#im too inattentive for this shit

[moonlightmarvey]

made this silly little byler doodle few days ago

[thewhizzyhead]

look rwby (like from the very fucking beginning aka vol 1) and arcane have been on my radar since like 2022 and I have been meaning to sit down and watch them because both address my want for flashy and unique and fast paced animation styles that will prevent me from being bored, and my want for deeply established LORE that will keep me hooked in and fixated for the long run. But you know what's fucking preventing me from watching those two shows? My inattentivity and inability to fucking sit down and sit still, and my fear of getting too hyperfixated to the point that I forget all of my college responsibilities. Suffice it to say, adhd is a bitch-

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[soggypotatoes]

also. dont even talk to me about this. but. the nurse im obsessed with. oh my god. whenever shes on shift i literally go sit out by the nurses station for hours till she leaves bc my brain just feels better when i can see + hear her. this obsession isnt bad, though, is the thing. im used to *bad* obsessions. but it doesnt feel like that. it does feel like a lifeline, which is dangerous bc once i leave i wont be soothed by her being around, obviously. but like.. i dunno. my brain doesnt know how to exist without an obsession, and this one isnt hurting me. in fact it is helpful and a step in the right direction, for reasons i wont get into but yeah ive talked w my therapist about this. anyway. she said today that tomorrow she will sit down w me and help me put together some plans on how to work with my brain to keep my surroundings a little cleaner. god. im going 2 miss her

[delimeats-000]

Take the Load Off

✧matt sturniolo x reader✧

summary: matt was in a meeting with laura, he comes home stressed and needs to clear his head.

warnings: SMUT, oral (male receiving), sexual stuff idk, mdni or wtv im not your mother

requested.

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i hear the front door open. keys rattling and a bag crinkle.

“Y/n! You home?”

“Yeah up here!”

“Hey kid.” matt comes up behind me in the kitchen giving me a small hug. “I brought you some In n Out.”

“Thank you.”

“Mhmm.”

“How was the meeting with laura?”

“It was good.”

“You seem a little tired.”

“More stressed yk?”, he opens a redbull before continuing, “shits getting heavy.”

“Sorry cutie. Wish I could help”

“Yeah?”

he moves closer hand landing on my waist.

“Yeah.” i say quietly continuing the dishes with a smirk.

“You could help me take a load off.”

“Oh too bad im busy.”

“Too busy for me?”

“Who else is gonna do the dishes?”

“How bout we make a trade, like I scratch your back you scratch mine?”

“Hmm. Ok yeah.”, i turn from the sink facing him.

“Ok.”

his lips crash against mine and he pushes his whole body into me. his tongue running across my lip before i allow it in. he’s getting so aggressive i can feel our teeth clash.

“Fuck, im gonna cum in my pants just kissing you.”

i get on my knees and undo his belt. he hurries to pull his pants down and wraps his hand in all the hair of mine he can grab. his bulge looking heavy and radiation heat. i pull down his underwear revealing his long hard dick.

“Oh shit. Matt i think its too big.”

“No beautiful, i know you can do it.” he whispers.

looking at his large member for a little longer i decide fuck it. i lick up from the base before kissing right on the tip. then swirling my tongue around i deepen his cock into my mouth, it slowly hits the back of my throat and i can feel him twitch.

his hand remaind on the back of my head, and he guides me back and forth on his dick.

“Oh fuck, you feel so good.” he’s a mess.

rough timed thrusting turns into inattentive penetration to my throat.

“Shit im gonna cum.”

his voice is deep and quiet.

he continues thrusting before i can suddenly feel warm streams of his cum shooting down my throat.

he lets go of my hair with a groan. and moaning finally pulling out of my mouth slowly.

“Are you ok beautiful?”

cum dripping down my chin, i wipe it with my finger before licking it off and swallowing one last time.

“Never better. You?”

“I’m feelin great.”

“Good now you can finish the dishes while i eat my burger.”

“FUUUCK!” he says as i giggle and walk away.

