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[herequeerexitentialfear]

a conversation in the caverns between wenduag and alaunius[my commander] a missing conversation that would have happened if alaun was 5% less lawful good and voiced to wenduag exactly why they were short with cameillas father. still not 100% on the stoic-ness level of alaun so this is semi cannon. also i finished the maze but that was a few hours ago, this is more script than fully fleshed out prose and ive only played 4.5 hours so eh on characterization.

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wenduag: "your one of the soft uplanders, thinking holy powers will save everyone. takeing hits for us poor poor lower dwellers. as if we dont know how to take them"

alaunius: "the young ones shouldent need to. take hits, that is"

"…"

"why are you saying this wenduag?"

"you seemed short with the posh guy. i havent known you long but i know your type. i though everyone deserved kindness."

Alunius's long paces slowed. "nobels.." they sighed. "well, they tend to be on the wrong end of things"

"your happy having the rich girl along though" hands demonstrating crudely why she though they wanted cameilla along.

"shes skilled. her father on the other hand…" a glance to check the others were out of earshot "…is the type to throw gold at all his problems"

"and you took that gold. should i call up your goddess and tell her you broke your stupid rules??"

"we already needed to get out. those 'stupid rules' of mine dictate that i would need to help him indirectly anyway so what should i do. let us all rot down here to spite him? the fact that coin will be used to help people and not stashed away in his coin-purse is enough spite for me"

"your a rather bad paladin if your being spiteful."

"he has enough money that attacks on character and nonphysical comfort arn't part of the holy care package"

"they sure taught you long words in the mountains"

"… in essence as long as hes alive i dont care. he can deal with discomfort"

"you know i think your not so bad. for a paladin"

alaunius kept his eyes on the path ahead "of course. for a paladin"

[sysig]

Chewtoy (Patreon)

[xxc0reyxx]

do you ever think about a ship too much and you think just a lil too hard that one (1) time and you immediately become violently ill

[r-aindr0p]

"Et ne nous soumet pas à la tentation"

[anistarrose]

[Image description: screenshot from The Owl House of King saying: "No one wants to think they've wasted their life following the wrong person." End description.]

The thing about rewatching Hollow Mind, after the finale, is realizing this sentiment isn't just about Belos's followers, or about Luz initially looking up to Philip. In fact, it's just as much about Belos himself.

No one wants to admit you spent years chasing a brother who didn't want to go home. Who wasn't the witch hunter he once claimed to be. Who, in every reincarnation, still won't become the person you wanted him to be.

No one wants to admit that — for the centuries you saw yourself as following your God, doing what He required of you to save humanity's souls, and wipe out the Devil's witchcraft — that you were the only one doing evil. That your devout faith and countless sacrifices were misplaced, and that your former home has moved on from witch hunts anyway.

No one would want to admit any of that, and in combination with Belos's personal obsession with being a hero, it becomes clear he was never going to admit it. Not even on his deathbed. Because that would be nearly four hundred wasted years on his conscience, four hundred years of following the wrong people, and how could he possibly let himself believe that?

[lastofthemadones]

How do the Rat Grinders make decisions? Do they discuss plans and contingencies like a democracy or is fourdogs in charge and the rest just follow? OR is she a rogue in all sense of the word and they have to follow her around cleaning up her rash decisions? Like, I’ve been assuming that the fucking of the Bad Kids is related to the dead god thing they’ve got going on, but what if they are two different agendas and it’s Kimbleskitter going off script because she is blinded with rage for Riz (which, lol imagine getting so heated over the dork who wanted to rebrand to the photosynthekids). I am fascinated by the group dynamics of how the high five heroes became the rat grinders.

[mewguca]

helm fanart @pansear-doodles

[hamartia-grander]

I'm a real tragedy enjoyer but Luis's death is no longer narratively enjoyable for me, now it just feels like an insult. I'm tired of characters having to die to be "redeemed". It's not their death that is the redemption, it's the fact that they were willing to die in the first place; it's the intent of sacrifice. I much prefer a narrative where Luis survives and is forced to every day atone for his past mistakes. I much prefer when characters don't get the respite of death, when they have to live with their demons, when they have to face their past and maintain their growth. And it's especially maddening when the only reason Luis dies is because he did in the original. They'll change his character so much to give him substance but they won't change his fate? I don't want that.

[pm-00]

Roier is so "Don't go where I can't follow" coded. That's why Roier is going to be mad at Cellbit, not because he stayed; he will understand why, after all he had a son too and he is Richas' dad too. What is going to make him mad is that Cellbit gave him no choice or head ups; only a goodbye. Roier would have jumped out the boat in a heartbeat and looked for him, ran like the fucking wind through the little time and distance left, but of course Cellbit wanted him to be saved, free of purgatory. But in the end, Roier had to (once again) see the people he loves die while he survives, when what he really wants is to be with them.

