#im unsure of how much of the later stuff i want to put in the plot or add as a dlc but i want to include as much as possible

[gornackeaterofworlds]

i have a question. does april have any ulterior motives for befriending the turtles in the butterfly effect?

Hm. By ulterior you likely mean sinister, and in that regard, no. She is a "good" character. There will actually be an intermission sometime after this arc ends in a few chapters that will detail what happened during my disgusting time skip, where you might gain more insight.

But neutrally, yes!! The meeting scene means a lot to me because of everything that's clashing unspoken, a lot of decisions being weighed. So she does have a motive, the core of her character and many conflicts to come, that was the main reason she played nice. But she warms up to them as "people", though, and becomes a genuine friend as well, which is where she's at by the time the time skip is over. This isn't as rushed as it seems, they will get a lot of interactions together very soon for you to parse through. With it being so early, I'm not keen on plot dumping just yet, so I'm unsure of when said Intermission will release. But they will all get insight into their backstories that's not absolutely necessary for the main plot but as more of an added bonus

[jazzyblusnowflake]

You've got some cool headcanons for Nuzi and Vuzi, but what about the third? You got any for EnVy?

Wow i suck at answering these on time smh. sighhhh, in my defense i procrastinate answering some questions cuz i don't wanna just put together some random stuff and call it a day-

i actually wrote some stuff for some asks before but had to delete it last minute cuz i thought its worth putting more time than that, i guess TvT sorry, im probably taking this too seriously idk.

My eNVee headcanons TvT:

[yall know the drill, the drone versions only, the human versions aren’t involved, and no nsfw- for now.]

k so, light envuzi involved too, Uzi is the mediator here, whether u consider her a friend here or their mini toaster in the middle- also there's some of the stuff from my future version where V is safe and sound thankfully. and also maybe some stuff from their past too.

With how N was realizing that V was lying or hiding stuff from him in a constant manner, naturally he grew to grieve the loss of who V USED to be, and with that loss he tried to accept that he has to let her go, because the V he fell in love with was long gone. despite this, when they both started teasing each other over their relationship with Uzi and N started to bite back a bit at Vs behaviors with more self confidence, they grew to form a completely different kind of relationship. Uzi was just having fun seeing them try to win her over lmao; but in the end they kind of started enjoying eachothers company again. Uzi felt happy seeing them get closure for the things they went through and was more than happy to support them through it.

Back at the manor V was fixed up after J and N, she was one of the later drones added to the family, she hardly spent much time at the manor at all before the great yeetening happened- she was originally a maid drone for a family before she was broken and dumped in the drone corpse junkyard. Maid drones are programmed with sweet and soft AIs with more round/short body shapes to have a friendly image in a household, they are made to be able to deal with both adults and kids, and they are best made for cleaning and setting up the house in mind. N was made as a butler/chauffeur before getting broken and yeeted in the junkyard [yes he can drive]. Due to V getting broken for some sort of mistake during work, she was left scarred after her reboot to make any more mistakes, which left her slightly jitter-ish and clumsy. Tessa put N in charge to help her around and although at the beginning V didn't talk much and felt unsure, slowly N became her safe space- especially since Tessas abusive parents remind V alot of her old household. N in turn thought V was always cute, he helped her with her work, having more steady hands, which ended with a lot more hand touching and blushing on both their ends :p

N was the one that suggested glasses for V which Tessa decided to try doing to see if it would help her visual efficiency in any way, and it did. V as a DD often tries to rely on her real eyes rather than look through her main visor, the glasses remind her too much of N...

N and V sometimes used to get out of the manor in secret spots to spend some time away from the chaos to help V calm down. during this time they would read books, learn stuff from each others past lives, and sometimes draw lol, but V just liked watching and listening to N, she felt happy with him. although unlike N, V felt a bit nervous around the animals in the area XD

N and V actually have shared kisses, just not on the lips. with N kissing her on the back of her hand as a gentleman and V giving him kisses on his cheek [Tessa's idea of a cute plan to put them under a mistletoe lol], but Vs last words to N was a promise to give him a kiss before she became comatose. as more drones in the manor stopped working and Ns efficiency and work became less useful to the manors occupants due to him wanting to spend time with V all the time, Louisa and James started becoming more impatient with Tessa's drones, which lead to the whole "get rid of them" line...

back in the current time V is obviously trying to protect N in her own traumatized way; but even then, most of the things she had done to "shelter" N, was probably not the best choice one could make, and some of it was done out of jealousy towards N and Uzi getting closer. However, slowly she started convincing herself that N deserved someone like Uzi. V had convinced herself that she deserves nothing. She was willing to give up everything for N and keep him safe from the beginning, even if it meant knocking N down a few limbs/heads just to keep him away from danger- which is problematic in itself. she made choices based off fear and urgency. she was always traumatized.

When N and V started getting along together a bit more and hanging around a bit in the human cities- V takes N to a bookstore she found once and they spent the whole day in the shelter of the store reading different old books. V still does not admit she did this to see N happy again lol.

When N started showing V affection again, V started becoming heavily touch starved and dependent on him again, just like the manor days, which she feared, which caused a minor set back for a while where she tried to avoid N. Uzi had to come and fix this shit cuz apparently only she can scold 2 dinosaurs without feeling intimidated. after N and V kiss for the first time PROPERLY after the whole solver BS ends, V just gets more touch starved and she hates both N AND Uzi for this lmao.

N and Uzi know that one of the only ways to make V calm down is to act soft with her, occasionally praising her and calling her nice things; even when V is literally threatening to bite their head off- [shes bluffing-.......mostly.]

N is usually the one that initiates any closeness with V. after their first kiss, N does tell her that she's done stuff that he might not be able to casually forgive, but at the same time he has seen her grow, and she does have good in her that he still loves her for.

V has nightmares and hardly ever sleeps, and when she does, its usually cuddling N or Uzi.

V tries to wear her glasses more often in the future. N likes it a lot :"3

V is surprisingly a good mom :p [spoilers for my au lmao bye] but yeah, since her original OS was for a maid, she still has some functions to be good with little ones. she cant help herself, she just really likes babies and kids.

N likes sometimes ballroom dancing with V for old times sake...

[i think this is as far as my brain will allow me, please excuse me as i jump off a cliff :") ]

[spidernuggets]

hi hiii love ur stuff, may i req hcs about jason dating a super femme girly girl, like wears mKeup, wears bows in her hair, gets her nails done n stuff etc? Also being a civillian, im ngl i feel like he’d be super protective, but i just think it would be so cute and he’d be the scary gaurd dog bf lmaoo

been waiting for a request forEVAH

Jason Todd x GirlyFem!Reader HCs

I feel like he'd date a very girly girl who is a hoarder and does not keep things in place. Like you have a shit ton of different types of mascara, concealer, pink eyeshadow. And when Jaspn mentions why you have so much pink eyeshadow, you claim that it's one shade for different occasions.

You also have a huge collection of accessories

Hair accessories, rings, bracelets, earrings

And with all these collections, you tend to lose them all.

"Jason!! Where's my pink bow!!" "You mean this one?" "Jason- No! That's Flamingo pink! I'm looking for Lemonade pink!"

He would help you choose what nail design to pick from when you get your nail done. You like your nails a little longer than average, but Jason's worried that they would easily break, bht you assure him that you're used to them.

In the end, he chooses red and pink nails (to have your nails match with his colour too 🤭🤭), with white pearls and heart charms.

You tell him he can come back later because you'd think that he would hate to wait around for your nails to get done. But Jason is an absolute sucker for you. You can have like a 5 hour nail appointment and he'd still wait with you.

You like wearing short skirts, and you always wear shorts underneath just in case, but Jason is so paranoid. He doesn't want others to look at you. He always thinks he's overreacting, but that doesn't stop him from walking close behind you while the two of you are out.

Even though you have so many accessories, every birthday, anniversary, Christmas, and such, Jason would always gift you with a more expensive piece of jewellery. Like for your anniversary, Jason gifted you a Swarovski necklace that had pink roses around it. And you never take it off unless you're showering our plan to head out in a crowded place and you'd be scared of losing it.

I think girly reader would wear very graphic makeup. Like pink hearts and white sparkles everywhere or butterfly wings on the outer corner of your eyes. When you're unsure of a makeup look you wanna do, you'd ask Jason to be your model. He'd groan and let you try your makeup on him, but he makes you swear you won't tell any of his siblings.

And when your face lights up, thinking that the makeup look on him was perfect, you rush out to do it on yourself, and he thinks if your face looks like that every time you just put makeup on him, then it's worth it.

Sometimes, when you go clubbing with your friends, you'd assure Jason that you'd be fine on your own, but the both of you have a worried feeling in your guts. So when you leave, you're kind of hoping Jason is following you. And obviously he is.

So when some big, strange, older man comes to try to feel you up, you shove him away, telling him you have a boyfriend. But him being stronger than you, he continues to push.

Luckily, your bigger and stronger boyfriend comes to help you, reminding the weirdo that you have a boyfriend. Jason doesn't need to say mire because the man is running away like a scared dog.

Your friends swoon over Jason, but you don't need to worry about being jealous because you already know how much Jason is devoted to you.

Since he's already there with you, why not enjoy yourself with him while you're both at the club?

You'd ask Jason if you can have matching nails with him. It didn't need to be acrylic nails. You just wanted the colours to match . And unfortunately for Jason, he could never say no to you.

So he glares at his siblings, especially his brothers, when they try to question his choices of colours painted on his nails.

Whenever the two of you are together at home, watching a movie or something, he loves to have you sit on his lap, especially when you're wearing a skirt, wink wink.

You try to match outfits with him without him knowing. He noticed, of course. So he's wearing his iconic brown leather jacket, you're wearing your light pink leather jacket.

You'd teach Jason how to style hair, so every now and again, you'd ask him to do your hair for you, obviously decorating it with a bow.

Eventually, when Jason tells you about his alter ego, Red Hood, you think he's the coolest and bravest man alive, in comparison to Jason's initial idea of how you'd react. He'd think that you'd drop him, leaving him on his own.

But when you meet some of Jason's female friends and colleagues, you get jealous that they're more skilled, brave, and closer to Jason's occupation than you'd ever be. Especially when you find out that some of them, like Rose Wilson and Artemis Grace, used to have some sort of romantic relationship with him.

So, for the first time in a while, you start to doubt your position in your relationship. You start wearing darker clothes, darker eyeshadow. Hell, you stopped wearing bows for a while!!

Jason quickly notices this and asks worryingly why the drastic change in appearance.

And when you confess it's to be similar to his exes, he takes the black leather jacket off you, takes a bow laying nearby (there's always at least one or two bows lying around wherever you are) and places it in you hair, giving you a soft kiss on the lips.

He assures you that he doesn't need you to be or look like them.

Because it was you who he fell in love with.

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This turned into a half oneshot for a hot second.

