#im very inconsistent with this app

[lookwhatyoumademelou]

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[rook-writes]

extremely rare writing blog reblog here but on paragraphing i always think about the old tiptop post that circulated around tumblr a while back. for those that have never seen it, tiptop stands for time, place topic, person. these are practical ways to split paragraphs, but also, that last one is especially important for how dialogue reads. standard formatting is useful in that regard.

also, paragraphing (in my experience) has a similar purpose to syntax diversity in that they're about how a piece Flows(tm). all different elements of what you do when writing can affect flow, as well as tone and mood. but on a basic level, syntax and paragraphing are peas in a pod. what you put where, and how you break it up, will always affect how an audience absorbs information.

that said, i want to highlight that you can still learn important skills from employing techniques inspired by other mediums. obviously they shouldn't be the only thing you use, but there's a reason a lot of creative writing programs will make you study more than just your focus (the MFA i'm looking at makes you do that, and my undergrad degree did as well). learning from other mediums of writing helps us innovate with the way we use language.

do i think books should be written like movies? nah, not really. but while i was looking for the tiptop post to make sure i quoted it right, i saw another post i reblogged about paragraphing that talked about people wanting to capture the feelings that movies invoked in them.

(hell, it's literally the last post we reblogged here)

studying elements of the stories we like can help us learn how to elevate our craft. for my money, i've learned a lot about paragraphing by working on personal comics (and more comic-oriented people than i have noticed that paneling and paragraphing are far from entirely divorced concepts). thinking about what i want a reader to see versus what i want them to know has been a lot of fun as i've gotten back into writing recently. but that's less related to paragraphing and more just me trying to develop "show and tell" techniques (in this case, showing one thing while a character is telling another).

that was kind of a tangent. anyways.

at the end of the day, paragraphing is, like many other elements of writing, a stylistic thing. it's going to vary from writer to writer, and for people building a style of their own, you'll really need to pull from more than just visual media if you're writing something not intended to be visual.

if you want to write film scripts, do it! but understand that you'll be severely limiting yourself if you only sup your style on the way film crafts stories.

i think people who complain about paragraphs being too long should just read/write screenplays instead. some of us actually enjoy reading

[sydneymykah]

☆☆THE STRUGGLE OF ROUTINE ☆☆

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Some people can just get out of bed and automatically do what they need to do to get the day started. And the same people seem to be the ones we see the most on our screens. "My Morning Routine", "My weekly regimen", "What I eat in a day", and "My Nightly Routine". These people are seemingly put together and perfect like their said routines. But here you are slouched on your undone bed, still in your pajamas, wearing makeup from the day before after waking up after 12 pm. You meaning me, lmao. ☆...

☆The struggle of routine is something we all face regardless of what social media persists to tell us. But I don't really want to talk about how "social media is fake" because that's not even fully true. Some people really do live like this and have very structured routines for their day to day lives, granted it's what pays their bills but that's still technically their routine. But I'm more concerned about talking about how DIFFICULT it is to keep a constant routine. Especially in this weird time we live in.

ミ★I'm a perfectionist. I hate when things don't go the way I want and I tend to want things one way or not at all. But life doesn't live by those rules. Life will throw whatever the hell it wants at you, whenever it feels like it. As an individual you have to learn to work around it all. For me it's an inconsistent work schedule, minor (or major) inconveniences, mood swings, and of course the main culprit is laziness/lack of discipline.

☆We've all done it. On a random day of the week you're up way too late reflecting on your life and what you're doing with it. You suddenly feel the hyperactive urge to fix everything about yourself. You want the perfect body before the summer. You want your hair to grow longer faster. You want to get all your life goals written down and planned out dow not the last minute. You want to post a 1 minute video everyday on TikTok at exactly 3 pm EST and post at least 4 pictures to your instagram every other day. So you open the notes app and make an extremely specific, unrealistic, and way too intense routine to follow everyday. You set reminders, add 30 new alarms to your phone, you fill your amazon cart with stuff you believe you'll defiantly use. And after you make yet another playlist of YouTube workout videos you go to bed confident your life is gonna change forever after this...

Now one of two things happen:

You completely throw away the routine the minute you wake up the next day

Or, you do it for a few days but eventually burnout and find yourself back where you were before, now with just more useless junk you have no room for...

ミ★I have personally been both. But we can all empathize with this because if maintaining a routine was easy it wouldn't be such a successful phenomenon online. Out of the millions of views under "my morning routine" posts, many, if not majority, of them are people who wish they can live the way these people do. I think we as people have developed mindsets that are negative first, positive later. Ever since the quarantine we've been used to online overconsumption. The idea that "more is better", and the scare that was the virus has sparked this fear in us that is wasted time. Hence us wanting to build new giant routines in the middle of the night just to eventually abandon it because our minds and bodies don't evolve or develop like that overnight. Most the time the routines are grueling and just makes us feel exhausted over accomplished. When we don't see immediate change a lot people, including myself, give up then and there.

