#life is so shit rn but tattoos make it better

[redhairedwolfwitch]

The waiting list for tattoos is so much shorter than any waiting list for therapy...

[fagnumopus]

🍂

[azulas-lightning-bolt]

fem mako… save me fem mako…

okay so I saw @jade-of-mourning’s post about how makorra would make bomb yuri and I am 100% in agreement so,, how I imagine tlok would go if mako was a girl.

I feel like this would totally affect mako’s backstory n stuff too because life on the street is rough for any kids but like. little girls with no one to run to surrounded by creepy criminal guys. not great! so not only would that add an extra layer of trauma, but I feel like it would also add dimension to mako+zolt’s dynamic when mako and bolin worked w the triads. like, instead of firebending gang leader who wants to shape a mini-me he found into his successor, it’s. hold on let me make another sentence. it’s a girl who’s learned to protect herself and a man she needs to defend herself from offering to teach her better. so there’s less of the straightforwardness of their canon interactions—mako knows she’s being exploited but is willing to play into it to take advantage of learning zolt’s skills and zolt knows she’s clever but wants her close. idk how fucked up zolt would be, but he could probably have some motivations related to trafficking as a backup should mako turn on him that would’ve been less viable with canon mako. idk. thoughts are thinking too quickly for me to type rn.

I’m not gonna go through everything in tlok for the sake of not yapping for 12 hrs like i did in my 100yr war mako post but through the four books in the context of makorra i imagine it would go:

b1: weirdgirl firebender who’s a control freak becomes the avatar’s best friend. she’s totally not in love btw. and there’s literally no jealousy at all when asami befriends korra either cause they’re just chill. just friends, how friends are, yk. amon is a freak but part of her is relieved he took zolt’s bending. thought the thought of her getting her bending taken away feels like a part of her autonomy being taken and that’s terrifying so she’s relieved when he fucking dies.

b2: from what I recall team avatar is more split up during b2 and do you know what that means. so much pining. it smells like a forest with the amount of longing bro. then mako gets arrested and prison as we all know is such a friendly environment for women so. more trauma. then harmonic convergence happens at that is absolutely when makorra realize they’re in loooove. then vaatu happens and it’s like ohhh shit I’m in deeeep.

b3: new airbenders yay! mako is distracted from korra a little bit when she and bolin meet their long lost extended family, until dear old grammy says that korra would make a fine husband for her granddaughter if she were a man. and cue gay panic cause DOES SHE KNOW???? HOW??? I’m being intentionally vague cause I last watched this show like five years ago and I don’t remember the timeline at all but bear with me. airbenders in ba sing se are freed, krew makes their way over to zaofu to meet opal. this is cool it’s fine. lin is literally mako’s mom and she’s still worried the whole time they’re on zaofu. korra is kidnapped. prison for mako and bolin (again). m+b search the desert for korrasami, it’s all mostly the same except more. yk. gay pining. korra is poisoned but the girls have a girl moment on air temple island after Jinora gets her tattoos :3

b4: korra travels for a while, before returning to rc. then she’s gone again to the swamp. kuvira attacks zaofu, korra defends, and then she’s back. mako and asami are. yeah. blah blah blah that one episode of makorra reminiscing gets really gay, kuvira tries to take over rc, mako lightning-zaps the mech and almost dies and then BOOM. they kiss after the battle. and the lesbians win once again as makorra walk into the spirit world hand in hand.

if you’re wondering why this was written so disjointedly it’s because I kept getting distracted mid-sentence. and I also hate how the romance was dealt with in canon, but it’s such a big part of b1 (my favorite book minus romance) and the repercussions lasted throughout all four seasons so obviously that I physically cannot bring myself to rewatch it. and girls are so. thank u lychee ur really super awesome and cool for drawing makorra as girls because I think they would’ve worked out in canon if mako was a girl. sorry I’m really sick rn and I’m a little out of it lmao 😭🙏🏼

[m-jelly]

Jelly, thank you for doing my request! Reading it made me feel better (I have a really bad infection rn but that's beside the point). Do you think you could do a part two? Where Post war Levi and Freyja!Reader are now looking out at the ocean, talking about all they went through. Reader tells Levi of Asgard and Levi tells reader of The Underground City. When Levi goes into all the stuff he had to go through in order to survive. Reader, not wanting to lose the love of her life after a world of hate with Odin, wants to make him a god, the god of Survival, Heroes, and Freedom. Feel free to ignore! :D

Searching part 2

Levi x fem!reader

Canon world, reincarnation, Norse mythology, goddess powers, action, being in love, married, fluff, angst, reader has tattoos, reader has long hair with braids and beads.

In this chapter: Levi and you have a moment on the beach where you connect. You reflect on the bad memories and the good ones you made together now as a married couple. You want eternity with Levi and offer him a God position with you at his side. Reluctant at first because he doesn't think he'd be good enough, he accepts so he can be with you forever.

Part 1

@ladycheesington @levisbrat25 @nyxiieluna @li-anne @galactict3a @youre-ackermine @thebobaprincess @2moth-anon2 @cypidity @nbinairyn @bts-spnlvr12 @darkstarlight82 @notgoodforlife @demonic-bird

Levi's thumb ran over your hand as his fingers remained entwined with yours. The two of you decided to have a picnic on the beach for a date. While you were enjoying the sun and peace, the two of you just started talking naturally about your lives.

A long sigh came from Levi and paused as his story hung in the air. "I'm glad I got out, but the cost..."

"You were played by man. No matter where you go, there will always be greed." You lifted his left hand and kissed below his wedding ring. "I am sorry for your loss. You have grown and fought so much."

He smiled a little. "I fought to survive, but after you it was fighting to spend forever with you."

You leaned over and kissed him. "I am forever grateful. I love you more than words can say. My love for you is stronger than the walls protecting Asgard."

Levi blushed. "I can only imagine how impressive they are." He gazed at you. "You know about my life, what about yours? You said this is your second life."

