#like i know how being pressured into that sorta shit feels and i feel so bad i rlly didnt mean to make him upset

[snekdood]

even if you dont believe that you only live once you should live like you do imo

[lovecrazedpup]

i am going to kms

[pvrkacciosan]

The last moments

A/N: Feel like this ones shite, and sorta cheesy at the end, but 😁😁

Synopsis: In the last moments of a crash are crucial, it can be difficult to stay composed

Pairing: Lando Norris X Fem! Leclerc Reader

Warning; detailing of car crash, swearing, mention of death, injury detail

Word Count: 1.3K

You had a lot riding on your name.

Being a women in Formula 1, dating another driver and racing against your older brother meant there was a lot for the press to throw against you, you fought many of the grid back in karting, battling for the top spots.

And every one of them had seen you face everything, the level of respect they upheld for you, You're brother may be known as the Prince of Monaco. But you were THE Paddock Princess.

You had at first found the name belittling, but now you used the power of the name against people, rising above the criticism.

But everyone had their off days, and after your shitting qualifying results yesterday you were in no mood for the reports and their intrusive questions.

Keeping your helmet on as you moved through the paddock was an assured way to avoid interviews before the race.

Charles had already spoken to you before the races, his encouraging words had instill a little bit more confidence in yourself, and you held your head high walking through the crowd that moved out your way.

Today would be better, you were going to make this one count, even if you were staring towards the back of the grid.

You made your way towards Lando, he stood talking with Oscar between their cars, they had gotten themselves into the top five grid positions, you stopped, checking the cost was clear before pulling the visor up.

"Hey Y/n" Oscar smiled your way, causing Lando to turn to you, Oscar nodded before wandering off to talk to his mechanics.

"You okay?" Lando's sounded worried, you didn't usually bother anyone on the grid before a race, not wanting to disturb their focus.

A win could only be settled if everyone was at their peak conditions. If you were to get a podium it had to be fair an distracting other drivers was dickish.

"Yeah I'm good," you knew you were lying, but you weren't going to admit that to your boyfriend,

"No, you're not." He levelled his stare at you, brought his hands up, unlatched the chin strap and pulled the helmet gently off your head, just enough so he could lean in and plant a kiss to your lips,

It didn't matter if reporters saw, this wasn't anything new to them, or the other drivers. If Charles was here, he might have tried to split you two up, but he wasn't so you leaned into it.

Lando pulled away, "Stay safe out there today, Okay. I know Ferrari are going to push you but be safe." You nodded and slide the helmet and visor back into place.

Lando tapped the top of your helmet as you wandered past, moving back to the red car sitting in about the fourteenth position on the grid.

Charles nodded to you from inside his car when you walked past, you returned the gesture,

There was no time to worry about how the press would criticise you if you someone didn't managed to make up positions, there would always be one reporter who would blame it on our gender or relationships within the grid.

You had to prove them wrong.

It was never intended to go wrong, no one wanted to crash in F1,

It was about mid way through the race, you were making up positions and picking each driver off one by one.

The team had given you few pointers but has mostly left you to make it up yourself.

That was until you got into about sixth place,

"Y/n we need you to pick up more speed on the corners, your slipping to wide."

How much tighter did they need you to go, you would lose traction if you weren't careful, but as the flurry of pressure came through your ear piece you continued to push.

If you had figured it out, Lando was somewhere, a couple spaces behind you, something to do with his pit crew. Charles was two in front of you, the team wanted you to catch up.

You pushed faster and faster, braking late and suddenly. The straights were a blur,

There was a crackle of noise in your ear from your team, but you didn't quite catch their warning.

When you hit the next corner, sharper then the last, the breaks refused to work when you stamped your foot down on the pedal.

Trying to steer yourself around Lewis, you tried the brakes once more but still nothing, the speed you flew around the corner. There was nothing to stop gravity as it flipped your car

You felt something snap in your wrist when the wheel jerks right around,

Clutching your right hand to your chest, you braced as the car continued to rolling, finally smashing into the barrier with such a force you couldn't see straight.

☽ - Lando- ☾

"Red flag Lando, Red flag."

"What's happened?"

He gripped tighter to the steering wheel, Eyes darting around, George was in front of him, he began to slow. Obviously getting the message too.

"A crash, Turn 6."

"Who?" He focused on following behind George, as they approached turn six, they would be the first two cars to pass the wreck, getting their before the med-car.

"Is he okay?"

When there was no response, Lando held his breath, leading to turn six, he could see the red car, the number disfigured on its destroyed side.

He accelerated past, George, he didn't care how much trouble he would get in for this,

He quickly rolled onto the gravel and unclipped his seatbelts, moving the wheel he climbed out.

Your car was a mess. Panic was robbing him of his oxygen, and he scrambled onto the tyres amounted up to form a barrier,

The car was on its side, the Halo pressed against the tyre.

"Y/N!" He dropped onto his stomach atop the tyres, getting as low to you as he could,

"Y/n!, Can you hear me?" his voice was desperate, he sat up, waving to any safety marshal nearby, "Y/n!"

☽ - Y/n- ☾

The throbbing in your wrist had dulled when you opened your eyes. The room was bright and warm,

Your throat was so dry, you tried to sit up but every muscle in your body ached when you forced it into cooperation.

"Y/n" you recognised the voice immediately,

You looked to Charles, he sat upright in the chair, his racing suit hung down to stop around his waist.

"What h-happened?" you voice cracked from dryness, and Charles passed you a paper cup. He let you take a few sips before speaking,

"Your brakes overheated," Charles clenched his fist, resting it atop his thigh,

"I. . . crashed?"

His nod of affirmation made you pause,

The reporters and tabloids were going to eat this up, there hadn't been a significant crash in a while, you were the first of the season. Looking down to your wrist, this might set you back in the car. You will not be able to drive,

Lando pushed through the door,

"Y/n, you're awake."

Charles stood and allowed Lando to take his place beside the bed you were on, you must be in one of the medical rooms at the paddock, you could still hear the bustle of the familiar ambience outside.

"What did I say about pushing too hard?" Lando brushed a strand of your hair, tucking it neatly behind your ear.

"The team was telling me to catch Charles and I don't want the press to have any other reason to say I don't belong in this sport and—"

"It's not right that they pushed you that far without managing the brakes better," Lando shot out,

Charles was flexing his fist in frustration, "I'm going to speak to them about it." and with little more words said, Charles ripped the door open, stalking out.

"You know, everyone here knows you're good enough to be here, you've beaten us enough times to prove it" Lando rested a hand against yours, stroking his thumb in circles on the back of your hand.

You sat silently, mulling his words over,

"I can't let you guys have all the fun now can I?"