☆Im not here to tell you how to keep a constant routine or how to become more disciplined because all that information is in the palm of your hands. Honestly at the end of the day it's about your mindset. Realizing what is around you and remembering the reality you live in. You want that body? You want that hair growth? You want to post? It's all possible but here's where the issue lies:

ミ★We forget to forgive ourselves and to be patient with ourselves. We fall under the pressure to perform for social media as well. In this digital age we try to make social media real life 24/7 and put real life on the back burner. Everything must be aesthetic or else! Or if you can't keep a constant routine for a week you're a failure! But the reality is no one just wakes up in their perfect aesthetic one day and has this perfect routine down pat the first time. Another thing that we keep doing is what everyone else is doing. Another example of putting the online first before real life. We've forgotten the beauty of growth, and how things develop overtime. It reminds me of how small artists have the potential to blow up overnight. They suddenly have all these eyes on them and then the GP turns on them simply because their exceptions don't match the artist's personal growth. I think we do the same to ourselves. But regardless of what other people, social media or even what you might even say to yourself the best way to find a good routine is get to know yourself, not someone else. And to not go by others expectations. It's good to hold yourself to a high regard and to make ambitious goals. But you should remind yourself that you want this to last and you don't want to burn yourself out trying to perfect your life like it's a speed run.

☆When following creators who makes content like this I advise to follow people you relate to first. Not saying you can't follow those extremely aesthetic ASMR morning/Night routine videos because hell I watch them too. But know that I watch them for simply that. I've come to the point where I can watch that stuff and not feel incompetent or that I'm failing in life but I digress. Don't pay attention to the many trends and what's hot, just look for people who you might see yourself in, or people who have qualities similar to yours. Physically, mentally, ect. Because if you're a black girl who wants to know how to do a specific 4C hairstyle you're not going to the white girl influencers for tutorials are you? For me I watch Jackie Aina. Her and I don't even have the same tastes in certain aspects, specifically clothing and home decor but she reminds me a lot of myself and some of my values. Her content inspires me but doesn't make me feel like I need to reinvent myself overnight. That's not realistic nor healthy. I think subjecting yourself to that will just give you an identity crisis. Her content helps me feel confident and you should follow people like that too.

ミ★My purpose of this post is not "continue to be a slob" (I'm a Taurus stellium and Venusian. Girl we don't do that over 'chere.) it's to remind and to encourage. A reminder that what you see online isn't what real life is 24/7. Doesn't mean it's all fake, it just means that life doesn't just look like one thing. Social media just tends to make our vision a bit tunneled. Yes, some peoples lives surround what they eat in a day, what they do when they get out of bed, and the steps they follow in their nighttime skincare routine. But our attachment and overconsumption to these types of creators constantly fails to remind us that they're still human. Hell even when the human creators tell y'all "hey I'm human" they still aren't treated as such but guess what? They are! So are you. You are still human. Finding a groove that works for you will take time. And many times you will fail. You will probably forget to do something, you won't have the time for certain tasks, or an inconvenience will pop up out of no where that knocks you off course. But if at first you don't succeed, try again. Social media picture perfect propaganda (lol) has made us forget that life happens and that we will essentially always struggle with routine. Some things stick, some things don't. Some routines last a long time, some only stay for a day. We live in an age where everyone's trying to move as fast as they can to keep with the trends, keep up appearances, and to make up for lost time. And as much as I love the thrill of the fast life, how can I expect to see my growth, what I like, what needs changing and how to fall into a good rhythm when I'm too busy trying to keep up.

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Xoxo, Sydney Mykah -☆

[shorthaltsjester]

fuuuuck your point about fjorjester fans who constantly compare them to Travis+Laura is something I’ve been trying to articulate why it bothers me for ages. Like yes, they are a very sweet couple and I love the behind-the-scenes shenanigans and discussions around the gradual development, but that’s pretty much confetti to Fjord and Jester themselves