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hope you liked this, love you 🫶

[thetriggeredhappy]

sorry for cloggin up your ask box, but i don’t have an ao3 account, so i hope this will do

i love the way you write the kids, especially nikki. she’s so mature, funny and polite, makes my mouth hurt from smiling hearing her and scout talk

another thing, thank you for having the kids act normal around scout and sniper being romantic‼️ they’re not homophobic, just the usual little kid “eww kissingg”

the descriptions of panic attacks are incredibly realistic

also as someone with adhd, you wrote scout SO well. i have the inattentive type and i relate so hard, despite not being hyperactive. forgetting things that i just put in my pocket, wondering if i have my phone while literally being on it, losing your train of thought, drawing constantly, and rejection sensitive dysphoria

i hope it’s okay i’m writing you fan mail in your ask box, i don’t really read fanfic but you’ve got me hooked here. i don’t even know how i started liking sniperscout, but before i read yours i read… ah what’s the name… i forget (searched ao3, it was called “somethin’ stupid, like “i love you”” by preciousposey. man that was a good fic too)

anyway uh

thank you for being a great author!! hope you sleep well and have zero writer’s block forever <3 (and i hope your living situation gets better, i’ve made it up to ch 18 so (why am i getting deja vu writing this im sorry if i did this last time))

thank you! yeah i love nikki. i used to work with kids a lot (a LOT) and they’re just hilarious dude. sometimes these kids will say some shit that’s so excellent and so fun and so entertaining and will know what’s up and she’s kind of a representation of that. kids are great.

and yeah i guess i just don’t personally see like. the value in putting overt homophobia into the tf2 universe. there’s not really the overt expectation of ‘realism’ with the tf2 canon, and while i consider grounding these characters and putting them in more normal circumstances to expand on their more human characteristics to be kind of A Thing I Often Do, i don’t think i need the blunt instrument that is Gritty Realism Through Onscreen Bigotry to make any of the points i want to make in this series. the flavor is kept intentionally lighter throughout that series so that when it gets heavy, it hits a little harder. in other things ive written, and in things i might write in the future, that might pivot, but i don’t ever see bigotry being something necessary to the plot or development of characters in the RB universe.

writing scout as adhd feels kind of inevitable at a certain point if you’re diving into his characteristics and the way he tends to behave. we don’t have a ton to work with but, c’mon. intentionally or unintentionally, he always ends up adhd. the relatable king

and no lie i’ve been listening to ‘still alive’ a LOT lately idk what happened. i listened to that song back in like 2015 a lot then didn’t again until like. three weeks ago. portal was too good for any of us

also just goddamn the fuckin horror movie violins when someone is pre-chapter 20 of taking shots. me when i’m 2/3rds of the way through “sniper dies in this”

[transmascpetewentz]

sometimes i wonder why i'm still in therapy but then i have a session where i talk about something that's been annoying me recently and she gives amazing 10/10 advice. also i now realize i need another meeting to update the accommodations i get (bc the ones my paperwork says i get, i no longer need, while i need some others that i don't have on my paperwork)

some things that i thought would be total non issues ended up being huge issues. and it's very weird things too. like who knew someone would surprise me with cooking. yeah my paperwork doesn't explicitly say that i can't do cooking but how could i even have predicted that it would come up. and i thought that not screaming at someone and making accusations when they display neurodivergent behavior was a no brainer bar that everyone could clear but apparently something has to be made explicit for some people to care.

and this year people have gotten worse. as soon as someone displays any neurodivergent behavior the accusations start flying. oh i don't like this very rigid writing process? i want to actually start writing before i pick out every word out of order? nope, it must mean i have a "computer addiction" (which has even less evidence supporting it than phone addiction does) and that this alleged addiction is my moral failure and that my use of a computer to write means that i'm intentionally trying to collapse western civilization. and any original idea that i have just means i'm not understanding that i need to talk about the plot of the book (in a very rigid framework that means that we just understand the basic moral instead of being encouraged to do real literary analysis. i mean, of course this guy who wrote a story about everyone being equal in every way still kept gender, because the end of the world is more likely than any slight challenge of the gender roles)

and of course, me looking down must mean that im not paying attention and intentionally trying to disrespect people. and when people scream at me to look up and i do, that must mean that they righteously saved me from my inattention even though i'm paying even less attention to the speaker because i'm paying attention to my body language to make sure i don't piss people off. would i like to have something to do other than staring at the wall? well that's obviously my phone addiction talking. people who aren't psychologists obviously have the ability to diagnose a phone addiction in every person they meet and then attribute their completely normal and harmless behavior to that addiction.

