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sam and dean have a compulsive need to have secrets up their sleeves at all times because what other explanation is there for why they are STILL doing that like thirteen seasons in. they just wanna feel like special little boys who know something you don't know. really this is the only explanation for why they haven't informed the general public about monsters yet.
#i think about them keeping the supernatural a secret every day#like godDAMN CALL THE FUCKING NEWS#video tape that shit. get a werewolf corpse. and call cnn.#can you imagine how many lives they could save if everyone knew to get cremated and put salt in the foundation of homes#but nooo they have to be the coolest specialist little boys of all time#supernatural#dean winchester#sam winchester#and you know who else?#john winchester#samdean
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Wyll breaking up with the player character if Ulder dies so Wyll must become the Duke makes me wanna throw up sobbing because he actually thinks that just because his father's first duty being to Baldur's Gate made him a Bad Father that Wyll himself will inevitably be a Bad Lover because surely no one could match love with duty if his father couldn't, unknowing he has more love in one hand than his father had in his entire body. fuck
#More in my reblog#“my father taught me more lessons than I can count” yeah dog they were called CAUTIONARY TALES 😭😭😭#“pull me too close and I'm destined to hurt you” FUCKIGN. BITING YOU#“a champion's heart is as sharp as a new blade” SO CRAZY I GOT THIS SICK ASS ARMOUR. TRY ME.#I'm actually in physical pain over this. Wyll my love.#I need to rip ulder in two with my bare hands right now.#sorry I JUST saw the breakup scene for the first time today and I haven't stopped thinking about it it's making me ill with sadness#he didn't even break up with ME but it fucking feels like it goddamn#bg3#Wyll Ravengard#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#bg3 analysis#oh my GOD and the fact that he offers one last dance. I'mgoing to ufckingexplode#and he spends five whole seconds just. holding the character. not even dancing.#I watched the version with him and astarion ofc I don't romance wyll myself (lesbianism)#makes me wanna write a fucking fic (derogatory)#why the fuck is everyone so ill over astarion when mr insane mental health issues is RIGHT here (i know why. but still)
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the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-
#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later'#and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory#then its like... what do i even say#'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH#or especially lately#i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going#which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else#ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK!#trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn#but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying#yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm......#can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn.#ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood#but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake#absolutely unprompted#oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away#well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car'#and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth)#GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!!#she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money#and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month#and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now???#now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And-#i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again#me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help'#please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish#anyway. case in point#cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind#metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj#its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please
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sometimes i think about what would have happened if richard had died instead of henry and the rest of the book had been narrated the song of achilles style and it hurts
#raj shitposting#imagine had the fight led to the gun being thrown out the window. had henry seen that richard was shot. had the ambulance been too late..#that is the saddest thought i've ever had#henry would quit college. buy the estate he had seen with richard. live there with all his stuff and sob into his clothes like a baby...#he'd go to california every christmas and spend the time alone in some stupid hotel and become absolutely fucking unhinged.#he'd tend to richard's mother because ofc his father would run away from home that was the kind of man he was.#and he'd call no one but his own mother for her funeral because no one else would be bothered.#he'd send some money to richard's father along with the news and go about living his life like a goddamn widow.#that's the perfect word. widow. henry would be nothing but a widow.#the bmw would be the worst thing in his possession. he'd think about selling it but he wouldn't.#he'd think that anytime he had a semblance of thought that maybe richard was with him.. it would be in that fucking car.#he wouldn't sell it out of superstition that the car was the only place where he could safely feel richard and fall apart in his memory.#he'd cry like a madman every damn day in that car.while getting groceries.visiting francis at the country house.going for dinner with them.#he'd probably get a portrait done of richard. maybe of a photo of richard in some fancy clothes francis took at the country house.#yk those times rich people ugly cry by a full size painting in a burgundy robe with wine spilled on the floor by them clutching their chest#as if in physical pain and agony? that would be my man henry.#he'd be too out of his mind to even remember that maybe that day he killed charles too because nothing seems to matter anymore.#henry winter#richard papen#winterpapen#tsh#donna tartt#the secret history#literati
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the amount of time I spend on tumblr dot com has given me quite the set of standards when it comes to artworks on the theme of 'Trans Angel', and actual museums are failing to meet those standards quite spectacularly.
