#istg i don't log in for a while and then this

[gxtzeizm]

having a internet connection problem for a while during the game loading before the match start, only able to get into the gameplay 2 minutes after the match start (when at the same time i might be fucked up once again if i'll get flagged for afk during match lolllllll) but thank fucking god tho i was able to catch up the remaining 3 minutes of early game to farm enough gold to buy items and level karrie up that i'm able to carry the whole mid until late game for the team lmaooooooooooo

[minqies]

to play genshin or not to...

[that-cunning-witch]

this is probably a very dumb question so im sorry in advance: but for praying to the Gods, is making khernip & the barley stuff absolutely necessary? is it vital? istg ill do more research but right now im just very confused haha

Here's the interesting thing: khernips and its use in modern Hellenic Polytheism isn't entirely "correct" (I don't like using this term in this context but I cannot for the life of me think of a better term atm).

Fel the Blithe explains this very well in their Purification & Cleanliness video, but I'll give the general gist here.

Khernips/lustral water was indeed a thing, just not how we view it. We tend to think of it as either burning something and extinguishing it in clean water while saying a prayer, or alternatively gathering sea water or making salt ("sea") water by adding salt to clean water. But the reality is that historians and archaeologists can't come to an agreement due to insufficient evidence as to what this water was for absolute certainty.

One source talks about khernips as we know it but even then the passage itself is iffy. Greek Religion by Walter Burkhert is viewed as a generally good source by most in the helpol community. I haven't fully read it yet so I cannot give my own opinion on it. But, here is what he had to say about lustral water:

"There is no consecration of the water, but often it must be drawn from a particular source... Occasionally, the water must be fetched from further afield, from an ever-flowing spring or from the always powerful sea... The purifying power of fire is joined to the power of water when a log is taken from the altar fire dipped in water and used to sprinkle the sanctuary, altar and participants."

Is this universal? Is this just from one city or temple? Was this the norm or only for a specific ritual or festival? Who knows!

So, what does this mean today? This doesn't negate khernips as we know it as invalid. After all, it is technically historical. However, we can't say for certain that it was the common person's method of cleansing before prayer, ritual, offering, etc. all across Ancient Greece.

Another method of cleansing one's self via water is spring water or water from a flowing river. In Ancient Greece, it was expected of one to cleanse, pray, and give an offering to the god presiding over the river that the person is about to cross. And they cleansed themselves with the water from the river.

Keep in mind that times were different. The concept of clean water was very different to us now. In today's time, clean water is a given and typically easily accessible (there are, of course, exceptions, but in comparison to hundreds of years ago, it's safe to make this general statement).

All of this to say, taking a shower, washing your hands in tap water, or splashing your face with it can be and is just as cleansing as khernips/lustral water because technically it is lustral water. If we're defining lustral water as clean water, then yeah, tap water from the sink or filtered water from a water dispenser is absolutely lustral and therefore spiritually cleansing!

But as for its use, cleansing yourself is typically a requirement before approaching the gods. Of course, there are exceptions, both modern and historical. There are plenty of mythos that show someone in desperate times praying without doing the proper ritual of the time (cleansing, offering, etc.). But overall, it is considered vital to be clean before the gods.

However, I don't really know what you're referring to when you say "barley stuff". Are you talking about Zeos Ktesios and the corresponding vase/container?

TLDR: "is making khernips absolutely neccessary?" is kind of two questions: is khernips itself necessary and is making a cleansing water to cleanse with before approaching the gods necessary. No to the first, yes to the second. But "making" a cleansing water is as easy as collecting tap water or filtered water. Whenever I'm about to approach the gods, I cleanse my hands with water (just water usually) before putting some of the water on my face as well. Hope this helped, anon!

[vagabond-umlaut]

i don't wanna burden u all w this but this is a real call for help, ppl :((

so. the thing is i met this user few months back here and we became moots considering we had many shared interests and stuff and we r also sort of moots in law or smthng. and well, we became pretty nice friends and we started chit-chatting w each other. not only abt jjk or other animanga but also yk. abt our irl lives and stuff

but. over the past few weeks. things hv started to turn so fkn horrible

so well. over the last three or two months or so, tht user and i became sort of besties. and we started to chat regularly. and now that i notice eveyrthing more closely, there hv always been red flags...

everything became worse two weeks ago, i think

when they started to complain to me how i hv been "not paying them attention!!" all the while i hv been active on the dash, busy interacting w my other moots. how they hv been "feeling insecure" because of it. like. why i took some time more to reply to their messages when i was already busy reblogging stuff on the dash. why i did not react to them posts they tagged me in, the same day. WHY I DO NOT TREAT THEM THE WAY I'M TREATING OTHER MOOTS

i tried to deal w this situation as maturedly as i could

like. i told them very gently and respectfully how i hv not been trying to ignore them. how my life is an awfully busy one, and i do not even log into tumblr everyday. and even if i do, more often than not, it's js for my ten min breaks in between my study sessions. AND I DO NOT TREAT THEM ANY DIFFERENTLY THAN MY OTHER MOOTS, THAT IS FOR SURE

they did not react too positively to my polite messages, always trying to pull the victim card OVER AND OVER AGAIN. how much they love me. why i cannot see their love for me. why i don't consider her as my most important bestie the same way so they see me.

