is probably gonna be super long but ive never been more lost in my entire life so: basically i met my first ever gf in May but we’ve been officially dating since July. Everything was absolutely perfect like it was movie-like passion and at first she was unsure and sent me lots of mixed messages but then i told her about my feelings and she agreed to date. Cue a beautiful summer of amazing sex and sweet romantic moments hell we even met each other’s parents (1/?)
(2/?) Then two weeks ago we went on holidays together like our first 48h or so together. And we had a GREAT time at least the first day. Then the second she acted all... off. Assured me it was nothing and not my fault. I stopped asking. Cue to me receiving a text 3 days later telling me ‘hey in fact i didn’t like two things you said. Sorry I couldn’t tell you irl I can never talk about my feelings’. I got... really worried and mad and confused bc the things in questions were no big deals but
(3/?) I still apologized and she recognized they were tuny things and that she doesn’t understand why she reacted that badly. Cue to us trying to resolve this thru texts back and forth for days with no results. I propose we meet irl bc i hate talking thru texts especially about serious matters. On Monday I go there we finally talk she repeats the same things assures me she is not mad at me and that it’s not the first time shes reacted that way in a relationship and that she doesn’t feel
The same as before. I ask about what? She replies everything I say me included? She kinda agrees but « she still wants me close » but she’s not sure about dating. I react... badly bc i am still very much in love with her and she told me was too so how did Two awkward remarks ruin the love she had for me? She relies she doesn’t know that she hates herself. After a painfully apathetic discussion we come to the conclusion we take « a break ». I then leave her home in a hurry bc i don’t wanna (4/?)
(5/?) cry in front of her. She says her biggest fear is hurting me I reply congrats you did bc i am so fucking hurt. we agree she would tell me on Sunday if she wants to ‘try again’ or not. And ive just been so fucking lost since bc she told me aaalll summer ‘i love you sm im afraid you’re gonna leave any minute ive never been happier than with you’ etc and it took one (1) minor argument for her to bail... her friends tell her she can’t have a serious relationship. And i know she’s dated
I waited with replying to this because I thought there were more parts coming, but there’s nothing in our inbox. Tumblr might have eaten it. I’ll respond to this tho.
First of anon, I’m sorry you’re in this situation, it dousn’t seem fun at all. 
Secondly, none of this lies with you. 
She was the one telling you she loved you all summer. She was the one not communicating properly when something bothered her. She was the one who either stopped loving you the same because of two remarks, or is lying to you about that. She is the one with a history of not doing well in relationships.
I don’t know your ages. If she’s young it can have to do with immaturity. But it can also be, regardless of age, that she has an insecure attachment style or even some issues with mental health. Neither of those make her a bad person, by the way. But it can be reassuring to know that you are not to blame here. If she’s just immature she’ll hopefully grow out of it. If it’s the attachment or mental health she can seek counseling and work on herself. 
But you aren’t to blame for her actions or emotions. You just had bad luck. 
If she decides she wants to try again, there are some things you should keep in mind. 1) Do you wan’t to go through this again? She’s said herself this is a pattern for her, it’s likely it’ll happen again. 2) Do you feel you could be comfortable in a relationship with her after this? 3) If you take her back and this happens again, will you be able to leave? 
I wish you the best of luck, anon
-mod liz
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khaosgaming22 · 5 years
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Blackout - A Destiny Story
“Eyes up Guardian!”
Chase flashed and hovered over his guardians bunk, attempting to wake up a half asleep Kenton. Or Ken, as he was called by his friends, a titan exo named CHAO-5 and awoken warlock named Draeko. However like Ken, he gave them nicknames because they felt they worked better in combat. Respectively, Chao and Drake.
“Wake up!”
Ken tossed a pillow at his ghost, but Chase was able to avoid the fluffy projectile. Defeated, Chase sighed and went to get Chao and Drake to have them try.
“Won’t get up eh?”, said Chao oiling his upper section of his arm. Last time he went into the crucible, he fell and hit it, ever since it’s locked up in missions. He found oiling it has helped but has refused to ask for a new arm. Usually these three stay in their ships but they were all tired and decided to crash in the bunks room at the tower. They were out running a strike on Io and it took them a while to get back to earth.
“No, I’ve been trying for 10 minutes, he’s determined.”, Chase blinked.
“Or Hungover”, lamented Chao.
“Sigh... he was drinking again?”
“Yes, I know we got some great loot last night but he needs to lay off.”, Chao replied.”
At this, Drake walked into the breakfast room, he grabbed a bagel and looked puzzled at it. “Curious, it appears to be a donut without a dough or glaze? What’s the point of eating an inferior version?”
“Good point, why would you eat it?”, Chao agreed.
“Because we wanted to eat healthily pre-traveler era.”, said Ken stumbling out.
“Look who’s up, sleeping beauty!”, Chase chided. “You need to stop drinking alcoholic beverages after every mission!”
“Shut up Alexa”
“That’s.. not my name... I don’t understand?”
“Never mind, I’m getting a waffle.”, Ken said trodding off toward the iron.
“So, what are we doing today?”, Drake said sitting down, uncomfortably on the bench attached to the table. Drake, as an awoken had been away from earths people for a while and was still adjusting to things.
“Well, i still have yet to do that quest Ada gave me, Servo, what’s my average LL?”
“You’re sitting around 597, she recommended 610”, Servo answered.