#news from the cupola#if you don't want to hear a lot of inane whining stop reading this post Here.#today once again I saw this particular sculpture entitled exactly that. it is the most unpleasant thing I have ever beheld.#it is relevant that it is a sculpture about the transamerica pyramid and not about Transgender things. but I do keep forgetting that.#so many errors were made in the construction of this fucking thing. I have seen it maybe thrice at this point and it has not grown on me#in the slightest. and I know that the conversation about Good Art and what makes Good Art is certainly fraught.#but by my lights whatever this is this isn't good art#maybe it's partially that this thing is displayed among some really wild examples of Just What Can Be Done With Clay#it's surrounded by hundreds of years' worth of technical mastery and it fails to be anything of note except bad to see!#clunky sculpting! ugly glazing! forms that are difficult to parse but also not very interesting once you do see them!#and why in the goddamn does it have the twitter logo sculpted all over it. what is Happening.#everything else by this artist in this exhibit is also not great in similar ways?#it's not even bad in a way that's interesting! it's just. not good!#it all feels like they're trying far too hard to make Art That Means Something and missing by a mile#also. no one calls the transamerica pyramid that. You Say The Whole Name. or you just point at it and say 'that one'
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remember when delirium was worried about destruction being gone and it was rooted in her loneliness and genuine love for her siblings and the other endless wanted to ignore her sudden upset over this because she's delirium and she gets this way sometimes, don't worry about it, she'll forget soon enough so it really doesn't matter at all. I should get to bludgeon all of them with a bat for that.
#no i am not sparing dream he was nodding along with them. eat wood you little cunts.#the value and intensity of emotions are never qualified by their duration. if someone feels something at a point especially over a#long standing subject then it is most likely that this is not new nor temporary sentiment but simply a flareup of existing emotions that#have become too large and intense to reasonably handle for any variety of reasons. just because shes only saying it now doesnt mean its not#always there but just that she now feels it umanageable enough to seek outside help which SHOULD be provided by an emotional safety net#COUGH COUGH HER FUCKING SIBLINGS.#their dismissal only exacerbated the problem and her inability to clearly articulate her distress only confirmed in their minds the wisdom#of the very action thats causing the fucking problem. which isnt her fault but theirs for assuming that because she wasnt performing what#they needed to see that it did not deserve to be seen at all.#the fact that this is the pervasive attitude of the endless explains so goddamned much about dream and desire while making their#mutual toxicity and self loathing all the more insipid and potent.#it lays bare a massive ill-functioning mechanic of their family unit and makes reference to real world issues in families with disabilities#so long story short i should get to beat their faces in with my therapy bat. called such because it is therapeutic. to me.#delirium of the endless#the endless#the sandman
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every time i think the "staff can do no wrong and any form of complaining or expressing literally anything other than "yaaay love it <3" with no further comments is bashing and literally evil we should never say anything that could even potentially be interpreted as mildly critical ever because ~some artist who worked hard on this is probably reading the forums and might feel bad if we ever express anything but praise~ also we must be constantly positive at all times unless we're passive-aggressively shaming someone for having an extremely polite and apologetically worded criticism and if you ask the staff for literally anything you had better be prepared to preface it with 3 paragraphs of apologizing for breathing air" attitude is bad on tumblr, i take one look at the forums, and holy fucking hell is it SO much worse on site
#i go for years at a time without ever bothering to look at fr forums#and then every time i do i remember why i stopped#it feels like a goddamned cult on there and every time i dip my toes i come out feeling slimy and sick#as if i just spent an hour being aggressively gaslit by my extremely manipulative grandmother#what the fuck is wrong with everyone#i'm glad i decided to keep this creepy fucking fandom at arm's length and mostly just lurk years ago#that place is not a healthy environment for anyone to be in#flight rising#legitimately the single worst fandom i've ever had the misfortune of being adjacent to#and in such a creepy and insidious way too#they'll call you an entitled whiny baby to your face and then convince you it's your fault and you're a horrible person for feeling offende#it feels like being neck deep in the absolute worst kind of preformative sj spaces#you know the ones where everyone interacts primarily via callout posts and there's discourse over if crossdressing is cultural appropriatio#that kind of toxic sj space type energy#but somehow combined with like this weird feeling of being in a mormon church in a deep south town#where all the “nice grandmas” will try to put poison in your food if they find out you're gay or voted blue even one time#and it's somehow gotten SO much worse since the last time i looked on there#they've got people literally apologizing for existing what the fuck how is this normal to any of you people#this is so far beyond toxic positivity it's like. crossbred with passive-aggression and shaming and metastatized into something new entirel#it's terrifying. i hope flight rising never shuts down just so that whatever the fuck this is can stay semi-contained.#pro tip: the more a fandom is universally convinced it's Wonderful and Welcoming the faster you should run the other way#actually good fandoms don't have to constantly reassure themselves and everyone that they're great and perfect and toxicity-free#nor do they react with immediate borderline violence to the slightest suggestion there might be anything wrong with the fandom culture#anything wrong other than “people like you who think there's something wrong with our perfect community” anyway#on that note also any fandom that insistently calls itself a “community” just. yeah. no.#get out while you still can.#fandoms work on corporate logic if they're trying to convince you they're your family or friend that's not just a red flag#that's a whole damn red fabric store
