Avenging My Father - AGAPE SERIES
ACT TWO, SCENE SEVEN
SONG: Headspace by Lewis Capaldi
QUOTE: “I just couldn’t like him the same way he liked me.”
A/N: Not proofread or edited - I changed this so many times - delay in posting this chapter
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For Bobby, both Buck and Kasey reminded him of Sal Deluca, a firefighter he reassigned to Station 122 not long after becoming Captain. The three of them regularly disobeyed his orders, Kasey, however, does it more often than Buck and more extreme than Deluca ever could. Bobby thinks it's her heavy survivor's guilt that constantly weighs her down.
If Kasey loses someone, she will forever feel like its her fault, even if there was no way in saving them, Kasey will still believe she wasn't good enough – that she was the reason they died.
Kasey never expresses this feeling though, not really, it's just something you figure out when you get to know her.
On her inner arm were the angel numbers '444,' she got this tattoo as it was exactly how she sees herself as – protection.
That she was a human shield that could take everyone's pain as long as it meant someone else could live.
Bobby thinks that Kasey sometimes forgets that she's human, just like everyone else, that she can't save everyone and be a protector for them all.
Bobby even thinks that Kasey will die at his hands one day as she won't follow the orders that are meant to keep both the team and civilians as safe as possible. Or it will just lead her to a lot of trouble in the near future, but today it was him that was getting in trouble, not Kasey, but as the tension rises, Bobby could feel that something was going to break within her, and someone will discover a truth that they do not like and use it to ruin her.
However, the truth was not going to be true, if Kasey's story didn't come from her mouth then it isn't true, but Bobby knows that someone will eventually one day mix up her words and use it against her thinking it's the truth, when it's not.
Kasey Strand was one of the best damn firefighters anyone could ever meet, and it was a damn shame that she held so much darkness that if it falls into the wrongs hand, it could ruin her, but today wasn't going to be day where someone ruins Kasey Strand.
But it is the day where Kasey begins to worry about her role as a firefighter as she walks up the stairs, not knowing that one of the best fire station captains has to be suspended from the station.
Today was the day Robert Nash was in danger.
"Hey, Cap." Greeted Chim, being the first one to make it up the stairs, seeing Bobby in his usual seat at the dining table. "Why are you sitting up here in your civvies? And how come I am not smelling my breakfast?"
Hen laughs, and Bobby puts on a fake smile, Kasey could tell, she could tell he was faking his happiness, she knew this as she too was a master of faking happiness, but she also knew Bobby and she knew he was faking that smile on his face.
She stuffed her hands in her pockets as she stood a little away from her team.
"Maybe you should all sit down."
Kasey's teeth sinks into her bottom lip as she mentally prepared herself for the worst.
"Oh," Hen frowns slightly. "This doesn't feel good."
Kasey rounds the table standing at the last chair of the table as she looked straight forth instead of at Bobby who now raised from his seat like one would to make an announcement.
"All right. I know the shift's about to start, but I wanted to be here to tell you this in person. As of this morning, pending further investigation, I am officially suspended from my duties here at the 118."
Kasey's face went blank as she pulled her best poker face at those words, when really she felt like something from within her was dying – Captain Robert Nash was being suspended. Bobby, someone Kasey has looked up to the moment she came here in 2016. The guy who has helped Kasey through so much in her life and tries his best to keep her on her feet.
Kasey didn't know how the 118 without Bobby, and Kasey didn't want to find out what 118 without Bobby was like.
"What? Why? That-That's insane. Suspended for what?" Buck stuttered out.
"For not disclosing what happened in Minnesota before I took the job."
Bobby watched as Kasey bowed her head, eyes closing as she gives a soft shake of her head to the table. Her jaw was firmly set, and her lips were pressed in the thinnest line one could ever see.
In the 118, Kasey Strand was the only one who knew about Bobby's past, and just like him he was aware of some of her past, something Buck has overheard through the passing years. And in their conversations between the two best friends, Kasey never dared to tell Buck that much about her life due to mainly fear.
"Minnesota? That's old news."
"Well, not to them and if they knew all the details," – like Kasey does – "there's a very good chance they never would've hired me."
Bobby related to Kasey in the fact that the pair shouldn't have ever been hired due to their past, but due to them both being able to hide it well they were able to join and become firefighters.
Kasey also knows it's her military background that was able to hide her old life for her to be able to have her new life here in LA with her previous firefighter training.
However, Bobby and Kasey are not bad people, they are very kind souls who just been hurt too much in the past, and due to that hurt it led them to places that suggested they shouldn't be having these new lives.
"Cap, you don't owe them that part of you," Hen speaks up. "You owe them your record."
Kasey wonders if that was why her old record was wiped clean and was replaced with a new one before and after the military due to her good work.
Furthermore, Kasey knew that out of everyone Bobby deserves his place in the 118, he was one of the nicest and most hardworking person she knew who would never put anyone in harm's way.
And her heart fell to the pit of her stomach knowing that his past was catching up to him and it was beginning to ruin his life.
"All the people you've helped." Buck continues.
"The lives you've saved." Eddie says.
"Well, I knew the truth would catch up to me one day," Bobby gives Kasey another glance, but she was still in the same position as she was the first time he looked her way. "I just figured by the time it did, it wouldn't matter. I'd have nothing left to lose. I was wrong."
By the time everyone slowly leaves and heads to do their duties around the firehouse, Bobby makes his way towards Kasey who has looked like she hasn't moved a muscle, but as he gets closer he notices her taking small, quiet, breaths, almost like she was trying to calm herself down from something.
Bobby places his hand on Kasey's shoulder and she jumps slightly as she takes a step back to look and Bobby. Her hands were behind her back as she blinked at him and shows him a small, sad smile.
"You're going to come back," Kasey says lowly.
"Kasey–"
"You're going to come back," she repeats, trying to convince the both of them. "They can't fire you. They just can't."
Kasey felt like she was six again after she sees her dad again after the 9/11 incident, how she felt so lost and just needed a parent's comfort, and the only parent that willingly gave her that was her dad, the guy she cried for as she watched the news, knowing he was there trying to save as many people as he could whilst also losing himself in the process.
Kasey felt like she was six again when Bobby took her smaller body and wrapped his arms around to comfort her like a father would for his daughter, rubbing her back as he promised her he'll be back working in the 118 soon.