sorry for the delay in responding to this, anon! i frequently forget that this inbox exists and this apps inconsistency w/ actually giving me notifications means it’s an uphill battle but ANYWAY. yeah no it’s truly like, it’s a similar phenomenon to some of the defences of cr3 where the parasocial aspects of cr fandom leads people to make claims about how it’s just a group of friends around a table — or in this case, just a married couple falling in love again. both of which completely dismiss the actual skills, talent, and effort which denote the successes of cr’s storytelling. because obviously the real people inform the characters in a unique way in actual play — i always think of brennan’s metaphor that characters in ttrpgs are like a kind of stained glass over the real person, a completely different and separate entity but an entity nonetheless made compelling and beautiful by the thing behind it — but to say that the success of fjord and jester comes down to the pre-existing relationship that exists between travis and laura, even when used as some kind of compliment or reason to enjoy the relationship rather than the dismissal it is often used as by fjorester dislikers, that (in addition to just, not being plausible) completely undersells how much character work both of them do to create characters who fall for each other in ways that Mean Something for the development of their characters — for example, the fact that jester spends the early campaign hard crushing on fjord but then doesn’t actually realize she capital L loves him until they’re in a relationship and she realizes that rather than the romance novel, huge sweeping romantic gestures (though fjord also gives her those) she’s learned growing up, love is being completely comfortable with the person she’s with is an excellent expression of jester’s ongoing character development with lessening her naivety while maintaining her love and whimsy. similarly, the fact that it’s two sets of Is It Too Late?s that prompt fjord into beginning to realize his feelings and then act on them; where as travis has mentioned at panels & in no longer available talks machina’s (whose number i could find for citations sake it so needed) fjord realized he might be losing something he hadn’t realized was really there during the jellyfish convo & that he was prompted to finally confess to jester and ask to kiss her because her life was at risk and that after vandran, fjord wasn’t about to let another person leave him without ensuring he told them what they mean to him, that’s all extremely important for fjords development as someone who cares for and takes notice of those around him in his role as the groups leader/diplomat/protector as well as his development towards being able to actually go and seek vandran out instead of just accepting that it might simply be the case that he’ll never get to tell him what he meant to him. none of the power of those character choices comes from the fact that laura and travis are actually married. and it’s consistently infuriating to see what is genuinely one of my favourite narrative love stories be reduced to a relationship that, aside from providing context for a crush that is also narratively grounded from the start of the campaign and (as both travis and laura have mentioned) provided travis with a lower barrier to entry re: romance in dnd, really has very little to do with the story that unfolds

anyway sorry for the word vomit op. it is early in the morning & im procrastinating grading at any and all cost. but yeah tldr: real fucking stupid to look at a story as good as fjord & jesters, as characters who develop in such a way that begets an extremely compelling relationship, and think that saying it’s bc of the real marriage of their creators is in any way a compliment.

[gotaksboyfie]

hey so for that big tumblr whc ff writer that you called out what do you think about the fact that she wants to prove that she does infact write the ff herself and all the hate shes been recieving (like death threats and stuff srry if this is bad im not native to english this is google translated) from what i understand her tags and headings are from robot but nothing else?

it depends on the type of proof i feel? because if it's just a screen recording, it's very possible to pull up another device to write off from 😭 and also about the death threats: i'm so sorry that the original author is getting them (」°ロ°)」!! i thought this app was on the chiller side but there's no reason to send any death threats to them

and don't worry about the bad english, english isn't my first language too lol. also i feel like it's the style of writing too, but that's only because of the inconsistent tags/names as well. if it was the writing alone i'd be somewhat concerned but honestly i would just pass it off as their writing style.

tbh i don't really wanna discuss this anymore because i wanna go back to just fanboying about the whc characters LOL, i fear that i've said all that needs to be said about the situation

if they do manage to disprove everything i will send a lengthy apology and delete my post ><!!

[sai-int]

bestiee i need a girlfriend opinion on this pls because i....sadly don't really have close irl friends anymore... (sad i know)

anyways i started using dating app again and matched with this guy. we went on our first date last week and it was a really enjoyable time and he was showing good signs of being interested in me. he said he def would like to know me more BUT....he's a terrible texter and i just don't know how to make of that. terrible as in one time he forgot to text me back in a week and i was the one who messaged him again, and even now he also hasn't replied yet to our convo from 3-4 days ago... im so confused like is he interested or not?? (he's 10 years older btw and im in my late 20s)

i liiiveee for this stuff, thank you for even wanting to come to me with this 🤍

if it were me (i have no mercy for men of any age) i would be straight up with him and tell him that his lack of communication outside of when you're physically together makes you think he's not interested and that it's a kind of a turn off.

i'm very quick to cut people off, but if you guys have a good connection i'd say fight for it! communicate where he lacks and let his response sort of dictate how things should go from there

if he isn't willing to work it out and not willing to communicate further, then you know that maybe it won't work out, but if he does want to work it out an expresses that he's just a bad texter, maybe you guys can work around it and maybe facetime or call instead!