i love education and i think it's great. it's one of the best jewish values imo. that's also why i'm a major fan of renaissance humanism. but being micromanaged isn't education, it's training me like a dog to use the right body language while simultaneously understanding absolutely nothing because appearances are more important than actual learning. ironically my "hardest" classes are actually my easiest ones because i can focus on learning about the subject matter instead of paying constant attention to my body language in order to make myself appear like i'm paying attention.

tbh i don't even know what kind of accomodation i would need for this. i just wish that people would give me slightly more grace when i'm displaying neurodivergent behavior. but that's not something that can go in documentation because it's extremely subjective and has more to do with people's subconscious thought processes than their conscious choices to be assholes. i hate it sm i literally have moral rule following ocd and the first year that i have done education since i started meds for my ocd and learned to stop giving as much of a shit, i'm getting mixed signals and being told that i'm actually intentionally unfocused and disrespectful because of my body language.

and of course everything also requires images because some studies have come out saying that people without visual processing disorder "learn better" with images, and of course if i can't understand what's happening in an image then it's my fault because i'm not wearing my glasses for looking at things far away when i'm looking at something a few inches in front of me. and when i wear my glasses and i still can't understand it i'm told i actually just don't see the image well and should look more closely. i explain that i see the image perfectly well and just don't understand what's happening in it, and then i get told to zoom in again. it's an endless cycle and when i explain that i have a disorder people say they understand but then 1.5 minutes later they go back to acting like it's my fault.

[crookedkryptonitebeliever]

I’m sorry but I’m just a really huge Yves stan. Like listen, Yves would freak me out so bad that I would probably be sweating profusely every time he is within a 6 feet radius, but like as someone who went through parentification and was essentially a glass child with unmet needs when I was younger , the motherly vibes that Yves exudes,,, I’m sorry but I would be hooked, addicted even. Hell I might become the yandere too who knows LMAO.

Like Monty would be cool because I wouldn’t be as intimidated by him, well aside from his sheer size but he’s just a bit sleezy to me I dunno but Yves has this sort of lithe, vampiric, serpent like essence to him that would make me nervous but excited. Hell having someone pour into me in THAT fashion would have me excited.

Also and like correct me if I’m wrong (this is my interpretation) but I feel like Monty is the type of guy that would’ve folded for any person that gave him attention during that time. Like reader was just caught up at the right (wrong) time and now has him following them everywhere, when this literally could’ve been someone else (I think this was already addressed in the story, either this one or the first Monty story I can’t remember) but like YVES, I feel like he has a specific reason why he chose the reader, we would never know but there’s probably something really unique about his darling that makes him so enamored, maybe it a combination of things, who knows. But I feel like his love is more unique and special, to me.

I dunno man I just want someone to check up on me like Yves, I’m down bad.

tw: implication of suicide

YES I BE FUKIN DOWN BAD 4 YVES TOO CAUS HE IS SO MOTHERLY

okay so like the reason why Yves is so into you has been a hot topic on this account, originally i planned to be like some sort of reincarnation shit but that wouldn't hold much water and it would be a little too creepy to imply that he was watching even before ur birth, kinda like preordering a partner and that's already grooming

so i left it vague and up for interpretation and just said he's the allegory of a perfect parent (one link within the link) like i promise i do not condone grooming n incest shit but like, something about having someone knows you deeply and wholly like a fucking parent is really hot, not hot in the "i want to fuck my mom and dad" kinda way, but more like "OH GOD PLEASE I FUCKING WISH YVES IS REAL I WANT TO BE TAKEN CARE OF SO BAD AND I WANT SOMEONE TO SEE IM SUFFERING AND TAKWE IT AWAY FROM MEEEEE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE PLEAASSSEEEEEEE"

these themes literally show up in almost all my works esp Yandere older brother, Yandere best friend and heavily in my Language Barrier series