[they hv always been so jealous of my other moots, now that i look at our initial messages... like. they were always so jealous, like. wtf]

i tried to pacify them as much as i could. tried to make them see that i cherish them as much as my other friends here. but wtv i was telling was falling on deaf ears. so for the sake of my well-being, i decided to keep some space between us, a wish i politely let them know

SMTHNG THEY DECIDED TO BLATANTLY IGNORE. DISPRESPECT.

despite me requesting for some space, they kept sending me dms. as if nothing ever happened between us!! as if they did nothing wrong to me!! i decided to reply as dryly as possible to them 'cause istg i hv not one ounce of interest to talk to them anymore, let alone chat

and well. this continued for a few days when all of a sudden. few days back, they again started how i hv been "ignoring" them. how i hv been acting distant to them and stuff. how much they love me [they said it AGAIN] and they want me to care back for them js as much

OKAY PPL. WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO NOW. LIKE, I'M PISSED BEYOND LIMITS AND I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I MUST BE DOING HERE

[not-so-rosyyy]

https://twitter.com/beifongsss/status/1674438315536203779?s=46

"your boy tom" is gonna throw some ass in the next episodes of TCR give me a breakkkk

(i hate mennn and even more men on the internet omfg)

what, and this is coming from the deepest part of my gut, THE ACTUAL FUCK????????

istg 90 percent of the "jokes" about challengers that i see on twitter are fucking disgusting. even the ones that are supposedly a dig at tom are actually meant to take a dig at z. then you see who the people making these types of quips are and it all starts making sense (they don't but…you get the idea). anyway, yeah--it's mostly ALPHA MALE DUDEBROS like this nasty one here (and some women who have been heavily poisoned by the patriarchy it's far too late to save them). they literally got me triggered last week, i had to log out of the bird app for a while.

it makes me go nuts because it's so insidious. you never hear these kinds of comments about tom, or any other actor who's in a public committed relationship for that matter. tom can have an explicit orgy on screen and no one will bat an eye because "he's just acting". but z will have so much as an onscreen kiss (hell, even so much as a hug) and all kinds of cheating fantasies are suddenly conjured in these sick people's minds. women have it so hard in hollywood. and that's not even touching on zendaya being a black woman.

anyway, these dudebros are being like this because of a number of things, i think. 1.) they hate zendaya because they couldn't fully sexualize her. 2.) they don't like tom because he's not exhibiting macho behavior like they think a "real man" should and 3.) they abhor the optics of zendaya and tom's relationship because it goes against every fiber of their alpha male bullshit.

the height difference, tom being vocal about his dedication to her, zendaya having "more success" in her career recently - all of it in their eyes mean the power in the relationship is with her. and their rotten funky balls are itching with the thought of a woman having power over a man, and a man not only allowing but encouraging that to happen. they hate it much more so when women everywhere admire that, because it means those women are waking up and setting expectations where their alpha male bullshit can't fly.

ugh. these men are really the bane of my existence. i need them GONE from the face of the earth.

[leonscape]

yo hi once again, i do appreciate your answers and the way we strike our conversation, which is silly i know 😅💟.

lemme reveal this fact of mine...you can call me a newbie since...i knew and played ikepri THIS year 🫣.

i think it was late march 2024, i was busy chatting in the chai app (👀), til this ikepri ad appeared and it was...THAT fifth prince (yes i know he is yves kloss) who had the spotlight 🤭, LIKE DANG...WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO PRETTY AND ATTRACTIVE TOO- like im stunned and in awe because of his beauty and he's a cutie too. a pretty haughty tsundere kitty meow meow- and then THAT ad appears a few more times when im in the middle of using that chai app roleplaying some bots 😭, then i was like 'ykw, im playing this game once just for fun' and here's where i downloaded that app (early april 2024) since i gave up ignoring it and decided to play it instead.

i was like 'dang...look at those attractive princes LIKE THEY ARE SO DANG FINE-', but before i downloaded the app, i ended up going to their wiki just to explore those 8 princes and here is where jin caught my attention...i thought he was a foreign prince but turns out he was the first prince in rhodolite like what 👁️👄👁️, he caught my eye because his name is J I N and im like 'yeah he's cool and hot asf, he's okay', it shocked me because there's a jin in here- now moving on, so i thought chevalier is the oldest...but he's actually the second prince which lead me to confusion...like huh...moving on- when i downloaded the app and before i play the prologue, i ended up going to tiktok to search about them...and it was mostly about gilbert...which i don't even get it...like what makes people so attracted about him? i don't know much about him and let's see if i liked him or not once i got to him at first. and here is where chevalier got me 🤭, THAT edit between chevalier and gilbert got me so feral eidnwkdkekdk, of course i mostly fangirl about chevalier because he's THAT attractive to me, HIS BEAUTY IS OUT OF BOUNDS EIDNEJSK. especially his smirk that got me WILDING- so i kind of kept contuing to see chevalier related tiktoks idk, HES SO DANG FINE EIDNSMSM-.

anyways, so i finally played the prologue and its interesting and going good and i was happy screaming when RIO appeared LIKE OMG HES A CUTE PATOOTIE EIDNSKSJ, but tbh im still waiting to the part ill meet those EIGHT PRINCES also it turns out sariel kidnapped me (emma) into some palace to be belle and yk the rest- i think it was the time emma became belle (i forgor 💀) , so i was still playing the route and here it comes of emma trying save the little boy from that drunk bastard man then her books fall out and omg here's the part i've been waiting for...ITS THE MAN OF MY DREAMS- LEON! OELOEKSISKSKSKEK- now this made slowly fall for him...the way he saved emma and the little boy then also picked up emma books (after chevalier threatened emma for a book), isn't he just so...dreamy? and...charming..? and i was like...'yeah he's the one, HES THE STANDARD-' and HES A LITERAL GREEN FLAG EJDJEKEKE- (HES JUST A BRO TO ME ISTG-), keep in mind that i was also simping for chevalier when he appeared in the prologue 🫣, moving on to the introduction of the princes...they are really handsome in their own ways but leon caught my attention the most...🤭, anyways- when i read each previews of all their routes (ALL 13 OF THEM), i planned to do jin first since he's the oldest but then i decided to do the routes by their released order in eng, so this got me into picking his route 😉✌🏼.

