#later tho maybe if i don't for get

[autumnal-fracture]

live footage of me like 5 minutes before i fall back into my homestuck phaze

[kenobihater]

of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)

[mattodore]

salt in our memories

[hazellblogs]

They get along so well, it's disgusting 💖

Kitt is my BG3 OC and not a Tav btw

[sherlock-is-ace]

watched the first ep of Dead Boy Detectives today, did anyone also think the dialogue was a bit clunky?

I don't mean it was unwatchable or anything i just feel like it didn't feel realistic the way they introduced the characters and world... It felt like the dialogue was for the viewer instead of an in character thing. We were gonna be introduced to a viewer surrogate within the first few minutes, there was no need to have the characters who already know how the show's world works spell it out for nobody... and then explain it again when Crystal showed up? idk it felt like something I would write (not a complient) 😅

[hoardlikegoldenirises]

something a little silly

(he's not actually angry at the "drugs" thing, just busy trying not to die)

oh i almost forgot

transcript of my bad handwriting:

Page 1 Panel 1: 2013, 1:38 pm (sfx: DING DING DING)

Panel 2: 9th period, 1:40 pm

Peter's internal thought bubble: "Oh shit my meds"

Panel 3:

Student 1: Hi, Mr. Parker!

Peter: mm-hm

Panel 4:

Student 1: Mr. Parker? Hello?

(Student 2: Huh?)

Panel 5:

Peter: Hm?

Student 1: What are those, tic tacs?

Student 2: No, he's doing drugs!!! (In class!)

Text pointing to Peter's hand holding his pills says "PTSD medication"

Peter: HKFGH (choking noise)

Page 2:

Panel 1:

Student 1: Are you okay?!

(Student 2: oh fuck)

Peter: COUGH COUGH

Panel 2:

(sfx: WHEEZE)

Peter: It's not DRUGS!

Panel 3, Peter cont.: Well, I mean, it is drugs, but it's prescription—it's medication. OK?

[hereliesbou]

I AM GOING TO INFO DUMP ABOUT MY LATEST TWOMP AU AND YOU CAN EITHER JOIN ME IN MY FANDOM INDUCED DELIRIUM OR IGNORE ME LIKE AN ANNOYING STREET PREACHER.

I suffer from, "i like to put my guys in any and all kinds of situations" syndrome. It's chronic.

Anyway: The Harbinger AU (is what im calling it for now) I started thinking about this au today on my walk, so don't expect a complete idea. Just stuff I need to scream about. 😭 Anyway, the au- it's like this gloomy, apocalyptic, four horseman inspired type of deal, where Argos, Mr. Plant, Mr. Flower and even Thorn (he's a part of all of my au's and has been for quite some time now and im not sorry, i'm very attached to him) are all these beacons of death and destruction and the sole reason for their existence is to bring an end to all life. But they don't know it. Not right away at least, and it takes them a long time to put all the pieces together cause that would be one hell of a conclusion to come to right away. All they know is, for as long as they can remember, strange and awful things happen all around them all of the time. They are like conduits for bad luck, just spreading it like a disease to everyone around them at all times and they've always been helpless to stop it. The bad shit they cause for people starts out small and always out of their control. Family members experiencing financial crisis, friends always getting hurt or in trouble around them, people losing things. But the longer people spend around them, the more the misfortune snowballs until it rolls up into a tragedy. "School bus driver passes out at the wheel, collision with oncoming train. Students on board and no survivors." "Local high school evacuated due to dangerous chlorine related incident. Swim team in critical condition." "Small town man kills entire family, leaves cryptic message on living room wall and commits suicide." Etc. And the older they get, the worse the incidents become. They start to effect things on a grander scale and start to realize they can do things people shouldn't be able to do. Manipulate people and the world around them in unnatural ways, like a maestro guiding their orchestra. And at first they try to use this to help people around them, to try to prevent tragedy from striking, but it never seems to work. Always the same outcome. Misfortune after misfortune, followed by some horrible disaster, like fate was sending a message. Trying to let them know. I should clarify also, that all four of them, Argos, Mr. Plant, Thorn, Mr. Flower, experience all of this alone up to a point and only find each other a little later on in life, with some slight exceptions. I like to think Mr. Flower and Mr. Plant find each other in the midst of one of the many disasters they cause. Some kind of trauma bonding perhaps, and they slowly begin to realize that one does not effect the other the same way they effect everyone else. They are immune to each other. And so they remain together. And of course Argos comes in similarly to cannon, absolutely obsessing over Mr. Plant. He's still captivated by the man but I also think he's drawn to him for similar reasons to Mr. Flower and Mr. Plant. He is different. He is unbothered. he is safe. They both are. In fact, I think they're all drawn to each other. Even Thorn blows into the area coincidentally and stumbles on these guys, fully expecting to make trouble for them, but it never comes. And how curious that is. I'd like to think that the four of them are meant to destroy the world together, and that the everyone would be much safer if all of them never found each other but again, they don't know that. What they do know, is that they're finding people who they can't hurt just by being around. For once, they're finding people who won't resent them for their presence and the dread filled pall that hangs over them. And as they cling to one another and learn more about the other, they realize they're all experiencing the exact same thing, and so they all set out to find out if there's a way to stop it, thereby officially and unknowingly, setting in motion the end of all things. This is all I have so far since i just started chewing on this idea today. But i've half wondered about what kind of outcome this would actually end in.