Whereas for monty, that was my attempt of like trying something new, stuff that I' don't necessarily fancy but it's a nice change of pace, the exact opposite of Yves; the stereotype of the man of the house: dirty, manchild (cant cook), fixes shit his own, doesn't even own a house to handle its affairs, uses dishsoap to wash himself, sex fiend, financially irresponsible, inattentive but trying his best beer is my best friend

Whereas Yves is a stereotype of the woman, cooks, clean, has a 20 step skincare routine, takes care of his looks, hygiene, dress up well, proper etiquette, makeup, handles the finance, saving himself after marriage, more research than the FBI, loves fashion, fitness, live laugh love

and like i get it im not surprised , there will be those who prefer monty over Yves and Yves over monty. just like there's this anon who said something along the lines of Monty are for those who want to fix him, while Yves is for those who wants to BE fixed.

i did have a lot of anons disliking both sides of the yin n yang which was expected n shit

and yes ur right, Monty would have fallen for anyone who saved him not necessarily you, you just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time- but his saving grace is that once he latched on , he's never letting go there is no one that could replace you. Mans is going to off himself if you're gone

in conclusion, im also downbad for yves

sauryy montyy

[lilysaus]

okay. this fucking picture made me so mad i went on a 15 minute rant to my sister while she was trying to read her book.

so ive been looking at a lot of pictures of posts on pinterest because thats just where i spend most of my time. most of these posts are on the topic of adhd. ive never been properly diagnosed, but reading through these posts has made me feel so welcomed and understood (more than my parents have made me feel, pretending that this is "all just a phase that ill get over soon because pretending to have adhd is just the thing right now") that i realized ON MY OWN that "hey maybe i do have adhd." well.

i found this post while scrolling through pinterest, and it really sparked my anger.

i have a friend who was diagnosed with add before it was considered an "outdated" term and scrapped because apparently ALL FUCKING FORMS OF NEURODIVERGENCY THAT ARENT AUTISM ARE JUST "ADHD".

i read this post and it was what sparked my anger and my 15 minute rant to my sister. people who get degrees in this stuff, or counselors at schools, never really know what youre going through. all they know is that youre having some problems and they need to be solved.

which brings me back to this picture. if you look up "is add still a thing" on google, this is the first picture to pop up. and just seeing the visual aids they put with it makes me furious enough to throw something or someone out a fifth story window. the little girl is fucking SMILING while thinking about the most common shit people think us neurodivergent folks think when distracted. first off, no. false. we dont just think of video games and candy. we think of the randomest shit possible, like how long can i sit here without blinking or what kind of funny shit can i draw on this one sheet of paper.

and ALSO.

you cant just categorize adhd as TWO SEPARATE THINGS and call it good. we dont fit under two umbrellas. theres too many of us. we each have our own figurative umbrellas that only we ourselves can fit under, no one else. thats the problem with neurotypicals. they fit the typical stereotype for humans: we try to understand everything by putting it in a box. those lists of "symptoms"? i match every single one. on both sides. so ha. take that SCIENTISTS. what am i? some kind of freak of nature because i dont fit under just ONE of your precious categories?

i also looked up what "inattentive" means and it made me angrier. according to oxford languages, "inattentive" means "not paying attention to something", which doesnt seem too bad, right? it fits some people perfectly with their symptoms, right? but its not the definition that bugs me. its the example sentence thats used. "a particularly dull and inattentive student". basically saying that if you dont pay attention well to something, youre dull and boring.

im sorry, what? sometimes i have trouble paying attention, sure, but you ask any of my friends and they can agree i am NOT boring in any way, shape, or form. non of them would describe me as "dull". inattentive? sure, but not dull. so to call it "inattentive" adhd, instead of just add, is stupid! my friend with ADD (not fucking adhd, stupid scientists) is one of the funniest, most entertaining people ive ever met. shes an incredible artist, super smart, and knows how to make anyone laugh. does that sound dull to you? does she have problems focusing sometimes? yes. does she struggle with doing something sometimes? yes. but dont the rest of us?

my point is, when i see things like this, it pisses me off. like, unless all of the scientists who agreed "add" is an outdated term have it themselves, i refuse to believe its outdated and i will continue to say that my friend has it. she was literally diagnosed by the doctor telling her "you have attention deficit and hyperactivity disorder without the hyperactivity." THATS JUST FUCKING ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER YOU DUMBASS!!!

anyway, i hope im not the only one who feels this way. i just felt it necessary to get this out there. maybe someday, people wont be so dumb and single minded. in my opinion, neurodivergent people are superior in intellect and creativity, but i guess until someone like that takes over the world and dropkicks neurotypicals into the stratosphere, we'll never know.