while doing leon's route, it made my liking to him increase more and more and it made me spend it with gems just for me to continue reading his route...but now...IM STILL STUCK IN HIS ROUTE LIKE IT TAKE ME DAYS TO FINISH IT EXCEPT FOR HIS EPILOGUE AND IM STILL STUCK ON HIS EPILOGUE AND I NEED MORE GEMS TO BUY 10 MORE DRAMATIC POINTS GOSH 😭, so ill keep log in to the app everyday to receive more gems little by little...i almost lost my patience there 😔, like ill be playing chevalier's route after his...also im too lazy to grind (i know you mention to get grinding in your early blogs 👀).

i think last 1-2 months, i decided to activate my tumblr app and this is where i met you...(i was silently stalking your acc and i may have liked a few of your posts 😏), tbh i was busy scrolling through ikepri related blogs and i also met your friend...who is named potatoes or...romarin? hehehe i knew her too. you and her are the first two i know who are leon stans and here comes the other rest-, but again im not gonna reveal my @ just yet...you know 😏.

okay now this is it, this take me a few hours to type this omg...and im really sorry you have to read all that 😔, so please take your time answering this but if not, then it's fine by me i understand 😊🙏🏼.

love you pookie and take care of yourself once again 😘🫶🏼 (platonically).

oh i see so you had some exposure before you actually started playing the game? i downloaded it and started playing right away so i jumped in blind and ever since the prologue- actually even during the prologue i only had my eyes on leon.

me finding out other people actually spend diamonds on their playthroughs: 🧍🏻‍♀️⁉️

am i the only one that doesn’t buy the premium stories? i am working my way towards buying them all but i just buy the normal story and keep the avatars so i can just breeze through the avatar checks when i need to do collection events.

the reason why i was reminding everyone to grind out those diamonds is because elections are coming up. last year i ranked 3rd and i mean i was happy i ranked but i wish i did better. so this year i want to get 1st. i’m f2p so it’s probably impossible but i have to try.

also look up the right answer dialogue choices so that you can max out, get all the letters, and read the epilogue. also fyi the romantic ends are the canon endings, if that matters to you. other people have pointed out that events reference the romantic endings and stuff like that. but play whatever ending you like. i usually play everyone’s route twice to give everyone a fair chance so i don’t have a preference or recommendation on which ending you should play first for who.

and yes romarin is the meme queen. she also seems to have all the leon cg’s and stuff so yeah.

[strongheartneteyam]

💌 A messy open letter/life update to my moots, readers and followers (?)

MY LOVES MY ANGELS HI!!!

IM SO SORRY FOR NEGLECTING Y'ALL FOR SO LONG my kitten is just now healed enough (not fully healed yet. she still has sutures) for me to be able to let her walk around the room and play by herself without being too dangerous for her health and I FINALLY was able to sleep more these last 4 days (I didn't talk to ANY of my friends for 3 days bc all I could do was sleep - even during the day, like, a lot - watch movies n read a bit (books, not fanfiction)/study neuroscience and anatomy a bit) so, now, I'm only like 70% recovered from so much sleep deprivation (being an amateur nurse for a spayed kitten and also doing house chores, mostly by yourself, ain't easy) and I've been logging in here for like only 30 minutes up to a maximum of like 1 hour or so, and not even everyday, just editing some stuff on my posted fanfiction/checking my notifications, messages, asks and OMG you guys are AMAZING!!! So much love that I'm receiving, from moots, readers, followers or even people who I don't think follow me but they support my works somehow, even after me being gone for this long while... IM SO THANKFUL AND MOVED!!! I love this fandom SO MUCH! I have no words!! I've been in many fandoms in my life and the Avatar one is by far the most supportive, peaceful - to a certain extent - and full of good energy and love! I PROMISE I will get to answer y'all soon enough!

And about the talk that's been going on about the fandom dying, DONT U WORRY MY BABIES, MOMMA VICTÓRIA AINT GOING NOWHERE! Speaking for me, at least, this tall blue aliens obsession is NOT something temporary! I'll be writing my lil stories for y'all forever, if I'm able to (lol) 🤍 I've loved Avatar since the first time I watched the 2009 movie, back when it was released and I was a child, and now that I'm a grown woman in her 20s, I still feel such a big connection to this fictional universe, in a literal spiritual level. I was a pagan/had a witchy/nature based spirituality for years of my life, tho I'm not pagan anymore, since I slowly realized I never truly believed in the pagan gods and magick, but, instead, I just see God in nature and see it as sacred and something that should be respected and taken care of, instead of destroyed. I also have indigenous heritage from my great grandmother, love my indigenous culture, live in a small town, next to the countryside, always felt crazily connected to nature and the Universe and been deeply fascinated by space, aliens, sci-fi, fantasy, always been called a "hippie" by people, either to tease me playfully or to try to make me feel bad for being a bit too much like Kiri Sully (istg me and Kiri are one and the same) so, this fandom serves me JUST RIGHT 😅🫀✨🌱👽💕 I'm here to stay and I WILL help keep this wonderful fandom alive!!! 💖

Anyways... I feel like I already "talked" way too much lol I'm wordy, sorry 🥲 but that's one of the reasons I can write well, so... it's got its bad and its good side ahaha

Speaking of writing, I have like 6 to 7 chapters of Realize where you belong saved (only need to edit and fill in some gaps) bc, even in the middle of so much physical and mental working, I'VE BEEN SO BLESSED with inspiration and been able to write A LOT lately, in the wee free time I've been having, so... if you're reading this fanfiction, I might be updating it later today or tomorrow!