“But, we’re all at 590-600. If we all go we might be able to do it. I got the same task.”, interrupted Ken drowning his waffle in maple syrup.
Drake contemplated this, munching on his discount donut. He had the highest Light Level out of the three and though he still had to do the quest as well, he was worried at how tough it could be. Eventually he got up, stuffed the rest of the bagel in his mouth then started toward the elevator to the armory. Not that Ken or Chao noticed, they were too busy arguing about which exotic of theirs was better, Ace of Spades or Sleeper Simulant.
Drake pressed the button and the elevator door closed and whirred as it ascended. Eventually the elevator stopped and arrived at the armory, Drake stepped out and noticed someone moving crates of weapons around.
“Good morning.”, called the warlock.
“Ah, good morning, you’re here early. Pardon the dust just organizing some boxes of rifles!”
It was Shaxx, overseer of the crucible, awoken can get pretty tall, but even standing several feet apart, Drake seemed tiny compared to the boisterous titan.
“Just checking out my weapons.”, Drake explained.
“Going on another mission?”, Shaxx said putting down a crate.
“Depends, I want to check my gear to make sure I can carry my team if I need to.”, Drake replied. “My Well of Radiance can only do so much, I want to see what my new weapons have in the way of perks. Eve?”
“Yes?”, the ghost said blinking into existence.
“Can you check what the stats on these weapons are?”
“Certainly.”, the ghost replied.
“You have the primary Assault rifle, Breakneck, the Shotgun, Retold Tale and the Sniper Rifle,Whisper of the Worm. All in the 590-605 range.”, Eve counted.
“As for my Gear, I have some good stuff, it seems and the Sunbracers for gloves.”
“Seems like I should get ready and tell them.”, said Drake returning his ghost.
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“All right, ready to go?, said Chao getting in his ship. Drake and Ken replied with a thumbs up from their cockpits and the sound of their engines filled the hangar.
After a while the three of them are on there way to the EDZ and start up a conversation about their favorite weapons. The three may be very different in origin and history but the one thing they have in common is their love of rare weapons and other personal items. Ken asks what Drake’s is “being a warlock”.
“What’s that supposed to mean Cowboy?”, says Drake alluding to the hunters choice of subclass Gunslinger.
“Nothin’ but we both agree that we have very different styles when it comes to fighting.”, the hunter replied with a smirk.
“I probably would go with Prometheus Lens, it goes well with my solar subclass and it’s great for add clearing.”
“Yeah”, interjected Ken, “It used to be even better, but it was such a problem the Vanguard had to tell Banshee to mod them so people couldn’t take advantage of it!”
“Oh yeah, Banshee had a lot of work to do that week!”
“What about you, Chao?, what’s your favorite exotic?”, asked Ken slowly moving his hand toward the throttle.
“That’s a tough one, I think if I had to pick one it would we my...”
“Yeah whatever, RACE YOU TO THE EDZ!!!”, Ken yelled into his com, shut it off then pulled on the throttle sending his ship into a nosedive.
“YOU SON OF A!”-
“That little...”
The three ships raced toward the landing zone north of Trostland and the warlock, titan and hunter appeared on the surface transmatting from thin air.
“I totally beat all of you!”
No you didn’t, I clearly won that!”
“WOULD YOU TWO STOP ARGUING!”, Drake shouted.
“Let’s just get to the location on the map.”
“Fine”
“Okay”
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“Well, here’s the spot.”
“A cave...at the edge of the EDZ...what’s the point here cause I’m sure missing it?”, Ken said shouldering his rocket launcher.
“What’s that in the center?”
“I think that’s what we’re here for, hey Ada?”
“HOW DID YOU GET ACCESS TO...oh it’s you 3..sorry, reflex. Ahem, that is a forge, your job now that you have that frame, is to forge the Machine Gun.”
“You need to collect charges and put them into the forge before time runs out, otherwise the forge won’t complete.”
“Sounds simple enough, just chuck some balls at the thing in the center and BAM! free loot!”, said an excited Ken racing toward the forge.
“WAIT!”, Ada shouted.
It was too late, the forge turned on and Cabal came charging through the caves for the 3 of them.
“YOU IDIOT!”, shouted the angry Awoken, “She was about to mention the danger!”
“You guys we’re taking too long we’ll be fi-
SMACK!, a gladiator Cabal smashed the frail hunter into an adjacent cave wall.
“Ugh what did he do now?”, lamented Chase reviving his dead guardian.
“He poked a hornets nest, he rushed in without a plan what do you think he did?!”
“-ne, what happened? Did we win?
“NO, you rushed in without a plan and died to a Space Turtle. Stop doing that!”
“You guys worry too much, I’m fine as long as I have Chase!”
“AND WHAT IF IM NOT?!”, yelled Chase at his guardian shotgunning a Cabal.
“What?”
“What if I’m not able to revive you? What if im not there to? What then?!”
“I’ll be fine.”, Ken replied reloading his Handcannon.
“I always think of a way out of things-
“No...your friends do...I do.”, Chase said sulking away.
“I’ll be fine without him...”
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“Good thing you have that Well of Radiance D! This is getting rough!”
“Im also 5 levels above you!”, the warlock responded taking a shot at the centurion.
“Hey, is...where’s Chase going?”, asked Drake.
“Huh?”
“Chase! Wait!”
“Leave me alone...”, Chase called turning away.
“What’s wrong?”, Chao pryed shooting a psion.