[samson-the-whale]

So ... I made a self insert fore WIR ....ya

:]

Name: Scrapper/scrap

Gender: male (this mf bisexual)

Age: in his game like 20s to 30s if we go with his game age like 30s or 40s 

Game: Scrapper's scrape up

(its like punch out game mechanics game play wies)

Character interactions:

 Hc he gets pumped up easily and likes to push people in the shoulder lightly but really fast when he needs to let out that excitement (t can be like a charging up a special move in his game) and might accidentally leave a bruise 

When he does it to Ralph it tickles 

When he punches Felix he says ow but then hammers his arm and it heals

When he did it to Calhoun for the first time she hit him across the room because she thought he was picking fights and fucking K.Od him with that bitch slap

Then was kind of apologetic after Felix explained and yelled "oh shoot sorry" then Scrap still laying in the floor gives a thumbs up and a strained "I'm ok...it's ok"

 Also if he did the punching thing with Vanelopie she would just pixilate a bit and his punches would almost go through her shoulder kinda I think much like Ralph it would also just tickle 

Ralph:

Before the whole plot of the movie I like to think Ralph liked him but was kind of bitter "he has huge fists and smashes stuff why am "I" the villain?" XD

Ok ok 

So he and Ralph actually get along surprisingly well for you know one being the main character of his game and supposed "heroes" of the game  and the other is well the bad guy. They both like punching stuff and hav a give each other a high five or fist bump while walking by each other so like buddys

Felix:

Him and Felix are more like 

Felix: look at this cool thin-

Scrap: HOLLY CARP CHECK THAT OUT

Like literally one of the doodle sketches was Scrapper leapfrogging over felix to look at a new plugged in game 

So he kinda is an annoying brat towards felix but always makes it in good fun like he's messing around with him with never an intent to hurt his feelings (even when he goes too far and accidentally does)

Vanelopie:

So now we got Vanelopie

There's actually this running joke sorta where scrapper really likes bright colors becus how I imagine his game has a very limited color palette except him for aesthetically pleasing reasons

So he'd actually stay away from brightly colored areas out of comfort before becoming more enthralled in other colors hens his fixation with casualty visiting sugar rush when he's bored 

You may think oh then he must have met Vanellope while visiting 

Well actually no he bye dumb luck he never met her until after the events of the first movie 

So there knowing each other isn't really that strong yet 

But because of him and ralph eventually becoming friends he grew a liking to the spunky little girl calling her shortstack all the time (despite him being a similar height) and or squirt

In response Vanellope calls him oled man

Calhoun:

 Calhoun thinks he's like 12

He is not he's like 30-40 Like lectures him on his fighting form Thinks he's like inexperienced Finds him endearing if a little overbearing Finds his high energy useful in certain situations but exhausting at other times Is unsure...which fighting game he originates from Then bonding through duty or honor or avenging a loved one.

Sour bill (because I want more interactions and im hiperfixsaiting):

Scraper:Yoooooo a fellow rubber ball

Sour bill:what?

 Ima say this shit now they would drink tea together because yes Scrapper doesn't like coffee he drinks tea

Sonic (because I can):

Mf cameos in scrappers game in later levels for no reason just because funny

It's like the meme

Scrapper: sonic? What are you doing here?

Sonic in scrapper's game: waiting for them to play Gangdemstyle 

Ok so I forgot to put this in I was ryly hoped to post this but thanks to my friend @im-not-important fore spell correcting and helping come up with ideas(also did some of the Blu doodles in the Wight board drawings)

[10001gecs]

congrats on arm!!! also no worries if you don't want to talk about your workout routine but do you have any tips for how to get started working out if you're new to it? i want to feel stronger but feel really overwhelmed and unsure where to start!

ok so actually yes as someone who’s tried to like working out for YEARS I have so many thots basically

1. Get a gym membership. I know you CAN work out at home but personally it’s way harder for me bc im like. Ok I COULD be working out rn or I could just stop and go play some video games. If ur at the gym tho it’s like ok im already here so I might as well

2. Spend like, a month literally just hanging out at the gym. Like I went in without a plan and just did random machines for an hour until I got tired. And this was rly important for me bc it turned working out from like, “something I have to do and it hurts and I have to do a prescribed regimen every time” into just a fun thing I do for as long as I wanna. I like to think of it as enrichment in my hamster enclosure. If you get any visible progress here it’s also a slay because that’s encouragement!

3. ONLY WHEN you’ve done these things get an actual workout program. I tbh just stole one from someone I know who’s buff as fuck. Don’t be afraid to modify it, too. My friend is strong and has been going to the gym forever so he does a bunch of barbell stuff… which is scary to me. So instead I just do machines that work basically the same thing (eg bench press -> machine chest press).

4. Form is basically the most important thing, bc otherwise ur working the wrong muscles. And at least personally as a beginner, when I was getting my form wrong, it was usually bc I was trying to lift too much, my muscles couldn’t manage it, so my form slipped so other muscles could take over. Like, after a while of doing bicep curls, your forearms might start to take over the load. If you take ur thumbs from curling around the bar to sitting underneath it, you can stop that. For every new machine I did for a while I’d put the weight at like, 10 pounds, and just focus on getting the form right. This is also fun bc it feels more like enrichment. Wheee im pulling levers and such!

5. Nutrition. Eat a lot of protein. Like the amount u think u should be eating and then double that. Ppl recommend .7-1 g of protein per pound of body weight (im starting from a higher body fat %, so I can eat closer to the .7 range… which is nice bc otherwise ur eating SO MUCH). Like, again, don’t freak out about it, the most important thing is that ur going at all… but once it becomes something u enjoy, you wanna make sure you’re not doing a bunch of work and then not giving ur muscles the nutrition they need

So basically overall my advice is like, make going to the gym easy and fun before you make it useful. Like, you can do the best workouts of your life but if it sucks, you’re not gonna do it consistently. Once u break the habit, you’ll never pick it back up. If you make it fun first, you want to go… and you can always make it more difficult later. If you ever notice it not being fun, give it a break and figure out how to make it fun.

Also basically nobody is looking at you in the gym ever. Also I specifically got a membership to a gym that has really low membership bc I hate fighting for machines and I hate feeling like ppl are looking at you (they’re not, but I hate the feeling). My planet fitness is 24/7, and for a while I went at like, 11pm bc it was empty.

[equallyshaw]

ᴅᴀʏ ᴛᴡᴏ: ᴄʜʀɪꜱᴛᴍᴀꜱ ꜱᴏɴɢꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛʙʀᴇᴀᴋ - ᴛʀᴇᴠᴏʀ ᴢᴇɢʀᴀꜱ

country singer x trevor blurb!

warnings: swearing, cheating, etc. im sorry about this one besties🥺

word count: 4.1k

masterlist for holidays with equallyshaw.

𝘁𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗱𝗮𝗶𝘀𝘆 𝗺𝗲𝘁 at a country festival, in spring of 2022. after a rough end to the season, him and jamie headed out to a country festival in southern california and just so happened to stumble upon 'miss daisy' the newest, up-and-coming country artist. the two hit if off very well and spent the rest of the weekend tied to one another's hips. daisy thought that it was just a weekend thing and nothing more, but then the day that they all went their separate ways, he was texting her how long she was at home in california for before traveling for summer festivals, and then it blossomed into so much more. daisy was unsure about it, just because her and her boyfriend of three years had just broken up. her ex did not like the success she was having and believed that she had changed. he also did not like how much more successful she was than him, it hurt his precious ego. she was nervous about rushing into another relationship, but trevor made it all very easy, and loving him was the easiest thing she'd done in her life; she'd believed.

❅

it was november a year and a half after meeting and getting together, when her ex boyfriend hit her up. she was in a club box at the ducks arena with her best friend abbi, when she felt her phone buzz. she peered down at it, a simple text stating "enjoying the game?" and sh quickly looked up to see if anybody in front of her had noticed her. her eyes quickly found his, in the box next to her's. she felt a rush of emotions hit her, and she swallowed tryings to blink back tears. she'd be lying if she did not say seeing him had made her heart flutter, and a wave of butterflies formed. abbi looked over and saw who her best friend had her eyes on, and daisy quickly looked back toward the ice. a few minutes later, she headed towards the open bar in the suite and ordered a simple cocktail. "actually can you wait on making it, im gonna head to the washroom." and the bartender nodded going to another patron. she headed out of the suite towards the washroom, "daisy!" she heard her name roll of the southern drawl. she continued her descent towards the washroom, but his longer legs had made him catch up to her.

he grabbed her softly by the arm and made her turn towards him. she yanked her arm away from him, giving him a scowl. "don't do that." he said looking around, to see if anybody had seen them. "don't do that? fuck off tyler." she spat, turning back around but he grabbed her again. she put her arms up, "don't touch me!" she growled, her hands going frantic. he raised his arms up in innocence, and she took a step back. "what? what could you possibly want?" she quizzed, crossing her arms over her chest. he hesitated before speaking, rolling on the balls of his feet. "i-i wanted to let you know that-" she cut him off, "spit it out tyler." she spat, getting impatient. "i have a song coming out tomorrow...and uh, its about you. us. everything." and the way her said 'everything' was shot to her gut, she took a large breathe of air in, and shook her head. "well good for you tyler." she huffed, before turning around and walking off towards the washroom.

it was later on in the evening when she say in trevor's car waiting for him to come out after media and post game stuff, her thoughts began to run wild. she had quickly texted her manager, to see if she knew about this; and she had. her team thought it would be best to not say anything just yet, but that proved to be the wrong choice because of how angry daisy was. why was he releasing something over a year and a half later? but she knew why. some ego or selfish feeling had washed over her as soon as he had said those words. he would be releasing music before she would be. she hadn't released anything since she headlined the weekend her and trevor had met, nothing had come to fruition. she didn't like anything, no she abhorred everything. and that made daisy the perfectionist angry, beyond livid. she knew that she'd have to hit the studio at some point, and knew she'd have to do some writing this week to get to that point. but she knew that he was doing it because one, his ego could not handle not putting anything out and two, he wanted to attack her name and who she was. make it seem like it was her fault, she knew that much.

her thinking was cut short when trevor opened the door and hopped in, leaning over quickly to kiss daisy. she leaned into it, before pulling away and buckling. "good job hun, you did so good!" she gushed, her subdued energy only glinting for a few seconds. trevor noticed...because he noticed everything about her. he looked over as he turned on the car, feeling wary. "you ok, z?" he questioned softly, turning towards her completely. she nodded giving him a tight-lipped smile, "yes, why wouldn't i be?" she hummed taking ahold of his hand that laid open between them, on the console. he knew not to push her tonight, so he nodded and gave her hand a quick kiss before driving off.