Will there be an end to all things? Or will there be some kind of happy ending? I dunno. I love happy endings as much as I love tragic ones, and as much as I love thinking about the four of them being able to continue on with their lives normally instead of having to worry about stuff, I also daydream about an outcome where they learn their roles and just hang their heads and accept it, thereby becoming active participants in the end of the world. At least they'll die together. I feel like this is one of those au's where you could just easily replace the character's with all original ones lmaoooo. I have a few of those types of stories, but I'm way too attached to these guys to do it. orz Besides, i don't have it in me to make something out of this anyway, so it'll stay in my head until i'm hit with enough energy to do more than just daydream about it.

Some other fun ideas I've played around with for this au include:

Abilities based on their insecurities. I have this other au i've been obsessing over since I joined the twomp fandom, which was like... July sometime? Last year. And we're a few months away from my 1 year anniversary, yay!!!

Anyway, obviously my main focus for that au is Mr. Plant and Argos, but also Mr. Flower and Thorn are also central to the whole thing, and a huge part of the focus for that au is everyone's relationship with each other and the shit they deal with.

In short, the four of them work thru things together and it's messy and it's angsty, and there's drama and distrust and betrayal and murder, etc. etc. you get the picture. I've kind of taken those ideas about them and transferred some of them them over to this au.

Point is, each of them struggle with a lot of things, but there's always one main thing that's like the eye of the storm. The cause of everything else wrong with each of them.

For Mr. Plant it's his dislike of people. It's more of a distrust in the au. Distrust of others, distrust in himself to be able to be around others. So he just avoids. Stays where he can't be seen and bothered until he absolutely has to be somewhere.

And so when things go from bad to worse and Mr. Plant starts to develop unnatural abilities, they feed off of his need to stay in the dark. To stay out of sight.

Like being able to fuck with electricity and even your vision. He can also teleport a little bit. But like- you know the first twomp episode where the narrator is like, "Sometimes Mr. Plants like to be watched, likes to be seen and sometimes he doesn't" (paraphrasing) and he like jumps from the bed to be directly in front of the camera? More like that.

Thorn is similar in that his abilities are meant to conceal in a way. His problem is that he feels he can't measure up. He's got standards set for himself that are far too high, and they're all based on expectations set on him. But he's too proud to admit when he needs help, so he puts on an act all the time. Boastful and loud and always grinning. And always making promises he can't keep.

He's all smoke and mirrors, and so smoke becomes his weapon. The cloud of illusion and confusion. His cigarette smoke will leave your head spinning and unable to tell up from down or if what you're seeing is real or not.

Poor Argos has abandonment issues, everyone around him dying or running away from him. He is unlovable and everyone tells him so in some fashion or another. So he clings to people, obsesses, watches them, learns who they are and what they want and molds himself into their preferred person.

He's become so good at watching and learning and discerning that he can manifest all of one's deepest secrets and desires into a third eye on his subject's forehead, and all he has to do is look into it and everything is laid bare for him.

The downside is that this often leaves the subject in a ruined state of mind, hysteria, severe paranoia, stuff like that.

Mr. Flower's is a very special one, and one that doesn't get used often.

He doesn't like it.

I've always imagined Mr. Flower as the straight man of the group in any au. Always the voice of reason, always trying to make violence a last resort. So i felt this ability he has would be absolutely fun to give him.

