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maxlarens · 5 hours

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OP — just a girl (part I)

pairing(s): oscar piastri x mercedes driver!reader

summary: your ex-boyfriend is a misogynistic pain in your ass and oscar piastri is more than happy to help get him off your case. maybe a little too happy?

fc: milly alcock

a/n: ignore how many fucking typos ive made in this. i was obviously channeling very pissed off driver!reader and just smashing the keyboard without checking things lol

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[*a/n: not trying to imply anything here about any drivers personal opinions on women/feminism/etc. simply was restrained by the site i used for this and the repetition of going through every driver’s response. i have my personal issues with how the grid reacted to the christian horner situation which i am largely unimpressed with, but this is a silly little fic about fictionalised versions of real people. so sorry for the interruption and on with the fic!!!]

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tagged @lewishamilton @ynusername

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mercedesamg Y/N and Lewis finish in P5 and P7 at the Chinese Grand Prix

user1 he plays tennis, he doesn’t have the strength to drive an academy car. I DO. [❤️ by @mercedesamg, @lewishamilton]

user2 i’m getting that yn podium so soon i can taste it

⤷ user3 please she only went up one position from quali. you’ll be waiting a long time

⤷ user2 jealousy is a disease get better soon

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🏎️ LIKE okay maybe i’m a little mad that the grid is full of men and they think they’re totally above supporting women in any real meaningful way. maybe this is my teeny way of making commentary on that. kind of. ANYWAY obviously i made a playlist >> https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1sommcVSznRcikbvmoqYjB?si=oc3bLh8CQTGUjC4YFH_0XQ&pi=a-9pl8GZTVQg6h

#oscar piastri #f1 #formula 1 #oscar piastri x reader #oscar piastri social media au #oscar piastri smau #f1 x reader #f1 smau #f1 social media au #f1 fanfic #oscar piastri x driver!reader #Spotify

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kosmicdream · 3 days

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im confident enough to post FFAK, which has anal prolapse, but i dont post the true drama....... my opinions about manga. *dramatic music* sometimes i kinda want to do some reviews.. its mostly me complaining.. it makes me sound so bitter like "do you like anything kosmic!" and..yes ! i do!!! okay!! i like a lot of things. once in a while, i dip my toes into a popular series to try to see if we are a good fit. Series like: Beastars, Dorohedoro, Dungeon meshi,ect.. and i kind. well. I dont like any of them LMAO. I mean, Ok, i actually really was into Beastars for a time, but after the fight with the bear guy (its been a few years sorry) and that story arc concluded.. it just spiraled to laughable levels and did not recover. I was genuinely laughing at it at times bc it kind of felt like a desperate scramble with the like. loopholes and power upgrades.. But I was invested for a time, it had a charm to me! I also loved the art and im curious about the authors next series about santa (partly because i too, am writing a story about santa). Dorohedoro has a great visual style, fun characters, i enjoyed reading but it also kinda didnt ...land for me beyond that, which is a shame. I feel like it is a series that "should" have clicked with me. And its like, not offensive to me but.. I'll forget that ive read the whole thing. I like STUFF in it. but thats not enough for me anymore. If i had read it when i was younger tho, it might have been a diff story. idk. My most unpopular opinion of all is that... I hated Dungeon Meshi.. Sure its ..pretty! cute designs. but i found it SO painfully boring and it actually was a struggle to finish. in the end, it felt like a waste of time.. SHOCKING take i know. That is the darling of everyones heart and i like, understand WHY its popular. .. but for me, i was not fed by anything. i am unfed and starved and going to eat elsewhere oh, and i.. as a person who has read a lot of fighting mangas.. I have tried to read chainsaw man, but i dont know if I can. I did finish Fire Punch. I'm surprised to say: i kinda liked it but it took a long time to force myself to read thru it. I honestly hated many aspects of Fujimoto's storytelling/character acting that i didn't think my opinion on it would change, but I'm a little more open to it now. I dont think i could ever super be into it or whatever, but i did find genuine enjoyment in aspects of fire punch. I did not really like look back. I haven't read his other one shot(s)? Where am i going with all this..I guess im giving some unrequested reviews after all...oops... a lot of this is spurred by how houseki no kuni is one of my most fav series, not only visually/characters/story/ect.. but i cant lie.... the ending... was kind of a flop for me... gorgeous and poetic ig sure but.. AUGH! it isnt what i wanted. maybe it'll be one of those "it'll grow on me" endings but thats mostly me having to go thru the 5 stages of personal grief and gaslight myself into it, but as the like actual honest first-reaction feeling it kinda lost me. I think it did not work when i felt the confrontation btwn phos/cinnabar wasn't the one i wanted to see. i will say tho, while im dissapointed, its not like a DEEP one or anything. I know its a miracle to even get to an ending.. i guess my take away feeling from it was like "everything fit together too well, too planned" but didnt feel planned, emotionally. I wasn't sold on it. Anyway, im here to speak my truth and my hot takes which, i honestly dont even want to have that one about HnK but its the real feeling i have for it.. Once again Utena's ending just has made all these other issues i have with various stories more obvious LOL