Lando's answering smirk before he brought his lips to yours could have settled every pulsing worry within that moment,

"And that is why you are our Paddock Princess"

He inched closer, mouth hovering yours, "My Princess"

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Taglist: @80sloverry @unofficial-journalist @celestialams @mirrorball-6 @love4lando @ironmaiden1313

[artastic-friend]

Some things I love about DJ’s sound design and animations in Help Wanted 2:

Every time he makes a bigger movement that requires shifting of its weight you can HEAR IT- It creaks and you can hear hydraulics inside of him WHICH BTW IS SO COOL IN SO MANY WAYS BC (tangent): it makes sense as to why he needs hydraulics being so huge and heavy, but also because the way real spiders extend their legs is like a natural form of hydraulics!! They pump their hemolymph(basically bug blood) into their legs which then allow those legs to be filled with more pressure that causes them to extend! This is why a dead or near-death spider’s legs go into the curled position (the death curl) :(

The sTOMPS I always loved the stomps even in base sb but there is just something so cool about hearing them around you as he is so close!!! It all just adds to the feeling of his weight and size 😫

HIS GROWLING?? AND MORE ANIMAL-LIKE SOUNDS??? In the past we would hear a little bit of it when he was sleeping in SB, but now we hear more examples of it and just like- closer and more noticeably 😳 it’s almost like you can hear it breathing at times and it is so cool and uncanny in the best ways :D

Ok the SNAP?!? The way he snaps his fingers and the sound reverberates all around you?!? And the way the light ring of the outside of his tunnel turns on at the same time??? I don’t really think that DJ is actually producing the snap sound from the snap alone, as with the synthetic materials its gloves are made of probably can’t produce that crisp of a sound, BUT THAT JUST MEANS THAT HE MAKES THE SOUND HIMSELF WITH ITS SPEAKERS OR SOMETHING AND SO HE’S DOING IT 100% FOR STYLE POINTS AND I LOVE THAT FOR HIM

The sound of its teeth clanking together to the beat of the music, that’s just a neat feature I like very much

Ok movements now, THE WAY HE SWAYS HIS HIPS(?) TO THE MUSIC!?! especially when it is doing that little happy dance of his or pointing at the player when it’s their turn to play. I LOVE THAT LITTLE DANCE IT’S SO CUTE

Ok the way he leans in reaaal close before settling back? He’s probably just doing it as it shifts its balance to lean back, but like, I wanna believe he’s also sorta doing it on purpose a little 🤭

Speaking of which, the movements for him going from leaning towards you to shifting his weight back and getting into that badass cross-armed pose?!!? Love it 😭 I love it sm- once again, the recoil and the followthrough of his movements just emphasize its size and weight so well I am just obsessed

OH AND HIS LITTLE FINGER TAPS WITH HIS MIDDLE RIGHT ARM THAT’S ON THE FLOOR?!? It’s a smaller detail but I am so glad they included it because it’s just so neat!?! I don’t know how to explain why I like it but it is so neat and adds to his vibe so well

OK I JUST NOTICED THIS BUT WHEN IT IS DOING THAT LITTLE DANCE AND POINTING AT YOU WHEN YOU GOT EVERYTHING RIGHT: he like, Bops his head a little and with each head bop his headphones bounce a little as well!! Idk why that is just such a neat little detail to me!

Ok this one I probably should have mentioned sooner since it’s one of the first things it does but the way it climbs out of the tunnel and grabs the sides like that with his middle set of arms? 😫😫✨ Idk what to tell y’all but that is the most attractive shit I’ve seen!!! Y’all need to step up your game if you wanna be like him XD /j

His head tilts. Need I say more? They’re adorable.

THE JUMPSCARE??!?? Dude I know it’s probably meant to look like he’s coming in to bite/eat you or something??? But to me and my DJ-Simp corrupted brain it just looks like we’re boutta make out 😁😁😁

OK THAT’S ALL I GOT FOR RIGHT NOW, but I might possibly add to this later???? If I notice anything else that stands out to me.

[aerynwrites]

If you would be open to it, I’d love to ask for your HCs on: (* * spoiler-ish ahead * *) what if reader/tav went with Halsin at the end of Act III to establish a sanctuary for the refugees/take care of the children? Little snippets of life sort of things for how you think it would be between the two of them without the pressures of saving the whole world. I love your perspectives and writing !! Definitely would be awesome to read your take on that sorta thing

I as going to have this up sooner but tumblr apparently hates me and deleted the post on two different occasions when I was working on it lmao. so sorry for the delay, but I hope you enjoy!

Halsin and Reader after The game

Okay so

I feel like a lot of their first few months would be focusing on rebuilding efforts.

bc personally - I know Halsin in game says that he is going back to Thaniel's realm. But I love the idea of him actually returning to Moonrise/the old shadow lands and rebuilding the area there to truly give the refugees a place to call home.

so lots of rebuilding, coordinating relief efforts, etc.

I also feel like you would convince Halsin rebuild the little house that you all found Oliver in for a house of your own away from the hustle and bustle of things.

and after just a few short months it seems like its done.

sure there will always be things to do and fix and rebuild, but everyone had a roof over their head and full bellies and safety!

something none of you have had in a while.

Halsin relishes in it. you thought he was a bright light in the darkness before, he's even more so now.

like a actual weight has been lifted from his shoulders.

for the first time in centuries he's able to truly take in what's in front of him, and he spends pretty much every moment of that new feeling with you.

one thing you love doing is looking at the stars, an activity Halsin also enjoys.

he loves pointing out the different constellations to you, or if he's in bear for you'll do the same for him as you lean into his furry side.

speaking of his bear form...

The refugee children fucking love that shit.

the children love Halsin in general, especially those who lost their parents and look to him as a father figure of sorts.

They practically hang off of him whenever you two venture into the more populated areas.

they always beg him to wild shape, something he hardly ever denies since he often prefers that form anyways.

And he's admitted to you on a few occasions that he loves to see them happy and laughing after all they've been through.

life would continue this way for a while, your only true responsibilities being protecting those around you.

Life is finally peaceful, quiet and you wouldn't change much.

after a few years I could see Halsin possibly bringing up the idea of children, but he would never push.

if you want children of your own biologically he would be More than happy to indulge that desire lol.

but if that's not something you envision for yourself he would be happy that way too: kids, no kids, adopting one of the children in need...Halsin is happy if you are happy.

and no matter what life throws at you, you both know you have each other from now on.

[luvyeni]

Do you think you can think of anything to do with perverted obsessive vampire bsf Felix? with reader who is sorta like han? Like reader is an introvert but because of how close and how comfortable she is with Felix she seems like an extrovert. This has been on my mind for waaaayyyyyyy too long and I know damn right I am so messed up for this. Like some headcanons or a drabble, whatever you prefer.

Nah because imagine how many people would think you guys are a couple because of how close you are and how clingy he is with you and than when you shyly try to tell them you are not a couple Felix immediately tells them that you are a couple.

Also reader is the only one who knows he is a vampire and he legit only drinks from her. Like imagine he is just cuddling and drinking from her like usual and when he is finished drinking instead of pulling his mouth away he just starts kissing up her neck and aaaaaa you know and then he confesses his love and shit.