But Bobby thinks he has just lied to Kasey.
"You're going to have to be careful, Kas," Bobby whispers. "They're going to discover the whole truth about me, and they soon could find yours, and if it's not you telling them, then they're going to believe in the wrong thing – the thing that's going to get you into a lot of trouble."
Bobby feels Kasey nod against his chest before she pulls herself away and pushes her the side of her hand against her nose before moving further back. "I should head down and–"
Bobby smiles, "Have a good shift, Kasey."
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"Barry Johnson, 57." Athena announces loudly as the 118 jump out of their vehicles, grabbing their equipment that were needed to attend the man that fell. "Seems to have had some kind of existential crisis after lunch. Threw all his money off the roof and then decided to jump it."
Buck whistled as he, Eddie and Kasey looked up to the said roof the man jumped from. "Wish I had that type of money."
Kasey hums, pursing her lips to the side as she turned her head to look at Barry on top of the broken car. "It probably make you very unhappy just like this man." She walks ahead, leaving her two friends behind as she brings herself closer to the injured man. Kasey wasn't carrying any bags of equipment, in fact she didn't simply feel like she was useful for something like this, she felt pretty useless as she just stands back and watch, at those times it doesn't even feel like Kasey is a firefighter, she just feels like a helpless civilian.
"Falls 20 stories and lives."
"20 stories? How is that even possible?" Questioned Buck as he walked slightly ahead of Hen and Athena, and Eddie joins them a second later.
"We also got a few greedy bystanders with minor injuries," Athena raised her finger to point at the small crowd right by them. "Not sure how you want to handle those." Athena takes a glance at Kasey who stood right by the, inspecting his body in hopes she be able to tell her team the injuries for them – at least then she wouldn't feel so hopeless.
"That's up to the Cap," Hen states just as Chimney leaves his vehicle and Kasey takes a glance over her shoulder and gives a quick roll of her eyes – she's been bossed around by Chimney too much and he has only been Captain for only two shifts.
Kasey was getting sick and tired of making coffees.
"Uh, interim Cap," corrects Buck, "this is just temporary until Bobby comes back."
"You keep telling yourself that, Buck." Chimney tilts his head back to stare at the roof the man jumped and survived from as he chewed on his gum. His attention then turned to Barry who groaned, and Kasey takes a step back, lips pressed together as her hands go behind her back whilst she stares down at her shoes.
To Kasey, the man just looks badly injured – meaning she has nothing important to tell her team as they would easily be able to see he's injured.
"Whoa. All right, I'll take spinal precaution." Chimney heads towards Barry, pulling Eddie's shoulder bag off from his shoulder. Chimney walks past the youngest firefighter and completely ignores her due to still being sour about her constantly backchatting him the moment he's become Captain.
He puts the bag down and begins to unzip it before pausing to look at his team who hasn't moved a muscle, but all held a confused look, "right, I'm the Captain. Uh, Hen, Eddie, you're with him." Chimney gestures towards Barry. "Buck, go with John. Triage the minor injuries. And I'll get the Jaws."
Kasey let out a low breath as she waited in the same position for her order, but it never came. And it felt like something else died within Kasey, it made her feel pathetic. This wasn't unusual, she hardly helped with the injuries as she never was able to get more training for it, not like the others in her team,
But when she sits in her car, before she attempts to try and sleep, she reads many medical books, reads the documents the chief sent her via emails, and watch those professional medical videos just so she can understand these things better – just so she can help her team in more areas.
But Kasey just stays there, still waiting for her orders, and she feels pathetic. Chimney was able to say at least a major injury that could have happened to him – which was injuries to the spine – but Kasey couldn't even state that, she didn't even think of the most obvious injury.
Of course there was going to be a problem with his spine.
The water in her eyes begins to build up until she couldn't see anything, her vision becomes blurry, and a huge rush of tiredness and numbness took over her. It was pathetic, she thought, why was she getting so agitated over this?
Over Bobby, over Chimney, over herself and over not being able to help?
Eddie and Hen look over their shoulders to see Kasey just standing there.
"Did Chim not instruct you to a task?" Confusion dripped from Hen's voice.
Kasey tried to speak but she knew if she did then the two of them would quickly realise that she was trying not to cry, and she didn't want them to know or she would feel more pathetic. It was minor things, she told herself, keep it together.
She just shakes her head before looking up at the roof once again and let out a shallow breath, not realising she was being watched by Eddie before he had to turn back to his work with a heavy heart.
Eddie Diaz was beginning to realise that Kasey Strand was not okay, and he began to question how long has she not been okay and how long has she been putting up a façade?
Eddie hated himself for not noticing sooner. The team obviously noticed that Kasey looked a little bit more tired than usual lately, but they all thought it was the extra shifts she kept on asking for that made her seem that way.
But to Eddie now, he thinks there's much more to that as seeing Kasey now, where she isn't putting up a façade as she doesn't know she's being watched, seeing her now expresses to Eddie the raw sadness and pain that emerges from her, and it was a type of pain that made you want to hold that person under a blanket, fire going in a corner, as words of 'you're enough' and 'let me help you,' would be whispered.
So he turns to Barry with a heavy heart as he realises he has only just noticed the true sadness that came off from his best friend.
"All right, Barry. I'm gonna give you something for the pain, okay? It'll take the edge off but you'll probably still gonna feel it."
"Can't you just knock me out'?"
"Sorry, I need you to stay with me." Barry groans once more at Hen's words. Eddie was now in the car, sat in the backseats as his feet where out of the door and planted on the pavement outside as he checks Barry's legs.
"Compound fracture, both legs." Barry grunts and shouts as Eddie continues to check him over. There was glass everywhere, even on Barry's clothes from where he crashed and feel slightly into the back windscreen of the car. His head was against the boot, ever so slightly elevated up so he wasn't laying on shards of glass, and around his neck was a brace.
"Hasn't lost bowel control."
"At least I got that going for me."
"These are all positives, Barry," Hen calmly says as Eddie climbs out the car to look up at the roof once more, trying to figure out how someone could survive a fall like that. "Means your spine's probably okay."
"Ma'am, you said you saw him fall?" Eddie asks the closest civilian to him.
"Yeah," she nods.
"How did he land?"
"Feetfirst," she whimpers.