[inonibird]

“They wanted your shrine, Qymaen.”

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Chapter 6 of Part Five - Martyr of the Sahuldeem series is up!

[agentmaineapologist]

Me, making a comic about villain Tucker: man this is gonna be so great, no one's ever really done this people are gonna love it and it's gonna be so aweso-

Burnie motherfucking Burns: Heyyyy...

[theygotlost]

NORMAN ALSO

[sysig]

Light and darkness, but mostly darkness (Patreon)

[fareehaandspaniards]

Random Bloodborne headcanons post

(as I need to empty my head)

-Ludwig comes from a warm, southern country, he loves grapes and night walks. He had a predisposition to gain insight from his background, as his homeland had a philosophy close to Isz's (stars and sky are religious symbols). And since Laurence was aware of this, during Ludwig's communion with the Church, he handed him blood mixed with Burgenwerth samples from the Fishing Hamlet (out of curiosity)

-Rom's ascension was her own initiative and the result of research approved by Willem. Unlike Micolash, she conducted all her experiments on herself. As the last experiment she became pregnant and could finally hear the call of the Ebrietas, for she had discovered the subtle and delicate bond of the Kin. Only Willem knew of her intentions to use her own child to communicate with the Great Ones. And Laurence (the child's father), best friend Caryll, Yurie, who was in love with her, and the rest were left unaware

-Logarius felt sympathy for Ludwig, which resulted in a brief (because of the disasters in Yharnam) attachment. Ludwig carried the ideals of chivalry, and it was he who reminded Logarius of a “paragon of kindness”. In fact, Logarius' great quote about good and evil deeds is a paraphrase of Ludwig's words, remembered as the wisdom of the former. Logarius always knew his journey would end in death and bitterness, but would have been broken to learn how Ludwig died - labeled a “monster,” a convert, clinging only to the Light of his Holy Moonlight sword. They both would have preferred to die in battle as humans, by each other's blades.

-After Maria died, Gehrman changed. He was out of his mind for about a month, and Laurence forbade anyone to visit the hunters' workshop. Gehrman's mind left him and the Doll was created. The Doll heard many tears and drunken swearing from its grief-stricken creator. Gehrman spent evenings with the Doll, talked to her as if she were Maria alive, took her under his arm, and was generally insane. However, this obsession had passed, thanks to Laurence. The Doll later became literally alive in Hunter's dream. Poor Gehrman

-Caryll had heard the bell ringing since he was young and seen a face in the window at night. At first he was afraid, but as he grew older, he became interested. As he learned, he saw a Pthumerian woman. One night he disappeared without a trace, leaving behind only a wheelchair and an open window. No one knows where he went, and his corpse has never been found. (I think I wrote down that headcanon already, but I like too much :^))

-Logarius had always despised Rom for her excessive initiative in the affairs of the Church. For her antics, her attempts at leadership, and, above all, her familiarity with the vicar. He suggested to Laurence that he should “show her” where her place is, but was rudely rebuffed. I think to Logarius she would be a “fallen woman”, if only because she actually has a relationship with the vicar but spends all her time with Caryll. And he wouldn't care that their friendship is almost a familial bond, that Caryll is asexual, that they are each other's support and backbone. I think he's too conservative to realize that!

-Blood Saint Adeline is an aristocrat, and her little jabot was always on her. Actually, her family was against the Healing Church in general, but the girl was a rebel by nature, and so she first joined the Church, started helping the doctors, and then gave herself and her blood for transfusion.

-Logarius (Rogeriusz) is the brother of the King of Cainhurst, Annalise's consort. Actually, brother's death to create a child of the Blood, Logarius' contempt for Annalise as a woman, and his adherence to the ideals of “Pure” blood - led him to the Church. My Logarius is a big chauvinist, an unabashed asshole, and a testosterone warehouse! Perhaps the only thing that appealed to his conscience was Ludwig. But that didn't concern his plans for Cainhurst - here Logarius saw his purpose and meaning - to punish and destroy the unrighteous descendants of his lineage

-Maria and Logarius - actually not a bad pairing, I think! Initially, the two experienced sympathy for each other - Maria didn't know why he joined the Church, and he hoped Maria would share his ideals with him. But the more Maria learned about him, the more Logarius frightened her. He didn't know what she'd been through in Fishing Hamlet or what kind of burden she carried, nor did he generally give much thought to such a thing as “trauma.” So he treated her as a young, ambitious girl he knew from his life in Cainhurst. Perhaps their acquaintance would have ended in a duel, had it not been for events that drove them in different directions. Maria to the Research Hall, and him to preparing a raid on the castle.

