#its cause I reblog myself when others respond to me

[synamartia]

GUYS I SWEAR I'M TRYING TO FINISH SMUTMUS. I just can't stop myself from adding new things each time I try to enter the final editing stage 😭 I keep telling myself to save some bits for future stories, but fuck! It's getting too good for me to stop~ 😉 and then I get on here and get inspired to add something else, which throws me back a couple steps cause I'm trying to make sure it flows properly. SOMEONE TAKE AWAY MY PHONE- *gets smacked down*

Btdubs I've used the word "tongue" WAY too many times so if anyone could help me with synonyms or alternative ways to describe the tongue that'd be great 🥲

Be prepared though, once it's done and posted, I'mma take some time to respond to messages/comments/reblogs, catch up on some reading *looks at Hazel, Mink, & Danny* and write ESSAYS on every little detail! Yall might wanna put me on mute when that happens 🤣

I'll come back and add proper CW tags to all the teasers I release later, but for now (and just as a general rule of thumb with anything I post): MDNI! And jsyk, it WILL BE WORTH IT. I've doubled my word count from the original nine parts, and it's still growing. So. Y'know.

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Quickly, you turned your head and pushed yourself up. “No! No, I can…” you paused for a moment to stifle a yawn. The incident that led to all of this occurred near the end of your work day, so you were already fairly tired when this started. The unexpectedly hard orgasm wasn't helping any, but the promise of even more kept you going. Besides, you couldn't be the only one having fun here. That wouldn't be fair. “... I can keep going. I wanna keep going,” you insisted, lowering your leg as you pushed yourself up straight, turning to face him fully now. “For you.” You added, staring up at him with an amorous look that made his breath hitch in his throat for a moment. Cautiously, you raised your hands to gently cradle his face, standing on your tip toes so you could place a soft peck on his smiling lips.

Lowering yourself to stand proper now, you began to trace your hands down his neck and chest, not missing the way his muscles still tensed at your touch. It was going to take some time, you realized, to get him to a point where he welcomes your touch rather than shies away from it. You hoped that he would give you that time; outside of this incident that you so clumsily caused, of course. When your hands reached the waistband of his pants, you looked up at him and waited for his permission to continue - something small and near insignificant but nevertheless something he still appreciated. He would have to reward you for that later. Nodding his head, Alastor watched you as you slowly pushed both his trousers and briefs down past his hips, his aching cock springing from its prison and slapping lightly against his lower abdomen. He looked away for a moment, unable to hide his growing discomfort with being so bare in front of another person. Gently, you pressed on his jaw with your left hand to bring his narrowed eyes back to your face. “Hey,” you called. “You can trust me, Alastor,” you assured him, knowing full well that was only part of the problem. Mouth twitching, Alastor stared at you as you leaned in to place tender kisses to his chest, your eyes never once leaving his face as you lowered yourself to your knees before him. “I promise,” you spoke softly, hands tracing the defined muscles of his abs and gliding along the dips of his pelvic v. Bringing one hand down to rest on his thigh, your other gently wrapped around the base of his cock. Humming softly as you smiled up at him, you rubbed your cheek against his length, then grazed your lips over his leaking tip. “I just want to make you feel good,” you continued to assure him, not missing the shaky sigh he gave in response to your touches. Experimentally, you let the tip of your tongue dart past your lips and against his crying slit, his entire body tensing as one of his hands moved to tangle within your tresses while you continued to deliver kitten licks to his sensitive tip. You stared up at Alastor with such innocence in your big doe eyes; he had to bite the inside of his cheek to stop himself from forcing his cock as far down your throat as it could go. “Is that okay?” You asked after a couple more licks to his slit. “Will you let me make you feel good, Alastor?” You asked him so sweetly, voice dripping with honey as his name rolled off your devilish tongue. You really knew how to push his buttons. With a drawn out moan vibrating through his chest, you barely had time to fully open your mouth as he pushed his hips forward and guided your head down until your nose brushed against the carmine strands at his base, his head tilting back at the long anticipated sensation finally washing over him as he breathed out a singular,  “Yes!”

[sailor-aviator]

Singing in the Sanctuary: Chapter Two

Singing in the Sanctuary: Chapter Two

Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Reader

Summary: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw is a simple man. Well, as simple as one can be while living a life of crime. The notorious outlaw of the western territories has never been interested in settling down and having a family, but will that all change when he meets a shy, new teacher who just moved into town?

Warnings: Swearing, Bradley Bradshaw. I think that’s all?

Word Count: 2.5k

A/N: And Chapter Two is here! I'm pretty proud of how much love and praise my series have been getting. I cannot tell you how many times I've gone back and read y'all's comments. And every ask I get puts a smile on my face because I LOVE talking about these boys both in and out of the AUs. I hope we'll share many stories to come! As always, reblogs, comments, and likes are greatly appreciated! 18+ ONLY!! You can find me on AO3 under sailor_aviator where I will be posting these fics as well.

Series Masterlist || DGU Masterlist || Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw Tag List

You were still reeling from the events of the night before. You had stood in the doorway, eyes wide and locked on Bradley as he continued to smirk at you.

“Birdie?” Penny inquired with the barest hint of a smile. You flushed as Bradley turned to her with a cocky grin.

“Found her singing in the sanctuary earlier,” he explained, turning back to rake his eyes over you. “Thought she sounded like a little songbird the way she was croonin’ up and down the aisles.”

You felt your face grow hotter as Penny let out a low chuckle, walking over and leading you over to an empty armchair by the fireplace. You sat down, never breaking eye contact with Bradley.

“Is that so,” frowned Maverick, fixing a glare on Bradley from where he sat opposite you in the matching chair. “So, you managed to corner poor y/n in the church before even thinking of coming to see me.”

“I was looking for you,” Bradley snarked, breaking his heavy gaze away from you to roll his eyes at the older man. “It’s not my fault I found myself momentarily distracted.”

“Wait,” Hangman started, a glee filled grin slowly working its way onto his face. He glanced between you and Bradley. “Aren’t you the girl Rooster had crowded against the-”

“Shut up, Jake,” Bradley hissed, casting an intentional glance to Maverick and Penny who had already snapped their attention to him. Jake guffawed, throwing his head back with a wicked gleam in his eyes, but quickly quieted down when Bradley fixed him with a thunderous look.

“Rooster had her crowded against what?” Penny snapped, placing a protective hand on your shoulder, causing you to jump slightly from the mix of tension and unexpected contact.

“Nothing,” Bradley said quickly, Jake raising his hands in mock surrender at the look on Penny’s face.

Maverick fixed Bradley with a stern look. “Don’t be causing anymore trouble than you already have. You know you’re supposed to be lying low now that the marshal is gunnin’ for you.”

The younger man rolled his eyes, crossing his arms over the expanse of his broad chest. “I ain’t makin’ trouble, Mav, and I sure as shit ain’t worried about the damn marshal.”

“Maybe you should be,” Maverick snapped, causing Bradley’s frown to deepen.

“I’ll keep that in mind, Dad,” he snapped back. The room was encased in a tense silence as the two stared each other down.

“We’re not going to get caught,” Bradley finally muttered with a shake of his head, looking down to where his arms were crossed.

“You don’t know that,” Maverick responded quietly, earnestly. “I don’t know how many favors I can call in for you all.”

“We never asked you to do that,” Bradley shot back, now looking up to glare at the older man. Before Maverick could respond, Penny cut in.

“I think that’s enough for tonight,” she said softly. She looked down at you with a small smile, giving your shoulder another squeeze. “Why don’t you boys head over to the saloon. Your rooms should already be ready. We can discuss this more later.”

Bradley nodded slowly, rising to his feet. The others in his group followed suit, bidding their goodnights to the older couple as they filed out the door.

“You stay safe out there, Birdie,” Jake called over to you with a wink before strutting out the door after his friends. That left you, Bradley, Maverick, and Penny still in the room. Maverick sighed after a beat, rising to walk over to stand in front of the younger man. They both stared at each other for a moment before Maverick pulled him into a tight hug, clapping his hand on Bradley’s back.

“I forgot to tell you how good it was to see you home safe again,” he murmured. Bradley huffed out a laugh as he hugged him back.

“That’s alright, Mav,” he said. “I know how much you love your lectures.”

Maverick chuckled, releasing him. “Go on and get some rest now.”

Bradley nodded, walking towards the door. He stopped just before the threshold, and gave you a look over his shoulder.

“Goodnight, Birdie,” he rasped, smile tugging on the corner of his lips. You averted your gaze.

“Goodnight, Bradley.”

And now here you were, standing in your room as you checked your reflection in the vanity the next morning. Nerves ate away at you as you smoothed your skirt down for the umpteenth time. Deciding that you couldn’t put it off any longer, you made your way down the stairs where Penny was already divvying up the eggs onto the plates on the table. She looked up as you came to a stop on the ground floor, and she gave you a wide smile.

“Birdie!” she chirped, wiping her hands on a towel by her side. “Come and sit! Eat something before you go.”

You obeyed her, sitting down at your usual spot as she passed you the butter for your bread. “It smells delicious, Penny,” you said.

“Thank you,” she smiled, sitting down across from you. You heard footsteps moving upstairs before they moved to the stairs. Maverick rounded the corner and smiled when he saw the both of you already sitting down to eat.

“Smells good, honey,” he commented, walking over and giving Penny a kiss to her temple before sitting down. The three of you ate in comfortable silence for a few minutes before Maverick turned to you with a thoughtful expression.

“Oh yeah,” he started, “today is the first day of school, isn’t it?”

“It is,” you smiled at him, wiping your fingers on your napkin.

Maverick nodded. “How are you feeling?”

“Honestly?” you sighed. “I’m really nervous. I’ve never had the opportunity to teach before, and I’m scared I’ll mess it up.”

“Nonsense,” Maverick waved you off with a smile. “I’m sure you’re more than capable of molding the young minds of our town’s children.”

“What if they don’t find me interesting enough to listen to?” you asked, chewing on your bottom lip. Maverick let out a quiet laugh, but stopped when Penny glared at him.

“I wouldn’t worry about that, Birdie,” Maverick snickered. “Rooster seems to find you plenty interesting already, and it’s hard to keep his attention on anything longer than a few minutes.”

You frowned. “I don’t understand?”

“Don’t mind him, y/n,” Penny reassured you, shooting a warning look at her husband. “It’s gettin’ to be about that time. Why don’t you go on ahead? I’ll take care of your plate.”

