#jack mulhern is everything to me

[novafaery]

Why do we lie to ourselves that we'll never have another crush?

I WAS DEAD SAID ON NEVER HAVING ANOTHER ONE. BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!?!

Exactly now shut up.

[mikedfaist]

can you write about famous reader and mike separating for a little bit. how do you think they both would cope? how would fans react? what would appearances look and go like? tyyy love your work <33

Strap in, babe, because I have some shit coming.

What if they are separated right now? (Temporarily, of course!) I have unintentionally distanced myself on my Mike page because Jack Mulhern had me in a chokehold, so let’s just work with it. They are separated right now. She is playing Glastonbury, and he’s been spotted in New York, not in his usual spot by her side. It’s leading to rumors circulating incredibly fast, and she’s having none of it. Quite frankly, she doesn’t need any of it. She has enough on her plate, as is.

He is staying close with his friends right now, and she’s staying busy with work. He is also going against his friends wishes and Googling her to see how she’s doing whilst headlining (and it’s great, by the way). Maybe there’s a song that she wrote specifically for him, and she gets very emotional during it, and has the crowd do most of the singing, and the footage from that goes viral, thus confirming a split. She’s hurting a lot, and even during her shows she can’t get him off her mind, because everything she sings has hidden connotations about him. I think watching the video of her little breakdown hurts him a lot. He is supposed to be there with her. It’s not supposed to be like this.

She runs around the festival during the day, drinking and hopping between stages. Her friends by her side. There’s pictures and videos of her for days dancing and singing and trying to put a smile on her face, but it’s evident something is wrong. As much as she loves being there, her heart doesn’t have it in her.

[jovenshires]

requested ONLY by @agnewbones, here is the full iwks cast as imagined by me <3 ill put all the ones i already talked ab up top and all the new ones under the cut just so they're all in one place !!

spencer: ethan cutkosky

tommy: dale whibley

shayne: owen joyner

damien: leo howard

alex: naleye junior dolmans

keith: aubrey joseph

chanse: jay lycurgou

jeremy: lucas hedges

patrick: owen teague

ify: khalid

brennan: ryan potter

tim: ty simpkins

amanda: for this current age and era of amanda (prequel notwithstanding - mayhaps ill do a different casting of that later on whos to say), i'll say bianca comparato. i'd believe she was a tired soccer coach mother of eleven who's gay for her opposing coach.

angela: not that she's had a big part in the fic (YET.......) but im gonna say gia mantegna. another actress who needs a comeback!! yes i watched unaccompanied minors. anyway she has those angela eyes.

rock: this was a close second for ify, but i just think he has a more youthful fun energy that's much closer to rock's specific vibe than ify's. he also gives the 'keeping ify in line' energy that rock most certainly needs. anyway rj cyler!!

marcus: xolo maridueña has been popping off recently and rightfully so. marcus is only a bit part but i think he can be everybody's baby the way god intended. he doesn't have The Eyebrows but we can get them there i know it

ian: this one is more about vibes than look and also it made me laugh. because who gives that sad, washed-up older brother vibe QUITE LIKE skyler gisondo. this casting is everything to me i think it's so funny.

aguilar: do you think we can get away with rico rodriguez in a serious-ish role. i mean it's a comedy role in a serious-ish show. i just think he has the range.

luke: as a fun little nod to the series that was the partial inspiration for iwks, a little bit part for mister kit connor.

peter: wyatt oleff has that swagless mess energy about him

duran: im gonna go diego josef who is also from 'somewhere inside your house'. literally cried over his character watching this terrible movie bc his acting was incredible. (he was also just the best character imo.) i also cry over duran regularly so this all makes sense to me !

josh: this one's so tough but i think im going one of my other spencer options which was griffin gluck. he just has that :) face josh has

andre: how long has it been since YOU'VE seen mighty med. devon leos. we're giving people comebacks bestie

greg: jack mulhern my beloved. now its just katies dream actors coming to hang out man

garrett: whos getting the honor.... THE PRESTIGE. wouldn't it be fucking funny if i said like jacob elordi or something. anyway cameron gellman looks appropriately sad

josh (mythical): HMMMM.... there's so many people who i think look like him but are JUST too old for this. i almost used him a couple different times in the original cast but im gonna go with rudy pankow. he's josh-shaped !

trevor: it's giving austin abrams. he just has that trevor silly lil guy vibe. it's just a bit part (for now :)) BUT i think he'd eat

zach: adrian greensmith is THE perfect vibe and you cannot change my mind

[usagirotten]

Pet Sematary: Bloodlines prequel coming on October 6

This October, the #PetSemataryPrequel will reveal the spine-chilling secrets that started it all. Prepare to meet the darkness lurking in the shadows, resurrected to terrify once more. Don't miss this terrifying tale! Paramount+ has unveiled a first-look image and October 6 premiere date for the horror movie Pet Sematary: Bloodlines, Stephen King’s self-proclaimed scariest property of all time.