“What’s wrong is my guardian is an incompetent buffoon who insists on getting himself killed and never thanking the person that revives him over and-“
“Guardian down!”, said Servo announcing his Titan’s death.
“Anyway, he clearly doesn’t need me, so I’m just gonna watch you two.”, Chase declared, if he had arms, they would be crossed.
“Jeez, that hurt, hey, my super’s almost ready!”, said Chao.
“I’ve got a while before mines ready, what about yours Ken?”, Drake asked over comms.
Ken was busy lining up shots with his hand cannon as its bullets made contact with the hard skulls of Cabal. Then he was struck with a blast from a Cabal gun and fell to the ground losing his grip on his revolver.
“Ken!”, said Chao rushing over to help.
Chao slammed the Centurion with a shoulder charge and rushed over to put up his barrier.
“Servo! Can you help him?”
“I just revived you, it’ll be a while before I can.”, replied his ghost.
“and Drake just got revived by Eve...”
The titan looked at the angry ghost in the corner of the cave.
“What?...No, NO! N-O, NO!”
“Come on Chase he’s your guardian!”
“Not until he apologizes, oh wait he can’t..HE’S DEAD!”
“Sigh...we need him for this man! You’re the only one who can do it!”
Chase looked at the cloak being stomped on by Cabal. Then his guardians cloak moved just enough to reveal his handcannon. He could see the engravings of crashing waves making up the texture of the grip on the weapon. He stopped and looked around then finally replied with, “You cover me while I bring him back.”
Soon the hunter was back, he looked at his ghost and started to apologize.
“Listen, I’m sorry for acting like an idiot... Sometimes I just get distracted or pissed off, but...thank you for bringing me back..”
“Alright, I’m sorry too... I know you can’t help it it’s in your nature to rush into things, always has been-
“Always will be, but I’ll try to not get myself killed as much from now on okay?”
“Thank you”
“Now let’s kick some Cabal a**!”
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The three were on the final part of the forge and were having trouble killing the Warden, putting as many shells and rounds into it as they could but to no avail.
“I think this is why Ada told us to be at 610!”, Chao said putting up his barrier.
“Hey! Let’s pool our supers together and take this guy down, we got this!”, Ken replied.
“Sounds good to me, any objections?...no...okay!”
The Warlock summoned his Dawnblade engulfed in solar light hot as Sol itself as the Titan rushed over and put up his Ward of Dawn. The blade slammed into the cave floor, creating a spiraling Well of light as the purple tint of the Titans shield encased the two blocking shots from the Centurion. Finally the Hunter slid in front of the bubble and called his Golden Gun. After firing 6 shots from the Revolver encased in light empowered by the Well, the Warden was almost down. The three took out their power weapons and blasted what was left of the armor off the Cabal as it fell to the cavern floor.
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My headcanon for the Dibbers: he has autism. Think about it,,, he happy flaps, infodumps on anyone and everyone... it's good!!!
This is such a lovely headcanon!! I completely support it!
- Mod Moofy
(ps: im so so sorry it took me so long to respond!!!! D:)
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GETTING TO KNOW YOU
respond to the following prompts out of character. then, tag nine others that you would like to get to know a little bit better.
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--- ROLEPLAYER NAME ;; lumi
--- ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS ;; she/her
--- MUSE NAME ;; sonny munroe
--- PREFERRED COMMUNICATIONS / discord or tumblr messages for out of character chat? ;; discord for mutuals just cause i never get my tumblr ims
--- EXPERIENCE / how long you’ve roleplayed ;; ah shit... i want to say since like.... 2012??? i was a baby and should have not been here kjbrgskjgbrekg
--- PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE / fluff, smut, or angst? ;; yes
--- PET PEEVES AND DEALBREAKERS ;;
plagiarism. whether it be a character or a plot idea, don't steal from anybody. people work hard on their characters and plots. i understand not many plots can be considered original, but everyone comes up with their own twists. stop stealing.
white washing. as a poc person, i have dealt with a lot of racism both irl and on tumblr. it was to a point i took two years off of this hellsite. so do not change a poc character into a white one. we've been erased as it is. and if you struggle trying to match a character to its race, do not feel afraid to ask someone for help on it. there are also websites that show you an fc's ethnicity as well.
not knowing where the line is between mun and muse. they are two completely different things.
god modding. for the love of all that is chuck, do not control what anyone else's character does!! we all control our own characters and that's how it should be. this also means doing something crazy that someone else may not approve of so if you want to do something, ask first.
force ship, simple as that
anon hate. seriously, that kind of negativity should never be welcomed nor encouraged. we all come here to escape as it is so just let everyone have fun writing.
people acting better than others. i'm sorry but no one is superior over anyone else.
lack of communication. we're all grown adults here. if there's a problem, just communicate.
trash talking someone's portrayal. realistically, we all interpret canon characters differently than others and that is okay. no one's version is right or wrong. no one is the "chanel/walmart" version.
shit stirrers. people don't get along sometimes, it happens. but don't be someone who fuels the fire between two people when all they wanted was to clear the air and talk.
rushing people to reply and shaming them when they don't reply fast enough. everyone has real lives and can't always get to it. now a simple nudge to let someone know they replied maybe weeks later just in case they missed it is fine. but if you're going to put pressure on people? stop.
using mental health as an excuse to be a shitty person. many people here suffer with different kinds of disorders and that is no one's fault. but that does not mean it's a pass to be a horrible person. you choose how to treat people around you. you choose whether or not to be a good person.
i can go on and on, but we don't have time for that so here is the rest of the list on the top of my head: self victimizing, ignoring triggers, trying to control your rp partners, bullying, not understanding that rping is a hobby and not a jobby, lack of respect for female characters both canon and oc, ect.