Hope you're all doing good and taking care of yourselves! I've been trying to! I LOVE Y'ALL TO THE MOON AND BACK 💘

With love, your messy and a bit crazy but honest and caring fanfiction writer,

Victória ♡

[cosmicpoutine]

i've officially read all of lonely prince club and istg when i find the motivation i will be making fanart. i love all the characters so much it's just,,, perfect tbh

also i logged back into my main acc and found out i have like forty wishes that i never used??? so i'm waiting for a banner i want to wish on ig. that was a pleasant surprise. meanwhile i'm fighting for my life to reach ar18 for my newest acc and i accidentally got transported into a fish adeptus dimension or smth while climbing so that's fun??

anyways, daily check in: how are you doing today? :)

-stephcass "anon"

thank you so much for reading! im glad you liked it! don't push yourself, tho!

oh thats so lucky, im pretty sure my main account has 0 wishes lmao. a fish adeptus??? o didn't know there was a fish adeptus

[bizlybebo]

<SPOILERS FOR APOTHEOSIS EPISODE 2>

THEY START IN A TAVERN LMAOOO

Rumi is on the stage oh it's greattt!!!!

Rumi- "You! Do you know how to play the viola?" POINTS A FUCKING PETER

DONT PEER PRESSURE THIS WET RAG OF A MAN INTO PLAYING AN INSTRUMENT ON STAGE

RUMI STOP BULLYING HIM XD

"I'm sorry I don't know why he did this" Stop apologising.

Nevermind maybe do apologise that was awful

Don't sing hot cross buns over his narration

Rumi STOP dragging this poor boy around!

Oh yeah I get what you mean, he is sobbing over a surface level compliment

"I'm sorry noone has ever asked me that" YOUR NAME????"

I have visions of you" that does not have the implications you think it does (retrospect, that was probably intentional)

I can't imagine the players are anything except entirely baffled by Peter

I love Peter he's such A dork

I love Rumi he's so cool

"I was more like a meat puppet in sort of a play of destruction" boyyyy

Rumi is bestieeee he's great

"We just joined hands" SIR

"I have litterally never done anything"

"This is the best day ever" You sopping wet tissue paper boy

I THINK RUMI IS GETTING LIKE FOLLOWERS TO GET POWER TO HELP PEOPLE THATS SO COOL!!!!!

PETER YOU ELDRICH DIVINE HORROR

ANGELIC LIZARD OMG <<<3333

"I run into a tree" Charlie stop physically abusing your characters they deserve better

"Goddamit you're a murderer"

"Stand behind me"

"No stand behind me"

"No stand behind me"

"No I'll protect you"

"I would like to sense anything holy"Just both of Them

Peter Sqloint, the most holy man

Oh shit PvP

TASHAS HIDEOUS LAUGHTER TO MAKE HIM LAUGH LMAO

"You can't just magically make me laugh" He litterally can though

Peter for being Peer Pressured

"Rumi this guy kinda sucks :<"

"I steal his viola and play hot cross buns"

I am suffering /pos

Hes so genuine

All of the other JRWI characters take note, THIS IS how you do a speech

Peter: 🧍

As the nothing moves across the nothing XD

LIZARD 💜💜💜💜

Peter be like: not me, actually my super cool all powerful OC

"You look super aggressive sometimes please don't kill me, I'll die, I'll just die

Summons sword epically and musically

SUNNYYYY AAAAAAAAJSHSHSHD 💜

Exandroth my beloathed

"Peter is GONE" well bring him back maybe?Archangel sounds are the worst

"Don't lecture me on morals"

"THERES A WOLF ON MY LEGGGG >M<"

"YES PETER YOUR BLOOD IS NOW SPIDERS""

Your [blah blah blah] will be your end/downfall/undoing"

Okay so it's not just me right? Rumi is incredibly Gay

Woughhhhh

Lizard Log

(These are gonna take a while because Tumblr eats the formatting from my notes app, also if there are random words that cut off a sentence and don't make sense, autocorrect is a bitch)

RAGHHHHH RUMII AND PETERRRR I LOVE TJEMMMM THEY WERE SO <3333 FROM THEE STARTTT

i can’t wait to watch peters development because you can already see how he’s getting stronger + more confident in himself even by episode 6 aughuguguh. going from crying when rumi asks him his name to bashfully accepting compliments who cheered (me)

rumi is SO gay. i aspire to be like him he’s so fucking gender. but also a suave motherfucker i hate them so much. i want to shake them like a maraca and hear them go shkshkshkshk

RRRGGHH JUST THE. THE EBERYTHING AND THE WAY THANATOS GOT IJTRODUCED TO THE PARTY I LOVE TJEM SOO MUCHH AUGGH

rumis so fucking graceful even in combat it makes me angry. who let this asshole be so perfect

if peter doesn’t get his lizard log by the end of apotheosis then it’s all for nothing istg

[streaminn]

what happened lmao i literally left my phone for a few hours and the moment i log on am bombarded with posts from the toe socks saga 💀💀?? and we have a president now??? (side note: NO WAY ITS ONLY BEEN A COUPLE MONTHS?? ISTG ITS BEEN LIKE HALF A YEAR)

-🦕

AYY DINO ANON, IT'S BEEN A WHILE

We have wonderful content from writer anon so do check that out :) then more build up on the bodyguard Enid au

We are ignoring the toe socks infestation, that doesn't exist.