The movie, the debut directorial effort from screenwriter Lindsey Beer, acts as a prequel to King’s Pet Sematary and is based on an untold chapter penned by the It scribe. He has called it his scariest property. The film follows a young Jud Crandall in 1969, who has dreams of leaving his hometown behind but soon discovers sinister secrets buried within and is forced to confront a dark family history that will forever keep him connected to the town. Banding together, Jud and his childhood friends must fight an ancient evil that has gripped Ludlow since its founding and, once unearthed, has the power to destroy everything in its path. The pic stars Jackson White (Tell Me Lies), Forrest Goodluck (The Revenant), Jack Mulhern (Mare of Easttown), Henry Thomas (The Fall of the House of Usher), Natalie Alyn Lind (The Goldbergs) and Isabella Star LaBlanc (True Detective: Night Country), with Pam Grier and David Duchovny also featuring. The film is directed by Beer and penned by Beer and Jeff Buhler. The producers are Lorenzo di Bonaventura and Mark Vahradian. Pet Sematary will feature in the Paramount+ Peak Screaming collection that curates horror movies and Halloween episodes from TV series. It will launch on October 6

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[daughter-of-melpomene]

SOME LITTLE OC PLOT BUNNIES I'M WORKING ON:

Bill & Ted OC

Love interest for Ted because I love me some young Keanu Reeves (🥰🥰)

Super smart but very socially awkward and pretty much only hangs out with the boys

The only one of the group with decent parents

Pan Queen (TM)

Looks like a cinnamon roll, is a cinnamon roll

Stranger Things OC

Wheeler sister (either Nancy's twin or less than a year apart from her)

Love interest for Robin because BY GOD IF WE CAN'T HAVE RONANCE WE ARE GETTING THAT GIRL WITH ONE WHEELER DAUGHTER

A huge dork

Probably in band with Robin?

Textbook Ravenclaw

Stranger Things OC

Love interest for Will because my son deserves better than Mike don't @ me

Sarcastic King (TM)

Maybe Mike and Nancy's cousin who comes to live with the Wheelers like a year before Will goes missing

Textbook sarcastic bisexual

Scooby-Doo OC

Love interest for my girl Daphne!!

Probably related to Shaggy in some way because Brigette Lundy-Paine looks like Jack Mulhern (my fancast for Shaggy)

Knows how to pick locks and pockets, I don't know quite why yet

Non-binary babe

Looks like a cinnamon roll but could actually kill you

Back to the Future OC

Love interest for Marty McFly obviously

Awkward boi

Adopted because his birth parents abandoned him and skipped town when he was only a baby

He works at the mall where Doc tested out the time machine and is smoking in the parking lot after his graveyard shift when he sees everything that goes down and winds up going in the time machine with Marty

He meets his parents in the 50's and there's a lot of angst when he realizes that they were both super self-centered and irresponsible and he would've been way worse off if they'd raised him

He and Marty aren't friends but he's been crushing on Marty from afar for years and they do get together eventually

They are super cute when they do get together

(Lemme know if you guys are interested in hearing more about these babies!!)

[adamwatchesmovies]

Pet Sematary: Bloodlines (2023)

How did you feel about the 2019 adaptation of Pet Sematary? If you thought it was great, how hungry are you for more? Very? Very very? If yes, you could check out Pet Sematary: Bloodlines. Just be warned that this movie has some good ideas that generally, don’t pay off.

In 1969, Jud Crandall (Jackson White) and his girlfriend, Norma (Natalie Alyn Lind), are preparing to leave Ludlow. Though neither have ever explicitly voiced it, there’s something about the town that just… doesn’t feel right. The evil force in question stems from the Mikmak burial ground deep in the nearby forest; a place whose soil can bring the dead back to life. The trouble is, they never come back quite right.

The film begins with Bill Baterman (David Duchovny) burying someone. It’s not spoiling anything if I tell you that it’s his son, Timmy (Jack Mulhern), who died while fighting in Vietnam and that he's coming back evil. That’s one of the film’s first problems. You kind of already know everything that’s going to happen. I suppose you could flip that around and say that the movie isn’t pretending like you haven’t seen Pet Sematary before, so obviously, it won't make what’s going on a twist. What does that leave us with? We know what will happen to Jud, since he survives. We know the burial ground won't be "defeated". We know basically everything, which makes a voice inside you wonder why this movie was made at all.

To be fair, there are a few things this movie does that are new to the… series? The first is to tell us the origin of Ludlow. Do the flashbacks to the town’s original founding add a whole lot? No, but there is one aspect of this origin story that is interesting: the way everyone reacts to the news that Bill Baterman has brought his son back. In the 2019 Pet Sematary, the burial ground’s ability to resurrect the dead is revealed to Louis by Jud. Now, we see that everyone (or at least, most of the people in the town) seems to know about it. We also find out why people stick around despite the area being cursed. Those who know feel like they need to be there in case something goes wrong; in case someone succumbs to the temptation to use its power. Of course, the fact that they know means they are precisely the kind of people who are prone to using the dark magic. The burial ground is described as a mouth that needs to be fed and grows hungrier as time passes. There are also several hints that the area surrounding the burial ground can influence people, which is a spooky thought. You might be able to defeat a person, but how do you defeat a location?