--- PLOTS OR MEMES? ;; yes
--- LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES? ;; it actually depends on my mood and on the thread. i love long replies cause there's more to work with. but short replies are fun for crack energy.
--- BEST TIME TO WRITE? ;; when my muse is strong kjhbsrekjgbkb
--- ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE? ;; i would say a little bit! just like sonny, i do everything i can to make people happy, even if it means wearing myself out. i also find myself being treated poorly by people i am close with irl just like sonny and her castmates. clumsy? oh absolutely. but also like sonny, i'm not afraid to stand up for myself and my friends. sonny is a lot friendlier than me tho krebgksrjebg
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TAGGING : YOUUUUUUU
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How would Miu, Amami, Kokichi, Saihara and Nagito react to their usually shy crush kissing them out of the blue and confessing afterwards with a big blush?
i ha d to claim this ask shs,, i hope i did it okay !!- Mod NagitoMiu Iruma:•You weren’t really listening to what she was saying•You were pretty sure it was something vulgar, due to the streams of cackles erupting from her throat.•”Oi, were you listening? You better have heard my fucking joke because i’m not saying it again.”•You gulped, standing up and spinning on your heel lightly, making her face scrunch up in confusion. •Before she could question you, she noticed how red your face was, before feeling your lips on hers.•It was over as soon as it started, you pulled away out of shyness and Miu simply sat there, in silence (for once)•”M-Miu I... I really like you.” •SHES ALMOST CHOKING BLESS HER•You have to give Miu a little time to calm down, but you soon discover she feels the same. Rantaro Amami:•You had always been afraid of confessing to Mr Cool Boy™•He had girls confessing to him left right and centre,, so what if he just brushes you off?•But nonetheless, you were going to do it !!•It was a little after school, you were at your desk searching through your things before heading home•You noticed Amami enter the room and call your name, making you bolt up and squeak•You quietly asked him to come over to you, which he did.•He wasn’t skeptics at all, which was good•”Am-Amami I-“•You cut yourself off, deciding to just lean in and get it over with•After Amami felt you pull away from his lips, he was a little shocked, before gazing down at you and smiling •”I-I like you Amami, l-like as in i l-“•”I wasn’t expecting you to confess to me.” •You blushes more and looked to the ground, silently thanking him from saving you from being a stuttering mess•Avocado walked you home afterwards, holding your hand Kokichi Ouma:•You didn’t know why you caught feelings for the short delinquent•But you did, which is why you were currently on the hunt for a flash of purple anywhere •You stopped in your tracks when you heard a faint “nishishi” down the corridor and headed towards it•”My precious S/O-chan!” He grinned, waving at you from outside his door.•You looked down to the floor and waved back, looking back in his direction to see him gazing down at you•”Oh~? Were you looking for me?” His eyes sparkled a little, and you couldn’t tell if it was genuine or not.•When you replied yes, he hopped down the stairs and stood in front of you•”What do you need, S/O-chan?”•Your fingers traced over the letter you had previously written, before scrapping that idea and approaching his lips.•He must’ve anticipated your actions; the second you tried to move away he had started kissing you back.•Once you both finally pulled away, you started stuttering a string of words which Kokichi took as “i like you”•To which he chuckled, and hugged you •”Nishishi, i was wondering how long it’d take before you’d confess your undying love for me~!” •”But, i feel the same. And i’m not lying to you.”Shuichi Saihara:•You were both in his allocated study •He had noticed, by his exquisite deduction skills, that you were a little more closed in than usual•Your replies weren’t very long, your face was all red, and you kept gazing at the floor•”H-Hey S/O, are you alright?”•You snapped yourself out of your daze and nodded, smiling and assuring him that you were feeling okay•When really your heart felt like it was going to fly out of your chest.•You had to do it, it’s now or never•”Hey, Saihara-kun, could you come look at this please?” •He peered over at you before starting to make his way over•You in turn started to walk towards him, making him stop •You slightly leaned in, your face reaching its maximum redness as you connected your lips to saihara’s in a short, sweet kiss•Once you pulled away, you avoided his gaze•”I-I’m sorry b-but i.. like you, Saihara-kun...”•You noticed he wasn’t responding, so you looked up to see his face was almost as red as yours•”I-I had a hunch... But there’s no need to apologise, I... feel the same?”•The fact that he was nervously confessing back to you made you start to giggle, making you feel a whole lot better about the situationNagito Komaeda:•You and Nagito had decided to spend your free time together at the library•This was also the same time that you had planned on confessing to him•On the way there, the two of you made basic small talk, before slowly feeling yourself go into silence as you entered•You noticed Nagito head to a specific section of the library, where the mystery novels are - you cleared your throat.•”H-Hey, Komaeda-kun,” You inhaled a deep breath as you tried to sound as confident as you could. “Do you have any recommendations?” •His eyes lit up and he beckoned you over, holding two books in his hands, a joyous smile on his face as you spoke you through what each one was like.•”Is something the matter? Ah, you probably didn’t want to hear me speak for that long. I’m sorry, please ex-“•He was stunned when you stood on your tiptoes to shyly give him a small kiss on the lips •Even he wasnt expecting that•He brought his fingers to his lips, looking between them and you every now and again.•”D-don’t say that about yourself, i-i love to hear you speak, your voice is one of the main things i like about you.”•You looked up to see he was just staring at you.•”I-I mean... I didn’t mean that rudely! I like all of you, I mean I do like you, but you just have some things that stand out more, like your hair or your voice or-“•You were cut off by a small chuckle, you looked over to Komaeda to see a light flush on his face, nothing compared to yours, and a small smile on his face as he gazed into your eyes.•”I sure am lucky, right? To have a being as beautiful as you to confess to me..” •Ends up kissing you again I HOPE THESE WEREE OKAY IM SORRY IF THEYRE SHORT JSS
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yea ive got a question what gave monolith the idea that they were allowed to do that to zanza
ok mod robin here im gonna respond in a read more, mobile users scroll faster
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xenoblade 2 spoilers
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honestly idk if you mean “why did they make him so ugly” or “why did they hurt him like that”. i have an answer for both bc i love analysis 
so. one of my criticisms of xb1 was that egil was a great and well fleshed out antagonist but then zanza was a bit..  Not? if that makes sense. his motives dont make sense except “he’s a jackass” and imo thats kind of a step down from egil. i wouldnt say it makes the end of the game any less awesome. but he’s just a jackass and tried to wipe out an entire race of ppl bc he was salty with meyneth and jealous. can’t relate to that honestly. 
