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just-some-random-blogger · 2 years

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good morning/day/evening, lovie! ig ive just burst (into tears) from the amount of love i felt to this gif. 'when its day FOR YOU' its 2:19 and ive had some drinks w/friends. yeah, we have fem, masc and neuter gender words. and it usually depends on the nouns gender its paired with. and the nouns gender depends on logic (like a girl is fem while in german girl is neuter) or just feelings nothing (night is fem). 'i typed my love actually so thats on google translate' 1)i figured you typed my love bc youd used it already 2) we say google translate sucks 3) musc is the main form of an adjective on its own so no wonder its translated like this. 'but theres no rap here?' idk TT i just love this speaking(?) part, we call it recitative but im not sure. theres one song that describes my taste in the best way possible. milyy (darling/honey). it has no eng subs (all the translations ive found are ugly) and it doesnt matter, just listen to the way it sounds and the music. i have no idea why theres a child in the vid bc?? ok the chorus literally sounds like 'Guess what ive been doing when you werent here? I was meeting my ex-lover. He promised me to show his new apartment And to try out his windowsills. And i put on my red gloves Despite him begging for stockings. Do you know, honey? (x2) Do yk what ive been doing while you were gone?' it doesnt really imply sex BUT it does have mentions of alcohol and the whole vibe isnt childish at all... but ok i love the song. 'you’ve made me like her again' a fanfact! i have such halseys last album (where those songs are from) vibes from all hotd fics. maybe all this royal aesthetic affects me like this. 'which is what her name is an anagram of' OMG fhsjd i never thought abt it! ig its not really a problem you couldnt read it as halsey. if it doesnt bother you too much, then its fine. your writings are still good shjs. and youre still big brained. 'thank you for reviving my interest in halsey' my pleasure<з you can take all the time universe gives us! yeah i put notifs but the main point is i dont have notifs in general HFJFKDH the sound is ALWAYS off so... my mom gets mad at me frequently and noone can contact me whenever they want. 'AND I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH' IM SO GLAD. its so beautifel and also meaningful like the cartoon itself! i used to love su sm TT 'my child' meow meow, catmom. 'dont be so ok with it' well mindset ig. 'i cant even read the russian symbols' AHAHS IM SORRY i forgot to type a latinised version. its zapekanka. k is k its a simple one. and a is a. and з is z, i usually use it for <з. and yeah!! youre so right with p! what a big brain! 'she’s literally just a plot device without too much depth used for nada' oh its sad( actually its like 90% of russian classic literature and thats why i usually end up hating fem characters. or theyre just too... sweet and naive and all. i dislike all people with this type of character and its not my fault its 8/10 times women (in lit). i love characters that are interesting to me and it doesnt depend on the gender. ig im frequently seen as a sexist/homophobic just bc im judgemental... yeah not the best trait but i dont choose whos the one im going to hate based on THESE facts. yeah your face can annoy me, your voice can sound too pitchy for my liking or i just dont like your vibes BUT not bc youre a woman/man/gay or smth else. and MORE SO when you have a reason to dont like a person? it doesnt matter whos it. 'WHYYYYY>?' well i dont know ANY of them closely and im still judgemental. 'YOU GOT A MR WORLDWIFE TOO' YEah! pushkin is some kind of a literature hero here? well hes done a lot of things for it and the language and hes been a brilliant writer (hes called genius in schools). but he was SUCH a worldwife. hes written that he had more than 100 women. but he did have a wife closer to the end of his life. he also had a footfetish and put it in his most famous novel.. 'you keep saying cunning spain' well i like this image. meowmeow im glad you find it cute meowmeow. ig its all for the part 1 bc its already long. see you soon, my love<з

this is how my cat greats me sometimes T_T i miss my jinjin T_T MEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWW T_T

ig ive just burst (into tears) from the amount of love i felt to this gif.

<3 <3 <3 thats great. idk if ive told you already, i feel like i have, but my teacher says its good to cry 2 a week to flush out the dirt from your eyes. on another note, i was chopping onions for my grandma this morning and i CRIED SO BAD IT HURT LASFHLKASHFKLHASFASH

'when its day FOR YOU' its 2:19 and ive had some drinks w/friends.

you went drinking!!!???? omg i hope you were responsible with it. i only recently tried drinking when it was my best friend's birthday. i want to try it again because being drunk is so fascinating but also i cant do that because T_T i would die on my way home

yeah, we have fem, masc and neuter gender words. and it usually depends on the nouns gender its paired with. and the nouns gender depends on logic (like a girl is fem while in german girl is neuter) or just feelings nothing (night is fem).

in german girl is neuter ???? ok then. i dont understand enough about fem/masc words cos filipino is neutral everything we just have siya which is he/she/it everything lolol HAHAHAHAHAH

'i typed my love actually so thats on google translate' 1)i figured you typed my love bc youd used it already 2) we say google translate sucks 3) musc is the main form of an adjective on its own so no wonder its translated like this.

#1 big brained for that #2 she trying google on her last brain cell T_T #3 makes sense. boo men 👎

'but theres no rap here?' idk TT i just love this speaking(?) part, we call it recitative but im not sure.

i see. thats nice to know. i figured that with all the music you sent me. i personally dont like it. i guess you like spoken poetry with background.

theres one song that describes my taste in the best way possible. milyy (darling/honey). it has no eng subs (all the translations ive found are ugly)

HAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAAHA I FELT THE UGLY TRANSLATIONS HAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA i love the kitties and the cutie bb girl <3 if i had to guess what i means based on the song and the video, is it about wanting to growing up and like expectations as an adult? like 'i cant wait to be an adult' but also be careful what you ask for?

and it doesnt matter, just listen to the way it sounds and the music. i have no idea why theres a child in the vid bc?? ok the chorus literally sounds like 'Guess what ive been doing when you werent here? I was meeting my ex-lover. He promised me to show his new apartment And to try out his windowsills. And i put on my red gloves Despite him begging for stockings. Do you know, honey? (x2) Do yk what ive been doing while you were gone?' it doesnt really imply sex BUT it does have mentions of alcohol and the whole vibe isnt childish at all... but ok i love the song.

[jaw on the floor] my gosh boy was i wrong T_T WTF WHY IS THERE A CHILD HERE HELP T_T WHEN I TELL YOU MY JAW DROPPED AFTER READING THIS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SUCH A BIG BRAIN MOMENT FOR ME IM SO 💀💀💀💀

'you’ve made me like her again' a fanfact! i have such halseys last album (where those songs are from) vibes from all hotd fics. maybe all this royal aesthetic affects me like this.

interesting to know. i mean i think each of our experience affect us as a person so it goes both ways.

'which is what her name is an anagram of' OMG fhsjd i never thought abt it! ig its not really a problem you couldnt read it as halsey. if it doesnt bother you too much, then its fine. your writings are still good shjs. and youre still big brained. 'thank you for reviving my interest in halsey' my pleasure<з

nah it bothered me so much my brain was so frustrated i hated seeing her and her name because i kept reading it wrong. i read her as hasley in my head for a long time even though i knew it was wrong then i only shut up my brain by reading at loud and suddenly the world was silent again lashflashflasf and i wasn't bothered by her name anymore

this was the era of halsey that i could not pronounce HAHHAH

you can take all the time universe gives us! yeah i put notifs but the main point is i dont have notifs in general HFJFKDH the sound is ALWAYS off so... my mom gets mad at me frequently and noone can contact me whenever they want.

thank you i need all the time in the world cos school T_T. also ur so me fr tbh i personally dont care about notifs even though its on i just ignore everyone T_T HAHAHHA

'AND I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH' IM SO GLAD. its so beautifel and also meaningful like the cartoon itself! i used to love su sm TT

ive heard it on tiktok before and i wondered where it was from so thank you for that <3 i love the cartoon too but i never got to watch it play out, you know, like on tv theyd play the episodes out of order and i just ??? yeah i never even learned about stevens mom whats up with her

'my child' meow meow, catmom.

'dont be so ok with it' well mindset ig.

DONT BE SO OK WITH IT

'i cant even read the russian symbols' AHAHS IM SORRY i forgot to type a latinised version. its zapekanka.

slay zapekanka

k is k its a simple one.

IT IS WOW I THOUGHT IT WASNT MY WHOLE LIFE IS A LIE actually idk when i started telling myself it wasnt a k lol HAHAH

and a is a. and з is z, i usually use it for <з. and yeah!! youre so right with p! what a big brain!

purr thank you for the brief lesson <3

'she’s literally just a plot device without too much depth used for nada' oh its sad( actually its like 90% of russian classic literature and thats why i usually end up hating fem characters. or theyre just too... sweet and naive and all. i dislike all people with this type of character and its not my fault its 8/10 times women (in lit).

SAME I HATE IT WHEN WOMEN ARE STUPID LIKE SIR HAVE YOU MET A WOMAN? AND HAVE YOU MET A man (derogatory) russian literature L for that 😞🍅thats why i like making my fem characters chew their male interests. feminism.

i love characters that are interesting to me and it doesnt depend on the gender. ig im frequently seen as a sexist/homophobic just bc im judgemental... yeah not the best trait but i dont choose whos the one im going to hate based on THESE facts.

T_T i think ur just judgy T_T your ire has no boundaries T_T HELP T_T you should maybe work on that ? but i totally get not liking weak characters

yeah your face can annoy me, your voice can sound too pitchy for my liking or i just dont like your vibes BUT not bc youre a woman/man/gay or smth else. and MORE SO when you have a reason to dont like a person? it doesnt matter whos it.

T_T 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀like i said, your ire knows no bounds

'WHYYYYY>?' well i dont know ANY of them closely and im still judgemental.

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HELP T_T

'YOU GOT A MR WORLDWIFE TOO' YEah! pushkin is some kind of a literature hero here? well hes done a lot of things for it and the language and hes been a brilliant writer (hes called genius in schools). but he was SUCH a worldwife. hes written that he had more than 100 women. but he did have a wife closer to the end of his life. he also had a footfetish and put it in his most famous novel..

HE HAD A WHAT NOW actually i dont want to know more about his footfetish, you do you boo. BUT OMG he like rizal for real, although yeah he didnt get married he just 💀 then never had a wife cos he just 👻 but idk if his lovers reached 100 💀💀💀💀💀💀

'you keep saying cunning spain' well i like this image. meowmeow im glad you find it cute meowmeow.

T_T MEOW MEOW

ig its all for the part 1 bc its already long. see you soon, my love<з

YEs yes p2 <3

xxx

#anon ask #my beloved anons #modern!daemon anon #ask #modern!daemon nonnie

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harringtonspolaroids · 2 years

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omg ok so robin x popular! reader where she’s a cheerleader who robin thought was out of her league (and straight) but they both just have massive crushes on each other

a/n: anon this literally took me out of my writers block ty ty i loved this sm 🙏🙏 also the ending kinda sucks but its wtv !!

word count: 1054

warnings: light cursing, this is not proofread

𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 | 𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐥𝐞𝐲

Robin sighed as she watched you walk right in front of her, with the rest of the cheer squad onto the gym’s floor.

She tried to look uninterested, like she merely thought the team's dancing and efforts to draw the crowds attention was just decent. But Robin couldn’t help but look at you. The way your smile seemed to brighten the entire room, the way you waved your arms and jumped around laughing, shaking those ridiculous green and white pom poms. She thought you looked like the most gorgeous girl in Hawkins, hell, maybe even in all of Indiana.

Then the basketball team walked out onto the floor.

You so clearly liked them. Robin watched you try to hide your embarrassment of being singled out by one of the team players, as he sent you a wink. Robin rolled her eyes at his pathetic attempts to flirt, but she couldn’t deny that was partly jealousy. She wanted to be the one who made you get all nervous, she wanted to be the one you liked, not some ugly basketball player that probably reeked of trashy cologne and was a total pig.

Robin just faked a smile and continued playing her trumpet. It was ridiculous to think that you would ever like her, even as a friend. You were too good for her.

∘₊✧──────✧₊∘

You let out a laugh, as the guy whose name you had kind of already forgotten, continued rattling on about a party you’d skipped over the weekend.

In reality, you weren’t paying attention to him. Your locker was at the perfect location, right in front of the band room, allowing you to peer inside. Sure the people you mostly associated with thought they were all a bunch of dorks and losers, but you thought they had substance. Specifically the girl with the short hair and raspy voice. You had never gotten her name. All you knew was that she was pretty, and nice, and funny. Or at least you hoped so. You didn’t really talk.

“See you Friday?” the boy looked nervous, and you didn’t even remember what plans you had agreed to.

“Of course, I’ll see you then, buddy!” You cringed slightly at your use of the phrase, but Jesus Christ you had no idea how to let him down easily.

You watched as he left, some disappointment in his eyes.

Robin walked out of the band room, her backpack slung over her shoulder, as she held her trumpet case in her hand. She hated having practice because you would always be right outside, close enough that if she wanted to she could just talk to you, yet still out of reach. Yet it seemed that today, you would be closer to her than before.

“Ohhhhh, shit, I’m so sorry-” Robin stammered as she knelt to the floor picking up the instrument’s case.

“No- no- it’s my fault I totally tripped you- on accident of course, I never would've wanted to trip you on purpose it’s just that I wasn’t looking.” You rambled on kneeling on the floor to help pick up some sheet music that had also fallen onto the floor.

You looked up over at her, as your hands met when you reached for a paper. “Oh, is this supposed to be for the next game?”

“I’m sorry what?” Robin's mouth felt dry, she couldn’t believe she was standing in your sheer presence and now you were talking to her and touching her hand? It felt unreal.

You waved the paper in the air as you handed it to her, “Is it the music for the basketball game, next week?”

“Yeah, yeah, it’s uhm, supposed to be for the next game- you already knew that though because you just said it and of course you are going to be at the next game because you, well cheer and- and I- I cannot shut up holy shit… I’m sorry. You probably don’t,” Robin cleared her throat, “want to hear me talk that much. Shutting up now.” Robin let out a nervous laugh. She was so convinced she had ruined everything, even the chance of you becoming friends or even just people who you talked to in the hallway.

“It’s totally okay, don’t worry about it. It’s actually kinda cute.”

Robin was sure she looked like a deer standing in front of headlights. Her brain was definitely fried from pulling all nighters and drinking too much coke. There was no way you just called her “cute”.

Calling her “cute” was totally different from you calling her “nice” or “friendly” or even “not as annoying as everyone said.” And there was also no way you were actually flirting with her. Or were you?

Robin’s mind felt like it was running a thousand miles a second.

You could feel what you thought was an uncomfortable silence. Maybe Robin didn’t get your hint. “Hey you know what I just remembered? I’m supposed to come up with a new routine for the girls on the team- its a whole thing- but, I was thinking, maybe I could come over and practice at your place on Friday and you could serve as the music? It’s silly, I know but-”

“It’s not silly at all, it sounds like a great idea. I love it, but are you sure you don’t have plans with your boyfriend?” It was Robin’s last ditch effort to confirm that you were in fact into girls.

“I don’t have a boyfriend. I’m actually not really looking for a boyfriend right now,” you said, trying to enunciate the boy part of it all.

Robin’s eyes were wide open as she got your message, “Oh! Okay, then yeah it totally works for me, I can swing by later and give you my place…”

“So it’s a date?” you asked hopefully.

Robin swallowed, “Yeah. A date.”

You smiled and squeezed Robin’s arm, “I can’t wait.”

Robin watched you float down the hall, a new bounce in your step as you headed over to a group of girls Robin wasn’t really a fan of. ‘A date’. The words echoed in Robin’s mind. She was going on a date with you. It felt truly unreal. Yet somehow, a part deep inside of Robin felt like it was meant to be. It was just you and her.

#robin buckley #robin buckley x reader #robin buckley x y/n #robin buckley fanfic #robin buckley imagine #robin buckley x you #also the title and general storyline was also heavily inspired by you belong with me - taylor swift so do with that you will

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hotxcheeto · 2 years

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CINNAMON RETURNS YALL!!!!!!! I’m back officially and actually putting in a request. I know I said a while ago I would cut out with the angst but I can’t be that honest can I, now to get to the point I would like the classic argument before near death situation with Sadie (sorry for all the Sadie requests her tag is just so dry 😭) with a happy ending though I can’t put myself though all that..

Okay now that i’m all done with that, as usual take care of yourself sweetness! We all love you and your writing so much and I hope you have a lovely day <333

━ 𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐃

𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜(𝙨) - Sadie Adler x G/N!Reader

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 - Cursing, angst, mentions/slight description of blood, reader gets stabbed, mentions/slight description of pain, mention of feeling nauseous ( brief ), angry sadie, sadie grabs reader kinda hard, crying, fluff, happy ending

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 ? - Yeah/Nope

𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 - I love her, also sorry this took so long! it also kind of sucks but I'm not at home rn and its been a lot of stress and stuff but her tag really is dry and its so annoying lmao!

thank you for being so kind honey!! ily sm have a great day!!

Sadie thought about it again and again. Staring down at you.

This was her fault. That's all she kept thinking.

You were so excited to bring her back the clutch of flowers in your hand. Skipping back from the small clearing you'd found close to camp. Picking a few that you thought Sadie would like, especially the yellow ones before making your way back with a happy, content smile on your face.

But it didn't last long, Sadie's flustered and angry face coming into view not long after. Yelling at someone before whipping around, meeting your eyes.

You gave her a soft smile, beginning to walk towards her but she didn't return the smile like she usually did. Storm towards making your smile fall and your eyebrows furrow.

"What's wr-" "Where the hell were you?" "I told you I was pick-" "You didn't tell me shit." You stared at her confusing holding her flowers against your stomach. "Sadie I told you when you were cleaning that gun of yours-" "You didn't tell me a damn thing."

You shook your head, looking away from her glaring stare. "I promise, I told you. I wouldn't have left if I didn't." "You know them damn O'Driscolls-" "Yes Sadie I know. That's why I told you. I asked you if you wanted to come and you brushed me off!" She stared at you before grabbing your upper arm, dragging you towards your shared tent. "God dammit-"

"Sadie stop it. Sadie- Sadie you're hurting me!" You ripped away from her, staring at her with scared and worry-filled eyes. "I was getting you flowers. I told you I was going. Stop being like this!" "Y/n-"

"I told you where I was going!" "You should've made sure I was listenin'. I didn't hear a damn thing you said." "Well I'm sorry, but that doesn't mean you need to be mean to me. Here, I brought you something." You threw the flowers at her, turning around and walking and storming off with tears falling down your cheeks.

