#it looks bad agghhhh

[sunny1927]

@zenmom

I kind of wondered what if they met each other? Well this is kind of a good sum up.

[skrunksthatwunk]

PEAK GAMING

[stopthatnel]

tears of honey

a quick lil ting about my babyboy connie ᴥ this man lives in my head rent free and agghhhh i want him so bad please (not proofread don’t come for me pls)

edit: i’ve been having so much trouble trying to fully upload my fics bcus somehow someway my paragraphs keep getting deleted ಠ_ಠ anyways take two lmk if things seem off lol

cw: dacryphilia, overstimulation, oral (f receiving), choking, degradation, pet names, mating press, & straight up nastiness. wc: 1.01k

where’s the rest of your work?

18+ content below the cut, MDNI!

you were barely moaning at this point, simply a whimpering, whiny mess. connie laid on his stomach, head between your legs, and his tongue dipping in and out of you. he’d been down there for what felt like hours, and you’ve been fucking for what felt like days. you’re not so sure what happened to connie, coming home and slamming the door shut. you weren’t complaining when he grabbed your ankles and dragged you to the side of the bed, dropping to his knees and pressing his face against your cloth clad cunt.

“c-connie!” you’d yelp, instinctively reaching to push his head away from you. “what’s going on?” it was barely a question, more of an exclamation. he paid you no mind, kissing on your mound and thighs breathing in deeply. your face grew red in embarrassment, propping yourself onto your elbows to watch the man bury himself between your thighs. adjusting, you reach a hand out to run your fingers through his hair. a lopsided smile found it’s way onto your face.

“you missed me baby?” you ask, earning a grunt from your lover. his teeth nipped at the edges of your underwear, he loved the way you wore nothing but that and his shirt. you smelled like him, a beautiful mixture of your vanilla and his musk seeping off your skin. “let me eat you out, sweetheart.” that too, wasn’t a question.

fast forward to now, your thighs twitched around his head every time he flicked his tongue over your sensitive bundle of nerves. the sounds coming from between your legs were obscene, the slurping, the sucking, the spitting. you could barely form the words to ask for a quick second, but even after three orgasms you weren’t so sure you were ready to say so. the few times he came up from between your legs was to shove his cock into you, teasing you with soft and slow strokes, gently cradling your jaw in his palm and gazing into your eyes.

after the second orgasm, you found it hard to keep your eyes open. your head would roll back into the pillows, eyes scrunched tightly. connie didn’t like this, no, no. he asked you nicely the first time, “look at me baby, let me see what this dick do to you.” and you tried, but not enough. the second time he wasn’t asking, ramming his cock into you and wrapping his slender fingers around your neck to pull your face up from the sunken pillows.

“you’re fucked dumb already?” he sneered at you with a grin. “c-con, ‘s too much!” you’d whine, furrowing your brows. his pace was relentless, he was digging into you, harsh upwards strokes that he knew he had at the right angle.

“fuck, fuck, fuck!” you whine, feeling him pull out. the sensation of the cold was short lived, and his lips were wrapped around your bud again.

“c- connie!”

your hips involuntarily bucked into his mouth as he hollowed his cheeks around your clit, rolling your eyes into the back of your head. it didn’t matter how much you twitched, connie simply followed your pussy wherever it went until you ended up with your head hanging off the edge of the mattress.

“whatchu’ running from baby?” he’d mumble against your lips, hearing not a single cohesive response. “just a dumb fucking slut, who just loves to act like the smartest person in the room.” he knows he’s talking to himself at this point, but the way you clenched around his fingers let him know you were listening. he curls his fingers up into you, another cry escaping your lips.

you could feel the tears brimming at your eyes, overwhelmed with sensations of pleasure. there was not a single thought inside your pretty little brain. sweat was beading up on your forehead, skin flushed and hot to touch. you had to remind yourself to breathe constantly, choking on your own staggered breath and saliva. you thought you were spent, but the knot in your stomach told you otherwise.

“you can give daddy one more, right baby?” your brain could barely wrap around uttering words, finding strength to lift your head up to catch a glimpse of connie looking up at your tear streaked face. that look was enough for connie to understand, lowering his face to suckle on your lips one last time before thrusting himself back into you. he’s hooking his arms underneath your knees and pushing them back, your petite body giving him more than enough room to lock his fingers behind your neck, holding you up.

his thrusts were slow this time around, digging into the deepest parts of you, cock kissing your cervix with each snap of his hips. your tears wouldn’t stop flowing down your cheeks, was it crazy for connie to find it hot? to have you fucked dumb on his dick, crying because it feels so good?

a grin splits his lips as he feels your hips twitch and roll underneath his hold, unable to tear his eyes off the tears gliding down your blissed out face. “this pussy is mine, right?” he asks, already knowing the answer.

“i- oh! it’s yours daddy, it’s all yours!”