^^ caveat to that, (in my humble opinion) it's a HUGE red flag to be having communication issues within the first few weeks. usually this is the time people show off and want to put the most effort in. if this is his idea of 'the most effort', imagine how he'll act when he actually gets comfortable???

in my personal life, i've ended situationships with guys multiple times at the first show of them being inconsistent or not being communicative enough because those are things i value highly in a relationship, and honestly, it's only ended up good for me, mainly because i don't mind being single

i hope this helps love! feel free to slide in my asks anytime about anything :)

[gemsofthegalaxy]

i know its not that weird and also that people can spend their money however they want but online streaming and whatnot has created some really interesting situations

one of the streamers/youtubers that i really do quite like does, well, streams but some of them are members only. which is fine, yknow, get that coin or whatever but i personally dont feel like paying to essentially hang out with and watch someone do stuff- im not even super huge into streaming in the first place? like, i get why people like it to an extent but she's only of the only people i've ever watched stream for real other than, like, Desert Bus for Hope which i also watched very inconsistently up until this year when i tuned in most of my free moments while they were doing it. but that's also a different vibe than watching one single person do things.

and then there's a whole realm that i dont even understand with kpop idols and whatnot and the only reason i even know this is because i have 1 single friend in that subcommunity but she tells me there's this App where you can subscribe to specific people so you can get access to their exclusive livestreams (i guess? idk, again, im not that familiar) but what she does when she gets the privilege of attending one of these exclusive livestreams is she gets the opportunity to BUY THE GUY GIFTS. and she does this. with her very hard earned money. she's a baker who gets up at ass oclock and she has a lot of little side hussles and stuff and she's actually quite responsible with saving and everything but im like jesus. i cant imagine paying for the privelege to spend more money on like. some random guy. just because he sings well or is cute

and im not here saying artists don't deserve to make money off of their creations. and there's even an argument where theses artists dont only create things but they create the personality that you become attached to and love, their stage persona and whatnot, and that is also a talent and deserves a level of recognition and it can have real monetary value (clearly) but for myself as much as i love artists and want to support them, i would rather buy a product like a print or in some cases access to a video or article on pateron (something i also dont do often more because im cheap than anything) rather than like.... buying access to just being around them a little longer?

again, easy for me to say, because im not very drawn to the streaming format of media. i just find it a very interesting phenomena. probably in part because i so truly do not Get It the way others do, which is fine. its just curious.

[catiruru]

WHAT THE FUCK IT'S BEEN A WHILE-- anyway,, if y'all wanna stay updated with all my artworks you can follow me on twitter (@Catiruru) since I share everything that's happening in my entire life there.

I disappeared from this app bcs my old tab was full storage and I had to delete tumblr. And im also just so lazy to log in and upload my artworks in multiple apps so-- BUT IM BACK and I IMPROVED YES my artstyle is still very much inconsistent but I really like learning new things so I can't really stop myself from applying everything I Iearn in every artwork which results to my style changing every new artwork,, but hey maybe one day im finally gonna reach that consistent artstyle 🥹

anyway,, here's my VERY recent artwork 😋

One thing's gonna make you recognize my artworks though, my works r always going to be colorful🙂‍↔️🫡

[dead-girl-prolific]

Life Update (End of Hiatus?)

trigger warnings; topics of debilitating depression, Mental health, Mentions of drug misuse (ODing), mention of Mental Hospital visits, mention of a toxic relationship, concerning amount of over-sleeping, diagnoses, mentions of ED

I'm so sorry for not posting recently. I know it's been well over six months since I've posted anything. I've been going through a lot recently. I have a decent amount of things to go over, but for now, we'll just start with where I've been and what I've been doing these past nine-ish months.

April - August

In early April, I got out of a semi-toxic relationship. I don't want to disclose exactly how it was toxic. After that relationship ended, I took a hiatus from Tumblr and Discord; I started distracting myself with video games and in-game friendships. I spent most of my time gaming around early April all the way through May and I moved out of my guardian's house and back in with my biological mother in June.

I almost immediately fell into a deep depression and started sleeping 24/7, I remember 2 weeks after moving and getting settled there was a period where I was sleeping over 110 hours a week, one time I even slept for 2 days straight. I was struggling with romantic relationships a lot in late July. on top of that, my mental state wasn't the best and I was freshly unmedicated around the end of July to the first few days of August.

August - November/December

August 10th I landed myself in a mental hospital for a couple of days. I got out on August 19th, was put on new medications, and was finally fully diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I started a mental health program/alternative school and was there for about 4-5 weeks and was diagnosed with ADHD. my mom pulled me from the program because she and my therapist agreed it wasn't helping me much. During this program, I made my first OD attempt.

October 15th i was sent to another mental hospital from my second OD. I was there until October 24th, was put on different medications. My mom made an appointment for me to go back to my program. I was accepted and went back to November 1st. I made significant progress and attempted to get better. I learned a lot, I grew, and I changed. I stayed at the program for 7 weeks and finally graduated (I'm still going to the treatment, it's just less Extensive). All throughout the past 4-5 months I’ve been struggling with Eating Disorders I’m not going to specify but because of it I have had a very inconsistent weight which I am still struggling with, I haven’t talked to anyone about it, I’ve tried in the past, it’s just not something I can find a lot of support/understanding or even help for so I’m dealing with it on my own.