"Couldn't even do this right," moans Barry. "This morphine's nice, though."
Kasey has moved herself to stand by the ambulance, leaning against the fire truck next to it as she watches Hen pushes Barry on the stretcher.
"You have anyone you need us to call?"
"My wife left me. My kids hate me. My only friend is suing me. next time, I go headfirst."
"You had all that money, though," Eddie states as he pulls the stretcher by the front, right by Barry's head as he walks towards the ambulance backwards. "Why'd you throw it out the window?"
"That money ruined my life. A year ago, I'd have thought it solved all my problems. Just multiplied them."
"Wait," the woman who made the call says, "wait, what-what happened last year?"
"I won the lottery."
Chimney closes the back doors of the ambulance, turns around and shrugs at the woman. "Careful what you wish for." The engine starts as Chimney walks away, the woman pulls out her lottery ticket from her purse and rips it apart.
Eddie clears his throat as he stands next to Kasey, shoulders brushing for as they stood next to one another. Kasey was only slightly smaller than Eddie, it wasn't a grand height difference, but it was a pleasant height difference.
Kasey's strained voice beat Eddie's in talking first as she asked him, "are you happy?"
Eddie opens his mouth, closing it, then opens it once more, but then he closes it and doesn't open it again until he found the right words. He ponders on that question as the both of them look ahead of them, watching as the crowd of people slowly move away and go back to their lives.
"Yes," he finally says, "but I know I can be happier – that I deserve to be happier."
"You deserve more than the world, Eddie." She whispers and Eddie could feel his face begin to heat up at her words, looking down at his shoes whilst he hides away his smile.
No one has ever said that to him before.
No one has thought of Eddie as that much before, but here Kasey was telling him he deserved more than the world, and it felt nice, really nice.
More than nice, in fact.
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"So we're doing line ups now?" Buck questions as he stands tall in front of Chimney who parade around with his dark sunglasses as gum in his mouth.
"Stow it, Buckley." He then moves down and back up the line, "so, listen up. Because the word of the day is ' hose maintenance.'" He stops at Buck once again.
"Okay, I'm out," Hen says, and Kasey snorts and Chimney made his way towards the youngest firefighter – the only one who wasn't standing up straight, instead she was leaning her right shoulder against the wall, arms folded at her chest as she too wore sunglasses and chewed her gum mockingly.
"This is so stupid," she mutters just before Captain Chimney stops in front of her with his arms behind his back.
"Are you questioning my methods?" The other firefighters eyed the pair out from the corner of their eyes.
"Not questioning them," she simpered, "I'm saying it's stupid."
Kasey sits in front of Bobby at his place where the table was littered with things for a wedding, Kasey smiles faintly at it, before it falls as she looks back at Bobby.
"What if we put a blonde wig on you? They'll never notice that's it you. Then we can have both you and normal Chimney back," Kasey proclaims as she sits proudly at the fact that she just thought of the best idea ever.
Bobby gives a short shake of his head, dying her excitement down.
Kasey leans back in her chair, hands holding the back of her head, groaning. "This is just like Buck with a clipboard," she shakes her head. "Dark times. Dark times."
"I think Chimney is just trying–" Bobby stops himself from talking as Kasey throws him a warning look whilst she sits back normally on her chair. "Forgot what I just said," he raised a hand in surrender. "He shouldn't be annoying my favourite firefighter."
Kasey smiles, "I knew I was your favourite," she whispers in excitement, wiggling in her seat as she taps her fingers against the small available spaces of the table.
Kasey pauses her tapping as her phone vibrates in her pocket, she pulls it out and keeps it hidden under the table as she looks down at the messages popping up:
Eddie: Shannon thinks she's pregnant
Eddie: I'm not ready for that – I don't think I want that.
Eddie: I don't think I want this life with Shannon anymore, it's not the same as it was years ago. I did once love her, but I don't think it was to the point I was ready to be married?
Eddie: I think I lied to you on that shift where I told you I was happy. I'm not happy and I don't think I've ever been truly happy. Only times I know I'm happy is with my family, the 118 and you
Eddie: I don't know what to do Kas...
Kasey frowns as she types a message telling Eddie that she will be at his shortly and quickly turns her phone off at the sound of Bobby's voice. She looks up to see Bobby looking down at his notebook as he writes something down.
"You're coming to our wedding," Bobby tells her. It was in a way an invitation, by an invitation that said there was no way she was getting out of it.
"I thought it was established that the entire team was going?" Kasey questioned as she put her phone in her pocket.
"Yes but they can say no if they're busy, but you – me and Athena won't be truly happy if you're not there Kasey," Bobby puts his pen down as he holds his hands together in front of him, "Athena says she's happy as long as I don't pick the dress and that me, the kids and you are there." He smiles before giving a half shrug, "you're practically our daughter, Kasey."
Instead of something dying within her, something came to life, and Kasey didn't know how to handle that. But she knew, and so did Bobby, that the smile that stretched across her lips was one of true happiness and it was far from being fake.
"I wouldn't miss your wedding for the world, Cap."
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"Christopher deserves you, he deserves his mum," Eddie states at the dining table, Shannon sitting opposite him, and Christopher was at his abuela's. Eddie's phone was turned face up on the table next to his intertwined hands that were placed firmly in front of him as he looked at Shannon, ready to tell her that she wasn't the one who has his heart. "But I," he pauses to think of the right words, but for a break-up – for a divorce – is there actually any correct words to end a relationship? "But I don't think we deserve each–"
"Eddie," Shannon breaths, "I'm not pregnant."
Eddie stops and sits himself up more on the chair, clearing his voice before looking down at his lap and back up at Shannon.
"What?"
"I'm not...I'm not pregnant. I was just late."
"Oh." Eddie utters. "That doesn't matter, Christopher still deserves his mum, but I just don't think we could ever be tog–"
"I wrote this letter," Shannon interrupts once again, "a few years ago, right after I left. Or actually, after I...didn't come back. To Christopher. Trying to explain why I couldn't be there. And I figured that if, for some reason, I never found my way back, that he'd want answers. And he needed to know that...it wasn't his fault. That his mother didn't leave because she didn't love him. She left because she did. I never sent it, obviously. And then when I found out today that I wasn't actually pregnant, I took that letter out, I read it." She shakes her head. "Eddie, I never want to have to send that letter."
"Why would you ever?"