You gulped hard and looked out at the sea. "Yes. I died in my first life all because of Odin."

"He was the King of the Gods, right?"

You nodded. "He was. We all trusted him, but he was...he was a terrible father to so many. I worked hard and made sure to keep a distance, but the things he did to his children. Poor Thor was always trying to make him proud, but he never achieved it. Odin's madness and desperate hunt for more power led us all down a path to destruction. Loki had enough and started the end, Ragnarok."

Levi stared at you. "What happened to you?"

You welled up. "I thought he loved me. I became his lover. I am ashamed of that."

"How did you die? Was it in a great battle?"

You shook your head. "Most people don't know what happened to me. My part is lost in texts and teachings to the people. Some thought I died in battle, others I killed myself and lastly people thought I was spared."

Levi called your name when he saw pain in your eyes. "Odin killed you, didn't he?"

You sobbed a little before stopping yourself. "He went insane. He was searching for the meaning of life and trying to beat Ragnarok. I was against it all. There is nothing wrong with not knowing the end. Sometimes life and things don't have meaning, they just happen. He knew he was losing me, so he killed me and buried what happened to me before the world ended."

"Tch, that piece of shit. I wish he was alive so I could kill him."

You giggled. "Thank you."

Levi gazed at you. "Is he alive?"

You shrugged. "Everyone probably is living their second life. I'm glad I'm not with them. I want to be here with you." You gulped hard and opened your little bag. "Speaking of you. When I arrived in this world, I had a bag with me, remember?"

He nodded. "Yeah."

You pulled out a bottle. "This has a special drink that can make someone a god." You looked over at Levi. "I want eternity with you."

Levi moved closer. "Me too."

"I think that you would be the god of Survival, Heroes, and Freedom. You would be incredible."

Levi whined a bit. "I don't know about that. I want eternity with you, but I don't think I would be a good god."

"Levi, you know what loss is. You know what it means to keep fighting even against all odds. People looked up to you and they still do now. You are incredible."

He smiled a bit at you. "You see me in such a beautiful light, but..."

"A God who doubts themselves and sees fault is good. Odin thought he was the best and fell. Other gods I knew with egos were the same. To know you can't do everything is true. As a god, you can't bless everyone and save everyone, but that's not always what they want. Sometimes they just want a person to listen."

Levi reached over and grabbed the bottle. "You'll be with me, right?"

"Every single step and I will shower you with all my love."

He kissed you and moaned in delight. "I'm with you." He brought the bottle close to his lips. "Plus, I am interested in the fertility part of your goddess role."

You gasped and felt your cheeks burn. "Y-You, flirt."

He downed the drink that tasted like custard. He flopped back onto the blanket as his body glowed and began to tingle. All the injuries and aches in his body went and only faded scars remained. He was born again but into a new life of love and happiness with you. It felt like he was breathing for the first time in a while.

He sat up and gazed at you. "I feel...alive."

You leaned closer and kissed him. "You've changed. Your wounds are gone, only scars remain."

Levi pounced on you making you squeal in delight. "I feel energised. I want to shower you with love."

You mewled in delight. "I'm all yours."

[wen-kexing-apologist]

How are you so cool and write so much cool meta?? Sometimes I find myself not agreeing to it, but that makes it more cooler ig. (Like what are you doing with life if your meta posts don't have a lil potential for controversy and make people second guess.)

I don't really have anything to ask rn but your latest Step by Step meta post about homelessness and hidden relationships and bridges was really, really good, so just Take my love! <3333

(and keep on writing, please!)

Omg thank you this is so sweet!

How am I so cool and write so much cool meta??

It’s a combination of being gay, mental illness, and a theatre degree I think!

But actually I write cool meta because other people write cool meta and other people share their thoughts and opinions and talk to the internet about them, and talk to me about them, and sometimes I agree and sometimes I don’t and sometimes something they say makes me think about a scene differently or a show differently or a character differently and without that I wouldn’t be here, writing meta until way too late in the evenings.

My cool meta would not exist without people like @absolutebl, @bengiyo, @colourme-feral, @dribs-and-drabbles, @emotionallychargedtowel, @ginnymoonbeam, @kyr-kun-chan, @liyazaki, @lurkingshan, @neuroticbookworm, @respectthepetty, @ranchthoughts, @shortpplfedup, @so-much-yet-to-learn, @solitaryandwandering, @waitmyturtles

and so many many many many many more people who have made posts or come into my comments, or my DMs, or my inbox to talk to me about the things they’re seeing, about the things they are thinking, about the questions they have.

it starts small, it builds over time. I started by seeing @respectthepetty’s index of BL tattoos and BL t-shirts and sending her examples I’d seen that she didn’t have, and then I followed her, and then she started posting about colors, and then I started to thinking about colors instead of just watching the show in front if me, and then *I* started to post about colors, and then about scenes, and then about body language, until my brain was trained, primed, and ready to instantly make a connection between queer people finding safety among other historically disenfranchised communities.

not all of my meta has been cool, some of my meta has caused people to stall on shows they were enjoying because I got over excited, because I was still honing my analysis brain, I’ve been wrong before about colors, about theories, about everything and I keep posting anyway (I just don’t include those failures on my master post lmfao)

All of this to say, cool meta is subjective and cool meta can take time to get right. My meta does not exist without other people behind the camera, in front of the camera, and on the internet putting their own time and effort in to creating something, analyzing something, sharing something that I can connect with, reflect on, and respond to.

all of this to say I write cool meta because other people write cool meta and I am all the better for it. So this is my call to action for more people to start feeling empowered to POST! THAT! SHIT!

post it if you feel it strongly, post it if you agree, post it if you disagree, post about colors and numbers and shapes and the significance of blow jobs and tattoos and tropes. Post the best kisses and why, post the categorizations, post what you are comfortable with

but be respectful!

don’t jump down people’s throat on main, engage in discussions not debates don’t post just cause you feel like you have something to prove. I have disagreed with many people I tagged here, honestly I’ve probably disagreed with all of them at one point. Disagreed about actors, about editing, about story structure, about significance. But I listen, I understand that everyone has lenses through which they view the world, the way they view media and I take those as learning opportunities. I’ve disagreed with everyone here at some point, and even in the midst of those discussions I take their points. I can understand why they don’t have the same hangs ups, or have different hang ups, or like something others don’t, or don’t like something others do.