Social media;

I haven't returned to discord; I don't see myself returning to discord soon.

I've completely deleted my Instagram account and the app. I don't think im returning to Instagram either, at least not for a while. I don't have any social media besides Tumblr and Pinterest.

• Explanation: I feel like I owe it to myself to be free of distractions while trying to work on myself. I feel like social media was only making it harder for me. However, I've decided on keeping Tumblr and all my writing/reading sites (Wattpad, AO3, and Quotev) because I genuinely want to get better at writing and I want writing to become a good outlet for me, that and I feel like it'll be easier now that I'm living in a more stable environment. I feel like writing isn't taxing on me and I enjoy doing it. I love creating, although I don't draw as much as I used to.

recently;

I've been going through a lot of personal changes and perspective changes. I've realized a lot about my childhood and my previous living conditions. I've also become increasingly more aware of myself, obviously I'm not 100% aware of everything yet (regarding myself/habits, etc.) my therapist has told me we're going to look into a sixth diagnosis (Bipolar B or 2) when I've worked on myself more, I still have a lot of hurdles to jump before I get diagnosed with something like that. Mainly, I need to work on my BPD symptoms in order to tell if I have an underlying diagnosis (bipolar) as well.

BUT — I have been doing SO SO SO much better recently, I'm about to start senior year (i only have 4.5 credits left till I'm able to graduate.) when I finish Senior year I'll probably work towards getting my drivers license and getting a job.

also- I got my lip pierced today lol—

I will be posting one more Update after this one, be ready!

love you guys!!

[linalavender]

[Spoilers] Chainsaw Man chapter 177: The Statue of Liberty

Hey its been a while, Ive been sucked into the bird apps clutches again despite my wishes. (Sidenote the M key on my keyboard is broken and inconsistant, I try to proofread and correct it but if you see a word that looks like its missing a letter its probably an M somewhere lol sorry)

Anyhoot, Time to talk some theories, more specifically: What the hell is the Devil that the American Government has hid in the Statue of Liberty? And why is it Yorus child?

I cant believe I'm saying this but I think a Fanart Fujimoto did holds the answer.

A number of years ago, Fujimotos deffinetly real not fake sister posted Fujimotos take on Captain America on twitter:

And while I dont quite think Fujimoto is asking to have Disney lawyers at his doorstep anytime soon I think theres some inspiration to be drawn here. Because I think the Devil is something directly tied to both America and its many many wars Justifications: "Freedom"

Guntrotting warloving americans will often joke about "Dispensing freedom" into destabilized countries with a power vacuum and the attrocites American soldiers will commit in the name of "Freedom" is inumerable. Not to talk about all the shit the CIA does behind the scenes. I think its very fair to say the concept of "Freedom" and its american flavor of it can and frankly is a pretty feared idea. And it also ties directly into being a child of war because you would only fear freedom as a concept when its used to justify the attrocities commited to your people, using Bombs, Guns, Tanks, artilery, missiles etc during a "war"

It is also very ironic to have the Embodiment of the fears of Freedom imprisoned in a monument dedicated to the concept.

theres a few things against this though. Why did specifically only NPA members lose their trigger finger and not like, soldiers carrying out these atrocities. How do you make freedom a power that is both reasonable and something you can like stop in the story, Im a little stuped on these questions specifically but hey Fujimoto is a far better writer that me so he can figure it out lol

[girlwithspiralnotebooks]

july 15th - 1:38am

i had originally tried to write my feelings out on the last subject section of an old five-subject notebook i had been using to study japanese. however, it felt wrong to etch sad words onto something i had worked so hard on. my inconsistent handwriting and wavering wrist also demotivated me from continuing, along with the tears that rapidly kept falling down my face.

if i cry on my keyboard-- which i wont, because i am laid down on my bed like a school girl with my laptop a good distance away from my wet eyes-- i can just wipe the tears away. if those tears fell on my notebook, the blobs will pick the ink up off the page and ruin a beautiful attempt at being poetically sad. maybe the tear marks would've enhanced it? i guess it depends on who you ask.

i think im going through a break up. somethings wrong in my relationship, and i think it might be me. however, its not all me, and my girlfriend is taking advantage of that. i think she is making my faults appear grander, and anytime she makes a mistake, its simply something i've conjured in my head. i don't understand. i do not think we are happy.