[skatingbi]

Guys imagine...Chopper new to the strawhat crew and he wants to do like one of those routine physicals with everyone and also just get to know them n shit.

Chopper like "How do you ALL have PTSD symptoms what the heck guys" and everyone just shrugs bc fuck if they know lmao

Zoro and Sanji alone are two whole cans of worms he's already mentally preparing to open, Luffy is your token ADHD kid with both inattentive and hyperactive types. Nami SEEMS fine. Except not when she tells Chopper about the Arlong pirates and he immediately makes a new page of notes.

So chopper sits everyone down and is like "Okay so. If you ever need to talk about something, ANYTHING, im here for you!" and everyone is super touched by how kind this kid is.

Everyone in some capacity does, and theyre like little therapy sessions. Some talk to Chopper more than once a week and he's perfectly fine with that. He likes helping the crew he's become a part of. Some actually talk about what affects them (nami and usopp) while others will just bust in with the most random shit known to man (luffy and i KNOW sanji would too u cant tell me otherwise). Regardless chopper listens no matter how small it is.

The only one who doesnt visit is Zoro. At first, Chopper doesnt think much of it. Zoro likes to keep to himself anyways and the kid doesnt wanna force anyone to talk to him about their problems, its counterproductive anyways to try and do that. After thriller bark, though, Chopper sits Zoro down against his will.

What he does learn though is that Zoro doesnt want to add more baggage to whatever chopper is dealing with. Despite chopper's reassurance, zoro refuses to stress the reindeer out. Its not even because zoro thinks he needs to be strong, its because zoro sees chopper as like a little brother he wants to support and take care of.

That totally doesnt make chopper tear up at all. Nope.

Zoro does talk to chopper that day about some stuff like Kuina, his childhood at the dojo, him being a pirate hunter before meeting luffy, and a few stories from before chopper joined. If they were friends before this theyre definitely best friends after.

After that, maybe once in a blue moon, zoro will go visit chopper. Sometimes he'll take a nap and other times he'll talk about something mundane. He's probably only talked about something serious maybe twice, but chopper still listens no matter what.

[pearwaldorf]

(jumping off from this wonderfully chewy post and the response)

I'm glad I never saw any of the "Ed has ADHD ergo Stede is just a hyperfixation he'll move on from" posts when they were floating around because I would have lost my damn shit.

(I am a late diagnosed woman, and you can use my experience as a literal template for all the things that conspired/did not lead to a diagnoses when it should have happened: nascent awareness of ADHD as a thing, the perception of it being a boy's condition, the way inattentive types just drift off and not cause distractions, being a "gifted" kid so there's no way you can have it.)

And I can tell immediately people who say shit like this do not have ADHD*, because while it is absolutely possible to hyperfixate on a person, it's not the same thing as genuine attraction or even limerence, in my experience at least. From the outside they look similar, but it doesn't feel the same at all. It feels almost compulsive, in a way that not even a regular hyperfixation** does. Maybe that's the dopamine fiending kicking in, idk.

Anyways. There's nothing that strikes me about Ed's behavior in S1 as a hyperfixation of any sort. He's already bored as fuck of his life, and even if he didn't have ADHD hearing about Stede would have been enough to pique his interest.

The thing that made me absolutely sure it was real though? The way he was sobbing his heart out in bed. I, too, had an extremely traumatic first breakup and it was A Thing to be almost physically thrown back into that feeling, despite being over it and have been for years. I felt it, the way your body keeps things that your mind doesn't always remember or think about. That's not an ADHD thing, that's a connection I felt as a fellow human who has been through that experience.