"Because if I try to do this again before I'm ready, there wont be a second chance." She takes a harsh swallow to keep back her cries. "Eddie, I'm not ready to be Christopher's mother, I'm just not. And I know...I know you asked me to come round to end us officially...for a divorce."
All Eddie could do was nod.
"And that's okay," Shannon whispers with a sad smile. "It's okay." She tucks her bottom lip as she gives a painful nod to Eddie. "Just promise me that your heart doesn't belong to anyone but Kasey. That it's her you want to be with."
"It's Kasey," Eddie confirms with a small smile which Shannon returns.
"Good," she sniffles. "That's good. You deserve each other, you know? I see the way you both look at each other, and I, I've never seen you that happy before Eddie. I've never seen anyone that happy before. And Christopher is so happy with her too. You two are good for one another, and I just need you and Christopher to stay happy." Shannon pauses. "Kasey is everything you and Christopher needs and–"
"Kasey doesn't feel the same way."
"How do you know?" Shannon raises her eyebrows. "You don't know if you don't ask her." She leans forwards to tap her hand against Eddie's. "Promise me you'll try with her because I'm certain she feels the same."
Eddie shakes his head in disagreement. "How do I tell Christopher?"
Shannon had no answer except her raising from her seat, saying a small goodbye to Eddie before leaving him alone on the dining table.
He picks up his phone and messages the first person his mind went to, completely ignoring the fact that she's coming later, he needed to speak to someone, and she was the only one on his mind.
Eddie: Shannon and I have agreed on getting a divorce
Eddie: She's not pregnant
Eddie: And I think she just walked out of Christopher's life
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"All right, make way! LAFD!" Chimney leads. "All right, John and Buck, triage the minor injuries. Hen you're with me. Eddie and Kasey, check the driver."
The pair goes to either side of the front doors of the car, Eddie crouching down in front of the red car's open door on the driver's side whilst he unzips his medical bag. "Ma'am, can you hear me?"
"I, um..." Kasey climbs into the passenger seat. "I tried to stop, but I didn't see any of them. Are they okay?" The woman stuttered out.
"Yeah," Kasey says in a gentle tone which carries a slight firmness to it, "we're taking care of the others, ma'am. Right now, we need to see if you're okay."
"Um, m-my neck hurts. Oh, God."
Eddie leans into the car slightly to wrap a neck brace around the woman's neck. "Okay, ma'am, we're gonna put this on you as a precaution until the doctors at the hospital can check you out."
Kasey pulls herself out of the car but stops and turns to look back into the car when she hears the woman stutter again.
"Th-There was a lady. Is-is she all right?"
Kasey head turns to look out at the road where the collusion happened, face falling as she notices and Eddie caught on as he watches her face drop.
'No, no, no, no, no,' Kasey repeated in her head, eyes down casting to the ground as she tries to figure something out, something that would hurt Eddie less. But that was humanly impossible because no one can make someone feel better after seeing some you care for get hurt.
"Kasey?" Eddie's voice reaches Kasey's ears. "What's going on?" She turns to look at him, face falling even further when she notices Eddie turning his head to look out onto the road too.
"Eddie," Kasey breaths before stumbling up to catch Eddie. "Eddie."
Kasey's voice became white noise to Eddie's ears as he rushed towards the woman on the ground. Buck touches him to hold him back but Eddie pushes past him, completely ignoring his and Kasey's calls for him. Chimney stops him next but just like Buck he pushes past and ignores every call he sends his way.
He couldn't hear anything except ringing in his ears.
"How bad is it?" He pants out as Chimney places his hands on Eddie's chest again.
Chimney thought about lying, but he couldn't lie to Eddie, Eddie doesn't deserve to be lied to.
"It's bad."
"Spinal injury?"
"Maybe worst."
Eddie didn't once look at Chimney, not even as he gently pushes past Chimney, pushing his hand away as he tries to reach him once again as he makes his way to his ex-wife, who laid in the middle of a crosswalk.
He kneels down, checking her over as he whispers her name and she greets him like it's a normal day with a simple, "hey." She then asks, "Are you here?"
"I'm here," he offers a small smile.
"Oh, God. This is so embarrassing."
Hen rushes to take the stethoscope out from her ears, "Vitals trending downward."
"All right, let's get her on the backboard! Get her transported, now!" Chimney yells whilst Eddie watches other paramedics take Shannon onto a backboard and places her into the back of an ambulance, but before she gets in her eyes finds Kasey's.
"Look after them," she whispers, but due to Kasey slowly making her way closer to Eddie she was able to hear, and she nods, smiling slightly to silently promise Shannon that Eddie and Christopher will be okay – Kasey will make sure of it.
"I'm riding with her," Eddie says in a voice that told everyone to not try and stop him.
"She's decompensating. We got to intubate her." Hen says just before Chimney dared to stop Eddie.
"Eddie," he places his hand firmly against Eddie's chest, "we put that tube in, there's a good chance it never comes back out." He looks over his shoulder as he notices Eddie's face. "Hen, stop. Do not intubate. Not yet."
"Cap..."
"I know." He looks back at Eddie. "He knows." He then gestures he's head to the back of the ambulance, "get in there and say goodbye."
As the ambulance goes, Kasey sniffles before climbing back into the fire truck, taking the drivers seat as she follows behind the ambulance that trailed behind another fire truck.
Kasey wasn't sure if God existed, but seeing such hurt written across Eddie's fast made her want to climb up to the clouds and murder every God up there for giving Eddie so much pain, pain that he does not deserve.
Kasey cursed them all for being this cruel to a man who didn't deserve any of this.
To a woman who didn't deserve this.
To a child who didn't deserve to lost a parent...
And the moment Kasey reached the hospital, she was the first one to hold Eddie after he showed himself again. The first one to catch him as he fell. And the first one to let him cry in her arms as he clings to her in desperation.
Eddie felt like a child again after he went to his first funeral, he felt like he was a young boy crying and wailing questions to his mum who had no answers about death.
Eddie didn't think he would be feeling this way again for a while, epically after the war, he thought he was going to be okay and that no one he cares about will leave again.
But Shannon did.
She was leaving him all over again, just this time she wasn't going to come back and be a mother to Christopher.