I consider a great number of the people I tagged to be my internet friends and we’ve remained that way for the last…4? months that I’ve been posting meta because we can shut up and listen just as good as we can ramble and write.

tl;dr i write cool meta because others write cool meta and you too should write cool meta

[lilyflxwers]

HI IRIS<333 i am so so sorry abt the fact that we havent spoken in Forever!! i have a tendency to forget abt ppl very very quickly but i missed u so much. oml i hope ur okay and i hope ur at peace rn and i'm sending u a bunch of cakes and lots of alcohol bc tbh sometimes life just gets better after vodka.

to explain my absence: i'm currently going around various countries in asia as a vacation (courtesy of my parents but alas, a holiday is a holiday), which means i have been MIA from my usual life lmao. but, i'm not complaining lmao i grew up here and it's lovely to get to visit after 10 years of separation!! it also means i missed my uni graduation but i think this makes up for it (but i fucking graduated iris holy shit!!)

anyway, that was a Paragraph abt me and it's slightly silly to look at it. i'm sorry if u read all that.

how are u??? how is ur life and how is ur health and i hope work and other shit in ur life isn't fucking u up too much!! i hope u know that ur such a lovely person and a sunshine and ily<33

NYX baby hiii <3 i’ve missed you sm!! im also sorry i haven’t messaged, ive been having. *a time* at the minute. i’ve had some (or alot) of wine and im feeling better lmao.

that sounds so wonderful!!!!! and honestly uni graduations (in my opinion) aren’t worth it anyways haha - im sooooo proud of you for graduating oh mygod!!!! im sending you the tightest longest hug right now. its also absolutely not silly. i love reading things about you

im tired. christmas is hard but alas. it’ll be over soon hahaha. work is… could be worse i suppose. and life is meh but my friend got me a highland cow teddy and im very very pleased with it annnnnd i got a couple new tattoos so life isn’t all shit!

[notsogreatpotoo]

you've given me permission to ramble, hope you wont regret it lol. Anyway, I am a 16 year old tattoo apprentice and I've wanted to get the tattoos of buzzfeed unsolved quotes tattooed as well as puppet history for quiet some time. So my classmate/ bestie who works in the same tattoo parlor as me agreed to do the tattoos since we always watch puppet history during our jobs and even customers even love it. We entered the tattoos compisitions in a lettering competition between parlors in our county since their just quotes and not images. My mentor has to agree to let me do the tattoos before I can actually get them but ive begged him for weeks and aced the semester exam just to sugar coat it lol. The first tattoo is from I think the season 4 finale of puppet history, The episode where the evil hologram perfessor tried to skin Ryan...yeah, me and genna play it in the parlor when we have to clean and freak out our mentor bc we know every word and it makes him think we're phsycopaths. its the song "Im gonna make one hell of a me out of the peices of you", Its such a raw line and its true poetry lol. Anyway the second on is (Singing "Mamma Mia" Unintelligibly), This one also has meaning bc I fucking love Mama Mia and also constantly singing it and when I found the caption on Pinterest, it led me to buzzfeed which led me to watcher and where I am today. They are truly a big part of my life. But honetsly I'm excited to have it on my body so when someone asks what it means, I can spew my shit like I'm doing rn lol. P.S sorry for the long text! You said I could ramble, and I don't really have many friends beside genna who even know what I'm talking about or even care lmao

Oh my gosh that sounds amazing!! I’m so excited for you :]

I’ve been thinking about tattoos for a bit and while they aren’t a priority for me, I’m always in favor of changing your body to suit you better. Also, you’re a tattoo apprentice, how metal is that???

Your tattoo choices sound like they’ll be so cool, wishing y’all luck for that lettering competition! No need to apologize for a long ask :]

I love the substitute professor so muchhh, and that song is AMAZING. As a fellow fan, I’m also so happy that you get to kind of immortalize what led you to Watcher, because I totally get how important fandom can be in one’s life and it’s awesome to remember how far you’ve come.

Thank you for sharing, new friend!!! :]

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

ohmgdgid more them.thoights (firet thing un writing sorry if it doesnt make s ende)

"i know the world's a broken bone / but melt your headaches, call it home" you and i have known the world at its dirtiest, at its worst. we have both taken the brunt of it in different ways, you have been hurt and beaten and lied to and broken, i have been burned and controlled and torn apart and sewn. i know your pain because i have felt it. i know your anger because it is my anger. i know every way you have been destroyed and i know why you don't trust it here. but this doesn't have to be just a source of more pain, this could be better than it was, better here, better now, this could be the relief you've needed for so long. call it home.

oh i see. so you just wake up and write poetry is that it? you crawl out of bed in the morning immediately able to write the MOST BEAUTIFUL FUCKING INSANE HEARTWRENCHING SHIT I HAVE EVER READ IN MY ENTIRE LIFE KAZ WHAGT THE FUCK I WAS NOT PREPARED

literally what can i even add to that. you said it all so perfectly- its that thing partys been saying since the begin of ttid!!! they are the same theyre both killjoys theyve both been hurt in such similar ways so they should be able to protect each other, to make the world better for each other- the least they can do is treat each other with some love. call it home IM GONNA FUCKING THROW UP I LITERALLY CANT EVEN SAY ANYTHING ELSE I NEED EVERYTHING YOU JUST WROTE TATTOOED ON THE INSIDE OF MY SKULL NOW. WAY TO TAKE LITERALLY MY FAVORITE LYRIC FROM ANY SONG EVER AND MAKE ME EVEN MORE FUCKING FERAL ABOUT IT I AM GOING TO BE UP ALL NIGHT THINKING ABT THIS YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THE EMOTIONS IM FEELING RN I NEED TO CHEW ON GLASS

[inkyquince]

Don't hold back, talk about your priest oc, please-

PERVERT

sorry, slipped out

content warning. arson, elder abuse, substance abuse, sex addiction, implied pedophilia (not by oc), religious thoughts, cheating & cucking, thoughts about Stockholm syndrome and kidnapping

Okay okay, so rn, he's in the works, so he sucks. Wait till I got him done.