-Logarius didn't appreciate Byrgenwerth' squad, Caryll, the whole gang of scientists. But he took an interest in Gehrman and hunting. He was always polite to him, respectful, like to an elder

Gehrman and Caryll were good friends! And while the old hunter was still on his feet, he was perfecting Caryll's chair, following the process of carving runes into the wood. The two found common ground easily, and it made Laurence mildly jealous. (To both Gehrman was like a father.)

Edgar grew up in the Church' Orphanage, though he was related to a respected scholar, Yurie .She didn't want to deal with him at first, since she never knew his mother or him, and she also had a job at the Research Hall. But when there was a risk that he might fall under the Church's experiments, Yurie took him. In fact, the boy grew up under her supervision and care, and also with Madlene (my name for Imposter Iosefka), who was dating Yurie. Essentially, he was raised by two women.

-Henriette, Alfred, Edgar and Bloody Crow of Cainhurst - are the youngest characters in the game (Gascoigne's daughters don't count)

-Willem was appointed “Head” of the Choir, but only formally, Laurence just wanted to make it appear that he was still involved in the affairs of the Healing Church. Willem himself was not interested in this, he was busy researching and helping Rom

-Many of the people of Yharnam still honor the old faith that lived here before the Church. The faith that replaced the Great Ones long-long ago, the faith of light and goodness. When Laurence brought it all back, many houses secretly turned against him.

-Damian had a large family. His parents, a merchant father and a puritan mother, died alone in their home on the outskirts of Yharnam. One of Damian's sisters disappeared in Hemwick, an older brother was one of the White Doctors of the Church and was torn apart by a monster, another sister died in a fire in one of the stores in Yharnam where she worked. Younger brother Jiri is buried next to Hemwick, and of all his family, Jiri's grave is the most visited by Damian himself. The family had always held to the old faith and did not approve of the Church that had come, nor did they approve of Damian's involvement with it. If they found out he was a Tomb Prospector, there would probably be a major scandal!

-Rom was the first owner of Augur of Ebrietas! When these babies were found in the catacombs, she was the first to be able to bond with one of them.

-Imposter Iosefka hates Rom because she thinks she's too naive and delicate, but also envies her a little - Rom's research is approved by the vicar himself, she's helped by Caryll, and sometimes Micolash lends a hand. And Madlene does everything on her own. She also has to “save” Yurie from her attachment to Rom in a way, because Yurie has suffered a very painful heartbreak.

-Damian is a bit obsessed with the subject of children! And it's an oddity he's trying to hide. He would operate on himself to change his body and be able to have a child (if he could). But all he can do is secretly pray to Oedon that one day he will have a child, adopted or not

-In Byrgenwerth age Willem often had affairs with female teachers! He is not a bad poet, and therefore sometimes wrote something for the ladies and invited them to a joint evening C:

-Gremia's mother is from the same land as Laurence's mother

Logarius is my personal diva of Yharnam. I swear he would wear high heels and win in "Yharnam's next Top model"

[mamawasatesttube]

going to bed but thinking about kon and his suicidality as selflessness and how heroism and self-destruction share quite the overlap and how saving the world with his death was heroic but also the culmination of a pattern of passive suicidality he displayed since practically his first day alive. what does it mean when you're so eager and willing to help at any cost to yourself that you assume you will not see yourself grow up? "i don't care what happens to me" is a scary place to be, but "i don't care what happens to me, so long as i can save everyone" is noble and brave, right? so when does heroism become an act of self-destruction? when you truly believe in helping others, but you also think you'll die doing it one day and that isn't enough to stop you... where's the line?

[chaiaurchaandni]

israeli terrorists gang-r//ped a child for 3 days in 1949

from ‘state of terror’ by thomas saurez

notice the recent isr//eli obsession with imagined stories of brutal violent 'pelvis-breaking' - sexual violence enacted by Palest/n/an men onto isr//eli women - projection, at its finest. every zion/st accusation is a confession.

similar to how isr//elis faked stories of 'babies baked in ovens' by Palest/n/ans, when, IN FACT, it was isr//elis who threw Palest/n/an babies into burning ovens during the Nakba of 1948.

REMEMBER: the events described in the picture happened in 1949, meaning it is very likely that these isr//eli r//pists are alive and well today, living safely in stolen Palest/n/an homes, encouraging more isr//elis to go to G//za and massacre and r//pe Palest/n/ans. on Oct 7th, many claimed that the murder of these r//pists is 'terrorism' - i disagree. to me, at least, it is justice. this justice must be served to all isr//eli r//pists and murderers. anyone who holds the isr//eli citizenship is either directly involved or indirectly complicit in this violence.