“yeah baby, i know, i know.” he soothes, peppering kisses onto the side of your mouth. “you take this dick so fucking good, say you fucking love it.”

“i,” you choke, forcing yourself to open your eyes. “i love it so much! i love you! shit-” your vision was blurred from tears that filled your eyes, blinking them away. you found that knot in your stomach exploding, and for a second your vision blacked out. blinking away the darkness, you fell limp into your boyfriends arms, leaving him to hold you up.

connie leaned in to kiss you softly, on your lips, your forehead, your chin. he drags his tongue against your cheeks, mumbling sweet nothings as he passes your ears. he licked a long stripe from the corner of your lips up to your eyes, tasting the salty water that streaked down them.

“y’know i never wanna see you like this babygirl…” he mutters, thrusts becoming sloppy. “but you look so pretty cryin’ around my cock like this.”

[mono-red-menace]

hi it's kinda life altering to be told straight up "your only option is surgery."

like i went to my therapist and she was like "well for my arthritis they've been giving me steroid injections and that helps so they'll probably do that to you too" and going. ok. cool. so i might go into this appointment and be told that i can just get some steroid injections and be fine. nice.

and then i go to the appointment and he's like "ok so here's what's on your MRI. your options are surgery to repair the labral tear, but your arthritis means that will probably not do much for you. you could get a total hip replacement, but you're a bit young for that. i recommend the hip preservation surgery, they try to preserve your natural hips but resurface them so they don't have the same issues anymore"

and hearing that i was like oh cool something not super invasive, still pretty bad, worse than injections, but not the worst. and then i look it up and it's like "this surgery is not recommended for patients with moderate or severe osteoarthritis" (my mri shows moderate but i have a lot of the symptoms of severe) 😑

so now i'm just like trying to come to terms extremely quickly with the fact that im probably going to need a prosthesis installed in me. maybe even two. and they're going to have to make me almost entirely incapable of taking care of myself for like 3 months. so like i want it all done at once but the more complex the procedure the scarier it is for me and im just.

i'm scared i'm so scared my entire life and all of my thoughts have been revolving around this and i just want to get it over with as fast as possible but i can't schedule it for like, tomorrow and get right into the recovery so i just have to sit in this fear and get more and more scared because ill be so much more reliant on everyone else than i already am and im scared. im so scared.

and worse i'm scared my insurance won't cover it and i'll just be unable to work because of my hips and im scared that i won't be able to get disability but also not be able to work so ill just be stuck in constant pain and have no ability to care for myself and there'll be nothing i can do about it until im "old enough" to get the surgery or whatever and idk

idk all of this is terrifying. this is all so horrifying and scary. i just want my body to work so i can take care of myself i don't want to be reliant on people to live but im going to have to become more reliant on people for a Long time before i can become self sufficient and that's honestly super scary. and also im scared im going to fuck my wound up because i have adhd and i constantly fuck things up because i forget how to do things and i forget to do things and im worried im gonna get fucking sepsis and AGGHHHH

i'm just going insane i can't stop thinking about it i can't get it out of my head im so scared. i'm so scared and im tired and i just want it done already.

[myfaveisfuckable]

Jadzia:

1. Okay so. First off, incredibly trans coded. Like, holy shit. Jadzia's species (Trill) can join with a symbiont (worm) and they become one being and also the host gains the memories of previous hosts. Jadzia's symbiont (Dax) was previously joined to a man, Curzon, for ages and at the start of the show she's only recently been joined (when Curzon died of old age) and we frequently meet characters who knew Dax back when it was joined to Curzon so they go "Curzon! Look at this guy, he and I go way back" and she points to her pronouns pin (that part's only canon in my heart) and says "i go by Jadzia now :)" and it's great. But ON TOP OF THAT! I love the hc that Jadzia was already trans before she was joined to Dax and personally, I further headcanon that she *used to be* hung but got bottom surgery. Thus, all apply.

(oh and yes i'm the same person who submitted Quark for his pussy popping and yes, ds9 truly is the most queer star trek. or at least the queerest classic trek)

2. Trans icon via symbiotic worm. Gets way more tail than the supposed "ladie's man" on the show. In a past life, got dicked down by Vanessa Williams so hard it literally caused a heart-attack. Fucks Klingons so hard they BOTH end up in the infirmary afterward. Also just insanely hot and a hotly insane.

* It is not currently canon but has been in the past.

Pyrrha:

1. Pyrrha "Daddy" Dve, butch loverboy who cannot help but give the ladies what they want. She's a gentle and supportive parent who provides for her family and braids her little girl's hair every morning. She's a hardbitten noir veteran who's left that life behind and just wants out, but the life won't let her go that easily. She's a hopeless romantic with a terrible sense of humor. She's the only survivor of her friends. She's been dead for ten thousand years. She's a functioning alcoholic, and she fucked your mom. The perfect woman.