#the series i hate MOST is one piece #those who know me in my life #know this truth about me #i loathe that thing!!!!!!#i am a hater and i dont wish to be changed #oda does good color spreads tho

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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sighing-and-all · 8 months

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i thjnk im going to explode

#not to kind of bare my entire soul in the tags but ive been constantly questioning what the fuck is going on with me.#im pretty sure I’m schizospec so that’s one thing; along w the psychosis #delusions #and liiike a number of negative symptoms and shit #i don’t know if those fall into either schizotypal or schizoid or full on schizophrenia.#i do also know that a number of my symptoms do fall in line with a number of cluster b and c shit #that much I know of #BUT #here’s the thing.#ive still questioned if i was a system for a number of years #and i DO know that i don’t have did.#and im sure i don’t think my experiences are aligned w dpdr & disassociative disorder (but I’ll probably try to do some more research!)#but idk if my experiences concerning plurality align w pdid or osdd1b #the more I look at other people’s experiences - that people tend to mix up emotional amnesia and NO AMNESIA IN THE DSM-5.#it’s a bit confusing…#osdd1b usually means that there is a distinction of parts though. NO amnesia though!#and for pdid - it means that there’s usually 1 person at front #with of course minimal switching from other parts I suppose.#(explodes)#ive been trying to think about many many things lol #and constantly doubting my own experiences… which made things worse lolll #i feel like I need someone to talk to this about it!!! But!!! im worried I won’t be really taken immensely seriously bahahahah

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autumnfangirler · 26 days

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#im not (physically) disabled nor have i played enough ifs to say but ive been getting into them more recently #and now im curious- are there any ifs where people are able to customize their characters disabilities/mobility aids?#im not talking about ones that are plot relevant (like losing a limb or getting a curse or things like that)#im talking about like. during character creation. like for example a character having constant pain in their shoulders or chronic migraines #and maybe specifying that they use canes/rollators/wheelchairs etc to get around #or maybe sunglasses/earbuds to deal with sensory overload #and if not then why? is it just because potential disabilities and how they affect a person are too vast to fit into character creation #or require too many instances to keep track of? i assume that depending on the severity then itll affect a lot of how they do things #ig thinking about that all the time would be a lot #or is it just a story thing? like most of the stories would be derailed by trying to keep track of it #idk like i said im not disabled #i wouldnt know lol #but im curious what others think of this? like. are there things im not taking into consideration about this #ramblings

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crescentfool · 11 months

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ohh the joy of videos and streams... i like listening to people talk about things they like/think about it’s very contagious... 🥺