The other interesting aspect of Pet Sematary: Bloodlines (a generic title) is Timmy. As a former Vietnam War soldier, he eventually uses the tactics he learned in combat against our movie’s protagonists. That means booby traps, guerilla tactics, that sort of thing. There’s something there about a fear a lot of people must’ve had (or still have) when family members return from conflict: What if they come back… but aren’t quite right? What if they can’t leave the fight behind? It’s a lot more threatening than a child going against their parents.

I want to be nice towards this horror prequel because I wasn’t bored while watching but there’s no skirting the ending. It’s terrible. I never would’ve expected a climax in a series of underground tunnels big enough for grown adults to stand in. The finale asks you to suspend your disbelief from a ten-story window in the middle of a rainstorm, with your eyes closed while telling everyone "It's fine!". For every choice or character that intrigued me (I’d like to call out Forrest Goodluck as Manny and Isabella Star LaBlanc as his sister, Donna) there’s another that makes you groan. If this was the best a prequel to the 2019 film could be, I again question whether this story really needed to be told. (May 13, 2024)

[sassyandclassy94]

This is the craziest coworker story yet!

I was getting ready to pay for my hold when I heard Lisa say to Maliyah: “You haven’t met the real Abby, M&M!”

Maliyah: “But she’s nice!”

Me: “What?? Are you guys talking about?”

Lisa: “I was just telling Maliyah about the crazy things you say… and how you’re way more blunt than I am.”

Me: *goes through everything I could’ve possibly said* “I… wait… do you mean what I said about Jack Mulhern’s… *looks at Maliyah* Close your ears, Maliyah!! *looks back at Lisa* …package…? That’s not fair cause what you said about your favorite customer is WAY worse!!”

Lisa: “Nah, not that. I mean that other word you use all the time.”

Me: “COXSWAIN?!”

Lisa: “Don’t say that word!!! It’s so bad!!”

Me and Maliyah: *look at each other like 🤷🏻‍♀️ and laugh*

Me: “it’s a ROWING term, Lisa!! I keep telling you! And he’s an important seat in that boat! Without the coxswain, those boys wouldn’t be—“

Lisa: “NOT boys?” *starts cracking up*

Me: “LISA!!!! THERE IS A MINOR HERE!!!”

Then as she’s laughing me and Maliyah are laughing but not what she said, it’s how she was laughing at her own joke🤣

After she calms down Lisa goes: “Ohh that was good. I haven’t laughed that hard in years.”

Me: “Oooohkay. Have a good night, girls.”🫠

[grizzisahugger]

Things I Need In Season 2

-The death of Campbell Eliot... tragic

-Allie back in power

-Allie apologizing to Lexie for what the guard did cause we all know that was too far

-Lexie apologizing to Allie for everything that happened with the coup

-More Fugitive

-Happy Elle

-Happy Harry

-Sam telling Grizz the truth about Eden’s father

-Finding out who Eden’s father is (my money’s on Jason)

-A Grizzam love scene since every straight couple got one smh

-More citizens of New Ham learning ASL to communicate with Sam

-The fact that Campbell’s a literal psychopath not being completely ignored wtf

-Cassandra, idc how

-More memes

-Jack Mulhern following me back

-Proof that Dewey was guilty... cause it still seems sus to me

-Perhaps a rise in power for Helena (take that however you will)

-More Clark cause he’s fuckin’ hilarious

-Eden being babysat by Grizz and Sam how cute

-Becca and Kelly being GAY

-An explanation on Charlie and the last scene of S1

-More pie... jk... unless?

-More gay

-More POC

-Me in the cast

[thearibones]

ariel bones.

{ jack mulhern, cismale, he/him } Have you seen ARIEL BONES, an ORIGINAL CHARACTER from the THIRD Wizarding War?  I heard they just showed up, and even though they were born in 2000, they don’t look a day over TWENTY-FIVE.  I guess they’re living up to their reputation of being EASYGOING & PERSONABLE and IMPULSIVE & TEMPERAMENTAL. 

ARI BONES: AN INTRO

* ari is the only son of Susan Bones, and could not have had a more loving, supportive childhood. there was no pressure to be anything but himself–his home was always a warm one, full of laughter and quilts and a constant sense of coziness.

* he’s a proud hufflepuff alum, though he always thought he would’ve gotten along just as well in gryffindor (he wouldn’t have, really, but it soothed his ego to entertain the idea).

* a quidditch fiend through and through. he was on a broomstick as soon as he could walk, and in school he always found it the one thing he was truly good at. he joined the hufflepuff team his second year as a beater, and held the position until he graduated. he was by no means shy of the spotlight, but never sought the captain position, claiming that it was “so not his thing.”