I imagine that everyone here- Argos, Mr. Plant, Thorn and Mr. Flower, would eventually come to have issues with other people in some way, given the situation they're in. They've lived a lonely existence up until they found each other. Scared to hurt people, scared to be ostracized, wanting to belong but not wanting to cause problems. Maybe it's caused them to eventually give up on others. Maybe even push people away.

I imagine Mr. Flower being the worst offender for that type of behaviour. To the point where's he's driven someone close to him to commit suicide. And it's always hung over him, always haunted him, always weighed on his mind. For Mr. Flower, it was somehow the worst thing he's ever done to someone despite all the bad luck he's given people, because this felt like the one thing that didn't have to happen.

At least with the bad luck, all that had been completely out of his control. But the suicide... The suicide was directly his fault. All the ways he'd hurt that person, the things he'd done and the words he'd said to them. Until it was too much and then they were gone.

And so i've given Mr. Flower the ability to force people to kill themselves just by speaking it. But the kicker is, he has to know their biggest insecurity to do it. But once he has it, their life is in his hands.

And he hates it.

The way I've always interpreted Mr. Flower is being this tired and high strung kind of guy. He seems rough around the edges, but he's not mean. He's actually very kind and gentle but he can be a bit naggy. He's a worry wort. He and Argos have a lot of similarities in my au's, with the difference being that Argos struggles with overwhelming violent emotions when sufficiently pushed and Mr. Flower does not.

Among other things.

ANYWAY

I like the idea of each of their issues and abilities somehow resembling and/or complimenting one another to further drive home how intertwined they all are. Four separate fates bound together.

Or some silly thing like that.

Anyway, this last part is not set in stone. I'm just babbling. But it's a fun idea even if it gets scrapped later. But if you made it this far then... uh... would you like a pepsi?

[tired-reader-writer]

Somehow my thoughts drifted back to a former friend I blocked some while back.

The buildup that led to me ultimately blocking her was... frustrating, to say the least. It's still frustrating even now. Honestly, I don't know how or why my brain decided to remember her in this moment. Maybe the exam season stress is getting to me.

This girl, this person, hah, always loudly proclaimed to detest AI art and AI fanfic/writings, and yet still happily posted a lot about extensively using character AI.

Like, if she recognized the problems w AI art and voiceover and fic, why did it take so long for her to realize chat AI is bad too? I couldn't fathom the dissonance. I tried to break the news to her. Y'know, AI art scrapes from art, AI writing scrapes from real people's writing, and these generated responses that the character AI spits out... it's in written form, right? AI can't create from thin air like us creatives do. It's gotta be scraping from somewhere, it's theft too. It's no different from AI fanfics.

She acted like... It's hard to describe, her responses to my messages were... It's like she didn't want to stop using character AI so she padded out her replies with stuff about AI art and AI fic. Y'know, the things we both agreed were theft. The things that were not what I was trying to talk to her about.

She said she was scared that AI was running rampant now, that she was “on the fence” about character AI. Despite me having already laid out my reasoning it's no different from the other types of AI she claimed to hate.

She was not on the fence.

She kept using character AI after our conversation, she just refrained from bringing it up in our DMs.

I kept reblogging anti-AI posts hoping she would see and come to her senses (after all, talking directly did not fucking work) and she ignored my very unsubtle anti-AI reblogs on both my main and side blog, both of which she followed. She reblogged the stuff about AI art fic and voiceovers and completely and purposefully skipped over stuff about anti character AI.

I snapped.

I made a public rant about the scenario, grossly summarized and without naming names of course, because I was so fucking frustrated at this girl.

And then after that, after all that, she gets upset that I'm frustrated and ranted out loud (never revealed who I was frustrated at, I intentionally worded it so that it comes across as me being mad at a widespread phenomenon, which it also was, I was deeply frustrated with not only her but the rest of the AI apologists in the world).

Make it make sense, girl.

She said she was “trying to quit” character AI, she sounded really upset, and I thought, well I clearly snapped and crossed a line. She said she's trying to quit and she's my friend, she couldn't possibly lie to me, right?

Right?

Haha, WRONG.

I don't exactly remember the sequence of events after that. She kept using character AI, for sure, kept posting about it too (and that's the kicker isn't it, she could've kept using it in secret and not post it in public, then I would've blissfully assumed she had quit earnestly, but no, she couldn't help herself from posting and gushing about the generated responses the AI bot spat out for her). In the end I ended up blocking her. Probably because of that.