#lizzy speaks #THIS IS BROUGHT TO U BY THE MINATO BRAINCELLS SHAKING BACK AND FORTH..#so so many of my interests feel like they're in some kind of hibernation lately in terms of the emotions they evoke #my brains been mostly gravitating towards formulating strategies and trying new things in splatoon right now... LOL.. so i havent thought-#a whole bunch about other things i like even if they do mean a lot to me..#so i really appreciate being around other people who really like the things that they like because its infectious and reminds me why-#i enjoy those characters / ships / whatever else #like oh... ryomina.. minato.. ryoji... i love them very much and i like hearing other people express their appreciation for them #also yosuke.... i like hearing my friends talk about yosuke his characters a very fun one for me even if i never took the time 2 personally #analyze him its just very nice to be around that kind of energy! im so grateful!#related but unrelated squid school made a video about the splatoon manga... which i havent thought abt in a month or two #yet somehow watching that revitalized my sleeping lil braincell that loves vintage coroika...#IDK i just feel like lately ive gotten to be around a very contagious positive energy of people who appreciate stuff and i like that!!#mayb ill stream again... something about talking about things out loud and not over text evokes a certain kind of insanity #i like to draw to express my love 4 the things i've come across but sometimes i think too much abt the quality.. LOL #so maybe ill just go FUCK IT we ball!! better to draw than to not draw at all. or ill just stream 2 outlet the 'hehe i love so many things'#there is so much love stored in my heart it hurts i lov So many Things and I love Being reminded of that god i love people loving things!!!

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penisbilt · 27 days

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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lazaruspiss · 1 month

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not sure how i manage to be bad at making a self insert lmao, i always end up developing them into an entire OC in the end

#ramble tag #smth smth all art is self insert to a degree bc u cant help but leave pieces of urself in it #and also i have no proper self image. idk if thats bc of the identity related dissociation or what #unrelated but ive been trying to get more comfortable w the whole. roomies in the brain thing #which is hard bc reading related resources and support makes us shut down a bit so we never get more than a few sentences in lmao #thats like so dumb. i already know guys. we can read about it i promise it wont hurt!#forever thinking about the time a therapist said DID and immediately walked it back bc it was way too soon to call that lol #i still dont call it that bc its hashtag complicated #me looking at that one section of our notes app: have i met literally any of you people #i explained it to my coworkers at my first job like #''ok u know they 'there r 2 wolves inside u' thing? imagine that but many wolves. here let me draw a chart real quick-''#we took turns more back then for some reason #i miss vie. p sure theyre fine i just havent seen them in a bit.

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jedie · 1 month

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i hope this post finds you well! quick little soft reboot!

i want to do a soft reboot of this blog! i won't be moving or doing a deep clean, but i do want to start fresh in that i think that the best thing for that is retiring most if not all old threads. it's been a while and i'm not sure if The Muse is there and i certainly don't expect it from anyone! so i won't jumpscare anyone with a thread from 2 years ago lol. i miss writing with you all and in a silent lurk i've read what you guys write on the dash for a couple days and it ignited that spark again to want engage in that!

if you see this and you want a little starter thrown your way, let me know!

#「 ooc. 」 boonta eve drift.#i know ive been gone and gone here and there #my intention was to always kinda keep this blog lowkey #but i've simply not even been here which is my b i want to make an effort of being here somewhat consistently #nothing serious just simple life stuff & trying to be less online #i think im rediscovering my passion for writing and i really want to get back into it #rp in particular is fascinating because of that connection between writers and through interactions having you #adapt and plot and learn too in a sense? if that makes sense lol #i think that during the period that i was writing on here it helped me develop as a writer in aspects i never really thought about #things like voice and the perspective of characters and dynamics #dynamics especially! because i had the problem before when writing character relationships in solo felt a bit one note and almost monotonou #writing here really taught me how to make the distinction between characters and the nuances that define a relationship #so um yeah #i checked who i follow and my goodness was there a mass exodus! many non active for 1+ years #makes me feel a bit less alone in my leave lol #oh! in the time i've been here on and off i've learned fr*nch! so salut mes amis! i sincerely apologize!

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bmpmp3 · 1 month

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dysgraphic artiƨts risɘ UP!!!!!