❅

the next morning she was up and out of the door, barging in on her producer whom she had trusted her first single and ep with, in the midst of listening to tyler's new single. she was fuming when she barged in to see her producer who at this point, was pretty much an uncle figure to her. "miss daisy, what can i do for you hun?" he questioned, pulling her into a hug. "i have so many ideas, i just need to get them onto paper. somehow." she said pulling away to sit on the couch. he nodded, sitting back down and crossing a leg over his other. "what sound are you going for?" he questioned, remembering that she had wanted to change her style just a bit the last time they spoke. "i-i." she shook her head, "we'll get to that. but i already called abbi and maya to come to help write." she said throwing her hair up in a bun, and he nodded. "alright, lets do this thing." he grinned, pulling out a pen and paper and daisy began to explain what she had been thinking and feeling recently.

christmas isn't canceled (Just You) was born into fruition that day, and it was different. it was very much different than her previous music, but she adored it. she headed home that day with a huge smile on her face, ready to play it for trevor. but trevor wasn't too thrilled about it. as soon as she walked in, he looked up from the couch but did not say anything. "hi! you wouldn't believe what we did at the studio today! i nee-" she stopped speaking when she had rounded the couch, and saw what was on the tv. tyler's song. she sighed, turning towards trevor. "i-i didn't know i promise! i found out last night at the game, my team didn't tell me or els-" he cut her off, "or what? what would you have done daisy?! he practically confessed his love for you and how no matter what he'll love you, no matter what you did, and that he'd drop everything for you. i thought he hated you? isn't that what you said to me the night we met? how your egotistical ex was a douchebag who only cared about his career and hated that you were apparently a fame whore, huh? honestly, i don't know what to believe anymore, z." he said standing up now and beginning to walk into the kitchen.

she blinked back tears, "trev, stop. wait!" she said called after him before following him. he turned around, "you know everything trevor, everything. i promise, what i said was true. he is doing it to spin this onto me, so he gets good press. because again, the girl is always the issue. you need to trust me that what he wrote and put out doesn't matter to me, only you and i. i would never, and you know this- i would never go back to him for any reason. he's doing it to get a rise out of me." she pleaded, no begging for him to believe her. she softly pressed her hands to his cheeks, pulling his face down just a bit to look at her. "you know me, you know my heart trevor. you know that it's all yours, my whole being." she said softly, as tears pricked at her blue eyes. oh, how he loved those eyes.

he sighed, before shutting his eyes, "i don't want you at the game tomorrow. i need some space." he annouced before heading upstairs. her hands stayed where they were in mid-air, before bringing them back down to her chest, and letting out a silent and violent sob. she sobbed for a few minutes, before sniffling through anger and despair- and knew exactly where she needed to go. she slammed the garage door, hopping into her car and pulling out of the garage. she drove for about 20 minutes to laguna beach, as if it was second nature to her. she parked in front of the small beach house and shut her door, walking up towards the door. she banged on it a few times, sighing as the person on the other side took forever. "you!" she said pointing a finger at his chest, and taking three steps inside before shutting the door behind her. he held up his hands in innocence, but that only made her more pissed off.

"youre so sick and twister tyler, you know that? you are harming a healthy fucking relationship for what? harming my image, with a fake song! what-what tyler?!" she yelled at the country singer, and he only shook his head as if she was dumb. "what?!" she screamed, and he looked at her deeply. "you already know that answer, daze." and the way the nickname rolled off his tongue made her heart swell, again. she shook her head, "no. you made your choice, you get to live with that. forever." she said holding her ground. "despite what you think and thought of me, i thought you were a better person than that. i thought your mama raised you better than that!" she said, anger flowing through her at a rapid pace. he chuckled, "and we also know that you wouldn't be over here if you too didn't feel the same way about things, and me." he teased, a coy smile forming. she rolled her eyes, "god you are such a dick! why can't you have a simple conversation before accusing me of the only thing you think you know about me? im still the same person tyler, think a little or can your pea size brain not comprehend that?" she quipped, ready to open the door but he shut if with one hand above her head. "if you walk out that door, there's never going to be an 'us' ever again, there's never going to be a future where we can even be friendly." he threatened, and she hated him for it. "why would i want to be friendly with you, when you've dragged my name through the mud, huh?" she questioned, without looking back at him. "because you'll need a friend when your hot shot of a boyfriend breaks up with you." and she turned towards him. "excuse me?" she spat, and he chuckled. "maybe ask your boyfriend what he did while you were away over the summer, in europe. ask what he did when he was at the boots n barbecue (idk) festival." he announced, and she swallowed heart. "what?" she asked, barely above a whisper.

"your superstar boyfriend cheated on you daisy. and say what you want about me as a boyfriend or person but i would never cheat on you or anybody. you know that much, daze." he said, as he watched her think. she waved her hand, "you're lying. he'd never." she said barely above a whisper, again. but the look that he was giving her, she knew. she knew he wasn't lying and that he'd never lie about such a thing. she swallowed, "i-i have to go." she said turning back towards the door and opening it, "its true. i wasn't lying when i said if you walk out that door, they'll never be an us or any friendliness from me." he announced, a glint of hope coursing through his veins.

she looked at the ground and sighed, before shutting the door behind her. god, she hated herself. and how much she still loved him.

"now give me your coat." he hummed, taking two steps forward into her space and began to pull it off himself. "oh, valentino. nice." he grinned through soft words. he pushed the coat off, still staring down at the girl. goosebumps washed over daisy, as his gaze poured into her eyes. his blue eyes matching hers, perfectly. he grinned, leaning closer stopping just before her lips, and then moved his lips towards her right ear. "still the same perfume as always?" he whispered, exactly where it was the most dominant behind her ear. maison francis rouge, 540. the exact one he had gifted to her for christmas before he broke up with her. amber, woodsy and floral just like her, he had always said. even coming up with three different songs for her. he placed a soft kiss underneath her ear, and she felt herself instantly place her hand in his semi-medium dark brunette locks, and he chuckled. "tyler..." she said in a whisper, as he did it again but on the other side. "come on darlin..." he hummed, as he pulled her towards the bedroom.

❅

the morning of december 17th, she felt arms around her waist in a bedroom that looked exactly the same as the time it did when they broke up. he hadn't wanted to change anything, because she had been the one to decorate it. she heard her phone ring with a call from somebody. "turn it off." tyler groaned, his face in her neck. she scooted over and felt dread wash over her, as she saw trevors contact. "he'll think something is up, if i don't answer." she said sitting up to take it. "hi t-" he cut her off, "where are you right now?" he asked without hesitation. "what?" she asked growing nervous, looking down at tyler who's head perked up at her question. "where are you daisy? and don't lie to me." he said pacing on the other end, "come on trevor. what are you trying to get at?" she questioned, rubbing her eyes. "are you with him? are you?" he questioned, looking up at his parents who had dropped in early for the holidays. trevor had been suspicious lately of how much time she was spending at the studio, she'd never spent so much time in all of their relationship. but a tip from jamie from abbi her best friend, had him worried. "oh come on trevor, you know im at the studio. im trying to get a single out before christmas." she said looking in front of her. he shook his head, "just-just please come home. that's all i ask." trevor said vulnerable, and she swallowed. "ill be there soon." she hummed before hanging up. she hadn't said home, trevor thought as she did so.

"I have to go." she said throwing the covers off and throwing on her underwear from before, and tyler objected. "no, don't gooo." and she rolled her eyes. "i knew this whole thing was a mistake." she said walking over towards her black dress from the night before, putting on her bra in the process. "then are you gonna tell him that you know? that you know what he did?" tyler said getting up, and putting on his boxers. she had trouble zipping up her dress, and tyler swooped in and she instantly felt electricity run up her spine. she shrugged it off and continued to walk out the door. "daze, you have to tell him." he said as he followed her downstairs. "tyler." she said his name in a way he hated it because he knew her answer. "come on daisy!" he yelled out, and she turned around to him giggling. "you only want me to tell him so you can have me again, so i can be all yours. well you know what, what if i don't want to be yours, again?" she quipped sliding on her light trench coat. he shook his head, "you're lying daze. i know when you're lying." he chuckled. "so what?! you think me telling him about us, this - right after i tell him i know about him and what he did, that he isn't going to be any less mad about it?" she spat, stepping into her heels.

"are you gonna stay with him, if he chooses to not leave you ofcourse." he countered and she giggled. "whatever i decide, ill text you." she said sarcastically before walking out into the garage and into her car. tyler watched from doorway before heading back inside.

❅

she shut the garage door behind her, her black boots she threw on in the car clunked on the marble floor. she sighed hearing voices from the kitchen, and she made her descent towards the stairs. she had made it into the bedroom, when she heard footsteps after her. she turned around to trevor who took in her little black dress, a black oversized jacket she had also thrown on in the car. he crossed his arms, not saying a word. he just stared at her. "tyler you're making me uncomfortable." she said turning around and heading towards her closet, to grab some change of clothes. he walked in behind her, shutting the door as well. "ty-" she stopped herself when she saw the look he was sporting.

guilt, shame, anger, betrayal, and despair were all evident on his face.

"i cheated when you were in europe." he confessed, biting the inside of his cheek. she nodded softly, "i know." she said just above a whisper, and his eye's found hers. "what?" he questioned, eyebrows crinkling. "i know, i found out a few weeks ago." she said turning back around to take off her jacket. "who told you?" he questioned, and she shook her head. "it's not important." she hummed, shoving her boots off. "who daisy? who?" he said but he knew the answer, and as she turned around she saw the tears that had begun to form.

"him. right? because its always him." he hummed, putting a hand on his hip. "trevor-" he cut her off, "you've been seeing him haven't you?" he questioned. when she didn't answer, he knew the answer. "i don't know how i can be angry when i did the exact same thing but at least it was with a stranger and not fucking tyler!" he screamed the last part, now fuming. "oh fuck off trevor, if you could have done it with emma you would have!" she screamed back at him, and he laughed. a wicked laugh filled with slight amusement. "now you're gonna go on and on about emma, again are you?" he questioned, a slight amused look on his face. "me? you're going on and on about tyler! i think its warranted, if you're bringing up my ex all the time!" she shrieked, throwing her hands up. "at least she isn't out there writing songs about how the one got away! how the girl that i love, is busy with some 'past time'!" he said now throwing his hands up. "good god trevor, are you jealous? are you jealous of him, huh? because believe me i could bring up the fact that i saw you text emma a month after we got together, how do you think i felt? feeling less than and thinking that she was who you really wanted!" she said and he stood there shocked, "don't act surprised. jamie tried to play if off but i knew trevor. i fucking knew, and i still let you fool me! i allowed you to whisk me away that summer and fool me into believing that you liked me and that i was the one for you. but you going on and cheating on me in fucking public, might i add- really shows how you really feel huh?" she spat, taking a moment to breathe.