But he was a right rascal when he was younger, delinquent little shit who was an utter whore. His mom ran off a while ago and his dad was a military man, so yeah, bit weird home life. He pretty quickly became a sex addict, along with a love for booze and weed.

So, he pulls a stunt that goes a bit too far, and has bad burns on his hands and back. Not only is he laid up in hospital but he's finally run out of chances. Though, cuz his dad is a respect military man, he's given a chance. Military boot camp or juvie.

Just kidding, no choice.

He's miserable and that's when his uncle reaches out, a preacher in the local temple. Makes a deal with him that he can live with him while his dad goes back abroad and he must participate in the church. Its better than being packed off, so he says yep.

It's how he got involved in the church really. Pretty good growing up with his uncle who was a very... Touchy man. Adored his nephew quite a bit. When you got a sex addict under your roof you do what you can do keep em in check. ANYWAY.

When his uncle gets older, people encourage him to become a man of the cloth, to pass it on to the next generation so to speak. He's not that into it but his uncle already starts paying for his college, to go to a catholic university and do it, and he can't exactly rebel. So, as per, he goes along with it.

Now, he does strangely well, he's not stupid, but he's not passionate. But he starts his journey through the church and his uncle steps down as priest for him.

Around this time, he gets a taste that he can't get rid of. Likes prudish university girls who dressed conservative, who squeal so cutely on his fingers. Uni boys who preach against sodomy and whine as he tucks his balls in their mouth later that night. Hates them for being being hypocrites and loves them for being so repressed and being the one to finger their holes till they cry and beg for more.

Anyway, he goes back home and reunites with his uncle except, one night, he finds his uncle's stash. He always loved his nephew, but by the looks of it, he loved plenty of other people's little nieces and nephews. Now, he doesn't like to share what he thinks are his. Its why he left a smoldering ruin back when he was younger, he had set another student's locker on fire for even talking to his crush.

Anyway, this time he's more pissed at his uncle. Quietly destroys the stash and begins mind games. Think misery, but with a super old guy and his nephew, his white collar still new and yet to bend properly. Anyway, it goes on till his uncle passes away, tied to his sick bed and soaked in his own piss. To the parish's disappointment, he moves away.

Now, Priest-y has figured out that he really loves companionship, whether it be his skittish peers, sneaking into his room to ask he put his fingers in them again, or someone begging for him to untie them from the bed, let them go outside.

So he joins a temple in a smaller town. Has a nice house. Has a nice basement under the house.

Blesses the children with his hand on their head, smiles at old grannies as he tips the communion wine down their throat. Always a handsome figure, with his pale brown-blond hair and golden eyes, in his collar and cassock flowing as he walks. Confiscated magazines from altar boys and weed from troubled youth, forced to go to his sunday school.

He does a lot for the community, just so he can head home, tug open his cassock enough for his cock to spring out and slowly jerk to the magazines, let the blunt rest on his bottom lip. He keeps his leather gloves on to hide his burns, but likes showing glimpses of the dark tattoos spiraling on his skin, especially to the church moms, who haven't seen action since their last child's conception. Don't worry, still a good man of god, wouldn't have the virgin mary tattooed on the bottom left of his back if he wasn't. Admits that he doesn't mind the collar, it hides his neck tattoos. Refuses to tattoo or do anything to hide his burns.

And between letting a married man tug at his zipper during confession, relaxing with a brandy and coke (south african, so its called a Clippies and Coke), and enjoying the odd cigarettes, he still feels like he's missing something. Wouldn't mind something cute so wander into his life and beg for freedom. Right until they're cockdrunk enough to be brainwashed into a sweet Catholic spouse, just for him.

[softguarnere]

Hi there! I am in Florida, and at this very moment, trying to dissociate from hurricane Ian that is beginning to hit my town. 😬 So I figured I'd distract myself by asking for ships. If you see this elsewhere too, I just...don't like talking about myself very much so I'm only writing this once.

She/her, INFP, Hufflepuff. 5'2, generally pale, curvy, but not overweight (yet, lol), blonde hair (but it's currently The Little Mermaid bright red, lol), blue-green eyes. I love my hair and my eyes and this is the only thing you'll ever hear me say I like about my appearance.

My favorite thing about myself is my sense of humor. And to a lesser extent, my sarcasm. I never really feel I have much to offer people, especially in difficult times, but I can make my friends laugh when they are crying. And a few weeks ago one of my good friends said to me that every time she goes home after spending time with me, her husbsnd says she is always in such a happy mood. And that was just like...the nicest thing anyone could say to me. 💜 I am an introvert until I am comfortable with someone and then I can be loud and frequently silly. Years of customer service in my past made me decent at bullshitting small talk, but ugh, it drains my batteries. I will get along with anyone who isn't an asshole, but I do not get close to most people easily. I don't like conflict, so I can get passive aggressive with people I'm close to if I have any issues over something. Trying very hard to change that, as I know it's not a great look.