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standing before you today to say that the jld writers' choice to assign constantine the house of mystery, aka the one that belonged to cain, was a WILD move and SHOCKINGLY emblematic of a lot of who he is as an archetype, particularly in relation to his family: as betrayer son and brother, defiler of his father's house, favorer of bloodless sacrifice yet steeped in the opposite, the first killer (or so he believes), cardinal sins of pride and envy, murderer of those he claims to love, liar to the face of god. cursed forever to walk alone, city-coded, shielded from vengeance but unable to shield those around him, slaking the earth in blood where he only ever wanted to sow, an eternity of regret is not enough to repair the damage he has done.
#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#mind you most of these descriptors are either self-inflicted or driven into him by his father. but do we See the Vision#like babes i don't like a lot of what new 52 did to him but i fucking LOOOOVE what the house of mystery stands for#reason 92479 why i Also go insane about cain + abel imagery with manny the angel too because bitch: You Are Also Cain#manny and nbc constantine? that is cain leading a new him down the same path so he can pass the cycle off and finally be free#that is 'i will steep your hands in blood so that mine may look cleaner'#ALSO why i go feral about the serial killer that killed constantine's dad being called 'the family man'#and why that bit from jubilee's about cain's house collapsing and killing him in the same year as adam's death makes me assign thomas Adam#it's all a wee bit too judeo-christian for hellblazer i fear but for new 52? i'm eating that shit with both hands like a feral raccoon#the ONE redeeming factor for me is that goddamn house of mystery#also there was an spn thread i had some years back with my friend livi (bestie i miss you) where demon dean gave john the mark of cain#and i STILL think about that shit daily. he would think it was appropriate and either bear that shit stoic or lose his goddamn mind#( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.
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DANNY PHANTOM SHIP NAME INSANITY INCOMING
#WHITE AMETHYST IS SAM AND GREGOR. I FUCKING FORGOT GREGOR EXISTED BC I HATE THAT EP SO MUCH#i was even like. oh maybe its smth to do with the giw but no thats dumb BUT IT WAS. GODDAMN IT#family breakfast is. obvious.#THE FAKE ONE IS FUCKING. STOPPED TIME.#HELLO?!?!??!?!!? I THOUGHT FOR SURE SOMEONE WAS OUT THERE SHIPPING LIKE#CLOCKWORK AND THE OBSERVERS OR SOME SHIT. OR CLOCKWORK AND DAN. I DONT FUCKIGN KNOW#FUCKING RETRO MOVIE FAIRE IS POINDEXTER AND DORA. WHOS DOING THIS.#these are making me so insane#btw. fright knight/ghostwriter is nightmare before christmas and i think that one is VERY funny#CLOCKWORK AND DAN IS CALLED MEDDLING MINUTES. theres not a single ship with the observers. how is that possible. HOW is that possible#i fucking hate this fandom this house is a nightmare#IM GONNA FUCKING CRY THEY JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE#NEW ASK GAME SEND ME DANNY PHANTOM CHARACTERS AND ILL GIVE YOU THE MOST INSANE SHIP NAMES#IM CRYING. THIS IS MY ENRICHMENT
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Whelp I dont think I'm getting my meds (or any mail) today :/
#marquilla#she's like 8 hours late... i dont think she's coming....#mr krabs ringing that bell: DAY 9 LET'S GIVE IT UP FOR DAY 9!!!!#my skin feels like it's gonna scrape itself off my body in one big slough#i was out in the rain twice today and my skin burned so bad when it touched me i wanted to scream#i did have 'good' moments today pain wise today but uh id like me meds... please#gonna have to fucking drive to the goddamn pharmacy (hour one way) to get a new fill if it doesnt get here by Tuesday#bc i called LAST tuesday... bitch..........#im glad it wasnt my mental health meds but like.... this pain is affecting my mh sgdgdgdgdg but withdrawl from mh meds is dangerous#and painful... like in many ways 😬#hey ill pay one of yall to peel my skin off me#$100 but if you can get it all in one piece and make a skin suit ill give you $500#my tolerance for bullshit is low and baldy is lucky he didnt say the 'idk who told you to use clear totes' to newlady and not me bc i#would have SCREAMED id have to have had laughed as i said it so it seemed like i was pointing it out as ironic and funny oopsie!#but i really mean it in a 'how are you this fucking stupid at your job... how'#i was getting real creative with my insults ab him today sgdgdgdgdg
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If you get the urge to say shit on this post, consider: dont. not looking to engage in a dialogue about this, i will block you
i know this isnt whats gonna happen but god id love to learn nothing about that new hp show. i dont want to hear shit. not even about how bad it is. tmi. dont curse me with that info. why do you know how bad it is. why are you telling me. go look up a weird bug on wikipedia. or dont. dont tell me about it. dont put it on my dash.
