#instead of just letting them die out

[cistematicchaos]

"Take all that pain, take that grief, take that anger, and channel it into love.” That’s something a Black trans woman told me once, when I was really pissed about my transphobic family members and grieving the deaths in the trans community. “That grief is just love that doesn’t know where to go.” She said. “So you have to put it into something. Put it into building your community, into building a family, put it into fighting for your family. Don’t let it go to waste.”

So I didn’t. And I learned that it still hurts, it still SUCKS but it helps so much to put those feelings into something. Whether that’s writing essays or learning more about different bigotries and/or history, or going to meetings with others in my area about fighting fascists, or fucking around and making some transsexual/gay propaganda, it’s got to go somewhere. That’s one of the reasons being crippled is such an issue for me, because I so rarely have the energy to put all my devastations and emotional scrambles into anything. 

But if you can, give it a shot. Put it into something! Even if that’s just reaching out to say “hi” to another trans person, or doodling some gayass art or writing about some of this bullshit, do it. Maybe watch a documentary about something in our community! I would even encourage doing something a little queer that’d strike fear into the hearts of our enemies but lol, we can’t all be doing that so don’t pressure yourself if you can’t. 

Just don’t let yourself burn out, take care of yourself and put those feelings into something. Anything. Don’t just wait for them to die. 

[thatgaywizardoverthere]

Merlin doin highly public and suspicious magic to add some spice to his life in Camelot

[nashvillethotchicken]

I'm think about claudia and louis again. 79 dead 1903 injured

[shorlinesorrows]

just got the time to start the sunshine court and I'm Vibrating out of my skin

[iratusmus]

[secondwhisper]

So, I don't work directly with police in my job, and in fact I frequently am in positions to argue against using police in our operations (and I do argue this whenever the opportunity arises). But one of my coworkers is an emergency responder liaison, which means she does a lot of budgeting and scheduling and managing of cops.

That all to say, in the course of a workday, I randomly get hit with a fun new "oh you're just gonna say the quiet part out loud" dystopia fact about how cops work.

Today's tip: Don't make public health and safety arguments to cops about why they should do the things they are employed to do, like directing traffic around a crash, or administering CPR before paramedics can arrive. No, here's the script: "It's not just about life and death, it's also about liability."

They're not afraid of their negligence killing people. They're afraid of the hassle of being taken to court to explain why they let their negligence kill someone.

[cosmik-homo]

I wrote about this on discord a bit back but I think a big part of the whole doctor-master complication is that it's the type of argument and the master is the kind of person where they'd rather die than do something that might make it seem like conceding they're wrong, regardless what they actually think, and that's why "where I stand is where I fall. Stand with me" that almost works on Missy: She has made her move here, she killed him- made so he's dead when the other shoe drops- and he knows and acknowledges that and can offer her a way of coming near him and being on the same side without it being her side losing, saving face that she can join him in this. And the speech very much highlights how to the doctor it's never been about winning, always about harm to people and help to people, but I don't think the master is as affected by that as by the 'if you want to hold my hand now I can make it so it doesn't make you seem the fool for your past actions'.

[helpimstuckinafandom]

JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD

[songofsaraneth]

i am FUCKING pissed about the feral cat situation yet again

[misted-buttercup-enjoyer]

hmmmm. listening to Die Young by Kesha. upbeat but nothing can hide the gutteral grief in the song. she is burying someone or something. making me think of shootings at LGBTQ+ clubs and parties.

[katyspersonal]

Cool.. Our rent price got raised. :') I did not know it was even possible to get even MORE poor than me and mom already were, but here we are. Guess I'll start surviving on literal bread and water at this rate.

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

[anothermonikan]

Have I told you guys about the fucked up dreams I've been having recently? I've been having some fucked up dreams lately. yeah <3

[drewsaturday]

i think a lot about how much you have to "lose" your parents in iwatex to save them, mostly your mom, by completely disappointing and infuriating and pushing them away with your life choices for the good of the colony.

so i think it would be neat where enough factors come together where at least one of them believe you about past lives/seeing the future.

[hibiscuswolverine]

Thinking about makoto is so so so essential to plot of THH and the future of the rest of the series (even v3 to some extent) that if everything in sayaka’s plan went according to plan and she managed to pull a Tsumugi and get the main character killed, the game would honestly be over and then the rest of the series never happens. OR the game would at most last till chapter 5 because of Kyoko and then STOP because no one really cares after that after she dies.

[barstoolblues]

i guess i officially have no college friends anymore as of today. so