Other random shit about me: I have anxiety, but (I think) I've learned to hide it well in public most of the time? My brain is just a fucking mess, but I will joke about it all day! 🙃 I love all animals. I'd cuddle an alligator if it wouldn't eat me. I've got cats, dogs, rats and a bunny. I've wanted a horse my whole life. My favorite author is Neil Gaiman. I love going to the beach and swimming in the ocean. I love museums and history and learning about lore/fairytales/monsters/cryptids. I love Marvel movies/comics, Star Wars and Lord of the Rings. I occasionally do conventions and cosplay, though I'm not very good at the cosplay bc I cannot sew. Lol. I've been Rose and Amy from Doctor Who and Kate Bishop (Hawkeye). It's really fun! I wish I were better at it. Love bowling and mini golf. Sadly, none of my friends do.

I love music and going to shows used to be my thing! Like I've seen over 100 bands and concerts. I don't have the time/money/energy to do it anymore, but those were absolutely the best years of my life. I've traveled to other states and across the country for a couple of bands (The Matches and Motion City Soundtrack) and made some of the best friends just waiting in lines. I have one tattoo and it's a crow with a blue button eye that the singer of my favorite band drew for me.

I'm gonna shut up now. Lol. Sorry I got carried away. I'm REALLY trying to distract myself from thinking about this hurricane rn. Thanks in advance if you made it through the rambling and decide to do anything with it. 😁💜

Hi love! I hope that you're doing well -- my thoughts are with you and everyone else in Florida 💕

I ship you with . . .

Lewis Nixon!

There are so many reasons I see this ship working, so I'm gonna try to explain them all coherently lol

Okay, first of all, when I say Nixon loves you, I mean all of you -- your personality, your looks, everything. He would constantly be complimenting your appearance and making sure that you know how gorgeous you are, because he wants you to see yourself the way that he sees you

Sarcastic duo (but not in a mean, argumentative way! The fun, only teasing each other way) He loves your sense of humor, and if he's ever a little too in his head, he comes to you because he knows that you'll be able to ground him by just joking around with him and making him smile

When you first meet, he thinks that you're very shy and is trying to figure out ways to bring you out of your shell so that he can get to know you better. The second that you get comfortable around him -- bam! He's the immediate embodiment of the heart eyes emoji, because omg she's so much fun and I'm gonna talk to her for hours

Nix is pretty comfortable in public places -- he grew up attending parties and galas because of his parents, so he knows how to politely work a room if he has to make an appearance. He knows that you get anxious, though, and he'll hold your hand the entire night, gently rubbing his thumb along your knuckles to soothe you as you make the rounds while socializing

After the war, Nixon is really intent on just enjoying himself -- in the various different ways that entails. And now that you're together, he's gonna make sure that you enjoy yourself, too

He takes you everywhere (and don't worry, because he can afford it -- no worries about sparing any expense) You want to go to a museum? Not really his scene, but he loves watching your face light up all day when you learn something new. You want to go to the beach? He's rented a boujee house for the week. You want to go to a concert? Front row seats. Everything is an adventure, and what's better than having an adventure with someone you love?

At some point, he thinks it might be nice to settle down somewhere. Or at least to have a nice place to come back to. You're a little surprised by how big the property he buys for this purpose is, and when you tell him so, he just smirks, "Well, where else are we gonna put the horses?"

You didn't get carried away at all, darling! Again, I hope you're doing well 💕 Thanks for the request, and I hope you like this 💕🕊️

[marblesouled]

tbh i still don't know. i do feel i'm losing my mind and life rn, one way or other. and it's really awful in a sense i don't know what or who to believe. i'm so easily influenced and obviously can't think clearly, because i'm out of it. my mind has taken me captive and the schizo there is giving out orders.

i both love and hate my new friend. some things he does and says bug me and i start to wonder if i'm doing the right thing by letting him influence me so strongly. because he really is a strong character whose word is truth. i'm more used to milder souls like my dear crush who take me the way i am and don't try to change me. but maybe i need to change? it's a super complicated situation for me and i'm scared of being broken by it all in the end. should i follow another crazy person? won't that dangerous mixture cause only more madness and chaos? why is madness's allure always so siren-like for me that i follow blindly leaving my past principles behind? i mean, it's fun to whirl with the thunder cloud, but you might get scorched by the lightning.

like yesterday, at first it seemed he was very compassionate towards my situation and told he really felt for me in my hour of trouble. but then the next moment he was telling me to go to work and start waking up with an alarm clock. when i had just told him i was getting insufficient sleep and i have very little energy to do anything at all, let alone think about such a thing as going to work. but he keeps pushing me to do stuff all the time for progress and checks up on me to confirm i've done these things or he gets angry. like last night he told me to train on my exercise bike every day and send him the time. this really irks me. like this constant mind control. i'm not sure i know who i am anymore or maybe i really have been one lazy piece of shit who needs to get better at every aspect of my life that has been ruled by my mental state. maybe i do need to control myself, be a normal person like everyone else. have i been using my depression and anxiety as an excuse? i really don't know anything and my mind is fucked!!

and it feels awful even complaining about it, because i feel he has helped me and we've made so many plans for future activities, like getting tattoos together! but honestly, his intensity and angriness frightens me sometimes. still, it really has been fun to do stuff with a person who is brave and willing to try everything. it's given me so much hope for the future, because i know noone else in my life who is like that. last night really was great! but it breaks my heart to think maybe my so-called social progress could be mere mania instead. then i'd be lost again and left depressed. is it my curse?? the schizoaffective disorder i'm suffering from? and am i really such a stupid hopeless case who could only cope with meds? because atm i still wish to continue tapering.

like i know if i told my sister everything about him, she would tell me immediately not to communicate with him any longer to protect myself. and that is also scary! i really don't know what to do, because everything is so fucked-up already. should i have believed him in the first place or stayed sceptical? i don't know what i believe in anymore and it hurts my poor brain. but i know when i meet up with him, i'm straight under his influence again and he'll continue to ask me for exercise and other proof. from a rational point of view, of course i realise it's a situation with blaring red flags, but then i think from the point of view of my madness and that this 'tough therapist/life coach' role he's taken is good for me, like he says. because we do to cool stuff and he makes me try things i've actually wanted to try, but haven't dared like asking a girl making firewood to let me saw a piece of wood last night. there's so much positivity and energy in him, he easily befriends strangers and knows how to converse with them. i really could learn from that. but... he has himself many times mentioned he's not right in the head and has been engaged in some dangerous behaviour i find a bit challenging to condone. or maybe i should just open my mind more? i freakin' don't know. i get a feeling my crush finds him too intense as well and now i'm sorry i invited him into our circle. will it all become a shit show? who or what should i trust in this? i certainly cannot lean on my mind.