And it's unsurprising to me that the show does a much better job of integrating possible ADHD traits into Ed's characterization than most fans do. I laughed so hard at Ed fidgeting in the boat and him deciding he wanted to be a fisherman on the turn of a dime. The possibility of it certainly informs his character and actions, but his choices are still clear and understandable even if he isn't.

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* And as the previous post mentions, people's neurodivergent headcanons of Ed are always racialized and used to justify taking away agency from him. I have never seen people saying Stede's headcanoned autism should result in the same outcome. 🤔🤔

** ime regular hyperfixation is more about flow and time blindness, the way you can lose yourself in a thing for hours because you're just vibing and doing a thing you enjoy to the exclusion of all else.

[wowpindrop]

Reunited | Ed Gamble

For: anon

Request:

I think it’s absolutely messed up how there is no Ed Gamble fic’s and was wondering if you can do a fluffy one for him? I’m not sure at all what it be about and will happily leave that to you but I am ADHD (Inattentive and distractible type) and was wondering if you could include the fic

Summary: you haven't seen Ed for a while due to him being on tour. You are missing him. A lot. Finally you two are reunited.

Notes: Hi! I'm so so sorry that it's taken me this long to write this. I've just started college so life has been very hectic and it took me a long while to think of a storyline I was happy with. I hope you like it and happy reading!

You opened your eyes slowly, groaning at the tiredness that washed over you. Checking your phone you glanced at the time.

4am

Great.

Just what you needed for today. You glanced over at the empty left hand side of the bed, and felt that familiar pang of longing.

How you missed Ed.

You two had been together for a couple of years now. However, you had never been apart for this long.

Ed was on tour, with his show Electric, travelling up and down the country performing to hundreds of fans on a nightly basis.

You were proud of him. Of course you were. Doesn't mean that you weren't jealous of those people that got to see him.

You felt your emotions more than the average person. You'd always been that way. That meant that the sadness you felt at not being able to see you're favourite asshole hurt just that little bit more.

Well you certainly weren't getting back to sleep now.

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You got yourself sorted as you always did. Shower, dressed, breakfast.

When finished, you plonked onto your couch and popped on something to watch. Unsurprisingly it was something Ed was in. An old episode of mock the week to be precise.

It made you smile to see the man you loved laughing so hard at his friends jokes.

You watched another episode.

And another.

You didn't know how many episodes you had gone through before your phone buzzed next to you, making you jump.

It was a message.

Your heart lept when you realised it was from Ed.

It was a fairly encrypted message that you couldn't really decipher. It contained four words:

Train station.

30 minutes.

Ed wasn't due home for a few weeks yet so you were very confused as to what he meant.

That's when you realised the time.

12pm.

Shit. How had that long passed already. You hadn't been sitting there for that long. Right?

Shaking that thought aside, you stood up to go to the train station as your boyfriend had requested. Still really confused as to what he was on about.

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You arrived at the train station about 20 minutes later, the hustle and bustle around you common for London at this time of day.

You stood in the main entrance, not really knowing what to do, back facing the doors behind you.

You stood for about 5 minutes, people constantly milling around you. Some running in the hopes that they wouldn't miss their train. Every now and again someone would brush arms with you accidentally, as the station was so busy.

You were beginning to get impatient. That is until you recieved another message.

Look behind you, dumbass

You frowned. The heck was he on about?

You turned, not seeing anything, until you felt a tap on your shoulder.

You spin back around to be faced with him.

Ed.

He was here, infront of you.

"Shit!" You jumped in suprise, not expecting to see him standing there.

"Did you miss me?" He smirked. You wrapped your arms around him, enveloping him in a huge hug. You smiled so glad he was here.

He ruffled your hair, laughing his all too familiar laugh at your delight. He hugged back and you revelled in the feeling of familiarity it brought you.

"I'll take that as a yes then." He teased, pulling back to look you in the eyes.

"What in the everliving fuck are you doing here, you're meant to be in Brighton tonight." You exclaimed, immediately worried that he would miss his gig.

"Eh. It only takes an hour or two by train. Anyway, I wanted to see my favourite gullible prick."

You flicked his forehead at that. Ed made a slight noise of pain as you laughed at his reaction.

"You have no idea how much I've missed you" you admitted, staring into those blue eyes.

"Me too. Me too" he replied.