#toy txt post#i know thats not whats going to happen tho. i know my dash will be flooded with gifs and screencaps and ppl who#maybe they didnt hatewatch it piracy or otherwise. maybe ill be generous. maybe they read an episode synopsis on wikipedia#and theyre telling us about all the new bad dumb shit theyre doing#and then we're all gonna get mad and spread it and talk about it nonstop#to shame everyone into not watching it#but like in order for this info to get out. one of you watched it. whyd you do that. whyd you tell me about it#and i know for my contrarian friends my wording it like this is making you want to watch it out of spite. its making it sound like#tasty fun spicy forbidden knowledge#no its just gonna be the same dumb stupid boring shit. maybe with an added dash of heinous transphobia antisemitism and racism etc#for gods sake go read a goddamn harry potter fanfiction instead#just dont put it on my fucking dash#im so ready for us to be done with this terfy fuck. for her to be irrelevant. i think thats what would hurt her most. she found a way#to thrive on the controversy shes feeding off the negative attention#and im not saying like dont call her out like i get we have to do that like i Get It i Know#that we cant afford to just ignore her bc shes literally using her billions to influence laws in the uk to hurt ppl#like i know#but god just imagine how much it would suck for her to wake up and nobody fucking cares either way#not mad at her anymore just Done. shes irrelevant#drop her. go do literally anything else#imagine how nice it would be if she puts a show out and nobody talks about it good or baf#bad*. and then theyll be less likely to do more. bc they cant count on it being clickbait that ppl are getting heated about#cos i think this is just. shes in her cancelled comedian netflix special era. shes getting specials about being cancelled and shes Only#getting them bc shes 'cancelled' cos if ppl didnt feel strongly about her good OR BAD it wouldnt get clicks it wouldnt get attention#i wish we could afford to do this i wish ppl would just be fucking allies to trans and jewish ppl about this#im so tired#anyway. ill leave reblogs on this for now. if anyone fucks up they get turned off
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Samsung guy also had the audacity to tell me to "just make a new account" and I got so mad cuz like. my only hope of seeing any of my memories from the past 5 years of my life are connected to that one account, and it's not even a guarantee. But it's still a small hope and I'm not giving it up.