You thanked her, waving a goodbye to Maverick before making your way to the church. A couple of children were already milling about and talking amongst each other. Their whispers grew as you approached.

“See!” a girl with blonde pigtails whispered to her friends excitedly. “I told you she was pretty!”

“I hope she’s nice,” a brunette whispered back to her. You smiled at them warmly.

“Good morning, girls,” you greeted them with a small wave.

“Good morning, miss!” they called back to you as you made your way into the building. Your new students filed in after you, taking their seats amongst the first few rows of pews where you had placed the slate tablets the day before. You blushed at the memory, shoving it far back into your mind. Once the last student had taken their seat, you clapped your hands together with a smile.

“Right,” you chirped. “Is this everyone?”

The children nodded, watching you expectantly. You looked over your group of about twenty students, the oldest being no more than twelve years old.

“Well, it’s a pleasure to meet you all! I’m so excited to be here with all of you today. I understand that you all haven’t had a teacher for quite a while now?” You asked them.

“That’s right, miss,” said the blonde from earlier. You nodded.

“Okay,” you sighed, rubbing your hands nervously over your skirt yet again. “I’m afraid you’ll all have to bear with me in the upcoming weeks. You see, this is my first time teaching.”

“It is?” asked a small girl from the front row.

You smiled at her. “It is. And, you see, I’m a little nervous.”

“You don’t have to be nervous, teacher!” said the boy, who couldn’t be more than five, next to her.

“What’s your name?” you asked him, leaning down so that the two of you were eye level. He looked up at you with a big, toothy grin.

“My name is Billy!”

“It’s nice to meet you, Billy,” you chuckled. “Do you think you could be my little helper today?”

“Yeah!” he cried, wiggling excitedly in his seat. You giggled, straightening up to address the rest of the class.

“It might take me a couple of days to learn all of you names,” you began, “but I hope we can all become good friends from this point onwards.”

The children let out a chorus of “yes, teacher,” before you made to sit on the steps leading up to the altar.

“Today,” you continued, “I thought we’d get to know each other instead of diving into the curriculum. How does that sound? You can ask me any kinds of questions you’d like.”

The students began to whisper amongst themselves before the blonde girl raised her hand. You nodded at her.

“My name is Samantha,” she started. “We were wondering where you were from?”

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Samantha,” you smiled. “I’m from a little place called Independence, Missouri. Do you know what river runs through my hometown?”

Samantha shook her head, and you went on. “It’s called the Missouri River. Pretty easy to remember, right?”

Billy shot his arm up into the air so fast, you weren’t sure how he didn’t hurt himself.

“Billy?”

“Teacher, have you ever seen any boats?” he asked excitedly.

“I have!” you laughed. “I’ve seen many boats, in fact. Most of them come in from a different river called the Mississippi.”

“Have you ever been on a boat?”

“Once, when I went to visit my aunt in St.Louis.”

The questions continued, and soon the bell at city hall chimed noon, leaving you shocked at how fast the morning had passed.

“Alright, children,” you said, standing up. “It’s lunch time. Try to be back when the clock chimes one, okay?”

“Yes, teacher!” they cried out, making their way down the aisle and out the door. Smoothing the wrinkles out of your skirt, you followed after them.

You had just passed the threshold of the church leading out into the yard when you ran into a solid, muscular chest. Looking up with wide eyes, you squeaked when you saw Bradley already staring at you. He held onto your arms to keep you from falling back onto the ground.

“Bradley!” you yelped. “What are you doing here?”

“Hi, Birdie,” he grinned down at you. “I saw all the kids runnin’ outta here and thought I’d come by to see what they were doing.”

“They’ve been in school all morning,” you breathed. “We just let out for lunch.”

Bradley frowned down at you with a furrow in his brow. “You’re teaching them in the church?”

“There’s no schoolhouse,” you explained, looking down to fidget with your fingers. Bradley still held you close, and you were starting to find it hard to concentrate.

“Why hasn’t Mav built one yet?” he grumbled, more to himself than to you. You shook your head up at him.

“It’s not his fault. He said that no one has volunteered yet.”

“Is that so?” Bradley hummed. He looked around before focusing back on you. “Did you bring anything to eat?”

“No,” you admitted sheepishly. Bradley smiled, stepping back, but moving a hand down to the small of you back.

“C’mon. I’ll buy you something.”

Bradley bought you an apple at the market. He had offered to buy you more, but you insisted that the apple was more than enough.

“You should have seen the look on Hangman’s face when Scout told him off in the middle of the street,” Bradley grinned. The two of you had found purchase underneath the shade of a tree in the churchyard. “Wasn’t sure if he was going to run away scared or propose to her right then and there.”

You giggled at his story. Bradley had been informing you about Jake’s antics where it concerned a girl that had moved to town about a month before you had. For the past half hour, he had laughed about the changes in his friend now that there was a girl in town seemingly unaffected by the blond’s charms.

“You have a really pretty smile,” Bradley breathed, watching you. You felt your cheeks heat up, and you looked away in an attempt to hide it.

“Birdie, listen,” he began, reaching up to cup your cheek. “About the schoolhouse-”

“Rooster!”

You both jumped, turning to see a group of your students rushing towards the two of you.

“Hey!” Bradley called out, catching a couple of them as they jumped onto him. You laughed as you watched the group of boys attempt to wrestle the much larger man down to the ground. Bradley’s eyes widened as one of them nearly managed to sweep his legs out from under him. “What-?”

“Leave Miss Birdie alone!” One of them, Ricky, cried out from where he was dangling on Bradley’s bicep.

“Yeah!” hollered James who was wrapped around one of Bradley’s legs.

“What are you monsters going on about?” Bradley asked them incredulously, looking at you for help, eyes pleading.

“We like Miss Birdie, Rooster,” Ricky glared. “You can’t break her heart!”

Bradley’s eyes widened to the size of dinner plates as he stared at the boy. “What?”

“My mama told my auntie that all you and Jake do is run around town breaking people’s hearts!” Ricky responded, dropping his weight in an attempt to knock him off balance.

“You can’t break her heart, Rooster!” Michael cried from his spot on Bradley’s other leg. “We don’t wanna see Miss Birdie cry like the other girls!”

You raised an eyebrow at Bradley at the boys’ words. He had the good sense to look at you sheepishly, eyes still begging you for help.

“Alright, boys,” you said firmly. “I think Rooster has received the message.”

The boys immediately let go of Bradley, racing to your side and gripping your hands protectively.

“Why don’t you all go inside, and I’ll meet you in a minute?” you suggested, squeezing their hands. The boys nodded solemnly, casting final glares at the man who stood before you. Once they were out of earshot, you turned to face him.

“Other girls, huh?”

Bradley rubbed the back of his neck, his cheeks reddening. “They must have overheard some of the adults talking about my younger days.”

You hummed, turning to walk back into the church.

“Birdie?”

You looked at him from over your shoulder.

“Will I see you again soon?” he asked you, a hopeful look on his face. You raised an eyebrow at him before turning and continuing your way back into the building.

[neon-moon-beam]

Regarding Angst and Ableism In The Submas Fandom

Posts I've made explaining why people get burned out on angst, why certain depictions are ableist and how they can have real life impact on people.

I'm reposting this from one of my posts here, because I want these things to be absolutely clear:

These are not callout posts for, nor posts attacking any art, fics, or person in particular.

I am not responsible for bad faith interpretations or other potential misinterpretations of me addressing these issues that have personally affected friends, acquaintances, and myself, should people choose to make these interpretations.

Unknowingly making ableist content does not make you a bad person. Everyone still has things to learn, everyone has room for change and growth. Self-education and critical thinking are very important here (and everywhere). A desire to correct a mistake, change, and grow from it is better all around than digging your heels in and refusing to budge or listen.

I am also not responsible for the reading comprehension or critical thinking skills of others. If you don’t read the entire post and choose to be reactionary towards it, including making assumptions about what was said or putting words in my mouth, I am not at fault (and I will not respond to/block you).

As always, bl*nkshippers are not welcome on my content. And if this boundary offends you, that is not my problem. Do not reblog, reply, DM, or in any way contact me to complain. All that will happen is I will block you.

Please note that while I am a fan of Submas, I never will consider myself in the Submas fandom because of these as well as other issues with the Submas fandom, as well as the direction fandom as a whole has been heading.

Links to the posts themselves:

Please Be Careful About How You Portray Submas: A post breaking down early fanart from when Gen 5 was the most recent compared to recent portrayals, how to spot ableist content, and suggestions in how to handle it.

Submas Portrayal Issues Part 2: Why certain ships come off as ableist, presenting mental illness and abusive relationships as "entertaining", and singling out Submas (but especially Emmet) as "not human".

Addressing Ableism In The Submas Fandom And Its Impact Again: How many people have been impacted since the wake of PLA to the point of not wanting to see any PLA-content, or even Submas content regardless of what it is.

Regarding Angst And Burnout: A personal post on why the constant Submas angst was burning me out, why PLA itself was burning me out, and how it felt like as of April 2022 there wasn't much space for people who aren't fans of angst (I have long since stopped bothering looking in any Submas tags and am not aware of how much angst vs non-angst content there currently is, but I am not interested in checking).

More About Burnout, Setting Boundaries, And Taking Care Of Yourself: Why people are burned out on Submas angst, other situations in fan spaces that cause burnout, and what can be done on tumblr to curate your experience.

Submas...hairstyles?: Short post about how the tendency to show only Emmet with fluffy, unkempt hair, etc combined with other "quirky" traits (especially compared to Ingo) can quickly look like casual ableism.

Neurodivergent People Talking About Ableist Content Striking a Nerve With You? Please Think About Why: Even if you yourself are neurodivergent, everyone can learn and do better.

Emmet is NOT: Exactly what it says on the tin. This has been going on for over a decade. Please interact with the source material in some way and stop reducing Emmet to out-of-character, ableist stereotypes!

Making Submas OOC While Using Neurodivergence As A Prop Harms Real People: Again, please interact with the source material and learn about how coding characters works rather than decide every neurodivergent character that gets intense about a hobby is "y*ndere". And please discern when it may be more appropriate to make an OC rather than make a character OOC.

[perseus-ihatemydad-fortnite]

Hello, all of Tumblr! My name is Perseus, Friendly Neighborhood Demi-God, and the son of a particularly D*ckish "King of the Gods". You've probably heard of him.