we get sad and cry and argue and i try to end things but within the same night everything goes back to normal and we are together again. i do not understand. tonight seems to be the first night it won't be that way any longer, but honestly, im not too sure. we are very attached to one another. we always end up back together. if we do, i probably won't write here ever again. if we stay apart, i will be here often. something about this time feels different. i feel like today shifted something.

i never understood tumblr. i had an account when i was younger but i never understood how to work it. im not sure what drove me to open my laptop and open a tumblr account and write all my feelings down here.

i think its because there exists the possibility i will be heard. i never feel heard with my girlfriend. as opposed to notion or my notes app, at least one day there exists the chance someone will run into this and peek through my mind and see what im thinking. maybe they'd just keep scrolling by. i dont mind though. why would you care? still, though. maybe you're listening. are you listening? i wish she listened to me.

[superdupersunny420]

✰ All About Me! ✰

✰ Name: Duper

✰ Age: 19

✰ Pronouns: They/Them

Fandoms: Stardew, Genshin, Saiki K, FNAF SB, JJK, etc etc

Favs: Sam, Diluc, Saiki, Sun & Moon, Gojo, etc etc

I want to start off with, I’m not a good writer by any means. I struggle with spelling a lot and I don’t have a very good vocabulary, I write just because I enjoy it, not for any other reason. I also feel like I write in a really weird way??? idk but if you don’t enjoy it i’m sorry :) Also a lot of my writing is done on my phone L.O.L so that doesn’t help with my shite spelling but oh well.

Some things about me to do with writing/fanfics; I write a lot for fandoms i’m not even in or have like no knowledge on so sorry if i write shit that makes no sense, I hate smut so much like i don’t mind suggestive shit but just hardcore sex idk it ain’t for me, im very inconsistent with posting and i’ll start stuff and struggle to finish it so have fun with that :)

Moving on to more general about me (aka the shit no one cares about):

- I work part time and I currently am studying (university guys i’m so smart)

- I play a LOT of video games, most of my favs are visual novels or dating sims but I play basically anything so if you have any game recommendations send them my way

- My favourite things to do are; sleep, eat, play video games and see my friends (aww aren’t I cute) (my friends don’t know about my Tumblr account) (they know I use this app but don’t know my account) (manifesting they never find it tbh)

- I actually don’t know what else to put I live a really boring life tbh

Anyways, love you guys xoxo

[twistedyapping]

my relationship with tumblr

i feel like i should do a yapping session bc i havent in a while and this topic keeps popping up in my brain so im gonna take u thru a journey of what my relationship with tumblr has been like for the last. Eons.

to start, right now i fucking love tumblr so much- i have genuinely never enjoyed posting on an app more and like don't get me wrong im sure this one has its issues, as does every social media app, but this one to me is at least the most tolerable.

my relationship with ig is mid at best, i like it but it's kinda lame and posting on it???? Bro i post like MAYBE once a year at best.

my relationship with twitter is pure hate and also non-existent bc i got so sick and tired of it that i caved and uninstalled it like a month or so ago and haven't wanted to go back on it since.

my relationship with tiktok is also mid at best, posting is closer to a chore tbh even though i dont do it regularly at all- i also get stressed trying to keep up with reach and stuff so i kinda just dont 😵‍💫

my relationship with facebook is non-existent.

my relationship with pinterest??? God bless that app but i dont post on it- i just go there for editing content and silly content, that's it.

This app tho??? God bless. I barely even scroll on it- i mostly come here to post, which makes it the only one of it's kind on my phone (90% posting, 10% scrolling)

but when i do scroll on it, it's so refreshing- i just see pretty space pics and stuff bc that's what i wanna see. i dont see argument after argument or cancellable offense after cancellable offence like on twitter, i dont see lame stupid stuff that im not interested in like on ig, and i dont get over/understimulated out of my mind like on tiktok.

However! This was not always the case for me with tumblr. in fact, it used to be quite the opposite!!!!

i used to hate tumblr with every fiber of my being- if i ever came to it, it was out of desperation. desperation for silly content (which funnily enough is kinda what drove me back to it after all these years)

it was overcomplicated, i hated the vibe of everything i saw, i hated how public it felt, etc- But ofc this was way back when i had a horrifically foggy head on my shoulders and barely knew who i was so 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

it felt claustrophobic for me back then, like literally somehow- and now it feels very comfy and i love the idea of just sitting down and writing a post on astrology or posting my image edits or even my fallout photography or sumn-

it just feels like the perfect place for me somehow- Like i can write abt whatever, write abt astrology, post photography, post edits, look at space stuff, whatever!!! it makes me feel more like an artist bc it gives me a space to do everything i wanna do

and omg dont even get me STARTED on the customization for each blog u can have BROOOOOOOOOO that's literally my favorite part- i fucking LOVE changing my whole blog's vibe down to the FONT dude it genuinely makes me so happy 😭😭😭😭😭