Rubbing your upper arm, deciding on going back to the clearing. Sadie deciding it was better to leave you be, guilty as she watched you leave, just for a little despite the gut feeling she'd gained just a few minutes prior to the argument. Terrified it had to do with you, and then she had to watch you retreat back to the woods, aggressively wiping tears away.

But you hadn't returned in a while, and it was beginning to get dark. She anxiously sat at the fire, looking around for you every few minutes. But you hadn't come back, and the gut instinct was only getting worse. Feeling nauseous before standing up and walking over to the ladies.

"Mary Beth, hey. "Hi Sadie. What can I do you for?" "Have you seen Y/n?" They came in earlier, just for a minute but they ran off looking upset. A real shame." Sadie walked off without another word, leaving Mary Beth confused, yet she went back to reading without another word.

Sadie took off in the woods towards where you'd stomped off, feeling guilty the whole walk. Biting her lip anxiously as she finally came to the clearing before hearing something, so faint, yet so close.

With was a light whine, then a breathy wheezing moan.

"God damn it, Y/n?" She moved past some brush, finding you laying out, bleeding from your stomach. "Shit, shit, shit-" You were out cold again though, in and out, looking at her and then back to being out.

She hadn't felt that fearful since.. since the farm.

Now sitting at your side, she felt like shit. To put it bluntly.

Your breathing wasn't even, rapsy and broken. Red marks around your neck, the gang having disappeared after you muttered the words 'O'Driscoll'. But Arthur wouldn't let her leave, despite wanting rip out their throats and make them regret doing what they did.

But seeing you, knowing you'd ask for her was a feeling she couldn't shake.

You began to move, Sadie piping up as you began to open your eyes slowly. Shifting around the bed, looking around dazed and confused. Groaning in pain before meeting her eyes, a smile appearing on your lips.

"Sadie, are you okay?" "Are you really askin' me that?" She whispered, seeing you frown, you began sitting up despite the sharp pain that made you hiss, Sadie trying to get you to lay back but you wouldn't.

"Sadie..." "I shouldn't've yelled at at you. I wasn't thinking and you ran off and-" You cupped her face, giving her another little smile. "I'm okay. I'm okay hon." Sadie couldn't help the few tears that slipped by though, looking away from you but you wouldn't let her, not for long.

"I liked the flowers." She muttered, watching you grin slightly, a little laugh passing your lips making her smile. Even if it was just faint, you seen it, running your thumb over her lips.

"Besides, I've been through worse." "You shouldn't have to." "That's why I got you, you protect me enough but sometimes the world's gotta remind me that I'm not invincible. Besides, you take good care of me." "I'm sorry, I'm damn sorry honey."

You softly kissed her lips feeling her push back, then you kissed her nose. Placing your forehead against her own.

"I know, don't beat yourself up over it. You were just worried. Now, they going to kill them?" "I would've went. Made 'em wish they were never born. Damn morons." "Oh trust me, I know you would've." You both laugh quietly, Sadie blushing when you kissed her cheek before laying back on the bed.

"But I'm glad you stayed." She hummed, leaning forward to kiss your forehead. "Get some rest." "Okay, but don't leave me until I fall asleep, okay?" "Always." You hummed, grabbing her hand tight and holding it like a doll. "I love you Sades." "I love you too, now sleep."

You giggled, closing your eyes, her thumb rubbing the back of your hand the entire time until finally, she lulled you to sleep.

A/n: My ear hurts fjdksajfkd;sjfakla

#sadie adler #rdr2 sadie #sadie adler x reader #red dead #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #rdr #rdr2 #nevy writes

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hyunjinspark · 2 years

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Dang Hana, you had one job and that was too not make me hate her more MISSION FAILED WJSNMA, like it’s so obvious that she is using Hyunjin as a way to move on or as a rebound from her ex ?? This is displayed especially when she keeps talking about her ex and his new girl and I’m like tf ??? WHY DO YOU CARE SM SMH. And also tbh Hana just kissed him and honestly idk why that didn’t sit right w me?? Like ok you guys kiss but also don’t do it Orin front of your friends and without consent from the other party ?? I mean maybe because I’m also seeing Hana from a 3rd party perspective so I’m kinda JWHAJAJA. But idk this chapter just made her seem and look like an inconsiderate person tbh. She clearly doesn’t know the mc well because she keeps making assumptions about her which aren’t true? Like talking about how the mc isn’t serious about dating but she just hasn’t found the right one yet !! Honestly she pisses me off and it’s tiring to see how the mc is just letting Hana take advantage of her kindness. Honestly I am just down right upset. Like stop using fate and stuff as a way to make him your hubby or smthg, actually try to appreciate him and get to know him. Tbh the only time that I agreed with Hana was when she said the mc and Hyunjin would get along really well. LIKE FINALLS SMH BAE URE SO DENSE ITS SO IRRITATING. like yo someone has to tell her that she is just so INTOLERABLE RN IMO !!!! Like how can one just be so inconsiderate ? She cant accept the fact Hyunjin asked her not to post the photo, BUT IMO considering he is a celebrity, it’s a valid reason because he obv wants to avoid scandals. I feel like she wants to post it simply because her ex posted a picture with his new love interest and that’s what kinda makes me annoyed also is how it’s so painfully obvious that she is just using Hyunjin as a way to rebound from her ex. Like I said idt Hana likes Hyunjin for who he is, it’s all just physical attraction. This can be seen how she always finds a way to shut down the things Hyunjin talks about, like how he and the mc were talking about the onion volcano. Honestly if I had her as a friend I would’ve dropped her SORRY J SAID IT SJSJSJ. Like it’s so obv her intentions are no longer pure ??? Like yea sure she did approach Hyunjin c bc she was genuinely interested in him, but as the story progressed, it became so alarmingly obvious that she is simply trying to use Hyunjin as a way to show everyone that “she is fine”, “I’m doing better without yeonjun”. She clearly cares too much about what people think and I think in a way she kind of uses his fame as a way to show yeonjun “I’m dating a celebrity. Someone handsome and better than you and your new girl”. Like tbh those intentions in itself are no longer pure. She is just using him for his fame, but idt she is doing it on purpose ofc. I think it’s more subconscious.

Like from how I see it the mc is just hurting but not to the point where it’s like OUCH MY HEART JABSJA. It’s more like she is starting to realize her feelings for Hyunjin. I honestly feel bad for her because I actually don’t know how Hyunjin feels for the mc and Hana so I hope we can see a chapter on that real soon !! But other than that I just pity the mc at this point bc they guy she is attracted to is dating someone else, and she even had to watch her “best friend” and said boy kiss. It’s like the universe is rubbing it into her face that she can’t have him. And that sucks !!! And also, her so called “best friend” (Hana) treats the mc like ABSOLUTE GARBAGE !!! Like gurl … MC HAS GONE AND SEEN ENOUGH PLSSSSS !!! But tbh the mc is such a good person to a fault imo. Like she takes whatever shiz Hana gives her and it’s just irritating. Like it’s obvious that the mc is always there for Hana. This is seen when Hana keeps calling the mc and how Hana always expects her to be there, and how she gets mad when the mc says “I cant rn I’m busy”. That could imply that Hana isn’t used to the mc not being there for her when she needs to rant or needs help. And it’s also so painfully obvious how loyal the mc is. Loyal to a daily imo. Like even though the mc is hurting, and sees the guy she is attracted to and Hana kiss, she tolerates it because she just wants Hana, a person she cares about, to be happy. Tbh this story in a way also kind of reflects the true nature of human kind. How very kind ppl like the mc are always and frequently taken advantage of their kindness. Bc I’ve seen many situations like this happen with ppl like these and it’s sucks on their part because they don’t deserve it !!! But also based off her last statement, I hope she won’t be the one to blatantly point out Hana’s true intentions. Because imo it might cause more harm than good, and I think it would be better if Hyunjin found out Hana’s true intentions himself. Although idk if that’s going to happen or if it’s possible, but let’s see what happens !!! But also tbh I find it inspiring how the mc always tries to find the goodness in other ppl !! Like how it’s so obv that Hana is just using Hyunjin as a rebound and constantly comparing him to her ex’s new girl and how she is better off. I like how the mc continues to believe that Hana’s intentions were true and pure (which they initially were), but slowly it just deviated away from that imo. And the mc notices that which is good, but also it’s just a pity that she clearly likes Hyunjin, and I know I kept mentioning she wouldn’t admit it, she did mention in one of the later parts in chapter 5 that “although she and Hana might like him differently”. Kind of a signifier that she sort of has a feeling that she indeed likes Hyunjin and j think she subconsciously admitted it to herself. THATS A GOOD AND BAD THING bc she will just hurt more, but also it’s a step forward to growth :>.

And as for Hyunjin, he is just confusing I’m sorry ISBAKAJ. Like to the point I’m getting really annoyed JHSJAHAA. bc like it’s obv he is attracted to the mc but idk how he feels about her so I’m kinda lost. But my initial thought still stands wherein I do think he is attracted to the mc hence why he even asked about the mc in the date between him and Hana. But I think he now feels discouraged because he feels like he may not have a chance due to the things that Hana mentioned. How the mc doesn’t take dating seriously etc. but I still do think that he likes her either way ! But idt he is admitting it to himself yet. It’s very endearing how Hyunjin is so observant of the mc and can literally READ but does not see through Hana HELPPP AJDHSJS but it could be bc Hyunjin doesn’t know about Hana’s past with Yeonjun. And tbh I think another reason why Hyunjin isn’t admitting his feelings to the mc is because he thinks that there’s either smthg going on between the mc and Felix, or Felix already likes the mc (or vice versa). This can be seen how when the mc answered the call, he immediately assumed it was Felix. Also I think he likes the mc because literally when they were talking about what could inspire art etc, when he said “A person”, BRO LITERALLY STARED OUR CUTE LIL MC DOWN LIKE SHEEEESH AJBSJAJA. but tbh I also feel bad for Hyunjin bc poor boy must be confused rn ab his feelings bc I think it’s more like, he is already seeing someone but he can’t be feelin these things for someone else, ESPECIALLY FOR THE BEST FRIEND IF THE OERSON HE JS SEEJNG SJSJSJ, so I think he is also “forcing” himself to see the mc in a light wherein they are “just friends” but bae all the signs and actions just make me think he likes the mc more and more AJBSJAHAJA. Sorry Hyunjin you are VERY VERG BAD AG HUDING UR FEELINGS DONT EVEN ESPECIALLY FROM US WE SEE EVERYTHING AISHJAJS. But huge tbh though, I do think Hyunjin is slowly starting to realize his feelings for the mc. This is shown when Hyunjin proposes to cancel his pre made plans with Hana to hang out with the mc !!! I bet if the mc hadn’t said anything, he would’ve really cancelled it. ALSO HELP DID HYUNJIN AND HANA RLLY KISS DOE DURING THEIR DATE ? Doesn’t seem like smthg for Hyunjin’s character in the story to do doe so idk I was shocked sjsbjs

All in all the new chapter was beautifully written as usual !!! But it broke my heart more than it brought me butterflies :<< ITS LIKE there’s always a good moment and then suddenly It’s just gone HUHU SHEBJA. i hope the time wherein everything h folds is soon bc idk how much more heart ace I can take for our poor mc JSBAJA IM TOO INVESTED IN THIS SJSHJSS. But fr I hope both the mc and Hyunjin get together soon HELP I JUST WANT ALL THE DRAMA TO END AKSBJSS ITS TOO PAINFUL !!! JSHAJAHA but that just means ure doing a great Job writing it AJEHJAAJ but actually, will we get to see Hyunjin’s point of view ? Like how he feels about the mc and all ? And around what chapter is that ? And how does Hyunjin truly feel for Hana and the mc ? No pressure to answer though !!

-🌸

your ask made me laugh haha. mission failed indeed !! since you sent this for a previous chapter, i wonder what you feel for her now after the latest update. it definitely is obvious that hyun is and was a rebound to her, but we are yet to hear both of their povs about that relationship in depth !

reading your thoughts about hana is always so interesting haha and i love reading every example for your opinion ! thank you so much for going to that effort and telling me !

aw dont be annoyed by hyun😭😭 hes just sorting out his feelimgs too and perhaps once you read it from his perspective, it may help things haha ? but he definitely is terrible at hiding his feelings and is very very obvious now !! (or is he just being nice 😗)

i hope the butterflies come back but he prepared for a lot more angst before the good stuff 🥲

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NCT DREAM BEYOND LIVE CONCERT!RORY

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NCT DREAM BEYOND LIVE CONCERT!RORY

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okay so the concert started with the vcr/video from the dream show ..

rory's little scene was her as a teacher !!! so cute

OOH and then the transition into her into her teacher clothes into a suit .. thats my girl

her hair is still like this. much more vibrant than it was because she redyed it oops

first song was GO!! change ur ways

she was wearing this [ black cargo pants, a black crop top, belt, along with chains lmao idk how to describe. oh and black boots ] for go, drippin', we go up, and stronger performances!

it was kind of awkward at first but then she saw nctzens' faces so she was happy

"to the world, this is the nct! we are nct dream”

she clapped excitedly, jumping up and down

"beyond the dream show~"

when haechan asked the time where the fans were, she read the comments, squinting funnily at the screen before gasping

"one of the czennies said it was 3am!"

the other boys gasped in shock before clapping slightly

"thank you for watching us even though it's 3am!" rory said to the fans. "but go to bed as soon as this is over~ or whenever you're feeling tired, that's okay too!"

"for our global fans, we prepared something special, right?" haechan said and rory nodded, smiling

"so we prepared our greeting in various languages"

rory's greeting was in french! fans went crazy bc she sounded SO good and her pronounciation was good too

after that she says, "renjun took english from me" in english and playfully glared at the older boy who laughed.

she turned to the fans and said, "but um, wendy-unnie taught me that so .. if it sounds bad it's all her fault." she claps as the other boys laugh

when they were talking about how they felt, rory said "i watched superm and wayv's concerts so i was excited because i knew we'd hear from the fans just like they were here with us in person. they were really loud, too" and laughs

when renjun told them to scream, she hit him lightly and said "yah, don't you remember what i just said? some fans it's 3am there!"

"oh dont scream then," renjun laughed, making her laugh before she went back to waving at the fans as they waved their lightsticks

when the fans appeared behind them, her eyes widened and she immediately ran to the screen, waving in all directions

she noticed when she got close to a fan's screen, they'd start waving their hand/lighstick even harder and it made her laugh

"rory, come back!" jaemin laughed, tugging her with him back to where the other 5 were

"wow, pretty grass" rory mocked mark as she stared at the lightsticks where the audience were supposed to be and on the screens

haechan had to hide a laugh

then there was we go up performance

woo fun

then stronger! she loves that song is2g

okay for the next vcr

she was in a school uniform standing in between jeno and jaemin

"you guys suck," rory laughed, watching the boys try to succeed

when renjun comes over and succeeds in under one minute and one hand, she gasped in shock lightly before watching him walk away coolly and put his head back down on the desk

jaemin nudged her as she laughed, "you guys are just losers!"

and then it ends on her walking over to renjun and bending down to face him and tapping him on the shoulder

he jumps from how close she is and she laughs, grinning at him, "that was cool" before going back over to the boys and he watches her

next video of the vcr oo

she gets hit in the head by the basketball(she's after chenle) and luckily saves it before it falls to the ground and throws it towards the basket, renjun jumping up to hit it in

why is she always getting hit in the head rip rory's head

next performance is dunk shot!!!

she hated the outfits tho jfc

she was wearing white loose shorts that ended midthigh and a pink button up over a white t-shirt

yeah super plain im so sorry rory that the stylists did you dirty like that

(to be fair the boys looked bad too like what was that matching .. there was NONE)

NEXT IS CHEWING GUM!!

AND THERE WERE HOVERBOARDS

SHE MISSED THE HOVERBOARDS SO MUCH

she hyped up jisung so loud during his solo dance

and had a huge ass smile on her face during it

she was in the middle of renjun and chenle at the bottom

AND THEY LEFT A SPACE FOR MARK IN BETWEEN JAEMIN AND JISUNG SHE ALMOST CRIED

"i think chenle changed the most" rory laughed, talking about the difference from now and almost four years ago when they debuted

"you changed a lot, too" chenle poked her and she huffed out a laugh, choosing not to respond to him and shook her head

when it was time for the interactions, she had to hide her wince because since she watched wayv and superm's, she was worried about how it would go because some fans' wifi connections were bad(so were sm's but anyways--)

oh luckily the first fan spoke korean !!

"hi!" she waved excitedly at the fan

when the fan said her name, she quietly repeated it to herself but it was still heard from the mic

"there's a song called 7 days in your album. what do you guys mean to each other?"

rory's mouth went dry at that question as she rubbed her hands together, looking at the boys silently as they ahhed and oohed

she smiled slightly as she saw how big their smiles got at the question

chenle said that the members were his family. they're literally siblings

she laughed at that

hyuck said that the members were apart of himself and that he grew up with all of them

jisung said bc they're older than him, they're like his younger siblings

rory had to look away in order to not laugh at his answer LMFAO

she couldnt contain how big her smile got when jaemin said that he couldn't live without them

she literally almost cried from tears of laughter from jeno's answer "onion"

renjun said that the members are youth to him

and him bringing up the stupid bottle to his face . i s2g she quickly yanked that from him so quick while laughing

and then finally it was her turn

"um, thank you for the question, siyoung!" she clapped slightly before continuing. "to me, the members are .. my childhood" she nodded slightly as she spoke. "we all grew up together so each of them have a piece of my childhood that i dont want to leave"

renjun pulls her into a side hug as jeno says "cute~"

wolfies(rory's stans) cried

when the fan said she'd stick with nct dream seven days a week, she laughed from the sudden overwhelming feeling at her words and bowed towards the fan, keeping her eyes to the ground so the camera wouldn't catch her teary eyes

too bad the camera did once she looked back up

"nct dream have 8 members--" when haechan said that, rory smiled big and nodded her head

"infinity" rory cheered, the members following behind

the next caller was up!