* he always felt a bit daft in school. his practical skills were passable, but anything remotely academic seemed a recipe for embarrassment for him. despite his normal boisterousness, in class he always stayed very quiet, trying to pay attention and trying even harder to avoid the scrutiny of his teachers and peers.

* speaking of boisterousness: the kid was never quiet. he talked to anyone and everyone about anything and everything, though over the years he managed to temper it from annoying to at least remotely charismatic.

* he always knew going pro wasn’t in the cards for him. he was good, sure, but not that good. so, after graduation, he sought out a position as an apprentice broom maker. the work was hard to grasp, at first, but with time he came to understand it. he still hasn’t graduated from the apprenticeship, but from the approving nods he’s been getting at work lately, he’s beginning to hope.

* despite being a perpetual flirt with seemingly everyone around him, ari didn’t get into many relationships, and those he did manage to suffer through didn’t last very long. he’s trying to remedy this, but doing a poor job of it.

possible connections:

* ride or die: these two were never seen without each other at hogwarts, and little has changed now. they’d go to the ends of the earth for each other.

* enemies to lovers: aka the trope that sustains me. maybe they used to be quidditch rivals, maybe they just didn’t get along, either way: they’re starting to see more in each other than ever before.

* alternatively, friends to lovers: the sweeter, gentler version, for those of us that enjoy sweet and gentle.

* sworn enemies: something happened between these two forever ago, and neither of them are wholly over it. besides, even if they were over it, as far as they’re concerned there are endless reasons to hate each other.

* i’m open to literally anything, don’t feel confined to the above list! 

quick facts:

mbti: esfp

enneagram: 7w8

sexuality: bi

fav song: you’re so vain by carly simon

patronous: hedgehog

amortentia: cedarwood and cinnamon bark with a hint of vetiver

[grizzing]

5 famous crushes

I would like to thank @professrlupin​ for this tag ❤️

Alright here we go. We’re starting off with my (future) husband. Gotta say, apart from number 1 I did some shuffling here and there.

1. Jack Mulhern (everything and anything about him, I mean just look)

2. Hailee Steinfeld (especially in the series Emily Dickinson, dear lords)

3. James Phelps (the handsome lad on the right in case you’re confused)

4. Daniel Radcliffe (my first ever famous crush, he has to be on the list)

5. Cillian Murphy (he makes me want to live in 1919)

I’m tagging @oscarwildc​ @calypezo​ @thematically-melancholy​ @v-e-r-n-i-c-e​ and anyone else that wants to do this. Only do so if you want to! I’m curious! :)

[grizztomysam]

Darling So It Goes... - Grizzam

Jack Mulhern’s Song rec on IG got me feeling some type of way...

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One of Grizz’s romantic daydreams back in West Ham was sitting next to Sam, thigh against thigh, on his bedroom floor while they listened to music together. 

He’d forget himself for a minute because Sam’s eyes would be especially blue during those moments of stolen glances, triggering another internal musing of life with Sam. Forget Sam would never be able to hear music.

Then he’d catch himself, red shame coloring his ears and cheeks, and look away. 

He feels a sadness that floors him. But Sam is the type of boy that would scoff at pity.

Beside poetry and a well written prose, music was everything to Grizz. As much as he loved beautiful words both spoken and written, the power of music, its ability to convey so much, even without lyrics made Grizz feel so much. 

Feel everything and nothing.

Made Grizz feel invincible. 

Music was also a means to cope. 

It helped him comprehend why he just could not see himself falling for the the pretty girl his mother pointed out during a trip to the store and why the boy putting up the apples in the next aisle made his heart thunder against his ribs.

It helped him comprehend the empty, devastating loneliness when he realized his mama, the one who’d sat with him at nine, his head nestled into her lap, running her warm, soft, delicate hands in his hair, that always smelled of vanilla and freshly baked bread, while they listened to Elvis, would do everything in her power to “fix” him. 

It helped him comprehend he wasn’t something broken and needed fixing. 

It helped him comprehend that Sam Eliot was worth so much to him. Worth putting aside his fears and uncertainties because Sam was the type of boy Grizz would lay his life down at his feet.

Grizz feels like a right idiot when he discovers that Sam can “hear” music.

Walks by one day after his late night guard duty shift at Allie’s, to pass Sam’s bedroom. Because it’s always intentional that he passes by Sam’s room hoping it’s open. His creeper, 16th century courtier, pining self needing a glimpse of the sleeping boy. Because a sleeping Sam is beautiful. 

Eyelashes so long and pretty against his cheek, his brows furrowed so. It makes Grizz swallow thickly and turn quick because he badly wants to kiss Sam’s pouting lips and chase away the monsters in his dreams.

This particular morning, Sam is up, dancing. Grizz starts near the doorway, smiles and chuckles. Sam’s hips are moving slow, punctuated with little shimmies, shoulders shrugging up and down, as his head bobbed with headphones on. Grizz amused, his grow eyes soft for Sam.