I am so so so so so so sorry for how long it came out. You don't have to do this and I know that you are very busy so don't do this if you are feeling pressured and uncomfortable. <3

you being a introvert is good for felix , because when you go out in public , you stay close to him , your touch alone makes him horny as hell , but he's willing to put up with a boner , rather than someone flirty with whats his.

plus he loves touching you, groping you , smiling when you turn to him shyly telling him to stop , you're in public. "baby , i can't hear you , you have to speak up." he smiled , knowing you won't.

when the older group of ladies come up to you are you a couple , he's quick to say yes , even though your shaking your head no , they don't even notice , because they're too busy praisng felix for being such a good boyfriend , he'll turn to you , noticing the frown. "are you gonna explain to them are situation , go head call them back over , try and speak to them." he loves to use the fact you don't like to speak to people against you.

you don't care that he's a vampire , it doesn't bother you at all , you even allow him to feed off you , cuddling up against you , his fangs sunk into your neck , drinking everything you have to offer him , this time , when he pulls away , he doesn't pull all the way, he kisses your neck , grinding against your ass. "fe..felix."

he finally gives in , he's tired of playing house , he wants something real with you. "sh..shit , i can't take this anymore , i need to make you mine." he said , lifting your leg up. "wh..what are you talking about." it feels good , him grinding against you like he's doing.

"i mean , i love you so much, and i need to fuck you to show you how much i do , baby i need to cum inside you and make you my wife forever."

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for ghosting someone in RP?

This is a very chronically online problem, I'm aware, but I could use Tumblr's input. This is kinda long, so tl;Dr at the end.

So I (ftm), Z (nb), and O (f) (ages unimportant, but we're all adults) have a server for a shared fandom of ours. There are other people on the server too, but they're relatively unimportant to the problem.

One of the major channels to note was an rp channel. Things started off peachy keen! Everyone was having a grand old time! However, little problems started to pop up. O began introducing some ocs to the rp group chat, which, while outlandish for the setting (her ocs were ghosts from 1500's Minecraft Germany or whatever? I'm still not entirely clear since she's bad at continuity). And while I'm not against more out there ocs, the issue was how she used them, constantly trying to solve problems instantly. They felt more like MacGuffin's than characters. But whatever, she's our friend so we didn't really care.

Then, the racism incident happened.

It's a cool name, but sorta makes it sound more important than it was. Basically O had "monster form" at the end of each of her characters names, since apparently they had human forms too. Well, in an argument, a character referred to the group of ocs as monsters (since, how else would you refer to all of em at once?), and in one of her ocs replies they said smth like "oh btw thanks for the racist remark".

IMMEDIATELY in the ooc chat, Z and I both go "hey man, we're not playing the racism game", which... caused O to leave the server temporarily. Fun.

The relevance of the racism incident is to show why we can't just talk to her ooc about the upcoming issues.

((Very offhandedly she also keeps trying to pressure Z specifically into rping? Even though Z has made it clear many times this month that they are busy with the holidays??))

Anyways, time passes and O keeps wanting to tack on useless shit to her characters (both canon and ocs) for literally no reason. From "Bruno esk powers" to "shapeshifting genitals", it just felt like feature creep.

Eventually this comes to a head when she asks if her 32 year old character could be a WWII veteran.

You know. In the text chat based rp where characters use hashtags and emotes and talk about Twitter.

After a small back and forth between Z and O in the ooc chat, Z just kinda, gave up. Part of the reason they made the server was to transfer their previous rp writings to a server they own, so they don't have to worry about it getting deleted. (Before anyone assumes Z is just being strict, trust me. Z had been very accommodating with letting me and O make inputs and have our characters make an impact. This wasn't an issue of O's lack of control, but rather lack of care about the setting.)

Z admitted in a group chat with just me and their partner that they basically are just going to give up on their previous rp, and just let O do whatever she wants.

This really, and I mean REALLY, ticked me off.

Now, I will not start a ruckus about it on the server itself since I know Z hates confrontation, but now I've just settled on to give O the cold shoulder in rp, not replying to her ocs, barely interacting with her canon characters, etc.

I feel like in character I have a valid reason to ignore her (her ocs made one of my ocs upset, and my other characters are upset for him), but I can't tell if this would be too mean?

ALSO quick little note I forgot to mention above, but it's basically just the three of us in the rp chat, so with Z busy for the holidays, I'm the only other person who O would be able to rp with, if that impacts the vote.

TL;DR - Someone in a rp server is being a right ass and we cannot talk to her about it without potentially starting a huge fight, now I want to ignore her in rp. WIBTA

What are these acronyms?

[welldrawnfish]

I'm thinking of coming out, and want to know if you have any tips for that. Like how do you function after that, any precautions I should take. (BTW am a transfem and in hs.)

Sorry If it's a bad question.

This is very dependent on how you expect it to go. I will assume a worst case scenario. Have a support system in place. This means friends who can house you, adults you can trust. Make a list of who you feel safest coming out to to least safe. Come out to the safest first who you can trust to keep a secret, and work your way down. social pressure does alot for bigotry so the more on yuor side the more likely you wont lose anything while coming out. Know your state / country/ provincial laws. Be prepared to answer alot of questions, about yourself, about transition, about trans people. Be prepared for some truely ignorant shit being said too if they have never met a trans person. And dont write them off automatically if they do. While there are people who will be horrible no matter what, some simply have to learn what they are saying is wrong and will become better. I don't have a good way to tell you how to separate those two, its kind of instinctual. Have patience, for you, you will be coming out telling everybody you are finally who you have always been. But for many who don't quite understand, they will see it as a loss of the guy they once knew. They will need time to grieve before they can see the wonderful woman you are. And above all, if you dont feel safe or confident yet, you dont have to come out to /EVERYBODY/. Transition takes a long time, so youll have a few years before you start undeniably presenting fem and have to sorta of.. swap your social presentation if you get what I mean.

[sunshinediaz]

wip wednesday, teehee

i was tagged ny @eddiediaztho, @hippolotamus, @exhuastedpigeon, @wikiangela, @daffi-990, and @jesuisici33, mwah

have a sorta long snippet of hoa eddie finally starting to figure his shit out. he's a fucking loser. i love him.

