I always see you reblog posts with the hashtag someday or fatherhood. How do you stay positive in those days when you feel kinda sad it hasn't come yet? (if you ever feel that way)
hmm, interesting question —
I could be a goof about it and just say that straight up delusion keeps me positive about such life or dream of mine hahaha, but I'll try to be more honest.
Keep in mind that it's different for everyone, okay? 😊😊
Firstly, for the "someday" because it's more broad with stuff like life goals, life, family, love, adventure, etc- ...I understand my reality or where I'm at in life. I accept that I've rejected advancement in relationships, career opportunities, and travel opportunities in general. At the same time, I've also made peace that I've missed out on opportunities when it pertains to the same things. But mostly important, I acknowledge that some setbacks or missed opportunities were due to my immaturity, mental health, inexperience, and hubris. I just didn't know better.
And that's okay.
So that's step one: understanding the reality of my situation and where I am in life.
And, well at least for me, it does get lonely, quiet (or loud depending on how you see it), hopeless, meaningless, and disheartening feeling as though you won't be able to experience joy in life or love in general.
However, I'm just optimistically in love with life ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. I will always choose to or try my best to remain in love with life because each day is a new day and you never know what it might bring. I'm intentionally choosing to make the most of what I have currently in my life and appreciate it. I'm choosing to be grateful for the friends I've made and currently have. Cherish them as much as I can. Moreover, where I'm at in life is not where I'll be forever. Meaning, maybe I have a job I don't enjoy.. I can always find another one or endure it for the sake of survival, and saving up money until I find a better job.
I'm trying not to ramble and make sense at the same time —
Do I want love? YES. I want to be that person someone wants to call to talk to and wish good night. I want to be that someone's daydream. I want to be someone's good thing. And everything else I've reblogged about love. And I will. I'm hopeful I'll find them or they'll find me 😊😊 and when that happens, forever will start.
Until then, I gotta keep growing as a person, friend, family member, and man. I gotta keep trying to be the best version of myself every day 😊😊
That being said, try not to drown in the longings to where it becomes an ocean of sadness. It's okay to want that and grieve for it as well BUT get the fuck up, look up, and breathe. You'll get all of that in due time 😊😊
Tumblr is a good place to read this post I'm about to paraphrase - you ever came across that text post about romanticizing your life? DO THAT. Be in love with the life you currently have, love your friends, family and yourself. Make the most of what you have and what you can experience, all while being excited and curious about your tomorrows 😊😊
It's not easy, and it will never get easier to deal with those sad, lonely and empty days, but it'll be worth it. time will pass anyways so you might as well be good in it 😊
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As for "fatherhood"?
I think the fact that I'm an uncle to 10+ niblings makes it easier for me to deal with that "missing part" of my life hahaha—
There's not really much to explore other than the fact that I hope someday I get the opportunity to be a dad or be seen as a father figure? Whether it's biologically or as a step dad. That's all. I don't know if it will ever happen, that's out of my control like most things, BUT I really really really hope it does. I feel like I could make the best dad/step dad out there 😊😊😊
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okay.. this is how I approach life, anon. It's messy, and chaotic and extremely delusional, but I try to take a minute or two to appreciate what I do have and even if I have nothing, I'm choosing to remain optimistically in love with life. 😊😊
thank you so much for the ask, anon. I hope I made sense(?) and this helps you in any small way in figuring out how to deal with those difficult days. Good luck, rooting for you. 😊✌🏽
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This is like a mini-headcanon post because I am going through it™️ (what else is new) but...
Like, do you think Azul is just cursed with eel magnetism? I believe in Canon it's said that both Octopi and Eel merfolk are uncommon but I think it's kind of funny that Jade and Floyd both looked at Azul and were like "Yup, I'm going to bother THAT ONE into being my friend because he's fascinating", but I think it would be even funnier if it just extends to all Eels.
For example, Jade and Floyd's family love Azul. They treat him like he's always belonged there and also go out of their way to treat him like a member of the family, including sending him trinkets in the gifts they send for Jade and Floyd.
Actual Moray Eels just follow him around when they see him. Wild morays just sort of take shelter in his tentacles if he sits still too long or try and worm their way under his arms and like big cats trying to get pets (because morays seem to enjoy them). If he were ever to go to an aquarium, he'd have to deal with the Eels in the enclosures swimming up to the glass and following him along beside him until they can't anymore.
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Hey everyone, I finally have some good news to share✨! My partner and I both have jobs lined up and are finally going to be moving 🚗🌇⭐️!
Thank you so much to everyone who has supported us, monetarily or otherwise—we appreciate you so much. It has been an incredibly rough couple of months, and we couldn’t have made it through without your generosity 🫶
My remaining commission slots will be going toward moving costs. If you’re still waiting on a piece from me, thank you for your continued patience 💖 All of last month’s slots have been started and will be finished soon!
And hopefully I’ll have some art to post soon 🫰
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