2. AGGHHHH pyrrha the woman you are. i need to kiss you on the mouth i need you to fly me up to that planet i want the best for you you should get to kill god

3. Oh God oh God. I just love her so much

4. she can cook, she can shoot a gun, camilla and palamedes want her so bad, she's 10,000 years old and counting, and her meat is huge.

5. if pyrrha has no fans not only am i dead but also my soul has by some unknowable process ceased to exist and every ounce of what was once myself, is no longer within any realm

* it's real and huge* ITS ACTUALLY CANON 🎉🎉* It's essentially canon the body she's in has a penis, but ALSO her pre-lyctorhood body is ALSO trans to me. She has a massive dick no matter the form i know it in my heart and soul. * The physical dick was not always hers (there's some body swapping shenanigans going on) but she's had it for a very long time and knows how to use it. We've never known her any other way.

[subskz]

YAUR RIN OH MY GOD

I just saw thee most DEVASTATING NSFW CLIP EVER

Okay okay okay

So basically it's this guy sitting on a couch without pants on and then (who i presume to be his gf or something) comes over, fully naked, and goes "do i have to do everything myself, hmm?" and he is just so entranced by her.

Then she starts to ride him and he just rests his hands on her hips and she gently guides it up to her chest and but like he is so absolutely just ***out of it*** like just so taken by her; defo an inexperienced & experienced scene

AND THEN SHE ,, SHE- she goes "yk you can touch me" and he just goes "im just shy" and she just: "well, don't be shy :)"