"i get i get that you are upset with me, i get that you feel betrayed. i get that you don't like tyler, i get that what tyler did was shitty. believe me, I've already given him earfuls. but-but you cant expect me not to get upset about you texting her and then doing what you did this summer. we both fucked up. we need to be civilized adults and move on trevor." she finished, sniffling. he tilted his head just a bit, his lips turning inward. "ill have my stuff out by the end of the game tomorrow, trevor." she said turning back around, and throwing a bag of clothes together. she began to walk out of the closet before looking back at trevor, "i hope you know that song i wrote in july. that- that was everything i felt and more, i meant that song trevor. don't forget that." she said softly before walking out.

out of his life forever.

❅

she smiled softly, as she took pictures for her holiday ep. ᴄʜʀɪꜱᴛᴍᴀꜱ ꜱᴏɴɢꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛʙʀᴇᴀᴋ. (which would without question, go #1 on the country charts and pop) today was the 22nd, and somehow she had written and recorded the few songs to put out the very next day.

the track list went: mine, river, christmas isn't canceled (Just You) and my grown up christmas wish. (mine and canceled is by kelly clarkson) abbi her best friend took ahold of her best friends hand as they exited the studio together, as tyler continued to text her. he hadn't heard from her as she left that day. she never did tell him of the inevitable breakup.

"you know as much as tyler is an ass and has made some questionable choices recently and despite what he said when yall broke up..i know you still love him daisy. i know that even while you were with trevor, you were hoping for a way out - the whole time." abbi said as they got into the car. daisy sighed as she put her hands on the wheel. "yeah thankyou for reminding me." she said monotoned, and abbi giggled. "seriously, as much as i loved you with trevor and how much he brought out a different side of you, we both know and so does the world that tyler brought way more out of you. the better side of you. yall were each others first love for christ's sake." abbi said wiggling her eyebrows. daisy rolled her eyes, before pulling out into downtown la traffic. "alright alright abbi, thanks for the talk." she hummed, pressing tyler's contact name on the screen in front of her.

❅

her and tyler walked into the popular breakfast place, christmas morning. the two decided to spend christmas together, just the two of them. frankly, because tyler hadn't booked a flight home to dallas in time. they held each others hand before Tyler let her walk in front of him towards the booth. she slid in across from him, and smiled. the two had decided they didn't want to hide their relationship from the world anymore, and though it might look messy from the outside- they were prepared to set the record straight. again, even if it was messy. he took ahold of her hand, smiling like the cheshire cats- the both of them.

trevor noticed the two walk in as soon as they had, as he was sipping his cappuccino from the table with his family. he swallowed hard, watching as the two sat down smiling like fools. even if it stung trevor, it didn't hurt as much as he thought it would. he knew deep down that her and tyler were the one's for each other- he'd just been a stop on her way back to him.

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[parkerrogersgirl]

Birds of a Feather- Chapter 2

Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Reader

Summary: you're stationed at Top Gun with your brother's long time best friend/your forever crush, Bradley. When you finally realized that your feelings were unrequited, you settled for Adrian. But what happens when Rooster reveals the truth about the man you thought loved you endlessly?

A/N: HI GUYS! I'M BACK!! This is my new series because i am an absolute hoe for Rooster, so I'm gifting this to all of you. I will be coming back to Anything But Free as well, I just needed to get this out of my head. I promise I will try to make the other chapters longer!

Warnings: fluff, pining, cheating, language, angst

Word Count: 2,617

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Rooster’s POV

Rooster hadn’t slept for more than an hour. When he finally did fall asleep around 4am, all he did was dream of you. By the time he woke, he had resolved that today, he would tell you everything. There was the possibility of losing you, sure. But even that was better than watching a cheating pig like Adrian use you over and over again. He got dressed into his running clothes so he could at least jog to your house to plan what he was going to say. As he stepped outside, locked his door, and began running, the intrusive thoughts returned.

There was no easy way to tell you that the man you’d loved for so long couldn’t care less about your feelings. The man you’d given so much, and from whom you’d received nothing in return. The man who broke your heart over and over again while Rooster picked up the pieces and put you back together. His brain was so full of thoughts and anxiety, he hadn’t even realized he was at your door.

Reader’s POV

As soon as you open your front door, Rooster envelopes you in one of his famous Bradshaw hugs. The moment his arms are around you, something inside you snaps and the dam breaks. You start sobbing, and Rooster picks you up and carries you to the kitchen. He sets you on the counter, staring at you.

“Are you- Do I smell biscuits and gravy?”

You laugh through your tears, “I made it for Adrian since it’s our anniversary but he won’t be home for breakfast. I was going to bring it to work for you.”

Rooster shakes his head, laughing with you, “you’re the best. And I will eat it later if you still want me to. But right now, I have to talk to you before I chicken out.”

He stands in front of you, taking your hands in his. “What I’m about to tell you is a big deal. If you never want to see me again because I’m the one telling you, I’m okay with that. I just couldn’t forgive myself if I let this go on any longer.”

You watch him cautiously, cocking an eyebrow, “Bradley, you’re freaking me out.”

He takes a deep breath and lets out in one breath, “Adrian is cheating on you.”

“He’s what?” You let out a nervous laugh, unsure of how else to react, “what are you talking about?”

“Like eight months ago, remember when you had pneumonia and you wouldn’t let anyone come over because you didn’t want them to get sick? You were upset because Adrian said he was working or some shit and he wouldn’t bring you soup. Well, he wasn’t sick. He was at the Hard Deck.”

Your heart sinks like it did earlier when you received Adrian’s text, “why would he lie to me about that? He could have just told me.”

“He lied because he didn’t want you to know he was there. He was there with another woman. I caught them fucking in the bathroom. He saw me and told me that you’d never believe me. And if you did, you would never trust me again because I ruined your relationship.”

You sit in silence for a few minutes, staring at your shoes and avoiding your best friend’s gaze. After a few minutes, he speaks up again.

“Do you want me to leave?”

“No.”

“Do you want to stay here?”

“Where else am I gonna go, Roo?” You finally make eye contact with him, his eyes pleading with yours.

“You can stay with me. I’ll help you move your stuff, we can carpool to work, it’ll be great.”

You feel warmth in your cheeks, but your smile falters almost immediately, “Why would he do this to me? Do I deserve this?”

Bradley wraps you in his arms again, kissing your forehead like he always does, “of course not, sweet girl. You only deserve happiness. He did this because he is spineless, and he doesn’t understand how wonderful you are. You are sunshine. When you walk in the room, everyone smiles. Adrian is selfish. You deserve someone who will take care of you.” Someone like me, his inner voice chimes in.

You take a deep breath to steel your nerves, “we should get ready for work.”

“I already called Mav and explained everything. We’re off the hook for today. He told me to take care of you. So, what do you want to do?”

“I think I need to leave him, Roo. I’m so tired. All this time he’s just been tolerating everything I do for him. I can’t do this anymore. This is the end.”

He squeezes you tightly one last time, “I’m gonna call a moving truck and have them come meet us here while we start packing your stuff. You’re gonna stay with me. It’s gonna be great.” Rooster picks up his phone and heads into the other room, making arrangements. You slowly slide off the counter and walk around the home you shared with the man you thought would be your endgame. You run your fingers along the walls, looking at the photos you’ve taken together. With Rooster’s bombshell, you’re noticing new details. How Adrian’s smile never really reached his eyes. How, on the few times he put his arm around you, it was possessive, like he was holding you in place. On the other end of the spectrum, there were photos where you were leaning on him, and he wasn’t returning the affection at all. He was simply supporting your weight.

When you reach your bedroom, you grab your suitcase set from under your bed. It was a gift from Adrian for your one-year anniversary when you’d made plans to go to Cabo together. A trip that had never happened because he’d “had to work.” Now, you wondered how many times he’d used that excuse on the phone with you with another woman’s tongue down his throat.

You went to your closet and started mindlessly packing your clothes into your suitcase, dissociating from the activity. Every so often, you find a t-shirt or hoodie of Adrian’s in the mix of your stuff, and you carefully fold it and put it on his side of the bed. You know with every fiber of your being that if you allowed any part of Adrian to slip through the cracks, you would forgive everything he had put you through.

You don’t know how long it’s been when Rooster puts a hand on your shoulder, making you jump.

“Sorry! I just wanted to tell you movers will be here soon. They’ll bring boxes for everything and pack it really carefully and bring it to my house. When we finish packing your clothes, we can get lunch and drive to my- our house.” He gives you a sweet smile before helping you continue to pack. When you fill up your largest suitcase, you move onto your smaller suitcases and pack your lighter clothes and accessories in them. Periodically, Rooster will hold up an article of your clothing and ask if you think he can pull it off, earning a small smile from you. Otherwise, you work in silence, both of you unable to fill the void that you feel in your heart. Eventually, the movers arrive and Rooster lets them in and explains the situation, then returns to finish helping you.

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Rooster’s POV

He’s helping you pack your last few items, when suddenly you speak up.

“Roo… Why are you helping me?”

Because I love you! His inner monologue screams. He bites his lip, continuing to fold your clothes.

“Because you’re my best friend. I care about you. Because I should have told you sooner. And… because it’s what my dad would’ve done.”

“Oh… Well why did you think I wouldn’t forgive you for telling me?”

Rooster takes a deep breath, putting your last pair of pants in your suitcase. “Adrian… He got in my head. He told me that if I told you what was going on, you would blame me for your relationship ending.”

You bite your lip, letting a nervous laugh slip out as you look around the bedroom which was now devoid of your belongings.

“Bradley… You realize that’s silly, right? He’s the reason the relationship is ending. He cheated. He just can’t handle taking the blame for something for once in his fucking life. He knows you’re too good to not tell me, so he manipulated you. That’s what he-” The sound of a car door closing cuts you off, and you look at your best friend with wide eyes.

“It’s okay, we have all of your stuff and the movers are gonna finish up. We can go. You don’t have to say anything to him.” He takes all of your suitcases in his hands with ease, and you follow him to the staircase.

“Baby? Are you here?” You hear your now-ex call from the foyer.

You shrink behind Bradley as you round the corner and begin your trek down the stairs.

“Y/N? What’s going on?”

“I-” Bradley shakes his head, turning slightly to give you a look.

“What the fuck does it look like, Adrian? She’s leaving you. You fucked up for the last time.”

Adrian scoffs, sending shivers up your spine, “yeah? And I suppose you’re gonna take care of her, big man? She’ll never forgive you. You did this.”

Bradley starts to say something, but you dodge around him and come face-to-face with the man you once loved.

“He didn’t do shit, Adrian. He didn’t cheat on me. He didn’t abandon me when I needed him most. He didn’t laugh at me with his friends. He didn’t ditch me on anniversaries, birthdays, when I was sick, just to fuck someone else. Bradley is the only one in this house who cares about me. The only thing he did was spare me from thinking you were my forever. Fuck you, and fuck everything I ever let you put me through.” Holding back tears, you pull out your favorite photo of the two of you, from your very first date at the Santa Monica Pier. You rip it into pieces while maintaining eye contact with him, then drop it to the floor.