#so I told him my daughter died and my only chance of seeing her again if I was able to log in to the cloud from my samsung account#shitty thing to do? yes ofc.#but also I'm frustrated with people continuously telling me to just make new accounts when my entire life from the age of 10+ is trapped#inside of accounts that I'll never be able to get into again without the help of like. 3 key accounts.#and 2 of those 3 have done fuck all to help#I'm just tired and this entire week has been a nightmare.#and it has been 8 days now. 8 days of damn near endless agony.#I'm gonna get a goddamn ulcer at this rate#anyways. I'm gonna try again tomorrow. My mom will let me use her phone to call a few places and hopefully I can get everything sorted out#please. god. universe. whatever or whoever. the bitch that cursed my ass.#it was funny and I've learned a very valuable lesson of hubris and patience and whatever else I was supposed to learn#can I just be okay now. can it be over. can I get on with my life and go back to being depressed over stupid shit#I'm just soooooo tired now.#flip-flopping between apathy and rage is an exhausting exercise
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being a kid was thinking surely being an adult can’t be that bad but i just spent 2 and a half hours on a thursday morning trying to install a new antivirus on my laptop and now i either have to kill myself or go out and spend 7 dollars on coffee to cope
#like. it’s the little things like that that just. eat away at your soul or something like i get it now.#it took 2 hours because i just bought the one i bought last year bc i had such a terrible fucking time last year#uninstalling the old one and trying to remove every part of it bc i have a macbook and i don’t know how to use it still so i can’t#control panel uninstall like om windows. so anyway i just rebought the new version and i download it and the first thing it says to me??????#uninstall old software. BRO. you ARE the old software. but ok so i spend 30 minutes doing that#with the goddamn library/ whatever folders over and over and over again and on my moms laptop too#and so i’m like ok i think i got it all so i go to install it again and it’s like. you have no internet or the program isnt working.#try again. so i’m like. ok. so i do and it’s like ok. so i wait 30 more minutes before i’m like ??#anyway i go back and read the description of the thing and yeah last yeah they phased out my os#SO i’m like ok. ok. now i already spent the money on something i can’t use and ofc i bought it through amazon so when i called the company#they were like we can’t help u i’m like yeah i didn’t think so but thanks anyway. anyway. amazon helped me and i got a different program and#that installed in 3 minutes so anyway fuck apple for always phasing out old os and fuck mcafee for doing it too#and my mom and i have been fighting for like 2 weeks now and i’m just truly reaching my limit#but i still have to go out and buy her a bday present this afternoon like why can’t life just be good and fun ever
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Don't Starve: a game basically designed to induce rage quit at every level
Me, a fool: But-- but surely THIS time...
#don't starve#don't starve together#original#I accidentally deleted my save file. WHY is this button next to the rollback button??????#normally when i die it is because it is a hard game but this time it was just poor UI design#I'm furious you have no idea how many spiders i had to kill for that save file#i mean what the FUCK#klei#klei entertainment#cannot believe this game is finding new ways to make me rage quit cannot believe this#probably best that I stopped for the night anyway. the tetris effect for a game like Don't Starve is... not ideal#webber don't starve#webber dst#I WAS KING. KING OF THE SPIDERS. AND WHAT AM I NOW? JUST A COMMON BOY-SPIDER HYBRID WITH NO PLACE TO CALL HOME#I WAS JUST ABOUT TO KILL THE BEE QUEEN AND I WAS ROBBED. ROBBED I SAY#I EVEN KILLED A SPIDER QUEEN AND WORE HER SEVERRED HEAD AS A CROWN. I HAD IT ALL BABY#I HAD COLLECTED SO MANY GODDAMN PINECONES#GODDAMMIT
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have officially hit the point where i kinda wish people i would like to call friends drifting away for the millionth time in a row actually WAS personal so that then i wouldnt feel so fucking stupid for getting so upset about it every time
#dont read this its just for me#shoutout to every single one of my goddamn roommates not telling me they weren't planning on living on campus next semester til just now ✌#housing applications start next week . thanks guys#it'll be the same drill as every other friend i have had forever i can already tell#we wont have school keeping us seeing each other every day but say we'll hang out when we have time and then never speak again 👍#maybe thats too pessimistic but its always the fucking same. as in there is not one person i have called a friend that hasnt done that 😁#it already happened over winter break anyway#but of course this time its right when im finally opening up about the shit i genuinely enjoy for the first time in my life#actually beyond the most surface level “yeah i write fanfiction and draw undertale fanart” bs and keep everything else to myself#because for the first time ever it feels like someone actually halfway gives a fuck#and im just supposed to be normal about this information now. alright!#i'll just go back to writing my essay about how isolating my home growing up was. thats fine#i can get new roommates i can make new friends but im so sick of restarting. i dont want to fucking do this anymore
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oh also sidenote. sry 4 finding him hot we know who im talking about
#was watching the gamechanger shorts. sigh . sigh . sigh#i need to be taken out back and ol yellerd deeeeathly serious. it was also rly fucking funny tho hes rly funny#call me ol yeller the way theres a hole . in my head ? like my mouth Sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry#minors dni#goddamn i wish there was some hole in my face <<< <- new megaphone for when im too lazy to do win+.
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