I decided to make a blog on this "app" after hearing about all the interesting people that also frequent this place. Including my pal, Midas! Man, getting him out of my Uncle's place was Intense, however well worth it. It was pretty funny too, he didn't even believe that I was there to rescue him at first.

But I'll leave this as a topic of discussion for another time.

Besides all that, I'm just here to have a good time. Feel welcomed to ask me anything, or to just talk. Hope you don't mind the "straight to the point" type, cause that'd be me.

//Read underneath for rules and such!//

First and foremost, I'm an adult on this blog. I'm 29, my main is @silversol595. Just keep that in mind when talking with me. If you are a Minor, please consider finding someone else to engage with.

I use // to indicate when I'm speaking out of character.

2. I don't mind NSFW, but please don't be weird about asks.

3. I'm not new to roleplay. It's been a passtime hobby of mine for however long I've been actively using the Internet. If you have an OC with an extended background, please fill me in a little. I won't know anything of what's going on if you don't. (Not that Perseus here has much of any sort of established lore to use, so not much of an issue).

-Side note, I am new to roleplaying on Tumblr itself, so please bear with me

4. My DMs and Asks will always be open, but just know that sometimes I may be slow to respond due to other personal limitations. That being said, I'm also down for Roleplaying in the reblogs. However, DM roleplaying is for other adults only, please. Don't be shy. Perseus might f*ck around a lot, but he's not rude.

5. Don't be a dick.(I know its an obvious one, but it still has to be said sometimes.)

That's it for my rules, thank you for reading them.

I have a few headcannons already for Perseus, including the friendship he has with Midas after helping him escape the Underworld. Most of that is between myself and @king-midas-fortnite (My siblings account).

He is also loyal to Medusa in the sense that they are allies who both equally hate his family for being, uh, just awful.

The others being that he has Superhuman strength and Agility(usual aspects for Demi-Gods), and the ability to turn himself into solid Silver (this headcannon comes from the fortnite skin of being all silver, along with the fact that Silver is the most conductive metal to Lightning. A fitting pairing for him being the Son of Zues, in my opinion). He can't turn other items or people into Silver though.

The last being that he's a bit of a goof, and jokes around a lot, but still knows how to read a room.

Tags I'll be using:

#AskPerseus - This is for Asks when in character.

⚪️ - for when I'm making anomous asks in character.

#Fortnite RP - For roleplay blogs for this character.

[cpunkwitch]

answering my own questions

[pt: answering my own questions]

dont really get sent anything and not many people sent in the questions when the games were posted and reblogged, and i wanted to talk about stuff, so here we are.

this might end up being a multiple part post series?

ask game one (link)

(if comfortable) tell us about your condition? as much info as youre comfy with sharing.

i have a defect in the base of my spine, since i was born its caused me chronic pain all throughout my development and in recent years its only gotten worse, twisting my spine, headaches, jaw issues etc. i've also got highly suspected rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia and ive been diagnosed with a pretty bad case of anemia so bad that everytime a doctor looks at my results after bloodwork they give me a pained look and say "heyy...did you know your iron is low? like...really really low?". that and a hand full of other things, vitamin deficiencies, etc. i dont mind talking more about this

2. do you know about the spoon theory? if yes, what do you think of it?

i'll be honest, the majority of my knowledge of spoon theory off the top of my head is that "drawer with limited supply of spoons" is the disabled way of saying i only have so much motivation and energy (phys, as "battery" usually refers to social and emotional) in me. i've read up on it ages ago but would not be able to put into better words what i still remember about spoon theory (esp since we had a different host back then), i like that its just so much quicker and easier to convey my amount of ability to do things for the day by saying whether or not i have the spoons for it.

i do like to joke that my drawer is always stocked with knives and forks for the ablests, but sometimes that requires spoons to handle too. /silly

3. do you have mobility aids? if yes, which ones? if no, do you want any in the future?

i've mention how i really wish i could have a wheelchair if i were in a different situation, i dont know if i'll ever get one and i almost cried when my brother responded to my joke of "would you make on for me?" with an "i would if i could", i really would like a wheelchair of some kind in the future if the world were more accessible and i were in a safer place. right now though, i've just got my cane that still needs repainting. i guess my moms back brace counts too, i take it with me to work sometimes.

4. how did you find out about cripplepunk? what drew you to the community and movement?

i dont exactly remember but i've known about it for years. i (prev host) might have come across it looking up different punk aesthetics, though im not completely sure why it showed up in a punk aesthetic list, possibly because its punk and people misinterpreted it? my first glimpse was seeing patches on jackets, spiked customized aids, cripples/phys disabled people in your classic punk attire (piercings, dyed spiked mohawks, ripped jeans and fingerless gloves) and i loved it. im a sucker for self expression through appearance and customizing things and then when i found out it was a whole community for support and centered around being physically disabled in general and slowly came to terms with my own disabled body and started accepting myself, i kinda fell in love with cripplepunk in the "this feels like home" sense.

i could probably ramble way more but i'll stop there.

5. if you deal with any kind of pain, what's your method of pain management?

i use hot packs, ice packs, voltaren cream, sometimes i take a cbd gummy, i do little stretches when i remember them, i take walks and hot baths/showers, im trying to go back to the chiropractor and my favourite instructors in rehab (theyre trans friendly and complimented my cane when i first came in with it i love them so much), and i take whatever meds i can, normally anti-inflammatory like ibuprofen but because i cant swallow pills i either take liquid (yeah, childs liquid meds works, the couple hours of mild relief is still worth it) or powdered tylenol or something. the hot/cold stuff depends on the pain and where on my body the pain is.

6. do you stand or sit in the shower or do you prefer baths/find bathing easier rather than showers?

i take baths for my muscles and during the damn monthly ouch in order to relax my body. i take showers just for my shoulders and when im feeling icky and wanna rinse off or something, i take showers on a "regular" basis and i normally stand because the only way i sit is if im crouched in the tub and if i do that i get extra dizzy standing up to get out when i turn the water off. thankfully im no longer near passing out when i take a shower but i still have to sit on the floor matt after because my legs demand rest. i gotta be careful with hot water cuz not only will it make me overheat quickly (i will not realize if in standing in blood-boiling hot water and turning myself into a cooked lobster until after im out) but it can also cause me to literally fall asleep in the bath which can go wrong.

7. do you have a sort of comfort item or safety blanket that helps you feel better, especially on the worst days?

a couple things. a few of them are stuffies/plushies, or music, games or books to help me keep my mind off it i suppose.

8. name 3 things you hate about hospitals/doctors/nurses/the medical system

a) a lot of them refuse to take people seriously or actually listen. sure maybe theyre tired or heard the same shtick before and wanna make sure this person isnt just a drug user trying to pity their way into getting more, but even then all matters a patient presents them with should still be taken seriously and never brushed off or mocked.

b) the fact that the er, the place you take a ticket and wait, is called the Emergency Room, when its normally scheduled appointments and people taken in by the ambulance that are top priority. sure its called the er because most visits through the er are rushed "emergency" last minute visits, people going there because they couldnt schedule an appointment and needed to see someone on that day, but still it feels wrong to call it the emergency room when its really just a waiting room and regardless of the visit they arent actually treated as emergencies. the whole system of just going to see a doctor feels messed up and most of the time you end up just going to see a nurse, get a check up and leave when they tell you what they got after a talk and examination or they schedule to see you again when a doctor is available. because of this i tend to prefer walk in clinics.

c) the fact that they charge to damn much, no matter if youre insured, it still charges so much. no matter what they do. and yeah, healthcare in canada is free to an extent if youre insured but a lot of times they charge more than your insurance can cover and not everyone can get/has insurance. not to mention the medical debt so many people have in america. i get that staff and hospitals need pay and funding but the government should have that covered and not have the patients charged so much for getting help. i almost got charged over 3k just for my short visit to the ward because there was an issue with my insurance and thats a whole angry story for another time.

9. whats an accessibility tool you wish was more accessible/that you had access to?

one of them is aac, the one i have on my phone i have to disconnect my phone to and has a limited amount of phrases i can pick from. id like it better if the app or just aac programs in general when directly to your device speaker by default, had more options for more ease conversing and none of them were behind a damn pay wall, in-app purchase or otherwise. i rarely use it for several reasons but i'd love if i could use it more with less limitations.

also wheelchair ramps. i dont have a wheelchair ramp but i wish people stopped walking on them when theyre clearly able-bodied, i wished my parents taught me and my siblings what the ramps were for and not to run up and down them as well as other parents to their kids because those things are supposed to be clear for a wheelchair user. i also think the corners should be rounded for ease of turning and that wheelchair accessible paths in general should be firm to the ground (not a wimpy matt on the sand that flips over and gets buried on the beach unmaintained), maintained and cleaned regularly, not have any gaps (ive seen so many of the small ones installed in doorways that have a height gap above the ground which causes trouble getting the wheelchair on the ramp let alone through the damn door) and not have railings made of metal if theyre outside (they can often reflect light into peoples eyes and get too hot to touch in the sun both of which are not good issues to have no matter how small they seem.)

those are at least the first to come to mind.

10. whats the worst accessability cockblock you've seen ableds do/make?

theres quite a few i've seen but atm nothing significant comes to mind other than overpricing mobility aids or placing paywalls in front of aids in general.

however there was the few times in more than one school i went to you had to go to the office, provide a 'valid' reason and ask them for a key to the elevator, otherwise they make you take the stairs. i know they do it because they dont want able-bodied kids messing with it n shit but its stupid, it should be accessible to everyone regardless. thank fuck both collages ive been to so far give free elevator use to any staff or student but in the schools i went to i was only allowed have the access key because i couldnt walk up the steps on my sprained/twisted ankle and i had to give it back at the end of every day. the last school even limited my use to just the morning or 1-2 periods that i had on the second floor. nevermind if my locker was up there.

11. whats an accessibility tool youre very thankful for?

screen readers. my little brother uses/used em more than me and i dont use them too often but im glad they exist in general i used them when i was younger and my english teachers gave us work on the computer, i used it like an audiobook and it helped me majorly. i hate that people dont always provide translations to things and make things harder on screen readers by using coloured, tiny, non-serif font-ed or 'quirked' text but ever since i was a kid i was just as happy they existed as i was about braille.