And after Kasey, it was Bobby Eddie hugged next, but he went back to Kasey the second he left Bobby's embrace and all Kasey could do was bring her hand up to his hair, running her fingers through the long locks as she hushes him gently and tells him that they're all here for him.
She doesn't once tell him that everything's going to be okay or that she's sorry, and Eddie appreciates this, he secretly didn't want anyone to say this, and somewhere within him he knew Kasey would be the last one to ever say those words...not until she knew for sure he was going to be alright.
Kasey didn't dare to say it to him though as she knew all he needed was to be held and be told that he has people – that he still got them.
And that was all she did.
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Vanessa Prescott has known Kasey Strand since her birth. Growing up, Kasey befriended Vanessa son, Kit Prescott, who was her childhood best friend before going separate ways just before Kasey went off to fight in the war.
Kit has lived here since 2015 with his boyfriend, but Vanessa moved down to live with Kit in 2017 after the couple broke up.
Then when Kasey came to LA in 2016, Kit and Kasey began to meet up with each other every so often which was later joined with Vanessa after she moved down.
Today, Eddie joins them after Kasey begged him to leave his house for at least an hour and not plan a funeral, she could see being trapped and stressed on planning a funeral was ruining him, and Eddie obeyed and asked if she was busy.
Which, today she kinda was for the morning, but she allowed Eddie to join her in the café that she, Kit and Vanessa was meeting in.
"You've got a kid, right?" Vanessa asked with a smile as she brought her coffee to her lips.
Eddie nods as a real smile dances at his lips for once, it's been a few days since the last time he really smiled, the only times he did was a few very small ones whenever Kasey was round to help look after Christopher whilst he plans Shannon's funeral.
Kasey would try and make jokes whenever Christopher was around to try and keep his spirits up, whilst also Eddie's, and it was nice to see how happy Kasey got whenever either Diaz let out a laugh or a smile.
It even convinced Eddie that soon him and Christopher will be okay, they aren't drained of happiness, and they will be okay again.
"Yes," he smiles. "Christopher, he's one of the best things that has happened to me." Pulling out his phone, he shows both Vanessa and Kit a photo of Christopher whilst Kasey literally beams at the interaction between the three of them.
"He's probably the cutest kid I've ever seen," Kit speaks up, "reminds me of a Koala," both Kasey and Vanessa rolled their eyes as they prepared themselves for Kit's rambles, whilst Eddie throws a questioning look whilst stuffing his phone back into his pocket. "Did you know Koala and human's have very similar fingerprints?"
Eddie shakes his head, "no, I did not know that."
Kasey leans towards Eddie to whisper in his ear, "he's crazy with these animal facts and–"
"Do you ever wish to be a penguin, Eddie?"
Kasey pulls away from Eddie as she stares at her red-headed friend with wide eyes, and she secretly tells Kit to cut it out with her hand moving across her neck.
"Penguins, in my opinion, are one of the most romantic couples in the animal kingdom. When a male finds attraction to a female he will bring her the best pebble and if she likes the offering then they will find pebbles together to build their nest. They even mate for life," Kit sighs as he rests his chin in the palm of his hand, "I wish I was a penguin, and someone would bring me a cool rock."
Vanessa gives Eddie a sympathetic look which leads Eddie to slight confusion because why are they apologising for Kit? He hasn't done anything wrong. In fact, he thinks it's cool that someone has this much interest in animals and happily expresses all tons of information to people like Eddie who aren't so educated in that world.
"You know," Vanessa says as she tilts her head to look at Eddie with a smile that a mother would give their child, "you're the first friend of Kasey's that we have ever had the pleasure in meeting."
Kasey slaps her hand into her face, shaking it in embarrassment whilst a smile makes it way onto her face as she listens to Eddie chuckle next to her.
She hasn't heard him properly since Shannon's death, sometimes there was a very small breathless chuckle here and there, but this time he was looking down with a smile on his face whilst laughter left his mouth.
"Really?"
"Yeah," Kit chimes in.
"I didn't know you wanted to meet them," Kasey said sheepishly as she looked through the gaps of her fingers. She sinks slightly down in her seat as Vanessa sends her a mothering look of 'are-you-for-real?'.
Kasey slowly sits herself up whilst Kit continues to talk, "you must be Kasey's favourite then if she happily allows you to meet two of her most favourite people ever. That must make you a dolphin then, they are Kasey's favourite animals. Did you know that dolphins–"
Kit's voice drowns out to Eddie's ears after he feels Kasey's hand intertwine with his under the table and she feels her gently squeeze his hand.
Out from the corner of his eye, he noticed that Kasey was still looking forwards and nods along to what Kit is saying.
It was only a few weeks ago when the two of them made up this method for each other, around the same time Eddie began to realise that Kasey wasn't okay. Whenever they wanted to secretly ask if the other one is okay, they would hold the others hand and squeeze it. If they squeeze back then they're okay, if they don't then they aren't.
They weren't allowed to lie to one another though.
Eddie likes this method as it doesn't bring attention towards them from other people, and if one of them weren't okay then they didn't need to voice it just yet. They never did it around eyes either, always doing it when or where people couldn't see them because if people saw them holding hands they would think it was something else, when it wasn't, it was just two friends secretly asking if the other is okay.
Yesterday, Eddie only faintly squeezed Kasey's hand at the funeral.
But today, Eddie squeezes Kasey's hand twice, and she smiles.
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"Help, over here, my arm!" The woman moans in pain from the ground as the 118 (still without Bobby) enters the bedroom.
"Guys."
"Yeah."
Hen presses lightly on the woman's hand, listening to her grunt slightly. "I can feel it, but I can't move it. Like, really hurts on my shoulder."
"Looks like a fractured clavicle." Kasey mutters and Hen and Chimney look up at Kasey with shocked looks whilst the firefighter simply shrugs.
"What?"
They shake their heads whilst they continued to look over the woman, "it does actually," Hen confirms Kasey's words and a small, proud smile makes it's way onto Kasey's face.
Curiously, Eddie glances over his shoulder away from the phone on the livestream to smile at the sight of Kasey looking proud of herself for something.
"All I'm saying," Buck voice brings Eddie's attention back as he continues his complaints from earlier, "is that Kasey never has taken me to meet Vanessa or Kit."
"They're nice," Eddie replies simply, smiling playfully as he listens to Buck sigh in annoyance – and his smile clearly brought a lot of attention to the people on the live stream as they commented the cuteness of it.