"ooh, poland" rory smiled

the fans question was "what are your biggest dreams" which she translated for them

rory's answer was "i have no doubt that nct dream will stay together forever so ... i my biggest dream is nctzens staying with us forever. even when we all grow up and have our own lives, i hope nctzens will some day think of nct dream and smile"

jaemin literally walked over and pinched her cheek, cooing at how cute she was

rory rolled her eyes playfully but let him

ah yes to this day he's still the only one she'll allow to give her skinship in public

rip other boys

she felt so sad when the third caller's connection was bad

"ah ... difficult technicalities"

she put a thumbs down

anyways next was don't need your love!!!

she LOVES this song so much guys its unreal

her place at the start is right in between renjun and jisung again lmao

shes leaning against chenle and jaemin

she loves hearing the boys' english btw

also in this version she has more lines but im not gonna tell which ones that's too much work

and next is we young!!

watching the part when they take a pic .. made me cry so it made rory very nostalgic

rory's wearing a professional suit but like . with a skirt i forgot what its called rip

she's standing in between hyuck and jeno

when jaemin laughs she laughs

she has that pic in her phone case btw

along with an ot8 pic

when they're talking abt the 50 years later OO im gonna . cry again

"so we can see how we change"

"um, we're gonna look older" rory laughed

btw grandma rory literally still looks good as hell sorry i dont make the rules

rory: "chenle would look like steve jobs but like .. chinese"

chenle was so offended bye

rory: "jisung if you grow a mustache i will never forgive you"

"wHY DOES IT MATTER?????"

"bc you'd look stupid i cant be seen with someone looking stupid"

the other pic where renjun jumps .. her face is literally so genuinely shocked in that pic LMAO she didnt expect that

NEXT IS BEST FRIENDS OH MY GODD I LOVED IT SO DID SHE

SHE JUST WISHED MARK WAS THERE .. AND HE KINDA WAS

btw she was wearing a black blazer but it was shorter .. and another black skirt with a white crop top underneath rip

OKAY HYERI MADE NCTZENS CRY SO HARD

so theyre uneven rn right?

so instead of her being a third wheel(not really)

when it's her part, she's backstage and as she's doing her part, she reached into an open closet and .. pulls out a cutout board of mark :((

yeah she cried too when she thought of it and luckily sm let her!!

at the end of her part towards the end of the song, she smiles and says, "right, mark-oppa?" and forms half a heart up to the camera

(taeyong later sends her a video of mark reacting to her parts and when she does the heart he puts half a heart up next to hers <3)

next is candle light! they dont really have a choreo to this one either

anyway candle light wouldnt have been her first choice bc she'd prefer to perform dear dream .. BUT ANYWAY

next is PUZZLE PIECE and 7 DAYS!!

the camera catches her and jisung doing their little handshake . so cute

she then hugs chenle so he wouldnt feel left out

end posing of puzzle piece, she's in between chenle and jisung AGAIN SLDJDJL

they form a heart with her doing the bottom and chenle and jisung doing the top/sides

when they read the comments after performing jeno reads one that says "rory is so talented, her vocals are so good"

and then hyuck read "rory's parts in best friends was so cute"

she blushes so cute

when they talk abt the album

rory says in english, "thank you for supporting us and we hope you guys enjoyed listening to the album as much as we enjoyed making it .. think of it as our gift to you for always loving us!!" cute baby. and then gives a little finger heart

special guest is mark, jungwoo, and doyoung!!

she expected mark but was surprised about jungwoo and doyoung

she couldnt stop smiling the whole time because literally all she had to do was see 127 and smile immediately like they dont even got to do anything

the technical difficulties .. rory said in english again "i think you need to get your wifi checked, mark"

"no mark-oppa?" he teased and she laughed

when they were complimenting them, jungwoo said that mark really enjoyed rory's parts in best friends and she full out giggled from nervousness, blushing from embarrassment

doyoung complimented her vocals and rap and shes never been so proud of herself

compliments from 127? her greatest achievement

jungwoo then said she was so cute wow more blushing

she found the challenge boring and wouldve preferred if 127 picked the damn challenge themselves bc then it wouldve been funnier and more fun but alas .. sm >:(

she picked puzzle piece tho

THE FUCKING NEXT VCR .. so emotional when she watched over it

she literally just watched her and her friends grow up in literal seconds

there's a clip of her from chewing gum on mark's back while he's riding the hoverboard

.. also somehow they got a clip of her hugging jaemin when he came back sigh

emotional manipulation!! she was kinda pissed that was in there bc it was supposed to be private but what can she do .. it's sm

there's a video of her chasing jeno during we young era while on the mv set

and another one of renjun literally dragging her on the ground because she wouldnt let go of his legs in mfal era

in mfal era she's seen running over chenle when he's out of their little cars

its funny he almost fell if jeno didnt catch him LMAO

but its ok dont fret he was in the grass

mfal era where hyuck tries to make a basket but fails and she steals the ball from him and makes it in .. he pouted FOREVER after that

the video of them in chewing gum era and then goes to ridin' era ..

her clip is her smiling shyly at the camera WITH HER CUTE PIGTAILS OH MYGODDD SO SOFT SO BABY

and then it goes to her in ridin' era with her leaning against the car and a lollipop in her mouth, staring dead straight at the camera somehow intimidatingly

n then ofc the music changes and the videos go more recent

theres clips of her behind the scenes in we young, go, dnyl, and boom

also some of her at that dream show concert

the ridin' stage was prerecorded but anyway she's wearing the same outfit she does in the mv

she saw a clip of the car cg and she yelled at the members jokingly saying it almost ran her over

wearing same outfit for quiet down which was live

they had one more song after :( she was really sad and she made sure nctzens knew that

"i wish we could perform more songs for you guys but .. only one more :(" and then sighed really loudly

"i wish you guys were here in person as well but your health is way more important and until then .. well, hopefully we can see each other again in the future! i miss seeing all your pretty faces" she then pouted as the other members oohed loudly and she laughed

after the other members continue she then reminds them all to "wash their hands and wear their masks over their noses if they have to go out"

when renjun says bonjour her eyes widen and she says "wow, so you stole my english and now my french?" she jokingly raises her hand to hit him but all he does is laughs and grabs her hand to 'stop her'

last is boom!

they shouldve performed dear dream or mfal but i guess booms good too not like they havent had to hear that song for 9 months

anyways

at the end she sneakily gives the camera a finger heart

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k-renne · 6 years

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ROOMIES

SUMMARY: Clyde Logan was moving in, and it was almost inevitable that old feelings from years ago would resurface. Combined with the tension of such close quarters, and disaster strikes

WARNING: SM*T

TAGS: @oh-adam, @thecurlycaptain, @adamsnackdriver, @thepilotanon

Clyde dropped his stuff on the front porch, a few cardboard boxes of the rest of his stuff waiting in his car. He was nervous to say the least, he was solely trusting Mellie that his new roommate would be alright. He didn’t wanna have to buy his own place, so when an offer popped up of someone looking for a roommate in a cute little house not too far from the bar he knew he had to take it. Especially cause he knew Mellie did not plan on living with him in the long term.

As much as he liked living with his sister, he needed to feel a little more sense of independence. For now this was a good step for him to take before gettin’ his own place, saving up by sharing a house with someone else. And it was a nice little place too, private and surrounded by trees, some flowers out front which should have given him a hint about his new roommate, but with Mellie doing most of the organizing Clyde had no idea of just what he was getting into.

He knocked on the door, readying himself for an introduction. The door opened quickly and he was met with a smiling face he did not expect, yours. “Hi, you must be my new roommate!” You greeted Clyde.

Clyde was frozen on the spot, so surprised to see you that he forgot the introduction he spent so much time thinking of. “Oh no, you look upset. Did you not know? Mellie told me she had explained everything and…”

“She didn’t.” Clyde answers, swallowing thickly. His hand was shaking, heart racing as he looked at you. He should’ve realized it sooner, with the pretty flowers, the hearts on the welcome mat. Why Mellie wasn’t giving him much time to read the ad she showed him, he just thought she was in a rush to get her place back in order so she could bring Joe bang around without him knowing.

“Why don’t you just come inside, and we can talk. I know it’s been a long time Clyde, I’m sorry I really thought-”

“It’s alright, it ain’t your fault,” Clyde shook his head, following you inside. He sucked in a breath, his heart already beginning to feel a familiar ache. He just couldn’t believe he was in your home, much less that he was gonna be living in it.

You came up every summer to visit your Grandma, and while you got off to a rocky start with the Logans, you became fast friends and eventually privy to some of their cauliflower schemes. And he had the worst crush on you, even just as kids. He didn’t know it then, didn’t really understand it till he was much older, why he stilled missed you after being gone for so long. He still has some of the letters you sent him while he was in juvie, stored away somewhere.

“Well I really tried to talk to you but Mellie said you didn’t have a phone and I couldn’t find out best how to reach you. I wanted to know if you were okay with, you know, living with me.”

Clyde looked at you, thinking for a long moment of just what he was gonna choose. But, a part of him already knew he was going to say yes. Mostly cause he couldn’t stand the prospect of hurting you in any way. “I’m okay with it, as long as it’s what ya want.”

“Oh yes! Of course, even though it’s been what, ten years? I still consider you a dear friend Clyde Logan.” You reach over and place your hand over his, smiling.

He feels himself starting to choke up, just knowing this was gonna be his doom. Resigned to his fate, Clyde nodded and smiled back at you. “Yeah uh it’ll be just like old times.” He laughed nervously, eyes crinkling to disguise his worry.

If he thought living with Mellie was weird, living with you felt like being in some sorta alternate reality. One where he didn’t have a curse of bad luck hanging over your head. After he unpacked you had dinner ready for him, something to eat before he went off to the bar.

He kept pinching himself, because it all felt like some sorta dream. You had the room all set up for him, already providing a bed with some sheets on it and a comfy looking chair that he could read in. He was already getting nervous thinking of the shower situation, just knowing he’d be sharing it with you. Not at the same time of course! But, just the idea of it was enough to fuel Clyde’s mind full of not so innocent things that he probably should not think about his roommate.

At the bar, thinking about coming home to you softened his heart and made him shudder. He felt like your husband or something, living in your cozy home and eating dinner with you. The only thing that he wasn’t doing was sharing a bed with you.

It only got worse for Clyde as the days went on, the crush he once had returning in full force and developing into something much more mature than an innocent little crush. Being in that house was starting to suffocate him, everywhere he was surrounded by you, your scent, your kindness, the sweet moans you’d let out that you thought he couldn’t hear, he could barely breathe.

He just felt so hot all the time, waking up in a cold sweat and his cock aching for attention. He had been trying to stave off doing that for so long, knowing if you were awake you’d definitely hear the noises he’d make even if he muffled them. Sometimes he’d just go to work early to try and quickly rub one out, just try and chip away at his mounting desires.

He was starting to think about it all the time when he was around you, staring you down as you cooked dinner and imagining taking you over the kitchen counter. “Ah-oh yes Clyde!” You’d moan out his name as he fucked into you, his hips savagely fucking you against the counter top. Just in a complete haze as his cheeks turned pink, his hand tightening its grip around the countertop.

Clyde let out a groan as you bent over to put something in the oven, hiding his face in his arm against the countertop. “I know you’re hungry but it’s not done just yet Clyde,” You laugh at him.

He lifts his head up, his cheeks still red, “Ah no that’s not what I meant sweetheart, that’s not why I’m frustrated,” He apologizes, feeling bad for seeming rude. The way he’s looking at you, it’s different and fills you with a familiar ache, you don’t know if you’ve ever seen Clyde so flustered looking. And you know what it is, it’s the way a man looks at something that he wants...very very much.

Clyde ate dinner fast, rushing to get to work early so he could take care of his need. But this time you stop him, “Clyde um, do you have to leave so soon?”

He pauses looking back at you, his heart breaking. “No I don’t I just thought I’d get some work done s’all.” He frowns, feeling guilty for rushing out on you after you just made dinner. He walks over to the kitchen and begins to clean up, “I’m sorry sweetheart I was just being selfish.”

“No Clyde, I can do those later. I just thought maybe we’d hang out for once?”

“Oh uh, ya wanna hang out with me?” He points at himself, not fully believing it.

“If you don’t mind staying, c’mon we’re friends. It’ll be fun,” You smile at him, but it’s nervous.

At the reminder of your friendship Clyde gives back a tight lipped smile and nods, “Great! I got that beer I know you like from the store if you want one,” You offer. And Clyde feels like his heart is going to burst from a sudden wave of feeling, she’s so sweet I can’t even take it.

Drinking away his worries with you Clyde laughs as you reminisce about the time he got caught trying to steal on of the Jenkins puppies for you because you said you wanted one. Mr. Jenkins sure had a lecture for him and made him mow his lawn for the rest of the summer. “Maybe we should get a pet,” You suggest.”

Clyde’s gaze softens, “Yeah? Ya think we can handle it?” He feels like your partner, a pet is such a commitment that means the bond between you is cemented. He’s completely lost the urgency in opening the bar tonight, time lost until Jimmy calls the house.

“So Clyde, were ya just planning on not opening the bar tonight?” Jimmy asks him over the phone.

“No I wasn’t planning to...” He trails off as he looks at you. “But I think I need a night off. The bar will be fine for one night.” He shrugs. It’s so unusual for Clyde, who hasn’t missed opening the bar since he got the flu two years back.

“Alright slick, you have fun with Y/N. And good for you Clyde, you guys have always been a good match,” Jimmy encourages Clyde, whose now blushing.

“I’m sorry Clyde I made you late didn’t I,” You frown.

“It’s alright sweetheart, I don’t think I’ll be going to work tonight. If ya wouldn’t mind hanging out with me tonight.” He says shyly.

Your eyes light up, “I’d love to spend more time with you Clyde. We live together, but sometimes it feels like you’re so distant. Part of the reason I even wanted a roommate is because well, it’s less lonely.” You admit.

“You were lonely?” Clyde moves forward on the couch closer to you, worried. He’s no stranger to loneliness but the fact that someone as lovely as you could feel that way makes him sad, makes him want to comfort you.

“Yeah, I was talking to Mellie and I have some friends at work but I missed you.”

Clyde took in a deep breath, “I missed you too, it’s been too long sweetheart.” He put his hand on your knee, rubbing it slowly. “Feels like a blink of an eye, all of the sudden we’re living together and you’re all grown up, turned into the prettiest woman I’ve ever seen,” He stares off, voice getting dreamy as a blush blooms in his cheeks.

“Stop it Clyde, don’t just stay stuff like that. You’re drunk,” You shake your head, smiling. His touch feels like fire to your skin, making you warm and fuzzy inside.

“Am not,” Clyde pouts at you, though he knows he is. “S’truth anyways, doesn’t matter if I’m a little tipsy.”

You rest your head on his shoulder and sigh, “You’re not so bad yourself you know.”

Clyde turned to look at you, confusion on his face. “And what is that s’posed to mean?”

You laugh, “I mean you’re handsome silly.” You smile at him, poking his nose. His face splits into a dopey grin and he starts to laugh.

“You think I’m handsome? The prettiest girl in Boone County thinks I’m handsome...ah could kiss ya right now,” He looks at you lovingly, his cheeks nice and rosy.

“Why don’t you?” You lick your lips.

Clyde’s shoulders deflate, “Because...I’ll mess everythin’ up sweetheart. And then we won’t even be friends no more.” His voice breaks.

You narrow your eyes, annoyed. “Clyde Logan, you are so wrong,” You shake your head. Feeling emboldened by alcohol, you cup his face in your hands and kiss him softly. He moans as soon as you kiss him, just melting against your touch. The kiss turns a little messy when you slip your tongue in his mouth, Clyde over eager to taste you. When you part for air a string of saliva connects your reddened lips, that Clyde gently wipes away.

He pants as he catches his breath, searching your face for answers. “Shit!” He lets out a curse. “Darlin’, ya can’t just kiss me like that and leave a man cravin’ more. I’m never gonna be able to calm him down,” He looks down at his pants, his cock painfully pressing against the tight fabric.

“Hmm I’ve heard some of those noises you make late at nice, seems like he needs lots of special attention,” You tease him, resting your hand just besides his cock.

Clyde huffs, giving you a look of desperation. “I need-I need your attention, you’re the one that’s been drivin’ me so crazy. I just can’t stop thinkin’ about it, fuckin’ your cute little ass against the kitchen counter...ah just want your pussy so bad baby!” Clyde lets out a needy whine.

His little fantasy gives you an idea, and you wanna give sweet Clyde just what he wants. Getting up you saunter over to the kitchen counter, taking off your top as he watches you with wide eyes. You wriggle your hips for him and stick out your ass, bending over the counter. “C’mere then big boy I’m waiting.”

Clyde jumps up from the coach, running over to you, “Oh honey, sweetheart-you’re so fuckin’ good to me. I’m gonna be real nice to ya, give your cute little pussy just what it needs.” He presses himself against you from behind, slowly grinding his hips against your ass. His hand slides up between your legs, cupping your clothed pussy and massaging it with his hand.

“Mmm that feels nice,” You hum.

Clyde soars with pride, your words giving him more confidence. He drops to his knees, sliding down your pants so he can kiss between your legs. “Ah can just see your cute little pussy behind those pretty panties ya got on, already soakin’ baby you’re doin’ so good,” Clyde praises you. He slides your panties off and down your thighs. “Fuck nothin’ smells better than this,” He grunts as he gets a whiff of your arousal.

You squeak as Clyde dips his tongue into your slick, hot mouth kissing and sucking on your clit. Getting you nice and ready for him with his fingers, he coos as he sees your pussy start to drool, “Look at you, fuck never thought I’d get to see such a pretty sight. Your sweet pussy droolin’ right onto the floor, poor baby needs some lovin.”

“Yes Clyde, I need your cock,” You say breathlessly, your hips writhing.

Clyde hisses, “Fuck sweetheart since ya asked so nicely I got no choice,” He says as he starts to remove himself from his pants. Just feeling the heat of your pussy radiate against his bare cock has him rearing to go.

You feel the head of his cock against your entrance, the anticipation of it making you squirm with need. It had been so long and the fact you were doing something like this with Clyde had you incredibly horny, you could just feel yourself aching to be filled with something, your cunt clenching on air. But Clyde seemed to be taking his sweet time, rubbing his cock against your slick languidly. It made you whine, “Please Clyde-I need you.”

Clyde growled low in his chest, your neediness gave him this raw desire to give it to you hard, fuck you like a beast in a rut. “I’m yours darlin,” He says huskily as he slides into you, grunting as your tight heat sheathes his cock. “Ah fuck, I just knew this would ruin me-” He breathes out as he adjusts to you. Slowly he begins to roll his hips against you, “Ruin me because I’d never be able to stop wantin’ this...this perfect sweet pussy.”

“Well don’t think I’m gonna let you do this just once,” You say back to him, gripping onto to the counter for dear life as Clyde begins to pound you. And god it was more than you could ever imagine from him, you never thought it’d be like this. You thought he’d be sweet and slow, and maybe another time he would be, but this time he was desperate and greedy. He was handling you in the rough sorta way that you knew would leave you sore, and you couldn’t lie that you loved this side of him.

“I’m so glad sweetheart, I don’t just want this to be a one time thing. I need ya to be mine,” Clyde leans down, nuzzling against your back. He huffs with exertion and his hot breath hits your skin, his hand holding your hip to keep you in place with each hard thrust following the long drag of his cock against your cock.