12. name 3 things you like about hospitals/docs/nurses/the medical system

a) that there are some people there who are actually hoping, willing and ready to listen and help others.

b) that they provide things for kids like toys in the waiting room, people who specialize in caring for kids in the hospital, some doctors even have their office decorated. one doctor i went to had her entire office winnie the pooh themed and it helped me out a lot when i got blood work done n stuff, it was really comforting to stare at pooh bear instead of the sharp pokey in my arm.

c) that things are usually kept quiet with low voices, as it reduces risk of overstimulation as well as avoids hurting anyones head and protects privacy of those talking about whats going on. voices are usually only raised to a normal talking level when in the privacy of a nurse or doctor office and its something i dont see really acknowledged anywhere.

13. do you have any favourite disability rep? (media or character)

not picking from my own sources, when it comes to physical disability rep, its hard for me to pick something that involves a realistic character because most of them arent very well portrayed or i cant personally relate to. i can list Freddy freeman as one, hes a crutch user and how the shazam movie portrayed him does well in expressing what ableism can be like for some visibly disabled kids in school. i could probably list some shows that handle disability well through other means if i thought of them, i know theres a few that handle it through super heros being disabled (the one spider-person who's got both a wheelchair and a cane from the recent spiderverse movie for example) or non-human characters having differences that are implied to be disabilities, and i adore that creativity, especially with showing disabled super heros as it tells disabled kids theyre still strong, not broken, they can still be cool and do great things just like able-bodied people. hard for me to name specific things off the top of my head though, guess i like specific tropes around disability rep more than anything. it helps normalize disability and thats what really makes me happy with it. (thats a big reason why i made @/your-fave-is-crippled)

14. least favourite/worst disability rep?

not phys disabled but sia's fucked up movie right off the bat still angers me. i cant name any specifics once again, normally if theres some rep that i dont like i purposely forget they exist to begin with, they arent worth remembering if they arent gonna do it right, y'know? id rather forget and move on than linger and rage about it if i can help it.

15. list some creators (youtubers/bloggers etc) that are disabled and/or cater to a disabled audience that you enjoy? (if any)

@crippled-pvp, @cripple-culture-is are a couple blogs i follow that i enjoy seeing on my dash (sorry if you dont want to be tagged!)

there was a deaf/hoh girl i used to frequent the content of as she talks a lot about signing and i really enjoyed her videos, shes such a sweet person but i never remembered her name nor any of the other creators i watched/followed. no one else comes to mind atm

16. favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

i like that there are people with advice at the ready, whatever question you have or info you need etc, theres always going to be someone with the words you need. i just like how helpful people can be in general in this community and how easily support is accessed through the community.

17. least favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

the fact that theres in-fighting, fake claiming, judgment, quick assumptions, and general internalized ableism still going on when we're supposed to be a community helping each other out not tearing each other down. im not just talking about the fight over "inclusion vs exclusion" on cripplepunk and other sub/separate communities in the disability community.

18. favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

i think my answer to "what drew you to cripplepunk" also answers this.

19. least favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

honestly? none. i hate the people forcing themselves into a space not meant to include them nor benefits them in the first place. i cant actually think of an issue i have with the cpunk community, only issues with people outside being upset over how "exclusive" it is because they want in.

20. free space:

feel free to ask me about any of my answers! i'll make a second post for the second ask game some other time. its currently 11pm and i have to get up early for morning classes yuck

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[spottyissleepwalking]

Hello, sorry to bother you but can I ask a question about the warrior cats disability post you reblogged earlier? And I mean this in good faith, honestly, I want to understand.

I haven't read warrior cats, but just from what was described in the post, it sounds... realistic? Since not everyone bounces back from becoming disabled. For example, a coworker and I (in a labor intensive field) have the same injury to our knee. He, I guess you could say has responded "well" to his injury. He has a higher drive to push past pain, not let it limit what he can do, and is able to work as hard, or harder, than non-disabled coworkers, but he is still absolutely disabled. In his case, he often overworks himself and thus ends up having to take off several days to recover and is on a lot of pain medication, both Rx and self medicated. In the scenario presented in the post, he would def be able to stay in the warrior class. But I didn't respond well to my injury, and don't react well to pain. I fell into a deep deep depression that took almost 8 years to crawl out of. Doing the exact same tasks as he does, I work slower and more carefully, avoiding pain at all costs rather than pushing past/despite pain. I'm slower, not as effective. But I don't need to take time off or frequent breaks to recover, and though it takes a little longer, I do just as much work as he does at the end of the week when accounting for the time he takes to recover. I like to imagine that I've reacted to my injury well, but can't help feeling inadequate and worthless when compared to coworker. Especially on days that we work side by side and he's running quite literal circles around me. And remember, we have the exact same injury with very similar causes and only a few months time difference.

From what I understand of the culture of Warrior cats (which is admittedly very very little) I imagine I'd end up in a healer class as well, even if I wished I could be warrior class. I would give almost anything to work as fast, as effectively, as hard as coworker does. But I can't.

So I guess what I'm asking is, what am I missing from the narrative, as someone who hasn't read warrior cats, that makes a character, who has not returned to their former glory after an injury, a poor representation of disability? As the post stands on its own right now, it just feels like it's kicking disabled people when they're down for not acting like they're still fully abled. Like shaming a paralyzed person for not joining a sport.

I have to assume that it's just poorly worded for anyone outside the fandom, but it really does come of as... well... ableist. Which is what drove me to ask, since making assumptions of ableism is generally kinda shitty, and I am curious about the source material.

I hope I didn't come off aggressive or let my emotions on the subject get carried away here, genuinely sorry if it does come off rude. I promise am asking in good faith because I want to understand from a creative standpoint if the narrative actually handled it poorly, and how-so, to help myself and others potentially avoid making the same artistic mistakes.

Thank you for taking the time to read this wall of text, and again, so sorry for bothering you!

No no!! Not aggressive or rude or anything of the sort :D

I’ll be honest, I didn’t read the full text, but I got the gist of it so I’ll try to answer aptly ^^

The problem with Warriors isn’t that there isn’t disability representation - there is, it’s just. Awful. Why? Because almost every single disabled character, sans THREE, in a series that has thousands of named characters, is FORCED into a role they don’t want - or KILLED. Solely for being disabled, solely for being “different”.

It’s not that they necessarily chose that life for themselves, it’s that it was forced upon them, which is where so many fans (reasonably) draw issue with. Disabled characters are offered the bare minimum in Warriors canon. Either they’re essentially forced to become a doctor, with the trope of “the broken-bodied healing the able-bodied” (which personally unsettled me greatly), or they’re shipped off to the elder’s den, which is a place where cats retire due to old age and are cared for by their Clanmates, usually without ever having the chance to prove themselves, and display both their abilities and weaknesses. They’re just automatically shoved into this corner.

There was a Deaf character, once, in the decades-long span of this book series, that was told he would never become a warrior solely because of his deafness - and then was immediately killed off in a manner that was almost never used again as a device to kill a character.

There was a character who was hit by a car and, as a result, ended up losing the function of one of her back legs. Prior to this, she was training as any other young member of her society would. Immediately after? She became a doctor.

There was a character who became blind due to an outside force, and, despite being the equivalent of maybe a thirty-year-old, immediately retired to the elder’s den.

There was a born blind character who fought to train as a warrior, under a half-blind warrior. He was doing well in his training - until the in-universe religion came down to him and forced him to give up his dreams in order to become a doctor. Granted, his case was a little more complicated and intermingled with plot, but it still stands.

There was a character with anxiety who was a poor hunter, and was pressured to become a doctor because of his lack of skills.

There was a character who was paralyzed, and was dismissed as dead, or “better off dead”, by almost everyone around her - INCLUDING HER OWN FAMILY - except the blind character, who found kinship with her and fought tooth-and-nail to keep her alive and healthy.

And the thing is? These characters are CATS! Cats, who have been documented living alone in the wild with these sort of disabilities and thriving!! Which makes it all the more frustrating to see a narrative built around the appeal of cats, have them have this whole support system and community, and that community actively turn their backs on them.

It’s not about them choosing. It’s about them being forced. Not having any opportunity to grow, or learn, or allow others around them to do the same in regards to them. There’s no acceptance here. In universe, it seems like they’re just shoved into the shadows so the able bodied characters don’t have to look at them or think too hard about them, unless they’re healing their wounds.

The characters themselves are not the poor representation. It’s how the authors have handled them - by shoving them aside, to the shadows, to the dogs. It’s frustrating and disheartening.

[fishedeyelenz]

Fishy!! *starts sobbing* *starts really sobbing* *ooouugh is sobbing hard* ough that was a terribly sweet thing to say! One day I will get off of anon probably, probably soon, I just gotta hype myself up! I just get, nervous lol. It feels like people will see my face and know me, and then like I’ll feel deep shame for how very empty my blog is with reblogs and things, for even though I have been lurking on tumblr for, *looks at watch* a freaking long time lol, I STILL am only just learning how to reblog and do o e or two things, for I have all this time been to scared about messing something g up or doing something wrong lol! So yeah yeah, I’m just. A slow little guy. But yes! *mwah* very sweet, thank you!!

And I will HISS. AT HIM. Do you hear me? HISS!!! That boy will not be allowed anywhere near my wee little concertina unless under supervision, the little toddler. And he will have to practice gently holding my hand before he can gently breathe on my baby. And when he gets angry and goes to smash my precious instrument, I will actually tackle him. You don’t understand my conviction I’m telling you. Or I’ll bow up to him and like, raise my hands and hiss at him like a raccoon, and he will understand, he will FEEL the threat, for he is also a raccoon!! (Your raccoon Billy is actually precious to me) I’ll bite him, he is not the only one that bites, and he will learn that so help me. Unfortunately we both seem to have rather animal like behavior habits, so I’m sure we would look not unlike how kittens puff up and swat and hiss at each other….but such is life.

But on the flip side, HOW WONDERFUL TO HAVE A BILLY PARROT!!! It would actually be quite perfect I believe, since I too squawk out songs and will sing badly on purpose….it just seems so very fun, to be parrots together! I wonder if he can whistle? There’s so many small things I like to daydream doing with my blorbos, I’d like to try to whistle with him, and show him how I can wiggle my ears, and watch him try! See if he can cross one eye, but keep the other straight, and then switch them!! See if he can make a circle with his tongue and blow through it, just…sweet things, that make him feel normal, and like a little kid, and that are fun!! I’m just way too soft and these thoughts torment me ugh. We could try doing cartwheels (I’ll die, I bloody can’t do them, I can’t even open water bottles most of the time, but boy howdy I can dream), I could show him how to wiggle his toes a certain way, and pick things up with his toes! Cause it would seem like he probably never had the chance to try I imagine….its bloody fun lol!! (I can text with my toes, when I showed my mama she freaking lost it) I could show him how to roller skate!! I’m sure they’ll be…many casualties.