Also no president, simp anon just proclaimed themself as one but this is a

Dictatorship..?? Bc yall technically answer to me

Also yeah, been a month or two I believe. I don't really keep track but it really hasn't been that long 😭

Half a year is 2023

[thejournaluser]

HELLO stranger! welcome to my posts- or blogs- or whatever! i still dont know how to use tumblr or how it works!!! this is basically my randomness stuff, take it as you will. i might do blogs just to post poems and stuff, but ye. Enjoy your time here in my acc!

account announcements log:

(jan 26) made lots of poems before making this account. might post them all but it takes a while ughghghg

(jan 27) im starting to write my thoughts here as well. oh well, might as well make fun here in this account LOL

(feb 4) might wanna post stuff about my ocs. dunno why but i thought i wanted to be famous but eh seems illogical

(feb 11) i might write random shitposts because im THAT out of ideas and full of boredom. mega spoilers tho-

(feb 15) hiya peeps. not feeling the ups right now, just the downs. it'll go away eventually but right now i'd rather feel the emotions than bottle them up. i'll be back soon.

(feb 19) hi y'all. im back from the downs and im currently in a valley in between (istg if any beasts would appear i would-) anyway time to do my usual

(feb 20) woah, did not expect my writing prompts to be getting attention lol. might do those just to get some hearts and all. enjoy the stuff btw!

(feb 22) did NOT expect for my post to get this much attention lol. this account was supposed to be a dump for my creativity BUT im glad people are enjoying it. Thank y'all for staying!

(mar 3) might not be up for it but uhh i wanna do story prompts with a side of shitposting. i already did a sample a few hours back here

(mar 5) i dunno anymore. should i turn this posts of mine into a public confession? i mean, no one might read it lol.

(mar 6) lore???

(mar 19) i decided to write something today. a small project, really but due to some trouble i did in school, it inspired me to write it. enjoy.

(apr 6) hello. i'm still alive. anyone alive, still? i stopped the project for now. i'm so burned out.

(apr 12) tasked my friends and fam to give me one word only. and from that one word, i'll have to make a story prompt out of it. enjoy my silly ideas

(apr 13) aight guys. i might make one sentence writing prompts soon.

(apr 17) introducing The Rooftop, a once-planned short story turned into a long series. hope u guys enjoy

(apr 24) hi guys sorry for not posting anything in a while. school's anniversary week and it's absolutely draining now that instead of going home at noon, i now go to school in the evening. i basically live inside the school now

(apr 27) IM BACK! but i'll still be gone in a few days. still have a lot of things to do and too tired to make story prompts.

(may 12) i have to make to make an announcement in may cuz i don't wanna miss a month just in case. also, to make sure i actually did say something interesting: here's my most popular post

(may 22) ok uh im kinda having a slight anxiety attack rn due to drinking three cups of coffee in one sitting

(may 22, pt2) ??? aight, sorry for the past announcement. it was me freaking out. anyway, im fine now and just listening to music to calm myself down. ngl it's getting hot now with three layers of blanket i just put myself in.

(may 26) on may 24 i think... i called, and they hung up.

(may 27) sorry for making the last announcements too personal. anyway, i noticed that i've been reading a lot lately and been getting into different fandoms thanks to this website. might make a blog dedicated to making reviews. dunno

(june2) wassup. birthday and graduate here. and also a fellow pride month celebrator.

(aug 15) woah, been gone for quite a while. anyway, hi.

[studentbyday]

daily encouragement: "prioritize even the tiniest moments of joy. happiness is not one fleeting moment. it's an accumulation of small moments of joy, meaning, and purpose, which means all those small moments count."

somehow it's so hard to focus these days??* perhaps it's the sleep schedule. i'm making myself log my sleep time in my bujo, right? but it's still really hard to keep it consistent 😅 emotionally/mentally, i am better than yesterday. physically, ~, and school-wise, i am definitely, definitely behind.

learning:

20+ mol bio slides ✅ (i only did ~half 😬)

watch mol bio lecture ✅ (most of it... there's some parts i don't get so i need to read about it first)

watch njnja nerd video on amino acid metabolism ✅

biochem section 3, start section 4 ✅

psyc ch 2 of 4

self-care:

physio exercises x2 ✅

meditate ✅ (today is a normal day where i wasn't super sleep deprived, unlike the first day. it seems i generally i have a hard time staying in the moment and letting this go bc as i notice things that are uncomfortable like, e.g. my sitting/lying down position, i just have to fix them or it'll keep bugging me bc now i can't unnotice it, can i?? 😅)

bike ✅ (istg it is such a mood booster. it feels so strange to say bc i usually don't feel this good while doing any kind of exercise but i'm glad it's finally happening cuz i need to exercise daily anyway and it would really suck if i couldn't enjoy it 😅)

journal ✅

🎶 wherever i go - jacob collier (ft. lawrence, michael mcdonald)

*case in point. as if i have the time. but it's getting to be leg and hand warmer season, so i really wanna crochet a pair of each for myself. today i just made the chain and started the first row when i should've been studying (this is in addition to all the scrolling).

[brick-a-doodle-do]

Give me more context on Celina :3

I wanna know a general idea about them and what they look like too!