As he rubbed against your walls he hit a sweet spot, making your cry out. “Clyde! Ah, yes I’m yours, only yours.” You arched your back, reaching a hand between your legs to rub your clit.

He let out a resounding moan of approval, his hand sliding to smack your ass. Clyde watched to see you touch yourself, feeling more wetness lubricate his cock as he slid inside you. If that sight didn’t make him moan, it was just so damn hot, and seeing your walls stretch around his cock unf. It was too much, and he sped up his pace because he knew he was already close, his thrusts becoming frenzied and messy. “Baby-ah fuck, can I cum inside-please,” His voice cracked in desperation.

“Mm-yes, please I want it,” You panted. You were on the pill, and the thought alone of Clyde’s hot cum spurting inside you had you on the edge. As you continued to touch yourself, you felt your orgasm come over you. “Clyde I’m cummin’-oh,” You warned him, as you slumped against the counter.

“Fuck you’re such a good girl, cummin’ on my cock like that. Can feel your cute little pussy clenchin’, ah I’m so close!” Clyde praised you, squeezing his eyes shut as he came. He came hard inside you, shuddering as your pussy milked the rest of his load. When he pulled out his cum dripped from your entrance, it made him do a double take he almost didn’t believe what just transpired.

Boneless as you rested on the counter top, you felt Clyde’s warm hand caress your back, soothing the tension away. After you caught your breath he peeled you from the counter, pulling you back so you were leaning against his chest. “C’mon sweetheart, I can’t leave ya here in this mess alright?” He spoke softly, tilting his head down to talk close to your ear. You nodded, letting him help you over to the bathtub.

Silently Clyde helped you undress and started running a bath, he started to walk away to leave you be when you called out to him. “Where are you going? Take a bath with me,” You pouted at him.

“You want me too?” Clyde was beginning to doubt himself, wondering if he really did just ruin everything between you two, if he was too rough, if you even enjoyed it.

“Yes Clyde, don’t be dumb we just had sex I want you to hold me,” You crossed your arms at him.

“Oh…” He looked down, blushing. He looked back at you for a moment, his heart racing at seeing how pretty you looked naked and well fucked.

“C’mon now don’t be shy,” You held out your hand. Clyde gave you a very unsure look, but still listened to you.

Not without nerves, Clyde began to unbutton his shirt. He took off his prosthetic, not taking his eyes off you. Fully naked before you he was a complete mess, blushing all over and awkwardly trying to cover himself. But you beamed at him, “Even more handsome,” You sighed, this man was built like a fridge and you loved every inch of him, down to each freckle. You moved forward to give him room to slide behind you, the water splashing and rising much hire as he got in.

Laying back against his chest you closed your eyes, cozying up against him. Clyde wrapped both his arms around your waist and you smiled, sighing in content. “This is so romantic,” You bring a hand up to run over his bicep.

Even though he just fucked you, Clyde is getting flustered all over again and even more so than before. He’s absolutely powerless and weak for you as you touch him, resting his chin against the top of your head. Yeah, you were right. He could get used to this. He dipped down to leave soft kisses against your neck, he couldn’t really put words to how good he was feeling but he could try and show you the affection he felt. If he could just stay with you like this forever, skin against skin listening to the lapping water and your sweet noises of approval, things would be alright.

#clyde logan x reader #filth #happy vday you guys!

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youarewurthit · 5 years

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Waiting For Her // chapter 8

Au: ceo au + ballerina au

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Fluff, angst (?), lil smut

word count : 1383

Warning: things get steamy but no smut so don't come at me bcs it could be considered smut or not

a/n: I cringe sm at how everything is going but it’s alright I just gotta finish this series bcs I hate series that never come to a conclusion even though you know where it’s going (yagets???) but oh well the show must go on!

After much contemplation, Jungkook came backstage to see (y/n). He couldn’t help himself really. He yearned to be in (y/n)’s touches but just a simple glance to acknowledge Jungkook would be enough. He felt unsettled after sleeping with Jennie that night.

Jungkook caught the familiar white swan surrounded by other dancers and it seemed that one male dancer, which was Prince Siegfred in the ballet was a bit too close and friendly with (y/n). Kissing her hand and all. Jungkook had to rationalize his thoughts now. They weren’t together anymore and (y/n) could be with whoever she wants to be with. That thought made jealousy bubble up but it went down when he realized that he was nearing (y/n).

Her eyes landed on Jungkook and her heart fluttered at the dashing sight of the man she let go of. She blinked and somehow all her colleagues and friends just floated elsewhere. Jungkook stood still, one hand in his pocket and the other with roses.

He held out the roses and (y/n) smiled, if there was something that (y/n) has that catches hearts, it was her smile.

She took the roses and said,” So how was the show?”

“Perfect and incredible as always,” Jungkook replied, cheeks warming up at how beautiful (y/n) is the more he sees her.

“Um…I’ll go change and remove my crazy make up haha,” (y/n) rushed as awkward situations tends to make her say things that aren’t supposed to be said. Seeing Jungkook was too much anyway, it was her fault that she let the comments of others dictate what was right for their relationship.

Stepping outside of the theatre, (Y/n) was surprised to see Jungkook still out there. Could he be waiting for his new girlfriend? Or me? Probably not the latter. She doesn’t want to get her hopes up either way. Jungkook turned around fixing his hair, eyes catching (y/n).

“Where are you going?” (Y/n) stopped and brushed off the non-existent dust off her dress,”Oh, I’m heading home now, goodnight Jungkook!”

“Wait, I was waiting for you, let me give you a ride home, it’s not safe this late out.”

“Oh, ok then,” she was exhausted anyways.

During the ride to her place, she couldn’t help but notice all those tiny little signs Jungkook has been showing in their relationship that no matter how slow or fast she goes he’ll always be there waiting for her. No matter how late at night or early in the morning, Jungkook would always be there by her side if she needs him. What has she done to help Jungkook with his life? All she could think of was how bad of a partner she has been in the relationship.

“What’re you thinking of, (y/n)?” Jungkook had one hand not he steering wheel and the other elbow propped up on his door side.

“Does it show on my face?” (Y/n) looked over at Jungkook. Jungkook always seemed to look more attractive whenever she looks at him, she guessed it was his pupils always dilating around her.

He hummed, moving the car as the green light came up.

“How’ve you been Jungkook?” She’s dodging his questions but he’ll play along with it.

“Um things could be better but I’m doing fine I guess,” he replied.

“Any plans this weekend?” (Y/n) prompted.

“Nope, I actually wanted to ask you that.”

It was only a few minutes left until they got to her place. (Y/n) wished she wasn’t so bad at communicating but she was.

Jungkook drove up to the drop off station, feeling a bit unsure about himself now. He didn’t want to see you go but he knows that you’re probably exhausted out of your mind right now.

“Do you want to have some coffee in my apartment?” (Y/n) looked at Jungkook hopefully.

“Sure.” He parked the car and went to (y/n)’s apartment.

Jungkook missed the scent of (y/n)’s apartment. As she entered and dropped her bags, she looked at Jungkook, maybe there’s still something between the two of them that this time it can be saved. Boldly, (y/n) wrapped her arms around Jungkook, pulling him into a hug. Automatically, he wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her closer. He smiled and muttered,” What are you trying to do, (y/n) ?”

She pulled back, placing the palms of her hand on his chest,” Just wanted to thank you for everything you’ve done for me.” He gazed at her, he could hardly believe that he was holding her this close.

“Let’s get some coffee now shall we?” (Y/n) smiled at him, hands sliding down from his shoulders to his arms. Jungkook started flexing when her hands landed on his muscles.

They settled on her sofa in the living room, they were both at the ends of the sofa, Jungkook had his outer jacket and tie off. (Y/n) took a sip of her coffee and placed her mug down, bringing her hands up to her bun, Jungkook was watching her as he sipped his coffee.

Their eyes saying it all, (Y/n) knew that look Jungkook had and she could only shake her head and smiled, cheeky boy, she thought. She released her ponytail, letting her hair fall to its’ glory. She combed her hands through her hair ,” What is it Jungkook?” Her eyes dancing with mischief.

“Oh it’s nothing,” Jungkook shrugged, teasing you with the unknown and you hate not knowing what he’s thinking of. You placed your mug down on the coffee table and now that you’re fully warmed up to Jungkook, you have no filter with you words now.

Seems like the night has just begun when both of you started catching up with each other. Jungkook confessed about the night with Jennie and all that business and you couldn’t lie, it was a pinch to the gut but you deserved it anyway. It was you who was so insecure about what others are thinking that you forgot about Jungkook’s feeling and his thoughts on all this.

You placed your mug down on the coffee table and stood up. Jungkook placed his mug down and layed back watching you, wondering what you’re gonna pull next. You straddled his lap and placed your hands around his neck, playing with the backs of his soft hair.

Jungkook bit his lip, eyes falling to your lips. He placed his hands at both of your sides. Jungkook missed you being all up on him and touching him that this was no surprise. You pulled him closer and rested your head in the crook of his neck, inhaling his cologne.

You sighed and looked at him ,” I don’t deserve you Jeon Jungkook, you’re too nice and too kind with me. I’m just gonna put this out there, you are the best boyfriend anyone can ever have. You’ve always been there for me and what did I do? I just sucked and I never have time for you and relationships are a give and take thing alright-“ Jungkook cut you off when he crashed his lips onto yours.

He kneaded your ass as you grinded on him, kissing him deeper. He pulled back breathless,” You never sucked (y/n), yes, you sucked my cock but that’s another thing we have to get to.” You laughed giving him a kiss on his cheek. He grinned, eyes smiling.

Jungkook cleared his throat and continued,”Now where was I? Oh the part where you are the best girlfriend ever and that maybe you don’t see it sometimes. I feel your love and support for me in any way possible and baby girl, you are human okay?”

Your eyes are glazed over with tears and you giggled,” Okay, Jungkook.”

He wiped your tears and peppered you with kisses all over your face, making you giggle more. Jungkook ended up staying at your apartment with you in his arms.

Both of you don’t know where you guys stand yet but surely it’s almost decided.

#bts fluff #bts angst #jungkook fluff #jungkook fanfic #kpop fanfiction #kpop fluff #ballerina au #jungkook x reader #jungkook #bts jungkook #jeon jungkook

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fuck-customers · 6 years

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Karma is a B word

So, a follow up to my submission. Coworker royally screwed up. Sorry this is seriously long

So its 11/17 and normally I take Saturdays off, since i'm part time only and I know it helps the full time people get their hours. But my manager had asked me the day before if I could work, so I said sure (more hours means more money for Christmas gifts for my kid). I come in at 7am to help package n bake with the main baker that day. About 730 I'm chatting with her on what she wants me to do next when coworker (we will call her C to make it easier) comes waltzing in. Now, I know she's supposed to be in at 10, it says so on her schedule and its also why I offered to work 7am to 11, to minimize our time together so it won't cause drama. Guess what ya'll I was wrong!

She sees me and I can see her shut down IMMEDIATELY like I had just given her a big gift of sh*t. She mutters some excuse of "store manager wants me to do a hand drawn sign" n bolts! I look at my baker like "oh lord here we go!"

Now, her job isn't to do signs even though I'll admit they look great. It ESPECIALLY isn't her DANG job if we're on holiday weekend before Thanksgiving and her coldcase needs to be filled and backups done. But whatever I figure it can't possibly take her more than a few hours n by than I'd be gone n she could do her actual job without me around to "bother" her.

Our bakery manager comes in @10, looks around for C n we inform her she's in the front office doing a sign and has come in at 7am. She sighs but doesn't do anything about it (love my manager to bits but that's literally the only thing that drives us all nuts, is that she won't confront C about this kinda nonsense).

Fast forward to about 12ish. I'm trying to help package at this point because we are busy, and manager was ok with me staying later than planned. Cold case is starting to get noticeable holes from items sold, n C is still up front. I offer to do coldcase but manager tells me no it's fine, its C's job after all.

We get our asm in and is like "district manager is in the store!" Like, k that's normal this time of year. So we all put our "we love this soul sucking job" faces on n I'm still like "C isn't back are you sure you don't want me staying coldcase?" She shakes her head n says just to keep putting product out.

DM n all the stores' asms and our SM are now walking around, making sure everything looks as it should for a busy weekend before a major holiday. I see his face right as he spots the coldcase from our furthest tables, a brief frown. Halfway through his table walking C thinks NOW she should be doing her job, like almost 5 hours later n gets her uniform on right as DM gets closer. Its clear he sees her and at this point I excuse myself to the bathroom cause I know something is gonna happen.

I come back to see C and our ASM talking, C is starting to get teary eyed n upset. I keep working cause I don't have time, sadly, to watch this TV drama unfold. But I catch ASM: "you need to to go home C." "WHAT!? HOW IS THIS MY FAULT, WHY AM I IN TROUBLE!?" in between grabbing rolls from the freezer to put out. C grabs her stuff and storms out crying.

Bakery manager is like "uhhhhh I know I said don't do the cold case but can u please start it? We appearntly have a REGIONAL manager from corporates head office coming in any minute". I bust out super worker mode at this point (thankfully it's big ticket items missing so i can easily plug them in asap n fluff uo the coldcase). But our ASM stops me n goes "hey, your manager n I just want to let you know, we have your back about C. We're sorry about this" like FINALLY YOU'RE SEEING HER BS THAT WE'VE (other bakers n i)BEEN TELLING YOU ABOUT!

So after much discussion I find out C wants out of the bakery because "no one wants me here anyways!!" Like, I mean yeah we don't if you won't DO YOUR JOB LIKE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO!! And also the asm is mad he believed her little lies n pitty stories she's been feeding him to look good. Turns out not only was she told to go home by our asm, but the DM, whom she's been a kissass to for years, ALSO told her to go home!

Tldr: co worker sets herself up for karma and gets sent home for not doing her job, thus proving everything I've been telling my managers.

#tw #trigger warning #submissions #fuck customers #cashier problems #happy ending #fuck co-workers #fuck retail #embarrassing #server problems #call center problems #fuck coworkers #fuck managers #retail justice #retail law #crying #yelling #cursing #submission

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zchaotic · 5 years

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Decent story telling deciphering. Episode 3, Lusamine

Finally, the third member of the Aether Family and the one that has the most different adaptations.

Lusamine; President of the Aether Foundation and the mother of Gladion and Lillie.

Contrary to how the adaptations seem, they kept one big thing about her intact. Being a lousy mother with some messed up priorities.

From Vanilla SM, we have the one most of the fanbase is familiar with... as a terrifying villain and an example of how NOT to write a tragic villain that we want to see have a turnaround.

Let us start with her backstory, that gets better explained in USUM in comparison. She was someone who inherited the Aether Foundation from her father, met a man named Mohn, found love and had two kids.

Lusamine, is someone who is all about giving love to others and being loved back. According to the backstory, she was someone who loved her family that much, but has a fixation on it.

The desire to love and be loved becomes a key component into her downward spiral when her husband, Mohn, had an accident involving researching an Ultra Wormhole. The man was sucked into a wormhole, never to be seen again and left Lusamine with a member of the family gone, the only things that were left was a Cosmog and notes on Nihilego, the only clue she has in regarding to where Mohn is.

This... as Lillie said to us on Exeggutor Island, was around the point Lusamine changed... for the worse.

Lusamine became fixated on wanting to get Mohn back, to the point of trauma induced madness, where she blindly searched for ways to open the wormhole and look for him.

This resulted in Type:Null being created, a weapon made from several pokemon, to fight against the Beast beyond the wormhole, it came off as a failure and was frozen away. In addition, she started becoming more controlling of her kids due to what happened with Mohn, where she decided everything for them and never let them make their own choices.

She either continued to mess with the wormhole so much that eventually she encountered Nihilego in some way and got high on neurotoxins that turn her into her most warped, extreme self that only cared about Nihilego OR became so focused on researching wormholes to the point of obsession of where only the beasts matter... which makes things very confusing in the games since neither are explained very well.

What we gotten by the time the games plot started, was a woman that was putting on a friendly facade and only had one goal, get the Ultra Beasts. She was willing to manipulate, control and use everyone around her for her schemes, just to reach Nihilego. With no regard to the safety of others and her obsession with the beasts and beauty, lead to really disturbing implications that many... myself included, believed. Like dressing Lillie up as Nihilego, so she would resemble the only thing she cares about, the only thing worth of her “love”.

It gets worse when Lillie got taken to Aether Paradise, when Lusamine verbally tore at Lillie, saying she wasn’t pretty, that Lillie isn’t able to do anything on her own, among other horrid things. We see her with many pokemon that she froze as part of her collection, her screaming at Gladion and Lillie, saying that they stole from her and betrayed her.

Was callous in her treatment of Nebby when she used its power to open many wormholes to bring the Ultra Beasts over, while taunting Lillie over the fact that it might die. Had Guzma... a gang leader, under her thumb and willing to do what ever she says, because she gave praise to him and possible was only taking advantage of him, follow her into Ultra Space, to be with Nihilego.

To be blunt, Lusamine was a grade A cunt!

During you and Lillie’s journey, we were giving some dialogue from the girl that things were not always like this. That Lusamine wasn’t the big uncaring cunt we saw... and that was the only hint as to why we were going into Ultra Space to rescue Lusamine and Guzma.

The Beasts that were let out of Alola were a problem that was swept under the rug and apparently, the big reason Lillie wanted to go into Ultra Space was to tell Lusamine off.

Seemed to make sense after learning that Lusamine ditched Guzma to do her own thing... which resulted in the gang leader latched on by those things for a moment.

Lillie calling Lusamine out only set that crazy woman off into flinging more abusive language at Lillie and letting Nihilego latch onto her. Becoming the Mother Beast and try to kill you and Lillie, Nebby shot at Lusamine in the end, separated the two and all of a sudden Lusamine became nicer and gave Lillie some sweet words before falling into a coma. Lillie instantly forgave her mother for all that, dragged her and Guzma out of Ultra Space and later on, Lillie felt obligated to help Lusamine recover by going to Kanto. With hints that Lusamine still doesn’t know what she did wrong.

In the post game, we learn that Nihilego wasn’t much of a mind control venom, we have no good hints into when, if and how she got infected and then Gladion mentioned the backstory with Mohn. It was the wrong place and the wrong time in the story FOR this information.

Leaving many players to care little about wanting to see this woman recover/ rebuild her relationship with her kids and either A. Want her dead or B. are more concern of the many messed up things she did to her kids. In addition, it is pokemon, Lillie and Bill, WILL find a way to pull that recovery off and Lusamine would have gotten off way too easy despite her crap.