Would he appreciate cat like affection? For once again, unfortunately, I unironically behave like an animal in many ways. As a greeting to my parents I “bonk” my head to there’s, and I actually nuzzle into it. Most of the time I won’t actually say anything or any words, I make this specific sounds that everyone somehow knows is like, me greeting them, or saying hello, or an acknowledgment. And then instead of responding with words, many times I make this….sound..? This…almost squeak? LIKE A CAT. Would he appreciate such behavior? When my sister moved back home for a little bit, she was GREATLY amused by my daily habits. *nods* I believe he would be too.

And lord have mercy, I’m gonna be real with you fishy. I MAY have gotta a little watery eyed looking at all the bean and Camille mood boards, with a dash of Billy in there. BECAUSE THEY ARE SO SWEET. So sweet!! So wholesome!!! When I look at them I just wanna grab up my nieces and squeeze them!!! And then snuggle and cuddle with them for they hold my heart. (And I’m gonna have a new little nephew!! SUBLIME!!!!! I’ll teach him how to bite and scratch)

HELLO!!! sorry for the kinda of late reply, college started up again and my schedule is hectic 😭😭😭 one of the reasons I'm not posting much of any longer form content lmao. Maybe when I get back to he groove again...

Anyway!!! Don't feel bad! Everything is a learning process and everyone is bound to make mistakes, if you can even make mistakes in blogging lol. It's your blog after all, you use it how you wanna, and anyone who has a problem with that you are free to block lol. But I'm sure nobody will be mad at you for not reblogging things a lot!! Even likes are like little kisses to me </3 But take your time, a d go at your own pace, however you feel comfortable :3 I love receiving your anons just as much as I would if you want asks from your blog

Hehe yeah, keep all things precious away from him for a good long while, till you build up trust with him. It might take a long time though.... showing dominance does help, but it might make him horny lol. But ah well, what can you do? Anyway, thank you about the Raccoon Billy :3 Very proud of him. Funnily enough, being in the black Christmas fandom is what made a furry lol. So many of my mutuals are furries, it was just a matter of time till I gave in. It's fun to draw animals with human anatomy wearing little outfits!!! Will never get the furry haters lol. Billy would be a furry in my opinion... I guess he would like it then, that you have animal manerism. Truly made for each other <3

AWW YESS PARROT TIME!!! he would love you joining in with the singing, and would try to out sing you honestly, in terms of volume. Be ready for a lot of noise complaints lmao. I do believe he would probably know how to whistle, as he is very talented with his voice, he would have probably come to train himself to whistle to, to imitate certain birds (for camouflage reasons, I personally hc him hating birds imo). He would probably love to do and try the other things you mentioned, as it would probably be a great distraction from his usual mental torment. Ask him to do these things when he is in a good mood tho ofc. The toe thing he would love to learn especially, since he could use it to be more sneaky. All in all, these activities would offer a great opportunity to help heal his inner child.

Bro is a cat honestly. I think the first time he offers affection by himself he would do it in a cat-like way, without you doing it at first. Head bonks all the way. Nuzzling. Flopping down so you can give him a belly rub. Even knows how to purr. He would honestly be so content you do the same things as he does, having learned to be affectionate from all the cats he had in secret growing up. This is the way he shows love naturally, and you not forcing him to act any different would truly make him feel loved. He would even bite you out of great love he feels for you.

Awe 🥹 thank you. I'm glad you liked them so much, I always try to make them sweet, even though they are mostly crack. And congratulations!!! I'm sure you and your family are happy to welcome him!!! I'm so happy for you!!! May the two of you be creatures together!!!

[katyspersonal]

People really have nothing better to do with their life? Unbelievable. They need to get a better hobby. Those last dm are really not necessary it’s so bad. They even dare to bring your friends in all of this mess. Take care, you deserve it.

I agree that the lengths they go through to try and kick someone out of the fandom are absurd, and yeah, I really do not understand what gets under their skin so hard that someone is still active in the fandom? I mean, Marble said "she tries to insert herself back into fandom by sending people nice asks :(((" which is honestly the most hilarious thing I've heard yet. Fandom is more than just their entitled toxic furry jerk-off circle! Who appointed HER to decide who "belongs" in the fandom and who doesn't? It is a free space!

All in all, people like that don't care about what is "necessary". They have a lot of pent-up aggression and latch onto any justification to mistreat another human being. It is specific kind of western community leeches that can't care less about anyone's mental state, whether they're sorry or not, that will hold something you did year(s) ago against you for all eternity, that see resolving a problem with another person in "removing" them instead of offering any sort of healing, communication and patience. No one on this wretched Earth owes anyone anything, of course, but the worst part? They will treat those that DO try to help one they deemed worthy of mistreatment as a "traitor". Why are you helping the """bad""" guy to recover and reassume their place in the society? You are supposed to spend this time and energy on the """good""" guys who already have everything!

The best red flags for such people even before you ever got into a conflict with them is if they express unambiguous sadistic glee when they "pissed someone off" in a [insert a community], if the see making people angry as "accomplishment", and also if they go far just to spite someone who upset them. Normal human beings like me or you do not see any honour in causing negative emotions, and even if our enemies are seething deep down we think 'damn, we really had to be enemies?' instead of feeling """victorious""" somehow. You see 'sadistic glee' = you know this person will be unhinged if you become enemies, simple as that. Even fandomry activity can expose that sort of attitude!

As for my friends... Again, I am as guilty about bringing them into the situation as my enemies are. I should not have mentioned the names in private convos ever. And in general, for the last part, you really should not feel all that bad for me... You see, I am an idiot. Despite my paranoid vibes never failing me, I still keep calming myself down and wrestling with my mind instead of trusting them, despite the fact that not even ONCE they failed me! Like... I just had a feeling that A. never forgave me despite her nice words, so why did not I fucking listen to my guts? I really want to act surprised that she saw an opportunity to get back at me when I already was staggered after lying about being "chill"?

Anyways, thank you for letting me talk about it (and other anon(s), too). If I continue getting this sort of attention, I might stop responding because if venting overstays its welcome it becomes COUNTER-productive, but just know that I appreciate the concern and common sense. And yeah, @ mutuals: again, if any of you feels unsafe publicly associating with me because of those people, you can inform me so I do not do asks/reblogs/comments and only talk in private. I am not a type of a guy that alters my behaviour because my enemies decide it for me, but when COOL people do not feel safe it WILL concern me.

[rpclefairy]

yessssss omg. I can’t tell you how disheartened I’ve been lately about essentially being left on read every single time i extend myself, looking to either plot or even just chat with people. old partners and new potential partners both.

and yeah, like you said, people are busy/have health issues/etc, but i do too and i’m still out here doing my best to at least communicate. it really grinds my gears when i see people i’ve reached out to countless times complain very publicly about no one writing with them or talking to them when i Know im probably not the only one they are putting on the back burner. ive started unfollowing these people and i think its caused some drama in certain circles, but what is the point of me following an rp blog that i wanted to write with if they cant even bother to respond to me ooc after weeks or months?

mental/physical health breaks are ABSOLUTELY valid, but to expect constant effort on your partners’ parts, and to never reciprocate in turn is Not Okay. relationships of any kind cannot be sustained like that.

disheartened is a very accurate word to describe it.

obviously no one expects dms to be replied to in 32 seconds or anyone to be online 24/7, but as a whole the community has taken reasonable sentiments like "it's okay to take breaks and be slow with replies" as a free pass to never to reply to anything and refuse to engage with mutuals.

i've lost the count of how many people i've seen on my dash complain about having no interactions or reblog those "i'm a forgetful rper but i still want to write with you" posts when i KNOW for a fact i have sent them dms to plot MONTHS before they never answered, i've sent them memes they never replied, i've liked their starter calls but my like went ignored as well as i have wrote them starters that are still sitting in my blog without reply for months.

like, at some point we all have to take responsibility for our own activity. we can't all expect everyone else to carry us because we're "oopsie forgetful".

not only it's draining always being the one to reach out it also tells me they don't respect my time and energy as if i don't have irl shit to deal with too. like, i'm writing this with a broken arm and a full arm cast on my dominant hand. but i still find time to reply to people's dms because i'm not the center of the universe and other's people's time and energy is valuable too.

and it is very disheartening not being treated with the same basic decency.

[wifiwuxians]

sorry for the late reply! im the songxue anon! just saw your responses a few minutes ago and my gosh, you're really very sweet ;; im sorry to have caused so much of a fuss but thank you for being so compassionate and kind ;; (also i adore that crying xue yang omigosh what are you talking abt how can you think thats not amazing its perfect i love it). also the tags? on your first reply??? people are mean to song lan????? WHO IS MEAN TO SONG LAN??? WHY??? HOW????! i'll be honest, i tend to avoid getting involved with fandom discourse At All Costs bc i dont need that kind of stress in my life, so mainly i just look at fanart and fics i like and stay in my lane so i had no idea there were people who hate on song lan???? like??????????? how????????????????? okay, i love xue yang, he's my baby, but i TOTALLY understand people hating him. he has no rights and he deserved everything bad that happened to him and so much more. i just happen to adore him and wanna spoil my stupid lil meowmeow. like it makes SENSE to be mad at xue yang but like.................................. how can anyone hate song lan?!?! HE DID NOTHING WRONG?????? LITERALLY HE JUST GOT HURT, OVER AND OVER, FOR NO REASON????? im sorry for going on such a tangent over a very short tag you added but im a lil flabbergasted that anyone could hate on Best Boy. also while im going on tangents about tags, your 500 aus are part of what i adore about your art oki. like you have such a wonderful and vivid imagination and the way that you give life to the ideas with your art is breath-taking. even if its a concept i dont think i would enjoy just hearing the idea, when i see your execution i am 100% on board because my gosh you have such a beautiful way of bringing life to things.