But of course, the vibrations. 

Sam can feel music.

Grizz wants to cry.

After he returns from the expedition for land. After he learns of Sam’s true connection and role in Eden’s life. After some order is restored with the release of Allie and Will once truths are revealed. Grizz finally gets to take his time with Sam. Woo and romance properly the love of his life.

They’re sat in Sam’s room on the floor at midnight, knees to knees, the house hushed but creaking to the wind outside. It’s autumn and Grizz has a fleeting thought of carving pumpkins with Eden. He smiles as he rifles through his backpack next to socked foot and feels Sam’s thumb running against the skin between his lip and chin. Grizz looks up to warm but questioning eyes.

“Why are you smiling?” Sam signs, his fingers moving a stray bang behind Grizz’s ear and traveling to the back of Grizz’s nape, pressing with gentle pressure that both lull and heat Grizz up.

“I was thinking about carving pumpkins with Eden.”

“Oh!” Sam’s dimples show. “You should.” 

Grizz feels so warm and full, the grin on his face threatening to split his lips. He looks down when Sam’s eyes begin to grow dark, the tip of his tongue darting out to wet his bottom lips. 

First things first.

He wants the night to go romantically slow and sweet, despite how heavy and quick his breath has grown. 

He returns to rummaging through his pack, softly swatting away Sam’s wandering hands by his thigh and finds his headphones, the old cassette player he’d found in a box that held his grandpa’s things and the mixtape he’d gotten Bean to help him translate songs into from his phone. 

He leans forward with the headphones in hand, volume turned up on high, catches how Sam’s eyes have begun to sparkle, lips in a gentle smile, and places the headphones on his head, steady against Sam’s ears. He keeps one hand held onto the headphones, his thumb running softly against Sam’s neck and the other he puts in the tape and presses play.

Sam’s eyes close, eyelashes flush against freckled cheeks, swaying to the deep beat of the crooning baritone.

Grizz wants to look at Sam like this forever.

When the song ends, Sam takes a moment, lips still smiling soft, eyes closed. And when he opens them and leans in for a kiss, Grizz stops him, signing “Let’s play it again, but keep your eyes open this time.”

Sam’s lips quirk as if perturbed, patience suddenly waning. Grizz should have kissed him yesterday. But he indulges, sitting back, hands now gripping the underside of Grizz’s knees.

His lips lose it’s impatient line when Grizz begins to sign along with the song, gaze unwavering from his, strong and true.

Wise men say only fools rush in But I can't help falling in love with you Shall I stay? Would it be a sin If I can't help falling in love with you? Like a river flows surely to the sea

Darling so it goes Some things are meant to be Take my hand, take my whole life too For I can't help falling in love with you

His eyes grow wet, lashes fluttering fast as his grip on the underside of Grizz’s knee tighten while his head falls down onto his chest, a hiccuped sob escape trembling lips. 

Grizz gives him a moment, running random patterns into the side where his hip meets his thigh, soothing and reminding that Grizz is all his. When he lifts his head its with a look that cuts into Grizz ‘s very being. A sudden force shooting electric stars in its wake, landing like a bullet into Grizz’s beating heart, that almost stutters, overwhelmed. 

“I told Becca a while back I’d probably die a perfect christian virgin.”

That earns a sniffled laugh from Grizz, he doesn’t remember crying but it’s flowing freely now. 

“I asked her how I’d ever find someone who would love me that I’d want to love back....Then came you”

And when he kisses Sam, gentle and slow, he feels and hears a gasped sigh, as if saying “Finally”.

Finally, I’ve found you. I’ll love you forever, darling

Grizz lifts them up, lips never parting, its awkward and they almost topple over, Sam turning his head as he laughs against Grizz’s cheek, but they manage and lips meet lips again. 

They may be living in an alternate universe where threat of starvation, violence and chaos lingers around the corner; through the mess of it all they’ve somehow found each other. And Grizz rejoices in the possibilities. 

There will be more music shared and lyrics signed so Sam will never question and never forgot how much Grizz loves him.

Grizz pulls Sam in tighter as they continue to kiss, swaying when Grizz presses the play button once more.

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GRIZZAM HAS MADE ME ITS SAPPY BITCH...and I don’t even care anymore.

[novafaery]

GUYS IT'S IN TWO DAYS!!!

I'm gonna go rabid for this man, ANYWAYS! Two days until his birthday, YAY!!

[ilovetowritei]

Part 1 - The Flowers

I don’t really know how posting on here works. I wrote this this morning, and I am writing the second part now. 

I guess a warning for mention of depression, medication and mental illness. 

I love Grizz and Sam on the Society. I think their dynamic is beautiful, and Sean Berdy and Jack Mulhern do an amazing job bringing their characters to life. I also find it highly improbable that Harry is the only one that suffers depression given their situation.

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Grizz had been tending the flowers.