but this all culminates in the line where alvis says “he had a desire for friendship” 
EVERY. playthrough. i start cackling at that line. zanza desired friendship? so he went and killed a bunch of ppl? what??? 
but you know what would’ve fixed this. character development. or at least some actual character depth. and thats where xb2 comes in because they added onto his character and gave him character depth in a very appropriate way. 
like in xb1, it would be very very hard to make it seem like zanza had remorse/wanted friendship bc he was a major jackass. but, an alternate universe where another half of him resides? a part of him who developed entirely differently? thats a great way to give depth that wasnt there before. 
so this doesnt answer your question but its more explaining WHY monolith did that. they took an interesting character from a previous game and fleshed them out more than before.
the most important question tho. WHY IS HE SO FUCKEN UGLY ?
its to contrast from his traits in xb1. in xb1 he’s conventionally attractive and confident, and a major asshole to meyneth. this boy puts conditioner in his hair and probably has perfect complexion too. after his daily hair care routine he decides to go fuck over mechonis core 
xb2? he’s not attractive. unlike in xb1, he’s showing clear remorse for what happened. its supposed to be a shock factor i suppose. like you’re intended to see him and think “THIS IS ZANZA????? wtf?” 
im sorry thats so long and i hope you sent this because you already know about the end. im gonna tag this and its under a readmore so i hope ppl dont get mad at me for even talking about spoiler stuff. 
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oh shit yall send lots of questions hoo nelly answering almost all of them under the cut ,,, im gunan try and answer more technical ones first then fun ones and ones about the mod later so u dont gotta scroll all the way to the bottom for the good deets
Hi! I'm still kinda new to the blog and I was wondering what are the 'do and do-not' kind question I should do? Because im sure theres always that one ask thats just Innapropiated, like that one of Michael 'taking advantage og high Jeremy' that was just not cool.  i got this ask a lot so ill be clear with yall. im just not a big angst fan? so sending michael asks about his anxiety nonstop and about how he had a panic attack in the bathroom over and over again wasnt that fun. usually if it pertains the musical though you should be find sending an ask about it? but sometimes i get asks that are like “jeremy ur nothing and how does it feel knowing u fucked everything up” like homie how i think its feels? how u think hes gunna react to that? i made this blog to negate a lot of negativity in my own life so i can promise u im going to be answering asks mostly positive always forever. that being said tho i sometimes get asks pertaining to a few things that ive dealt with in the past and these topics make me very very uncomfortable. dont send asks about these topics please. this is the no no list
-self harm, cancer, suicide, rape, parent death, car accidents, sudden death.