"Yeah, well, that doesn't mean you have to rub it in."
"Uh, dispatch said something about an animal?" Chimney asked whilst Kasey looked around the room for the animal.
"Yeah, it, um, came out of my face."
Kasey pauses her hunting and turns around.
Eddie stands next to Kasey with his hands on his hips. "What are we looking for, exactly?"
"it was like a little, little worm."
"Like a maggot?" Kasey questioned as she tried to hid her disgust.
"Oh, don't say 'maggot.'"
"You know maggots only consumes rotten things like meat or waste or even overripe fruits and – Ow!" Kasey frowns as she rubs her side from Eddie elbowing her, shooting her a look before looking at the woman's disgusted face then looking back at Kasey with raised brows. "Oh...sorry."
"Think you've been talking to Kit too much," joked Eddie quietly.
"I can still here you," Buck muttered furiously but his voice changes to enjoyment when he spots the maggot on the desk. "Maggot!"
"You been out of the country lately?" Hen asks as she puts a cotton arm brace on the woman.
"Uh, yeah, I actually do a lot of traveling for work."
"What do you do?" Chimney wondered.
"Uh, I'm a beauty and fashion influencer."
"Has your circle of influence included Central and South America?"
Kasey watches in disgust as Buck picks the maggot up with a pair of tweezers and brought it closely up to his face to examine it before dropping it in the small plastic tub that Eddie was holding open for him.
Still, the three firefighters didn't know that they were on camera for a livestream.
"No, no. I mean, I did just get back from Belize."
"Belize is in Central America," grumbled Eddie.
"Oh. Are you sure?"
"Pretty sure."
"Botfly," states Hen as she signs a torch onto the woman – Becca's – face. "Parasite indigenous to Central and South America, including Belize."
Now Becca joined Kasey in watching Buck examine the parasite in the cylinder tub in pure disgust.
"They reproduce by trapping mosquitoes and laying their eggs on them. And then when the mosquito lands on you the egg hatches and crawls right into the feeding site."
"Ew."
"Lovely," Kasey voiced, face squeezed up whilst her eyes stays on her best friend who was still looking at the parasite with pureness – like this was one of the best things he has ever seen.
"Luckily, it looks like you got it out all in one piece." Buck says, eyes remaining on the parasite as he tries to bring good news to Becca.
"They'll be able to extract the rest at the hospital."
"The rest?"
"Think of them as new followers."
Buck chuckles and Chimney's comment.
"Gross!"
The team went round Becca to bring her up onto the stretcher. "Wait," she says as she eyes her phone. "Oh, my God, wait." She stretches her arm out. "No, no, no, no, can somebody grab my phone? No, go back. Hand me my phone."
Eddie and Buck notices the stream and both offer two very different waves to the camera before Eddie awkwardly makes his way to the camera to turn it off.
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"118, 118, this is Dispatch," Kasey heard through her headphones. "We got Bobby Nash on the line. He says it's important."
"Bobby..." Kasey mutters as she shots Eddie, Chimney and Hen a worrying look.
"Wait, what? Dispatch?" Chimney says. "Dispatch, please repeat."
The fire truck in front of them blows up in flames and Kasey screams, hand on the handle of the door as she tries to open it, but it was still locked.
"Buck! Buck!" She screams. "Buck is in there!"
The driver finally unlocks the door and Kasey pushes it open and jumps out in a hurry, but before she can make a dash towards the truck in flames, Eddie grabs her waist and brings her into his chest.
"Kasey! Kasey! No!"
"Buck! Buck!" She struggled in Eddie's grip. "Buck is in there! I need to see Buck! I need – Eddie let me go!"
"Eddie get her behind the truck!" Chimney demands and Eddie begins to drag a fighting Kasey to hide behind the fire truck.
"No! No! No! Let me get to Buck!"
Hen rounds Eddie and Kasey to stand in front of the pair, she brings her hands up to cup the young's firefighter's face. With her fingers, she wipes away the tears falling from her eyes. "You will get both you and Buck killed if we let you go."
Kasey shakes her head as her bottom lip trembles.
"Please," a broken sob left her lips and Hen sighed before letting her face go.
Eddie's grip become tighter the more she tried to wiggle her way out, he brought his lip down to her ear, breath hitting against her neck as he tried to comfort her. With one hand securely round her waist, he runs the other down her arm to overlap his hand with hers, fingers sliding in between hers as he gently squeezes it.
But to none of his surprise, she didn't squeeze back.
He then wraps both arms around Kasey to keep her securely against him.
Chimney went onto his radio and the people on the other side could hear Kasey's shouts a lot more clearly.
"Give me the Captain!" Freddie states as he paces in front of Buck.
"I swear," Kasey said through gritted teeth as tears rolled down her cheeks, "I swear if he hurt either of them more than he already has," Kasey grunts again, "I'll fucking kill him."
Eddie squeezes Kasey hips to try and comfort her but it just made her want to leave his hold and run to Buck even more.
Her best friend was in danger, and she couldn't protect him.
"Where's the Captain?!"
A firefighter pulls them across the ground in pain.
"Hey," Freddie makes his way towards him. "I told you not to move."
"Hey! Hey!" Kasey yelled as she noticed Chimney stomping his way forwards, "why is he going forwards?! Let me go Eddie! Eddie I swear let me fucking go or I–"
Chimney raises his hands up in surrender, "I'm the Captain, okay? I'm the Captain, so please just let me help them, okay? Please."
"He doesn't want him," Kasey grunts as she continues to fight Eddie grip.
"What?" Hen asks. "But he asked for–"
"He wants Bobby." Kasey responded.
"Kasey, please stop fighting." Eddie mumbles softly in her ear.
"Not until I know Buck is okay."
"No." Freddie says as he slowly walk forwards. "No, I don't want you. I want Captain Nash."
Kasey fought once again against Eddie to reach Buck. But Eddie kept a strong grip on her. Kasey begged him to let her go, but he didn't.
He couldn't risk her getting hurt, but Kasey didn't care.
She didn't care if the guy brought out a gun and shot her. She didn't care as long as it meant she can reach Buck and help him. She has been ready to die for him since the start, and if that meant risking her life just so she could reach Buck, then so be it.
So, she continues to fight against Eddie's grip, but she couldn't escape. But she continued to try for Buck.