JUST AGGHHHH [dies.]

~~~

Just thinking abt, in general, inexperienced!sub!skz with experienced!dom and just those lil aspects

(as The Pink Yenie Enthusiast; liking corruption aspects and inexperienced&experienced aspects just come with the title)

But like thinking abt any of the members just being so entranced by you while having sex for the first time???

the way i know exactly which video ur talking abt 😭😭😭 it is so so painfully cute the way he watches her w such awe and adoration…n her gentle teasing and confidence in comparison to him looking like a lovestruck puppy…truly devastating

literally picturing any of the members in that scenario is so good 😵‍💫 i can esp see it for jisung…he just fits that vibe of adorably entranced, looking up w parted lips and starry doe eyes like “i cant believe this is really happening” and being so unsure of himself that he doesn’t know where to put his hands even though he wants to touch so bad hehe. the innocent aspect makes me think of lix too bc he just has that natural quality to him…like he’d paw at your chest only after u give permission and even then he’s still gazing up w such a pleading look in his eyes to make sure it’s ok <3 and the amount of shyness ofc makes me think of channie and jeongin~

[o-i-w-u]

Get spewed at cause ruin theories be boiling in mind(cause im watching Hamilton rn 🧍‍♂️)

So, the song that Ruin always hums?

Pretty sure its 'You'll Be Back'(theres theee songs King George sings i think?? And i know its one of those- but im gonna go with this one-)

Anyways, one, THE NAME "You'll be Back"

MAN BROUGHT BACK TWO PEOPLE, literally said 'youll be back' and sure as hell brought them back. (Also could be in ref to Solar being brought back- possibly isnt gonna give up on hope of bring him back??)

One of the lyrics in the song- "I will kill your friends and family to remind you of my love" he said he lost someone(i think-). Did he actually have a good relationship with his creator and did the creator betray him??(this song is about taking revenge on betrayals so 🧍‍♂️)

ANOTHER LYRIC "When you're gone, I'll go mad" back to the losing someone important to him part- what if thats why hes so- well... crazy-

Oh look- more

"I will fight the fight and win the war, For your love, for your praise, And I'll love you 'til my dying days" once again, back to losing someone he cared about- did the creators kill someone he cared about and thats why hes so bent on killing the creators??

Anyways :> thats all i can drag out the song

HI SORRY THIS TOOK A WHILE TO ANSWER-- I WASNT IN THE MOOD TO READ MUCH AGHFH

anyway- yeah its you'll be back :DD

when i tell you i was jumping up and down when he starting singing "you'll be back, soon you'll see, you'll remember you belong to me!" in response to bloodmoon AGAHHH IVE BEEN ROTATING THAT IDEA IN MY HEAD FOR SO LONG. LIKE THE SONG FITS SO WELL!!! THE FORSHADOWING IS INSANE!!

and the creators did kill all his friends, driving them all to madness with the virus then wrecking their world entirely. thats gotta fuck him up pretty bad. i love the idea of having someone hes strongly attached to ripped away AGGHHHH

so sorry this is incoherent and short as FUCK but

[anachronistic-falsehood]

EPISODE 10 TRIVIA:

- THEY ALL ALSO THOUGHT THE THREE DIFFERENT COMBAT SCENES WERE REALLY COOL AND WANT TO DO IT MORE LIKE THAT !!!!!!! bizly was really excited to do something like that so bad because he wanted to make combat more interesting (AND IT WORKED)

- rehydrating tide like william and dakota were both trying to do would have woken him up and restored a little bit of his powers, but not heal him!

-TIDE BEING A CLONE HAS BEEN PLANNED SINCE THE BEGINNING <3 the principal (magma) is another one, there are others!

- charlie, about wavelength: "and youre WELCOME for interrogating him, because now we're off to a great start with our NEW FATHER"

- bizlys favorite moment of the episode was when dakota tried to call the prime force and jt went to voicemail and he cracked his phone :)

- grizzlys favorite part was setting up the team attack! and the confrontation with doug in the beginning

- condis favorite part was william ending up in the spirit world with mal. also he says "vyncent is gonna be really fucked up about this, because this was the only place in this world that was familiar to him that he could even think about kind of calling home"

- charlies favorite part was also ending up the spirit world! in his words "a scary amount of my character wanted to know everything right then and there. i think straight up if my friends were not in a burning building and this wasnt such a dire situation, i probably would have taken this guys hand. a huge part of williams character is needing to investigate things like this". AND ALSO THE MAGICAL GIRL TRANSFORMATION.

--> "william doesnt hate mal because hes evil, he hates him because hes the same thing william is" << fucked up implications of that. and also bizly: "hes not necessarily evil, its just that the concepts of life and death are trivial to him"

charlie: "and i think william is kind of thr same way to a lesser extent" << fucked up implications of THAT!!!

- "i think a huge part of where william and dakota are gonna clash is that william operates in way more shades of grey than dakota does"

- the prime defenders are being trained as a team specifically because theyre meant to replace the prime force... eventually. but theyre fucking teenagers. thats not supposed to be for a LONG time, theyre just kids, theyre supposed to be in training right now. oh the tragedy of it all

- bizly: "i know that dakota cole has such a rigid sense of morality so the idea of approaching him with 'you can save the hero, but you have to work with the villain to do it because the heroes dont care' was just such an interesting concept to me"

- "its not that dakota *cant* see in shades of grey, he just has nothing else except being a hero, so hes so desperate to look up to the prime defenders" << hey what if i cried

- MAL IS SPECIFICALLY INSPIRED BY VLAD FROM DANNY PHANTOM EXCEPT SCARIER. THIS IS A HUGE WIN FOR ME. ("william hates him and is scared of him because hes everything im afraid of turning into" hey what if i cried (again))

- CANTRIP IS INSPIRED BY ROXIE RICHTER FROM SCOTT PILGRIM <3333