[shinycollarboneapologist]

okay let's be boring and go with ace as a name bc that's my nickname irl bc I'm a massive gilmore girls fan (team logan btw iykyk)!!

I really want to attempt writing fics but I'm wayyyy to nervous! I was okay at English in school and I always send obnoxiously long asks into blogs on here with my ideas based on their fics (sorry fellow tumblr.com authors you all get forced to see my writing) but I have nightmares of writing and putting it on here only to be bullied off the platform ahahahahah

jealous of the sun bathing in England rn its been pissing it down raining all dayyyyy, we only get like 1 week of sun a year and the rest of the time its very stereotypically rainy !! my day was shit but always better after taking to you bff!

also please excuse my excessive use of exclamation marks idk why but to me a full stop feels mean and I also use ellipsis way too much but I, like you, am the drama so I love to build unnecessary tension...

I've actually always wanted jury duty but I've never been called for it, I know it's meant to be so boring but I want to live my jury duty delusion of being a hot juror! a torrid jury love affair? hello I'd read that fic

spring break always sounded so fun to me as a sad English child!! we just call it Easter holidays and be boring and religious but when I hear spring break I imagine drunk people on a beach in florida yk?

my current obsessions for blogs are;

-lottiecrabie (pfms has me in a chokehold)

-toomuchracket (living in the flatmate! matty delusion rn)

-byyourside28 (loving the soft sound series as a person obsessed with getting tattoos)

-justlikemebutsixfootthree (literally all their smut is god tier)

-bookishstrawberry (fluffy and gizmo series has my heart)

-imightgetbetter (the whole love it if we made it series has me wanting children but only fictional ones with matty... the delusion creation is STRONG)

and OF COURSE the no 1 blog on tumblr is the beautiful, amazing and unmatched... shinycollorboneapologist

omg yes to only letting matty into our cottage to sing, we will bring him out tea and cigarettes but otherwise no rats allowed sorry ratthew!! taylor however gets the master suite with a 4 poster bed and unlimited pampering!! same with Ross, George and Adam bc only ratty needs humbling (I really do love you tho Matthew give me one chance I'll be your controversially young gf)

ily bff!!!

-ace (my new name rip illicit affairs anon you will be missed)

ps. apologies for the ridiculously long ask I literally am so obnoxious

..... i love gilmore girls. lets chat abt that.

okay that is very ... warranted. i also was super nervous and tbh ... style was probably never going to be posted but i was a bit inebriated after my birthday and just posted it without looking back. look at us now!!! so for that, i say you should 110% just take the leap. i will be your #1 fan actually.

i will send the sunshine and good vibes your way. i usually like the rain a lot, but i can imagine it gets a bit tiring if its like that all year long. im glad you had a good day!!!!

i love your use of exclamation points okay. there i said it. it just makes everything you say feel so excited and happy and i love it. the ellipses ...... love that for us. ofc you are the drama, you're the main character hello.

that is how i want my spring break to be, but alas i am working and writing my silly little stories for tumblr.com. SGLJFDLG easter holiday just sounds so cute though?

okay can we talk about pfms.... because that. that fic is my hyper fixation atm. like i just … it’s everything to me.

also all of those blogs i follow and love more than life itself. most of them axtually inspired me to write myself which is like 🫂 i use all of them as my silly little delusional daydreams (esp toomuchrackets flatmate!matty, the things i would do for that man and justlikemebutsixfootthree’s recent smut… jeez)

please you are too kind. idk abt no 1 blog BUT… i’ll take it okay.

maybe some cheese too, since he is a rat. taylor gets the master suite with us, we’ll bake her little cookies and biscuits and give her the best pampering treatment of her life. (also pls let’s not conjure matty to my blog … that would be so embarrassing to me i think i would keel over and die) (i also will fight u for the spot of matty’s controversially young gf)

ilysm and i hope u have a great day

[htub]

I think what's really most painful to me about Lex's treatment is how much I see myself in him tbh. Putting this baby under a cut to be polite but the last post i reblogged illicited Thoughts and I'm being very autistic about this rn.

I don't wanna get too personal but I also don't actually care so just look. Look. He's just like me fr. This boy's been fucked over constantly from childhood but he's trying, he's trying so hard and so much. And yea, my mother died when I was a kid and left me to be raised by an abusive father, and I got bullied by my classmates, my teachers, even my goddamned therapists that were supposed to help me not make me worse. I swear I'm not trying to make this a sob story, I'm just saying my life was Not Fun, alright? I was just straight up not having a very good time. And one day years ago I just decided this sucks, people suck, and well I want it to be better and for that someone's gotta start. I don't ever want to make anybody feel the way I felt, the way people made me feel, so I'm choosing to do better because this cycle ends with me. So I'm actively trying to treat everyone how I want to be treated, even if they don't do the same, but a lot of times - most of the time - they really do not to the same so it's honestly pretty one-sided and not that peachy. Though thankfully I got no aliens gaslighting me yet, I think. Probably.

Still I'm nowhere near as good as Lex, and my god do I want to be like him, and obviously I also lack the money and influence he has, but I very much try. As much as I hate to admit it, I actually take after my dad a lot, and people even comment on how alike we are when they meet us together, but my dad's an asshole and doing better is a choice. A choice I actively make every day, because it's not how I was raised and not my instinctive behavior. I honestly was raised to be a piece of shit. And it's not always easy, and what I'm trying to say with this incoherent rambling is just, I get it. I get it way too much.