What was your inspiration for this blog? hoo boy well,,, ultimately i thought of them rooming together and got emotional and made a huge list of headcanons and was like ,,, why not run an askblog for a bit ill just abandon it after three asks lets have some fun. but somehow im still here and i got sucked in by the complexity of michael and jeremy. i know that sounds kinda silly but just, as someone who is dealing with a lot of similar things, like dependency issues and abandonment issues and depression and anxiety, having these fun functioning character to explore was such a gift for me. i believe honestly thats why im still here and doing this. being able to try and portray a healthy relationship and a healthy way of coping and growing has helped me a lot this past month and given me an outlet i didnt have before. TBH THO the main reason i made this blog if imma be real with u guys id because i didnt like the treatment of a lot of these issues in the fandom. it made me very upset to see depression used as an plot device and michaels dependency issues treated as romantic so i wanted to make a blog that had little to no angst. ANYWAYS somehow im still here ,,, gvrkjvrnkjfd sorry i rambled
honestly I just wanna say first that I love his blog and your art and you're so cool and kind!! a question would be (I'm not sure if you've answered this before or not) but is there like an on going story here, or is it mostly just answering questions with the characters set in this universe? (if that makes sense I'm sorry!) thank you, you're super awesome! ❤️  djrnjg first off thank u so much aaaa,, ive kind of answered this before but its ok its been a while since then! but um i do kinda have a story but how howdy i sure am dragging my feet. the story isn a hUGE OVERARCHING EPIC OF WOE AND THIS PERSON IS UPSET AND THIS PERSON IS MAD AT THIS PERSON its just michael and jeremy getting together. i have a plan and ive talked to a few people on how i want it to happen but ive gained like ,,,, 6,000 followers since then and im kinda nervous BUT ILL DO MY BEST but also please understand that i do this for fun for myself and if i dont get to it im so so so sorry woops
i know this has been said before but i'm really really happy w how you're handling so many aspects of their characters. i.e. michael being trans, michael and jeremy's anxiety, michael's dependency issues, and other stuff i'm too tired to think of. you made the characters have even more depth than they did in the play and i'm rly grateful for the way you're dealing w my favorite boys. (also your richjake is suuuper adorable) ahhhhhh thank u so much? i talked a bit about this on my main but im really glad people are happy with my decision on this blog because im suPER SUPER NERvous anytime i post an ask dealing with these things. (ask hachi or nate i always message them like freaking out and send them my scripts and asks and wait for them to tell me its ok before i post it omg) also like i talked about before i love,,, having these fun stoner gamer boys to explore these issues with. im honestly shocked by how many people also deal with dependency issues because when i first listened to the musical i was so overwhlemed by the song michael int he bathroom because i had never heard someone basically write “dependency issue: the song” and it felt so so so good to realize i wasnt alone in this pit of despair i fall into so easily aha. but im!! glad everyone is ok with this wild ride im on right now (also thank u so much i struggle writing rich and jake but i get so emotional cause they would TOTES call each other babe)
how come you just use sketch form for most of your drawing (sketches and uses sketch for the final result)? im ,,, not really sure what this is asking but i thnk its along the lines of why do i only sketch my answers?? and i do that because dude do u see how often i post and how lONG some of them are. i made this blog for fun and i love doing comics but i hate lineart and coloring and if i tried to churn out finished pics for every post id defs have given up a few asks in,, shrugs
I want to say I love your little comics they're so funny! How long does it take you to make a comic? Are any of them based on your experiences? Ok have a nice day!  thank you! i love my little comics too! it usually takes me anywhere from an hour to five hours if im dragging my ass or talking on discord while im drawing. it can be kinda exhausting but since i took my break ive also been like, starting long comics one day and finishing them another day which, before i would do it all in one sitting then post it hahha. AS FOR EXPERIENCE the first half of the lifeguard comic was based on real life! we were stuck stoned up there for like an hour or two? but we didnt have anyone to help us but we got down eventually!! the wendys comic is also something i did because man!! i need to compliment food workers if they do a good job!! ummmmm just like jenna i also have a friend that said HAHA BYE and moved to cali and she is also lIVING IT UP and doing really well for herself and shes very independent and shes very inspiring to me! hmm i think thats it besides i used to have movie nights with my dad all the time too except we would watch my fave animated movies and sometimes lord of the rings cause my dad loved that
What kinds of things can we NOT ask ? What kinds of things do you WANT us to ask ? i covered the what not to ask in the first question so!!! um if my askbox is open and u want to respond to previous asks ive answered for the boys that would be so so so rad. sometimes im done with a certain ask and i have nothing to add but sometimes ive got more to say but am looking for an opportunity! that being said it made me really happy that i got a lot of asks about pj? shes not going to the main focus of any more asks but!!! i was nervous to introduce her and im glad u guys like her shes fun to write. but overall just general asks i can make a big ol fun story out of so!! dont worry too much about what to ask, if its something ud ask a real person and not like “lol what if ur dad died” ur gunna be fine probably
Hi! Not a question but your blog is so sweet and refreshing! I actually really appreciate that you refuse angst, that stuff tends to rub me the wrong way in fandoms... Keep taking good care of these boys ! gggg thank u!!! it means a lot to me that a lot of people are backing me up on this! i mean if u are an angst fan there are a lot of askblogs that explore that!! so its not in short supply bmc askblog fandoms got something for everyone
Which drawing program do you use?? i use paint tool sai and my tablet is a cintiq !!
this isn't really related to the faq but that bakunawa boy reference was great I LOVE THAT FIC MAN!!! the line was originally a little diff in that ask but i changed it cause ,,,, i could,,,,
an art style question. how do you keep the design of characters consistent from frame to frame? my characters they look a lil different every time I draw em (or a lot different) and it tends to disrupt the flow of my comics/animations ohh boy hoo wee props for doing animations im too scared to give that a whirl but!! it helps that i draw all the panels for an ask on one canvas! so if my next panel is going to be the same character in the same spot just in a diff pose i keep the lower layer on just at low opacity so i can use it as a ref! that helps me a lot!
Sorry if I'm nosy or rude, but are you reflecting Micheal Anxiety, Panic attacks and depence? iii think this is asking if i reflect my own issues onto them boys? and if so then yes i do. i dont place any of my own personality or anything on the boys but i do use them as a way to help me learn how to cope with my own shit and i try to deal with their issues in the healthiest way possible while also keeping in mind they are flawed individuals aaa
what are your pronouns??? and maybe your main blog??  im a cis girl so she/her is good! and my main is squigglegigs! also that being said IF YOU SEE THE USERNAME SQUIGGLEGIGS ANYWHERE JUST?? ASSUME ITS ME?? i have a twitter and an instagram and my tumblr account 
((Hello mod will Michael and Jeremy eventually someday get together. I love them.)) if all goes according to plan yes! if i get overwhelmed and stop having fun on this blog then no! sorry thems the breaks but! i do want them to get together so HOPEFULLY
going off on that confrience on pornogrefy for birds, Im geussing jeremy has played Hatoful Boyfriend. am I wrong? well it wasnt intended as that ref and i dont know anything about hatoful boyfriend but i can see jerm finding it and playing it so, sure homie! the pornography for birds thing is a my brother my brother and me reference! i love that show and them boys so give it a scope!