OKAY OKAY OKAY THIS IS AWESOME I LOVE MY MESSED UP GIRL :D

so this whole thing started a few years ago when me and my friend were on brookhaven (roblox) doing smth and it turned into this giant like 2-3 hour long game of hide-and-seek where i was the seeker and she was the hider.

this was my avatar (logged in for the first time in a while and it was still like that!! >:D) and our official name for her was "crazy lunatic nurse" which turned into celina cause crazy lunatic nurse = cln = CeLiNa yes i thought it was cool

anyways hhhhhhh that game was crazy

i actually yesterday got a little lego guy that looked almost identical to my friend's avatar for that game ejdsjfs cln takes up a lot of my mind

also at some point during that game ghost comes up? it was mid-game and there was a random person named ghost dancing somewhere. this entire story is wild but so beloved :D

i'm not sure if the cyclops eye is canon or if the height is canon but STILL

i don't really have a backstory backstory,,,, in the hospital in that game there's a weird ass room (also conveniently where i found ghost) and i clearly remember trying to stab my friend with the syringe also up there,,,, and i remember making like very brief lore where celina & the weird substance are connected yk like she ingests some of it and becomes cln

idk but that is sdhffjs the oc ever istg

[onlyswan]

Hey, Art! It's been so long since I logged in. Life has been so busy so I got not time. I missed this place so much! and I missed you! This is so long so excuse the comeback of my yapping gig!

First of all, I love love love the symbolism of bed and sleeping as the levels of vulnerability in the relationship.

THE FALLING - I really love and admire how much you made me antsy and nervous about their conversation and how the night will lead them during their first sleepover. With their dialogues, and Jungkook's internal monologue of wanting to grab the opportunity of spending a little more time with oc but also not wanting come off as a creep or someone who takes advantage of them, then there's oc making light of things Jungkook usually overthinks about. A great introduction of how their dynamic will be - also oc taking importance of their shared moment crying about an anime movie that they felt comfortable having him around, I see that as how oc values vulnerability itself and the people that shows them theirs - if this the first fic you will read about them. Another thing, I cannot recall all of them at this moment but Jungkook really loves oc's eyes and how expressive they are, I adore how you used our collective admiration of Jungkook's eyes to him understanding a new perspective of love, it is a classic way of describing an epiphany. I love you so much for that, Artie! I'm a sucker for yearning and I can say that maybe this could be one of my favorite parts of this installment. The awkwardness, the dead air that I could feel, and the funny butterflies on Jungkook's tummy is something I could feel too! He is noticing the little things and he knows he is ruined then and there!

ALLOW ME TO LINGER BY THE DOOR - First of all, the way that the first line completely contrasts the first part. "Hey, it's getting late. Shouldn't you be heading home by now?" (as if they don't know that Jk's gonna wanna stay), oc and their playful antics istg! The moment where Jk realized that they shared a straw and oc being so nonchalant about it, while he is internally exploding. Wait, I changed my mind! This is my most favorite part because of how you perfectly depicted the thing where Jungkook lied about not bringing his own clothes and actually planning to sleepover from the start. It's so funny and endearing at the same time because, yes! I would do the same if I were the one in his position and will definitely bask in oc's presence and charms. I, too, would accept my place to hell. Hahaha! Oh, Art, the way you play with my feelings, following that funny moment with their first intimate moment imo. The physical touch, the very close proximity, the domesticity of the act, and oc talking about a story from their past. Easily the most romantic thing ever. Especially the part where oc snorted and puts their forehead on Jk's back? My tummy feels so warm. The unexpected kiss from oc? I squealed and kick my feet in the air so hard! The little moments that you choose to narrate are one of a kind, Art. I'll forever dream about it happening to me. On the other hand, I know oc enjoys the moment too in many ways possible hehe.

THE YEARNING - Not gonna lie, this part is hard for me to read because this is something I would do drunk and I would feel so embarassed having a person like Jungkook to deal with me. But enough of me, this part of their story made me realize how much Jungkook went out of his shell to join or pick-up oc with their unexpected and silly antics. It made me think of a recurring thought while reading it - if it's not for oc, he wouldn't; if it's not with oc, he wouldn't; if it's not oc, he wouldn't do nor experience all the things. It reminded me of that drabble where Jungkook realized that his love for oc is persevering, this moment of them is a glimpse of how he would always, always choose oc. He's not even the boyfriend, yet he kneels before them to tend to them. Also, the different phases of denial in Jungkook's part and how you used being mad with it is so funny. I like it so much. (The cherry red dress though, oc's sense of style is chef's kiss hehe) Now, having these thoughts made me think of how many more sides of love they have that we haven't seen yet.

HAPPINESS OUTSIDE DAYDREAMS - Ugh! I'm a sucker for this, Art! The first line is so cute and teasing and it introduced us to the next level in their relationship. He's officially the boyfriend! Everybody cheers! I've read so much installment that featured a scene where Jk called oc baby in so many ways yet having the context and experience of the previous parts made this "come here, baby." so fucking sweet! Like, that feeling where you new boyfriend didn't addressed you by your name, that moment where your new friend introduced you as their bestfriend, or that feeling when you got called as a student majoring in a course you've been dreaming about? That proud and exciting feeling of anticipation and contentment. Made me bury my face on my pillow! How you described the happiness Jungkook's feeling is on point, it made me smile like fool, Art. Like, I've been rooting for them, for him since the first part then yes! finally! Here we are!