Normally this is why I'm drawn to Superman as a character, because he's got the same goodness I hope to have as well, the same kindness and forgiveness and just love. I'm getting the symbol tattooed on my arm for crying out loud. It's important to me.

But Smallville is really wanting to hurt me in different ways so they're instead giving me someone who's much more like me in backstory and personality and then they're making me watch him get broken into pieces, and there's no happy ending. Knowing there's no happy ending is the worst part. Normally fiction is an escape from reality, but this time it's too realistic, because yep, that's what the world does. It fucks us all over with no mercy, but that's not what I want to see! I want to see this boy be loved! And knowing I won't get that sucks.

And I'm still gonna be the best I can be even if I know the world's definitely headed downhill, because that's the kind of person I want to be, but the hopelessness and despair that comes with watching Lex's character arc is truly a new level of anguish I've received from a damn TV show. Congratulations on that, Smallville. I guess. At whoever was in charge of this, I hope you'll be pleased to know my therapist asks about this damn show every single week, unprompted. He's got it written down in his notes and everything. Probably not the most healthy reaction to a two decades old tv show? But like, I got all the DVDs. I cherish them. I love this show. Don't know if I'll ever actually watch it because it clearly is not good for my mental health but I love it. I hate it too. It just didn't have to go there, you know? That was just low.

[holdingforgeneralhugs]

Hi there! I am in Florida, and at this very moment, trying to dissociate from hurricane Ian that is beginning to hit my town. 😬 So I figured I'd distract myself by asking for ships. If you see this elsewhere too, I just...don't like talking about myself very much so I'm writing this once.

She/her, INFP, Hufflepuff. 5'2, generally pale, curvy, but not overweight (yet, lol), blonde hair (but it's currently The Little Mermaid bright red, lol), blue-green eyes. I love my hair and my eyes and this is the only thing you'll ever hear me say I like about my appearance.

My favorite thing about myself is my sense of humor. And to a lesser extent, my sarcasm. I never really feel I have much to offer people, especially in difficult times, but I can make my friends laugh when they are crying. And a few weeks ago one of my good friends said to me that every time she goes home after spending time with me, her husbsnd says she is always in such a happy mood. And that was just like...the nicest thing anyone could say to me. 💜 I am an introvert until I am comfortable with someone and then I can be loud and frequently silly. Years of customer service in my past made me decent at bullshitting small talk, but ugh, it drains my batteries. I will get along with anyone who isn't an asshole, but I do not get close to most people easily. I don't like conflict, so I can get passive aggressive with people I'm close to if I have any issues over something. Trying very hard to change that, as I know it's not a great look.

Other random shit about me: I have anxiety, but (I think) I've learned to hide it well in public most of the time? My brain is just a fucking mess, but I will joke about it all day! 🙃 I love all animals. I'd cuddle an alligator if it wouldn't eat me. I've got cats, dogs, rats and a bunny. I've wanted a horse my whole life. My favorite author is Neil Gaiman. I love going to the beach and swimming in the ocean. I love museums and history and learning about lore/fairytales/monsters/cryptids. I love Marvel movies/comics, Star Wars and Lord of the Rings. I occasionally do conventions and cosplay, though I'm not very good at the cosplay bc I cannot sew. Lol. I've been Rose and Amy from Doctor Who and Kate Bishop (Hawkeye). It's really fun! I wish I were better at it. Love bowling and mini golf. Sadly, none of my friends do.

I love music and going to shows used to be my thing! Like I've seen over 100 bands and concerts. I don't have the time/money/energy to do it anymore, but those were absolutely the best years of my life. I've traveled to other states and across the country for a couple of bands (The Matches and Motion City Soundtrack) and made some of the best friends just waiting in lines. I have one tattoo and it's a crow with a blue button eye that the singer of my favorite band drew for me.

I'm gonna shut up now. Lol. Sorry I got carried away. I'm REALLY trying to distract myself from thinking about this hurricane rn. Thanks in advance if you made it through the rambling and decide to do anything with it. 😁💜

Firstly, I hope you and your family are doing OK since the hurricane and that it didn't cause too much damage! Secondly I'm so sorry this has taken me so long to get to, I've been all over the place lately between graduating and starting my new job🙈

I ship you with Johnny Martin

He's obsessed with your red hair, like he thinks it's the coolest thing ever and it looks so good on you.

You're alike in the sense that you both need to be comfortable with someone before you feel like you can really be yourself.

Of course you two seemed to click right away. You both made a few sarcastic teasing comments and it was like you'd been friends for years.

He's always quick to remind you of your worth, and how you always seem to brighten people's lives without even trying

He totally get that sometimes you just need time to yourself to recharge, and he's always happy to just sit quietly with you or leave you do your own thing in your own space. You'll come find him when you're ready.

No matter what you say, he thinks your cosplays are great and he's always super encouraging.

He's ridiculously competitive, and loves nothing more than trying to beat you at mini golf. He scoffs and acts annoyed when you beat him, but really he just loves seeing you smile.

He definitely intends to start taking you to concerts again, cause he knows you loved going to them.