For six months, without help or prompting, he had been weeding and watering, pruning and coaxing the delicate little buds to life. He wasn’t really sure why he did it - it just felt like something that needed doing. The flowers might not serve a useful purpose, but they served an emotional one. They were beautiful, and a part of Grizz knew that that was enough.

He’d been back from the expedition two weeks. The shock of Allie’s blood sliding down her face still hit him every time he walked into town. His friend, the only person who had been able to step up and face the reality of this new place. He’d grown to see her as fierce, but in that moment, her pale face beneath a black beanie, she was vulnerable, a seventeen year old girl afraid of the school bullies.

Except now, they weren’t just ruling the school hallways. Lexie and Harry ruled the town, decided who did what and when. They decided, quite literally, who would live, and who would die. Grizz had moved back into his family home, isolated on the outskirts of town. He’d spent his time cleaning up his home, drawing maps to the land and mostly, trying to work out how they were going to survive.

But today was different. Something was tugging at his heart. The pain of loss was bubbling up inside him, threatening to overflow as it had been since the buses had dropped them here. So he walked to the one place he could think of where life was beautiful and simple. He walked to the gardens out behind the library, where his flowers grew.

Caught up in his thoughts, Grizz didn’t hear the heavy breaths coming from beneath the shade cloths. He didn’t notice the footprints pressed into the muddy ground. He pulled each peg from the cloth carefully and then threw the cloth back.

“Sam?! What the fuck?” Beneath the shade cloth, Sam was lying in the flower garden. Frozen weeds and dying buds were spread out beneath him. The boy looked up.

It was this look that showed Grizz that something was wrong. The last time he had seen Sam, his blue eyes had been clear, tears leaking silently from their corners. Now, lying in the garden bed, Sam’s eyes registered Grizz without comment, settling on Grizz for a moment before turning their stormy gaze back up to the clouds. No tears, but no light either.

“Sam? What are you doing?” Grizz tried again. He wasn’t looking, couldn’t read the words tumbling from his lips. Grizz felt every ounce of anger and hurt seep from his body as he nudged Sam gently. He leant over him slightly and signed.

Sam. What are you doing? The words still felt clumsy in his hands. Still, Sam registered them. His own hands rose from where they rested on his stomach, drawing pictures in the sky that Grizz couldn’t catch.

Slow down.

Sam looked at him properly for the first time. Grizz felt his eyes boring into his chest, measuring his worth. I don’t want to be here anymore.

For a moment, Grizz stood confused. “Then hop up. Go home.” But even as he spoke, a part of his heart started to shatter.

On this Earth. Living. Sam spoke the last word quietly as he signed it. Grizz’s hands went to his head, raking through his hair. Even before, Sam had always been full of life. A strong steady present in the back of the room, signing his sass to Becca and offering up sardonic grins whenever he made eye contact. Those grins had squeezed the air from Grizz’s lungs. They’d been his first indication that this was a boy he should stay away from, someone that could actually make him feel something.

This wasn’t the same boy in front of him. Sam’s body was long and thin, his hands and face pale against the rich soil. He was shivering, and Grizz noticed that there were new angles to his body. Angles that hadn’t been there… He shoved the thought from his head.

Why? Grizz was glad that his hands couldn’t betray his heart the way a crack in his voice surely would have. Tears had started to slide down Sam’s face and finally Grizz broke, reaching out to wipe them from his face. He pulled Sam up into a sitting positioning knelt down.

Why? His hands shook.

“I don’t know what to do. Allie is gone. Campbell is in charge. He’ll ruin everyone. It’s not just my life he can fuck with anymore. It’s everyones. I don’t know what I’m doing. He won’t let me go home. Won’t let me get any of my things, or any photos of us and mum and dad. He won’t even let me get my tablets.” Sam gulped.

“Tablets?”

“Medication.” Sam’s voice was soft. Grizz’s heart plummeted.

“He’s stopping you from getting your medication? For how long now?! This whole time?!” Grizz’s voice rose with anger. Sam swallowed.

“I weaned myself off of them at the start. I figured that I couldn’t keep relying on them. But it’s creeping back. I can feel it, under my skin.” Sam looked up at Grizz in desperation. He couldn’t take it any longer. Grizz reached out and took his face in his hands.

“Sam. What’s the medication for?”

D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-O-N  Sam finger spelled the word slowly, trying to convince himself that this wasn’t some dirty secret. He’d never expressly hid it. It just wasn’t something people knew, particularly when you couldn’t communicate with them. Becca knew, had been supportive in his rough patches. But here in this new world, he didn’t know how to reach out to her. Didn’t know how to explain that despite everything changing, the sluggish feeling creeping through his veins was back.

Grizz looked at him intently for a moment. He hadn’t seen Sam properly since the goodbye. Around town he had looked hurried and tired, a sight Grizz had attributed to life with Eden. He hadn’t seen the pain in Sams gaze, the mindless working of his fingers when his brain was working overtime. He pulled Sam forward into his arms.