I RLY DID LIKE THAT COMBAT WITH THE DIFFERENT SCENES i like when they're split up and doing different things i get a lot more invested

vyncent losing the only place he's been able to call home since he left his world. hey what if i cried. hey what if i lost my fucking mind

WILLIAM AND YOUR NEED TO KNOW THINGS. I KNEW HE WANTED TO KNOW MORE. I KNEW HE WAS TEMPTED TO DO WHAT MAL WANTED TO LEARN MORE ABOUT HIMSELF. I KNEW HE WAS AND CHARLIE PLAYED IT SO WELL AGGHHHH CHARLIE SLIMECICLE THE MAN THAT YOU ARE

and dakota struggling morally because he had to work with a villain oh my god dude. dude. dakota i love you. u have so many problems king <3

OF COURSE MAL BEING INSPIRED BY VLAD IS A WIN FOR U. ANOTHER FORK FOUND IN THE KITCHEN!!!!!!!!!!

[comrade-slugcat]

i dont have downpour (yet, im hoping i can get it :)) but i watched daszombes’ playthroughs and oughh… i cant chose which kitty is my favorite. spearmaster and artificer look really fun to play and riv looks like an absolute blast but im a sad bitch and seeing pebbles would destroy me lmao. do u have a favorite campaign/slug yet

Artificer has been so fun so far but I really want to play riv

riv appeals to me deeply

and saint agghhhh

ive seen some spoilers for it and ... God I wanna play it so bad

the lore the lore

cant stop thinking of the word rubicon

your path is set you cannot take back your choices

you can only continue what you started

[ghostlude]

This feels like a very silly question but how does. Gallagher synergies with Boothill exactly? I’ve heard of vague stuff but I don’t know how the actual mechanics work between them but tbh I’m bored and I’m mindlessly building him up for Boothill because he’s sitting around but I have no clue what I’m doing and you’re like . the only person I feel ok with asking about this stuff idk looks at you

their synergy has a lot to do with gallagher’s besotted debuff applying 12% more break dmg to an enemy, whether that be regular or super break. basically having that debuff on top of boothill’s standoff means faster weakness breaks for him. so if you want the enemies to drop faster or at least hurt significantly, you would do both of their techniques before a battle so the enemies are debuffed with besotted already at the start.

i’m really bad at explaining things and i’m so sorry AGGHHHH but that’s the only way i can word it. since you’re building gallagher for boothill, i swear you’re gonna see the difference in numbers when he’s fully built and in a team with him.

[shummashum]

Zeus Brundle Ch1 [13~17]

Oi Klaus! Do anything about it! You're the one who nominated her!!

But he said literally "I'm afraid I can't." oh shit

uh… He says kind words to her? Was he this kind of character

fuck my mouth I'msorryI'msorryI'msorryI'msorry I was rude!! I made a huge mistake!!! I knelt down like this Please be lenient just this once please?

aw fuck I'm not sorry I'll do it my own

Then Remb called Klaus for a moment, and the two soon walked somewhere.

...

What do I do now? Is there any meaning to this party now. I don't know anyone here to begin with Save the introvert

Suddenly, somebody talked to her from behind.

ooh... Season 6 comrades are gathering more and more

This man named Caesar greeted Liz cheerfully, handing her a glass of juice.

But I know another side of you. I heard your route is quite… harsh? (I received confirmation!! They gave me a "very on the dot" comment on my previous guess)

But it seems like he’s being kind right now so I don't care!

Liz thought this Alfonse guy looked familiar… Well, blonde hair + violet eye combination is quite a characteristic element in WH sekai. But could I have inferred that he is Goldstein just by observing the current conversation without any prior knowledge? I'm not sure about this honestly

Actually, I was a little scared here, when he suddenly erased his smile. But! The kind-looking guy has the most unsettling heart! I'm not doing anything wrong

and it happened to skip the family-related story… something feels off. huh

Anyway, unlike those two idiots who had a bad attitude earlier, the conversation with these two is going very smoothly. It's plain sailing!

Hi…Hinomoto… I tend to be a bit surprised when that country is mentioned without warning. Please be careful? But why Hinomoto? Is there anything special there

E-Excuse me! It would be a good idea to ask Cae, but a local person is staying at the Academy! I'm definitely definitely definitely not suggesting Cae to give him a reason to appear, but how about asking him? Yeah??

Anyway, everyone is introducing themselves. Then maybe Zeus' route tastes like the pilot episode. Like, how will the story progress from Season 6, what are the personalities and characteristics of the new regular characters, etc…

and Cae's flirting is extraordinary. Koitsu tsuyoi

After the conversation, Liz left the auditorium to and get some fresh air. And she begins to worry whether she took the trial too recklessly.

Well… she indeed accepted the trial without hesitation, but what's wrong with it. It's a bit unexpected that the person I have to suck his ass is a fucking freak, but wouldn't it work out somehow

As she was walking, she heard the quite murmur of voices in the empty classroom.

So she tried to eavesdrop, but she failed and made a noise.

why do you always do that why please there has never been a time when she got the information straight agghhhh (pain)

But then Zeus appeared and dragged her behind the shadows, his hand covered her mouth. (did I get help in the end… it somehow hurts my pride)

Klaus assumed it was simply the wind and went back into the classroom. At least she didn't get caught

Honestly, I agree too. Can't you be a little more careful if you're going to eavesdrop. why do you always fail. Of course I know it was the writer's intention not to give away information from the beginning, but it's being pissed off anyhow

Anyway, Zeus said he was helping her hide and insisted that she should be grateful to him.

Erm… It's not that I'm not grateful but well you know? If I thank him now, considering his personality, he'll say "Oh, you're really thanking me you hopeless moron," and start scratching me again

Ahem Eat this

But I didn't want to make remarks of that level!!

I think I'm pretty much fucked you have to suck his ass and you're disobeying him right now oh god aohwaoahwoa I think I'm fucked I didn't do that! That's arbitrary behavior on her part