THE SPRING FLOWER IN THE EYE OF THE STORM - Art, when I tell that this slightly smutty part made me cry more than feeling hot and bothered would you hate me? 😔For some reason, I've been anticipating a smutty part of them ever since you gave us a glimpse but to be honest, I just really ache to see how you perceive their first time will be and…. I am speechless, it is full of mixed emotions, it is exciting, and it is painful in a way that it's because it felt like oc has finally came home. Like, all the path they took in the past, no matter if they go back and change it, they will eventually, and inevitably lead to Jungkook. It is silly and lighthearted yet the undertones of it all makes it all the more romantic. I don't know but I specifically listened to intro (end of the world) by ariana grande during this part. It is so fitting, from the lyrics, the calm, sweet, and lovely sound, to and ariana's mellow singing.

if only you could see yourself through his eyes, even for just a moment, then maybe you’d understand why he’s dancing with fire and folding with his tower of cards. This part perfectly encaptured the thing about oc, it sucks because in any universe, they won't ever know half of the love Jungkook carries for them and them only. The beauty of love and commitment, trusting and giving them your heart, hoping and praying they won't take it for granted and loving them back beyond the reasons and without the reasons.

the burning tears that drip down to your temples are lost evidence you will bring to the grave. You broke me in this part, Art.

SPEAKING TRUTHFULLY YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME - "You are my rest." To be called someone's rest is to be told that loving you is a nature to them. Something that doesn't require concious effort, something that doesn't need much thinking, something that doesn't require energy from them but a source for them. This such a beautiful phrase you add there. Ahh! I am being too sappy, making deep of the little and silly things but that's just how it is with my favorite couple! Again, the topic of proximity and perspectives as a reoccuring theme and you never fail to give us new idea to ponder to. I adore how Jungkook answered oc's question about his 'options'. I agree, you don't choose other because it is simply not the person you love. It is so cute how they addressed Jungkook's obvious infatuation from the beginning hehe, such a cute moment.

CHOICE TO STAY - I really love it when they call each other 'lover' like you recognize that person as someone who loves you, and you own it, and you know you deserve it that's why you do. Like it's such a validating and romantic thing. Writing my thoughts about this part makes me want to cry because I got reminded of how Jungkook want him and oc to die together. Their conversation here made me realize how much of a fearless lover oc is when it comes to him. They've shown it many times before but it never fails to amaze me how you wrote it differently every single time, and the degrees make me want to set the whole world on fire including hell. I love how they are so open and communicating to each other even if some conversations are painful to have.

The archive part is a compensation for my shaken heart. I lost count of how many deep breathes I took writing this. This is the first that I read from a long time and I was attacked by a big wave of love and wonder. As I always say, I thank the universe for making me alive in the same time as you. I love reading book but no book can make me feel the way your works do. I love you! Thank you for sharing this to us! Mwah!

♡₊˚ 🦢・₊✧

my beloved swan anonie 🥺🥺🥺 oh how i’ve missed you!!!!!! i received this ask as i was about to sleep last night but i couldn’t help but to read it even with eyes blurry from sleepy tears. safe to say i went to sleep with a smile on my face :") also the words yapping gig is making me giggle until now LOL you’re so cute i love you. thank you so much for finding my works and this one in particular worthy of your time to yap about :P i wish i can squish in the biggest hug ever

I cannot recall all of them at this moment but Jungkook really loves oc's eyes and how expressive they are, I adore how you used our collective admiration of Jungkook's eyes to him understanding a new perspective of love, it is a classic way of describing an epiphany.

me blushing giggling and kicking my feet rn. i was kinda emotional when i came up with that honestly </3

The awkwardness, the dead air that I could feel, and the funny butterflies on Jungkook's tummy is something I could feel too! He is noticing the little things and he knows he is ruined then and there!

eeekkk i’m so happy 🥹 you have no idea how much i enjoy writing these pre-official relationship moments like oh my god these lovesick fools.

First of all, the way that the first line completely contrasts the first part. "Hey, it's getting late. Shouldn't you be heading home by now?" (as if they don't know that Jk's gonna wanna stay), oc and their playful antics istg!

that’s a real reader right there lmfao i adore you 😭😭😭

Wait, I changed my mind! This is my most favorite part because of how you perfectly depicted the thing where Jungkook lied about not bringing his own clothes and actually planning to sleepover from the start. It's so funny and endearing at the same time because, yes! I would do the same if I were the one in his position and will definitely bask in oc's presence and charms.

I AM SO GLAD U POINTED THIS OUT BC I WAS LAUGHING WHILE WRITING IT 😭😭😭 my man came prepared with his own boy clothes

The unexpected kiss from oc? I squealed and kick my feet in the air so hard!

same but i have two sides. the other being: i was kinda jealous of him tbh 😒

It made me think of a recurring thought while reading it - if it's not for oc, he wouldn't; if it's not with oc, he wouldn't; if it's not oc, he wouldn't do nor experience all the things.

what are you gonna do now that you’ve made me cry??? is this revenge???? 😭💔 oh my god i’m never forgetting this ever

Art, when I tell that this slightly smutty part made me cry more than feeling hot and bothered would you hate me? 😔

and when i tell you that was actually my plan all along would you hate me? 🥺🥺🥺 more than the act itself, it was such a meaningful night in oc’s part in terms of love and how they view it and i really reallyyy wanted to show that :(

This part perfectly encaptured the thing about oc, it sucks because in any universe, they won't ever know half of the love Jungkook carries for them and them only.

*insert every crying meme on the internet* no because they know!!! but do they actually know???????!!