You walk out of your house and hop in the passenger’s seat of Rooster’s car, and the dam breaks. Every emotion you’ve felt today comes pouring out, and you start sobbing. The loss of everything you thought you had comes crashing down, and you struggle to breathe between your sobs. You hear Bradley close the tailgate after loading your stuff, but your body won’t let the tears stop. He opens his door and when he sees your current state, his face falls.

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Rooster’s POV

“It’s okay, sweet girl. He can’t hurt you anymore. He can’t touch you. I won’t let him get near you ever again.” He continues whispering sweet nothings against your hair until he’s sure you’ve stopped crying. He drives you to his house with a determination you’ve never seen before and gets there in record time.

He steps out of the car and comes around to let you out, scooping you up in his arms and carrying you inside. He takes you up the stairs and sets you in his large master bathroom. He scuttles around, grabbing various bath products and towels, then turns on his bathtub faucet.

“Take a bath, take some deep breaths. I’ll get your clothes and some pajamas. Do you want to sleep in the guest room or my bedroom? I can sleep in the guest room if you want my bed, it’s more comfortable honestly.”

He can see the gears turning in your head as you weigh your options, then meets your gaze when your head moves up to look at him. “Can I sleep in your bed with you? I just want to cuddle… It’s okay if not I don’t want to bother you, I don’t want to make you uncomfortable I just don’t want to be alone and you’re my best friend-”

He cuts you off with a hug, and all he can think is that he’s screwed. Completely, totally screwed.

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Reader’s POV

Bradley’s quiet for a moment as he holds you, and all you can think is that you should have never overstepped. You know immediately you fucked up by asking him that, and nothing would ever be the same again.

He steps back with his hands on your shoulders, looking you directly in the eye again, “of course you can. It won’t bother me, it won’t make me uncomfortable. I know you need affection, and I’m your best friend. I’ll always be here for you. Now, I’m gonna go get your stuff, I’ll leave you some pajamas outside the door. Take your time and just breathe.”

You nod and thank him before stripping and slowly sinking into the tub, almost moaning at how surreal the water feels on your skin. Your mind wanders to when you were living with Adrian and how he never wanted you to take baths because it was time spent away from him. You couldn’t go out with friends, you couldn’t go on walks without him suspecting something was going on. He truly did trap you into thinking you were safe with him.

You shake off the thoughts of your ex and sink deeper into the water, letting your mind roam to thoughts of your best friend. He had done so much for you, and you had no idea how you would ever repay him. You’d had feelings for him years ago, and having him take care of you now was making those feelings resurface. It had been so long since someone had genuinely cared about you, listened to you, or made you feel appreciated. And here Bradley was, doing all those things like he always did. Ever since you had started dating Adrian, you could see that Bradley was concerned. You’d thought it was just a friendly kind of concern, but now you suspected it was more than that. Could this be the catalyst you needed to finally be with someone who showed you he cared about you every day? Could you confess your feelings without Bradley thinking it was an impulsive decision based on your current situation?

As you wash up and finish your bath, you resolve to tell Bradley in the morning when you were clear headed. Tonight, you would just bask in the affection and the knowledge that despite Adrian’s best efforts, you did have someone in your life that cherished you. And that was what mattered.

You get up and dry off, then turn to see your pajamas on the counter, along with a pair of underwear. Your eyes widen, embarrassed that he went through your underwear, until you realize that if the clothes are in the bathroom, that means he saw you in the bathtub. You blush at the thought of him seeing you naked but regretting you didn’t get to see his face. Did he linger to watch you? To appreciate you? You shake off the intrusive thoughts and get dressed before leaving the bathroom to see Bradley laying in his bed in shorts with no shirt. He extends his arms to invite you in, and you don’t waste a moment climbing into bed and snuggling up to him. He rolls the both of you onto your sides, still holding you close.

“Is this okay?” He asks softly into your hair, and you feel him start to stroke your arm.

“It’s perfect,” you mumble back, his touch lulling you into the first peaceful sleep you’ve had in months.

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[aiyexayen]

while im gathering the energy to continue our amazing discussion: i would love to hear of what youre currently working on!! also please i dont have anything against long answers idc about how winding it is how much ull end up rambling just share smth ure currently working on and that sparks ur passion if there is smth like that! <3

oh gosh! what am i working on? my energy is very scattered lately due to Health and Adult Bullshit but my brain is definitely still churning. let's see.

i wish i could say i was working on more word of honor stuff actively but tbh my brain is taking a vacation in stardew valley lately so apart from a few word of honor meme bits i'm picking away at, a lot of my creative output is elsewhere.

one of my current writing projects is a sdv au where The Farmer (player character) never takes over The Farm, and instead one of the other characters in town ends up buying it and moving in to get out of his shitty situation, and then he ends up getting close to another character and, you know. sparks. drama. gay. because as fun as self-insert stuff is in an inherently self-insert game, i am always jumping on random ship trains and rarepairs. (this one is sebastian/shane)

unsure if i'll ever post it or if it'll just be something i play with for awhile but it's been a fun idea to spin while i play the game myself and watch speedrunners and vibe.

i'm also spending some creative energy poking away at mods for said stardew valley. the pc version has a robust modding community and i've made a couple surface level visual mods before. lately i've been toying with the idea of a more in-depth character overhaul mod i'd be co-writing with someone, and we'll see if that goes anywhere. lots of story reworking to hash out and coding to learn if so.

oh! i do have a word of honor fic i'm very passionate about but have yet to put pen to page beyond writing the outline. it's a sequel to my fic everything that you're not supposed to do, which is about liu qianqiao joining tian chuang under zhou zishu's leadership close to the beginning of it, and the years she spent there with him and han ying. it's one of my favourite fics of mine and i want the sequel So Bad, i'm excited for it and the themes i'm going to explore in it. wen kexing finally gets to make an appearance, and liu qianqiao and han ying both get to figure out exactly who they want to be in the wake of tian chuang / zhou zishu being their everything. it's a lot about self-discovery and healing and fucked up gay shit. probably less about poisons than the first one but i'm sure we'll work something out.

[a few days later]

okay so i started writing this answer, and got distracted reading my outline of that very wip, and started writing on it, and now have most of a scene hashed out, and also i forgot to come back and hit send on this post.

so. i guess i'm a liar and i am in fact working on this story now too 😂

~proof~

[babeczka415]

Die for me - Part 3

Final Part

Six months… six months since I walked away from Jake. I only went back to get the rest of my stuff. I found an apartment which was perfect for just me.

Thankfully noone from the group picked sides when we ended things. I swear they still think we will get back together but I can't say we will. I do miss him a ton, everything about him honestly. I've tried dating but nothing more than two or three dates and then I end it. 

Hannah and Thomas are having a baby and today is the gender reveal party at the Aurora. After asking Hannah a million questions I'm pretty certain it's a girl so I grab my short fit and flair dress that's a soft mauve pink. It's a little chilly this fall afternoon so I threw on my boots and a leather jacket.

Jessy and Dan pick me up because honestly knowing Jake will be there I would chicken out. Especially because I know he's been seeing someone because of Lilly. She tells me it's nothing serious but she's meeting the whole gang tonight, me included and my heart breaks.

There's a knock on the door and it's Jessy. Dan is waiting in the car, so I grab my purse and present and we head over there. 

The parking lot is pretty much full with everyone there and I see Jake and his new girl walking in. Dan sees my mood get worse and has Jessy go in. We stand outside for a moment while I catch my breath.

"Dan, how am I going to handle this? She's gorgeous,``I feel the tears forming but I have to stop them.

"Hey it's his loss. Honestly we're all hoping she's just a space filler for now. Also I didn't tell you this but he's asked about you to everyone."

I look at him, "really?" I ask uncertain if I still want to face him.

"Plus your way prettier than her and a better fit for the gang" he says with a chuckle.

"Dan, you don't even know her!" I laugh as he hugs me.

"Nah but no one will be a better fit then you for that hackerman."

"Thanks Dan" I say with a smile as we walk inside.

I put my gift down and go up to Hannah and Thomas and I give them both hugs.

"Hey before you get much further we need to ask you something?" Says Hannah holding my hand.

"Anything you know I'm always here" I say with a smile.

"That's exactly why you want to ask you this. You've been there for us since you became just a random number and we would love for you to be this baby's godmother" she says with a smile.

"Of course '' I exclaim. "Now let's find out the gender so I can spoil them" I say with a laugh.

"Later we will find out, don't worry" she says.

I see Thomas is hiding something, "who is the godfather?" I ask unsure if I want the answer.

"I am why?" I hear Jake walk up and his new girl is attached to him.

"I guess you and me are always going to be apart of each other lives then" I say as my smile fades away.

"Hi, im Ava" says the girl as she puts her hand out.

"Hi, I'm MC" I say as I walk past them.

"What's her problem?" She asks.

"Let me go find out" I hear Jake.

I'm sitting at the bar with a whiskey neat and I see someone sit down. I expect Thomas until I turn to say something and see him. I can't even  think of anything to say so I just take a drink.

"Really MC? You can't be nice to her?" He asks.

I sigh "what I said Hi, I'm MC. I'm sorry but that's as nice as you're gonna get from me. If it wasn't for Hannah begging me to come even though you were gonna be here I wouldn't have." I say turning towards him.

He's looking right at me and I see those blue eyes staring back at me. "I'm trying to move on since I thought we were the end game" he says.

"Yeah I thought so too but guess not. How long have you known her?" I ask, looking towards her.

"Two months. I don't know why I even brought her today." There's a pause and I look at him those blue eyes are still holding love as he looks at me. "Wait, I know why. I thought you would have a plus one."

"Well I don't. Nothing more than three dates since I walked out of that house. Tons of guys try but none have stuck yet I guess." I say taking a drink.

"MC" he says and she comes walking up.

"Lets go get some food and introduce me to everyone" she says, taking his hand.

"Jake, I'm sorry" I say before she pulls him away.

I watch them for a bit before some music comes on and Dan comes up to me "I was right. I don't like her."

"She's not a forever thing for him. I can tell you that." I say taking a drink.

"So there is a chance for the best couple to get back together." He has that smirk about him.

I sigh because I guess it's obvious today. "Okay yes I miss him. I miss everything about him. Why do you think I can't date anymore?"

"Because you guys are meant to be. Let me get her away from him and I'll get Phil to play your guy's song."

As he gets up I grab his hand "no he looks happy right now" I say with a sigh.

"You didn't see how he was looking at you when you guys were talking before. He's still in love with you" he leaves and goes to Phil at the end of the bar. I see him grab a beer and a whiskey after a few minutes and I see him walk up to Jake and Ava. He gets her to take the beer and pulls her away from him slowly. 