But fortunately, perhaps because he likes that kind of disobedience, he takes a rather kind(?) attitude.

But how can I know about you. We've just met each other and this is my first time playing your route

His words are like this but you know, the fact that he's giving her this much attention means she's made a pretty memorable impression on him. I don't think the situation is that bad

And that's how Ch1 ended.

Um, it was a pretty good start as a warm-up for Season 6... It was difficult to adapt to the new atmosphere, but the story was probably made to target that reaction, so um, well.

The real story will begin in Ch2 so I'm a bit forward to it. I hope the story will be as good as the cataclysm that occurred

(And you know, I'm in trouble. 30 photos are never enough. How. Help.)

[fiymywings]

I once talked with my friend about how I wish G Crest would expand more on Hollow’s past but oh man… now I want to return to the times I didn’t know about his stories…. But I’m glad I did anyways! It really makes me appreciate him more as a character tbh. His painful past, the guilt he feels after each episodes he has, and the fear/disgust that people feels towards him because of his appearance. Despite all of that, he chose to be kind. I want to protect him and his smile 😭😭😭

oh man you're not alone about the past thing, i remember saying "when are they gonna add his past pieces to the kuroyosei exploration thing?" and Man. if/when they do i am now terrified!!! :,) but at the same time it really does amplify not only how kind he is but how strong he is as well. while effese has completely given up to his fate of bringing bad luck upon people, hollow continues to reach out to others and show kindness (not that effese doesnt, but hes fully let his hesitation stop him from reaching out first) even towards people who denounce him as some scary looking dude. all while he says he treasures others smiles he doesnt treasure his own because he feels like its too scary and it makes me so [explosion.gif] hollow please love yourself too!!!!!!!!!!!

it half warms my heart that someone whos gone through so much and Keeps going through things as a result of his behavior/appearance (both of which he literally cant control) he chooses kindness above all else while the other half is hurting because seeing him shrug off people demonizing him on first glance, even to the point of defending them because "its understandable" is so . AGGHHHH HOLLOW ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL!! hes so strong but he shouldnt Have to be, he deserves to just exist and be happy!!!!!!!!! [[PUNCHES A HOLE THROUGH DRYWALL]] DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!

[jairoglyphs]

sigh...... i am so happy

[funtomcafe]

thinks abt how i didnt get far enough into moominvalley 2 get 2 ninny b4 it got reported. but i feel like theres a good chance id kin her 😐

[misspearly1]

Be My Redemption

Chapter 1v

Pairing: Joel Miller x F!Reader (y/n)

WC:2.5k

Warnings: NO MINORS 🔞 18+ Content.

Smut, unprotected PIV (wrap it up people) Cum play, domineering Joel. A smidge of violence, then finally fluff and angst.

Two fucking days. It was two days before you could finally look Diego in the eye after he walked in on you and Joel having sex.  

Not just any kind of sex though. Joel had you in such a compromising position, revealing every inch of your naked body and his. It was animalistic, rough fucking and there was nothing romantic about it with his degrading remarks when slapping your ass.

Therefore, it was two days before you could finally look into Diegos eyes again.  

Even when you did, you saw his eyes contort in disgust. Grimacing with him and feeling uncomfortable, you simply told him, “We’ll talk about it some other time.” Nodding his head, he agreed and you both parted ways.  

After a couple more days and spending some time today talking over with Jackie about the heavy embarrassment you felt, she was the voice of reasoning you needed. It shouldn’t feel as bad as it does but Diego is somewhat like your father, in a way. Not just for you, but for Jackie and he was for Solomon too.  

So maybe it was as bad as you thought, your dad walking in on you kissing is enough to make you screech in terror, let alone having sex. Jackie tried to use her own experience to help you, “When I was 19, my mom walked in on me receiving oral.”  

You laughed, “Nooo. Oh my... What did she say afterwards?” Jackie cringed to you but laughed as well, “Same kinda thing, didn’t look at me for a few days but when my boyfriend at the time came around again, she burst out laughing to us”  

Chuckling together while eating your food, the snow that Jackie mentioned about days ago started to come down even heavier, adding to the inches that have already lay on the ground.

Seeing it compact up against the windows, you turn to her, “A few days before she finally spoke to you? Shit, I think we’re gonna have weeks in here to get over it.”

Jackie nods her head, taking a gulp of water to wash the food down before speaking again, “He’ll get over it y/n, he just cares about us. We’re not teenage girls though, we are grown, strong and fearless women - agghhhh.”

Screaming together when Johnny exhaled a terrifying roar, jumping in front of you both from out of nowhere thus, scaring you two.

“Strong and fearless?” he mocked, and then quickly turned around, throwing his hands up in surrender to Diego and Joel, “Relax guys. It was just a spider; you know how fragile girls can be, am I right?”  

When he turned back, he was met with the first of your hand hitting him right in the nose. Stumbling onto his back and clutching it, he cried “What the fuck y/n?”

“Don't do shit like that Johnny. Or this ‘fragile girl’ is going to kick yer fucking ass... Am I right?” Standing over him, raging with anger and disappointment in his reckless behaviour, what if you had a gun? You could have shot him. Maybe a punch to his ego might set him straight.  

Walking away and feeling flustered, you hear Diego and Joel stifling their chuckles as Jackie helps him off the floor, chiding “You did this to yourself, Johnny”  