Once Buck’s drifted off to sleep, snug and relaxed under the big blanket, Eddie rolls over and grabs his phone off the nightstand. He opens one eye, turns the brightness all the way down, clicks onto the browser, and types am i gay quiz in the search bar.  Dozens of links pop up. He clicks on the first one, marks the answers that resonate the most with him, and frowns when his results of 89% straight flash on the screen with a sullen face.  “What the fuck does that even mean?” he mumbles and then, with a fierceness that crinkles his brow, clicks off the quiz and finds another.  He takes seven more, each a little more deranged than the last, and throws his phone to the hardwood floor when he gets his eighth variation of Unfortunately, you aren’t gay! because he’s upset. It thuds loud and heavy, and slides face up all the way to his closet; the screen shines bright like a little flashlight, illuminating the corner.  Eddie huffs, flops onto his back, crosses his arms over his chest, and pouts.  How dare those quizzes diagnose him heterosexual? Yeah, sure, he has a preference for feminine-presenting people, but he’s had plenty of cock to know he’s not straight, too, and being in heterosexual-passing relationships don’t make him any less queer. He’s worked too damn hard to accept himself, selfishly and fearlessly and totally, to let a few quizzes invalid him.  Which—why was he taking the quizzes in the first place? He knows he’s queer and he doesn’t need a pompous test on the Internet to tell him so, Christ. He’s acting like a lovestruck kid with his first crush on another boy.  The absurdity of the situation makes him giggle. He swipes a hand over his face to muffle his laughter, but his body shakes, so near Buck’s, and it rouses Buck around. Eddie sobers and shuts his eyes, feigning sleep.  It doesn’t work.  This must be how Christopher feels when it’s past his negotiated bedtime of midnight.  Buck murmurs, a pitiful noise, and snuffles close. “Eddie?” He noses along Eddie’s shoulder until he has his face stuffed in Eddie’s throat, right where his pulse throbs. “Wha’s goin’ on? Heard a noise.”  “It’s fine,” he says, wrapping Buck up in his arms and pulling him in, until he’s nearly laid out atop Eddie’s body. His weight feels nice, solid and sturdy. “Go back to sleep.”  Buck smacks his lips, puffs his stinky breath in Eddie’s face, and sighs. “M’kay.” He cuddles in, nestling up over Eddie’s body like three’s no other place in the world he wants to be, and goes still. “Nighty night.”  Eddie exhales. “Night, Buck,” he says, setting his chin on top of Buck’s head and running his fingers through Buck’s sweaty, frizzy hair.  He looks at his phone in the corner one last time and wonders if there are any quizzes on the Internet that might help him figure out if he’s in love with his best friend before he eventually dozes off, too, wrapped up tight beneath Buck’s big body. 

no pressure tagging @wildlife4life, @watchyourbuck, @callmenewbie, @thewolvesof1998, @try-set-me-on-fire, @shitouttabuck, @folk-fae, @fortheloveofbuddie, @eowon, @giddyupbuck, @honestlydarkprincess, @ladydorian05, @loserdiaz, @callaplums, @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy, and whoever else wants to share something <3

[the-dumpster-fire-of-life]

Hiii, I love how we all collectively want to be part of the band so again, band member reader. This request is a little more angsty :)) I wanted to request break up headcanons for the twins, or a twin of your choice. Let's say that even though they love each other a lot the pressure from being on tour and having practically no private life makes them fight a lot. It would be nice if you could include how the breakup affects the order in the band too.

This here is optional. Idk if you're down to write for older twins, but maybe after the huge break TH took between 2012 and 2014 it served as enogh time being away from each other and when they meet again they feel like it's time to give the relationship a second chance

(Hello! Sure I can and ty for requesting, I hope you enjoy this even if it sucks!)

Breakup and Makeup HC'S

Bill Kaulitz

Bill truly loved being on tour and famous

But if he knew it would cause this, he didn't know if he would do it again

He loves you so badly and he loved being so close to you

But being on tour greatly affected your relationship

There was no privacy on the bus, there was no room, there were arguments and there was bickering

Sure there was that before, but that was small gigs and before being enclosed in a space every day and every night

He hates arguing with you in the first place

But now arguments were everyday

You and him didn't talk much anymore, only bickering and yelling and he hates it

He missed being close to you and doing everything you guys loved together

But stress, pressure and the tour outmatched love you guys had for one another

He didn't want to, but you guys needed a break

It was hard especially because of the tour and you guys still had to be around one another

You guys used to be best friends before dating

And you guys agreed to go back to how that was, no bad blood, just a mutual decision to break things off for now

Especially with shit going on in their break and having to stop being Tokio Hotel for a bit

The breakup did affect the band

There was always some unspoken tension everytime you guys were in a room

They could see how it affected both you and Bill even if you guys didn't want to show it

Gustav comforted you a lot along with Tom and Georg and they do the same for Bill

They didn't choose sides in the breakup because you're all still friends and it was no fault

They just hated seeing you guys upset

Tom felt like murdering Bill because he thought be broke up with you for no reason at first until you explained

Then he felt bad for his twin because he knows how much Bill loved you

Bill actually resented the tour and a bit of fame for doing this to your relationship but he knew that wasn't healthy

When you guys get your time away from one another it doesn't really help

Because it just makes you guys miss one another more

And when you see each other again it just feels like you guys are stuck when you broke up

But in a good way, like you guys can move and and hopefully fix this

And Bill hopes you guys can because he doesn't want to live without you any longer

Tom Kaulitz

The breakup actually hit harder than you expected

It got a bit toxic I'm not going to lie

Arguments with you guys are very loud and heated to the point you guys didn't talk to each other

You guys hate arguing but were stressed, overwhelmed and had literally no space

And that isn't healthy for either you guys or the band

Tom loved you very much, he knew that and so did you

But love didn't really out match nor face everything going on in your lives

You guys needed privacy and couldn't get any and that was a big fact on why you broke up

The breakup was an impulsive decision yelled out in an argument

It could be about anything but that's the moment like everything changed and stopped

There was some sort of tension and resentment you both held towards the other

Especially when the band took that long break with everything happening

But you guys were still on tour, broken up before the break

I feel Tom was sorta trying to get his mind off of you or replace you in some way he could

Either by flirting or going out with girls and bragging about it

He turned sorta into a dick trying to rile you up when he really just wanted you back

You didn't do anything about it but was sorta hurt but wouldn't let him see

The band felt bad for you guys and Bill felt like killing Tom for what he was doing

He understood why he did it and tried to get you guys to at least talk it out

Gustav was trying his best to be there for both of you guys while Georg was trying to mend the tension

You and Tom barely spoke before you broke up but now you don't talk at all

Even when you guys all had that break

Tom slowed down with trying to replace you, stopping everything because he quite literally could not

By toxic earlier I meant you guys sorta still clung onto the belief you guys were dating

Like hugs, kisses, makeouts and even hidden hookups to try and cling onto the strings of your broken down relarionship

Obviously it didn't work at all but you guys still wanted to believe

You missed him so fucking much and he missed you the same

When you guys put the band back together Tom sorta matured and was trying to mend things with you

Everything went slow and you guys were best friends since childhood before dating so you sorta went back to that

But best friends now with lingering feelings

Tom and you both confessed about these feelings but didn't want to ruin it all over again

So you guys took it a bit slower

You guys didn't jump right at it, but didn't get with anyone else to not ruin it again

And slowly but surely, you guys worked back to how it used to be

But you mended the mistakes and came back better than before

And Tom would never let it happen again

[the-s1lly-corner]

JONATHAN AND GN!READER AND THEIR ANTICS !!!!!!!

Antics w/ Jonathan and Reader!

I did a similar post yesterday!! (Linked at the end, hopefully, I'm mobile and sometimes tumblr can be weird)

I'm so so sorry it took my so long to get this request <\\3 I was trying to come up with new ideas so it could be different than the other ask <\3, which I highly recommend checking out! Imma be real I'm not totally confident in how this one turned out so that second post can be like an extra/make up <\3

I wasnt sure if you wanted this to be platonic or have them dating so!! It's mostly written as vague in that department!!