I'm crying bcuz Michael said he's in love with Jeremy and it's beautiful yeah that boy is DEEP IN love with his bro bro
Any advice for running an ask blog?? (Ps i love this blog keep it up) personally whats worked for me so far is doing just sketches for art. honestly ive been able to work so much more and post so much more often while also trying to work on my expressions and poses! also taking my own experiences and shaping them to fit the characters has been SO MUCH FUN. th most important thing tho is,,, dont overwork urself dude. if ur having a fun time it shows. if ur just forcing urself to churn out material and its not fun? like shit we doing this for free dont push urself? idk idk overall being looser with my art and writing the dialogue before hand has been the most helpful for me for this askblog! ive run a bunch before including @ask-maz and ive run that sporadically for ,, three or four years? its so funny cause u can see my art style juMP AROUND SO MUCH but i love that blog and i only update it like every other month or so but?? i still like doing it and no on likes those posts but it makes me smile so ANYWAYS
~ok from here on its mostly just me replying to nice messages or people asking me personal questions that dont pertain to askguyslikeus so!!~
I just wanted to say I really really love your blog and just your art in general!! Keep up the good work and hope you're having fun! thank u!!! i am having fun and im glad u enjoy it!!
What other musicals do you like? :0  i really like heathers A LOT. i also like doctor horrible i know thats not technically a musical but i just relistened to it and im emotional. i like dear evan hansen but it makes me really sad so i can only take it in moderation! ummm rent? chicago?? music man? now im just naming musicals i was in rip. being in a musical fandom is a new thing to me? i was really into heathers last year but didnt really interract with the fandom at SO THIS IS SUPER NEW?? ive never been into a musical as much as im into bmc and heathers tho
tell us a little bit about urself!! u seem v cool i am squigs or fork!! im 24 and work fulltime as a barista at starbucks! i get high on the beach with my friend gwen a lot and drink wayy to many slushies, my tv shows are brooklyn nine nine and bobs burgers right now! i table at conventions sometimes and sell my art as merch and whatnot and i cosplay as a hobby as well. im pretty boring but i draw a lot and always carry my big sketchbook with me and im pretty sure its given me back issues BUT OH WELL HAHA also i am very not cool THE TRUTH COMES OUT
Who do you most relate to from bmc and why? like ,,, a mix of michael and christine with a sprinkle of jeremy i guess ahaha i relate to michaels dependency issues and overarching positive attitude and love of music, i relate to christines bright disposition and the need to not stick to one set thing? like she loves theater cause she can be sO MANY PEOPLE and like same homie thats why i cosplay. and jeremys need to be likes while also ability to put himself out there is very relatable. i also identify strongly with his dad issues idk idk whats good
Also -- just thank you for how you handled all the panic attack and anxiety attack asks. I used to deal with anxiety attacks multiple times a day and it just was really nice that it was positive and not them having one. Thank you, sincerely. ahhhhhh ur so welcome i,,, have anxiety and it sucks and i deal with panic attacks like everyday at work so i dont really wanna come home and draw someone having one i guess? im glad its helping other people too tho!
Dude- I love your art? Actually so much? It's... I love it. The whole sketch-ish way your art style is, and the way you color, and the expressions! I'm so glad I found your work - you've given me so much inspiration. Keep doin what you're doin and I hope you have a good day! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ANytime any one compliments my expressions i die cause i legit made this blog to help with that as well ,,, like dam
im lvoe ur art style b o i :0 !!!!!!
Mod, I love you so much I love you you have my soul and my love and my eternal gratitude thank you and I love you (This is the guy who was excited about PJ on your ig live stream a while ago and I love you) !!!!!!!!! im so happy u like my content omg and that u like pj im so glad!! shes a good bean
I just wanna say... I'm crying over that post about Michael and his anxiety? cuz I know how it can feel that you're only your flaws and weaknesses, but Michael just tells that to screw off in the most wonderful way and I'm?? thank you so much for that post, I bookmarked it for future times when I can't look past my depression... honestly, that post made my day (along with every other post on this blog), thank you for being such a lovely part of this fandom ,,,, im,,,, im scared of a lot of this fandom tbh but if i can be something good that come out of it and my love of these boys and desire to show them functioning together in a healthy way can help other people its so much more than i ever thought id ever be able to do. i am blown away everyday by the support ive been given on this blog and i might be crying right now because i never thought id be able to touch other people like this and i just. im really glad yall are here with me for all this.