and you don't need to apologize for anything btw! it's totally oki to assert boundaries and i really dont speak for anyone other than myself. i just saw a few "dont tag as ship" things and i was like "ahh... oki they prolly wouldnt like me" cuz im an anxious bean and i also dont wanna reveal myself as a gross loser who likes weird ships to one of my fav artists, ya know? so you were 100% just doing the good selfcare thing (which much approval, we stan) and i just got the wrong idea cuz im a nervous weirdo. as for revealing myself i feel a bit embarrassed to do so now after being such a weirdo at you oaeurhgiauehrg but one way or another, your are IS getting reblogged, especially now that i have permission to look at some pieces disrespectfully oiaerhjgohre (not SUPER disrespectfully, just maybe a lil bit of 'they're in love your honor' oki) (a silly random thing but im a bit happy to know you dont hate songxue oijghiouehrg its silly but knowing my favorite 'songxue artist' (not-really-songxue-but-i-totally-see-it) doesnt hate my otp is kinda nice 😊 i thought the irony of it was a bit funny before but i also felt guilty for seeing stuff that your didnt really intend with your art and yeah eoirjgioejrg basically my initial asks were all that struggle so its just kinda nice. its not a very popular ship so its cool when its not disliked, even if its not actively enjoyed. idk if im making sense LOL sorry) ohergiuearhg sorry i feel like i went on a bunch of tangents instead of responding to you properly and i think maybe i have a problem of Talking Too Much so i swear i will really try to keep this one short. i love your art, youre completely valid and wonderful, im doing okay and im really happy you responded to me so kindly despite my strangeness, i think you're neat and you deserve a ton of people showering you with praise cuz damn, you make things great. and i'd like to take a moment to express how you can really influence people with your art: i never even considered wen chao x xue yang before your art and now i think they're a really funny couple, and thats completely bc of how lovely your creations are. please believe in your ability to make people love the things that you love through your beautiful art. be proud of how incredible you are. you make everything a lil brighter just by existing but the fact that you exist and choose to share your beautiful art (and fics, ive read some of them and i Love your writing, its incredible) you make the world a whole lot brighter cuz damn, now i get to look at this stuff and just smile and feel warm inside. so thank you for making my life a lil happier and please be confident in yourself!

okay sorry to put em all together but also i felt it was best so let's begin,

^me

1- you've caused no fuss at all so don't worry about that!! i just wanted to make sure it wasn't a ships in the night situation LOL i wanted to make sure you got my response! :) (I'M GLAD YOU ENJOY THE MEME LOL) as for song lan meanness, that's what i'm saying THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING and YET! this is why i stay out of the tags all the time. there's just too much shit out there in the world and sometimes i fail at just gritting my teeth and letting people say their thang, and it gets me in trouble... but maaaaaaan i really need to say it's a shame you wanna stay anonymous because i think we'd get on like a house on fire! you've summed up exactly how i feel about both of them + how i wish others reacted to them haha (but no pressure to reveal yourself! just know i think we'd get along)

and as for 500 AUs... i'm so glad 😭 i am an AU machine, i have so many i can't keep track and they bring me so much joy, but i admittedly feel sort of alone in making them haha SO THIS MEANS A LOT!! especially you complimenting my execution like i think i may just melt into a puddle and pass away jfghsjh thank you,, so much

2- but seriously, don't worry about the tag thing, it is 100% a boundary thing and the only time i think i'd dislike someone for it is if they saw i said not to tag it as something in the body of the post and did it anyway! 'cause that's just rude (and then i feel despair bc what else can i do to get people NOT to tag LMAO) it's for my own comfort, i'm not trying to dictate what people can or can't ship or feel, it's just i'd rather not hear about it :p especially when it's not what i drew! but also i'm a favorite artist? 😳

you haven't been a weirdo at all! no pressure to go mask off but please don't let anything be because you think i think you're a weirdo or a loser, ok? it's not true! hooray reblogs my NUTRIENCE.. THANK YOU! (but haha this isn't a 'theyre in love' type of piece but the one i personally look at most disrespectfully is when i drew sl straight up eating xy's flesh off his ribs... i know cannibalism isn't for everyone though and neither is gory imagery! just... sharing... oversharing...)

for the aside: no problem! i will say for transparency purposes that my relationship with it IS complicated and that i personally would need it to fit a very uncommon mold (that i do not often see) for me to be like 👍 which is why i tend to stick to my own stuff + what a chosen few friends make when it comes to them in general, but my god you're a rare breed! i've never met anyone who had it as their otp!! you're braver than any US marine because it's such a rarepair it didn't make it into the like top 11 mdzs ships on ao3 or whatever...

3- i love talking though! i really appreciate your messages and i hope this response wasn't a complete jumbled mess ahhh...

thank you so so much for all the lovely praise and encouragement, getting these messages actually helped me break out of my funk a little and do some chores, so know your words do have an impact too! 💕 i need to remember more often that as long as even one person smiles at my work, it will have been worth it. i promise i'm trying ;; sometimes i get caught up in the numbers still and i'm very ashamed of that, but damn, you took time out of your day to let me know that you love and appreciate what i do, and that's honestly made me tear up a little, so THANK YOU AGAIN !! i'm sorry i'm failing at expressing myself and my gratitude properly kgjdklhjkgh (also, thank you for the xuechao support, like THAT's what i call a RAREPAIR! (canned laughter) i really try to spread the joy with those two)

i'm really floundering on how to say thank you well enough so... maybe i can show you some birthday art i made for a friend who also loves xy and sl and xy/chao (which of course now im being nitpicky about but the friend loved it so idc LOL)

[solrika]

Vent post.

Id put it behind a cut but I’m on mobile :/ also this is very ramble and not at all coherent but oh well.

I always have a bit of an issue with posts like this that are like “your trauma and how you react to it doesn’t make you a bad person” because. Uh. Cycles of abuse are a thing, you can absolutely do bad things out of trauma responses. You can absolutely be a shitty, hurtful person from a place of pain. (Staring at the entire state of Israel and its treatment of Palestine). Especially in the context of that post, which specifically mentions anger issues and addiction.

I’m not replying or reblogging said post because I truly don’t think that’s what op was going for, the greater point was “autism isn’t just sunshine and roses but can create real issues for people,” it’s just… an accidental unfortunate implication. But it’s late and I’m dealing with my own neuroatyoical issues flaring up atm so. Yelling about implications and the need for nuance and space for caretaker burnout on my own blog. Probably dealing with some buried trauma of my own.

(Also the USA healthcare system sucks for people who can’t easily take care of themselves, I dunno what it’s like outside the country but in here you need SO Much Money just to get barely adequate care for TBIs or Alzheimer’s or shit. )

There’s a little byplay in the notes that I think is important—someone says “I don’t have autism but I got secondhand trauma because my sibling does,” someone else responds “fuck you, of course allistic is making it all about them self” and a third person goes “hey it’s very common for the siblings of disabled people to be neglected in favor of the ‘squeaky wheel,’ I know it hurts to hear but disability hurts more than just the disabled person.” That plus some of the notes describing damage that autistic people have done (and largely regretted) to others… Disabled people can cause harm. That’s a thing!!! Being disabled does not make you blameless! Cool motive still murder!

And your disability can absolutely cause secondhand harm even if you don’t mean it to! My little sister no longer feels like the smaller sibling because my parents spend more emotional energy on me—and that’s a mild case, my disability only really began being an issue when we were both in college. It’s nothing compared to her friend, whose adult brother suffered a TBI and can’t live at home because it’s not safe to have a huge man around who can’t regulate his strength when he’s upset. It’s not at all his fault that he’s like this, but it’s a horrible situation and ALL involved should be able to say that it’s horrible.

I have done shitty things because of trauma responses, and I have worked really hard to create strategies to keep those shitty behaviors from happening again. I give myself—and others—a bit of a pass when a situation is truly uncontrollable. Or when someone is actively trying to ignore boundaries I’ve set to protect myself, but… that’s not the same as going “I have anger issues. Huh. Oh well! I will continue having destructive trauma responses and do nothing to mitigate it!”

I dunno. I’m sure some of this strong reaction of mine comes from being lashed out at by people in the midst of their own meltdowns, even though those have been more TBI related than autism related. Still. The meltdown was unavoidable but the ways they acted during were… hm. Not great.

At least stay away from vulnerable entities when you’re like this. My partner removes himself from the dog when he’s having a meltdown because the dog can provoke him into physically lashing out. (The dog has no idea, of course. The dog is very stupid and only barely understands what me crying means. ) He can’t control the meltdown happening but he can step away from things he could hurt. I really wish the people who hurt me had stepped away from the child I was.

I wish I’d gotten an apology, too. Like at least apologize for your shitty behavior, please!

(This whole “writing my own separate post and not tagging op” is one of those “hm. Am having Emotion. How to express it without causing pain to others” things I’ve tried to cultivate.)

If you don’t fucking MANAGE damage to others, others won’t want to be around you. If you hurt someone they are absolutely within their rights to set boundaries to protect themselves.

I dunno. I started at point A and I’m not sure where I went from there. Don’t be a dick I guess.

[neon-moon-beam]

Regarding Angst and Ableism In The Submas Fandom

Posts I've made explaining why people get burned out on angst, why certain depictions are ableist and how they can have real life impact on people.

I'm reposting this from one of my posts here, because I want these things to be absolutely clear:

These are not callout posts for, nor posts attacking any art, fics, or person in particular.

I am not responsible for bad faith interpretations or other potential misinterpretations of me addressing these issues that have personally affected friends, acquaintances, and myself, should people choose to make these interpretations.

Unknowingly making ableist content does not make you a bad person. Everyone still has things to learn, everyone has room for change and growth. Self-education and critical thinking are very important here (and everywhere). A desire to correct a mistake, change, and grow from it is better all around than digging your heels in and refusing to budge or listen.

I am also not responsible for the reading comprehension or critical thinking skills of others. If you don’t read the entire post and choose to be reactionary towards it, including making assumptions about what was said or putting words in my mouth, I am not at fault (and I will not respond to/block you).

As always, bl*nkshippers are not welcome on my content. And if this boundary offends you, that is not my problem. Do not reblog, reply, DM, or in any way contact me to complain. All that will happen is I will block you.

Please note that while I am a fan of Submas, I never will consider myself in the Submas fandom because of these as well as other issues with the Submas fandom, as well as the direction fandom as a whole has been heading.

Links to the posts themselves:

Please Be Careful About How You Portray Submas: A post breaking down early fanart from when Gen 5 was the most recent compared to recent portrayals, how to spot ableist content, and suggestions in how to handle it.

Submas Portrayal Issues Part 2: Why certain ships come off as ableist, presenting mental illness and abusive relationships as "entertaining", and singling out Submas (but especially Emmet) as "not human".