Jonathan doesn't strike me as the person who goes out and does things a lot

Just. Wake up, work, home, sleep, repeat.. he'll sometimes send texts to friends and family to schedule a lunch here and there but

That's about it, hes not very social

So a lot of these antics are really going to be made through you making the plans; with the shenanigans really being unplanned byproducts

Honestly I can totally see Jonathan starting shit with someone, be it accident or on purpose, prompting both of yall having to hightail it out of the area

Reminds me of that part from one of the diary of a wimpy kid movies, where greg n rodrick do that fake puke prank on the guy and have to make a run for it

Actually I can totally see yall subtly being menaces and fucking with people

Maybe not a fake puke prank persay but

Yk?

No crime stuff; I only really see that becoming a thing after he becomes Spot! Both from how he worded his whole "turning to a life of crime" thing and the fact he just

Lacks the experience and confidence

Moving on

Maybe it's just my "let's get silly with the writing" part of me, or it's my need for chaos (arguably the same thing), but

I feel like

Somehow, you guys would accidentally probably maybe kinda sorta

Wreak havoc in ways spot could only dream of (before doing the whole. Bouncing across the multiverse thing)

Yall could probably start the day wanting to go to some food truck and

End it by spending a night in jail

Neither of you are allowed anywhere near food trucks after that /j

No but serious note, Jonathan is basically a hermit, he doesnt like leaving his apartment unless he has to; people are just, so

Eeuuughchk!

So when you two hang out it's either his place or yours

But that's not to say it isnt fun!

Hes got normal stuff people have in their homes, like board games and consoles

And also science doohickies

Yeah people have that in their houses, that's a normal thing

Ngl if you give him any ideas for machines or whatnot hes totally going to give it a try

See previous post with a trans s/o, he would make the transgenderinator if you asked him to

Well now hes just turning into doof

Ykw

I feel like he'd take you to alchemax to show off stuff but like

If you asked nicely

How can he say no to that face?

And also he has no backbone

That's not to say you would pressure him, though! Because that's not cool, dont pressure people. But like, he would cave in the way of "I know it's not that serious and I know they'll probably understand if I say no, but I don't want to ever risk disappointing them ever in my life, so I'm gonna say yes!" Kind of way

He just like me frfr

And this is assuming you even know about alchemax

Which personally, unless you're in some way associated with it, I'm p sure be would have a strong boundary to keep you out of it

This is really just turning into a general ramble <\3

Anyways

I dont have many ideas since I struggle with general hcs like this but!! Yeah!! Definitely recommend the linked post for a better more cohesive (?) List of ideas and hcs!! This post kinda

Made me realize I dont have many hcs for Jonathan outside of making his personality a smart pathetic science man

Gotta fix that , give him some hobbies n stuff in the future

Link to a similar post!

[wandas-luvr]

we might just get away with it

pairing: wanda maximoff x reader

desc: wanda invites you over again, but this time pietro is out of town, leaving the two of you to yourselves in her apartment. (part I)

warnings: drug use (obv), fingering (r receiving), oral (r receiving), overstim/edging (r receiving), wanda being a cocky little shit, condescension (wanda lays it on THICK in this one), sorta strict!wanda in the beginning but also r's got a bit of an attitude bc they're HORNYYYY soooo

word count: 2.3k

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you whine as wanda removes her fingers again. she'd been playing this game for hours, it was her favorite. to have you lay against her with your back to her chest as she encouraged you to smoke more. to take just one more hit. waiting until your mind was fuzzy to touch you, making you take another hit every time you move.

"shhh, no no, baby. gotta stay still. " she mocks you as you buck up against her, fake pouting and whining exaggeratedly. "oh, i know honey. it's so hard isn't it? yeah, that's okay! we'll let that pretty head of yours get nice and empty and it'll get so much easier, yeah? take another hit for me lovebug."

you obey, melting further into her when you exhale. "good job, baby! now, i'm gonna touch you again, so just let that pretty little body lay here nice and still for me, okay?"

"wanda, please, i need you." you spread your legs further for her, emphasizing your point.

"don't be a brat, мышка. have i ever left you all needy before?"

you grumble a small 'no' under your breath, not wanting to admit she was right.

"exactly. i would never do that to my good baby. but if you're gonna be a brat, you'll be treated like one. understood?"

you shudder at the sound of her raspy voice, her accent somehow thicker with lust. it seemed she never tried to hide it around you the way she did around her and pietro's other friends.

"yes, wanda. i'll be good i promise."

she smiles, pulling you farther into her. "see! that wasn't so hard, now was it, sweet thing?"

you bite back a snarky response, shutting your eyes as you sink into her, patiently awaiting her touch again.

"awhhh, look at you being so good for me. thank you so much, baby. here let me show you how much i appreciate that." you can hear the smirk in her voice from behind you as her fingers dance up your thighs. you exhale shakily and tilt your head back to rest on her shoulder, trying to ground yourself and concentrate on immobility. "that's it sweet thing, i'll make it all better, just let me do it."

her fingers finally reach your dripping cunt, causing a soft moan to escape your lips as you feel them swiftly move up to circle your clit softly. it's not nearly enough, it'll only cause you to ache for her more and she knows that. but you know better than to whine, so you wait patiently, allowing her to play you like a fiddle.

she smiles against you shoulder as her lips press the softest of kisses to your skin, her fingers maintaining the softest of speeds and an impossibly softer pressure. at this point she's barely touching you. she knows eventually you'll crack and either beg her for more or try to create friction on your own, falling right into her trap and allowing her condescending words to melt all over your body as you take another hit, turning you into putty in her hands.

she loves being able to work you up like this. to make you so desperate and fuzzy in her favorite ways. to leave you entirely pliable and at her disposal. she's talked with you and explored your boundaries enough to know what's too far, and she loves to know you trust her enough to allow her to make that decision. to make every decision.

you bit your lip hard, the ache between your legs growing almost painful as you grow more and more desperate. you contemplate asking for more for a split second before deciding it isn't worth it. you try your best to relax farther into her, attempting to ignore the way your clit is throbbing and your pussy is clenching around nothing.

"mmm, that's it sweet thing, just let me take care of you, yeah?"

she slightly increases the pressure of her fingers on your clit, whatever else she's saying falling on deaf ears as you can practically feel even more thoughts draining from your head.

she lifts the joint in her other hand up to your lips, offering it to you.

"just one more? for fun?"

you allow her to push it between your lips, inhaling only slightly before exhaling as everything but her is pushed from your mind at last.

"good! that's right baby, don't worry, i'm gonna take such good care of you."

your eyes flutter shut again, relaxing as she maintains the pace on your clit, never changing. it seems although, with the state your in, it's enough to work you up to the edge as you feel your abdomen tense slightly with the pressure of a building orgasm.

"see, you're close already. and you didn't think it would be enough. silly baby, i know how to play with my toy just right, huh?"

you nod, your mouth hanging open, as your limp body fights off an orgasm. you know better than to come without permission. you try to string a sentence together but there isn't a coherent thought in your brain.