Very sloppy way to end a story and left no closure... despite being an effective villain and an accurate portrayal of an abusive parent.

Gamefreak end up becoming aware of this and in came USUM with its rewrite of her.

A similar if identical backstory came around and it brought more light into Lusamine as a character... and actual character instead of a villain.

Instead of being allowed to pursue Nihilego to the levels it did in SM, she encountered people from another world (The Ultra Recon Squad.) that told her about a pokemon called Necrozma, that would steal the light of Alola and bring about the apocalypse.

We have Lusamine delve into a messiah complex, believing that she is the one to go after Necrozma and protect everyone, despite still being a bitch to her kids.

For many fans, this created a backlash and to them... think it was butchery of her character... when really it isn’t.

This when you bring everything into context, reveals the real reason she was obsessed with the Ultra Wormhole and expand on the Lusamine we knew from the first game.

Lusamine was obsessed with revenge, revenge against Ultra Space and the Ultra Beasts for stealing Mohn away from her. This is the reason why she allowed Type:Full to happen, Faba created it as a way to appease to her, without her knowing and the woman caught wind of it.

So she allowed it to happen/ oversaw it as a way to have a tool of vengeance. But, Type:Full didn’t go accordingly and she had it frozen. This fits perfectly in the woman’s descent into madness, for vengeance is a very strong motivator to terrible things.

Because Lusamine lost Mohn from things that became beyond her control, she vowed to make sure she doesn’t lose anyone else, due to things beyond her control. Which is why she became a control freak to Gladion and Lillie, why she still has all those frozen pokemon, it wasn’t about keeping things beautiful/ because they were play things to her, it was about not wanting to lose those close to her.

Lusamine... still....went.... nuts!

This brings a different light to Lillie’s old look as I mentioned, it’s resemblance to Nihilego was nothing more than a coincidence... Nihilego has nothing to do the metaphor. Instead, the clothes are a metaphor to how overbearing Lusamine is to her kids. “Children would be all much happier if they’d only listen to the adults around them.” A quote from the bitch herself.

She actually thinks that she knows best and everyone who said otherwise are to shut up/ get out of her way. Which helps make things like Nihlego showing up at Aether Paradise through an Ultra Wormhole, make all the more sense despite her goals having nothing to do with Nihilego... why she needed the Cosmog despite the Ultra Recon Squad having another way into Ultra Space. Why did any of that needed to happen despite that.

She wanted to use HER Cosmog, to open a wormhole to Necrozma and go after it, despite the URS planning a more controllable approach. She wanted to channel her frustration out on it, look for Mohn and keep her self appointed image as a protector of all. This is very selfish, all her talk of protecting others was just that... talk to hide her truer.. darker motives. All of it is displayed in the main story this time when Gladion brought up Mohn.

Thankfully, due to Nihilego not being Lusamine’s central focus this time, we got to see what would have been if that was never the case. In USUM espite how messed up of a person Lusamine became and how messed up as a parent she became, she DOES care about her kids and the pokemon under her care. Which makes her bitterness towards her kids understandable... despite it still being her own damn fault they ran and how Lillie and Gladion had every right to run. She really was hurt by how they left her, she lost those she held dear and her reasons for battling you and going after Necrozma becomes even more fueled... she wanted to prove to those around her that she was right and they were wrong.

This makes her, even in her grief fueled insanity, much more human compared to the monster she was in SM. While she isn’t the caricature of an abusive parent she was in SM, she is more effective as a character in USUM because we see the bigger picture with what has happened to her.

Despite how Hau said “I know she was a good person” Gladion’s reaction should have been enough to tell us that he doesn’t believe that to be the case, he knows Lusamine became horrible BUT he does get why she is doing the things she is doing.

Why she became the bitch she was and why should we care for her having a turn around and making repairs with her kids.

She is someone we still want to slap hard in the face, for all the mega bitch things she pulled and is someone that would turn around for the better.

Her relationship with Guzma... still hasn’t changed much, but brings more into light that YES the things she said to give praise to Guzma were genuine... though she still took advantage of him. The URS and their request for help against Necrozma, an excuse to try and look for Mohn while hiding that selfish reason.

Then Lusamine and Guzma got their asses KICKED by Necrozma. Who followed them straight to an evolved Nebby, these two... agroo’d Necrozma to the last thing ANYONE wanted that thing to be near.

It created a chain of events that lead to things from the first game happening, Ultra Beasts being let loose and calamity nearing. Unlike in SM, there was a reason why the Beasts were ignored this time, Necrozma was the bigger issue for you the player, it took Nebby as its fused form and escaped into Ultra Megapololis.

While this was happening, Lusamine was at the mercy of a pissed of Recon Squad and to Lillie who had a few things to say to her. Lillie told us what it was at Vast Poni Canyon’s entrance and with Lusamine in a better position to listen to Lillie.

During the time between you going after and beating Necrozma... Lusamine listened to Lillie and have a realization into how messed up she was as a person. That is why she apologized to Lillie, admitting that her kids were right to take the two pokemon (Nebby and Null) and run away from her. As her first act of repentance... she tended to what was the Cosmog she hurt for her goals.

Her second act.... letting her kids go. She let Lillie go back to a healthier family environment... away from the toxicity she wrought, she let Gladion go off to Kanto... waving goodbye to him all the more. (I still find that scene heartwarming and... arguable better than when Lillie went on that boat due to all the implications fueling it.)

In between your initial league victory and Rainbow Rocket, Lusamine had a small identity crisis. She knows she isn’t in any position to face her kids after the crap she done to them and she knows she lost the right to claim she was protecting anyone, after all she had hurt... she realized how low she sunk.

Then RR came, she tried to fight Giovanni and got held hostage, with the Don intending on making her into his servant. She may have turned into a Damsel and not do much on screen... but this is generally how things go in Pokemon Games, where a former villain says they are going to change for the better and that is the end of it. (Looking at Archie and Maxie.)

Once RR came... she found a resolve of what to do, made a vow to protect pokemon and love her kids from a distance. That she knows her kids are not her possessions and that she would only be involved with them again if they need her. If you go back down to the Aether Labs after RR... you have an employee tell you that the frozen pokemon are scheduled to be thawed. I didn’t mind the frozen pokemon still being there after that bit of digging, because reality ensues, a mess like that is going to take a while to clean up.

Then a month later, Gladion visits you for title defense and then visits Lusamine for unknown reasons. (Signs that the relationship is being mended.) Mohn appears, the reason for Lusamine’s downward spiral and what she done everything for... he has amnesia due to being a faller and doesn’t recognize his own wife. Lusamine... despite the torrent that was going on in her mind, made it into a casual conversation and let him go back to his new life. Very likely because if Mohn knew what she done... it would have just made him miserable in the end. With Mohn himself making a possibility that he will meet her again.

Very bittersweet, very effective closure to the Aether Families drama. Anyone who says USUM butchered their story, botched Lusamine’s character or retconned her into a “good person” or “a selfless angel” disappoints me to a great degree since SM only focused on her as a villain never bothered with that closure. The only thing that was done in USUM that would be a concern is that the family lost focus for Necrozma’s story, thus we don’t get the same emotional weight compared to SM.

SM’s Lusamine was a beta... and effective villain, but not what Gamefreak wanted from her. USUM made her into a more fleshed out character at some exchange for her villainy and gave her closure that she needed!

Now begins the third... and arguable the one to surpass the other adaptations despite being the most different out of all the others.

The Sun and Moon anime.

In this adaptation, despite having similar things happen in the background.

Her obsession with the Beasts is more of a scientific curiosity, wanting to see one than the things we saw in the SM games.

She didn’t become an abusive parent and would sooner smoother her kids with affection (unwanted affection.) then any of the things we know of from either sets of games.

The incident with Mohn... resulted in her being so depressed that she uses work as a way to null the pain, rather than an obsession with wanting to open the wormhole and look for him.

Is an adorable goofball and is actually a good person.

Despite those changes to her character, she still has quite a few things wrong with her.

She does things the way she wants to do it, her affection towards Lillie was unwanted and she doesn’t get that. In addition, she never really socializes with her kids before making those big decisions in changes. (Like with Clefairy, despite it being her’s and despite Clefairy touching the moon stone willing, Lusamine should have asked Lillie if it was okay to do so.)

Her neglect towards her kids... regardless of work or otherwise is disturbing due to what she allowed to happen. The event that lead to Lillie’s trauma, to Gladion’s distrust AND to all of it festering for a while, in addition to Faba being able to do all sorts of things under her nose.

Her unwanted affection comes off as shallow because work ended up coming before her kids.

They took out the evil aspects of Lusamine’s character... but kept in everything else that was wrong with her, contrary to what many think.

This resulted in the Aether Family having such a strained relationship, why Lillie is so hostile towards her. It took until Gladion chewed Lusamine out, to get it through this woman’s head just how poor of a parent she was. She wasn’t really there for Lillie when she needed her and Gladion thought Lusamine was in on the things Faba has done.

It took Lusamine having to do much to repair that relationship and part of the thing that showed her development was at the episode where Faba used Nebby to open a wormhole and bring in Nihilego. The beast was about to attack Gladion and Lusamine pushed him out of the way to protect him.

For me, I smiled for two reasons and was horrified by another. Lusamine showed her development and showed that she cared that much for her kids... and that I was going to have my sadistic wish of having Nihilego turn her into something close to the nut job we had from the SM games.

And I wasn’t disappointed when we next see her, we the audience may have a reason to care that our heroes are trying to rescue Lusamine... but she was screaming at her kids and in her temper tantrum nearly killed them.

As the Mother Beast... Lusamine was reduced to something like a child that was having her toy taken away from her and made it easier for Nihilego to have her under its control. This is what Lillie verbally struck at the Mother Beast, giving Lusamine a sign that she really need to make improvements as a mother... that realization struck past Nihilego and caused the woman to reach out to Lillie... only for Nihilego to cover her up with her own hair and tried to swat Lillie.

Then Ash uses the Z move and zaps the jellyfish off of Lusamine.

She was rescued, brought back home and had a short recovery. Then she thought of the idea to form and be the mission control of the Ultra Guardians... a group of kids that had experience with dealing with UB’s that are to deal with them.

For the rest of the series... we see the Aether Family slowly make repairs to where it resembles and behaves like normal family. From the Necrozma Arc, to the school play episode and lately, the Mohn episode.

That one, we actually see Lusamine watching in despair at Mohn being dragged into an ultra wormhole. Where is this family going to go in the end?

This answer, might make the SM anime the best adaptation of this drama, in its focus, closure and how it made it relatable to us... despite also being the most different.

I honestly hope Gamefreak does better with their next antagonist and make them easy to understand. Lusamine was a complete mess initially and that caused a ripple in the adaptations we saw.

#Analysis #Lusamine #I'll talk about the Manga later

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Episode 1: "I'll either flop hard or finally fucking win so let's see how this game plays." - Ian

season starts in t minus eleven minutes and I'm SO READY TO FLOP WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

give me an idol thanks

Hi!!! Im back on tumblr survivor omg I thought I would never return cuz I am so inactive on skype but here I am with the best hosts ever seamus and drew even tho seamus bullies me... This time now that I actually have some experience I hopefully wont be first boot and can play better rather than be a sheep LOL

So far I like my tribe, Ali and mitch are prob my favs so far both kings

The only people I have ever heard of before is willow one of my bffs from FB orgs and jones bc shes jones but both on the other tribe so hope I can meet them at swap or merge!

But apart from that no clue who these ppl are, kinda nice tho and refreshing since on fb its always the same people so this should be fun

Bro we got 2 sandwich artists. And a sandwich related challenge. If we don’t win I’ll be mad

Okay so right now I don’t know anyone or anything what the fuck. This is so different from zwooper everyone is here to play. Right now I’m getting good vibes from Caleb and I think I’m gonna make him my go to. I know Noah on the other tribe but I know he doesn’t like me and I really don’t like the way he plays games. I heard Jamarcus was in this game but I guess not :(. But yeah so this is gonna be one wild ride!

submitting this before i forget/decide not to do a video on it:

http://bit.ly/2ZoKSiK <- Jason’s First Impressions

Hie Montenegro,,, im here,,, and full of existential fear!! I wanted to do a full video cast assessment but my phone storage truly sucks on this night at 3:00 am and I have shit to do tomorrow so :) gotta write!! Myfeelings!!!! David - has said Hewwo when we were revealed and vanished. Hopefully he can deliver in a comp Bc rn he’s kinda irrelevant :( holding out hope tho Willow - queen of being busy,,, we talked in pms but for like a minute,, she knows some of my friends from an FB game I watched her play tho! So that’s SOMETHing, but not a lot. I’ve heard not the greatest things about her social game in the past tho, so I’m not shocked rn Evan - I think I’ve actuallh played w him before assuming this is the same Evan from erinsborough? Big shrug, he was inactive that game tho and would’ve striked out if we didn’t vote him,,, hopefully things are different tho? His picture is Gavin from DP and I appreciate it greatly,, Tom - I just got off of a 5 hour call w him and he seems really chill!? Haven’t talked in pms yet or anything so hopefully we can do that soon? But he seems like a great dude!! His dog is super fucking cute too. JJ - I think of my entire tribe, he’s the epitome of extra. He has 50 fucking sugar gliders like??????? Ma’am?????????? Also he’s from tengaged and MORE IMPORTANTLY he knows keaton apparently!! So,,, probably a crackhead knowing my luck w Keaton. He’s very outgoing and friendly tho and definitely seems like someone i COULD work with,,, but I wanna see how everything plays out, Caeleb - adopted him as my grandson. Bc he called me his grandma. He seems like a sweetie pie it’s his first org ever though so go him!! Hopefully grandma can take him under her wing hehe Mo - literally one of my first close friends in the community,, an angel whom owns my heart, I feel like he’d wanna work w me but I’d never know fully until we prove our loyalties yk? So I’m also holding out hope for him,,, king. Alex - I love him!!!? So much???? He said he stans me I love him sm Bc I remember stanning him when I first started playing Bc he’s all I’d heard about art in the community lolol but I’m v excited to actuallh play with him I fucking called him being here :) Jules - my love my light we just clicked real quick, she’s legitimately an angel whom I adore??? It’s her first survivor game I’m rooting for her. But ya I’m exhausted so that’s it for now UwU gn bois

okie I feel like I should do a cast assessment of my tribe, just as a starter. my opinions will like 1000% change so this is by no means final but woo I'll go with this!

In general... this cast is... pretty good? Like I was very very worried since I'm so annoying that everyone that hates me would reappear for this season, but I think(?) only like... one person in the cast would dislike me/gun for me for preseason stuff. Anywho:

Benj: Okay he seems super super nice! Like he seems really friendly, we have a lot in common already and I think since we are both in weird timezones we could work really well as allies! He seems super like chill and would work with just people he seems to get along with, so I feel like... that could be a real potential alliance in the future ahhh!

Ian: Ian I haven't spoken to all that much yet (he was towards the end of the cast reveal) but he seems really really chill! He has also come 2nd twice which is something I can relate to, so maybe we will be on a similar page as players?

Jared: Okay first fellow newbie. We haven't spoken much or had the chance to really like have a good conversation so far! I feel like since its 12-8 for newbies, maybe its a good idea for us to group up tho, idk if it can happen since at least for me, I haven't really connected to the newbies as much?

Jason: He is so so fun! Like I've really liked talking with him so far, he was on the CAH call yesterday and was getting along with Julia which is really good too, since I defo wanna work with them both!

Julia: A QUEEN. okay I was very worried seeing her on the cast reveal since both times I've played with her, I've voted her out very very early.... BUT, she seems interested in wanting to work with me and I'd love to because such a wild time, and I feel like... me and her strengths/weaknesses can kind of counterbalance in a way that'll work really well! She could always be playing me, but tbh... its what I deserve anyway, and I'd LOVE to see her do really well this season.

Madeline: I really like her! I've spoken to her probs the most of the newbies and she seems really nice and social which is super good! I feel like she'll fit in for a while and have quite smooth sailing

Michael: I'm sure he is great, but we haven't really.. been able to talk all that much? I feel like if I had to predict who would go if our tribe lost, I'd... probably say him?

Mitch: omg this cast is so big I'm not even through my tribe AHH. anyway mitch was on the first cast reveal like I was. I get ok vibes from him, he seems like... he is here to play the game hard which makes me nervy, but hopefully I can like fudge that to my advantage?

Noah: okay he is super fun, I feel like... our conversations have been very dry, but also that its 100% my fault. idk the ability to be interesting just kind of _dropped_ out of me but I'll try and redeem that today

okay the other tribe I'll just skim through and do the ones I know:

Alex C.: he seems like a king! I've been in VLs for seasons he has been in, I feel like he will not like me but I'd love to meet him!

David R.: okay he will 10000% not remember me, but he was in my first season ever! he was very inactive and his only like... confessional was about me being annoying KJSLDAD which is maybe a.. bad sign! lets see how it goes this time

Jones: She seems SO nice! I have been in VLs with her before, and she seems so so so nice! I'd love to play with her down the line, but I think she is also probs here to WIN which is scary.

Jules: A LEGEND! I love Jules, would love to work with them if possible! They're probably the person I am closest to pregame but can hopefully keep that hush hush...

Mo: a king! I hosted him for his first season, and he was SO much fun. I feel like he has gone off me, but I'm super excited to see how he does!

Tom: he is... probably the biggest problem for me in the cast? Like he was in the only season I won, and saw me play a snake game which I do not intend to play like this time? But I feel like if he still dislikes me (which he might), he could like... tell people how snakey I was! I would love to like work with him if he wants, but I feel like he wouldn't trust me at all KASDLF

Willow: A queen! I haven't spoken to her in ages but used to around her first season a lot! so so nice.

Yeah so overall thoughts on each tribe:

Durmitor: Almost everyone I knew preseason was on this tribe, which is probably to my advantage, that'll hopefully help out in like... a swap situation? Worried about Tom but am cautiously optimistic about Willow/Mo/Jules! I feel like this tribe is gonna do very very good on challlenges which... AHHHH i don't wanna go to tribal

Budva: Okay I really like my tribe! I get the best vibes from Benj, Julia & Jason who are all people I'd love to work with! I think(?) I could be okay for now, like I feel like I've already got some good ties, and that there are other people that would go... before me... maybe? Its probably only like 2 rounds on these tribes so I maybe don't even need to last that long aksfda

Ugh honestly why am I back and like... I DON’T ANYBODY HERE? Nicole G is my spirit animal.