#raise your pencils!!!! and erasers. to fix the backwards letters 😔#sorry still thinking about my weirdness with my art professors. yknow a lot of em have been really pushing us as #students to make our personal identities a major part of like our 'brand' as artists #which. well from an art history major perspective thats a very contentious and nuanced topic. i love a lot of artists who live this way #and i think its great seeing my peers who focus on identity thrive. but also as an fine arts major (double major fool LOL)#i keep getting pushed by teachers into like. specific '____ artist' identities???#specificaly woman artist. which is a little bizarre because im a bit fat and a bit gnc so im generally like. ungendered? in day-to-day life #(which doesnt actually matter to me directly that much honestly LOL people tend to view me as like. buddy? buddy or pal.)#(not man. not woman. not anything human. sometimes i remind people of a beloved dog. which. hkdsahjk thats its own can of worms)#(a can of worms that also doesnt matter much to me directly because im a wannabe furry who chose to be the dog when playing house as a kid)#(LOL so um. well. theres that) but yeah i dunno i dont really consider myself a woman artist. its been. shockingly (and sometimes luckily?)#irrelevant to most of my life and experiences and art (although dont get me wrong misogyny is very real and very present) so i dont #have a whole lot to say about it from an art perspective. you could also call me all kinds of things. a queer artist. a mixed race artist #again technically correct. some aspects more visible in my work than others. but also very technical. i focus on race a lot in in my #art historical work but i dunno how much my drawings have to say. except that i keep making too many mixed ocs LOL #i dunno i just think my professors gotta focus that energy away from tokenizing me and over to supporting like actual #capital W Woman artists capital Q Queer artists capital A Artists of Colour who are doing far more interesting things than I #far more thought out and engaged in these topics directly. i just kind of stumble into my art blindly and confused <3 #sorry that was a long tangent WHAT IM SAYING Is despite all that: i do consider myself a capital D Dysgraphic artist #i think its an unmovable constant of my art and the way i draw and the way my hands move. the untrained eye doesnt seem to be as aware #of it directly. but those who are familiar can probably see it. the dysgraphia LOL if not just from whenever i write a letter or number #half of them are busted and frantically fixed HDKJSDJDS but its in all my art. if u can see it <3 ive been trying to embrace it #dygraphic artists raise your pencils indeed!! and throw away the eraser!!! make the legibility of your words everyone elses problem!!!#what does that say? what is that sketch? none of my business! none of your business!! its the business of my hand and the pencil alone #motor skill and spatial issues take the wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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My last vent post could have literally been summarized by me just saying "how tf are some people just okay?!? I'm freaking out over here and I'M RIGHT"

#yeah anyways dont let anime protagonist decieve you #being severely traumatized didnt unlock special powers it just made people tell me i have wisdom #but in reality that wisdom is something i deeply repress and try to hide from others #because it reminds me of how many things none of us will be able to control and how #anyone lacking an understanding of that isnt something i would ever take from them #you deserve to be happy. even if it means blaming yourself for things that arent your fault sometimes #because regret is still better than despair #maybe people can have a little self deception. as a treat #since i lost mine ive been burdened by fear and inevitability and conflict that i cant quite decipher #though i guess i felt that in my self deception too... hmm #maybe it would be okay to not hide what j think after all #maybe what i do or dont say about things wont affect people that much after all #nah im still too scared lol #also sorry if i worried anyone. i will be okay just feelin a little paranoid is all

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virtualbeetle · 9 months

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Hello there! I saw your pen sketch post, and I do love low-effort $5 crazy sketches. Are you still offering them?

Yep! I'm about to head for bed for the night but feel free to go ahead and send details for me to do them tomorrow :>

#im trying to force myself to be looser with my art but i can only think of so many things to draw lately u_u #so far ive mostly been drawing ocs and from life (redrawing pics i took in yellowstone) but i want more variety #what better way than to have someone pay me to draw something they tell me to draw so i dont have to think abt it LOL #and also to draw without thinking about it Even More #also i hope u dont mind i publish this in case anyone else would also be interested :>#but yeah send me another ask or a dm about what you'd like me to draw for you #and tomorrow when i confirm I Can Do That For You i will accept payment at paypal.me/virtualbeetle !#up to your discretion at what point you send payment btw! i wont start things til i have payment but i expect most people #will probably want to talk things through at least a little bit first lol. unless the prompt is super vague on purpose for whatever reason #ok im rambling i need to sleep .