You hugged again. Comfortable in each others arms.

Time seemed to stand still. It felt so good to be reunited.

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I hope that was alright. Sorry again for the delay.

I love Ed sm and the fact that there is no fanfiction for him is abysmal. Hopefully this makes up for that.

Hope you have a great day or rest of day!

[adhd-culture--is]

So like I’ve been dx as inattentive type but like in the past I’ve had “phases” where I’d act very hyperactively. im normally a very shy and introverted person but sometimes I would act all weird that when I’d tell ppl im shy they’d be like “you’re shy?!” and it’d make me feel all weird and shit. and it’s not even that i was more comfortable w those ppl I guess I just rly wanted ppl to like me and thought acting like that would help (spoiler alert: it did not) so idk what to make of it

as far as i know, this is a very normal experience to have anon! there’s a reason why both the hyperactive and inattentive type (and the mixed ofc) of ADHD still fall under the same umbrella. you aren’t a cookie-cutter and being inattentive type doesn’t mean you Can’t express hyperactivity! it just means that the inattentive type is a better description of your behavior. but just like anyone you experience fluctuations in your mood. personally, i always have a weird disconnect between how people see me and how i see myself too — i’ve always grown up with people assuming i’m shy or meek when i actually consider myself to be pretty outspoken and active. as to say, random people you meet probably aren’t the best determinators of your personality — you’re more complex than a first impression.

if it is concerning you for any reason though, this is a very reasonable thing to chat with the folks who diagnosed you about, and they might give you insight that i can’t (i am not a professional, just a peer!)

(also, are you on the spectrum? the things you’re describing sound a lot like what autistic folk deal with. then again, it’s also very normal for adhd and autism to share experiences. something to think about though, autistic resources might help you connect with what you’re dealing with, no matter who you are.)

[normalsnails]

All about hidehisa (backstory and third high rise world plot)

A hugeass post all about her ig - also, most of the things im describing are meant to be slightly exaggerated but real, she is not over the top lol

1. Backstory / Pre-THRW

So, family life.

Her family is the typical family youd expect to raise bullies :

•Inattentive to what their children are doing to others and themselves (heavy implications if this was ever written that hidehisa smokes, and does other things because of the terrible influence from her similar peers, her brother and her parents) <- note : mainly her peers are to blame (school)

•Lack of care for their children (physical and emotional)

•Speaks to their children like pure shit (entirely based off of my past bullies parents lmao, all of them speak to their kids like shit istg)

Obviously, juo (her brother) decided to become “evil”, not necessarily raised into it, but it surely didnt help him that their parents dont care and were in fact as bad as him. (If not worse)

Their parents wanted a girl when their mother was pregnant with Juo, so they decided on Emiri because they “knew” it was going to be a girl. They were pissed when Emiri turned out to be a boy so he was called that anyway. The same happened to Hidehisa, they wanted a boy so they could have two sons so they decided on Hidehisa, but then she was born a girl and they were more pissed. (Weirdass parents 😭 part of me still wants to write them as cool but like, theyre not the best parents clearly)

I originally wanted her to be one of 4 (siblings) but i decided that it should be just her and juo tbh

Obviously, this is just what i think is fitting! If you have any ideas for their home life and family life then feel free to share! This is just my opinion ofc :)

2. School life

Obviously, the basics of her character: gets into fights alot.

Like wayy too much lolol (she literally has to have bandages on her hands 24/7 because theyre so bruised)

This makes her ehh popular-ish because people dont wanna really mess with her and, to highschoolers, fights = peak entertainment. And she provides tons 😭. But also the fact that her brother is probably well known around the area (not in a gang way, i think of juo as more of a solo criminal) and he’s terrifying lmaoo i would not wanna meet him in real life holy shit

Because of this, she does not go to school often (gets suspended and/or kicked out) because unlike her brother (who was stealthy in being a huge piece of shit) she doesn’t hide it (nor is she a bully like he was, as i said in another post, she’s more of a bitch to everyone and anyone) like he did. Mainly because she doesn’t target people and bully them until suicide (no hate to Juo ily king).

i like to compare her pre-THRW character to this song lolol!