Well except for Jason and Julia. I do know them as well as Alex and Rob. Basically I don’t know anyone post chamonix and I feel like a fish out of water. I’ll either flop hard or finally fucking win so let’s see how this game plays.

My tribe is idk, quiet? But like we called and played cards against humanity which was fun but like idk Anau and Monte Rosa were just more active and fun and all.

Julia - fellow oldie, I might work with her since she’s quite social and all. Witchcraft and all.

Jason - I wanna work with him because 1) oldie 2) fellow runner-up and 3) he knows josh. And if my TS career hasn’t proven me wrong, people who I play with who know josh are a huge BOON to my game so yeahhH

Benj - he seems nice. He lives New Zealand so we will probably be the only ones awake at our respective time zones so that can be grounds for something :D

Ali - seems nice as well. We talked about the weather and all so that was fun.

Mitch - we had a short convo so idk him very well to get a good read on him.

Jared - We only started talking now so we will see hmmm

Michael - I’m 50% sure he’s a robot. Just because he sends messages like a robot but I could be wrong. Idk it’s hard to get a read on him but we talked some and I hope he is good at challenges

Madeline - She told me she was a returnee but the wiki says she ain’t? What is the truth. Seems nice?? Idk

Noah - we haven’t talked

Tbh this is probably the most quiet starting tribe I’ve been on. Nicole G is my sprit animal btw

(hi plss add this to the first confessionals i sent) Asya - haven’t talked to her as well. But she did briefly joined the tribe call

Here's a Video Confessional that details what’s on my mind:

youtube

America I think I fucked myself over on this one. I told JJ and Tom last night that I got 155k in sandwich stacker the last time I played it and now I think they’re expecting me to recreate that score?? And like,,, do better?????? But it turns out I’m unexpectedly very busy today and I can’t even do it when I get home Bc I’m not gonna have a laptop to play it on,, so I fucked myself over on this one chief. Not only am I most likely not doing this challenge, but I set myself up to look like a challenge threat!! When I can’t even back it up???? Love that for me :)

okay so I've now had a chance to talk to pretty much my whole tribe more which is fun. I LOVE THEM ALL AND REFUSE TO EVER. GO. TO. TRIBAL.

So my favourites atm are defo Julia, she is SUCH a legend, and her hex powers will carry us to success. I'm also really liking Benj & Jason on a personal level, they are super fun, and like chill on a game level which I really like!

Of the rest, Jared approached me to work with me which AHH exciting! But it was kind of unprompted and outta nowhere, so I'm worried he could play a bit too hard too fast, so will try and keep an eye on him. Madeline is super fun, I'm really liking talking to her, and I'm more reassured about working with my fellow newbies now, since Jared/Madeline I'm really liking! Michael is super sweet, he sent me this long nice message about how to pronounce my name which was super sweet, I haven't spoken to him too much yet! Noah I've spoken to the least, he is my biggest ??? so far, which ahh but I'll figure that one out. Mitch is quite quiet but I really like him! Ian is a king!

AHH I LOVE EVERYONE THIS IS A PROBLEM. I always do this where I make friends with everyone and then have to betray someone every round. I'm determined to pace myself this time. Julia is my Number #1 rn, she approached me first and I think we are a great balancing pair. I also really like Benj/Jason, would love to maybe be in a bigger alliance with them? Jared I'm like... apprehensive that he is gonna play really hard, but also wanna work with him. Those are probably my top four rn? I'd then put Madeline/Ian on the next level, Mitch the level below and Noah/Michael on the bottom level as my biggest unknowns!

otherwise this challenge is so demonic, and one day I will get revenge on seamus for making us endure this. I think I'm doing pretty good, and like... can't face the bread anymore, so will probs stick with my score. I really don't wanna go to tribal so hope my tribe can pull this out wooo!

Hi it’s Mo, I’m the dumb bitch who thinks he needs a Gatorade after walking up a flight of stairs. At the moment I’m feeling very distressed because I sat outside for a good hour or so and some mosquitos decided to take it upon themselves to go to town on my legs. But game-wise I’m feeling very comfortable on my tribe. I think I made some good connections on the tribe call last night and I got to know everyone really well and literally I have no complaints about anyone at the moment. They’re all super chill. My biggest fear is letting them down so I’m doing my best to get a good score on sandwich stacker.

Wow It's great to be back and not know like a single soul! I will kms because of that! Also wow my boss sprung a double on me today so I didnt get to talk to anyone! In the first 24 hours! I love this for me! Im on call right now so hopefully I can do SOMETHING and get good with people!!

So I have yet to do a formal confessional but let me just tell you my tribe is so cracked and I love it. I'm gonna give y'all my thoughts on the players of my tribe because why not. Ok so first off we have Julia. Julia is so cracked but I LOVE HER. She is the good luck charm of the tribe because she is involved in witchcraft and honestly I find that hilarious. Then we got Ali. He seems super sweet but I have yet to get to know him well. I think he has been in the tumblr community for a while but I'm not sure because im not in that community (whoops). Jason and I have meshed pretty well together over the love for the cowboy emoji, Madeleine seems like an easy number for me, and same for Jared. I think if we ever go to tribal I might try to connect us three with Benji who I also think I can trust really well. Then we have Ian and Noah. Honestly my conversations with them have been pretty awkward??? Idk if that is just because they are busy but like I don't rly mesh well with either of them. Then there is Michael who literally talks like his username: A Big Blue Robot

someone literally said they were worried that me being so into astrology would influence how i viewed other people and i told them that it wouldn't but the tea is it will, try to stop me

Heya its me. Rookie here on survivor Montenegro. Never played before. Kinda nervous. I'm trying to keep it light and airy with my chats with all the tribe members, because I don't want them thinking I'm trying to create drama too early. They seeeeem to like me and I think I really like them too. Evan kinda has latched on to me, and I like having an easy go to for talking shoppe, but he's super paranoid and thinks he has no shot at this. Even said that everyone else is fully bonding without him. And thats fine of course, I can handle supporting him especially if it seems like a surprise friendship, but his scaredyness might be rubbing off because its making me a little afraid that people are talking shoppe much more than they're letting on with me. Alsooo, low key a tiny bit annoyed with how much we love to call. Like y'all are nice but it seems to be the same person (eyooop) every time and the same person talking in the tribe chat. hehe peace out

hi okie i would've filmed a video confessional, but i look DISGUSTING so you will have to settle with type type typing!

so lots is happening REAL fast and my head hurts so i need to talk it out. We won reward which WOO, and the reuben sandwich also gave me 3 free checks for bridge steps for the idol so GOOD NEWS. I also used it to build trust with Benj & Julia, and told Jared who kind of put me on the spot and asked me about it (more on Jared later).

So I now have my chart to map idol progress titled 'Bridge to Terebeth-idol' and I'm using all the info I get to slowly get an idea of idol progress, the idol is MINE and I'm determined to play it WRONG. otherwise, I'd love to see Benj or Julia get it, love 'em both.

Anywhomst back to Jared. he is VERY forward with game stuff and is like... going 0 to 100 waay too quick, and its making me and Benj nervous. We are both going to keep an eye, I could see Jared burning out quite quick akdlfas. For the rest of the tribe, I really really like Jason he is such a king, Madeline is super nice but I think quite quiet so could potentially go if we lose. Michael is great at challenges, but his social game is a bit ahh (he like.. told Julia she would be a target for making a mistake in the challenge akjsdfaslfladfjla). Noah I really like, but we are kinda out of sync with timezones which is no good. Mitch filled in for me in teh challenge so I owe him bigtime.

ANYWAYS. this is already waay too long, the summary is WOO JULIA AND BENJ, woo (at a slightly lower volume) for Jason and Jared. Love the hosts, loving this game so far, only thing I'm not loving is sandwiches (unless they are reuben sandwiches asjdklfa).

Okay so little recap of the first night on Montenegro Durmitor Beach.... I really felt worried! Like from the first impressions and the intro's I thought okay i have nothing in common with any of these people, this is going to be so hard to get in a safe spot and go far in this game!

After jumping on call with the likes of Jules, Jones, JJ and Mo I felt a little bit safe as they were laughing at some of my jokes and i felt like i could contribute to the conversation which is nice. I really tried my best in this sandwich stacker challenge to show the tribe that i can perform in flash games and help win immunities for future rounds so it gave them a reason to keep me and potentially the stronger players on the tribe would want to add me to an alliance...well i mean that didnt happen but hey who knows its only day 2

So i recognised that JJ was from Tengaged and i had played with him a little bit whilst on that site so i tried to connect with him and make conversation with him and that dramatic little boy decided to drop his vocabulary and use his silly little boy one word responses which wasnt very uhm reassuring. HOWEVER I feel like over the past 2 days JJ and I have formed some sort of bond and i believe its mutual that we want to work together and help each other out in this game. MY ONLY CONCERN about working with JJ is that I dont want to be seen as in a duo with him so him and me need to stop bullying each other on calls and staying on tribe calls when no one else is on them. He helped me out in the idol hunt as well so he is already giving me some information showing he is down to work with me

Okay so overall i feel like my tribe is full of very big personalities and thats concerning a fight will be had for majority i reckon.

Jules: She is so nice, and we connect pretty good, i know she is one bad ass game player though and definitely a threat down the line so keeping her on my side is beneficial for now and hopefully if she does become seen as a target i can use that to my advantage and she can be a meat shield.

Mo: Mo is cool and chill to talk to, we dont really speak that much on pms however i want that to change i get a very loyal vibe from him so yeah something i am willing to explore

Willow & Evan: They both have similar standings with me in this tribe, i feel like they both want to work with me, Evan has said he does and that he gets a good vibe and wants to work with me which is good and i feel like willow is also leaning towards that as well. The only issue with working with these two is they arent very big personalities so i will be targeted before them however i feel like they could be very loyal. Its going to be hard to integrate them into a large alliance unless one of them start because others will be closer to people that isnt them.

Alex: So Alex is a weird one for me, he seems super emotional and honestly someone i just cant really relate to or connect with. I may be wrong but thats my first impression of him, he seems to be all up in Jules/Jones grill which is something i will have to keep an eye out for.

Jones: Jones is a big big big big threat i think everyone on this tribe can already tell this woman will be hard to get out, socially she is impressive and she said she is pretty good at challenges as well so........i'm just going to try and act really dumb around her and make her believe that im willing to work with her till the end as a loyal sheep. However for now i would like to work with her (even though probably everyone does)

David: Well i mean he is like not active very much, he came on call and i have a fear of drag people and he is a drag people so i hope he doesnt rock up to tribal in drag because it is a serious phobia..... wouldnt mind if he went first just because we dont really talk!

JJ: already spoke about him

Caeleb: Everyone is very nice in this cast but i feel like caeleb is a little bit uhh reserved, i feel like hes a little shy at the moment but i think he can be a gem to work and play with. Idk what type of player any of these people are so just gotta test the waters.

All i know is that this tribe is ready to play....and play hard so survivors ready: game on bitches! #STAYLOWANDGOGOGO

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Oh wow this twisty twist twist, hate it!! So anyway now that we have to go to tribal Idk who the heckie to choose to vote! The only people I feel like I have absolutely no connection with so far are Evan and Caeleb, everyone else ive at least talked to a bit?? Jules is cool (also havent talked to her that much) Mo and Jones are the people ive talked to the most so far and I really wanna work with them I think, we will see DREW YOU HAVE MESSED ME UP

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This twist is very fiendish and I love and hate it!! More stress ensuing the more fun for drew hmmm

Anyway, right now I want Madeline gone. I feel she’s not putting her all into this game and in the challenges. Plus she told me she was a returnee but the wiki says otherwise grrrr

For now I think I’m gonna work with Julia and Jason. Might also wanna work with Benji and Ali. Ali is very intuitive because he noticed that it’s important to keep any voting plans under wraps because if word got out of the plan and we’re not actually going to trial, oh hell will be loose!!

So far Julia and Jared are eyeing Madeline as a target and I am here for it! She may have sealed her fate by like going to sleep at this hour but let’s see! She might be faking it lol

Okay fuck you guys for this twist my anxiety is running RAMPANT I know everyone is gonna wanna Vote me for being the youngest I hope you all die and literally choke on your own liver. Anyways my day has been GREAT, thanks for asking!! I feel confident with my comp performance, so hopefully they choose to keep me in?? If not it was nice knowing you guys except Johnny

Oh this- this is terrible. I did so bad on my sandwich tray thing even though at the time I was like IM FUCKIN SPEEDY GONZALEZ WERE GONNA WIN and I scored like 48 but then I find out that everyone else scored somewhere in the 90’s and now it’s just kinda... fuck.

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Blind Tribals? What kind of tomfoolery is this. Im surprised my tribe came up with a consensus of voting off someone this early even though we still have a full 24 hours. I was fully prepared to take charge but I guess I don't have to anymore.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cax7k6-mA-A

^ Video confessional not letting me post tho

So everything has been like a legit clusterfuck and I see this tribes dynamic starting to play out. I think socially I have done my job and excelled. I would say I feel as if I have established a good personal relationship with most of my tribe members except two of them- Madeleine and Michael. Both of them talk very little and it's honestly very frustrating for myself. Not to mention Michael last night sketched me out very bad after we had finished playing the role call part of the immunity. So I had found an error that I had made, and it scared me and I thought I could talk to him about it. I was like, well I hope this doesn't put a target on my back. He responds with this: we can make sure you won't be. will just take some work. Hold the damn phone. It will take some work? Why would it take work period? It just freaked me out so I went to Jason and I told him about it. Jason made me feel more comfortable and I decided to tell him that I trusted him and I was on board with him. So after immunity is done, and the whole blind round twist is revealed I decided to go and talk to basically everyone on the tribe. But Jared stuck out the most to me. He is playing the most aggressive game at this point which I respect. Also, forgot to mention, I trust Ali the most. 100% Ali will be my ride or die person this game. So nothing will come in between the bond we share. Jared decided to throw out Madeleines name out. And I am totally okay with this. He also subtly hinted that Michael would be a good option. But lets be real, I am not a fool and I will not make a big move this first round. This is a tribe of 10 people, not 6 like I'm used too in my prior TS I have played. It is more difficult to rally all the numbers. So this would be the exact reasoning behind my social game I am playing at the moment. I have Jared than tell me he wants to work with Ali, Benj, Himself, and I. This, I can enjoy. I don't have to struggle to protect from this alliance I knew Jared was bound to create, and I didn't have to suggest to include Ali, possibly exposing my relationship with Ali to Jared. On the other hand, I have Ian and Jason who I feel like I can trust in this game. I proposed to Ian I would not vote him out this round, and he said he would do the same for me. I tell Ian that I trusted Jared and we could possibly work with him, and that Madeleines name is being thrown out as the vote. Ian was vague with answering me about working with Jared which sussed me out. But Ian later tells me he wants to work with Jason, Himself and I. So this puts me in TWO potential alliances already in this game. Literally fuck this twist. I am glad my social skills have finally paid off and I am seriously learning from prior mistakes I have made in my orgs from being too abrasive, being too loud, being rude. I had such little self awareness of the way I communicated with people. I would talk and be this extremely social girl but I always left a bitter taste in people's mouth because of how I said things and I had no clue. So I am playing this better game and it is totally opening up new opportunities and all these people I can work with but on the other hand, puts me at a serious disadvantage. If this tribe will be an ultimate flop tribe which I am seriously hoping is NOT the case, I am going to disappoint someone. And that is how you become a target and lose all the hard work you have built up. So even though socially I am totally preforming beautifully compared to my prior three tries at TS, and strategically I wouldn't say anything about that I mean.... it's the first few days of this game. I would say competition wise, or the more physical part of the game I need to get it together. I'm hoping I can motivate this tribe into playing extremely hard for the immunity wins because who freaking knows what could happen? In the best case scenario, I would love for immunity to be brought to my tribe. This would mean that for the next round the target would probably remain the same, and I don't have to get so worked up about who is the new target of the tribe.

https://youtu.be/qsjQtYfiCec <- Video Confessional; Not letting me post

Editors note - I think I’m 80% sure my name’s not going around Bc I think everyone’s under the impression I got us the win for the flag making? Big shrug

Damn this twist has really screwed things. At this point in the game I have some strong (I think) alliances. I'm worried that I have put a target on my back for playing too hard though, and it might be all for not if we find out we won immunity.

https://youtu.be/RR4BRMFKjDU <- Another video confessional that won’t embed lol

What the fuck is this twist like okay sure, tumblr survivor is generally fucking stressful like a pig getting choked im always trying to gasp for air.....this season i am the pig on the spit roast just deceased. I'm a nocturnal pig throughout this game i guess because tribal planning starts like 6 hours ish before tribal and the last 2 hours is the most important and that would be from 4-10am so no sleep for the weak i came to win

https://youtu.be/sarbjplslHk <- Another video confessional that won’t embed

SO I think at the moment my closest allies are Tom & JJ which is a relief because I was intimidated by the two of them at first. The plan for now is to vote for David due to him being the most antisocial out of the bunch. He’s talked to me quite a bit actually but apparently he hasn’t talked to some of the others that much.

The first few days of this game has been really fun. I'm enjoying to get to know everybody, and just dicking off on tribe calls all the time. So far I've really enjoyed looking at Tom & Alex, they're definitely the tribal eye candy.

It seems as though I've gotten myself into a really cute alliance consisting of Alex, Jones, and Jules. A group I've definitely enjoyed talking to the most. I think it'll really work in my favor.

Tom is really fun to talk to, he's giving me truthful information on what planks have been good and bad in the idol search. Which is nice, but it might be a cultural thing, but I can't tell if he likes me or not!?? There's too much sarcasm in his voice.

Mo & Caeleb are really nice, they've both talked to me on a pretty shallow level so far, but I'm enjoying them a lot.

Evan, David, and Willow have been fairly MIA. Evan is on a vacation, so I'm impressed by how much he truly has been able to contribute to the tribe.

As far as the vote goes, I'm debating between Willow, and David. Alex, who I'd really like to work with, really is pushing for David to go home, but David is better at comps, and a less dangerous social player, he hasn't talked to anyone. Whereas Willow is being a social butterfly in everyone's PMs. Seeing that she made runner up in one of her seasons is also a little bit scary.

This twist is scary, but considering my last ORG, its exciting. I felt like my downfall was not being able to forge game relationships with people because I was the last person to attend tribal. Winning every tribal immunity all the way up to the final 13 / 21. Once the merge hit, every time I tried to talk strategy, the person I was talking with would run, and tattle to the person I was trying to target instead of listening to what I was saying, because they had forged game relationships at prior tribal. Being forced to go to tribal regardless of the outcome of immunity should help me solidify game relationships much easier.