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scoreplings · 1 year

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beep boop

#i have been thinking abt self harm a LOT lately because ive been wanting to do it #but i am happy because now i am at the point where the thoughts are less #‘oh my god i need to hurt i need to hurt i need to hurt wheres my lighter wheres my knife im clawing all my skin off help’#and more ‘… why do i want to do that? because it would make me less stressed? so does a coloring page sheeeesh let me get my markers’#this specific weekend has been rough because there are sooo many people around and i have little access to my better coping strategies #and peeling your skin off is surprisingly easy to do in front of people without them noticing #but ive just been telling myself to wait until lights out then played minecraft and listened to a podcast instead lol #coping is sooo fun #also we did a journaling exercise and in part of it we had to basically say nice things about ourselves that are true #not just ‘i am good i am pretty’#but un-opinionated (as much as possible) stuff #and that made me feel nice. i think i will make a habit of it #anyway im five minutes late to breakfast right now i just had to sit down and chill for awhile because i have had pretty much 0 time alone #in the past three days #seven people in a tiny room with child sized bunk beds is Rough #but i am oki now.#mwah goodbye i love you im gonna go try and snag some hot chocolate yayy

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pepprs · 2 years

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i like uh. literally cannot believe what is happening is still happening btw.pain and suffering (update omg i hit tag limit CRINGE but i think i was done anyway lol)

#purrs #ive felt sort of beholden to keeping it quiet on here bc i felt bad since it was still kinda a secret irl. but i think the word is #traveling fast irl so im giving myself permission to talk about it with my dearest belovedest mutuals some of whom are irl friends i have #ghosted for the last week and a half despite initially trying to set something up bc i have been so miserable over it that i can’t function #and for that i apologize and i swear to god i will get it together eventually. but ok. the thing that happened is that. lol i am crying #typing it bc how do i even say it. my supervisor who is also my mentor who is also dare i say my friend who is also my close colleague who i #is also the reason i even got to the place im in to begin with in so many ways… got a new job. and didn’t tell us she did and dropped it on #us last week. literally a week after i started my new job and i was so so so looking forward to getting to work closely with her in this new #way at last and um. that is not happening anymore. and it could be so much worse like thank GOD she didn’t *** or whatever which is #something i worry about literally constantly. but this hurts. it’s devastating and i feel betrayed even though im so happy for her and she d #deserves it so much. and im so fucking sad and do fucking scared bc there’s literally 3 of us now and we have to NOT PANIC and act like we #are processing this totally fine or else we will face Consequences which are the same reasons she’s leaving probably. lol. idk. it’s very #cringe to post about it and not vague and i know it’s like weird to be close to work and to your colleagues and whatever but it has never #been just work and it’s like. how can this person come into my life and utterly transform it and we go on this journey together and we JUST #reached this beautiful glorious pinnacle but then you leave?? and who knows how long she was planning to do this. lol. and despite how s #much i care abt her im the least close to her personally out of everyone on the team so i am suffering and withering and exploding and #sobbing and howling and barking and i want to talk to her so bad and tell her how much she means to me and that it is physically painful to #think about doing this without her bc she was supposed to like. help me and stuff bc she went thru baiscally the same path im on lol and we #have a lot in common in terms of identity / life situation and i was like ummmmm hi can you teach me how to be a fuller version of myself.#and this ks like such a wake up call that no *i* need to teach me that and no one can. but i don’t want that to mean losing her and im so #scared that she won’t be in my life anymore and i am going to miss her so much. im going to miss every little thing and it’s killing me and #i can’t stop crying about it and it feels like a fucked up nightmare and everything is different now and im temporarily secon in command who #which is like wtf no that’s YOU. come back. how could you leave. but she needed to i guess and i just didn’t know how bad. but it hurts ummm #lol. and if she knew how hard ive been losing my shit i think she would be angry and sad and like surprised bc i think she thinks im #normaler than i am now but it’s like god. there was so much to look forward to and i was already feeling weird about the future and now it’s #like the little parts of it i at least knew i could count on are totally gone because she’s leaving us for fucking ****** of all places LMAO #delete later #i know it’s like weird to vent abt irl stuff / ppl so candidly i know what it suggests about me but this is like my best possible coping #mechanism rn i guess or at least it feels the best bc ppl like the posts and you don’t even have to say anything it just lets me know that #like. im not insane for it iwguess. even though iwreally feel like it. idk. i just am going to miss her so much. i wish i could stop crying

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wtylas · 2 years

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seeing characters been drawn as poc will never NEVER get old for me