and who knows!!!! i might even end up with another blog at some point for like writing short stories or something bc i do love doing that- definitely wouldn't fit in with this yapping blog tho But another blog means another one to customize!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

and my posts on here- well not so much on this blog tbh i think i havent found the right tags yet But on my other 2, my posts actually do pretty well, especially the astrology one- and it's such a switch from ig's shitty algorithm and tiktok's inconsistency-

this one is actually like. Kind of consistent. and it makes me feel like im doing something right by posting here tbh and probably even if my posts did ass, i would still make them- bc like. It's fun. 😮‍💨

anyway ya that's abt it- i wanted to do a yapping session before bed yknow- this one's a little shorter than most But that's ok 🥳🥳

- 🌙 -

[tinylittlebab]

99.2 this morning. the fear i felt shen i thought i actually weighed over 100 was terrible but i dont. im just on my oeriod and when i weighed at 101 it was after eating and just at a v bad time overall.

i found a weight tracker that lets me track multiple weights a day. i like to weigh in the morning and night. what times a eat are very inconsistent as are the times a sleep and wake so its hard to know how accurate weigh ins are. it was an issue i had for awhile and it bothered me a lot. i had been looking for a better app but i never found one till now so yay! its weird to me how i just stopped. for awhile theres was this big in the back of my head of it but not actively counting or anything. just kinda trying to not eat and feeling bad when i do. its tiring to do this stuff and its like id just get burnt put from it but also i cant just turn it off

but at some point my brain did turn it off. along with everything else uh. i guess thats a compromise. not a good one though.

well. i made a mistake today. i took my free shift drink. i felt horribly dizzy at work cause disability. it was super busy. i wasnt even there for very long but for almost the entire time it was just me and 1 other person. they only just got there when everyone else left and they had been busy all up till when i got there and then it was still busy.

well. its a lil less cold today! i can probs get much more exercise in at least. im only working 3 hours tomorrow so i wont take my shift drink. im working 7 1/2 hours the day after (possibly without any breaks) so im gonna for sure drink smth and bring smth to eat. but thats fine. ill probs go to bed early and not eat much else that day so itll be ok.

well. my head hurts again. having my hair up in a bun sucks it always makes my headaches worse but i dont got a choice. im hoping it goes away soon n i dont gotta eat n take ibuprofen. i cant exercise with this pain tho

[nicegaai]

Ch 6:

Its 3PM already… if I really hurry I can make it thru the end before 5PM, which is my cutoff time. What a way to spend the majority of my day. 

Skimmed thru the intro scene bc I can’t read too many of these dream sequences, I just can’t rn. It’s fine. I know the jist.

WHY did I make Emil a TikTok kid and why do I think even just mentioning TikTok is funny… I don’t rly know anything about TikTok. Its just the annoying highschooler app to me. its so great

SIG/EM NROICE INTERACTIONS YESSSS HFF HFF PLES PLEASEEEE IM SOOO @___@ <- me when im normal

“Hey, no problem,” said Sig. “They’re your family too.” / HEH. HEHEH. HEHEHEHHE <- beavisbutthead laugh

h. Hey. What happened to my line break. Where did it go. Thats not cool, man. You can’t fuck w my formatting, dude.

Oh my god I actually genuinely did not remember how this scene (/THE/ SCENE!!! I LOVE THIS SCENE SOOO MUCHHH) started. This is really sweet. Maybe OOC but I think the weird little crush justifies Sig being a doting big brother for once in this au…

Hahaha.. im channelling better writers in Siggi’s dialect, whoopsies… its a lil messy.

Yeh this scene is really indulgent………………. Maybe way too much to be believable but its so cute and I love them and I want them to have thisss….. wahhh…. Siggggg give him a big ol hug you horny mentally deficient freakkkkk… also he would not talk like this, this chapter had a messy behind the scenes process that made everything get inconsistent.. but its literally fine. 

This was the long scene that I sat on for like everrrr and I love it so much . Sigsie and Emmie talking and being weirdly flirty at the same time. Its everything to me. I tried really hard to make the flow believable and im being very critical reading it again now. And ughhh. I found one bit I don’t like and I want to go in and mess with it some more. But at the same time. No I don’t. I spent too much time on this chap already. Moving on !!!!

I can’t rly move on, I love these two so much.

HOLY SHIT I CALLED HIM DEN AHAHAHHAHAH FUCK MY LIFEEEEE DUDE. I called Mads DEN!!!!!Human AU suck my dong you all know who he is

GIGGLING KICKING MY FEEETTTTTTTTTT<33333333333 OF COURSE YOUR MIND WENT STRAIGHT TO SEX SIGURD !!!!!! WHAT IF EMIL WANTED A FIRST DATE AND AWKWARD AFFECTION AND A ROMANTIC FIRST KISS HUH?!?! SAD!!!

STOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPP AUUGUHHHH EHEHEHEHEHHEHE AHHHH STOPP EHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE AAAHHHHHHH <333 3 3 3 3. 3 3 3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Don’t call him baby brother thats weird sig… He’s literally only calling him that bc of the fetish btw. He’s still rotting his brain out with brother on brother porn 

Another typo. can someone take me out back and shoot me already. 

Ahuguughhhhh im obsessed with them. We’re finally getting into 5some territory im so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyy eeeeee

INCEST MINDBEAM ATTACK GO

im attempting my fic reread today. im announcing this bc i will be liveblogging to keep my morale up, NOT THAT anyone cares but i personally need this, like ill only commit to do the thing if theres an imaginary audience holding me accountable. & i like to have fun :3

anyway. captains log, its a beautiful sunny july weekend. i just finished my morning coffee, and, i am dreading this so much. i dont like rereading my own writing but i shall get over it. ok here we go.

Þetta Reddast vagueblogged directors commentary edition

Ch 1:

*opens fic and starts convulsing immediately* god i wish i smoked weed rn. i cannot chill out ever for the life of me

My Mission For Today Is: to remember what plot threads I’ve left hanging so I can resolve this story properly. And also try n remember where the flow is going. I have the end plotted out, I just am a little lost … it’s been a while :-(

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Abrupt beginning!!!! I’m not mad because I have . I HAD. Almost no writing experience when I started this. it isn’t ideal but I refuse to be one of those fanfic writers that starts rewriting early chapters without finishing the last ones. Ive never seen one of those types actually finish a longfic. …I’d already rather yap than actually read LMAO AHH

Oh this is worse than I remember. thats cool that s great ok alright *coughs up blood*

"20 somethings" WOW I really did not know where I was going with this when I started huh

LKJSDLKSJDLGKGDJSLDGJK ??? Who authorized this. Who let me cook. What the hell

I could write this better now. I could edit this into something beautiful. <- devil on my shoulder

FORGOT I WAS MAKING RICE BRB

"generously offered nothing to the exchange." wait STOPPPP. I’m so funny

GRAMMAR ERROR DETECTED why is there two periods. I’ll be coming back to fix that …………………. :-(((

Fuck. This is a lot. Marge Simpson Hiding Her Face dot Png

Oh this is stupid this is gayyy this is fukcinnn . Who fucking did t his. What was wrong with me,. This is so good actually. what was i ONNNN. 

Im gonna throw up and I don’t know if thats like/. A complimentary thing or if im just cringing that hard . Im feeling emotions. I love my OTPs..OT3~5? I love them so so much

Ok as much as im like “eww bad writing” this is .. dare I say, rly good in places. Not to suck my own dick but maybe all hope isnt lost and imposter syndrome is an illusion

Grammar mistake #2. Goddddddd. they should ban me from the archive for this

EMILLLLL EMIL EMIL EMIL HIIIIII BABYYYY EMILLL I LOVE UUUU AWWHUUGHH everyone clap for my bewoved baby bruvver right FUCKING now

Urghhh gritting my teeth… Im fully expecting the flow of events to start not making any gd sense. There’s no way this came together the way I hoped in my head and .... For real I was never able to read this all the way thru. this is my first time, lol. and it was all disjointed on the authorial end to say the least. Im scared T-T

Jlxjvklsdkjfsjlkdkjlsjklkljzsdkjlgaskljdgjklasljkgdljkasljkdgjklasjlkdgljkaskljdgjakl?????????? 

Im not liking the ratio of dialogue to whatever the other stuff is. scene-setting I guess. prose maybe. i could have dragged this out way longer... By which I mean made it a more satisfying read. But WHATEVER !!!! 

TIMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMOOOOOOOOOO NUMERO UNOOOO DO MUNDOOOOOO I really need to utilize him more. As soon as I finish this fic I need to write a Timo POV spinoff where he gets cancelled on furry twitter for proshipping in real life

Hmmmm chapter ending didn’t hit as hard in practice as it did in drafts. Oh well. God damn that was a lot to happen in one chapter LMAOO???

OH SHIT MY RICE IS STILL COOKING —— 

[lazaruspiss]

any horny hal jordan comics to recommend me?

GOD I WISH. unfortunately i am a "rotate my blorbo in the microwave of my minds eye" kind of guygal u know. Yes im a dc fan. No i dont read. We exist. (My reading list is a nightmare. It's an entire spreadsheet.) I wanna read hal's spectre arc bc it seems like its got weird gender and ghost stuff goin on which is soooo 💕💕💕