“I came to look at the flowers. After we got dropped here. I would come and look and they gave me hope. But then they started dying. And it felt like all the hope was gone. You were gone.” Sam’s voice cracked as he broke into sobs, body shivering against Grizz. He was wearing only a button down and jeans. Grizz shrugged out of his puffer jacket, wrapping it around Sam’s frame. A part of him smiled at the image - Sam wrapped in something of Grizz’s, swallowed by the size and warmth. An image he had dreamed of in their other lives.

You liked the flowers?

Yes. Sam watched Grizz warily.

“A garden and a library.” Grizz murmured. Two places of beauty.

“Cicero.” Grizz looked at Sam in surprise, shocked that he had remembered.

“Yeah.” Grizz watched him for a moment. “Eden right? That’s the baby’s name?”

Sam looked down at the mention of his family. Becca had noticed his slide in the last few days, settling into a routine with the baby allowing her to finally see the pain building in her friends soul. Last night he had told her, about Grizz and thanksgiving, about Grizz’s pain and the way he had left. Becca had cried with him. And then flicked his ear.

“Sam. You’re an asshole.” Sam looked at her in fear. “Why didn’t you just tell me? We could have worked this out. I wouldn’t have told everyone you were her dad-”

“NO!” Sam yelled, standing abruptly. “I am her dad. She’s mine!” Becca looked at him in shock. His face was red, tears and snot dribbling down it.

“That’s not what I meant. Of course you’re her dad. From the moment you held her, you were her dad.” She looked at him, pleading for him to understand. This was their family. She loved him, so much so that she wanted him to be happy even if it meant braving the ridicule she knew would come when people found out who the father really was. “I just want you to be happy. Tell him. Tell him and tell him if he tells anyone else I’ll kill him.” Tears streamed down her face.

“I am her father.” Sam was nothing if not stubborn. His heart was full of love for this baby.

“And you always will be. But you will also always be gay. We can’t hide that from her, or from anyone else. So tell him. You’ll always be her dad. But he deserves to know. Because one day, she will know too.” Sam looked at her and felt his heart continue to break.

“Yes. Eden.”

Beautiful.

“Grizz…” Sam wasn’t sure what to do. How to say what he wanted, needed to say.

“I get it. They’re your family.” Grizz stood, heart shattering as he wiped his nose against his sleeve. Sam was a good guy. Which meant family had to come first. “Look, I’ll find a way to get you some of that medication okay? If things are getting bad, better you have it and we work out a solution from there.” He stood and turned to walk away.

Some flowers weren’t his to tend. Sam would never, could never be his.

[halcylu]

what’s good my dudes !! since i have no ounce of self-control left ( who even IS she idk her ???? ) i’d love to get my hands on some new characters, ships and storylines this spooky season !! under the cut i’ve gathered a BIG ASS wishlist, so just hit that heart or hmu if anything piques ur interest !! 

wanted faceclaims : alessia cara. milena tscharntke. asa butterfield. ella purnell. wolfgang novogratz. marilyn lima. natasha liu bordizzo. maxence danet-fauvel. josefine frida pettersen. michelangelo fortuzzi. griffin gluck. anya taylor-joy. ellie bamber. lorenzo zurzolo. florence pugh. froy gutierrez. colin ford. natalia dyer. nicola peltz. álvaro rico. kennedy walsh. lisa teige. odeya rush. ashton irwin. suus de nies. xavier serrano. irene ferreiro. calum hood. stefanie scott. kaitlyn dever. brandon flynn. benedetta gargari. margaret qualley. keiynan lonsdale. kiana ledé. reece king. lalisa manoban. 

wanted opposites : dylan minnette. danna paola. jacob elordi. chris veres. sofia carson. mark mckenna. gavin leatherwood. sydney sweeney. michel biel. maya hawke. alex wolff. alice pagani. katherine langford. jack mulhern. fionn whitehead. hunter schafer. olivia dejonge. monk dagelet. brandon flynn. emma mackey. timothée chalamet. sophie turner. saoirse ronan. luke hemmings. diana silvers. miles heizer. joe keery. hailee steinfeld. alisha boe. ross lynch. thomas brodie-sangster. eliza scanlen. tom webb. shawn mendes. lili reinhart. tarjei sandvik moe. king princess. taylor marie hill. jack o’connell. charlie heaton. perrie edwards. keith powers. laura harrier. arón piper. lauren jauregui. matty healy. 

wanted pairings : shawn mendes & alessia cara. saoirse ronan & timothée chalamet. anya taylor-joy & alex wolff. lili reinhart & jeremy allen white. dylan minnette & kaitlyn dever. joe keery & josefine frida pettersen. alisha boe & brandon flynn. diana silvers & margaret qualley. tarjei sandvik moe & michelangelo fortuzzi. luke hemmings & kennedy walsh. nick robinson & liana liberato. hailee steinfeld & calum hood. matty healy & nicola peltz. 