"shhh, i know, my love. go ahead. i've got you."

you moan, relieved as you allow your orgasm to wash over you, feeling it come in waves after waves of pleasure. wanda moves her fingers once more as she allows you to come down slightly from your high.

"look at that. so, so good for me baby." she plants delicate kisses along your shoulders and neck. "you did so well, love. can i have another one though? you just looked so pretty like that, i wanna see it again, yeah?"

you pant as you catch your breath, nodding as your mouth remains open.

"mmm, good." she continues to absentmindedly praise you as she kisses the nape of your neck and slides her fingers into you. "god, baby, you practically sucked me in. you needed this, huh?"

you nod, your head thrown back and eyes screwed shut as your body can't decide whether to squirm away or to buck towards wanda's skilled fingers, still incredibly sensitive from your last orgasm.

" yeah that's it, baby. feels so good, doesn't it?"

you nod and whimper, clenching around her finger. you turn your head slightly to rest your cheek against her shoulder, legs twitching as you reach a second orgasm embarrassingly fast.

"oh, look at you, honey. go ahead, i want to see you come for me again."

you moan lewdly, the sound bordering on pornographic as you come around wanda's fingers, back arched impossibly high. eventually, you ride out the orgasm, collapsing back into wanda's chest as she chuckles.

she softly strokes your hair whispering sweet words to you as you catch your breath and your eyes flutter shut. after several minutes, you feel her slip out from behind you, assuming she's going to the bathroom, but let out a loud whine as you feel her settle between your legs.

"wan...'m too tired...can't take anymore..."

she kisses your thigh softly, then the other, finally planting the gentlest of kisses directly on your clit, smiling when she feels you twitch.

"shhh, i've gotta clean you up, sweet thing. you just lay there all pretty and relax."

you whimper and grip the sheets as her tongue pushes through your folds, determined to lick up every last drop from your cunt.

"wanda!" you scream as she brushes her nose against your clit "please...too sensitive...can't do it..."

she just hums against your pussy, diving deeper and smirking as she works you up again. she grins as she sees your thighs begin to shake as she holds them down, eating you like a woman starved. you grip the sheets harder, knuckles turning white as the sensations wanda is giving ride the thin line between pain and pleasure.

you whimper and whine continuously, instincts pushing you towards her as your sensitive nerves scream out from overstimulation. she grabs your hips, forcing you against her face, as she continues to lick every inch of your pussy she can reach.

"fuck, you taste so good, darling. makes me wanna never stop."

you whine at even the mere mention of her torture continuing on any longer as she chuckles against you, still never letting up.

your whole body convulses as you come on wanda's tongue, whining when she cleans you up. every pleasurable sensation near your pussy tipping into pain. eventually, wanda pulls away, giving you slight reprieve and kissing your neck softly as she waits for you to catch your breath.

"fuck, wanda, that was amazing." you breath out, still panting slightly.

"awwwhh, honey, it's cute you think i'm done with you already." she smirks against your skin, softly biting down. "i'm just getting started, my love."

you whine, "but-"

"shhh, you'll be alright, just trust me. i know you've got one more in you, c'mon. don't you wanna be good for me, baby? be my good, sweet, little thing?"

you whimper, nodding softly.

"yeah? i knew you'd agree, love. don't worry i'll give you a break, just tap me twice when you're ready, darling."

you try to relax as much as you can for the next few minutes, before taking a deep breath and tapping wanda's thigh twice, feeling the lips on your neck curve into a smile as they trail up towards your ear.

"you're sure you're ready? because once i start, i'm not stopping. not unless i absolutely have to."

you nod, taking a shaky breath, and spreading your legs for her. tipping your head back to rest against the pillows. she smirks softly, moving down to rest between your legs, pressing small kisses just below your navel. she dips lower, blowing a small stream of air directly onto your clit, giggling when your hips jump.

"oh, baby, you really are sensitive, huh?" she squeezes your thighs, blowing against you again, causing any verbal response to die out on your tongue and leave you with a simple whine. "yeah, i know, sweetheart. it's gonna be okay though, because i've got you, i'm right here. it's gonna feel so good i promise, just focus on me."

she grabs one of your hands and squeezes softly, giving you reassurance before diving in. she licks up your slit, dancing around your clit, as you whine. pressing a soft kiss to your clit, before sucking it into her mouth, smiling when you moan loudly.

she continues her ministrations sucking softly on your clit, her tongue darting out occasionally to trace around your entrance.

"so pretty, baby," she mumbles against you, "god, i could do this forever."

she begins to increase her pressure, causing your hips to twitch and your hand to fly to her hair. she pulls you off, shushing your whines, as she continues.

"no, baby. it's okay, just let me take care of you. squeeze my hand if you gotta alright, it's okay."

she grabs your hips with her free hand, pressing you further against her, lightly tracing her tongue just around your entrance. you buck your hips for more before pulling back with a whine as your oversensitive clit grinds against her nose with the motion.

wanda smiles, "see, honey, it's better when you just let me do it. let me take care of you, i've got you, just lay back and let me do all the work."

she continues to tease your entrance, even dipping her tongue inside occasionally, just to hear you whine louder as she pulls out. you grown in frustration feeling like you'll combust if she doesn't quit teasing you.

"wandaaa..."

"oh, is there something i can do for you, sweet thing?"

"inside, please.."

she giggles, "oh, but i thought that was too much. thought you couldn't take it?" she smiles, mocking your whines.

"i take it back, im yours, you know best. just please, wanda. i need you."

she smirks, before having mercy on you, slipping her tongue inside of you. you squeeze her hand as you feel her push into you, caressing your walls with her tongue. your hips buck and your legs shake as you feel the tip of her tongue brush against a certain spot inside of you.

she hums, doing it again, chuckling against you as your legs squeeze her head.

"wanda...please, don't stop... feels so fucking good.."

she lightly slaps the underside of your thigh and pressed her nose into your sensitive clit, a nonverbal reminder to watch your language, and smirks at the whine that tumbles from your lips.

you squeak softly when she grips your hips and doubles her efforts, moving her free hand to circle your clit gently as her tongue thrusts in and out of you. you feel your legs shake and your hips thrash as your orgasm creeps up on you, squeezing her hand to warn her. she presses her nose further into you, her silent permission, and you cum around her tongue, moaning loudly.

she cleans you up gently, smiling when you whine as she sucks your clit into her mouth briefly, before kissing up your body. she presses kisses against your neck, undoubtedly leaving a hickey somewhere in her path, before kissing your cheek and finally your lips.

she lays down beside you, pulling you into her as you continue to shake with aftershocks. shushing your whines and whimpers.

"you did so well, honey. it's okay, it's over. i'm so proud of you. my sweet baby."

you smile blissfully, your eyes closed, as she pulls you closer, squeezing softly. you melt into her, feeling her fingers gently stroking up and down your back to soothe you as your panting finally ends. the last thing you hear is a faint, but unmistakable voice, singing your favorite sokovian lullaby.