Addressing Ableism In The Submas Fandom And Its Impact Again: How many people have been impacted since the wake of PLA to the point of not wanting to see any PLA-content, or even Submas content regardless of what it is.

Regarding Angst And Burnout: A personal post on why the constant Submas angst was burning me out, why PLA itself was burning me out, and how it felt like as of April 2022 there wasn't much space for people who aren't fans of angst (I have long since stopped bothering looking in any Submas tags and am not aware of how much angst vs non-angst content there currently is, but I am not interested in checking).

More About Burnout, Setting Boundaries, And Taking Care Of Yourself: Why people are burned out on Submas angst, other situations in fan spaces that cause burnout, and what can be done on tumblr to curate your experience.

Submas...hairstyles?: Short post about how the tendency to show only Emmet with fluffy, unkempt hair, etc combined with other "quirky" traits (especially compared to making Ingo more neat and orderly and not quirky in comparison) can quickly look like casual ableism by using his traits to reduce him, even if unintentionally, to ableist stereotypes.

Neurodivergent People Talking About Ableist Content Striking a Nerve With You? Please Think About Why: Even if you yourself are neurodivergent, everyone can learn and do better.

Emmet is NOT: Exactly what it says on the tin. This has been going on for over a decade. Please interact with the source material in some way and stop reducing Emmet to out-of-character, ableist stereotypes!

Making Submas OOC While Using Neurodivergence As A Prop Harms Real People: Again, please interact with the source material and learn about how coding characters works rather than decide every neurodivergent character that gets intense about a hobby is "y*ndere". And please discern when it may be more appropriate to make an OC rather than make a character OOC.

"Unhinged" OOC Submas Portrayals Aren't Submas At All And Perpetrate Ableism: Similar to the post above, why making Submas OOC and "unhinged" or "scary" has turned off many Submas fans from ever being a part of the fandom, even made some people who saw themselves in Submas feel dehumanized, and why making an OC is a better route than taking established characters so far OOC that they're no longer the characters at all.

Not Your Sad Train Blorbos: Deliberate mischaracterization is alienating to many fans, and ableism is even more alienating. Please interact with the source material and make OCs if you don't want Ingo and Emmet to be themselves.

Not Again: Ableism Post-Teal Mask Edition: How immediately upon The Teal Mask's release, people began being ableist towards Carmine and Kieran, and why slapping an armchair diagnosis on a character without their full story isn't the best idea.

More About How And Why Ableism Alienates Disabled People From Fan Spaces: What it says on the tin.

Stop Mischaracterizing Emmet And How It's Personally Affected Someone: This includes an addition from @1863-project, as well as an addition from me after.

[unboundprompts]

I'm so new to Writeblr I didn't realize it was standard to like... reply to prompts in an ask box? Please correct me if I'm wrong though cause I'm still trying to figure out how this place works ;-; I tried to challenge myself to get this done in under 30 again so it's rough ;; Random Prompt #30 "The 'Failed' Experiement"

The Magean was sweating bullets, the exertion of the Magik the circle had completed catching up to him. In the Circle were twelve other High Magean’s, bounded by two’s were six of The Lost, and one High Lady Priestess. Despite linking their Leys, all looked ashen, even the Dark Ones. It was as though their own life force had been drained from their bodies, maybe even their souls.

Was that possible?

No one had done a Magikal experiment this intense, not since the days of Legend when the Races were Constructed during the War of Champions. 

Had they succeeded?

Had they created new life?

Had they successfully pulled the Leys to create the next step in their society’s collective evolution?

Were their Gods successfully tricked?

After generations of banishment from the Outside, would they finally have the means necessary to take control of the Planet as was rightfully theirs?

He wiped the sweat from his brow, looking in the center of the circle at their test subject. Aghast, he stepped back. Skin peeled off the victim, its flesh sloughing off its bones. Chunks of meat clung to the skeleton, and the acrid smell of necrosis permeated the air. The creature’s eyes glowed an unnatural yellow, the eyes melting from its sockets. 

It looked around and released a gurgling screech. Its cry echoed around the domed ceiling, piercing the ears of everyone in the room. 

The Lord High Priestess stood straight, the only person in the room seemingly unaffected by the monstrosity now standing before them. “Bind it,” she commanded, “It will stay alive until The Queen has decided otherwise.” She stepped down from her dias, ready to leave the room. 

“My Lady,” One of the Mageans called out to her, “Surely you cannot expect us to allow this… this thing to live any longer than absolutely necessary? The experiment… this is a failure!”

The Priestess raised an eyebrow, “And what makes you so certain this is a failure?” She looked the creature up and down, now bound in various weaves of various magik, and smirked, “It may not be what we were trying to do persay… but it may still have its uses.” 

The Magean shuddered, “My lady-”

“Should you question me again, child, you may end up sharing the same fate as this wretch,” she said darkly. “Unless you think you know better The Queen herself? Than one of the Samnae? Perhaps you should be punished for such blasphemy.” 

The underling swallowed visibly, skin becoming even paler if possible. 

“That’s a good boy.” The Priestess said, “Now maintain the circle, all of you.” 

The Queen entered the highest room of the Obelisk, composed and regal, despite the deafening screams echoing around the chamber. She smiled, sinisterly, as she looked at the scene before her. Though her initial hopes for this experiment was not brought to fruition, she still had some hopes for what they could achieve. The being, creature… whatever it was now, she didn't know. But she was certain it used to be human. 

And it was perfect. 

This would do quite well for her and her husband’s plans.

Quite well indeed.

Super interesting omg

(And to be honest I'm not sure what the standard is. I don't mind you responding as a reblog, though, if that is what you prefer to do. I'm just happy to receive responses lol)

[dakotafinely]

Wow, Guess I'm Making This Post

So, I guess I'm back again to talk about somethings. To make clarifications and to correct myself. About two-ish (maybe three?) days ago I made a post @/ing Glitch and talking about LFLS. This post here, which I don't want anyone to reblog anymore but I cannot seem to make it unrebloggable and see no point in deleting it because it would still exist within the reblogs of it. But in the post I meant for my intentions to be made clear that I had problems with how people responded in treating LFLS compared to other fics, while also making it clear I had no ill will or bad intentions against that fic or Glitch themself. I tried my best and even had my post peer reviewed by fellow content creators so my wording could be at its best.

I failed in my attempt, however. As a couple of people had come into my DM's telling me take my post down. At first I thought perhaps they were just diehard fans of Glitch, who only wanted to focus on the fact that I called Glitches tweet condescending for smaller content creators and not encouraging like she had hoped. However, one of them made better clarity of their problems with my post then the other (no hate to that other they did their best their point just didn't come across as well as they hoped it to) to which I say thank you.

While I and some of the others that reblogged my post saw it as a complaint about fandom acting like other content creators don't make content. When they do and often get ignored, making creators feel unappreciated and abandoning works or not even sharing them to being with. Glitch and the people who know her saw it as me blaming her for her popularity and how LFLS blew up, that I made her to be condescending and that my post was made for negativity under the guise of fandom.

I want to make it clear I do not think ANY of those things about Glitch, I don't know Glitch personally. Heck, confession? Still haven't read LFLS, and probably won't. I completely believe that Glitches tweet was her trying to inspire people to create. It just felt unintentionally condescending to me and a few other content creators who have been writing Rise fics for just as long as Glitch, with much different results. And I suppose part of me let that feeling seep into my post. But Glitch and LFLS are not the cause of the fandoms reactions to them. And I didn't make that clear. Glitch is just a human being, like any of us are, and she is not in control of her popularity or peoples response to what she makes or creates. My post wasn't meant to be about Glitch but it became that when I didn't explain myself fully. Or make my intentions properly clear.

I intended for that post to focus on fandom and how it doesn't acknowledge smaller creators the way they do bigger creators. For example, myself, it is rare for me to get comments. Since January of 2022 to now I've had about maybe 7 or 8 new comments on my fic. For reference that's 10 whole months. With comments only coming in either one a month or two-three at once but then lacking between months. I've gotten a handful of asks about my fic. And my fic (Dread Poition) has been around since about 2020 (if I remember correctly). Now my fic is certainly not top tier nor really memorable for fics. But plenty of my writer friends get the same results as me. With works that are 1000 times better then my own. Some creators even LESS then that with about one comment within the past few years of their fanfic being public.

I bring up again, a friend of mine who creates fanart for Rise. Who has only ever gotten a large amount of reblogs and hearts on their LFLS fanart, and still do to this day. While their many, many amazing pieces of fanart they've made over the years doesn't even get CLOSE to as many reblogs and hearts as that one particular piece of fanart does.

Which, again, let me make it very clear that it is NOT Glitches fault AT ALL that this imbalance happened. That fandom decided that bigger works are the only ones that deserve any proper acknowledgement. It is on FANDOM and fandom ONLY. We all need to do our part to make smaller content creators known and let them know we love their fics and wish to see more of them. We need to engage with them, leave comments and kudos, reblog their posts about their works we enjoy, start conversations about fics we like more, and talk about more then just while known fics and encourage people to check out fics from writers they may never have heard of.

To the people who reblogged my post and hearted it because you understood what I was trying to convey. Thank you, I'm glad you agree and I am glad you could understand my post. To the people who maybe reblogged or hearted because they agreed with the miscommunication that Glitch is at fault, please know that is not something I agree with or want to be associated with. My post was never intended to start any negativity towards Glitch and I don't want that for them.

I also want to reiterate again that there is nothing wrong with liking popular works. Like, of course, LFLS by Glitch, The Brains And The Brawn by Jadesthe0ne, or Legends Of The Hidden Kingdom (fantasy au) by Charmy, to name a few. There is nothing wrong with expressing those likes with fanart or asks or comments. I think it's wonderful! But attention, love, and support are not finite, they can be given to big content creators and small ones alike without taking from either. And to me (and a few others) it certainly feels like that's how fandom can treat it sometimes.

No one is in any genuine wrong here. I'm not scolding fandom and I'm certainly not scolding Glitch. I'm just trying to point out an issue fandom has that it needs to resolve. And I'm again linking to my Writers Appreciation Post, because that's what this is all really about. Supporting writers and artists in the fandom. In my initial post I accidentally leaned into a "us versus them" mentality. "Us" being smaller creators and "Them" being bigger ones. I don't believe in that mentality and I am disappointed in myself for leaning into it unintentionally or not. We are all just creators wanting to make what we love. We are all just people who enjoy the same silly (/pos) TV show. And there's no need to pit ourselves against each other.