wanted plots :

something based on alo and mini from third generation of skins !!! just like this push and pull relationship ---- girlie keeps the dude on a leash in some sort of v lowkey sneaking around friends w benefits kinda deal. like just let me play this sappy dude who’s so head over heels for this girl who’s just WAY out of his league and she’s always leading him on and getting his hopes up only to break his heart the next second like :////  I WANNA PLAY A SOFT DUMBASS OK.

also bc im a HOE for the 3rd gen. let me base a character off violet blood and do some kind of vi x richie inspired pairing bc im still not over this cheesy storyline !! 

u kno what just gimme everything skins inspired or even a cute lil mumu i mean ???

spooky stuff !!!! pl s !!! literally anything halloween themed !! something inspired by buzzfeed unsolved !! or veronica & jason from heathers !! maybe even a mumu based on scream the series ?? OR A CREEPY SUPERNATURAL TOWN OF SOME SORT. 

a ship inspired by this u know just this quirky ass couple thinking they’re the center of the universe being obnoxiously in love and stupid and probably on drugs oof. 

GIMME ALL OF THESE. 

this !! could also be a small mumu !! 

ok but let me play my alessia cara muse in this and i’ll shut up forever i promise :--)

BC IM A SUCKER FOR RIVALS TURNED LOVERS.

i’ve been craving this mumu for such a long time i stg someone pls end my misery !! 

this like i have nothing else to add i just need the angst :--)))

just something super dark and twisted w these two pls ????

zombie apocalypse stuff !! could be a cute n fresh lil mumu !! 

eeeeeeee !!

ik this isn’t dark or halloween themed or anything but gimme a cute camp counselors mumu w lots of bonfires, roasted marshmallows,  late night skinny dipping and fluff !!!!

OH AND THIS ONE. 

plus i have so many characters from my indie days that are super fleshed out and who i’ve been dying to play again so lemme kno if u wanna hear abt my trash children hihih.

[musepirations]

Hi Sien !! First, you're amazing and thanks for everything! Secondly, I was wondering if you could help me and think of someone who could be Adelaide Kane's brother? He would be around 25 years old. Thank you baby!

❞ HI HUN !! Aww no need to thank me, love, it’s why I’m here. As for your request, perhaps Harry Styles (25), Alex Fitzalan (23), Jack Mulhern (20), Beau Mirchoff (30) and Thomas Doherty (24) could work ?? If not, don’t hesitate to ask for some more names !! Xoxo

[adamwatchesmovies]

Odd Man Rush (2020)

If you love Hockey - not just the big games but the history, the farm teams, and the players who aspire to be on the farm teams - Odd Man Rush was made for you. This low-budget production has some technical issues and it can be a bit of a "so what?" if you're not into the sport but it's genuine and heartwarming.

Bobby (Jack Mulhern) has dreamed of professional hockey since he was a kid. Unfortunately, an injury dashed his NHL hopes. Nonetheless determined to make a career out of the game he loves, Bobby enters the minor pro league in Germany, eventually moving on to Sweden. Never quite within arm’s reach of greatness, he does the best he can and finds friendship amid his teammates and even love in Elin (Elektra Kilbey), a cashier with dreams of her own.

Although my aversion to sports always kept me at a distance from the story, it all rings true. Bobby's team isn’t important. There is no big game, no villains. You don’t see any of the sports movie clichés because this isn’t a sports movie. It’s the story of an athlete who perseveres despite the odds. Will Bobby's photo ever adorn a box of cereal? No. His biggest achievement is a friendship with all-star player Sully (Trevor Gretzky) who regularly sends him signed jerseys to bribe faraway fans. In a way, he exhibits the true spirit of the game. He’s playing because he wants to. His passion comes at a great cost: cheapo lodgings, a life far from home in a country whose language he doesn’t speak, and strained relationships. Still, he goes on.

This different look at the world of hockey is refreshing. The chemistry between Jack Mulhern and Elektra Kilbey helps too. The script's quality ranges but seeing them flirting or playfully going back-and-forth is charming. There’s also warmth in the players goofing around like a big family. Whether they’re making bets on who has to grow the team moustache next, going on McDonald’s runs, or talking about mundane things, they're a unit. At the same time, they always stay at a distance to avoid getting hurt. After all, each is competing for spots in the league above them.

This is a good movie so bear through the technical issues. That moustache Bobby “grows” is so fake I couldn’t believe my eyes. At several points, the editing, sound mixing, dialogue, and performances will make you wince. Odd Man Rush knows it’s telling a small, offbeat story, which is why it does everything it can to break from the mold - as much as its budget allows, anyway. Bobby and other characters frequently break the fourth wall. It’s a technique that mostly works though it often feels like a crutch for a script that just isn’t that strongly written.

When I initially sat down, I was about to reluctantly dismiss Odd Man Rush. As I’ve sat here collecting my thoughts, this one's grown on me. Take a chance on it. (December 28, 2020)