[cherryo]

can i req suggestive hcs of the rise turtles(separate) of how they would react to fem!reader on top of them during fun time suddenly put a hand on their throat and lightly choke them and then suddenly stopping when she realizes she got too lost in the moment?

so with this i kinda did this where the boys are like surprised in a good way and not like scared? if that makes any sense ! i appreciate you requesting and I loved writing this <33

Pairings: Rise!boys x fem!reader (seperate) hc genre: smut? smut HCs wordcount: Pronouns:she/her w/ fem genitalia Warnings: explicit content, swearing, choking, BOYS ARE AGED APPROPRIATELY <333

Raph:

So you cant exactly “choke” him because well,,, your hands probably wont even reach around his neck 

You end up just putting pressure on his neck? 

He stops, like fully stops his part and youre confused

You realize as he just kind of reaches up and pulls your hands off his neck

You apologize and all he does is smile and says its okay

Tbh i dont think he’d be into it but he wouldnt mind if you were

Was just shocked tbh but was like kind of turned on by your straight forward-ness

You both had an in-depth convo after about what you both like and if the other is okay with it and what not, tried to make it a lesson almost?

He’s so silly, he’d probs admire the fact you thought you could actually choke him and thought it was hot that you got that into it hehe

Leo

You could wrap your hands around his neck

Also stopped but as soon as he made eyecontact he laughed, like belly laughed

He thought it was cute and hot 

I feel he’d be into this tbh

Didnt let you apologize because “it was so hot babe! Why would i let you apologize for that?”

I dont think he would want to choke you unless you specifically asked beforehand

Defintietly wants to be choked though teehee

I doubt you’d have an in-depth conversation but he’d ask what else you were into and what you were hiding up your sleeve

Donnie

Literally the most shocked out of all the boys 

I don’t think he’d stop but would def sit up in shock

Would look at you then like hold your hands together in confusion

Didnt know you were into that but was seriously turned on by it

I  think Donnie would be into it both ways? So being choked and choking you?

He’d def do it if you had a hot reaction to it!!

Idk why but i think donnie would be the experimental one out of them all

Y’all talk about other things to try later on

Mikey

Holy shit

Just goes wide-eyed

He isn't stopping so he's not going to let you stop

Def an ‘in the moment' type of guy?

Like he wasn't sure what to do but to continue?

He wasn't nervous or scared, just turned on 

You stopped when you realized, apologized, and felt bad but he laughed it off and said it was fine and sorta hot

Yall have an in-depth conversation because yknow, dr. feelings has to make an appearance lol

And the fact he wants to know what else you like

[samantitheos]

Weekly Tag Wednesday

i was tagged! (thank you @mybrainismelted, @jrooc, and @stocious!) and i actually had the time to finally do one of these! yay wednesday!

Name: sam. Location: hibernating in toronto with creature (posco) and the beast (nyx). And now for the randomness! Tell me your most and least favourites of: Candy? most: skittles. least: i kinda sorta don't actually like chocolate? *dodges flying fruit* Seasons? most: summer. least: spring. i second what jess said — when you live in canada, spring is only pretty in the movies. Hot beverage? most: coffeeeeeeee. least: i can't image liking mulled wine… Cold beverage? most: on an average day, water. if i'm hungover, rootbeer. if it's hot as balls outside, a long island iced tea in the backyard. least: margaritas (or anything with tequila). Colours? most: black (its a colour, i don't care). least: yellow. Vegetables? most: po-tay-toes! boil em', mash em', stick'em in a stew… least: mushrooms (unless they're super duper magical). Traditional foods from your country? most: poutine is clearly the only correct answer. least: buttertarts? i dunno, canada isn't really know for its traditional anything lol. Insects? most: lady bugs are pretty cute. least: spiders (they count, i don't care). also, did you know that the worst part of being single isn't actually the lack of companionship or sex or any such thing? no, it's knowing that no matter how much you cry and scream about it, at the end of the day, its gonna have to be you that kills the spider in the corner of the ceiling above your bed. Cake flavours? most: so in addition to chocolate i also don't really like desserts? *dodges flying cookware* plain cheese cake with strawberries is pretty good though i guess. least: anything really rich/chocolately. i'm weird. whatever. Non-Gallagher or Milkovich Shameless characters? most: kev or sheila, for the laughs. least: trevor. sorry not sorry. even if i could divorce my dislike of him from my feelings about mickey (i can't), i would still find him insufferable and annoying as all hell.

Tagging: with all apologies if you've already been tagged and with absolutely no pressure, @palepinkgoat @auds-and-evens @captainjowl @crimson-bebop @sickness-health-all-that-shit @toddmccray @deanie1987 @depressedstressedlemonzest

[gvndhams]

soudam lawyers au I made up when I played berry in radium girls (I'm normal abt them)

Kaz and gundham are on opposite sides of a case right, and it's a pretty like important televised case, which they're both enjoying for publicity reasons, but it's also pretty emotional.

Kaz is trying to stay detached and only do his job, sorta just working towards his own best interest because he's under a lot of pressure from 1. his parents and 2. his new wife to uphold everything, and doesn't want to let anything on to the public that could ruin his image or disappoint his family.

Gundham is very emotionally involved in the case and isn't afraid to vouch for what he thinks is right (within reason ofc). He doesn't have many people in his life (he never had many friends and his mother passed away), so it's not an issue to uphold his own beliefs without fear of judgement from who he's close with

So during this case they flat out don't like each other. Gundham disapproves of how Kaz treats the case so casually because gundham believes that it should be treated with care, even if it's a means to make money. Kaz thinks that Gundham us too stuck up in his own beliefs and it's annoying how much he cares because it makes it harder for him to do his job when the other guy is way too involved.

They end up meeting each other in public outside of work at a grocery store and just side eye each other while they shop on the same aisle. They end up looking at the same thing and Kaz just turns to him and says "I don't like you." Gundham turns back kinda thinking like who does this guy think he is but just says "I don't like you either." from there they keep making small comments at each other until eventually Kaz storms away.

Little meetings like this keep happening every now and then as the case gets even more intense and goes on for longer and longer. They learn more about each other little by little, and Gundham seems to find Kaz fascinating, he thinks his outlook on life is interesting and can't help but want to know more, always coming up with little questions to ask him when they see each other again. Kaz starts to feel strangely about Gundham, wondering why on earth he looks foward to meeting him so much. He has almost everything he could want in life, a food job, a loving wife, parents who care about him-- all that's left is a child, but for some reason he just wants to be close to this man he's supposed to hate.

Things continue, but as Kaz and Gundham get to know each other their disdain turns into more of a playful rivalry. They learn from each other, Kaz starts to genuinely care more about his work and find things in it that he couldn't before, and Gundham finds things to enjoy outside of work so that he doesn't cry over every little lost thing in a case.

However, Kazuichis entire family hates Gundham. Whenever anything about the case shows up they all start shit talking him. Kaz tries to subtly defend him but he can't say much because they are on opposite sides of the case and he doesn't want to disappoint anyone.