#lasi.txt #ive been thinking so much about the importance of diversity in a variety of spaces lately #i'll try to organize it in a way that the tumblr tags will allow in terms of space lol #ever a fan of runon sentences..#it is important to recognize my stories being not written but rather mentioned by white authors #it is important to recognize how they last 1 page or 1 conversation and are discarded #it is important that this attempt of diversity is so commonly done bad but at the same time:#there are authors. just like me! there are authors who are like me who have written my stories and gotten it right #there are artists just like me who draw people just like me! and so many other children in this world!#characters being poc is also important. but when you see the way some people treat them it just sticks with you #hence why i started out with the things at the beginning #but yet-- even yet!!#it is so important for us poc to be included in all these spaces and to recognize their voices #and this doesnt just apply to fandom #its so important that my computer science teacher is desi and queer #its so important that we have county-wide balls for all the desi kids to go to and dance to om shanti om #it is so important that there will always be more of us out there #but i will never have enough reminders #does anybody understand? does anybody understand

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landofgay · 2 years

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realizing how different I am to the average person I guess

#didnt think this was that weird tho.... but i suppose its why i havent dated in years #so my one friend dates a Lot lol shes always dating someone new (and honestly good for her idk how she found so many dates in this town)#but today we were talking about My Guy and she was like 'so do you guys have things in common?' like. genuinely asking.#babe. we went on 2 dates and have been talking for 2 weeks of course we have common interests....#are u dating people u have nothing in common with??????#then later she told me what was going on with her last guy and i just was like.#damn i dont think Anyone is at fault here but you guys clearly dont mesh so why do u keep trying this relationship 🥴#but whatever!!! i wont judge her she can do what she likes!! i just want her to be happy and not moping over Some Guy #anyways. i knew my approach to dating was different but god #like i could never just 'go on a date #i need to get to know someone first #we got to know each other for a full week before we went out and there was another full week of getting to know each other before we #went on a second date #(todays our third date 🥰🥰🥰🥰)#but its just been nice that we already kinda knew each other for almost a year thru the store #and then started to chat a bit before we matched #and then had a couple weeks and dates to get to know each other before we kissed #and like. i know i struggled a lot with understanding the difference between romantic and platonic attraction #but if its romantic it does seem to just. Work. and feel Right #my platonic/romantic mixups (ive had 3 big ones) whenever i tried making them romantic felt so forced and wrong #its like. we are getting to know each other in a non romantic specific way but we also know we will probably #end up dating since we met on tinder and not somewhere else 🥲#anywaysssss #i think im just. whatever that one sexuality is where u need to establish a STRONG connection before u csn actually have #like. romantic feelings/trust/etcetc

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mydr3aminvi0let · 3 days

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really annoying and cruel and evil and messed up all my friends don't live in the same city. ive got so good at being alone ive convinced myself i could live the rest of my life alone and never be any less happy, and i still believe that, but then we have a good conversation or they make me laugh too much and it's like. oh. this is what it's all about. why can't we all live in the same building

#tonight we're thinking about all the things we never knew we were missing out due to Circumstances in childhood #not in a woeful way in an aweful way #like what else are they right about i didn't know i was neglecting #i wanna move out of america and see what society is like when its community oriented we are not supposed to live so distrustful and private #but we weirdly pride ourselves on our imposed victimhood not realizing its a symptom #of trauma #i guess #that word is overused but i feel the definition matches the use here #in america we are divided into competitors and isolators-the two archetypes of traumatized children. only competitors are rewarded here #bc america itself from day 1 has been a rebellious little shit trying to prove its place in the world as a big kid to be taken serious #idk im half drunk its 3am ive been watching the same 4 episodes of greys anatomy with shorty bc she keeps falling asleep and rewinding it #so what da fuk do i know meredith grey has been dying of covid for leik 80 hours and im just happy to be here #half drunk is stretching it i finished her 4loko bc she asked me to and i did bc i am hispanic and would have my ass BEAT if i waste #i miss so many people i hope they can feel it when i send love their way #“so many” the peoples absence i carry like the ache in my bones this particular night is two and one of them is dead lol #oh we are about to spiral if we keep this up im going to bed instead

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