"You are my rest." To be called someone's rest is to be told that loving you is a nature to them. Something that doesn't require concious effort, something that doesn't need much thinking, something that doesn't require energy from them but a source for them.

my beloved :( you said it so perfectly there are tears in my eyes.

Again, the topic of proximity and perspectives as a reoccuring theme and you never fail to give us new idea to ponder to.

really played around with this one hehehe it was so much fun and gave me a lot to think about too!!

Their conversation here made me realize how much of a fearless lover oc is when it comes to him. They've shown it many times before but it never fails to amaze me how you wrote it differently every single time, and the degrees make me want to set the whole world on fire including hell.

🫣 and you still haven’t seen all of it. writing it always makes me think that damn, it is such a privilege to be loved by them :(

[hystericfae]

I hope you don’t mind if I stay on anon a while longer, I haven’t spoken to anybody new in a long time 😭 (and I’m nervous lol) I think some people are fated to find each other and have their lives intertwined. With the right people you can’t say the wrong things, as corny as that sounds. (Me when 🙄) My dumbass learnt how to play mobile league for somebody just to find out we weren’t even friends (the universe is playing with me istg)

Omg no way they don’t clash, I think your tattoo looks beautiful 🩵 are all your tattoos dedicated to something like your favorite things?

EA can suck my as- He has every right to step away from the project, I agree . Dw btw I had a fake instagram I logged into. I got that thang on me B)

-🧩

OF COURSE I DON'T MIND IF YOU'RE MORE COMFORTABLE ON ANON. I also for some reason like to believe that certain people were meant to meet and be apart of each others lives, either to become a lesson or change it/fufill it..? And omg...? You learned to play a whole game only to not be friends..? :( what were their "guidelines" of friendship?? Because I'll honestly call anyone a friend 💔 it feels silly to not...? Unless they've done me dirty I guess..

THANK YOU ♡ I only have 2 and both are based on something I really enjoy or like. As long as the media it's coming from means a lot to me personally, I can justify a tattoo on it—

So you DO Have insta you sneaky liar 😈😈

[dokiyeom]

DWWW u will see that from now on I'll just pop on ur inbox with random pics or just . rants LMAOOO hihiih do u have maybe dc or twt?? i feel like that would be easier to interact on yk? + i have a little something i wanna show u 🤭 PLS SHARE THEM WITH ME YES!! im such a sucker of ranting about fics & fic ideas with friends istg..

ill try it when I can but i live in a small village so they don't have that here 😞 ill go to the city for uni though so ik ill explore more diff foods since im a big fan of that yk!

mmmm ok ok now ik when to send u an ask 😝 && that's so interesting?? do u still have family there or will u go alone if u move there! tbh france is only cool from a touristic pov 😭 like i could write an essay about how much i hate certain things here it's Awful BUT i do like the museums and more artistic side so yayay OHHH??? HELLO that's so cool i love how u remember only that 🙏🙏 i love tulips they are my fav flowers too 😞💔

TWT THEORIES SAID SO TOO !! that would be a very unique announcement actually ohh :O for my friends 18th bday party another friend lent me a black dress w a v line collar? it was very light and just overall v cute but simple so i might just go for something with the same vibe ngl bit im picky too and i haven't really been able to find clothes i like for a few years rn so it's a bit of a problem 👎

OMG WHAT ALBUMS?????? i want to have the carat bong so bad but ill buy it (for now) if they come here in concert yk & if i can still use v2 for concerts! i hope u soon can get ur carat bong 🙏 omg show me PLS PLS PLS i have one too and i love seeing other people's collections 😞

i have . a lot 😭 rn i have 18 albums with 2 more for my bday...... PREAPRE URSELF. i have aespa girls, astro switch on, atz treasure ep fin all to action, bts love urself answer & proof, enhypen dimension dilemma & manifesto day 1, lsrfm antifragile (I PULLED SAKURA YAYYY), nct dream glitch mode, svt director's cut (THE LUCK I HAD FOR THIS ONE got it WITH PCS for 20€) semicolon & face the sun, skz no easy & christmas evel, tbz maverick, txt minisode blue hour & tcc fight or escape and woodz only lovers left!! for my bday i alr bought enhypen border day carnival + bss second wind hehe 🫶🫶

THAT NEW THEME WOULD BE SO COOL!!! omg tell me when u did it i wanna see it first hihi 💥💥💥

omg i have both !! but tbh i don’t think i’ve logged into discord in months,, but i’ll send u my twt :D AND RIGHT !! i feel like just talking abt ur fic ideas helps a lot w the writing process

oo id rec just making it at home if it’s possible !! i feel like sukiyaki would b a bit pricey at restaurants,, but the ingredients may b a bit inaccessible :0 && agh dw abt timing for asks !! i have an extremely turbulent sleep sched so pls just send them whenever it’s convenient for u :D

&& yesyes i have family there !! but tbh id probably want to move there alone if i could,, && that makes a lot of sense !! is it like the short stay that makes france fun for tourists ? or like general novelty of things wear off over time :0 ALSO HELLO SVT DIRECTORS CUT ?? that’s so cool hello ??? whod u pull :000

and dori,, i’ve unfortunately been collecting¿ buying albums for a while now,,, like i quite literally cannot list them all fjdjshs but i have svt, lsfm, twice, stayc, aespa, nct, txt, enha, ive, nmixx, izone, red velvet, and itzy albums :D i got really lucky w where i live bc there’s an album store nearby,, so sometimes my friends n i go together :D AND YES DEF U WILL B THE FIRST TO SEE THE NEW DOKIYEOM CARRD !!!