[whatudowhennooneseesyou]

I posted 808 times in 2022

That's 808 more posts than 2021!

504 posts created (62%)

304 posts reblogged (38%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@whatudowhennooneseesyou

@ateezreactionsandscenarios

@mischiefsmind

@chvnnie

@whatsk-poppinhomies

I tagged 632 of my posts in 2022

Only 22% of my posts had no tags

#ateez smut - 287 posts

#ateez hard hours - 203 posts

#kpop smut - 194 posts

#stray kids smut - 130 posts

#whatudowhennooneseesyou anon asks - 125 posts

#whatudowhennooneseesyou - 118 posts

#mommytober 2022 - 117 posts

#ateez - 109 posts

#skz smut - 102 posts

#seonghwa smut - 96 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#i have them both on the universe app and i squeal when i receive a notification from them and mum's like do you have a bf and i'm like no

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Mommy!December: Day 2

Request: 'HEYYY ITS ME. I need a Mommy!Seonghwa, marking and Hella possessiveness PLEASE. Oh how I want that man to make me turn into a puddle of mess'

Yeah, I know I'm starting a little early but I just got too excited because y'all know how much I love writing Mommy! Seonghwa.

Word Count: circa 600 words.

Content includes: Dom!Seonghwa x sub!fem reader, praise, possessiveness, marking, thigh-biting, humiliation, edging, nipple-biting, just a lot of biting in general (I mean, what do you expect?), kissing, cum play, fingering, rough sex, slight choking, hickeys, use of the word c*nt & c*m.

And everyone should know if you've read my fics:

How do you know it's Mommy!Seonghwa?

Because of the term 'precious, little star'.

'You thought you were being sneaky on Mommy weren't you?' Seonghwa cooed at you, his voice edged with a mocking tone.

You watched as Seonghwa propped your right ankle over his shoulder, anticipation pooling in your stomach.

'I guess Mommy needs to teach you a lesson' He smirked, leaning down and pressing a few kisses to the inside of your thigh, he watched you sigh in pleasure.

And then he suddenly bit down on the skin, causing you to jolt and whine under Seonghwa's touch.

'What was that for?' You huffed, trying to move your leg but Seonghwa only gripped your ankle tighter.

'What were you doing?' Seonghwa's eyebrow quirked, expecting an answer.

'I-I don't know' You responded, feeling confused.

You jolted again with a yelp as Seonghwa bit again, next to the other reddening hickey this time and lapped at the skin.

'Don't lie to me precious, you know Mommy watches everything' His voice raspy, his eyes accusing you for what you committed.

Your pride fell to the floor and you turned your head away from him,

'I don't want to say it-AHHH!' Seonghwa's teeth bit into the flesh of your other thigh, you could hear the suction of his teeth as he pulled away.

'Mommy will just keep biting you unless you say' He rested his head on your crotch, hands sliding up the outside of your thighs.

'And to think I was going to be nice and prep you, slip my fingers in, taste you' Seonghwa's ran his thumb up the seam as he mentioned this, you could feel his breath against your clit.

'I was quite looking forward to it too' He huffed dramatically, his expression almost comical 'But I guess..'

'No-wait! I' The teasing was too much, his breath against your cunt was already making you ache.

A murmur left your throat 'I was playing with myself' you sighed out.

Seonghwa pressed a soft kiss of reassurance over the hickey that had formed on your inner thigh.

'And?' Seonghwa dropped your ankle off his shoulder, using your hips as support as he crawled up your body.

'I'm not allowed to do that' You responded meekly, feeling Seonghwa's cold fingers pull your t-shirt up around your collarbones.

'And why is that?' Seonghwa's voice was curt and authoritative, his gaze focused on your exposed chest.

'Because-AHH!' You cried out in surprise as Seonghwa's teeth bit into the skin right next to your nipple 'B-because it's Mommy's'

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307 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

#4

Why Seonghwa is Secretly A Fuckboi- Pt.3

I jus-I can't.

That's muscle memory right there.

Look at the smirk in his eyes.

He totally know what he's doing 🔥🔥

308 notes - Posted September 8, 2022

#3

Can I get all the attention of the Stays please?

Lee Know sent a pic on Bubble.

Is this Lee Know or Bang Chan?

Because Lee Know wears that Apple Watch.

But the outfit is very Bang Chan-esque.

And they both have similar body types.

I'm sure there's someone on here who has a better eye than me & is able to figure it out.

316 notes - Posted September 9, 2022

#2

Man got me drooling and frothing on a fucking train right now

It's anything he wants

ITS ANYTHING HE WANTS

The fuck he knows how to play up the female gaze with the hand placement.

He knows what women find sexy.

My sunnies are getting steamy oml.

Bang chan, please.

I don't what you want but I'll give it to you.

325 notes - Posted October 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Mommytober Series 2022- Day 22

Sugar!Daddy w Kim Hongjoong (Ateez)

Dom!Hongjoong x Sub!Fem Reader

Content includes: aged up Hongjoong (he's 35), corruption kink (duh it's fucking Hongjoong), praise, virgin!reader, first time, body worship, clingy and needy sex, tattooed Hongjoong (it should be a warning in itself because I am expecting Hongjoong to be covered in tattoos when he's 35 and I will be thoroughly disappointed if he doesn't.)

This is probably the most vanilla fic thus far in the series and I won't even apologise for it because I cried while writing it.

Why you may ask? Because Hongjoong is the most clingy, needy, romantic and loving partner out of Ateez and he would actually be like this and I'm now in a glass case full of emotion.

Also, this fic includes possessiveness (DUH! It's fucking Hongjoong) and hand-holding.

This is pure filth and does not portray an accurate representation of the stated Kpop idol.

18+ Only.

Requested By: @hongthoven

You didn't expect to still be a virgin at 24.

It's not like you were waiting for marriage or wore your virginity with pride.

There just simply hadn't been anyone that had entered your life that you wanted to share the experience with.

You either had bad luck, bad timing, no game or all three.

'My baby, don't be shy. You have a beautiful body okay?' Hongjoong cooed at you, the slight crow's feet around his eyes adding warmth to his gaze, his hands slowly pulling the bra strap from your shoulders.

That was until Hongjoong unexpectedly entered your life.

'Mmm, you make the most beautiful sounds' he groaned out, voice muffled as his tongue flicked around the tip of your nipple and his fingers gently tweaking the other one.

He was 35 and unbelievably gorgeous with crow's feet peeking around the edges of his eyes and a few random grey streaks shining through his black hair.

'I can't believe I'm the only one who's seen you like this' Hongjoong threw your panties on the floor, hands rubbing gently up the sides of your thighs, tracing kisses on your hips as he settled his face in between your thighs.

'And now. I'll be the only fucking one'.

Hongjoong wasn't married and he didn't have any children, instead opting to choose a career-based lifestyle.

You were both so different.

But yet it always felt so fucking right.

Hongjoong nuzzled his face into the side of your thigh, feeling your thighs shake from the multiple orgasms he had just given you with his tongue and fingers alone.

Your chest heaving up and down, nipples hard, bitten lips and cunt dripping wet.

Why would he chase the world for more gold when the best treasure in his life was you?

Hongjoong stood up from the edge of the bed, discarding the clothes off his body as he watched you gain composure.

He was just about to pull down his briefs when he saw you sit up, 'Wait' you told him as you swung your legs so you were sitting at the edge of the bed.

'I want to see you' you outstretched a hand for him to come closer and he walked forward and stood between your legs, breathing against his stomach.

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335 notes - Posted October 22, 2022

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[poppyknitt]

You are literally what that anti post was talking about. "You can only ship these things to cope!" And you're going to be the arbiter?

Ok first of all i dont even remember rbing that because it was 4 or 5 am for me and my cat had just woken me up. Second of all:

let me be clear. i don’t send hate mail, i don’t harass. i don’t like it when people ship horrible things publicly in ways that imply they are good because children — i was one of them — can see those ships and assume the abuse they’re experiencing is normal. It’s not the intent but that’s a genuine thing that happens because kids and teens are fucking stupid. But: I don’t tell individuals what to do with their time or harass or bully or anything.

As an adult with sexual trauma from both irl and the internet, i find it uncomfortable and bad to share things that cause harm irl in a positive light. Why? It makes vulnerably-minded people think they’re normal and healthy relationships and topics and thoughts etc. The only time it should be accepted is in the eyes of an unreliable narrator because that’s the POINT of unreliable narration — to mislead the reader/viewer.

Sure, these people shouldn’t consume dark topics if they’re vulnerable to suggestion, but it’s the fact that showing things like abuse and incest and pedophillia positively without acknowledging what they are can cause massive damage to other people that’s bad at all. You don’t like it when people throw horrible insults, right? You don’t like it when people cause psychological damage to others, right? What is normalizing toxicity in the minds of others if not psychological damage?

I don’t care if you proship.

I don’t care if you post it.

Just be clear that this is not something that should be done irl/you support irl.

Sure, these people shouldn’t consume dark topics if they’re vulnerable to suggestion, but it’s the fact that showing things like abuse and incest and pedophillia positively without acknowledging what they are can cause massive damage to other people that’s bad at all. You don’t like it when people throw horrible insults, right? You don’t like it when people cause psychological damage to others, right? What is normalizing toxicity in the minds of others if not psychological damage?

In a day and age where no one has any media literacy, we have to be careful when we post things until this gets fixed.

If you can’t be bothered to put a trigger warning and/or disclaimer about your darker work, you’re an ass. Doesn’t matter what kind of “darker” it is.

I have this stance about folks who don’t trigger warning their abuse fics and their toxic yuri/yaoi fics or whatever. (not fully sure if thats considered proship)

I have this stance about folks who don’t disclaimer their videos for flashing lights or violence.

Just because you can do something that can cause pain to yourself or others doesn’t mean you get to do it without warning others in your presence.

Please don’t send hate mail without the full story. I’m sure you’re well-intentioned and kind, but this was not a kind way to go about it. I did not reblog that post with bad intent, I am open to discussing this topic and learning more as I grew up incredibly sheltered from shipping in its broadest forms and don’t do it myself because of my own repulsions. If you have criticisms and information for me, please send them with respect and I will respond back with respect. Otherwise? Zip it.

No one deserves to be sent vitriol over something you don’t know jack about when it comes to their side of things.

Please be kinder to people.

also look into the jaws effect. very interesting stuff.