ANYWAY, I HOPE THIS IS CONSISTENT LOL

THRW plot I dont know what else to say tbh im too tired to think

She kills people in thrw because shes a suzuki why wouldn’t she 😭

She may or may not have gotten the title “seraph” (ironic i know)

Her, myra and Takeshi eventually found out about eachother and went to “war”

Then they became besties idk

Kinda

I think

Send me an ask if you want any specifics because i cant think rn!!

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hello world! i’m not sure what i’m aiming to do here, but i feel i’ve gotten comfortable enough to start just spewing my bullshit to anyone who’ll listen :) so in that case, i suppose i should share something about myself?

my name’s raine (or ray), my pronouns are he/they/it, i have inattentive type adhd, and i know wayyyyyyy too much about most pride identities

i suppose those are the basics, so… yeah! hello to anyone who reads this (if anyone even does) and hopefully i can carve out my little corner of the internet and just ~vibe~

im still trying to figure out how all this shit works, so if things go wrong, my bad? idk what else i’m supposed to say here… hello world :)

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HEAVILY ND TWEEK MENTIONED. I WILL GIVE OFF RANDOM HEADCANONS

- he first is a low support needs level one autistic but after realizing his parents drugged him and they get arrested he gets so traumatized and tired he becomes a high support needs level 2 autistic

- he’s a DID system! Named the Sprucewood Syndicate. System of around seven, many based on roleplay personas from the past, like wonder Tweek, barbarian tweek and outlaw tweek. But since the alters are completely different people from tweek, they go by different names like Wonder, the Barbarian and Zeke. Also a British poet zombie guy from Victorian ages named mark. And some of his comfort plushies turned into alters. And iono from Pokémon

-(more autism) his special interests include legos, weather forecasts, Pokémon and sonic the hedgehog

-okay now onto schizophrenia! The drugs in the coffee messed up his brain that way. Doesn’t hallucinate much because of meds, but the delusions get bad. Had cotards delusion once, used to think he was being gangstalked, sometimes hallucinates Jason’s voice and has whole conversations with him. Often feels bugs crawling on him, but that’s mostly a meth induced psychosis thing. His psychosis was BAD after Jason’s death holy shit. He’s got a great support group for his schizophrenia luckily!

-tourettes 🐀 🐀 yeah those are more than twitches. He has klazomania, which means he has screaming tics. They make his throat sore, so he sucks on flavored cough drops for them. Also sometimes he jerks his neck so hard he tears a muscle and has to wear a neck brace

-epilepsy because…meth. Luckily he’s not the 3% of epileptics that are triggered by flashing lights. He usually seizes due to really really high stress.

- his adhd actually exists!!!! Combined inattentive AND hyperactive type. Sometimes all he does in a day is build legos. Don’t have much headcanons for this actually.

- OCD. Hates his intrusive thoughts. Obsessions are mainly about him dying in the present or further because of little things he does, and has compulsions he has to do so he doesn’t die, according to him. Most common compulsion is marching around in a circle exactly three times.

- I don’t have to explain the anxiety and panic disorders that’s literally him as a person

-C-PTSD, because being on caffeine and meth while autistic 24/7/365 will make you see things as more terrifying than a neurotypical. Think of Jason’s death, Richard pointing a gun at him, realizing he’s been drugged with meth, etc. because of this, in his teens he’s TERRIFIED on coffee, but therapy helps him as time progresses

-major depressive disorder :( Craig has it too to me so when one or both is going through and episode they both cuddle up and play with stripe and watch red racer and/or the weather channel

I probably missed a disorder (I ignored substance abuse disorder on purpose) but yeah!!! This bitch has very very divergent neurons!!!!! He’s the reason I wanna major in psychology in college

WHEN I RECEIVED THIS ASK I GOT SOOOO HAPPY

THIS IS ALL SO VERY REAL HOLY SHIT!!! I love this sm !!!!

im sorry but im imagining him in the future going to a psychiatrist to deal with anxiety and suddenly they diagnose him with like half of the disorders ever known to man and being like HUHHHH

sorry i dont have anything else to add i agree w all of these sm !! personally ive never thought about the possibility of him having DID but i can see it!!

god i love tweek sm