Finding a quiet spot and now alone, you shake your head to yourself at him again. Then, as you’re sitting inside a window ledge in this Museum, gazing outside at the snow which now looks like a magical winter wonderland, you realised that Joel and Diego were laughing together. Maybe you are overthinking it beachside they seemed fine.  

Thinking about Joel and seeing his smile through laughter, you smiled too. He clearly enjoyed the sight of you smacking Johnny in the face, your mind impulsively flashed back to when you were caught having sex with him, grovelling at first, you re-played the moments afterwards and thought....

Four Days earlier -  

When Dee burst into the room ready to kill Joel, thinking that he was hurting you, his eyes very quickly averted from the sight before him.

Laying on your front, with Joel piledriving into you from behind, he had the one hand on the back of your head and the other on your hip.

Diego looked away, shaking his head and after hollering a series of sentences in Spanish, he walked out, slamming the door shut behind him.  

Burying your face into the pit of your arms, you cringed “Oh my god, Joel. I can't possibly face him after that”  

Joel leaned his weight down on your back, eliciting a whine to escape your lips as he was still very much balls deep inside of you, bringing his mouth to your ear, he suggests “Then don’t. I’ll take yer away from here and keep you all to myself.”  

Not even able to question what he means as your head is pulled back by your hair. Grinding his hips into you and placing his hand over your mouth, he continues to fuck you. With your moans muffled and your pussy full, he very quickly falls back into that brutal pace from a few seconds ago.  

Arching your back into him, he hit something so deep inside of you which makes you squirm with pleasure under his grip. Laying your arm out above your head, Joel then removes his hand from your hair and interlocks his fingers with yours.  

Letting go of your mouth and resting his forehead against your temple, he groans deeply “You’re mine, Y/N. See this here....” bringing his hand down to your heat and rubbing your clit, he coveys “This pussy belongs to me, baby.”  

“Fuck-fuck, Joel!” wailing out to him as your so very close, his hips stutter upon feeling you pulse around him and so, squeezing his fingers between your own, he coaxes you, “Just like that baby, cum for me...Good girl.”  

Wailing out his name over and over again as you climax, you clench down hard and Joels movements falter, struggling to pull out before hot ropes of his cum spring out between your folds and on your ass.

Joel pants above you whilst looking at the creamy white streaks he’s left on your body, seeing a little bit of it dribbling down, he collects it with his finger and swipes it up your slit, near your hole.

“Joel?” Stopping his movements upon hearing your voice, he looks to your confused face and drops his hand, “Sorry baby, I've made a mess... Let me fix this”

Telling you to stay still when you try to move, he goes away to find something and you lay there on the floor, left to wonder. You wonder what was he doing, what was he going to do if you didn’t stop him?  

“Stay still darlin’. I got’cha” He assures, after giving you a shock from the cold rag. When Joel had finished cleaning you up, he kisses his way up your spine.

Wriggling from the tickle of his beard, he chuckles against your skin before reaching your face, “Was it too much y/n? I didn’t hurt you, did I?”

Planting reassuring kisses over his lips, you shook your head, no. Then, turning yourself around and wrapping your legs around him as he rests his weight on top of you, even in this position Joel is too tall.

Giggling and then yelping when he rolls over and brings you with him, he lets you rest on top of his chest instead, running his hand up and down your back as your bodies stick together from the post coital sweat.  

Resting his hand on the swell of your ass and laying in the position for a long time, Joels body heat was invading your own as you listen to the mellow thumping of his heartbeat.

During the peaceful quiet, you thought more on what he was going to do, you didn’t want to look too much into it but your gut is telling you he was going to push his cum back inside of you. Knowing what that means, your mind instantly pictures yourself with a bump.  

Would it even be a good idea to be pregnant? In a world like this... With Joel? Your eyes close upon the thought, ‘I miss her y/n’. His words rung through your mind, reminding yourself that he misses his daughter, it was probably an impulsive thought he had in the heat of the moment. Joel knows himself that pregnancy wouldn’t be a good idea, doesn't he?  

Too many questions burdened your brain and after deciding that you should probably just ask him instead of wondering, you brought your head up to speak but stop upon seeing him soundly sleeping. Seeing his face like this fills your body with love, scanning his features with your eyes and admiring every inch of the man.  

His cheeks are lightly flushed pink as he sleeps, the crow's feet around his eyes have disappeared and his hair is tousled. Lips slightly pursed as he exhales sleepy breaths of air, you lean up and press a chaste kiss to them and they twitch.

Smiling to him, even though he isn't aware, you lean down and plant one more and his hand on your ass jerks, so you pull back and rest your head in between his neck instead.  

Staying awake while he rests, you absorb the feeling of being so close to him and when sleep did eventually take over your body too, you dreamed of Joel.

Dreamt of a different life with him and his daughter but in the early morning hours of the next day, you could feel Joel stir from beneath you.  

Running his hand up your back and feeling the cold on your skin, he gently lays you down to the side and gets up. Still asleep but aware, you felt him coming back with a blanket and then spooning you, the heat from his chest immediately warming your back as he slips his hand around to your front and pulling you flush against himself.  

Humming faintly in your sleep as he kisses his way up your neck, Joel watches your tranquil unconscious form respond to his touch. Brushing the hair out of the way and looking at your face, he leans down and kisses your cheek, whispering “Please don’t leave me too, y/n” ….

Present time -  