(To the mod: You are a beautiful person that I highly respect. I love this blog and what you set out to do. thanks for giving something that makes me smile and gives me something to look forward to everyday, keep up the good work! ❤ ) hey im still crying from the previous ask aaaaa im honestly so emotional
what are ur true feelings for wendy's??? i fucking love wendys man thats some top tier fast food right there
what fast food restaurant do you think has the best nuggets WENDYS HANDS DOWN
do you have a favorite movie? paranorman makes me very nostalgic and ive seen it like eighty times and used to watch it with my dad a lot and i love it
I would just like you to know that your Wendy's comic prompted me to pull the same thing with a bakery in the town I'm visiting and the baker got so excited and happy, so thank you for making that comic because I made that woman's day. GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE COMPLIMENT ME WHEN IM WORKING DUDE LIKE IM SO GLAD IT MADE U DO THIS!!! IM SMILING REALLY BIG!!
chocolate milk or strawberry milk? or plain? woops i hate milk im so sorry
do u love michael mell with all of ur heart, mod?  i really truly do man what a fucking good ass character
hi squigs i love you! i love your content too and i hope u have a good day pal :>  WHAT A SWEET BEAN!!! THANK YOU?? OMG
I'm just saying that recent ask you did with Michael really hit me hard because I really related to it and I started crying because it made me realize that I've been pining my self worth on everything my anxiety causes and I'm so much more than that. Thank you, so much for that I really needed it because I'm in a really bad place right now. <3 -for the mod i legit cry everytime i get asks or dms like this cause once again the idea that im helping other people is so ovwehelming i love you??? i let myself just be”depressed” for ahwile and by that i mean i just,, let my sadness consume me and i was scared of getting better cause the sadness was all i knew for so long and just. its so easy to think u are ur illness but you are so much more. soooo much more man.
I relate A Lot to Michael so the way you portray him in the blog is really good, and I think it's really awesome you refuse to like?? do terrible stuff and answer bad questions just bc people wanna see that. You run this blog really well 👌  AHHHH THis is the biggest compliment thank u so much ,,, i get real anxious bout this blog soemtiems but then yall send me sweet things like this and its worth it man
Hey mod, just know you're a really cool person. Thanks for running this blog in the first place. Keep doing the great work.  thank you!!!! for ur support!!!! 
not really a question!! i just wanted to say your posts on this blog always brighten my day and you're really an incredible artist and person, keep rockin on my dude!! *clutching my heart* the fuck this is so sweet
1 .I just wanted to say your blog is really awesome! It's very lovely. I also like how you made michael trans and like handled it? (just with how all the characters treat him and stuff its v nice). Your art is super duper! Thanks for running this awesome blog! 2. Hey! This isn't a question but I wanted to say that I appreciate michael being trans!! As a trans boy it's just rly awesome to see something like that casually thrown into an ask blog without making it a huge weird deal :D immm,,, i kinda really love the idea of michael being trans cause a lot of my trans male friends are actually pretty confident in their skin and michael is a very confident character? and u rarely see that with trans representation and its so refreshing to see it portrayed well. im trying to do that here but again if! i do anything wrong let me know!
how did you first get into art? (also i really love your blog, it's amazing!) ive been drawing as long as i remember! ive got mad adhd and wasnt diagnosed until late in ym life so i would just draw nonstop in my classes ahaha i used to read the sunday comics a lot and they really inspired me to try and make comics of my own too!! (and omg thank u) 
someone also asked me if i went to church or was religious but tumblr ate the ask but i used to go to church a lot as a kid but im currently not religious at all aaa
ok holy shit that was a lot but thanks again to everyone i legit cry a lot about how supportive u all are thank u so much aaaa
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I have a problem. I only feel like people love me and are paying attention to me and care when they are touching me. Even if it isn't touch that I want, it's still like holy shit they are touching me I am the light of their world. and if they stop I feel worthless and distraught. Is there a reason for this could it be caused by csa? Is this called something? Im sorry if this is confusing
hello anon, I am so sorry I took so long to respond to this.
While I have never heard a name specifically for what you’re experiencing, it makes sense to me that it could be caused by csa (note that i am not a csa survivor, so it may not be my place to say). But you likely learned that love came in a form a touch, whether you wanted it or not (but that doesn’t make you broken!). For those of us who have been abused, we learn that love is something we can only receive in specific circumstances–circumstances that are heavily associated with the actions and mannerisms of our abusers. These can be hard scripts to escape; as humans we crave affection and attention, but the closest thing we got to that was broken and tainted and awful. But we took it because it was all we could get, and we learned that that was how to get our needs met, because how else could we have survived? 
so I want you to do something, anon. Next time you’re with someone who cares about you (be it a friend or family member or even a teacher), pay attention to how they interact with you aside from when they are touching you. notice how they smile when they see you, when you tell a joke, or show them a picture. notice how they watch you as you talk, or copy mannerisms or catchphrases you use (whenever one of my friends use a new slang, all of us will be using it within a few weeks). pay attention to how, as you walk together, they speed up or slow down to keep an even pace with you. these are just a few things people do that show they care. I want you to take note of these things, because if you do it enough, you can re-teach your brain what it means to be loved and paid attention to. and i promise you that people love you and pay attention to you when they are not touching you. (if someone has ever said that something they saw reminded them of you, or they messaged you first, or said that they wanted to see you, they were caring about you without touching you)
and i know it will be hard, but maybe start trying to not allow touches you don’t want. because you don’t have to be touched if you do not want to–you have bodily autonomy, and a right to not be touched. I know it will be hard, because that will be one less time you receive what your brain was trained to perceive as affection, but enforcing boundaries works wonders in the long run. and it doesn’t have to be big, or even verbal. say if someone puts their hand on your shoulder and you do not want them to, you can say “please don’t touch me”, or you can lean away out of their reach. you deserve to not be touched when you don’t want to. 
I really hope this helped, and you’re always welcome to message mfs or send asks on or off anon
-mod nik
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