Jake stands there talking to Thomas and then "When You Say Nothing at All" by Alison Krauss starts to play. I look at Phil and shake my head. As I turn around I see Jake walking up to me.

"Did you have something to do with this?" He has that smirk that melts my heart.

"No it was all Dan I swear" I say as I feel myself blushing.

"Well we shouldn't let this song go to waste" he puts his hand out.

"What will Ava think?" I say.

"I honestly don't care. After this is over I'm done with her. I have only room for one person in my heart and I want her back."  He takes my hand and pulls me onto the dance floor.

He pulls me close and I smell him for the first time all day. As we dance I get lost in his  blue eyes that are just filled with love.. I remember when we first danced to this song and the fact it was going to be our first dance at the wedding. I am the only person that can get this man to listen to anything country, yet alone dance to it. The song comes to an end and he dips me down. As he pulls me back up my heart feels like it's in my throat and I'm lost in the moment.I feel a hand tap my shoulder that brings me back to the party. "Um he's mine '' I hear Ava say.

I sigh and let go, he has no idea how hard he just made it for me. "Sorry he asked since it was our song" I said looking at her then walk away.

"MC please don't walk away" I hear him plead.

I stop in my tracks but don't turn around. I want him just as much as I hear his want for me in his voice but he brought a plus one. Dan and Jessy sees the struggle on my face and know what's happening now. I see the smile on Jessy's face but I walk outside for some fresh air.

I sit down at the patio tables needing this fresh air. Until I hear the door swing open, "NO YOU SHOULD'VE TOLD ME!" I hear Ava yell. 

I sigh because I needed a moment to think and here they come.

"Ava, I didn't know she was going to be here but you know what I shouldn't have brought you. I should have ended what this was before it even started but I was trying to move on" his voice is calm.

He was never one to yell at a woman even when she's in his face yelling like she is. She storms away " I'm calling a cab. Go have your fun but I won't answer if you call me."

He looks at me but walks back inside. She turns around and sees me. She sits down as she calls for a cab but doesn't say anything to me at first.

I tilt my head back against the wall and close my eyes trying to just refocus why I'm here until I hear her voice say my name.

"MC right?" She asks.

I look at her "Yes. I just want to let you know I never planned for that to happen. I'm not sure what he told you about me but we have a history."

"Yeah he told me you are his ex-fiance. I should've known you would be here and I couldn't win his heart fully if you were still around." She sighs, putting her head in her hands.

"He's a lot to handle, believe me I know. Also I'm sorry you didn't get a true chance with him." I say as the door opens and it's Jessy.

"They are revealing the gender" she says casually.

"You should join us. At least get some more food before you leave." I say trying to be nice.

"Honestly if I see the way he looks at you one more time I'll lose it. The moment you walked in the door, I knew there was history and I had no chance" she says pulling her phone out.

I stand up and fix my dress "okay no problem" I head inside. I think about what she said with him looking at me. As I walk in he looks at me and I swear I stop breathing. He comes up to me but I walk away from him to where everyone else is and they have the cake getting ready to cut it. I stand next to Jessy and I feel a hand wrap around me, I look and see him looking at me. I smack his chest gently and point at the cake. He understands and we watch.

As they pull the cake out I see blue filling and while I'm happy for them I wish it was a girl. I go to pull away but he pulls me close, spinning me around. 

He whispers in my ear, " tell me this feeling is mutual still." I melt in his arms and I feel the smile on my skin.

I feel Jessy come up and push a piece of cake between us and says softly "not the place you two."

He pulls away and looks into my eyes "it's so mutual but she's right" I say moving away.

I go to get a piece and Hannah pulls it away from me "what's going on between you and Jake?" She asks.

"I guess we're getting back together" I say, trying to contain my excitement.

"I knew you two wouldn't stay away from eachother long" she chuckles.

"Seriously if you hadn't forced me here it would of been longer but you know I can't say no to this." I grab the cake from her hand and feel arms around me again. 

This time the arms are fully around my waist. He isn't even trying to hide his feelings if Ava does walk in. I take a bite of the cake and i see his head on my shoulder and I give him a piece from mine.

"So what's his name going to be?" I hear Jake ask.

"We're still unsure as of now" says Thomas.

"Well he will be loved and spoiled by Jake and I" I say with a smile.

Jake pulls me away and into Phils office.  He pins me against the door and leans into kiss me. My lips meet his and it's passionate and rough. I manage to pull away and look into his eyes. He knows he has me melted as he leans in to kiss me more and there is a knock on the door.

"Out of my office you two!" Yells Phil

I giggle like teenagers getting caught and I whisper in his ear, "come home with me.

[eclipsefangirl]

Day time came and the Ninjalinos woke up from their night’s sleep and they knew they can’t go wondering around in broad daylight because they don’t want people taking pictures of them and then they go on the news, papers etc so they stayed hidden at the campsite

As they stayed hidden the Ninjalinos saw the PJ Masks walking to school and they were scared that they were going to see them, the Ninjalinos kept quiet as they watched the PJ Masks enter the school, they heard them talk about their math test they are doing that day, Greg was very unsure because he hadn’t been paying much attention in past math classes but Connor reassured him he’s gonna do great. “You’ll do great Greg, just take it easy and you’ll do fine!” Said Connor with a reassuring smile. “Connor’s right, now let’s go do the math test!” Said Amaya

When they got to the classroom the math test papers were at their desks ready, the PJ Masks took off their bags, got out their pencils and rubbers, sat down and placed their bags underneath their desk. “Alright class, you have 1 hour to complete this test, take your time, read the questions carefully and when you’re done place your test papers in this done box on my desk. Okay good luck and you may begin!” Said Teacher

The test had started and the class began their test, Cameron was sure he’ll pass but as soon as he had done the first page the questions got harder, much to his dismay. Greg had done pages 1,2,3,4 and 5 but page 6 was hard, he sweated and started to panic so he took a deep breath, read the question and before he knew it page 6 was complete, Greg smiled and was pleased with himself

When the 1 hour time was up the class put their test papers in the done box and then they went back to their desk, then Teacher said. “Well done everyone for doing that math test, now I’ll mark the work and I’ll tell you how you each of you did.”

The students waited and waited impatiently for their results but finally the teacher had finished marking he told each student how they did. “Ok, I have finished marking the tests and here are the results, Amaya….. you passed! Well done!”

Amaya was very happy she was very pleased with herself! “Yayyyy I passed!” She said and she and Connor did a high five. “Congratulations Amaya!” Said Connor

“Next, Connor….. well done you passed! Along with Sophie, David, Zoe, Zac, Lily, Ryan, Patrick and……. Greg! Well done all of you!” Said Teacher and the students were very happy, especially Greg! “See Greg, you did pass!” Said Amaya. “Yeah I did! That wasn’t so bad!” Then finally Teacher read Cameron’s results. “Now Cameron…… im sorry to say but…. you failed the test!” The class gasped and Cameron had a look of horror and disbelief!

“WHAT?! me?! FAILED?! NOOOOOOOOOO!” Cameron was devastated, he worked so hard and he failed, he hanged his head in shame. “Don’t be so downhearted Cameron, you can learn from your mistakes and you can take the test again, now it’s time for play!” The class went outside to play and a devastated Cameron sat on the bench with a teary look, he was so disappointed with himself, why did he fail? “i can’t believe it! i failed the test! it’s all my fault!”

The PJ Masks went over to him and sat next to him. “Cameron, we’re sorry you failed the test, but like Teacher said don’t feel downhearted, you can learn from your mistakes.” Said Amaya and gave Cameron a comforting smile. “*sighs* what’s the use? even if i do the test again I’ll fail, leave me alone.” Cameron got up and walked away. “Poor Cameron, he really is disappointed with himself.” Said Greg with concern

A few hours later home time came and parents came to collect their children from school, the PJ Masks headed home side by side

Back at the campsite the Ninjalinos stayed hidden and then when night came they took action, the grabbed their stuff and left the note for Night Ninja they wrote the previous night, they had enough of Night Ninja’s bossiness and all his anger and showing off so they went to the abandoned playground Marvin talked about

Daisy- “*in Ninjalinoese* come on guys, let’s go! Before anyone sees us, especially Night Ninja!” The Ninjalinos set off together and as they were on their way they saw the PJ Masks coming, they quickly hid behind a bush while the PJ Masks walked past, the hearts inside the Ninjalinos raced inside their chests as they were scared they were going to be spotted but they didn’t and continued on their way

Meanwhile Night Ninja was looking for his Ninjalinos when he saw a piece of paper at a campsite, he ran over and picked up, when he read it his eyes watered and widened in shock. “No….. they can’t…… no….. NINJALINOS! NOOOOO!….. where are you?……. i love you, i will find you….” Night Ninja’s heart ached with worry, all he wanted was to find his Ninjalinos, they are family to him and he loves them deeply, even though he does get angry with them he still cares for them

So Night Ninja searched the city for the Ninjalinos, he knew deep inside that he caused this mess, if he hadn’t been a show off or got so angry this wouldn’t have happened, his mind clouded with fear thoughts of never seeing his Ninjalinos ever again, it scared him so much he nearly tripped over his own feet

Meanwhile the Ninjalinos were on their way to the playground and then Marvin forgot about his mask, he didn’t know where it was! Luckily the Ninjalinos knew what he looked like unmasked but he was still afraid

Marvin- “*in Ninjalinoese* guys i don’t know where my mask is….. what can i do?” Then Daisy replied. “*in Ninjalinoese* don’t worry, I have another one in my bag, I’ll get it out for you when we get to the playground.” Marvin sighed in relief. When they got to the playground it was full of rusty swings, slides, roundabouts, climbing frames, monkey bars etc and the playground itself was very old, it closed a long time ago due to lack of money to replace rusty parts of the equipment

The Ninjalinos went in and they took shelter under a slide, it was a bit of a tight fit but they managed to get in, Daisy took out a mask and gave it to Marvin, he put it on and felt like himself again, the Ninjalinos felt free, happy, safe and well……. but it was cold.

Daisy- “in Ninjalinoese* Im glad we’re together here forever, Night Ninja will be very happy we’ve left him.”

But the Ninjalinos didn’t know they were wrong, Night Ninja was worried sick, he wanted to find them! “….. i….. will… find… you guys!”