Tension starts brewing more as the case starts to wrap up, Kaz and his wife are fighting more, they're constantly unhappy with each other, Kazuichi slips up sometimes which makes his parents angry, and he ends up just being miserable. One night after a particularly large fight, Kazuichi leaves the house and sits at the park for a while, and he finds Gundham walking a puppy. They sit and talk for a little while just kinda venting their frustrations and hanging out, and Kazuichi tells gundham how he feels like he just can't do it anymore, how everything is so stressful and painful, how he wants to run away. Gundham tries to comfort him and let's him hold the puppy for a while, then they part ways.

In the next few days the case comes to a close, Gundham wins. Kazuichi is a little upset but not quite bitter, it feels like a massive stress will be lifted off his back. They have a small conversation after the last trial and Kaz realizes "shit I think I'm in love with him" which he hadn't even thought of before. This kinda crumbles him because he knows he's already in deep shit with his family for losing and he can't handle this alongside it.

Long story short there is a massive fight between him, his wife, and his parents. Lots of things are said that weren't for so long and now it's too late. His wife wants a divorce and his parents want no contact. In short-- his life is over. He leaves the house to process his emotions and runs into Gundham and the puppy again.

Gundham is happy to see him and the puppy runs up to him, but Kazuichi is nearly in tears. Gundham notices and instead of trying to talk to him he takes him back to his house which is luckily nearby. They sit in silence for a bit and Gundham gets him some food and water and makes sure he's comfortable, all the normal things, and eventually Kaz starts talking. When he starts he doesn't stop and it just keeps going and he starts crying mire and more until he's just curled up in a ball on the couch with tears and snot dripping down his face. He ends his giant tangent by looking and gundham and just saying "and I think I'm in love with you."

Gundham looks at him and doesn't know what to say, but reaches out and holds his hand and starts to tear up as well. He opens his arms and let's Kazuichi lay in them while he tries to comfort and encourage him, although he's never been the best with that. After a few minutes they get to talking again, and they decide that while everything is out of hands with Kazuichi he can stay with Gundham and they can take things from there, they go on a few dates to see if there's any kind of spark and there is.

In the end, Kazuichi ends up cut off from his family, which is a struggle but he learns to live with it. He gets mental help and learns to cope with differthings, and Gundham stays with him. Gundham opens up and becomes a bit more social, still learning to enjoy people (as much as he can) and rebuild some of the childlike wonder that he used to have.

[ex-textura]

Please word vomit to us about Ilztaufein's complicated relationship dynamics (if you want, no pressure) 💜

HAH! Oh, you've asked for it.

i'm not proof reading any of this stream of consciousness lets goooo

_

Alright soo early in the game Izzy never had any sort of actual interest in the other party members at all, romantic or otherwise. He's a pissy little prince of a man who likes things a certain way and isn't so far removed from his noble upbringing in the underdark that he's unlearned all his negative associations with other races (or even with drow themselves tbh. he'd say he's complicated but he's mostly just a bitch), but he's still a good guy in the most technical sense so he did start to get close to them in spite of himself.

He's also a man who's pretty used to just casually sleeping with other members of his teams whenever the desire arises. So when Astarion propositioned him like...QUITE early on he was like fuck it. Whatever. I could use an orgasm. And Astarion was similar enough to him in personality (and to drow in appearance to be quite honest) that he didn't give it that much thought. Fun romp in the woods, whatever nbd.

Only that Astarion like...didn't seem to get the hint, or something. Because despite Ilztaufein being pretty clear that he was just having fun, Astarion started crossing some lines from one-night stand to fwb and then maybe a little more? Only Izzy still was never really feeling it. I mean, Astarion was fine. The sex was technically well executed and Astarion is handsome and fun so he had no regrets in that regard. But see this sad little human was starting to worm his way into Izzy's mind. He kept showing pieces of himself that Ilztaufein didn't expect from someone like him. Hints and pieces of greater power, greater ambition. And Ilztaufein was intrigued.

Then Izzy learned about Gale's past with Mystra, about the truth of the orb and what he'd done and rather than being worried he was sorta. kinda.... well that was like really really hot??? I mean sure it was foolish and it backfired but the power it had to have taken in the first place to do what Gale did. To catch the eye of a goddess too. And the ambition to aim so damned high. That was the turning point. Gale was no longer just some wizard that claimed to be an archmage and wanted to learn to play sava. Gale WAS an archmage. A chosen. A powerful man with powerful means and powerful desires and Ilztaufein wanted, needed, to be part of that.

So he was still sleeping with Astarion on occasion, the vampire showering him this performative sort of affection that never really did anything for him but Izzy didn't care enough to stop because like. Whatever floats your boat, man. And flirting with Gale in the meantime, spending most nights discussing magical theory over a game of lanceboard or sava as they taught each other their chess game of choice. Falling hard for Gale, and not ever really trying to hide it. He'd never wanted someone like that before, but being such a little princess, he always got what he wanted.

The hiccup is where Astarion comes into this. Cause Astarion's little pet names and affection and all that definitely started as a performance but in spite of himself he'd actually started to fall for Ilztaufein. A sassy little minx who shared a lot of his interests (and mannerisms. and clothes), who even though he was a good person fundamentally, didn't really do anything for the sake of altruism. Who made him laugh, and didn't give a shit about his past, or what he'd done, but was immediately more than happy to help him with whatever - whether that be casting Hold Person on a bandit specifically so Astarion could drink from them without fuss, teaching him how to make drow poisons, or straight up plotting against Cazador.

So Astarion is maybe sorta starting to fall hard. But he's never been free before. He barely knows who he is. He doesn't know how to be alone but he also doesn't know how to be with someone...in the way he might want to be with Izzy. Maybe. If he lets himself think about it long enough. So he's weighing his options.

Talk to Izzy. Tell him how he feels. Tell him that maybe what he wants with him is more than sex (and, honestly, maybe not even sex at all). Maybe they get together, maybe he swipes the drow out from under Gale's nose and they live a long, long life together of hedonistic debauchery. After they kill Cazador together. Maybe Ilztaufein helps him find a cure. Maybe they spend the rest of their lives in the underdark. And Astarion never truly gets to be his own man, shackled forever to love.

Don't talk to Izzy. Keep up the seduction and squash his own growing feelings. Keep Gale's big soft eyes off of his paramour long enough to get the job done, kill Cazador, and be free. Then dump him, and go learn who the fuck he actually is. Take many lovers or none at all. Every choice made from that point on would be his own, at the cost of perhaps breaking his own heart.

Or, the option he's starting to realize might already have been made for him when he wasn't looking: Let whatever is happening between Gale and Ilztaufein happen. Just. Let him go. And hope that they'll still be willing to help him anyway out of..what? the kindness of their hearts?

Or maybe if the old tramp who came by the camp gets his way, Gale will blow himself up and leave Izzy in mourning and Astarion can be there to pick up the pieces and resume their little thing from wherever they left off. Have his cake and eat it too, at the cost of a perfectly good Gale, I suppose.