And then when she found out I blocked her she made a Sad™ post lamenting how sad it was when one is blocked by a mutual. And had the gall to say she “used to use character AI” and “used to be on the fence” when that... just wasn't the case, was it? I didn't block her because she used to use AI, it was because she kept persistently and stubbornly using it even after all my repeated warnings. It wasn't that she used to be on the fence about character AI, it's that she routinely refused to heed my very unsubtle (both direct and indirect) warnings over and over that made me fucking snap.

Like, don't make it sound like I blocked you for unreasonable reasons 😭 What else was I supposed to do? I certainly didn't want to keep interacting with someone who betrayed my beliefs.

And then? And then she figured since I wasn't watching her anymore she can do whatever she wants and then went all in on the whole character AI thing. Back to horny-posting about the generic thirst trap daddy archetype responses the blorbo character AI's were generating.

It's my fault, really, for going back to check on her again after a couple days, I should've stuck by my decision to block her forever but nooooo I got soft and wanted to see if I should unblock her after all, if I was too harsh on somebody who was trying but... Welp.

So, yeah. Dunno what brought on this trip down the (horrible) memory lane.

Anyways, if you are an AI apologist or leave your AI apologist friends to keep doing what they do with zero attempts to stop them you may feel free to block me forever and never interact with me or my posts again ✌️

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Opinions on Dream? :^

SO many feelings about him omgg rant under cut please forgive me

okay so i don't really talk or draw him much cause honestly,,,most of the times i just think he's a bit....boring? or more accurately plain? not in a mean way either but just in a 'fades into the background' type of way like don't get me wrong!! he's a really nice friend to his peers, his feelings about his powers and aura making his relationships harder to navigate and trust along with his whole conflict with nightmare and morality about what's good and bad IS very cool!! and i love it whenever they write him to be complex and not on this black and white mentality or when he's just straight up following along his friends with no free will or with a dubious purpose without ever addressing his issues or feelings! it's just unsatisfying to me :')

or when they're making him the 'naive' and oblivious, (sometimes childish?) character being marked as the obstacle and villain along with the other star sanses from the fic's pov, always talking about doing good things while fighting his brother and not hearing him out about the balance, (and for weak reasons most of the time. like it's been so long and you STILL haven't sat down with him when he's, generally, basically begged you to just have a talk? guys please :'( ) or when they go for the victim sad dream always missing the old nightmare, where corrupted nightmare is the incarnation of evil, with no sympathy or emotion except anger and sadistic glee, killing and hurting everyone and dream's just trying to protect the multiverse and dream's always been in the right. such extremes!!!

LIKE!! i hope i'm not the only one that thinks a 500+ year old should have had enough time to idk. learn things? about people and manipulation and deceit? after knowing what the villagers did to night? about the bad things in the world and how there's a lot of grey areas in life and that he maybe reflected on his past enough to process and ask himself if there should to be a convo to settle his differences with nightmare (and you can make nightmare the stubborn one too! or have them BOTH be petty and imperfect and have some things wrong and some right at the same time like why do i always see the good guy vs bad guy cliché with these two when they're the perfect example of why positivity doesn't have meaning without the negativity!! as long as there's a satisfying evolution or growth that doesn't leave me empty i'm good yknow?)

plus i believe dream really isn't as dumb as people view him. i do get some of you saying he probably can't read or write since that's actually a pretty interesting idea to explore! but in general please let him have emotions other than pure sunshiny happiness or endless sadness like he's gotta have more depth than that! let him make mistakes, have flaws that don't just make him the bad guy that's always in the wrong by default, and be angry or suspicious or jealous or bitter or battling his mental health problems/depression or malicious or smart or witty or mischievous and silly or sarcastic or ANYTHING dude i just want him to be put into different scenarios where he can be serious or lighthearted like it doesn't even have to be long or perfect but make him feel real.

it could definitely be that i don't read or see much art about dream or really look for it hard enough but also i just. i feel bad for even saying this fr and i wanna be honest about why i don't enjoy most stories about him cause he always gets the worst treatment along with ink!!! especially ink omg the poor guy has it the worst i think like wow do they mess him up :'(

always one dimensional in non shippy fics, or too plain or easily replaceable by other, more entertaining people in the significant other's life in most of his ships like man. i have read fics out there that made me genuinely FEEL and root for him and love his character so much it restored all hope for me!!! but i can only name one on top of my head and the others? it's been so long i don't even remember their names i just legit feel terrible cause i love him still and i can't find many headcanons that fit my interpretation of him yknow?