No hate comments please, please be respectful and kind ❤️

[mashiee]

Arlo family lore plspls its beneficial to my health

OKAY SO

so i got another ask specifically about [REDACTED] so im gonna talk abt that in a separate ask

BUT i will tell u abt my ocs for arlos fam (almost exclusively on his dads/valeries side, havent thought abt mom much) and general stuff for them and their relationships w eachother and arlo specifically

OKAY SO

i gave Arlo four older siblings because why the hell not and i can (i will get to the parents later)

also while im thinking abt it, im unsure abt Arlo's last name but im thinking Kingston right now

OKAY ANYWAY

also i just wanna say that when made character names i usually just smash sound together until i find something i like and hope it isnt a slur in another language

so what im saying is none of the names have any relevance or importance i just like their sounds and how they look

the first oc is Mammi (pronounced like ma'am-ee)

hes the oldest of the five of them, as of current uno time hes 25

he/him

amab cismasc

haven't decided sexuality. probably gay bc im gay and i self project too much

anyway he currently works with the authorities and is in a relatively high ranking position

but surprise surprise hes a spy for [ERROR]

(a secret organization :) also has a whole Thing that would require a separate post. a lot of new characters and also some world building. plus it also kind of plays into my bod au/rei fic)

but unfortunately the authorities are all fucking idiots and no one would even think of suspecting him

Valeire is the only one who does (she basically Knows) bc their father (her brother) was against a lot of the things the authorities did

but she has absolutely no proof so she cant do anything :)

fun fact Mammi and the entirety of Arlo's sibling except for Arlo himself all Loathe Valerie

2 of them want her dead

one would actively make an attempt on her life themselves if they ever saw her again

pst psst Mammi is the former

anyway Mammi is Tall (TM)

atm his height is fluctuating between 6'5 and 6'6 bc i cant choose

i just think itd be hysterical if Arlo's entire family on his dad's side were all giants

speaking of that let me take this time to tell you that Arlo is the youngest in his family aside from his mom and Valerie because i thought it'd be really funny

bc Mammi is in the authorities he often wears a suit and let me tell you this man looks fine as hell

not all men can work a suit but this one can

i still havent drawn any of the siblings except for a bit of the next one so my visuals of them are all p vague and could absolutely change but as of now

Mammi has long straight blond hair that roughly reaches his waist

its usually in a low ponytail

he has gold eyes :)

not sure what i want his ability to be yet (obviously a shield variant but what exactly) or how powerful

now for the lovely sister of the family

so the next one is Luss (pronounced how it's spelled)

shes 24 :)

she/her pronouns trans woman

6'4

lesbian

a model who travels quite a lot

long curly hair and gold eyes

always wearing red lipstick

a bit mischievous

her ability is... well its honestly kind of useless on its own

she can make shields that are full orbs but theyre only about the size of a fist

she did find out that they hurt if u throw them at ppl tho, esp if u put stuff in them

not sure what level yet. maybe a flat 6.0 . or maybe even like a 5.9 if i wanna get angsty and make like her family disappointed in her for not being a god tier or smth

very caring about her family

very forgiving person to a fault

strongly believes in second chances

Luss is the closest to Mammi

but she doesn't really feel like she has anyone close to her

(which ends up being a huge bonding point between her and Arlo)

tries her best to keep their family together but it's pretty futile

tries to be optimistic and cheerful and such but it's all an act

would do anything for her family, especially her siblings

sees herself a lot in Arlo for what little she's seen of him

and then we have the twins

as stated above, theyre twins

the older one is Sade, and Kallo is idk like two mins younger or smth

theyre both 21

Sade uses they/them pronouns and is nonbinary

Kallo uses he/they and like. he knows he's masculine but he isnt like a man or male

hes keeping his gender unlabeled but sometimes says its homeboy bc he thinks its funny

tbh im not sure what assigned gender at birth i want either of them to be so im just not gonna choose 🤷

both are 6'4 1/2 or sth

the twins are very separated from the rest of the family they want nothing to do w them

they both dont like Mammi

and hate Valerie

Sade wants her dead and if Kallo ever saw her again he'd lunge

they tolerate Luss and don't dislike her but it's not their favorite to be around her

they don't have any feelings towards Arlo

Sade is a fashion designer and occasionally works with Luss, occasionally

Kallo is a mechanic

originally i had him as a surfer dude but i decided not to

the twins live a long long way away from Wellston and the rest of the family and have no intention of ever going back

theyre both closest to eachother obviously

they both have a lot of trust issues (all of them do) and only really trust eachother

again not sure about abilities

might want Kallo to have some variation of his mom's rather than their dads tho, or maybe a combo of both

i think ill keep Sade w a shield variant

also dk abt sexuality 🤷

i feel like at least one of them would be aro or ace tho. maybe like one is aro and the other is ace lol

ok so now that im done w the siblings

mr dad man's name is Vickaius. hes Valerie's brother. not sure if i want him to be older or younger.

he has long yellow hair (usually up in a pony tail) and gold eyes

yes im terrible and am making him an attractive dilf you cant stop me i have no self control

if it makes u feel any better i'll probably make the mom a milf too

anyway

i kinda wanna give him a scar or two and/or an eyepatch

def a god tier. some type of shield ability. i think i want him to be like a 7.1

he/him or he/she not sure what i want

tbh probably bisexual but thinks he's straight for whatever reason

6'5-7 or smth

fun fact he's currently in jail :)

the moms name is Ariella and she has curly hair and blue eyes. im not sure if i want her to have blonde or brown hair

i dont have much to say abt her tbh. not bc i dont care abt her but like. in my arlo fam plot while she is relevant and important she isnt like. you dont need to know about her. if that makes sense

i do know that i want her to be exactly a whole foot shorter than Vickaius bc i think its hilarious

context for post: arlo hcs

other related stuff: [REDACTED]

[unrealblacklightvirus]

Oh my phrasing was quite bad there, as it's mostly digging through old fics and stumbling across lost stuff. more halfassed fandom archaeology than comprehensive archive scrolling.

Basically i stumbled across the largely defunct prototype kinkmeme on livejournal, and saw someone mentioning a deleted fic by saeto15.

(I always forget abt kinkmemes when reading stuff from older fandoms, esp smaller ones since those can be quite limited in stuff uploaded to newer sites like ao3. though I wasnt really around during the livejournal days so... surprising amount of gen and joke fics on there honestly, a real timecapsule of early 2010s fandom humor)

later stumbled across the more general (though smaller) fic community on there, and noticed his account was a moderator... and also completely nuked (side note, but theres other fics on there as well that cant be accessed due to the OPs locking their posts to friends only, and i desperately want to knock on their door for access bc my curiosity knows no bounds)

did some general namesearching and noticed he's still around, presently hanging out mostly in the zelda and vulture culture communities lately.

managed to get into contact with him through his tumblr, asking if hes concidered reposting his old and deleted fics to ao3, and he is! they're just trapped on an old busted up harddrive, so he has to get that checked out to see if anything can be recovered from it.

in the meantime i'd been doing some more digging, having the common sense to just put prototype after his username this time, and noticed 2 things. 1: from what ive gathered he was pretty prolific for early 2010s prototype fandom, between moderating the fic community on LJ, mentions of his name popping up on the kinkmeme, and even seeing his name popup on the gamefaqs forums.

but more importantly for where this story is going is 2: an article on fanlore mentioning a prototype fanwork forum he helped start called Viral Mutants Anonymous.

another one two with this one,

1: since the forum started on fanfiction, i now had a direct link to his old FF account. turns out the reason i couldnt find it was bc it just doesn't have the 15 at the end, it's just Saeto. it's got some fics and favourites on it, including that one fic someone back on the kinkmeme was looking for, hidden away at the second chapter of a drabble collection (the fic in question is Touch. its gen and honestly really good and makes me feel emotions) i mentioned this to saeto, as it meant at least some things were confirmed to be saved even if the harddrive recovery went up in flames. though he did confirm my suspicion that not all the prototype fics he wrote were posted to FF. and most likely, the place they WERE uploaded to was...

2: the forum. theres 3 links for this thing on fanlore: the original FF forum which is still up, a shortlived one on createforum that was quickly abandoned due to site instability, and a phpbb forum, which was known to be up as late as may 2019, but has since died for reasons im unsure of.

the createforum version only has 2 archives on the wayback machine that i can access, which genuinely show nothing but how many people were online at the time

the phpbb link has more stuff archived, havent clicked around too much yet, but i do know the fic and art threads have sadly never been archived, and all ive got to work off of so far is some topic titles and forum layout, though i do want to do more digging.

and that leaves us where we are right now. i do have some more things i want to dig into. one is the forum on fanfiction, as i havent really dug around that too thoroughly. as well as scouring for more archived pages on the phpbb forum.

theres also the 4chan thread mentioned on the intro to the kinkmeme, which seems to be its precursor. hesitant as i am to touch 4chan with anything more than a 10ft pole, and honestly not even knowing where to start since im wholly unfamiliar with the site structure as a result, im curious as to what got uploaded there, as it HAD to be 2009 ish given the date the kinkmeme started, making it early early days.

along with that i still want to message some users from the livejournal prototype fic board to politely ask to see their old stuff. i've started digging through the internet archive and am concidering touching 4chan in my quest for knowledge at this point, so i might as well gather up the courage to message people at this point.

but yeah, thats what my dig has amounted to. an early 2010s fandom rabbithole of deleted fics and art that i stumbled across entirely bc i got bored and felt like perusing to early 2010s hornyposting for shits and giggles like a weird tourist

probably not what you were hoping for, but at least my slow descent into madness mightve been somewhat entertaining

(side note, apologies for my wildly inconsistent punctuation, i am simply vomiting words into your askbox here)

holy shit anon this is incredible. i am far too afraid to contact anyone even if that means I lose out on reading old fics 😭😭😭 but I thoroughly enjoyed reading this! I dont get much activity on here anymore so this was a welcome sight

[thecruxarm-personal-blog]

Hey guys, im still working on stuff!!!!

Im working on the next organism for my spec bio project!! The general concept for this organism is that they pollinate the seeds/spores of both the dome tree wnd the grape fungus, also making it a symbiote to the two. Though it is derived from plant ancestors, this fella adapted to use respiration instead of photsynthesis through random genetic mutations, therefore giving the dome tree a very good source of carbon!