I have one question for the twist. WTF DREW???

Right as we found out that both tribes had to go to tribal, Evan was immediately concerned that his name was being thrown out. The boy needs to calm, but I think our connection is really strong and honestly he's fun to talk to. Today though, most people I have been talking to have said David which is perfectly fine, he barely had talked to me at all so I am happy to be a tribe player and vote him tonight if nothing changes. I think people are starting to make connections all around. I really like Willow and have like an on and off thing with Mo and Jules. Tom is the first person to let me in on the vote, and JJ said he'd work with me and not vote me tonight, BUT Tom and JJ and Jones are always in the calls and that's making me nervous they'll have a longterm close bond that could be disastrous if it turns into a Monica, Jervase, Tyson type thing. Also I don't fully trust JJ he's good at talking to everyone. I have my eyes and ears open and I'm just trying to get as much information as I can at this point in the game.

okay I have thoughts and they are 100% NEGATIVE.

so dua lipa cave can CHOKE, i hate this twist so muchhhhh, its gonna give me an aneurysm. I just feel bad, I don't like voting people out and this makes the process so weird and awkward.

Okay like tonight, Madeline is... seemingly going home? And I'm so so sad, she is super sweet, but I think everyone was reluctant to throw out names except Jared who was super, super gung ho about Madeline leaving? Jared is stressing me out akjsldfaf, he is so forward and aggressive as a player, and I can kind of see him burning out and dragging me down with him asdfklaf.

Otherwise, I'm really liking working with Julia, she is super fun and a really savvy player, I hope our alliance can do super good long term! Otherwise, Benj is SUCH A KING, he is so friendly and fun, and we are like really on the same page for game stuff? Those are the only two who its not negotiable, on my watch they are going NOWHERE.

for the rest? I really like Jason, he is just super mellow, like I think if I had to make a winner pick for the season, I'd probably say him? I vibe with him on a personal level woo, could be an ally down the line. Michael I tbh expected to maybe be first boot, but he seems to have unexpected connections! I really like him tho, he is super sweet, its no biggie that he is staying? Mitch/Ian kind of fall into the same category, I really like them but I've not spoken to them... all that much, but I really like them!! Noah I really haven't spoken to too much, and if we do go to tribal tonight, I'd probs want him to go next (Mitch also threw his name out for this round, so it seems I'm not alone on that?).

I feel REALLY REALLY bad about Madeline JKLSADFLSAJFA, like already our tribe is being meninist we do not stan, but also she is so nice. I feel bad and kind of blame Jared for her going grrrr.

Okay I'm gonna wrap this up, hope we don't go to tribal tonight, Madeline stays and we WIN till merge WOO WOO WOOOOOO!

omg also julia is already at #46 for the idol her MIND! i hope she gets it, that'd be iconic. I feel like she must be working with someone to get that far already, maybe Jason? like the host, i need to (nancy) drew and investigate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dRd_z6-ycno <- another non embeded video confessional uwu

Lol idk where this girl came from but Madeline’s a mess.

She vanished after the twist reveal because her “WiFi getting shit down” then suddenly she’s strong arming me to vote Mitch

Sweaty, compared to you I’ve actually interacted with Mitch over the course of this 4 days unlike you.

She claims she’s got Julia, Jason and Noah but I know where they’re really at. If we are going to tribal Madeline’s gone!!

okay tribal is (maybe?) in 6 minutes and I have THOUGHTS:

1. Madeline is make me so nervous, she like says things in the tribe chat and its like AHH idk how to respond, I'm being so obviously shady and its INCREDIBLY clear I voted for her, but idk what to do or say asdkjflsafafjdaf

2. Benj is a king, we are like... on the same page a lot, and someone I wanna go super far with!

3. Madeline gunning for Mitch is weird because... she is targetting him for past placements, when... Ian literally made FTC twice akjsdfslafsa like wut? Also I am screaming at her like saying Mitch isn't denying that she is going home in the tribechat, when she is voting him? I'MMMMMM

4. If I go home, it's been super super fun, and first boot is a cute placement! Benj & Jason have both been first boot before, and I love 'em both, so am joining a great club!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgF_VAczF2g <- Another non embeded video confessional

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Brown Sugar and Honey

This one is about a new girl group at SM. You could say EXO sister group there may be a love line put in it who really knows. I mean I know but then again I might not know. Heads up I’m sorry for any spelling mistakes or grammar mistakes after rereading it over and over I can’t deal with it.

Oh the reason I came up with this title is because the main OC is black and DO KyungSoo looks damn sexy and handsome when his skin is dark and tan and NOT WHITE WASHED!!!!! STOP THE WHITE WASHING!!!!!!!!

If there is a love line then it will be my first Kyungsoo series. Hope you like it but if you don’t guess what I don’t give two shits leave my blog then. Anyways enjoy bye.

Warnings: Fluffy, Angst, Language, Bullying, Stupid, May not make senses, Brain frat, May not have smut, Trigger, Suicide talk, Racism, Blood, etc.

Pairing: OC x DO Kyungsoo

Chapter 17

August 16, 2018

Renesmee walks around the company late at night after finishing practicing. “Yeah did you hear that news?” One lady says and Renesmee freezes and hides behind the corner.

“No what news?”

The group of ladies talk as the stand there getting there stuff to go. “The new girl group my be disband.” The woman says looking at the others.

“Oh yeah they said they aren’t doing that great so it maybe over for them.” One girl says looking up from her phone.

“I knew that girl would ruin this company.”

“Let’s go I hate being her this late; if they disband then good they’re horrible anyways.”

Renesmee stands there listening to the women as they speak. “When they first came out it was okay they did get that one award at the MAMA’s.”

“But I don’t think the group was ready to debut its best if they disband.” They keep talking as they walk down the hall not noticing Renesmee.

Renesmee watches as they leave and she slides to the floor her back against the wall. “This is all my fault.” She sighs closing her eyes leaning her head back.

After two more hours dancing Renesmee heads back to the dorms carrying her bag. She opens the door and walks in taking her shoes off.

Eunjin and Roxay look up hearing the door and they both run over seeing Renesmee. “Unnie!” They both hug her and she smiles hugging them back.

“I missed you girls too.” She says forcing her smile as she closes her eyes thinking about what the ladies said. “But why are you up?”

“We couldn’t sleep.” Roxay says looking at her. Renesmee just shakes her head as she lets them go. “We were worried about you.”

“Well I’m fine doctor says I’m good and I’m well rested.” Renesmee speaks as she walks to the kitchen. “So no need to worry now go get some sleep please.”

Renesmee looks back at them as she grabs her chips smiling. “Okay we’ll go to sleep unnie.” Eunjin says heading to her room and Renesmee nods watching her.

“I think I finished the outlines of the basic idea.” Roxay says before heading to their room and Renesmee hums following behind her. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Yeah I’m fine just thinking that’s all.”

August 18, 2018

“So how is it coming with the ending of the drama?” One man asks sitting at the table looking at Renesmee.

“She said she’ll have it done before the end of September.” Their manager says looking up from his notes and they all look at him. “She just got back with the others we don’t want to push it.”

The others agree nodding their head as they sit there. Renesmee just looks down at her lap the same words playing over and over in her head.

‘It’s a good thing they’ll disband.’

‘They suck anyways.’

‘It’s all her fault, she’s ruinning the company.’

‘They should have never debuted her.’

“I don’t think we should release the English album.” Renesmee speaks up not really paying attention to what’s going on. They all stop and look at her as they sit there.

“What?”

“It would be best just to the Korean and Chinese album only so we won’t waste to much money.” Renesmee says still looking at her lap still not really looking at any of them.

“It’s best if we don’t release anymore English albums.” She goes on before finally lifting her head to look at them. “It’s best for the company if we did that.” She nods her head and they all just there watching her.

“If that’s what you believe then so be it.” One of them says and Renesmee stands up bowing before leaving the room. “What was that about?”

Renesmee walks down the hall looking at the floor as she walks. As she walks Jungwoo and Chenle run over hugging her. She stops letting them and they step back looking at her.

“What’s wrong noona are you okay?” Chenle asks looking at her and she blinks looking up at them.

“Nothing I’m good just thinking.” She says putting on a fake smile. “What are you boys up to?” She asks tilting her head to the side.

“We’re taking a break before going back to practice.” Jungwoo says nodding as he smiles. “Our comeback is next week so we are getting ready for that.”

“Aren’t you girl preparing for a comeback too?” Chenle asks smiling as he looks at her and she nods pushing her hair to the side.

“Yeah a few days after you boys drop your MV ours comes out.” Renesmee folds her arms as she thinks looking around. “Oh I have more drinks for you boys I’ll bring them by your dorm.”

“Yeah did you ever work on the new flavor?” Jungwoo asks clapping his hands together. Renesmee covers her mouth as she giggles watching him.

“Yes I worked on the blueberry and wild berry flavors for you.” Renesmee slowly pulls her hands down smiling. “It did take a few tries to get the taste and color right so it balance out with the thickness.”

“Well we should let you go bye noona.” Jungwoo says as him and Chenle walk off. Renesmee smiles waving bye as she heads to one of the empty rooms to practice.

Renesmee sighs letting her smile drop as closed the door behind her. She walks over turning the sound system on pulling up the music. Renesmee clicks on the song then walks over getting to work on the dance.

Renesmee spends about 9 hours practicing going over each dance. As she finishes the last move she looks up seeing her reflection in the mirror. Renesmee falls to her knees seeing the tears run down her face as she break.

“This would explain why you haven’t been answering my calls or text.” Kyungsoo speaks up leaning against the wall folding his arms. Renesmee hiccups hearing him and she wipes her face. “Don’t try and hide it I’ve been standing here for 5 minuets.”

He pushes himself off the wall walking over to her and she just moves away hiding her face. Kyungsoo sighs stepping next to her and she stops. He sits down in front of her as he takes off his hoodie.

“Come here.” He says pulling her closer putting the hoodie on her. She gently whines not putting up a fight as he grabs her. He pulls her arms through the sleeves of the hoodie before pulling the hood up.

Once he finish he pulls her closer wrapping his arms around her. Renesmee closes her eyes resting her forehead on his chest feeling smaller than before. “Whenever you are ready to talk let me know.”

As she sits there crying Kyungsoo rubs her back resting his head on top of hers. “I don’t want to talk about.” She finally speaks after 20 minuets of crying.

“Why?”

She wipes her eyes with the back of her hand. “Because if I tell you then you’ll want to help and I don’t want to get anyone in trouble and I don’t want the girls to know.” She speaks her voice cracking as she talks and he looks down at her.

“Nessie what’s going on?” He asks lifting her face so that she looks at him. She opens her eyes as he tilts her head back and she just stares at him not knowing what to say or how to say it.

“Tell me what’s going on.”

Renesmee closes her eyes pulling his hand away leaning back against his chest. “You can’t tell no one and you can’t do anything about it either.”

“But if you nee…”

“No!” She cuts him off looking at him again. “Please just let me handle this.” She begs looking at him as more tears run down her cheeks. Kyungsoo sighs closing his eyes as he nods.

“There’s talk going around about them disbanding the group.” She speak looking down at her lap. Renesmee grips her fist feeling angry and helpless. “It’s all my fault they won’t be together anymore because of me.”

Kyungsoo’s eyes go wide hearing her and he lifts her face again. “What are you talking about where did you hear this?” He asks watching her and she looks at him.

“A few days ago I was up here late and this group of women were leaving.” She closes her eyes as she speaks. “They were talking about it; ever since then more people talk.”

“And the others don’t know about this?” He asks and she shakes her head. “Okay then what are you going to do?” He asks wrapping his arm around her and she sighs thinking.

“I don’t know so far I told them that we should stick to only singing in Korean and Chinese.” She says pushing her hair behind her ear. “I would say try and get a win but who knows how long that will take.”

Renesmee voice cracks as she speaks and Kyungsoo lifts his hand wiping her tears as he listens to her. “Point is we…I mean me...I’m causing the company to lose money.”

She looks back up at him and he sighs. “Don’t say that, I’m sure there’s something we can do.” He says as he wipes her face. “I know you want to do this on your own but maybe this is one thing you can’t do.”

“I’m not going to push you but just know I’m here if you need help.” He speaks reassuring her and she nods resting her head against him again. “Low times….”

Kyungsoo speaks and Renesmee hums in confusion. “What?” She asks tilting her head a bit and he looks at her.

“337 Low times….being there for each other even when everything is going wrong and you feel low.” He says smiling and Renesmee covers her face trying not to laugh as she shakes her head.

“You’re still giving me reasons to tell what love is.” She laughs a little looking at him and he just smiles.

“Well it did get you to smile and I’m still waiting for you to say it.” He replies tickling her sides and she covers her mouth as she squeals.

“I love…” Renesmee starts off watching him and he hums hearing her. “I love chocolate.” She finishes her sentence and his mouth drops.

“I hate you so much right now.” He says pushing her over. Renesmee laughs covering her face and he just folds his arms. “I really hate you.”

“No you don’t.” Renesmee says sitting back up moving closer to him. “You know how I feel; I just want you to remember what you told when we first met.”

Kyungsoo blinks looking back at her and she leans closer kissing his cheek. “I’ll talk you later; I’ll call you if I need help just dong tell anyone.” She speaks as she gets up heading to the door.

Renesmee knocks on the door holding a box. She waits a bit looking around before hearing shuffling on the other side of the door.

“No it’s for us!”

Renesmee jumps hearing Chenle and Jungwoo. Jisung open the door smiling seeing Renesmee. “Noona!”

Taeyong stands there looking at Renesmee then back at the others. “Hey boys sorry I’m late.” She says stepping inside.

“Nessie what are you doing here?” Taeyong asks watching and she looks up hearing him and she bows. “What’s with the box?”

“It’s our juice we asked for.” Jungwoo says looking at Taeyong and Renesmee smiles holding up the box. Chenle nods taking the box from Renesmee.

“Thanks noona.” Jisung says bowing and Renesmee smiles shaking her head.

“No need to thank me.” She says as she steps back opening the door. “I would love to stay a bit longer but I must go now night boys.” Renesmee says waving bye as she leaves.

“I can’t believe you really like that stuff.” Taeyong says folding his arms across his chest. Jisung smirks watching him and Taeyong looks at him.

“Nice try hyung; Johnny hyung said he caught you drinking some last time.” Jisung says and the other two look at Taeyong.

“Busted.” Jungwoo says and Chenle laughs watching Taeyong face.

“Alright off to bed now we have practice tomorrow.” Taeyong points down the hall and they just laugh walking off. Taeyong sighs watching them locking the door.

August 20, 2018

“You changed your hair?” Renesmee says seeing Kyungsoo walk into the room. He roll his eyes pouting looking at her. “What you don’t like it?”

“I didn’t say that; but I am saying this you better be lucky I love you that’s the only reason I did this.” He speaks folding his arms across his chest and she hums tilting her head.

“Well are you going to let me see it?” She asks as she keeps dancing. He shakes his head watching her and she pouts. “Why?”

“Don’t pout at me you’ll have to wait.” He says walking over to her and she stops looking at him. “No you have to wait just like the fans.”

Renesmee sighs folding her arms and he just kisses her check. “I’m sure you saw the others already?” He says tilting his head and she shakes her head. “Well then tonight look at them, mine and Suho hyung will be the last to be posted.

“Okay fine.”

“Good when does the MV coming out?” Renesmee asks looking at him. He wraps his arm around her waist hugging her.

“On the 27th.” He says resting his head on her shoulder. Renesmee hums tilting her head looking at his reflection. “What?”

“Nothing I didn’t realize we all had a comeback so close together.” She says closing her eyes as she speaks. Kyungsoo hums hearing her and she just smiles. “You then NCT and then us on the 2nd.”

Kyungsoo nods letting her go as he reaches in his pocket pulling out his phone. “I still can’t believe your girls comeback is so close together this mini then a full in November.” He says reading a text and Renesmee turns looking at his phone.

“Tell Kai oppa I said hi.” Renesmee says smiling as she bounces on her toes. Kyungsoo lifts a brow looking at her.

“Why is it that whenever you see him you’re all jumpy and smiling but when it’s me it’s a different story.” He says and she laughs seeing his face.

“Cause he’s like a brother to me as to where you are my boyfriend.” She speaks after she stops laughing and he smirks. “Plus when I pout you give me kisses.” She wraps her arms around his waist hugging him.

Kyungsoo groans looking away and she just smiles moving side to side as she hugs him. Kyungsoo looks back at her cupping her cheeks as he kisses her. Renesmee hums into the kiss as she smiles tilting her head back. “I swear you are lucky I love you.”

Kyungsoo says as he pulls away sighing giving into her cuteness. “No one can resist my cuteness oppa.” She brushes her nose against his still smiling. Kyungsoo leans back in kissing her one more time. “Go I’m sure you have practice tomorrow; text me later or whenever your free.”

Kyungsoo nods letting her go then heads towards the door. “Bye.” He says walking out the door typing away on his phone. Renesmee walks over starting the music over to finish up her practice before the others show up.

It was around 6 in the morning now when the others start to walk into the room. “Okay Renesmee how far are you with the story?” Their manager asks walking in behind the girls and Renesmee looks up holding her bottle to her lips. She blinks before bringing it down wiping her mouth.

“Um well you see I’m not doing it.” Renesmee speaks up and their manager stops and looks at her. “Before you yell I mean I’m not coming up with it.”

“That’s not sounding any better.”

“She means she’s letting us work on it.” Moka says nodding her head walking over to Renesmee. “We have to come up with the concept and idea before she can write it or before we can write it.”

“You have until the 20th to have something.” She says and they all nod before starting practice. Once practice was done for the day the girls head back their dorm for the night.

“Well tomorrow they start dropping the teaser pictures then on the 27th they drop the MV teaser.” Jisoo says as they sit there eating.

“I love this mini album it’s not cutesy like the other ones.” Chaoxing says before she takes a swig of her drink.

“You always say you hate the cute stuff but when you hear that love seeing you act cute and want you poster and everything you start acting different.” Eunjin says as she looks over at Chaoxing.

“That’s because she fits the concept very well.” Jisoo says looking up from her plate. Chaoxing just rolls her eyes looking away. “She can’t even deny it because she knows it’s true.”

“Hey umm has anyone seen Nessie since we got back.” Xiaoling asks getting up to put her plate in the sink.

“I think her and Roxay just went to bed as soon as we got back.” Sora speaks looking up from her phone. “Roxay said she had a headache and well I think something is bothering unnie.”

“I think she is just stressed with dealing with the storyline, and trying to make sure we have everything down.” Jisoo says as she puts her plate away then washes her hands.