Then she stopped at the sight of Bobby emerging from the crowd and heading towards Freddie with his hands up, and Kasey cries out, hoping the two guys she saw as family would hear her – hoping that by some miracle that if Freddie heard he would let them go.
But neither three of them heard her angry cries.
Hen now stood in front of, hand resting on Kasey's cheek as she tried to calm the youngest firefighter down – she promised Kasey that they will be alright, but Hen didn't even know if that was a promise she could keep, but she made it anyways as she had hope that they will.
"Wanted you dead." Kasey heard Freddie say and Kasey had to fight her best to not let herself collapse in Eddie's arms from the sight of two very important people in her life in danger, and that she was over here not being able to help.
It felt like someone stabbing a knife through her heart and twisting it.
"I get that." Bobby slowly takes a step forwards, arms still raised. "But what about them? What about him?" He quickly pointed at Buck with his finger in the air. "He's got parents, a sister, a girlfriend, a best friend, and he never did anything to you. He wasn't even a firefighter when your father burned down the restaurant."
"Collateral damage."
"Is that how you see yourself? An unintended victim in all this?" Bobby was much closer to Freddie now, practically face to face with one another.
"Stop," he raises the trigger, "one more step, we all go boom."
Kasey whimpered and all Eddie could do was hold her.
"Freddie, you got dealt a bad hand and I'm sorry about that. But what you did with it – that's a choice. You stopped being a victim the moment you left that first bomb."
"That lawyer – she..."
"Did her job." Bobby raised his voice. "We were all doing our jobs."
"Destroying my family. My mum and I lost everything. She was in so much pain."
"Want to make it worse? You want to make her watch you die?"
With his head, Bobby nodded his head forwards, and Freddie glanced round to see Athena and a detective with his mum.
She quietly mutters out his name, almost calling for the real him to come back home – to come back to her, for the Freddie she was seeing now was most definitely not her Freddie.
"Mum," he tilts his head almost like an apology.
Bobby sneaks up behind Freddie, grabbing him round the chest and held his hand away from the bomb's trigger. The S.W.A.T team came round Bobby and Freddie as they removed the trigger from Freddie's grip.
Out of shock, Eddie's grip loosens, and Kasey takes that chance to break free and run forwards, dodging Chimney who tried to grab her when she ran past, the moment she was close to Buck she skidded on her knees, not caring for the rips in her uniform or the burns that will be on her knees afterwards.
"Kasey," Buck whispers.
"Hey, hey, hey," Kasey smiles, voice strained from the yelling and crying as she taps her hand against the top of Buck's hand to let him know that she was there, and she was here. "It...hurts."
"I know, I know," she mutters, nodding her head furiously as she laid down to try and take a look of the damage of his leg on the fire truck. "We're going to have to lift it."
Buck groans.
The rest of team moves towards Buck the second Freddie is taking away from the scene.
"Still with us, Buck?" Chimney questions, a small lightness tone in his voice to try and distress the emotions around them.
Buck groans and pants again.
"Buck, how we doing?"
"Kind of numb." Buck responds to Hen. He carefully turns to look at Kasey who kneels right next to him. "Kas...can you hold my hand, please."
Kasey nods and very gently places her hand over his in a way to comfort him.
"This girl wouldn't stop fighting her way to you," Chimney shortly laughs.
"I'm gonna run two lines."
"Skin is cold and pale," Eddie states.
"Kasey...don't go." Buck stutters.
"I've got you. I've always got you," she whispers.
"Push sodium bicarbonate. Just hang in there, Buckaroo."
"Hang on, Buck."
"We got to get the truck off his leg," Kasey stressed. "It's the only way to get him free and–"
"Chimney stands up with his radio, "This is Captain 118. We've got a probably crush injury. I need all –"
Chimney pauses as he watches Kasey move her hand off from Buck's and ignoring his quiet calls for her. She shuffled closer to the truck and places her hands underneath the small gap between the truck and the road, attempting to lift the truck up herself as everyone was taking too long.
Kasey prayed to just suddenly gain super strength for a few seconds just to take this weight off from Buck, and the power to heal Buck too. She just wanted today to be over with, for it all to be a bad dream.
And if people were taking to long to lift the fire truck off from her best friend, her brother, then she will attempt to do it herself.
"–hand on deck to move this truck and clear a path to the nearest trauma centre."
Bobby now reaches them as he places a hand on Chimney shoulder. "How's he doing, Chimney?"
"We're out of time, Cap." Chimney turns. "Well, help Kasey and lift this truck off of him, yeah?"
They all prepared themselves as more hands went onto the fire truck.
"Hang on, Buck."
"Everyone hands on."
"Hurry the fuck up."
"You ready?"
"Hang in there, Buck."
"Ready! Lift!"
They all pushed the fire truck up with all their strength, all grunting whilst Eddie and Hen remained by Buck to check his vitals.
Buck screamed in horrific pain.
"Come on!"
They all placed the truck back down.
"You got to lift higher!"
"One more time, guys. Ready?"
"Hang in there. Hang in there."
"One, two, three, lift!"
The grunts of the lifters were repeated along with Buck agonising screaming and Kasey had to squeeze her eyes shut as she tried not to listen to Buck's screams.
"Higher!"
"Higher!"
"Hang on, Buck."
"She's too heavy." Bobby says with a shake of his head.
"We got anything on the truck we can use for leverage?" Eddie suggested.
"No." Kasey shakes her head, eyes now looking down at the ground. "We need more people."
Chimney brings out his radio, "Dispatch, this is the Capt..." he stops when he saw all the civilians watching them rush forwards the second the barriers were pulled away, all running to help them – to help Buck.
They all rushed to the ladders side of the truck to find space to push it up.
"Hurry! Hurry! Hurry! Hurry!"
"Everybody, put a hand on where you can!"
"All together. One, two, three."
More grunts were heard as they lifted the heavy vehicle up for the screaming man under it, and finally they lifted it just high enough for Eddie and Hen to pull Buck out from the truck.
"We got him! We got him!"
"He's almost clear! Hold it!"
"Keep pulling! All right, we got him out!"
The truck lowered and hit the ground, but it didn't hit Buck for he was finally out.
Kasey rushed forwards, tapping Buck's hand gently once more just so he knows she's there.