not to say people who write him very happy, mislead or sad are ruining him like that's silly- if i see something i don't like i just. move on bro i wouldn't force people to feel or think the same way i do about him cause anyone can have whatever headcanons they want!!! just talking about what i personally look for in him and why i can't exactly find it since most of the stuff out there just isn't my cup of tea :')

hopefully i didn't set anyone off with this rambling opinionated essay i just pulled hhh xD i know i know he's a popular character and i know a lot of people like dream so *sobs* please please recommend me artists and fics about him that you think is good it's been so looong since i've read or seen anything new that makes me attached to this little guy aughg<33333

[spectrearia]

sometimes i feel like sharing more project diva recordings for songs that I find super challenging/fun but idk if anyone really even cares about that game as much as I do lol

[morethantimemoves]

i like my style of logging on here jus to dump my feelings and then curtly closing the app once im done; on that note, see y'all next month

[dramarants]

going through the 20th century girl tag to move on and appreciate all the great moments only to find out ppl would rather yijin died than not end up with heedo

[imaginarianisms]

more asoiaf comparisons, parallels & antiparallels to the first dance of the dragons vs the second & final dance of the dragons (& possibly the sixth blackfyre rebellion): the blacks being daenerys i targaryen's supporters, the golds being aegon vi targaryen's supporters, tommen baratheon being a close equivalent to gaemon palehair & his mother essie & sylvenna sand which may be interpreted as a parallel with queen cersei lannister & taena merryweather of myr, trystane truefyre being a close equivalent to aegon/young griff & perkin being jon connington & the shepherd being the new high septon the high sparrow, dalton greyjoy being euron i greyjoy's ancestor & the latter surpassing him, alyn waters later alyn velaryon resembling aurane waters later aurane velaryon & finishing what their ancestors started. history repeats itself.

[supercantaloupe]

ANTI CHORAL SYMPHONY??? BLOCKED???

joking but omg I can't believe mahler 2 doesn't do anything for you it reshaped my bones

maybe if i heard it live or studied it i would change my tune but so far at least mahler 2 does very little for me. i tend not to be a huge fan of late romantic works in general, and the overwhelming length/size/expansiveness of these gargantuan symphonies from the likes of mahler tend to strike me as tedious more than majestic. and as for choral symphonies, i think in pretty much every one of them i've heard post-beethoven 9 i've not been terribly impressed by the addition of vocalists. (honestly, one of the things that frustrates me so much ABOUT beethoven 9 is that it really is the one that makes it work, and beethoven's legacy/impact was such that he made so many other composers think they can do the same things he did just as well if not better, which i think succeeds in very rare cases only...but i digress.) in its smallest form (ie a soloist or two added to a movement or two) it just feels like an unnecessary addition to me, and in its largest form (full choir in every movement that is the true focus of the work, a la vaughan williams' sea symphony) i kind of think these works cease to be symphonies at some point. like, apologies to vaughan williams, but that's just a cantata. you can just call it a cantata. it's okay. i know it follows traditional symphonic structure to some extent but it's vague enough and totally dominated by the singing to be a different genre to me. and returning to mahler for a second, a symphony like mahler 2 feels very much like the precursor to something like das lied von der erde, which is more of a song cycle with orchestra (or a "song-symphony" but you can probably guess by now my feelings on that name). mahler 2 of course isn't quite that voice-heavy but it bears strong resemblance to what would come later in his output, i think; i'm still comfortable enough calling it a symphony, but i'm not entirely convinced that the choir ultimately adds to the genre in mahler 2 or in any other late romantic-modern choral symphony. personally, i'm not convinced that we should even cling so fast to the genre label of symphony for all of these works; many of them i think can (and probably should) be classified with a different genre label, whether it's something extant like "cantata" or "song cycle" or something newly coined and retrofitted (it's not like musicians have never fiddled with the naming of past works without the blessing of the composer before). idk, maybe i'm biased as to accept a much narrower definition of "symphony" than most, but the distinction matters to me.

[machathecat]

My ass trying to figure out if im transmasc at 1 am be like

[shiawasekai]

it is DONE. OVER. I'M FREE.