A single tear rolls down your face thinking back on those sweet moments with Joel, when he thought you were asleep and unaware of his words. When he was so open and honest. So vulnerable.  

Your heart fills with warmth, hearing him say ‘don’t leave me.’ It makes you weep with love and passion for him.

You tried your damn hardest not to turn in that moment right there and hold him tight, to tell him that you won't. But you didn’t, pretending to be asleep and letting him have his private words with you.  However, you heart also fills with despair.

‘Too’, the ‘Don't leave me, too’ - That makes you sore with grief, and ache with sorrow, especially when hearing his pleading voice crack at the end, his daughter left him and his brother.

Joel pleaded to you not to leave him too. While you would never leave him, you cannot control the harsh ways of this life, at any given moment you could be killed and your heart breaks at the thought of him being alone again.

You’ve been with Joel for nearly a month now. Surviving with him for nearly 30 days. All those days and nights spent travelling together, fighting to stay alive, fighting to get to Boston and each day you both grew closer together, making love and sharing more details about your former lives... Falling in love.  

How can you love a man you’ve only known for such a short amount of time? You don’t know, but that's what this warmth feels like within your heart and your body.

An energy that surges through you every time you see, hear or think of him, even now when you see his reflection in the window coming up behind you, that flow of energy runs through you yet again.

“I'm ok. Just thinking bout everything...You know.” Reassuring him as he expresses a concerned look, he relaxes and instantly knows how that is, how that can be and instead, opts to sit beside you, offering his hand out.  

Taking it in your own and feeling him rub circles around it, how can you not feel his love reciprocating back to you. Watching him study you and watching him feel so comfortable, so at home in your presence, how can you ignore that love surge?

With it all bubbling to the surface, threatening to topple over, you can't seem to hold it in any more.

Moving forward towards him and kissing his lips, he feels your sense of urgency and holds you close. Kissing you deeply before breaking It off and looking to you in question.  

Cupping his chin and the love you feel giving you that confidence, “Joel... I uhm... I L-”

“Hey there you are y/n, I wanted to apologise for what I did back there.”  

Throwing your head upwards and biting your lip in a fluster, you laugh at your failure and turn to Johnny, saying, “It’s okay Johnny. Tell you what, you wanna make it up to me?”  

His eyes perk up and he nods enthusiastically, eager to right his wrong and so you emphasise your point by narrowing your eyes, “I would really, really appreciate it, if me and Joel didn’t get interrupted every five fucking minutes.”  

Looking sore and feeling terrible, he apologises profusely before leaving. You click your tongue to Joel and he laughs deeply, “Member when you said you might be the bad company?” Smiling to him and sighing, you then laugh too, “Uh-huh.”

Joel mirrors your smile and pulls you to sit on his lap, “What were you going to say baby?” Pausing for a moment and with your confidence now long gone, you lie to him, “Uhm, I was gonna say I like the snow but I'm worried, how long do you think we’ll be stuck here?”  

He searches your face for a second, like as if he doesn’t believe you and you feel exposed but then he thinks, rambling “Gosh, I don’t know. Soon as it lets up though, we should try moving, otherwise we’ll be stuck here till the next year.”  

“Yeah, that’s what I was thinking.” Joel nods his head in agreement, then searches your face one more time, and asks “You got anything else on yer mind darlin?”  

Smiling shyly to him and saying no, he kisses your forehead and gives up trying to find out.  

That night when you were both sleeping together, Joel lay in thought. He knows you were going to say you love him, and a part of him wants to say he loves you too. But he is thankful you never said it, for he fears deeply that if either one of you admits that, then he will lose you...

Next chapter, here

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@kirsteng42 @marydjarin @extraneous-trip

[kazewhara]

honestly, mean!Kazuha sounds a lot like a kid trying to relearn ways to really get the attention of a person he really, really likes. It's cute, endearing even, but being on the receiving end would always at least hurt a little bit, or more.

Mean!Kazuha sounds like that one arrogant boy you walk pass in the hallways of middle school, that boy who corners you and taunts you -- never anything more, never anything physically hurtful. That boy who throws you paper planes — or cranes, because he's Kazuha — in class, who giggles like he knows he's done something to catch your glare.

Mean!Kazuha who quietly lets himself wallow in that pit of jealousy, let himself cry and cry for hours when he's sure you can't see him, because all he wanted was to just know how to really treat you, when in reality... He's been acting like such an immature, immature boy around a lovely, lovely person like you. He's that one boy who tries -- but his efforts are all nothing but dust you can easily shake off your shoulders because they're all pointless and unmeaningful and maybe.. he'd come to the conclusion that it's also just not good for you, the same way dust isn't good for you, too.

and you're exactly correct!

the reason why mean!kazuha pisses me off so much is because underneath that almost regal exterior of his, he's so fucking immature. if he wanted your attention so bad, he'd have no problem getting it whatsoever — he's attractive and at heart, he's a very sweet man. but instead, he opts to bully you like some little boy, going so far as to enjoy the way you look when you cry, for fucks' sake

he's hurting himself far more than he could ever hurt you, but he doesn't know how to fix it after a certain point and AGGHHHH I WANNA BEAT HIM UP SOMETIMES.

but if you catch him in the act — ask him if he's doing this because he's in love with you — he'll falter. his entire facade will crumble and kazuha will become... weirdly quiet. he won't bother you because he thinks you've got him figured out, which is the last thing he wants