"Kasey," he sighs at the knowing touch of his best friend, his sister.
And when they got him into the ambulance, Kasey was the one to ride with him to the hospital as a friend whilst Eddie, Hen and Chimney worked on him.
And when they got there, she went through the glass doors.
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"And a furious Kasey," joked Chimney as he sees the youngest make her way to the group.
"That better be Bobby in a Captain's uniform," she squinted her eyes as examines Bobby, only to break into a smile and give the man a hug when she knew he was back.
"Admit it, Kas," she turns around to look at Chimney, "you do miss Captain Han just a little."
"I wont lie to you Chim," his face lights up in hope, "I was planning 50 ways to murder Captain Han." His face drops and the group chuckles whilst Kasey leans forwards to gently push Chimney right shoulder.
"Things are finally getting back to the way they should be." Hen says.
"We just need Buck." Kasey mutters as she looks around the firehouse that feels slightly empty without him.
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“People assume we choose this life,” Bobby proudly says as he stands in a higher standard uniform at the front with Eddie next to him, hands behind his back, dressed in a proper and professional firefighter’s uniform. “I’m not so sure. Sometimes I think this life chooses us. For those that answer the call, there can be no doubt, no equivocation. It’s not just the lives of those we serve that depend on us, but our own. The lives of our fellow firefighters and first responders. Today we welcome into those ranks a new brother. After a year of hard work and dedication,” he and Eddie turns to look at each other with a fond proudness. “I am proud to officially declare that your probationary period is at an end. Welcome to the Los Angeles Fire Department, Firefighter Diaz.”
Bobby brings his hand to shake Eddie’s, his other hand went to be placed behind the younger firefighter’s back as their hands stayed together for a little bit longer for a photo to be taken.
“Thank you, sir.”
Everyone in the fire station clapped and Eddie looked round the place he has found belonging within, happily. His eyes found Kasey’s first who clapped and sent a playful wink his way, and Eddie smiled brighter before he looked at Christopher making his way towards him with a helmet in his hands.
Eddie meets him halfway as the claps died down to watch the father and son moment, he then crouches down to pick Christopher up. “What do you got for me, son?”
“I got you a helmet,” he whispers.
“Yeah, my helmet?” Eddie responds back quietly.
Eddie raises his son up into a hug, embracing him tightly as he smiles into his shoulder.
“Congratulations, Dad.”
“Oh,” Eddie awed with a breathless laugh, “thank you so much, Christopher.”
After everyone met or said hello to everyone, Kasey found her way to sit next to Eddie as he sits in the chair next to Christopher who was happily eating a slice of cake.
“Well, hello, Mr Firefighter.” Kasey beamed more when she heard the sweet sounds of Eddie’s laughter reaching her ears.
“Hi,” he looks over his shoulder before looking back at Kasey, “I see Buck is finally meeting Vanessa and Kit.”
Kasey rolled her eyes, “they’ve been talking for ages. Think it’s just Kit and Buck now though, last I heard they were talking about penguins.”
“Oh, God,” Eddie laughs, “and you escaped my mother too?”
Kasey playfully hits Eddie shoulder, “oi, she’s a lovely lady, okay?”
“She is, but she didn’t let you come over to congratulate me.”
“Oh,” she arches a brow his way. “You jealous that another Diaz was stealing my attention.”
He shrugs, “well,” he squints his eyes at her, “a congratulations would have been nice.”
Kasey smirks, “well, name your price and I’ll make it up to you.”
“Got to come back to me for that one then,” Eddie lifts his head to look round the room again, “is Jamie not with you?”
Kasey smirk fell to a small smile, “oh, er, no, we er,” she hesitates as she looks at Eddie before looking forward to facing the trucks that were by their table. “We broke up actually.”
“Oh?” He breaths out, brows raising as a familiar warmth heated his cheeks. “You doing okay?”
“It was mutual and for the best.” She pauses for a moment before quietly saying: “I guess I couldn’t like him as much…”
“As much as what?” Eddie whispers back.
They were staring into each other’s eyes, he’s looking right into her, and she was looking right into his, neither of them daring to look away. Kasey then leans back in her seat, head falling back perfectly, resting on the fire truck behind her, she tried to devise the perfect response. She crosses her legs, and his foot was now near hers, and they were still looking at each other.
Kasey then looks away.
After a few seconds she looks back at him only to see that he was still looking at her.
Kasey wonders if she’s ever seen eyes of such a drunken golden haze before, eyes that made Kasey wonder if he could move mountains and shake the ground with a single blink. Kasey has never noticed how his eyes has so much control over her, never realised that maybe, just maybe, those eyes that held more history than the night sky that her very own eyes would sparkle at the sight of, just like they do when staring up at the moon or the stars, were the first reason she fell for him.
Kasey Strand has realised she has fallen for Eddie Diaz.
The realisation was a hard slap to the face, she thought Jamie was going crazy when he was telling her that she liked Eddie and that it was okay. Jamie was the one to give Kasey the wake-up call, the call of that she liked Eddie.
He had no hard feelings for her, just asked for her to be happy, and all Kasey could say was that she will try, and for him that was enough.
Kasey wondered though how long she has been falling for Eddie and how she never noticed this before.
Was this something everyone knew? Did even Eddie know about her feelings? Is that why he was staring at her in a way that no one has ever dared to before?
Kasey knew after the breakup that she liked Eddie, and she sat in her car for ages thinking of everything she liked about him, and she reached the conclusion that she liked Eddie more than she has ever liked anyone, and if she’s being honest, that scared her. She doesn’t want to screw up like she done her enter life, and she believed maybe liking him in silence may be a good choice, but that would kill her from within, so instead, she chose to wait for so many reason.
For herself. And to see if Eddie felt the same. Also due to Shannon’s death and there was few other minor things that told her to wait too.
But Kasey has fallen pretty damn hard for Eddie Diaz, without even realising that she was falling for him, and she hopes if they ever get a chance together, if by some miracle he likes the “broken” girl next to him, then she hopes that she doesn’t fuck it up.
For a slight second, Kasey’s curious eyes flickered down to his lips, she gulps before shaking her head.
“Nothing,” she coughs, looking away from Eddie. “I just couldn’t like him the same way he liked me.”
A/N: Just to note that Kasey did in fact go to Athena and Bobby's wedding. She was Bobby's best man :)
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