“Yeah but she really isn’t pushing as hard like she used to; maybe there is something wrong.” Moka says before heading up to her room.

Renesmee sits there looking at her phone for what has been 30 minuets now looking at the teaser pictures. She closes her eyes closing Twitter letting her screen go black.

Renesmee sighs holding her phone up to her ear waiting. Kyungsoo answer the call humming like he knew she would be calling him.

“I hate you so much right now.”

“Awe love you too.” He says trying not to laugh hearing her. “You must have seen the pictures now.” Kyungsoo speaks his voice full of amusement knowing Renesmee reaction.

“Not only did you let your hair grow back to the style you had it for growl; you also dyed it blonde.” She speaks trying to keep her voice low. Kyungsoo just laughs hearing her.

“So I take it you like it?” He asks between his fit of laughter.

“Like it?...no I love it I know you would look good with blonde hair.” Renesmee says smiling as she sits up crossing her legs. “I’m still mad don’t get me wrong but love the hair.”

“You can say you love my hair but not me….” Kyungsoo speaks and Renesmee just bites her lip smiling. “I swear now you’re just messing with me now.”

“Okay look I promise I’ll say after our comeback.” She says running her fingers through her hair. “I still want you too remember what you told me.”

Kyungsoo sighs shaking his head as he listens. “No listen I don’t want you to rush to say it.” He says and she hums hearing him. “I remember that night and how you said you were sacred so I’m not pushing you to say it.”

Sora comes running into the room but stops seeing Roxay sleep. “Unnie Eunjin wants you she’s crying.” Sora says pointing down the hall as she speaks softly.

Renesmee hums nodding her head. “I have to go Eunjin is crying I’m sure she had a bad dream.” Renesmee says standing up still holding her phone to her ear.

“Okay love you.” Kyungsoo says and Renesmee smiles nodding her head.

“I know bye.” Renesmee says before ending the call following Sora to their room. When they get there Eunjin looks up seeing Renesmee and she wipes her face. Renesmee stops thinking before walking back out he door.

A few seconds later she comes back with a box. “Bad dream again huh.” She says setting the box on the desk. Eunjin hums as she sinffles wiping her nose.

Renesmee pulls out an orb and plugs it in. She moves the box out the way placing the orb on the desk. “What’s that unnie?”

Yiyang aks watching her as Renesmee turns it on. “Well it’s a few things actually.” She replies standing back up. “It plays soothing sounds to help you sleep, also gives off a lavender scent plus it can show you the stars and stuff.”

Renesmee speaks as she walks over to Eunjin bed sitting next to her. “Okay now everyone lay down.” She speaks softly as she pulls the covers over Eunjin.

They all lay down getting comfortable and Renesmee watches smiling. She reaches over gently moving hair from Eunjin face as she pats her head. Renesmee gently starts singing as she sits there.

Renesmee tilts her head moving her hand to rub Eunjin back as she sings. Renesmee closes her eyes as she sings and the girls just lay there listening slowly falling asleep.

September 7, 2018

“Ugh why did they do this EXO sunbae, NCT sunbae and us.” Moka says as she looks up at the tv watching EXO preform.

“We won’t have a chance of winning.” Yiyang says fixing her outfit as she stretches. “And surprisingly we had a lot of downloads, album sales and views on the MV.” She goes on as she stands there.

“Hey where Nessie?” Jisoo asks once the stylist finishes her hair and makeup. They all look around the room. “Eh don’t worry about it I’ll find her.”

Jisoo says getting up walking out the room. Renesmee stands there watching Kyungsoo and the others as they dance. She smiles dancing along to the song. Jisoo smirks walking up behind her putting his arm around her.

Renesmee turns looking back at her and she hums. “Having fun?” Jisoo says smiling and Renesmee rolls her eyes. “The fan chants are crazy, but I expect nothing less for them.”

Renesmee nods as she keeps dancing to the song. Jisoo covers her mouth stepping back. She looks over hearing some EXO-Ls calling their name and she smiles waving to them.

Jisoo then points to Renesmee and they nod laughing as they record her dancing. “Come on girls you’re next.”

They nod walking off following the staff. “See this part is easier than talking about the album and prerecording.” Roxay says and Xiaoling nods agreeing with her.

The girls stand to the side getting their mic sets. As Renesmee puts her ear piece in she walks onto the stage waiting. She turns looking at the set nodding as she come into the light some of the fans scream scaring her.

As they scream she jumps putting her hand over her chest turning around and they start laughing. “Nessie always so jumpy.” Jisoo says walking out getting ready. Renesmee pouts folding her arms across her chest.

The other girls walk out getting into their spots. Renesmee bites her lip walking over to her spot as she looks at the floor. Once the music starts the girls get to work giving it their all.

After the girls were done they bow before walking off stage. Renesmee sighs pushing her hair back as she walks down the hall.

“Eww what are you drinking?” Jisoo asks looking at Moka and Renesmee.

“Blood.”

“Ugh I swear you two are weird, make sure she wash your mouth to get that color out.” Jisoo says walking off and Renesmee just nods.

Renesmee walks out the restroom wiping her mouth off. She walks down the hall looking around. “You know you are stressing way too much about it.”

Renesmee turns around hearing Kyungsoo and she sighs. She bows to him before walking off and he smirks. “No hello or how are you?” He says smiling watching her.

“Nothing…”

“I really liked the dance you guys did amazing.” Renesmee speaks as she walks down the hall. Kyungsoo smirks watching her then look over seeing Junmyeon and Jongin walk over.

“Nessie!”

Renesmee looks up hearing her name and she smiles running over to Chanyeol hugging him. He laughs hugging her back. “You girls did great.”

Renesmee bows thanking him as she stands there. “Thank you; you all did great as well.” She says tilting her head. “I was watching you guy really love the dance.”

“Us…what about you girls.” Jongin says putting his arms around her. “You girls were amazing; you always surprise me with the stunts.” Jongin smiles looking at her.

Kyungsoo walks over leaning against the wall. “I would love to do a performance with you one day.” Jongin adds nodding and Renesmee looks up at him in shock.

“Why do you look so surprised that he would want to dance with you?” Chanyeol says watching Renesmee and she looks away shrugging as she looks at the floor.

“Stop putting yourself down Nessie; you’re an amazing singer and dancer.” Junmyeon says poking her cheek. Renesmee sighs stepping to the side freeing herself from them.

Renesmee places her hands in front of her as she closes her eyes bowing to them. “Please don’t waste anymore time on me; it’s for the best.” She speaks as she bows to them.

Renesmee stands back up turning around walking off. “What…” Junmyeon says looking at them. “What is going on?”

“Hyung what did she mean by that?” Jongin looks over at Kyungsoo.

“Yeah I can’t talk about it.” Kyungsoo deadpan as he walks off leaving them.

“Hyung?”

“I said I can’t talk about it so drop it.” Kyungsoo says as he keeps walking.

Everyone stands on the stage waiting for the last group to finish on the other stage. Renesmee stands behind Jisoo wrapping her arms around her resting her head on Jisoo back.

Once the group finish they switch the cameras back to the other stage. Chenle reaches over touching Renesmee shoulder and she lifts her head looking at him.

Renesmee lets go of Jisoo bowing to him and he smile hugging her. She smiles back hugging him before letting him go. “You did great.” He whispers in her ear.

Renesmee bows her head thanking him. Chenle nods moving back over to Jisung and Kun. Renesmee slides back over next to Jisoo. Renesmee looks around thinking this could be the last stage they ever do.

She stands there listening as the MCs start talking again. She close her eyes feeling tears tugging at the corner of them. Renesmee reaches up wiping her face as she steps back behind Jisoo again.

Kyungsoo looks over seeing Renesmee cry and he sighs. He looks back at Jongin and Junmyeon shaking his head. Everyone stands there as they add up the numbers.

The girls jumps as the cannons go off spraying confetti everywhere as they announce EXO as the winners. The girls clap watching their brother group take center stage. NCT and the girls back up giving them space.

Renesmee stands there watching as Junmyeon and the boys thank the fans and everyone else. As the music plays the others start to walk off stage. Renesmee moves out the way while she watches the girls dance with the others.

Kyungsoo stands there singing his part as he holds the trophy in his hand smiling. He then turns around looking for Renesmee. As Baekhyun and Sehun start singing he makes his way over to her.

“Why are you crying?” He asks leaning forward whispering in her ear. Renesmee looks at the floor shaking her head. “I’m trying to stay out of this but you’re making it hard by standing back here and crying.”

“I’m sorry…you don’t have to worry about me.” Renesmee speaks and Kyungsoo reaches up wiping her face. “I’ll be fine.” She nods looking at him.

“This isn’t over Nessie.” He says tilting his head. “I’ll call you later do you understand?” He speaks watching her and she nods again before walking off.

September 12, 2018

“So are you going to tell us why you been acting different.” Jisoo says walking around the practice room.

“Or why they tell us we won’t be doing our albums in English anymore.” Xiaoling adds as she sits there stretching.

“I told you girls I don’t want to talk about.” Renesmee says pushing her hair back out of her face. “At least not now okay?”

Renesmee grabs her bottle twisting the cap off and taking a swig of her drink. “So how is the thinking coming along?”

“This is hard unnie we reread all of the scripts to try and come up with something but we don’t know how you did all this.” Moka says pouting looking up from her book.

“Yeah this is amazing we don’t know where to take it from here.” Chaoxing says folding her arms across her chest.

“I know you girls will come up with something.” Renesmee speaks trying to help them out. “Just go back and look who we use then look at everyday life and maybe watch some movies to help.”

“Speaking of everyday life how long are we filming this show?” Xiaoling asks looking at the cameras. The others look at her then back around the room.

“I think the last episode will be New Years.” Jisoo says as she starts the music over. “Which I honestly can’t wait for.”

“Same these challenges have been getting harder each time.” Yiyang speaks up getting ready. “I mean it’s been really fun and I hope after this is over we get to do it again but for now I just want a break.”

Renesmee stands up get walking over to her bag putting her bottle up. She wipes her mouth as she walks over doing her part of the song getting into place. Moka sighs putting her stuff down running over jumping into her spot as Chaoxing starts her rap walking over.

The others get up making their way to their spots as the song plays. They go over the dances for 4 more hours before calling it a night. Donghae walks into the room looking around and the girls turn bowing to him.

“Okay you are free to go but not you three.” Renesmee says point to the oldest memebers and they nod sitting there on the floor looking at their phones.

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Ep. 6: “So Many Ways This Could Backfire” - Jennet

JENNET

so the plan worked out great except jabari said that “now jake will know the truth” in front of daisy and the other tribemates🥺 i was hoping that i could pin this on lindsay so that once we merged i could lie about it and have lindsay be out next before the merge... this is truly sickening idk what to do

(a little later)

feeling really bad... is it my fault that jake forced me into a f3 with jabari who ive barely spoken with??? idk i feel like not only did i betray her but i betrayed a black woman and that makes me sick to my stomach.... hoping that i made the right choice and this propels me further in the game🥺 i honestly hated having to do that but maybe if ethan and sam have tribal connections left, when we merge, maybe we will be able to stick together and he’ll also help connect me

JESSICA

I GOT THE IDOL! It is good for 4 rounds and I still have my vote. And just in time as we are swapping into 3 tribes of 5 like I thought..... wow my psychic abilities! Jabari got voted out at tribal and I'm sad. I didn't know her but I think she was new to orgs and I really wanted to play with her! Plus she volunteered to do the tiebreaker for her tribe so I thought they'd keep her due to that. Time for a swap lets kick this game into gear!

JENNET

hoping jake isnt on the same tribe as daisy or lindsay

(a little later)

also hoping im on a tribe of winners so i never make it to tribal bc i DEFINITELY was/am the weakest link☠️

MIKEY

so. I FUCKING HATE THIS NEW TRIBE. THEY PICKING OFF ALL THE GOOD ORIGINAL CALUMMA MEMBERS AND MY GIRL JABARI LITERALLY JUST LEFT??? FUCK YOU JENNET. I KNOW THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU! But anyways, its me and jake vs all OG (insert other tribes name) and i think I'm going next lool fuck ME. this is very sad indeed and idk im upset but ima try my mf hardest

JAKE

https://youtu.be/OzrGekDCG8I xoxo gossip girl

JENNET

jones and ethan on my tribe?? *blushes sm*

(a little later)

nervous about this tribe... ive pulled off three blindsides that ive helped orchestrate so if like if someone really wanted to look deeper into it.... they would be able to make a target out of me bc of it. definitely worried

(after cooking a fish)

this is basically an allstar team. everybody on here is a heavy hitter and that makes me worried bc if i wasnt the weakest link before, i definitely am now. wishing we had gotten rid of lindsay instead of jabari bc we just made another team stronger but it is what it is i guess

JONES

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbTUvzatQrw

JESSICA

Today's song is "Ribs" by Lorde because I have played it on repeat all morning. Also I forget if I said for my last confessional but that song was "Sober", also by Lorde. Basically I love Lorde and my life is better because of it. This swap worked out super well for me! I really said in my host chat "Could I please be put on a tribe with Shane and Daisy?" and the hosts simply said "Okay". I have my final 3 back together and we also have Lindsay and Lovelis. Lindsay seems really cool so far and Lovelis and I have a good thing going so I feel very confident on this tribe. I really hope we do not lose because honestly? I don't want to vote out Lindsay at all. I like that she is active and she seems like someone who really is putting in effort whereas Lovelis, as much as I like him, just really hasn't been here. I would rather play this game with people who are more active so to me it's like.... Lindsay is absolutely not the obvious vote if we lose. Not even a bit! I'd love to do with her what I did with Mikey and make a separate f2 so that when we merge, she's someone who will keep the target off of me. I didn't tell my alliance about the idol because honestly I just don't anticipate using it at all. It expires so soon and I really only took it so that no one else would end up having it. Also.... I don't know, I didn't tell them right away because I was a bit busy at the moment we swapped and now it feels suspicious if I do tell them? Also who knows, maybe they would not find my story believable and think I have an idol up to final 5 which I just don't want! I'd rather throw the idol into the sea so it causes no problems. This immunity challenge is an interesting one. If I knew what was in the boxes, I would probably bet more, but I bet some of those boxes have bad things or nothing in them and I simply do not want that. If I had to guess, one has the other half to that idol, one probably has an idol clue, another maybe has extra idol searches.... maybe another has an idol nullifier? Or a vote peek? Really none of these are things that I need. They're all cool but I'd rather be immune thanks! As far as how I feel in the game, I really do want the Maples to be f3. I'd rather be at the end with my alliance and lose than flip and be there without them. Ummmm what other thoughts do I have.................... I think that might be it. My mind is empty but I'm still moving forward.

LINDSAY

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L5Nzch65XLD_njxnIxLKwqUs5vqXcYot/view?usp=drivesdk

JESSICA

Also if we lose this immunity....... I'll be mad because I bet 0 on everything and I am STAYING that way!

JENNET

feeling increasingly bad for voting out jabari /:: idk it doesnt sit right with me in the grand scheme of things. obviously its a game but the fact that i genuinely upset somebody to that extent is so sick. idec that we’re going to tribal, i want to be voted out

ETHAN

3 tribals in a row... I don't for a freaking second believe that Jones and Nicol "made a mistake" with their bidding. This feels like throwing, and if it is, it means that: 1. they feel comfortable enough with Jennet to have a majority 2. they feel comfortable enough with Pete to have a majority 3. it doesn't matter anyway, they now have 2 boxes and potentially an idol or two they could use Either way, this is a freaking sucky situation, and Pete is being super sketchy. People keep making bad play after bad play so honestly, it is hard for me because I keep assuming that they will be doing all of these things to throw the wool over my eyes when they actually aren't doing anything.

JENNET

im annoyed im frustrated and im angry... why were so many points used?

(a little later)

here i am... again... in the middle guys vs girls.... um this sucks bc like me ethan pete didnt use alot of points and nicole and jones did so thats like sucky bc initially i wanted pete gone but like now theres no reason for it to be him

(after soaking in the sun)

nicole says that pippa told her to wait to see whats in the box, so that could mean tribal or that could wait next round. or what if its a comeback power? i literally have no idea what to do

(after making a pillow out of leaves)

okay so the plan is, we get to tribal. me ethan and pete vote for nicole. jones and nicole vote for pete. nicole uses immunity on herself, pete goes home. there are so many ways this could backfire and honestly if it sends me home than im okay with that. i just hate going to tribal so many times in a row

MADISON

I AM FREE FROM MY BROOKESIA PRISON. Current tribe dynamic on Furcifer: me/Sammy have been on the same tribe this whole time, me/Sammy/Jake were just on swap Brookesia, and i know Sam from OG Brookesia so the only person i'm just now meeting is Mikey and that stresses me out so much less than if we had merged or something. My gut is telling me that the idol is long gone and searching might just get me annoyed before it gets me an idol. On the upside, i still have time to find one if it's it out there because i highly doubt I'll be in trouble anytime soon the way my tribe keeps winning everything. ALSO: i only said that i thought Calumma would lose because Shane was on that tribe and i just felt like he would go big or go home but that's an issue to address when our paths cross again. If our tribe ends up going to tribal sometime soon, i would hope it would be the obvious choice to vote Mikey seeing as how i know him the least but idk maybe thats wishful thinking i dont want it to come to that.

SAMMY

Mikey has my heart on this tribe....YUP I really just wanna keep all the fun ppl...im missing daisy:// umm I did not bid on a single thing and I kind of regret it but also??? At least I am safe from tribal...but damn I really should have bid huh? Anyways not much is going on...ready to start playing a more individual game tho hehe

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-WUq5wfYK3Xb1Y-KNZptfyagwvSff4cd

NICOLE

I cannot believe I risked being voted out only to NOT BE ABLE TO PLAY NEXT IMMUNITY!!!!!!! what a round, I'm so sad. But I hope I stay.

DAISY

from f15 https://youtu.be/-_meWPNctO0

PETE

it’s literally... dude.. why can’t i just float to a merge whyyYYYYYYYYyyYyYyyyYyYy does it AAAALWAYS have to be so COMPLICATED like this is it this is the time im mufuckin ouutttiiieeeeeee that challenge was clearly thrown so like ✌🏼 it was fuuuun i hope y’all liked me enough to bring me back for whatever the next chameleon returnees thingy is uwu

(after being attacked by bees)

i know i’m paranoid and every tribal i feel sick to my stomach but nobody has talked to me today, except ethan about how fucked we are, it’s half an hour before tribal and no one really seems like they want to work with me. i still haven’t heard a name

TRIBAL COUNCIL

youtube

PETE EXIT INTERVIEW

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