Hope you like it x

[daegall]

hi !! ^^ NOO are you feeling ok?? make sure you’re resting and just taking it slow!! when i’m sick i always rewatch nct life hehehe but work on the doc when you’re feeling better and up to it!!

also HAECHANS BDAY TEEHEE i’m suprised he hasn’t gone on live today (unless i’ve missed it) but i hope he is having the best day fr (HELLO FUTURE PLEASE) i’m actually thinking of getting beatbox but i’m not sureeeeeee- thoughts??

so there’s a lot of public dance groups in my city and like it’s great but gaw damn sometimes i am literally just trying to WALK like i’ve literally missed trains bc i’ve had to go around- maybe i am just a hater at heart but apparently it’s taken super serious and there’s rival groups and stuff from what i’ve heard and i’m like damn are you not just having a good time dancing 🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️

i’m good!! still settling into my new job and trying to balance finals with that so i’ve been super busy but hopefully it calms down soon!! i know it’s gonna be hectic next month tho but just focusing on now i guess!! - no sleep anon <3

HI BAEEE yess!!! im feeling a bit better but my period just HAD to come today </3 felt like shit when i was supposed to go shopping for new clothes for bali ugh </3 my comfort movie rn is clueless!!!! fucking love it and the fashion is just TO DIE FOR

YEAH TIS HIS BDAY BUT........ I REALLY HOPE HE'S ENOYING IT TO THE FULLEST BC HE WAS DIGNOSIED WITH COVID :( HIM AND JAEMIN I REALLY HOPE THEY GET WELL SOON AS WELL AS CHENLE AND JENO SIGH I HATE COVID SM </3

BRO NO ME TOO IM LITERALLY SO CLOSE TO SWITCHING UP TO BEATBOX BC ITS JUST SO GOOD AND VISUALLY PLEASINGGG but at the same time,,,, hello fuutre has such cute pcs and !!!!!!!!!! temporary tattoos!!!!!!!!!!!! so fucking cute man i oggle just thinking about it

aahhh ueah i see why you would feel that :0 idk i've never seen one so im pretty neutral hmm

YASS OGMOGMGMOGMO NEW JOB STILL SO PROUD BBY 10000% DESERVED dw dw i know you'll do great!! good luck in advance for the hectic month babe :0

i am . going to bali next week whooo!!!! trying to get new clothes but im so out of shape rn esp bc of my period like URGHHG WHY NOW BROU I WILL PUNCH YOU but hmm i'm gonna start working out tomorrow (hopefully if i dont fuckign procrastinate) so then i wont look like such a slob LOOOLL

[subtle-edge-of-rot]

Work Guy Updates:

OMG I AM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH AND SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW FR

Today was SUPER great!! When he got to work he was so bubbly and chatty, we spent a truck ride shit talking one of the other co-workers, and then it got on the subject of my brothers and I told him some stories of my little brother that had him SNORTING- he was laughing so much he snorted and it was so cute, I was laughing so hard I could barely finish my story 😭 But when he laughs it's fr so cute? He like snorts and holds his hand up and kind of pushes the back of his hand to his nose. He was driving so I was looking at his side profile and it was dksgjhksjdgh I have never wanted to make someone laugh more in my life fr 😤😤

Then I mentioned Rick and Morty(because I LOVE RaM) AND HE LOVES RICK AND MORTY??? AND HIS FAVORITE EPISODE IS THE PICKLE RICK EPISODE AND I FIND THAT SO HOT BECAUSE IT'S SO POPULAR BUT HE ISN'T AFRAID TO SAY THAT IT'S HIS FAVORITE????

AND THEN I MENTIONED FUTURAMA, ANOTHER FAVORITE

AND HE LOVES IT TOO??? HE IS CURRENTLY REWATCHING IT RN AND I JUST AHHHHHH

I told him how my dad almost got Bender from Futurama tattooed on his ass and I was all "Imagine if you were with someone, and you just see Bender on their ass... I'd be the one to ask if I scanned it if there would be binary code in the tattoo." AND HE LAUGHED SO HARD AT IT AND WE JOKED ABOUT THAT FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES

And then when we got out to walk to where we had to move posts he forgot how tall he was and walked straight into a tree branch and literally poked his eye 💀 He fell backwards and like just laid there and I asked if he was okay and he goes "Yeah, just being attacked by nature, the norm." And I giggled because fr he was so goofy today, I loved it. I helped him up of course, can't just leave him there 💀

When we were moving posts they were literally cut up telephone poles, so they were heavy suns'a'bitches. And he told me that if I am ever working alone and I can't lift or move something myself to wait until he or one of the other guys are there because he doesn't want me hurting myself 😭

But when we were moving them I ask a different guy to pull it towards him while I pushed it because it was stuck on the trailer. Well he thought I said to roll it and he rolled it onto my hand. Work Guy FREAKED out and was asking if I was okay. The other guy kind of freaked out as well since he felt bad 💀😭

I felt bad though because the posts were heavy for me and two of the other guys, but Work Guy was lifting them by himself, and we were all trying to help but he was rolling them and FUCK he's so stronk, I want to kiss his arms smh

But then back in the truck we started talking about Bug Juice??? Idk if any of you have had it or if that's just a thing in my area, but it's typically a kids drink. Well the stores in the town that he lives in/we work in, they don't sell it. BUT the town that I live in (half an hour from work) has a gas station that sells them! So I picked up two so we can drink them while we work tomorrow 😌 today was so fun, he was so goofy.

He also told me a lot of stories about his family and his hunting experiences and ugh, today was very progressive. I am very excited for the next few weeks since we'll both be out of school and we might have the time to hang out if he wants to!

He did say he only really likes the Original Trilogy of Star Wars, and that he doesn't like Empire Strikes Back, and I kind of like ESB so I was all 🕴 He said he didn't like the Prequels and I was all "Well, Attack of The Clones is one of my favorites, mostly because of General Grievous and the Clones, but it's really good in my opinion." AND HE CHANGED HIS COMMENT TO "Well, Attack of The Clones is probably one of the better Prequel ones." Like mhm, sure 🤨🤨🤨

Omg this is a big update!!! So happy for you Ori! This guy sounds ridiculously cute!

Stronk you say? Love that. Smooch those arms if you get a chance.

You got him Bug Juice? Omg he better fall in love with you. I’d give myself to anyone who gave me Bug Juice.

I really hope you guys get the chance to hang out outside of work! You guys have great banter so I can’t wait to see where it goes if you hang out outside of work.