I imagine theyd individually carry one large seed of the dome tree somewhere near its central body and a bunch of smaller grape fungus spores in the bristles located on its "legs". Uniquely, this species is able to move, and that, combined with the fact it uses respiration, makes it one of the earliest ancestors to plantimals on Fytikó! (To learn more about what plantimals are or what Fytikó is, check my pinned post :) )

Im not entirely sure yet on what the body plan for this creature should even be or how it should look; i know it would have some form of "legs" perhaps derived from plant roots, though im unsure if theyd walk upright (which wiuldnt be hard given the slightly lower gravity) or if they would just crawl along the ground starting off, similar to starfish. Below are a bunch of concepts for features and body layouts that they could have

Since dome trees need a lot of space to maximise the efficiency of photsynthesis, their offspring need to be planted far away, so this pollinator would have to carry these seeds far away. This may take lots of energy, but they also get lots of energy from leeching off of the grape fungi which in turn leech off of the nutrients of the dome tree. This pollinator both pollinates the offspring of the dome tree and the grape fungi, while also making sure that too many grape fungi dont grow on the dome tree, which would be bad since an overabundance of grape fungi could easily drain the tree of its nutrients. These pollinating lifeforms would be derived from parasitic plants, and would use a proboscis-like organ to inject into the sacks of grape fungi and to absorb their nutrients

Because theyd need to travel far to pollinate for the dome trees, and need to make their way back to their original host dome tree, they would both need at least some simple set of sensory organs which help them observe simple landscapes and remember the paths they travel - these organs would be analagous to brains and eyes, though far too simple to properly classify as such (they would later on develop to becime more complex, though)

Im not really sure how these organisms would reproduce themselves, like whether they should be hermaphroditic (given that they would spend much of their lives pollinating on their own), and im not sure if they should make one trip or two trips each time they pollinate, since dome trees might need to mature after being planted before they can afford to be surrounded by grape fungi. If these organisms would require to go back and forth from their original dome tree to the dome tree they had just planted, they may need a developed system analagous to a neural network so they can remember the exact path to reach both dome trees and go back and forth between one another, regardless of how much time has passed

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Sorry, i know these arent very good looking sketches, and im still very in the dark on how this organism should look or behave - i only have very vague and general ideas which are hard to put together. I am stubborn though, and will find one way or another to make the biology of this guy work. I hope nobodies been waiting to see any more from me, ill post the complete version of this pollinating organism once i have it done!! If anybody wants to help me design it too, feel free to comment or message me :) i just wanted to post these so people can get a more general idea of what i have in mind, and especially since it might take longer to design than the last two organisms i posted

[menalez]

Hey so I really wanted to know your thoughts on SAM (the split attraction model). Before I discovered what comphet was and read about it, I identified as bisexual or bi-ace . . . Only to realize now that I’ve only ever been sexually attracted to women and only women, and that I was only ever truly “asexual” toward men. Yet, I have also had crushes on boys in the past. Most if not all of my TV crushes were male, and some do my strongest infatuations in my preteen and teen years were boys. I found them aesthetically attractive and wanted to be near them, until they actually got near me and then not so much. I have a suspicion that I liked the attention and validation and also just liked their nice faces, but I remember my first crush had me begging God on my knees to make the boy marry me. Yet when there was opportunity to so much as kiss him I was appalled. I also wonder if the reason I liked fictional men more than women was because they were written better, and if I didn’t consider my deep, love for my female friends and consuming interest in them as romance because it didn’t feel the same and I was taught to disregard it as friendly—it didn’t feel fast or flighty, but deep and all-consuming, like I was being eaten alive from the inside. It was passion.

I don’t know, maybe I’m not used to seeing women as full people and hence found them less interesting as characters and sometimes even irl, kinda like black people (as an African I resented African stories and had no interest and felt no spark in seeing African characters. I realize I’m just not interested in caricatures.)

I don’t know. I’m very conflicted. I have a desire for attractive men, but never sexual, and not even romantic. Kinda like I want to take their faces in my hands and stare, or rub noses. Or touch their smiles. Mainly sensual, but romantic? Sexual? I don’t think so, no.

sorry for dumping this on you, answer at your own leisure and comfort

(but I am also waiting with bated breath because I have been spiraling for days now)

idk anon i really can’t say for sure and whatever i tell u may be false bc how ur currently processing and understanding ur feelings isnt necessarily objective and ultimately you’ll come to a clearer conclusion on ur own. but ive never had tv crushes on males or been attracted to actors or found male characters interesting or prayed to god for a specific guy to marry me (imagining myself married to a guy, as i knew was expected to me, made me deeply depressed and feel trapped but i didn’t know why), and i definitely don’t want to hold a man’s face and stare at it and touch noses (im ok w holding a close gay male friend’s face but i don’t think id want to look particularly long and def not put our faces so intimately close) sooo i don’t rly relate to the stuff you mentioned. honestly figuring out my sexuality was also quite difficult for me bc it required me to rly think back to as far back as my young childhood & that made me realise that from a young age it was clear that there was one group that i was innately attracted to but another group that i knew i should be attracted to & thus would interpret discomfort and anxiety as meaning i was attracted to them (despite ultimately having 0 interest in them). i hope u do figure it out sooner rather than later bc i know it can be distressing to be unsure and conflicted on ur sexuality n feelings 😭

as for SAM, im totally against it. our sexual libido isn’t our sexual orientation, it can vary over time or due to certain experiences or from medication etc. sexual orientation is sth else and romantic & sexual attraction r more or less the same things broken down into specific feelings and preferences. i never thought much about “sensual attraction” tho but i feel like if u aren’t attracted to men as in they don’t make u horny, ur not sexually interested in them, u don’t want to date them, u can find them aesthetically pleasing at most but that’s about it and u always felt this way then ur probably a lesbian. but the stuff u mentioned sounds like weak attraction to men so idk?

[kamil-a]

another acepost longpost? another one. boom. i wrote the majority of this a while ago but was waiting to see the full route in case id have more to say about it later

i was going thru some ace stay content again this morning and he really keeps EVERYTHING about tower stuff absolutely 100% locked down. wonder why hes keeping those particular cards to his chest...doylistly i guess so it can be a ng+ surprise lol

he gives alice his little "no don't seek mental health improvement youre so sexy like this aha" speech. no i like that youre humble and gloomy... hang on let me open the game and just quote him directly:

"im weak to masochistic people. it's like they need to be rescued, and it catches my attention. look, i am a knight, after all. when i see someone so unsure, i can't help but find it cute. i want to help them, but also to push them over the edge. it makes me want to bully them."

"hey, i may be a knight, but i'm also a wanderer. the kind that makes cute girls go along on his adventures, you know?" 

COMPUTER DIED AS I WAS LOOKING AT THAT SO I MAY HAVE MISQUOTED but the point is girls specifically. he's keeping the bi card close to his chest too. this i don’t think is saying anything intentional about him (the way i think the ‘look, i am a knight’ is) except like. we live in a heteronormative society, but it’s interesting with a like more headcanony interpretative lens, especially because i don’t think he has anything at all to lose by being Open about that- as we see from vivaldi!

also the other point i notice as i type is that specifically here he ties his depression fetish (for a quick n easy if much oversimplified term) to his role as Knight which is VERY INTERESTING!!! MUCH 2 THINK ABOUT. i dont think he does that in the tower.

but also in the tower he also just sort of lists negative traits and goes "well i think they can be good! and i'm attracted to people like this :)" and i feel like here he goes a bit more into WHY. 

not that i think he even knows the full why, because i think THAT'S a fear of being abandoned by a person who can 'get better' like he doesn't think he can do at all.

so he's both opening up to her in a unique way and also keeping a LOT of things to himself. very tasty to think about. 

but actually, when he talks to her about how social faults can be a good thing and also he’s attracted to them in tower stay, he's not being any more "no role, just himself" there either, is he? he's wearing his cape.

and when, in the tower stay route, he talks about love and protection in the same breath (about julius), he does it in his knight’s clothes.

lets see what he says in nonstay about his secret alter ego- future me here! he doesn’t. he also doesn’t really go into detail about his ‘depression fetish’ , he says something about her having bad parts too but it’s okay, and talks about wanting to keep her in her pain and misery, but like... idk i guess they were like its been years, you should know this by now, lol. they had new things to talk about! but i was hoping there’d be like a perfect synthesis of ‘talks about depressed people being hot while shirtless’ or something

also he talks about how he wants to be the only person who hurts her and protect her from everything else. (sighs exasperated-fondly) ace....

he was not lying when he said if i give someone a pain always i will choose you i dont hesitate doing it i am not scared.... future me here again! this part gets REALLY emphasized in nonstay route.

anyway i think he hates the weird identity situations he's gotten his life into and only entraps himself further but also he has connected his expressions of love, closeness, romantic and nonromantic like just all of it, to those identities. whoops lol

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this is a second saved-for-later bit semirelated so im putting it here too:

ace does keep his other loyalties (and his bisexiness) mostly under wraps to alice, huh... (as opposed to peter and vivaldi, who know his deal with traitorly actions etc) and he’s very happy to share when prompted, whether its his bi-2-bi communication ball moment with alice (before he gets into ball clothes, iirc!) or when alice lives at the tower and sees him. but otherwise he won’t bring it up himself. maybe its a rules thing... but im sure he could engineer it to come up if he wanted. even in elliot nonstay he just ominously warns instead of going like “ok yeah i have skin in the game myself”.

it’s very good dramatic irony lol. but poor alice having it hidden from her!!

[txicgf]

he makes me so happy it's stupid

he's stupid

he called me his favorite today and idk hes not said that out loud and before he was unsure about how he felt when it came to 'special' words like favorites and stuff but. he said i was his favorite today and idk that made me very happy ... we spent all day gaming and messing around and we started legion and ughh i love this man

i love this man very much . it's so nice that even when my brain isn't too into the romantic stuff we can just hang out as buds but at the same time he falls asleep faster when we're in bed together and he smothers my face with kisses and speaks in abrupt body language with me and we're stupid together and he licks my face back when i do it to bug him which soUNDS WEIRD but it's so fun and crazy seeing ur weird shit mirrored back. ur energy mirrored back. it makes me all stupid and happy thinking about it cuz i think the fact that he 'does it back' is a pretty big factor into why he's so special to me. with him, i don't feel alone. even when we're not physically together my brain is making a little checklist of all the things i want to talk to him about later and it feels like he's with me agshdgdh .... he proves my shitty brain wrong at every turn and does so with nothing but kindness and understanding, all the while not treating me like a fragile child. he does sweet things like buy me the stupid beanie baby otter named Mitch i was staring at at the gas station when we went at two am and he listens to me and gets on me for apologizing so much and makes me feel pretty. i love listening to him and spending time with him and even cleaning in silence or putting furniture together im happy as can be because im doing it with him. he feels like the recharge i get from being alone but he doesn't make me feel lonely. he feels like home.

if i could be by his side for as long as i want, there never would be enough time in the whole world . even when there's nothing to talk about, im happy. it's scary knowing how much this is gonna hurt when its gone, but im happy to spend these moments with him. looking at the past, it feels like i didn't ever 'start' falling for him again, i just started noticing the parts of me that already had until the rest fell suit. it was like waking up and seeing the world through new eyes again ,,,,, everything became more colorful, things were less scary and i feel more like myself than i have in years. he makes me feel like myself, and he helps me feel like that isn't such a bad thing.

he makes me wanna be domestic and sappy and i wanna be there for him just as much as i feel like he is for me. i wanna support him through the tough shit (don't want him to go through tough shit obvs tho lol) and i want him to feel able to complain to me about anything and everything if it bothers him, and i want to show him how much he matters to me ... he's my favorite person and i want him to know that deep in his bones.

gonna sleep i think but one last thing lol ..... pulling up the cute quote from legion we both commented on earlier

'Just promise me, if you get lost, we get lost together.'